Transformation Through Faith: Forgiveness, a Secure Salvation, and Finding Identity in Christ

Because when you're going through it and if you're not going through it now, you either went through it or you're going to go through it

But your faith will be challenged. It will be tested and you can't move away from who you are in Jesus

Although Satan is constantly trying to

Pervert your identity in Christ and may make you solemn and make you sad and

Forget who you are in Jesus and a shame

Speaking to yourself speaking the Word of God, which is the truth

Welcome to the City Light Church podcast. Thanks for joining us today as we look into God's Word and discover the hope and

Truth that he has for us. If you want to connect with City Light Church, feel free to visit us at CityLightNYC.com

That's CityLightNYC.com

Pastor Boyan Jansik and his team believe that the power of the Holy Spirit is already working in our hearts and minds

As you listen to today's teaching, remember that you are deeply loved by God that you are surrounded by his grace and that he has a real hope and a future for you

Well, my name is Bo Jansik. I want to welcome you to City Light Church. Those of you joining us online

Hallelujah. Oh, man

All right, I can do this

Pastor Mo, you got your praying for me. Interesting. I got to do a couple of announcements and then this is just the way we're doing it

for now

Next week past your moe is gonna give excellent announcements

But we have Christmas

We have Christmas decorating coming up and so

You should be a part of that

December the second

Maybe even to December the third

Maybe

And they'll be I'm supposed to also say they'll be hot chocolate there

Because I understand the vast majority of you can't get your own hot chocolate and you may be wondering where can I get hot chocolate?

The best kind of hot chocolate free hot chocolate and then you'll remember City Light

But it really is it's a party, you know, I joked earlier. I said everything God touches will live everything Pastor Moe touches will party

Pastor Moe's leading this and it'll be a party and you can get your Christmas on

Turn this place

into a winter wonderland

Oh, and then the second announcement is prayer

There's been an reinvigoration of prayer and I'm not kidding

On Wednesday by Wednesday. It's actually started earlier days earlier. I started to feel just completely different

Like like somebody had taken out a

Four worn out triple A batteries. You know the triple not even double a triple A the real skinny ones where you want

You wonder is it even a battery or not? What does this go? Yeah my garage remote or something like that took out four worn out triple A batteries and

Cleaned out the inside and put four supercharged D batteries in no really there was a there was just I

I felt I started to feel the anointing at all odd times

You know it's nice when you feel the anointing and prayer and but now this is just at odd times

You know retrieving something from the closet. Oh surprised by God

Hoping my car door. Oh

In fact just talking about it. I'm feeling it just you know sometimes when you recount what the Lord's done you

And I have no doubt that it's because of this resurgence of prayer that's happening in our church

So people are praying for our church for the future of this church for me from my family

It's very important, you know

That's why the Apostle Paul in every letter. He said please pray for me

I haven't done that enough and we're crossing a threshold right now

We're busting to another barrier Satan doesn't like that

It doesn't like he likes you nice and just put down don't move don't make waves

Well, we're making waves the Lord is causing the waves and we're gonna bust and that has to be undergirded by prayer

So every Sunday at 8.45 a.m. Oh

Yes 8.45

I

Know that's funny for you uni 8.45

Because there's there's I don't know what is in the Korean DNA

But you guys it's not even prayer until you're at 5 a.m. There's a bicycle

I ride and there's a big Korean church right where I live and I'm riding it early at 6 in the morning and the whole parking lot is full

And I'm going man

Jealous with a holy jealousy

So 8.45 a.m. right here to be praying with other people it'll bless you if you've never prayed in a group

It'll bless and and and we really I've prayed in a group

And I mean meeting everyone to pray in a group when I first got saved because there's always someone who just ends up praying for half an hour

And you don't even know what they're saying anymore and you just politely

Oh Lord I'm on

We don't do that we don't

We actually have limits on people

I mean the Holy Spirit will put limits on people but in case you can't hear the Holy Spirit telling you let someone else pray

