Sermon
Psalm 42 - "Hope for a Hopeless Soul"
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You are listening to a message from Southwood Presbyterian Church in Huntsville, Alabama.
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Our passion is to experience and express grace. Join us.
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One of the joys of an interim period in the life of the church is that we get to have guests come
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on occasion and feed us from God's Word and spell me and Chad or spell you from me and Chad,
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however it is that that works out. I'm not sure which one it was.
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It's a particular privilege to introduce you to pastors who have pastored me.
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Jay is one of those. Jay is an Old Testament professor at Covenant Seminary in St. Louis.
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As Chad and I both attended there and learned from him, some teachers teach, and that's wonderful.
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Some shepherds you as you're developing in your own life and learning God's Word there.
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Jay is one of those who's done that for us, has done that for me.
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When one of our previous pastors, Jake Patton, and I were ordained here several years ago,
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we invited Jay to come and preach that service. Many of you who were here will remember repeating
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after him the words, will is not the Christ. So he also keeps me in my place, for which I'm
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very grateful. I'm so excited to have Jay shepherd all of us this morning. I'm eager to hear with you.
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Jay has asked me to read our passage this morning, which is Psalm 42.
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This is the Word of God, Psalm 42.
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As a deer pants for flowing streams, so pants my soul for you, O God. My soul thirsts for God,
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for the living God. When shall I come and appear before God? My tears have been my food day and night,
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while they say to me continually, where is your God? These things I remember as I pour out my soul.
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How I would go with the throng and lead them in procession to the house of God, with glad shouts
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and songs of praise, a multitude keeping festival. Why are you cast down, O my soul? And why are you
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in turmoil within me? Hope in God, for I shall again praise Him, my salvation and my God. My soul is cast
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down within me. Therefore, I remember you from the land of Jordan and of Hermon, from Mount Mazar.
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Deep calls to deep at the roar of your waterfalls. All your breakers and your waves have gone over me.
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By day the Lord commands His steadfast love, and at night His song is with me, a prayer to the God
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of my life. I say to God, my rock, why have you forgotten me? Why do I go mourning because of the
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oppression of the enemy? As with a deadly wound in my bones, my adversaries taunt me, while they say to
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me continually, where is your God? Why are you cast down, O my soul? And why are you in turmoil within
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me? Hope in God, for I shall again praise Him, my salvation and my God. Thus far, God's holy,
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inerrant, and infallible word.
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Well, good morning. Am I on? Good morning. Good morning. Thank you, Will. Thank you for your kind
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words. One of the greatest joys and encouragements for me is to come and to see former students and
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friends now involved in leading and shepherding God's word. It just, my heart is smiling very deeply
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right now. When I was a young boy, maybe around 10 or 11 years old, there was a period of time where
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my mom would try to help my brother and I get to sleep every night by playing a record.
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And it struck me that some of you here might not know what a record is. So, last night I asked,
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Will and Christy, you guys have a record. They didn't have any records. Chad and Annalise,
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you guys have a record. They didn't have any records. But they tracked one down for me.
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It was delivered this morning. I won't tell you who brought it, but the Romantics was the one
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that they happened. This is not what my mother played to me, by the way, every night. But this is,
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if you've never seen one, especially kids here, this is what a record looks like. And it kind of
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works like a CD. And a CD is kind of like an MP3 on a coaster, right? By the way, it would spin around
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and you'd put in the record player, it'd spin around and then it would play the songs. And one of the
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songs that my mom used to play was called, As the Deer Pants for the Water. How many here know that song?
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Let's just sing the first verse together, shall we? I'll start us off and then very quickly,
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please drown out my voice. All right?
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Go with the chorus if you know it.
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You alone are my strength, my shield. To you alone may my spirit yield. You alone are my heart's
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desire, and I long to worship. Actually, isn't that a beautiful song? Perfect.
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song to play somebody to fall asleep. And you may have noticed it's based on Psalm 42.
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I love that song. There's just one problem with it. It completely misses the mood of Psalm 42.
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When you hear a song like that, if you were to picture in your mind what the person who is singing
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or writing the song is feeling, what kind of thoughts come to your mind?
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I mean, as I listen to a song like that, I think of somebody who is, they are by a bubbling brook.
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It is sunny outside. They have just been reading their Bibles, and they feel so close to God.
