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Episode #15 - Eric McGarr

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  1. So we got brother Eric Mcgar here today and we're I'm going

  2. to, I'm going to just jump right into it because I don't want to

  3. keep everybody here all night, but I'm going to pick up, pick

  4. back up what we were talking about earlier today, just

  5. because I wanted to talk more about it, but I didn't have

  6. time. There's not a lot of people who

  7. are really into biblical archaeology the way that me and

  8. my dad are. And you are absolutely, I don't

  9. know, Colby, if you've ever watched Joel Kramer on YouTube.

  10. I love dude, actually. That stuff is so cool.

  11. And I'm like, Eric Magar is the one other dude in this church

  12. who's like, he's in it. And I'm like, if I see something

  13. cool, I'm like, I bet because I often know you watch that.

  14. I've probably seen most of his. You're talking expedition Bible.

  15. Yeah, yeah, yeah, I've probably seen most of them.

  16. I kind of check back and forth to see if there's a new one out,

  17. but I just think it's incredibly fascinating.

  18. I've listened to a lot of Wes Huff stuff.

  19. He's a Christian apologetist, he's a head of Christian

  20. apologetics of Canada. And he goes more into like the

  21. biblical manuscript side of it more so than the archaeology.

  22. But I find all of it extremely fascinating and more so in the

  23. last year is is really when I've started to get into it.

  24. Get into it, yeah. No, Dad has been on that for

  25. years and he finally got me into it.

  26. I like expedition Bible, but there's I like watching just a

  27. lot of them in general because there's a lot of them that are

  28. like, it's like Jewish people who live in Israel and they'll

  29. do like historical archaeology stuff.

  30. And to see their point of view for a lot of it is so cool

  31. because it's they know their history and their culture.

  32. I watched 1. I don't know if you've seen it,

  33. but these two guys, they, they had excavated a city not too far

  34. from Jerusalem itself. The Israelites have or

  35. Israelites, Israel has excavated a city and I this guy that was

  36. on it was like a vice president of Israel and they were talking

  37. about this city they had found where they just, they had found

  38. so much stuff in it, like coins from the city of the shows, like

  39. the Star of David on it. And they're like these has got

  40. to be at least 1500 years old and stuff like that.

  41. And I'm like, it's just so it's like a visible like it shows you

  42. like historically. Hey, this stuff is legit.

  43. Have you seen the one with Joel Kramer where he talks about it

  44. was like Egyptian. It was like a tablet that's like

  45. a letter from some king in the land of Canaan to Egypt

  46. referencing the Israelites that were when they were invading.

  47. They called him the hobby Roux, have you?

  48. Seen that one? Yeah.

  49. Have you heard of that one? That is the wildest 1 I think

  50. I've seen all together where they're like the I, I couldn't

  51. imagine the perspective historically from all of the

  52. different kingdoms that were in the land of Canaan when the

  53. Israelites came back in with Joshua.

  54. Like, and that gives sight to that.

  55. You're like, Oh my gosh, there's these people that come out of

  56. nowhere. We have no idea who they are.

  57. And they're literally toppling Kingdom after Kingdom after

  58. Kingdom. And he writes that letter to

  59. Egypt. And I'm sure the Egyptians are

  60. like, we've had enough of them. Y'all are on your own.

  61. Yeah, There was a guy that I was kind of witnessing to on and off

  62. that kind of triggered my interest in all of that.

  63. And he's a very analytical type. And he was just routinely coming

  64. back to me and asking me questions.

  65. And they were like existential life question type questions.

  66. He's very philosophical. And my main goal was to, I have

  67. to prove that the Bible is real because he can't just say the,

  68. you know, read the Bible. He needed to prove that the

  69. Bible was real. So it's one thing to believe in

  70. something and it's another thing to be able to defend it, right.

  71. And, and so I kind of went down that rabbit hole as a way of my

  72. conversation with him. And then it turned into I

  73. actually did the Bible study on a Wednesday night a while back,

  74. called the People versus God. I don't know if both of you were

  75. here or not, but that was a lot of that material was my stuff,

  76. my research where I had been talking to him and it was, it's

  77. one of those topics where kind of like a lot of things, the

  78. more you look into it, the more you realize you don't know.

  79. And it just, it's very fascinating.

  80. I love being able to have that evidence.

  81. Like of course, I believe what I believe because I have

  82. experiences that you can't take away.

  83. But to know there are so many archaeological finds and

  84. manuscript proofs that cooperate what we believe is is really

  85. incredible. That's that's kind of my.

  86. Yeah, that was, that was huge for me coming back into church

  87. because I think apologetics did a lot more.

  88. There was just a lot that I was finding.

  89. One thing that really struck me just on the note that I've I've

  90. found fascinating because like you said, if you speak to people

  91. that are, you know, professing atheists or whatever, their

  92. biggest thing is proof, wanting to see proof and all.

  93. And you don't have physical proof of God because it is a

  94. faith thing, you know, But then when you look at manuscripts,

  95. when you look at archaeology and all of that comes together with

  96. prophecy was one thing that blew my mind.

  97. Like in Revelations, there's this one dude talking about it.

  98. The temple stones that John, I don't Have you ever heard this

  99. about the temple stones? Maybe, but maybe.

  100. Yeah, I'll proceed. I can hear it again.

  101. So in the In the Prophecy of the New Temple, John lays out the

  102. the 12 Stones that are that are on the temple steps right in

  103. order going down at all. And then he emits like diamonds

  104. and a few others. There's like 4 stones that he

  105. emits that aren't a part of that.

  106. Well, you come to find out when you put those stones that were

  107. used in his description of the temple under direct light, like

  108. an LED light, they shine and they glimmer.

  109. Whereas diamonds, if you put them under a direct light like

  110. LED or anything, they'll turn black completely.

  111. So the stones that are used in the New Temple, in the New

  112. Jerusalem, right after this whole world is over, they're the

  113. 1 stones that will radiate when under direct light.

  114. And that was crazy to me because back in the day they didn't have

  115. access to that. That's nothing he would have

  116. known. It's, it's that that could only

  117. be some sort of revelation. And the biggest argument to that

  118. a lot of atheists get into is that it's a story that was

  119. fabricated after the fact, right?

  120. And when you get into prophecy, stuff like that, I like seeing

  121. that because I'm like, even those people 500 years say that

  122. people just wrote a story 500 years after Jesus.

  123. They wouldn't even have that knowledge.

  124. You wouldn't have had that knowledge until well into our

  125. time right now. Little stuff like that.

  126. Yeah, it it it really does. It helps me at least I.

  127. Like the discovery of the Dead Sea Scrolls because exactly what

  128. you're saying some of the messianic prophecies oh that was

  129. just written after the fact. But when they discovered this

  130. library of manuscripts and ancient writings, that was pre

  131. Jesus, So you know that that shows you right there that the

  132. prophecies are true. It wasn't written after the

  133. fact. Yeah.

  134. Yeah. I mean, I, I, I could get into

  135. that all day long prophecies and stuff because like, like my

  136. favorite, my favorite one, when you talk about that, I mean,

  137. well, a lot of people, you know, they're like, well, we, we don't

  138. want to get into the prophecies of Revelation just because no

  139. one really knows. And this that and the other.

  140. And I'm like, that's true. But there's a lot in there that

  141. we can dissect and look at. And there are some very, very

  142. coincidental, like very close to stuff.

  143. Like nowadays, like when they describe like stars falling from

  144. the sky. It's like back then, if I saw,

  145. if I'm sure, if John saw a a marvelous light streaking out of

  146. the sky towards the Earth. Yeah, it looks like a star.

  147. But today we're like, oh, we know what?

  148. There's rockets or I, I forget what it was called, but the

  149. locusts that have steel breast plates and they look like men in

  150. the face and they have the Stinger on the back and they're,

  151. that's, they're loud. That's what he was referencing.

  152. And you're like an insect. That's crazy.

  153. But then you think about it, it's like, well, we have Apache

  154. helicopter that they draw the face of a man on the front of

  155. it. It has the back end of it that

  156. looks like a Stinger. Those things are incredibly loud

  157. and it's covered with an iron breast plate or what you would

  158. look like an iron breast plate. So that, that stuff there, it's

  159. like, I could talk about that all day long getting, getting

  160. into prophecies and stuff. But I, I just, I just love

  161. seeing things like 'cause, 'cause that's the big narrative

  162. today is, is that there was no Israel, right?

  163. Like that was all just story. It was always a certain subsex

  164. land. It's their history.

  165. All that other stuff wasn't real.

  166. There was no King David da da da da.

  167. And it's like, if that were the case, why are we like so adamant

  168. that we can't do these archaeological like digs where

  169. these things are supposedly at? And when we find homes and roads

  170. and cisterns and jewelry and all that, that's like clearly

  171. evident to that time frame. It just, it just solidifies that

  172. one thing is true and another one clearly is not because it is

  173. the exact opposite of it. You know what I mean?

  174. So it's like that stuff to me is just as a ministry all on its

  175. own, especially for people who are of that like show me kind of

  176. mindset. Those Missourians out there, you

  177. know, show me. Yeah, I'm with you.

  178. And I think it's important period in building your faith

  179. personally and then also being able to reach a different class

  180. of people and in Huntsville specifically, very educated

  181. territory. You I don't know, I'm sure you

  182. can reach people on feeling and faith alone in some capacities.

  183. But at the same stroke, we generally reach out to God when

  184. things are going bad. You know, that's when people are

  185. emotional wanting to reach out to God.

  186. I think you've got a good opportunity here if you really

  187. hound in and study to so show yourself approved.

  188. I think it's a great opportunity to reach the people in this city

  189. specifically by by diving in. And even the people that I've

  190. spoken to that are these green personality mindsets and it end

  191. up, you know, falling away where kind of the witness opportunity

  192. kind of seems like it's has closing.

  193. But like you said, at some point in the future when they have

  194. some sort of emotional loss or something and they are looking

  195. for what is out there that's more than me, then they can

  196. think back and and have that person of contact.

  197. I'm with you and I think that matters too, man.

  198. I I, I, I'm repeating myself from a former podcast, but that

  199. when I was in church and young, it was all about life gate.

  200. It was like, oh, get people here, you know, and not that

  201. it's not now, if you will. Of course, everybody in Madison

  202. can come to life gate. We'll have to buy a different

  203. building and all, but that's always a a desire.

  204. But the biggest thing, like you said, wherever you reach people,

  205. if you can just plant a little bit of a seed, it doesn't matter

  206. if they're in Washington state, if they're in Florida, wherever,

  207. it's about the Kingdom of God and being able to plant those

  208. seeds and the opportunity that we have being vigilant too.

  209. Yeah, there's a person that I reached out to, her name's

  210. Shawna, and she actually lives in Michigan.

  211. I was going to ask you about this too, by the way.

  212. He's talking about people from other states, but I just want to

  213. go on the story now or. Yeah, go ahead.

  214. This is a really cool story. So I was watching this video

  215. Amber sent me of Indiana Bible College had come out with a song

  216. that kind of had some viral hits and was kind of making the

  217. rounds. And she was like, check this

  218. video out. Or it was a reaction video of

  219. people who are not in church who are watching this video.

  220. And they're like, man, these people have something.

  221. There's really just something different with with this group.

  222. And of course, anytime you watch a video, you get a well, if you

  223. like that video, then watch this video, which led me to a

  224. reaction video from a YouTube who was reacting to another

  225. Indiana Bible college song. What a God and it was one of IBC

  226. songs this last recording. Love that song.

