Sermon
The Sacrifice
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Transcript
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Good to see you all.
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We've been waiting for 25 years.
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We've been waiting for 25 years for Abraham and Sarah to have a baby.
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The sleepless nights begin here, and from here on out, everything's going to be fine.
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It is not the case.
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In fact, Genesis chapter 21 was not the climax of Abraham's life.
Genesis 21 chapter mention
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It is Genesis chapter 22, which is today.
Genesis 22 chapter mention
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And we're going to be looking at that today.
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And I'm going to invite the lovely Emily to come up to read the word of the Lord to us.
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As is our tradition, we love to stand for the word of the Lord because it's just God breathed.
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It is God's word to us.
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And so we stand in reverence and also, can I invite you to stand for the word of the Lord
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as Emily reads Genesis chapter 22 to us.
Genesis 22 chapter mention
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Thank you.
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Lovely, James.
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Genesis 22.
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After these things, God tested Abraham, and he said to him, Abraham.
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And he said, here I am.
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He said, take your son, your only son Isaac, whom you love, and go to the land of Moriah,
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and offer him there as a burnt offering on one of the mountains of which I shall tell you.
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So Abraham rose early in the morning, saddled his donkey, and took two of his young men with him
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and his son Isaac.
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And he cut the wood for the burnt offering and arose and went to the place which God had told him.
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On the third day, Abraham lifted up his eyes and saw the place from afar.
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Then his eyes...
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Oh, sorry.
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Then Abraham said to his young men, stay here with the donkey.
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I and the boy will go over there and worship and come against you.
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And Abraham took the wood of the burnt offering and laid it on Isaac, his son.
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And he took it in his hand, the fire and the knife.
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So they went both of them together.
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And Isaac said to his father, Abraham, my father.
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And he said, here I am, my son.
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He said, behold, the fire and the wood.
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But where is the lamb for the burnt offering?
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Abraham said, God will provide for himself the lamb for a burnt offering, my son.
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So they went both of them together.
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When they came to the place of which God had told him, Abraham built the altar there and laid the wood in order
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and bound Isaac, his son, and laid him on the altar on top of the wood.
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Then Abraham reached out his hand and took the knife to slaughter his son.
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But the angel of the Lord called him from heaven and said, Abraham, Abraham.
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And he said, here I am.
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He said, do not lay your hand on the boy or do anything to him.
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For now I know that you fear God.
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Seeing you have not withheld your son, your only son from me.
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And Abraham lifted up his eyes and looked.
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And behold, behind him was a ram caught in a thicket by his horns.
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And Abraham went and took the ram and offered it up as a burnt offering instead of his son.
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So Abraham called the name of that place the Lord will provide.
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As it is said today, on the mount of the Lord it shall be provided.
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And the angel of the Lord called to Abraham a second time from heaven and said,
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By myself I have sworn, declares the Lord, because you have done this and have not withheld your son, your only son.
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I will surely bless you and I will surely multiply your offspring as the stars of the heaven and as the sand that is on the seashore.
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And your offspring shall possess the gate of his enemies.
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And in your offspring shall all the nations of the earth be blessed because you have obeyed my voice.
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So Abraham returned to his young men and they arose and went together to Beersheba.
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And Abraham lived at Beersheba.
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This is the word of the Lord.
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Thank you, Emily.
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Please take a seat.
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Thank you so much, Emily.
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We're going to go through this.
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But before we go through chapter 22, there's one verse that really just kind of jumped out at me.
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It was just the verse just before that at the end of chapter 21.
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And it says, because he's got the baby now.
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And then he says, and Abraham sojourned many days in the land of the Philistines.
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What an interesting thing.
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Honestly, this has been, going through Genesis and going through the story of Abraham has been good for me.
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Because if you've, if I've had a chance to talk to you these last few weeks, this is something that I've been wrestling with.
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And actually the story of Abraham has really been blessing me.
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Because as someone who really, right now, is a little bit of just sojourning going, well, is home England?
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Or is home Hong Kong?
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Or actually, where is home?
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Or what is home?
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And then I'm looking at Abraham's story.
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This guy was promised so much.
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His family would own land.
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Lots of land.
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And yet he spends the majority of his life as a sojourner living in a tent.
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Oh, that just kind of speaks to me that, man, despite all the stuff that he's been promised,
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and yet he's actually happy just to sojourn through foreign land, the land of the Philistines.
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In fact, one of the only pieces of land he actually ends up owning is a few chapters later where Sarah finally dies
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and he actually has to buy her land to bury her.
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That's the only thing.
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It makes me think, we weren't built for this world.
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The city that we belong to is not on this planet.
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It's somewhere else.
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We're sojourners just like Abraham.
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And I'll tell you about my idol.
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My idol as in the Christian term of the idol in terms of what I really hold on to and what I really struggle with.
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I was talking to Jay and Emily about this the other night.
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Control.
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Control and comfort.
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I love to know what's happening tomorrow.
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I love to know that's why children are just a complete wrecking ball into the lives of parents because you no longer have control.
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You don't, you're unable to dictate where things go.
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You see here at the beginning again, this is interesting.
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Genesis chapter 22 is almost a repeat once again of Genesis chapter 12.
Genesis 22 chapter mention Genesis 12 chapter mention
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That first call when God says to Abraham, hey, go.
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You see the call again where he says, go.
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It reminds me, many of you will have heard me tell this story as a 16-year-old when I'd done something that wasn't so good.
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And then my dad takes me.
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He takes me to the church that we grew up in in Leicester.
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We went there just this last summer.
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And this crazy thing happens.
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He goes and he takes me up to the sanctuary upstairs.
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And then he starts bawling his eyes out.
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He starts crying.
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And then he lies just at the stage, just underneath the cross.
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And then, of course, as a teenager, I'm like, OK, I'm in trouble.
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But I'm the one who's supposed to be crying, not you.
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And what's going on?
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And then it was that when he told me, there's a feeling that the Lord is going to take him away early.
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And it would be a time that would be unexpected.
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And he made me promise him.
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He said, James, one thing that you have to promise me, it isn't about education.
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It isn't even about looking after your brother and your mother.
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Just be true to your calling.
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I interpret that as to being, if God tells you to go, you go.
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That's it.
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And honestly, that's the journey that I've been on since then.
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Christina and I, these last few weeks, since we came back from sunny England, maybe a little bit too hot with our air conditioning.
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But coming back going, God, where is it that you're calling us to?
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What are you calling?
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What do you actually want us to do?
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We seem like sojourners.
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What are we doing here?
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And I realized the Christian life is not just about becoming good people who have good behavior.
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The Christian life is about responding to the call of God.
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Time and time and time again.
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The scary thing is, God calls you to go somewhere.
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He often doesn't tell you exactly where.
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Genesis chapter 12, he says, go.
Genesis 12 chapter mention
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I want you to leave home and I'll tell you where you'll end up going.
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Genesis chapter 22.
Genesis 22 chapter mention
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Remember those seasons I talked about a couple of weeks ago?
