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Afflicted Through Affirmation

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  1. with me we want to jump into the word of the

  2. lord today amen we're gonna read a very short

  3. portion of a of the scripture in job chapter

    Job 1:8

  4. 1 verse 8 i mean if you don't have it it's up

  5. there on the uh on the projector screen amen

  6. job chapter 1 verse 8 portion of scripture simply

    Job 1:8

  7. reads then the lord said to satan have you considered

  8. my servant Job. Then the Lord said to Satan,

  9. have you considered my servant Job? Amen. Let

  10. us go before the Lord. Heavenly Father, we come

  11. before you today, Lord. We give you honor. We

  12. give you glory. Lord, we pray, Father, that you

  13. open up our hearts. God, open up our minds, Lord.

  14. Lord, that we would receive your word today,

  15. Father, that your word would lift us up, God.

  16. That your word would encourage us today, Father,

  17. Lord. Jesus, hallelujah, that we would adhere

  18. to the instructions of your word today, God.

  19. Lord, use your vessel, God. Use me, God. Anoint

  20. my lips of clay, Father, Lord. Anoint our ears,

  21. our hearts, God. Those that are watching online

  22. and those who could not be here today, Father,

  23. Lord. Bless them, Father. In the name of Jesus,

  24. we pray. Amen. You may be seated. Amen. Have

  25. you considered, my servant Job, what if everything

  26. that we thought about life's fairness was suddenly

  27. challenged? What if the righteous suffered while

  28. the wicked prospered and heaven itself seemed

  29. silent in our pain? And what if we were stripped

  30. from everything, your family, your livelihood,

  31. your health, your wealth, and left with only

  32. nothing but questions. This isn't a hypothetical.

  33. It's a story of Job, a man whose trials echoed

  34. across time, offering both mystery and meaning

  35. to all who dare grapple with the hardest questions

  36. of life. Job's story is one of a man once called

  37. blameless and upright, and he found himself seated

  38. in the ashes of his faith, tested to the breaking

  39. point of his life. He was the picture of prosperity

  40. and devotion. He was a man who feared God and

  41. turned away from evil. He was blessed with wealth.

  42. a large family, unshakable faith. But all of

  43. it, every single blessing, every bit of joy was

  44. stripped away in a whirlwind of tragedy. His

  45. herds were stolen. His servants were strained

  46. and killed. His children were lost in a sudden

  47. calamity. And as if that wasn't enough, It meant

  48. his body was afflicted with painful sores, leaving

  49. him unrecognizable and utterly broken. Yet through

  50. all of this, Job did not curse God. Instead,

  51. he asked the question that haunts all of us today.

  52. Why? Why, Lord? Why? What makes Job's story even

  53. more remarkable is what happens beyond our visible

  54. world in a heavenly courtroom where Satan challenges

  55. God, claiming Job's faith is shallow and a product

  56. of his blessings. God allows Satan to test Job.

  57. This setting the stage for a cosmic drama that

  58. explores the deepest questions of human suffering

  59. and divine sovereignty and the nature of faith

  60. itself. What amazes me even more is that Job

  61. was not a superhero. Job did not have a cape.

  62. He did not have a superpower. Job was merely...

  63. Flesh and bone, like you and I. I want you to

  64. know that Job's suffering didn't come because

  65. he failed. It came because God affirmed him.

  66. Job's suffering didn't come because he failed.

  67. It came because God affirmed him. And very quickly,

  68. I want us to look at the man named Job. The Bible

  69. says in Job 1 .1, it reads, there was a man in

  70. the land of Uz whose name was Job. That man was

  71. blameless and upright and one who feared God

  72. and shunned evil. And seven sons and three daughters

  73. were born to him. Also his possessions were 7

  74. ,000 sheep, 3 ,000 camels, 500 yoke of oxen,

  75. 500 female donkeys, and a large household. So

  76. that this man was the greatest of all the people

  77. of the east. We're talking about a man. Flesh

  78. and bone. Like you and I. God declared him unique

  79. among men. And Job's character is introduced

  80. with some of the most remarkable words ever spoken

  81. about a person. in the Bible. Imagine having

  82. your entire life summarized in such an astounding

  83. term. Who was this man that the Lord spoke of

  84. and what made his faith so extraordinary? As

  85. I mentioned, Job was just merely a man, flesh

  86. and bone, imperfect because he was flesh, but

  87. in God's eyes, he was perfect. He was a devoted

  88. father, amen, and a devoted servant of his community.