  227. Fantastic song, love. It.

  228. And she was watching the video and at the end when I kind of

  229. got into towards the end and it slowed down a bit, she just

  230. began to weep. And I just felt, I felt the pain

  231. through watching her. And I was like, I recognize that

  232. pain, you know, I recognize that.

  233. And I just was drawn to her and it's completely crazy outside of

  234. my norm. I'm not a very outgoing person

  235. in general. And definitely this was out of

  236. my outside of my comfort zone. But I reached out to her on

  237. Facebook because I didn't want to write anything on YouTube in

  238. a public setting. It just seemed awkward.

  239. So I found her on Facebook. I reached out and I said, hey, a

  240. lot of people on YouTube are saying you should go visit the

  241. next recording. And I completely agree with you.

  242. But that's a year away because they had just done the

  243. recording. And I said, but if you're

  244. looking for the atmosphere in the presence of God that you

  245. felt in that video, you will fill it at NAYCI said NAYC is

  246. happening in Indianapolis, IN, which is the hometown of Indiana

  247. Bible College. Perhaps we'll have some of the

  248. same singers involved. I said, but you will feel that

  249. Spirit of God there. And I said I didn't know she was

  250. from Michigan at this point. And I said, if you want to make

  251. it to NAYC, let us know. We'll we'll make sure that you

  252. get there somehow. And I said, you know, I'm a

  253. stranger. This is complete crazy.

  254. Here's my church website. You know I'm a real person.

  255. Yeah, you. Know my first thought is all

  256. right, he's going to ask for my bank account information.

  257. Soon, give me your Social Security number.

  258. But she reached out and she said I would absolutely love to come.

  259. And she said, you know, let me know if if you can make it

  260. happen at that time because the way NYC has done, the tickets

  261. are sold ahead of time. So I reached out to Lexi, our

  262. youth leader, and she said well, couple people backed out.

  263. So there's a couple tickets. Just let me make sure pastor's

  264. OK with it because he had offered them to some other

  265. people. Long story short, she came, she

  266. flew from Michigan, she stayed in the hotel right next to our

  267. church group hotel. And then we picked her up every

  268. service and she got re baptized on Thursday mornings service and

  269. then she got the Holy Ghost on Friday night service.

  270. That's. Awesome.

  271. Yeah, I love that and so. But props to you 'cause like,

  272. honestly haven't known you all this time.

  273. That's super out of character. It is, yeah.

  274. You're not a approach strangers type of guy.

  275. No, no, I have a hard time not talking to people I know so.

  276. Yeah, but what kind of feeling does that have to to know that,

  277. you know, you took that step and because you took that step,

  278. somebody was able to experience that and get the Holy Ghost and

  279. get baptized and and essentially get saved like and that's

  280. because you took that step. So prop to you that's that's got

  281. to be a great. Feeling it is a pretty

  282. incredible feeling. And it was really cool when my

  283. daughter Bella, at one point, I forget when it was, but she was

  284. like, Dad, if you didn't reach out to her, she might not have

  285. got the Holy Ghost. That's really cool.

  286. Yeah, that's right. Yeah, that is really cool.

  287. Was I was like and if whatever she does in her life will be a

  288. result of me stepping out in faith and how that domino effect

  289. can just change generations. I think one of the interviews

  290. you did, you're talking about that generational effect.

  291. Oh yeah. So that was really incredible.

  292. And not to spoil her news, but she's actually moving to Alabama

  293. in February. So she's going to, she's going

  294. to be joining Lifegate. That's awesome.

  295. Yeah. She said, and this was really

  296. incredible too. She she went back after NYC and

  297. she said, and we've been doing Bible studies every other week

  298. since then. And she said I just, she said, I

  299. love my church, but I just can't keep going there because I feel

  300. like they're just asleep. And she's like, I feel like God

  301. wants me to start over somewhere where I can be a part of a

  302. church that has what I felt there.

  303. And so she visited a while back, a couple months during the Lynx

  304. sessions. Yeah, she visited and and then

  305. she just let me know recently, me and Amber, that she was

  306. moving here in February, so. That's awesome.

  307. Look at look at Lifegate, man. We're getting, we're getting new

  308. converts and new people in and we're not even just, we're not

  309. even staying in Madison. We're going all the way up to

  310. the great white N to get them. Yeah, that's the, that may be

  311. the record for the longest, longest distance.

  312. Yeah, between the new member. That's the way to go, Eric.

  313. That's, yeah. I love that story.

  314. He told that story during the link, during the link sessions

  315. when she was here. She kind of told a little bit of

  316. it too. And I, I was like, that's

  317. awesome. That's just, that's really

  318. incredible to be able to have that faith and see it pay off

  319. like that. Yeah.

  320. Definitely makes me want to step out more 'cause I'm like, you

  321. know, I took that step of faith. I was super awkward, but look

  322. what it led to. So it's kind of boosted my

  323. confidence too, when I feel that again, not to just, you know,

  324. let it subside, but you could change someone's life.

  325. So Oh yeah, take that step. John Ford talked about that,

  326. that that feeling, you know, and like trust in that when you

  327. really feel something going after it and I it makes you

  328. reflect differently to, you know, like even everyday

  329. interactions. But you know, definitely, I

  330. think all of us can learn from that, especially take that leap

  331. of faith because you never know what Christ can do through us if

  332. we just take that little bit of a chance of maybe being awkward,

  333. maybe getting shot down, you know?

  334. Yep, absolutely. Which is, which is.

  335. I mean, that's, that's very it's, it's, I mean, it's kind of

  336. redundant to say Christ like, but I mean, if you really think

  337. about it, like when when Jesus was walking the earth, I mean,

  338. how many times did he just decide like, Oh, I'm going to go

  339. here and do this. And everybody around him is

  340. like, why, yeah, like this makes no sense.

  341. We're going out of our way. The Samaritan woman, perfect

  342. example. They're all like, we, we don't,

  343. why would we go through this area?

  344. Why would we're, we're literally just taking a random detour and

  345. they have no, no reason why. Like, why are we doing this?

  346. But he's he God is just so thinking so far ahead that he's

  347. just like, I'm going to get that from A to B, but I can meet this

  348. person on my way there. And it's just so spur of the

  349. moment and it's just so time like to us, it's just random.

  350. But I'm sure to from from heaven's perspective, it's just

  351. purposely fine-tuned and and maticulated and just put

  352. together perfectly to where it, the timing is just perfect.

  353. And to us, it's just like random, like it's just

  354. incredible how all that works. And it's incredibly, incredibly

  355. humbling to to get that, you know, get that feeling to hey,

  356. reach out that that God would, would use me to reach someone's

  357. life and their whole life is going to be changed because of

  358. that step of faith. Yeah.

  359. So let's, let's, let's hear a little bit about you, man.

  360. Tell, tell me where you're from. Your, your growing up.

  361. Were you born into this faith or, or did you find it?

  362. From originally from Indiana, grew up in Indiana from a little

  363. small community called Quincy. IN anybody who ever asked me

  364. where I live, I say Indiana's basically nothing but cornfields

  365. to drive out in the middle of nowhere in the cornfields.

  366. And then once you're in the middle of nowhere, go 5 more

  367. miles. And then that's where Quincy is.

  368. And it was basically just one giant circle Rd. with the houses

  369. on the inside and outside and everybody knew everybody.

  370. Not definitely not an affluent area.

  371. Two of my neighbors didn't even have running water.

  372. It was so far out there that we didn't even have St. addresses.

  373. We everybody had put post office boxes.

  374. And so since it was called, we called it the block.

  375. And since we were on the backstreet of the block, we just

  376. called it backstreet. But it wasn't until I was

  377. probably 8 or 9 where we actually had St.

  378. St. addresses. So you were a?

  379. Backstreet. That was a Backstreet Boy.

  380. Yeah, Ted Board. Ted Board loves that.

  381. But we lived in that. We didn't have much.

  382. We lived in a house that was over 200 years old.

  383. I remember there were holes in the walls and we would duct

  384. tape, we would duct tape the holes with cardboard, try to

  385. keep the bugs out, which didn't work.

  386. And there was always, it was always infested with bugs and

  387. spiders. And we had a snake get in the

  388. house one time and there was bats that I got in the house.

  389. We had mice all the time. I vividly remember my dad

  390. sitting in a chair in the kitchen with mouse traps with a

  391. BB gun and shooting mice because it was just, they were always.

  392. And it was the house is horrible, but and looking back,

  393. you know, I see I had both parents, I was healthy, but, and

  394. so I'm not saying I had the worst childhood in the world,

  395. but when you're a kid, all you see is what you don't have.

  396. You don't really see what you do have.

  397. And so most of my childhood, all I remember was just being in

  398. poverty, like very bad poverty. Family of six, single income.

  399. I was the youngest of four kids, two older brothers and oldest is

  400. a sister. So I had the hand me downs of

  401. the hand me downs. And when there was really hard

  402. times where we would share milk, my brother would eat his cereal

  403. and then I would get his leftover milk.

  404. And, and because we just, we were so poor and there were

  405. times we ate ketchup sandwiches, which my mom would hate to hear

  406. me say that, but she probably won't listen to this.

  407. It doesn't matter. But we were very, very, very

  408. poor. And but I was raised in church,

  409. so I was one third generation Pentecost.

  410. My grandmother on my mother's side was introduced to this

  411. belief by a door knocker. Somebody he was door knocking

  412. actually offended her with what they had said.

  413. And my grandma said she slammed the door in the person's face.

  414. But what they had said bothered her so much that she got out her

  415. by 1 and she started praying to God.

  416. If I if I'm missing something, show me and and Long story

  417. short, you know she's the kind of the patriarch of our family's

  418. faith and she's the greatest prayer warrior of I've ever

  419. known. She's going on to be with the

  420. Lord now, but third generation I even though I was raised in

  421. church, though I have somewhat of a different story than most

  422. because my parents never would stay at the same place too long.

  423. And so by the time I was 16, we had changed churches 14

  424. different times. And so it was very, very hard.

  425. You'd make friends at one place and then for whatever reason,

  426. you would, we would quit that church and we'd go start over

  427. somewhere else. And so by the time it was me and

  428. my older brother Jason, the two youngest, we just kind of became

  429. indifferent to the new churches and kind of bitter at the whole

  430. cycle. And so when it got finally to

  431. me, all of my, both my brothers and my sister both went all

  432. different churches across the state where, wherever they

  433. lived. And when I was turned 16 and got

  434. my car and got my job, I, that's when I stopped switching with my

  435. parents and I called Emmanuel Apostolic in Martinsville IN my

  436. home church. And we actually went there on 2

  437. separate occasions there when I was younger.

  438. There's a different pastor and, and they did around too, 'cause

  439. there's another pastor and, but, but yeah, third generation

  440. actually. And another thing that's an

  441. important part of my story is I finished high school living with

  442. another family. And actually all three of us

  443. boys moved out before we were out of high school for family

  444. reasons, internal family reasons.

  445. And so I actually finished high school living with a family

  446. called the Williams family. And they were like a second

  447. family to me and my brother, my brother Jason actually lived

  448. there when he left home. And and then when I left, my

  449. parents moved to Tennessee. But I finished high school

  450. living with them. And so I was.

