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Beyond The Brokenness | Jason Martin

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  1. You're listening to a message to go from acts church.

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  3. So this year, our team for this year is disciple first.

  4. And for the previous sermons I have started on just

  5. a series of what a disciple is, what's the goal

  6. of a disciple? And right now I'm going into one

  7. of the first sermons which Jesus spoke about, and that

  8. is the Sermon on the Mount. Yes, is the Sermon

  9. on the Mount, right, because this is the sermon which

  10. is considered to be one of Jesus' greatest sermons, and

  11. it also is a sermon that teach us us disciples

  12. how to live. All right, So let me just start

  13. with my slides. Okay, So again just to bring a

  14. bit of context to those of us who are new

  15. or probably have missed out previously. So what is a disciple?

  16. A disciple learns from Jesus, lives like Jesus, and tells

  17. others about Jesus. Right, got that and he just put

  18. it here. Okay, next, light, So the Sermon on the mount,

  19. remember the first one. It is written here reading from

  20. Matthew chapter five and seeing the multitudes, he went up

  21. on a mountain, and when he was seated, his disciples

  22. came to him. Then he opened his mouth and taught them, saying,

  23. blessed are those who are poor in spirit, for the

  24. hours is the kingdom of heaven. Okay, So again this sermon,

  25. Jesus was speaking to disciples. So, disciples are you and

  26. me people who say that Jesus is my personal Lord

  27. and savior. And when we went through this, blessed are

  28. those who are poor in spirit. Remember we discovered the

  29. definition of a few words. Okay, next, light, what is

  30. blessed or what is blessed? What is blessed? Do you

  31. all remember? I think it'll be very difficult to remember

  32. because it was about one month ago, but I wanted

  33. to just refresh us again. Okay. So there's two definitions

  34. of blessed in the Bible, and today, according to this sermon,

  35. we are going with one of those definitions. So next, so,

  36. blessed is deep joy from walking God's way. So if

  37. we follow the beatitudes, we will experience deep joy, and

  38. that's the bless that Jesus is talking about. There's another

  39. definition of blessed where God's favor shines upon you. Okay,

  40. that is another definition of blessed, but for the context

  41. of the beattitudes. When we follow the beattitudes, we will

  42. be living with deep joy. Okay. So that's why he said,

  43. blessed are those who are poor in spirit. When we

  44. are blessed, when we are poor in spirit, we will

  45. live with deep joy. Okay. And a few examples. Next,

  46. happy are you, o Israel who is like you a

  47. people saved by the Lord. The shield of your help

  48. and the thought of your majesty. Your enemies will submit

  49. to you, and you shall tread down their high places.

  50. So the Israelites are considered blessed because they are considered

  51. a person with deep joy because God was on their side.

  52. When God is on your side and you have nothing

  53. to worry about, won't you be joyful? Right? Another example

  54. was First King's ten. So this is when the Queen

  55. of Sheba visited Solomon, and she saw all of Solomon's

  56. splendors and riches, And what did she say? Happy are

  57. your men, and happy are these your servants who stand

  58. continually before you and hear your wisdom. So those who

  59. served Solomon, they were blessed because they had no lack.

  60. They were in the richest country in the world, and

  61. they were ruled by the wisest men in the world.

  62. So they were blessed. And when we said blessed are

  63. those who are poor in spirit, the title of my

  64. sermon previously was this next light less is more less

  65. of us and more of God. When we have less

  66. of us and we have more of God, than we

  67. are blessed because when we are poor in spirit, we

  68. are saying God, I can't do everything on my own.

  69. I need you, all right. And I ended that previous

  70. sermon using this phrase, which says, next light, ditch the

  71. pride and God steps inside. So when we are poor

  72. in spirit, we cast the sight all our pride and

  73. then God steps inside. So that was a brief summary

  74. of my previous sermon. All right, it's a brief summary.

