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  1. The topic this morning is God's wonders in our

  2. infirmities and weaknesses. Sometimes we have

  3. heard of God using us in spite of our weaknesses,

  4. but I'm going to share with you that God sometimes

  5. uses our very weaknesses to do his things. So

  6. it's okay to be weak as long as you're pursuing

  7. strength. It's okay to be weak. And you don't

  8. have to be weakened in the faith. That's one

  9. thing. And when I say weakness and say infirmity,

  10. I'm not talking about sin. But I'm talking about,

  11. you know, disabilities, deformities, or some

  12. of the physical problems, or poverty, or some

  13. of those issues, persecution or troubles. So

  14. my passage today is from Exodus chapter 4 and

    Exodus 4 chapter mention

  15. verse 10. And please understand that I have read

  16. a scripture which was not in the Bible, but I

  17. read it somewhere. Blessed are those who speak

  18. short, they will be called again. I just wanted

  19. you to be at rest, at peace, okay? So Exodus

    Exodus 4 chapter mention

  20. chapter 4 and verse 10 onwards, it says, But

  21. Moses said to the Lord, O my Lord, I am not eloquent.

  22. I'm not eloquent, either in the past or since

  23. you have spoken to your servant. Why did you

  24. say that? Either in the past or since you have

  25. spoken to your servant. We'll come back to it.

  26. But I'm slow of speech and of tongue. It's not

  27. that my confidence level is low, which I see

  28. that it is, but I also have some problem with

  29. my tongue. I'm slow of speech and of tongue.

  30. I have some problems. I stammer. It could be

  31. a confidence issue. Then the Lord said to him,

  32. who has made man's mouth? Who makes him mute

  33. or deaf or seeing or blind? Definitely I would

  34. say devil. But God goes on to say, is it not

  35. I, the Lord? And let me tell you, friends, I

  36. would not like to rescue God here. So I'm not

  37. going to give you an explanation which I would

  38. not be able to prove. So I would leave it just

  39. there that God said, am I not the one who has

  40. made man mute? Come on. Are you talking, you

  41. know, I asked you, and my objection is that I

  42. don't think I'm the right one to be sent to deliver

  43. people. I have to talk to Pharaoh. I have to

  44. talk to people. And I don't think they're going

  45. to believe me. And God is saying, no, you go

  46. in the very strength that you have. That's my

  47. problem. I don't think I have strength. What

  48. I see is deformity, disability, and my problem,

  49. and my weaknesses. And that's what God is saying.

  50. Yes, Moses, I see that's what you see, but that's

  51. not what you got to see. You got to see me working

  52. on your behalf and working for my purposes. I

  53. never chose you to do things for me. I chose

  54. you so that I would do things in you and through

  55. you so that my purposes are done. So it's not.

  56. See, it's not I trusting you that you would get

  57. something done, but I'm asking you to trust me

  58. that I will get it done through you. In spite

  59. of your weaknesses, in spite of your failures,

  60. in spite of your problems, in spite of your poverty,

  61. in spite of your foolish steps sometimes that

  62. you've taken in your life, in spite of your past,

  63. God is able to do what he purposes to do. My

  64. Jesus just cannot be defeated. I don't believe

  65. in a God who can be defeated. Because he defeated

  66. death. He defeated enemy on the cross. When everyone

  67. thought that Jesus is defeated. They did not

  68. know that Jesus is defeating the greatest enemy

  69. of the human being. And that is death and sin.

  70. Hallelujah. They did not know when Jesus appeared

  71. to be the weak, he was the most powerful at that

  72. moment. I can appear to you weak, but you don't

  73. know my strength does not lie in my talents and

  74. my abilities and in my money or in my things.

