The Scene Of The Fall // Damaged But Not Destroyed (Part 3) // Dr. Anita Phillips

Welcome to Transformation Church podcast, where we represent God to the lost and found

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we believe God will transform your life. Do today's message well, I

am so excited to share with you guys today. I'm going to talk fast.

I'm from New Jersey, so I'm able to do that. Come on,

I'm able to do that, and I want to teach you some things

today. I love the number of minutes they gave me. Thank you.

Thank you for not asking me to speak in twenty five minutes. I don't

know why they do that to people. I can't do it, so thank

you so much. This is a very special moment for me, and because

I know how God works, if it's special for me, than he has

it special for every single person. You're daining to be in a room today.

But I'm going to be fifty years old on Tuesday. I'm so happy

half a century and all year long. God has been sending me prophetic messages

in different ways that he is relaunching me, and he has done that.

In One of the ways he has done that is to take me to cities

that have been significant in my life. And He did it on purpose so

that every time I noticed I was in the city, I didn't realize I

was coming to the city. I'd be so focused on the church itself and

making sure that I was bringing what God had for that house so that house

could affect that city. So I wasn't really thinking about the city. And

yesterday when we hit the ground and got in the car leaving the airport,

and I realized I was in Tulsa, Oklahoma, and this is the last

city I will minister in before my birthday on Tuesday, and thirty years ago

this semester, I was a new student at all Roberts University, and this

is my first time being back in Tulsa since then. This is the second

time this year. God started it in Greensboro, North Carolina, had not

been there in thirty years, and ending it here in Tulsa, where I

haven't been in thirty years. Something prophetic is happening, and so God has

been showing me that He is bringing me back to the beginning to launch again,

so that none of the things that define my life today existed thirty years

ago. And God told me that none of the things that will define my

life in thirty years are visible right now. He told me that about this

year. The book was one of the first things to be burst out into

this new generation. So I want to share that with you because it is

prophetic that I'm here, I'm in labor, I'm giving birth to something,

and so God wouldn't bring me here to be a spectacle for you. There

is a significant time period in your life that God is rewinding and restarting.

For some of you it's five years, for some of you it's ten.

I know this is the tenth year of the conference. For some of you

it's twenty. Some of you it's fifteen. But ask God to show you

where in your life he is backing up to and he's pressing the restart button.

There are things that will meant to be released in your life that were

disrupted, damaged, not destroyed because God the enemy wanted to do something.

But God is saying one of the things that you lost you will get back,

and that this relaunch, this restart, this rebirth that's gonna represent you

to the world that He has called you to touch. I need you to

hear this because He wouldn't bring me here and only do that for me.

It's too significant. It's too significant. I walked that campus yesterday with tears

streaming down my face. God birthed my career there. He prophetically spoke to

me and said, major in social work. I didn't even know what social

work was. I had to look it up and I said, Oh,

that looks good to me, and that started my path to becoming a therapist.

I embraced my call to priests of gospel while I was there, and

so from here, what I'm doing today was birthed from this city. And

so God brought me back here to birth my next and he wants you to

know it's your turn to birth your next two. Can you receive that word?

And I haven't started preaching yet, but I'm prophesying already. We got

to learn to hear God in different ways. It's not always loud and it's

not always flashy, but it is always true. Do you have a moment.

Do you have that moment in your life? Hold on to it.

Let's go to Genesis. I spent a lot of time in Genesis Genesis chapter

three. I'm not gonna read all the verses but for your notes, because

you're gonna need You're gonna need to study this out later because we're gonna look

at a lot of scriptures. But I want you to look at Genesis,

chapter three, verses nine, all the way through nineteen. Now, this

is the story of the fall. We know how things started, we know

they're going good. We'll go back to that. But then there was this

man and this woman and they made a bad decision and they ate a fruit

they weren't supposed to eat. Everybody's familiar with that story, and so they

were headed towards the fall, and they have done what they shouldn't have done.

They put on some leaves. They're hiding out in the garden. I'm

not gonna read all the verses. But God comes looking for them, and

the man says, we were hiding because we were naked. God said,

well, how you know you was naked? Now this is like such a

I mean, I don't want to be discriminatory, but I feel like it's

kind of a black parent moment, because God's just like, and how you

know you was naked? What you've been doing? What you were saying you

already, you're telling me you're hiding not because of what you did wrong,

but because you know you're naked, so you're I'm told on yourself. You

ever tried to get out of some with your parents and you end up just

telling on yourself? And they're just like, oh, really, well,

how you know that? How you know where the president was, how you

know where the cake was? How you know the door was gonna lie?

How do you know that? And so he said, how do you know

that you're naked? Why are you aware of what you don't have? See,

there was a reason why God made us naked because there had been this

other guy named Lucifer, and Lucifer had been created and his entire body he

was clothed with jewels and pipes. He had adorned him with split and he

got caught up in himself and thought that he could be like God, and

so God threw him out. We know the story. And then he made

us. He thought, maybe if I don't adorn them so much, maybe

I will show Satan that naked will still worship me. So he made us

naked to give us a shot to be a part of his story. And

we did. We're in it. And so he says, I'm naked,

so we're not supposed to know about certain vulnerabilities, but we do. And

so then God said, well, how do you know? He said,

well, the woman you gave me, she gave me the fruit and I

ate it. So then God, like that parent, goes to the woman

and well, and what you had to do with it? Because now everybody

in trouble. You come stand here, you getting a whooping, You getting

a whooping, You get a whoop, and everybody come on, Oh oh,

okay, come on, you're not off the hook, but now you

in it. Come on. So I go to the woman. So what

was you doing? Well, the serpent gave it to me. Okay,

both y'all. Serpent, you come stand over here too. Anybody ever been

in that scenario? Okay, yeah, so you come stand over here too.

And so the serpent is in trouble. So but but what's interested in

the scene here is that God. Then he punishes the serpent because the serpent

is something wrong. He tells him he's gonna crawl on his belly. He

punishes the woman. The sin curse was that childbirth would be amplified and painful,

the sin curse. But we don't live under low sin and death anymore.

But that was the sin curse. That was the sin curse. I

had my children naturally, had one of them at home, never screamed once

because I had proclaimed I don't live under the law sin and death anymore.

Don't let people convince you that the law sin and death still reigns over your

life. If you know Jesus, these were punishments, not purposes. And

some of us are walking like the punishment is my purpose. That's a separate

message. And so and so he came in and said, that's not your

purpose. But you're so busy focused on the ways of which you are naked.

And so then he punishes that, and then he punishes the man.

He punishes them, and then the ground gets in trouble. Now, this

is the strange part. If you look at verse eleven, he's finishing off

with the man. Because you have listened to the voice of your wife.

