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SUNDAY ALWAYS COMES | A POD W/ PASTOR RICKY & CHRIS

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  1. Hey everybody, what's going on? I am my name is Pastor Ricky and

  2. this is. I'm Pastor Chris and I'm from

  3. Freedom Church and Ricky's from. City Post Church right here in

  4. Fort Worth, TX Actually for me it's half halt time, like halt

  5. time Fort Worth line. But you know, we claim the funk.

  6. And I'm in the West End. That's right.

  7. And so, Ricky, man, tell us, tell everybody, what are we

  8. doing here today? What's going on?

  9. So, you know, a while back, just been praying about something

  10. that the Lord's been impressing on my heart.

  11. And I know Chris and myself, we're both pastors, but we're

  12. also planted churches and just kind of praying, asking the Lord

  13. to steer this thing. And really wanted to just begin

  14. this podcast where we talked specifically about ministry

  15. stuff, pastoral stuff, like stuff about planning churches

  16. just from 2 normal guys who just said yes to Jesus.

  17. Yeah, that's right. And I'm excited about it because

  18. we've been in the churches together planting churches for

  19. we launched in 2020, you launched in 2019. 20/18/2018 and

  20. 2018 That's right. And so we've been on this

  21. journey of church planting and and finding out what Jesus wants

  22. from us and what he's calling out of us.

  23. And we've learned that church planting takes you into a whole

  24. nother dimension. Oh yeah, it's not for everybody.

  25. No, not at all. So it's it's been really, really

  26. cool to connect with Ricky. And I mean, I'm excited.

  27. Let's see what Jesus does. Not exactly.

  28. And man, so let's just start there because I think our our

  29. stories as far as church planning are similar, but I

  30. think before into that man, I think it's it's really just

  31. thinking about this whole idea of calling, you know, nobody

  32. wakes up one day and they're like, you know, what would be a

  33. great idea? Let's just plan a church so I

  34. could be successful in life, you know, but a lot of it starts

  35. with God calling you to the pastoral work.

  36. So really we start there like your your story, like did you

  37. always want to be a pastor? Did.

  38. Yeah, man. So it's, it's one of those

  39. things that I never wanted to be a pastor.

  40. Actually, I never wanted to be. I, I grew up a worship pastor.

  41. I've always loved doing worship. I've always loved doing that.

  42. Still to this day, I still love doing worship.

  43. But I never wanted to be a pastor because my dad's a

  44. pastor, because my dad is a pastor.

  45. I saw all the heartache that goes with pastor worship.

  46. You know, you, I don't know a lot of people don't know this a

  47. lot of times, But when you, you grow up as a kid and you see

  48. your dad on a Sunday morning standing on the pulpit preaching

  49. the word, it's kind of jaded. It's kind of, it's kind of

  50. underline because you're like, I know what's actually going on

  51. behind the scenes. I know the heartbreak.

  52. I know like the words that have been said and and you still have

  53. the courage and the boldness to stand before the people and and

  54. give the word of God in that moment.

  55. And so I always tell myself I would never do that, but I can't

  56. deal with that. I don't want to deal with that.

  57. Everybody likes to worship God. Everybody thinks he's cool.

  58. Like, yeah, so I'll stay there and I'll do that.

  59. And so I went out. I left my dad's church when I

  60. about 2015 called to a called to a church out in Dallas.

  61. And and like I said, well, this is what I've learned, man.

  62. Never say never, right? It's true.

  63. Never say never and that. Sense of humor, man.

  64. Yeah, exactly. And so I go out to this church

  65. in Dallas and you know, I meet this beautiful church out in

  66. Dallas and they're, they're amazing.

  67. And, and so I was the best musician at my dad's church.

  68. I was the best one. I was the best singer, I was the

  69. best musician. And then I go to this church and

  70. everybody has a resume and everybody.

  71. And when I mean resume, I mean like they were playing for big

  72. names like the the the band was playing like that.

  73. Bass players filling in for Stevie Wonder's bass player, the

  74. Germans playing for Israel Houghton, the guitar player is

  75. playing for Marcos Witt. You know, like these dudes are

  76. accredited musicians. And then I show up and they're

  77. asking me like, who did you play for?

  78. And I'm like, I played for my dad, you know, like, and so and

  79. then I go to this church and everybody in this church can

  80. sing phenomenal singers. All of them are phenomenal

  81. singers. And so I, I find myself in a

  82. place where I'm like, Lord, like you're humbling me right now,

  83. 'cause I'm not the best musician here anymore and I'm not the

  84. best singer. And I'm like, what do I do?

  85. And Lord showed me in that season, like you're here to

  86. teach them how to worship. That's what you're here for.

  87. And you're here to bring them together and bring them together

  88. as, as one so that they can worship me.

  89. And that's where I fell in love with pastor.

  90. I fell in love with people saying yes to Jesus and, and

  91. lives being transformed and, and people actually understanding

  92. what they're doing. But I didn't, I didn't want it,

  93. but I just fell in love with, with people seeing Jesus and

  94. saying yes. That's what I fell in love with.

  95. And I wanted to take them from a moment of worship to a life of

  96. walking with Jesus. And when that light turned on

  97. man, it was like, oh, this is it.

  98. This is what I'm called to because worship is great.

  99. I tell people all the time, I love to worship.

  100. Still to this day, I still love leading worship.

  101. But there's something different about letting somebody

  102. experience Jesus and then teaching them how to walk with

  103. Jesus. And the pastoral role is that is

  104. leading sheep to walk with Jesus.

  105. That's all it is. And so that's when I knew I was

  106. called. How did you know you were called

  107. to it man? You kind of like you.

  108. I mean, my parents were both youth pastors in, in Florida,

  109. you know, Pompano Beach. And my mom was called in 92 and

  110. then they, they felt like they had to become better equipped.

  111. So that's what led us to Texas. So they were looking to go to

  112. seminary and they moved us here in 9495, something like that.

  113. And I was probably when some of you guys were just a thought in

  114. the blueprint, but you know, like just grew up in the church,

  115. always done youth ministry and, and really fell in love with it.

  116. And so it's probably like a youth ministry team and and men,

  117. I'll travel and do disciple now, weekends and camps and even

  118. getting my undergrad. Like when I felt called in 2004,

  119. I changed my degree. So I went from a kines to rec

  120. and leisure because I was like, I'm always going to be with

  121. students. So for those of us who don't

  122. know what that. Means, oh, sorry, yeah,

  123. kinesiology is like a sports degree or you could do like

  124. sports management, you could get a physical training, you could

  125. be a PE teacher, a coach, all that stuff.

  126. But that's kind of what I was I was going for.

  127. But then when the Lord called me, I was like, you know what,

  128. first of all, I'm a terrible student.

  129. Like it took me 8 1/2 years to get my undergrad.

  130. Yeah, because I just kept failing and but I was like, I'm

  131. always going to work with students.

  132. So rec and leisure, I got that degree in program management.

  133. So that's how you you learn how to do games and group dynamics

  134. and you could run a ropes course if you want to.

  135. All that stuff. Yeah, like it's just randomness.

  136. And all my professors are like your brains worth 27,000 a year.

  137. I'm like. Wonderful.

  138. Yeah, so, but, but all of that in doing use, I just, I've

  139. always loved the like the like the that generation, like seeing

  140. young people give their lives to Christ, surrender to Christ and

  141. be and, and and be in the church.

