When It Rains, It Pours. | Elder Shirley Wong

You're listening to a message to go from ex church.

We hope this message will light up your tea today.

My title is when it rains, it pours and then stand.

Therefore you might wanting algally forgot it you're putting the

English English services this morning.

No, I didn't forget.

I intentionally do this because we're Malaysian church, so hence

you will see you're here. So not see you're here

different different multicle naldi languages. Yeah, because we are Malaysian,

most of us here and you are in Malaysia, so

welcome Salama da tongue. If this is your first time

to Malaysia, salamat dat tong Yes, even though my Bahasa

not very good. Uh yeah, I do understand some Malay. Yes.

What who is laughing?

Leona? Yeah? I know why people don't be a long time, right,

They know how good my bahasa is, how good, how

good my bahasa is? So yes, So so I thought,

hey mightsell just let you experience Chinese culture this morning. Yeah,

and part of me if I come up with some

different languages because they're just me.

Yeah.

Just in case you're one dream I'm not from Korea, Okay,

I'm not And you're saying, oh, I'm not from Korea ya,

and I'm not from Japan as well. Yeah, I'm not.

I'm definitely not from China. Okay, I'm not. I'm Malaysian.

Recently I walked into a China Chinese restaurant and the

moment are start speaking and the boss you're so happy,

you know, she said, ted a going, So don't go,

she said, Well, the moment.

I knew, I knew, I know you're from China.

She was like, I finally met someone from my homeland.

They were like, so I should I disappoint her or

should I just no? Should you should have like push it? No? No,

I'm Malaysian. She was shocked. No, push it, Nick things,

you don't worry. You definitely are definitely from China. You're

definitely from China. I said, no, one hundred percent. You

want to see my eye then she she a little

bit disappointed yet, but anyway, yeah, just just in case,

I just in case you're wondering, let's get it all

out of your brain. I don't know what my husband

told you, but let's get it all. And I'm not

half Singaporean. I'm not.

Let me sati straight.

Okay, he goes there everywhere, saying his wife is half Singaporean.

My I see says I'm one hundred percent Malaysian, even

though my mother is from Singapore. But I'm not Singaporean, okay,

just in case. No no, no, no, no no, nothing

bad about Singapore. No, it's a great country. Yeah, that's

where my half of my family comes from.

But I'm Malaitia. Okay, I'm not Malaysia.

Okay. So yes, So the title is when it rains

it pours. Yeah, so what is what it means? What

does it mean?

You know, I don't know what you think about this title.

But when I was preparing this, when I first prepared this,

this this message, and then I found out how how

it's phrased in Chinese.

How many of you reach Chinese?

S Let me see the hands, Oh they are okay,

So if you can read Chinese, right, you see the

second character. If you can't read Chinese, the second character

has like four dots, right, that is the word rain, Okay, rain.

It's because the Chinese language.

Is very pictorial, so it looks like a picture of

dots like water. Okay. So, but but if you know Chinese,

then yeah, I never knew that when you raise it

pause its being translated as that.

But and then when I saw that.

In Chinese it says boot you eat eat eat ching pun.

It just sounds foil, That's right. It sounds really poetic.

Seriously when I saw it, or like whoa, it sounds

so poetic and all like whoa, everything is like bit bloo,

like it sounds snow. It's like fluffy, like fluffy rare,

you know, just romantic like but seriously, but if you

look at the English word, when it rains, it pours,

but when I read the Chinese word, it's like fling.

And then if you know me, you know I like

I like singing, you know, like all the songs are

just flying to my my my brain's like what really

fuffy and romantic? You know, I don't know whether you

know this song, but like the first song I came

into my mind, I was like, cous you know, ah

you too, shang da you lost she dum rung rambu

chungo wow like soul wow no or like why all

like you know, like a different era.

Will be like Sun Sun real lad, this show.

You chilly lily, really chilly, really.

Shack a booty why do you know the songs?

You know? You say, and she said that song, You're

right if you know that song, that song is old. Yeah,

but all this God my sister, No, no, no, we

just we just care about history, right yeah, yeah, this

is really nice or like another Cantony song really is

looking to my mind like what I have to share

with you.

It's a this is something like it's like.

Some new too.

Big moulder and ja this has come out.

Susan's is very vi poety, you know, the poerful no

or the other one. They wanna show you this one,

I show you this one. I'm gonna show you how

can how can wait?

What one s are?

I can? Oh? Tea oh bello ama no no no no.

They were not very They're not very romantic.

You know.

The one sounds a bit sad, sounds bit sad. They

want no no no. The other one no one you

can stand under my umbrella, Ella, Ella. I do not

know why, but this one is just flooding into my heads,

not including what's going on. I'm like, what's going on?

But I s you can't see.

Uh.

That's how my brain thinks. That's how God speak to

me sometimes as well. And oh yeah, just gets used

to you. I'm sorry if you if you're hearing me

from firs. No, you are hearing the first time. I'm

a vest for speaker, so I don't know how to say.

Look yeah, turn left, all right, yeah, just yeah, Sorry

if I offend you, Sorry if you think I'm not

holy enough, but I do. I do listen to worship songs. Yes,

but just when I saw this was romantic. But you see,

if you have lived on planet Earth another enough years,

you would have at least once, at least once gone

through this episode off when it rains, it pause. It

just means when you think it can't get worse, it

just got worse and then got worse and worse and

worse and worse. It's not a good feeling, you know.

And before I shave you one experience, let's just open

the word first. If you say otherwise, this issually litually

never refer to the Bible. Okay, let's look refer to

the Bible now. Okay, Exodus chapter fourteen, verse thirteen to eighteen.

