A New Thing (Morning Message)

And who's a morning person here? Hands up for the morning people. Becca, put your hands up immediately. Right, I'm just going to describe my morning before pre-arriving. Becca turned up at my house to collect me. I got a chauffeur today, ladies. It's the way to go, mainly because I was tired.

And I moved house on Monday. I was working away for two days. And so my whole life is in boxes. And this morning, I was basically, I called myself the morning mole. Because I walked around my room like this, looking for things, looking for items that would be conference ready. You know, like, where are my shoes? Where are my shoes? I can't wear my train. I need to look a bit smarter. And then, where is my makeup? And I didn't quite manage to find all the things that I felt like I wanted for today.

So I've got no rings on, which I normally am clothed in rings. So lacking in rings. And then got in the car, did my makeup. I did my eyeliner in the car on the move today. Look, relatively okay. So that's a good win for all. And then we had some croissants, didn't we, in the car? Has anyone ever eaten a croissant in a car? I think I'm going to have to pay for a valet, or a valette, however we say it.

So I'm just logging onto my laptop, because it's decided to log off, by the way, if you're wondering what the floor is.

And then we sang some songs. And Becca put on disco tunes on a Saturday morning. So we were, like, raving on the way here.

And I realised I don't actually know very well the lyrics to pretty much any disco song.

So we confidently sang possibly the wrong words all the way here. What was our favourite one? Michael Jackson.

Do you know that one? What are the words? We only know that bit, don't we?

Great, we don't know what that was. Anyway, so that was that. It was quite a funny little situation.

All these things are coming up on my laptop. Messages. I hope you're enjoying this. Can you see all this on the screen?

Skype for Business cannot connect, apparently. So there we go. That's all right. Okay.

I got it.

Let me just start from the beginning, which would be ideal.

Ta-da!

So this morning we're going to look, and this afternoon we're kind of following on the same thing.

We've got the banner on the wall with the verse. Woo! Isn't that cool?

I love these banners. They're really good. Sometimes banners are a bit tacky, aren't they? Let's be honest.

These ones are good. Well done, team.

Sorry, was that really judgmental? I sometimes just say what I think. Are you okay with that, ladies?

It's just going to come out. Out of our hearts, our mouths speak, don't they?

So the thing that I really feel on my heart for this season, and it really ties in when Mandy sent me the topic,

I was just really excited because I really feel, and I don't know whether you feel like this,

I have been a Christian since I was five years old. I can't remember a day where I didn't know Jesus,

but I have made some really ridiculous decisions given the fact that I know God.

I mean, sometimes I look at my life and I think, what was wrong with me?

Like, where was my faith?

And that was a bad move.

Now I've got the consequences.

And then there's other times where I feel like I'm a bit like the Israelites,

walking around their new lands with Joshua, you know, marching around the walls of Jericho,

like round and round in circles with my faith and thinking, oh gosh, I've been here before.

Do you know what I mean?

Been here before, looked at this wall a few times.

And actually there's something about a real, I like to call myself a faithful plodder,

you know, there's something about passing things, passing things, but with the expectation

that even if we end up past the same place, something could change in the end.

And I want to encourage you today, ladies, that I believe that, you know,

even if we've been round and round in circles, round the houses with our faith for a long time,

you know, there's something that God can do that's a breakthrough moment that changes how we've walked before.

And I really think that that's what he wants to do this season.

And I get around lots of people from all over the world who are listening to God's spirit for our Western church.

And they're all saying the same thing over 2019.

And it's this, God is going to do a new thing.

God is able to do a new thing.

God is the God of impossible things.

Otherwise, he wouldn't be titled with God.

He'd be titled with mere mortal.

And that gives us a hope and excitement that we can't shake off because we've bought into this faith in this living God.

And he is alive and his word is sharper than a double-edged sword.

And so as I speak his words today, I want it and I have an expectation that he's going to do something new in us.

Something new in our faith.

Something new with our hope.

Something new in our expectations.

Something new in the way that we walk around our walls, walk around our lives, walk our faith every day.

He wants to do something new.

And so I thought I'd introduce us to the concept of this new by reminding us, and I Googled it.

Every good speaker Googles.