  75. My strength lies in my Savior. And that's why

  76. Psalm is said in Psalm 73, that my strength and

  77. my heart may fail, but the Lord is the strength

  78. of my heart. Yes, when you look at me, you see

  79. a man with frailty, with weaknesses. But you

  80. look deep inside of me and you will find a God

  81. who is loving and caring and all -powerful to

  82. finish what he starts. And I pray that you and

  83. I would not like to be Moses. And if we are,

  84. God would not give up on us. That's what happened.

  85. You know what had happened by this time? Moses

  86. had one of the best experiences that anybody

  87. could ever dream of. That he would meet God face

  88. to face. He had seen the back of God. God spoke

  89. to him. But this happened later on. But this

  90. same Moses, what happened? He was in the wilderness

  91. taking care of the sheep of his father -in -law.

  92. And one day he saw fire. A burning bush experience.

  93. Then the Lord said, the voice of the Lord came

  94. to him and said, this is the most holy ground

  95. where you're standing. So take off your sandal.

  96. And Moses did. So Moses listened to the voice

  97. of the Lord. He stood at the most holy ground.

  98. He saw the fire of God. In spite of that, what

  99. he's saying is, I don't think Pharaoh is going

  100. to trust me. Believe me that I'm sent by God.

  101. And more than Pharaoh, fourth chapter, he starts

  102. to show his doubt about people believing him.

  103. He said, people are not going to trust me, believe

  104. me. Then God said, okay, in spite of all the

  105. experiences that I've given to you by now, let

  106. me give you three more. So those three experiences

  107. were, what do you have in your hand? Rod, throw

  108. it. So he threw the rod, he said, pick it up

  109. again. And he picked it up again by the tail,

  110. and it was rod again. He said, okay, even if

  111. they don't believe you now, I know sometimes

  112. people can be stiff -necked and hard -hearted.

  113. I understand that. But if they don't believe

  114. you, believe me. They are going to believe me

  115. by the end of what I show to you. And that is,

  116. put your hand under the cloak. And he did. Take

  117. it out. It was all leprous. Put it back again.

  118. No leprosy. God says, if they don't believe the

  119. first sign, show them the second one. Wow. I'm

  120. carrying something in my hand. I can show something.

  121. I can show the power of God. like this, and I

  122. can show them in my own body the power of God

  123. working. And then God says, even if they don't

  124. believe you after this, what you can do is you

  125. take some water from the Nile and put it on the

  126. dry ground, and it would turn into blood, and

  127. they would believe. And you know, at the end

  128. of all this, you hear the story that they believed

  129. Moses, and that's why they were ready to leave

  130. that place. They believed Moses, but Moses' problem

  131. was that they would never believe me. In spite

  132. of God giving him signs after signs, then came

  133. the tenth verse when Moses is saying, I am not

  134. eloquent in my speech. Secondly, friends, he

  135. said, people will not believe me. You know why?

  136. Because 40 years ago, I wanted to save them.

  137. I wanted to redeem and rescue them in my own

  138. strength. And they rejected me. And Acts chapter

    Acts 7 chapter mention

  139. 7 says that they rejected Moses as a redeemer

  140. and judge. They said, who has made you a judge

  141. over us? So Moses knows that these people have

  142. rejected me once and they're going to reject

  143. me again. But Moses, let me tell you, when you

  144. do things on your own, people might reject it.

  145. But when you do things in the power of the most

  146. high God, nobody is going to reject because it

  147. is God approving you and your ministry and God

  148. doing wonders in you and through you. So don't

  149. worry about what people are going to do. Because

  150. those same very people, those who rejected you,

  151. they are going to trust you. Those who never

  152. wanted to follow you, they are going to follow

  153. you even for 40 years. Let me tell you, if you

  154. think you're not able to lead a group of these

  155. 2 million people, let me tell you, God has chosen

  156. the weakest so that he can confound the wise

  157. through you. Through the very weak vessels. It's

  158. okay to be weak. Moses' objection was this. I

  159. am not eloquent in my speech. Neither was I nor

  160. I am after my experience with you. And I have

  161. seen and let me share this. Being charismatic,

  162. Pentecostal, spirit filled, whatever you call.

  163. For 31 years. Have had a lot of experiences with

  164. God. But I don't know why. Sometimes some disabilities

  165. remain. Sometimes some problems remain. You must

  166. have gone to many conferences. And it was a powerful

  167. atmosphere. Every time we come to church, great,

  168. powerful atmosphere. But we come back and realize

  169. that I have the same problem that I had some

  170. time back. Is the experience unreal? No, friend.

