Sermon
The Beginning of the End
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Morning, everyone.
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Oh, nice and loud.
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Thanks, Alex.
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Thank you very much.
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Just to reiterate,
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for the retreat in December,
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How many people can I help and support
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and come as well?
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Okay, so that's part of what we do as a family.
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So do not feel as though,
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oh, that's going to be the problem.
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Please do not let that be the problem.
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Anyway, last week we had a climax,
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the climax of Genesis 22,
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of Abraham finally offering Isaac up to the altar.
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I watched a movie this week,
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which also had a very strong climax,
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The Odyssey.
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Can you put your hand up if you've watched The Odyssey?
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Gauzy watched it?
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Yes.
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Juju and I are actually talking about,
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can I have the feedback down a little bit on the speaker?
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I'm hearing,
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we're talking about starting a movie club
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to talk about this film.
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It's so good.
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As climaxes go,
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it's pretty strong.
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I won't spoil anything,
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though, again,
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I've told Gabs this before you watched it.
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You've had 3,000 years to find out about the story,
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so you deserve to have his support for you
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if you still haven't watched it.
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The climax last week was pretty epic.
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You have Abraham,
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who's waited for 25 years
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for this son.
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And then finally,
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he does it,
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and I share the story about my dad
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before he passed,
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kneeling down at the cross
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in our church,
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just in tears,
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telling me,
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James,
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promise me one thing.
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Focus on him.
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Be true to your calling.
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Say yes when he calls you to go,
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and that's been the marker of my life
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all the way till now.
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I imagined Abraham and Isaac
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at the cross at Calvary
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when Abraham sees Jesus on the cross.
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Imagining, by the way,
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this does not happen.
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Different time.
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But just imagining,
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given what he had gone through
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in Genesis 22,
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given that he was willing
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to give his son,
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whom he loved,
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to God,
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and then seeing God
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do the exact same thing,
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going,
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now I know,
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now I know,
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this God,
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this Father,
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loves us so dearly
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that he would not withhold
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his only son.
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Thankfully for Abraham,
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he offers up Isaac,
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but then God says,
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no,
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stop.
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I have a replacement for you.
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I have a substitute for you.
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There's a ram there
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that you can use instead.
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But at the cross,
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you see,
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God does not say,
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stop.
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He says,
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in fact,
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he says nothing.
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Psalm 22,
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Jesus quotes the words,
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why,
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my God,
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my God,
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why have you forsaken me?
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For our sake,
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because of his love for us,
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he turns away from his son,
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whom he loves,
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so that we can live again.
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That was the climax
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of last week.
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And going back to the Odyssey,
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one of the things
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that really struck me,
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of course,
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who knows whether Odysseus
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was a real person
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or not.
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But the story itself,
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what Nolan tried to do
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was just depict
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this character
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who had gone on a journey,
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was a sojourner,
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but also was filled
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with grief.
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Right?
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And that's kind of
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what carried him through
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all the way.
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It made me think
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the journeys that we're on
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and the grief
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that we hold,
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whether there's moments
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where there are true
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gladness,
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joy,
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of what God's given us,
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but you and me
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would both be lying
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if we didn't say
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that our lives
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also bring us
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with grief
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nearly every day.
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And we look here now,
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post-climax,
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we see a really
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interesting passage here
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where,
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actually,
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Abraham deals
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with grief.
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I always have a saying,
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which is,
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I really love
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talking to people
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who are acquainted
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with grief.
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Not because of any
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weird thing,
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but because when I look
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into their eyes,
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I know that they
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know that this life
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is not all there is.
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That there's a soberness
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to it.
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There's a clarity
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to life
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that I think
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only grief
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can give you.
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And you see here
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what Abraham does
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with grief
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is he points
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to eternity.
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He points himself
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to eternity,
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and it's through
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a seemingly
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very mundane,
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trivial,
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real estate
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transaction.
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And that's what
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we're going to be
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doing today.
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We had the climax
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of Genesis 22,
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and now we come down
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to something that's
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seemingly very earthly,
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very mundane,
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and very tragic,
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and we're going to see
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what the Lord has
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in store for us.
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I'm going to invite
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Sonny to come up
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to minister to us
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and read to us
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the Word of God.
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So as per our tradition,
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can I invite you
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to stand out of reverence
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and awe for the Word
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that's about to be
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spoken over us.
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Genesis 23.
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Genesis 23.
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Sarah's Death and Burial.
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Sarah lived 127 years.
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These were the years
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in the life of Sarah.
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And Sarah died
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at Kiri at Arba,
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that is Huron,
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in the land of Canaan.
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And Abraham went in
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to mourn for Sarah
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and to weep for her.
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And Abraham rose up
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from before his dead
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and said to the Hittites,
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I am a sojourner
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and foreigner among you.
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Give me property among you
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for a burying place
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that I may bury my dead
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out of my sight.
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The Hittites answered
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Abraham,
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Abraham,
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hear us, my lord.
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You are a prince of God
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among us.
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Bury your dead
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in the choices
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of our tombs.
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None of us
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will withhold
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from you his tomb
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to hinder you
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from burying your dead.
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Abraham rose
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and bowed
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to the Hittites,
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the people of the land.
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And he said to them,
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If you are willing
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that I should bury
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my dead out of my sight,
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hear me
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and entreat for me,
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Ephron,
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the son of Zohar,
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that he may give me
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the cave of Machpelah,
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which he owns.
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It is at the end
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of his field.
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For the full price,
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let him give it to me
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in your presence
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as property
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for a burying place.
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Now Ephron
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was sitting
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among the Hittites
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and Ephron,
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the Hittite,
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answered Abraham
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in the hearing
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of the Hittites
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of all who went
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in at the gate
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of his city.
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No, my lord,
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hear me.
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I give you
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the field
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and I give you
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the cave that is in it.
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In the sight
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of the sons
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of my people,
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I give it to you.
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Bury your dead.
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Then Abraham
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bowed down
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before the people
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of the land
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and he said to Ephron
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in the hearing
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of the people
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of the land,
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But if you will,
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hear me.
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I give the price
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of the field.
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Accept it for me
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that I may bury
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my dead there.
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Ephron answered Abraham,
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My lord,
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listen to me.
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A piece of land
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worth four hundred
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shekels of silver,
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what is that
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between you and me?
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Bury your dead.
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Abraham listened
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to Ephron
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and Abraham weighed
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out for Ephron
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the silver
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that he had named
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in the hearing
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of the Hittites.
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Four hundred
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shekels of silver.
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According to the weights
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the current
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among the merchants.
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So the field
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of Ephron
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and Machpelah
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which was
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to the east
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of Mamre
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the field
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with the cave
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that was in it
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and all the trees
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that were in the field
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throughout its whole area
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was made over
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to Abraham
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as a possession
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in the presence
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of the Hittites
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before all
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who went in
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at the gate
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of his city.
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After this
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Abraham buried
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Sarah,
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his wife,
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in the cave
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of the field
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of Machpelah
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east of Mamre
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that is
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Huron
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in the land
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of Canaan
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the field
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and the cave
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that is in it
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were made over
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to Abraham
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as property
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for a burying place
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by the Hittites.
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This is the word
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of the Lord.
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Thank you,
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Sonny.
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Please take a seat.
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Alina,
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when you read
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the Bible
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do you find
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every passage
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that you read
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just exciting
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and invigorating
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and something
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that you can take away?
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That was not me
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on Monday morning.
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When I read that passage
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again I was like
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okay we had
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just such a
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great time
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going through
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Genesis 22.
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One passage
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that everyone
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is familiar with
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and then we reached
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23 and I'm like
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okay well where
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do we go with this?
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What is it Lord
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that you are trying
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to show us
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in this?
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But before that though
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if you have your Bibles
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which I do hope you do
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I haven't shamed people
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for a while
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paper Bibles.
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Paper Bibles
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is the way to heaven
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is the way to salvation.
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The apps will not
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get you there
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unfortunately.
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That's what it says
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in the Bible.
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You should read it.
