SUMMER FREEDOM SERIES: Addiction and the Journey Towards Humanness, Phil Chan

If you're sitting in here, it doesn't

matter what how good of a church you go

to. Doesn't matter how good the message

is, doesn't matter how good the worship

is. The state that Jesus requires us

when we come before him every time

before we get transformed is a state of

desperation.

It is a state of desperation because

when we are desperate, we have no more

pride.

James 4 says that God opposes the

prideful and he gives grace to the

humble.

>> He actually will stiff arm if there's

pride in us. And this demoniac had

received the transformation that he was

looking for because he came to the state

of desperation.

And you and I cannot have transformation

without desperation.

>> We cannot receive much from God because

as long as We have an inkling of pride

left in us. You cannot hear his teaching

because that little pride says whispers

to us, but I can still do it.

I know the way.

And every and Jesus will not come back

with pride.

He's waiting for us to come to a place

of desperation. If we're looking for

life transformation, we're we're living

in a culture of great self-determinism

and self-help.

>> And Jesus doesn't want any of that. He

is looking for people that come to him

with desperation and hunger because then

the real work begins. I had this

revelation that I don't know if this

makes sense, but every inch of pride in

my life

is another year of delay for

transformation.

>> Amen.

One of my mentors, Bob Walsh. Love that

guy. He just keeps telling me, Phil, God

is always trying to get you to the end

of yourself.

I don't care how gifted you are, Phil. I

don't care how strong you are. I don't

care how educated you are. I don't care

how much money you got. I don't care who

you know. [snorts]

God is trying to get you to the end of

yourself. [clears throat]

>> The moment you get to the end of

yourself, transformation begins.

I remember points in my own struggle in

many areas of development in my life. I

had to come to a point where I had to be

on my knees say, "God, I

can't do it. There's there's no

learning. There's no wisdom that I could

I could have there's no one that can

help me. I'm absolutely broken apart

from this."

And I realized that those were the

secret moments of transformation where

the heavens began opening up wisdom

because I was ready to receive teaching.

Some of you guys here are not yet

transformed because you are not yet

desperate enough for transformation.

And God wants to give freedom,

but he wants a whole heart who holy

committed to him.

Demon could get the transformation he

needed because he was desperate. And the

question I ask you today is, are you

ready to work?

Are you ready to work? That's question

number one. Okay.

Question number two is, do you know why

you are the way you are? Do you know why

you are the way you are? So the

demoniac,

they tried to help him. They put chains

on him. They cast him to an island. But

I love Jesus. I love Jesus because in my

experience with him, he always goes to

the core issue.

He doesn't want to waste time dealing

with people's symptoms. He wants to go

right to the core. And I'm telling you

today that there's behaviors in your

life that are holding you back and are

killing your life that Jesus wants to go

deeper to the core.

The harder, the more stubborn the

behavior, the deeper you got to go

because there is something underneath us

that Jesus wants us to see for ourselves

and he wants to deal with

because the greater the depth, the

greater your deliverance. And if we

don't partner with Jesus in going deep,

we're going to miss out.

However, I realize that that sounds

great on paper, right?

But I realize that going deep is hard.

quarantine was really hard. As a as a

dude, I was going through this journey

of like my own recovery and my

therapists and my counselors and my

mentors were like, Phil, you got to

understand yourself. You got to go into

your feelings

[laughter]

and I said,

"What's that?"

[laughter]

Uh, one of the greatest practical things

that my counselor told me is like, Phil,

every morning, this is what I want you

to do. I want you to get up and I want

you to to journal multiple pages, just

whatever comes top of your head. And I

was like, that sounds crazy.

I don't want to do that. I don't want to

look at my thoughts there. That sounds

scary. But much to the encouragement,

[clears throat]

finally did it. Started journaling.

Started writing. And at first it's kind

of awkward and weird.

Uh, hey Jesus.

Uh, I ate a bagel today.

They just start like start talking about

random stuff, right? Just like, "Wow,

this journal sucks, you know, just just

saying random things." But then

something started happening.

