Embracing Resurrection: Nathaniel Saint-Eloi on Faith, Miracles, and Spiritual Renewal

I'm not just here to heal, I'm here to resurrect, I'm not just here to do something small

in their lives.

I want to exceed every expectation they have.

I want to just not touch one of their family members, but I want a legacy of salvation

throughout their bloodline, where their children's children's children are blessed.

I don't want to just do just the status quo.

God is here to blow your mind!

Welcome to the City Light Church podcast.

Thanks for joining us today, as we look into God's Word and discover the hope and truth

that He has for us.

If you want to connect with City Light Church, feel free to visit us at citylightnyc.com,

that citylightnyc.com.

Pastor Boyan Jansik and his team believe that the power of the Holy Spirit is already

working in our hearts and minds.

As you listen to today's teaching, remember that you are deeply loved by God, that you are

surrounded by His grace, and that He has a real hope and a future for you.

Now further ado, I want to welcome up a brother and a friend, Pastor Nathaniel St.

Alloy.

Praise the Lord, guys.

I'm glad to be here.

Oh, I feel the love.

First service and show me all this love, y'all are real, y'all are the real ones.

Tell them I said it, but I like y'all better.

And if you're in both services, double love right there.

You're amazing.

All right, let's get into the word.

My wife is usually here with me.

I'm so sad she had to work.

The man, the man's making her work on today, the man, I'm tired of the man.

I can't wait to fire him.

I fire you and my wife stays home and takes care of the kids.

I'm not saying that.

I'm not being sexist.

I know how y'all feel.

My wife, that's my wife's dream.

She would love that.

In Jesus' name, let it be, according to His will, let it happen for us.

You know, you got to start speaking what you want to manifest in your life.

Y'all don't believe me, because you know what the Holy Spirit told me?

He says, 2025, you're going to move from imagination to manifestation.

All right, three of you will say, amen.

You're about to move from manifestation.

You're about to move from imagination to manifestation.

If you can imagine in your mind, God says, I'm going to blow it out of the water.

Because the scripture already says that he will do exceeding, abundant above that of

what you're able to ask or imagine.

So I don't care how big your imagination gets.

God says, I'm about to blow your imagination out of the water with my manifestation.

Come on.

Somebody shout if you believe it.

All right, I'm a guest speaker.

So if you don't like me, and this is your first time, second time, third time,

your pastor's coming back.

And you're probably going to like him more than me.

He doesn't scream as much as me.

He's not as loud as me.

I know some of y'all are just so loud.

It's okay.

It's one day.

Just, you know, be nice to me.

John chapter 11.

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Listen, y'all ready?

How people are ready for the word?

All right, let's go.

I got two verses we're going to go through and then we're just going to believe

God for something supernatural first service.

God showed up and showed out a spirit of breakthrough and deliverance in this place.

I'm telling you, if you were here, I mean, we're here.

And God just showed up in breakthrough.

Man, it's going to be amazing.

Let's do it.

Let's do it.

All right, John chapter 11 verse four, his what it says.

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Your pastor right now is enjoying his family.

Yeah, he's like, I want to get away early and enjoy my family.

I said, what a good example of a pastor putting first God and then put your family.

And it tells church people, you guys are secondary.

My family comes first.

Just in case y'all ain't no, y'all come after his family.

I know they always think like, oh, you have pastor any time I need you, you got to know?

He has a family.

All right, let me get into the word.

John chapter 11 verse four, what a good example.

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He's like, you can call, you can go preach.

I'm going to spend time with my family.

Thanks pastor boy.

I appreciate it.

I've been preaching here for over 15 years.

I can't believe it.

You're like, he's that old?

No, I'm not.

I first preached here when I was 12.

When Jesus heard that, he said, this sickness is not unto death.

God, please don't strike me for lying.

But for the glory of God, for the glory of God, but for the glory of God, but for the glory of God,

that the Son of God may be glorified through it.

Let's go to verse 40.

We're going to do John 11 verse 40.

John 11:40

Here's what it says, Jesus said to her, did I not say that if you would believe,

you would see the glory of God.

So we're going to now read verses 38, all the way to the end, 38, let's start.

Verse 38 says, then Jesus again, groaning in himself, came to the tomb.

It was a cave and a stone lay against it.

