Oct. 30 (PM) - Tis' the Season Part 2

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Let's go. There's a difference between

faith and faking. I think there's a lot of people

who haven't been able in their lives, to be like really

authentic about where they are their fears, especially their

fears, some of the things we wrestle with and how bad stuff

really is. Can I talk to somebody?

And I was just kind of observing Worship in the spirit and, you

know, begin to ask to myself. What is it?

How, what is it, when, how could I say this?

I think of a great athlete, right?

I can say if sake I'm gonna get them District Steph Curry

because We say he has 140 games or 130 games that's including a

championship. Because we Champs in the bay.

Amen. So you got 130 games with what?

I know of his greatness. How many times out of a hundred

and thirty games? Do you think I can depend on a

champion, the show up at the highest level?

Come on, talk to me, huh? Yeah, I put it this way, even if

he has a bad game I could still expect him to show up because

what's a bad game, right? Other night we had a game and

you know, it's tough because I'm playing whooping front of our

church and preaching about being a champ.

So I can't even I have the throw up trying to play Like A

Champion. As I can't be up here, preaching

about champ and then get out there and be scrubbed and no

effort. And so I play with like jti

Neal, we got Brandon, we got people who need the ball in

their hands. So for a guy like me when I

played in college and high school, I'm a guard like I'm a

shooting guard, like I can score.

But when I'm playing on this team, It's no need for me to do

that or shall I? Say, I have to bow out and let

the guards, do what they do. And I actually got to be the big

man on our team, right? And so me showing up, doesn't

mean me scoring, and that's what you got to realize that you

showing up every day, has nothing to do with you getting

the shine. The way you normally get the

shine. You showing up has nothing to do

with you scoring a lot. So the other night I was like,

okay, I see how this gonna go. It's a few times, I'm over in

the corner and they do the boom, boom, whatever they doing.

All these new moves back in the day it was just like, Mom.

I'll go nowadays. Everybody just done, huh?

Sounds like I can't do all this. But I'm trying to, but I'm

trying to get in shape and I want to, I know, I need to

impact the game from a big man's perspective.

So I'm like well I'm not the I'm about to I'm about to get my

points dirty. So y'all go ahead shoot.

I'm going to crash these offensive rebounds.

I won't take a charge. I'm going to be disruptive on

defense. I'm going to show up.

I can't I can but I'm that's not, that's not what's what you

needed to me. And rather I scored two points

or 30 points. You can depend on me to show up.

You following what I'm saying? And I think too often we want to

be seen or used or feel-good or acknowledged in order to show

up. We want it to be sunny to show

up, showing up, has nothing to do with shine.

And I'm trying to help some people because I feel like the

Lord is saying, man, I'm really trying to let me help you.

God is very, God is strapped with how much he can bless you,

if he cannot create momentum in your life.

And what you don't understand, God wants to bless you, but God

is a momentous God. And this is what the enemy comes

to do disrupt momentum. This, we got understand the

devil cannot stop. You.

He's defeated, he can't stop you.

So what he does is disrupt momentum and if you disrupt

momentum, you lose rhythm. Any athlete to tell you.

I don't care what sport it is. I don't care if his golf there's

a rhythm, there's a flow, there is a momentum that you get and

when that momentum come you are unstoppable and so I'm in the

room and I'm like Man, sometimes is it the worship team?

Can we deal? Can we talk sometime?

Is it y'all? That the worship team got a kind

of like it's like they giving it to you and some of y'all just

dead straight up. You did I would never come to

church through the rain and just watch But they not get it

sometime, they not really hitting it.

And so unlike, what is it? God With Us that we're not

dependable? Right, we're spiritually Moody.

And it's like right when God wants to do something in your

life, he got a hope. You feel like joining them.

And you forget you with yuto labor with God, in other words,

you on the team, we God, and there's nothing like playing

with a teammate. You can't count on showing up

Moody teammates, you gotta go to a way with how about your

showing up? If you do, if you impact the

game in the area's? That's not on the stat sheet.

Do you need to have your name in the highlights?

Do you need to be acknowledged? Do you need to be seen?

Or does it matter that your team know you impacted the game?