What new could mean.

And so these are the things that came up with.

New is something that we are unaccustomed to.

Anyone need something that they're unaccustomed to in their faith walk?

Something a bit unaccustomed with God.

Oh God, I knew you were like that, but I forgot you were like that.

But so some of us, all of our testimonies, we carry an aspect of what God's like.

Some of us carry the saving power of God.

And it means, you know, we've all got that, but some of us really know we have been utterly saved.

You know, I know people who've come off heroin addiction, and they are now completely free and leading others into freedom.

That is not my story.

I don't have that amazing saving power of God.

I can't remember a day without him, so I forget he saves.

Does that make sense?

So God wants to introduce me to the concept that he is a savior.

Some of us know him as a healer.

Some of us don't, but that doesn't mean he's not a healer.

Is this making sense?

And it's like he wants to introduce us to another part of him that we're unaccustomed to today.

And from now on, I really believe that.

We say, don't we, to people, hey, what's new?

We have to quickly think, what is new?

And so we're looking for what the new thing is, and I want you to alert yourselves and alert your spirits today, ladies, that God wants to show you something new.

And by the end of it, hey, what's new for you today?

What did you take a hold of from Jesus Christ that you didn't have before you came?

What's changed and what's different?

We say, that's a new one on me, and I want us to have that today.

I want us to go, oh, that's a new one on me.

I've walked with God a long, long time, but that's something new.

There's no transcript for new.

We have the word of God, but there's no actual transcript for a completely new thing.

And God says, you know, behold, I'm doing a new thing.

Can you perceive it?

It's springing right up before your very eyes, like, look out.

But there's no transcript.

There's no model and there's no method.

There might be principles from his word and ways we can look back and see him at work and other people, but for us today, it's new.

It might be unfamiliar, which sometimes brings a slight, like, edge of your seat moment, doesn't it?

But it's going to be new.

It's not just going to be a covered over version of the old.

It's not just going to be a slightly upgraded version of the old.

It's not even just going to be a refreshed thing, although this whole concept is that we are refreshed.

It hasn't existed before.

It's not going to just be patched up.

It's not going to be the same again.

Does anyone need that?

I do.

But with God, all things are possible.

And if I was to do a kind of survey of the different ways that you've related to God and you've known God to be true in your life, we would patch together the most amazing picture.

But we've got it all together, but we haven't got it on our own.

And that is the beauty of being a family, isn't it?

But we don't look at each other and go, oh, I'm jealous of that or I wish I had that.

We go, that means God is like that and he could be like that for me.

So can we agree to be like that in our posture?

Like, let's stop this stupid comparison thing that we sometimes do as women because we do it.

Let's just like own ourselves and celebrate who God is to each other and not believe like God's run out now because they did it for them, but believe he could do it for me and he's doing a new thing.

So ready to go?

I'm excited.

And when we feel like he's doing a new thing, sometimes we're not there yet.

And so I want to introduce us to a really peculiar thing and there are some peculiar things in the Bible, are there not?

And here we have a love triangle of two wives.

Awkward.

Greedy.

I can't even find one husband.

And I'm not up for sharing.

So Alcana has Panina, however we say this.

We'll go for that, Panina and Hannah.

And it says in 1 Samuel, this is where it's all documented.

And it's a little hilarious and it's also horrendously awful if we were actually one of these women.

So whilst we find the concept of who God wants to be in it, let's remember these were real people.

And it could have been us.

It might be us.

We might find ourselves in this.

But Hannah was given a double portion because he loved her and the Lord had closed her womb.

Because the Lord had closed Hannah's womb, her rival kept provoking her in order to irritate her.

So we've got one lady here who's got stuff but no child.

And then another lady who's got children and is like, yeah, I've got kids.

And that's a horrible thing to deal with, isn't it?

When you see that God's put something in someone else that you haven't got in you.

It's like, let's be honest, it's horrible.

And it's disappointing.

And then it says here in verse 7, it went on year after year.

And some of you ladies, you've watched things in others that you haven't got.

And it's gone on for year after year after year.

And it's not very nice, is it?

It's horrible.

And whenever Hannah went up to the house of the Lord, her rival provoked her till she wept.

