Sermon
"Questing for Purpose" Ecclesiastes 1:12–2:26
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Transcript
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Before we go on, let's ask the Lord's blessing as we open his word.
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Father, we need desperately to be humble, honest people.
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Not because humility is a good virtue, and if we're honest, we like to be around humble
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that we won't hide behind accomplishments, good behavior, politeness, but Lord, we will
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see us for how we truly are, people that are in desperate need of a savior, people that
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look to all sorts of different things to be a savior to us, and yet all these things come
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short.
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Lord, help us to have eyes to see and ears to hear and minds to comprehend what you would
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speak to us this morning from your word about.
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We pray this in Christ's name.
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In 1940, Viktor Frankl and most of his family were rounded up and sent to a Nazi concentration
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camp.
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He endured years in multiple camps.
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He actually survived, but he lost his entire family, including his wife, whom he had recently
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married.
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After he was liberated, he wrote a book titled Man's Search for Meaning.
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In it, he recounts that, among other things, that prisoners who found purpose were able
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to endure the horrors of the camps, whether or not they were murdered or they survived.
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He would say in his book, quote,
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Those who have a why to live can bear with almost any how.
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I think it's a remarkable book, and although it is not gospel truth, there's a lot of wisdom
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in Frankl's writing.
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Having a purpose is so very essential to what it means to be human.
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We need to understand and feel that what we do matters.
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Nobody wants to work for it to count for nothing.
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We want to know we're not just a cog in a machine, but we have a place.
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But how do we find such meaning?
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That's the real challenge.
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We know that we need a purpose, but where do we find it?
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We search for our meaning in things that do not last or cannot last, and we become lost
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when the thing that defines us no longer works.
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And what follows is a crisis of purpose.
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We're in our second week in Ecclesiastes.
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I've chosen, even though the English Standard Version of which we're reading calls
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the teacher or the main character, the preacher.
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I like to call him the sage.
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And here the sage begins his real investigation.
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If he kind of laid out what the problem is in verses 1 to 11 of chapter 1,
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what follows could be called him getting into the quest.
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The search for purpose.
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The quest for meaning.
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To find out what exactly humanity's true purpose and meaning in life look like.
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So, this is a longer text.
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We're going to touch on just about every aspect of it.
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We'll look at chapter 1 of 12 to 18.
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That's what Brad read for us, but we're going to actually go through the rest of chapter 2.
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We're going to look at the quest itself.
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The sage will lay out the parameters for his quest.
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And he will look at three aspects of where we, as 21st century Canadians,
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and also Israelites from 3,000 years ago, where we will find or look for meaning.
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Specifically, we'll look for meaning in pleasure and in culture.
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And we'll look for meaning in wise living.
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We kind of call that clean living now.
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And then finally, work and vocation.
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So, the sage, he begins his quest, verses 12 to 18 of chapter 1.
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And he introduces himself as a Solomonic figure.
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So, King Solomon, the third king of Israel, the successor to King David, King David's son.
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He was a grand figure, kind of Israel's high point in the kingdom.
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Whether or not Solomon wrote this, I think is besides the point.
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I think we can glean some stuff if we, you know, read it as if Solomon himself wrote it.
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I think we can glean other things if we see it in a different way.
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I will just say that this sage, whether or not he is Solomon,
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he is introducing himself as a Solomonic figure.
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A kind of king that has unbelievable wealth and renown,
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who has philosophized and investigated the meaning of life and death.
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And he has done it in such a way where all of his money and his resources and his faculties have been employed.
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Every rock, so to speak, has been overturned in the quest to find meaning.
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Therefore, the Solomonic figure, he's to be trusted.
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He has done such a thorough job, far better than anything we could do.
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And he is saying, listen, right off the bat, I have undertaken this quest.
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It is far more thorough than anything that anybody else has tried.
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Like, just trust me on this.
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And yet, this most capable and well-equipped sage states from the very beginning
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that such an inquiry, it did not lead to an answer.
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In fact, it only caused him more difficulty and frustrations.
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It caused him to have more questions.
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Despite his great efforts, such an inquiry was ultimately fruitless.
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For the sage, he could not find the answers to the questions he sought.
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This is what he says in verse 14, and I'll read to 18.
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I've seen everything that is done under the sun.
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And behold, all is vanity and striving after wind.
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And just a bit of a reminder from last week, if you forget or if you weren't here,
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vanity is this term that we'll see throughout Ecclesiastes,
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and it describes vapor, mist.
