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Grow Through Winter

Heights Church

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  1. Good morning. Good morning to those of you on

  2. our online family. Paul, then that's you. Mike

  3. and Sue, we love you a bunch. We're so thankful

  4. for what God is doing there in your home with

  5. a whole bunch of people around you. Hopefully

  6. breakfast was included, but if not, just know

  7. Mike and Sue, we love you a bunch. In Baghdad,

  8. we're so grateful for Randy and all that you're

  9. doing and how you continue to push things forward

  10. there alongside with Andrew and Jennifer. We're

  11. just grateful for our Baghdad family, grateful

  12. for our online family. Wherever you happen to

  13. be, somebody was driving back from California,

  14. be safe. But wherever you are, whatever you're

  15. doing, we're just thankful that we get to do

  16. life together. Life's better when we get to do

  17. it with somebody, right? Okay, a couple of you.

  18. That's cool. That's cool. You know, I get it.

  19. You don't like people. That's what we're going

  20. to take away from that. But no, seriously, it's

  21. good that we get to do stuff together. We get

  22. to laugh together. Maybe we get to cry together.

  23. We get to mourn together. Like our dear Bears

  24. friend over here is, I mean, you come down yet?

  25. You still floating? Packer fans. I noticed you

  26. don't have your jersey on, though. You know what

  27. I'm saying? I noticed. I noticed. It's a painful

  28. one. I get it. I get it. Sunday night was something.

  29. Yeah. For those of you that don't know, I think

  30. I walked back and forth from my kitchen at least

  31. three times with my hands raised. And then in

  32. between that, sitting on my couch going, babe,

  33. I just don't think we're going to do it. It's

  34. not going to turn out. Right? And as the game

  35. progressed and we missed the field goal, I'm

  36. like, Lamar's got way too much time. Some of

  37. you were like, who's Lamar? You'll figure it

  38. out later. But Lamar's got way too much time.

  39. He's going to drive the field. Like, we're going

  40. to lose, babe. I just know it. And wouldn't you

  41. know it, right? A little back story. Did you

  42. see the priest going with the holy water in the

  43. end zone before the game? True story on national

  44. news. That happened to be the end zone where

  45. the field goal was missed. That said, Dirty Bird's

  46. lost because of, you know. So the Steelers live

  47. for another day. The highs and lows, the emotions,

  48. right? Like we ride the waves. We'll see if I'm

  49. here next week. We'll see what happens. And those

  50. of you that are like, why are we talking about

  51. football? We're a family. If you came to my house,

  52. guess what we talk about? Football, right? Like

  53. if I come to your house, we talk about something

  54. else. And so just. Family, we do life together.

  55. We do normal life together. One of the beautiful

  56. parts that, I don't know if you felt this, but

  57. like during worship, that King of Kings song,

  58. which is the last song we sang, it's like the

  59. narrative of scripture, right? So it's the narrative

  60. of scripture in song. And I don't know if like

  61. when the church of Christ was born and the spirit

  62. lit the flame, I don't know if inside of you,

  63. it's like, oh, it just feels so good, right?

  64. Like it feels like the Steelers winning. But

  65. no, the idea of the spirit lighting the flame,

  66. that what we're doing here when we call this

  67. church, it's not the building, it's not the organization,

  68. it's not any of that. It's human beings that

  69. God has rescued and put his spirit inside of

  70. and lit a flame. And so on a cold morning, you

  71. should be alive because the spirit of God has

  72. lit a flame in his church that will not be put

  73. out. And that's you. That's me. That's this thing

  74. we call the family of God. And it's beautiful.

  75. And we get to do this together. And we get to

  76. remind ourselves, right, like of the gifts we've

  77. been given. Last week, if you were here, we started

  78. a new collection called Do Something Different.