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Doesn't it feel that way? I mean, their hearts are full. They've just been feasting on some experience
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of the Lord, and they just want more and more. That's how the song feels. If you noticed in Psalm 42,
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the psalmist, the person who wrote the psalm, feels exactly the opposite.
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The person who wrote Psalm 42 doesn't feel like they're having a mountaintop experience with God.
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They feel like they're in the deepest, darkest valley.
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They feel like they're in the deepest valley.
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They feel like they're in the deepest valley.
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The person who wrote Psalm 42 doesn't feel like God is so close that you could touch Him.
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They feel like God is a thousand miles away.
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The person who wrote Psalm 42 doesn't have a heart that's feasting on God.
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They have a heart that is drier than desert dust.
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What's going on in Psalm 42 to lead a person to think and to feel that way?
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What I'd like to do is walk through the psalm by just asking three questions of it.
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You'll see it on the back of your bulletin.
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The three questions are these.
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What is the psalmist feeling?
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Why is he feeling that way, and what does he do about it?
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What is the psalmist feeling?
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Why is he feeling that way, and what does he do about it?
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First question, what is the psalmist feeling?
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And you can answer this question in a couple different ways.
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On the one hand, the psalmist is feeling deep emotional suffering.
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Deep emotional suffering.
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In fact, he gets at this a bunch of different ways.
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Look at verse 3.
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My tears have been my food.
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My tears have been my food.
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In other words, this person is at a point of such despair and sadness
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that they've lost their appetite.
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And many of you know what this is like.
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Years ago, I lost a nephew.
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It was one of the most painful things I had ever experienced in my life.
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And my sadness hijacked my hunger.
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That's what the psalmist is experiencing.
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No hunger.
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No interest in food.
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My tears have been my food.
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Verse 3 says,
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My tears have been my food day and night.
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In other words, even when he lies down on his bed at night
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and he closes his eyes,
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the drumbeat of sorrow just keeps pounding.
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And no matter how tightly he shuts his eyes,
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the tears keep streaming through.
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I mean, he just, he can't shut it off.
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Verse 5.
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Why are you downcast, O my soul?
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The Bible uses this word in another passage to describe somebody
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who has just learned that his mother has died.
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Just learned it.
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One of the most painful things that you can experience in life.
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That's what the psalmist is experiencing.
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Why are you downcast, O my soul?
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Why are you in despair?
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That's a word that's used to describe,
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have you ever felt like your heart is turned inside out with grief?
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It's like this bucking bronco that you can't wrestle to the ground.
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You can't stop the sadness.
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You can't stop the sorrow.
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That's what the psalmist is feeling.
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Deep emotional suffering.
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And along with this suffering,
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perhaps because of this suffering,
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the psalmist also feels utterly alone.
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Completely forsaken.
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When he says in verse 1,
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as the deer pants for the water brooks,
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so my soul pants for you,
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you know what he's describing here?
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He's describing a drought.
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He's describing a drought where there is no water to be found.
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And we actually have elsewhere in the Bible a description of what a drought was like in Israel.
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Jeremiah chapter 14, we read these words,
Jeremiah 14 chapter mention
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In other words,
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the ground is cracked because there is no rain.
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The farmers are dismayed.
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Even the deer in the field deserts her newborn fawn because there is no grass.
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In other words,
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when there was a drought in Israel,
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you got so desperate for just a drop of water
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that even a mother deer would forsake her newborn
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because she could think of nothing else
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except getting some relief from her thirst.
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It's a horrible thirst.
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And the psalmist is saying,
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Lord, I just want a drop,
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just a drop of your presence
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and of your comfort and of your love.
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When I was 16 or 17 years old,
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my family was in the midst of a really tough time.
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It was just a year or two away from my parents separating.
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And I remember one afternoon,
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feeling the pain of that so keenly,
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I went into my bedroom and I shut the door
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and I literally fell on my knees
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and I began to pray,
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Oh, Lord.
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Oh, Lord.
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Please help.
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Please comfort me.
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Please take away the pain.
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And I wish I could tell you that
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the ceiling of my bedroom parted
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and this beam of sunshine came in.
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But the heavens that day were silent.
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I didn't feel a drop of comfort or relief.
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And that's where the psalmist is.
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What's he feeling?
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Deep emotional suffering,
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tears streaming down his face
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and feeling utterly alone.
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That's what he's feeling.
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Well, why is he feeling that way?
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Why is he feeling that way?
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We get a hint of this in verses 9 and 10.