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He's gone through a lot of seasons.
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He's gone through 25 years, 26 years of just seasons of making mistakes, going up and down, up and down.
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And now we reach the climax because God tests him once and for all, one final time and says, go.
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Go where?
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He said, go.
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Take your son, your only son Isaac, whom you love, and go to the land of Moriah and offer him there as a burnt offering on one of the mountains of which I shall tell you.
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Again, he says, go.
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Head in that direction, but I'll tell you where later.
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How often when we want to hear the voice of God, it's saying, hey, go.
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And God, can you tell us exactly where you're going to tell us to go and what we're going to be exactly going to be doing?
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And yet God doesn't do that.
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And so we see here Abraham again responding to God, not knowing where to go.
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And I love it.
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God just calls him by name, Abraham.
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So often we think of this God who's just distanced, saying, little minion, little human, obey me, follow me.
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But no, it's Abraham.
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Abraham, go.
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And go and take your son, your only son, almost just to rub salt in the wounds.
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Why?
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Because just a couple of chapters ago, there was another son.
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There was another son, Ishmael.
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And God said, I know there was another son.
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But I'll bless him and I see him and I hear him.
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I want to be okay.
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But now Isaac is the only one you have left.
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Take your son and offer a burnt.
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Go to the land of Moriah where the mountains are and then offer him as a burnt offering.
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A lot of us think this is, wait, he's telling him to kill him?
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No, it's offer him as a sacrifice, as a burnt offering.
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If God was like, hey, I want you to show me how much you love me.
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I want you to kill your son.
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You'd have to climb a mountain for three days to do that.
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You can just go into the tent and make it happen straight away.
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But that's not what God's calling him.
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God's saying, hey, I want you to take your son, your only son, whom you love,
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and go to the land and offer him there as a burnt offering on one of the mountains of which I shall tell you.
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Just a little bit of context because this is horrifying.
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As we read through scripture, sometimes there are things that we don't understand,
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especially the modern day reader does not understand what this is really about.
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Bearing in mind, Abraham lived in a time where there was so many societies,
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so many pagan societies that would offer human sacrifices to the gods to satisfy them.
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And often they would be offering the firstborn, the firstfruits.
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You see Cain and Abel, they were offering the firstfruits, right?
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So actually, this is not a foreign concept to Abraham.
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It's like, whoa, especially because it's the firstborn.
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Well, this is the onlyborn now, but this was not a foreign concept to him
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because it would have been like, okay, I think God's doing something.
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Just a bit more of Jewish context around this.
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This idea of the firstfruits or giving your best to God
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was something that they would have been familiar with.
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Why? Because there is a God, there is a holy God.
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There is a God that we need to satisfy.
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There is a God, there is a debt to be paid.
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And by offering up the sacrifice was almost a symbol of that gratitude, of that repentance.
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And so this is not that foreign to Abraham.
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And to us, it's just like, whoa, why is this happening?
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But to God, he's testing.
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Actually, does Abraham truly cherish me, follow me, believe me?
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That thing that my dad told me to promise him, to go when God tells you to go,
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to be true to your calling.
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We did that when I was a teacher in England, and then Christina was working in the hospital.
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And so we went.
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We have friends here who were with us during that time.
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And so we decided, okay, let's quit our jobs.
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Let's go work in the church.
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But what about kids?
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How are we going to provide for our kids?
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And then what we found is God just provided more and more for us at each step.
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Every time we took that leap of faith, God provided more for us.
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But this was all in England.
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This was all in the relative comforts of our own home.
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And then until God said to us and challenged us eight years ago saying,
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hey, do you know all those good gifts that I've given you?
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When you took that leap of faith and I came good for you, what if I took all those away?
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Are you most appreciative of me because of my gifts?
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Or are you appreciative of me because I'm the giver?
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And that was the hardest one.
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When God gives you gifts and you're like, oh, thank you for this.
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Thank you so much.
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God, can you just please give me that job?
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I would love to work for that company.
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It would be such a good thing.
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What if God gives it to you?
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And then what if then God asks you to take it away?
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What's he actually trying to show us in doing that?
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And so we see that here as well.
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He gives him Isaac finally.
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Now, bear in mind, it says, verse 1 says, after these things.
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So Isaac was born.
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But actually, scholars aren't quite sure exactly how many years have passed since then.
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If you go to the National Gallery in London, you'll see portraits, paintings of this scene in Genesis chapter 22.
Genesis 22 chapter mention
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And often it will actually be Abraham holding a knife, ready to sacrifice his baby boy or little child.
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But this isn't the case.
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Isaac is actually at least, at the very least, a teenager at this point.
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But some believe he's either somewhere between 13 to 30.
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Okay?
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So it's been a while.
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And so then God says, after all these things, take him up.
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And then what you see here is just a fascinating turn of events.
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And this is where we'll go, verse 3.
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So Abraham rose early in the morning.
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A lot of people will then use this to say, well, this is radical obedience.
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This is just waking up the next morning and just going straight and just, and that's almost the lesson of the sermon.
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Hey, when God tells you to do something, do it without questioning.
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I'm not sure.
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Imagine, who's a parent here?
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Who's a father here?
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Let's put your hand up with your father.
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God tells you the night before, hey, I need you to offer your son, your only son, the one whom you love, as a sacrifice.
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And I need you to head to those mountains over there.
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Do you think you'll be sleeping that night?
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I think he rose up early because he couldn't sleep.
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He's lying in bed going, what am I going to tell Sarah?
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25 years ago we've been waiting for this.
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Finally, our marriage is in a little bit of a better place.
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Really?
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Is this what, you know what he's battling with?
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He's like, God, this doesn't make sense.
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When the command of God seems to conflict with the promises of God.
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He's like, wait, God, but you said you'll give me the son and actually then I'll be the father of many.
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But now you're telling me to, this doesn't make sense.
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Your commands don't seem to match up with your promises.
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And no doubt he would have just been spiraling in this.
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And so finally day breaks.
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He's like, you know what?
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Through my life, especially these last 25 years of learning and mistakes constantly, there's one thing.
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God must be trusted.
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God must be obeyed.
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And he always provides, I remember that time when I, in Genesis 12, when I went to Egypt and I lied about Sarah.
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And yet somehow he still blessed me with more.
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And that time I made that mistake with Hagar.
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And yet somehow he continues to still bless me with a son.
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And then I went again and I lied about Sarah again.
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And then somehow he kept blessing with me more.
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So he must be wrestling with these things going, you know what?
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My conclusion in the last 25 years, the one lesson that I've learned is God must be trusted.
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God must be obeyed.
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It's daybreak now.
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Let's go.
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So he takes, he wakes Isaac up.
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He takes him and he takes two young men to go with him.
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And this is where you know that Isaac's not just like a two-year-old boy.
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He cuts the wood for the burnt offering and arose and went to the place of which God had told him.
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And on the third day, this is a walk.
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Like you, I challenge you to even take me for a hike for three hours, but for three days.