  142. You know, I I just always felt that 2013 I really felt a call

  143. to do that, like to to be more of the pastoral role.

  144. My wife always told me I was going to be a youth director and

  145. and I was like, Nah, I just want to work.

  146. Let me just do what I'm doing now.

  147. It's nice, but when I graduated with a master's in 2015, I

  148. really felt that call in my life.

  149. Like I really felt it. I didn't want to be a pastor

  150. because my perceptions of what pastors look like, you know,

  151. they all look like old, tired. I didn't, you know, just beat

  152. up. Always had it with suits on.

  153. And it was like, I don't want to wear suits when you wanna listen

  154. to. Stuff you know.

  155. But the desire in my heart was so strong and it was so evident

  156. that God was calling me to this, even even to the point where I

  157. was being asked to come and preach at like random, like just

  158. random churches. And I was like, Lord, what are

  159. you doing? That never happens.

  160. And so really 2015 is when I surrendered to the calling of

  161. pastoral ministry. And and that's when I just

  162. started serving in that capacity.

  163. I love. It so no, that's great, man, and

  164. I think I know that we got a whole thing right now, but like

  165. my, my biggest insecurity still to this day is preaching.

  166. It's still my biggest insecurity just because I, I didn't grow up

  167. preaching, you know, like I'm listening to your story right

  168. now. Like, you know, you've been a

  169. youth pastor, you've always been in front of youth and your

  170. parents were youth pastors. And it's just like, how do you,

  171. how do you prepare for something like that?

  172. That you're going to, it's your job now to bring the word of

  173. God. Like we were just talking about

  174. it a few minutes before. It's like, now it's your job to

  175. stand behind that pulpit and preach the word of God as a

  176. pastor. Like what, what does that mean

  177. to you? Like what does that look like

  178. for you? It's a, it's a, it's a

  179. heavyweight. I tell people everybody sees

  180. preaching as like something sexy and everybody gets to see you

  181. and you get to chop it up. And, and I think it's opposite.

  182. I, I think the best way I heard it is like you're wrestling a

  183. bear for a week. And so you're wrestling this

  184. passage and then you have to deliver it to the people of God.

  185. Like you're delivering the word of God to the, the revelation of

  186. God to the people of God, regardless of how many people

  187. are in their own. Like, there's, there's something

  188. so important to it. And like you, I actually stutter

  189. a lot. And everybody's like, I couldn't

  190. tell. I was like, 'cause you don't,

  191. you don't see me practicing 20 times, you know, in my garage,

  192. walking in circles. I like, I'm not a good reader.

  193. Everybody laughs at me whenever, like the big Bible names come up

  194. and I'm like, yeah, Mr. L, I'm not going to, I'm not going to

  195. pronounce this thing like. So it's, I take it very

  196. seriously. And I'm a student of it.

  197. I I always love to learn about it.

  198. I always ask other pastors, like, how do you prepare?

  199. Yeah. No, absolutely.

  200. And I think, I think the word you use right now is a great

  201. word. Everybody thinks preaching is

  202. something sexy, It's something cool.

  203. It's something like, oh, yeah, we, I, I want to do that.

  204. And I, I think because, I mean, I don't know about you guys, but

  205. my timeline and my, my, what's the word I'm looking for?

  206. It's the, my algorithm. It's just filled with preachings

  207. and pastors and this and this and it looks so cool.

  208. And, but I don't think a lot of people understand the cost of

  209. that stuff. That's.

  210. A great point. They don't understand that how

  211. long you actually sat with that text.

  212. There's there's texts now that I'm still sitting with that I

  213. have not preached because I, I haven't fully digested it yet.

  214. And So what do you, what do you do when you've been sitting with

  215. the text all week and you still haven't digested it?

  216. You push it to the side and you do a whole nother sermon.

  217. Yeah, right. Like that's, I don't know if

  218. that's what you do, but I, I do that.

  219. I push the text to the side 'cause I'm like, I haven't fully

  220. grasped this yet and I don't want to present something half

  221. heartedly that I don't even understand and just hope that

  222. somebody else will understand it.

  223. Bro and there's there's days like sometimes I hear and I get

  224. it maybe down the line like these bigger like that preaching

  225. teams and they have people and and they have to get everything

  226. in by Wednesday as the the person needs to put it in.

  227. No, listen, there's times, dude, like where I will, I will have

  228. the text, I'll exposit it, I'll have the contact, all that

  229. stuff. But like there hasn't been like,

  230. OK, God, what? What do you want me?

  231. And that won't hit till like Saturday where I'll just like

  232. wake up at like 4:00 in the morning.

  233. There's times where I'll, I'll wake up Sunday at like 5 or 6

  234. and just pray and I'm like, I need a pen, you know, I need to

  235. write something down. I got it.

  236. You know, it's a yeah, man. It could be a beating sometimes.

  237. Yeah, for sure. That's the and that's me, man.

  238. That's literally me. I'll wake up, I'll, I'll sit

  239. with the text all week, all week.

  240. And I know where all the dots connect.

  241. And it's one of those things, it's just like, OK, so this is

  242. beautiful, but how do, how do I give it to somebody so that they

  243. can use it? And so I I'll sit there and same

  244. thing. I'll sit there up to 4:00 AM

  245. praying, drinking cup, cup of coffee just in my office and

  246. like lower, like you gave me all this.

  247. What, what am I? What am I missing?

  248. Right. That's exactly right.

  249. And and that's why I said I was like, right now.

  250. You said it perfectly. He said, yeah, you know, you got

  251. to have it in by Wednesday. I'm like, man, I'm giving my

  252. verses and all my stuff on Sunday morning.

  253. Sometimes it doesn't work and I have like these little routines

  254. in place that help me, you know, like, OK, by Monday or like

  255. Sunday night, I'll copy and paste it on my laptop.

  256. Monday I'll go verse by verse. Tuesday I do word studies.

  257. Like it's just, and it's because of my schedule too.

  258. So a little bit here and there, but man, there's there's just

  259. some weeks where it doesn't hit till and then something else I

  260. think that we have to touch on is as a pastor, and I know we're

  261. kind of going down, but whatever.

  262. Yeah, it's like. 'Cause I say, hey, you watch it,

  263. You watch it. Yeah, it's.

  264. Like you, you preach no matter what.

  265. Yeah, Sunday. Sunday's always coming.

  266. And there's been. And I remember a few years ago I

  267. did a funeral for a 10 year old kid.

  268. I got hit by a truck. And because it was an

  269. investigation, the family couldn't see the child to like

  270. the morning of and and and that I didn't realize how much it it

  271. drained me or took out of me. And I remember showing up to

  272. church and that was a Saturday preaching on Sunday morning.

  273. And and I remember Monica looks at me and she goes, man, you

  274. look white, like, like, like your face like there's

  275. something. And it's like, yeah, I know it

  276. used to have to show up. I mean, been sick.

  277. There was one time where I was in the hospital Friday,

  278. Saturday, it was just like a little minor thing, but I felt

  279. I, I was so frustrated that I was in the hospital.

  280. I couldn't wait to get to church on Sunday, you know.

  281. So regardless of what happens in life, the word of God is going

  282. to be proclaimed, you know? And you and that I think that's

  283. even getting back on track, right?