We will then step in and amplify his voice in your life

But be a part of prayer

And also if you can't make it out on Sundays there's zoom prayers if you're interested in that just

Feel out that connection card of the best way to get your questions answered is info at citylight nyc.com

And if you're new or if you want to get more involved the best way to stay in contact with us is that connection card that was on your seat

So fill it out if you want to get baptized if you want to volunteer fill it out and hand it over to one of the ushers or at the hospitality table

They'll have a gift for you when you do

But be sure to fill out that connection card and then let's receive our ties and offerings. How many of you want to worship the Lord with your giving

Give with a glad heart

There's four ways to give online text. There's offering boxes located throughout the sanctuary

There'll be a QR code that appears

But before the QR code appears. Let's just see where we're at on the end of the year giving

Because this is our end of the year campaign. Hey last week. It was 32. I believe significant jump in one week

Amen put your hands together for that

So let me explain to you what this is

This is to make up for our budget that we're behind in 2024

This means that we're $150,000 behind

Our expenses and so we we want to make that up

We have reserves that we'd like to use to purchase a building and not ever never never have we had to nor would we ever want to use it

For day-to-day expenses. Amen. I hopefully you have a savings and an investment account and those are that's the untouchable account. We have that

So if you don't give to this, that's why I'm not standing here going, you know

Please give otherwise

There's a squeegee job I got to get and I'll be the guy that'll meet you at the red light on Steinway and Broadway

And I'm going to squeegee your windshield and maybe you give me a dollar or two and I can make it

No, we're going to be fine and the Lord is always taking care of us, but this is an opportunity

So just ask the Lord

What he'd have you give there's a novel idea

Lord

My life is your life. My money is your money. What should I give?

right

And then listen and there'll be amounts stirring in your spirit

Know the lower amount is the devil the higher amount is God

and

And learn to hear what the Lord is you don't have to ask Lord what he would have you tithe

Because that amount is already in the word. It's like Lord. What should I 10th? Well 10th

10th

But in addition to that, I'll speak to you

hallelujah

But that's only for those who actually want to increase financially some people love poverty

Some people love to stay broke and and there's a there's a formula for that too

I actually preached a sermon maybe I'll have to reprieche a 10 steps to poverty

It's a phenomenal sermon you want to take copious notes on that

Really I have

hallelujah

Are you ready to begin Hebrews chapter three

We're in the book of Hebrews

We're going line upon line precept upon precept we want to increase biblical literacy

Christians should be full of the word mighty in the scriptures

mighty

That's that's a term who to who was that used to describe in the Bible was it Stephen

In the book of Acts that he was mighty in the scriptures every Christian should be full of the word

Biblically literate

Know how to explain the gospel explain salvation the Bible says and you should always be set to give an answer to those who are on the outside

And Paul said I'm set for the defense of the gospel so that you can articulate

Why you believe what you believe and why you believe it

That's very important for our kids by the way. They're not going to learn that in city kids

Gonna get some good stuff in children's church

But it's up to us to raise our kids to defend their faith because outside people are at war trying to rob them of their faith

And so we're in chapter three

In chapter one the writer of Hebrews was focusing on the ultimate supremacy of Jesus

In chapter two he was talking about the humanity of Jesus also

Jesus is fully God and fully man and because he's fully man

God himself can understand you and relate to you in a very very special way

And then we find yourselves in chapter three and just note

Always you have to understand the context that he's writing in

The context is this he's writing to the most despondent

dejected

depressed

Down and out group of Christians who are on the verge of quitting in the entire Bible

This was not a happy group. This is a group that

They weren't at that moment living their best life now

They were ostracized financially

weren't allowed to trade weren't allowed to barter

By yourself they were ostracized socially and things were tough

And so he encourages them let's see how he encourages them

He starts writing to them in verse one

Therefore

Holy brethren now right away

I want you to see that he's talking to them

And he's reminding them of their identity in Christ

This is vital

Because when you're going through it and if you're not going through it now you either went through it or you're going to go through it