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Just a walk.
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Can you imagine?
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Okay, so I don't think he sleeps.
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And then he finally goes and gets up.
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And then they walk for three days.
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This is the constant internal turmoil, the wrestling that he's going through.
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Wait, what does this mean?
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God, your commands.
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God, your promises.
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It doesn't make sense to me.
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And then just when he sees the mountain, and then Abraham said to his young men,
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stay here with the donkey.
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I and the boy will go over there and worship and come again to you.
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This is really interesting.
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He says, okay, this final route, this final part of the route, I'm going to go myself with Isaac.
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And this is a really interesting moment here because this is the first,
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very first mention of the word worship in scripture.
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What does the word mean to Abraham?
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It means to fall face down, to surrender, to prostrate oneself.
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To a holy God.
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Fast forward many, many years now.
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What does the word worship mean to us?
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For some of it, it means dim lights, synth pads, good songs.
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Sometimes not so good songs.
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Oh, yeah, the worship of that church wasn't great.
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The worship leader sang too long.
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I mean, just kept repeating the chorus over and over and over again.
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I got bored.
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Yeah, the worship wasn't great there.
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It was a little bit too lively for me, a little bit too charismatic.
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Or a little bit too old-fashioned and boring.
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Yeah, I'm not vibing with the worship of that church.
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We've come so far from the original meaning and mention of the word worship,
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which meant to prostrate oneself, to surrender oneself to a holy God.
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In the New Testament, the word worship would mean to ascribe worth.
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That's where you worship worth.
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It's the saying, God, you are the most valuable thing to me,
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even more than the son that I've waited for for 25 years.
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I'm going to worship him with you there.
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Hey, you guys wait here.
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I and the boy will go over there and worship and come again to you.
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So he kind of knows that this is a little bit of a test.
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And as he's wrestling with this and he's not sleeping
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and then he's walking these three days, he's like,
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okay, well, the command of God doesn't seem to match with the promise of God,
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but God is pretty powerful, so he's going to do something.
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Maybe what will happen is I will pretend,
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maybe I will offer the sacrifice.
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Maybe for a moment, Isaac, our fear will even faint.
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And maybe then he'll wake up again and we'll be okay.
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Or maybe I do have to actually offer him and maybe he will die.
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But God, his promise, his promise,
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maybe God will then raise him from the dead is what it says in Hebrews 11.
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So actually Abraham, with the full knowledge going,
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okay, something's going to happen here that's going to be special.
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It isn't just going to be me going up with two people and coming down by myself.
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There's going to be more to this is what he's saying.
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And so they do it.
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And Abraham took the wood of the burnt offering and laid it on Isaac, his son.
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Clever man.
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Remember, Abraham's quite old at this point.
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He's about 110 years old.
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So he's not carrying the wood up the mountain.
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So he's saying, teenager, Isaac, this is what I fed you for.
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You're going to carry this wood up.
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So then he straps the wood onto Isaac and he took his hand, the fire and the knife.
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And so they went, both of them together.
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And Isaac said to Abraham, and this is where it should break every father's heart.
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Verse 7 and 8.
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This is kind of the turning point of the passage here.
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It says, my father, I know enough to be kind of doing this with you, to trust you.
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We have the fire and the wood, but there is no lamb.
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I've seen you offer burnt offerings before, and there's usually a lamb.
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Where's the lamb?
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Abraham says, actually, he says, here I am, my son.
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This is the second time he says, here I am, by the way.
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He says it to God first, and then he says it to Isaac here.
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God will provide for himself the lamb for a burnt offering, my son.
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God will see to it.
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He doesn't say, hey, cool story.
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You're going to be the lamb.
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It's going to be really fun, I promise.
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Trust me.
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It's going to be just fine.
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He says, God will see to it.
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I don't know how he's going to do it, but he's going to see to it.
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So let's just keep going.
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And so they both went together, and when they get there,
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the place of which God had told him, Abraham built the altar there
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and laid the wood in order and bound Isaac, his son,
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and laid him on the altar on top of the wood.
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This is every parent's nightmare.
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We pray and pray for God to give us the things that we want,
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and often some of those include children.
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The children are the biggest blessing to us.
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But how often do we find this happening even in church,
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where when we get the gift of children,
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and then the first thing that becomes an idol is our children.
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Suddenly it's the gift that God gives us that stops us from going to God.
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How often has that happened with our work?
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God, please, I'd love to work for that company.
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And then you get the job.
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And it's like, praise God.
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Thank you so much for the job.
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And then two Sundays later, sorry, I can't go to church anymore because of my work,
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because of the work that you gave me,
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because of the child that you gave me needs to nap at that time,
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so we're not going to go to church anymore.
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We will just watch Zoom online instead.
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And then when the child gets older, God, thank you so much for this child,
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but we can't come to church anymore because they have tennis lessons,
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because we have to take them here, we have to take them there.
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God, I want him or her to follow you,
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but actually there's all these other things.
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And suddenly as parents, our whole lives revolve around our children.
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And suddenly the very things that God gives us become the idols that pull him away from us.
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Has that happened to any of us?
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And you see God here testing Abraham, whether he's fearful of God.
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That's what Gav has just said.
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That actually, when he does actually, so he gets ready and he holds the knife,
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and then the angel calls to him, say, Abraham, Abraham.
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And he said, here I am for the third time.
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Do not lay your hand on the boy or do anything to him.
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For now I know that you fear God, seeing you have not withheld your son, your only son, from me.
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A couple of weeks ago I quoted one of my favorite devotional books,
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My Upmost for His Highest, Charles Ward Chambers, who says,
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when you fear God, you won't fear anything else.
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But when you don't fear God, you will fear everything else.
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All of this is about do we fear God or not.
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The word fear isn't terrified, afraid of God.
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It is, is there a reverence and awe for who God is.
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And actually, I'm just going to trust you with everything.
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Even with the things that I hold the most dear to my heart.
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And so, because God sees that he fears him and actually trusts him,
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he says, hey, stop.
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The experiment is over.
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The test is done.
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You have passed.
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There was as much risk here for Abraham as there was for God.
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Because if actually Abraham doesn't trust God,
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then actually God's salvation plan for the nations does not work.
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And for Abraham, if God actually lets him do this, then it's done.
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And it isn't just about the sentimental value of,
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this is my son who I love.
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I won't be able to play football with him anymore.
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Now, this is actually back in those days,
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the firstborn son, the only son, would have held such significant value
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because this was basically your social hope.
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This was your way of surviving.
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This was your way for your family to continue.
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In fact, in those days, the firstborn would get everything.
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Why would that firstborn get everything?
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They wouldn't separate it with all the siblings
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because the moment you separate the inheritance with all the different siblings,
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your family becomes weaker.
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So it made the most sense to give it all to one person
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and have that person be the one who leads the clan after that.
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So God's saying, hey, I know I gave you this,
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but I want you to entrust not just you and your family with me.
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I want you to entrust your whole future with me.
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I want you to fear me.