You have eaten up the tree of which I commanded you. You shall not

eat of it. Cursed is the ground because of you. Cursed is the

ground in pain. Shall you eat of it all the days of your life?

Thorns and thistles, it shall bring forth to you three things. Now

that is different about the ground. But the ground didn't do anything. The

ground was not punished, but it was changed. And that is the ground

from which we were formed. And so that is why now generation after generation

we were changed. We weren't being punished, but we were changed. And

so I need you to understand that some of the painful things that go on

in your in your body is not because of something you did wrong. You're

not being punished, but there was a change in the ground. Now,

how did the ground start out? Well, no way the ground started out.

We got to go back to Genesis one, because that's where he planted

the original garden. We know that God said on the first day, let

there be light, because everything was dark. We needed to have light.

And we know on the second day, God said, let there be boundaries.

That's the need of Phillips version. He said, let there be boundaries.

So he put some water above the firmament, some water below the firmament,

that air. He made boundaries because the earth was chaotic at the time,

and when there's chaos in your life, you need boundaries. So he

made boundaries and he made sure there was water on the ground, but there

was also water in the sky. And this light and this air and this

water is important because of those are three things that plants need. And so

on the third day, he sold the seeds of his word onto the good

ground that he made, and plants grew grass, herb bearing seed. Those

are crops like wheat and fruit trees. Those things represent relationship, purpose,

and legacy. You're gonna have to get the book for that. I don't

have time, trust me. But three things grew grass, crops, fruit

trees, and that was what we were designed to produce. We're supposed to

produce relationships, purpose, legacy. That is what a meaningful, whole well

life looks like through the lens of the Creator. Because a lot of us

need to understand that, because so many of us are concerned with how we're

broken, and I want you to pay attention to that. And so many

of us aren't healing journeys. How many people on some guy in healing journey,

right, everybody? So so many of us aren't healing journeys. But

how do you know when you're done where you're going? Because all you know

really is that you're trying to get out of pain. You're trying to get

out of pain, and you're trying to stop acting a fool. If I

can stop hurting like this, stop sleeping with them, stop smoking that,

stop cussing at them, stop losing my temper in unholy ways, stop back

by it, and stop gossiping. Stop using social media to distract me instead

of going to God. You're trying to stop, stop, stop, And

you think if you can do all of that, then maybe that's where you're

at. But that would just mean that you're out of pain. But are

you growing? Are you producing what you were designed to produce? Are your

relationships healthy? Are you walking in purpose? Are you leaving a legacy?

Now that's wellness. What are you cultivating? God grew three things on purpose?

But here's the problem. Go back now to the scene of the fall.

There was grass, there was crops, there was fruit, trees,

relationships, purpose, legacy. But what happened to the ground It went barren?

No more grass. Cursed is the ground? It stopped growing things.

And then it says that out of his by the sweat of his brow,

that the man Adam would produce, he would eat bread. That means it's

gonna be hard to grow this wheat, so that earth barren. See those

crops now, it's hard to grow them. And then it said thorns the

earth would give up. Thorns were not there on day three, and so

now something new is growing in the garden. We have weeds. All of

a sudden, this garden has weeds. So this place where we were put

to have dominion, we were meant to dress and keep a garden that was

growing purpose, relationships, legacy. Now all of a sudden, dominion is

in trouble. It's gonna be hard work to do what we need to do

because the grass has gone, it's barren, its cursed. The crops are

down. We're struggling to grow legacy and feed ourselves to be full of what

God has for us to be full of. And we're struggling to leave a

legacy because thorns are choking the fruit that was supposed to be on that tree.

Now this is important because us we are gardens. And in this moment

the garden was indeed damaged, but it wasn't destroyed. Because if you go

to Matthew chapter thirteen, we find Jesus telling a story called the Parable of

the Sower. Is anybody familiar with the Parable of the Sower? And in

the Parable of the Sower, God describes for Jesus describes three types of soil

that are causing problems when we're trying to grow something there. And in the

first type of soil is called wayside. The sea falls down, it has

no interaction whatsoever with the ground. The bird comes and eats it, nothing

happens. That area is barren. We went from grass relationships to cursed as

the ground. That's the wayside soil. And then we see a stony ground.

That stony ground is described at first as having joy in it, and

so it received the seed of the Word of God with joy, and the

seeds started growing. But then it got hot outside, and Jesus says,

the heart of the person got mad and anger killed it. That is your

crops. That is your ground that is hard to sw That is Adams sweating

trying to grow that plant. And then there's a third kind of ground,

thorny ground. The thorns from Genesis are growing in Matthew thirteen in the parable

of the sower, and they are choking the fruit. Remember that woman with

a multiplied sorrow. They're choking the fruit of our legacy, the things we're

supposed to burst. And so you've been reading your Bible a long time,

but you may have never noticed that Jesus is telling the story of the parable

of the sower at the scene of the fall. He never last, He

never laughed. You don't need you to catch that. At the place where

the destruction came to your life, he never left. He is standing right

there in the damaged space. He's walking around in this dirty, sandy mess

that used to be grassed and used to be crops, and used to be

orchards, and now this is all we have left. And he never laughed.

You've been looking for him, but he's been standing there the whole time.

He was the seed that came out of God's mouth, that fell on

the soil on the third day and grew the crops in the first place.

And then when that man and that woman made a decision that was not of

God, he crawled inside. The Bible says he became the seed of a

woman. So before they were put out of the literal garden, he crawled

inside the bodily garden of a woman, because his genetic material that would become

his body had to flow down through a woman. I'm not gonna get into

whether women can preach or not, because I'm already preaching, but what I

will say. Let me tell y'all. I was raised by a preaching woman,

and she told me this. If anybody ever tell you you can't preach,

you tell them what I tell them. When they tell me, will

make up another name for what I'm doing, baby, because I am already

out here. So anyway, he crawls inside the seed of a woman.

Now this is important biologically because every female human that is born has in their

ovaries all the eggs they will ever have in life. We don't make new

eggs like men make new seed. Our eggs are all there from the jump.

