Leave me alone I’m doing this myself Part 1

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Hi lou Jah?

Yeah, yeah you.

Bless your name?

Your name got how extra holy is your name? God

you made My mother said, bless you old today.

Guy. You came off. You are great. Oh good God,

thank you for you right to night. He goes on

the praise. Yeah, thank you, thank you, thank you for

coming to here. Father.

Plang you do your man, hang it on, thank you, Bob,

you're everybody. Yes, that's o God.

We blessed you know, yes, we gify. Yeah. Somebody, oh Lord,

that that you? Well, thank you. Come on, somebody praise. Yeah,

you know I'm not keep kind. He came in here

to praise your father. Here.

God, I'm trying from my heart bowship praise I got so.

I get a father. My praise comes from my trying.

Thank you. Waiting on the Lord? Yes, yes, so he can.

Reeved you can't. Yeah, come on now all right, come

on here, yeh God.

Yes, come on. You can't wait on him. You can't resent.

He's trying to shout you yourself. Yeah, I'm going to problem.

I'm not glad about it. All right, Thank you put

your plans down right, I know my God, the Lord

thinking about thank you Lord, thank yes, my God, yes, yes, yes, yes, yeah, Jesus,

I'm sorry, podak yeah great guy, you go.

Oh God, I'm sorry.

Not your podcast, oh God, child, yes God, yeah, Lord.

Tried my mind. Yeah, my patience, I said, yes, yes,

said you had enough to be about to come into morning.

Yeah, thank you, thank you, thank you though, yes God.

Lujah, Yeah you knew your good afternoon? Thank you podcast?

Oh God, thank you, Jesus, I said the afternoon. I'm

so sorry. I got so caught up in worship to

my God that I forgot that you where they are? Yeah, Jesus,

thank you. How many people got a hallowejah? Friend? I

tried to look online, but I couldn't find your building. Yellow.

I tried to look online, but I couldn't find your building. Jesus,

that's because you ain't gonna never find us.

Hey God, Oh, thank you Father, Yes, God you he started,

but I don't think it was the right time.

Out, Thank you Father. When does God ever do anything

in your time? All right, hey, show, I want to

welcome you today's internal Fire Ministry. You can stand up

album on the wall. Honey, I'll get it started again

back soon.

I'm sorry, you're gonna have to give me two minutes.

I can prison without them the battle through this. You look, damn,

I will do a battle, don't you look? Yas the

cost of being an intercessory for going out, you gotta

go in the wharf there, and so you may have

to go on the battlefield itself.

Jesus only expected battle, but she ruled the two at

you to deal with your opponent. O.

God, sometimes fists and yeah, ain't gonna win the battle

that time? Sometimes your mouth and the praise. Yes, yes,

he said. We wrestled, not against flushing, against rules of darkness.

And you understand, yeah, that we fight our own battle. Yes, yes, yes,

your man, How you gonna win for somebody else?

The footman? Don't worry? How you gonna run with the horse? Yeah?

This is eternal. Five minutes. Spirit ministry. I mean, I

don't care if you don't feel the Holy Spirit. I

don't care if you messed up and you feel like

the Holy Spirit has left you.

I said, the Holy Spirit flash sometimes, and I want

you to move in.

Your mess, yes, yes, no doubt, I said, in your mess, yes, Lord,

Sometimes God wants you a mess so he can give you.

A bless Jesus is a thank you already fearfully and

wonderfully made.

Yes, God, sometimes your mess is what makes you for

the ass. Oh y'all, Oh God, I know y'all stuff now, Yes, Jesus, Jesus, Jesus.

He said, you're perfected by the faith your work. Your

works are as filthy brand. Yes, we are perfect through

the faithfulness, Jesus. Can I get another praise? A pride.

About?

You? Can't crazy and what not? Ya, I'm just trying

to figure all this out. He didn't need to. God

said he already worked. There. You don't, then you just go.

I'm talking to somebody, right, somebody on podcast you worried

about I was gonna end up. Let me tell you something.

I want to do that battle this week. That something. Lord,

you said that you were gonna do Manda ride Man

that he was lying, right, I said, I'm not finished, right, Jesus, Hey,

you helping somebody? Didn't I say that? When I help,

Ye'll tell you about it when you help her?

Hey, God, Yes, g yeah, God, thank you, bother gloriess one.

That's all right, You're gonna have to ignore them. Thank you, Jesus.

We're training the praise and the worst of them. So

if they come to your church and you still try

to do the announcement and we're still praising them, you

have to shut us off. I told you that eternal

fire up in here. Yeah. Sorry, because when you've been

through some stuff you ain't got That's right. That's right, right,

Ain't that? Ain't that that's right? Jesus' gonna bright crying

out for me? Said the rock ain't crying out for me.

You're supposed to be the rocky. Yes it is. Father.

We like to welcome you. Kelly Garrick. Yeah, Hall Loulia.

She's coming in all the way from Australia. Amen, thank

you my God. How they Loia? No, she's in Bloomfield. Jesus, Hey,

thank you Father. She's about to get three feet of snow.