  89. He was a figure of influence and respected by

  90. most. And most importantly, he was respected

  91. by God. Job was a man of unparalleled reverence

  92. and faith. And in Colossians chapter 2, verse

    Colossians 2:6–7

  93. 6 through 7. Amen. We receive the instructions

  94. and how we should live for God or one of the

  95. instructions as Job did. It reads, so then just

  96. as you receive Christ Jesus as Lord, continue

  97. to live your lives in him, rooted and built up

  98. in him. Strengthen in the faith as you were taught

  99. and overflowing with thankfulness. Thankfulness.

  100. This was how Job lived day in, Day out. From

  101. the moment that he woke up. He woke up in devotion.

  102. To the moment that he laid his head down to rest.

  103. He was in devotion. Unto God. And this is not

  104. to say that Job was sinless. Because as a man

  105. no one is perfect. Except for Christ. But Christ

  106. had lived. Amen. The only one to live without

  107. sin. But the Lord did say that Job. Was blameless.

  108. And in a sense that in his heart. He was steadfast.

  109. And aligned with God. Because of his desire.

  110. To please him. I know it's hot so bear with me.

  111. The word blameless. It signifies a life. Of integrity.

  112. Moral uprightness. And a deep. Fear of God. This

  113. fear was not the fear of punishment. But it was

  114. a fear of genuine love and devotion for God.

  115. Job's devotion was deep and it was heartfelt.

  116. In fact, the opening verse of the book tells

  117. us that he would regularly rise in the morning

  118. to offer sacrifices on behalf of his own children.

  119. Because see, Job wasn't just worried about himself

  120. and how he pleased God. He was concerned about

  121. how his family. Please, God. And the Bible says

  122. in chapter 1, verse 5, that in the morning he

  123. would rise early and he would offer burnt offerings

  124. up to the Lord for each of his children. And

  125. he would say that perhaps my children have sinned

  126. and have cursed God in their hearts. So Job did

  127. this regularly. Every single day he interceded

  128. for his children and his family. This was an

  129. act of intercession, and this reveals a man who

  130. cared deeply for his family, their spiritual

  131. well -being, and his desire to ultimately please

  132. God. Job embodied the scriptures that we read.

  133. Job embodied the scriptures that we say out loud.

  134. Job lived these scriptures out each and every

  135. day in 1 John 3, verse 22. And we receive from

    1 John 3:22

  136. him anything that we ask because we keep his

  137. commandments and do what pleases him. In Hebrews

    Hebrews 11:6

  138. chapter 11 verse 6, it says, but without faith

  139. it is impossible to please him. For he who comes

  140. to God must believe that he is and that he is

  141. a rewarder of those who diligently seek after

  142. him. This was Job's daily practice. This was

  143. Job, hallelujah, kneeling and praying at the

  144. altar as dawn broke over the desert, offering

  145. prayers and sacrifices for himself and for his

  146. family and for their unseen sins. This detail

  147. about Job's life speaks volumes about his faith.

  148. Job understood that righteousness was not just

  149. a matter of outward behavior. but of the heart.

  150. He was not only concerned with his own standing

  151. before God, but he was concerned about the spiritual

  152. condition of his entire family. And I want to

  153. pose a question to each and one of you, each

  154. and every one of you today. How often do you

  155. wake up in the morning and the first thing you

  156. ask yourself is, hallelujah, how can I please

  157. God today? How often do we fall on our knees

  158. and we cry out to God and we say, God, do you

  159. find my life pleasing unto you? What do you desire

  160. of me and what would you have of me for today?

  161. What songs do you want me to sing? What type

  162. of praise are you worthy of today? Is our heart

  163. filled with this concern? Over how we are pleasing

  164. God. This was Job's heart. This was Job's life.

  165. Now, unbeknownst to Job, while Job was just living

  166. his life, praying, taking care of his family,

  167. there was a challenge and consideration that

  168. was taking place in the heavenly realm. And the

  169. book of Job, amen, wastes no time in setting

  170. the stage for such a celestial confrontation.