  451. And the reason I say that is because it was during this time

  452. where I almost turned away from God completely because I was a

  453. teenage boy, which is already hard enough time to stay in

  454. church on its own. But I was living with a family

  455. who themselves didn't even go to church at all.

  456. My brothers and my sister all went to different churches in

  457. that in separate parts of the state.

  458. And I was still going faithfully to church.

  459. I was making myself go, but I was working a lot and because I

  460. was trying to support myself and the family had helped me file a

  461. court case to get emancipation from my parents.

  462. And I ultimately was denied that, but I still lived with

  463. them anyway. And so I I was going through a

  464. lot of stuff at that time that made me kind of drift away from

  465. God. And I started sitting at the

  466. back at church, becoming very disengaged and not going to the

  467. altar anymore. I was working a lot.

  468. So I stopped going to youth events because, you know, when

  469. you're a teenager and you're working, that's the most

  470. important thing in your life. And so I started to drift away

  471. from God. And I felt like I was getting

  472. angry because I felt like the sermons, every sermon was

  473. towards me, felt like it was pleading to me, drawing towards

  474. me. And on the inside I was really

  475. convicted, but on the outside I was very cold and unaffected and

  476. unmoved. And I was about just to be done

  477. with church all together. And my sister who always kind of

  478. looked out for me all and looked out for my brothers.

  479. And she was trying to convince me to go to church, to church

  480. camp. Indiana UPC has a Fourville

  481. church camp up north. And I hadn't went the previous

  482. year because I was had my job and teenagers think that their

  483. job is the most important and like who would who would refill

  484. the horsey pumps at Arby's if I didn't go to work this week?

  485. So but she kept harassing me to go because she knew I was

  486. struggling spiritually. And I didn't go Monday, Tuesday,

  487. Wednesday, Thursday, and finally, finally Friday came and

  488. she was just the way I remember just kind of harassing me, like

  489. just go. And she was always really good

  490. to me and looked out for me. So I don't want to hurt her

  491. feelings. And really just to get off the

  492. phone, I said yes. So I went to Four Girl Camp and

  493. it was like an hour and 45 minute drive from where I lived.

  494. And I remember the conversation I was having with myself driving

  495. up there like it was yesterday. And I was saying out loud in the

  496. car to myself, probably to convince myself what I was

  497. saying was true. But I was like, you know, this

  498. is old and antiquated and, you know, I'm tired of being

  499. preached at and I just want to live my life.

  500. And, you know, these people are all crazy.

  501. And I just, I'm done with this. And I said the statement, this

  502. will be the last service I ever attend and I'm done.

  503. And so I got to the church camp and was very disengaged

  504. throughout the worship service. And and then Brother Doug White,

  505. who has preached some of the men's conferences around here,

  506. got up and preached a message titled The Echoes of My Sermons.

  507. And he was talking about how he saw the echoes of all his

  508. sermons through the lives of the people he's ministered to.

  509. And he talked, he kind of ended the sermon with this one young

  510. man in his church who sadly had taken his own life.

  511. And he said that he and the mother found the boy in his room

  512. after he's taking his life and he was laying over a box of

  513. preaching tapes. And he said, and he ended the

  514. service like this. He said, and if you walk out of

  515. this service tonight and you never come back to church, how

  516. many of your pastors sermons will echo in your eternity?

  517. And I, man, I was, I was fighting and I was, I was

  518. standing because everybody was standing.

  519. He was closing the service. I was white knuckling the seat

  520. in front of me, face facing down, tears streaming down my

  521. face. And he brother White called me

  522. out at church camp. And you can hear it on the

  523. record. I have the recording on my

  524. phone. I still have the message.

  525. I listen to it every once in awhile.

  526. But he said, young man, I see you in the back weeping and

  527. you're not a camper this year, but God's trying to move you.

  528. God wants to move you. And I broke it.

  529. It distill obviously affects me today, but I broke and I served

  530. in my life that day. And it was that service.

  531. That's my like determining service where my walk with God

  532. stopped being something that I was raised in and became my

  533. foundational stance of I'm going to serve God.

  534. And that's kind of when I, when I, when I kind of corrected my

  535. path there made it real. That that's it That's, that

  536. brings up a thought to me where you see it a lot and you see it

  537. a lot with people nowadays that this is how it was for me.

  538. We, we the Bible talks about, you know, new converts and it

  539. almost likens them, likens them to children, you know, with,

  540. hey, they eat milk and cookies, you know, little things.

  541. And then you as you grow you, you can take in more.

  542. But it reminds me of like how it is for so many people where

  543. obviously your situation is a little different, but still a

  544. little similar where you just, you have so many people where

  545. you, you believe in it. Like like for me, when I first,

  546. when I first got in this, like in my head, I was sold out.

  547. But at the same time it was more of like this mindset of how

  548. great that was a great feeling. But now I don't, I'm not really

  549. wanting to change anything. And, and you're just that fresh

  550. face and you, you're, you're not, in my opinion, I was not

  551. like sold out like I thought I was.

  552. But then you have that service or you have that, that thing

  553. happened that, that where God touches you.

  554. And this is not a, oh, I'm getting the Holy Ghost at this

  555. point. Like you're already, this is a,

  556. a moment in time where it's almost like God just like gets

  557. real with you and says, OK, it's time to take the training wheels

  558. off. And this has to be, you have to

  559. decide you're going to sell out to this.

  560. So I think that's really cool. And I, I, I feel like you might,

  561. I, I, it sounds to me like it was kind of how that was like,

  562. you know, you were obviously like done with it, but just how

  563. many people are at that point? You know, where you, you know

  564. it, you know about it and you think, you think you're in it

  565. or, or you're trying to decide or whatever the case may be.

  566. And then you just, you have that moment where it's like God gets

  567. real personal with you in a way that you just, you're not ready

  568. for it and you never forget it. What a landmark man that and I

  569. think that's important. You saying you still got it on

  570. your phone too, because I think it's super important, man.

  571. We've all been in low, low spots before where God reached down

  572. each of us walking in here, I think and similar to the the

  573. children of Israel when Joshua had them set up the stones, you

  574. know, I think it's really important to not forget that

  575. either. It says a lot that you still got

  576. that on your phone and still revisit everything.

  577. And then I listen. To it this week because I was

  578. trying to remind myself of things, you know, Yeah.

  579. In preparation for this, I was like, I got to listen to that

  580. sermon again. Yeah.

  581. No, that's great. That's great.

  582. Converted from ACD. Oh, look at that ancient

  583. technology. Yeah, yeah.

  584. Now it's, it's important, I think holding on to that.

  585. But what a story too, man. Yeah, it always, it always moves

  586. me again because it's such a phenomenal, a phenomenal just

  587. dedication, like foundational change, like my life path

  588. changed that day. So it's very, it's a, it's a

  589. stone. It's my stones.

  590. You know, it's, it's something I always can look back to and it

  591. moves me every time I tell that. Yeah, Oh yeah, man, you got to

  592. think about the same God who the earth is.

  593. His footstool doesn't need us at all.

  594. Formed us from the earth, looks down, knows the thoughts you're

  595. thinking, hears you and decides you know what I'm going to

  596. today? I'm personally going to visit

  597. you and I'm going to pick you up and change your life.

  598. Had had no reason to do so for any of us but for that feeling

  599. you know you had. It's like he had no, God doesn't

  600. need us. There's there's the fact that he

  601. goes out of his way to get us when we're the ones who should

  602. be going out of our ways to get him.

  603. That's just so incredible. That's that that did a lot for

  604. me too, because I think I've reached the point of being

  605. agnostic where it's like, if there is a God, he really don't

  606. care about us, you know, And then you see time and time again

  607. where the, the, the story of Jesus coming down here to die

  608. for our sins. And, and when you put it in a in

  609. a personal perspective, and I, I've been trying to do that with

  610. my voice, like it's not, Oh, Jesus died for all of our sins,

  611. right, Because that's good. And that's, that's the message.

  612. But thinking about he also came down here just for you, you

  613. know, and he came down here for you to be white knuckling that

  614. Pew back there and then Reverend Doug White call you out.

  615. And then that be a landstone, which leads to Shawna, right?

  616. Oh, absolutely. Exactly.

  617. True. Without that moment there, and I

  618. just look at it, even if it's just two souls, because the

  619. Bible says when one soul converts and one soul comes to

  620. Christ, that all of heaven rejoices.

  621. And right there in the story, I feel like we've got 2 off of

  622. that one moment, you know? Absolutely.

  623. And I and like I said, I wasn't even a camper.

  624. And so the God would would move on him to preach a message.

  625. I mean, of course it was obviously for other, other

  626. people, but that message was to me.

  627. Yeah, that was for you. Yeah, Yeah.

  628. Other people got something from out of that was for you.

  629. And then a white knuckling, he's like, young man, I see you in

  630. the back and I'm like, all right.

  631. What's the what's the conversation like with your

  632. sister when you when that service ends, when you're like

  633. over like you're fighting her to go and now you're like, thank

  634. God I went, thank God that you begged me.

  635. What's that conversation like? She.

  636. Was very, she was very, very good to me.

  637. She was kind of a a parental figure because I had some family

  638. issues, but she was she looked out for me.

  639. So I mean, she's, she's never like said anything like, oh,

  640. it's because of me, you know, but I'm thankful for her.

  641. She's always been a person that I can look up to.

  642. In a way it is because of her, so absolutely you should be

  643. grateful. Have you ever told her that

  644. straight? Up Amy.

  645. I'm grateful. There you go.

  646. Exactly. Amy, if you're out there and

  647. you're listening right now, Eric is grateful.

  648. And it's because of, you know. Her name now we'll find her.

  649. He found he found the can't be that Sean on Facebook me and

  650. Colby can find her. On Facebook, Amy.

  651. You need to listen to this. Clip He's on there.

  652. That looks like bless your heart.

  653. Yeah, and I think something sticks out to me too.

  654. I've seen it in our our church plant work as well.

  655. A lot of kids that grow up in and I don't want to put any any,

  656. any labels on whatever your home situation, but tumultuous at

  657. least. Like it feels tumultuous, you

  658. know, from church to church, all that stuff, not as steady as

  659. could be, to say the least. I, I've seen a lot of people in

  660. that situation that like you, you take it out on God's own.

  661. Like if your parents are professing Christians and then

  662. your upbringing isn't the greatest.

  663. A lot of times it's easy to turn on God because of that and say,

  664. no, obviously whatever they were doing was wrong.

  665. So I'm just going to live my life.

  666. I think that was a big moment for you.

  667. But also, I think you said that you're everybody else attends

  668. church, right? All of your siblings.

  669. Yeah, they all, they all attend church.

  670. Yeah, yeah. That's my brother, actually.

  671. My my brother Jason actually pastors at church now.

  672. Wow. So yeah.

  673. That's awesome. That's awesome.

  674. Pastors at church in Georgia. Fantastic.

  675. And my brother Randy and my sister Amy, they both still live

  676. back in Indiana. OK, I got.

  677. You, isn't it? That's kind of a kind of a deep

  678. topic to think about how many parents think that they are

  679. doing the best thing by their child and they probably are, but

  680. they can't. It's just you know, and I'm I'm

  681. sure it's it's a super common thing.

  682. The amount of parents who who think that they're doing

  683. everything right by their child, but don't realize the just

  684. getting on a kids level and the way that kids see it, or even

  685. preteens and teens and and by not by just it becomes it can

  686. become a blind spot. But I mean, like I would say the

  687. most attacked generation or not, I want to say generation sect of

  688. people is, is the younger people.