Praise a little. You can have it all up there.

It's going out to see. That's right. Oh, I forgot,

I got corrected. It's going out to see. It's going up. Yeah,

I'm sorry, Hey, people correct it didn't mind you, Jesus.

It's going out to see. Yes, it is God, the

Lord Jesus. Yes, even while it will authority over.

Jesus. Yes, God, she is a spiritual thing.

Yeah, yes, God, your Father.

Yes, I am crazy. Jesus, command the season. You don't know. Yes,

he gave us. I forgot all your Caesar still, thank you, Jesus.

All yours are rumbling. You can't be silent because you

won't be silent. I'm sorry. Oh God, my name is

Jonathan Harber. I want to know me. There are many

versions of me, but there will never be another one

of me. That's why you're so precious. If you'd like

to get in contact with me, I'm so scared to

call me. Listen, I take international calls. I have three minutes.

Jesus tells for number eight six zero five eight three seven.

I've been on here for three years, never got a

phone call, never got a text. Thank you, Jesus. I'm

not you're afraid of I want a fellowship with you.

They act like they don't want a fellowship. Ye okay.

I've seen a person in the store the other day

with a God shirt on, and God walked right by

him and he didn't say anything. God, I don't know.

You have to wait until this Thursday, Part three. Jesus,

thank you. The Book of Genesis. Yes, we'll be in

chapter two.

Yes, we gonna find out why God rested and how

some of you can come into that rest. And I

believe I'm resting in the Lord right now, even in

the mist, I'm still I canna tell you something right

now through spirit all hell could be going on around you.

Your mind can even trip up. Spirit man be shows

you the awesomeness who God is in the midst of

your trials, and when it feels like death is at

the door, your spirit man, Oh, come on, that's why

he's a spirit man. That's right, Halloween. That's why you

gotta turn on that worship music. Jesus, that's right. That's

My email is tal fire minutes dot com. You can

comment on Facebook. Like us on Facebook, follow us on

Facebook YouTube. Well I want to see you in person.

I don't think that's gonna happen unless he sends me

to your ministry. It's little God, how I said, sometimes

the ministry is better heard than seeing. Okay, were you

afraid somebody gonna judge me? Let me tell you something

I really am not. I haven't gotten one phone call

in three years, so something must be truthful. Most people

will turn the channel anyway, because the kind of people

we're dealing with right now, they rather listen to falseness

and things that it's their ears and pamper their little

makeup drawer. They don't want to hear truth. They don't

want to say, put the flesh under this over. I'm

not your right channel. See I preached to me before

I preach to you, Jesus, honey. Sometimes it be hurt,

and I'd be like, no, I really got to say that.

I say, yes, you do. And some of them say, well,

you were a little hot. Oh Shelley rocking, Oh boy,

that's right, rock on, Shelley, rock on, Jesus, thank you.

I heard the Lord say, Selly, there's a miracle coming

to your And I'm not just talking about your mother,

you know, we're talking about that this week. No, I'm

talking about with your children. Yes, there is something happening

with your son. He was on me last night. God said,

I'm getting ready to do a shift in his life.

All right, all right, He said, stay in your place, yes, Jesus,

all right. See, I don't know why people go through

things when God want to use them, and they know

going through some things, God say I call you. Many

a call, but few are chosen for an appointed assignment. Listen,

don't get it twisted. We're all chosen in Christ. But

God has to prepare you, yes, when He calls you,

so that he may choose you or desonate you for

a particular assignment. That's that's right, that's right, Listen. I

didn't ask for this. I didn't want it, Jesus. But

when God said, you're gonna preach and teach my truth,

revelatory truth, pastor shepherd people that I don't even see

because you don't need to be up in here for somebody,

that's right you. That's right. We're building a church. We're

building a ministry without walls, and I have some things

in store for this year. Honey. Well, we're gonna have

to break down some walls. Yes, lord yamen, because I'm

sorry as usual, right, yes, God, hallelujah. Have the same

old broadcast, Yeah, halleluia, Jesus, shame old routine. We are

me know that in eleven thirty it'll be tithing. Honey.

We don't do that here. We just spend in hibernation

because of the weather and things of that nature. But honey,

as soon as break as soon as the b B

is he is he a porcupine. That's what some of

y'all listen to when you porcupine said, await, that was

February second. Well, why you gotta wait for the weather?

I said, because you know why? I like to have

enough time outside. Yes, and most people that need to

hear aren't outside. Well, who are the people that you

minister to? The broken, the desties, the ones that you

can't do nothing with, outcast, don't want to be. I

know what an outcast is. Let me tell you something.

I've been outcast more by people that say they love

Jesus and the people that don't say they love me,

the ones that accept you. I wish you hurry up

and get to that word. Yes Lord, yes God, Yes,

thank you Father, give you glory last night. And I

want to make this disclosure before I start, because I'm

going to say this. Listen, this is a free broadcast.

You don't pay anything. If you look at any of

my podcasts, do I charge anything? No? No, you know.