  171. Was God not in that experience? No, friend. He

  172. was in that experience. The experience is real.

  173. Everything is real. The thing is this. You think

  174. that when I am. All together, everything that

  175. I want to be, then I will accomplish. Let me

  176. tell you, when you are weak, you can still accomplish

  177. because it's not your power that gets things

  178. done. It's my power that gets things done. It's

  179. okay to be weak. It's okay to come back to looking

  180. at you, you know. I am weak, yeah. Moses, I know.

  181. Until the perfect one comes, things would be

  182. imperfect. But it's okay. My work. Will be perfectly

  183. done by the perfect power of the most high God.

  184. Working perfectly inside of you. None of his

  185. purposes would fall short from happening. Everything

  186. that he has designed and purpose will come to

  187. pass. It does not depend on your power. So please

  188. stop looking at yourself. As if you have everything,

  189. then you can do everything. No, I can do everything

  190. if my father wants me to do it. Who says that

  191. you cannot be? You can be. But look, I don't

  192. have these talents. Look, I don't have those

  193. talents. Don't worry, God will be your talent.

  194. He will teach you. When I receive the prophecies

  195. that I will travel. All over the world and preach

  196. the gospel. For somebody who comes from a small

  197. town. And my parents were from the villages.

  198. And I did not grow up in English background.

  199. My family never spoke English. And I didn't go

  200. to school to learn English. That was hard. I

  201. didn't know. I could not even utter a word, a

  202. sentence, a phrase in English. But I trusted

  203. God. I said, God, you're able to do that. I would

  204. take English Bible, Hindi Bible, dictionary and

  205. diary together. Would learn 10 words in a day.

  206. Try to learn new words, how to use them. And

  207. then I'll practice again and again and again

  208. and again. It took some time. But let me tell

  209. you, praise God, that God has allowed me to travel

  210. to 18 nations and preach the unadulterated gospel

  211. of the Lord Jesus Christ. Just when you think

  212. you cannot do it, let me tell you, God is going

  213. to surprise you. What he can do through you.

  214. In spite of your weaknesses. Even using your

  215. weakness. Okay, let me take you to another example.

  216. And that is the example of Isaac. You know the

  217. Bible says Isaac was old and his eyes grew dim.

  218. And so much so that he would not even recognize

  219. his son from close. He would not be able to recognize

  220. him at all. But when he was in that situation,

  221. don't you think it's one of the weakest points?

  222. He cannot. He's on his bed and he said to his

  223. son, Esau, bring me some, hunt some, you know,

  224. animal for me. Cook the kind of food that I love

  225. and bring it to me so that I can bless you. Mama

  226. was listening to every conversation. And mama,

  227. when the boy was out, mama went to Jacob and

  228. said, Jacob, it's your time, boy. And Jacob said,

  229. mama, you think that's right? Mama said, I don't

  230. know what I'm doing is right or not, but it's

  231. going to happen because the Lord promised so

  232. that the younger will be greater than the older

  233. and older will serve the younger. This happened

  234. before they even did any good or bad. So the

  235. prophecy was already there. The word was already

  236. there that Jacob is going to be the bigger one.