  79. You're going to see me do this a lot, what this

  80. represents. There was a planner's box here. And

  81. inside of that planner's box is the things that

  82. God has always wanted for humanity and in Jesus

  83. has restored and redeemed. And what prayer does

  84. is waters those so that those things can grow

  85. and we become the people that God made us and

  86. intended us to be. Right? It's this beautiful

  87. gift of prayer. We talked about last week this

  88. gift that we get to water. And I don't know about

  89. how you feel, but for me, the idea of do something

  90. different is because I don't need more information.

  91. I hit this wall of I don't need more information

  92. on prayer. I just need to do something different

  93. because if I want a prayer life and I have all

  94. this information, obviously information hasn't

  95. equaled a healthy prayer life. And so I got to

  96. do something different. I got to pray. If I want

  97. a different outcome, I've got to change what

  98. I'm doing. And so what we discovered is if that's

  99. the case, then I got to change the way I think

  100. about prayer. I got to change the way I view

  101. prayer. I can't view prayer as this thing that

  102. is this religious activity that I do. Prayer

  103. has to be more than that. And that's when we

  104. got to last week going, prayer is this gift that

  105. God gives that we water. And this week. And to

  106. get there, we're going to go to Canada. You ready?

  107. So my wife and I and our family, our two oldest

  108. daughters, we lived in Canada for about five

  109. and a half years. Now, when you think of Canada,

  110. you may go, oh, British Columbia. It's so pretty.

  111. We went up there in the summer. And it was so,

  112. yeah, you went up in the summer, didn't you?

  113. Right? But you may have British Columbia in mind,

  114. or maybe you have the East Coast in mind. But

  115. we were two and a half hours north of Toronto.

  116. Okay? So we were. I'm kind of not straight north,

  117. a little west -ish to it. And what you need to

  118. know about it is this, that we lived in the snow

  119. belt. Okay, a couple of you kind of giggled because

  120. you've lived in a snow belt, right? Like by snow

  121. belt, what that means is that the lake effect

  122. brought massive amounts of snow to our house.

  123. I don't know if it was anywhere else, but it

  124. was our house. And I mean, we're talking so much

  125. snow that like you, my kids' memories are that

  126. we could create snow caves where they could actually

  127. have like beds that you could put in there and

  128. tables and they could go in and play whatever.

  129. They were young at the time, right? Because we

  130. were in the snow belt. Now, what happened is

  131. about October. You would start to get news of

  132. the weather changing, right? Like fall is here,

  133. which winter was quickly behind it. And you would

  134. normally in October get the first snow. And the

  135. first snow is like, oh, it's so pretty. Let's

  136. go for a walk, right? And you would go out in

  137. the snow and enjoy it. Maybe go sledding. The

  138. kids were excited to go sledding in October,

  139. right? And then November hit and everybody's

  140. thankful for November because of, you know, just

  141. the time of the year it is. We give thanks and

  142. we enjoy. and it's still, the snow is good. And

  143. then you get to December and it's like, oh, we

  144. just need a white Christmas, right? Like a white

  145. Christmas just feels right. And then January

  146. hits, it's like it's a new year, the snow should

  147. be gone. The only problem is the snow was still

  148. there sometimes until April. And what would happen

  149. inevitably for my wife is right around February,

  150. she would start to get. this seasonal depression.

  151. Oh, it was bright out like it was white. Sometimes

  152. it would snow in October and it would be white

  153. on the ground until April. You talk about longing

  154. for spring, right? But the clouds would be gloomy

  155. and you wouldn't see the sun because of the cloud

  156. cover. And this could last days and days. And

  157. sometimes she would, in February, it was like,

  158. oh, when is this season ever going to end? When

  159. is winter going to be done? In fact, we have

  160. friends that would jettison around this time.

  161. They would book flights and they would end up

  162. in places like Florida so they could experience

  163. summer in the midst of winter. You ever notice

  164. that we aren't very good with winter? You ever

  165. notice that people are like, I just have to make

  166. it through the winter, man. Pastor Todd, right?