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Genesis chapter
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if it's your first time
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here I'm joking.
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Kind of.
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Pass it aggressively.
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Now
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the end of 22
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is really interesting.
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22 is this
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fascinating passage
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right?
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But for some reason
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the author decides
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to leave
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a couple sentences
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at the end
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just after the whole
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epic incident
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on the hill.
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and then he says
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now after these things
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it was told to Abraham
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behold
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Milca also has born
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children to your brother
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Nahor
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Uz his firstborn
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Buzz his brother
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Chemuel the father
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of Abraham
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Hesed
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Hazo
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anyway
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I'll hold this to names
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and moreover
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his concubine
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whose name was
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Rumah
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bore Teber
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Gaham
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Tahash
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and Maka.
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Isn't it interesting
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that that's just a random
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piece of information
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there that he leaves
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in one of the most
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key chapters
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in the whole Bible.
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I don't know if you
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find it interesting.
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I did.
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Interestingly because
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his brother Nahor
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25 years ago
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was not called out
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of Ur
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so he didn't have
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to leave home.
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He stayed home
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he didn't have to
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take a leap of faith
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to go out
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and away.
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Almost just to rub
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salt in the wounds
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is Abraham
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has just offered
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his son
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his only son
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whom he loves
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his only chance
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of livelihood
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his social future
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is based on
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this one son
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he offers him up
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and then suddenly
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he receives news
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from home
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saying hey
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do you remember
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that brother
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that you left
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who actually doesn't
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follow God
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and doesn't believe
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in God
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and is still
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worshipping the
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moons
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he has so many
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kids
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is basically
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what it's saying.
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Isn't it fascinating?
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When you take
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that leap of faith
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to follow God
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you don't know
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where he's going
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to lead
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you don't know
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how he's going
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to provide for you
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and most often
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it doesn't make sense.
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Abraham's like
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wait
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I was told
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to leave my home
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and then you'll
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bless me with
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family
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and my family land
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right now
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I don't really
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have much
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whereas my brother
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Sarah
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who didn't
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listen to you
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doesn't have
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a relationship
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with you
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is at home
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living at large
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with 12 kids
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and tribes
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how's that fair?
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What does that
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even mean?
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Don't you think
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it's funny
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that the author
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here just seems
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to have a sense
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of humour here
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who's kind of
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just showing
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hey
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what we see
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in this world
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is not all there is
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there is more
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to it
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and then sadly
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23 starts
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Sarah lived
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127 years
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these were the years
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of the life
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of Sarah
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and then
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she dies
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is what it says
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the consequence
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of the curse
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even though there
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are promises
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that are made
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to him and his family
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there is the consequence
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of this curse
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which still remains
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which is that
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we will die
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Genesis 25
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that whole list
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of descendants
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and he died
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and he died
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and he died
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and you'll die
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and you'll die
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and you'll die
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and I'll die
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and we will all
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die
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isn't it sobering
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when we talk
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about acts of faith
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when we talk
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about trusting
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when we talk
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about choosing
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faith over fear
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we also still
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must acknowledge
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that there is
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death
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death is still
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very much part
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of the picture here
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in fact
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Abraham's in a bit
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of a weird place now
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he had two promises
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given to him
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one that you'll have
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family and two
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your family will have
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land
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he's received one
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through just Isaac
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but he's not
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got any land
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and then it carries
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on here
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and it talks
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about it
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verse 3
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he goes to the Hittites
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which at that point
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were again
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a prominent people
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along with the Egyptians
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along with the
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you know
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eventually with the Greeks
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so the Hittites
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were a big group
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and so they were
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the ones who were
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kind of owning
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Canaan right now
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and so Abraham
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goes to them
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and says this
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I am a sojourner
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and foreigner
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among you
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give me property
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among you
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for a burying place
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that I may bury
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my dead
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out of my sight
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brackets
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God had promised
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me family
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and he had promised
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my family
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all of this land
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but actually
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up until this point
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I do not own
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a single piece of land
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I only have one son
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and now my wife
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has died
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and actually
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when we left
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26 years ago
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I promised her
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I told her
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God said
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that we would have
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lots and lots of land
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and lots and lots
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of descendants
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but sadly
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she's now dead
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and she had two sons
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one who we sent away
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well Ishmael
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wasn't really her son
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but then Abraham
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I offered up
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and now
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she's gone
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and I
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as a husband
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was not able
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to show her
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what God
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had promised us
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I want us to feel
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a little bit
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of just the
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pain and heartache
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that Abraham
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would have gone through
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maybe his husband
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sits with wife
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his wife sits with husband
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going
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what were the dreams
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that we had
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to sail away
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to enjoy
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our future
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together
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all the things