So that means when my mother was born, I was in her because

she already had me. But that means when my mother was in her mother,

she I was in her, in her mother, while she was in

her mother, while she was in her mother. And so Jesus's genetic material

crawled into the seed of a woman, and from Eve Toraham to Tail all

the way down Tama, all the way down to Mary. The seed traveled

generation after generation and the soil of the body of a woman. Jesus was

not genetically related to Joseph, but he was genetically related to Mary. Yeah,

Jesus had a mama, so anyway, so anyway, it is so

critical for us to recognize the thread of scripture because one of the reasons that

we underutilize the power and the demon that the word gives us is because we

cherry picked verses that sound like what we want today, and we don't eat

the whole thing. My Bible said that we're supposed to eat the whole thing,

and so we're gonna go from Genesis to Revelation today so that you eat

the whole thing. So you realize that Jesus never leaves you. He won't

leave you no matter how you fall, no matter what hurts you, whether

it was on you like it was on the first man and woman, or

it wasn't on you. The ground didn't do anything wrong, but the ground

was changed. And many of you were born with trauma in your body already,

not because of anything you did, not because of anything that got done

to you directly, but because trauma changes the way that our DNA is past.

And so when we are born to mothers, particularly who haven't survived trauma,

there's more thorns in the soil of our lives. So some of you

have all Hey, you ain't never you feel like you ain't never been right,

and you tried to rebuke it, and it's my imagination and the devil's

line. But no, it's actually biologically true. That it's always been hard

for you to sleep, that you always seem to get your feelings hurt the

most easily, that it's hard for you to recover from certain kinds of pain,

and you've been trying to figure out how this got into your life.

But the ground, the ground, the ground, the ground was changed and

those storms is where I want to focus today, because when a weed shows

up, it is an indicator of the condition of the soil. Weeds only

grow under certain conditions. The primary condition under which weeds grow is in soil

that lacks the nutrient that it needs. And so when we have a weed,

we need to check on what's going on in the ground. Now,

what is the ground? Jesus tells us in the Parable of the Sower that

the ground is our heart. He describes it as our emotional space. Think

about it wayside, soil, no description, no emotion, no contact with

the seed. Stony ground starts, how joyful, the seed responds, gets

angry, the plant dies, and then in the thorny ground. It says

that the thorns that grew, that they were the cares of this world.

That word translates to anxiety, the deceitfulness of riches. And in the Book

of Luke, when it tells the parable the soew, where it adds the

pleasures of this life? And so what would grow weeds of anxiety? What

emotion? Fear? Fear? See, you've been struggling with your mind when

you should be working on healing your heart. Because the reason that the weeds

are growing is because the soil is in a condition that is conducive for the

thoughts. That's why you can't seem to get rid of the thoughts. You

pull up the thought. You try and take a thought captive. Some of

y'all got so many thought captives. You need a wild thought zoo. You

got so many of them. They just locked up everywhere. But they keep

on proliferating like baby's kids. They just keep coming and coming and coming,

and you snatching them and snatching them. Why are they growing back? Because

the heart is fertile for the weed. Fear. Fear is a real human

emotion. I'm sorry to disappoint you if you thought I was getting ready to

tell you how to rebuke the spirit of fear. But I'm not fear is

a real human emotion. It is not ever observed in the heavenlyst We don't

see it in creation. In the first creation, that's good. Not until

the fall do the thorns appear. And so sadness characterizes wayside soil. Read

about that. Anger teaches us about stony soil, and stony soel teach us

about anger. But thorny soils where I want to focus, because that's where

we learn about fear. Now God grieves, So sadness is not an unholy

emotion, but as humans who are falling, we experience it in intensities that

are beyond healthy. Anger is not an unholy emotion. God gets angry,

and we saw Jesus get angry, and so we are allowed to be angry.

That's why the mooble said be angry, but sin not. It doesn't

say don't be angry, so you won't sin. It says be angry.

It says not so that that emo existed before the fall, but we do

suffer it in ways that are broken because of the fall. So sadness and

anger were not new, but fear was new. Fear is a uniquely human

experience, but it is an emotion. Now, we love to rebuke fear,

but I've never heard anybody rebuke fear when a bear was chasing him.

I never heard has anybody here stood in the face of a bear and said,

I rebuke fear, and you bear not a one. I'm gonna go

out on a limb when you're out going for that walk by the lake,

and you got that stick with you. Some of y'all know about the stick.

What's the stick for case a dog you don't know come in your direction?

You got that stick. Now, if you was really all about the

spear of fear, you would have no stick. You're out there, Hey,

I have dominion, And if a dog come at me, come on,

dog, come at me. Not one of you, not one of

you, not one. We only start rebuking fear in relationships. We start

rebuking it when God asks us to do something and we're scared to do it.

Then we start denying that fear is real. We start acting like we

ain't never met fear before, like it's some kind of demonic possession. But

it wasn't a demonic possession. When the dog was coming so I just I

need you to be real. Human beings experience the emotion of fear. It

is part of our fall in existence. But it is a human emotion.

Jesus experienced it. I'll mess you up now. But my Bible says we

have not a high priest who cannot be touched by the feelings of our infirmities.

That word infirmities means human weakness. So we have not a high priest

who cannot be touched by the feelings of our human weakness. He was tempted

every way, yet without sin. So if Jesus never experienced the emotion of

fear as a result of living in a human body, then Hebrews four fifteen

is a lie. And I say what, let every man be a liar,

but by God be true. And so so it says that he experienced

every feeling, Then he experienced every feeling. Now I'll stop right there.

I don't need to argue with you, because my Bible is true. But

we need to learn to adjust our vision of our savior because he was fully

divined, but he was fully human, and he put on a body genetic

material from a human like us. That's why he was able to be murdered.

I don't know anybody who knows anybody in here follow Jesus. Okay,

there's some people. Do any of you expect that you will never physically die

outside of the rapture? Nobody? So if you don't believe that accepting Jesus

is gonna change your body immediately from corruptile to incorruptible, and that you will

never experience death outside the rapture, then why do you think that you will

never experience emotional pain? Why do you think you'll never be sad? Why

do you think that you'll never be afraid? Why do you think you don't

think you'll never catch a call? Can we be for real here? Because

we are wasting so much faith energy trying not to feel when I never ever

ever saw Jesus one time try not to feel. I never saw him rebuke

it, and I never saw him repent. Jesus cried outside Lazarus's tune in

public. He cried in public, a man, so yes, my brother's

in Christ. I want you to man up. I want to see the

tears stream down your face. I want you to tell me that you're scared.

I want you to tell me that you're mad. That you're her man

up like Jesus. I want to see it. You can give it to

me. I'll take it. Well, the world will look at me and

say I'm weak. Well let him say what they won't say. Know what,

you know that you're just being conformed to the image of his son.