But your faith will be challenged

It will be tested

And you can't move away from who you are in Jesus although Satan is constantly trying to

Pervert your identity in Christ and may make you solemn and make you sad and forget who you are in Jesus and a shame

Downcast

I'm not good enough. It's not clicking for me. Life's a drag

And you got to start talking to yourself

Speaking to yourself speaking the word of God which is the truth

Facts are facts, but the truth is the truth

Amen

He calls them holy breath. They probably weren't behaving so holy

But he calls them holy brethren

That's why sometimes I'll open up the service with a big smile

After a whole rough week of counseling the stuff I've heard

I need a pastor to go to to now open up to after all I heard

Help me. Well, what's wrong? I've heard all these things

They seem so normal when I'm preaching to them you don't know what they're up to in the week

But I open up the service and I say hello saints of God

Hello for given ones

Blessed ones holy ones

Because that's what the word of God says about you. You have been cleansed

You have been purified your new creation in Christ Jesus. You believe it

If you believe in Jesus all of your sins have been taken out

They've been nailed to the cross of Christ. The wrath of God has already punished your sins in the body of Jesus

That's something to be glad about hallelujah

So now you're not an ain't you're a saint you're holy and without blame before him in love

You're not trying to get approved. You already are approved

You're not trying to get accepted no matter how you feel no matter what you're going through

You already are approved and accepted so act that way and talk that way amen

This is him sweetly just going uh-huh. May I remind you who you really are

This is how the Apostle Paul corrected

The most carnal church in the New Testament

The most carnal church in the New Testament was the Corinthian church and Corinth was like the New York City of the day

It's an urban church. You know what that means right? Church full of wacky dues

I'd have it no other way

And they were up to all sorts of nonsense

And they they didn't have sexual propriety they they they were pagan and not like New York City

They had the flags outside the taverns also

Okay, and

And

And this is how he rebukes them

He doesn't say

unesty

Westy ugly

sinful

Corinthians

How could you do this you got saved and now look how you're behaving?

He says what what no he not that your body is the temple of the living God what's he doing

He's not coming down on and personally he's reminding them who they are

positionally in Christ

He's reminding them even though that fall and so low he's reminding them who they really are

According to the word because when you see who you really are look dirt people who think they're dirty do dirty things

People who know they've been clean and then feel that's holy they do holy things

Hallelujah whatever your reality is that's how you're going to behave

So see yourself as the word sees you and the word calls you holy

Therefore holy brethren partakers of the heavenly calling is the writer saying we're part of the same calling

We're in this together consider

Take a look a good long-hard look at analyze the apostle and high priest of our confession

Christ Jesus verse two

Who was faithful to him everyone shout faithful to him

He was faithful to the father who was faithful to him who appointed him as Moses also was faithful in all his house

Their Hebrews their Jewish Christians who were very persecuted

So that's why he's using a lot of Old Testament scripture and why he's talking about Moses the Jews revered Moses

verse three

For this one

Jesus has been counted worthy of more glory than Moses and as much as he who built the house has more honor than the house

Amen

Simply saying that hey Moses was very faithful Moses had a lot of glory. I mean his face was shining

They commented on it, but Jesus has way more glory than that you look at the ministry of Jesus it smokes Moses

And then he just says hey, that's because the one who made Moses has more glory than Moses who was made

For every house is built by someone, but he who built all things is God

And Moses indeed was faithful in all his house as a servant

He's doing a little compare and contrast here. He's saying look Moses

Moses was really faithful

He carried out God's plan for his life for a testimony of those things which would be spoken afterwards

But Christ as a son over his own house that's you

You're the house of God the one that the scripture says he's building up right now

He's building up his house

corporately that's the whole body of Christ and he's building out

You the house of God individually

Every stone in the house of God is precious and God Himself is

Refining it fitting it and putting it into his house with Jesus Christ as a chief cornerstone somebody say that's me

That's you that's your life you got a master builder

working on you

whose house we are

if now this is important

if we hold fast

The confidence and the rejoicing of the hope firm to the end that's a conditional word if

Now this is important

Because a constant question and if you haven't asked this you should ask this because salvation is precious, right

Salvation is the most precious thing. I'm saying from hell

Hell is a real place

heaven is a real place

I'm saved not just from hell. I'm saved from hell on earth

The worst hell any Christian will know is earth the best heaven any unbeliever will know is earth

He saved me

So that's precious so important questions. Hey, can I lose my salvation?