Some of us here might be very familiar with this

uh incident or this record in the Bible. UH. This

is where the people of Israel. They were facing ray sea,

and then and then Pharaoh's army are behind. Oh no,

and the song came out. There can be mirricles when

you believe. No, if you have seen a cartoon bivoria,

so that imagure. So it's see in front, and then

the Pharaohs are me behind.

And then this okay.

Exodus chapter fourteen, verse thirteen to eighteen. Okay, your timesake,

We'll just read this part. And Moses said to the people,

do not be afraid. Stands still and see the salvation

of the Lord, which he will accomplish for you today.

For the Egyptians who you see today, you shall see

again for no more, no more forever, and the Lord

will fight for you, and you shall hold your peace.

Verse fifteen. And the lad say to Moses, why do

you cry to me?

Tell the children is you to go forward?

But lift out your rod and stretch out your hand

over the sea and divide it. And the children of

Israel shall go on dry ground through the midst of

the sea. And I indeed will harden the hearts of

the Egyptians, and they shall follow them. So I will

gain honor over Pharaoh and over all his army, his

charosts and his horsemen. Then the Egyptians shall know that

I am the Lord, when I have gained honor for

myself over Pharaoh, his charosts, and his horsemen. Amen, the

Lord bless the reading of his word, and this will

be my key scripture. Actually today, kee one on this

incident and how it came upt. Let me share with you.

Let me share with you, as I say, if you

lived on Planeta for some years, right, then, if you're honest,

then some of us, if not most of us, would

have had at least one episode of this when they

raise the porse. Let me share with you one of

my most recent ones. Yeah, I have a few rounds,

but the most recent ones was quite recent, maybe about

a month or so ago. So some of you might

have heard that me and my husband got separated. Silence, yeah,

don't awkwards. Yeah, because some some words are going around.

No no, no, no, no no.

Because my house was going through renovations, so started from

an m. Fabruary. Then up to a certain point, we

had to move out from our house because it's two

that's they're gonna do every part of my house, yeah,

the ceiling everywhere. So we had to move out so

that's how. And then and then when we moved out,

I moved to stay with my parents in Charras. I'm

from Churras. And then my husband moved to stay with

this father because mom has gone back to Jesus. Yeah.

So then, then, of course your question be like, oh,

do why don't you stay together?

True? Good question? Bad? My husband said that it be

it'd be more comfortable if you stay with your parents. No,

because there's a room there and all. Yeah, And basically

we just felt that maybe who have thought that after

twenty years of marriage, we could spend some time with

our own family, our own parents. Yeah, we thought, hey,

it's not a bad idea at all. I remember when

I I told my parents that, Mom and dad, I'm

coming to stay with you again. And obviously my previous

room were already occupied by my brothers and things.

So and then I'm coming back.

They cleared that room, not my original room, but in

the other room, they cleared the room, uh, clear off

all the things. And then uh then my dad said, oh, Mama,

oh there's no according in that room. But it's okay, okay,

I'll just take whatever. And then then the next thing

is there's a con it, so my dad for the Wow, yeah,

so how can I reject that right or cannot might

be a good daughter and go back. Yeah so then yeah,

so so so I stayed there. So that's how we

got separated. Okay, it's starting from someone joking said yeah,

they got separated. Then there's just this and the other

leader actually believed.

And it's awkward silence. Then then I said no, no, no,

just joking, just joking.

They had to tell the whole story of like, okay,

that's how that's how rumors start.

No, no, happily married for twenty years and we are

still happily married.

Okay.

And and for you for your for information, I've more back.

He has moved back in, and I have moved back in,

even though it is still being renovated, being renovated. But

but yeah, but but yeah, we were saying apart for

a while and then and then one thur one Thursday,

my mom caught me when I was in the office.

She said, hey, girl, your your brother is not feeling well. Uh, well,

my youngest brother, and then and then said that, oh

he's having fever, throw up last night and then just

don't look well.

So I said, okay, then take came to the doctor,

you know.

So they went to doctor see the GIP and then

GPTD some tests and then say that his blood white

blood cells was very very high the count. And then

doctor said you need to go to the hospital now.

So when I said, oh, doctor said you to go

to the hospital, I said, oh, what so sudden like

suddenly why you know? And then and then my mom

said and the doctor. I said, so, okay, fine, So

we just have to find a hospital that's nearby. And

did the doctor give any reference letter? Then my mom said, yeah,

the doctor give a reference letter. And the doctor said

that you must find a hospital that has this particular department.

I said, oh, what department? Then my mom said hermatology.

I'm like, okay, you might not know what that is.

I know what that is because in year twenty twenty,

my dad was diagnosed with lymphoma cancer and he had

to go to the hermatology. So hermatology is a black

cancer department. So you can imagine what went through my

brain write that day when I heard this from my mom,

like hermatology. Of course, I didn't want to scare my mom,

so I said, okay, let's do it. You know, I said,

So my dad happened to I leave the day they

got my brother checked into the I met to the

hospital and then by then he said he couldn't breathe

and he was very in a very bad state, and

I got on drips. Apparently doctor started antibiotic straight away

and then did a lot of tests. See this gan m,

I asked, and all the class tenth and then realized

that he's and then saw its lungs. It was a

lot of white spots.

That means that.

Probably pneumonia, some things that are not supposed to be

there is that in its lungs. So doctors said, not

sure why, but we need to do further test. Maybe

we need to do another another procedure called uh bronco

bronco scopy, So basically to go into the branches in

your in your lungs and to take out the thing

that is there and to send it for test and

also to clear otherwise it's stuck. He's basically it's all

his whole his lungs, A big part of his lungs

were well stuck with stuff inside.