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I want you to rely on me.
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I want you to trust me and me alone.
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Thank the Lord, though.
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He stops him, and then he sees a ram.
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He sees a sheep that's just, you know, poor ram,
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just kind of minding his own business,
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and suddenly gets trapped in a thicket by his horns.
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And so that ends up being the sacrifice instead.
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And then Abraham says, whew, I passed.
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I'm going to call this mountain the Lord will provide.
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Notice he does not say, I'm going to call this mountain,
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this is where I obeyed.
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This was not the mountain of obedience.
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This isn't where Abraham goes, hey, I actually managed to prove myself.
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That's not what he's saying.
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He's saying this is where God provided.
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This is where God provided for me.
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And remember, it's not about just obedience, pure obedience.
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Some of us who have grown up in the church,
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that's what we think Christianity is about.
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Can we just be the good Christians that we were supposed to be,
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obey the rules that we were supposed to obey,
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not do the things that we're not supposed to do,
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and that's what Christianity is about.
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That is not what it's about.
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The whole point of Christianity, the whole point of the gospel,
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is that God provides.
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Just like Gabe said last week, that God is a God of promise,
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and he actually provides.
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And it's only afterwards, it's only after the obedience,
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does the provision come.
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You only start walking on the water, as John Altberg would say,
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after you actually step out of the boat.
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But some of us are trapped in this place where,
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will God provide or not?
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Well, you won't find out until you actually take that step out.
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And once you take that step out,
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you will realize that God is good for his promise,
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and that he will provide every step of the way.
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Genesis 22 is this radical form of obedience,
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even though I believe there would have been a lot of internal wrestling.
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But you can't just look at Genesis 22 and go,
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okay, that's pretty crazy.
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So basically, whatever God says we should do,
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you have to take it in the context of all of Abraham's life.
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That actually, only a few chapters ago,
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he was bargaining and negotiating with God.
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Right?
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And so you're in this place now where he has become so trusting of God.
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Say, okay, God, I have learned my lesson.
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I know that you can be trusted.
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I'm going to follow you.
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I know you're going to figure it out some way.
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And I wonder whether we need to do that with our own lives.
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Whether it's in a relationship that we have been entrusted with,
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whether it's been someone that he's gifted us with,
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or whether it's the job that he's given to us,
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or whether it's just simply our future.
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Whatever it is that God has given us,
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do we entrust it back to him?
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Or do we hold on to it and say,
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well, now you've given it to us.
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Now you've given it to me.
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I can't let it go because I don't know why.
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Because ultimately, if you keep peeling back
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and you keep asking why, there's only one answer.
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It's because I don't trust you, God.
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I know you're good enough to give it to me now,
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but actually, I don't truly, truly trust you,
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is what we're saying.
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If we go all the way back to Genesis,
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at the beginning of Genesis, the fall,
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we see that's what it is.
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Did God really tell you to do that?
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It all comes down to a mistrust of God.
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This whole test here is just testing to see
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whether Abraham truly, truly trusts God
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and cherishes him,
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not just for the gifts that he gives him,
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but for the actual presence of God himself.
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So that's God.
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And that's Abraham.
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He passes the test.
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But I want to spare a little thought for Isaac.
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Isaac, who at this point,
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remember, he's actually not a baby,
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not a toddler.
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He's probably a little bit older than Reuben.
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And dad tells him,
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hey, look, we're going up to the mountain to worship,
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carry the wood.
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What we see here is actually a picture of a willing son,
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a trusting son,
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who actually knows that his father
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knows what's best for him
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and is willing to go.
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And you see there's actually a relationship here
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between the two.
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There's only a very short dialogue,
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but you see my father,
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hey, I can see all this stuff,
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but we're missing something.
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And then Abraham responds to him in kind.
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This tells me one thing,
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especially for his adults,
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especially for his parents.
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If we have kids who question the faith,
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who question anything,
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let them question,
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talk to them,
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discuss with them.
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Don't just say,
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hey,
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what I say is it.
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We're going up the hill.
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let's welcome questions.
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Let's welcome dialogue.
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Let's welcome relationship.
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The goal is for not just God to see how faithful Abraham is,
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but it's actually,
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you can actually,
-
Isaac can see Abraham.
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One of the reasons we went into ministry
-
is actually when Christina was pregnant with Reuben,
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one of the questions that was posed to us is,
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what do you want your son to learn from us?
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And there's many things,
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you know,
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how to be a good person,
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how to be kind,
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how to study hard,
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and all those kind of things.
-
But the one thing that we kept saying to ourselves is,
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we want our children to know
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that God can be trusted.
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And so when God called us out of our jobs,
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I loved the school that I was teaching in.
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I thought I was going to stay there forever.
-
And it was God's gift to me.
-
But when we had Reuben,
-
I was like,
-
you know what?
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I don't even want to just teach my son
-
that God gives us these good gifts
-
and we should just do our best
-
in whatever he gives us.
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I want to show him
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that actually God can be trusted.
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Because if we can trust God,
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we will reverse the curse of sin.
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God can be trusted.
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So imagine Isaac
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just following Abraham up,
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willingly being tied down,
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going,
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okay,
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God,
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Dad's got a plan.
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Dad's got a plan.
-
Dad's got a plan.
-
Can the plan show up anytime now,
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please?
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But what you do see here
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is a son looking up at a father,
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going,
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okay,
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the God that my father
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follows and worships
-
is serious.
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I should trust him
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with everything.
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And so that's why you
-
then hear about this God
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not just being the God of Abraham
-
but also the God of Isaac.
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Abraham teaches Isaac
-
a very important lesson here.
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And remember,
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in just the verses before,
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in verses,
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verse eight,
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oh,
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and verse six,
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they both say,
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so they went,
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both of them,
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together.
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This wasn't one person
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dragging the other person.
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This was a willing,
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this was a mutual willingness
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to trust in God
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as they went up this mountain together.
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And so you see that
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happening here.
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And of course,
-
we all now know
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as we look at this text,
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even though we aren't
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quite going through
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the internal turmoil
-
of what Abraham was going through
-
because we look now
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and then it doesn't happen.
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But now we look,
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we see something more
-
because we don't just see
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the Old Testament,
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we see the New Testament.
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We see that what Isaac is,
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what Isaac truly was,
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is a foreshadowing
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of the willing son,
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the Christ Jesus himself.
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He was a prefiguration
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of the son
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who willingly obeyed
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the father in the garden
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when he said,
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okay,
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not my will,
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but yours be done.
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Why?
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Because I trust you,
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father.
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And you see Isaac
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basically painting a picture
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going further
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and you're seeing Jesus
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doing the same thing.
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And that's what
-
this whole passage
-
about here
-
is really trying
-
to hammer home
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this idea of trusting
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in God.
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It's funny,
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God tells Abraham
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to go to the land of Moriah
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and go to the mountains there
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and that mountain
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ends up being
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where the temple
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gets built.
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So this mountain,
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this very mountain here
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where the Lord will provide
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is where the temple
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of Solomon gets built.