  284. Like, yeah, how do, how do you handle that as a as a pastor?

  285. How do you handle that as a church planter?

  286. You know, like you jump into church planting and once again,

  287. we're, we're just two regular guys.

  288. We're just trying to figure this thing out and we're trying to

  289. welcome you guys into this journey with us.

  290. But how do you figure that out? How do you go from, I wasn't

  291. preaching every Sunday to now I'm preaching every Sunday and

  292. doesn't matter what's going on in my life, Sunday's still

  293. coming and there has to be a word.

  294. And how do you learn to create that discipline in your life to

  295. even when you're like, man, I don't feel like preaching.

  296. I don't feel like doing it. My, my head is not in the right

  297. place. My heart is not in the right

  298. place. How do you, how do you stand

  299. before people and, and still say this is what the word of the

  300. Lord says? Yeah.

  301. For me, it starts with prayer. I mean that that's the number

  302. one thing And, and I'll be real. Like there's some days, and I

  303. started this about two years ago when I drive to City Post, I

  304. don't listen to any music and I just talk to Jesus.

  305. I'm in my car and I'm like, all right, God, thank you for waking

  306. me up. I just pray for and, and I'm,

  307. I'm praying all the way till the time I pull in the parking lot

  308. and, and just talking to the Lord.

  309. But I've become more honest with my prayers.

  310. So I think a lot of us are good at confessing things but like we

  311. could easily get the habit of just confession and not being

  312. honest with our emotions and feelings and like just talk to

  313. Jesus. Like man I am not feeling it

  314. today or man last night was rough or I am so tired.

  315. Absolutely, man. And that's something I'm even

  316. learning now is that's why Jesus says the Holy Spirit, he calls

  317. him the Helper, right? And that's something that I

  318. lacked a lot. And you know, I've done my due

  319. diligence, I've done my preparation, I've done my study

  320. and this and this and this, And all right now I saw it as Lord,

  321. I'm going to present it to you. I'm going to give.

  322. It to you. But what happens is I've done my

  323. due diligence, I've done all this stuff, I've done my

  324. preparation, but I'm tired. My mind, my mentally drained, my

  325. heart is like been poured out all week.

  326. I've gone to the hospital visit. I've done this.

  327. Listen this but Jesus calls the Holy Spirit to help her and what

  328. I'm learning right now is while I'm driving and so that's what I

  329. said me and Ricky we're two different kinds of people.

  330. Ricky's like I like to sit in silence and pray me.

  331. I have to have worship music playing like I have to have it

  332. on blast. I have to create that atmosphere

  333. for myself because when I sit in this in the silence sometimes,

  334. like everything that I've been hearing always comes back.

  335. It comes back. So I have to eternal worship and

  336. the most grateful prayer that I've learned in this season is

  337. Jesus. You called the Holy Spirit, the

  338. helper. So Holy Spirit, I need you to

  339. help me. That's right.

  340. That's what I've learned in this season because it's, it's one of

  341. those things like you, you go from, I didn't preach for years

  342. and now I'm preaching every week and now I have to carry this

  343. weight. But I know that the Lord has

  344. given it to me. That's why he says yoke is easy

  345. and it's burning this light. It's not draining me, but I

  346. don't want to present it incorrectly.

  347. I don't want to say anything from my emotions because I've

  348. been emotionally drained. I don't want to say anything

  349. from my mind because I'm mentally drained.

  350. So I don't want to speak from a place of anger or frustration or

  351. weariness. And so that's where my prayer

  352. this season has been. Holy Spirit, help me.

  353. You're the helper. Help me.

  354. Yeah. And then also like Speaking of

  355. the Holy Spirit too, you know, the Holy Spirit is our comforter

  356. and it's like, you can't be a comforter if you're comfortable.

  357. So it's it's like a it's good that, that we're in that tension

  358. of life where it's like, Oh my gosh, like here we go.

  359. Because I think that's where that's where the Holy Spirit

  360. shines. Like he, he, he just crushes us

  361. with his grace and he gives it to us.

  362. Also I think another way. As you're saying, it's like all

  363. these thoughts, you know, when you preach, you are, you're

  364. asking the Holy Spirit like, OK, what are you trying to show me

  365. in the text? And, and you, you so I can

  366. preach to yourself first. So what I started doing is that

  367. so instead of I always like, Lord, give me a word for your

  368. people, but then teach me something through your word.

  369. And then really my, my points and my notes are what he showed

  370. me. And then I share with the

  371. congregation what the Holy Spirit convicted in my life.

  372. And it's amazing how it works because then people come up to

  373. you after when they're like, how'd you know?

  374. You know, like why, why y'all nosy in my, my business, you

  375. know, like, and really that's how the Holy Spirit works where

  376. it's like, honestly bro, like I'm not even thinking about you.

  377. However, you know, these are things that he showed me, but

  378. the Word of God is just convicting, so it ties it all

  379. together, which is pretty sweet. Yeah.

  380. And I think for me, when I do that, I do men.

  381. I think even when I preach for my own conviction, it can come

  382. out harsh. Like, yeah, no, you're really

  383. bad and that's real. And so I'll have to read my

  384. sermon over and over and over. And I've, I've literally read my

  385. sermon and like, you're so angry.

  386. And so then I have, I will have to rewrite it and then I'll read

  387. it again like you're so angry. And, and I, I see it as as the

  388. peace of God, like coming over me, like, hey, you're beating

  389. yourself up too much. Why are you doing that to

  390. yourself? Stop.

  391. You don't like there's grace, there's mercy, there's love for

  392. you there. It's a conviction, but you're

  393. beating yourself up too much. And if you're beating yourself

  394. up when you preach, you're going to beat up other people.

  395. And so that's where I'll have to look at my sermon before I

  396. preach it over and over and over because I've done that too.

  397. And I'm like, I'm preaching from a place of conviction.

  398. And, and I'll say it from the I'm preaching to myself right

  399. now, but I'll say it, but sometimes I can be really hard

  400. on myself. And so it's like.

  401. The way it comes out. Yeah, the way it comes out, it's

  402. like I'm actually just angry at me.

  403. I'm not angry. Yeah, yeah, yeah, people.

  404. Like what's wrong? Yeah, yeah, yeah.

  405. Like, don't you know, you could go to.

  406. It's so true we're. Terrible.

  407. Friends so it's not bad, but that's what because it's like,

  408. but I I think understanding church planting is is

  409. understanding that you being called to be a pastor now yes,

  410. you're called to be a pastor and the the pastor can't beat up the

  411. sheep. Yeah, you can't do that because

  412. yeah, because if you if a pastor beats the sheep, then the sheep

  413. die. Yeah, that's what happens.

  414. You you can abuse the sheep so much that they can die.

  415. And so you want to be a gentle shepherd.

  416. You want to be the Good Shepherd.

  417. And that's where my heart goes back to is I get so nervous now

  418. that I'm a church planter, you guys.

  419. So I guess it's just one of those things that Jesus gives us

  420. the same title that he calls himself.

  421. He says, I'm going to call you to be a shepherd.

  422. I'm going to call you to love my sheep.

  423. That's what he did to Peter. Peter messed up.

  424. Peter was terrible. Peter.

  425. Peter denied him. And he said feed my sheep.

  426. He was calling Peter a shepherd. And Peter heard the same sermon

  427. about Jesus saying I'm the Good Shepherd.