  171. Because as the angels gathered in heaven, God

  172. turns his attention to Satan. And he asks Satan,

  173. where do you come from? Because while Satan was

  174. prowling the world like a predator that he is,

  175. seeking who he may devour, he steps into the

  176. gates, amen, and into the courtship of God. God

  177. looks up and he says, hey, Satan, where are you

  178. coming from? Satan says, you know, just walking,

  179. roaming the earth, see me who I can devour, trying

  180. to find the weak link in your chain. Trying to

  181. seek the one that doesn't think they need to

  182. pray this morning. Looking after the one that

  183. thinks that everything is okay until it's not.

  184. You know, just up to my dirty tricks. You know

  185. me, God. It's what I do. God did not say in a

  186. question. He says, okay, while saying. He says,

  187. have you considered my servant Job? that there

  188. is none like him on earth, a blameless and unright

  189. man, one who fears God and shuns from evil. Now

  190. imagine the weight of the declaration that God

  191. just made upon Job's life. God himself pointed

  192. to Job as an example of righteousness, a man

  193. whose life rejects unwavering faith, excuse me,

  194. projects unwavering faith. But Satan, true to

  195. his name, the accuser, he seizes the opportunity,

  196. and he says, okay, God, challenge accepted. So

  197. Satan answered the Lord, amen, and he says, does

  198. Job fear God for nothing? Have you not made a

  199. hedge around him and his household? Around all

  200. that he has and everything. Hallelujah. Amen.

  201. That you have put on his side. You have blessed

  202. the work of his hands. His possessions. And have

  203. increased the land that he lives on. Now stretch

  204. out your hand and touch all that he is. And he

  205. will surely curse you to your face. Satan accused

  206. Job's faith of being shallow and mere a byproduct

  207. of God's blessings. If you were there, I'm sure

  208. you can feel the tension in this moment because

  209. Satan isn't just questioning Job's motives. He's

  210. questioning God's character. He implies that

  211. God's blessings are mere bribes and that Job's

  212. devotion is transactional. And that no one would

  213. truly worship God without the promise of reward.

  214. This is an accusation that cuts to the heart

  215. of the relationship between the creator and his

  216. creation. God doesn't rebuke Satan outright,

  217. and nor did he deny his challenge. Instead, he

  218. permits Satan to test Job. He says, amen, behold,

  219. all... that he has is in your power. Now the

  220. stage is set, amen, for this cosmic drama, one

  221. that will test not only Job's faith, but also

  222. the very nature of human devotion to God. And

  223. I want to pose a question, amen, to you all,

  224. amen, and that question is so common, and it

  225. singles out in our minds every time something

  226. happens to us. Why would God allow this to happen

  227. to Job? Why would God give Job's life over to

  228. Satan? Why would God allow Satan to test Job,

  229. a man that God himself declared righteous? A

  230. man that God, hallelujah, knew shunned from evil

  231. and turned from evil ways, so devoted to God,

  232. lived to please God. At first glance, we might

  233. seem that this is cruel, but this moment reveals

  234. something profound about God's sovereignty, because

  235. God, hallelujah, not only has conquered death,

  236. hell, and the grave, but he is sovereign over

  237. it. Satan operates within limits set by God.

  238. And even in his malice, Satan cannot thwart God's

  239. ultimate purposes in our lives. The test is not

  240. a sign that God's indifference, but the test

  241. is confidence in Job's faith and in the greater

  242. plan that God, amen, has revealed so that he

  243. would receive the glory. Somebody give the Lord

  244. a round of applause. We've got to understand

  245. that the same confidence that Job had in God

  246. was the same confidence that God had in Job.