  689. Is, is those teenagers in those preteens.

  690. I mean, they get, they get we, we, we tease them by saying

  691. they're immature or they don't understand.

  692. And when they grow up, they'll get it and da da, da, da.

  693. But like we say that, but obviously you, you have a force

  694. that takes advantage of that and, and just pounds on them and

  695. messes with them in a way to where like parents just, I think

  696. sometimes their kids can become their own blind spot, but they

  697. think that they're doing everything right.

  698. And they just don't realize that like their kids are going

  699. through things or maybe dealing with things.

  700. And it's, I hate that it's that way that younger people are

  701. attacked in that kind of way that you go through so much at

  702. that age. I've seen it a lot where that

  703. happens. You know, it just, it strikes a

  704. chord with me even thinking about that message where a young

  705. man takes his own life and the parents are downstairs and they

  706. have no idea. They think they they think their

  707. son or their child is up there. Doing whatever and, and you have

  708. no idea what, what your kids are going through.

  709. And it's just it to me, that's just, it's a touchy subject for

  710. me. That's where I will start to get

  711. a little, a little emotional just because I just I, it's not

  712. fair. It's not fair that, you know,

  713. you live in a world where our children are not off limits.

  714. They're they're like prime targets for us.

  715. And but that's like, like I tell Brooke all the time, like that's

  716. one thing for me. Like as as Braden gets older,

  717. I'm like, I don't care how what age he is, I'm going to

  718. prioritize getting on his level as much as I can because I, I

  719. want to do everything I can to make sure that I don't fall

  720. asleep at the wheel while my son might be getting attacked.

  721. You know, if, if that makes any sense at all.

  722. You know what I mean? Just.

  723. And stuff. It's a huge responsibility.

  724. We're we're a little further away from his stage of life with

  725. his kids. You got a teenager, huh?

  726. Yeah, 15, She's got a learner's permit.

  727. Not Saturday. She's got a learner's permit.

  728. Congratulations, you say this is this is totally off topic and

  729. not spiritual, but kids today don't seem to want to drive.

  730. So I'm very happy she went out and got a learner's permit

  731. because for whatever reason, I remember I was 15 and I'm like,

  732. let's go that day. It was like a Sunday, so we

  733. couldn't. And I'm like as soon as the

  734. office is open. I borrowed money from my grandpa

  735. so I could take driver's Ed so I could get my license as soon as.

  736. Exactly. I don't know.

  737. And I got a job the day I turned 16 there.

  738. Yeah. There you go.

  739. I was ready to go, but yeah, they got it too good.

  740. They just don't want to. Leave No, that's what it is.

  741. We're too soft. See, we, we grew up having to,

  742. to get told no and, and work for our own stuff.

  743. And so we, we didn't want that for our kids and now they're

  744. just too soft that that must be what it is.

  745. We've made too good of a life for them or not.

  746. Not me with my five and four year old, but we'll, we'll see

  747. in time. So on the 16 been working.

  748. You've been working ever since, I suppose.

  749. Huh. 16 got out the house started working.

  750. Yeah, I started working at 16 at Arby's in high school and I

  751. worked every chance I could get. And and then I even graduated

  752. high school early, graduated after the first trimester so

  753. that I could work more because I was quasi support myself.

  754. I was living with the other family and they didn't charge me

  755. rent, but you know, everything else I was paying for.

  756. So I was working a lot. And that's kind of probably

  757. where a lot of my drive and motivation comes to better

  758. myself is I had to hustle, you know, I had to, I had to make my

  759. own way, so. Which I, I think overall in life

  760. period, we talk about trials, we'll go through spiritually,

  761. but then even just in, in life like that, the struggle, I mean,

  762. you, and I'm not going to talk on, on your whole life, but you

  763. have you, you've made a very successful life for yourself.

  764. And I think you go back to 16. I think 16 year old Eric would

  765. be insanely impressed with Eric right now. 16 year old Eric

  766. would say that if you told If you told 16 year old where I am

  767. today, Eric at 16 would laugh at you.

  768. What about Eric that had the cardboard floors?

  769. Man, hopeful. Yeah, that kid would be hopeful.

  770. Get out of this. Yeah.

  771. I'm not going to, I'm not going to ask you to go through your

  772. whole life story, but obviously you're very involved with the

  773. ministry now, as you mentioned earlier, you, you taught a Bible

  774. study here. You're very, very involved.

  775. Where at what was there a point in time where you, you made a

  776. decision to dedicate yourself to the Lord in general?

  777. Was there a point in time where you had made that decision that

  778. you weren't going to just be a everyday churchgoer and that you

  779. were going to be more and you were going to be more used?

  780. Was there a time where you just like you made that decision and

  781. what might have led to that when you got to that decision?

  782. I. Don't know if there is an exact

  783. event that made me start to be involved rather than just

  784. attend, you know, on a regular basis.

  785. But my parents weren't super involved as far as like, you

  786. know, my kids complain all the time that we're always at the

  787. church. You know, we're all, they're

  788. like we're the last ones to leave on Wednesday.

  789. So it was never like that when I was growing up.

  790. So I, I didn't get it from, from them per SE, but when I, when

  791. Amber got in church and we eventually got married, we just

  792. weren't, we just got involved in a lot of things.

  793. I think I looked at my pastor in Indiana as like a, a father

  794. figure and, you know, I just wanted to do anything that I was

  795. asked to do. So I got involved playing the

  796. drums. I played the drums at Emmanuel

  797. for five years straight as the only drummer.

  798. Colby has no idea what that's like.

  799. Yeah, so, and then my, my wife taught Sunday school there and

  800. we were on the church cleaning schedule for a long time.

  801. And we were involved in choir and I sang when there were more

  802. drummers I would sing with like the praise team and they they

  803. did solo. So I pretty much did anything I

  804. was asked to do just because I wanted to.

  805. I don't know, I just wanted to be involved.

  806. How? How old were you when you got

  807. married? I was 20, Amber was 18.

  808. Dear Lord. So, yeah, we got married really

  809. young and of course, I would not suggest that to anybody, but it

  810. worked for us. Yeah.

  811. So I met Amber in high school. She went to the same school as

  812. me. She was a grade below me and I

  813. met her actually through my friend.

  814. My best friend was dating her. We're no longer friends.

  815. Yeah, and at Jessie's girl situation.

  816. And he, he. Won.

  817. Yeah, I did. Yeah, He introduced me to her

  818. and I was just kind of like. As his girlfriend.

  819. Yeah, looking at her and looking at him and I was like, how in

  820. the world did you get this girl? Because of course she's

  821. gorgeous, so. But and the the way this all

  822. worked out was not because I'm a horrible person and I stole my

  823. best friend's girlfriend, but because my main ploy to get

  824. people to end school to come to church was I would say, hey,

  825. come hear me play the drums. And I got a lot of people to

  826. come. And so I had said it to him at

  827. one point and she was there and he just flower said, Nah, church

  828. isn't for me. And she was like, well, he's

  829. your best friend. You should go here and play the

  830. drums. She just support him and I think

  831. trying to force him to say yes, she said, well, if you don't go,

  832. then I'll go. And instead of him being like,

  833. OK, I'll go. He was just like, fine, go.

  834. Wow. And she was like, oh, all right.

  835. So then I, she asked me to pick her up.

  836. And so I took her to church and she was attending a Baptist

  837. Church at the time. She's originally a Baptist and

  838. she attended the church and she really liked it.

  839. And she said that she felt something in our church that she

  840. didn't feel at her church. So she wanted to keep attending,

  841. keep visiting. And then she asked me, you know,

  842. hey, if I'm going to visit your church, you visit my church.

  843. So that was the first time I, I visited her church a couple

  844. times. And like I had said, I'd been to

  845. a lot of different churches, but they were all Apostolic

  846. Pentecostal churches. So this was the first time I've

  847. ever been to one that was not and it was very eye opening to

  848. me because you don't realize what you have until you see

  849. someone who doesn't have it. And so when I was in this church

  850. and the Spirit of God, it was just absent.

  851. It just was not there. The singing wasn't once it

  852. anointed. They're just like it was so

  853. empty. And I'm not saying that to be

  854. me. I just, I was, it's very, it was

  855. very eye opening, man. What keeps them coming back?

  856. Because you just, there's nothing here.

  857. And, and she felt it too. And so she just started coming

  858. to my church more and hers less until finally we were on the

  859. phone one night and this topic came up.

  860. You know, why is there a difference?

  861. Why, why do I feel this at your church and not mine?

  862. And then we started again to what differences there were

  863. because up until that point, I think she just thought we, we

  864. believe the same thing. And and so it kind of got tense

  865. on the phone a little bit and the call didn't end very well

  866. like it would. Even though she's never changed.

  867. It kind of, you know, in a, in a lot of times it can turn into

  868. oh, you're so you're saying that blah, blah, blah.

  869. You know, yeah, yeah. And I'm like eventually I'm not

  870. saying anybody saved or not. I'm not God, that's not, I have

  871. no right to say that. What I, what I can say is here's

  872. what the Bible says we need to do for salvation and I want to

  873. be saved. And so more so than what I've

  874. been raised to believe, more so than what I've been taught what

  875. I believe, it doesn't really matter.

  876. It's this is what matters. And so the, the conversation

  877. ended very tense, but then she called me the next day.

  878. I was at work and she called me. I answered the phone and she

  879. said I got the Holy Ghost what? And I and I said and I was the

  880. exact same reaction because it was the middle of the day and I

  881. was like what? And she goes, I got the Holy

  882. Ghost and I spoke in tons and I said what, when, where, how?

  883. And she said I had a dream last night after I think it was the

  884. next night. And she said I had a dream that

  885. I found myself in hell. And it scared me so bad that

  886. when she woke up, she started praying.

  887. She was at home alone in her living room.

  888. She got the Bible out and she kind of somewhat to what my

  889. grandma went through. She's like if I'm missing

  890. something show me. And she had a little prayer

  891. meeting in her own living room, and she got the Holy Ghost in

  892. her living room. That's insane.

  893. And how? Old would she have been in time

  894. 1718? She was 17.

  895. Yeah, and. She just decided that's insane.

  896. She just decided to whip a a Bible out and then pray until

  897. she got the. Oh man, you have some, you have

  898. some nightmares, man, when you wake up and that is sweat, dude,

  899. that is true. You got a you got a pose in her

  900. shoes. I'd be like.

  901. And so she was 17 when that all happened.

  902. I proposed to her on her birthday of 2007, March of 2007

  903. and then we were married. March of 2007.

  904. Yeah, we've been married for 18 years.

  905. That's. Crazy dude.

  906. And so she 12 years old, we got married.

  907. We got married on July July 7th of 2007.

  908. So she got the Holy Ghost at 17 between her junior and senior

  909. year. So when she went back to school,

  910. she was completely changed. And so, I mean, that's her

  911. testimony. Yeah.

  912. But yeah, we got married in 2007, and we kept going to

  913. Emmanuel Apostolic EAC Pastor Mark Abernathy from the time I

  914. was 16. She got in a church.

  915. We got married. We went to that same church

  916. until we moved to Alabama six years ago.