Jesus said, take away the stone, Martha, the sister of him, who was dead,

said to him, Lord, by this time there is a stench for he has been dead four days.

He was already dead four days.

Look at this, Jesus said to her, do, did I not say to you that if you would believe,

you would see the glory of God?

We read it the second time.

I did it on purpose.

That's what preachers do sometimes, right?

We do stuff on purpose, you'll understand in a few minutes.

Verse 41, let me go on this side now.

Then they took away the stone from the place where the dead man was lying.

And Jesus lifted up his eyes and said, father, I thank you that you have heard me.

And I know that you always hear me.

But because of the people who are standing by, I said this, that they may believe that you sent me.

Verse 43, and now when he had said these things, he cried out with a loud voice.

Lazarus, come forth.

And he who had died came out bound hand and foot with grave clothes.

And his face was wrapped with a cloth.

Jesus said to them, lose him and let him go.

May God bless the reading of his word.

Can we just go back to John 114 just one more time, John 114?

Can we just look at that verse one last time?

When Jesus heard that, he said, this sickness is not unto death, but for the glory of God.

But for the glory of God, that the Son of God may be glorified through it.

Tell of my sermon today is, there is glory to my story.

I'm going to say it again for those who didn't catch.

There is glory to my story.

Every person in this place has a story.

And every story comes with highs, with lows, with good times, with bad times, with difficulties, with situations, with circumstances.

That every story in here is a story that has lots of complexities.

They have lots of situations.

Many of you have been through a lot.

Your story may have divorce in it.

Your story may have hurt in it.

Many of you, because you came to Jesus, your story has restoration and healing attached to it.

I love that God can take any story and he can change that story and redeem that story.

Even though that story was going down a path of destruction and death and chaos that that now story can move from a story of chaos and confusion and death to a story of restoration, healing, hope, and breakthrough.

I believe some of you right now are at the precipice.

You're pretty much at a crossroad.

Is it going to be my story or is it going to be his story?

Is it going to be my story or is it going to be his story?

Because you only have two authors of your story.

Either God writes your story or you write your story.

And when you write your story, it usually ends up pretty bad.

When God writes your story, things in your life come that are bad, but all things work together for good to them who love the Lord and are called according to your purpose.

So I'm telling you, God is writing your story.

That doesn't mean bad things aren't going to happen to you.

It means that God is with you.

He will never leave you nor forsake you.

He will strengthen you through the seasons and you'll go through the fire and you won't get burned.

You'll go through the water and you won't drown.

You'll go through the situation and you'll come up with your head up high.

Stronger than you've ever been before.

How many people have a story of God's faithfulness, of God's goodness, of God's restoration, of God's hope, of God's healing, of God's miracle touch.

How many people got a story that says God did it for me and I got a story just like that.

And if he did it for me, he'll do it for you.

Oh my God, my God.

If he healed my body, he'll heal your body.

If he touched your soul, my soul, he'll touch your soul.

I believe he's the same yesterday, today.

And forever.

I know.

Some of you are like, man, my story came with being here and being there and going through this and going through that.

And it seems like God's not in your story, but he is.

A manual is in your story.

You see, I've mentioned Christmas, but I'm not totally doing a Christmas sermon.

He's right in the middle of your story.

And he's ready to put glory.

I like her.

I need you to come everywhere I preach.

You need to come.

I promise you she's making me want to preach.

I'm just trying to be good.

Oh God.

I feel like an organ's about to come in the background.

Don't do that to me because you're going to stir me up too much.

I love it, though.

There is glory that God wants to put on your story.

So now let's go to the text.

You know, this story is about Lazarus.

The main characters, Jesus, Lazarus, Martha, Mary.

Lazarus, Martha, Mary, siblings.

Jesus, friends, like Jesus, homies.

Like, yo, like, this is my home.

This is my road dog right here.

The Bible says every time I prove it to you, every time he went by Bethany,

the Bible says he stopped by their house.

This is my dog.

Like, not someone you call like, hey, I'm coming to see you.

Every time you walk by their house, you know what I'm talking about?

Yo, what's up?

I'm here.

You got some food?

Yeah, me and my disciples were just sitting right here in your couch and chill out.

Like, friends like that.

And you have to see something.

The Bible says Lazarus was sick.

And guess what Jesus does?