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that God
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had promised us
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together
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and now we sit
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and now he sits
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here with grief
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going
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didn't get any of it
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couldn't even
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give my wife
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a house
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is what he's saying
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I'm a sojourner
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and a foreigner
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and I couldn't
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give her
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a house
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could you
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at least
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give me a cave
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to bury her
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they respond
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to him
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by saying
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verse 6
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here is my lord
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you are a prince
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of God
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among us
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bury your dead
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in the choices
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of our tombs
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none of us
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will withhold
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from you
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his tomb
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to hinder you
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from burying
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your dead
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so they like him
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so again
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he's a wealthy man
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remember he's a wealthy
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Genesis 13
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he had so much money
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he had to split
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from his nephew
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so he's got a lot
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of people
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a lot of cattle
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and of course
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a lot of tents
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in the camp of Abraham
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and they know him
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and they say
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hey you're a prince
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of God
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wouldn't that be great
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to just be described
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as that
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by people outside
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of the faith
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there's something
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about you
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that is just different
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you're a prince of God
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and hey you do
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look we know
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you've been living
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a sojourner
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we know you're a foreigner
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which means
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we don't really want
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to give you our land
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but hey
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just take your pick
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where do you want
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to bury your wife
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you do that
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and so then
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he says to them
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if you are willing
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that I should bury
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my dead out of my sight
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hear me and entreat
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for me
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Ephron the son of Zohar
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that he may give
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the cave of Machpelah
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actually
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something else
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just interesting here
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is he's a foreigner
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he's a sojourner
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and yet he still
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acts with integrity
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at every step of the way
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to the point
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where other people
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on the outside
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look in and go
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you're a good guy
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I would love
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for us all
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to be there
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I would love
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for people
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to look at me
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outside
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in that same way
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and so he
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he goes
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there is actually
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one piece of land
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actually it's just a cave
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it's the end of this field
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owned by a guy
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called Ephron
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if you can
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speak to Ephron
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and I can buy
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that cave off him
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so I can bury my wife
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that's all I want
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brackets
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despite God
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has promised me
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so much
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yeah I'm not getting
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any of it
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I'm just going to
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buy the cave
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verse 10
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now Ephron
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was sitting
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among the Hittites
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and Ephron the Hittite
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answered Abraham
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in the hearing
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of the Hittites
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of all who went in
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at the gate of the city
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remember the gate of the city
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is a very important place
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remember Lot
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was hanging out
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at the gate of the city
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it's the place
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where all the transactions
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are done
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okay
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this is
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this is the interactive
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brokers of the day
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and this is where
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they sit and wait
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and actually everything
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is made official
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and exchanged here
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everyone knows about it
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so Ephron is sat there
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and he's going
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okay
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and then a fascinating
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interaction happens
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and this is where
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it gets into
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literal real estate
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business transaction here
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and he says this
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no Lord
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hear me
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I give you the field
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and I give you the cave
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that is in it
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in the sight of my sons
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of my people
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I give it to you
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bury your dead
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interesting here
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Abraham asks for a cave
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he only wants a cave
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but then Ephron
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comes to him
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out of this kind of
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it seems as though
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it seems warm
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and kind of generous
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he says hey
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don't just take the cave
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take the field
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take the field
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my sons can see it
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take it
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bury your dead
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and do what it is
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that you need to do
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on the surface
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this looks like
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a good piece of generosity
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but we actually
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if you keep going down further
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you'll see that it actually
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isn't
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bury your dead
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then Abraham bowed down
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before the land of the people
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again showing respect
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even though they don't
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worship his God
-
he still respects
-
the society
-
and the structures
-
that are in place
-
and he said to Ephron
-
in the hearing of people
-
but if you will hear me
-
I will give the price
-
of the field
-
accept it from me
-
that I may bury my dead there
-
Abraham's like
-
thank you so much
-
for offering me
-
this cave
-
and this field
-
but I insist
-
I want to buy it off you
-
what's Abraham thinking
-
he's thinking
-
okay well
-
you might say yes to me now
-
but your kids might not
-
say yes to me
-
in the next generations
-
and then you'll take that field
-
and that cave back off me again
-
unless we make it legal
-
so he's respecting
-
the structures
-
that are in place
-
for society
-
honoring them
-
and also insisting
-
that he does not
-
take shortcuts
-
but he does not cut corners in this
-
he lives as a man of faith
-
and of integrity
-
and he says
-
please let me buy the field
-
and this is where
-
Ephron's true colors
-
are exposed
-
and he says this
-
Ephron answers
-
Abraham
-
my lord
-
listen to me
-
a piece of land
-
worth 400 shekels of silver
-
what is that
-
between me and you
-
you and me
-
it's okay
-
it's just you and me
-
400 shekels of silver
-
this is where you know
-
it's been exposed
-
because 400 shekels of silver
-
is actually about 40 years
-
of wage
-
I put it into AI
-
and it's
-
the equivalent
-
would probably be about
-
5 million Hong Kong
-
what people
-
what scholars believe here
-
is that he's charging
-
an exorbitant price
-
for the field
-
that Abraham only wants
-
to the cave
-
can you see
-
he's showing his true colors
-
here
-
and actually
-
if you've been in the Middle East
-
if you've even done
-
any kind of bargaining
-
and kind of negotiation
-
this is typical
-
Middle Eastern negotiating
-
and actually
-
if Abraham at this point
-
said oh thanks
-
I'll take the cave
-
I'll take the field
-
thank you very much
-
there would have been chaos
-
but instead
-
there was this
-
almost superficial
-
negotiation
-
that gets Abraham
-
to the point
-
where he pays
-
full market price
-
for a piece
-
of land
-
that he didn't actually want
-
he just wanted
-
a cave
-
to bury
-
his wife
-
whom he had promised
-
so much
-
and she had passed
-
without seeing
-
any of it
-
this was a grieving man
-
if you look at just verse
-
2
-
Abraham went in
-
to mourn for Sarah
-
and to weep
-
for her
-
just the grief
-
that comes
-
and all he wants
-
is the cave
-
and he's pulled
-
into this
-
fascinating thing
-
that happens
-
with Ephraim
-
so Ephraim
-
was like
-
fine
-
I will charge you
-
the 400 shekels
-
of silver
-
and he does that
-
and even then
-
Abraham listened to Ephraim
-
and Abraham weighed out
-
for Ephraim
-
the silver
-
that he had named
-
in the hearing
-
of the Hittites
-
400 shekels of silver
-
according to the weights
-
current among the merchants
-
so even then
-
even the weighing
-
of the silver
-
was still
-
it was still
-
saying hey
-
we're going to decide
-
and it will fluctuate
-
depending on how much
-
silver there is
-
and back in those days
-
there were less silver
-
than actually there is now
-
so this was a very
-
very expensive
-
piece of property
-
that he was buying
-
for his wife
-
so they do it
-
and what can we learn
-
from this whole story
-
and that's it
-
and as I was sitting
-
there this weekend
-
what can we see
-
from this passage
-
that we can actually
-
take away from
-
and the first thing
-
is that you see
-
a grieving sojourner
-
who was very much
-
willing to grieve
-
I can tell you this
-
I always hold
-
grief and gratitude
-
hand in hand
-
there's not a moment
-
that goes by
-
in my life
-
where I don't look
-
and go
-
there are things
-
that I'm grieving
-
there are things
-
that I've lost
-
every yes I say
-
yes everything
-
I say yes to
-
there are ten no's
-
that I have to say
-
no to
-
we all carry grief
-
in some way
-
that's almost
-
part and parcel
-
of this life here
-
and yet you see
-
a grieving sojourner
-
living in a certain way
-
where he doesn't get
-
the promises
-
fulfilled
-
and we now sit here
-
and we have the whole bible
-
and we see
-
Hebrews 11
-
that's filled with
-
all these great things
-
said about Abraham
-
at this point
-
he doesn't know
-
he just knows
-
that the wife
-
that he loved
-
is now dead
-
and she didn't get
-
what was promised
-
and in his
-
last act of honour
-
to her
-
last act of love
-
to her
-
who no doubt
-
I mean
-
those of you
-
who have moved house
-
a lot of times
-
will know how painful
-
it is
-
so again
-
I'm projecting here
-
but there'll be a moment
-
where the wife's going
-
can we just settle down now
-
I'm so tired
-
of this tent
-
Abraham didn't
-
you say that God
-
had promised us
-
this land forever
-
for our descendants
-
why are we still living
-
in this tent
-
and this tent
-
has a leak
-
it's just horrible
-
and dark
-
and dingy
-
he doesn't do anything
-
until she passes
-
and he insists
-
on paying full price
-
for this land
-
he is a grieving
-
sojourner
-
but he is pointing
-
to eternity
-
he's pointing himself
-
to eternity
-
and I'll show you why
-
the reason why
-
he insists on buying
-
this land
-
is because he doesn't
-
just believe
-
that God's promise
-
was about giving them
-
the land in their lifetime
-
remember
-
last chapter
-
last week
-
what does Abraham
-
believe in?