As a matter of fact, me and my sister were

having a conversations like I don't understand why these people

tithe all of their money into this ministry when you

know you have been on broadcasts that if I told

you how much we paid, you'd be shocked. We don't

have to worry about overhead. We don't have to worry

about a church man. We don't have to worry about

the children's nursery. We don't have to Well that's what

the Lord called me to. Well, which Lord are you

talking about? Because our assignment is to make disciples. Yeah,

that's right, that's right, that's it. But we need a

nursery so that when the adults are in service, someone

can watch their children. I have the children right here.

Why do I need a nursery. They are in the nursery. Okay,

they're being built up. You think God can't use a

three year old child, Well, they have to be taught

on the lowe. You think God don't know how to educate?

Somebody talk to Jeremiah, my nine year old, that they

were asked to pray. He didn't wait till tonight. He

got on the top of the stairs and said, Father, Lord,

touch my Yeah. I wonder where he learned that from.

M ask any of them to pray? And it's not

a problem some of you. You've asked people to pray

for you. Well, I pray for you when I get home.

I got to get in a sitting pasture. Yeah, after

r food and slept. But this is a free broadcast.

Even when we get in our larger space, I don't

intend on getting a building because I'm already that I'm

not going to be there anyway. I'm decided this is

what we're supposed to be doing. And however, how long

you're going to be here listening to that. I know

they're upset, April, I know they're upset. I know that. Well,

I thought you were gonna have a big, ragged church,

You're gonna have peys and stuff. And I heard somebody

in the spirit last night, and I'm telling you said, God,

these people, Oh yeah, Well he started his men. I

wouldn't follow him because he's you know, he should be

doing a lot more in his ministry, a lot more

of what what should I be doing in parting the

word to people? That's enough. See, I don't have the

big chandeliers and the pulpits and the big huge glass windows.

See that would distract you. Like I told you before,

if you've seen this room, I think there's a wire

hanging there. If you've seen this room, some of you

be like, this is it, But see it's not about

the room. It's why you're getting in the room. Yes, Lord,

And so we plan on your missionary and traveling and

doing all sorts of things, because you can't just be

a hero. You've got to be a doo. And I'm

still trying to learn this thing myself. But this is

a free platform. You don't have to worry about me

every saying I need you to give. Oh, no, you're honey.

If you feel impressed to give, I don't know, call me.

I don't care. But you know what I'm not well,

giving is an history. You think giving only has to

do with money. You can't even give somebody a piece

of bread at the shelter. This is not what you

can give somebody a place to stay. Well, I gotta

hear from the Lord to be about I know my

sister is homeless, but I better praying because I gotta

be careful. Who's gonna be in my house? And see'all paranoid?

The church meant you. But you know what's funny. I

know Valentine's they passed, and I know some people had

people in their house that were gas you know, some

of your situationships, and you know then we didn't consult

God about that. But then, you know, it's funny when

it comes to your sister that you really don't like.

That's really what the problem is. You don't like her

and you really want her to suffer. We gotta seek

God about who we have in our house, but we

don't seek God about a potential mate or out of here.

I'm sorry, y'all was safe today. Y'all was safe today

because I was supposed to talk about I had a

love affair. Oh, I was gonna talk about your flesh affairs.

But I'll wait until after Valentine's Day because you're safe now.

But last night, as I was going through some things,

and I mean going through some things, Oh God, You

know how many people know that sometimes when you're going

through things, I mean really going and through in your mind, yes,

that it feels like you're being smothered by all of

the life challenges at once. Yes, yes, and even in

the midst of you know, God is speaking to you.

You know, this week I had to rebuke the devil.

You know, my chest started hurting, felt that I was

gonna have a heart attack because I'm so st rest.

I'm gonna be real. I know none of you are stressed.

You know you ain't got nothing to work anywhere, and

dell ain't gonna mess with you. And then when you

start pouring into your family, he said, look at me

over here, same old problem. But seeing our faith. We

never said that we weren't going to have problems and that,

and you know, I find in the midst of the

problems the flesh is so graciously supportive. How is it

gonna happen? We don't know what's gonna happen. Oh my god,

Oh no, it's gonna happen this way. Honey, you're gonna

have to prepare for that, I said, I refuse whose report?

Will you believe? M Yes, God has already spoken beyond

the reports. But see, it's the process we have to endure,

so find out how sound we are a god. But

I didn't come here and talk about that today. I

want to talk about a statement that most of us

use when we are tired of being helped. We've had

people who have tried to assist us with things, or

we helped assist people with things. Oh, I got the

right people that really deep down we knew that God

gave us the assignment to do it for ourselves. Yes,

we find ourselves asking for help from others, but realize

the help isn't getting us much results and causes us

instead of moving forward, when our our assignment to hinder

us from progressing to the point of us dismissing the

help and doing it ourselves. Jess, I know none of

that has ever happened. I'm here because we have a

bunch of enablers, Christian enablers. So if I beat you

up today and I well, first of all, I just

want to make this disclosure. I'm preaching to me.

So if some of this falls off on you, you

can just take it and make me file it away

in your book of remembrance and say, I'll just file

this away because.