Yeah, that's why it couldn't breathe. Yeah, so it could

be pneumonia. It could be thinking.

But but the thing is doctor said, we do not

know why, so we had to do this uh procedure

so so so, but the thing is that was Thursday,

right and then but the thing is the earliest he

could do that procedure will be Monday because he had

to be put on g A.

Yeah.

So and the GA team is fully booked until Monday.

So he had Thursday, Friday, Saturday, Sunday, Monday and the

whole time doctor will put him on anti strong antibiotics.

So when I heard that, were like, okay, uh okay,

lots of.

Things are going through my mind because we went to

one around my dad and thankfully my dad uh is

healed now as it's under control, and the whole journey, says,

if I have time to share with you the whole journey,

God just brought my dad much closer to him that

his heart is open to Jesus even more than before.

You know, are really really thankful. So so yeah, that

was my brother then then so me and my husband,

of course we ran to the hospital and to check

on my my brother, and I being the older sister,

I want to talk to the doctor because I want

to ask him all the questions and get all my answers.

Not to say I don't trust my mom and a that,

but just I knew exactly what I wanted to ask,

and I want to and I want some answers, you know.

So I made it a point to go to the

hospital doctor, doctors, and nurse and you know, it can

be very hectic. But the thing is, I really saw

God's hand moving. Uh there are a lot of details

that really just show that Goddess with me. Yeah. So

that was Thursday Friday. And then of course, okay, we wait,

like we wait, we prayed. Then I thought my mom.

My mom knew what that means actually, so she was

very but of course she didn't tell me. And we say, Mom,

we pray, Okay, we pray, we trust God, you know,

we'll pray. And then so to and fro hospital tiring

of course, you know, and then me and my husband

not staying in the same place, and uh, yeah, I

just makes the logistic a bit more challenging, you know,

if you want to know what I mean, those who

are married, you know, it's just more difficult, because yeah,

just more difficult. And came Sunday. Sunday, as usually I

was in church I was serving. I was preaching in

x man Gene, and then came after that when brunch

and evening came, then Sunday, from evening right my life

earl started to like being blocked.

Yeah, And I didn't know why. I thought, hmmm, it

just yeah.

I just thought maybe it was just unblocked later, but

I didn't even from back towards. It was so blocked

by the time I finished my dinner that night, and

then by the time I hit my bed, it was

so blocked, like one hundred percent. I could not hear

my left ear and it was not just blocked but painful,

and the pain turned to trobbing pain through the night.

It was so this whole part was hot and painful.

My neck all was painful. I remember lying down.

They were like, God, what is happening here?

I'm so tired, But I could not sleep because of

throbbing pains. And I had sharp pain in my ear

before due to my sinus infection. I had that sharp

pain was like every three seconds anita was piercing my

ear jump. It was very painful that I kept cheering.

I remember I cried my way to the doctor at

that time. That was due to infection. But this time

around it was different. It was a throbbing pain. No,

it's like, I don't explaining, it's just hot. And then

the whole part was very painful. It's not a needle,

but it's like a whole punch again and again.

I remember that now crowded, I said, God, you're gonna

hear me. I need to sleep now. I don't know

how I slap, but I guess I didn't sleep much.

But I woke up the next day in the morning,

I feel like throwing up because it turned to my

grain neity. It's just very painful. And I remember I

told my mom Mom, and that same morning was the

morning that my brother was supposed to do the bronco scopy.

In the morning, I said, Mom, I need to see

the doctor now. Then Mom said, oh, okay, I said,

but we need to go and see my brother later. Okay,

So if I come at it, then maybe get another

brother to bring you or grab that or something like that,

because I really need to the doctor because I'm not

feeling well. So I drove out to my mom's parents'

house nearby and went to this doctor that I normally

see before I got married. Talk about half an hour

to fire parking. That mana bed, that was bad traffic.

I went to the clinic. I look at the clinic. Wow,

after twenty years, twenty overur years, it didn't change a

single bit. You look like the same same no egcon

same same, like what happened.

But there's a very popular doctor.

And that morning at least fifteen sixteen patients were sitting there.

You're all there, all there like a war zone. Seriously,

I walked in there.

I'm like, never changed this clinic. I went to the nurse.

I gave my icy, and the nurse so my icy

got a shock because my icy is a got companying

charlam and she said, is this your current current address?

I said yeah.

She must be thinking, why is this lady.

Coming all the way from Guata communing to Charras to

see doctor.

I said, yeah, I need to see doctor now. Yeah.

But I remember I was so there for a while,

like no, I don't think I can make it because

I felt like I'm gonna throw up anytime, and I

felt like I'm gonna I'm gonna faint anytime. Then look

at the fifteen sixteen people in from me. You're like, no,

I didn't gonna. I think I'm gonna I might die

inside here like they was like, there could related waste

Gota comany oh no gem cavana. Okay, fine, I will

drive the Guta community. Fine.

Finally, long story shot, I drove.

The Gold company, saw my doctor current doctor now in

Gota company. Took the medicine. He said basically check me

and say okay. So they blocked and me in pain

because you are having or titiest media. I'm like, what

is that social media? I know, yeah, flat fish media.

I know what is what is all titist media? So basically,

it's just an infection of my middle ear. So my

middle ear has fluid inside and that's why it's infected

and blocked and in pain. I'm like, then, what you're

gonna puck it and i'n block it or what? He said, No,

you're gonna be on antibiotics, but it's gonna be a

slow process because they are less black vessel near our ears,

so it would take a long time, long time for

the for the for the antibodies to take effect.