  917. And we got married in that church.

  918. Our kids were born in that church.

  919. My both of my kids were dedicated in that church.

  920. Pastor Mark Abernathy is a a huge pillar in my my upbringing.

  921. Yeah, so obviously. You left Indiana with fond

  922. feelings of yeah, what brought you to Alabama?

  923. So in two. 1008 the housing market crashed.

  924. I had just got married and I was doing at the time doing windows

  925. and doors, residential windows and doors, and I was paid peace

  926. rate. So I got paid based on what I

  927. put in. So the more I installed, the

  928. more I can make. But also if there's no work to

  929. do, there's there's no pay. So in 2008, I had a really good

  930. year. The housing market crashed, but

  931. the recession hadn't really kicked in yet.

  932. In 2009, I lost 50% of what I had made in 2008.

  933. And then in 2010, I had lost like 30% of what I made in 2009.

  934. So in a two year span of time, I lost 65% roughly of my income.

  935. And that'll devastate anybody. Amber was, Amber had a, a

  936. scholarship, so she was going to school.

  937. So she was, I was, it was just me working and losing that much

  938. income in that amount of time. And I was also young and dumb

  939. and we made some stupid financial decisions.

  940. So I was kind of staged myself to make it worse.

  941. And so I ended up defaulting on a big student private student

  942. loan I had taken out that I didn't even use on school.

  943. And I defaulted on some credit cards and got sued over my

  944. student loan and got taken to court and sued over one of the

  945. credit cards and taken to court. And I eventually quit the job

  946. just because I just couldn't make.

  947. There was nobody buying like remodeling industry was really

  948. hit. Yeah.

  949. So I eventually quit that job and got a job at ALDI

  950. Distribution. It was the only place I could

  951. find a job at and I was making basically nothing.

  952. And I was getting sued by these companies and I had wages

  953. garnished. And we, I mean, it was just a

  954. very hard financial time in our life.

  955. And it was for years from 2009 basically up until we moved to

  956. Alabama six years ago. And so I got in this huge hole

  957. of debt and we had sold everything that we had that

  958. wasn't pretty much necessary. And we had our electricity shut

  959. off. And Bella was, she was born in

  960. 2010. That year we had our electricity

  961. shut off in the middle of winter.

  962. And then I was behind. I was behind on everything,

  963. behind on the rent. They were garnishing my wages,

  964. which are already weren't enough to support us.

  965. We ended up having to move out of our apartment and move in

  966. with my wife's father, who was an alcoholic.

  967. And so it was not only humiliating, but it was not a

  968. great environment either. And so now we're living back in

  969. our hometown. I can't find a job anywhere.

  970. I got fired from the auto distribution center because I

  971. was one minute late and three minutes late within a 90 day

  972. period of time clocking in and they had a 0 talents policy.

  973. So when I clocked in late the second time in a 90 day period

  974. of time they just said they just walked me out and it was the

  975. worst of the recession. I mean unemployment was at its

  976. highest rate since the Great Depression.

  977. And I had a plot I was just applying in this late to jobs

  978. and it got even worse once we moved in with my father-in-law.

  979. My wife's car was repossessed twice and same car, same car

  980. twice. So it's actually a funny story.

  981. They repossessed it once and so when we were laid on it again,

  982. they threatened to repossess it. So we started, Amber's going to

  983. hate that that's we started hiding the car in my in her

  984. grandpa's barn because he lived next door.

  985. But they repossessed it anyway and they just called it an

  986. unclaimed repossessed because they couldn't find the car.

  987. But they still charged us all the money.

  988. So. But yeah, it was a horrible

  989. time. Financially.

  990. We just kept getting into a deeper and deeper hole.

  991. Amber at this time was still in school, so she was working part

  992. time as much as she could. But basically we dug into this

  993. massive financial hole and many times we didn't have any before

  994. we moved into the following law. We there mean times we didn't

  995. have food in in the house and only enough gas to get to

  996. church, but not enough gas to get back.

  997. And God always made a way. But kind of what turned the tide

  998. kind of started the recovery was and this is a funny story too,

  999. but I was home alone with Bella and Amber was at school and the

  1000. 700 Club had come on the TV in the living room and I don't sit

  1001. around watching 700 club and I don't even know if you know what

  1002. that is. It's really old, old people

  1003. show, but it's a religious program.

  1004. And what caught my attention was this lady on on the show saying

  1005. that she had lost her corporate job.

  1006. And you know, she was like me applying to just anything at

  1007. this point. She just couldn't find a job and

  1008. she was just trying to get anything.

  1009. And I was too. I'd applied to just endless

  1010. amount of things and, and to the point where I've completely lost

  1011. of all my pride. Like I'm back in my hometown and

  1012. I'm applying to I'm, I'm, I have a child now and I'm applying to

  1013. fast food restaurants and janitors and gas stations and

  1014. nobody will hire me. Like gas stations won't hire me.

  1015. Like nobody's calling. And so she said that God kept

  1016. impressing on her that you're a child of the king and King's

  1017. children don't beg. And so I sit there and I, you

  1018. know, I watched the program and, and she said, so I made a list

  1019. of everything that I wanted in a job.

  1020. And she said she wasn't being unreasonable.

  1021. She knew what her experience was.

  1022. So she wasn't being like lofty, but she's like, I put everything

  1023. that I wanted in that job. Just started praying like, God,

  1024. I am a child of the king and King's children don't beg.

  1025. And here's what I'm asking you to open the door.

  1026. And she got a interview and a job offering that checked every

  1027. line on that paper. So I did the same thing.

  1028. And Amber came home from school and I was like, hey, I saw this

  1029. episode of 700 Club. Pat Robertson And so I made a

  1030. list of everything I wanted in a job and we put it on the bedroom

  1031. door and we were praying over every every day and, and, and

  1032. night, you know, God open a door because I'm a child of the king

  1033. too. And I told Amber, I said, this

  1034. month I've applied to over 100 places and I said that only one

  1035. of them is 1 I would actually want.

  1036. And it was for an entry level IT position at an Internet service

  1037. provider. And I said, but it's, they want

  1038. a degree. I don't have a degree, I'm not

  1039. qualified for it, but I was like, I think I would actually

  1040. enjoy that job. So couple days probably.

  1041. I forget what the time frame was, but I got a phone call, not

  1042. from the janitor, not from the fast food.

  1043. Of all the, the, the most unqualified position that I

  1044. applied for is the one that called me.

  1045. And she said, are you still interested in this position?

  1046. And I said, I, I'm very interested.

  1047. I could, I could come interview today.

  1048. And she was kind of giggled and she's like, well, it's like

  1049. 3:00, so you'd have to be here by 3:30.

  1050. And I said, I can go out the door right now.

  1051. And she said, OK, well, come on. And so I interviewed with the

  1052. boss, the manager of the place, and she said, I, you don't have

  1053. a degree. And I was like, no, I don't have

  1054. a degree. I haven't finished.

  1055. And, and, and she asked me some technical questions and I didn't

  1056. answer them very well because. I did, I, I was a technical

  1057. person, but I didn't know how to answer the thing she was asking.

  1058. And so she's like, why should I hire you because you don't have

  1059. a degree and you didn't really know a lot of these questions.

  1060. And I said, you know, Long story short, I will be the kind of

  1061. person that will figure it out like if you just give me a

  1062. chance. And so Long story short, that

  1063. job is what kind of started the recovery for us.

  1064. And I was there for like 5 years, 4-5 years.

  1065. And I moved from Technical Support to network operations

  1066. and I kept applying for network engineering.

  1067. But they, it was the whole cycle of we won't hire you because you

  1068. don't have experience and you don't have experience because we

  1069. won't hire you. And Indiana's not like a hub for

  1070. technology, you know, So there's really not that much

  1071. opportunity. And so I'd went on my first

  1072. business trip for my current, the job in Indiana and it was to

  1073. Denver, Co for this new piece of equipment we were going to

  1074. deploy. And I went to, I visited church

  1075. there and I was considering at this time, I was kind of getting

  1076. better at my job for not hiring me.

  1077. I had applied like 8 times. And, and so we were, I had

  1078. talked to Amber, hey, what if we moved, you know, somewhere with

  1079. some better opportunity. And so I went to the service in

  1080. Denver, Co, Landmark Tabernacle, and there was the gifts of the

  1081. Spirit moved there that service. And he had asked us to reach out

  1082. to two or three people around us and tell them the number one

  1083. thing we've been praying over. And I told these two guys, I

  1084. don't even know these guys, 'cause I was just visiting.

  1085. And I said, hey, I've been praying.

  1086. If God is closing this door and opening another door, should I

  1087. move for work and whatnot? And, and then the tongues and

  1088. interpretation came forward later and it, and it said, and

  1089. the, the interpretation was you've been looking for

  1090. direction and I'm telling you it's time to move forward.

  1091. And so I kind of took that as like, OK, maybe it's time to

  1092. move on. So the interpretation of that

  1093. service was you've been looking for direction and it's time to

  1094. move forward. And kind of took that as an

  1095. let's explore some possibilities of moving for for work

  1096. opportunity, better work opportunity, because that we had

  1097. been in such a hard financial time that we really needed that

  1098. for our family. And so God opened up just an

  1099. incredible amount of doors to get me to initially NASA, which

  1100. is what brought the job that brought me here.

  1101. And I mean, I could spend 10 minutes just about how God

  1102. opened those doors. But and, and to live gate

  1103. specifically, you know, once I had that job offer to move here,

  1104. of course, I needed to find a new home church.

  1105. And I had looked online and tried to find, you know, what

  1106. churches were here. Think I found the Lifegate

  1107. Facebook page and it confused me at first because it didn't look

  1108. like a church. And that was, it was right when

  1109. you guys got in this building and the walls still have the

  1110. green stripe and shelves and carts and whatnot.

  1111. And I initially was like, Nope, it kept looking.

  1112. And the first church we visited was in Decatur, but we didn't

  1113. know where, where we're going to end up.

  1114. And Decatur is a little far away from where we were going to be,

  1115. what we thought we were going to be.

  1116. So I had visited here while Amber was still in Indiana

  1117. because I lived here for 10 weeks before they came down here

  1118. because they were finishing the school year.

  1119. And so I visited by myself on a Wednesday night, went out with

  1120. the youth group here, even though I was not in the youth

  1121. group, but went out with the youth group.

  1122. And what I had felt in the service, like just the worship

  1123. service, I was like, this is the place.

  1124. I mean, like, obviously the construction and everything,

  1125. Visually, it looked a little dishevelled.

  1126. But when I told Amber, I was like, maybe this is the life,

  1127. this is the church. And she was looking at the

  1128. pictures and, you know, she's like timing look.

  1129. Around. So but then when she came the

  1130. first Sunday, I think it was, and it was just very refreshing

  1131. move of God. And it didn't I, I, we didn't

  1132. visit anywhere else. We just instantly felt like this

  1133. is where we needed to be. Yeah.

  1134. I know. I know.

  1135. You. You.

  1136. Kind of like, you know, could go.

  1137. All on and on about God opening doors for, for jobs and, and

  1138. stuff like that. And you obviously know when I

  1139. say this, I mean it, but to me and, and we're going to get into

  1140. some miraculous things that have happened, like actual

  1141. supernatural miraculous things. But it is a miraculous thing to

  1142. be able to get a, a job and a career, especially when you're

  1143. so desperate for it. I mean it, it I like in like

  1144. getting getting that career, getting that job, finally

  1145. getting it after after searching and trying.