  428. Yeah. So the same title Jesus has, he

  429. gives to Peter the same title that Jesus has, he's given to me

  430. and you. And so Jesus says feed my sheep.

  431. He doesn't say beat my sheep. Right, Right.

  432. And that's, that's just a whole other.

  433. Yeah. Place for me, man.

  434. Yeah, you can't lead. You can't lead with force.

  435. It's, and I know sometimes it comes off that way, 'cause I'll

  436. be honest, like even even a conviction I've had is with City

  437. Post I, I want to make sure I preach to men, you know, like

  438. our, the men of our church. And what I discovered is like

  439. with men, we want things direct, truthful and, and you know, like

  440. all that emotional stuff does not fly.

  441. So there's sometimes where like you, you try to drive a point

  442. because you, that's in my mind, that's the audience, that's the

  443. guy I want to hear this message. But I have to remember that, you

  444. know, like there's all sorts of generations, all sorts of people

  445. are all sorts of context. So you can't let that you can't

  446. let that sway the message. So making sure that you stay

  447. true to God's word. And also just one other thing I

  448. learned. God's word does not need our

  449. help, you know, like, and, and I used to do that.

  450. I'd used to try to be provocative.

  451. And I remember there was one Sunday I was preaching out of

  452. Hebrews and I said something about Mary and I made a crack

  453. about it. And I was like, Jeez, don't need

  454. his mom, you know, like and, and I was just trying to be.

  455. I was just don't. He don't need his mom like he's

  456. God, you know, And there was some brothers in the back who

  457. are Catholic. And I remember during one of our

  458. car shows, he came up to me and he goes, you know, Ricky, like

  459. my wife loves this place, like we love this church.

  460. We, we haven't gone to church, but you know, like what you said

  461. about like, we're Catholic and I and I, and I thought about it

  462. and I was like, you know, and I apologize.

  463. And I was like, I was just, I was doing too much.

  464. I was like, you'll never hear me try to push something like that

  465. again. And it wasn't that I was, it

  466. wasn't about boldness. It was actually more about

  467. you're trying too hard to draw attention to the Word, and God's

  468. Word doesn't need our help. Yeah, that's absolutely right,

  469. man. And I think we have to catch

  470. ourselves as as young pastors and young churches, we have to

  471. catch ourselves, like trying to make it and going back to that

  472. word, trying to make preaching sexy.

  473. I get to stand up on the pulpit and I get to be courageous and I

  474. get to be bold and I get to preach the word of God for what

  475. it is. And what pierces the heart, what

  476. brings men to repentance, the Bible says, is the Lord's

  477. kindness. And it's like, no, like I got to

  478. say it how it is and, and, and Amen.

  479. Well, we should, we should preach the word boldly.

  480. We should. But if repentance is not

  481. happening, then we haven't shown the Lord's kindness.

  482. And that's what First Corinthians says.

  483. He goes without love. It all sounds like just clanging

  484. cymbals. So people are not going to hear

  485. his word because they're not like he doesn't love me.

  486. It's like he's, he's trying to like wag his finger at me and

  487. they're totally going to be turned off by.

  488. Man, that's good, bro. Like I said, and and like I

  489. said, for everybody who's watching, we're, we're just

  490. figuring all this stuff out. Yes, we really are.

  491. We're trying to learn how to be pastors.

  492. We're trying to learn how to carry the Lord's house.

  493. We're going to learn how to lead people to Jesus and Ricky.

  494. Ricky has done a phenomenal job, man.

  495. Tell me about City Post, man. How did you guys start?

  496. Yeah, no, it just I felt called to plant a church in like 2017.

  497. I was serving at a local church here in Riverside.

  498. It wasn't the healthiest place. And when plans went awry, it's

  499. funny, like when you talk about like God's sovereignty.

  500. And I think God uses everything for his glory and even these

  501. crazy situations, you know, the truth was me and Rach, we were

  502. actually going to sit down for about 3 months and we were going

  503. to ask God what's next. So we were going to leave, we're

  504. going to serve out. And then just just to just go

  505. visit and see what was next. In that time, you know, I

  506. started doing like more stuff in the city and I feel like I

  507. became a missionary in my own city.

  508. And I just started seeing people that didn't know Jesus, people

  509. that hated God hanging out with them.

  510. And I was like, man, what does it look like to be a pastor or a

  511. church for these folks? And that's when it really

  512. started to, to come into my heart.

  513. So yeah, I just, I didn't know what to do.

  514. I knew I was called to plant. So I grabbed like some of my

  515. best friends, my parents, and I asked them, I was like, hey, I

  516. feel called to plant a church. Do you guys see this?

  517. Just tell me the truth. And my mom and dad, they were

  518. the first ones. They're like, we want it.

  519. Like let's do it. We want something different.

  520. So that was the genesis of City Post Church.

  521. And then we, you know, started with a Bible study.

  522. And what about like 8 of us and walked through Nehemiah and

  523. created like a blueprint. And just like I said, trying to

  524. figure out I, I didn't have like training or which I wish I did.

  525. If you're a church planner like it's, it's OK.

  526. To get help, absolutely. And we all need it.

  527. Even when I plan. I grew up in church, you know,

  528. and, and I think us as church planters and preachers and

  529. pastors and people who are gifted, just because you're

  530. gifted doesn't mean that you're called to plant.

  531. That's so true. I'll say that again, somebody,

  532. just because you're gifted at preaching, you're gifted at

  533. leading worship, whatever you're gifting is doesn't mean that

  534. you're called to plant. And I think you said something

  535. right now that I would highly recommend you do before you

  536. plant, take a break. You said, you know, you were

  537. going to take three months off. And that's exactly what me and

  538. my wife did. You know, 'cause when you're in

  539. church, man, you're, you're in church.

  540. When you're serving, you're serving all the time and you

  541. never truly get a chance to take a break.

  542. And so when my wife and I decided that we were going to

  543. come back to Fort Worth, our, our hope was not to come back

  544. and plant. Our hope was just to come back

  545. and help my dad again with this trash.

  546. And, and So what we did was we took three months off.

  547. We took three months off. And did you know when you're,

  548. when you're in church man, you don't get to go visit any other?

  549. Church. No, he's always on.

  550. Yeah, he's always on. You always got to be there.

  551. And so for three months we we went to visit other churches,

  552. churches that we always wanted to go to on a Sunday morning,

  553. but we never could. So, you know, we went to Upper

  554. Room and we went to Fellowship and we went to a bunch of the

  555. big churches, right. Like we want to see how the big

  556. machines work, you know, like, you know, yeah, yeah, we just

  557. wanted to go see. We want to see how it worked.

  558. And I remember that that was like one of the best times for

  559. me and my wife because we didn't, we didn't have the

  560. obligation to serve. We didn't have the obligation

  561. to, hey, come back and help us with this and this and this.

  562. I mean, I got antsy at a bunch of churches that I went to, you

  563. know, like they're like, hey man, can you come help?

  564. And I'm just like, we got to leave.

  565. Like I got to go. And it was like that.

  566. So, but I remember it was like one of the best times and, and

  567. me and my wife still have notes from all the churches that we

  568. went to, like all the churches that we like, oh, we loved this

  569. and this was great here and this and this, this.