It's a fair question. You're gonna get a lot of different answers

I'll tell you what I believe and I'll give you scriptural precedent foreign one

Your your salvation is by faith and faith alone you receive it by faith. You don't work for it. Amen

That means that you cannot lose it by your works

And this is important because Christians once they get saved they feel that the moment they sin again

They've lost their salvation and they have to get born again again

And again and again and they can enter in this terrible religious sin repentant cycle

Where they're in agony and they constantly grieving over breaking God's heart

And and they have to come back to him over and over and over and

That actually doesn't work out holiness

It works out people who hate themselves are walking civil war and eventually give up on themselves and leave the church

In fact, the statistic is for every one of you in here today. There's 50 protocols

I seek out those protocols. I spend years of my life talking to those protocols

And when I dig in and find that what's the root there? What made you leave?

It's actually every time shame and guilt and condemnation over. I just Christianity is too hard

My answer's no, it's not. It's actually impossible

It's impossible if you try to do it in your own strength

You got to die you got a yield

It's only hard for somebody who's still a little bit alive

Limpin going trying to do their own thing. No, you got to die. Let his life come up through you

So you cannot lose your salvation by works

Just like you can't gain your salvation by works

But when you persist in sin when you persist in living in a way

That's not aligned with God's word. It will harden your heart

And now you're coming into a danger

It'll it'll it'll it'll not just harden your heart, but you'll notice that that that faith

That's always active in you now. It's just a shadow of what it once was

And in order to be saved you need faith. Yeah

You got saved by faith salvation comes to you by faith

How many of you you know that you're saved raise your hand you know you know

Anybody else. I want to see you at this altar right after service

But I'm satisfied with over 80% of the hands going up

But the others you don't have to hope so

When I did street of angelim I did it hours a day for years

And I'd interview people and I'd ask them the first question ask them is if you were to die today

You know for certain that you'd go to heaven

The most common response back is I hope so

I hope so

That's hope so salvation that's not biblical

biblical salvation is no so salvation you can know that you have it

It's not going to surprise me if you tell me I have a microphone in my hand

I know I have it

I got it

I possess it. It's in my possession. It's the same way with salvation. I know it

That's why in John first Johnny says these things I write to you that you may know that you have eternal life

I know that I have it

Because he said I have it when I confess my faith in him

I had to believe first there were no feelings I believe and then after I believe there was some feelings. I don't go by those feelings

Some people never get feelings some people get lots of feelings and we'll get a little bit of feelings feelings

But I know I have it

Hallelujah

And so it's important because this group was so

persecuted and so

rejected

And discouraged they were just discouraged

But beyond like how we get discouraged they were discouraged to the point where they were about to forsake their faith

And that's really why the book of Hebrews is written as a warning you have to have a living an active faith

That

That every day said I know I have salvation

I'm looking to him

And they were in the verge of committing the unpardonable sin which is forsaking Jesus

Not talking about missing church for a couple of weeks or going through a rough time

We're going to forsake him

After having known him and the Bible says there's no coming back after that

That's why the conditional if if we hold fast the confidence and the rejoicing of the hope firm to the end

How many of you would say Lord keep me all of my days? Let me never wriggle out of your hand

Hallelujah

Amen next verse

Oh, let's go back to verse six actually

Maybe one more verse

Because I haven't completed this this part

Where Jesus comparing Moses and Moses is faithfulness for five verses here. He's basically hammering this point home

God is faithful

He is faithful if Moses was faithful and which he was how much more will Jesus be faithful?