  237. And you know what had happened? One day when

  238. Jacob was cooking stew, that's when. Esau came.

  239. So Esau had already proved why God rejected him.

  240. Esau proved for God to be right. But you know

  241. what happened? How it all happened? It all happened

  242. because one day Esau was so weak in his eyesight

  243. that he could not even see. So God used his weakness

  244. to do what he had already purposed before the

  245. world began. So can God use my weaknesses? Can

  246. God use even my blindness? Can God use my disabilities?

  247. God is wiser than you think. He knows how to

  248. use things. I'm telling you, he has used me for

  249. about 31 years. I'm no better than those people

  250. that are recorded here. But God can use you in

  251. spite of all these things. The only problem that

  252. God has is when you reject God. When you say,

  253. I cannot do it. So you're saying, God, your choice

  254. is wrong. I thought you would choose somebody

  255. better than me. And I think the work is too great

  256. and I'm not eloquent for that. Let me tell you,

  257. don't say those things to God. When God says

  258. you can do it, you can do it. It's not because

  259. God is just saying it, but he backs what he says.

  260. He stands behind what he says. If he says you're

  261. going to be father of the nation, you're going

  262. to be. God, why would you use him? Why would

  263. you use Abraham? He's not the father of any child.

  264. Why don't you use his brother, Nahar? Or Nahor,

  265. whatever you call. He is father of eight children

  266. and four from concubines. He's a fertile man.

  267. His wife is a fertile woman. So why would you

  268. not choose them? They can be easy, quick, you

  269. know. They can produce more children. And God

  270. is saying, no, I'm going to use somebody who's

  271. not able to do it. So that glory is not yours

  272. when the child is being produced, but the glory

  273. would be God's glory. And that's why, why would

  274. God wait for 25 years for Adam to have a child?

  275. Because you remember, when he turned 86, then

  276. we had a son. So in other words, Abraham was

  277. able to produce a child, but Sarah was not. And

  278. Abraham proved to produce a child by producing

  279. a child through Hagar after 10 years. So when

  280. he was 86, he became the father. And you know,

  281. he lived for 175. And what happened? After the

  282. death of Sarah, he married Keturah. And he had

  283. many sons and daughters. At what age? Age 137

  284. to 147. Can you produce so many children? Yes,

  285. I can. But why have you chosen me? Because your

  286. wife is barren. And I want to use something that

  287. is so, so insignificant in itself that it seems

  288. like it can never produce. But I will make it

  289. produce. Let me tell you, friend, you could be

  290. the weakest in your clan. It's okay. You could

  291. be the youngest. It's okay. You could be the

  292. poorest. It's okay. You could be the most foolish

  293. one like me. It's okay. As long as you allow

  294. God to be all that he wants to be in and through

  295. you. As long as you say, God, you can do it.

  296. I know you can do it. But Moses kept saying,

  297. I cannot do it. I'm not the right one. Don't

  298. send me God. Please, I'm not the right one. God

  299. said, no. Who made man's mouth? I did. I did

  300. with a purpose. I did for my glory. Everything

  301. that God has created, let me tell you, it is

  302. for his glory, everything that he has created.

  303. It's very clear. The scriptures are plain. Colossians

    Colossians 1 chapter mention

  304. chapter 1 and 16 says that everything, whether

  305. on earth, in heavens, everything, principalities

  306. or the powers, rulers or whatever that is, seen

  307. or unseen, everything being created by God and

  308. for God. And Romans 11, 36 says, to him be glory

  309. forever and ever. Whatever you do, 1 Corinthians

    1 Corinthians 10:30

  310. 10, verse 30 and 31. Whatever you do, by eating

  311. or drinking, whatever. Do it all unto the glory

  312. of God. You are the temple of the most high God.

  313. The Holy Spirit dwells inside of you. Why? So

  314. that you would die for yourself and live for

  315. God and his glory alone. Everything has been

  316. created for his glory. And let me tell you, even

  317. your weakness can be used for his glory. It's

  318. okay. Keep pursuing strength, but don't tell

  319. God that you cannot be all that God wants you

  320. to be at this moment. That I have to give up,

  321. you know. Don't give up. Please don't give up.

  322. Romans chapter 15 is very clear. Verse 4, all

    Romans 15 chapter mention

  323. the scriptures were given so that through the

  324. endurance and the encouragement of the scriptures,

  325. we might have hope. That's why you read about...