  247. This suggests that God also have a level of trust

  248. and confidence in a mere man. Recognizing Job's

  249. potential for good and his capacity to fulfill

  250. his purpose. Because in Luke 12, 48, it reads,

  251. when someone has been given much, much will be

  252. required in return. We have to understand that

  253. when God calls us to ministry, to purpose, and

  254. he lays out this plan before our lives, you have

  255. to know that you are going to be tested. The

  256. way is not going to be made easy. Some of our

  257. journeys, amen, have been tragic. Some of our

  258. journeys have been horrendous. Some of our journeys

  259. might not have gone the way we thought or the

  260. way that we planned. But rest assured, there

  261. is purpose in your journey. Rest assured that

  262. at the end of your days, God is going to look

  263. at you, amen, and lay the crown of life upon

  264. your head, amen, and welcome you in to the gates

  265. of heaven. let you know that your reward is great

  266. because you finished your race. The question

  267. is why? Why would God and how could a God have

  268. so much faith in a man? God's confidence in humanity

  269. was implemented in the beginning in the book

  270. of Genesis because the Bible says that we were

  271. made in his image. And God said, let us make

  272. man in our image after our likeness. Mankind

  273. was created, amen, with intrinsic meaning, meaning

  274. that the essential nature of God, we were made

  275. from the core of God himself, inheriting value

  276. and purpose and the capability of reflecting

  277. God's character. Number two, God has given us

  278. authority and purpose. Amen. In Proverbs 8, 4

  279. -6, what is a man that thou art mindful of him?

  280. For thou has made him a little lower than the

  281. angels and has crowned him with glory and honor.

  282. God honors humanity in trusting us with authority

  283. and his purpose. And thirdly, God seeks us. Did

  284. you know that God, he seeks you? Do you know

  285. that we're not the only, that we don't just seek

  286. God, but God actually seeks us? Because the scripture

  287. reads in 2 Chronicles, it says, For the eyes

  288. of the Lord run to and to and throughout the

  289. whole earth to show himself strong in behalf

  290. of them whose heart is perfect towards him. The

  291. reason why God has so much confidence in Job

  292. is because Job, you and I were created in the

  293. image, amen, and in the likeness of God. And

  294. God had trusted him because he had given him

  295. the authority and the purpose in which God had

  296. granted for his life. And then God sought out

  297. Job because Job, God knew that the end of Job's

  298. days, with Job enduring the trial, God would

  299. receive the glory. This is how much trust God

  300. has in you and I today. So when you are feeling

  301. lonely and you are feeling, amen, afraid. When

  302. you are feeling weak and you are feeling saddened.

  303. When you are feeling that God isn't listening

  304. and God isn't hearing your prayers. Rest assured

  305. that God has called each and every one of you,

  306. amen, to carry out the will for your life. God

  307. is trusting you the same way. He trusted Job.

  308. Job was such a man of faith, amen, that when

  309. everything started to fall apart, Job worshiped

  310. God in the worst possible time of his entire

  311. life. In Job 1 -12, it reads, and the Lord said

  312. to Satan, behold that he has in your power And

  313. only do not lay a hand on his person. So Job

  314. went out the presence of the Lord. And imagine

  315. Job being unaware of this conversation. Being

  316. unaware of this agreement. Amen. That unfolded

  317. in the heavenly realms. As he was faithfully

  318. going about his day. As he always did. He has

  319. no idea that he has become the focal point of

  320. a celestial wager. And yet his faith was about

  321. to be tested in ways he could never imagine.

  322. Job's lack of knowledge of the situation mirrors

  323. our very own. Because when we often face trials,

  324. we face them blindly without any understanding

  325. as to why. Job's story assures us that even in

  326. the unseen God, hallelujah, that God is working

  327. in the background. God is working in the darkness.

  328. That even though God allowed the devil to touch

  329. his body, even though God allowed the devil,

  330. hallelujah, to do his work, that God was still

  331. in control. Hallelujah. I serve a God that is

  332. in control. When I feel like all hell is breaking

  333. loose and I feel like I don't know whether I'm

  334. coming or going, I know that God is in control.

  335. And as I thought about this, I can picture Job

  336. just sitting up in his office looking over the

  337. view, amen, of all the land that he owned, all

  338. the cattle, all the donkeys, all the oxen, knowing

  339. that his children were off having a party at

  340. his oldest son's house. Everybody's having a

  341. day. There's no need of anything. The sun is

  342. shining. The birds are chirping. And Job is just

  343. sitting in there. Looking over his books. A man

  344. checking his daily inventory like I'm sure he

  345. normally did. And then suddenly Job gets a knock

  346. on the door. Job says, too early. I'm not expecting

  347. any company. Job gets up and he opens the door.

  348. The Bible says that a messenger comes running

  349. in. And he said, Job, Job. He said, the oxen

  350. were plowing and the donkeys feeding beside them.

  351. And the Sabians raided them and took them away.

  352. Indeed, they have killed the servants with the

  353. edge of the sword. And I alone have escaped to

  354. tell you. Can you imagine Job just looking at

  355. his servants and saying, okay, okay, let me,

  356. hold on, give me a minute. Job sits back down.