-
he believes
-
that there's a chance
-
actually there's a big chance
-
that God can raise
-
Isaac from the dead
-
that's why he's willing
-
to offer
-
he's like
-
I don't know
-
how it's going to happen
-
even if I have to
-
sacrifice and kill Isaac
-
some way
-
Hebrews 11 says this
-
Abraham thought
-
don't worry
-
even if I offer Isaac up
-
God will raise him
-
from the dead somehow
-
so Abraham believes
-
in the resurrection
-
from the dead
-
so the reason why
-
he buys this land
-
for his wife
-
who never got to see
-
the land is
-
hey I know I didn't
-
get you this land
-
in your lifetime
-
but I assure you this
-
when you resurrect
-
you will resurrect
-
in the place
-
that God promised you
-
that's why he bought
-
this land
-
because he's saying
-
this will be a marker
-
this will be a deposit
-
this will be a down payment
-
for our future
-
because the promise
-
that we receive from God
-
isn't in this lifetime
-
it's for the next one
-
and the moment
-
Sarah you wake up
-
the moment you resurrect
-
you will be resurrecting
-
in the lands
-
that God promised you
-
because of that
-
I am willing to pay
-
above market price
-
for this land
-
so that when you wake up
-
when
-
not if
-
when you wake up
-
when you are resurrected
-
you will be in exactly
-
the place
-
that God promised you
-
he's not going to take
-
any shortcuts
-
because there was another way
-
that he could have done this
-
which was not bury her
-
just cremate her
-
just get it out of the way
-
why does he need to engage
-
with the locals
-
get this favor from them
-
or pay so much for them
-
he didn't have to do
-
any of that
-
he never
-
he'd held restraint
-
all this time
-
anyway
-
why buy her the land now
-
she's not nagging anymore
-
and yet in his eyes
-
there's something
-
that needs to be done here
-
that is beyond their life
-
beyond their lifetime
-
so he's going to insist
-
on buying this land
-
and because it was done
-
in the presence
-
of all these other leaders
-
around the city
-
around the gate
-
this transaction
-
would be official
-
and it would pass down
-
the generations
-
guess who ends up
-
getting buried there
-
in the future
-
not just Sarah
-
but Abraham himself
-
and then Isaac
-
and it continues
-
and continues
-
just another moment
-
of sentimental value here
-
this place in Hebron
-
is basically where
-
after they split
-
with the nephew Lot
-
so Lot goes this way
-
and they go this way
-
and they set up
-
in Hebron
-
it would have been
-
where they settled
-
those many years ago
-
and so he's like
-
no
-
I'm putting a deposit
-
on this
-
a down payment
-
for this
-
this is for our future
-
he sees something
-
beyond death
-
it makes me think
-
how do we approach
-
our earthly things now
-
do we approach them
-
with an eternal mindset
-
I once heard a quote
-
that I've shared
-
many many times before
-
that there are
-
two most important days
-
in your life
-
today
-
and that day
-
today
-
the day that you're
-
living in right now
-
and that day
-
when you meet your creator
-
those are the only
-
two important days
-
in your life
-
and our prayer
-
is that that day
-
impacts the way
-
you live today
-
when was the last time
-
you made an investment
-
that didn't really make sense
-
in an earthly sense
-
but makes absolute sense
-
in an eternal sense
-
when was the last time
-
you invested your time
-
your resources
-
your money
-
your efforts
-
your love
-
into something
-
or someone
-
or some project
-
with eternity
-
in mind
-
if we're honest
-
with ourselves
-
that doesn't really happen
-
because we make investments
-
for this life
-
we choose to put time
-
into studying
-
so we can invest
-
into getting the grades
-
that we need
-
to get to the university
-
that we need
-
to get to the job
-
that we need
-
so we can get the lifestyle
-
that we need
-
all in this life
-
but when was the last time
-
we said
-
I'm going to make
-
an investment
-
that I'm not going to see
-
that the world
-
isn't really going to understand
-
but it is so much bigger
-
than what I experience
-
in this life
-
and there's going to be
-
a moment
-
where I'm going to experience
-
it in eternity
-
where my wife
-
is going to wake up
-
and she's going to be
-
in paradise
-
do we here
-
live
-
with eternity
-
in mind
-
it's impossible
-
to go through
-
the book of
-
the story of Abraham
-
without looking
-
at Hebrews 11
-
so I want to turn
-
to us there
-
for the next bit
-
and then I'm actually
-
going to invite
-
a friend up
-
so if you can
-
stay awake
-
until then
-
I promise you
-
it will get more
-
interesting after that
-
Hebrews chapter 11
Hebrews 11 chapter mention
-
growing up always
-
I've used this
-
I've felt this
-
was just a
-
just a hall of fame
-
of people
-
who just put
-
their trust
-
in the Lord
-
who never put
-
a foot wrong
-
who never made
-
a mistake
-
who lived life
-
completely
-
trusting in their God
-
but what I
-
have more recently
-
seen is that
-
is not the case
-
you look
-
and Abraham
-
by the way
-
is the one
-
who's had
-
the most written
-
about him
-
11 verse 8
-
by faith Abraham
-
obeyed when he
-
was called to go
-
out to a place
-
that he was to
-
receive as an
-
inheritance
-
by faith he
-
obeyed
-
so that's the thing
-
he obeys and
-
goes out
-
not knowing
-
what he's going
-
to get
-
not knowing
-
where he's
-
going to go
-
and he went
-
out not knowing
-
where he was
-
going to go
-
verse 8
-
by faith he
-
went to live
-
in the land
-
of promise
-
the land that
-
was promised
-
to him
-
he lived
-
there in
-
faith
-
living in
-
tents with
-
Isaac and
-
Jacob
-
why
-
because he
-
was looking
-
forward
-
verse 11
-
sorry verse 10
-
for he was
-
looking forward
-
to the city
-
that has
-
foundations
-
whose designer
-
and builder
-
is God
-
just step
-
with me
-
into the life
-
of Abraham
-
again
-
he's promised
-
this big land
-
he goes
-
leaves everything
-
he's ever
-
known
-
and goes
-
and lives
-
there
-
and he lives
-
in tents
-
never settles
-
down
-
and somewhere
-
along the way
-
things turn
-
and he realizes
-
that he's not
-
actually living
-
for Canaan
-
anymore
-
he's living
-
for a city
-
that has
-
foundations
-
whose designer
-
and builder
-
is God
-
he's going
-
further away
-
I think that's
-
a bit of the
-
life that we
-
have as followers
-
of Christ
-
is in the
-
early stages
-
when we choose
-
to follow Jesus
-
it's because
-
he's going to
-
help us find
-
purpose
-
he's going to
-
help us
-
find meaning
-
he's going
-
to help us
-
find
-
and some
-
of us
-
think
-
he's going
-
to help
-
us find
-
bring health
-
and wealth
-
and we're
-
just going
-
to be much
-
more happy
-
and that's
-
often how
-
we start
-
and I'm not
-
saying that's
-
all terribly
-
wrong
-
but I'm
-
saying that
-
would be a
-
real terrible
-
shame
-
if that's
-
where we
-
stayed
-
and so
-
then what
-
happens is
-
as we
-
start following
-
Jesus
-
we end up
-
at the place
-
where actually
-
Jesus I'm
-
kind of losing
-
interest in the
-
gifts that you're
-
going to give me
-
and I'm more
-
interested in you
-