I'm like, okay, I took it, but I feel like

chowing up.

No hold, I'm sorry for being so graphical, but I

feel like showing up, like all am I gonna do?

You know? Finally, seriously, I went straight to a nearby place,

nearby shopping mall, went to the bath, went through up

after I bought some biscuit, bought some water, Take the biscuit,

drink water, take the antibodics, and goup it down and

try to hold it in because I still feel that

traying up. And they're like, okay, let's driving back. I

tell you that drive back that day, that one fine

day when I'm thinking my brother is not he's doing broncoscopy?

How is he now?

Why is gonna happen?

And then I feel like chowing up?

And that money was so hot. I was driving since

I don't know know why after I threw up, and

I felt so fotike, you know, and I felt like

any moment, if I close my eyes for two seconds,

I'm gonna fall asleep. I don't know whether it's fainting

or just very weak. You know, I was driving there,

of course, I'm going, where is your old bar ritually? Where?

Why didn't you ask him to fetch you? I said,

because that day he had a training, external external training,

so he couldn't be with me, And of course the

next question, but your mother, No, my mom does not drive.

Yeah, she is to be driven around.

So no, So I drove. I drove back from good Company,

trying to stay away, trying to keep everything in and down.

I told myself, no, surely you're not gonna vomit now,

because you just took the medicine. You need a message

in your stomach to take event. So I tried to

hold it down, trying to drive, trying to stay away. Seriously,

I was slapping my face it because I was anytime

I'm gonna I'm gonna pass out your hot I'm like God,

and the worst thing is my ear is blocked. And

I'm not sure this is the worst thing at all.

But I could not hear myself. That means I couldn't

hear my own voice. I was crying out to the

gods of God, you gotta help me, You gonna help me. God,

help me stay awake, help me stay alive all the

way to my mother's house. But you know what, I

could not hear myself, and I tried to beginning tongues. Seriously,

I was beginning tongues. I could not hear myself and

it was painful. I said, God, you gotta help me.

Finally I stopped speaking tongues, I stopped vocalizing.

I just in my brain was just God helped me.

I felt so down. I do not know whether you

could understand this feeling, but because maybe because of my

ear right, I couldn't hear anything, I felt like I

was being shot into a black cave hole. And with that,

I felt I was being shut out from the whole world, like, yeah,

nobody can hear me because I can't hear my And

it felt like I was being abandoned by the whole world.

And the worst thing is from that, when one thing

lead to the next one, it felt like I was

being abandoned by God. At that moment, I'm like, wow,

so you see. I don't know whether you can understand it,

but that was what I was feeling that that morning,

and I was as I was, my brains is my

I keep saying the word God, help me, help me,

and then I hear a small, still voice, do not

be afraid, stand still and see the salvation of the Lord.

And the moment I hear that, I knew exactly where

it came from.

Exodus Exodus.

I knew exactly because I preached from the message before

I read that message a couple of times, many times.

So when I when I when the small steel voices

stand still, I knew exactly where it came. And by

God's grace, let me share with you, by God's grace,

that my brother is discharged. After that, about a week

and doctor actually said that there was thankfully not cancer,

but it was a very serious case of lung infection.

Uh started from virus infection, then became to bacteria infection,

and then yeah, all the complications. Yeah, but thankfully it

wasn't cancer and it was discharged. But you know, through

the whole time, through the whole time, the whole time,

because there was there was Monday, right, And remember I

went back home and I told my mom, I said,

mom my, Mom saw my face like all pale, put chat.

She said, oh took a long time to come back.

Oh girl, I said, yeah, So you went no, no, no, mom,

don't talk to me now. I can't talk now.

I went upstairs.

I crashed. I said, don't talk to me now. I'm

not feeling well.

I crashed straight for.

About four six, four or five hours, and I woke out.

I saw my mom. Mom, you're still here. What's the

time now for something? Do you call the hospital? How is?

Mama said, oh, I try to call, but I couldn't

care and you didn't go to the hospital?

Mom, Mom changing out, we will go to the hospital now.

At that point I felt a bit rude to my mom.

I didn't like I have to ask for forgiveness my mom.

But that point is I was my head was still

you know, still still DZ and the thankfully it wasn't

very painful, but my ear was still blocked us. I

felt so like a yeah, just just really bad state,

you know. And then I said, no, let's go to

the hospital now. Now. When the hospital sudden nurse and

I said, oh you came to see that, I said, yeah,

I I am. I'm the sister of that patient, and

I want to ask how the how the operation, how

the surgery go this morning. Then the girl said, oh,

if you can wait for a hour, No, nurse, I

cannot wait because I'm not feeling well. To nurse, do yourmayr?

I feel like throwing up now, you know all they

didn't look. I said, can I talk to the doctor now?

Then finally I got to the doc. Doctor, they said, yeah,

everything went well. But the thing is, five minutes later

the doctor walked in. So many of those instances throughout

the whole whole hospitalization where I didn't know when the

doctor is going to be there. But somehow every time

when I went, it was the best timing.

It was a good timing.

Now every time I went, either the doctor just walked

in or going to walk in or yeah somehow. So

so you see, even though it was a very challenging time,

but I still saw God's time moving, you know. So

this is how it is.

No friends, or when it rains it pause, you're really

not alone.