Started getting curious. started talking

about like um you know something

happened at work yesterday and I felt

small

>> and I wonder if that has to do with how

I act when people don't encourage me

start God started growing my curiosity

about myself God started

inviting me to make connections started

inviting me to deeper and deeper places

in my own life matching behavior and he

started bringing me on deep healing

journey

healing memories,

healing stories that I played in my head

and it became this amazing process where

the Holy Spirit started really

transforming my life. And here's the

thing,

when I started doing that, I started

really my my relationship with God went

to like a whole another level. See, what

I learned is like it's so easy in

Christian faith to like stay at this

root level. Like it's so great to enjoy

worship, to come to church, smile. I'll

tell you right now, that's easy.

>> Okay. You know what's hard? What's

amazing? What God was inviting me to is

when you actually talk about your past

with God.

>> When you talk about your failures with

God, you talk about your deepest,

darkest, hardest things of why you do

what you do. I started, let me tell you

something. I started experiencing God's

presence in a way that I've never

experienced before. I realized that he

knew me to the very core. You see the

thing is God knows us to the very depth.

Okay? It's not that God doesn't know.

It's do do we know?

>> He's waiting for us. He's waiting for us

to know

>> because he what I love about God's

transformation, he doesn't force you to

change. He's waiting for partnership

with you to change.

>> And it requires us to go to another

level and at this level say yes Lord I

want to be transformed at this level.

And you go deeper. Yes, Lord. I want to

be transformed at this level. I don't

want surface level symptom treatment.

God, I want this. I want to heal my

parents beliefs. I want to hear heal all

the stories growing up. I want to heal

my wrong beliefs. And this is the depth

that is necessary in order to actually

see life transformation. See, Jesus when

he saw the demonic game, I wanted to go

to the actual root of the issue. And

that's what actually delivered.

I want to encourage you. You're here

today. You're afraid of death. He's

really gentle.

>> He's really gentle. There's never been a

moment where I've exposed something in

my life to God, but he didn't hold it

with such gentle hands.

And Psalm 18 says that word gent

has really been true in my life. The

deeper I went, the more gentle Jesus was

in transforming and bringing

transformation.

So the second question is, do you know

why you are the way you are? Do you know

why you

>> Okay. The third question is

why are you settling?

Why are you settling?

Um when the the morning I come to Jesus

I find the fas it's like fascinating in

terms of um his reaction which is don't

torment me. They're like really afraid.

You know the demons that control this

life are really afraid of Jesus. And I

can't I don't want to maybe pretend that

the demons that were on this man are the

same demons that afflict people in

addiction. But I can tell you that

they're very similar in two ways. Okay.

Number one, they're very similar in that

the demons are really afraid of Jesus.

They really know that he's lord of lord

and king of kings and judgment day is

time for

>> and that's good news for any of us feel

that they are oppressed and struggling

under spiritual oppression. Demons that

are afflicting your life, they're really

afraid of Jesus.

>> Really afraid of Jesus. And number two

is I can share I can share with

certainty that no matter the source of

the demons, no matter what their names

are, No matter how you got them, they

only have one job.

Their one job is to keep you away from

Jesus.

That's their one job. So when the the

the demon possessed man actually

confronts Jesus, they're afraid. You

know why? Cuz they're caught.

They're caught. They're like, "You

caught me in the act." And now that now

that he's here, they're afraid.

>> [clears throat]

>> all demons try to do especially um I do

sense that addiction behavior has a

spiritual comp component to it for

keeping us away from Jesus and

specifically

by offering us counterfeits in in his

place that's all demons do they offer us

counterfeits in his place

I said that a lot of addiction is a pain

response

and in in my experience people

experience pain

And it's so sad to me. There's a moment

in which I can almost imagine

when the enemy comes and offers

a substitute instead. He offers a

counterfeit. He says, he says, "This

will ease your pain. Try try this. This

will make you feel better." And we take

it

and it feels good going in, but it hurts

in our stomach. Our minds get hooked.

They offer counterfeits. These

counterfeits kill us. When I think about

the things that people are addicted to,

whether it's on your phone, whether it's

pornography, whe it's alcohol, whether

it's hard drugs,

at the end of the day, I know that the

devil is offered counterfeits of the

real thing.

This reminds me of something that

[cough and clears throat] quote [snorts]

I heard which is the man who rings the

doorbell at the brothel is unconsciously

looked for.

Even the worst of us when we reach for

that thing

that deep desire is actually good and

holy.

It's just that the expression is coming.