This is his message to a group of despondent and discouraged Christians

It's that God is going to see you through the only thing that can mess that up is if you let go and quit on him

Church some of you there's so many new people you don't know my stories

You got to know there's been times I confessed to people as a pastor as a minister

I felt like my insides were turned inside out. I felt like my spleen was coming out of my nostrils

I had no strength in my body and seemingly no strength in my soul. I will go to pray will be like I'm crawling

And then I will go to pray and it would sound like somebody shot a wilderness somewhere

There was nothing no pretty words no Elizabethan no King James just god

You

Me

Help that was it

It's all I can muster up

But he's faithful

And he'll be fit whatever you're going through he'll be faithful

Just don't quit just don't let go

For me to just walk here. It's a miracle

It's a miracle to walk this altar and minister to you. I'm elated

Some people just see a bunch of people and a preacher. I see the miracle of God

This whole place shouldn't exist

Hallelujah

I just think back to what I call the great COVID consolidation

You know we used to have four physical locations

Sixth weekend services

Over 700 and weekend attendance and then came the great COVID consolidation where we had

There were several batches of people that left the first batch was all families and uh I mean

You have to know if you're a New York City and your family New York City

You're always on the fence especially if you're like under 35

You're always on the fence about leaving New York City every single day of the week, right

You're always like I love New York, but then you're like, but there's maybe some place a little more space

And I would like a place to put my vacuum cleaner instead of the corner of my living room

What when COVID came all those people which was a lot got pushed out and I just every day was text and emails up

I'm moving on North Carolina on the South Carolina on the Florida and Texas

I've sewed great seed into those four states

Then I'm like, okay glad that's over with and that was like the first two months of COVID

Then we were the first church to reopen up

Or amongst the first ones of several other first time the first time they let us because we rent this place

Which is one of the reasons why I want to get our own place to not be at the behest of any anybody over us

Then

People noticed that I wasn't as crazy for COVID as it should be

Like I guess they wanted me to show up in a hazmat suit and hug them from a distance

Maybe we could a hug through their plastic barrier

Remember the past people forget so easily people were hugging through plastic sheets

Didn't feel like taking an experimental job. I let people know people horrified clutching their pearls

So then I saw another batch leave

I don't they gave different they gave lots of reasons

But ultimately the reason was you should have been more crazy about COVID. I'm crazy about COVID

You're not as crazy as me up your craziness pastor

So it's another batch leave

But God is faithful

Didn't past your mouth we never felt like we really lacked anything ever

People left God brought new ones we saw new baptisms new salvation new baptism in the Holy Spirit new life group leaders raised up

Because he's faithful

Hey, you know what else happened in 2020 speaking of God's faithfulness

We had been saving as a church since our first day in the beginning was like if we saved ten bucks

That was great and and after after so from 2002 to 2020 after 18 years of saving

We had as a church in New York City about eight hundred thousand dollars

Wow

That's not impressive 18 years

I mean, but we had no debt and we were giving all the time

We were always given a mission there. I mean if we were

You know if we were stingy we maybe would have saved more, but you know what the Bible says the Lord would have just

Blown it all away

If you hold if you keep on to more than you should you see said in the back of cook I'll blow it all the way

You're putting it in a bag with holes in it

The Papa's got to bring you bag

All right

It's a bag with no holes it's an unholy bag

So in 2020

In 2020

I because of my personal experience I began to solicit our board

It took nearly six months to put the church reserves

Into the best asset on planet earth who knows what the best asset on planet earth is Chris

You know what the best gas that I'm what's Bitcoin is the best asset on plan why is Bitcoin the best asset on planet earth

Because they'll ever only be 21 million of them

You know how many dollars they're gonna be they're printing them as we speak

In fact your dollar has lost 40% of its purchasing power since 2020 did you know that you know it when you go to get eggs

Look at everything look at your bill

You know what look you know what awake it look at your old Amazon purchases like your order history

And check like what you ordered in 2020 the bounty everything's up. It's 40%

This is how to suck the air out of a room when reality hits people

And I'm like God we've been faithful and here after 18 years 800,000 and so

Can I just boast on the faithfulness of God and by the way?