But there are times so we felt like we're alone,

just like I was that day, you know, and and yeah,

and and and you thought when it rained, it pause,

just pour one time, I no, No, that was Monday, right,

let me share with you Tuesday, me and my husband

Actually I like to work out and all that. So

that Tuesday we thought, okay, let's let's get some working

out in, you know. So I went to the gym,

to the club and my my husband went to swim.

Then a few moments later I got a call say,

shall you come out now? I said, what burn, No,

you come out, now, come out now? Okay. I went out.

I saw my husband sitting there.

I said, what happened?

So apparently after swimming he came out without wearing his slippers.

He slipped. Oh no, it's the right word. He's quite

all right. He slipped and hit the floor.

And then by the time I saw him sitting in

a chair, there's another And the next day trying to

ice him. All right, just as you said, looking, how

much more works? Can this?

Get her?

My brother in the hospital. And then right at that time,

my ear was still blocked. Yeah, pain was minimizing. And

then my husband it's easy. I started laughing, like I

don't know what to say. Yeah. Then so long story sha.

He suffered for about one whole day. Then finally decided

to see doctor. I said, yes, you need to see

a specialist. See the autopedic did all the scans. Uh

diagnosed that he had a fracture on his collarbone. Then

doctor said, you know what, thankfully your fracture is not

anything nearer.

Your anything nearer. I need to put a sling on you.

But because it's at the end, no need, and thankfully

you have even though you have a your ligament are tender. No, no,

you I'm there. Thankfully he didn't get all torn off.

If it's all torn, then you need to do so

due to attach it back. Thankfully.

I look at doctor. Yeah, praise the lot and say, really,

praise the lot.

I was gonna you choose a better time to fall in. No,

but we can't ride, we can't control this are things

that's out of control, you know. So yeah, yeah, but tankfully,

my husband is recovering well as we have seen him recently. Yeah,

people who don't actually didn't know yet. Yeah, so yeah,

but but seriously, there are days like that. There are

nights like that when it rains, it pause. You know,

man thinks that that can cause us to be very afraid,

just like that day when I heard the word you

know that is written on my brother's reference letter. There

are things that can cause us to be so afraid.

Just the thought of it. You just God, I'm i

gonna do this.

You know, you can name it.

You know. It's just like how the children is, you know,

in that verse just now, if you if you read

it again, they started out walking out boldly. Two verses later,

not a few moments two verses later, they become very afraid.

Why because they saw the pharaoh's army. And then they

crowd to Moses and say, why did you bring us

out here to die? Just at the sight of the

pharaoh's army, they saw graves, they thought they're gonna die.

Say Gan, say say gana sure die, no way out.

I'm gonna be dad this time around. We can go

from very bold to very afraid in that short time.

Why because of what we saw?

What we saw?

So the question sometimes is what are our eyes fixated on?

What are we looking at? And what happened?

We're gonna ask ourselves. You know, sometimes the fear can

cause us so much. Yeah, and let's look at this.

I would encourage us that when we are caught in fear,

we need to stand still and see the salvation of

the Lord. And you know when I was standying on

this right that when people are faced with danger or afraid,

that there is a slide on that usually there are

four main responses more fault, fight, flight, freeze of fon.

For normally there are four main responses.

Yeah, for human where we are, where we think that

we're in danger or we're afraid, Normally four main responses.

But the thing is the word of God askers to

stand still, stands human think elder stand still and freeze

sounds about the same, right, No, no, no, no no no.

Freeze means without control, you can't move. You just can't

move your legs even though you want to run.

It just can't move.

It's not it's not like you understand that it's just freeze. Okay,

So no difference. Stands still is very active way. Let

me share with you later.

Yeah.

But it also say when I was doing the research

on this, it actually says that, uh, human beings, we

need to retrain our brains so that we can have

a better fear response. So do you know that church,

do you know that we can retrain our brains? And

when I saw the word retrain, and the other word

just came to my mind, which is renewed. And when

when I think about renew another scripture come to mind,

which is in Romans. Romans if yeah, this one Romans

told us want to do especially verse two, and do

not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by

the renewing of your mind, that you may prove what.

Is that good and acceptable and perfect will of God.

Renew our minds so that we can prove the good, acceptable,

and perfect will of God is. See. Friends, if you

read the Bible, you know that God loves us, and

his plans newt and his plans for us are good.

His will for us are good.

Good. Our God is a good God. So that that

day I started that I felt abandoned by God. That's

not a thought from God. No, put it for my

own self, you know, because I was afraid, because I

was in pain, because I couldn't hear anything. In fact,

can I tell you the loss of hearing. I think

I was only totally completely healed in about a month

or a month plus. Yeah, it is like gradually improving,

like okay, today I'm a ninety eight percent block, then

the next few days I'm ninety seven percent blocks.

Yeah, it went like that. It was a long journey.

In fact that that Sunday when I was asking about proaching,

when brother and sister were there, I think I share

the church. I was about seventy five percent blocks still

my ear. They were like, oh, you couldn't hear us popular, Yeah,

I couldn't hear properly. Yeah, and my heart time, can

I show you in my ear at the time block right,

it was like I was hearing I was wearing in musicians,

you understand this. I was. It felt as well. I

was wearing in ear and India was not turned on. Yeah,

and then it changed from not in your not turned

on too. Situation one is even though I was whispering

like my my my in ear is super loud and

it's hurting my ear drum. Huh, it's hurting my ear

jump Either that or it's very far. The sound I

could not really hear. So he said, very loud or

very soft. So the summer is not doing good job.

Very loud, very sort. And I remember that one day

I was in homes that one day, whenever I try

to speak or sing, my in ear inside was very loud.