And she would not eat.

So it's caused this awful reaction internally in her.

And in her deep anguish, Hannah prayed to the Lord, weeping bitterly.

I wonder what you do with your stuff when you see something in someone else that you haven't got.

I wonder where you take it.

This is a good lesson, isn't it?

To take it to God.

And she made a vow to the Lord, saying,

Lord Almighty, if only you will look on your servant's misery and remember me,

and not forget your servant, but give her a son.

I'll give him to the Lord for all the days of his life.

And no razor will ever be used on his head.

He was going to be a hairy man, girls.

And as she kept on praying to the Lord,

in the course of time,

Hannah became pregnant and gave birth to a son.

And she named him Samuel.

And I've added this bit.

It means God has heard.

God has heard.

And then she said,

I asked the Lord for him.

And I want to say to us today,

we may feel like her.

Waiting.

Saying,

if you give me this, God,

it'll be yours.

But will it?

I don't know.

That's something only we can answer.

But the most amazing thing is,

God heard her.

And she had made this decision

that she would give him to God.

But she had had this

year after year after year.

She had been provoked

year after year after year.

She had cried

year after year

after year.

She had felt alone in her marriage

year after year

after year.

She had had to walk closely

with someone who was like,

look what I've got

and look what you don't.

Year after year

after year.

But then God

did something different

because God had heard.

And I want to say to us today,

God wants to do something new

because he has heard you.

He has seen those cries

that might have not even

got out of your eyes

that have been on the inside.

And I want to give you my proof,

if you like,

from the life of Jesus

that he can do something different

and something new.

Even if year after year

after year

it has not changed.

Even if year after year

after year

you've walked around in circles

and said,

we're back here again,

we're back here again,

nothing has changed,

we're back here again.

Because there can be a moment

where the trumpets go off,

the walls come down,

and everything that you thought

you were waiting for

can come,

but it can sometimes take time.

Because God

can do impossible things

that we can't do.

And we have to keep on walking

in the right direction

in the way that God wants us to

and give these things to God.

So this is case study A,

if you like,

from the life of Jesus Christ

who was involved

in all of our lives,

I'm assuming.

If not,

I'd love to do an introduction.

He's pretty good.

And it's headed,

Jesus turns water into wine.

It's great news.

I went on holiday to Portugal.

I got such a lovely taste for port.

Everyone's like,

you've got expensive taste, Ellie.

I was like, I love it.

Only a little bit though.

Otherwise you can't feel your face

and no one needs

that kind of behavior.

So, this is in John chapter 2.

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And Jesus has been,

I don't know what the correct term is,

he's been a carpenter.

He's been carpeting

for a very long time.

He was known around Nazareth

as the, you know,

the little kid who grew up.

He ran away from home,

naughty Jesus.

Everyone was looking for him.

He was like,

doing his woodcraft.

He was forming tables

out of trees

and making things

that people would sit on

in their homes.

He was a carpenter.

He was known as a carpenter.

He knew he was something different,

kind of a big deal

around these pots,

but one day everyone would know.

But he did his faithful things

for 30 years.

And then suddenly,

he went to a wedding

and he did something different.

And on the third day,

a wedding took place

in Cana,

in Galilee.

And Jesus' mother was there

and Jesus and his disciples

had also been invited

to the wedding.

Have you invited Jesus

into your life,

into your events,

into your stuff?

Because that seems important

to me that they did.

And when the wine was gone,

because everyone has an occasion

where our resources run out,

our energy runs low,

we've done our walking

and we're knackered

and all we want to do

is we want to lie down.

We have not seen any change,

so I'm not going to walk

around these walls anymore,

thank you very much.

I'm not going to pray for that anymore.

I am done.

I am tired.

My resources are out.

But when the wine was gone,

Jesus' mother said to him,

go Jesus' mother,

that's what I say,

they have no more wine.

Obvious statement.

Everyone could see it anyway,

but she was like,

I just better tell Jesus.

And can I encourage you,

remember to tell Jesus

when you need help.

Like we're quite good

at telling each other,

aren't we?

Don't forget to tell Jesus.

And then Jesus replies,

this is where we are introduced

to a whole new Jesus,

cheeky Jesus.