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As we read these,
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what you'll see is that
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the psalmist is in the midst of some sort of trial,
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some sort of suffering,
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and he's got enemies around him
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who are piling on,
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who are pouring salt into the wound.
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Verse 9,
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I will say to God,
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my rock,
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why have you forgotten me?
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Why do I go mourning
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because of the oppression of the enemy?
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As a shattering of my bones,
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my adversaries revile me,
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while they say to me all day long,
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where is your God?
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You see what's happening here.
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He's in the midst of some sort of trial,
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some sort of suffering.
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He doesn't name what it is.
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He doesn't tell us.
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And you'll notice,
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actually,
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often as you're reading through the psalms,
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they describe the trials pretty generally.
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And I think the reason is
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that by describing them generally,
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it's an invitation for you
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and for me
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to be able to identify
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because we can sort of,
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it's almost like when you read about a trial,
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the invitation is,
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oh, and by the way,
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insert your personal trial right here.
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So we can really identify
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with what's going on.
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So we don't know what's going on,
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but some trial,
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and there are enemies around
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who are saying this to him.
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You claim to be
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one of those followers of the Lord.
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And he makes
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all sorts of promises for you.
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Doesn't he say
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he's a God of steadfast love?
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Doesn't he?
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Doesn't he say
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he's a God who's with you?
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Doesn't he?
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Doesn't he say
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he cares for you
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and loves you?
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Doesn't he?
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Well, those promises
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don't line up with your life right now.
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Where is your God?
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Give it up.
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It's all a sham.
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None of it's real.
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Some of us here
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have experienced this,
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do experience this,
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with family
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or friends
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who aren't excited
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about the fact
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we've decided
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to follow Jesus.
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And when life
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goes badly,
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the whispers
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start.
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Oh, is this
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what happens
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when you become
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a follower of Jesus?
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Is this how
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he cares for you?
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For others of us,
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it's not family
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or friends
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that whisper that to us.
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It's our own hearts
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that whisper that to us.
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Even if we don't want them to,
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they reflexively
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in the midst of trial
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can begin to say,
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where is your God?
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Look,
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what you're experiencing
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in life
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doesn't seem to line up
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with his promises.
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What is a psalmist feeling?
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Deep,
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emotional,
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suffering,
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utterly alone.
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Why is he feeling that way?
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He's in the midst
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of some sort of trial,
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some sort of difficulty.
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And he has people
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around him
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saying,
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where is your God?
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This doesn't line up.
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Well,
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what does he do about it?
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The psalmist actually does,
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as you go through here,
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he does at least
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four different things.
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The first thing he does
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is one of the most
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simple
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and yet one of the most important.
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The first thing he does
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is he keeps
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talking to the Lord.
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He keeps talking
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to the Lord.
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Psalm 42
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is a prayer.
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Verse 1,
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As the deer pants
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for the water,
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so my soul pants
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for you,
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O God.
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Verse 9,
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I will say to God,
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my rock,
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why have you
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forgotten me?
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See,
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he's praying
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to God.
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And the reason
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he keeps
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praying
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to God,
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let me put it
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this way,
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the danger
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is not feeling
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like God
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is far away.
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That's not the danger.
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The danger
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is not feeling
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like God
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is far away.
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No,
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the danger
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is believing
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your feeling
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and acting
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as though it's true.
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That's the danger.
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It's not feeling
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that God
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is far away,
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it's believing
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the feeling
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and acting
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as though it's true.
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Because if you believe
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that's true,
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what are you going
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to stop doing?
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You're going
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to stop
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talking to God.
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And once you
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stop talking
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to God,
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what happens?
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Relationship
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with Him
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becomes impossible.
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When there's
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no communication,
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relationship
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is impossible.
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And so,
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the psalmist
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keeps
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talking
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to God.
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He even
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says things
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to God
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that you and I
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might not always
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feel comfortable
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saying.
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Why have you
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forgotten me?
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And depending
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on who we are,
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some of us
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might say,
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well now,
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theologically,
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of course,
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I know God
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hasn't forgotten
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me and so I
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shouldn't say
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things like that.
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Look,
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God gives us
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these prayers
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in His Word
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as model prayers.
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If you're feeling
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this way,
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in His love
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for you,
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God's given
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you words
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that you can
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use so
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that you
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keep
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talking to God.
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God.
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That's the
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first thing
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the psalmist
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does.
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He keeps
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talking
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to God.