He waits.

Hold on, God.

We're supposed to be cool.

You're supposed to be my road dog.

You said I'm your friend.

But I'm sick and you don't show up.

Oh, I love this.

I love how God does this to us so many times in our lives.

Where he doesn't show up when we think he should show up.

But he shows up when it's a sovereignly appropriate for him to show up.

I love when he shows up and he shows up at a moment where you think, man, you shouldn't come.

You should come at this time and God's like, that's not when I want to come.

That's when I want to show up.

That's not when I want to show up in your situation.

But God, I need you right now.

You said we were friends.

But it doesn't seem real friendly to show up when you want to.

And God goes, my emergency is not your emergency.

That doesn't seem like friendship.

But the Bible says that was his friend, my dog, my homie, Lazarus.

Yo, we cool.

Lazarus is sick.

I have no way to few days.

The journey's already a few days.

Let's show up there.

We're going to chill just a few more days.

The Bible says he stayed two more days in the place where he was.

Jesus may not show up when you want him to show up.

But I guarantee when he shows up, he's going to show up with a miracle that's so big.

He's going to show up with a breakthrough that's going to break every expectation you've ever had.

I promise you that he may not come when you want him to come up.

But when God shows up, get ready for something amazing and miraculous that's going to happen in your life.

Baby, God's getting ready to show up in your bleak situation.

He's getting ready to show up in your impossible situation.

And say, I'm the king of glory.

I'm the Lord of all.

I'm the Alpha and the Omega.

I'm the beginning and the end.

I'm the offspring of David.

I'm the root of Jesse.

I'm going to shift your situation.

Look at this.

Jesus waits two more days.

And he says something really interesting.

He says this miracle, this thing I'm going to do.

He said it's in verse three.

Verse four, he says it's for the glory of God to be revealed.

So I had to look at what the word glory meant.

There's really two major words for glory.

I mean, there's a few words in the Olden New Testament, but there's two main words.

The two main words for glory, the first word is kabad.

If you are a charismatic believer, you've heard that word kabad.

A million times they're blowing the shofar.

The kabad of God.

Don't act like you don't, you know, you haven't been in them services.

And they waving the flags, kabad, kabad.

I'm not making further because that's me right there.

Like, glory, I don't, I don't wave flags though.

So I just can't, I can't.

I just can't.

As a man, I can't see myself waving the flag.

I know someone, I just can't for me, for me personally.

Nathaniel Saint-Eloy.

An angel from heaven would have to come down and say, wave that flag.

And I'm like, nope, Jesus come down.

Angel, this could be a demon.

I need Jesus as proof because I'm not waving the flag.

But this word kabad means heaviness.

It means a weight.

It means like there's a chair there and I put my entire weight on the chair.

God goes, glory means I'm putting my weight on a situation.

Oh, that's heavy.

You know how heavy it is?

It also means reputation.

There's a Greek word called doxa.

And that word means reputation.

So when God goes, it's for my glory.

It's to show people my reputation.

It also means an opinion on a matter.

It's to show you my opinion about this.

I want to show you how I actually feel about this thing.

So glory, you can read the verse like this.

This sickness is not unto death.

And so I can show you my opinion about this.

So I can flex my muscles.

I can flex my muscle on your situation and show you how I actually feel about it.

Hold on.

So now you look at this completely different.

Because you're looking at a situation you're going through and you're saying,

God's trying to flex on my situation.

God's trying to flex all over my situation.

He's trying to show himself strong where I'm weak.

And so Jesus rolls up.

And by this time Lazarus is dead.

Jesus told his disciples.

He already warned them.

He said, Lazarus is sleeping and they're like, oh my gosh, we'll wake him up.

That's cool.

He's like, now you don't get it.

He's dead.

Oh, man, we should die with him, Thomas.

We should just, are we going to go there and die with him so we can be in heaven?

Y'all don't get it.

So what does Jesus do?

He goes into Bethany four days after the man is dead.

Four days.

It was a journey.

It was a four day journey for him to get there.

He goes there.

He steps on the scene and he's like,

first person to come to him is Martha. Martha is the worker.

You know Martha, Martha, Martha, Martha.

You work.

She's working.

You know the workers are always there first.

She's running.

Oh, I got to meet with Jesus.

Oh, Jesus.