  357. He said, okay, well, 500 oxen, donkey, okay.

  358. Scratches him off. Minuses from the inventory.

  359. Okay, we're still good. We're okay. We're still

  360. good. We're okay. We're okay. We're good. Don't

  361. worry. We're good. Job gets a second knock on

  362. the door. Let him in. Second servant comes in.

  363. And while they were speaking, he says, the Chaldeans

  364. formed three bands and raided the camels and

  365. took them away. Yes, and killed the servants

  366. with the edge of the sword. I alone have escaped

  367. and I came to tell you. George said, Job, man,

  368. I'm having a morning. Okay, well, let me take

  369. a look at this and let me see what's going on.

  370. Job looks and he reads down and he said, okay,

  371. well, 3 ,000 camel. Okay, well, let me scratch

  372. that list. Let me scratch it off the list. Let

  373. me remove it from the inventory. And while he's

  374. doing that, another knock on the door. Jeez.

  375. Okay, let him in. Hey, Job, Job, I came to show

  376. you that the fire of God fell down from heaven,

  377. burned up all the sheep, man. We got no sheep.

  378. Oh, and by the way, all the servants are dead.

  379. Wait, what? What do you mean? There's nothing

  380. left, Job. Hey, and I can just imagine the three

  381. servants standing in front of Job just huffing

  382. and puffing like, man, what are we going to do?

  383. We got nothing left. Job goes down, looks at

  384. his inventory, looks at his books. Okay, well,

  385. okay, no more oxen, no more donkeys, no more

  386. sheep, no more camel. Okay, well, you know what?

  387. I got my wife. I got my children. I got my house.

  388. I think I'm good. We're okay. We'll recover.

  389. God will never leave me nor forsake me. We're

  390. okay. We're good. Oh, God. If I was Job, man,

  391. my stomach would have fell to the floor. Wait,

  392. wait. Camel gun, oxen, donkey, sheep. What's

  393. next? Servant comes running in. And he says,

  394. Job, Job, man, I'm sorry. I'm sorry, Job. I'm

  395. sorry, man. I'm sorry. But your sons and daughters

  396. were eating and drinking. At the older brother's

  397. house, suddenly a gray wind came, Job, just from

  398. out of nowhere. I checked the weather. I checked

  399. the app on my phone, man. It said we were clear,

  400. sunny. I don't know where this wind came from,

  401. Job. And I looked up, man, and I saw the house.

  402. The house shook, and the house fell, man. Job,

  403. I'm sorry, Job. I'm sorry. I'm sorry, man, but

  404. the kids are gone, bro. Sons and daughters of

  405. God. You know, I sat there and I could just believe.

  406. I need to remind all of you that I know when

  407. we read these stories and I know we preach on

  408. these things and we talk about these things.

  409. We have to remember these aren't folk tales.

  410. This isn't make believe. This happened. This

  411. transpired in a man's life. Where he not only

  412. lost everything that God gave him, he also lived

  413. with everything that he had and he gave back

  414. to God. He lived his life fully and unto the

  415. Lord. He gave everything unto the Lord when he

  416. woke up and when he went to bed, he prayed over

  417. his children. He asked God to forgive them for

  418. their unseen sin. He did this regularly. And

  419. now in a matter of a day, it's all gone. Everything's

  420. gone. I can't even imagine looking at my children

  421. when something's wrong with them. I'm constantly

  422. asking them, are you okay? Is everything all

  423. right? Or God forbid they get sick. And I'm constantly

  424. running to my children and I'm checking on them.

  425. Are you okay? Are you guys okay? Are you comfortable?

  426. Are you okay? What would I do? If I was Job.

  427. Why, God? Why would you take my children? I got

  428. nothing left. I got nothing left. The anguish,

  429. the pain, the disbelief. Job's story speaks to

  430. anyone who has faith. face moments of doubt and

  431. pain, wondering, God, why, God, would you allow

  432. such a suffering to take place in my life? What

  433. about my neighbor? I know that guy ain't living

  434. for you. What about that dude down the street,

  435. God? He only goes to church on Easter. God, what

  436. about that person that speaks bad against his

  437. brother and sister? God, why would you do this

  438. to me? Why, God? Why? Job does the one thing,

  439. and he's a better man than I am, and I'm not

  440. afraid to admit that. Because the Bible says,

  441. that immediately Job arose. He tore his robe

  442. and he shaved his head. He fell to the ground

  443. and he whispered, naked I come from my mother's

  444. womb and naked I shall return there. The Lord

  445. gave and the Lord taketh away. Blessed be the

  446. name of the Lord. And in all this, Job did not

  447. sin, nor did he charge, amen, God with any wrongdoing.