  570. And then we wrote like, don't judge us, but we wrote stuff

  571. that we didn't like. You know, we wrote stuff like I

  572. felt like I was like we were being herded, like like in some

  573. churches that didn't feel too genuine.

  574. Like, you know, you know, there's a story, man enough.

  575. I didn't want to get in trouble for saying it.

  576. But there is a big church that we went to.

  577. OK. And I'm not going to say the

  578. name. What does it rhyme with?

  579. It was it was really, it was an amazing church.

  580. It's a church that I had always wanted to visit.

  581. And, you know, there's humongous parking lot, humongous

  582. sanctuary. And I was like, man, like we've

  583. never been here, waited years to come to this church on a Sunday

  584. morning. And we walk in and the greeter

  585. comes up to me and he goes, on behalf of the blah, blah, blah

  586. of this house, I just want to welcome you.

  587. And the restrooms are this way and the kids area is that way.

  588. And the sanctuary will be seating in a few minutes.

  589. Thank you. And I was just like, what's your

  590. name? And it was like, it wasn't James

  591. script. Yeah, it was a script.

  592. And I remember leaving there and be like, and the but the service

  593. was phenomenal, right? Like I love the service,

  594. preaching, worship, everything was amazing.

  595. But I remember. But like, and I just didn't feel

  596. like and authenticity here. I didn't feel like, I didn't

  597. feel like we were welcomed as family.

  598. We just herded like cattle and so, so that was one of the best

  599. times. So if you are considering being

  600. a church plant, I would recommend me highly.

  601. I would recommend take time off, spend time with your family,

  602. spend time with your kids, because once you jump in, there

  603. ain't no pause button. Yeah, there's no pause, but

  604. Sunday is always coming. I think that's what we should

  605. call this first Sunday. Sunday and Sunday's coming.

  606. That's right. That's so true.

  607. No, And I'm glad you said that because even when we started

  608. meeting for Bible study, I mean, we met on Sundays at 5 and Rach

  609. and I like we didn't go to any other churches, you know, we

  610. waited for that Bible study. So our Sunday mornings were

  611. empty. Like so we we hung out together

  612. and, you know, we just had Elena.

  613. So we were able to, you know, just kind of be the new mom and

  614. dad, you know, and, and just live life for a little while

  615. and, and that actually helped us to breathe and then also like to

  616. seek the Lord because it's, it's really when, when you have that

  617. calling on your life, you're like, OK, we're playing the

  618. church, I think. And, and this is not to

  619. anybody's fault. It's just, it could be human

  620. nature. You start thinking about like

  621. you just start looking on YouTube where you start to like,

  622. OK, what can this thing look like?

  623. And, and instead of just saying, OK, Lord, what are you?

  624. Where are you guiding us to? Like what people who instead of

  625. like having those thoughts, you think of the service.

  626. It's like, Nah, man, it's like the beginning.

  627. It's it's like, no, like where are you guiding us?

  628. And I know for us at City Post, we said central N, So central N

  629. is like river, Riverside, Diamond Hill, Northside.

  630. So at first we were like, we're going to just focus all our time

  631. and efforts in central North because we feel like that's

  632. where the Lord is having us. And then over time, you know, he

  633. directed us to to Riverside, but but we just started serving,

  634. like we were just feeding people, hanging out with people,

  635. feeding football teams, working in schools.

  636. Like we were just everywhere, like all over that place asking

  637. the Lord, like, OK, Lord, where, where is it?

  638. Where do you want us? I love that.

  639. Yeah, it was so after we came off of our like months of

  640. looking around and just going to churches that we like because to

  641. be honest, I I had never visited anywhere else.

  642. Yeah, ever. And so that that was the first

  643. time that me and my wife got to go do it.

  644. And like I said, me and my wife are, we're worshippers.

  645. Like we got to have the music off.

  646. We got to have this stuff going to do it and we have to be.

  647. So I was like, I don't even know.

  648. I don't think me and my wife could just have a Sunday off.

  649. We just like because we love the atmosphere of being in worship

  650. and being in corporate worship together.

  651. And I think we've always loved that.

  652. And so when we finally came back, our hope was, you know,

  653. the church is great. Like it's, that's amazing.

  654. And we launched in 2020, we launched in COVID.

  655. So we're like, we, we can't even have service if we wanted to,

  656. you know, like, and so that's where we sat down and said, OK,

  657. we, we know what kind of atmosphere we want.

  658. We know what kind of culture we want, but we don't want to be a

  659. church that's an inward looking church.

  660. And so our hope was how do, how do we reach people right now in

  661. this season without being able to gather?

  662. We can't gather, you know, like, and so we just started hitting

  663. Diamond Hill area because that's what we planted because my dad

  664. was a pastor in Diamond Hill for years and years.

  665. And he had a building. And so we went there with my dad

  666. and my dad was like, you know, hey, I'm too old to start over.

  667. You know, the world's over, the world's over.

  668. I can't start over. You take the ball and run with

  669. it. So we said, well, that's not

  670. fair. How how are we going to take

  671. over? And we can't even gather right

  672. now. So, so kind of the same story,

  673. you know, reach out to a lot of my really good friends, people

  674. that I had done ministry with before and loved them.

  675. And I remember telling them I was like, but we're not going to

  676. be a church that just looks inside.

  677. We can't be yeah, especially not right now.

  678. Got to be outreach. And so we, we started just doing

  679. little outreaches around Diamond Hill where we could actually

  680. reach people. And so one of our first

  681. outreaches was, you know, we went to the laundry mat that's

  682. down the street from us, and we gave out dryer sheets and soap.

  683. And we'd be like, you know, hey, here you go, man, we love you.

  684. We're from the church down the street.

  685. And we'd hand it to them and we'd be like, you know, and

  686. yeah, yeah, yeah. Just take.

  687. That and then and then just threw it in Rand.

  688. Yeah. And so then we have our first

  689. Easter as as a church and it's 2020.

  690. We can't gather, we can't do anything.

  691. So we we're like, how do we touch the community?

  692. And so we went to a three thrift store and we bought hundreds of

  693. Easter baskets, hundreds of them, and we just filled them up

  694. with eggs. And what we did is in Diamond

  695. Hill, we just went around every single house and we put a bag

  696. basket full of eggs in their front yard and say we can't

  697. gather but have an Easter egg hunt on us.

  698. And so we would do that. And so whenever the doors open

  699. in 2021, our church just got flooded, just packed with people

  700. in. And I think COVID did a lot in

  701. that in the church that year, because I feel like it gave

  702. people an opportunity who had been wanting to find some place

  703. near to actually go someplace near.

  704. And so when our doors open, it just flooded with people.

  705. That's great. Go fast.

  706. And but at the same time, we didn't want to.

  707. It's been and it's so easy to just become an internal looking

  708. church. And so our heart just continued

  709. with outreach. And, but everything that we had

  710. learned from those 90 days of just me and my wife going to

  711. these other churches and looking is like we're welcome.

  712. We're welcoming people in now. Now what?

  713. What do we want them to walk into?

  714. And so, so for those of you who think that church planting is

  715. just preaching and the service on Sunday morning, it's a lot

  716. more than that because everything matters when they

  717. walk into your, to the, the church plant that you're

  718. offering, everything matters. And I don't know about you man,

  719. but I've heard so many people say like, they'll come to your

  720. church plant or they'll come to your church.