I said all this in fact I talked about this all the time. I think this ran some people off too

Does everybody nobody knows about but I've spent over a thousand hours studying this thing

And then you got something on pastor put the church's money in a get rich quick scheme. I'm out of here

What you don't even know what you're talking about

I didn't put it in crypto

I put it in Bitcoin and there's a difference

So after six months of we put 800,000 into Bitcoin Bitcoin was under 10,000

Red hitting the 10,000 mark

How much is Bitcoin today

Round to the top

He's at 96

Knocking on the door of a hundred thousand

I'm just I'm just giving examples of the faithfulness of God. So here we are in Queens

And we have over eight million

You can give God hallelujah for that. That's what so the Lord has tenet

This is not a small thing

I'm sorry. We're not a large international ministry that can just buy a building buildings cost 30 to 40 million the kind of building we need

All right, so now we're at least at the quarter of the way there hallelujah

And God thought it's wonderful that he didn't have to have me every year going all right

We've got to raise more money

Won't be won't it be nice when we announce hey we bought the building the only

Capital campaign we're going to do is for the interior

Maybe we can just get the chairs and a nice multimedia setup

But we got a building that'll stay here proclaiming the name of Jesus till that trumpet sounds

hallelujah

He's faithful

hallelujah he'll be faithful to you. He has been faithful to you. That's why you're here today

Just your butt in that seat is evidence of the faithfulness of God

hallelujah

Oh, glory to God. Let's get back to verse seven

Oh, I think about his goodness and what he's done for me makes me want to

Jesus

hallelujah

You have to have some great I think it's over now moments in your life

I've had a good number of those. Oh, man

I done did it this time. It's over and then the Lord comes in and flexes and swings in and rescues

By the way, if you can't rejoice for someone else

Especially your own church like really from your loins

How is God ever going to bless you? I'm not looking at anyone in particular

I'm just saying I just announced that God tennext a thousand percent in four years

And it was met with some budget and I'm not looking for decibel over them. I'm just saying do a heart check

And make sure because you know what I noticed the people that I see rejoice the most for others victories

They're the ones who I see also receive the most

And because something's got to be really broken in you when you have such a scarcity mindset

Where you think that it because God bless someone else now he doesn't have enough for you

I'm sorry. Maybe your parents were that way with the Oreo cookies

Maybe your brother ran and grabbed them all and only one was left for you and he got aided

But God doesn't run out of cookies, okay? God has plenty of cookies

God has planted it you never ever have oh

That's the that's the cheapest envy hater spirit. That's what it is

That's in the final chapter revelation in the Greek hater spirit

Why are haters haters because they feel like that you took what belongs to them. No, God will make more

So rejoice for others that opens you up to receive from him

Therefore as the Holy Spirit says today if you will hear his voice

Also someone might be thinking why do I give because they have eight million you don't have to I never give don't ever give because someone needs to receive

Mm-hmm

You give giving is for you

That's what's got to click

Giving is for you. It's to your benefit

Because the Bible says he'll multiply it back to you

Hallelujah

If you only want to give to really desperate down in our places

You're never going to hear that message here

Maybe that's why you like it here

Oh

Is it all right if I preach and have fun is that okay

Therefore as the Holy Spirit says today

Today by the way, that's a god day

Today

Satan loves tomorrow

In the sense that he's always telling you to do it tomorrow

Maniana

He's always either trying to remind you of the guilt of yesterday and telling you to put off doing what you should do today tomorrow

But it's always today today if you will hear his voice

Do not harden your hearts now remember the whole context of Hebrews is this group of Christians

On the verge of backsliding forever

And giving up on Jesus forsaking the faith

So he's essentially reminding them of two things. That's the whole theme of Hebrews chapter three. He's faithful