  75. I know that y'all are looking at me like, Okay,

  76. what's going on? But follow me because there is This

  77. is one of Jesus' sermons and there's a lot of

  78. truth and nuggets that if we live by them, we

  79. will live a blessed life. Okay. So today we were

  80. going we are supposed to go into the second beattitude.

  81. And when I look at the second beattitude, I was

  82. thinking should I preach this for family Sunday? Because this

  83. seems like a very heavy beattitude, and how are the

  84. I wonder whether the kids will understand or how am

  85. I going to bring it across to all both adults

  86. and kids. But then I felt and I could have

  87. easily picked a sermon which is easier, but I felt

  88. God challenging me and say that, hey, this is what

  89. I have preached, and I preached it to both adults

  90. and kids, all right. And kids, if you learn this

  91. from a young age, it is even better, all right,

  92. So bear with me, and I need God's grace and

  93. mercy to come upon me to preach this all right.

  94. So if you think I'm struggling, you just stretch out

  95. your hand and say help him Lord. All right? Okay,

  96. so are you already? So the sermon title for today

  97. is this Beyond the Brokenness, Beyond the Brokenness? Okay, So

  98. let us look at the verse. The verse is Matthew

  99. Chapter five, Verse four. Blessed are those who mourn, for

  100. they shall be comforted. Okay. How many of us have

  101. read this verse before and not understand what it means?

  102. Is it only me? All right? Max got a friend

  103. in Max and Emmanuel. Okay, when you read this verse

  104. and say, blessed are those who mourn, for they will

  105. be comforted. What is the definition of blessed again? Blessed

  106. is deep joy. So if I replace blessed with deep joy,

  107. you will have deep joy when you moan. How does

  108. that work? You will have deep joy when you moan,

  109. and then you will be comforted. So that's why I said,

  110. I need God's grace to help me preach this today

  111. and next light. What does it mean to mourn? What

  112. does it mean to mourn any of y'all? What does

  113. it mean to morn? Mon is to be sad, grieve, depressed. Okay, kids,

  114. you'll also understand what is morning on? I'm sure you do.

  115. You know why because when I was prepared ring this sermon,

  116. I was trying to look for an illustration that depicts morning,

  117. all right, And I found a couple of them, and

  118. the kids are quite well versed with them, actually, so

  119. you know how difficult it was to find something that

  120. related to mourning. All right. So this is a clip

  121. from Lion King, right, and you know that Simba he

  122. was actually in mourning because he lost his dad and

  123. because of that he ran away. He ran away, he

  124. ran away from his calling, he ran away from who

  125. he was. He just got lost in terms of it.

  126. And how many of us have experienced mourning, Okay, you

  127. have experienced mourning. And when you're in when you are

  128. in mourning, right, sometimes it seems very final, like this

  129. is the end. I can't move forward anymore, you know.

  130. And morning means that sometimes you realize that you are

  131. no longer in control. You're no longer in control. You know,

  132. you do not have any more power, you don't have

  133. any more protection, and you know that life is fragile,

  134. you know, And when you are in mourning right, suddenly

  135. it seems that the world is coming to an end

  136. and you can't move forward. And guess what, every single

  137. one of us cannot escape from grief or mourning because

  138. you are we all of us are living in an

  139. imperfect world where there are so there is sickness, there

  140. is this, there is war, there is difficulties, there's financial problems,

  141. there's health problems, there's so many things. And that's why

  142. I mentioned that for the kids, if you guys learn

  143. this at a young age, that hey, we can't escape

  144. from morning. We can't escape from grief. But how do

  145. we handle it? How can we handle it? What does

  146. the Bible teach us about mourning? Because the Bible say it,

  147. blessed are those who mourn, for they will be comforted.