>> And that's why I believe that Jesus has

so much compassion on people because he

can see that the desires that God gave

us are good. Desires for peace, desires

for communion, desires for friendship,

desires for love, desires for worth,

desires for purpose. These are all good

and godly things that put in us. Except

the enemy comes and he intercepts those

good desires with counterfeits. You guys

understand? And we get hooked on the

counterfeits and the counterfeits bind

us because our minds get used to it and

they laugh at us because now we we're

we're settling for the counterfeits

instead of the real thing.

The real thing is himself.

How do you get out of counterfeits? I

want to share a funny story. Uh this one

time I was really infatuated with these

shoes.

Uh, they're really cool. Okay, these

shoes. These are just a mid. Um,

but I love these shoes. They look good

formally. They look good informally. And

they're really comfortable. Okay,

there's one problem.

That was really expensive.

And I was not about to pay that money

for that shoot. Okay. [clears throat]

But being the cheapo that I am,

[laughter]

>> let's go.

being the cheap that I can. I start

looking for the bootleg version.

[clears throat]

Okay.

So, I'm at the mall, right? I'm like

trying these things that kind of look

like it. You know, it's like, you know,

you ever look for counterfeit shoes?

Like, you want some Nikes, but you

settle for some Nikes.

It's like a backward look, like a

backward swish, [laughter]

you know? It's my cheap mind like the

mall. I was like, we're going to find

these bootleg shoes. And finally, I

found something that was like, you know,

like 50% of the way there. You ever like

compromised in your head like I can

settle for this? And I remember my wife

just shaking her head just like

just like embarrassed at me, you know?

And I was like I remember I was like I

think I want these 50% shoes.

And was like not spend money.

>> [laughter]

>> not spend money in that crap.

I was like, "All right, I'll save it for

the real thing." Fine. I'll save it for

the real thing. Well, a couple weeks

later, my good friend from Australia was

flying in from Australia

and I didn't think of anything of him

and he was staying at our house. He

comes and he's like, "Hello, Mike."

[laughter]

That's bad. I'm sorry.

Okay.

Anyway, he he we like prays and he's in

my house and he's opening up his

suitcase and much to my surprise, he

has this box of the shoe box

>> and he says, "Bel, I got this for you."

And it was a shoe. It was 100% handmade.

>> And it was the most expensive pair of

shoes I've ever had. And I put it on, I

was like,

That's the real thing. It was

comfortable. It's going to last a

generation. And

[laughter]

we'll see.

We'll see. We'll see. We'll see.

Um, and I was like, I was so grateful.

Like my heart was so moved. And you know

what's crazy? After that,

I stopped thinking about the counts.

>> I didn't think about it because when you

When you taste the real thing,

>> you become dissatisfied with the kind of

thing.

>> Too much. Too many of us with addictions

have been too satisfied with the

counterfeit.

How do you get out of the counterfeit?

You train yourself on the real.

You train yourself in the real. Okay.

Look, I know there's men here. I'm no

judgment if you're struggling with

pornography, okay? I just want to say

God made sex so amazing with a real

woman.

Sometimes like after Esther and I I just

lay here and I thank God.

Sorry, the kids are the kids gone. It's

not being recorded. That's [laughter]

I'm sorry. Stay here.

Oh, we're going to hear it afterwards.

Sorry.

>> But the truth is real. The real thing is

so good it makes counterfeits look

terrible.

>> They make they make it look as silly as

buying a shoe with a backward switch.

>> You see, God made the world and saw that

it was

>> good.

>> And everything that the devil wants to

get you to do is a counterfeit of the

real good thing that God says. So if

you're struggling here with some

addiction or some compulsive behavior,

I'm going to tell you right now, look

for what the good in God has created.

>> It could be as actually getting a

girlfriend. Okay? It could be actually

going out and joining the mountains,

joining an air. This world is beautiful.

God made it on purpose. Don't don't

settle for counterfeits. Settle for the

real thing. Once you train yourself in

the real, once you go, this is the real

deal. Do you know how easy you know how

easy it is to to confess.

>> See, most people think addiction is

running away from something, but if you

have something to run towards,

>> it's not even a game anymore.

>> Yeah. And Jesus is Jesus is the real

deal, guys.

>> I'm telling you, you're sitting here and

you go, "Man, I tried following God and

I haven't found it yet. That's tastes

better than the counterfeit." I'm going

to tell you right now, 100% guaranteed.