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Many, many years later
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just in the mountain
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just across the way,
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there is another son
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who climbs his mountain
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with wood on his back too.
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And of course,
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what we're talking about,
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who we're talking about
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is Jesus.
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And it is the same thing
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that I think he was wrestling.
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How does the command of God
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reconcile with the promise
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of God?
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How does a holy God
-
also be a gracious God?
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Look,
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that sacrifice is needed.
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We know that sacrifice
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is needed
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because we are sinners
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and there is a debt
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to be paid.
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So we know that's the case
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because if it wasn't there,
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then he's not a holy God.
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And if he's not a holy God,
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then he's not just.
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And then everything in the world
-
that we see right now,
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there's no hope
-
for anything in the world
-
if he's in the holy
-
and just God.
-
But there's also no hope
-
in the world
-
if he is not a gracious God
-
because who of us here
-
can say that we have not
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sin that we are perfect.
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So we are glad
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that he is holy and just
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when we look at the darkness
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in the world
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and we're also glad
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that he is gracious
-
and forgiving
-
when we look at the darkness
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inside us.
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And you see
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the questions
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of whether he is a holy God
-
or whether he is a gracious God.
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You see the battling
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of whether the commands of God
-
match up with the promise of God
-
all in one place
-
and that is the cross.
-
And that is the cross
-
where you see
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the justice of God,
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the wrath of God,
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waging war against evil,
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come hand in hand
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with the love
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and the grace
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and the forgiveness of God
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on the cross.
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And it's funny
-
in the book of James
James 2 chapter mention
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chapter 2
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it says this
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that Abraham trusted
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and believed God
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and then it was counted
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to him as righteousness.
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It wasn't
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Abraham obeyed God
-
and climbed up a mountain
-
for three days
-
and did something crazy.
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It was that he just believed.
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And because he believed
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that's all that was required
-
and it was counted to him
-
as righteousness.
-
You see it's easy
-
to surrender to God
-
when we know who God is.
-
It's easy to surrender
-
to a God
-
who we truly believe
-
will provide
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and will give us the way.
-
And Romans 8
-
it says this
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if you're wrestling with this
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he's like how
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he gave his only son
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for you
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how will he not graciously
-
give you all things?
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How many of us struggle
-
with trusting God
-
with our jobs
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with our future
-
with our relationships?
-
We all struggle with this.
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I struggle with this.
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I find great comfort
-
in the fact
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that Abraham
-
also struggled
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with this.
-
Final thing
-
and then I'm actually
-
going to bring up
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my good friend Jay
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to have a little conversation.
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Just imagine
-
for a second
-
if Abraham
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and Isaac
-
were actually
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at the
-
Mount of Calvary
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when they see
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Jesus
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on the cross
-
when they see
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God's only son
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the son
-
whom he loves
-
on the cross.
-
Imagine
-
just for a second
-
if Abraham
-
and Isaac
-
found a time machine
-
and they ended up there
-
and what they would have seen
-
they're like
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oh
-
this all makes sense.
-
Now I know.
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Now I know.
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Because he
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who does not spare
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his only son
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whom he loves
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now I know
-
that God loves me.
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He would have been
-
shouting around
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to everyone going
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I was here
-
well I was nearby
-
on a mountain
-
many years ago
-
but now I know
-
what it was all about.
-
That there is a God
-
there is a father
-
in heaven
-
who loves us so much
-
who is so holy
-
and who is so just
-
and who is so compassionate
-
that he would find
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he would launch
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a rescue plan
-
to save us
-
and that plan
-
would involve
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his son dying
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on a cross for us.
-
Guys look
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that is the land
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that was slain.
-
Can you imagine
-
Isaac
-
going
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that could have been me
-
but it wasn't.
-
Oh man.
-
I think as those
-
of us who follow Christ
-
we need to
-
encounter that truth
-
again and again.
-
To know how deep
-
the father's love for us
-
that he would give
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his only son
-
and because of that
-
we are now called
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children of God.
-
So here's my question
-
and it's probably
-
one that you would have
-
thought as you were
-
just looking through
-
this passage
-
is what's your Isaac?
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What's the gift
-
that God has given you
-
that you're so grateful for
-
but now you're
-
holding on to
-
and you don't want
-
to give back to him?
-
This happens all the time
-
with Micah
-
doesn't it Reuben?
-
We give him a toy
-
and then he doesn't
-
let us have it back
-
and he's no
-
mine.
-
How many of us
-
have that in our lives?
-
How many of us
-
have that Isaac
-
in our lives?
-
And what if God
-
was just saying
-
hey
-
I gave you
-
this
-
and the whole point
-
of this
-
the whole point
-
of this test
-
is that you would
-
trust me again
-
and that you would
-
respond to my call
-
again
-
and just in case
-
you thought
-
that responding
-
to God's call
-
once is enough
-
Abraham tells us
-
it is not enough
-
it happened in
-
Genesis 12
-
it happened in
-
Genesis 17
-
18
-
20
-
22
-
to be a follower
-
of Christ
-
is not just about
-
modifying our behavior
-
once
-
it's about a
-
constant decision
-
to say God
-
you call
-
I go
-
you invite me
-
I follow
-
what is our Isaac?
-
And so something
-
that I've been wanting
-
to try
-
because I know
-
that if I keep
-
speaking every week
-
for a long time
-
you'll all get sick
-
of me
-
is actually
-
there's lots of people
-
in our congregation
-
who actually have
-
really so much to say
-
so much to bless
-
all of us
-
and what we're going
-
to hopefully
-
try and do more of
-
is actually
-
to get some people
-
up to
-
share their thoughts
-
so what I will do
-
is the week before
-
I'll actually give
-
them a passage
-
the passage
-
that I'm going
-
to be preaching on
-
and ask them
-
to meditate over it
-
ask them to study over it
-
and then of course
-
to listen to the message
-
as well
-
and then to
-
kind of give us
-
a response
-
in real time
-
and maybe just
-
to represent
-
all of us here
-
is actually
-
what does
-
the word of God
-
have for us?
-
What is God
-
actually trying to say
-
to us
-
and what can we
-
put into action here?
-
And so I'd love
-
to invite Jay
-
up here
-
and can we give him
-
a round of applause?