  148. And who mons all of us, all of us will

  149. mourn at one time or another. But today I want

  150. to bring us across how should we moan? So that

  151. if we are prepared early on, we know what to

  152. do when we are in that situation. You know, the

  153. worst time to prepare is when you are in the

  154. seat situation. When do you prepare for an exam before

  155. the exam? And the same way we have to prepare

  156. ourselves before we enter into a period where we will

  157. experience grief. Okay, So next light Ecclesiasis three. To everything,

  158. there is a season, a time for every purpose under heaven,

  159. a time to weep, a time to laugh, a time

  160. to mourn, a time to dance. So there is a

  161. time for everything, you know, and it's written in the scripture.

  162. So although all of us do not want to to

  163. experience grief, you do not want to experience morning. But

  164. guess what, there is a season for it, and all

  165. of us will be going through this season, whether we

  166. like it or not. Okay. So what happens when we

  167. go through grief? Okay? Next light uh yep. So I

  168. wanted to bring across a story, a story in the

  169. Bible of someone who experienced grief and the lessons that

  170. we can learn from it so that we can move forward. Okay.

  171. So this is from First Samuel thirty. Now it happened

  172. when David and his men came to zig Leg on

  173. the third day that the Amalakites had invaded the south

  174. and zig Lag and attacked Ziglag and burned it with fire. Okay.

  175. So David and his men were staying in a place

  176. called zig Lag. They were staying in a place called

  177. Ziglag because they were running away from Saul. Okay, this

  178. is in Palestine territory. But when they went out to war,

  179. they left Ziglag. And suddenly what happened. The Amalakites came

  180. and invaded them and attacked them and burned it with fire.

  181. And they'd taken captive the woman and those who were there,

  182. from small to great. They did not kill anyone, but

  183. carried them away and went their way. So David and

  184. his men came to the city, and there it was

  185. burned with fire, and their wives and their sons and

  186. their daughters had been taken captive. Then David and the

  187. people who were with him lifted up their voices and

  188. wept until they had no more power to weep. So

  189. imagine this, David and his men they went out to war,

  190. So they left zig zigg Is where their whole family

  191. is together with their wife and kids. And what happened.

  192. The Amalakites came in, invaded and kidnapped or took hostage

  193. every single one of them, all their wives, all their kids, everything.

  194. How would the David and his men feel? And David

  195. and the people who were with him lifted up their

  196. voices and wept until they had no more power to weep.

  197. So David and his men they were mourning. They were

  198. grieving because suddenly they lost all their family, They lost

  199. all their everyone that they knew, and they were sad. Right,

  200. this was a deep sadness. So there is three points

  201. that I wanted to bring across today when we are

  202. dealing with mourning, okay, and they all start with the

  203. letter G. Okay. So the first one is grief. So

  204. when we are mourning, we are in grief. We are

  205. experiencing sadness. Okay, Let's go to the verse first Samuel thirty. Okay,

  206. so this is the scripture that I just read right,

  207. that David and his men wept until they had no

  208. more power to weep. Okay. Then verse five the next

  209. light David's two wives, ah Nium and Jessel lightis and Abigail,

  210. the widow of Nabal the Kama Light, had been taken captive. Now,

  211. David was greatly distressed for the people. Spoke of stoning

  212. him because the soul of all the people were grieved,

  213. and every man for his sons and daughters. But David

  214. strengthened himself in the Lord, his God. So when you

  215. go through grief, there's two ways that you can handle it.

  216. One way was how David handled it. What did David do?

  217. David strengthened himself in the Lord. But another way of

  218. handling grief is how the rest of the people handled

  219. What did David's men want to do? They wanted to

  220. stone David. Why did they want the stone David? Was

  221. it David's fault that all their family and their children

  222. and their wives were taken hostage? It was not David's fault,

  223. but they still wanted to stone him. And when we

  224. are going through grief or depression, sometimes what we want

  225. to do is we want to look for someone to blame.