I could not even speak. I could not that homes

the first time I was. I told the guy. I

told I can't talk today. I can't really speak because

my in ear hear turned from very loud to very soft,

like without me controlling, its just and it's very When

it's very loud, it hurt my ear jump. So I

could not talk. Yeah, it was very bad, but I

knew GO was with me. Why when I think back

every step, even just my brother's hospitalization and time even

at the guests when he fell down in himself. Just

really so God's hand because things could have been so

much worse, and yet I saw how God provided. How

God Yeah, just little ways and different things that showed

me that He is with me. Yeah. And so when

we are afraid, we need or we think that we're

in danger, we need to we need to retrain our

brain for our fear responses, and it can be retrained.

Can I share with you?

Let's look at that word because of time, the.

Word stands still.

Stand still.

Even think that it's the same as the word freeze,

but no, when I started it, the word stands still.

The keyboardord is yes sub maybe that's how you pronounce it.

But basically the definitions you can see that all there.

But I want to bring out attention to treat particular

definitions in this in this world. Okay, stands still Number

one is this? The word stands still has this element

in it reflexively, reflexively as it reflects automatically, meaning it

takes practice and testings for something to be automatic.

It needs to be done over and over and over

and over again.

Right right now.

Yeah.

So basically, if you want to stand still, you need

to practice it over and over and over again. Every time.

When you feel like you're gonna run, you're gonna stand still.

Every time when you feel you're gonna crumble, you're gonna

stand still. You're gonna practice that over and over again.

So that's why I say the word stands still is

different from the word freeze, because freeze you can't control.

Stand Still is your will. Your mind is dedicated to

stand still. You're doing it over and over again until

it becomes a reflex my friends, and trust me, it

can be trained. Let me show with you, I personally

have some reflexes. I grew up with. K KO is

a full of It's a place full of all kinds

of people and weird people. So yeah, in my high

school time, since my high school time, I mean, we

used to take the bars the public transport.

If you if you're old enough, you know where's the

mini bars.

The pink colored mini bus their drives ferociously, you know,

and packed out like suddenly, and a lot of weird

people in there. And even walk on the street in

Padaling Street, the weird people around you know, Mon lesters,

splashes or you name it, you know. So in my mind,

whenever I walk on the street, I told myself I

need to learn how to protect myself. And hence, if

I walk on the street, I would try to have

some weapon in my hands, either umbrella under my arm, no,

an umbrella, or water bottle hopefully it's a metal one,

or or if I have nothing on, then maybe I'll.

Just put a fist out.

And I was taught that when I put a fist out, right,

I actually have a knuckle out, so that when you

knock someone here, the person probably will stay with me

for a while. You don't you say, well, oh you

look like you stayed a very dangerous place. Well let's

put this way.

I like to be ready.

Yeah, so so, and I practiced that in my mind

over and over again, meaning in my mind, I will

play if this was to come here, my hand will

come out like this, okay, And I practice seriously. And

now because I leave waits right, I practice weights as well. Yeah,

so that it comes out without me thinking or if

you're behind, will be leave this or this or this

or this. So yeah, don't worry, I want you time.

But let me share this funny thing with you. Okay,

since my husband told so much funny stuff for me,

so I have this reflects right, so as husbanter wife

sometimes no just playing bring playing around and as oh

there was once he grabbed my hand on my wrist. No,

so like like just his hands are quite big, right,

so and it's quite strong, so grab my hand. I like,

I couldn't move down, let me go my hand go there.

He's just struggling, struggling, struggling. And the next thing is

my reflex came out. Yeah, I actually kicked like this

struggled and my my reflex came out and I hit

his chin without hit seconds he fell on the floor.

That is it?

How can you kick me?

You actually kicked me? I said, I'm sorry. I didn't

mean it. I really didn't mean it. I didn't want

to kick you. I didn't want to hurt you.

And I tell you the same incidents happened at least twice.

So again you're like door, I said, do do do,

just let me go, otherwise I might hurt you, I say,

and chewing up my leg came out, and this time

I kicked his knee and chewing up.

Within seconds, he.

Fell on the floor. So yeah, yeah, if you come

near me, just call my name for otherwise mm no, yeah,

but but yeah, yeah, there's one my reflects and they

just proved it can be trained. My friends, we need

to train our ourselves to have this reflect to stand still.

Second one stand still resort finally decided, meaning when we

stand still and see the salvage of the Lord. Is

that we stand still and you finally decided that this

is it, That he is my God, that he loves me,

that I'm not gonna live in nor forsake him, same name,

same thing, He will not leave me now for sake me,

no matter what, I'm.

Not turning back.

Stand still, I would trust him. I would trust him.

I would trust him. That is the meaning of stand still,

my friend. That means you don't move. You you decided

in your heart. They thought, Oh, maybe you come true

for me. Ah, maybe I'll be that he is No,

he is Lord, he is Lord. Decide resort. Third one

that I want to focus on. Stand still fast, strongly

fastened like a nil. Strongly fastened nothing can shake you.

When we stand still means is immovable, unshakable, nothing is

gonna shake you.

That you know he is Lord that you know Heaven rules.

That you know he reigns, Jesus reigns.

Amen, that's the minner of stands still and see the

salvation of your Lord. This a bit more time hanging there.

Know that it's for you, not against you. And see, yeah,

the words God standsire and see. We need to see

the salvation of the Lord. Can we see it? I

know many times we're in that situations we can't really see.

I understand, but you've got to not you we we

have we have got to learn how to see, learn

how to see. If I have time with you, friends,

I will share with you my whole journey of working,

my walking my dad through his slim forma. Hospital visits

after hospital visits, wait after wait, waiting time in the

hospital two three four hours.