I know I'm not an enabler.

I know that I don't jump into people's arguments.

I don't help people financially. I'm gonna hide behind it.

Who know they are perfectly capable. But I'm not only

going to talk about that. I'm gonna talk about the

assignment of God. I'm gonna talk about the things that

He has purposed us to do without outside help. My

message is leave me alone. I'm doing it myself. I

have a message for some of you today. When it

seems like everything has stopped, there is an indication that

God wants you to himself. Yes, I'm going through this

right now. I can't tell you if I'm gonna get

through all of this. This might be part one. I

have a lot of part ones. I have got four

sermons on Well, when he's gonna get to the other one,

when I feel like it, or when God prompts me. Well,

you don't have anybody setting up your sermons. No, that's

not how it works here. Listen, Jesus, we don't have

a border directors. We're not going to have a border directors.

If you want to go to the director, when you

get on your hands and knees, cannot he will direct

you to the answer. Okay, yes, God, they can't do

nothing with Melly, they can't do nothing. But when everything

has stopped in your life, Yes, I'm telling you this

by personal experience. I've been going through something where it

seems like everybody has left the building. Well you got

two people. Oh no, you're know I'm gonna help you.

You can be in a place where there are fifty

people but still be alive. Why is God moving everything

out the way Because I want you to myself, because

if I keep the people there, you won't get to

the place in me that I need you to get to. See,

I'm talking to myself. I can just get and like

I said before, y'all can just whatever gets thrown off

at you and you can relate to it. You go

ahead and take it. Do you ever notice when God

speaks to you, no one is really around? That's right,

that's right, rue. Listen. I was sitting in my car

last yesterday. Wasn't a soul in the car, and the

flesh is just running, running its mouth, And after a

while I had to say, can you shut up? I'm

trying to hear. There are times in your life when

it's see and see. Let me tell you something I've learned.

Do you notice they don't stop after you come through

one battle? Here and I know some of us we

try to craft our escape pod.

Oh yeah, honey, I try.

Come on, Shelly, I know you're shaking. Not connect me

for a minute. We try to get our escape pod.

You say, well, if I put this here, and I

put this here, I can make this work. But God

told me this morning maybe I don't want it to work.

Maybe I want you to work for me, and then

I'll work for you. Trouble now, well, you're gonna understand

I plan this out correctly, and it seems like everything

that I plan it fell to the ground because the

thing that God knows you're gonna plan is the plan

that you know full well. If I plan it, you're

going to Jesus God. But see, some of us don't

want to wait to visit the Lonely Hearts Club, y'all.

Bet I hope I get past this because Valentine's Day

was a week ago, and I'm trying to be succient

to some of y'all and allow God to fix it.

Because what he starts doing this this means you find

you truly just need it to be alone. When he

starts working on that heart, when he starts working on

that problem, you realize that can help me because I've

got too many things going on in my emotions that

maybe I don't want everybody to see some of them.

Don't need to see y'all underwear. That's that's right, that's right,

that's right, that's right. See the crafting. The people that

are around you don't get the glory for the crafting

that's in your life. Right, That's why God said, I

gotta move. I gotta move these people out of the way, honey,

because I'm trying to undress you. But that's reserved for me,

and I don't want to hear this. Jesus, Jesus, go to

John chapter sixteen. Glory. Come on now, I'll help you out,

John chapter sixteen. Yes, Lord, we're gonna ply on through it.

Come on, yes, thank you Lord. Listen, if your situationship

left you now all the roses been on dried up,

I'm gonna say something bulger may cover your children's eyes,

because come your children's ears, because I don't worry because

this is only suited for eighteen anyway, the sex didn't

last long enough. He popped rock and locked it. But

it didn't last hm hmmmm. And now you're left alone, Jesus.

He took all your food stamps. Jesus, I was gonna

save fifty dollars because I know that I need to

cook in the meal. Drove out all your gas in

your car. Now, remember you're the one that had to

pay for dinner. Oh, I'm sorry. She's get out of here.

I'm trying to get out of here. You know you

had to pay his meal. Come on, but I was

just the Lord had told me. And some of you

don't know God, I want to talk to the world folk.

He shut it off. He gave you one rose, and

now you gotta buy your own roses. You got left alone,

but then some of you got extended guests. Oh, I know, honey,

you know that wait until winter's over, needed next to stay.

Don't do it, don't do it. I've had some experiences,

you know, some cases this week, and so now that

you're in a lonely place and you really, honey, I'm

gonna tell you something I should not. I should well, I'm

gonna sew I might as well. My cousin called me.

You know, it's funny I give people advice suggestions. Now,

I don't mean that I got you know, all this together,

you know, because sometimes my own suggestions can be better

for myself. But sometimes wisdom has to kick in somewhere

for you to say that when something is broken, it

can't be fixed. Broken, can't fix broken. You can't fix

or fix a fla. Some of you are worried about

building build a bear, and they don't come completely as symbol.