  721. And like I said, we're going all the way off script right now,

  722. but they'll say stuff like, I want something that's just a

  723. little bit more established. And that's, that's almost like

  724. sometimes like that's the biggest heartbreak ever because

  725. you're like, I wish people would understand.

  726. Like we're not established. We just we don't have all the

  727. bells and whistles. Right, that's right.

  728. And and to your point about like understanding what's the church

  729. that we want to be, because I know when we went into the

  730. middle, we were meeting at Charles Nash Elementary School.

  731. RIP, they're shutting them down. But anyway, thanks forward.

  732. But when we got in there, our heart was for the city and we

  733. one of our our ministry verses was Jeremiah 29 seven, which

  734. was, you know, seek the welfare of the city, pray to the Lord on

  735. its behalf, because in its welfare or well-being you 2 will

  736. find it. So we were asking ourselves,

  737. what does it look like for us to seek the well-being of the city?

  738. And then also like Mark 1516, preach the gospel to all

  739. creation. So like, what does it look like

  740. for the gospel to revitalize dead places?

  741. And we wanted to use our money for that.

  742. And so we decided early on that we weren't going to spend a lot

  743. of money on things that we're going to be hard to sustain.

  744. So, and I know I'm going to get in trouble for saying this, but

  745. I'm going to say it. Let's go.

  746. So we are not going to do pipe and drape.

  747. Come on. People are like, this gym is

  748. huge and there's only like a few of us and it's going to feel so

  749. out of whack. And Oh well, like, you know, I'm

  750. saying like that's not that we're not trying to build.

  751. We we're not trying to attract church coers.

  752. We want, we want make disciples. So a lot of like the money we

  753. bring, bring in, yeah, we used it for equipment stuff we need,

  754. but the rest of it went out to feed people, work on the art

  755. court, you know, revitalize places people aren't eating and

  756. COVID, bro. Like that was a, you know, like

  757. we, we went to Greenwood Greenway, which is a

  758. neighborhood by Charles and Ash. And we just went and gave people

  759. groceries. Like we knocked on their door

  760. and people are just hungry for human interaction.

  761. And so so decide. But we had a lot of people stick

  762. their head in that gym. Oh, you guys do new church and

  763. they look around and be like, never saw them again.

  764. You know, they're like, yeah, ain't about this life.

  765. They're like, where's your kids ministry?

  766. Oh, just follow up, Miss Eileen. They're going to the portable

  767. right now. So there wasn't anything because

  768. we were just building. We're just trying to figure out,

  769. but that's, that's who we wanted to be.

  770. So it wasn't that we were not organized.

  771. I'm not like, don't hear me. Like we had a plan.

  772. We had teams, we had trainings, but it was on the the external

  773. piece that we were like, you know what, that could wait.

  774. No, absolutely, man. And that's that's why I said you

  775. should go into church planting with a plant, right?

  776. And that was really that that three months that me and my wife

  777. went out. It's like we were trying to

  778. create a plan, like what does it look like?

  779. What is necessary and what is not necessary?

  780. And so it's like one of the biggest things that we learned

  781. was, you know, kids ministry you have to have.

  782. You got to. You have to have a kids

  783. ministry, must your, your facilities has to be able to

  784. withhold kids ministry, you know, a place for people to

  785. gather some sanctuary. And then one of the biggest ones

  786. that we flew under the radar that we weren't ready for was

  787. parking. That was the biggest one.

  788. And for those of you who are planting a church and you're

  789. doing it in your house, it's not going to last very long because

  790. people can't park. And if they can't park, they

  791. would just drive away and. They're not going to park three

  792. blocks away. And so that was that was the

  793. biggest one. It was like our parking lot was

  794. really small, very, very small. And so when the doors flooded

  795. open in 2021, we only had like 20 parking spots.

  796. And so I remember our team was like, we had an amazing team and

  797. we still have an amazing team. They were literally playing

  798. Tetris with all these cars in our 20 parking lot, parking lot.

  799. And, and I would always get the the news like, yeah, man, we had

  800. like 15 cars pulled in. They couldn't park till they

  801. just left. And, and so for those of you who

  802. wanted to plant churches, I'll say it again, everything

  803. matters. All of it matters.

  804. And but this is how you know that you're called to it because

  805. you care everything you care. You don't just care about your

  806. preaching on Sunday. You care about how's it going in

  807. the kids? How's it going in the welcome?

  808. Like, how's is the parking lot packed?

  809. Like, what do we got to do? You care.

  810. And that's that's what a shepherd is.

  811. A shepherd is not just a guy who stands up on the platform and

  812. says, Hey, look at this really cool preaching that I I made.

  813. No, it's like I checked up on my kids ministry.

  814. I checked up on the parking lot team.

  815. I checked up on everybody because they're all the people

  816. that the Lord has given to me. He's he's trusting me with.

  817. That and so, and I think that there's another element that we

  818. haven't talked about, like when you talk about like church

  819. planners, is this, am I giving God the best that I have come

  820. on? And the thing with church

  821. planning is that it's really easy to get into a space and

  822. say, we're not even going to be here that long.

  823. We're going to be here for like a year.

  824. So let's just do bare minimum. And we're going to we're going

  825. to skim on things because I'm saving for a bigger space.

  826. And I know I was convicted and when we moved into, we found a

  827. little liquidation store in 2021, had no business being in

  828. there. We hustled our way in.

  829. But I remember when we first started, I was looking around

  830. and like we had our speaker set up and cables everywhere.

  831. And I just felt like this is the Lord's house.

  832. It doesn't matter where. It's like the presence of God is

  833. going to gather here. Is this the best I could give as

  834. a pastor? And the answer was no.

  835. I was like, I could do much better.

  836. And I was like, so like, man, you work hard, you know, and

  837. it's and, and nobody, people are not going to understand that

  838. unless they pastor, you know. Yeah.

  839. And I think that's that's one of our biggest thing is, is it's

  840. not even just, I don't know about you, man, but I, I still

  841. do this. Like sometimes I just, I just

  842. walk through the sanctuary and I'm looking at stuff and I'm

  843. like, man, we could do better with that.

  844. We have to fix this. We can do that.

  845. And it's not that we're being nitpicky and it's not that we're

  846. being perfectionist, but I think I understand is like, this is

  847. not my house. And I think that that happens a

  848. lot. Like, this is not mine.

  849. Like I can't just be like, yo, I just throw my shoes wherever I

  850. want to. Like, it's my house nose.

  851. Like this is still the Lord's house.

  852. And. And I think that that urgency,

  853. that sense of urgency between pastors is vital because if I

  854. don't honor the Lord's house, if I don't, there's cables

  855. everywhere, but I don't really care.

  856. It doesn't matter then then the rest of your team will feel like

  857. that. And so.

  858. Yeah. And, and I think one of the

  859. most, most dangerous things that you can say as as a a church

  860. planner, as a pastor is it's not that serious, you know, and,

  861. and, and that is, yeah, yeah, it's like, so when you look at

  862. something like, you know, that's not that serious.

  863. It's like we would get over it. And that's very dangerous

  864. because then that begins to bleed into the culture of your

  865. church. And.

  866. And we want to give God our best.

  867. And so, and I just, I think that's something that people

  868. don't really understand. It's not that, Oh my gosh, like

  869. we're trying to get people in here.