  167. Like this literally San Diego boy. He didn't

  168. even know what winter is. But it's like, I just

  169. gotta get through winter. It's so cold. But you

  170. notice that nobody doesn't say that unless you

  171. live in Phoenix in the summer. Like the spring,

  172. nobody's like, I just gotta get through spring.

  173. I just gotta endure. But what if, what if, what

  174. if the circumstances and the seasons in your

  175. life are really intentional? and integral to

  176. your growth in your life? Like what if winter

  177. spiritually, and by that I mean like things that

  178. are painful, circumstances that I'm going through,

  179. things that are difficult, things that cause

  180. me stress and anxiety and grief and all the emotions

  181. in between. What if those things are in your

  182. life because God is taking you back and allowing

  183. those moments to actually move you into experiencing

  184. the gift of prayer that waters the things that

  185. God actually wants to grow. And it's only through

  186. winter that those things can grow. I think somewhere

  187. along the way, we got confused that when you

  188. meet Jesus and you walk with Jesus and you become

  189. a follower of Jesus, that you don't have winter

  190. no more. But that's just not simply the case.

  191. And if you turn to Psalm chapter one and verse

  192. one, it says this, blessed is the one who does

  193. not walk in step with the wicked or stand in

  194. the way of sinners or stand in the way that sinners

  195. take, sorry, or sit in the company of mockers.

  196. So blessed is the one, God is on the side of

  197. the one who walks in step, doesn't walk in step

  198. with those that are sinful, right? So it takes

  199. a different path, the righteous path is what

  200. it's talking about. Verse two, but those, but

  201. whose delight, so those people whose delight

  202. is in the law of the Lord and who meditates on

  203. his law day and night. So it's talking about

  204. somebody who has right actions. They meditate

  205. on God's word. following after what God wants

  206. us. They're upright within their actions. And

  207. then listen to this, verse three. That person

  208. is like a tree planted by streams of water, which

  209. yields its fruit in what? Season. And whose leaf

  210. does not wither, whatever they do, prospers.

  211. So it talks about this person who is upright,

  212. who is righteous, who is doing the right things,

  213. pursuing God, meditating on his law. But then

  214. it says what? That there will be seasons of production.

  215. Seasons of bearing fruit. It doesn't say that

  216. they bear fruit all the time. It doesn't say

  217. that everything is good all the time. It says

  218. that in season. And that idea of season. It's

  219. something that I think when we slow down and

  220. grasp it, and when we slow down and let it be

  221. what God intends it to be, that what actually

  222. happens is it takes us and it moves us into experiencing

  223. the gift of prayer that God always intended for

  224. it to be. That without that season, the growth

  225. wouldn't occur. Here's what I mean. Like if I

  226. had my way today, there would be a whole bunch,

  227. a whole bunch of trees lining the stage today.

  228. You wouldn't even be able to see the band. They'd

  229. be gone. Just a bunch of trees. but we're in

  230. winter, so those trees would look what? Bare,

  231. they'd look dead. They'd look just like sticks

  232. in a bucket. And then I realized that's really

  233. expensive to do the whole stage. So what then

  234. I thought was I'll just get one from home. And

  235. I'm like, that's not a good idea. It's not gonna

  236. be good for the tree, right? Why? Because what's

  237. interesting with a tree when it comes to winter

  238. is the tree begins to, acts intentionally because

  239. of the circumstances that it's in. Oh, what do

  240. I mean by that? Well, you see those things, those

  241. leaves that are beautiful, those leaves that

  242. are the new growth of the last year? When winter

  243. starts to come, the tree blocks off the energy

  244. supply, the food supply to the leaves. It begins

  245. to cut off. The output of energy. Why? Because

  246. it knows in winter, I have to do something different.

  247. I have to store the energy different. And so

  248. then what you notice, like, I don't know where

  249. you live, but where I live, I got a neighbor's

  250. tree, and they got a big tree in their yard,

  251. and that tree turns red when the leaves start

  252. to get cut off. And then after red, it turns

  253. darker, and they're dead, and they fall to the

  254. ground, and then they blow into my yard. And

  255. then I just let them blow into the next person's

  256. yard. It's great. We just share. All fall on.