That's the problem with you. But she came to me,

and I am because discerned what the problem was because

I heard through the grape vine. But I knew she

would come to me sooner or later. And they've been

having some marital problem, which I mean, you try to

advise people in the beginning and then now they want

to come to you. And I told her, I said, listen,

you can't fix broken I said, what you need to

do is abandoned ship. Now you know, I wouldn't give

anybody no advice to But Honey, once somebody has committed adultery,

I don't know why I'm going here're gonna help somebody.

Once somebody has committed adultery, they have already broken the commitment.

That's right, and at that moment, you are giving liberty

to either abandoned ship or fix it. I don't know

where ever God's telling you, but I didn't break the covenant.

You broke it, honey, to sink the ship. Because I'm

not trying to sleep with Betty. When I know my

name is kim Okay. I know, but my pastor had

told me I'm to pray about it and be silent.

That was her advice. I said, no, honey, let me

give your scripts here about this thing. And so wisdom

at some point has to come in. But see, when

you're not in a place where we were alone, your

consciousness can't be in a place where I can gather

myself together. This is the advice I said. You need

to abandon ship because you've got too many skeletons that

are trying to take from you Jesus. See, sometimes God

will eradicate your whole environment. He will destroy your whole environment.

He will destroy your friendships, he will destroy your.

Connections because God wants to get you in a frame

of mind where you can analyze these things without being

in front of them.

That's what are you talking about? Some things you won't

see until you're by yourself. That's right. And see if

you got Connie always blowing in your mind and in

your ears, or what to do? Right? How can I

trust in the Lord and lean not onto my own understanding? See,

let me tell you something. Sometimes your own understanding is

connected to the outside sources. Lets you entertain and they

become false to your purpose. Mm hmm. I'm sorry. Let

me get you. I just drifted off somewhere. That's okay.

You know sometimes I daydream in my sermons. M Jesus,

thank you God. I'm sorry. I'm getting there. Yah, y'all

forgive me. I'm I'm thank you. Father. Somebody told me

I need to get counseling. Honey. There ain't enough counseling

for what I'm going through. I can tell you. Let's

go to John sixteen. Verse thirty two. Oh God, I'm

gonna have to change this wig because the sweat is

coming out. Remember the old wire wigs, Chelsea, you're gonna

talk about my wig like that? I know I got

wires in the honey. I'm flashing up here. Man, don't

get hot flashing. Who told you that? Lie? Who told

you that lie? Honey? I was flashing last night. I

had to open that window. You don't think men have hormones?

My doctor when he's when she said, you know, men

get hormone too, Yes, sir, I said, maybe I get

hormonal when I preach. Maybe that's okay. Verse thirty two.

Behold the hour cometh, Yay, it is now come that

ye shall be scattered every man to his own and

shall leave me the hell alone. And yet I'm not alone.

See that right there. That should give you assurance, because

the Father is with me. Yes, yes, every one of them.

He was talking to his disciples. Every one of them

had been with Jesus. They left behind their things, came

and followed him. Now Jesus is saying, you're gonna be scattered.

What do scattered mean? They are going to dissipate. They

are all gonna go their own ways, because now Jesus

was getting ready to pave the way for them. Yes,

what is the way? We don't worry. Were gonna go

to work. They're gonna be scattered on their own The

owning the Greek means ideos to one's private it's separate,

separate their own business. What's he trying to say? They

are all going to be separated, individually, scattered only with

their own ideas of how to live. This experience of

being representations of Jesus in their own place, in their

own region assigned to them. Yes, yes, yes, yes, yes,

mm hmmm mm hmm. You know, it gets cut off

at the good part. It always gets caught off at

the good part. It always gets cut off, cut off

at the good part. They're all going into their own assignments.

I'm sorry, I'm gonna help, you know, God just prompted me,

Old Lord, you know, y'all excuse me. I'm gonna have

to go out here and get the for a minute ago,

I'm getting ready to go to work. I gotta change my pants,

and you keep falling and listen if.

Jesus the phrase, thank God, I don't have to worry

about being in church.

I don't have to worry about decorum. This is the

second Sunday, and we gotta we're gonna wear white, so

you don't even know what whit it is because I'm

gonna just preaching my pajamas. Is that all right?

Right?

Well, I gotta pass because Shelley's got her bonding on.

So see when you come here, you can come in

your pjama You just sing we're supposed to and our

best with God. I found people that got suits don't

have their best man. In fact, they're the ones that

give the biggest hinder. But anyway, let me get back

to this. They're all called separated, scattered in their own

ideas and experiences and representations of who Jesus is. And

now they're going to experience this on their own. That's right,

that's right. So let me get let me get so

hold on, wait a minute, let me get you. Let

me let me get this straight. So the pastor that

I'm under, thank God, we don't have that problem. They

just come and when God sends them out by. They

don't belong to me. They're the lords. I just check

on them now and then I say, hey, how you

doing any singing? And listen, I want to bite you

in you know whatever. You don't want to come? Fine? Bye?

Because it used to be a season in my life

I would cry about people being around. But see, God

is slowly breaking there because in being alone, this has

to be tested out. INDI visually listen, you've been under

a past. That don't mean I'm sorry. I'm gonna say that.