  226. We want to say that, hey, it is somebody's fault.

  227. Because when we say it's somebody's fault, then you think

  228. you have control and you can go and take out

  229. your anger on that person. So you can see that

  230. the people spoke of stoning him because they were grieved. Okay,

  231. and there are five stages of grief. How many of

  232. you all know there are five stages of grief? Is

  233. a psychology lesson a quick one? Okay? When you are

  234. having grief, all of us we go through these stages

  235. of grief. It may not be in accordance, but and

  236. we it may not be in sequence, and we might

  237. go back and forth. So what happens when you're in grief,

  238. First one is you are in denial. You know what's denial?

  239. Denial is how can it be? This cannot be happening

  240. to me? You know, I don't think this is real.

  241. When you are going through grief, especially if you lost

  242. someone close to you, you believe that I can't believe

  243. that this person is no longer with me. And that's denial.

  244. After denial, you get angry because God, how can you

  245. do this to me? Or David King David. Our need

  246. to stone David. Because of David, my whole family was

  247. taken hostage, and my house and everything was burned to

  248. the ground. So you get so angry you want to

  249. retaliate and you want to take it out on somebody.

  250. And then after a while you get angry and then

  251. you cool down. After you cool down, you're like, Okay,

  252. what should I do? You know, and you just think

  253. that you feel like, I just feel like giving up. God.

  254. If you come true, you take over. You know, I

  255. can't do anything. You're overwhelmed. And then because of that

  256. sometimes you go into depression. And finally, if you come

  257. to it, you accept it. When you reach a point

  258. of acceptance and you say that, Okay, this has happened

  259. to me. I don't know why it has happened, but

  260. I accept this has happened, and then I can move forward.

  261. So just now in the Lion king right, Simba for

  262. the longest time, you know, he lost his father when

  263. he was young, and the clip that I showed you

  264. just now right was when he was a grown lion.

  265. Really he took so long to come to acceptance, you know,

  266. because most of the time he was living in denial.

  267. He was living in anger because he thought it's his fault.

  268. And most of the time, that's what we are going through,

  269. because when we are going through grief and denial, we

  270. think that, hey, we are no longer in control. What

  271. can I do? I don't trust God anymore. How many

  272. of y'all know people who like have gone through a

  273. tough time and they believe that God is not good anymore.

  274. You know. There's a famous question, if God is so good,

  275. why do bad things happen? You know, and we start

  276. doubting God. And that's what happened to David's men. They

  277. started doubting God and they said that, and they started

  278. doubting David. You know that they followed David because they

  279. believed that David was God's chosen king. But the moment

  280. something went wrong, they turned on David. They got angry,

  281. They had denial and they wanted to take it out.

  282. Do you think that David was grieving as well? David

  283. was grieving as well because he lost his wives, he

  284. lost his children, he lost everything, and he lost and

  285. the people that he were leading all of them lost

  286. family as well. He was grieving as well. How did

  287. David deal with grief. David strengthened himself in the Lord,

  288. which leads me to my second point. So the second

  289. point is grow. So after you grief, after you grief,

  290. while grieving, you need to choose how you grief, because

  291. there's two ways of grieving. One way of grieving is

  292. where you will self destruct. Your self distruct and you

  293. will turn against God, you will turn against everyone. But

  294. the other way of grieving is putting our trust in God.

  295. And that's why they say it, Blessed are those who mourn,

  296. for they will be comforted because if we mourn as

  297. how Jesus wanted us to mourn, then God's comfort will

  298. be with us. Okay, let's see the verse next. First

  299. Samuel Thade. Now David was greatly distressed. So you see

  300. David was also mourning for the people. Spoke of stoning

  301. him because the soul of all the people was grieved,

  302. every man for his sons and his daughters. But David

  303. strengthened himself in his God. Then David said to Abiata,

  304. the priest, a him Alek's son, please bring the effort

  305. here to me, and Abitar brought the effort to David.

  306. So David inquired of the Lord, saying, shall I pursue

  307. this truth? Shall I overtake them? And he answered him, pursue,

  308. for you shall surely overtake them and without fail recover all.