He says,

woman,

why would you involve me?

Add that one to your

unaccustomed to list.

The new Jesus.

And he says,

my hour has not yet come.

And his mother said to the servants,

do whatever he tells you.

And today,

Jesus Christ wants to give us instructions

because we have invited him in

to the party of our lives.

And he wants to tell us things to do.

And listen to those things today.

Listen to what he's saying.

Because he's about to do something new.

He's been carpeting for a long time.

And he's about to shake it all up

and do something new

and show people who he really is.

And his mom knew.

And nearby stood six stone water jars.

These things would have been huge.

Huge.

They wouldn't have just been able

to carry one on their own.

And these were the kind used by the Jews

for ceremonial washing.

Each holding from 80 to 120 litres.

That's quite a lot.

And Jesus said to the servants,

fill the jars with water.

So they filled them to the brim.

And he told them,

now draw some out

and take it to the master of the banquet.

And they did.

That's good, isn't it?

Remember?

Do what Jesus tells you to do.

And they did.

And the master of the banquet

tasted the water

that had been turned into wine.

He didn't realize where it had come from.

But the servants who'd drawn the water knew.

Hmm, that's interesting, isn't it?

I'd not seen that book before.

The servants knew.

So he called the bridegroom aside

and he said,

everyone brings out the choice wine first.

And then the cheaper wine

after the guests have had too much to drink.

But you've saved the best till now.

Good job that the Lego people were there at the time

to document the moment.

Woo, the best wines now!

The best is sometimes last.

And what Jesus did here in Cana of Gali

was the first of the signs

through which he revealed his glory.

It was a sign.

And a sign always points to something or someone.

And here we're pointing to Jesus

who we previously went carpenter.

Who we previously would have said,

dusty feet, ran away from home.

Naughty Jesus.

Born from that teenager.

How strange.

And here,

he's like,

introducing

water to wine guy.

Let me remind you,

with God,

all things

are possible.

And the Jesus you may have walked with

for years and years and years,

the Jesus you may have poured your heart out to

for years and years and years,

the Jesus you've cried with

when no one else is watching

for years and years and years.

He wants to introduce

a different Jesus to you today.

He wants to say,

I also do this.

He wants to remind you,

I can also be this.

You knew me like this.

Allow me to introduce

this side of my character.

It was always there

that those guys saw that first.

But it doesn't mean

I'm not coming to you.

And then,

his disciples

believed in him.

And now,

these guys,

it says they were already

the disciples.

But it's clear

that they didn't really know

who he was.

And then,

they were like,

oh.

And for some of us,

we've been friends with God

for a long time.

But actually,

we need to really

believe in him again.

Like,

I used to just,

I've just moved out of the house,

but I lived with a lovely girl

this last year.

And she's been a Christian.

Well,

she says she's had faith

all her life,

but she describes it as

she's only practiced

her faith

for two years.

And I thought that was

a lovely way of

describing it.

Whereas I would have said,

oh,

you've been a Christian

for two years

and you didn't know God before.

No,

she said,

I always had faith,

but I've only practiced

my faith

for the last two years.

And I think some of us,

we've had faith

a long time,

but God's calling us today.

Like,

really practice it.

Really choose to believe

in God being who he says he is.

And look for his signs.

Look for where

there are things in the world

that are pointing

to Jesus Christ

and a different version

of the Jesus we know.

Because they are there.

Let me remind you

of some amazingly

encouraging verses

and then I'll tell you

something that happens

to me over Christmas.

These are truths

for us today.

If anyone is in Christ,

he is a new

creation.

The old has passed away.

Behold,

the new has come.

Paul writes that

to the Corinthian church.

And do you know what?

God's tagging us in

and saying,

and that's for you too today.

And so does anyone

need to feel

like they're a new creation?

That the old is gone

and the new has come?

I do.

Every day,

I need a new mercy

from God.

It's for us.

God will give us

a new heart

and put a new spirit

within us.

Ezekiel's prophecy.

Anyone need a new heart?

Anyone's heart

a bit tired and sad?

Feeling a bit weary?

That's for you.

Anyone feel like

their spirit is a bit,

I am tired,

I am on the ground,

I have walked around a lot?