It really doesn't matter mm hmm because we know that.

I know the parents can contest in this room. M hm.

Your children couldn't live with you till you were forty.

I don't fully get why God has me living where

I'm living. I don't fully understand it because at my

age I should be in a certain place. But he

reminded me of something that sometimes as you're going through

the experience or the process, everything is not always going

to be comfortable. There's some things you're going to have

to sacrifice for the moment to get something from God. Listen,

when you're in a lonely place, I'm gonna talk to

some real folks that don't like to be alone. I'm

gonna preach about me, And if I preach about you, you

can grab something. I don't like being by myself. Well,

you seem like you like to be No, I really don't,

because I like to have the communion. I like to

have the fellowship. I like to have a cop Because

sometimes you be hearing the echo at night and you

be like, somebody there, somebody, y'all need to stop ring.

Go ahead, go ahead. Yeah, you know you walked down

your hallway last night. You thought something was behind you.

Get out of here. Y'all need to stop me. You

putn't trying to put that fear on me. I ain't

trying to put nothing on you. That's already on you.

But you be hearing the echo, you be thinking, you

hear stuff in your mind. But then you go, I'm

not gonna go to here. But see when you're alone,

there's silence, Jesus wating to the mountain to pray alone.

He said, I gotta dismiss all the motives. I gotta

dismiss all the talking, because you know, everybody got their

opinion as to how I'm supposed to do this experience.

I gotta get away from all of you because after

a while, when a lot of people have talked to you, yes,

you don't even know what thought to go with until

it goes totally contrary. I'm sorry, he'sayt in my notes.

I'm just form right now, until you go totally contrary

to what God originally said. What are you trying to say?

You know, God told you to go south. Yeah, but

your friend said, you know, the South is kind of cold,

so maybe you should go north. But that's not what

God told you in private. Anything that God says to

you privately, the Bible says, he will revealing openly and

he won't confirm his word. I'm sorry, but if God

ain't saying nothing to you that he haven't told me

in private, I ain't listening that like some false I

almost say it. You know, people think that they're helping

you by giving them your suggestions. I mean, I give

people a lot of suggestions and sometimes I just need

to shut up and let him go through. And this

one person said, you want to hear something funny? You

want to hear something? Are you gonna say it? I heard?

Don't speak to them again. And now you know why

you're talking God's talking way, because you wouldn't know God

if you're slapping it. When's the last time you got

in his presence? When's the last time you got it alone?

And maybe here through the transmistent messages without any distractions,

there is And you got the nerve to be telling

me that I need to do something. Oh no, honey,

I think that message was for you. I need something

kind of bounced off for yourself, and then you tried

to give it to me. Oh no, honey, let me

tell you something. That's not what God told me. God

said to pray for that individual. M Yes, she talks

to you first before he get to somebody else. That's right.

I see. He can't talk to you when you got

all your affairs that are Oh I better get out

of that service. Some of you got some affairs that

God wants to deal with. Honey, you can, honey. I

had the opportunity. Do you hear me to take this

day off and make a lot of money? Not some money,

A lot of money, because I made a lot of

money this week, A lot like Donald's some a lot.

But the Lionel says, what profit a man if he

gains the whole entire world but loses his marbles soul?

What profit is that? If I'm going after fleshly things.

But my life's not in order, my spirit's not in order.

Bonel says that Matthew six point thirty three, seeky first,

my apartment? Seeky first? How am I gonna pay this bill?

Seeky first? I gotta get my hair done. I know

I gotta go to church, but you know I'm gonna

get my hair done first. You seek the appointment first, No,

it says, seeky first, the Kingdom of God and his righteousness,

because you can't be in right standing until you seek

his face. And then all these other things, all the

things that you ask for, all the questions that you have,

will be added on to you. But your spirit gotta

get in order. Well, how does my spirit get in order? Listen?

You kid him and spend five minutes in the word.

Turn the phone off. No, they always say, get alane

with God. Honey, you ain't gotta go nowhere to get

alane with God. Tell them to shut the program down,

turn the TV off, turn a phone off. Let me

tell you something. I'm gonna tell you this my personal experience,

and you could judge me however you want to judge me.

I have a phone problem now lately. I've been in

my phone a lot. When I first got said, I

was a studier, scholar. See this little piece of meat

that you're getting, This ain't nothing. I used to be

in the basement for hours studying, not because he asked me,

because it was my desire to spend time. A difference

between let me help you. I know I'm going off

keeping that's all right. There's a difference between desire and

being told to do it. You do it because your

pastor told you, and I got it impressive. I'm trying

to get some brownie points because I need it, because

I need that validation that I'm doing the right thing. No, honey,

I'm not the one that's about God is doing that validates,

because honey, my validation of you might be wrong. And

then you wonder why you're walking like a spider, and

you ain't walking like a horse. I'm sorry. Did I

say that, Jesus just because it sounds right? Don't it's right?