  309. When you are in grief, who do you turn to?

  310. When you are in mourning? Who do you turn to?

  311. Do we turn to God or do we turn away

  312. from God? It is very easy to turn away from

  313. God when we are mourning, because I'm following God. Of

  314. course things should go my way? How come it didn't

  315. go my way? But David, although he was grieving. Can

  316. you imagine you lost your wife, your kids, and they

  317. are in the hands of the enemy, and you do

  318. not know if they are going to be tortured or killed.

  319. And David's first instinct was to turn to God. And

  320. when he turned to God, what did God do? God

  321. told him what he needed to do. Right so verse

  322. next light. Now it happened in those days that the

  323. Philistines were gathered their armies together for war to fight

  324. with Israel. And as he said to David, you assuredly

  325. know that you will go out to me with battle

  326. you and your men. So David said to Aish, surely

  327. you know that your servant can do. And I said

  328. to David, therefore, I will make you one of my

  329. chief guardians forever. This is chapter twenty eight. This happened

  330. before David was attacked, you know. And this David was

  331. going to war to fight with who Israel? Do you

  332. see that David when the Falan because the Phalenestines were

  333. he was staying with the Phalistines. The Phalestinians asked him

  334. join me and go and fight against Israel. And what

  335. did David do? David went, and because he went to

  336. fight against the Israelites, when he left Zigleg, that's when

  337. the enemy attacked him and looted him. So you can

  338. see that David did not do what God wanted him

  339. to do. And as a result of that, zigg was attacked.

  340. But the moment it was attacked, what did David do?

  341. David repented, and David mourned. He mourned his decision to

  342. disobey God. He mourned his actions, and he said, God,

  343. you are in control, which ties to the first beatitude.

  344. David became poor in spirit and says, God, you are

  345. in control. I mourn my bad decisions. Now take control,

  346. tell me what you need to do. And God came

  347. thrue for David. And this is there's so many verses.

  348. When we are weak, then he is strong. Another one

  349. is Isaiah forty verse thirty one. Fear not Isaiah forty one,

  350. verse ten, Fear not, for I am with you. Be

  351. not dismayed. For I am your God. I will strengthen you,

  352. as I will help you. I will uphold you with

  353. my righteous right hand. So when you are weak, and

  354. when you are you know that grief right when it

  355. comes to you, you have no energy at all. You

  356. don't want to get out of bed. You feel so tired,

  357. you feel so exhausted, you just feel depleted, and you

  358. just feel like sleeping. You know, that's how I feel

  359. when when I go through grief or when I'm going

  360. through a downtime, I just don't want to talk about it.

  361. I just want to sleep. I just want to sleep.

  362. I just hopefully I wake up feeling better. But usually

  363. it doesn't because on our own we do not have

  364. the strength to do so. And that's why when we mourn,

  365. we need to seek God. And when we seek God,

  366. God will help us to grow and then we are comforted.

  367. In Isaiah forty verse thirty one, those who wait on

  368. the lot shall renew their strength. They shall mount out

  369. with wings like eagles. They shall run and notn't be weary.

  370. They shall walk and not faint. Okay, there's a type

  371. of there supposed to be Isaiah forty verse thirty one.

  372. Those who wait until Lord shall renew your strength. When

  373. you feel that you have no strength, when you are weak,

  374. when you're going through a tough time, that is when

  375. you need to seek God, and God will give you

  376. the strength. God will give you the strength, and then

  377. you will mount up with wings like eagle. You shall

  378. run and not be weary. You shall walk and not faint. Right,

  379. and that's the second g So, first of all, you

  380. have to grief. When you going through things right and

  381. you're going through a tough time, you have to grief.

  382. You cannot escape from it because if you don't grief,

  383. you pant it up. You will explode. After you grieve.