If that's your attitude, I'm going to

tell you right now that you have not

found a gift

>> because whatever God promises is good

and awesome. Every perfect gift gift

comes from the heavenly father's love.

>> That's the that's that's the awesome

part of being a Christian. It is not

boring. It is the most pleasurable and

awesome life.

>> Stop settling for count. Stop settling

for I got to keep this going. Ready?

Okay. Why are you settling? Okay, next

question.

Who are you when you're at your best?

Who are you when you're best? Okay, so

what what I love is Jesus is so he's so

amazing. He's such a great shepherd. He

asks, "What is your name?" Right to the

name, what is your name? And what's

interesting is I I thought about this.

Does Jesus ever ask anybody's name in

the scriptures? I was like, he doesn't.

You know, he knew Nathan before he saw

him in the fig tree. He knew what the

day that he would rise. Okay. And I

thought about I don't think he actually

needs to know his name. He's not asking

if he knows his name. He's asking if we

know our name.

>> Yeah.

We know.

There's a difference between lived

identity, named identity and lived

identity.

Because

Jesus doesn't want to talk about our

behavior. He wants to talk about our

identity

>> because he can correct your behavior but

it's what you think of yourself that

will actually result in what you do.

>> Every time Jesus wants to transform

somebody, he actually transforms them at

the core root level of who you

[clears throat] think they are. And

Jesus wants to transform them. I'm

telling you that any behavioral change

that you need to make today, Jesus

transform who you think you are

underneath

specifically. Now, this is really key

for people that are compulsive behavior.

Specifically, who you think you are when

you are at your worst.

>> I'm about to get real deep. You guys

ready?

>> Yeah.

>> So, when you're when I was at my worst,

you're sitting alone single in the dark

and I think I'm trash monster.

What's interesting is paying attention

to what the devil wants to call me.

Because whatever the devil wants to call

me in that moment, it's the identity

that's binding me to that behavior.

>> I realized that a lot of my behaviors

were tied to the sense of feeling

incompetent,

feeling not powerful, feeling worthless.

And I realized that if I kept believing

that I would continue this, there are so

many I see this out the world. There's

so many alcoholics that I run into when

you look the veneer a little bit

is this belief that I'm worthless,

that my life's not worth redeeming, that

I'm a nobody, nobody can help me. And

it's that underneath the veneer identity

that Jesus needs to change.

You won't climb out of that behavior

unless you climb out of that identity.

>> And as soon as you climb out of that

identity, the behaviors will change. Do

you want to know how to climb out of

that identity? You guys want to know

this? I I figured out the hack.

I did.

I figure out the You guys want to hear

the hack?

>> I realized

who the devil wanted to call me at my

worst

reveals who God sees at my best.

who the devil want to call me at my

worst on the other side of that lie

is who God sees me in my trust.

What I mean by that is

God wanted me to operate from a place of

worthlessness and I thought no at my

very best God sees me as worthy. He

loves me. He died for me. And that's the

identity that he wants me to operate on.

Devil wants to call me a nobody or my

darkness.

I'm famous in heaven.

I'm famous in heaven. You see, you want

to know the hack is figure out what the

devil wants to call you at your worst

and just call yourself the opposite.

Yep. There's a biblical truth there that

he wants he wants to hide from you. He

wants to obscure from you because he can

chain you at your worst and call you

names. you figure out what that name is,

you just laugh at him and go, "Well,

that just means I'm the opposite.

I know your game. I know your game. I

know your game." I'm going to call

myself the opposite because that's what

how heaven sees me. And when I start

declaring I'm a son of God, I have the

spirit of God. I have a spirit of

self-control.

>> I start actually declaring God's truth

over my life. And I start leaning the

power of what he says about me in my

darkest moments. I start living from

from the place of living at my best

identity. That's how God transforms us.

What is your name? Let me ask you this.

When you think about what your worst

behaviors are,

what is your name?

Who does the devil want to call you? And

who does God want to call you instead?

What is your name? All right. Last

question. Ready?

Do you believe you can be free?

Do you believe you can be free? This is

so key. You know what I love about this

passage? It's actually you. Okay, I show

the passage. He gets free, right? He

gets delivered and you remember what the

town does in response. It says they were

afraid.

Isn't that such a strange response?

Like, wouldn't you be like celebrating,

right? just be like it's just like kind

of a weird response, right? He's in his

right mind sitting there and his in his

hometown they were afraid and actually

want Jesus to leave.