I think if I switched my part here, it comes

up with baldness. But they had to experience this separately. Listen,

I'm sorry, but your pastor's mouth is sitting you sitting

here hearing it every Sunday. Don't mean, Zack. You have

to experience this. You have to live out the word.

That's why you ain't got no power. When the devil

comes and says you put that witchcraft on me, I

don't want to hear this. We were dealing with a

little issue this week. Yes, let me get my bridges together, Jesus,

I walked into a battle. Well, I see, we walked

into a battle. I had a little well, she didn't

know that we were gonna go that route. I was

just here to see the children. And then the demo

decided that he was gonna show up. Now usually, well,

by default, my mouth is ready to war in another language.

But I had had enough. Let me tell you something.

When you've been with God, now I ain't been with

God the way I should be with God. But I

talked to God, and I'm real with him. Yes, but

something that day kind of switched because we were in

a different place. Yes, And all of a sudden I

rose and it said I had enough, Honey. The tones

went It wasn't a pan that went flying. The tones

went flying. The warfare went flying.

And the devil got a little anxious.

Had to be there. Oh God, But I said, what

was that? He said, that's what I want to get

you alone with. She gotta reveal something to you. But

that don't mean he gonna give it to you until

you get in the secret place. You gotta tarry for

a minute for God. Now God got me dealing with

my prayer life. See there's certain battles. God will deal

with certain things that you have deficit in. I don't

know how I got here, but I got him. But

see it's the experience that these disciples were gonna have

to go through to learn what had been imparted to them.

Because here's a thing that I know. I know when

you're alone, you know, I know, when you're alone you

can carry your own the pass that don't have to

tell you to do anything. The desires already there. See,

if you have to be made to do something to

desire ain't there. If you have to be told to

do something, it ain't there.

That means there's a deficit even your spirit. And you

and Daddy need to go alone and get it right.

Because if you saying that I'm supposed to be and

I should be, and I should be doing this, and

I should be doing that, there's a disconnect to something.

Let me help something. I'm gonna go over here real quick.

The reason why some of your ministry suck. What did

you say? I said suck? Is because, oh God, Lord,

I'm gonna have to skip down Jesus. The reason why

some of your ministry suck is because you're too busy

micromanaging them. They're letting them be left alone. See. Sometimes

I'm just gonna go on a fairy tale, so y'all

excuse me, somebody to get it. Sometimes there are some

children that you know that God has brought them in

your presence, and they don't realize that. Your biggest mistake

is when you look at a person, you judge the

person instead of being discerning of what they're imparting to you.

Is because you don't realize that at some point you're

gonna experience the wilderness God, and you misjudge somebody because

you don't.

Like them, or they're not you a cup of tea,

or you look at them funny. But at some point,

every bit of truth that you get in party to

you that goes beyond the that divides between the sullen spirit,

joint and marrow. And once that seed goes in, you

are accountable to it. Yes, God, I didn't say I was,

you are. Yes. Yes, my accountability comes with not only

sewing it, but I myself must walk in it.

Yes.

Yes. And some of you pastors are micro managers. When

God didn't call you the micromanager. He called you to

impart to God. Mm mm hmmm ay man and many men. Mm.

He said, you're gonna go You're gonna leave me alone.

You're gonna stop asking me these questions like somebody who

don't believe like you just got saved, and you're gonna

go out individually and make your own experiences. One thing

that a shepherd does, I said, a shepherd, not a

pastor a difference. Yes, Lord, God, you know some people

got pastors. They talk to them, but they don't show

them not doing the job. And that's why the wolf

comes in. You develop people that are dependent on self,

self building, but they don't demonstrate. You give them, you

impart the word, but you don't show them. You don't

take the time to tutor them. You don't take the

time to mentor them. You don't take the time to

bring them under their wing. But you're not doing it

to enable them. You're doing it to equip them because

at some point in time, like I'll give you an example,

April was assigned to do praise and worship rehearsal. Oh,

you sound like a church. Now, you don't know what

God's doing. She was already in music. But why does

God want to stir this up? Because there are areas

that God wants to strengthen that are required for her

spirit man. Because if I can't get it this way,

maybe I can use this over here to get her

to move in this vernacular that will bring her back

to this place. I'll not come on. But see, if

you've got leaders that are sensitive and are obedient to

God God, they know how to craft. Yes, Lord, God

is using them to craft you. That's part of our

vision statement that says strength and empowerment. What I'm doing

is is I'm being obedient to God and he's telling

me to do a certain thing because he's using it

as a tool that is gonna help craft him. It's

gonna build leadership, it's gonna build accountability. She's already got accountability,