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The second
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thing he does,
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he remembers
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what is true
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about the
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past.
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The second
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thing the
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psalmist
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does is he
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remembers
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what is true
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about the
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past.
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You see
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this in
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verse 4.
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These things
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I remember
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and I pour
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out my soul
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within me
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for I used
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to go along
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with the
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throng
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and lead
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them in
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procession
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to the
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house of
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God
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with the
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voice of
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joy and
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thanksgiving.
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A multitude
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keeping
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festival.
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And you
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can almost
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see him.
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He is
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thinking back
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to those
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times when
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he and
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other
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worshipers of
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God would
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go up to
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Jerusalem,
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the capital
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of Israel.
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And when
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you went up
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in the ancient
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days,
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you would
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go up with
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singing and
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with dancing.
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And I
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mean,
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it was a
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joyful time.
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And he's
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remembering those
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times where
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he has sensed
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the presence
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of God,
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when he has
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known the
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reality of
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God,
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when he has
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experienced God
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in the midst
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of worshiping
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with his
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people,
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he is remembering
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those times
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from the past
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and he
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realizes,
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he recognizes
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it is crucial
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for him to do
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so for this
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reason.
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When you and I
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are in the
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midst of
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depression
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and despair,
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it begins to
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feel like we're
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put in this
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cement
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windowless
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box.
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There's a
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wall behind
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us that
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cuts us
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off from
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any hope
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from the
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past.
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Depression and
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despair,
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they put a
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wall in
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front of us
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that cuts
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us off
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from any
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hope
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from the
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future.
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Depression and
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despair,
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they put walls
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beside us so
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that as we
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look around
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in the
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present,
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we can't
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see any
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glimpses of
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hope.
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And depression
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and despair,
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they put a
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wall over
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top so that
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it feels like
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our prayers
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bounce off
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the ceiling.
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And where
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do we end
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up?
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We end
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up in
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this cement
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pillbox of
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depression and
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despair.
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And so what
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does the
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psalmist do?
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Do you know
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what he's doing
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here?
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He's blowing
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out the
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back wall
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so that the
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light can come
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back in.
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He's remembering
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what is true
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from the
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past in
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terms of
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his experience
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with God.
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Ski and I
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have a friend,
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I'll call him
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Steve, and
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years ago,
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Steve called
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us one day,
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talked with us
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on the phone,
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shared with us.
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He had been
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praying for
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decades that
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his mom would
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become a
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Christian.
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And he was
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calling to let
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us know that
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a few weeks
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before she
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passed away,
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she had
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decided to
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give her
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life to
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Jesus, to
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become a
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follower of
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Jesus.
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And he was
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so thankful
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to God for
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hearing his
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prayers.
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And we
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rejoiced with
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him.
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Four weeks
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later, we
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caught up with
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Steve over
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coffee.
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And as we
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talked, he
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began to
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share with
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us about a
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trial he was
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going through.
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He said,
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for years,
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for years,
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I've prayed
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that the
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Lord would
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provide a
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wife.
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And the
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Lord hasn't
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answered that
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prayer.
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And it's been
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deeply painful
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for me.
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And the
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longer he
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talked, his
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sadness
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turned to
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anger, until
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he finally
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looked at
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us with
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this face
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of deep
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hurt and
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anger and
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said, God
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never hears
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my prayers.
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Now, his
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pain was
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very real.
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And I
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don't minimize
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it in any
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way whatsoever.
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And in
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that moment,
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it seemed
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that what he
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needed most
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was not any
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correction, but
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just for us to
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listen and
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to love and
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to bear that
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burden with
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him.
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But inside
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my heart
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was breaking
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saying, oh
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Steve,
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Steve,
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remember.
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Don't you
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remember just
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four weeks
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ago?
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God.
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You see, the
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psalmist, in
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the midst of
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his despair, he
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keeps talking
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to God, and
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he remembers
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what is true
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about the
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past.
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There's a
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third thing
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the psalmist
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does.
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The third
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thing is that
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the psalmist
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remembers what
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is true about
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the character of
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God right now
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in the present.
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The psalmist
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remembers what's
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true about
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God right now
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in the
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present.
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And he
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does that
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so that it
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can serve as
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a touch
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point of
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reality for
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him.
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Let me
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explain it
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this way.
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I have a
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friend who's
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a pilot,
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flies small
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planes.