  326. Why all the stories of the Old Testament are

  327. given to me? So that every time I look back to

  328. the story of David, what I see is a faithful

  329. God. I don't see faithful David. I see faithful

  330. God. When I look back to it, I don't see faithful

  331. Jonah. I see an angry Jonah and disobedient Jonah.

  332. But I see a faithful God. So every time you look

  333. back to the story of the Bible, what you see

  334. is the faithfulness of God. And that's why these

  335. scriptures are being given to me. So that I would

  336. understand and know that God is faithful and

  337. powerful enough to do what he purposes to do.

  338. And nothing can stop him. Nothing can stop him.

  339. Even my weaknesses cannot stop him. It was very

  340. clear one day God said to Gideon, Gideon. You're

  341. a mighty man of valor. And Gideon said, who,

  342. me? Are you talking to me? It could be somebody

  343. else in the worship team. God said, no, you're

  344. the one. But I am the, my clan is the weakest

  345. and I'm the youngest in the clan. Don't you think

  346. you've chosen the right one? God said, no, I've

  347. chosen the right one. You go. And this is what

  348. the Lord said, go in your strength. Don't you

  349. think the problem was that Gideon never thought

  350. that he has strength? And all that he showed,

  351. all that he did proved or showed that he really

  352. had no strength. And he says, God says, go in

  353. your strength. Have I not sent you? You know

  354. my strength is? My strength is only Jehovah God,

  355. the sender. Because he never sends me all by

  356. myself. He sends me and comes along. That's why

  357. in Mark chapter 16 and verse 14 onwards, Bible

    Mark 16 chapter mention

  358. says Jesus met them after resurrection. And you

  359. know what he did? Bible says after resurrection

  360. when he met his disciples, he rebuked them for

  361. their unbelief. And you know what is the 15th

  362. verse? In the 14th verse, he rebuked them for

  363. their unbelief. And 15th verse, he says, now

  364. go into all the world. Really? It's not even

  365. a chapter. to this. It's just one scripture,

  366. one moment. It's not that, okay, think about

  367. it for 30 minutes, come up with a conclusion,

  368. come up with the right conclusion, then I will

  369. see if you are worthy to be sent or not. No.

  370. He said, you have unbelief inside of you, but

  371. if I look for perfect, where would I find one?

  372. I'm telling you, he tried. He didn't find one

  373. in India. Maybe Harrisburg. Or maybe Yukon. No,

  374. there is nobody. So God is saying, I know you

  375. think you don't have it. If I am there inside

  376. of you and with you, you have it all that you

  377. need to do that work which I have called you

  378. to. Just go in your strength. And Gideon said,

  379. I don't think I can. I'm sending you when God

  380. sends you. And you know what happened in the

  381. 16th chapter. Same Mark chapter 16. We heard

    Mark 16 chapter mention

  382. of 14th chapter when Jesus rebuked them. 15th

  383. chapter he sent them and 20th, sorry, 14th verse

  384. and 15th verse and 20th verse. The verse 20th

  385. says, and they went out and preached the gospel

  386. and God was with them confirming the word with

  387. signs and wonders. Go in your weaknesses. Don't

  388. trust that you can do signs and wonders. God

  389. alone will do signs and wonders. Will he work

  390. with weak people? Yes, he will work with weak

  391. people so that they cannot trust in their own

  392. strength and they can never glory in their own

  393. strength. They will only glory in God Almighty.

  394. That's why great things will happen through weak

  395. people. Believe it, friends. Great things will

  396. happen with weak people. If you think you are

  397. weak some way, you have some disabilities, great

  398. things are bound to happen through you in Jesus'

  399. name. Through you in Jesus' name. Because God

  400. cannot be proven wrong. Why has he chosen you?

  401. Why has he chosen you? He can never be proven

  402. wrong for anything. He is true. And he is truth.

  403. Everything he does, everything he says, everything

  404. he plans is good, is truth. It can never be changed.