but we're gonna strengthen that area. It's gonna give her

commitment to her spirit because this is a ministry and

you're gonna pray for it. So you still got a

spiritual accountability to a ministry. But it's gonna enhance another

area that is a little bit of deficit and break. Y'all. Yes, God,

y'all know y'all had children, and there were some instructions

they just weren't getting with your mouth. They had to

learn it on their own. They had to false You know,

some of them are still. You're still trying to help him,

and that's why when you try to help him, it's

still falling shorts. Jesus m hm, yes, Lord, because it

may not be for you to help him. Your hat

maybe to stay out of there. I've had to talk

to myself something God said, back up from it, Back

up from it, Susie, back up from it. Seley, come on,

you in it too. Much. He said, I'm gonna be alone,

but not really, because the Father has always been here

from me mm hmm. Jesus knew he had a father,

a father who could guide him and lead him to

an expected m See, Jesus didn't need the disciples. Uh huh,

what he didn't need to do? Now? The disciples needed

to But see, he said, a time, a period, a

season is coming, and in fact already is here when

you'll be scattered. But see here it is. I'm gonna

give you a revelation. The disciples helped Jesus by assisting

him in his assignment, But when it came time for

Jesus to come into his full assignment, the disciples that

once helped him assessed were then turned and were left behind.

What am I trying to say? The disciples helped him

keep disciplined? What did you say? The disciples helped Jesus

keep himself disciplined. That's what disciples are. There's still there, learners.

If you don't got nobody eating under you, and you

don't have any teaching moments, why would I need to

prepare something to eat? And there's nothing here for that

preparation to be fed to it's always keeping me in

a place where I'm being learned or being imparted to,

because I have children that I have to constantly impart. Two.

What am I trying to say? What I'm saying is

Jesus knew that he was not alone. He knew he

had a father that was constantly in his presence, because

he could not do this thing without his father. There

was a connection, there was a communion. Thank you Jus. See,

the disciples were helping Jesus, and in return, he was

imparting to them how to stand alone. Because when he

was in the garden, when he was on the mode

of transfiguration, he only took a fear with them because

at that appointed time there was something being built in Peter,

because he said to Peter later on, he said, i

shall call your name Peter Petros, and I'll palm this rock.

I will build my church, and the gates of hell

shall not pavilllege. But see, he couldn't build the church

until he walked with the church. So I'm sorry, Oh God,

yes God. But everything that they learned from Jesus, they

were able to be disciplined in it, as they saw

Jesus himself be disciplined with his father out of fire

heart rate. It has been a pleasure. I'm gonna stop

right there. This is gonna be part one. We'll have

to come back and find they're so upset. But I

try to keep it an hour. Leave me alone. I'm

doing it myself. God has ordained everyone to an assignment. True,

and just because you are in a room full of

people does not mean you're connected with those people. And

I'm talking about that based upon ministry assignment or calling.

The reason why our churches are so off I mentioned

because pastors might go managed, but also because they are

afraid of releasing people. But release is not always permanent.

It's just for a season. God was dealing with me

the other day. He said, Johnathan is coming a season

where you're gonna do nothing but travel. Mm hmm. Yeah,

Oh boy, it's getting interesting. And some things are not

going to come back to you until you get in

that place. There are some tools that God takes out

and he brings them back when you're in a certain

place with God. Why does he need a hammer when

we don't have When we don't have what do you

call those things? Tax? When the project doesn't require it?

See if the church, if the pastors weren't so controlling,

I don't control anybody. I'm trying to control my you

know how much that is. Try controlling my mouth, or

try controlling my belly when I see a piece of cake.

I don't have time to control people. See this is

a test for me. God said, when you're found faithful

over the small things, I'll make you ruler over great things.

But guess what if you can't rule your house, yes,

you're sure as hell can't rule somebody else. And I'm

still in the process of ruling. But if pastors were

not so controlling and focus more on discipling, you would

see a powerful demonstration in these churches. Because who's to

say that you're to tell somebody to be quiet. Maybe

God's trying to speak through the gifting that that individual.

The Bible says, although there are many members, although there

are many calls, many talents, many offices, there is still

one body. And sometimes God wants to move the arm.

He don't want to move the head to me. Okay,

so spotify, Harvey. I'm gonna let you know. Sometimes it's

good to be alone. Sometimes it's good to be in

a place where God can restore you with silence. You know,

when you're on a phone conversation, it's just you and

the person, and when the background music and everything starts

getting loud. It's amazing how people say, can you be quiet?

And I need to hear, But when it comes to

God speaking, we allow the background experience to take over

our conversation. Something to think about Spotify, all of our

twenty seven platforms, Pandora, Tube and Facebook. I thank you

for listening, and as I said, I gave out all

my ministry information. You can call me or text me

if you're afraid text me. So this Thursday, we'll be

continuing our teaching on Book of Genesis, Part three, Chapter two.

Y'all know to read chapters two. Please you want to

read chapter three, go ahead, come with your questions. We

have open form Bible studies. Ask questions.

Yes, God, you know some of you if you're if

the man had got did a teaching and you asked

them questions, they put you out and say you're a

troublemaker because they're that intimidated because.

They don't want to answer it. And if I don't

want to answer, I know somebody else does. That's what

dialogue is. I don't want the people in here to

be mute. Like I said, I'm not the only speaker.

I got three other people that can come up here

and speak any time. It's not about me, it's about God. Well,

until I see you again, well you can't see me,

but until I well, until you hear from me again.

I pray that you have a blessed rest of your weekend.

God bless you.