I have a whole lock sheet.

Why because I need lock it down so that I

remember the hospital appointments. Because my dad at the time,

he wasn't just seeing one department, but a few departments

hermatology ie department, heart department, kidney department, or you name it.

I think he's seen most of the departments. I need

locking in so that I remember. And then I involved

my brothers so that we all can take this time

to to care for my dad. Every time I remember those,

especially in the beginning, because we really do not know

where Where's going to lead us. One hand, my dad

at one point said, I don't know. I don't want

to treat anymore. I don't want to go to hospital anymore.

And then the other hand knew that he needed to

get treated, he need to go through the test, to

do the different biopsy, and to yeah, all that, you know,

and then going to the hospital. And yeah, every time

I saw God's hand moving from the smallest thing, from

a providing me with a timely and a perfect spot

for parking in the hospital. You know the how that

how that is hard to come by sometimes, you know,

not to be taken for granted, for packing to leading me,

leading us to the right doctor. It's amazing, even though

it's a tough journey. But I saw God's hand moving. Yeah,

so we got to learn how I see God's hand

moving and trust God see his salvation. And then after

that we lift out our road and stretch our hand

over the sea and divide it. In verse sixteen, that

just means what you know, my friends, It just means

use whatever that's in your hands. The rod is already

in their hands. The rod is already in your hands,

my brother and my sister. Use what you have. Don't

think that, don't ever think that you have nothing you have.

Use what is in your hand, and stretch it towards

sew it towards your future, and go forward. Verse sixteen.

God's worth saying, go forward. Tell the children is ready

to go forward, to go and walk through the dry ground.

Amen.

Amen. But you know when I was going through the

whole time, as I said, as I share with you,

my ear was blocked for many many weeks.

Actually, yeah, every day different ones will ask me, so

are you are you? Can you hear now?

Maybe about seventy percent? Yeah, maybe about from nineties. I

just very gradually basically, and I even want to say

e and t en T. Doctor Saw took a scope

and saw as well. He said, yeah, you're having authentic meter.

And this fluid behind your ear drum. The only way

is to pierce it and to drain the fluid. Or

you just wait, you just wait, You just gotta wait.

You just gotta wait. I can't tell you how long,

but you just gotta wait. But as long as you're

telling me that you're getting better, even if it's a

little bit.

Day by day, you're fine, but you need time. Yeah,

So I waited, you.

Know, for a long time, and the time I, I

might say, there's certain questions went to my brain, and

particularly these two questions question more one, do we stop

when we're challenged. I was very challenged at the time

because I couldn't hear people in front of me talking

to me are like, and because I couldn't hear myself right, So,

meaning because I'm someone who's very used to hearing my

own voice when I talk, so I use my voice.

It's a lot, so I need to hear my voice

so that I know.

How I sound.

And because I couldn't hear my voice, I didn't know

how I sound, and hence my pronunciation were.

Not was not very accurate.

So how I realized this. I realized the people around

me couldn't get what I was saying, like I have

to repeat the same line a few times, like oh yeah.

Then I realized that, oh, maybe because I wasn't mouthing

my words clear clearly, that's why they couldn't hear me.

You see how it's affecting me and yeah, I would

say that I experienced a bit of what the deaf

comedical experience. Seriously, I was in Watson's in Summit and

then the one girl was talk to me and I

didn't realize and finally she did this. Then she turked

my back.

Oh you're talking to me?

Yeah.

Have you used this product before?

And that our deaf community? Yes, I thought about them.

Yeah, it was.

It was weird. Seriously, and yeah, so I I do

think I do have to thing. You know, what if

what if my ear remains blocked? I have to think

about that because it was taking so long. It was

not a few days, it was not even weak. It

was a few weeks already. What if.

I could not hear?

What if I couldn't even hear myself? Means economy signal,

there's one there. I was in church, uh that day,

the sound mind the sound guide, Uh yeah, to my

ear to very small, so I can't really hear myself.

But I could sing my lungs out because uh it's

not it's not loud in my ear, it's soft in

my ear. So but the thing is, I could not

hear myself. I could not hear any other thing clearly,

hence I could not hear the pitching. I kind of

hear my own page. But I still sank my heart

out to the Lord and worship him. But yeah, I

have to ask myself, what if it doesn't it doesn't

come back to how it used to be? So do

I start when when we are challenged? That question? Second question, do.

We wait until there's no challenge? Then only with serf

we do or we go?

We have challenges. As long as we live on planet Earth,

there will be challenged. It will be you will face tribulations,

my friend, if you do not know already, That's what

I say. When you fall into various trials and tribulations.

It's not like if, No, it's when we will all

kinds people whom we love, our own lives, our own health.

So do we wait until there's no challenge? And when

we go we serve? We do? Yeah? And and can

we just look at the other picture, like look like

a funeral? Yeah? Yeah, this one Some of you might

not know who he is. This is the the funeral

of Reverend Wong King Kong. He is the He was

the founder of Malaysian Care and he was also the

General Secretary of NECF so he plays a very big

part in Malaysia for our Malaysian Church. And also so

he's very involved in the inter faith all that work

as well. So he's a very very he has contributed

so much to Malaysia. So we got to know him

in our years of ministry and amazing.

Man of God.

So he was called back to the Lord this year.

So that was his his funeral, and I remember that time, Bassandra,

they were in Germany. So I againt myself we represent

the ex Church and to pay our last respect to

this man of God.

So we went there that day.