-
So I gave Jay
-
this passage
-
to kind of
-
just reflect on
-
and we've been
-
talking about
-
ways for him
-
to kind of
-
just serve more
-
and he actually
-
feels a conviction
-
that one of these
-
is to actually
-
be able to
-
share his testimony
-
and also just
-
to be willing
-
to grow in teaching
-
the word of God
-
so actually
-
I gave him this passage
-
and then he actually
-
sent me
-
I actually got
-
a little bit excited
-
because I was like
-
oh this is like
-
a whole sermon's worth
-
I can actually
-
have the week off
-
and I realized
-
if I did that
-
he'll never
-
come back again
-
so we're gonna
-
so Jay
-
before I jump
-
into the questions
-
can you just
-
briefly tell us
-
what you do
-
and just
-
about yourself
-
my name is Jay
-
and I am currently
-
working at Bloomberg
-
I'm Korean
-
I don't know
-
what else to share
-
yeah
-
you're Korean
-
and working at Bloomberg
-
that is a very
-
Korean way
-
of describing yourself
-
so
-
what made you
-
want to
-
kind of just
-
get up and do this
-
God spoke to me
-
three years ago
-
when I was in the military
-
and
-
he spoke actually
-
really clearly to me
-
and
-
he said
-
I've given you a gift
-
and you must use it
-
and that's to teach
-
so
-
I've had
-
my own journey
-
of trying to obey
-
this command
-
and trusting God
-
when he's calling me
-
to do this
-
it made me a little bit
-
scared initially
-
and
-
I think now
-
I'm sitting up here
-
and
-
I don't feel the nerves
-
that I used to
-
and
-
it's such a
-
I mean
-
Emily knows how nervous
-
I used to get
-
and now I'm up here
-
and
-
it's just
-
sorry
-
I just want to testify
-
it's just
-
I'm so
-
I'm so grateful
-
that God's changed my heart
-
that
-
I just want to glorify him
-
like this
-
I'm here to glorify him
-
I just want to
-
share how
-
God has been working
-
in my life
-
and
-
it's tiring to hear you
-
all the time
-
you know
-
it is
-
I first met Jay
-
when
-
actually it was our
-
very first weekend
-
here in Hong Kong
-
seven years ago
-
and he was still
-
how old were you then?
-
19
-
19
-
18
-
19
-
he was part of the
-
Young Life University
-
ministries as well
-
and that's how
-
they kind of got connected
-
and since then
-
I've just watched him
-
grow and grow
-
both in stature
-
both in kind of
-
build
-
and also in hair
-
and every time
-
every time I look at him
-
there's just a little bit
-
of disdain in me
-
it's just
-
it's just
-
it's just such a waste
-
it's just kind of
-
it's just
-
and the most annoying thing is
-
he'll go to military
-
he'll shave it all off
-
and then just two months later
-
it's all back again
-
but anyway
-
thank you for so much
-
for doing this
-
and I hope
-
we'll be able to do this more
-
and so
-
the first question
-
I have for you
-
and we only have two
-
just in case you're tracking
-
is just
-
as you read the passage
-
of Genesis 22
-
what stood out to you
-
the most?
-
Before I do that
-
can I just quickly pray
-
if it's okay?
-
Holy Spirit
-
this is your stage
-
and I just want to speak
-
what you want to speak
-
through me
-
I just sense that
-
there's a lot of open hearts
-
here today Lord
-
so I just pray God
-
that you soften their hearts
-
even more
-
in the next 10 minutes God
-
whatever it is
-
that you want to speak
-
through me
-
I just pray I can obey
-
I can abide in you God
-
and I know that you will speak
-
because you're faithful
-
and I can trust you
-
and we can trust you
-
so Father I just pray
-
for fertile soul
-
as you speak now
-
in the name of prayer
-
Amen
-
to answer the question
-
well firstly
-
thanks for having me James
-
I've been thinking about
-
this passage
-
for the past two weeks
-
it's a passage that's
-
confused me
-
it's been
-
a passage that's been
-
it's challenged me a lot
-
over the years
-
and two weeks ago
-
like you know
-
when we were doing
-
chapter 20
-
I was like
-
oh okay
-
I need to speak on chapter 22
-
as I was reading ahead
-
the main thing
-
that stood out to me was
-
I mean James
-
you talked a lot about
-
what it looks like
-
to trust in God
-
and how Abraham
-
trusted in God
-
and I think the question
-
that popped up for me
-
was like
-
how do we trust God more
-
because it's something
-
that's said a lot in church
-
right
-
we just trust God
-
and when you read
-
Genesis 22
-
like let's say
-
you didn't know anything
-
about Abraham
-
and you read Genesis 22
-
this passage makes
-
Abraham seem like
-
he's this really obedient
-
he doesn't challenge God
-
he's super
-
like he's really
-
he really trusts the Lord
-
but if you
-
if you see the context
-
of his life
-
everything that's led up
-
to this point
-
Abraham
-
was not a very good dude
-
he really wasn't
-
like you know
-
he lied
-
he was
-
he's not a very honest dude
-
he didn't trust God
-
at many turns
-
he took matters
-
into his own hands
-
many times
-
but
-
we read today's passage
-
and
-
for the person
-
who doesn't know
-
or doesn't have context
-
to Abraham's life
-
it's like
-
oh this guy is like
-
he's the goat
-
like I don't think
-
I can ever
-
be as trustworthy
-
as Abraham was
-
I'm nowhere near
-
close to that level
-
of faith
-
right
-
but then we have to
-
I think for me
-
what's so encouraging
-
firstly
-
is just understanding
-
the context
-
of Abraham's life
-
this dude was messed up
-
he did not trust God
-
he's called the father
-
of faith
-
in the New Testament
-
but if you read
-
all the context
-
all the chapters
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prior to today
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oh man
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he was a mess
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right
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and James talks about
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how our faith
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is like cycles
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right
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like it's not just
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this linear growth
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it's we go through cycles
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and I think that was
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the first thing
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that really stood out to me
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so
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as I was thinking about
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okay
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how did Abraham
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actually
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what was different
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for him this time
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right
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that was the main question
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like why this time
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after all the time
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prior
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he just challenged God
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he was quarreling with God
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he lied to God
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what was different this time
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what switched on for him
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where he was like
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okay
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I can actually trust God
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this time
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and
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I think my main takeaway
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if I could summarize
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my main takeaway
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into one sentence
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it's this
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we can only begin
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to truly trust God
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when we see that
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he's truly trustworthy
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it's about God's faithfulness
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when we read the passage
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I think it's so
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focused on Abraham
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Abraham's faith
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like wow
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Abraham you did such a good job
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but
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actually the only reason
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he was able to do
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that good job
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is because he finally
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understood
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experienced personally
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in his heart
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God's faithfulness
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in his life
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and it's what James
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said earlier right
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only when we can
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actually see that
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he's trustworthy
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when we understand
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that God is trustworthy
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then our actions
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will follow
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and I think that's the thing
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that really stood out to me
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it's not trying to
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muster up the courage
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to say okay God
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I'm just gonna trust you
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in this
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it's
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that's not what God's
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asking of us right
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Abraham saw who God was
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he understood
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that God was faithful
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to him
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think about it right
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like
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it sounds like
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Abraham's faith
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but it's actually
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a passage on
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God's faith
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in Abraham's life
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because Abraham
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did not hold
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his end of the deal
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so many times
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right
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but yet
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God still took him
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to that mountain
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and he reestablishes
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that covenant
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with him
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it's actually a story
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about God's faithfulness
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to Abraham
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and I think
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when we start
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taking the focus
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off of ourselves
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and what we can do
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to bring to the table
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to become a better
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Christian
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whatever
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what not
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and we see
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actually God
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is trustworthy
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I think
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that's when
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our hearts
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begin to change
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and just one last thing