So he stood there and he cried in public. Now some say he was

crying because his friend was dead, and some say he was crying because he

was foreseeing his own death and it was looking rough. Whatever reason, we

don't know, but they weren't hears of joy. We know he was crying

satur But whether it was because Lasus was dead or because he was gonna be

dead, here's the reality. Jesus also knew he was about to raise Lazarus

from the dead. And he also knew that his father was gonna raise him

from the dead, because it is written that if you destroyed the temple,

I will rebuild it in three days without hands. So he knew both of

those things were true. So you mean to tell me that Jesus knew the

outcome yet express the pain of the process. I'm just saying I'm gonna need

some of you to reduce your holier than thou stance that just because I know

there's gonna be victory, then I don't need to be sad because I already

know Jesus knew it, and he's still crying about it. So if you

batter than Jesus, go ahead. I'm not batter. I'm not batter.

But if you battered than him, you are allowed to express pain, even

though you have faith for the outcome. You're allowed. You're allowed your pain

makes sense, and you're allowed to hurt. And so we see Jesus.

We see Jesus crying, We see Jesus hissed offs, we see him at

the temple acting a whole fool. He was a man of color and there

was expression just brought it out, you know what I'm saying. I ain't

say it was black. I'm not here to argue with you. I just

but I but he definitely had a tent on him. He has a melani

and so he's in the temple mad. He's so mad because they are changing

money instead of changing lives that he gets there and starts flipping tables because that's

his daddy's house. Now you can't flip tables here. This is not your

dad's house. It's your dad's maybe house, but you you don't get But

at your house you can do it. But he did not apologize for being

angry. He didn't apologize for being angry. And then insee we see Jesus

terrified. Let's get back to fear. We see Jesus in Gisemone experiencing terror

in his body. First of all, why else would he not want to

be crucified. Why didn't Jesus just walk into Gessemone like, let's go,

baby, My purpose is nigh. Let's get the nails. I got it

myself either. But why wasn't Jesus in there? Jesus was on the ground.

In the Book of Hebrews, Paul wrote that with strong crying and tears,

he sought the one who could save him from death. He didn't want

to do it because it was gonna hurt a lot, and his body was

having a response to that. See, here's what you don't understand about emotion.

Emotion is not a thought product. Emotion is a bodily experience that arises

from your autonomic nervous system. Nor autonomic means automatic, That means you are

feeling before your thinking. You're feeling before you're doing. Your body was made

from the same soil that Jesus called the heart in the peril of the sower.

Emotion and body are inseparable. Your emotions are bodily experiences. If you're

aside from science being able to prove it, I can give you all the

science. But we're in church, so can we just trust the word that

If Jesus felt these things and emotional pain was the result of bad thinking,

then that means Jesus had stinking thinking. If your painfully emotions are the result

of the way you think, then that means Jesus didn't think right all the

time. So let this mind be in you, which is also in Christ.

Jesus starts getting a little bit extra when we started saying that Jesus wasn't

thinking right. But what Jesus did have in common with us was a body.

Emotion is a bodily experience. Now, for decades, hundreds of years,

the assumption has been in the scientific realm that thoughts produce feelings, and

they have worked to argue it. But about fifteen years ago there was a

revolution in neurobiology that increased our technical capacity to observe what's happening on the inside,

and they realized that they had been wrong, that actually emotions precede thought.

And one of the things that inspired this second look was that through the

theory of evolution, the mind is higher than emotion. It evolved after emotion,

so it's a higher state. The problem is that when something is not

useful to a species, it's supposed to be selected out, so each generation

would have less of the thing that is not useful. But here we stand

fully emotional today as we were a thousand years ago, and so the fact

that emotions not being selected out means they had to go back to the drawing

board to figure out what it's doing here. See, you don't even realize

how much you're allowing the world to cause you to interpret your Bible because you

were taught that thought is higher than heart. But my Bible never said it.

My Bible never said it. So let me help you understand how you're

actually made. I'm going somewhere, I promise, but we're gonna stay on

these thorns. Let me understand. Help you understand how you're actually made.

God showed this to me some years ago. And this anxiety piece is huge

because anxiety is killing us, those anxious thoughts, those questions that are never

fully satisfied. How am am I gonna pay the rent? How am I

gonna get the tuition? Am I ever gonna get married? Am I gonna

get divorced? Will I be able to have children? Will I be able

to raise these children? Will I know where to go? Is this my

next job? Am I called to ministry? What does that look like?

How's God gonna do what he says is gonna? We just questions, questions,

questions, questions, questions, and we Google Google, Google, Google,

Google, Google. Is I love it Internet? But Google is almost

a tool of the devil in some ways because the capacity we have to be

anxious on Google. We're gonna rephrase the question, rephrase the question, rephrase

the question. And now you don't click every link already it's blue. Now

it's not even no purple links left, just blue. It says you laugh,

visited this site five minutes ago, sit down, but you just click,

click, click, like it's gonna tell you something new. Because you

have these insatiable weeds, and you try to treat the weeds instead of healing

the soil. So you seek answers to questions that are watered by this,

and so we need to understand ourselves as gardens in order to fix this.

A little bit of a long time ago, almost twenty years when I was

a PhD student, God had me take a neuroscience class. I didn't have

to take one, but he told me to take it as an elective,

so I took it, and on one of the first sessions of the class,

I saw a picture of a neuron for the first time. Everybody know

what a neuron is. A neuron is a nerve cell. It is the

building block of those thoughts that you love. And every day our neurons pass

messages with each other like telephone game to form the thought, and you have

about seventy thousand thoughts a day. And so one day I was learning this

thing in class, I looked at this neuron and it blew me away.

Can you guys us show me that slide so they can see it. We

should run this through you real quick. There it be. On the left

is a neuron. On the right is a seedling neuron. Seedling. Now

believe Rome's one twenty says that which may be known of God is clearly seen

being understood by the things that he made. And so if my Bible is

true and every man be a liar, then God had to have been intentional

having made plants on the third day and us on the sixth day. Either

God accidentally reused the mold, he got bored, he got distracted, or

for some reason he chose for my neurons to look like plants. Every single

day of creation is insight into how we are biologically constructed. Every day,

and on the third day he made plants, which taught us about our minds.

So not only did He plant a garden for us, he planted a

garden within us. There's billions of these plants all over your body. And

when I saw that, I got so excited because, like all of you,

I wanted some revelation about the mind. Yes, God, tell me,

you're getting ready to show me something about the mind. And the Holy

Spirit says, slow down, where is the plant planted? You're so concerned

with the plant, But where's the plant planted? It's called a plant like

you can't define it outside the plant tigs like it's dead without where it's at.

And so that's when God showed me in the parable the sower that Jesus

calls the soil the heart. But then he showed me something else in the

body, because we talk about the heart as a metaphor and our emotions.