  1146. I mean, I know what it's like to apply for 150 a day jobs knowing

  1147. good and well. You're like, man, if these

  1148. people call me like, yeah, I'll take it, but this is really not.

  1149. But I just I got to get something and to finally get it,

  1150. man. To me, I would say that's

  1151. everybody's situation is different, but that's.

  1152. A miracle thing, right? There, I mean that's that's got

  1153. it's liking to finally being able to see after so long not

  1154. being able to see so and and it sounds it, I know for a fact

  1155. that that is something that has impacted a lot of people in this

  1156. in this church personally as far as just careers and trying to

  1157. get to that getting that job that like, hey, this is the one.

  1158. Not only will it will it pay the bills, but now I can be involved

  1159. and I'm not on a terrible schedule.

  1160. So I don't want to downplay God's ability to take care of us

  1161. and get us those those blessings because he still does do it and

  1162. it and it is something that's definitely it's it's a nice

  1163. thing to have. It's a nice it's a good thing.

  1164. And I say that just because, you know, I've been through that and

  1165. I know there are people who are going through it.

  1166. And God's blessed us with, with jobs and careers that we're

  1167. thankful for. And, and it's definitely

  1168. something he still cares even if it seems, even if it seems so

  1169. trivial, like it's not a health issue, but you know, he still

  1170. cares about us and still cares about us being able to have a

  1171. job that we like and that that can do what we need it to do

  1172. well in the the tough times. You know, it's easy to be like,

  1173. well, why didn't God help me then?

  1174. But looking back, you see how all of that was shaping you as a

  1175. person. So I had mentioned there were

  1176. times where we I tell Amber we have enough gas to get to

  1177. church. We don't have enough gas to get

  1178. back. But we always said God wants us

  1179. in that in his house. So we're going to go to church

  1180. and God's going to make way. And on multiple occasions, I

  1181. didn't know how we're going to get home.

  1182. And it would always be a random handshake that had a $20 bill.

  1183. One time my pastor had it in Indiana, shook his hand and

  1184. there's $500 in his hand. And it was, you know, that

  1185. secret slip of the money. And he said, someone said that

  1186. God told them to give this to you today.

  1187. And you're like, that's a miracle.

  1188. Like you have no idea, like the timing.

  1189. Another time somebody Amber had graduated from, had graduated

  1190. and this was like a couple months later and, and it was

  1191. another one of the services where it was a Wednesday night.

  1192. We didn't have money to get, we had enough gas to get there.

  1193. And then this lady, this older lady came up and she goes, I

  1194. forgot to give Amber her graduation card and it had money

  1195. in it. And it's just like so many of

  1196. those opportunities. And so you look back and you're

  1197. like, God was doing something in the, the way I, I think he was

  1198. changing my priorities, but he was also taking care of me.

  1199. And there was multiple times, at least two or three times where

  1200. we would open our front door and there'd be groceries on the

  1201. floor on the, on the door front. And God just spoke to somebody,

  1202. bring him groceries. So, you know, God has always

  1203. provided, even when I talk about the down times, he was providing

  1204. during those times. Absolutely.

  1205. I I think it's important too. Because.

  1206. We're by no means prosperity doctrine people that, oh, give

  1207. your life to God and then you're never going to have any issues

  1208. again. But I I think the benefit of

  1209. that too, is your perspective of a the hard times, because I

  1210. don't think financial stability is just a mark that Oh, God's

  1211. got you, you know, OK, you're doing right.

  1212. But even in those times you're saying God provided for you.

  1213. And I think a testament to you as somebody that I want to touch

  1214. on Cam would say this as well, more so for him personally even.

  1215. But you went through the doors that God opened up right.

  1216. And then a lot of stuff came from that.

  1217. One thing that strikes me about you and your character is you're

  1218. not one that gate keeps that or is stingy with anything there.

  1219. You help out everybody, even as simple as me.

  1220. You are actually really good at building resumes and all.

  1221. And when I was applying for this job, God opened up a door for

  1222. me. I've been struggling financially

  1223. and some job opened up for me the potential to get it.

  1224. And I was like, hey, Eric, do you mind taking a look at my

  1225. resume? And he was like, hey, I'll give

  1226. you my format that I use, blah, blah, blah.

  1227. And it totally shifted the way I built resumes.

  1228. I'm like, Dang, Eric really knows what he's doing.

  1229. And that may not even be anything big to you, but for me,

  1230. I was even like, that's my, that's my blueprint now anyways

  1231. for resumes. And that's so simple of just

  1232. sharing a link of a resume, but things like that.

  1233. And there's several people throughout our church, you can

  1234. name them if you want, you know, do a little humble brag, but

  1235. there's so many people that you've went out to help.

  1236. And I, I relate that to the groceries.

  1237. You may not see it that type of way, but you've put me on the

  1238. stuff I'm studying right now doing things.

  1239. Cameron was in a career field. You helped him in an area where

  1240. he was absolutely miserable. You helped him into an Ave. and

  1241. opened the door, if you will, even just for him mentally say,

  1242. hey, these are things you can do and things you can explore.

  1243. And I think if he was here for this one, he'd be giving you

  1244. major props for that because you you did change his life.

  1245. He was miserable where he was at.

  1246. I appreciate the kind words, but I I.

  1247. I'm I'm not saying that just to give you a.

  1248. Little check on the shoulder. I think it's a lesson for us as

  1249. well, though it's not as simple as, hey, if you can make it

  1250. through the hard times, then you're blessed and then it's

  1251. over. You're just good.

  1252. You know, I think it's a testament to once God has given

  1253. you that opportunity, man, use it.

  1254. You know, absolutely help people up and I think that's helped

  1255. several people in our congregation alone and and I

  1256. think you'll continue reaping benefits from that as well.

  1257. I feel like it the times. Of always being the person on

  1258. the needing end for so many years and like having so many

  1259. people in the church who were willing to help.

  1260. I mean, there was times where I, I didn't have a job.

  1261. I was applying a job and there were people in the church in

  1262. Indiana who would let me go work with them like contractors who

  1263. had their own businesses and I know they didn't need my help.

  1264. And so like God really kind of put that on me and Amber's heart

  1265. to, you know, now that God has blessed us so immensely that

  1266. we're going to be the we're going to try to do the same, you

  1267. know, Well, I want to say that. The church is a family.

  1268. That's what we all are. We call it we, we when we, when

  1269. we reference each other, we say brother so and so, sister so and

  1270. so. And in a family, siblings, even

  1271. if they might go at it or, or whatever, they, they're, they're

  1272. there for each other, you know, and I've that's, that's, that's

  1273. an attitude that is, I'm not going to say is void because

  1274. that would be wrong. But definitely there could be

  1275. more of, and I'm one of those that you, you know, you helped

  1276. me a lot. I bugged, I bugged you so much

  1277. when I was trying to get a job for so many years.

  1278. I was like, Eric, I was like, dude, I need help.

  1279. And you were like, dude, apply for this, apply for that.

  1280. Hey, I talked so and so I and I learned from those, from those

  1281. interviews that you got me. I didn't get anything, but I

  1282. learned from those so that when I was given an opportunity, I

  1283. was like, Oh, I can nail this. And there's, there should be

  1284. more of that, I think. And, and it's on me too, just

  1285. being transparent, but of being able to say like, you know, hey,

  1286. these, these people who are, who are with us here like these,

  1287. this is our family. And you know, when you see them

  1288. in need, regardless of what it is to, just to lend out a hand

  1289. to, to try. I mean, I can't tell you how

  1290. much of A, of an, of how much it, it, it, it, it made me feel

  1291. like for me when, when I was bugging you so much and you were

  1292. like, hey, I, I talked to my so and so manager or hey, I put a

  1293. referral here and there. And like so many people will

  1294. say, Oh yeah, I'll, I'll go and I'll, I'll, I'll say a word for

  1295. you. And they never do because they

  1296. don't want to stick their neck out.

  1297. But like, you were willing to do that.

  1298. He, he talked about Cam, but you were willing to do that for me

  1299. as well. And that means a lot to me to

  1300. know like, OK, you don't know me from from Adam really, because

  1301. I, I wasn't able to be at the church, Holly dog.

  1302. So how often I was working. But to, to be willing to, to

  1303. stick your neck out at your job and, and say, Hey, I'll, I'll,

  1304. I'll put a, I'll try to help you.

  1305. I'm going to try to help you. I'm going to try to help you and

  1306. actually do it. If we could get more of that.

  1307. And like I said, this, that's talking, this is me talking to

  1308. me. If we could get more than that

  1309. man, just it would make our, it would make our church feel even

  1310. more like a family, which is how I think it's supposed to be.

  1311. I've always said that. I've always been.

  1312. Closer to my church family than my biological family.

  1313. I've always felt that, which is good.

  1314. I think there's a aspect. To that community, you know, and

  1315. I think as we continue to grow, it's difficult.

  1316. New people get in everything. You don't want it to become a

  1317. clique of, hey, we've got our family, you know, and I think

  1318. that's what's great of, well, you know, and you're welcomed

  1319. like everybody welcomed. Me and like instantly just felt

  1320. like I was part of Lifegate. That's good.

  1321. That's and and now I think. You're of that next wave as new

  1322. people come in, you're kind of one of those that's established

  1323. in people's mind, you know, and then it's up to you and newer

  1324. people as well welcoming them as also, I feel like that's the

  1325. biggest part of the community aspect.

  1326. There should never be a point where, oh, hey, the the door is

  1327. closed. Like we kind of got our art

  1328. group. Absolutely.

  1329. And that's another thing of why I love.

  1330. Live gate so much is because and I and I have nothing negative to

  1331. say about my old church. Like I said, I owe a lot to

  1332. brother Mark Abernathy and but there's such a feeling of life

  1333. like a freshness. There's always visitors here and

  1334. it's, it's great to be able to come in and see someone new all

  1335. the time. It's incredible.

  1336. And we needed Lifegate to, to, to grow spiritually because it

  1337. wasn't just a move, it was a move for financial work reasons,

  1338. but it also was, we've grown so much spiritually as well.

  1339. So Lifegate has taken us to the next level spiritually, and

  1340. that's a testament to the family atmosphere here and like how

  1341. well we're allowed to integrate. Yeah.

  1342. So before I, before, before we, we, we, we start to close it

  1343. down here. We've talked a lot about how God

  1344. has, he's made himself very present in your life.

  1345. That's for sure. Absolutely.

  1346. But I, I know from what you've told us in the past, so I'm

  1347. going to get you to say it again.

  1348. But there have been a few times where he has made himself

  1349. present in your life in a supernatural way, not just

  1350. groceries on the front door, which is great, which is great.

  1351. But I'm talking like, wow. Like, yeah, absolutely.

  1352. This should. This is not.

  1353. Possible kind of a. Thing if you could dive into

  1354. some of those for me, yeah. So 22 big ones.

  1355. That are most, most people that I'm close to have heard.

  1356. But in 2009, Amber was pregnant with Bella and it was October.

  1357. Our church was doing a trunk or treat deal at the park like we

  1358. did every other year and I was having either shocks or struts

  1359. on my truck. I can't remember which ones are

  1360. on the front but they need to replace really badly.

  1361. So I pulled into my mother in law's house because her husband,

  1362. my wife's stepdad was a former mechanic.

  1363. And I was trying to do it really quickly so I can make truck or

  1364. treat. I don't want to be late.