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I think
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the thing
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that really resonated
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with me as well
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was how it took
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Abraham so much time
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to get to this point
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I think when we
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again
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when we read this passage
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it just seems like
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oh wow
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he's the goat
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he's like so trustworthy
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but it took time
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it took mistakes
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and I think
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as readers
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of this passage
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I think what we can
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take away from it
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is understanding
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you know what
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in this journey of faith
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as I grow closer
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to Christ
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I will make mistakes
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and I will fall short
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but God is gracious
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and when I do
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he'll re-invite me
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with open arms
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and I think
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that's the thing
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that has to
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root us back to him
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keep us back to him
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it's about God
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taking the focus
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off of ourselves
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and looking to the
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faithful God
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I think is what
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I took away from
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the passage today
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and you
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this incoming curveball
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you and I both
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have the idol of control
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we've talked about this
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a lot
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and often that leads
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to just lots of anxiety
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and a lot of stress
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and worry
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that our wives
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can attest to
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as well
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so when you're saying
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okay well
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the answer then is
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that we just have to
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look at the
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trustworthiness of God
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practically speaking
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what does that look like
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how do you do that
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how do you remind
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yourself of that
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I guess I could just
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share the testimony
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I think trusting the Lord
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is when we look
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when I read the Bible
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it just sounds like
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you make one decision
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once at one point
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in your life
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okay I trust the Lord
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and you're set
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but it's never like that
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right
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it's a daily decision
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actually
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it takes time
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and I think for me
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in the context of
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idols
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and my Isaac
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in my life
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it's control
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and sometimes
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that control
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manifests itself
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in very different
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areas of my life
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but control in the
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context of my career
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I think
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for me
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I'm an Asian kid
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right
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my parents had
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high expectations
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for me
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and you know
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doctor, lawyer
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whatever
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whatever
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yeah you know
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that was the
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expectation of me
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and I did it
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and that's
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kind of where I am now
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and
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for a very long time
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now
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since I was
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I don't know
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as long as I can remember
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I knew that God
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was calling me
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into a different
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career path
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he was calling me
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I think
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to become a counselor
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and I resisted that
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for a very long time
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I'll just explain why
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I'm sharing this testimony
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in a second
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and how it relates
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to trust
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but
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I resisted for a very long time
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couple of reasons
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number one
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again
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I didn't want to
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I didn't want to
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disappoint my parents
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that was a big one
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and
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I think
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the career that I'm in now
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I'm comfortable
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it means
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I can control
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the variables in my life
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it means that
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I can eliminate
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a lot of
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uncertainty
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from my life
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and that's really
-
important for me
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so when God gave me
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the call
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hey become a counselor
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in my head
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I was thinking
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oh my goodness
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like
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that doesn't sound
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like a very stable job
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that sounds like
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really difficult work
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I mean
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the list goes on
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right
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there's just so many
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different things to fear
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and
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so I resisted
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for a very long time
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and then I applied
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to Bloomberg
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and I got to Bloomberg
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and now I'm working
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finance
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it's been three years
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and
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the start of the year
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I was sharing
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with one of my mentors
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that I was really
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struggling with this
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I said to him
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I think the Lord's
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calling me
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but
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I don't know
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how to obey
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and
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he just asked me
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this question
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that just
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straight to the heart
-
he's very direct
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he said
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Jay
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why don't you
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trust God
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and I was like
-
what
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what do you mean