God,

this is for you.

A new spirit.

John in his revelation

said,

the former things

have passed away.

He who is seated

on the throne

said,

behold,

I am making

all things

new.

Then he said,

write this down.

These words

are trustworthy

and these words

are true.

I'm loving

looking out

and seeing

some of you

writing this.

When God

tells you something,

don't forget

to write it down.

If you're anything

like me,

colander brain

leaks information.

I have to write it down.

I take my phone

everywhere for notes

and then I can

find them at any moment

although it gets

very upsetting

when they delete

themselves.

Over Christmas,

I realised,

I was praying

with my friends

and I just had

this really strange

experience

because at New Year

you always do

this thing,

don't you,

where you're like,

how was the last year?

What's going to

happen this year?

Let's analyse our lives.

Let's cry a bit

and then let's

put our big girl

pants on and

carry on with our year.

I just realised,

I just had this

really weird thing.

I went,

oh, my heart?

Like that.

My friend Jo went,

what's wrong with you?

I said,

I don't know.

I don't know

what's wrong with my heart.

I've never been this.

I mean,

I am very analytical

but I've never had

a thing about my heart

before.

And I had had

a relationship breakdown

a couple of years ago

and I felt really sad

and really disappointed

and then people I knew

and loved,

their marriages

went a bit Pete Tong

and I just said

to my friends,

I said,

I don't think I believe

that verse,

love never fails anymore.

I think I don't believe it.

I don't believe God

anymore for that.

I don't believe it

for my life.

I think everything,

I just don't think

it's true.

And she was like,

so you're arguing

with God.

Interesting.

I was like,

okay,

fine.

And so I just said

to the Lord,

why Holy Spirit?

Why am I doing this?

And he said,

it is your heart.

You have a hope deferred

and it has made

your heart sick.

And so I just said

to God,

please can you

show me my heart?

And I put my hands

out like this.

I don't know

whether you've done

the prayer exercise.

It's called palms up,

palms down,

palms up.

We'll do it

in a minute actually.

And you go palms up

and you imagine

something in you

that God wants

to work on

and mine was my heart.

And I said,

show me my heart,

thank God.

And my dad used

to be really anti-smoking

and he had this

like lung in a jar.

It was black

and horrible.

And he was like,

stop smoking

because your lungs

are going to look

like that.

And I was like,

just to be rebellious.

That was one of my

ridiculous decisions,

I made.

Well done me.

Anyway,

it didn't last very long.

I was a terrible rebel.

I analysed way too much

at night time.

I was like,

I can't do this.

I'm too goody two-shoes.

Anyway,

I was like,

what's my heart like?

And I saw that sort

of lung picture,

like black

and like damaged

and I thought,

oh goodness,

my heart looks like

it's got pantser.

It's like black

and damn,

I don't know

what a genuine heart

looks like.

I'm too grossed out

by biology

to look at the pictures.

But it wasn't pink

and fleshy

and nice

like I would imagine

our hearts should look like.

And so God was like,

are you going to give me

your heart?

I was like,

I can't give you my heart.

That's how I'm alive.

And then I thought,

what ridiculous thing

to come into your mind.

I can't give God my heart

because I think

it keeps me alive.

Wrong.

Of course I need

to give God my heart.

He's not literally

going to take it out

and kill me on the spot.

So I was like,

okay God,

this is my heart

and I just told him,

I was like,

here it is.

It's like a bit wounded

and then I just felt

like him say,

it's wounded,

it's sick,

it's hurt,

it's disappointed

with your friends' marriages

and then God said,

but it's mine.

I love it

and I want you

to give it to me

and see what I'll do with it.

And I love in Isaiah

how there's all these

amazing concepts

in Isaiah 61

about we give this to God

and instead

he gives us this.

We give us our grieving

and we give him our mourning

and he puts on us

a crown of beauty

instead of ashes

and a garment of praise

instead of a spirit of despair.

So I thought,

oh yeah,

God does like swapping things.

So I was like,

okay,

here's my heart.

I'll give it to you.

Could you do something with it?

Like plummet better

or pump a bit of color

back into it.

And he was like,

no,

I'm going to give you

a new heart.