But then he showed me, go look at the heart. Can you show

me the next lide? There it is. In Genesis chapter two we get

a little recap of creation and it says that God created man. He formed

man in Eden, and then he planted him. He put him, planted

him, put them in a garden, planted eastward in Eden. He formed

him in Eden, then put him in the garden. He wasn't formed in

the garden. He was formed outside of the garden. So the garden was

in the perfect, was perfect, but the rest of the land, well

this is you know. Anyway, He put him in the garden. So

now everybody, put your left arm out, that's the east side of your

body. Now put your hand on your heart. And the Lord planted a

garden eastward in Eden. And then it says that a river flowed into the

garden to water it, and that when the river left the garden, it

broke into one, two, three, four rivers. Oh, they can

tell me what they want to In biology class, they can tell me.

It don't have nothing to do with religion. But my God made me with

his fingers. He planted the garden eastward in Eden. This is your heart,

the holy of Holy and the temple that you are is your heart.

This is where God walked with them and talked with them and told them they

were his own. And it's in your body and so and so, Oh

it gets bitter and so. If a seed was planted by these rivers of

water, then next line the roots would grow down, and the branches and

the leaves would grow up, and on top of the tree there would be

of truth. I would like to introduce you to a division of your autonomic

nervous system called the parasympathetic nervous system. This is the parasympathetic nervous system.

It is a tree of life in the center of the garden that you are.

And this nervous system, this portion of the nervous system, activates to

bring us into a state of peace, for us to experience love. It

slows down our heart, it slows down our breathing. It helps us sleep

well, It helps us digest our food. It helps us feel connected to

other people. It gives us creative ideas it causes peace and love to flow

between me and other people. When this tree of life is thriving, I

am well. There are studies showing that in people who have chronic suicidal thoughts

that have been untreatable with medica and therapy, that electronic stimulation of this tree

reduces those suicidal thoughts by more than eighty percent. Because when the tree of

life is well, death death is not there. So we ate the tree

of the good, of knowledge and evil, and that was death. But

every day in your body, God is showing you that you still have the

choice to choose life spiritually, emotionally, mentally, and biologically. You are

a garden. Now here's a challenge. You can take it down if you

want. Here's a challenge. When we are afraid our body is changed.

There are a massive group of neurons in your brain called pyramidal neurons, and

they have lots and lots of tiny branches. But when the stress hormone cortisol

is flooded in as a result of a fear experience, those neurons sprout thorns.

I didn't make it up. The neuroscientists don't call it something else,

and I'm just calling it a thorn. They call them thorns, and when

they activate, they disrupt the process of going from thought to action. I

believe my Bible says the thorns sprung up choke the fruit, choke the fruit,

so that no fruit was born to perfection. And that's why you keep

starting but not finishing, trying but not getting there. And you're perfectionistic and

you're being choked, choke choked because thorns are springing up, because fear is

flowing in the soil. Know that one of the most important things I want

you to leave here today knowing is that your Bible is no joke. The

entire your biological fear process is being described in the parable of the sower.

So I want you to understand that this is part of our fallen human experience.

Now, some of us grow thorn's extra some of us real thorny.

One of the things that brings us into that situation is trauma. When you

are born to traumatize mother, or you experience trauma in your own life,

you are more likely to experience thorny patches. Here are five things that cause

that, and these are all good reasons to go to therapy, to go

to rehab, don't say no, no, no go abandonment. Abandonment drains

love from the soil and leaves fear in its place. Fear is not the

opposite of faith, it's the absence of love. First, John chapter four

says, those who are afraid are not yet made perfect in love, because

perfect love cast out all fear. So fear and faith are not opposites.

Because Jesus was experiencing fear in his body in the garden of disemite, But

does anybody think he didn't have faith? Jesus's body was having a fear response.

Those neurons, those thorns were bursting out before they ever put a crown

of on his head. Before they ever put a crown of thorns on his

head, the thorns on the inside had blood popping out of his own forehead.

Oh, he wore that corona thorns inside before they ever put it on

the outside. And it pricked them, and it pricked them, and it

pricked them. But oh my gosh, just a side note, don't go

crazy, because I still got to teach you two more things. But did

anybody ever notice that Jesus had to shed his own blood on his own body

first? His blood was so powerful and so pure that before he could shed

it for us, he had to shed it on his own body first.

That's why when that blood hit his forehead, he stood up out of casemine

and walked down, from crying to saying, I am. He and soldiers

were knocked off their feet five minutes ago he was crying in fear. But

now when his blood hid his own body. So I'm real smart and I

got all the degrees. But the blood still works. The blood still works.

The blood, the blood still works. You better not get too smart

to plead the blood of Jesus. I was saying, Oh, I was

raising Kojak in Church of God in Christ. We would spend an hour.

The blood, the blood, the blood, the blood, the blood,

the blood, the blood, the blood, the blood, the blood.

The Bible says that his love was shed abroad on our hearts, the only

thing you'll describe as sheds blood. And when his love hits the soil,

fear has to run. And so when we are abandoned, it drains love

from the soil and weeds grow. Abandonment is a trauma. We talk about

the trauma as what happened. It's not what happened. It's the wound that

it left, the abandonment. It may have happened because your parent was incarcerated,

you didn't see them anymore, and it was a sense of abandonment.

It could have been your parents' divorce. It could have been a love interest

that left you. It could have been many things. But the wound that

was left behind abandonment drains love. It makes us it hard for us to

give it purely, but it also makes it hard for us to receive it.

Soil is not giving nutrients, it's receiving it. You focus so much

on having love by doing it, but you don't take it. You don't

allow people to love you. You don't receive the nourishment. Soil doesn't produce

the water, it gets watered. Soil doesn't produce the fertilizer, it gets

fertilized. And so when I say you need love to chase our fear,

you have to receive it, not generate it. And because you've been trying

to generate it but you can't. So you've been using your mind to get

things done, and you may be accomplishing the things, but the soil is

so stressed by the time that you do that you have achieved the goal,

but you have no joy. You're like, that's it. You walk across

the stage, you get to law degree, and you're at home like,

that's it. You finally got married, you finally got to have sex without

feeling bad, and then you wake up the next morning and said, that's

it. I'm just I'm just saying and because you got it, but you

didn't grow it, and so the soil is not well, and so we're

still depressed, we're still furious, we're still afraid because we're not taking care

of the love that we need to receive. Abandonment. I'm almost done.