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And he's
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told me, you
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know, when
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you're flying,
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if it's
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daytime and
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good weather,
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you know,
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there's a lot
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that you can
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do just
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flying by
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sight.
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You see
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where the
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horizon is,
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you know if
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you're headed
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up or down,
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you can look
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out the side,
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get a
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sense of
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your speed,
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all that
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kind of
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thing.
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But he
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said if
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it turns
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dark,
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or if
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thick fog
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rolls in,
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then as a
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pilot you
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can experience
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something that
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they have a
-
name for,
-
they call it
-
spatial
-
disorientation.
-
And all of a
-
sudden you
-
lose your
-
bearings.
-
And when
-
you're in the
-
midst of this,
-
you can
-
actually feel
-
like your
-
plane is headed
-
up when
-
in reality
-
it is headed
-
straight for
-
the ground.
-
It's
-
incredibly
-
dangerous to
-
fly by your
-
feelings and
-
that moment.
-
And so of
-
course,
-
well why aren't
-
more planes
-
crashing into
-
the ground?
-
Well because
-
pilots know,
-
oh at that
-
moment what do
-
I need to do?
-
I need to look
-
at my
-
instrument panel.
-
The instrument
-
panel provides
-
that touch
-
point of
-
reality against
-
which to
-
check my
-
feelings.
-
See that's
-
what the
-
psalmist is
-
doing here.
-
You see this
-
in verse
-
8.
-
The Lord
-
will command
-
his loving
-
kindness,
-
steadfast love
-
in the
-
daytime,
-
his song
-
will be with
-
me in the
-
night.
-
You see what
-
he's doing?
-
He's reminding
-
himself of
-
what is true
-
about the
-
Lord.
-
This is a
-
God of
-
steadfast love.
-
In fact,
-
do you
-
remember?
-
This is not
-
the first time
-
in this psalm
-
we've heard
-
the words
-
day and
-
night.
-
Do you
-
remember where
-
the first time
-
was?
-
Verse 3,
-
my tears
-
have been
-
my food
-
when?
-
Day
-
and
-
night.
-
And what
-
does the
-
psalmist say
-
in verse 8?
-
The Lord
-
will command
-
his steadfast
-
love in
-
the day
-
time.
-
His song
-
will be
-
with me
-
in the
-
night.
-
And the
-
psalmist
-
is choosing
-
to live
-
his faith
-
not by
-
his feelings
-
but by
-
reminding
-
himself
-
what is
-
true about
-
the Lord
-
to provide
-
those touch
-
points of
-
reality in
-
the midst
-
of the
-
storm.
-
There's a
-
final thing
-
the psalmist
-
does.
-
You see it
-
in verse 5.
-
The
-
psalmist
-
remembers
-
God's
-
promises
-
for the
-
future.
-
Why are
-
you downcast
-
O my
-
soul?
-
Why have
-
you become
-
disturbed
-
within me?
-
Hope
-
in God
-
for I
-
shall
-
again
-
praise
-
him
-
the help
-
of his
-
presence.
-
You see
-
what he's
-
saying?
-
Soul.
-
What he's
-
doing here
-
actually he is
-
grabbing his
-
soul
-
by the
-
scruff
-
of the
-
neck
-
and saying
-
remember
-
have
-
hope
-
because the
-
God you
-
worship
-
is a
-
God
-
who
-
gives
-
hope.
-
You see
-
it again
-
at the
-
end of
-
the psalm.
-
He says
-
the exact
-
same words.
-
Why are
-
you downcast
-
O my
-
soul?
-
Why
-
disturbed
-
within me?
-
Hope
-
in God
-
I
-
shall
-
praise
-
him
-
the help
-
of my
-
countenance
-
and my
-
God.
-
You see
-
what he's
-
done
-
by this
-
point?
-
He's
-
blown
-
out
-
all
-
the
-
walls.
-
Remember
-
what's
-
true
-
about
-
the
-
past?
-
Blown
-
that
-
wall
-
out.
-
Remember
-
what's
-
true
-
about
-
God
-
in
-
the
-
present?
-
Blown
-
that
-
wall
-
out.
-
Remember
-
his
-
promises
-
for
-
the
-
future?
-
Blown
-
that
-
way.
-
He's
-
praying
-
to
-
God
-
that
-
wall
-
is
-
gone
-
too
-
so
-
that
-
the
-
light
-
can
-
stream
-
in.
-
Now
-
let me
-
ask.