If you were just here a few days earlier,

when we called you,

when we told you that he was sick,

and you just came a few days earlier,

guess what?

My brother wouldn't have died.

He will still be alive.

Jesus, why didn't you show up?

But I know if you ask God whatever,

he'll do it.

And then Jesus has the best response for her.

Because Jesus goes,

but I am.

The resurrection and the life.

Your brother is going to raise again.

I am.

I am.

The resurrection and the life.

And her being so funny,

you know what she says to Jesus?

She's like, Jesus, I know my brother is going to rise again.

He's going to rise on that day when everyone rises up.

Her theology was right,

but she missed the moment.

That's the problem with people who have too much theology.

Is that they can miss moments with God?

Because they become sothiologically minded

that they can't even see what the Holy Spirit is trying to do.

They can be sothiologically minded,

oh yeah, but God doesn't fit in this context,

in my old church,

and where I used to go,

and where I used to be.

This is how we did things,

that you can miss the move of heaven.

I don't want to be sothiologically minded

that I miss out on what God's doing on the earth right now.

And she was sothiologically,

and guess what?

She had proper theology.

Yeah, when I get to heaven,

everything is going to be perfect,

and the sweet buy and buy.

And God said,

I want to do it in the dirty here and now.

Some of you are so excited about heaven,

and I'm excited about heaven.

But you know what I'm excited about every day I'm living on the earth?

I can bring heaven down to earth.

Your kingdom come,

your will be done on earth as it is in heaven.

So I can bring the reality of heaven down to my earthly situation.

That means if there's sickness,

I can call heaven's healing power down on the earth,

and my body shall be healed.

I just need about three people in this room,

who are saying,

I'm calling heaven down on the earth,

because I believe my God.

It's interesting.

You can sometimes be so focused on the future.

That you don't see what God's doing now.

I can't wait for heaven,

but I'm on the earth.

I could fantasize and daydream about heaven,

or I can bring heaven right now.

I can go to my job and be like,

I'm a conduit.

You ain't making it to heaven,

but I'm going to bring heaven to you to the point where you make it to heaven.

You can look at people in a hellish situation

and you can be like,

I'll be heaven for you.

Some y'all didn't catch that.

Because you don't think of yourself that highly.

You just think, I'm just a regular Christian.

You're not a regular Christian.

None of you are regular Christians.

Not one person in this place is a regular Christian.

Everyone of you have the resurrected Jesus living on the inside of you.

That means when you step on a scene,

you can look at a storm and you can command.

Peace be still to the storm.

It means you can come to a situation where people are in dire straits.

And because you come in,

you carry life on the inside of you.

And things that were dead must come a lot.

I prophesy that you've got a river on the inside of you.

That when you open up your mouth,

things got to break.

Things got to shift.

Things got to open up.

Things got to turn around.

I got a well of living water on the inside of me.

That's going to shift generation.

Somebody shout amen.

That means when I step on the scene,

I don't care how bad it is.

It got to turn around.

Oh, my job's in chaos.

Not anymore, baby.

I'm here.

The prince of peace lives inside of me.

So when I step into place,

peace got to be around.

So, let me see.

I got a few minutes.

Second service.

You see?

You second service people are shady.

I saw the shade you do at the first.

This is second service.

We're not like them.

They're not like us.

I thought you always saved.

But Jesus steps in their mouth as the first person.

And Jesus goes, I am the resurrection of life.

If you believe in me, though you may die,

you're going to live again.

Oh, yeah.

Of course, in heaven, we're going to live.

Didn't get the moment.

So finally, she's like, I'm going to go call Mary.

Mary's in the house.

She runs, gets Mary.

Mary finally comes in.

And Mary's like, no.

The teacher's looking for you.

So the Bible says they got up

and they went to him as quickly as possible.

I forgot to say this in the first service.

You see, y'all getting some stuff.

The Bible says a crowd followed them to Jesus.

And it was a crowd of professional mourners.

Notice people in your life.

They're never there when things are good.

They never show up where you're happy.

And God did it for you.

And there's breakthrough.

But they're there to mourn with you.

They're professional mourners.

And any time God starts blessing you,

you see that they don't even show up anymore.

Because they get their identity in your failure.

They get their identity in your misery.

What brings them joy is seeing you joyless.