  405. And I pray in Jesus' name that you would believe

  406. that and you would understand that. But listen

  407. what happened. Gideon thought that he cannot

  408. do it all by himself. Gideon thought that he

  409. cannot be victorious. But God kept telling him,

  410. you go, you go, you go. And then Gideon decided

  411. to bring some people who can fight along with

  412. him. You know how many people came? 32 ,000.

  413. How big was the army against them? More than

  414. 100 ,000 people. But they still... You know,

  415. only 30%, maybe 25 % of what the other army is.

  416. The enemy is stronger. But 32 people, at least

  417. they could muster some courage. At least they

  418. could have some courage. Now we can go because

  419. we have 32 ,000 people with us. And just when

  420. they were getting ready and, you know, sharpening

  421. their sword and everything, there comes the voice

  422. of the Lord. Gideon, I think the people are too

  423. many. Come on, God, I just mustered some courage.

  424. I now have some confidence I can do it because

  425. of these 32 ,000 people. Let me tell you, God

  426. never wants you to trust anything other than

  427. him. He is all that you need. Brothers are good.

  428. Team is good. Sister's help is good. Money is

  429. good. House is good. But you think I cannot do

  430. it without it? I will do it without it because

  431. my God is all that I need. All that I need. And

  432. he will make it happen. Gideon said, what do

  433. I need to do? God said, tell them anyone who

  434. is afraid can go back. And you know what? 22

  435. ,000 went back. Wow. That was a bigger number

  436. of people who were afraid to be in the army.

  437. Then why did they come? I understand that all

  438. the people in the church singing are not all

  439. the people who have everything all together.

  440. They're just trying. If I can do it, Lord. If

  441. you can use me. They were still there in spite

  442. of their fear. And God said, I want them to go.

  443. Oh, so you don't want anyone full of fear? So

  444. you'll reject them? But listen what God did after

  445. that. Oh, my. God said, there's still too many.

  446. Take them to the water. Test them. And he tested.

  447. From 10 ,000, it turned to 300. What do you think?

  448. From 32 ,000 to 300 is less than 1%. Less than

  449. 1%. And God is saying, with these 300, I will

  450. deliver Israel. Listen, these 300 will not deliver

  451. Israel. I will deliver Israel. I will just use

  452. these 300 people. So these 300 people are all

  453. that it takes. They are most courageous. They

  454. are right and perfectly all right. No, let me

  455. tell you about the leader. Look at the leader

  456. first. Then you look at those 300 people. Whether

  457. they had fear or not. No. They did not have the

  458. great faith that you and I sometimes desire to

  459. have. How do I know? God said in the seventh

  460. chapter and verse seven onwards, I will deliver

  461. you with these 300 people. But remember, Gideon,

  462. if you still have fear, go down to the... camp

  463. of the Philistine army and listen to their dream

  464. and you would have some courage to fight against

  465. them. And then Bible says Gideon went. Why did

  466. Gideon go? Because God said, if you still have

  467. fear. After having 300 chosen one of God, Gideon,

  468. you the great commander of the army and you still

  469. have fear? Yes. Let me tell you, the fear is,

  470. somebody said, fear is not the absence of courage.

  471. It is in fact the presence, the faith is not

  472. the absence of fear. But faith is the presence

  473. of that courage to fight against fear head on.

  474. And if there is some fear, I pray that you would

  475. fight against it head on. Who does not carry

  476. this kind of situation. Gideon, go. And let me

  477. tell you, God, you just rejected these 22 ,000

  478. because they had some amount of fear in them.

  479. But you are encouraging Gideon to go on, be fearless.

  480. One after another, one after another, instances

  481. after instances, you're telling him, you're talking

  482. to him, you're trying to instill some hope inside

  483. of him and faith inside of him. And why didn't

  484. you do with him? With those 22 ,000, I don't

  485. know. I only know this, that if you are still

  486. in Christ Jesus, if you're seated here, then

  487. God has chosen you to go ahead and do what sometimes

  488. you don't think you can do in your own strength.