  257. But the tree is doing something different because

  258. it knows what? It's in a different season. And

  259. so as this is taking place, what's happening

  260. is scarcity. So scarcity of sun, scarcity of

  261. water. scarcity of temperature is telling the

  262. tree that it needs to do something different.

  263. So internally, what the tree begins to do is

  264. it takes its starches, changes it to sugar, and

  265. then what that allows it to be, it becomes like

  266. an antifreeze inside of the tree. Why? Because

  267. when freezing temperatures come, if there was

  268. water inside, it would explode, essentially,

  269. the cells inside the tree, and the tree would

  270. be damaged. So what is it doing? It knows that

  271. it needs to change. Why? Because of the season

  272. that it is in. The gift of the tree. And here's

  273. my favorite part. That although the stage would

  274. look dead, although the trees look dead, what's

  275. happening inside is the buds are growing inside

  276. of the branches and they stay inside of the branches

  277. and they develop inside of the branches until

  278. it's time for that new growth that you can't

  279. see right now, that winter produces. Winter produces

  280. this new growth that's inside that then grows

  281. outward. And what your season of winter is doing

  282. in your life is it's a gift that you would do

  283. something different, that you would pray intentionally

  284. and begin to water. Why? Because here's what

  285. we discover in winter. Prayer is less about the

  286. outcome and is more and is more about the character

  287. being formed in you. Prayer is less about the

  288. outcome. This is what winter teaches us, right?

  289. Because winter pushes us to take this gift and

  290. use it. And what we discover is the outcome isn't

  291. what's actually in focus. What's happening is

  292. the circumstances and the desire for an outcome

  293. is pushing me forward into prayer. And as I get

  294. into prayer, what happens is God is forming my

  295. character. He is growing the things that he always

  296. wanted to grow inside of me. And winter is the

  297. catalyst to get me. Think about examples from

  298. the Bible. You got Jesus in the garden, right?

  299. Jesus is perplexed. He's in the garden. He's

  300. overwhelmed. And he wants a specific outcome.

  301. Take this away. Is there any other way? And what

  302. happens is the outcome is denied. He still goes

  303. to the cross and he dies. The difference is the

  304. character being formed in him, he is now what?

  305. He is connected, aligned with the will of God.

  306. And because he's aligned with the will of God,

  307. therefore he goes to the cross. You think about

  308. Paul for a second, right? Paul had a thorn, we're

  309. told. The thorn, we don't know what it was. It

  310. was an ailment of some sort. It was extremely

  311. painful, uncomfortable. He wanted it to go away.

  312. He didn't like it. And so he prayed that it would

  313. be removed. He steps in in a winter season. He

  314. asked God, and what happens is it's not removed.

  315. The outcome doesn't change. But what has changed

  316. is Paul discovers that your grace is sufficient,

  317. that God, your grace is sufficient even in my

  318. weakness. Right? This song we just sang, even

  319. in my weakness, you are still these things. That's

  320. what Paul discovered because of the ailment in

  321. his life, the winter season of the thorn. And

  322. what's discovered is that you are actually strong

  323. when I am weak. Your grace is sufficient even

  324. in this. Anybody thankful for a lesson that Paul

  325. learns that we don't have to learn, right? Like

  326. we get to stand on the ground that he had. That

  327. we get to sit here going, God's grace is going

  328. to be sufficient. How do I know? Let me tell

  329. you about this. Zechariah and Elizabeth, we talked

  330. about them at Christmas. In a season of barren,

  331. the outcome was we want a kid now. And God goes,

  332. no, it's going to be much longer. And what's

  333. grown in them is a faithfulness to the journey,

  334. even beyond the hope that they had. That they

  335. still were grown to a point that they go, we'll

  336. still serve you. We'll still follow you, even

  337. though, even though. The outcome's not what we

  338. wanted. Prayer is less about outcome, and it's

  339. more about the character that God's forming in

  340. you. It's interesting, Jesus, when he talks about

  341. prayer, in Matthew chapter seven, in verse seven,

  342. it says this. So Jesus is teaching, it's the

  343. Sermon on the Mount. One of the first recorded

  344. messages we have from him, verse seven, ask and

  345. it will be given to you. Seek and you will find.