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I described it last week as a cold, frigid February morning,
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and you breathe, and you just see mist.
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You see it.
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You can't grasp it.
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You can't keep it.
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You can't bottle it.
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It is gone.
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Go back to verse 14.
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I'll read it again.
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I have seen everything that is done under the sun,
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and behold, all is vanity, all is vapor, all is mist,
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and a striving after the wind.
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What is crooked cannot be made straight,
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and what is lacking cannot be counted.
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I said in my heart,
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I have acquired great wisdom surpassing all who were over Jerusalem before me,
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and my heart has had great experiences of wisdom and knowledge.
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And I applied my heart to know wisdom and to know madness and folly.
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I perceive that this is also but a striving after the wind.
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Verse 18.
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For in much wisdom is much vexation,
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and he who increases knowledge increases sorrow.
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It's not as if the sage here is saying that there is nothing good under the sun,
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that life is devoid of any goodness.
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Rather, he is describing our collective inability to exhaust all there is to know.
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So the most capable, the smartest, the wealthiest of all philosophers,
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of all investigators,
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he is realizing that there are limits he's bumping up against.
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He can only know so much.
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That's really what verse 15 is getting at.
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What is crooked cannot be made straight.
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What is lacking cannot be counted.
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There are limits to our ability to understand.
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In fact, the more the sage investigated,
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the more he understood that the world is not as it should be,
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and we are not as we ought to be,
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and yet there must be an answer to this crisis,
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this search for purpose and meaning,
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because no human being is satisfied with just existing.
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It's not enough to just breathe and eat and sleep and wake up and do it all again the next day.
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So the sage, right from the beginning,
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it's if he's sitting in an armchair as an elderly man,
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giving this story of, you know,
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back in the day I did a wildly thorough investigation of life.
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It came up short.
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Now let me tell you about it.
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Let me walk you through it.
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It's like almost a bit of a retrospect here.
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You'll get into the first investigation of pleasure and culture.
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Starting in chapter 2, verse 1.
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I said in my heart,
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Come now, I will test you with pleasure.
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Enjoy yourself.
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But behold, this also was vanity.
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I said of laughter,
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It is mad,
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and of pleasure,
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What use is it?
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I searched with my heart how to cheer my body with wine,
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my heart still guiding me with wisdom,
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and how to lay hold on folly
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till I might see
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what was good for the children of man
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to do under heaven
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during the few days of their life.
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I made great works.
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I built homes.
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Sorry, I built houses
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and planted vineyards for myself.
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I made myself gardens and parks
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and planted in them all kinds of fruit trees.
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I made myself pools
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from which to water the forests of growing trees.
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I bought male and female slaves
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and had slaves who were born in my house.
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I had also great possessions of herds and flocks,
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more than any who had been before me in Jerusalem.
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I also gathered for myself silver and gold
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and the treasure of kings and provinces.
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I got singers, both men and women,
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and many concubines,
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the delight of the son of man.
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I'll pause there.
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The sage now seeks pleasure
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in this quest to find ultimate meaning.
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He aims to engage all the physical senses
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to discover if any ultimate meaning exists in there.
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He visits the finest restaurants.
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He drinks the best vintage.
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He parties with the A-list.
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He enjoys the top entertainment of his day.
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He undertakes large building projects
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as if he were some kind of ancient Emirati.
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He designs grand gardens that rival Eden itself.
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I think I'll touch on this a bit later on.
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The language here of building a park,
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in the original language,
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it has Edenic kind of overtones to it.
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Again, fruit trees, pools, forests.
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This man is undertaking
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an incredible legacy building project
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to enjoy culture and goodness and pleasure.
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He then explores sensuality
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with whoever he desires,
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even if it means against their will.
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Clearly slavery and concubines here.
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He has servants for every need,
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vacation homes,
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he has cottages,
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and more money than he can spend.
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I mean,
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it really is a no-holds-bars deep dive.
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And somehow, he says at the beginning of all of this,
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that somehow he kept his faculties.
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He wasn't given completely into hedonism.
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Hard to understand how,
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but nevertheless, this is what he says.
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And the question is,
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has it brought him any long-lasting,
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deep, eternal meaning?
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He continues on in verse 9 and 10.
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So I became great and surpassed
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all who were before me in Jerusalem.
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Also my wisdom remained with me.
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That's kind of like he didn't let himself go
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into all sorts of
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an uncontrollable, hedonistic experience.
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Verse 10.
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And whatever my eyes desired,
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I did not keep from them.