He who began a good work is faithful to complete it in you

He's faithful and two

careful with a hard heart

Careful about having a hard heart

The reason people

Are tempted and sometimes forsake the faith is they get bitter

bitter with a person and that person is god

That bitterness comes up

God

At some point in your life. I've had this many times Satan has tempted me with his bitterness

Thankfully the wisdom of the Lord came up with that

I know if I can just resist these lies. This is a total fabrication

If you're married, thank god, hopefully

You're weak they're strong and when they're weak, you're strong

There are times where you know the enemy's lying non-stop. Thank God for godly wife who can say none of that is true

None of that what you just said that's a lie that I'm okay

Because that's what's going through my head

Incessantly that's how you know the enemies trying to get to you

Your life it didn't work out how you had hoped

You didn't get what you wanted

And then you're bitter

And you try to be bitter with a person

But eventually if you allow yourself to be bitter with people that bitterness will morph at bitterness against god

Causing a hard heart

And then what will replace faith is an evil heart of unbelief

And that's how people that's how that's how you know somebody who was in the second road dancing twirling

Lift in their hands shouting Jesus and then over years of neglecting

The anointing neglecting the word neglecting the Lord you gotta let him love on you his tenderness melts away all our bitterness

You don't want to play with a hard heart

You don't want to play with that

Calus cynical heart

Jesus didn't tolerate cynicism

He allowed for skepticism

He convinced the skeptics but the Pharisees were cynics he didn't have time for them

The Sadducees were cynics that's why they were sad you see

To them he didn't have time

Do not harden your hearts as in the rebellion

In the day of trial in the wilderness. So he's telling these Hebrews remember Moses

Remember the children of Israel

They were coming into the promised land

They saw mighty signs and wonders done the red sea party man are coming from heaven

Other signs and wonders god

protecting them and preserving them

But still they ended up in unbelief they ended up with bitterness

Because it was taking too long it should have been in 11 days journey it ended up being 40 years

And it's funny they were upset at God that it was taking so long and he's going it doesn't have to take this long if you just stop being upset you'd make it in in 11 days

And you have no idea how prophetic that is one of the saddest things to see a person upset that it's not happening fast enough

And then they're like that in this terrible cycle for years

Not realizing that if they would just get their praise on

And stop being upset that it's not happening fast enough it'll actually happen

But they're always miserable that it's not happening and then 10 years later it's still not happening

Stop it

Some of you are addicted I say this would love him a heart you're addicted to your own personal pity party

You're addicted

To complaining I break that in Jesus name

See you as see you as he sees you

Begin to speak opposite of what you're hearing

You can wake up again your liver coming out of your nostrils

Feeling like the end is near and you wake up and then speak God's word God's truth lord

Let's start at the basics lord. Thank you. I'm saved. I'm forgiven. I'm full of the Holy Spirit your hand is on me

Your favor is upon me

Today good things happen to me you open doors that no man can shut lord

You're promoting me you're moving me into the center of your perfect well

I believe lord even though my emotions are saying the opposite my head is saying the opposite people around me are saying the opposite

I believe you're a good God, but not just in a generic sense. You are good to me

Hallelujah

Do not heart a hard heart is the death bell

I when I got saved at 16

I was so on fire and told the gospel to anyone who'd listen and consequently ended up leading a bunch of my high school friends to the Lord

and then same thing in college and I led a friend

To the Lord and it ended up that we were at the same college

Stony Brook University out in Long Island and it turned out that we were in the same building

And so I was still discipling her and then we were ended up going to the same Christian college

campus group it's called basic brothers and sisters in Christ still going on

And uh saying church she was on fire for the Lord

One thing I knew about her was that just a couple of years before she got saved her parents went through a divorce