They don't they don't write down 50/50 balls. 50/50 balls.

Mean it's a loose ball and it any team can get it.

Those are hustle plays. You need those.

You need people. That's going to get the 50/50.

You need people that's going to take a charge.

Charges ain't pretty. Charging man, I've missed some

time then the other night I was trying to take a charge, I fail

too early so the ref came over to me.

It was like, you know, I can't get that to you just fail too

early but I want, but I want you to see what happened though.

The ref thought he needed to come and talk to me so, so how

did I get in the rest head? To the point where he needs to

come explain, why he didn't make a call?

And this is every game. There's a brand of ball that

they can expect us to play. Therefore they have to call the

game a certain way. And there's some calls that they

will make on another team because hustling what they

normally do, but when your brand is hustle, they will give you

hustle points, so I can get away with a little bit more hands

because it's what I do. And for you, you show up one day

and try to be like him. But that ain't what you do.

You look wild and out of control and God saying pick a brand that

can get momentum and stay in rhythm with him and no matter

how you feel, stay locked in. You not going to be the main

scorer, you not going to get all the shine.

You not gonna get the interviews, you not gonna get

the girls, you not gonna get the guys, it ain't about none of

that, but You stay in the game long enough to win the wind can

pick up your effort. The wind can pick up your effort

and carry you. It's the second win.

This is when it's man, man, but you find a good team, say Hey by

the time, the fourth quarter, let's just stay in the game.

Real. Good teams are never trying to

be ahead the whole game. They're just trying to stay in

Striking Distance and in order to stay in Striking Distance,

you got to know your capacity. And what kind of effort you need

to give every day to stay in Striking Distance, so you're not

always having a play behind. So, so, so, so Elijah tells the

bro, he said strike, he said, I need you to strike and you will,

you will. Can you put up second?

What was it Second Kings? 13, something like that.

And I saw this and I'm like, oh, he talking about momentum, He

knows you're saying strike, just a strike.

I think his versa I think his verse, if you got it in a

message, that would be beautiful.

If you don't. Whatever. 14.

Momentum. I'm like this is why you cooking

you you speak the Bible says work while it is day.

It's like, you spend your whole summer, getting a tan and

partying that when the fall come you hit a place where you don't

have what it takes to have joy in the fall.

So now you trying to feel up in the fall when you should have

been fueling up at a pace, go on vacation, don't hit a beach, do

what you gotta do, but don't abandon your relationship with

God and the body of Christ. And then when the fall comes,

you need meetings and prayer. Elijah came down Sick.

It was the sickness of which he would soon die jehoash.

I gotta say that, super careful Jay, but that boy, Jay king of

Israel. Paid him a visit.

When he saw him, he wept openly crying my father, my father

chariots, and Horsemen of Israel.

Elijah told him go and get a bow and some arrows.

The king brought him to a brought him, the bow and arrows.

Then he told the king, put your hand on the ball.

He put his hand on the bowl. Then Elijah put his hand over

the hand of the king hears, some impartation.

Right. Here's training.

Here's Wednesday night. Bible study.

Here's I'm going to show you how to do this thing.

But I can't create momentum for you.

All I can do is press activate. Yeah, put your hand on the ball.

He put his hand on the boat and Elijah put his hand on the ball.

Like she said, now open the East window.

He opened it. Then he said, shoot and he shot

the arrow of God's salvation. What did he shoot?

There's power in your salvation is not just a ticket to Heaven,

every time the devil mess with you, guess what?

You got arrows, our Salvation reminding his but he is

defeated. The arrow of deliverance from a

ran Deliverance, Deliverance is less about a moment.

It is really about momentum, see the word of God drives out

demonic. See, you can be free through the

word of God. You can be free through exorcism

but exorcism is really not. the primary way Believers like, What

helps an exorcism happen? For a Believer.

Is your faith, your desire. But it's all in the word.

But you need an exorcism. But if you don't turn around and

follow Jesus little homie or the whole village is going to come

back and be even stronger. So if you ain't made your mind

up to follow Jesus, just go ahead.

Stay bound. And too many people want like a

little quick fix a degree of freedom and deliverance, and

it's like, no, have you made your mind up to stay free?