  448. Job thought he had his wife. His wife wasn't

  449. there for him. Although his wife suffered this

  450. with Job, she did lose her children as well.

  451. She did lose everything, her possessions. She

  452. lost it all. And when Job turned and looked at

  453. her, she told Job, curse God and die, man. I

  454. can't see you like this, Job. You're suffering.

  455. It's too much for me. I can't deal with this.

  456. Pianist, if you're ready, you can come up. And

  457. Job tells her, he said, women, you speak of a

  458. woman with a foolish mouth. Because how could

  459. we accept everything good from God and not accept

  460. the bad things? Why is it when the sun is shining

  461. and everything's going great and everything's

  462. going our way, we can come into the house of

  463. the Lord, we can sing, we can worship, we can

  464. praise God, hallelujah, but the moment that things

  465. don't look right, The moment that things don't

  466. work out for us. The moment you don't get that

  467. promotion. The moment you don't get the job that

  468. you were praying about. The moment the healing

  469. doesn't come when you wanted it to come. The

  470. moment, hallelujah, when things just go off to

  471. the side. Things just don't work out the way

  472. you want them to. The way you need them to. How

  473. about when God doesn't answer you? How about

  474. when God, hallelujah, doesn't give you the answer

  475. when you think you need it? How about when God

  476. doesn't respond when you need the response? How

  477. about when changes occur in your life? When everything

  478. is perfectly fine and all of a sudden there's

  479. a sharp left and things start to go wrong? What

  480. about when your bank account tells you that you

  481. don't have enough? What about when you're feeling

  482. good one day and the next day you go to the doctor

  483. and they say we don't know what happened but

  484. we think you might have cancer. We think you

  485. might have leukemia. Something's wrong with your

  486. heart. What about when everything turns upside

  487. down? And we come into the house of the Lord

  488. with our heads bowed. How about when things don't

  489. go right in church? Because church is supposed

  490. to be a perfect place. My friend, it's not. How

  491. about when the preacher says something that you

  492. don't like? When pastor makes a decision and

  493. nobody's in alignment, nobody is agreeing with

  494. it. And we get mad and we get upset. And we take

  495. it out on God. God didn't do that to us. This

  496. is what happens when there is a lack of understanding.

  497. Because when Proverbs, it reads, with all you

  498. get, get understanding. See, this is a natural

  499. reaction of our flesh. When we don't understand

  500. something, we react to it. We respond to it in

  501. our flesh. We question in our flesh. Why, God?

  502. Why did that happen? Why did this take place?

  503. There's no understanding. There isn't anything

  504. there for us to grasp for. So we respond to it

  505. in a way that we feel that we think we need to

  506. respond. How about responding to it the way Job

  507. did? You know, I remember a few years back. My

  508. wife and I, we experienced a financial hardship

  509. that we have never, ever experienced before.

  510. And I'll be honest with you, it was a hardship

  511. that I never expected. And the first time I ever

  512. experienced this in my adult life, everything

  513. that I did that was easy to me became hard. Everything.

  514. It felt like the well had dried up. At the time,

  515. I was doing a lot of things. And like my father

  516. would tell me, most of the time you're doing

  517. way too much. But I was trying, man. I was trying.

  518. I was trying to support my family. I was trying

  519. to do the things that I wanted to do for my wife

  520. and my kids. You know, Brother Jason, one day

  521. the calls stopped coming. No more work. The people

  522. that I was calling back for work, because at

  523. the time I was self -employed. Hey, Dave, great

  524. to hear from you, but no, we're not interested.

  525. Hey, you know what? We thought we'd just wait

  526. for next year. No problem. Hey, you know what?

  527. Something came up. We don't have the money. Sorry,

  528. Dave. Thanks for the call. And I started to wonder,

  529. like, man, what's going on? And you guys know

  530. the bills don't stop coming. Rent doesn't stop

  531. being due. The kids don't stop needing things.