I'm going to give you

a new heart.

And so I went,

here's the heart then

and I did,

so with my palms,

palms down,

here's my heart

and I put them

and I imagine putting it

into the hands of God

underneath.

And I love that verse.

Do you like that verse?

Underneath of the everlasting arms.

I was like,

here it is.

And then I was like,

don't kill me,

I don't want to die.

I'm still alive,

who knew?

And then I did

palms up

and I was like,

what are you going to give me

in exchange?

And I saw

this beautiful,

and I know it wasn't

biologically factually correct,

I saw a heart

like you draw a heart,

but a really nice pink one.

And it was like soft

and I said to God,

can you just describe it to me?

And he said,

yeah,

yeah,

I love this heart,

I made this heart

and you've got to put this in.

And he was like,

it's lovable,

it's kind,

it's compassionate

and it's healthy

and it's clean

and it's pure.

I give you a pure heart

and a new heart.

And I was sobbing,

ladies,

absolutely sobbing.

And I thought,

I did not realise

how battered my old little heart

had become

and how sad it was

and how hard it had become

and how sick it had become.

And I literally feel,

all I can say is

I feel really different

since that point.

I think I'm a bit nicer as well.

I was vile over Christmas.

I was jealous

of a one-year-old niece.

That's how sick my heart was.

I was like,

what do you mean

I can't watch Poirot on the telly

because she needs,

she can't have screens.

I was like,

and everyone was like,

you're very selfish this Christmas.

I was like,

I am not.

Hard heart talking.

Anyway,

I feel quite convicted

about this now

and my jealousy

of a one-year-old.

So weird.

Anyway,

but you see,

God does.

He gives us

a new heart

and some of you

might need a new heart today

but some of you

might need a new spirit today.

Some of you

might need the mind

of Christ today

because you need

your mind renewing.

Some of you

might need new hands

because you've served

and served

and they're knackered.

But you know,

we're the body of Jesus

and he is a resurrected

saviour

and everything of him

can become in us.

So let's just kind of

remind ourselves

how God is just

all in for

doing these new things.

How were Bibles

and territory

taken according

to the Bible?

Sorry,

battles.

How were battles

and territory

won and territory

taken?

Well,

let's just remind

ourselves.

On one occasion

God blinded

the enemy's eyes.

On another occasion

God turned

the enemy

on each other.

On another occasion

Esther fasted

and the nation

was saved.

On another occasion

they walked

around the walls

of Jericho

a number

of times.

In fact,

lots and lots

of times.

But each time

God took territory

and won a battle

for people

in a new way.

Because he doesn't

just repeat,

he starts things new.

So if you're facing

a battle

or if you need

some territory

I wonder

how God will show you

he wants to do it.

How many times

did healing come?

One time

it was because

a deaf and mute man

needed exercising.

He had demons.

Another occasion

it was by a woman's face.

Another occasion

Naaman had to dip

into a dirty river

seven times.

Would you have

described that?

Would you have thought

that's the way?

Another occasion

it was completely

from a distance

Jesus wasn't even there

and the captain's servant

was healed.

Another occasion

an ear was touched

and it was regrown

that's when someone

dropped it off.

Another occasion

it was from the fear

of God

and his wisdom

refreshes the body

and heals.

So there's no one way.

How did provision

come from God?

One time

it came from

a fish's mouth.

One time

it was when

a little boy

bought his packed lunch

and it fed

5,000 hungry men.

Perished the thought.

Another occasion

Jesus said

you need to be

fishing over there.

And then that's

how provision came

because they were

shown the right

place to fish.

Another occasion

in the Bible

it says good hard work

is how you get provision.

So there's no one

transcript.

But how does God

want to do things

in this new season

for you?

It's a completely

blank canvas

which is amazingly

exciting.

You're wondering

why I'm showing you

a picture of Sky

and cars.

When I was moving

to Bristol

this is about

nine months ago

I felt like God

say you need

a new car

and I wasn't

in the

let's say

financial position

to be

getting myself

a brand new car

and I did think

oh yeah that would

be a really great idea

because I had this

clapped out banger

of an old

Peugeot 206

black in colour

broken seats

people were starting

to not want to

come with me

when I talked.