You gotta create moment me and my wife been running since 2007.

We've been running from our old ways ever since no turning back.

Now we have a momentum in our lives that is absolutely

explosive and whatever comes our way it's got a problem like

momentum is built up every day. Say you will do battle against a

ram until there's nothing left. He's saying, listen, what I'm

calling you to whatever you're dealing with, you're going to

have to keep striking because the plan is total Annihilation.

Your anger issue is total Annihilation.

Your addiction. God's plan is total

Annihilation, and total Annihilation means.

There's not even a Remnant for the Next Generation.

And I'm preaching to your little 5:30 sleepy self total

Annihilation. He does not just have your

sobriety, your sobriety on his mind but your sobriety, your

freedom and deliverance from sexual immorality or whatever.

He's trying to get it out. Your bloodline, like, totally

annihilate, the plan of the enemy, you say, you were Will do

battle. So God is telling you is no

forfeits man in there. The other night the other night

we was playing a team and wanted a players or two of their

players was really late and I find it hard to get motivated

with people that don't take stuff serious.

Like man I came out here to play some ball and y'all sitting down

there warming up with four players.

So the ref came. He said look, ya'll can call a

forfeit. It's up to you guys, or you guys

can play five on four. Until their other players show

up and I was like, okay well if our team decides to can we just

sit down the fifth man and just play 404 and I love the attitude

of our teammates. It was like nah, let's just run

these fools. Give me a little bit more.

Mike just a tiny bit. You write this?

Yes or no. Like wewe on a championship run.

So we can't afford to just cuz ya'll are responsible.

We can't afford to let share our oil with you right?

We can't afford to dumb it down. Down because you irresponsible

you gon feel your entry sponsibility.

But I said, but I was like hangman.

I don't feel like like beating up on for people.

Like that's just not fun. So then we start the game, and

this is little youngster, he just came out, just shot a

little shot and then we filed one of their teammates.

Are they filed us? And we on the free-throw line,

we might, we might release the snippet of Grace getting release

it, okay? Because I was mic'd up and I

said, hey Jung, Suk, don't come out here playing like you don't

care or just get off the cart. You got hung what you talking

about? I was like yeah I don't come out

here like no little chump. You're a grown man to come out

here with some pride. and then his teammate was like getting He

was like checking trying to tell him I say yeah don't come out

here like you know, grown man have some pride compete and I

was like I remember a few years back, me and my homies we had

four players and the other team had nine and the captain had the

nerves at warm-up sassy. All we had was for and we really

only have three because DJ Bernie was 450 pounds. 59.

Yeah, he's a big man but he knows in You remember that?

And and and, and, and my wife came and I read it with somebody

else on the team that white cane and it was their nine like they

was down there, doing all day was warming up and they Captain

was like, Hey Y'all, I'm about to go home.

Y'all call me after this win. You know what that did to me?

I wasn't thinking about four players.

When thinking about four players, I was like we only got

four players, I get more shots. Absolutely, I get more shots, we

can move it a little better and I got confidence in the players

that the, for like, it don't matter if I'm outnumbered.

But if I'm out number with some dogs man, that's what God said,

that you don't need all that Gideon.

All you need is three, honey. You got the right dogs on your

team. You don't need that much.

You get the right dogs on your team.

I believe in you. You believe in me, we got God on

our side, man. We can take out a giant Don't

need no Fanfare. I don't need no other Superstar.

I just need somebody with heart. Give me heart over telling any

day. And man I remember you like like

like we just came out bawling and they was bawling and we was

bawling but it came a point where it was like, no they not

in the game you start seeing Panic set in because they family

was on the sidelines and then they Captain went home and what

you did for that phone call to the captain a Road White.

Oh, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah. No, he didn't.

Come back. And I remember, we were so

great. We was all we needed to stay in

the game so you gotta Play Wise their space needed.

We don't got no substitute. So we got to pick and choose.

So we just did a two, two Zone. I played at the bottom.

He did 22 zone. We didn't let him get nothing in

the paint. We made him shoot the whole

time. So, you gonna shoot how many

threes you gonna make? I mean, how many jumpers you

gonna make? So we made them a jump shooting

team, and they didn't like that. And I remember he came down

towards the end, I forget how it happened.