I remember my ear was at least about seventy eighty

percent blocked still, but we went and then we talked

to his his his wife, his sons, and then our

next picture. Yeah, come let's see this one. Yeah, so

just to let you know who he is, just in

case you you don't know who is So he is.

He's written books before, and the book's name is called

Living What I can't really see that, yeah, two partician,

two Partitian living and Thriving Beyond Limitations and and and

if you notice the first photo on the left top left,

you know you see something familiar? Is it our XPMX

our ex a PM. Yeah, so yeah, so's Rev. Woe

has played a very big part in Malaysia. So but

you notice that he is he was actually on a wheelchair,

do you notice that? So he uh was diagnosed with

polio when he was three years old, so hence he

was on wheelchair. And you know what every time we

saw him at the time, every time he spoke at

a conference or anything, he always chose to stand because

he said, no, I don't I want to stand when

I when I preach for the Lord, he choose to stand,

even though he can sit on his fuuture, but he didn't. Yeah,

that's the man of God, that whom we had and

we're blessed to have. So at this funeral we got

to know our next picture. Yeah, so I remember wem

Elgaire we play a last respects. Spoke to his son

and they we're gonna go and then and his son said, oh,

oh me this sister. I said, oh, then we meet

a sister, this lady. Yeah, he's from she's from our church.

She's partwering the church whereever one Kim Kong started. Actually,

so she's very close to R. Wong like a own father.

Like that. So then she said yeah, yeah, yeah, I

know I know them. They there from ext church. I'm like, oh,

you heard about us? I thought, do you hear good

things or what you know? Then she said, oh yeah, yeah, yeah,

guess I saw your face on p face instad before.

So friends, if ever appeared busad canners Insta, people might

remember your face. Okay, yeah, so that's what happened to me.

So she said, yeah, I saw your face and Insta

and so that's how I know that. She was following

pass Kennis on his social media. Then she said, you know,

I normally don't do this, but I actually want to

invite Bisycans to speak in our church. So I wrote,

I normally don't do this, but I wrote a Facebook

direct message to Passica Earth.

I said, oh is he?

Then she said yeah, and there's no response. I'm like, oh,

let me explain. I says, I'm so sorry, but let

me explain. I said, Passacais social media, the IG and

the Facebook is not for him to build community.

I said no, in fact, the team started for him.

And let me go into his Facebook direct message now

and when he said this is you, let me reply you. Now,

I normally don't do this, like I normally don't invite

a speaker on direct message and I normally don't bring

this up to anyone. And she said, I don't know why,

but I just feel like I wanted to tell you.

Then aat I was there laughing. Now he said, you

are speaking to the right person. Now, this is pascans Pa.

You need to talk to her, get her contact and

then you can arrangements, can speak in your church.

I'm like, like what, Yeah, She's like, oh, your boss

gonna be here.

She didn't know. She just saw me on Buzsa's instide

but that's all. No, she didn't know what we're doing

all that. So I tell you that it was a

very funny feeling because in my mind I was having

all these questions, Right, what if my my hearing doesn't

come back? One of our sisters and ex mening she

told me, she said, oh, do you need your voice back? Yeah,

you cannot don't hear you need you need to hear

your hearing back. And because you use your voice a lot,

you need to translate for bassa, you speak, and you

do a lot of things, they need your voice back. Well,

I'll pray with you I'll pray for you. Yeah, thank

you sister, you know, but the thing is in my

mind still has to think what if it doesn't come back?

And hen Scott, would I still be able to serve

you in this capacity? So lie still be hugeful to

you God. And then that day I was there, And

this is step to emphasize. So many times I normally

don't do this. I normally don't invite the speakerl like that.

And normally, even though I send the direct message, I

don't tell anyone because it's between the Lord. But that

day she decided to tell me, and she until today's

she probably didn't know what that means to me. To me,

that encounter just show that it's as lo God as

telling me surely as long as you avail yourself, I

can and I will you, and I will still use

you because I am still Pertican's Pa. Yeah. That day,

actually I could don't go no because my ear was

a little bit painful and it was still but seventy

percent blocked, and myber I told sisters it. I'm sorry

if I sound bit funny or I speak too loud

because I might ear is actually blog I can't really

hear myself. She's like, okay, it's okay, it's okay. Hell

to me, he says, So God, essayiually, as long as

you're willing, as long as you avail yourself, you go

where I ask you to go, I can and I

will still use you.

We don't need to wait until we have no challenge. No,

he will still use you.

I'm like, God, thank you that you that you can

still use me anyway. Seriously for me, I've come to

a resort that whatever wherever God needs me, well God

doesn't need me. Yeah, whatever God wants to use me,

be on stage, off stage, whoever, whoever. If today God

ness me to speak, If today God needs me to

do something else, I'll do something. Like yesterday, I was

in Christmas chair. In fact, I was there to support

my homes because because a few of their homemies fell

ill and then couldn't come. So I was just there,

just pick up whatever that cover whatever that they needed,

you know. And in fact, yesterday, the planning, the charring,

the games, all day they did. All all I did

was being there, pray with them, carry tables, carry chests,

clean up rubbish, talk to some parents in my broken basa,

play with some kids, my broken basa. That's it really

just whatever that God needs me. I said, God, I'm

I'm there. If you think you can use me, you

use me. And today I just sense that God is

calling some of us here that first of all, don't

despise the challenge that you're going through, because in that

challenge is like a practice, you know, practice over and

over again so that we can learn not to stand still,

that it become a reflex that we can stand still

and know that it's God and see God's moving. Amen.

Amen.

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