You know what I realized the the enemy

of freedom is? This is like so key. You

know what the enemy of freedom is?

What

>> the enemy of freedom is normaly.

The enemy of freedom is sometimes

normaly. They were afraid because they

they were used to the man living in the

cave by himself.

>> Like they were used to it being in

chains. That's how we saw him every day.

And then when he was in his right mind,

they were afraid because like their

normaly was disrupted.

Sometimes in order to be free, we have

to disrupt normaly.

>> How do we get there? This this reminds

me of like how circus elephants are

trained. You know how circus elephants

are trained? It's really sad. They

capture the elephants, right? And they

put a big metal chain around their leg

and they chain that to a pole, like a

metal pole. And at first, elephant

fights, right? Even at their strength,

they fight, they tug, and they fight

with all their hearts. They said they

have to be free. And they pull, but they

can't break the metal chain. And they

can't break the metal pole.

Something happens over time. They start

giving up. They stop trying because they

start being resigned that this is

reality. And you know what's wild? I

don't know if you ever see this in the

pictures of circus. Elephants don't have

metal chains anymore. Instead, you ever

see this? It's just a string.

Ever see this? It's just a string. A

piece of string on the leg has a little

clumsy hole

which they can obviously break. And you

wonder why why don't they why don't they

break it and just go free

because the chain is no longer on their

leg. The chain is in their mind.

Know one of the most sad things about

addiction or compulsive behavior that

your mind is actually changed when you

actually don't actually believe that you

can be free.

In order for Jesus to actually bring us

to freedom, he must break that off our

minds.

>> Some of us are actually too addicted to

normaly that we can't embrace and

experience freedom.

Freedom should be something experienced.

In my transformation, I realized

in my resigned sense self, I said this

is normal. This is what guys do. This is

this is just what happens. And God

You're you're you're addicted to

normaly. You're addicted to status quo.

I want you to be addicted to the

impossible.

>> I want you to be addicted to freedom.

That's what I want you to be thinking

about. I want you to stop living from

this is normal to this is completely

impossible. This is where I want you to

live from Phil. And when you live from

this space,

>> your mind starts to change. You become

like that elephant that realizes there's

no longer a chain around him. He can

actually walk free. This is what needed

to

He actually needed to disrupt normaly.

Even the pressures of social around him

that says this is normal. This is good.

This is what we used to seeing. His

freedom journey required him to break

normaly.

In order to do that, we have to stop

feeding ourselves a normal status quo.

We have to feed our hearts on the

impossible. We have to feed our hearts

on the stories of God's goodness. We

have to feed our hearts on the testimony

of God's provision of God's doing

amazing things. You start feeding your

hearts the impossible. You move from a

place where you just accept normaly to

I'm going to live in the impossible

awesomeness of God.

Is there a string around your mind today

this morning?

This is a real question. Is there a

string around your mind?

There's no breakthrough that can happen

in your life unless you break that

story.

God is looking for

I want you to feed yourself impossible.

I'm going to ask my brother Cliff to

come up. Cliff,

he has an amazing Let's give a hand

[applause]

one of the lions in our church. He's so

amazing. He shared this amazing retreat

uh testimony at our men's retreat and

he's so gracious enough to share a

little bit of story from his own life.

So go for it. All right. Perfect. Yeah.

All right. I'm Clifford Ross. I'm an

alcoholic. Um that's a little jarring to

say in front of everybody considering AA

is anonymous. So everybody

um

>> I was a child of pain. And I think

that's where I mean Phil you touched on

everything and so as a therapist I think

you're going to agree with you 100%.

myself uh as an addict

you you have this pain and you you start

at such a young age and I was a product

of a of a sports in a military household

and that just shaped me into a sense of

normaly that made me believe that I

wasn't good enough or I had high highs

and low lows and that those couldn't be

accepted in modern day society. So what

inevitably ended up happening is I

started coping with that pain. Um

whether it was in sports or whether it

was in alcohol or weed or anything. And

inevitably I ended up choosing alcohol

as my vice. Um and growing up in the

Midwest, it was normal. I mean, I think

it was normal to drink three or four

times a week. It was normal to go to a

party school. It was normal just to be

engulfed in what was me alcoholism. And

so that normaly you you really never got

to break from it. Um and nor was I a

Christian. So I didn't really have that

those people in my life to say, "Hey,

what you're doing is wrong. You don't

know God.