because those
-
gifts have got
-
to come from
-
somewhere
-
and the kingdom
-
of God is the
-
gift that keeps
-
on giving
-
so I'd rather
-
come towards you
-
and that's where
-
you end up
-
King David
-
Psalm 27
-
says the one
-
thing I ask
-
now the one
-
thing I seek
-
is to dwell
-
in the house
-
of the Lord
-
to gaze upon
-
his beauty
-
to inquire
-
in his temple
-
all I care
-
about is
-
you now
-
the life
-
of a believer
-
those seasons
-
those cycles
-
that we go
-
through
-
the whole
-
objective
-
is to get
-
to a place
-
where Jesus
-
I want you
-
more than
-
the things
-
that you
-
can give
-
me
-
and recognizing
-
especially
-
that I may
-
not even
-
get it
-
Hebrews 11
-
verse 13
-
these all
-
died in
-
faith
-
not having
-
received
-
the things
-
promised
-
but having
-
seen them
-
and greeted
-
them from
-
afar
-
and having
-
acknowledged
-
that they
-
were strangers
-
and exiles
-
on the earth
-
Abraham
-
is there
-
he speaks
-
to the Hittites
-
and says
-
I am a
-
sojourner
-
a foreigner
-
I am a
-
stranger
-
I am an
-
exile
-
this doesn't
-
really belong
-
to me anymore
-
if we could
-
all just
-
get there
-
to a place
-
where we
-
look at the
-
comforts and
-
luxuries and
-
excitement
-
and the gifts
-
of a city
-
like Hong Kong
-
and go
-
and yet I
-
desire
-
a better
-
country
-
I desire
-
a city
-
whose builder
-
and foundation
-
and designer
-
is God
-
himself
-
this isn't
-
enough
-
with that
-
said
-
what we're
-
praying for
-
is that
-
actually
-
heaven would
-
come onto
-
earth
-
every time
-
I walk
-
into Hong Kong
-
Park
-
I'm like
-
what a
-
beautiful park
-
surrounded by
-
these incredible
-
buildings
-
reminds me a little
-
bit of just the
-
book of Revelation
-
where there's
-
going to be
-
it's going to
-
be a garden
-
city
-
but the whole
-
point is
-
and again
-
remember
-
my wife loves
-
trees
-
that's why
-
we have a
-
tree
-
in our
-
church
-
but if you
-
just look
-
even look
-
around
-
anywhere
-
that's nice
-
and hip
-
and cool
-
these days
-
whether it's
-
Hong Kong
-
or if you
-
like Shenzhen
-
then you
-
go to
-
Shenzhen
-
and you
-
see all
-
these
-
what do
-
you
-
Trevor's
-
like
-
yes
-
amen
-
all these
-
malls
-
all these
-
places
-
that are
-
cool
-
what do
-
they have
-
trees
-
there's
-
something in
-
our hearts
-
that are
-
just crying
-
just yearning
-
for this
-
garden city
-
actually
-
the good
-
things in
-
the city
-
in reality
-
actually point
-
us towards
-
those things
-
Abraham gets
-
to the point
-
where he
-
acknowledges
-
and sees
-
them from
-
afar
-
but he
-
recognizes
-
he's a
-
stranger
-
and an
-
exile
-
and he's
-
now looking
-
for something
-
else
-
I wonder
-
whether we
-
can live
-
with that
-
kind of
-
heart
-
it's funny
-
he buys
-
his land
-
they end
-
up staying
-
there
-
and this
-
is where
-
my conclusion
-
is before
-
I bring
-
other people
-
up
-
you fast
-
forward to
-
the end
-
of Genesis
-
Joseph
-
remember they
-
end up in
-
Egypt right
-
and Joseph
-
is very
-
very powerful
-
he's not
-
a sojourner
-
he's not
-
a stranger
-
he's not
-
an exile
-
he's the
-
second most
-
powerful man
-
in Egypt
-
and when
-
he dies
-
what does
-
he make
-
them promise
-
take my
-
bones
-
I do not
-
want to be
-
in Egypt
-
because our
-
people
-
our family
-
were promised
-
a land
-
in Canaan
-
so when
-
you leave
-
and God
-
will come
-
and deliver
-
you from
-
Egypt
-
and when
-
you leave
-
and come
-
take my
-
bones
-
with you
-
and wander
-
in the desert
-
for 40 years
-
he didn't know
-
that but
-
take them
-
with you
-
wherever you
-
go
-
because I
-
want my
-
bones
-
to be buried
-
with my
-
ancestors
-
with my
-
great great
-
great grandmother
-
my great
-
great great
-
grandfather
-
why
-
because God
-
promised us
-
something
-
that we
-
will realize
-
maybe not
-
in this
-
lifetime
-
but in
-
eternity
-
we will
-
so take
-
my bones
-
home
-
please
-
is what
-
Joseph
-
is saying
-
he lived
-
with that
-
eternal mindset
-
just like
-
Abraham
-
Abraham of course
-
had this
-
interaction with
-
Ephron
-
and Ephron
-
thinks he gets
-
a great deal
-
five million
-
Hong Kong
-
for a field
-
and a cave
-
that he doesn't
-
really use
-
anymore
-
and yet what
-
he doesn't
-
realize is that
-
Abraham actually
-
gets the better
-
side of the deal
-
that Abraham
-
paid 400
-
shekels of
-
silver for
-
his family
-
to have the
-
whole land of
-
Canaan
-
the whole of
-
the promised
-
land
-
he just won't
-
see it
-
just yet
-
Abraham himself
-
doesn't see it
-
Sarah definitely
-
didn't see it
-
and yet Abraham
-
lived with that
-
kind of faith
-
it reminds me
-
of Judas
-
not for 400
-
shekels
-
he just had a
-
bag of 30
-
coins
-
and he exchanges
-
it
-
how often do
-
we deal
-
in the earthly
-
thinking we
-
just want the
-
best deals
-
that we can
-
here
-
when God's
-
calling us
-
to live
-
with eternity
-
in mind
-
to look at
-
something far
-
greater
-
the truth is
-
everything that
-
we have here
-
will fade away
-
it will go
-
it will rot
-
it's interesting
-
when Jesus
-
comes
-
in John 8
-
he was talking
-
to the people
-
who are
-
who are you
-
are you greater
-
than Abraham
-
and then he
-
really annoys them
-
by saying some
-
stuff
-
but John
-
chapter 8
-
verse 56
-
says this
-
your father
-
Abraham
-
rejoiced
-
that he
-
would see
-
my day
-
he saw
-
it
-
and was
-
glad
-
Jesus
-
quotes
-
their
-
founding father
-
of the faith
-
and says
-
your founding father
-
saw this day
-
he saw me
-
and he was
-
glad
-
which is why
-
he was willing
-
to make a
-
down payment
-
a deposit
-
into a future
-
that he
-
wouldn't even
-
see
-
because he
-
saw the city
-
he saw
-
the better
-
country
-
and he
-
was glad
-
would we
-
all be
-
like Abraham
-
and recognize
-
and acknowledge
-
that everything
-
that we have
-
promised to us
-
from this book
-
from God
-
himself
-
we may not
-
even realize
-
before death
-
and that's
-
how we can
-
grieve
-
that's why
-
1 Thessalonians
-
4 says
-
we grieve
-
not as those
-
who have no
-
hope
-
because we
-
have an
-
eternal
-
inheritance
-
that awaits
-
us that we
-
won't see
-
here
-
you can
-
count on it
-
but yet
-
the moment
-
Jesus comes
-
the moment
-
Jesus
-
the one
-
who's
-
resurrected
-
comes
-
back for us
-
the moment
-
we're all
-
woken up
-
raised from
-
the dead
-
we will be
-
in the land
-
of promise
-
and where
-
he will
-
rule
-
with grace
-
and truth
-
and peace
-
and love
-
in a kingdom
-
that will
-
never end
-
that is
-
the hope
-
that we
-
have
-
that is
-
what we
-
are going
-
for
-
Jesus
-
the son
-
of God
-
himself
-
who was
-
outcast
-
who became
-
a sojourner
-
and a foreigner
-
and a stranger
-
and an exile
-
ends up
-
sacrificing
-
himself
-
his tomb
-
becomes a
-
deposit
-
for our
-
life
-
and now
-
he lives
-
and his
-
spirit lives
-
inside us
-
and that
-
is
-
the deposit
-
and the
-
guarantor
-
of our
-
faith
-
do we
-
recognize
-
that
-
can we
-
live
-
by
-
that
-
that
-
the great
-
climax
-
is not
-
here yet
-
we live
-
in the
-
already
-
but not
-
yet
-
we're waiting
-
for the
-
moment
-
where our