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I kept my heart from no pleasure,
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for my heart found pleasure in all my toil,
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and this was my reward for all my toil.
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There are no kings or queens among us,
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but modern Western life is about as close
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to a royal existence that anybody has had
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in the history of mankind.
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It's really incredible what we have at our fingertips.
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We're no longer subsistence farmers.
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We have options,
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and plenty of them.
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So many options that we get exhausted from our options.
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And many of you, if you're honest,
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myself included,
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I see some of myself,
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you might see some of yourself in these verses,
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recognizing a similar experience to the sage.
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Like the sage, you haven't really held anything back
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that your eyes have desired.
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Any things that your heart has wanted,
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you have indulged in.
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You have enjoyed both lawful and wonderful pleasures,
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but also maybe unlawful and illicit pleasures.
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But have you felt a sense of purpose and meaning in them
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that still resonates today,
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that continues on,
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that doesn't diminish in any way?
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You still feel that sense of purpose and meaning,
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that great enjoyment,
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or has it waned?
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Even worse,
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do you feel guilt around it,
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some of those illicit things?
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I know I do.
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Maybe you do as well.
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The sage continues, verse 11.
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Then I considered all that my hands had done,
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and the toil I had expended in doing it,
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and behold,
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all was vanity and a striving after wind,
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and there was nothing to be gained under the sun.
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You know,
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we engage in this consumption
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that really doesn't have many limits.
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I'm speaking generally here.
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Thinking that it will gladden our hearts,
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and yet we all know that getting everything you want
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does not lead to pleasure,
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but it is a kind of,
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I don't want to say hell on earth
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because it seems too dramatic,
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but it leads to maybe more heartache
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than it does to a heart that's gladdened.
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When children are given everything they want
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and no is not a word that they've heard,
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usually these children don't grow up to be
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fine, wonderful, thoughtful, caring,
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selfless, well-rounded adults,
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what do we say?
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They become spoiled.
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This is what it looks like to pursue pleasure as an end,
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completely devoid,
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completely without God.
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In fact, the sage,
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like I mentioned before,
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he tries to imitate the reality of Eden,
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of a paradise,
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but Eden
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had God
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residing in it.
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The Eden he's creating
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is completely
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without God.
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And in fact,
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you'll notice how God
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is completely absent
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from this
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complete
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pursuit of pleasure.
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What does he say?
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I made,
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I built,
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I gathered,
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I had,
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I grew,
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I got,
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whatever my eyes
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desired,
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I did not keep from them,
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I kept my heart from no pleasure.
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It's me,
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it's I.
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He is trying to build himself up,
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to bring himself glory,
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to engage in all the things
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that will elevate him
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to the very
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highest of thrones.
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His self-esteem is like
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at an 11.
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But bolstering one's self-esteem
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is not a recipe
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for meaning and purpose.
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Really interesting.
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Some of you may know
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Arthur Brooks.
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He is a happiness expert,
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if you can even call
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somebody that.
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He's a Harvard professor,
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and he's wrote
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a ton of books.
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I listened to
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a podcast
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this week
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where he was talking
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about this
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pursuit of the me,
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this embrace
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of the I.
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And this is what he said.
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Quote,
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left to my devices,
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I'm going to think
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all day long
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about my stuff,
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all the things
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that I'm actually doing.
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And that's really boring,
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and it's tedious,
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and it's terrifying,
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and it's terrible.
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It's hard to break out of that,
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as a matter of fact.
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It's one of the characteristics
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of clinical depression,
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ruminating,
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thinking about yourself.
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And it's almost like a prison.
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It's like you're locked up with,
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it's like you're locked up
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with you all the time.
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That's one of the characteristics
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of clinical depression.
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You get peace and perspective
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instead from zooming out
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into the universe
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and finding your smallness.
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It's paradoxical, isn't it?
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It feels like you should be
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less happy when you're small,
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because your self-esteem
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would be lower.
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Side note,
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the self-esteem in literature
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that everybody thought
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they knew,
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which is that if your self-esteem
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is higher,
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you'll be happier.
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It doesn't stand up.
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And a lot of really good scientists
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have questioned that.
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Why?
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Because of this autofocus.
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It's maddening to be thinking
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about yourself all the time.
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Me, me, me.
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I'm so great.
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I'm so important.
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I'm so interesting.
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And then he says,
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no, you're not.
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And thank God.
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That's important for us
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to remember.
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An intense focus on me
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is no recipe for salvation.
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It is a recipe for disaster.