  346. Knock and the door will be open to you. For everyone

  347. who asks receives, he who seeks finds. And to

  348. the one who knocks, the door will be opened.

  349. And so what we get from Jesus is very clear.

  350. If you have a need, which what winter season

  351. does in our life is it creates, And out of that

  352. need, it says with that need, what you're to

  353. do is to ask, right? So you are to go in prayer

  354. and you are to ask, you are to water. Tyler Stanton

  355. wrote a book on prayer, and inside of that, he

  356. did a phenomenal job at unpacking kind of this

  357. idea of what's being built within this framework

  358. that Jesus is giving when it comes to prayer.

  359. And what he said is the idea of the ask leads

  360. you to the seeking. Because when you ask, you're

  361. going to God himself, right? And so in going

  362. to God himself, you seek. So ask out of need,

  363. which leads you to... seeking and what you discover

  364. is a person who is with you in the mess. But

  365. then culturally, he says, there's this knock

  366. and it says that the door will be opened. And

  367. culturally, what this means visually of this

  368. is that when you go to God and you ask out of

  369. need and you seek and you discover that there's

  370. a person in the mess with you. then what the

  371. knock actually becomes is the door is opened,

  372. and it's not just, hey, come inside. It's, hey,

  373. come inside and take a seat at the table. And

  374. you may go, okay, so what? When you go to God,

  375. you didn't start at the table. You were given

  376. the gift of prayer. You begin to water. You're

  377. asking because of the circumstances, because

  378. of the season that you're in. And what happens

  379. is you discover that there's a person in the

  380. mess with you. You seek him. And what happens

  381. is that person, that God goes, hey, come sit

  382. at the table. You see, you would only sit at

  383. the table with people. That you go, I'm on your

  384. side. It's an invitation by God, even in the

  385. winter, for you to know God is what? On my side.

  386. He hasn't abandoned me. It's an invitation to

  387. the table where you sit face to face with almighty

  388. God. And being face to face, he's expressing

  389. to you, I am happy to be here with you, even

  390. in the midst of your mess of winter. In fact,

  391. he's inviting your winter to the table. The God

  392. of the universe, the creator of you, the one

  393. that knows, by the way, you ever notice that

  394. when people smile, they smile full of teeth?

  395. You notice that? Like they're like, hi. You know

  396. that God knows what's going on behind your teeth,

  397. right? We smile and it's like fake, right? Like

  398. we get to fool people. We're in a winter season.

  399. It's not fun. It's hard, but I can smile and

  400. you think it's good. And God goes, I know what's

  401. happening behind it. And so what happens is you're

  402. invited to the table. You're invited to the table

  403. where you sit face to face. I'd love to share

  404. with you. What a conversation at the table sounds

  405. like in a winter season. In Psalm 143, the context

  406. here is that David, we don't know from the life

  407. of David if this was written when he was being

  408. pursued by his enemies, right? Like, so he's

  409. living in caves. He doesn't know if he's going

  410. to live till tomorrow. He knows he's been anointed

  411. king, but he doesn't see any outcome of that.

  412. And so he's like been. On the run, so to speak,

  413. he's exhausted, and he doesn't know how it's

  414. going to turn out. There's so many unknowns,

  415. and it's just a long. And so we don't know if

  416. it was written out of that. We don't know if

  417. it was written when his son was in rebellion,

  418. and again, his life was on the line. We don't

  419. know. But what we know is this is an honest conversation.