-
king
-
comes back
-
for us
-
and makes
-
all wrongs
-
right
-
when you are
-
grieving
-
when you are
-
sojourning
-
can I encourage
-
you to look
-
at the cross
-
can I
-
encourage you
-
to look
-
at Jesus
-
and see
-
that there
-
is something
-
beyond the
-
grave
-
can I
-
encourage
-
you to
-
look at
-
the empty
-
tomb
-
and remember
-
there is
-
something
-
beyond
-
the grave
-
I'm going
-
to invite
-
a dear
-
friend
-
up now
-
to have
-
a chat
-
I'll tell
-
you what
-
we're trying
-
to do
-
here
-
trying to
-
have
-
different ways
-
for us to
-
engage in
-
scripture
-
together
-
and engage
-
with each
-
other
-
together
-
together
-
and so
-
we had
-
J1
-
last week
-
come and
-
share with
-
us what
-
it means
-
to trust
-
what it
-
means to
-
wrestle
-
with that
-
trust
-
and this
-
week
-
I'm going
-
to have
-
a dear
-
friend
-
Queenie
-
come up
-
to talk
-
about this
-
passage
-
again
-
I've given
-
some advance
-
notice for
-
people who
-
come up
-
they've been
-
chewing over
-
this passage
-
as well
-
and the
-
goal is
-
actually
-
at some
-
point
-
maybe
-
there's
-
going to
-
be
-
some
-
Q&A
-
where
-
we can
-
actually
-
talk
-
about
-
this
-
and engage
-
in the
-
word
-
of God
-
together
-
as a
-
community
-
once we
-
get to
-
that stage
-
where we
-
have
-
questions
-
coming
-
I can
-
assure
-
you
-
I won't
-
know
-
the answer
-
to every
-
question
-
but I
-
think
-
the whole
-
point of
-
this is
-
that we
-
engage
-
with
-
scripture
-
together
-
and ask
-
the Holy
-
Spirit
-
to guide
-
us
-
and
-
teach
-
us
-
so
-
can we
-
give a
-
warm round
-
of applause
-
to Queenie
-
hello
-
hello
-
Queenie
-
I always
-
like to
-
joke about
-
what you
-
do
-
but I
-
would
-
love
-
you
-
to
-
introduce
-
yourself
-
to
-
the
-
people
-
and
-
what
-
it
-
is
-
God
-
has
-
called
-
you
-
to
-
do
-
in
-
the
-
place
-
you
-
are
-
working
-
thanks
-
James
-
I'm
-
a
-
barrister
-
I'm
-
the
-
lawyer
-
that
-
goes
-
to
-
court
-
sometimes
-
people
-
ask me
-
if I
-
make
-
good
-
coffee
-
and
-
they
-
think
-
I'm
-
a
-
barista
-
and
-
I
-
always
-
say
-
yes
-
actually
-
some
-
barista
-
tried
-
to
-
add
-
me
-
on
-
LinkedIn
-
but
-
I
-
actually
-
go
-
to
-
court
-
and
-
I
-
love
-
what
-
I
-
do
-
because
-
for
-
myself
-
I
-
definitely
-
feel
-
called
-
to
-
the
-
workplace
-
and
-
yeah
-
there's
-
many
-
many
-
opportunities
-
there
-
sorry
-
testing
-
testing
-
so
-
you've
-
always
-
said
-
that
-
you
-
love
-
your
-
job
-
and
-
in
-
loving
-
your
-
job
-
and
-
being
-
very
-
good
-
at
-
your
-
job
-
you've
-
become
-
one
-
of
-
the
-
youngest
-
senior
-
counsels
-
in
-
Hong Kong
-
I
-
believe
-
what
-
is
-
it
-
that
-
you
-
love
-
about
-
your
-
job
-
I
-
like
-
the
-
intellectual
-
stimulation
-
I
-
find
-
it
-
interesting
-
I
-
like
-
arguing
-
with
-
people
-
and
-
actually
-
just
-
through
-
my
-
work
-
I
-
actually
-
get
-
to
-
meet
-
a
-
lot
-
of
-
different
-
people
-
and
-
some
-
actually
-
have
-
become
-
very
-
good
-
friends
-
and
-
a
-
lot
-
of
-
the
-
people
-
I
-
meet
-
I
-
may
-
not
-
meet
-
if
-
I
-
were
-
not
-
doing
-
my
-
job
-
and
-
so
-
I
-
especially
-
in
-
society
-
we
-
talk
-
about
-
Abraham
-
here
-
who
-
lives
-
as a
-
foreigner
-
but
-
lives
-
with
-
integrity
-
and
-
with
-
faith
-
and
-
almost
-
lives
-
with
-
eternity
-
in
-
mind
-
what
-
does
-
that
-
look
-
like
-
for
-
you
-
as
-
you
-
navigate
-
the
-
environment
-
that
-
you're
-
in
-
it
-
may
-
or may
-
not
-
surprise
-
you
-
but
-
it
-
surprised
-
me
-
to
-
realize
-
that
-
not
-
everyone
-
plays
-
by
-
the
-
rules
-
so
-
as
-
a
-
lawyer
-
my
-
job
-
is
-
to
-
do
-
what
-
I
-
can
-
for
-
so
-
actually
-
just
-
even
-
doing
-
what
-
I'm
-
supposed
-
to
-
be
-
doing
-
I
-
think
-
that
-
in
-
itself
-
is
-
something
-
it
-
counts
-
for
-
something
-
you
-
say
-
that
-
so
-
easily
-
but
-
I
-
can't
-
imagine
-
that
-
being
-
easy
-
when
-
someone
-
takes
-
the gloves
-
off
-
and
-
does
-
something
-
that
-
they
-
do
-
what's
-
your
-
response
-
how's
-
your
-
process
-
in
-
responding
-
to
-
it
-
I'm
-
trying
-
to
-
think
-
of
-
a
-
real
-
life
-
example
-
which
-
is
-
when
-
someone
-
approached
-
me
-
to
-
try
-
in a
-
way
-
that
-
I
-
was
-
not
-
supposed
-
to
-
be
-
taking
-
it
-
I
-
don't
-
want
-
to
-
go
-
into
-
the
-
details
-
but
-
in
-
a
-
nutshell
-
I
-
just
-
said
-
no
-
and
-
I
-
just
-
extracted
-
myself
-
from
-
the
-
situation
-
and
-
I
-
told
-
the
-
receptionist
-
if
-
this
-
person
-
ever
-
calls
-
again
-
then
-
don't
-
put
-
the
-
call
-
through
-
so
-
I
-
think
-
sometimes
-
it's
-
about
-
extracting
-
oneself
-
from
-
that
-
situation
-
not
-
every
-
situation
-
you
-
can
-
get
-
out
-
of
-
but
-
if
-
there
-
are
-
ways
-
to
-
get
-
out
-
of
-
it
-
and
-
to
-
protect
-
oneself
-
from
-
that
-
I
-
think
-
that's
-
one
-
way
-
forward
-
but
-
I'm
-
assuming
-
when
-
you
-
make
-
that
-
decision
-
to
-
extract
-
oneself
-
it
-
most
-
often
-
probably
-
comes
-
with
-
a
-
cost
-
is that
-
right
-
yeah
-
it
-
does
-
I
-
mean
-
it
-
happened
-
very
-
early
-
on
-
in
-
my
-
career
-
so
-
in
-
theory
-
things
-
like
-
do
-
I
-
get
-
good
-
cases
-
do
-
I
-
get
-
paid
-
!
-
etc
-
is
-
I
-
asked
-
you
-
to
-
look
-
at
-
Genesis
-
23
-
and
-
just
-
to
-
meditate
-
over
-
it
-
what
-
stood
-
out
-
to
-
you
-
as
-
you
-
read
-
this
-
chapter
-
I
-
think
-
one
-
of
-
the
-
things
-
that
-
really
-
stood
-
out
-
to
-
me
-
is
-
that
-
it's
-
about
-
something
-
quite
-
normal
-
you
-
used
-
the
-
word
-
mundane
-
and
-
I
-
most
-
things
-
I
-
do
-
almost
-
or
-
everything
-
I
-
do
-
is
-
just
-
normal
-
and
-
ordinary
-
and
-
I
-
was
-
just
-
thinking
-
about
-
this
-
further
-
James
-
I
-
may
-
never
-
do
-
anything
-
amazing
-
or
-
spectacular
-
but
-
one
-
thing
-
I
-
am
-
guaranteed
-
to be
-
able
-
to do
-
is
-
ordinary
-
stuff
-
because
-
I
-
go to
-
work
-
I
-
talk
-
to
-
people
-
on
-
a
-
day
-
to
-
day
-
basis
-
and
-
I
-
dare
-
say
-
for
-
all
-
of
-
you
-
you
-
may
-
all
-
be
-
doing
-
spectacular
-
things
-
already
-
talk
-
to
-
whoever
-
and
-
so
-
I
-
think
-
how
-
we
-
carry
-
ourselves
-
and
-
how
-
we
-
do
-
that
-
is
-
something
-
worth
-
thinking
-
about
-
and
-
like
-
you
-
were
-
mentioning
-
earlier
-
on
-
and
-
there's
-
another
-
thing
-
that
-
stood
-
out
-
to
-
me
-
is
-
how
-
the
-
Hittites
-
who I
-
assume
-
are
-
non-Christians
-
etc
-
how they
-
described
-
Abraham
-
and
-
they
-
described
-
him
-
as
-
prince
-
of
-
God
-
I
-
think
-
some
-
translations
-
say
-
mighty
-
prince
-
etc
-
but I
-
think
-
it
-
does
-
have
-
the
-
there
-
is
-
a
-
reference
-
to
-
God
-
and
-
like
-
you
-
were
-
saying
-
part
-
of
-
it
-
was
-
probably
-
because
-
he
-
was
-
very
-
successful
-
he
-
was
-
doing
-
very
-
well
-
he
-
was
-
very
-
wealthy
-
all the
-
rest
-
of it
-
but
-
it
-
didn't
-
just
-
say
-
you
-
amazing
-
person
-
or you
-
prince
-
prince
-
of
-
God
-
and
-
so
-
somehow
-
they
-
recognized
-
that
-
there
-
was
-
something
-
about
-
him
-
that
-
came
-
from
-
this
-
God
-
that
-
they
-
didn't
-
even
-
really
-
know
-
!