  1365. And it was it was a work truck, but it was my truck.

  1366. So I was responsible like it I owned it.

  1367. So I had to fix it. And so we jacked the truck up.

  1368. I didn't use Jack stands really stupid, just being very

  1369. careless. And we were trying to get a bolt

  1370. out that wouldn't come out and we tried to use an angle grinder

  1371. to melt the bolt, basically melt through the bolt, but it

  1372. wouldn't come out. So he, he was like was hit it on

  1373. the back, like hit it from the backside with a hammer and it'll

  1374. probably come out because it's heated up now.

  1375. And I got on my stomach and I slid underneath the engine

  1376. compartment of the truck. So dumb.

  1377. And I hit the bolt and as soon as I hit the bolt, the Jack fell

  1378. off or the the truck fell off the Jack and the truck fell on

  1379. my back. And I know how much the truck

  1380. weighs because I was doing windows and doors and I would

  1381. scrap the aluminum windows. So I was weighing my truck all

  1382. the time today. It was depending on how much

  1383. stuff I had on there. It was 6000 to 6500 lbs this

  1384. truck. And it was the engine

  1385. compartment, which is the heavier part of the the truck.

  1386. And it fell on my back And instantly I just accept I'm

  1387. dead. Like you don't survive this.

  1388. Like it's not humanly possible to survive this.

  1389. Like it's human bodies cannot hold this much weight.

  1390. And so I'm just praying in my head.

  1391. I can't breathe because I can't expand my chest.

  1392. Like I can't take a breath and I'm just praying whatever's not

  1393. under the blood. Forgive me God, because I'm I'm

  1394. dead. Like there's no hope.

  1395. My wife's stepdad had had dump trucks, so he had another Jack

  1396. that he used on my running rails, my running boards on my

  1397. truck to get the truck off. And so the truck was off of me

  1398. after probably, I don't know, he says like 45 seconds or so.

  1399. There's no, I don't, I don't know how much.

  1400. Time passed, but. So he got the truck off me and

  1401. I'm laying there and I can't breathe.

  1402. Like I can't take a breath and I can't feel my legs and I'm just

  1403. waiting to die and my he comes back out with my mother-in-law

  1404. and my sister-in-law who themselves don't serve God.

  1405. But they got down and started praying for me and I went from

  1406. not feeling my legs and can't breathe.

  1407. Like I can't even attempt to take take a breath like I

  1408. couldn't and gasping just like choking on nothing and.

  1409. They started praying and then instantly the feeling came back

  1410. in my legs and I took a massive inhale, breath and I felt 100%

  1411. fine from that moment forward. And the they had called a

  1412. Lifeline helicopter because they reported that a truck fell on

  1413. me. So I stayed on the floor.

  1414. I was on the ground, gravel driveway and I was just, I

  1415. laying there by the time there were people were trick or

  1416. treating. So there was a cop literally on

  1417. the street when they, the call came in.

  1418. And so he came, he was there pretty much as soon as they got

  1419. the truck off me or well after they prayed for me.

  1420. And, and he said the ambulance is coming, they're going to take

  1421. you to the school 'cause that's the only place big enough for

  1422. the helicopter to land. And I said I feel perfectly fine

  1423. now. And he, he's like, well, that

  1424. doesn't make sense. And so I'm just laying there and

  1425. the ambulance shows up and they put me on the stretcher or

  1426. whatever and, and I tell them, you know, I, I, I think I'm fine

  1427. like now. And they're like, well, that

  1428. doesn't make sense. You probably have internal

  1429. bleeding. If you don't go, you're probably

  1430. going to die. And so they take me to, I told

  1431. him I don't want to go to the helicopter because I don't have

  1432. insurance and so I'm not paying that.

  1433. And they're like, if you have internal bleeding, you're

  1434. probably going to die. And I was like, I feel fine

  1435. though. And they're just like, well,

  1436. that doesn't make sense. So they took me to the hospital,

  1437. the close hospital. The helicopter flew there to

  1438. wait for them to say, yeah, you do have internal bleeding and

  1439. you're dying. And so they do a bunch of

  1440. checks. The as soon as they put me

  1441. through the emergency room doors, the doctor says, I

  1442. thought you said a truck fell on him.

  1443. And they said it did. I saw the truck and so they run

  1444. a bunch of tests and doctor came in and they said we can't find

  1445. anything wrong with you. And he's like, it doesn't make

  1446. any sense. The human body can't hold that

  1447. amount of weight. No.

  1448. And I said no, I know. And I left the hospital an hour

  1449. and a half later walking out and I never had a bruise.

  1450. Didn't even have a bruise. What I mean so you're you're.

  1451. The the family, they saw that right?

  1452. I mean, they saw, yeah, that truck on mother-in-law,

  1453. father-in-law, sister-in-law, and they got down and.

  1454. Prayed for you by the time Amber.

  1455. Yeah, by the. Time Amber had got.

  1456. There I was already being put into the ambulance, so she

  1457. didn't see the that part. But yeah, yeah, my family all

  1458. saw that. They saw me gasping, they saw me

  1459. gasping, but I couldn't expand my chest.

  1460. So I was basically just choking. And then they they were crying

  1461. and praying and instantly I feel like that would be a huge faith

  1462. builder for me. Yes.

  1463. Did they? Did they, did they talk about

  1464. that? It was a huge faith builder for

  1465. me. But.

  1466. Now that we. Really haven't.

  1467. We've talked about it a few times, I guess just here and

  1468. there, but and my mother-in-law attended here for a short period

  1469. of time. But no, it was I guess for me.

  1470. That's good. What?

  1471. That's good too. What part of the truck?

  1472. Was on you. I'm trying the engine.

  1473. Right, Yeah. So the engine compartment I.

  1474. Slid right underneath. The middle of the truck on my

  1475. stomach. Which kids?

  1476. If you're listening incredibly stupid.

  1477. Like use Jack stands. Yeah, and I didn't use the Crick

  1478. Jack. For the truck either nice,

  1479. that's good. So it was a compounded, you

  1480. know. God saves.

  1481. Us from ourselves sometimes. Doesn't he?

  1482. But it's a testimony that I have told and.

  1483. Witnessed 2 I've worked with and I've seen when I've told them

  1484. the story, I've seen people like one person said I just got

  1485. chills. So you know, it's a it's a

  1486. fantastic testimony that I shouldn't be here.

  1487. I shouldn't be alive. The other one is I was 16

  1488. driving to attend church with my mother an hour away, and I'd

  1489. stayed up all night on Saturday. I the church in Brazil IN which

  1490. is where I was going at at the time.

  1491. I, I, I went to Emmanuel on Martinsville, but I still had

  1492. friends from Brazil so I would go to their Saturday night use

  1493. service sometimes and so I stayed up with them all all

  1494. night. Saturday I was driving to

  1495. Martinsville and had it on cruise control and fell asleep

  1496. behind the wheel and car drifted across oncoming traffic and then

  1497. went off the road into a little ravine ditch beside the road and

  1498. it was on cruise control and it was flat enough that it just

  1499. kept driving. And I was just out, like out

  1500. like a light and it just kept driving.

  1501. And this little ravine right beside the road until it got to

  1502. an embankment where another Rd. was perpendicular and it was

  1503. basically just a Rockwall. And my car slammed into that

  1504. wall at 55 miles an hour and launched the car back over

  1505. front, flipping until it flew over the road and crashed.

  1506. Finally stopped on the other side of the road and the car was

  1507. completely demolished. And the guy that was behind me

  1508. had pulled off to the side of the road to come help and I had

  1509. got the door open and crawled out of the car.

  1510. And I stood up and turned around and looked at the car.

  1511. And the car was just destroyed. And he, he was like running

  1512. across the road and he just stopped and he looked at me.

  1513. He goes, are you OK? And I go, yeah, I think I'm

  1514. fine. And I was like, dust or not, I

  1515. was covered in gravel dust. I said, yeah, I think I'm think

  1516. I'm OK. And he's like, your car was like

  1517. 30 feet off the ground. And that was another instance

  1518. where I walked away. I had a seat belt kind of seat

  1519. belt burn on my shoulder, but car was destroyed and I walked

  1520. away because so I I actually woke up right before the car hit

  1521. and the only thing like I just had a split second and I said

  1522. and I just said Jesus. And as soon as the car hit it

  1523. just started flipping. Wow.

  1524. So. That's two times that I should

  1525. probably be dead. It's got to be traumatizing too

  1526. dude to go. Through that like man, that

  1527. that. I'm surprised you didn't have

  1528. PTSD for a while unless you did. I had PTSD from getting.

  1529. Underneath vehicles. I say that, yeah, that's crazy

  1530. because. I never even went through what

  1531. you went through, and I and I. Have that too.

  1532. It's it's wild. You know, I've, I've seen how

  1533. heavy that stuff is and I'm like, yeah, I'm not.

  1534. I don't, yeah, I try to, I try to not go under cars these days.

  1535. That's fair, that's fair. That's crazy.

  1536. Though, and that is a good testament to be able to tell

  1537. people, I think that's too huge to holding on to our stories.

  1538. Like you said, I mean, we're, we're on a path.

  1539. God gives us trials and he gives us moments, landmarks.

  1540. And man, if we just keep that to ourselves in this little

  1541. personal landmark, that's good. It has its purpose.

  1542. But sharing that with people, that says a lot.

  1543. You've gone through things for a reason and I think you're using

  1544. it to the best of your ability right now.

  1545. And I love that man. I'm excited about the future.

  1546. What holds you? For one, I know that not too

  1547. long ago, you you got your license, right?

  1548. Yeah. I felt that's a whole.

  1549. Story in itself, but I felt God was, you know, taking me to

  1550. another level and not necessarily that I feel like I

  1551. should be a preacher or anything or that's not why I did it.

  1552. I just really wanted to obviously one of God's will.

  1553. And so I prayed and fasted about it and, and I, and I, I was, I

  1554. went on an extended fast and was like, should I get my license?

  1555. Because, you know, I don't feel like I'm a preacher and, and not

  1556. that you have to be a preacher, but the process in general was

  1557. very beneficial just for my own confidence level and just my own

  1558. knowledge level. So for that alone.

  1559. But another thing that was really incredible about that

  1560. story, and I'll try to keep it short because I've been going

  1561. really long, but I was fasting about the getting my license and

  1562. I was like, you know, let kind of tell me if this is what you

  1563. want me to do. Do you want me to get my

  1564. license, guy? Or is this what you want?

  1565. So I wanted to extend the fast and I was having some really

  1566. fantastic, powerful personal prayer meetings.

  1567. But at the end of the fast, I still didn't feel like a

  1568. direction on whether I should get my license or not.

  1569. Like I don't want to just do it just because like, is this what

  1570. you want me to do? Good.

  1571. And so we had visited Indiana, we were visiting a church in

  1572. Indiana that my kids adopted grandparents go to.

  1573. And so I was states away and I was like, you know, why wouldn't

  1574. I feel a direction like that? That was the whole point of the

  1575. fast. And then Lexi, who was back here

  1576. in Alabama, texted me and Amber like 5 minutes after the service

  1577. ended that we were attending. And the preacher of that service

  1578. preached on how to hear the voice of God.

  1579. And I was like, man, that's like the perfect title for what I'm

  1580. needing right now. And Lexi and she, she's OK with

  1581. me sharing this, but she said I had a dream last night that I

  1582. just feel like God really wants me to share with you.