I'm almost done, sir. Loss. Loss is a trauma if it overwhelms

your capacity to cope with it. The number of people alone that we lost

from COVID nineteen to no COVID nineteen. On average, when someone passes away,

there's five people who will grieve an extended period of time. So if

you think of the million people plus that were lost to COVID just in this

country and multiply that by five, grief is an epidemic right now. Just

on that, not to mention all the other losses that we have suffered in

the last five years. So loss can be traumatic as well, and it

drains us and makes it harder for us to receive love because we're afraid that

if we accept some love, we'll just lose it again, and so we'd

rather not have it at all than have it again and lose it. You're

so busy keeping your eye on the pain, trying to prevent the pain and

anticipate when the pain has come, and that you actually stay in pain instead

of saying, well, let me go ahead and be enjoyed for a while.

Maybe it will go away, but at least I had it four months

or a year. But you're so busy trying to know when the pain has

coming that you stay in pain, and so we don't receive love into those

faces, and so fear resides. Abuse. Abuse is defined simply as power

that injures. If you were injured by someone who misuse their power, that's

abuse abuse, and it's not hurt. It's an injury. So if I

stub my toe on this, it's gonna hurt. I'll feel the pain go

through my leg, but it will dissipate. I won't be limping tomorrow.

I was hurt. But if my toe gets broken I've been injured. So

when we talk about that kind of trauma, were you injured by someone who

had power That could have been a parent, that could have been a friend,

that could have been a romantic partner, a teacher, a pastor.

If you were injured by someone who had power over you, abuse, rejection

oof. Remember grass relationships is the first thing we're ordained to grow, and

so rejection is just the base opposite of that experience. When we're rejected,

it's like someone pulling a big chunk of grass out of the ground. What

does that do to the soil? And that's what it does to your heart.

Rejection Maturing too early, Maturing too early, having to handle things and

be aware of things that you don't have the power to affect is traumatic.

That's why we have to be careful sharing our traumas with our children and the

young people in our community. We're trying. We think we're protecting them,

but we're giving them too much information. You can protect people without traumatizing them.

Never give a young person more information than they have the capacity to respond

to. If they don't have the power to respond to the threat you've informed

them about, then they are going to be shaken and feel unsafe in the

world, and that's trauma. Careful. I've made this mistake early on with

one of my children. I was so worried about what could go wrong with

her that I stressed her out in another way, and I'd apologize for that

different message, apologize to your kids. I'd apologize for that and go sit

in therapy with her to get it fixed. Though. Number one parenting fail

is pride, and that's the end of that. Sermons. Okay, okay,

So stop being mad at your parents were what they didn't give you and

getting the mirror and ask why you're not doing it? Okay. The fifth

thing that drains love shame. These are the things that drain love from the

soil. Love is like nitrogen. Nitrogen is the most important nutrient in soil.

When nitrogen is drained, weeds grow, and those thorny weeds and the

parable of the sower that we first saw pere in Genesis that were choking the

fruit trees from Genesis one. When we have fear because love is not in

the soil, the weeds grow and they choke. So how do we solve

the problem? I want you to receive love in your garden. I want

you to figure out how to truly receive, first of all, the love

of God, because so many of us follow Jesus, but we have not

really let ourselves feel how much He loves us. We call it we said,

well, love is an action. Yeah, it can be an action.

It becomes a fruit. But first it's in the soil. When I

bite a fruit, you ever have two different fruits, and one tastes real

good and one's like eh, one's more nutritious than the other, even though

they look the same. It's not the fruit itself, it's what's in it.

See, if there's no nitrogen in the soil, there won't be nitrogen

in the fruit, and you can't get it the nitrogen by eating it.

If there's no love in the soil, they won't be loving the fruit.

So we talk about the fruit of the spirit. It's not like necessarily the

actual fruit, but also the ingredients of the fruit. And so you may

be producing fruit. But if we're not really allowing ourselves to first feel the

love, then you will try to do the right thing. You will try

to be obedient. What's the Bible saying, if you love me, you'll

keep my commandments. It's hard to do what Jesus asks us to do when

we aren't experiencing his love. It feels more like a demand. And then

we confuse what it means to be used by God because we've had carnal experiences

with use, and that use has taught us that you pour out so you

have nothing left. And that's what it means to be used. And so

you think to be used of God means that you're gonna be tired all the

time and stressed all the time and empty all the time. But God use

me. He's not a user. But that's the only model you've had.

But let them love on you. First. The fact that God would somehow

get me to Tulsa today now in November, change the day. And I

was like, ah, I took off this week for my birthday. Always

Fairs said go. And it wasn't Tulsa, it was transformation. I didn't

know, but man, I felt something, So I said, yes,

you're trying so hard not to feel. That's why it's hard for you to

make a decision because you're not allowing your emotion. When we experience love,

a chemical called oxytocin is released in our bodies. An oxytocin diminishes the thorns

on those neurons, so chemically, biologically, mentally, emotionally, and spiritually.

You can't be transformed without being loved. And that isn't just romantic love.

We have limited our idea of love. Here are some of the things

that cause oxytocin to flow through our bodies and quiet the fear thorns in our

brain. Here are some of the things non sexual touch. Grab your neighbor's

hand and just squeeze it. It's hard to be scared in that position.

If you sit there long enough, you'll feel anxiety start to go down.

When we hug each other, twenty seconds of a good body hug releases oxytocin

and quiets the thorns. You're trying to think your way out, but you

gotta feel your way through, and you weren't created to do it by yourself.

The greatest, most overlooked form of self care is letting someone else care

for you. So I need you to reject the world's view of individualism and

get into this body mindset that we were called to. One of the things

that causes us to feel loved and connected is singing together and you guys did

that so beautifully earlier, dancing together, laughing together, and finally, look

at that. There you go, looking into the eyes of someone you believe

cares about you. I'm gonna ask each of you as I wrap up,

to turn and look at somebody near you. It's your sister or brother in

Christ. You got to learn that it's not only in romantic, erotic situations

that we see each other. This is a loss and it's making us mentally

unhealthy. I want you to look somebody else in the eye. I'm gonna

take thirty seconds and ask you to do it. Blink, don't laugh,

don't say nothing. Hear me, because this moment, I know it's hard,

it's uncomfortable because we don't do it. Our connection with people is so

superficial. We don't see them, and more importantly, we don't let them

see us. And so you're being choked, choked, choked. But find

those eyes right now, and I want you to try to see your brother

or sister in Christ. And I want you to let them see you.