  489. God has chosen you. I don't know why many others

  490. have rejected Christ. I don't know many others,

  491. what happened to them and why they are not in

  492. Christ. I only know this, that God can use the

  493. very people that he has in this building to change

  494. the scenario and change the places around them.

  495. You are able to do it all by yourself. You can

  496. finish what God has started because it is God

  497. who begins and God who finishes. Friends, I pray

  498. in Jesus' name that you would not be bogged down

  499. by those things. Listen what God said to Moses

  500. after that. God said to Moses, is it not I? Yes.

  501. And then what he goes on to say is even more

  502. beautiful. He says, then the Lord said to him

  503. who has made man's mouth who makes him mute or

  504. deaf or seeing or blind, is it not I the Lord?

  505. Now therefore go and I will be with your mouth

  506. and teach you what you shall speak. But he said,

  507. oh, my Lord, please send someone else. Then the

  508. anger of the Lord was kindled against Moses.

  509. And he said, is there not Aaron, your brother,

  510. the Levite? I know that he can speak well. But

  511. listen, listen, listen. Verse 35, you shall speak

  512. to him and put the words in his mouth. And I

  513. will be with your mouth and his mouth. And I

  514. will teach you both what to do. When Moses said,

  515. I cannot do it, God said, I will be with your

  516. mouth. And I will teach you. These two things,

  517. let me tell you, friends, I have realized over

  518. the course of years of ministry, I need these

  519. things, both these things, every moment of my

  520. life. I need God to be my strength and his presence

  521. to always be with me. And number two, to always

  522. teach me what to do next. And never go by my

  523. experience. Oh, I have had the experience. I

  524. can do it. I have done it 10 ,000 times. No.

  525. You need God to teach you instantly at that moment

  526. what he should do. What you should do. In fact,

  527. one day, me and my wife had some trouble. I was

  528. talking to Mark about this. We had some issues

  529. that we wanted to discuss. And my wife was mad

  530. at me because of something that I had done. And

  531. I don't remember what I had done. And guess what?

  532. I didn't even remember in those days. There was

  533. something. And I knew that she's right and she

  534. has to be. So I was talking. I thought, let me

  535. go and talk to her. And these are the words that

  536. I'm going to say. And everything is going to

  537. be all right. And I thought of all the good words

  538. that I would say and good ways that I would convey

  539. my thought across, you know. And I decided to

  540. go to her office. And she was in the school.

  541. She's principal of the school. So she was in

  542. the school, in the office. And I went into her

  543. and said, I want to talk. She said, yes, come.

  544. And we started talking. And since then, I don't

  545. know what happened. But more than four days,

  546. we never talked again. I have realized. You think

  547. I can fix everyone's problems? No. You think

  548. I can fix all my problems in my house? No. You

  549. think I can fix all the world's problems? No.

  550. And guess what? I'm not being called to do it.

  551. I have my savior right alongside of me. And he's

  552. going to teach me what to do next. He's going

  553. to teach me how to go. He's going to teach me

  554. what to say. He's going to teach me how to behave

  555. in certain situations. He's going to teach me

  556. when I am in lack of money how to behave. When

  557. I have abundance of money, how should I behave?

  558. He's going to teach me. That's all he wants.

  559. He's going to teach me certain things. Me and

  560. my wife, we went through three miscarriages.

  561. And we were too, too broken. And my wife was

  562. so broken that one day I was trying to wake her

  563. up and she said, I wish I would never get up.

  564. And she started crying. She said, I wish my eyes

  565. would never open. And I would die in my sleep.

  566. And I said, don't say that. And I started crying

  567. too. And I went upstairs and I started crying.

  568. I said, God, I don't know. Why? And I really

  569. don't. You know, it doesn't bother me much, but

  570. the why, I don't need to know the answer of why.