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And if such,
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and it kind of begs the question,
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if such unchecked pleasure
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will not bring meaning and purpose,
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surely the opposite, right?
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A morally upright
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and intellectually vigorous life
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will give us pleasure.
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So if an engagement of hedonism
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and enjoyment without limits,
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if that will not give us pleasure,
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let's pendulum swing to the other side.
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Let's look at the next section
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starting in verse 12 to 17.
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The sage returns to the quest.
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So I turn to consider wisdom
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and madness and folly.
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For what can the man do
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who comes after the king?
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Only what has already been done.
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Then I saw that there is more gain
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in wisdom than in folly.
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So, sorry,
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I'll start verse 13 again.
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Then I saw that there is more gain
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in wisdom than in folly
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as there is more gain in light
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than in darkness.
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The wise person
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has his eyes in his head
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but the fool walks in darkness.
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And yet I perceive
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that the same event
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happens to all of them.
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Then I said in my heart,
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what happens to the fool
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will happen to me also.
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Why then have I been
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so very wise?
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And I said in my heart
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that this
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is also vanity.
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For the wise,
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as of the fool,
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there is no enduring remembrance,
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seeing that in the days to come
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all will have been long forgotten.
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How the wise dies
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just like the fool.
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So I hated life
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because what is done
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under the sun
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was grievous to me.
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For all is vanity
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and a striving
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after the wind.
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I've committed to living
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a good life,
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you might say.
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I'll pursue morally
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upright activities.
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I will avoid associating
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with degenerates.
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I will donate
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to the right charities.
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I will support
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the right candidates.
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I will contribute
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to my church.
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I will compost.
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I'll offset
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my carbon footprint.
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I will do whatever
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is necessary
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to live according
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to the vision
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of a good,
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morally upright life
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from whatever perspective
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I support
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and I choose to embrace.
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Surely this will give me
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a sense of meaning
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and purpose
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beyond this life.
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And the answer,
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the sage says,
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is no.
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You will perish
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in the same way
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as the fool.
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So what's the point?
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The sage,
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he is rattled.
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He is vexed.
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He is upset.
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And he says
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that he has hated life
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not because he has
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developed a suicidal,
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a set of suicidal thoughts
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but because his quest
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kept falling short.
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This is what a frustrated
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person looks like.
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This is what hopelessness
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looks like
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when it begins to set in
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and begins to take hold.
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Have you ever felt this way?
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Right?
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I mean,
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the sage is laying out
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his experiences
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so we can think about ours.
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Have you ever felt this way?
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There's much to be gained
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in a morally upright life.
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Hear me out
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what I'm saying.
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Listen,
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I'm not saying
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be done with morally
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upright behavior.
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It's a good thing.
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But does such behavior
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achieve for you salvation?
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And the answer is no.
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It is a vain pursuit
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for death will come
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to everyone.
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And this is something
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that seems morbid
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and maybe not very
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kind of the power
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of positive thinking.
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But it's important
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that we will remember
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that we will die.
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Philosophers of old
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and Christians of old
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as well
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talk about
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a memento mori
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to remember your death.
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death.
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If you look at any art
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around the time
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of the Black Plague
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you will see
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humans
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with skeletons
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and reapers
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kind of hanging out
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eating dinner with them.
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It seems very morbid
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but it was a way
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for our Christian
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forebearers
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to remember
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their death.
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To be accustomed
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to it.
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Death will come
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for us all.
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The truly wise person
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understands that
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their days are numbered.
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True wisdom
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provides a perspective
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and guides us
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but it knows
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that such knowledge
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cannot save us
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when death
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comes for us.
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And by the way
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that doesn't mean
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we should be okay
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with death.
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It is an incredibly
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unnatural
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and frightening thing.
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Death should never
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be sanitized.
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It is ugly.
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It is painful.
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It is full of sorrow.
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Death was never
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meant for us.
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Next week
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we'll look at
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chapter 3
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and we'll touch
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on verse 11
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which I think is
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I mean
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it's such an
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insightful verse
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but it talks about
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how God has
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written eternity
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into the hearts
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of men
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which is to say
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that we were meant
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to not touch death.
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Well one of the things
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it'll mean
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is that we were not
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to touch death
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and yet here we are
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accustomed to it.
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there's a universal
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revulsion towards death
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and that only proves
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that
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Ecclesiastes 3
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verse 11
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that eternity
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is written on our hearts
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it only proves
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that it's true.