  420. And the invitation, don't miss how you got here.

  421. You got here because in your life, something

  422. isn't as you want it to be. And so out of that,

  423. what comes is you request, you ask, you through

  424. the gift of prayer, water. And what God begins

  425. to grow is he grows that, hey, I'm in it with

  426. you. You begin to see him in the midst of it

  427. with you. He's still working, but he goes, hey,

  428. come sit down at the table with me. And what

  429. it's an invitation to in the winter season is

  430. to be honest. And David starts like this in verse

  431. one. He says, Lord, hear my prayer. Listen to

  432. my cry for mercy in your faithfulness and righteousness.

  433. Come to my relief. I mean, right out of the gate,

  434. he comes with his ask, right? Like, Lord, you

  435. got to hear this. And if you get into the emotions

  436. of what he's feeling, he feels unheard by God.

  437. He feels unseen by God. He feels like there's

  438. silence with him and God. And so he approaches

  439. the table. He approaches this intimate moment

  440. of relational context. And what does he say?

  441. Hey, I feel like you don't hear me. Yet, in your

  442. faithfulness, because I see who you are. I see

  443. that you're God. I see that you've been faithful.

  444. In your faithfulness, And your righteousness,

  445. would you come to my relief? I need you to hear

  446. me ask this, God. Verse two, do not bring your

  447. servant into judgment for no one living is righteous

  448. before you. I love that he's asking for mercy,

  449. right? Like he's recognizing, he's recognizing

  450. in the honesty, he's going, I'm not everything

  451. I should be. I understand I don't deserve this.

  452. I understand that I need your mercy in this moment.

  453. He's being honest with God. I understand that

  454. there's sin in my life. There's confession that's

  455. happening. He's going, I deserve judgment, but

  456. don't give me judgment. Give me mercy. The enemy

  457. pursues me. He crushes me to the ground. He makes

  458. me dwell in the darkness like those long dead.

  459. That is what winter feels like. You ever been

  460. in a season of winter and you're just like, man,

  461. I am crushed. He's pursuing me. He's relentless.

  462. It feels dark. It feels dead like those trees.

  463. Verse four. So my spirit grows faint within me.

  464. My heart within me is dismayed. You talk about

  465. honesty before God. He goes, I don't know if

  466. I'm going to make it. I don't know. I feel like

  467. I'm fading. I feel like I'm going to fall. I

  468. feel like I can't. And he's sitting at the table

  469. with God and he's telling God, I don't know if

  470. I can make it. You want to talk about being honest

  471. with God? We need to stop smiling with God and

  472. start being honest with God. God, I don't know

  473. if I'm going to make it through today. God, I

  474. feel crushed by what's happened. God, I'm frustrated.

  475. And notice verse five. I remember the days of

  476. long ago. I meditate on all your works and consider

  477. what your hands have done. You know what winter

  478. does? Winter gives you time. You ever notice

  479. that in winter things slow down? And in the midst

  480. of moving slower, what it gives you time to discover

  481. is your memory. You begin to reflect. You begin

  482. to see the handwork, the handiwork of God. In

  483. this context, you're sitting at the table. Why?

  484. Because I had an ask and I went and I prayed.

  485. And out of that, I realized there's a relationship.

  486. I knocked and God goes, come on in, sit at the

  487. table. It's an invitation. Winter is an invitation

  488. to the table. You get to the table and as you're

  489. going all the ways, I don't know if I'm gonna

  490. make it, Jesus just slides a handout onto the

  491. table. And you look down and you go, there's

  492. a hole in it. And your mind goes to a cross where

  493. on the cross, God, provided everything you will

  494. ever need for this life and the one to come.

  495. In this moment, it's really hard. It's really

  496. hard face to face with God who wants to be here

  497. with you and to see what he has done. All of

  498. a sudden, your mind starts firing. You start

  499. to see all the ways that he's been faithful to

  500. you over your life. You start to see all the

  501. works as the psalmist says here. You go, man,

  502. there's so much at this table. And what you discover

  503. at the table is you discover that the table's

  504. not empty. You discover that all of the nourishment

  505. you needed has been provided. You discover and

  506. you're reminded. Things like, he's my daily bread.