What brings them peace is seeing you weeping.

I feel this in my spirit.

There's some professional mourners.

All they can do is come around when things are bad.

Oh yeah, let's talk about how bad things are in your life.

Oh yeah, let's contemplate on negativity.

I don't let people call me and talk about bad stuff.

You can mention it, but we stop right there.

Then we start talking about the promises of God.

I won't let my friends mourn for too long.

Weeping indoors for a night.

If you cried for more than one day, baby, wipe those tears off.

We're going to start claiming the promises of God.

We're going to start speaking the scriptures.

Because you've cried too long about this.

Wipe off the tears and start speaking the promise of God.

You will live and not die in the clever works of the Lord.

I'm not going to be every day.

Man, I just wish my finances.

Nope. Here's what I'm going to do.

I'm a soul.

Then I'm going to go.

My God shall supply all my needs according to his riches and glory.

I started speaking the word.

You can see to the store.

You can.

I'm a soul.

Where's my seed?

Where?

God.

This is your word.

Not my word.

I don't play with God.

If it's his word, you better come through.

It's not my promise.

It's your promise.

I do my part.

Believe he does his part.

Deliver.

Amen.

Your only part is belief.

His parts to do the rest.

Where was I at?

Yes, Mary's there.

The professional mourners come out and she rises up and he goes, bring me to the tomb.

They go to the tomb.

And the professional mourners start having a conversation among themselves.

How come he couldn't come a few minutes earlier?

He knew his friend was sick.

Why did he come at this time?

You know what's interesting?

Mary was believing.

Martha was believing.

The crowd was believing.

For a healing.

Jesus was trying to give them a resurrection.

I'm going to say it like this.

They were expecting for something that wasn't that hard.

You know there were people, doctors who could heal.

There were literal people who went around who had different remedies to heal.

Jesus was in trying to just do what was regular.

He was trying to blow their minds.

He said,

When you only believe for a healing, I could never give you a resurrection.

Because you know, I say it again.

If you only believe me for a healing, you could never get a resurrection.

Some of you have not gotten a resurrection because you're just,

Well, God, I just want the bare minimum.

Bare minimum blessing.

Just send a man, God.

And God was like, I don't want to just give you a man.

I just don't want to give you a miracle.

I just don't want to give you a breakthrough.

I just don't want to give you a raise.

I want to blow your mind with how big the blessing, the favor, the open door,

the promotion, the marriage, the children.

I want to do what you couldn't do in your flesh.

I want to do what you don't have the capability or power to do on your own.

You couldn't resurrect him.

So I got to do it.

So he says something.

This sickness is not into death, it's for the glory of God.

Because I want to show you what I feel about death.

You know the reason why I did this?

Because I want to show you my feelings about death.

Death should be nowhere near you.

Death, where is your sting?

Grave, where is your victory?

Jesus goes, I overcame death, health, and the grave, my God.

He's showing you how he feels about this thing.

Because glory is his opinion about a matter.

Here's my opinion about death.

I'm the resurrection and the life.

Can I tell you how I feel about death?

Jesus made it clear.

I'm the resurrection and the life.

He said it over and over.

I'm the resurrection and the life.

And then it got to the point where the Bible says they're at the grave now and they have this conversation.

And they're like, oh Jesus, if he was just here a few more days, he could have been healed.

And then the Bible says Jesus groans within himself when I looked up that word in the Greek.

You know what it means?

He got angry.

He started getting upset.

He started getting mad.

Oh, these people didn't hear me the first time.

I'm not just here to heal.

I'm here to resurrect.

They didn't hear me the first time.

I'm not just here to do a small miracle.

I'm here to blow their minds in.

They didn't hear me the first time.

I'm not just here to do something small in their lives.

I want to exceed every expectation they have.

I want to blow their mind with the level of breakthrough I bring them.

I want to just not touch one of their family members, but I want a legacy of salvation

throughout their bloodline where their children's children's children are blessed.

I don't want to just do just the status quo.

It is here to blow your mind with breakthrough and healing and restoration

if you believe it.

Yes.

So Jesus gets to the tomb now.

And it's the best part.

He goes.

Roll away the stone.

They roll away the stone.

And then Martha, she talked a little too much.

Because she goes, Lord, by this time there's going to be a stench.