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We live in a very
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bizarre time
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where
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there's like
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two very
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contradictory
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kind of
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schools of thought.
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One that
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embraces
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death
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in a culture
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of death
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and another
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that rejects
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death with
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an incredible
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amount of intensity.
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So on one hand
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you have
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a medically
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assisted
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regime
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medically
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assisted suicide
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regime
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in our country
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that continuously
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broadens the
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criteria for
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accessing
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euthanasia.
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The Post
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just this past
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week
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on the 11th
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ran a story
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to highlight
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this
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and gave
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two examples.
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One of a man
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who became
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a widower
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and his grief
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was so much
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that somehow
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he qualified
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for euthanasia
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because of his grief
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he was sad.
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Another woman
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was obese
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and refused
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any medical
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intervention
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until she was
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granted
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her suicide.
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Friends
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that's a culture
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of death.
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Okay.
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On the flip side
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we have
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this
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health
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and wellness
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fitness
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culture
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that continues
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to grow
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and by the way
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if you're going to
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choose one
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obviously
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eat healthy
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eat your greens
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everybody
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alright
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lift a weight
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go for a walk
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whatever
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it's a good thing
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they're not like
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equally terrible
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things.
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Nevertheless
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it's a rejection
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of death
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with such an
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intensity
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that
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I've mentioned
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him before
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but this man
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Brian Johnson
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who is
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a millionaire
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futurist
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he is convinced
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he is convinced
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in his lifetime
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that he will
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solve the problem
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of death
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with science.
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A very bizarre
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time we live in.
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But the reality
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is and what this
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text tells us
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is that we are
-
not in control
-
of death.
-
We cannot
-
choose
-
the day
-
we die
-
in a way
-
that is not
-
suicidal.
-
And this can be
-
very difficult
-
for us
-
because if you are
-
very health conscious
-
God forbid
-
and I really mean
-
this God forbid
-
I mean
-
get your blood work
-
it comes back
-
super clean
-
you're just
-
you're firing
-
on all cylinders
-
and then you get
-
in a car accident
-
okay
-
and either
-
you're
-
handicapped
-
for your life
-
or you're dead.
-
and then
-
there's other people
-
who are
-
they're
-
they're smoking
-
a ton
-
they're living
-
like a very
-
unhealthy lifestyle
-
and somehow
-
they crack 80
-
like
-
where's the fairness
-
in that
-
right?
-
We do not
-
control our health
-
or sorry
-
our death
-
we do not
-
and we can see
-
how the sage
-
if he is saying
-
listen
-
I've tried
-
hedonism
-
I've tried pleasure
-
now I'm trying
-
clean living
-
mindfulness
-
wisdom
-
right living
-
everything that I need
-
to do
-
and still it's not working
-
my goodness
-
I am rattled
-
I am frustrated
-
you can feel the angst
-
maybe you feel the angst
-
so surely
-
we're going to move on
-
to the next thing
-
if I can't
-
get ultimate meaning
-
from pleasure
-
if I can't get
-
ultimate meaning
-
from wise living
-
then maybe
-
through my work
-
and through my vocation
-
I can find something
-
I can create a legacy
-
that will last
-
that I can pass on
-
and it will continue on
-
until time ends
-
read with me
-
verses 18 to 23
-
I hated
-
I hated all my toil
-
in which I toil
-
under the sun
-
seeing that I must
-
leave it to the man
-
who will come after me
-
and who knows
-
whether he will be
-
wise or a fool
-
yet he will be
-
master of all
-
for which I toiled
-
and used my wisdom
-
under the sun
-
this also
-
is vanity
-
so I turned
-
about
-
and gave my heart
-
up to despair
-
over all the toil
-
of my labors
-
under the sun
-
because sometimes
-
a person
-
who has toiled
-
with wisdom
-
and knowledge
-
and skill
-
must leave everything
-
to be enjoyed
-
by someone
-
who did not
-
toil for it
-
this also is vanity
-
and a great evil
-
what is a man
-
from all the toil
-
and striving
-
of heart
-
with which he toils
-
beneath the sun
-
for all his days
-
are full of sorrow
-
and his work
-
is a vexation
-
even in the night
-
his heart
-
does not rest
-
this also is vanity
-
strike three
-
you're out
-
he is not
-
finding much success
-
in his quest
-
for meaning
-
one thing I love
-
about this section
-
is that the sage
-
is he's highlighting
-
the absurdity
-
of a total
-
work culture
-
a work culture
-
that doesn't help
-
our lives flourish
-
as much as
-
our lives
-
existing
-
to serve
-
our work
-
there's never
-
enough money
-
to earn
-
never enough
-
promotions
-
to chase
-
never enough
-
time to spend
-
on a project
-
constantly
-
thinking
-
about work
-
so that even
-
in our sleep
-
we are busy
-
we have busy minds
-
what should provide
-
us with life
-
robs our hearts
-
of peace
-
and again
-
I just want to
-
just say
-
really quickly
-
work is a beautiful
-
wonderful thing
-
it's valuable
-
the Bible's actually
-
full of other
-
bits of
-
wisdom that say
-
do not be
-
slothful
-
I think later on
-