-
how
-
do
-
I
-
do
-
it
-
and
-
what
-
impression
-
do
-
I
-
give
-
to
-
people
-
what
-
do
-
I
-
make
-
people
-
think
-
of
-
can
-
I
-
just
-
reflect
-
a
-
little
-
bit
-
of
-
God
-
and
-
if
-
I
-
can
-
just
-
do
-
a
-
little
-
bit
-
of
-
that
-
then
-
I
-
think
-
it's
-
what
-
I'm
-
trying
-
to do
-
I
-
suspect
-
a lot
-
of
-
people
-
will
-
agree
-
with
-
you
-
in
-
the
-
sense
-
that
-
most
-
of
-
our
-
lives
-
we're
-
living
-
somewhat
-
mundane
-
lives
-
doing
-
repetitive
-
things
-
especially
-
in the
-
field
-
of
-
law
-
I'm
-
just
-
imagining
-
documents
-
you live
-
in a
-
world
-
of
-
black
-
and
-
white
-
but
-
you
-
live
-
in
-
a
-
very
-
colourful
-
way
-
tell me
-
when
-
you're
-
dealing
-
with
-
contracts
-
and
-
people
-
and
-
things
-
that
-
are
-
seemingly
-
mundane
-
and
-
we
-
all
-
have
-
our
-
equivalents
-
to
-
those
-
things
-
what
-
do
-
you
-
remind
-
yourself
-
in
-
terms
-
of
-
to
-
bring
-
colour
-
into
-
your
-
life
-
and
-
to
-
bring
-
purpose
-
into
-
your
-
life
-
I
-
think
-
one
-
of
-
the
-
things
-
is
-
to
-
think
-
about
-
what
-
God
-
has
-
called
-
me
-
to
-
do
-
and
-
the
-
way
-
God
-
brought
-
me
-
into
-
this
-
profession
-
into
-
my
-
particular
-
working
-
place
-
all that
-
sort of
-
thing
-
I
-
definitely
-
see
-
God's
-
fingerprints
-
all over
-
it
-
and
-
it's
-
definitely
-
him
-
who
-
brought
-
me
-
to
-
this
-
profession
-
and
-
to
-
my
-
particular
-
chambers
-
and
-
so
-
I
-
think
-
that
-
helps
-
me
-
remember
-
that
-
I'm
-
here
-
not
-
just
-
because
-
I have
-
nothing
-
better
-
to do
-
with
-
my
-
life
-
but
-
I'm
-
here
-
because
-
God
-
put
-
me
-
there
-
and
-
then
-
I
-
want
-
to
-
see
-
what
-
is
-
God
-
wanting
-
to
-
do
-
in
-
my
-
life
-
and
-
so
-
a lot
-
of
-
it
-
is
-
also
-
trying
-
to
-
be
-
aware
-
and
-
trying
-
to
-
be
-
open
-
to
-
spotting
-
whatever
-
it
-
is
-
that
-
he's
-
doing
-
and
-
sometimes
-
it
-
can
-
just
-
be
-
something
-
completely
-
unexpected
-
it
-
can
-
be
-
just
-
a
-
conversation
-
that
-
I
-
decide
-
to
-
pick
-
up
-
and
-
then
-
I
-
decide
-
to
-
pick
-
it
-
up
-
and
-
then
-
a
-
friendship
-
builds
-
and
-
then
-
a
-
really
-
deep
-
friendship
-
builds
-
and
-
yeah
-
so
-
that
-
does
-
happen
-
and
-
it
-
has
-
happened
-
and
-
I
-
hope
-
will
-
continue
-
to
-
happen
-
you
-
made me
-
think
-
that
-
even
-
though
-
we
-
live in
-
the
-
physical
-
realm
-
dealing
-
with
-
the
-
physical
-
things
-
but
-
when
-
you
-
live
-
with
-
eternity
-
in
-
mind
-
the
-
possibilities
-
end
-
of
-
being
-
endless
-
you
-
actually
-
don't
-
know
-
when
-
were there
-
any
-
things
-
that
-
actually
-
troubled
-
you
-
or
-
confused
-
you
-
or
-
convicted
-
you
-
anything
-
that
-
comes
-
to
-
mind
-
I
-
think
-
Abraham's
-
humility
-
to
-
these
-
people
-
and
-
his
-
engaging
-
with
-
them
-
in a
-
very
-
respectful
-
way
-
is
-
something
-
that
-
really
-
encouraged
-
me
-
it's
-
easy
-
for
-
people
-
to
-
feel
-
judged
-
when
-
they
-
talk
-
to
-
Christians
-
at
-
the
-
time
-
I
-
was
-
doing
-
something
-
with
-
a
-
Bible
-
study
-
organization
-
that
-
for
-
some
-
utterly
-
silly
-
reason
-
at
-
the
-
times
-
that
-
leaders
-
are
-
not
-
allowed
-
to
-
drink
-
for
-
example
-
and
-
so
-
I
-
just
-
had
-
to
-
suck
-
it
-
up
-
and
-
not
-
drink
-
apart
-
from
-
on
-
special
-
occasions
-
but
-
then
-
I
-
discovered
-
that
-
all
-
my
-
friends
-
all
-
my
-
chamber
-
mates
-
they
-
all
-
felt
-
very
-
judged
-
and
-
so
-
I
-
think
-
I
-
didn't
-
try
-
and say
-
it
-
in
-
a
-
judgy
-
way
-
but
-
really
-
emphasized
-
for me
-
how
-
actually
-
culture
-
is really
-
important
-
and how
-
to engage
-
with people
-
in a way
-
that enables
-
them to
-
feel
-
comfortable
-
I mean
-
not in a
-
kind of
-
you just
-
sin and
-
do crazy
-
things
-
wait
-
but
-
within
-
reason
-
how one
-
can still
-
engage
-
people
-
in their
-
culture
-
and in a
-
way
-
that's
-
respectful
-
to them
-
and that
-
they can
-
find
-
acceptable
-
which I
-
think
-
Abraham
-
really did
-
you talk
-
about culture
-
reminds me
-
of a conversation
-
we had
-
last night
-
I feel
-
that there's
-
two groups
-
of people
-
that we
-
always need
-
one is
-
the group
-
of people
-
that are
-
actually
-
sharpeners
-
and keep
-
us
-
accountable
-
and it's
-
the
-
you are
-
the average
-
of the
-
five people
-
you spend
-
the most
-
time with
-
so look
-
at the
-
five people
-
you spend
-
the most
-
time with
-
and you'll
-
see yourself
-
and that
-
may encourage
-
you
-
and comfort
-
you
-
or it may
-
horrify
-
you
-
and terrify
-
you
-
so have a
-
think about
-
that
-
but there's
-
a group
-
of people
-
who if I
-
want to be
-
that kind
-
of person
-
I need
-
to surround
-
myself
-
with these
-
kind of
-
five people
-
that's
-
one group
-
but then
-
there's
-
and I
-
need my
-
first group
-
to anchor
-
me
-
otherwise
-
I'll lose
-
my way
-
but I
-
also need
-
the second
-
group
-
and you're
-
someone who
-
I know
-
has both
-
a lot
-
right
-
I'm very
-
very blessed
-
with a lot
-
of friends
-
and I would
-
just also
-
add that
-
the whole
-
kind of
-
being
-
part of
-
the culture
-
or somebody
-
that stands
-
out
-
is not
-
mutually
-
exclusive
-
and I
-
think it's
-
learning to
-
try and
-
hold all
-
of this
-
together
-
and trying
-
to marry
-
it
-
together
-
in a way
-
that is
-
helpful
-
to people
-
I also
-
as I was
-
hearing you
-
talk
-
I'm just
-
imagining
-
Abraham
-
he's grieving
-
he wants to
-
buy this
-
cave
-
and then he
-
agrees on
-
this exorbitant
-
price
-
just imagine
-
all the elders
-
at the gate
-
just kind of
-
sniggering
-
and like
-
almost kind of
-
just chuckling
-
to each other
-
it's like
-
this foreigner
-
doesn't know
-
anything
-
we're going to
-
totally just
-
sell this
-
little way out
-
and yet somehow
-
he lives
-
just like
-
I know
-
and it doesn't
-
matter
-
why
-
because I live
-
with eternity
-
in mind
-
so you can do
-
whatever