  870. No, dude, the Lord does that. Yeah.

  871. But it is. You want to honor the Lord.

  872. It's like leading with that fear of God.

  873. And I want to give God the best I have.

  874. Yeah, that's what I said. And that's why when anything

  875. concerning the Lord, anything concerning His and never want to

  876. say, no, it's not that serious. Yes, because it still belongs to

  877. him. Exactly.

  878. Every every chair, every pants, every cable, every speaker,

  879. every classroom, it all belongs to him.

  880. And then I'm like, no, it's not that serious.

  881. Like that's that's a terrible like that.

  882. Like when you said that right now, it's like, oh, like,

  883. because I've heard that before, you know.

  884. And so, yeah, I just want to encourage you guys as church

  885. planters like me and Ricky are talking right now.

  886. But this is how I know that Ricky is called the plant and

  887. I'm called the plant because all of it matters not because it's a

  888. presentation. It's not a presentation to

  889. people. It's the Lords.

  890. And we want to Stewart what the Lord gives us.

  891. The Lord doesn't just give us people, but he's giving us.

  892. Resources. Yeah, everything.

  893. Chairs, speakers, cables, everything.

  894. He's given it to us, but it all comes from him.

  895. And so when I say stuff like it's not that serious, yeah,

  896. then the Lord's like, why can't trust you with anything, right?

  897. Yeah, because you don't take it that serious.

  898. And so that's why I know that I'm called.

  899. That's how I know Ricky's called.

  900. Because, yeah, we don't just we're not just worried about how

  901. many people are showing up on Sunday.

  902. We care about all of it. We care about every single piece

  903. of it because it all belongs to the Lord at the end.

  904. Oh, man, that's great, bro. Yeah.

  905. So like, I guess if there's a a young pastor, a young church

  906. planner, if there's somebody that is thinking about getting

  907. in the ministry role, what would be maybe something that you

  908. would tell them that might be like a hidden, like a snake in

  909. the grass or something that they might not see to be aware of?

  910. Yeah, I would say if you feel like you're having this call to

  911. become a church planter or pastor, The biggest thing that

  912. I've learned for myself, and we've talked about this before,

  913. Ricky, the call of pastor is the call to die.

  914. That's so good. That's what it's called.

  915. The the pastor is called to die, the shepherd is called to die.

  916. And and that's straight from the voice of Jesus.

  917. Jesus said, I am the Good Shepherd.

  918. And the Good Shepherd lays down his life for the sheep.

  919. That's right. And so when you call yourself,

  920. when you put that label of shepherd on you, the Jesus only

  921. represents one kind of shepherd and it's the Good Shepherd.

  922. And so when you say I'm going to become a shepherd, your whole

  923. job is to mirror the Good Shepherd.

  924. And so if you're not prepared to die to yourself, if you're not

  925. prepared to die to your pride and your unforgiveness and die

  926. to this celebrity mindset and sexy preaching, if you're not

  927. prepared to die to that, the Lord will put somebody else

  928. there that will do it. And that's, that's been my

  929. biggest take away from from doing this.

  930. This, that's the snake in the grass, is you have to learn to

  931. die to yourself more than everybody else in your church.

  932. And if you're not ready to do that, then what you're going to

  933. do is you're going to end up hurting yourself and you will

  934. hurt people. That's true.

  935. That's what will happen because you didn't want to die to

  936. yourself, even though the Good Shepherd is supposed to lay down

  937. his life. That's good, man.

  938. Yeah, and I think for me as I'm as I'm listening to that

  939. because, man, I love it. You said that a lot of people

  940. think like died of my sin. I was like, yeah, but you're

  941. talking about dying to your dreams, your wants, your future

  942. plans. I would even say you're saying,

  943. Lord, my kids belong to you. So whatever you want to do with

  944. them, you can do it. Like that's that, that gives me

  945. ghost pimples, bro. But it's, it's but when I think

  946. something to be aware of, like I think some of that the Lord's

  947. been showing me lately is that I wish I would have known earlier

  948. is anything that causes division.

  949. So as you're planning your church and as you're anything

  950. that divides the body, you got to attack it.

  951. You you have to go after it and you have to eliminate it because

  952. you know, Jesus says the world's going to know that y'all belong

  953. to me by how you love each other.

  954. And then we see it all through Scripture like there's nothing

  955. greater than a United Church. So if there's something in the

  956. church that is causing a division, you have got to go

  957. after it, you know, and it could be anything.

  958. It could be like something somebody said.

  959. I mean, it could be like equipment sound like.

  960. I think the enemy uses anything, anything to just infiltrate the

  961. body of Christ, to cause people to fight each other.

  962. And I think that's the that's the biggest thing, man.

  963. Even you you saying that is because it's the passage job.

  964. Yeah, it's the separate job. And I think that even as church

  965. planters, this was this is a really big immaturity of mine

  966. when I first started. But it was like, why can't we

  967. all just be happy? Like, why can't we all just have

  968. a good time? Yeah, exactly.

  969. But it, but it was just like, like, I I didn't want to be

  970. confrontational. I didn't want to have to do that

  971. because I was just like, oh, we're barely growing.

  972. Like we're barely starting, but I didn't know that it was the

  973. Lord testing me to say like, there's a wolf in there and the

  974. only one who can get the wolf out.

  975. It's not the sheep. That's true.

  976. It's the shepherd. The shepherd has to get it out

  977. because the wolf is what causes division.

  978. The wolf is what causes fear in the church.

  979. That's the wolf. And the only person who can

  980. knock it out is the shepherd. And so the Good Shepherd has to

  981. go in there and lay down his life.

  982. That's right. And take out the wolf.

  983. And I mean, division is a big thing, man.

  984. Even when you first start, some people think that, Some people

  985. think it's, you know, years down the line, no.

  986. It's right away. Like it's, it's immediately,

  987. yeah. 'Cause everybody, everybody or

  988. people think like, I can do it better, I can do it better.

  989. And we have to understand, it's like we're called to die when we

  990. do this. And even like people that come

  991. into the church, we've had this happen a few times where it's

  992. like, oh, this poor little Hispanic church, they don't know

  993. what they're doing. They're so, and, and you know, I

  994. heard that there's a term like they call them pirates, you

  995. know, but they'll come in and then just start kind of like

  996. whispering stuff into people's ears and like trying to like

  997. infiltrate leadership and, and try to lead you in a different

  998. direction. You're like, hold on a second.

  999. You know, it's like, no, no, no, no, like we, we know what's

  1000. going on. So you as a pastor, you have to

  1001. fight that and you can't just like like how you said that

  1002. because I was like that too, where no, let's just, you know,

  1003. be kind, you know, then you're like, no, you have to like call

  1004. that out. And we've had to do that a few

  1005. times. And it gets easier as you go.

  1006. It's hard at first. And that's why it's sometimes

  1007. it's the worst like feeling. But now I'm starting to learn

  1008. like, I thank the Lord for that stuff because I think the Lord

  1009. that he provokes us as shepherds to, to actually step in because

  1010. he's, he's, he's literally asking you, will you take care

  1011. of the sheep that I gave you? And he's provoking you to

  1012. actually take a stand and do something.

  1013. And we're like, oh, like we, we just started like, I don't want

  1014. to, I don't want to mess this up.