  507. He's all I need today. All of a sudden at the

  508. table, you realize it's not just the person,

  509. but it's everything he has given you to make

  510. it through today. It's everything that he has

  511. given you to make it through whatever it is you're

  512. facing, whatever it is you're struggling with.

  513. And it started in honesty. And what happens is,

  514. is in the midst of the honesty, in the midst

  515. of the, I need you to hear me. I am dying down

  516. here. I'm not gonna make it. In the midst of

  517. that, he goes, and then I caught a glimpse of

  518. who you are. And I caught a glimpse of what you've

  519. done. And I'm reminded because winter allows

  520. me to remember. And all of a sudden what's on

  521. the table is this nourishment that is all I will

  522. ever need. The psalmist continues, I spread out

  523. my hands to you. I thirst for you like a parched

  524. land. All of a sudden, the psalmist realizes

  525. I need you. You're the answer to this. Answer

  526. me quickly, Lord. My spirit fails. Do not hide

  527. your face from me, or I will be like those who

  528. go down to the pit. Let the morning bring me

  529. word of your unfailing love. What has he done

  530. in this moment, sitting at the table with God

  531. himself? He realizes, wait, your love has never

  532. failed. And so he goes, in the morning, Bring

  533. me word of your unfailing love, for I have put

  534. my trust. Remember, what did we say prayer was?

  535. Prayer is growing the things inside of you like

  536. trust and dependency, that you would see him

  537. as your provider. Those things are being built

  538. through prayer, but where? At the invitation

  539. to the table. Where I went from, I'm not going

  540. to make it to, I trust you. You have given me

  541. everything I need. Show me the way I should go,

  542. for to you I entrust my life. Rescue me from

  543. my enemies, Lord, for I hide myself in you. Teach

  544. me to do your will, for you are, you are. What

  545. does the table do? It reminds me that you are

  546. my God. And what's crazy, you guys, he's happy

  547. to be at the table with you. The God of the universe.

  548. You're not even, some of you aren't even happy

  549. to be at the table with yourself because all

  550. you see is your failures and all you see is your

  551. guilt and your shame and all you see is your

  552. shortcomings. All you see is the ways that you

  553. don't measure up. That's the point is when I

  554. get to the table, I realize that I'm not enough,

  555. but he is enough and it allows me to go. So I'm

  556. going to trust you. You're my God. So in a winter

  557. month, When you don't think you're going to make

  558. it in a winter month where you're seeking an

  559. outcome, what you get is you get transformation.

  560. Where? Just like the tree. You go to my yard

  561. right now, they look dead. But inside of them,

  562. what's happening? The new growth is coming. And

  563. in winter, maybe, just maybe. We need to do something

  564. different and take a seat at the table. How?

  565. Through the gift of prayer. Prayer is a gift.

  566. Because when I pray, what I end up with is an

  567. invitation. And I end up with an invitation to

  568. sit. And like the psalmist, teach me your will

  569. for you are my God. May your good spirit lead

  570. me on level ground for your namesake, for your

  571. glory, not mine. It's not about me anymore. It's

  572. about you because I see who you are. Preserve

  573. my life and your righteousness. Bring me out

  574. of trouble. You're in your unfailing love. Silence

  575. my enemies. Destroy all my foes for I am your

  576. servant. Wow. What a difference from how we started

  577. it. Where he goes, do you even hear me? It's

  578. in the end. He's like, I'm your servant. What

  579. do you need? Let's build your kingdom. He got

  580. here by winter. He got here by taking. circumstances

  581. that he didn't like by taking pain and suffering.