-
Is it
-
easy to
-
do
-
these
-
kinds
-
of
-
things
-
in
-
the
-
midst
-
of
-
depression
-
and
-
despair?
-
No.
-
Now
-
how many
-
times does
-
he have
-
to grab
-
his soul
-
by the
-
scruff
-
of the
-
neck?
-
Two
-
different
-
times.
-
It's
-
not like
-
one and
-
done.
-
Right?
-
Verse
-
five,
-
okay,
-
psalm ends
-
here.
-
No.
-
In fact,
-
do you
-
notice
-
what happens
-
between
-
verses
-
eight and
-
nine?
-
Did
-
this
-
strike
-
you
-
on the
-
way
-
through?
-
Look
-
at
-
verse
-
eight.
-
The
-
Lord
-
will
-
command
-
his
-
loving
-
kindness
-
in the
-
daytime.
-
His
-
song
-
will
-
be
-
with
-
me
-
in
-
the
-
night.
-
A
-
prayer
-
to
-
the
-
God
-
of
-
my
-
life.
-
It
-
seems
-
as though
-
everything's
-
under
-
control.
-
Very
-
next
-
verse,
-
I
-
will
-
say
-
to
-
God
-
my
-
rock,
-
why
-
have
-
you
-
forgotten
-
me?
-
How
-
is
-
that
-
possible?
-
If
-
you've
-
experienced
-
deep
-
sadness
-
or
-
despair
-
or
-
depression,
-
you know
-
exactly
-
how
-
that's
-
possible.
-
Isn't
-
it
-
true in
-
the
-
midst
-
of
-
those
-
times
-
our
-
hearts
-
can
-
pinball
-
back
-
and
-
forth
-
a
-
dozen
-
times
-
a
-
day?
-
Isn't
-
it
-
true you
-
could
-
leave a
-
time of
-
prayer
-
feeling
-
the
-
peace
-
of
-
God
-
and
-
twenty
-
minutes
-
later
-
your
-
heart
-
begins
-
to
-
crumble
-
again?
-
That's
-
exactly
-
what the
-
psalmist
-
is
-
experiencing.
-
And
-
so
-
God
-
gives
-
him
-
words
-
to
-
use
-
just
-
for
-
times
-
like
-
that.
-
You know
-
in the
-
midst
-
of
-
those
-
times
-
sometimes
-
sometimes
-
we
-
end up
-
being
-
harder
-
on
-
ourselves
-
than
-
God
-
is.
-
We
-
end up
-
being
-
harder
-
on
-
ourselves
-
than
-
God
-
is.
-
Sometimes
-
in
-
the
-
midst
-
of
-
those
-
times
-
we
-
say
-
to
-
ourselves
-
with
-
disgust
-
you
-
should
-
have
-
more
-
faith.
-
actually
-
what
-
the
-
Lord
-
does
-
here
-
is
-
he
-
says
-
let
-
me
-
give
-
you
-
words
-
to
-
use
-
when
-
you're
-
feeling
-
like
-
that
-
because
-
that's
-
something
-
that
-
people
-
often
-
experience
-
and
-
you
-
need
-
to
-
know
-
how
-
to
-
pray
-
in
-
the
-
midst
-
of
-
it.