And she loved her mom and she loved her dad, but the dad left she loved her dad

And her dad's departure really just it obviously paint her and it's card her

So I saw her on fire for the Lord, but you know whenever you're

traveling with Jesus on this journey

Eventually

He's going to require his lordship in your life

In the beginning you have some wiggle room you kind of figuring it all out

But then you're going to quickly realize

He's actually your lord and savior and not just your savior

And if he's not lord of all

He's not lord at all

You got to give him your life

So as that became more apparent to her

She was opening up and telling me her struggles

And it all came back to a bitterness

against her father

And a hard heart to now where she couldn't she she

I mean she could but she wouldn't she couldn't trust again

She couldn't trust father God when her own natural dad had betrayed her

I mean she could if she had allowed the lord to work on her heart

But she began to just like an eel just

Wiggle out of his grasp

There were others who were with us. They're still to this day

They text me they phone me. They're we're all serving the Lord

My heart still breaks because I saw first hand what a hard heart could do

And then it ends up being a christless life and God forbid a christless eternity

Do not harden your hearts as in the day of rebellion

Or in the rebellion in the day of trial and the wilderness

Where your father's tested me tried me and saw my works 40 years

Everything all right

You can show verse nine just to prove to them that I didn't make it up

And then we'll go to verse 10

Therefore I was angry with that generation and said they always go astray in their heart

And they have not known my ways so I sworn my wrath

They shall not enter my rest be where brethren

lest there be worship team you can come up

lest there be in any of you an evil heart of unbelief

in departing

From the living God

An evil heart of unbelief

Let me just read this to you as the worship team comes up

Unbelief this is just from various theologians new all unbelief is not

inability to understand but unwillingness to trust

It is the will not the intelligence that is involved

It is the will not the intelligence

One can truly believe God yet be occasionally troubled by doubts that's not what this is talking about

There is a doubt that once God's promise but is weak in faith at the moment

Unbelief isn't weakness of faith it sets itself in opposition to faith

When you see bitter people they actually have faith for bad things to happen to them

They have faith for their life to go nowhere

There's people who get sick. I knew it. I just knew it. It's like you get surprised you knew

You had faith that your life would get worse not better

God

God wants to heal hurting hearts right now

Hardened hearts

One of the first things when it comes to healing a hard heart

Is you have to forgive those who've wronged you

You how it's it's just a must

You in Christ Jesus have been forgiven

All of your sin and you don't even know what they all are

You got saved maybe you confessed a few things that were important to you

You have no idea the atrocities you've committed and he wiped it all clean

And then he asked for you to show that same mercy to others

And some people say I just can't know you can you just won't

You've now partnered with this evil spirit. It's a demon

Then makes you feel a sense of

victimhood and superiority somehow to hold on to that grudge

But that grudge that bitterness is killing you

Jesus told the parable

Of a man who was forgiven a great great debt then wouldn't forgive others who owed him

He owed he owed him like 20 bucks in today's terms and he owed millions

And the king found out and said hand him over to the torturers

Any Christian who's not walking in forgiveness to others

They're actually the life has been handed over to the torturers

Forgive

Release them let them go

Think of them and say I cancel your debts you owe me nothing

I forgive you I forgive you and those who really hurt hurt you

This isn't a one-time thing

You're gonna have to forgive them like a thousand times

You can do it in the service right now and then on the way back home

The whole movie will play again in your head. You'll get all ramped up again

You got to keep for their people out to forgive over and over and over again

If you want to expedite to forgive this process send them a gift

Yeah

Take a hundred bucks so worth it just send it to them

It's very hard to be bitter against someone you've given to

Hallelujah

Want you to close your eyes

Hallelujah

Hallelujah

Put your eyes on Jesus

This chapter three is a timeless message

An all-important message

Of persevering

Looking at the faithfulness of God

And protecting from hardness of heart

This is why revival is so important

This is why the move of the Holy Spirit is so important

Well, that's the Holy Spirit our hearts get hard cynical

Doubting and unbelieving

Holy Spirit move on your people

Touch people

Refresh

Re-invigorate

heal

Bring life

Life

Devanta la la vasta caesta

Every weight comes off in Jesus' name

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