  1583. And she said we were sitting down and we were talking about

  1584. how to hear the voice of God, the same exact title as the

  1585. message we. And she said sometimes it's like

  1586. Noah and you have the complete blueprints.

  1587. You know exactly what to do, but you don't understand the why

  1588. because the the thought of rain is foreign to you.

  1589. Sometimes she says it's like Abraham and you have the end

  1590. goal, father of many nations, but you don't understand the how

  1591. because you're old and barren, he said.

  1592. But the third type is it's like Peter, where all you know is

  1593. what the next step is. Follow me.

  1594. And I was like, that's exactly what I need to hear.

  1595. I don't know what I'm going to do with it.

  1596. I don't know the blueprints. I don't know the angle, but I

  1597. know that this is what God wanted me to do this the next

  1598. step. And so I went through the

  1599. process of getting licensure. I got that sometime last this

  1600. sometime this early this year. I can't remember when it was,

  1601. but yeah. So the whole time you're, you're

  1602. like. You just had this you just had

  1603. this feeling like God wanted you to go into a deeper walk and I'm

  1604. from what I'm not getting. You're what kept coming back to

  1605. you is as well getting getting licensed, not necessarily for

  1606. the title of it, but I'm assuming for the wisdom

  1607. knowledge gained through the process.

  1608. Exactly. And I've told a few people, I

  1609. said. I've learned more.

  1610. I've studied the Bible and learned more in the last year

  1611. and a half then probably my first 37 years, you know,

  1612. combined, just because all I had learned up to that point was

  1613. what I, you know, I, I'd learned obviously things and, and and

  1614. had experienced in the God, but like diving into the word of

  1615. God. It's been fantastic in the last

  1616. year and a half, the growing process, knowledge and

  1617. spiritual. So, So what?

  1618. What would your what would you say to people who might be?

  1619. Feeling the same thing, like let's just say you got people

  1620. out there who are feeling like they have this feeling that God

  1621. wants more out of them, but they don't know what they don't know

  1622. what what it is or how it is. What would be what would be your

  1623. advice to that person? Like if someone came to you,

  1624. Said, said, said. Eric.

  1625. I feel like God wants more from me, but I have no idea how or

  1626. what I'm supposed to do or, or whatever the case may be.

  1627. What's your, what's your like? Hey, well, here's where you can

  1628. start. And this is what, this is what I

  1629. would do kind of thing. I would say definitely fast.

  1630. Because that's something that got us challenged me with since

  1631. moving to Alabama. And I feel like I am closer to

  1632. God when I go on fasts and I'm able to hear the voice of God or

  1633. the direction of God more when I fast than any other time.

  1634. And so God's the, the devil's definitely not going to ask more

  1635. of you spiritually. So obviously God is pulling at

  1636. your heart and so fast about it. But something Brother Penton

  1637. told me when I approached him about it, he's just like,

  1638. obviously God is stirring you. And so the thing we have to do

  1639. is take action. And so he gave me some goals,

  1640. Hey, let's work on this, let's do this.

  1641. And so definitely talk to your talk to pastor about it, fast

  1642. and pray. But if and I, and I honestly

  1643. feel like that helped boost my confidence when I reached out to

  1644. Shawna. I, I think if I hadn't went

  1645. through that promise, I probably wouldn't have reached out to

  1646. Shawna, but it gave me a confidence of going through that

  1647. material because there's a bunch of requirements.

  1648. So you have to to go through and just for me personally, it gave

  1649. me some more confidence on what I knew and what I believed and

  1650. how to voice that in a witnessing setting.

  1651. Would you say it's probably good for people even if they.

  1652. Have no intention of getting licensed to take those courses

  1653. anyways because from what I understand you don't have to

  1654. necessarily get officially licensed to take those courses

  1655. and take those those studies. It would you say that's probably

  1656. like a wreck like, hey, you got to get licensed, but you you

  1657. need to do these because, oh, absolutely that 100.

  1658. Percent, I think so and I've talked to Amber about it about

  1659. how it's one thing to believe something it's nothing to be

  1660. able to defend it and I think what especially with well

  1661. anybody but like the young people is can you defend what

  1662. you believe and going through that material is definitely

  1663. foundational and helping you know how to defend what you

  1664. believe. I think it's super beneficial

  1665. for anyone to go through those courses.

  1666. Are you're not? You're not doing any.

  1667. Kind of like Bible studies yourself with.

  1668. Like group Bible study groups or anything.

  1669. Are you, I know you were, you had mentioned something that one

  1670. of the linked. I've been doing Bible studies

  1671. with Shawna since NAYC and then I did Bible and billiards at my

  1672. house for two different sessions or two different link sessions

  1673. and there was always a devotional there.

  1674. I was usually 10 minutes or less, but after Shawna moves

  1675. here, I would like to. That's something I was looking

  1676. towards doing. I just recently got the new

  1677. exploring God's Word charts, so they updated the graphics on all

  1678. that. But I've really been wanting to

  1679. do some more Bible studies like with group settings.

  1680. When you do, when you when you get to that point, let me know.

  1681. I would. Be.

  1682. I think it's always good. Like you said, group settings

  1683. and. Everything too, because you're

  1684. able. To have it as a presentation of

  1685. we're learning together and I think everybody is, no matter

  1686. what, like there's never a time where, hey, I know everything

  1687. about God and I've got all the answers.

  1688. I don't need to study anymore. You know, I like that a whole

  1689. lot. I also one thing that stuck out

  1690. to me from all of this, you've gone from the lows of the valley

  1691. to the peaks of success, right? But you're still hungry, man.

  1692. You're hungry for God. You're hungry to continue

  1693. working and you're at this point where it's never just on cruise

  1694. control. That may be from your wreck, the

  1695. PTSD, not wanting to put it on cruise control, but I love that

  1696. so much because, you know, I feel like we can get complacent

  1697. sometimes. We get saved, everything's going

  1698. well and then we get a little weary and well doing and we can

  1699. just kind of kind of coast. There's kind of a motto I live

  1700. my life by and if you ask my. Kids, what it is, they would be

  1701. able to to recite it to you because I try to drill it into

  1702. their head. And it's originally from a

  1703. financial, it's like a financial quote, but I've altered it

  1704. because the quote is rich people have what and this I don't like

  1705. the quote, That's why I changed it.

  1706. But it's rich people have what poor people don't because rich

  1707. people do what poor people won't.

  1708. And I changed it to be successful people have what

  1709. unsuccessful people don't because successful people do

  1710. what unsuccessful people won't. And I don't just mean finances.

  1711. I mean like I, I try to apply that in every facet of my life.

  1712. If you want a spiritual walk with God that is more than the

  1713. average person, then you have to do more than the average person.

  1714. So you have to be involved. You have to be willing to serve.

  1715. You have to you can't be too good to clean a toilet like me

  1716. and Amber were on the clean schedule 40 years.

  1717. Like you're not too good to clean like that's right.

  1718. Be involved. Our boy Johnny right here.

  1719. I think this past weekend was. His This man ain't too good for

  1720. it. I was here until 9:00.

  1721. Last night with with Brother Pitton calling me while I was

  1722. here saying, hey, you're still up there.

  1723. I'm like, yeah, he goes. Well, the Roomba stuck.

  1724. Did you figure out why? Oh.

  1725. Let me look. Ah, there's a whole bag of

  1726. pencils down here 'cause they're just thrown all over the floor

  1727. under these little lockers. So let me start digging pencils

  1728. out of this room, bud. Figuring that out was something

  1729. you said. I'm maybe with.

  1730. Eric May, I think there's the podcast, but you said something

  1731. about you don't care if NVIDIA stock goes down if you're not

  1732. investing in it. Yeah, I forget what that was.

  1733. Yeah. But basically, like if you, if

  1734. you want to have more than the, the average, the typical, then

  1735. you're going to have to invest the more than the average and

  1736. the more than the typical. So that's the model.

  1737. I every fast my life. Like I, I try not to be on

  1738. cruise control just because like I, I, I want to have a higher

  1739. level of spiritual walk with God than I had last year.

  1740. And, and I kind of gauge my walk like am I, do I feel like I've

  1741. closer to God this year than I was last year.

  1742. That's kind of how I look at it. That's a good benchmark and.

  1743. I think Mac touched on something similar he that challenged me a

  1744. lot because I think I struggle with scheduling and ADHD.

  1745. Anyways I've been trying to be more intentional about setting a

  1746. time, starting my mornings right, reading the word, diving

  1747. into stuff and staying intentional with our walk.

  1748. But you're right about that. The buy in.

  1749. I'm, I'm very grateful that for one, our, our whole

  1750. congregation, the, the community that's here at Lifegate, I feel

  1751. like we've got a, a decent percentage of people that are

  1752. doing that and maybe a decent percentage of people that want

  1753. to buy in more and don't really know how to get started on that.

  1754. Grateful for you. Of course, I'm very grateful.

  1755. You came from Indiana. You've been a blessing to

  1756. Lifegate. Wonderful voice.

  1757. We love when you sing weeks and weeks in a row.

  1758. Well, thank you. Yeah.

  1759. That's it's just, it's amazing everything that.

  1760. You've gone through. And I'm going to, I'm going to

  1761. phrase that as it's amazing the amount of things that God's

  1762. carried you through. And I don't think you'd have a

  1763. problem with me saying it that way.

  1764. No, not at all. To, to, to just be going through

  1765. so much. It's, you know, a lot of people

  1766. say it, you know. Nowhere in the Bible does does

  1767. the Lord ever say that living for him will be easy.

  1768. It never says that matter of fact.

  1769. I mean, I would be willing to bet there's off the top of my

  1770. head is too tired to right now, but it's probably stuff in there

  1771. to say. It might even be towards the

  1772. opposite of that. I mean, there's going to be

  1773. times where it's it's going to be hard because of this.

  1774. Actually, now that I think about it, Jesus did say like, they're

  1775. going to hate you. The world's going to hate you

  1776. for my sake. It's going to be rough, but man,

  1777. I would much Lord, don't, don't take this as a challenge.

  1778. I would much rather go through tough times with him than good

  1779. times without him because I don't think you can ever truly

  1780. have a good time without him. And just, you know, through all

  1781. the things that you've been through, I'm sure it was that

  1782. faith of he's got me, He's got me, He's got me.

  1783. That kept you from just giving up, you know, So I, I think that

  1784. if I could, if I could summarize this, this episode so far for

  1785. anybody who's listening, it seems to be more of one of those

  1786. like, man, just because the tunnel was dark doesn't mean

  1787. there's not a light at the end of it.

  1788. You just got to keep going forward like you like, like you

  1789. mentioned it with Peter. I mean, he was the only one that

  1790. got out there and, and walked on the water and he had no idea

  1791. what was going to happen. All he just all he just said was

  1792. Lord bid me come. And once God said come, he he

  1793. did it. So I appreciate.

  1794. You I appreciate you sitting down with us.

  1795. This is going to be a little bit of a longer one, but I enjoyed

  1796. it. Apologies.

  1797. Yeah. No, no, no, no.

  1798. You just wouldn't stop talking. It was all the.

  1799. It was all. The intro, see, we, we, we

  1800. started talking on a different topic than just diving into your

  1801. story. So that's kind of it's my fault.

  1802. It's my fault you got you got someone who doesn't.

  1803. Talk very much to stop, not. Stop talking.

  1804. I know I love it. None.