It might have been

because I had a heavy

right foot when I drove

confession of the day

or it might have

thanks God for Becca

for driving today

no one got a speeding

flight

and it might have been

the state of my car

I think it was more

the state of my car

and it used to like

shake on the way home

and I often end up

driving because I speak

often in an evening

as well

driving late at night

down country roads

in the dark

and everyone's saying

you know you should

get a light colour car

because like that car

is not very good

in the dark

and particularly my dad

was starting to say that

and so I did think

oh it would be really

good to have a light

coloured car

so that I'm visible

and my name means light

and I thought it's good

to have you know

character integrity

running through your life

so I'll have a light car

as well as having a name

that means light

and then

and I'm literally

thinking about it

as I'm driving back

from Bristol to Cheltenham

which was where I was

still living at the time

and then smoke

started to come out

of the bonnet

and I was like

oh

and I'm on the M5

which as you know

when you're on the M5

it's not ideal

to look like you're

about to cause a fire

and I don't know

what to do

so I started to pull over

to the little

the hard shoulder

but I didn't actually

get there

I got to the slow

like halfway

between the middle lane

and the slow lane

and I was like

oh

and I was literally

stopped

with bellows

of smoke

so I thought

I'm going to have

to get out of the car

I feel like I'm

on the telly

save me now

so I stood on the side

and I was like

my car

no one hit it

fortunately

and a lorry came

and blocked the road

it was a very dramatic

lady

and on the side

of the road

I was like

right that's it

I need that new car

like that's

this is a sign

and so I was like

God

I want a car

I want a white car

a big car

to take people with me

when I'm speaking

and I want

and then I just found

myself going

a Nissan Qashqai

with comfy seats

I don't want leather

because it's slippy and cold

some of you might like that

but personally you know

I want cameras all around

so I don't hit it

like I hit the other one

and I want people

to want to travel with me

because it's comfy

anyway

so I

and I thought

that sounded a cocky prayer

you know how you're thinking

oh that was cocky

well done me

quite like asking your receipt

knocking on the door

that was one of those

and I'm standing on the side

of the road

watching my smoking

Peugeot

waiting for the RAC

who took four hours

which wasn't ideal

but there we go

sorry if you work for the RAC

they're a very nice organisation

anyway

so I

I went back

and I was like

my dad said

do you think now

you should be getting a car

I'll lend you some money

if you want

I was like

I think that's quite a lot

of money to ask for

and you know

when you borrow from parents

it makes you feel

about four years old

so I was like

oh

do I have to borrow money again

why I'm such a needy adult

anyway

I thought

I thought

okay

God

you've shown me a Nissan

I will

please could you pay

for what you order

if that's you

please could you provide for me

and that was literally

about as profound

as my prayer went

and I didn't particularly

hammer the floor

with intercession

I didn't pray in tongues

every morning for money

and then

over the course

of the next two weeks

random people

from all around the UK

just friends

who I hadn't actually told

of my tragic circumstances

rest in peace

Milo

the Peugeot 206

didn't tell them

what happened

do you know what the ROC

said when they came

they said

you have cooked your car

thank you very much

I love baking

anyway

I just started to get

these messages

from friends

saying could you send me

your bank details

we were just praying

for you today

God's really prompted us

to pray

and I was talking

at a women's conference

just saying

feel free to do this

today if you want to

someone was sitting there

and said

oh I feel like

God's meant to give you

some money

that's just a bit of a joke

not really

and she came on

and not judging the amount

either because

obviously if you want to

aim a bit higher than this

this is ideal

she said I'll give you

what's in my pocket

she pulled out

£4.72

I was like ideal

won't buy a Nissan

but thank you so much

and then

I looked in the bank

to see what someone

had transferred

and it was £250

I was like

that is great news

and I was like

checking that off

the large sum

that I was possibly

going to have to borrow

from my father

anyway someone else

then texted

and they transferred

£700

then someone else

texted

and they said

oh we were just

together praying for you

the other day

and we really feel

like God wants

to give you some money

they transferred

over £5,000

and honestly

it just kept coming

to the point where

over the next two weeks

I rang up

I found a really nice

Nissan on the internet

hadn't seen it

but it was up in Glasgow

and I thought