-
If
-
this
-
is
-
where
-
the
-
psalmist
-
can
-
come
-
to
-
hope
-
has
-
the
-
last
-
word
-
hope
-
has
-
the
-
last
-
word
-
because
-
the
-
psalmist
-
knows
-
the
-
God
-
to
-
whom
-
I
-
pray
-
is
-
a
-
hope
-
giving
-
God
-
and
-
if
-
that's
-
true
-
for
-
the
-
psalmist
-
remember
-
he
-
writes
-
this
-
hundreds
-
of
-
years
-
before
-
Jesus
-
comes
-
hundreds
-
of
-
years
-
before
-
and
-
if
-
the
-
psalmist
-
in
-
the
-
midst
-
of
-
his
-
troubles
-
and
-
trials
-
not
-
even
-
knowing
-
about
-
Jesus
-
can
-
come
-
to
-
a
-
place
-
of
-
hope
-
because
-
he
-
knows
-
God
-
is
-
a
-
God
-
of
-
hope
-
how
-
much
-
more
-
can
-
we
-
today
-
we
-
have
-
something
-
the
-
psalmist
-
didn't
-
have
-
we
-
know
-
that
-
God
-
in
-
his
-
love
-
for
-
us
-
chose
-
to
-
come
-
into
-
the
-
brokenness
-
darkness
-
and
-
despair
-
in
-
human
-
flesh
-
in
-
Jesus
-
in
-
fact
-
do you
-
remember
-
that
-
when
-
Jesus
-
was
-
on
-
the
-
cross
-
one
-
of
-
the
-
things
-
he
-
prayed
-
was
-
this
-
my
-
God
-
my
-
God
-
finish
-
it
-
for
-
me
-
why
-
have
-
you
-
forsaken
-
me
-
he
-
knows
-
he
-
knows
-
what
-
the
-
person
-
of
-
psalm
-
42
-
has
-
gone
-
through
-
because
-
he's
-
experienced
-
it
-
and
-
experienced
-
it
-
even
-
at
-
a
-
level
-
you
-
and
-
I
-
can't
-
begin
-
to
-
imagine
-
which
-
means
-
if
-
you
-
are
-
where
-
the
-
person
-
of
-
psalm
-
42
-
was
-
if
-
you're
-
in
-
that
-
situation
-
you
-
can
-
have
-
the
-
greatest
-
hope
-
because
-
you're
-
not
-
alone
-
no
-
matter
-
what
-
you're
-
feeling
-
because
-
Jesus
-
knows
-
and he
-
cares
-
and he
-
loves
-
you
-
and he
-
is
-
a
-
shepherd
-
who's
-
ready
-
to
-
reach
-
down
-
and to
-
hold
-
and to
-
carry
-
you
-
so
-
who is
-
psalm
-
42
-
for
-
who's
-
it
-
written
-
for
-
it's
-
not
-
written
-
for
-
those
-
who
-
are
-
strong
-
in
-
faith
-
you're
-
of
-
course
-
welcome
-
to
-
pray
-
it
-
it's
-
not
-
written
-
for
-
those
-
who
-
feel
-
very
-
close
-
to
-
God
-
you're
-
of
-
course
-
welcome
-
to
-
pray
-
it
-
it's
-
written
-
for
-
those
-
who
-
are
-
very
-
weak
-
in
-
faith
-
in
-
the
-
midst
-
of
-
despair
-
who
-
feel
-
like
-
God
-
is
-
a
-
thousand
-
miles
-
away
-
it's
-
written
-
for
-
those
-
who
-
are
-
on
-
their
-
bedroom
-
floor
-
on
-
their
-
knees
-
with
-
tears
-
streaming
-
down
-
their
-
face
-
who
-
need
-
words
-
to
-
pray
-
that
-
keep
-
them
-
talking
-
to
-
God
-
words
-
to
-
pray
-
that
-
remind
-
them
-
what
-
is
-
true
-
from
-
the
-
past
-
words
-
to
-
pray
-
that
-
remind
-
them
-
what's
-
true
-
about
-
God
-
in
-
the
-
present
-
and
-
words
-
to
-
pray
-
that
-
remind
-
them
-
of
-
God's
-
promises
-
for
-
the
-
future
-
that's
-
who
-
Psalm 42
-
is
-
for
-
and
-
God
-
has
-
given
-
it
-
to
-
you
-
in
-
his
-
love
-
for
-
you
-
so
-
that
-
you
-
might
-
have
-
those
-
words
-
to
-
pray
-
let
-
me
-
pray
-
together
-
for
-
us
-
oh
-
Lord
-
truly
-
you
-
are
-
the
-
Lord
-
of
-
steadfast
-
love
-
I
-
pray
-
for us
-
today
-
I
-
pray
-
especially
-
for
-
those
-
of us
-
whose
-
hearts
-
are
-
downcast
-
or
-
in
-
despair
-
or
-
feeling
-
that
-
you
-
are
-
far
-
away
-
that
-
you
-
would
-
help
-
us
-
to
-
remember
-
what
-
is
-
true
-
and
-
would
-
the
-
truth
-
of
-
who
-
you
-
are
-
provide
-
those
-
touch
-
points
-
of
-
reality
-
to
-
help
-
us
-
in
-
the
-
midst
-
of
-
the
-
storm
-
oh
-
Lord
-
by
-
your
-
spirit
-
in
-
the
-
mercies
-
of
-
Jesus
-
encourage
-
and
-
help
-
and
-
heal
-
we
-
ask
-
in
-
his
-
name
-
amen
-
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-
more
-
information
-
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-
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-
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-
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-
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