  384. You have to grieve the right way. Grief the right way.

  385. Let me just put it here. Yeah, you have to

  386. grieve the right way. In how David grieved, David seek

  387. God and then God gave him his strength. And after

  388. God gave him his strength, what did he do, Which

  389. leads me to my third point. It is go. So

  390. first you grief, then you grow, and then you go

  391. a lot of us. If we do not know how

  392. to handle our grief, we will be stuck at grief

  393. and we will not grow. God does not want us

  394. to stay where we are at, because we are more

  395. than overcome us in Christ Jesus right. So grief with

  396. God helps us grow. And when he grew, when we grow,

  397. then we have the strength to go forward. So the

  398. verse first Samuel thirty. So David went, he and six

  399. hundred men who were with him, and came to the

  400. brook bazaar where there is those who stayed who were

  401. left behind. But David pursued. He and four hundred men,

  402. for two hundred stayed behind, who were so wary they

  403. could not cross the brook bazaar. So David went with

  404. six hundred men, but two hundred of them were still

  405. so wary, they were still down with grief. They could

  406. not go forward. Next, then David attacked them from twilight

  407. until the evening of the next day. Not a man

  408. of them escaped, except four hundred young men who rode

  409. on camels and fled. So David recovered all that the

  410. Amalothlites had carried away. David rescued his two wives, and

  411. nothing of the ass was lacking, either small or great

  412. sons or daughters, spall or anything which they had taken

  413. from them. David recovered all. Then David took all the

  414. flocks and herds they had driven before those other livestock,

  415. and said, this is David's spall. So because David, when

  416. he was in grief, he looked to God as his comfort,

  417. that's where he had the strength and the wisdom to

  418. go forth and take back what the enemy has stolen. So, Church,

  419. this morning, the enemy might have stolen a lot from you,

  420. might have stolen your marriage, might have stolen your richest,

  421. might have stolen your health. And there is no one

  422. else that we can turn to. Only God. Only God

  423. has the power to give us strength and comfort us

  424. in time of need. And when we do that, right,

  425. like I mentioned, all of us go through grief. So

  426. the world is looking at how do Christians handle grief?

  427. You know? And I want to show you another scripture

  428. next then all the wicked and worthless men of all

  429. those who went with David answered and said, because they

  430. did not go with us, we will not give them

  431. any of the spall that we had recovered, except for

  432. every man's wife and children, that they may lead them

  433. away and depart. But David said, my brethren, you do

  434. not do so with that the Lord has given to us,

  435. who has preserved us and delivered us into our hand.

  436. That the troop that came against us. So remember there

  437. were six hundred men that followed David. Two hundred men

  438. left behind because they were wary. And because these two

  439. hundred men didn't join David in battle, the four hundred

  440. people who went into battle, they say that, hey, let's

  441. not give them because they didn't go with us. But

  442. David said that no, we have to give it to them,

  443. because you should not. You shall not do so with

  444. what the Lord has given us and preserved us and

  445. delivered us, delivered into our hand. So David knew that

  446. it was not he that fought the battle, but God

  447. fought the battle. And David wanted to tell the other

  448. two hundred men that didn't go with him that God

  449. was with us. God with us, was with us with

  450. our in our grief. God help us grow, and God

  451. help us go forward and take back what the enemy

  452. has tolnm. So even as I draw towards the close right,

  453. I wonder the Second Corinthians one blessed be the God

  454. and Father of our Lord, Jesus Christ, the Father of

  455. mercies and God of all comfort, who comfort us in

  456. all tribulations, that we may be able to comfort those

  457. who are in any trouble with the comfort with we

  458. ourselves are comforted by God. So, like I mentioned, all

  459. of us will go through grief and the world is

  460. looking at us. How do we handle grief? Because if

  461. the world sees that we handle grief differently, we handle

  462. grief with hope, We are comforted, we have deep joy.