in Ecclesiastes
-
it's like
-
be like the ant
-
work hard
-
be studious
-
be honest
-
hard working
-
integral
-
work hard
-
but again
-
if we're thinking
-
about the sage
-
who's on a quest
-
to find meaning
-
ultimate purpose
-
it is not found
-
in his work
-
he is looking
-
for work
-
to become
-
his sense
-
of identity
-
but it will
-
demand more
-
and more
-
from him
-
and from us
-
and the things
-
and people
-
we really cherish
-
will suffer
-
there's a
-
lovely couple
-
downtown
-
at the downtown
-
Messiah
-
and
-
he was
-
retired now
-
but he was a
-
major in the
-
military
-
but he had a lot
-
of promise
-
his father
-
was
-
a general
-
and he made
-
the decision
-
when his kids
-
were in high
-
school
-
to
-
basically step
-
away from the
-
military
-
to go into the
-
private
-
service
-
and then his
-
kids went to
-
university
-
and graduated
-
and then he
-
went back
-
to the military
-
and then he
-
just stayed
-
at his rank
-
of major
-
and he did
-
not continue
-
on
-
and he
-
talked a bit
-
about this
-
about how
-
I don't know
-
if it's the
-
case anymore
-
but back
-
then
-
if you
-
wanted to
-
become a
-
general
-
the saying
-
was
-
it'll cost
-
you a
-
marriage
-
if you
-
want to be
-
a general
-
it'll cost
-
you a
-
marriage
-
I'm sure
-
that's not
-
the case
-
all the way
-
through every
-
general
-
is divorced
-
but that
-
phrase always
-
stuck with
-
me
-
because that
-
is this
-
total work
-
culture
-
where everything
-
everything is
-
sacrificed
-
because
-
of the
-
meaning
-
that is
-
associated
-
upon me
-
that has to
-
do with our
-
work
-
that I'm
-
finding my
-
identity
-
in our
-
work
-
and the
-
sage is
-
saying
-
and we
-
all know
-
yet we
-
fall into
-
this
-
all too
-
easily
-
that we
-
cannot make
-
work a
-
totalizing
-
endeavor
-
so we've
-
looked at
-
pleasure
-
and we've
-
looked at
-
wisdom
-
and we
-
looked at
-
work
-
and we
-
found them
-
all wanting
-
now what
-
is there
-
another
-
category
-
there's no
-
more categories
-
at least in
-
this section
-
but now
-
what
-
where's the
-
hope
-
I hope
-
that you
-
felt the
-
weight of
-
this quest
-
I mean
-
it's been
-
just a
-
20
-
25
-
30 minutes
-
whatever
-
I hope
-
you have
-
felt
-
disillusioned
-
to some
-
degree
-
or another
-
but in
-
a good
-
way
-
if our
-
reality
-
of pleasure
-
and wise
-
living
-
and work
-
is built
-
upon a
-
false promise
-
of ultimate
-
meaning
-
then to be
-
disillusioned
-
with it
-
is to make
-
steps towards
-
reality
-
and to make
-
steps towards
-
freedom
-
and joy
-
and real
-
purpose
-
and real
-
meaning
-
what could be
-
better than
-
knowing
-
that all
-
the
-
pleasure
-
moral
-
living
-
and total
-
work
-
culture
-
we find
-
ourselves
-
in
-
is utter
-
vanity
-
if it
-
does not
-
give us
-
what we
-
think it
-
will give
-
us
-
how blessed
-
are we
-
to come
-
to this
-
realization
-
hopefully
-
before it's
-
too late
-
this is a
-
blessing
-
okay
-
being disillusioned
-
right now
-
is a gift
-
from God
-
we cannot
-
hold on
-
to pleasure
-
we can't
-
rest on
-
our laurels
-
we can't
-
keep even
-
a single
-
coin
-
forever
-
it is a
-
blessing to
-
know this
-
ultimately
-
pleasure
-
and wisdom
-
and good
-
work
-
that we
-
do
-
are all
-
gifts
-
from God
-
but the
-
pleasure
-
sorry
-
but the
-
problem
-
arises
-
when these
-
things are
-
emphasized
-
without any
-
mention of
-
God
-
without any
-
consultation
-
with God
-
looking to
-
him
-
asking him
-
for strength
-
or salvation
-
God
-
in this
-
section
-
is mentioned
-
in verse 13
-
and then
-
is completely
-
absent
-
until
-
this last
-
portion
-
verses 24
-
to 26
-
he is
-
nowhere to
-
be found
-
okay
-
God is
-
absent
-
from
-
the
-
sages
-
quest
-
this
-
whole
-
endeavor
-
is
-
unbelievably
-
self-centered
-
and if
-
we're engaged
-
in it
-
it's
-
unbelievably
-
self-centered
-
for us
-
as well
-
see the
-
sage
-
shows us
-
that although
-
we are
-
people who
-
live under
-
the sun
-
okay
-
in this
-
mortal
-
life
-
we also
-
have
-
eternity
-
written on
-
our hearts
-
and that
-
means
-
eternal
-
meaning
-
and purpose
-
it's
-
what we
-
deeply
-
crave
-
and it
-
cannot be
-
found
-
under
-
the sun
-
only
-
then
-
when we
-
come to
-
this
-
realization
-
can we
-
truly
-
turn to
-
Lord
-
as
-
people
-
that
-
are
-
desperate
-
for
-
only
-
what
-
he
-
can
-
give
-
and
-
what
-
we
-
desperately
-
need
-
imagine a
-
life that
-
is growing
-
towards
-
I don't
-
want to
-
say is
-
completely
-
free
-
of
-
because
-
we'll
-
still
-
falter
-
but is
-
growing
-
towards
-
freedom
-
from
-
vain
-
attempts
-
at
-
controlling
-
every
-
aspect
-
of our
-
life
-
trying to
-
curate
-
every
-
move
-
every
-
promotion
-
every
-
strategic
-
financial
-
decision
-
from
-
the way
-
we're
-
raising
-
our
-
kids
-
who
-
they're
-
playing
-
with
-
the cars
-
we drive
-
the
-
neighborhoods
-
we live
-
in
-
that can
-
feel
-
like a
-
weight
-
that is
-
growing
-
and growing
-
and growing
-
upon our
-
shoulders
-
imagine
-
having
-
an identity
-
that does
-
not need
-
to be
-
reinvented
-
every
-
few
-
years
-
imagine
-
the freedom
-
of that
-
again
-
we're
-
growing
-
into
-
this
-
but
-
imagine
-
if
-
that's
-
the
-
trajectory
-
of your
-
life
-
imagine
-
having
-
meaning
-
that is
-
rooted
-
in the
-
eternal
-
God