-
under the table
-
stuff you do
-
I'm unfazed
-
because I
-
am a child
-
of God
-
I'm a prince
-
of God
-
and I'm not
-
affected by this
-
any final thoughts
-
from you
-
yeah
-
I mean
-
you started
-
by saying
-
this passage
-
is all about
-
grief
-
and
-
actually
-
I wasn't
-
really necessarily
-
going to talk
-
about it
-
very much
-
today
-
but the
-
occasion
-
just arose
-
and
-
grief
-
is something
-
that I have
-
wrestled with
-
as well
-
I've actually
-
shared here
-
before
-
so some
-
of you
-
may have
-
shared
-
I lost
-
a very close
-
friend
-
to suicide
-
a couple
-
of years
-
ago
-
actually
-
just when
-
I started
-
coming
-
to the
-
gathering
-
and actually
-
I think
-
this is like
-
probably not
-
the world's
-
best passage
-
on grief
-
in that it
-
just talks
-
about it
-
in about
-
two sentences
-
so this is
-
not the main
-
point of today
-
but it also
-
so happened
-
that just
-
when I was
-
having breakfast
-
with friends
-
my counsellor
-
also told me
-
about a grief
-
support group
-
that she
-
is about
-
to run
-
and so
-
I just
-
also wanted
-
to open
-
that up
-
to anyone
-
who might
-
feel that's
-
helpful
-
the group
-
is for
-
anyone
-
who's lost
-
someone
-
either recently
-
or a long
-
time ago
-
it doesn't
-
have to be
-
recently
-
so it can
-
be both
-
and it's
-
just an
-
occasion
-
and a
-
space
-
where you
-
can explore
-
some of the
-
emotions
-
in you
-
I certainly
-
found that
-
I thought
-
I was okay
-
but then
-
various things
-
happened
-
I realised
-
I was not
-
and everyone
-
is at a
-
different place
-
but if
-
anyone is
-
interested
-
please feel
-
free to
-
come and
-
talk to
-
me
-
my counsellor
-
is called
-
Eugenie
-
and then
-
this is going
-
to be held
-
at Watermark's
-
premises
-
in Wangchukhang
-
and there's
-
a little flyer
-
which I can
-
send around
-
in the
-
gathering
-
WhatsApp
-
chat group
-
later on
-
as well
-
but do
-
come and
-
talk to
-
me
-
if anybody
-
is interested
-
it's on
-
Thursdays
-
for six
-
weeks
-
starting on
-
the 10th
-
of September
-
and actually
-
you say
-
it's only
-
the first
-
two verses
-
that talk
-
about grief
-
but I
-
happen to
-
think
-
this whole
-
chapter
-
grief is
-
the springboard
-
as in
-
he loses
-
his wife
-
and it's
-
in that
-
moment
-
having not
-
bought any
-
land for
-
the whole
-
of his
-
life
-
decides
-
now I'm
-
going to
-
do it
-
and I
-
think
-
at least
-
I can
-
speak from
-
personal
-
experience
-
grief I
-
don't think
-
ever ends
-
and I
-
lost my
-
dad in
-
2003
-
and I'll
-
say to
-
this day
-
it's still
-
something that
-
keeps going
-
but I'll
-
say the
-
point of
-
grief
-
is to
-
point us
-
to
-
eternity
-
that loss
-
that we
-
have
-
should remind
-
us of
-
what we
-
have gained
-
in Christ
-
and I
-
think you're
-
right
-
grief doesn't
-
just sort of
-
end
-
and I hate
-
this concept
-
but my
-
counselor keeps
-
talking to me
-
about it
-
and I've
-
sort of
-
come to
-
terms with
-
it a little
-
bit
-
I think
-
is learning
-
to coexist
-
with grief
-
and everything
-
else in
-
life
-
so yeah
-
so even
-
if time
-
has passed
-
etc
-
even if
-
you've
-
been able
-
to do
-
lots of
-
things
-
like Abraham
-
was able
-
to do
-
a whole
-
bunch
-
of things
-
like buy
-
the spots
-
of land
-
etc
-
etc
-
sometimes
-
one still
-
needs to
-
give oneself
-
that space
-
yeah
-
round of applause
-
for Queenie
-
thank you
-
thank you so much
-
so we're
-
going to
-
finish with
-
just a time
-
of response
-
through song
-
now
-
Kelly and
-
the team
-
up
-
but maybe
-
the prompt
-
here is
-
this
-
what is
-
the grief
-
that you're
-
going through
-
as a
-
sojourner
-
you know
-
maybe
-
you know
-
you may
-
not be
-
a mighty
-
warrior
-
like
-
Odysseus
-
you may
-
not
-
have
-
the
-
resources
-
of
-
Abraham
-
but yet
-
you are
-
grieving
-
that there
-
is
-
loss
-
in your
-
life
-
and I
-
respectfully
-
and lovingly
-
wonder today
-
whether that
-
can point
-
you to
-
eternity
-
where again
-
the passage
-
in Thessalonians
-
hits me
-
every time
-
that we
-
should not
-
be uninformed
-
when we
-
go through
-
grief
-
and when
-
we lose
-
loved ones
-
that we
-
do not
-
grieve
-
as those
-
who have
-
no hope
-
but there
-
is going
-
to be
-
a day
-
where the
-
Lord
-
comes back
-
and wakes
-
us all
-
up
-
and when
-
we wake
-
up
-
we
-
will
-
be
-
in
-
the
-
land
-
of
-
promise
-
what
-
grief
-
can
-
you
-
take
-
to
-
Jesus
-
today
-
what
-
sorrow
-
can
-
you
-
take
-
to
-
Jesus
-
today
-
and in
-
exchange
-
he gives
-
you
-
joy
-
not
-
because
-
he will
-
fulfill
-
your promise
-
but because
-
your promise
-
will be
-
fulfilled
-
in eternity
-
through him
-
and what
-
he did
-
on the
-
cross
-
that allows
-
you to
-
tolerate
-
to fight
-
to survive
-
through the
-
mundane
-
through the
-
pain
-
just imagine
-
for a second
-
with me
-
that we
-
believed
-
in an
-
eternity
-
that actually
-
exists
-
a garden
-
city
-
where there
-
is no
-
pain
-
tears
-
separation
-
anxiety
-
and fear
-
imagine
-
with me
-
if we
-
lived
-
for that
-
day
-
today
-
Jesus
-
we come
-
to you
-
you
-
who designed
-
and built
-
a city
-
a kingdom
-
that has
-
no end
-
that holds
-
justice
-
and love
-
and grace
-
and truth
-
hand
-
in hand
-
where the
-
rivers
-
flow
-
we sit
-
in a moment
-
of grief
-
now knowing
-
that we
-
are not
-
there yet
-
but whilst
-
we sit
-
in the
-
already
-
and not
-
yet
-
we pray
-
that you
-
would give
-
us the
-
wisdom
-
on how
-
to navigate
-
this dark
-
world
-
when sometimes
-
the gloves
-
are off
-
sometimes
-
there is
-
ridicule
-
sometimes
-
there is
-
pain
-
and persecution
-
help us
-
to live
-
as faithful
-
followers
-
pursuing
-
eternity
-
with
-
integrity
-
help us
-
to be
-
in this
-
world
-
but not
-
of this
-
world
-
help us
-
to bring
-
the land
-
of promise
-
into this
-
land of
-
exile
-
we worship
-
you
-
the beginning
-
and the end
-
the alpha
-
and omega
-
the ancient
-
of days
-
may