It's been four days.

He's going to smell.

The Holy Spirit began to tell me some of you don't want to open up certain areas

that the Holy Spirit is trying to pinpoint in your life to bring resurrection to

because you think it's going to stink.

It's areas you haven't touched for years.

It's areas of abuse you haven't touched for years.

It's areas of rejection and pain you haven't touched for years.

It's areas of hurt that you haven't gotten to the root of.

Things that happen to you when you are seven.

Things that that teacher said about you.

You feel like the black sheep of your family.

You don't want to get into the root of that.

Because you know it's going to smell right now.

I don't want church people to see who I really am.

I'm really dead on the inside.

Put on the smiley head.

Everything looks good on the outside.

Praise God.

Good to see you, brother.

Good to see you, sister.

And you know you got your church voice.

That ain't you.

I know you are a church.

That ain't you.

That ain't you.

I've seen you out on the street.

That ain't you.

Here, brother.

Good to see you.

I know you.

I know you're going to open it up.

Not so people can see it.

So God could deal with it.

God sometimes does it in front of people so people can see how good he is.

It's not to embarrass you.

When people look at your life 20 years later, 15 years later,

they're like, hold on.

God did all of that in you.

But someone who I went to high school with here, right, in the service.

And I hope she's like, my God, God did all this stuff in you 20 years.

Okay, I'm blowing up my spot.

20 plus years later.

God did all of that.

He opens it up so everyone can see.

And then look at what it says.

Jesus was trying to blow the expectations that they had.

They said, four days, it's over.

Don't even try it.

That's what she was trying to tell them.

It's over by this point.

Four days means his soul left his body.

He's already in heaven.

He's already somewhere.

You can't do it.

The resurrection can't happen.

It's impossible at this point.

See, Jesus then shows you that he's in heaven.

It's impossible at this point.

See, Jesus didn't show up when it was kind of possible.

You could have showed up on the third day.

I'm going to do this on the third day because his soul didn't leave his body.

Jesus goes, nope.

I want them to believe that his soul left his body and there's no more hope for him.

Now I'm going to show up and show them that I'm really the resurrection and the life.

He ain't just sleeping.

He's dead dead.

You have a situation that's dead dead.

I'm not talking about just dead.

I'm talking about double dead.

I'm talking about a situation that's dead dead.

I'm talking about finances that are dead dead.

And then the Holy Spirit goes, but I'm the resurrection and the life.

I don't care how dead it is.

Once it gets around me, it's got to come alive.

And so Jesus goes, Lazarus.

He says, well, the tomb and then he does his whole prayer.

He's like, Lord, you hear me.

You've always heard me.

These people don't believe you hear me.

Just so that they can know.

Read that on your own time.

Then he says, now he said these things.

He cried with a loud voice.

That's why he was like, you too loud in church.

I'm not too loud.

He cried with a loud voice.

You ain't too loud, sis.

Don't let them censor you and censor you.

You know, shout.

Jesus spoke with a loud voice.

I know we hear these stories.

We read these things.

We see you too.

And we see all the stuff on Netflix.

And Jesus seems so quiet.

Nope.

With a loud voice.

He cried.

Lazarus.

Oh, I'm be loud.

Some break news.

You can't get being timid and quiet.

Some break news.

You got to speak loud.

Some break news.

You got to declare to print up holidays and to powers

and to rulers of darkness.

I stepped on the scene.

And the resurrected grace lives inside of me.

So this dead situation has to turn around.

Because I stepped in here with Jesus.

Lazarus, come forth.

Now, here's what the Bible says.

He who had died came out, bound, hand in foot with grave

clothes.

And his face was wrapped with a cloth.

Jesus said to them, loosen and let him go.

He came out with grave clothes.

Bound.

Come on, pass them all.

Bound, hand in foot.

Come on, you got to do a tighter nap.

Like I'm a prisoner of war.

Oh, Jesus.

Oh, all right.

That's enough, brother.

He took all his aggression out on me.

Oh, my God.

You got him angry this morning, says?

Now, I know it wasn't you.

It's him.

It's definitely him.

Yeah.

And the Bible says,

he came out, bound, hand in foot with grave clothes.

And on his face was wrapped up.

Come on.

And I said, Holy Spirit, okay, why?

And then the Lord began to speak to me.