And while you're doing that, where's that you're at home watching? I see

you, see me, see you when you look at me. I want

you to see how much Jesus loves you, and I love you right now,

I love you, I love you, I love you. If you

don't know Jesus, forget everything you heard about what's wrong with you and where

you sin, just for a moment, forget all that, and I just

want you to know he is deeply in love with you. Jesus is so

desperate to be planted and the soil of your heart. He called his self

a seed. That's how much he's in love with you. And all you

need to do to get this kind of love is say yes, yes you

can. I want you to get to a church and they and they'll teach

you lots of things and go to find a good church. But right now,

in this moment, it's not complex. I remember where he was when

he found me, and I want you to feel that, So just say

yes, I know he loves you. Does anybody in this room feel a

little different from looking at their brother and sister and I did you feel that

love coming into your life? You are a precious garden. It was damaged

in the fall, that it wasn't destroyed. It is possible for faith,

for hope, but more importantly for love to restore this garden spiritually, mentally,

biologically, the garden can be restored here on this earth. And then,

because we know Jesus, we will all meet again in a garden city

where the tree of life is planted, the garden of Eden again. But

before we get there, let it be restored in here. If you're in

this room and you don't know Jesus and you want the soil of your heart

to be a safer place, you want Jesus because you want to feel this.

Not one of us accepted Jesus in a non emotional decision. It was

an emotional decision. I felt him calling me. I was scared, and

I felt like there was something over there that didn't feel like fear. I

was traumatized, I was addicted to alcohol, I had a lot, and

something about his call I felt like it would be better. Not one of

us accepted Jesus in a non emotional moment. We try to act like emotion

has nothing to do with it, but has everything to do with it.

And so the feeling you feel now that you don't ever want to have to

feel alone again, and come and meet Jesus. The altar is open to

you if you want to come here. You just want to slip your hand,

but come and meet Jesus, and then can I make one more call?

Pastor? Some of you have known Jesus for a long time, and

you've been confused about why certain pain has persisted in your life, and now

you're like, oh my gosh, I understand. First of all, I'm

a human being, so I'm allowed to have emotions, and God's not mad

at me for that. I want to give some of you the opportunity,

if you feel moved to do this, to come to Jesus suspressence today naked.

Come with the emotions of fear that you're dealing with, Come with the

abandonment that you're dealing with. Come naked. I know you already know him,

but many of us met him and then we tried to hide ourselves again.

We put on the fig leaves of churchy faith to say I don't feel

that, because I believe God. You've been covered in fig leaves, and

those leaves are attached to a vine that's choking you. I want you to

come naked and just this once and for all, experience what it's like to

be in His presence, with your pain with you and with Him, with

you and to be loved in that space. Too many of us try to

get ourselves together. You ever try to get yourself together before you pray,

You're like, I gotta go to God in faith. I can't go to

God like this. I gotta show no. Babe. Jesus was on his

face in Kosemite, loud cry and tears snot. I'm scared to do this.

I don't want to do this. Do you know when you want to

talk about scared? The things that God is telling me to do, I

want to do them, but it shakes me. I want there to be

a garden within counsel and center everywhere. I want God's people to have mental

health and emotional health because when you understand that the soil of your life is

your heart, your emotional well being informs your spiritual power. Because if the

seeds of the spirit are sown into the heart, and your heart affects how

things grow. Your emotional well being will not affect how God shows up for

you, but it does affect how you show up for him. But that's

not condemnation. Emotional wellness isn't being happy, it's being able to say I

might be in pain, but it's well with my soul, and the pain

will pass and then there'll be joy, and then there might be more pain,

but Jesus is with me, and I'm well. I don't have fear

my feelings, because anxiety is just fear of feeling. The reason you're anxious

about what might happen is because you don't want to feel the way you'll feel

if it happens, so you're afraid to feel it. So once you're delivered

from the fear of feeling, and so today I speak new things over you.

Allow the pain to flow through. You let your tears keep the soil

from flooding by releasing them. You're allowed to be angry. Anger says something

valuable was treated less than valuably, and some of you have been treated less

than the value. That is a signed to you. It's okay to be

angry about the sex abuse. It's okay to be angry about the infidelity.

It's ok to be angry about being financially taken advantage. It's okay to be

angry because you're valuable and you were treated less than valuably, And it's okay

to be mad about that. God's mad about it too, And can I

tell you something else? He didn't do it. So many of us have

this false narrative of who God is. We need so badly to have a

purpose for what we went through that we lie on God and we say,

well, God meant it for God did it to make for that. God

let me be sexually abused so that I could grow up and help other people.

No, God doesn't sexually abuse children. God doesn't shoot teenagers in the

street because he needs a basketball player in heaven. God doesn't. Who is

this God? My Bible says that in him is light, and there's no

darkness at all. He doesn't have darkness to give. But first John three

says that the devil does this stuff that he sends from the beginning, But

for this purpose was the son of God manifest to destroy the works of the

devil. Don't confuse the works of the devil with the works of God.

He will force good out of it to destroy it, but it was not

his work. Some of you been struggling your relationship with God because you want

to serve him. But you were told that he did the thing that happens

to you. But it wasn't my God, who would love you and treat

you like that. You have an adversary before this purpose was the Son of

God manifested to destroy it. So release the pain of believing that your Daddy

in heaven was hurting you like that. He always loves you. You have

a secret, some secret pain. Jesus is touching you in that place right

now. But before this day is over, your freedom will be in telling

it. Tell somebody who you know loves you the secret pain that you have.

Okay, sometimes we don't want to tell. We think that nobody wants

to hear this. We do. I want to. People who love you

want to. We want Jesus to just take it. But I'm telling you,

and this word is for some other people. You have to put it

out of your mouth. You want them to take it. So you don't

have to be loved by someone. But you need to be loved. And

when you release it, then that love that that person's gonna pour into you

is gonna replace fear. Let yourself be loved, Father God in the name

of Jesus. Every person who came here standing naked before you. A garden

that was damaged, but it's about to be restored. The traumas being healed

in their nervous system, in their relationship with you, in their mind.

Father God, I thank you that they are being transformed. Now in the

name of Jesus, free each person from the lie that is choking them the

most. I rebuke every weed and through my own words. Right now,

Holy ghosts, let your love be shed abroad on these hearts. Here,

not Anita, but your Jesus saying, I love you, I love you,

I love you, I love you, I love you. Those tears

are good, those cries are good. Yeah, it's good. I love

you, I love you. I love you. I love you. I

love you. I have never not loved you. I have never not loved

you. I have never not loved you. I died for you before you

were born because I wanted you to be loved. Receive that love. Now

it's the beginning of your next This is the start. God. Order their

steps to the therapists that they need. God, order their steps to the

doctors that they need. Order the steps to the relationships that they need.

Order their steps to the friendships that they need. Order their steps into the

ministry service faces that they're called to, where they will receive love because they

pour out love. Order their steps to the love that you have ordained for

them, and let them receive it in every place in Jesus' name. Amen,

Oh, heal us, Oh, heals us. Oh come on.