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I do
-
that's really rude
-
and he was like
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no Jay
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you don't trust God
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and
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as I sat with it
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I realized
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in my head
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I was saying
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Lord I trust you
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and I come here
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to Sunday service
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and I say
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I worship you
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I surrender
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whatever
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I'm saying
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with my lips
-
but
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my heart
-
didn't show it
-
my actions
-
didn't show it
-
so when he asked me
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that question
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I didn't have an answer
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and he started praying
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for me
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and then
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as he started
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praying for me
-
I got this picture
-
as a young boy
-
just a bit of context
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when I was a kid
-
I
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I guess
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I didn't have
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a really good time
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in school
-
I was bullied
-
and my first
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so there's
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there's this one
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particular memory
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that as he was
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praying for me
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I just replayed
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in my head
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and I realized
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it was like
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kind of like
-
a traumatic memory
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for me as a kid
-
and it affected
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the way that I
-
trusted God
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but the story goes
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it was my first day
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of school
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and after the teacher
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introduced me
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she left
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and this Korean girl
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stood up
-
and she was like
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that's kimchi boy
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he's smelly
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he's a loser
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no one hang out
-
with him
-
and from that point
-
on
-
just as a kid
-
that's like
-
the worst thing
-
that can happen
-
to you right
-
and I remember
-
that
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that day
-
like the first recess
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I went down
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and I was making
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my rounds with the kids
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like some kids
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were playing wall ball
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some kids were playing catch
-
and I was like
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hey can I play with you
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like you know
-
my high squeaky voice
-
and they're like
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oh no you're kimchi boy
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you're a loser
-
you suck
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like no one wants
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to be with you
-
and I made my rounds
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across the entire
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playground
-
right
-
and every single
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kid said no to me
-
and
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the memory of me
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was
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I went to the corner
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of the playground
-
and I was
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I was weeping
-
I was sobbing
-
just this little j
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you know
-
and
-
in that
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in that moment
-
I asked
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I asked Jesus
-
I asked Jesus
-
where were you
-
in that moment
-
why didn't you
-
protect me
-
and
-
I realized
-
that this was
-
kind of a core memory
-
that has been
-
holding me back
-
now even as adults
-
from trusting God
-
because that really
-
solidified in my head
-
and I realized
-
it was kind of like
-
enemy had its root
-
in my heart
-
God is not
-
worthy of trusting
-
he didn't protect you
-
then
-
he won't protect you
-
now
-
and that lie
-
was so embedded
-
in my heart
-
I didn't realize
-
it had such a strong
-
grip on me
-
and the coolest thing
-
was when I asked
-
Jesus
-
where were you
-
he walks out
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from one of the
-
classrooms
-
and he sits next
-
to me like this
-
and he puts his
-
arm around me
-
and he says
-
son I'll take care
-
of you
-
and I'll take care
-
of your family too
-
and the second part
-
really got me
-
because I think
-
making this
-
making this transition
-
has been
-
I'm starting
-
a new family
-
with Emily
-
and as a husband
-
and hopefully
-
in the future
-
as a father
-
there are certain
-
things that
-
we have responsibilities
-
and I was scared
-
that I wouldn't be able
-
to meet those
-
responsibilities
-
for my family
-
so when God
-
said to me
-
I'll take care
-
of your family
-
I realized that
-
God knows me
-
so intimately
-
he saw straight
-
into my heart
-
he knew exactly
-
what I needed
-
he knew exactly
-
what I needed
-
to hear
-
and so I went
-
home that night
-
and I went
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to Emily
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and I said
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and God has
-
called me
-
and I must obey
-
there is no
-
other option
-
and I think
-
the reason why
-
that the lights
-
came on for me
-
was when I realized
-
God's going to
-
take care of me
-
I have these fears
-
it's the same thing
-
as Abraham right
-
he had all these fears
-
he had all these doubts
-
but I finally
-
understood in my heart
-
okay he's going
-
to take care of me
-
so regardless
-
of what comes
-
I can trust him
-
and I can take
-
that leap of faith
-
and I think that's
-
what kind of switched
-
on for me
-
and that's why
-
when I read this passage
-
it really hits home
-
for me because
-
I've made my mistakes
-
I have disobeyed God
-
for over 10 years
-
and I'm finally
-
making the move
-
to do it
-
it took time
-
and it took a lot
-
of mistakes
-
and I will make
-
a lot of mistakes
-
there's still moments
-
where I have to
-
re-evaluate
-
and re-trust God
-
because there are moments
-
where I'm like
-
oh my goodness
-
what am I doing
-
this is a stupid decision
-
like I should not
-
be doing this
-
and the call again
-
is remembering
-
Jesus who said
-
I'll take care of you
-
and I'll take care
-
of your family too
-
and just lastly
-
James
-
conscious of time
-
Davina
-
you asked me
-
a question yesterday
-
in Alpha
-
you asked me
-
I want to trust God
-
but sometimes
-
I don't feel it
-
oh I resonate
-
with that so much
-
sometimes this memory
-
of I'll take care
-
of you son
-
doesn't do it for me
-
sometimes I still spiral
-
so the real
-
the real direction
-
I start fixing
-
my gaze towards
-
is the cross
-
and I think the cross
-
is the only place
-
where we can
-
kind of
-
recalibrate
-
ourselves
-
what I mean by that
-
is
-
if we look at
-
the truth of the gospel
-
it's
-
God
-
coming to us
-
and it's about
-
God's faithfulness
-
to us
-
and when I feel
-
the fear in my heart
-
and it grips me again
-
I remember
-
that Jesus had
-
all the power
-
all the authority
-
it says
-
in the gospels
-
that Jesus had
-
the authority
-
to bring legions
-
of angels
-
to kill everyone
-
in front of him
-
in front of the cross
-
but he didn't
-
isn't that so
-
curious
-
why didn't he
-
he had
-
every authority
-
to do so
-
but he didn't
-
why
-
because of you
-
because of me
-
that's the only reason
-
and
-
when I look to the cross
-
I think
-
it moves me
-
because
-
I know that
-
if Jesus
-
chose to stay
-
on the cross
-
it wasn't like
-
the soldiers
-
had too much power
-
over him
-
and he couldn't
-
leave
-
he had every right
-
he had every power
-
to do so
-
but he chose not to
-
for you
-
and I think
-
I come back
-
to that a lot
-
and
-
sorry James
-
one final thing
-
this is really final
-
keep thanking me
-
I think one final thing
-
is
-
I think I struggle
-
with trusting God
-
and what that means
-
often
-
I'm sharing this
-
as if I've got it
-
all figured out
-
I really don't
-
I really
-
really don't
-
the thing
-
that encourages me
-
a lot
-
when I struggle
-
is
-
I realize that
-
I'm not actually
-
supposed to do this
-
by myself
-
this journey
-
of trusting God
-
I think that's why
-
Jesus gave us
-
the Holy Spirit
-
right
-
we're not supposed
-
to do it ourselves
-
and the passage
-
that encourages me
-
so much
-
is in Luke 11
-
I'll just read it
-
real quick
-
it's in Luke 11
-
verse 11
-
it says
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what father among you
-
if his son
-
asks for a fish
-
will instead of a fish
-
give him a serpent
-
or if he asks for an egg
-
will give you a scorpion
-
if you then
-
who are evil
-
know how to give
-
good gifts
-
to your children
-
how much more
-
will the heavenly father
-
give the Holy Spirit
-
to those who ask him
-
how much more
-
will the heavenly father
-
give the Holy Spirit
-
to those who ask him
-
you can ask him anytime
-
the Holy Spirit
-
is there
-
he's knocking
-
I sense that
-
there's a lot of people
-
in this room
-
who are probably
-
struggling with
-
trusting God
-
right now
-
the good news is
-
you don't have to
-
do it alone
-
the good news is
-
there's a heavenly father
-
who wants to give you
-
the Holy Spirit
-
there's a heavenly father
-
who wants to help you
-
so
-
I just
-
can I pray
-
actually
-
or do you want to
-
okay
-
can I just pray for you
-
it's a prayer
-
that I pray
-
when I feel
-
that I don't have
-
the strength anymore
-
to trust in him
-
Jesus we look to you
-
the only reason
-
why we can trust you
-
is because you have
-
proved yourself
-
to be trustworthy
-
Father we confess
-
that
-
we like Abraham
-
have failed so many
-
times in our lives
-
the God that
-
loves us
-
the God that
-
looks at us
-
is the one
-
who has so much
-
grace
-
who's willing to
-
give us a second
-
chance
-
a third chance
-
a fourth chance
-
a fifth chance
-
because that's who
-
you are
-
you're trustworthy
-
so Holy Spirit
-
Holy Spirit
-
I ask
-
can you just
-
enter the hearts
-
of those who are
-
willing to receive
-
you right now
-
if there's any
-
if there's anyone
-
here right now
-
who wants to receive
-
the Holy Spirit
-
can I just invite you
-
to just open your heart
-
or even just open your
-
hands as a posture
-
to show him
-
Holy Spirit
-
I don't understand this
-
but I want to receive
-
you in my life
-
I'm struggling
-
I feel like I know
-
where I need to go
-
but I don't have
-
the strength to do it
-
Holy Spirit
-
please
-
come
-
will you enter my heart
-
will you dwell in me
-
you promised that
-
you would if I ask
-
so can I just invite you
-
to just ask the Holy Spirit
-
in your heart
-
just echo in your heart
-
come Holy Spirit
-
come
-
we thank you Father
-
that you are faithful
-
you are faithful
-
to Abraham
-
you are faithful
-
to David
-
you are faithful
-
to Samson
-
you are faithful
-
to Mary
-
you are faithful
-
to so many people
-
who have come before us
-
and you will be faithful
-
to us
-
he will be faithful
-
to you
-
that is his promise
-
so whatever you're
-
struggling with
-
remember
-
he is worthy
-
of all of your trust
-
if he didn't leave you
-
at Calvary
-
he won't leave you now
-
yes
-
so Father
-
we come
-
to you
-
would you give us
-
clean hands
-
and a pure heart
-
we surrender
-
to a loving
-
providing
-
faithful God
-
we finish with
-
a response
-
through song
-
but also
-
if you feel
-
as though you need prayer
-
we'll be at the front
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and don't hesitate
-
to come over
-
and ask for prayer
-
and we can pray for you
-
may may
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!