  582. And what happens is, is in that he ends up at

  583. a table with God himself, where God nourishes

  584. him and transforms him and grows what needs to

  585. grow in the next season of David's life. What

  586. is God growing in this season in your life through

  587. winter? Maybe it's stuff that you don't like

  588. about yourself. Maybe it's stuff that you don't

  589. like that's coming across your path. But what

  590. I do know is this. You are invited to a table.

  591. You're invited to sit. Can we just level the

  592. playing field? None of us deserve to sit at the

  593. table, okay? So if you're sitting here going,

  594. I don't know if I should be at the table with

  595. God, it might set on fire. Not only is there

  596. a table and a seat for you, but he is happy to

  597. be with you. He is the God through invitation

  598. of winter declares, I am on your side in this.

  599. That struggle that you have, that thing that

  600. feels like it just keeps jabbing you like a thorn

  601. is designed to take you to the table. The unknowns,

  602. the uncertainties, the I don't know how this

  603. works out, it's designed to take you to a table.

  604. How? Because I go in prayer and I ask. the God

  605. who can do anything. And what I'm reminded is

  606. that there is more than enough nourishment for

  607. everything I'll need. What you hold in your hand

  608. is a reminder that through the body and blood

  609. of Jesus, he provided everything you will ever

  610. need in this life. That he's restoring all things

  611. back to how he intended them to be. That wholeness,

  612. that healing. That eternity is secure. And it

  613. came through a table where he sat and he said,

  614. this is the representation of me that you are

  615. to carry forward as my people. So I'm curious.

  616. We heard the psalmist. We heard his conversation.

  617. What is the honest conversation you need to have

  618. with God at the table today? What do you need

  619. to tell him? What does he need to hear? Where

  620. do you need to be vulnerable? Where do you need

  621. to be honest? And where do you need to invite,

  622. answer the invitation to sit? And so as you sit

  623. at the table in these next moments, God is across

  624. the table and he's happy to be. There. He is

  625. happy to sit with you. So what do you got to

  626. say to him? The next moments are yours and then

  627. we'll take it all together. Jesus sat at the

  628. table with his closest friends, also known as

  629. the disciples. And he took bread and he goes,

  630. this is my body. God in human form. This is my

  631. body. And it is given for you. He knew. He knew

  632. that at that table, one of those people would

  633. betray him. He knew you would sit at the table

  634. today with everything you carried to the table,

  635. with all of your best moments and all of your

  636. mistakes. And yet he's still happy to give his

  637. body. Knowing you are at the table today. He's

  638. happy to be at the table. Even, you guys, I'll

  639. go first. Even knowing the fight with my wife

  640. this week. True story. He's happy to sit at the

  641. table in my failures. In my struggles. In my

  642. not so great moments. And he's still happy to

  643. go, this is my body given for you. Don't forget,

  644. do this in remembrance of me. He took a cup of

  645. wine and he talked about how everything was going

  646. to be different. New covenant. And what makes

  647. this table so special is when we are nourished

  648. by it, what we understand is that because of

  649. the blood of Jesus, in Christ alone, you are

  650. free. In Christ alone, you are accepted. In the

  651. blood of Jesus, you are forgiven. Right? That's

  652. what we're given. And we come to this table and

  653. we're reminded of all those things. We're reminded

  654. that our future is secure. Why? Because it was

  655. purchased through the blood of Jesus, not by

  656. me. And so he took a cup of wine and he gave

  657. it to them. And he said, take, drink, do this

  658. in remembrance of me. God, we're just grateful

  659. people. We just say thank you this morning. Thank

  660. you for the gift of prayer. Thank you that in

  661. prayer, it's an invitation in the hardest seasons.

  662. That what the hardest seasons do, God, you use

  663. them to lead us to a table where you are sitting.

  664. And you are present. And you nourish us and remind

  665. us that in Christ alone, we have been given everything.

  666. And so we just say thank you. Thank you for grace

  667. and thank you for mercy. And everybody said,

  668. amen. Church, would you stand as we respond in

  669. song?