And He said, there's a lot of people in the body of Christ.

They've come out of the grave, but they've never taken the grave clothes off.

But I already said, Jesus is my Lord.

I already said, God, come into my heart.

I prayed the prayer.

I even come to church more than one time a month.

I've even joined a life group.

I even got baptized.

But you're like this.

No direction.

I don't even know where I'm going, Lord help me.

No, don't help me, don't help me.

If I fall, I fall.

Because this is how people fall.

Because you still got the grave clothes on.

And you expect your pastor to be like, let me help you through this.

Nope, you don't need help, you need deliverance.

Come on.

Because let me tell you something.

Freedom is coming out of the grave.

But deliverance has taken the grave clothes off.

And a lot of us were free, but we're not delivered.

So we're walking around like this, still smoking.

I know I'm in the right room, I don't care if y'all are going to act.

The first thing you do is your phone and weed.

Because you need an escape.

After work, oh, let me get drinks because you need an escape.

Because you're out of the grave.

I'm actually trying to worship.

For some reason, I just can't lift up my hands.

For some reason, it's hard for me to pray hallelujah when he tells me praise.

I can't praise.

Everyone's jumping, but it's hard for me to jump.

I think it's because I'm timid.

I think it's because I'm an introvert.

There's no introverted praise.

There's no extroverted praise.

Let everything that has breath.

Amen.

He who had died came out bound hand in foot with grave clothes.

And his face was wrapped with a cloth.

I'm not putting the cloth back in my face.

Jesus said to them,

Jesus, I did my part.

I got you out of the grave.

You know, when he said to the person,

he said, pick up your bed and walk.

I did my part, I healed you.

You got a clean of the mess that you made for the last 30 years being here.

By my help, by my strength, by my spirit.

Now it's your turn to play.

Get free from this.

He said to them,

Pastor Moe, Pastor Boyan,

the leaders of your church,

spiritual people who are around,

help get him out of the grave clothes.

Help get him.

There's possibilities on you,

but it's also a team effort.

See today, the Holy Spirit,

help the grave clothes.

Come on, I need just three people.

Come on, I just need about 10 people.

I just need a few Holy Ghost people.

I just need a few people who know that the Holy Spirit just came in this place and break through.

Just hit this room and lift up your hands.

Open up your mouth and prophetically take off your grave clothes with a praise.

Come on.

Open up your mouth and begin to give God a victory shout.

A victory praise.

Hallelujah.

Come on, praise him.

Let everything that has brought praise to Lord.

Let everything that has brought praise to Lord.

Let everything that has brought praise to Lord.

Let everything that has brought praise to Lord.

It's not enough to get out of Egypt.

You got to get Egypt out of you.

It's not enough to come out the grave.

I got to get the grave clothes off.

I don't want to know why you got to get the grave clothes off because it doesn't look like your future.

You got to step on that looks like your past.

You're out of the grave but we look like your past.

I know they only say amen.

Getting drunk looks like your past.

Clothing looks like your past.

Sleeping around looks like your past.

Lying and manipulating looks like your...

I'm out of the grave.

I want to get the grave clothes off me.

Right now the Holy Spirit is beckoning some of you.

He's calling some of you.

He is reaching out by his spirit to some of you saying,

this is your moment of freedom.

This is your moment to get delivered.

This is your moment where I want to come in with my Holy Spirit

and I want to do a work in you.

I believe right now that God is going to show up big in your life.

I believe some of you hit the second act of your life.

The first act was messy.

But sometimes the Holy Spirit God closed the curtains, changed the scene around.

Swap out some friends.

Swap out some stuff and then open up the curtains and be like,

baby, all things have been made new.

Same story with different scenery.

I want everyone to stand to your feet.

I believe the Lord is here right now to set captors free.

I believe God is here right now.

Reaching out and saying,

I'm calling you to me.

Not to religion, not to church, but to me.

To a relationship with me.

Like this loud crazy preacher.

But what I said, don't tell me it in prick your heart like,

man, I need God.

I got religion, but I don't have God.

I had a first communion, but I don't have God.

Some of y'all came from the Catholic background.

I had a second communion.

Right?

Don't you think you do second communion?

It'll do a third and there's no third.

Confirmation?

Yeah, you know I'm not Catholic.