-
who
-
scripture
-
constantly
-
says
-
is
-
unchanging
-
unchanging
-
this is
-
what the
-
sage is
-
beginning to
-
realize
-
in this
-
last
-
section
-
I'll
-
read it
-
read it
-
with me
-
starting
-
in verse
-
24
-
there is
-
nothing
-
better
-
for a
-
person
-
than
-
that
-
he
-
should
-
eat
-
and
-
drink
-
and
-
find
-
enjoyment
-
in
-
his
-
toil
-
this
-
also
-
I
-
saw
-
is
-
from
-
the
-
hand
-
of
-
God
-
there
-
it is
-
it
-
becomes
-
a
-
gift
-
and not
-
an
-
ultimate
-
end
-
in
-
itself
-
for
-
apart
-
from
-
him
-
who
-
can
-
eat
-
or
-
who
-
can
-
have
-
enjoyment
-
for
-
to
-
the
-
one
-
who
-
pleases
-
him
-
God
-
has
-
given
-
wisdom
-
and
-
knowledge
-
and
-
joy
-
but
-
to
-
the
-
sinner
-
he
-
has
-
given
-
the
-
business
-
of
-
gathering
-
and
-
collecting
-
only
-
to
-
give
-
it
-
to
-
one
-
who
-
pleases
-
God
-
this
-
also
-
is
-
vanity
-
and
-
a
-
striving
-
after
-
the
-
wind
-
when
-
we
-
see
-
life
-
as a
-
gift
-
from
-
God
-
we
-
begin
-
to
-
become
-
incredibly
-
generous
-
people
-
again
-
not
-
overnight
-
but
-
we
-
become
-
incredibly
-
generous
-
people
-
our
-
suffering
-
is no
-
longer
-
an
-
existential
-
threat
-
to
-
our
-
very
-
identity
-
so
-
that
-
we
-
can
-
endure
-
knowing
-
our
-
frailty
-
and yet
-
through it
-
all
-
have
-
joy
-
and
-
when
-
death
-
comes
-
even
-
though
-
we
-
will
-
have
-
fear
-
and
-
it
-
is
-
still
-
scary
-
and
-
it
-
is
-
scary
-
the
-
fear
-
will
-
not
-
crush
-
us
-
and
-
the
-
answer
-
is
-
because
-
of what
-
Christ
-
has done
-
on the
-
cross
-
why
-
because
-
in his
-
death
-
and
-
resurrection
-
Christ
-
defeats
-
death
-
and he
-
makes a
-
mockery
-
out of
-
it
-
he
-
suffers
-
but then
-
endures
-
and is
-
victorious
-
in his
-
ascension
-
he goes
-
to prepare
-
a place
-
for us
-
so that
-
we will
-
enjoy
-
pleasures
-
forevermore
-
because
-
his work
-
is completed
-
upon the
-
cross
-
we need
-
not work
-
for a
-
salvation
-
that we
-
could never
-
win
-
instead
-
we
-
receive
-
it
-
by
-
faith
-
it's
-
a
-
gift
-
to
-
us
-
so
-
we
-
can
-
enjoy
-
Christ's
-
labors
-
and
-
therefore
-
our
-
work
-
is
-
freed
-
up
-
so
-
that
-
it
-
is
-
not
-
attached
-
to
-
our
-
identity
-
and
-
rather
-
it
-
becomes
-
redeemed
-
and
-
we
-
can
-
get
-
promotion
-
and
-
we
-
can
-
celebrate
-
that
-
and
-
we
-
cannot
-
get
-
a
-
promotion
-
and
-
it
-
won't
-
crush
-
us
-
we
-
can
-
learn
-
to
-
work
-
and
-
give
-
for
-
the
-
benefit
-
of
-
others
-
around
-
us
-
and
-
ultimately
-
for
-
the
-
glory
-
of
-
the
-
Lord
-
so
-
even
-
though
-
in
-
this
-
life
-
we
-
are
-
but
-
dust
-
that
-
we
-
ought
-
to
-
remember
-
our
-
death
-
in
-
Christ
-
we
-
have
-
a
-
completely
-
fulfilled
-
existence
-
forevermore
-
in
-
eternity
-
in
-
the
-
presence
-
of
-
the
-
one
-
true
-
God
-
but
-
that
-
that
-
is
-
for
-
us
-
in
-
this
-
life
-
and
-
that
-
we
-
learn
-
to
-
grow
-
into
-
that
-
life
-
by
-
faith
-
because
-
of
-
the
-
grace
-
that
-
God
-
gives
-
to
-
us
-
in
-
Christ
-
Jesus
-
let's
-
pray
-
Lord God
-
disillusion
-
us
-
help us
-
to see
-
the
-
unreality
-
of our
-
lives
-
if it
-
is rooted
-
in the
-
pursuit
-
of
-
pleasure
-
or
-
clean
-
wise
-
living
-
or
-
work
-
that
-
is
-
an
-
end
-
to
-
itself
-
that
-
is
-
the
-
means
-
by
-
which
-
we
-
think
-
we
-
will
-
have
-
eternal
-
purpose
-
and
-
meaning
-
Lord
-
shake
-
us
-
up
-
help
-
us
-
to be
-
very
-
real
-
people
-
that
-
desire
-
reality
-
even
-
if it
-
is
-
a bit
-
unsettling
-
Lord
-
ultimately
-
we want
-
this
-
reality
-
to lead
-
us
-
to
-
truth
-
to
-
your
-
son
-
who
-
has
-
gone
-
the
-
distance
-
for
-
us
-
so
-
that
-
we
-
may
-
know
-
pleasure
-
forever
-
more
-
eternal
-
life
-
and that
-
we
-
do
-
not
-
have
-
to
-
ultimately
-
fear
-
death
-
Lord
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as we
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continue
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on in
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this
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series
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help
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us
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to
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be
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very
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sober
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minded
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people
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point
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us
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towards
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your
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son
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we
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pray
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this
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in
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Christ's
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name
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Amen
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God