  532. You still got to buy food and groceries. Life

  533. goes on, man. And week after week, I'm dealing

  534. with this thing, just staying quiet, dealing

  535. with this thing in my prayer. And you know, I'm

  536. not ashamed to admit this to you because we're

  537. all human and I know we've been there. I start

  538. to get frustrated. And in my prayer, my prayer

  539. starts to change. And instead of being thankful

  540. and grateful for waking me up this morning, I

  541. start asking God, why is this happening, man?

  542. Why can't I just get one? One job, God, that's

  543. all I need, just one. Forget about real estate,

  544. that dried up. It was gone. So I talked to my

  545. dad and talked to my dad. My dad had work. My

  546. dad was getting work. Well, what's going on,

  547. dad? What am I doing wrong? I don't know, son.

  548. Keep going. Keep pushing. Dad, maybe I need to

  549. go get another job. How many jobs are you going

  550. to get? You're only one person. You're only one

  551. man. I started to talk to my wife about these

  552. things because I don't come to her unless I absolutely

  553. have to. Josh, you know what? We need to start

  554. praying, man. I don't know what's going on. I

  555. don't have no answers. And the whole time, coming

  556. to church, having to preach, having to teach,

  557. having to sing, worship, pray for people when

  558. I'm the one that needed to pray. Going home,

  559. coming back. Telling Josh I'm getting tired,

  560. man. One month passed. Two months passed. Three

  561. months passed. Four, five, six months. I'm starting

  562. to check myself. What am I doing wrong? God,

  563. am I sinning against you? Maybe I'm not praying

  564. right. I'm not doing something right. Maybe I'm

  565. not making myself available to you. What is it,

  566. God? But knowing in the back of my mind that

  567. finances money is nothing to God. Because the

  568. Bible says that heaven is paved with streets

  569. of gold. God uses these gems and these jewels

  570. that we admire and we seek after. We even kill

  571. for them. God uses them as decorations in heaven.

  572. It's nothing to God. And I start saying, God,

  573. something's got to happen, man. Something's got

  574. to happen. I feel like I'm going to break down.

  575. I feel like I'm going to. I really started to

  576. feel this way. Finally, one day I talked to my

  577. dad. And I tell my dad, Dad, I can't do this.

  578. I don't know what I'm doing wrong. Josh is worried.

  579. I will tell you how bad it got. Three days away

  580. from the car being repossessed. Five hours away

  581. from the PG &E being shut off. I called one of

  582. my pastor friends. Hey, man, you got to give

  583. me something. I need something. This is not supposed

  584. to happen. It's not supposed to happen. He says,

  585. you know what, Brother David? You're in the will

  586. of God. What? It happened to me too. My PG &E

  587. was shut off. Nobody knows. I went to work. I

  588. trusted in God. I didn't stop serving him. I

  589. kept praising. I kept praying. I kept fighting.

  590. I kept going. And the PG &E was shut off. And

  591. I said to my pastor friend, how did you accept

  592. that? What happened to the child, to the people

  593. of God? Why would God do this? He says, I don't

  594. know. But it did. I said, so what did you do?

  595. I love him for this. Because he said, you know

  596. what we did? That night we had prayer meeting

  597. at my house. All the lights are off. Come on

  598. over and pray. Don't you turn off the lights

  599. when you pray at home? That's what we did. We

  600. gathered and we prayed. So what are you telling

  601. me? Pray. Pray. That day, I cried out to God.

  602. Cried out to God, and I just thank God for it

  603. all. You know why? Because in the midst of it,

  604. my children were okay. My wife was okay. The

  605. roof was still over our head. PG &E hadn't shut

  606. off yet. We got food on the table. Somehow, rent

  607. was paid. I knew that there were things pending.

  608. But in that moment, I didn't care. All I cared

  609. about was being in the presence of God. That

  610. day, I got up and I went to work. I was supposed

  611. to finish painting this house. Weeks ago, but

  612. she kept tacking it on, tacking it on. So guess

  613. what that did? Although it meant it was more

  614. money, it kept prolonging the pay. So finally,

  615. 3 o 'clock, two hours before the PG &E is cut,

  616. and I said, Lord, I am not calling my wife and

  617. telling her to get the kids and take them to

  618. my mom's house. That is not going to happen.