  1015. And but what it's done for me, it's given me a boldness to, to

  1016. love the Lord's sheep. Like that's what it's done.

  1017. It's given me a courage to be like, no, we're like, we're not

  1018. going to allow that in here. And and we call it out fast.

  1019. We don't, we don't just like, like what let's let's play this

  1020. out. This, this, this I, I have

  1021. gotten a boldness to where I'm like, I've seen this before.

  1022. Oh yeah. And now I can address it a lot

  1023. quicker than I used to because before it was like, well, let's

  1024. just see. Let's just see what if they if

  1025. they keep doing it or let's just see if that those words keep

  1026. going. But now it's like, oh, I've seen

  1027. this before and I know how to stop it.

  1028. I know how to grab the staff and be like, hey, this is not this

  1029. is not happening. Yeah.

  1030. And. I and I'll give you an example,

  1031. like we had a lady come in like a year and a half ago, but she

  1032. just started showing up out of nowhere.

  1033. And then she just like came into like our, our Sunday morning

  1034. prayer meetings. But if something was off, like

  1035. we could all sense it. Like my spirit kind of felt it

  1036. said some off off the wall things.

  1037. And then, you know, try to sell some of her books.

  1038. And like, I looked at her website and it was very like,

  1039. like America, you know, like, yeah, like Christian

  1040. nationalist. And.

  1041. But my final straw was that she showed up.

  1042. We had our next steps class for people that wanted to join the

  1043. church. And she just like, pops in there

  1044. and hasn't been coming very long.

  1045. It's like, how do you like, there's some.

  1046. And I just asked her. I was like, hey, you know, this

  1047. is for people that are serious about getting to know our

  1048. church, so I'm going to have to ask you to go.

  1049. And I was like, but you come to our service.

  1050. It's just like these meetings are for that.

  1051. Yeah. She never came back again.

  1052. Yeah. And I think she finally, like,

  1053. realized, All right, I, I can't do what I want here, you know?

  1054. No, absolutely. And there there's those people

  1055. that do that man, and they bounce from church to church.

  1056. Yeah, that's true. And they're, they're looking for

  1057. a place where they, where they will be, and I hate to use this

  1058. term, but a place where they, their giftings will be

  1059. entertained and that. And it's like, and then you come

  1060. to like a church plant and like all they need me here.

  1061. That's right. I could.

  1062. I could blow this thing. Yeah.

  1063. Yeah. And and so that's why even as a

  1064. young church planter, I, I thank the Lord for those opportunities

  1065. because it's like he's giving you a chance to be a shepherd.

  1066. He really is. He's giving you an opportunity

  1067. to be a shepherd, to take care of everybody else in the church.

  1068. And I had something not similar, but something that happened like

  1069. that in our church plant as well.

  1070. And I had to had to give correction in a way where it was

  1071. in a loving way, but it was firm.

  1072. And I remember, I remember calling my wife after I did

  1073. that. And I was like, yeah, I just

  1074. told him like, they can't do that.

  1075. And they if they if they don't like that, then they they would

  1076. have to go. And they were like, and they

  1077. just hung up. And I told my wife I was just

  1078. like, I'm like after I, after I had done that first initial

  1079. confrontation, I told my wife, like, man, I wish somebody else

  1080. would get out of line now, like. Because I'm ready now.

  1081. I'm. Ready now, like because I guess

  1082. it was that first one, first implementation that you're like,

  1083. you know, like I didn't know it was going to come so soon.

  1084. And then you do it. You're like, alright, Lord, like

  1085. now I feel, and now I feel like you've given me a staff.

  1086. Like now I feel like, like you've given me the authority to

  1087. do that. And because you forget like,

  1088. like if and so I'll say this, and I know we're about to cut it

  1089. off here, but I'll say this for those of you who are church

  1090. planters, you understand the weight of all this.

  1091. So the weight of this is when the church does well, people say

  1092. that's a great church. When the church doesn't do well,

  1093. people say that's not a good pastor.

  1094. So I'll say that again. So you understand why.

  1095. Yeah, when the church does well, people will say, man, that is a

  1096. great church over there. They're doing great things.

  1097. But when the church does not do well, what they will say is.

  1098. The pastor's not doing great. Yeah.

  1099. It's, it always rises and falls with leadership.

  1100. And if your eyes are not on Jesus the entire time, Oh yeah,

  1101. the church is not going to do well and all the eyes will be on

  1102. you. And so I need, I just want to

  1103. encourage you guys right now as you are planning to plant a

  1104. church, are you praying about planting a church?

  1105. Me and Ricky are already in it. I've been in it six years.

  1106. Ricky's been in IT 8, right? And we're just telling you what

  1107. we've already seen already, and I want to encourage you.

  1108. Is your eyes on Jesus or is it on the platform?

  1109. That's good bro. Is your eyes on serving the Lord

  1110. and being a shepherd or is it being a star on Instagram or a

  1111. star on Facebook or having, you know, reels about yourself?

  1112. Like you need to really check your heart and check yourself.

  1113. And I can say, Lord, is this something that you're calling me

  1114. to? Because if you're calling me to

  1115. it, it's going to make me look more like you.

  1116. It's going to make me look more like the Good Shepherd.

  1117. It's going to cause me to die to myself more and more and more.

  1118. And I guess I, I could finish this with with this question to

  1119. you is like, Are you ready to die?

  1120. Yeah, yeah. And I mean all I got.

  1121. I love what you said and I really give your life and last

  1122. thing and then we'll pray. Just remember Colossians one

  1123. Jesus says I'm the head of the church.

  1124. So what Chris says, right? It's like, is this going to make

  1125. you look more like Christ or make you look more like

  1126. something else? And remember, anything without a

  1127. head is dead, but anything with two heads is a monster, so.

  1128. Say that again. Yeah, I mean, anything without a

  1129. head is dead, but anything with two heads is a monster.

  1130. So if Jesus is the head of the church, it's not you and Jesus

  1131. that the church belongs to, it's Christ.

  1132. So Chris and I both understand. Like, because we're going to die

  1133. to ourselves. Freedom Church is not Christmas

  1134. church, right? City Post is not Ricky's church.

  1135. Yeah. It all belongs to Christ.

  1136. Yeah. And we follow his Lordship.

  1137. Amen. So, man, when with that.

  1138. This was good, bro. Yeah, bro.

  1139. You want to pray us out? Yeah, let's pray.

  1140. Let's pray. Lord, I thank you.

  1141. I thank you for this opportunity that I just get to sit here with

  1142. my brother. Yeah.

  1143. And talk about your goodness, Lord, and how you're challenging

  1144. us and how you're taking us from one level to another level,

  1145. Lord. And Lord, I ask you that you

  1146. would just keep our eyes on you, keep our hearts towards you.

  1147. Lord, I thank you for anybody who watches this.

  1148. Lord, I ask you that it would build them up, that it would

  1149. edify them, that it would challenge them, Lord, to love

  1150. you. Not to be a church planter, not

  1151. to be a pastor, but that they would learn to love you more and

  1152. more and to understand, Lord, that that you are with them and

  1153. you are for them and that you love them.

  1154. So Lord, I thank you for this time.

  1155. We love you and we praise eat in Jesus name, Amen.

  1156. Yeah, man. Love you guys.

  1157. We love you guys.