well I can't go to Glasgow

it's quite a long way

and they said

oh well we don't

normally do this

but we'll send it

down to Birmingham

can you get to Birmingham

and I was like

yeah because at this time

I was still living in Cheltenham

and I was determined

that when I moved to Bristol

I was going to have

a new white car

and what I was going to do

was I was going to sing

the greatest showman

this is me

at full volume

driving down the motorway

not speeding anymore

because I've done

my speed awareness course

so good

and that's how

I was going to enter Bristol

in my new season

I was like

new car

new season

new me

go

and obviously

waiting for the money

anyway

I got them to bring

the car down to Bristol

and they said

oh we won't charge you

we normally would

and we'll put it on a transporter

so it doesn't run up

the mileage

I thought

these people are amazing

and I was like

this is the favour of God

that those American people

talk about

I was like

favour of God

and I paid for this car

the whole car

on my visa debit card

with money

that two weeks ago

I did not have

and that is unusual for me

because these stories

normally happen

to someone else over there

and it doesn't make me think

God isn't a provider

but it made me realise

oh he's also a provider for me

and I've watched that

and walked that

lots of times

and not had that for me

so if you're sitting there

going I've never had that

I was that person

I'm as shocked as you guys

and I did

I moved to Bristol

literally a month later

and it was around Easter

in fact it was Easter Monday

and I thought

oh that is really cool

that God provided me

a new car for a new season

he's obviously doing

this new thing

and he cares about

these things

that I had bought

before him

and I thought

I'll just look up

because I was getting

really into the

Jewish calendar

has anyone else

sort of researched that

it's really fascinating

so the Hebrew people

in order to track

their seasons

they didn't have our months

like we have

January, February, March

they had like

they looked at the

constellation in the sky

and that's how they knew

what season they were in

and I thought

oh I'll just have a little look

and see what season it is

in the Hebrew calendar

for the Jews

and it said

this is the month of Nisan

get out of town

and it said

it's the month where

the Hebrew people

moved from their old land

to their new land

now

at this point

I put the greatest showman

on early

look out

because here I come

sorry

oh sorry

Jay that wasn't

an audition to the worship

but I thought

isn't that amazing

that God

contextualised me

provided for me

in that season

and he knew

I was moving

into the new

and he was really

determined that I knew

that he was involved

in it

and in Genesis

this is not horoscopes

by the way

this is different

Genesis says

let God says

let there be lights

in the expanse

of the heavens

to separate the day

from the night

and for signs

and for seasons

for days

and for years

and I'm telling you

ladies of refresh

this season

is a new season

and all things

are possible

with God

nothing is impossible

with God

he wants to introduce

to you

something you've seen

in someone else

for you

and I can't tell you

which bit that will be

because we don't get

to pick it unfortunately

but I'm passing on

provider

catch that

and I'm passing on

God who speaks

catch that one

don't compare

but have it for you

make it as permission

because God did it for me

he can do it again

and as Hannah

had looked in pain

thinking

that lady's got this

and I don't

remember

God had heard

and that's what she birthed

in her life

and so

I want to just

encourage you

get your jar

today

of your life

and take it

to the master

like happened

in that story

and just watch

what God does

through you

it's out of your belly

will flow rivers

of living water

you're not like

just painted white

on the outside

covering up all the black

on your inside

God does an inside out job

and you're going to leave

a really good legacy

of being together

as a girl squad today

as a team

I've got my

two squad here

but you know what

we need each other

we need to have

each other's backs

don't we

and champion each other

for what God's doing

to you

Henry Ford

allegedly said

about inventing

the motor car

and they called it

the horseless carriage

if I had asked people

what they wanted

they would have said

faster horses

but he saw

the potential

for something new

and so does God

and so should we

I am the Lord

this is a prophecy

from Isaiah

besides me

there is no

saviour

remember not

the former things

do not consider

the things of old

behold I am doing

a new thing

now it springs forth

do you not perceive it

he doesn't just want

his new thing

in an old thing

he wants new wine

in a new wineskin

he wants to do

something new

it's possible

because nothing

is impossible

with our saviour Jesus

by the way

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