  463. Even though we are going through grief, the world will

  464. want to see what it is that we have different,

  465. which comes back to what I said about disciple first

  466. next line. When we go through grief, we have to

  467. learn how Jesus handle grief. We have to live like Jesus,

  468. and then we have to tell others about Jesus. And

  469. this goes the same way to managing grief. Because God

  470. wants to comfort us, but he can only comfort us

  471. if we come to him. So blessed are those who

  472. mourn for they will be comforted. Iron you encouraged to

  473. know that if I'm going through a tough time and

  474. I think the world is coming to an end, the

  475. Bible says that I go to God and he will

  476. comfort me. And because he comforts me, I will tell

  477. the whole world of how good he is. So even

  478. as I draw towards a close, I wanted to just

  479. share share my story as well. So one of the

  480. stories that I had, So this happened a couple of

  481. years back. So we were having different challenges when it

  482. came to parenting, right when the kids were much younger.

  483. We're having different challenges and it was really really tough. Okay,

  484. it was really tough, to the point where both Jess

  485. and myself we just wanted to give up. We just

  486. wanted to give up. We're like God, we prayed, we

  487. did everything, we are serving you, but still nothing. There

  488. seems to be no breakthrough. And I still remember this

  489. instance very clearly. We were supposed to go for homes

  490. all right, Holmes is our small group, so I think

  491. Jess was supposed to lead worship. I'm supposed to do

  492. the word for homes. But then before we went for homes.

  493. There was we were facing a crisis at home, okay,

  494. where the kids. I mean, it was really a challenging

  495. situation where we really didn't know what to do. Okay,

  496. we really didn't know what to do. I'm sparing all

  497. the details because if you know, you know, it's family

  498. Sunday and we have the kids here in terms of that.

  499. But if you come and speak to me, I'll give

  500. you a bit more details. But suffice to say, we

  501. were at wits ends. We could not we were leading

  502. the homes, and we just wanted to give up. So

  503. what happened is, Okay, just decided to stay at home,

  504. and I said, I will go for homes. I will

  505. go for homes in that state of grief, and I

  506. will worship lead and I will do the word. When

  507. I went to homes that day and I did a

  508. worship lead, and I was worship leading the songs that

  509. I chose. I have no idea when I chose those songs. Right,

  510. one of the songs was I raised a Hallelujah. I

  511. started strumming a guitar and started I couldn't sing because

  512. I was breaking down in tears. I don't think my

  513. homies knew because I knew how to cover, but I

  514. was struggling and somehow made it through the homes taught

  515. the home notes, and then after Holmes, I went back

  516. into my car. I locked the door and I just

  517. screamed at the top of my lungs because I was like,

  518. I had it higher enough. I could not handle this anymore.

  519. I was like, God, where are you? Where are you

  520. in this situation? You know? And I just let it

  521. all out. And after I let it all out, I

  522. just felt peace. I felt a piece that surpasses all understanding,

  523. because I believe that when I was morning, he comforted me,

  524. and when he gave me peace, suddenly there was a

  525. boldness to like say that God, Okay, I believe you

  526. are in control, and no matter what the enemy throws

  527. at me, I'm gonna go harder, I'm gonna go stronger,

  528. I'm gonna go faster. And guess what now, I'm like

  529. leading the church plan here. This was way before us

  530. leading this church plan and things got a whole lot

  531. worse after that. But you know what, that lesson where

  532. blessed are those who mourn and day will be comforted.

  533. I took that and I say, God, you are gonna

  534. comfort me. You are in control. I am gonna go

  535. as you tell me to. So church this morning, I

  536. just wanted to share that that song again, I raise

  537. a Hallelujah all right, even as a play played this song,

  538. this song is so powerful because it started from a

  539. place of grief of morning. So even as we just

  540. played that video, you can hear the testimony.

  541. We hope you've been blessed by this message. For more

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  544. that this week is going to be a good week.

  545. I hit for you.

  546. God bless