  619. It's not going to happen. So I call. Took a break

  620. and I called. And I've called plenty of times.

  621. The deadline's done. You're overdue. You need

  622. to pay. And I call. And I talk to the lady on

  623. the other land. She goes, you know, David, man,

  624. we're getting ready. Five o 'clock, that's the

  625. deadline. Okay, okay, but are you sure there's

  626. nothing? Just till tomorrow. I'm going to get

  627. paid today, but just till tomorrow. This cannot

  628. happen. This can't happen. She says, hold on.

  629. She comes back. She says this. I don't know if

  630. you prayed today. But I just happened to click

  631. on the button where it says to extend the deadline.

  632. The deadline extended. I don't know what to tell

  633. you. You have until tomorrow to pay the PG &E.

  634. I sat in my truck, and I just began to thank

  635. God. I know the car was due. I didn't even care

  636. at that point. Finished up the job, went home.

  637. And I'll tell you this, because... I want you

  638. to understand the severity of where I was. Not

  639. so you can feel sorry for me, but just so you

  640. can be reminded of how great your God is. Because

  641. when I got paid, it was just enough to get me

  642. out of the month. It didn't even include what

  643. I owed for the car. But I was like, okay, I'm

  644. okay with that. It's okay. The next day I get

  645. up, I'm like, okay, I got to do this all over

  646. again. I got to go look for work. Here I go.

  647. My phone goes off. There's a chime. I get a Zelle

  648. payment. I don't remember accepting any work.

  649. I don't remember. My mom calls. She said, I was

  650. praying this morning, and God said you needed

  651. this. I don't accept money from my parents. My

  652. dad raised me and my brother. Your family is

  653. your responsibility. If you got to go pull weeds,

  654. you better work. I do thank God for my parents.

  655. Don't get me wrong. They're there. But I said,

  656. Mom, I didn't ask for this. She said, God told

  657. me you did. I don't know what you need it for.

  658. But it's there. I cried out so loud to God. And

  659. I learned a valuable lesson, church. We are not

  660. in control. And that when we experience things

  661. and we go through things, it's because on the

  662. other end, God is going to receive the glory.

  663. Because even though Job was blameless, upright,

  664. and pleased God, Job lost everything. And God

  665. didn't even flinch. He told the devil, take it.

  666. Because in the end, the Bible says that Job repented

  667. in his ashes. And the Bible says that Job, because

  668. he had a conversation with God, and he told God,

  669. I see you. I get it. I know why this happened.

  670. I know why I experienced this. I know why you

  671. allowed this to happen to me. And the Bible says

  672. that God then turned around and he gave Job a

  673. double portion. I didn't share what I shared

  674. with you so you can feel sorry for me. It has

  675. nothing to do with me because none of you even

  676. knew that I experienced this. I shared this with

  677. you to help you. Because sometimes we think we

  678. got it all until we don't. And then we feel that

  679. we did something wrong, so God took it away.

  680. That's not true. God has so much faith in you

  681. that he knew that if he took it away, you were

  682. still going to be okay. He knew that if you didn't

  683. have it, you were still going to be okay. He

  684. knew that if you didn't know what was going to

  685. happen from here and now, that you knew in your

  686. heart of hearts that he would never leave you

  687. nor forsake you. Come on, stand with me. Job

  688. was already affirmed, yet... God allowed him

  689. to be afflicted. There are things in your life

  690. that you've experienced. And you might even be

  691. experiencing those things now. But rest assured,

  692. God allowed it because he knew you were capable

  693. of handling it. The Bible says that he chastises

  694. the ones that he loves. We are his children.

  695. He's never going to leave us alone. We're never

  696. by ourselves. Listen, your need might not have

  697. been as great as mine was. Maybe you haven't

  698. experienced something that drastic, or maybe

  699. you have, or maybe you're experiencing it now.

  700. But I want you to know that the way out of it

  701. is to worship. When we can see past our own needs

  702. and focus on the one who woke us up this morning.

  703. Focus on the one who's given us life. Focus on

  704. the one who's given us another day. Focus on

  705. the one who's allowed us to breathe the air that

  706. pumps in and out of our lungs. You will forget

  707. your need. And you will experience God in such

  708. a way.