We can't be transformed until we receive His love, say heloves. Oh,

we're about to go. But this is more important than anything else. I

need to say this. These were the people bold enough to come. But

if you are sitting in your seat and because of something in the fruit part

of your mind, the pain, the damage, the frustration, not wanting

to be seen, but you know that this message was for you, watching

online, watching it on rebroadcasts. In this room, I need everybody that

knows that they need God to transform the garden of their heart. I need

you to stand with your hands lifted right now. It's not for everybody but

you. Well, there's not enough room at the altar, but there's another

room right there where you're at. Right now, we are about to pray

that what doctor Anita said that we would be delivered from the fear of feeling.

I'm believing that there is gonna be faith to feel that God is big

enough to handle the hurt. Hey, I feel the presence of God.

Hands lifted all over this place. Father, I thank you that we've had

crazy faith for all kinds of things. Today we are having crazy faith that

we would be able to feel and that you would be the one to direct

us to the healing that we need. Father, heal our gardens. Can

we say it a different way, heal our hearts, Father God, from

the inside out. Father, we've been giving our relationships parts of us.

We've been giving our business parts of us because we haven't been healed. But

Father, we call upon you today to do the work that only you can

do. Help us receive your love. Right now, I pray for every

person Father God who's had one of those other hearts, had a stony heart,

or heart filled with thorns, Father God, really not even be feeling

feeling anything. Father God, I thank you today that we've become sensitive again

to what you're trying to do in us, for those who have hearts have

turned into stone, Father God, and been rock hard and even started hurting

people out of their own protection mechanism. Today, Father, we repent and

we receive your love. Come on, everybody, say I receive your love.

However you want to bring it to me, God, if it's through

a message if it's through a person, father, if it's through me,

remembering what you've already done. Father, we receive your love because you love

me. Oh, you make it personal. Oh oh. You may have

been abandoned by your earthly father, but right now your heavenly father me.

Hey, yep, let it out. This is a cleansing those tears,

my man, it's cleansing. It's been in there. Come on, just

to let it out. Just say he loves me. Oh, I feel

the Yay. With every mistake I made, we're messing it up over and

over again. He still loves me without my performance. Hey, before I

change? Yes, can you are oh? Oh, we for you,

ah oh ohay, be reminded, for this is God talking. Oh oh

oh for you. Remind yourself. Oh oh. If you're in this room

and you want to accept Jesus as your personal Lord and savior, doctor Anita

made a call and that transformation church we have accustomed. Nobody prays alone.

If you're making that decision today, whether you're watching online, somebody sends you

this video, you're in the room right now. I just want you,

on the count of three to slip your hand in the air, and we're

gonna pray together because this is the day that everything changes and turns around for

you, because you're inviting the God of the universe back into the garden of

your heart. It don't matter if you used to walk with him and then

you walk. No, he's saying today, put me back in the center,

put me back and let me grow in there. And if that's you

on account of three, just look you're hand one. I'm so proud of

you. Two. That's the thing that changed my life. It took me

from a liar, manipulator, porn attic, all this other stuff, and

it it begins to grow something in me. But more than that, your

name is about to be written in the Lamb's Book of life. And it's

not just about heaven. You get the power to live here on earth.

Three. Just shoot your hand up in the air if you want to accept

Jesus, we see you, We see you, see you, we see

you online. You can put your hand on social media. You can put

yeah, hey, if you can put your hand down at this moment,

you don't have to confess all your sins. He already knows. At some

point you're gonna have to tell somebody what's going on or we believe that God,

he's the only one that if you give him your heart, oh the

garden of your heart, he can change your habits. I've been saying that

for years, but with the revelation that we just got, if you give

him your heart, he'll help you change your habits. Matter of fact,

it's the only way it can happen. Our habits are a result of what's

happening in our So let's put him in the garden right now. Everybody,

just lift your hands and say, God, I give you my life today.

I thank you for Jesus. I believe he lived, he died and

rose again with all power just for me. So today I ask you be

the Lord of my life, be the center of my garden. Change me,

renew me, transform me. I'm yours in Jesus' name. Can we

give God some praise? Amen? Oh? Is that how we celebrate somebody

going from life till God? And listen, Oh I forgot Thank you Lord.

Welcome to the kingdom. This is the watch. This start. It's

not the finish, it's not the this is the what starts. It's the

start of the greatest life you've ever lived. And we want to help you

with that. If you just gave your life to Christ, scan the QR

code and we will be happy to give you some information. What I'm asking

everybody to do is between I mean, one, can we give God praise

for doctor Anita Phillips coming. Oh, y'all better, come on. I

I am overwhelmed with how prophetic her mess. What it just was, it

was you have to watch that full times this week. I mean after the

first twenty five minutes, I was like, okay, all right, enough,

we need to send it to people. We need to digest this.

But the end of it, if you if you like that, was like,

I can't understand everything. Receive His love this week. Spend time in

his presence, put on your favorite worship song, get in the word,

and just God, Holy Spirit. Whatever you want to say to me,

Reveal your love to me. That's a real player. Reveal it to me.

As we leave this place, doctor Anita is being so gracious. She

wants to sign books for you guys. She's going to be in the lobby

right after. And if you're I am overwhelmed right now, if you are

in the building, you can do that. What a week that God has

given us as a church, can we give God praise for what He's done

so many ways and so many things that I want to end. Our prayer

team is gonna come up and there's prayer in the back. Don't leave if

you need prayer, even if you're in the thing. I'm gonna have the

team come up. We're just gonna worship for a second. We're gonna end

the stream. But I just feel there's such a sweet anointing in here that

I don't want people to be ripped out of this. Remember I told y'all

every week gonna be surgery. Next week, we're gonna build on it.

And the Holy Spirit's doing the work. It's not passing, Mike. It's

not doctor Anita, it's not it's the Holy Spirit. He's just he's not

using vessels. He's dwelling in vessels. That I gotta change my whole language

now. But we're transforming. Amen, Father, bless your people. Let

us not ignore and run from what you're trying to do. You're trying to

hit us. And I just thank you, Father God, that you are

with us in the valley and you're with us on the mountaintop today. We

give you glory honor and praise for all that you're not just done, but

what you're doing in us. Thank you that we can go from trauma to

triumph. Thank you Father. We can admit we may be damaged, but

we are not destroyed and our assurances in what you have done. Thank you

for always being with us. We give you glory, we give you honor,

and we give you praise. In Jesus's name, we agree. Somebody

say, amen, I want you to go out and live a transform life.

If you need prayer, just stay right here. We're gonna start praying

and we're gonna just believe that God is gonna do something special on the inside

of us. Thank you for joining us today. If you said that prayer

and accept it Jesus into your heart, it's the best decision you could ever

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