Step this way." And so I think for me

it's

when you get an AA, you get a sobriety

date. It's called a birthday. Um and my

birthday is May 6, which means cod was a

great day.

four years ago. And but really what

happened is I became a Christian

[clears throat]

six years ago. So there was that

two-year gap where I was a Christian,

but yet I was still abusing alcohol. And

it wasn't so much of a of a physical

abuse. It was more so of I was abusing

it emotionally and mentally that I had

these really high highs and these really

low lows and I couldn't, you know what I

mean, understand them. And so therefore,

I turned to alcohol. Um, and the word

that like spoke to me was spiritual

progression and how like yes, I was in a

men's group like right off the bat and I

was reading the Bible, but yet I just

didn't know the Lord. Um, and inevitably

it became I was serving alcohol. Alcohol

was my God. Um, and that's you really

scary to say when it came down to it. I

was being a better engineer for alcohol

because if I was a great engineer, no

one knew I had a problem. Or I would be

in the gym because I looked, you know

what I mean, physically fit, but yet no

one knew I had a problem because

alcoholics don't look fit. Alcoholics

don't look fit. Um, and so I was hiding

who I was. I'm hiding this person behind

a closed door and I would have these

like reset days where I would like just

take a week a month of just high highs

and low lows and I would just be like

all right I'm going to have a reset day

and that is like I'm going to go to the

bar. I'm going to have a drink and it's

just going to reset everything. Um

[snorts] that was my god. Alcohol was my

god. It gave me that freedom from what I

was looking for. And I think what was so

scary in that is that yes, I was a

Christian and I saw these such powerful

people

just getting saved and healed and like

here I am being like, "All right, I'm in

the men's group. I'm reading the Bible.

Everything's good, but yet I am just so

lost." And so I think as spiritual

progression and James, I shared this on

Thursday, but like draw near to God as

he will draw near to you.

>> And so at the end of the day, it's like

if you put your both feet in and say,

I'm going to draw near to you, he's

going to draw uh near to us. And I think

>> yeah,

>> what like inevitably what I'm trying to

say is like you touched it on this is

like why are you settling? And I think

for me is the the price to change was

too costly.

And as I knew God and I knew Jesus, he

had already paid that price.

>> And so like no matter what that price

has been paid, he will lay down. He has

laid down his life. He will continue to

lay down his life. And that no matter

what you think is going to be like your

rock bottom, it will get worse. And I

mean that in the best way possible

because Jesus will search your heart and

not just be like, "Okay, alcohol is your

problem." He's going to search your

heart and then find everything else

inside of it. Because if you turn to

alcohol, what you were saying, that's

one. But then you get rid of alcohol,

he's going to the devil's going to find

another one. And you're going to go down

that list, whether it's your phone,

weed, alcohol, just anything. The devil

does not want you to get close to him.

So, he's going to try every single thing

in his power to keep you away. So, Jesus

is going to search your heart. You're

going to go down that list. It's going

to get real dark, but then you're just

going to walk in a light. And I think

for me, it's like when you walk in that

light, and I have been for at least four

years, for sure. Four years, hopefully a

little bit longer. But it was funny on

Thursday. It's like when you walk every

day, you forget the transformation

>> just because you, you know what I mean?

day over day over day over day you see

that 1% and I didn't it's funny my

Instagram has photos of me like as an

alcoholic

>> and I showed Jeremiah the photo of me

and he's like you look completely

different and so for me it was nice to

hear that like I feel it in my heart but

like physically I also feel different so

I think what I just want to end on and

what Phil touched so like incredibly on

is that like

put both feet in to like today's the

day. Put both feet in. It's going to get

a little scary. Buckle your seat belt

and just hold on because at the end of

the day, knowing the Lord, knowing who

he is, allowing him to get clo the

pursuit of holiness is the closest of

the Lord in your heart. So if you pursue

him, he will find you because he already

knows you. So just let him

>> let him into your heart. So thank you

[applause]

>> [applause]

>> the worship comes.

Are you [clears throat] ready?

Do you know why you are the way you are?

Why are you so

who are you?

Do you believe in

I can't help but wonder if I was asking

you one of these questions.

Let's Can we stand and

Do this.