  571. I know you are wise. But please do something

  572. so that we have hope. Please do something so

  573. that we cherish your grace and mercy in spite

  574. of our weaknesses. And let me tell you what happened.

  575. All of a sudden I got a phone call from one of

  576. my disciples from a city called Delhi. And he

  577. calls me up and says, Pastor, what are you doing?

  578. I said, nothing, just praying. He said, there's

  579. a situation. I heard that you guys take care

  580. of the children, poor children. I said, no, we

  581. only provide free education to them. Yes, yeah,

  582. that's what we do. We give them free education,

  583. food and transportation and all that. And he

  584. said, but what about those who are better? been

  585. abandoned I said no we don't do anything he says

  586. oh I thought you do something because we have

  587. a situation here a couple came together out of

  588. wedlock they have a baby and the husband has

  589. already man has already left the scene he's not

  590. with the woman and woman is saying I'm only 21

  591. and I don't want to carry this so she's she's

  592. getting out of the hospital tomorrow and she's

  593. gonna drop the baby in the trash can and that's

  594. what I heard And when I heard that, I said, wait,

  595. I'll call you back again. I went back to my wife.

  596. I said, this is a situation. What would you like

  597. to do? She said, get my ticket. I'm going. She

  598. got up and got the baby. And let me tell you,

  599. since then, everything has changed. Everything

  600. has changed. Today, I have 10 kids playing on

  601. my bed. Now when I say playing on the bed, I

  602. really mean playing. Really. Jumping up and down

  603. and playing on my back. Horse riding and all

  604. that stuff. And I'm loving every part of it.

  605. Believe me, I'm loving. I would not like to trade

  606. this for any other thing. I'm telling you, this

  607. is part of heaven that I'm enjoying in my family,

  608. in my life. Believe me, friends. It's okay to

  609. be weak at times because God knows how he's going

  610. to use your weakness for his glory and for your

  611. good. And let me tell you, those kids have done

  612. so good to me that I can never pay back. Don't

  613. look at your weaknesses and deformities and disabilities.

  614. As if they are going to be your handicap. As

  615. if they are going to be your impediment. No,

  616. sir, no. God is going to use you in spite of

  617. that. And sometimes God is going to use the very

  618. weakness you have for his glory and for your

  619. good. Trust God in everything. That's why God

  620. said, I will be with you and I will teach you.

  621. I will teach you. I will be with you. And I will

  622. finish with these. See, that's why I'm turning

  623. the pages. I'll finish with these. One time,

  624. a lady. Now, let me tell you about my family

  625. situation. I'm enjoying my family. Don't think

  626. we fight any longer. God's grace, we have fun

  627. now. Because God taught me a few things. And

  628. one of the things that God taught me was this.

  629. Michael, there can be four associate pastors

  630. to your church. But there cannot be four associate

  631. fathers and husbands to your family. So be the

  632. husband you have to be. Be the father you have

  633. to be. And I started taking care of my wife.

  634. I started loving her more than I, you know, I

  635. started showing so much of love. Because in India

  636. it's like, I love you, don't you know? I bring

  637. food on the table, don't you know? Do I have

  638. to say it again and again? And, you know, husbands

  639. are not that expressive, you know. I don't know

  640. husbands here, but in India, we are very shy.

  641. And you should thank us for being shy. Being

  642. shy, we are 1 .3 billion. Imagine what would

  643. have happened if we were not that shy. So you

  644. should thank us. I'm telling you, your immigration

  645. would have, like, collapsed by now. Praise God.

  646. And you needed bigger walls than what you have

  647. right now. But praise God for everything. Everything

  648. is for his glory. And he's saying, Michael, I

  649. can use it. Don't worry. I can use you. I can

  650. use your weakness. Don't think I just have a

  651. little bit of strength that I can use only good

  652. things. I can use anything for my glory and for

  653. your good. God bless you, friends. Let God be

  654. glorified as you allow him to work in and through

  655. you. Thank you, friends. Hallelujah.