The real OG Catholic said, no, confirmation.

Get it right.

First is communion, second is confirmation.

That's so confusing.

I did all that, but I'm still bound.

Because religion doesn't set you free.

The sun sets you free.

A good church doesn't set you free.

The sun sets you free.

A good church is a good portal to help you be free, but it doesn't free you.

So this first call is going to be for people.

You haven't even gotten out of the grave yet.

Jesus is calling you, whatever your name is.

Maria, come out and you're like, mmm, I'm good.

But today he's calling you.

Timothy, come out.

Now you, I'm going to go.

You out.

Chris Paul, Sam, come out.

If that's you, you're like, man, God's telling me to come out this grave, this dead place.

I want you to just lift up your hand.

We're all going to close our eyes.

I want you to lift up your hands right now.

Come on, lift up your right hand if that's you.

Come on, lift up your right hand if that's you.

Lift up your right hand.

You're saying, Jesus, I need you to be my Lord.

I need you to be my Savior.

I need you to be my God.

I want to come out of the grave.

Come on, if you're accepting Jesus, I want you to just lift up your right hand right now.

Just lift it up high as high as you can.

I want you to pray this prayer after me, say, Lord Jesus.

Come on, we could all say together, Lord Jesus.

I accept you as my Lord and my Savior.

Thank you.

Now from this day forward.

I'm out of the grave.

And I'm taking off the grave clothes.

Thank you for salvation.

In Jesus' name, amen.

If you prayed that prayer from your heart and you believed it, guess what?

You just got out of the grave.

So the next step is, join a good church, pray, read the Bible,

ask the Holy Spirit the areas that he wants to perfect and change in your life

and start taking off that grave clothes.

So the second call is going to be for those, I'm already out of the grave, baby.

Or I just got out of the grave.

But I'm safe, I'm going to heaven.

But I don't want to go to heaven looking like hell.

That one hurt me.

I said it, I said, ooh.

I don't want to go to heaven looking like my past.

I don't want to go to heaven looking like I'm not free.

I want to go to heaven, but I want to go to heaven free and delivered.

I want to go to heaven and I want to be like God.

I hear you say you're good and faithful servant.

And you're like, man, there's years of hurt, years of abuse, years of anxiety, years of fear,

years of word curses that people spoke over, years of things.

And you're like, but I really haven't gotten delivered from it yet.

The Holy Spirit is here right now.

I'm here to set you free and to deliver you.

I was reading something in the Word, this has nothing to do with my sermon,

but I feel that I need to share it.

It's in Acts 10, and it's when the Holy Spirit fell on Cornelius' house.

And you know, Peter gets this vision, and the vision is,

don't call unclean what I've called clean,

which means if you accept Jesus, you're no longer unclean, you're now.

And so Peter thought they're Gentiles, they're not Jews, they're unclean,

and Peter starts preaching this message to them.

The Holy Spirit told me, you guys are not unclean anymore, you guys are clean.

And it says, while Peter was speaking these words, he was telling them they were clean.

It says, the Holy Spirit fell on them.

I looked at that word for fell on them.

And I was thinking like it's some charismatic experience.

You know what it literally means?

The Holy Spirit hug them.

The Holy Spirit hug them.

Then when Jesus talks about, then when Peter talks about the experience a few verses down,

he goes, the Holy Spirit fell on them the same way it did on us at first.

Which means when the Holy Spirit came in Acts chapter 2, the Holy Spirit.

Acts 2 · chapter mention

He's wrapped his arms.

Oh, I feel that in my spirit.

Holy Spirit wrapped his loving arms around them.

Right now the Holy Spirit wants to wrap his loving arms around some people and heal you.

And rid you of the toxicity and the pain and the hurt and the fears and the anxiety and the rejection and the brokenness.

It's now the Holy Spirit wants to come in and do it.

Will you let him?

Lift up your hands.

We're going to sing a song.

After we sing a song, I'm going to invite people to the altar.

And if you need a fresh touch from God and you're like, this is me, I'm out of the grave,

but I need help getting the grave close.

If I need someone to pray for me, I need someone to contend with me, I need to cry out to God.

I need to just lose myself a little bit so the Holy Spirit can take full control of me.

I'm going to invite you up to this altar after this song and we'll be here contending and praying for your breakthrough.

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