And in my mind I was like, you gave us a chance.

I think we were down to, and I remember it was three seconds

left. We had the last chance.

So it's a little, for we even say none in the time I was like,

you know, what it is. I remember taking that out of

bounds and I remember running a curl to the corner and hit the

fadeaway three and we won. And they looked at us like, And

we need to say we shake their hand, we and do nothing else

just like yes, sir. And but, but not once.

Did I ever think we would lose? I knew it would be harder, but

not once was I on the phone like, hey, anybody come help us

and sometimes you ask him for help and God has designed it for

you. Not to have that help, man.

Anybody available today. I got to go do this thing guys.

Like, no, you're messing up my plan.

I don't need them involved. I need you alone.

I need just you and wifey. I Need just you and that kid I

need just that's all I need. I don't need all the help.

You need spanked. So I told lil homie that

testimony real quick because we only use only two free throws.

So I had to get that testimony to a real quick.

He said you will do battle against a ram until there's

nothing left of it. But what is it?

You're battling with that. You've settled for just a little

bit being left in your life, you know, 10 packs to just one pack,

why you believe for nine packs and why you won't believe for

the last pack to get out your life?

Because, as long as you got one, Pack of cigarettes that opens

the door to the other nine coming back.

They got a little homey and your life, right as all.

When I would use to be back back home.

If we trying to sneak in the club, all we need is one homie

that can get in. And as long as we got one homie

in, we like we have to back. Do when that take your time,

don't blow the cover will be at the back door and you hear that,

you hear that, you hear that push on the door and you're

like, come in come in and there's always somebody That get

left. No, you gotta pee.

Right by the. Do you eat?

We can't go over there because it was that door open.

We can went in right now. Pick up the other arrows, pick

up the other Arrow said Elijah, he picked them up.

Then he said to the king of Israel strike, the ground, the

king struck the ground three times.

How many times? Times.

And then what quit. Three times and quit did this

all started because I just sense there's people in here, rather,

you getting weary of fighting or striking rather, you're starting

to. It's taken too long to get to

the level, you thought you were going to be at.

So, you're thinking of an exit plan, or you're thinking of

diverting to do? No, no, God is saying no.

You're actually making progress. You do know there's progress

that you can't see. See, stop just needing progress.

You see, there's progress, you cannot see.

And it's the progress. You cannot see that's truly a

threat to the enemy. Let me, let me help somebody up.

It is not good to expose all progress.

And that's what I was learning to understand.

God, even deals with us that way.

We want to know the whole pie, we want to know the whole

answer. We want to know, every where we

going, we want the corner. We turn it in.

We want to know. If we got all the money, we want

to know. If we don't have to help the

friends the house, we want to know, what size the house is.

We want to get in a whole little business conversation with God

and God is like, look, go, I got some people there for you.

I'm gonna feed you. I'm gonna put some shelter over

your head. I'm gonna get A whip and I'm

gonna make sure you got what you need and you like well what kind

of whip, what kind of shelter, what kind of needs and you want

to know all the what and he just need you to go.

So you can create momentum because you have to understand

your momentum is the key for things unlocking, it is not just

you moving, but when you move, you calls other things in the

earth to remove on your behalf. Look, look, look, look, when the

fan. Come on, there's dust particles.

You cannot see that when that van hits, that space dust goes

that way, their stings. When you move, there's things

that move it on your behalf off your movements.

That's why God is saying we walk by faith and not by sight.

It is impossible to see everything and I wish you can.

I wish you could turn the blue lights on in a way where it hit

the wall because you can see the heat waves or you can see the

fan waves, you can I saw it yesterday?

It's like because one of these this one is on.

All right, you can figure that out and if it happens, great,

but there's things just because you can't see, it doesn't mean

it's not as visible as you are. Once you understand that?

It doesn't mean it's. There's that's why on Wednesdays

were talking about Realms, there's Realms of sight I was in

the dark this morning study it. Now look I'm from I'm from

Oakland look me and teach me how to type You don't say it, like,

people just be like that Edward Scissorhands and then I had, I'm

like, I know you didn't spill something wrong it.

For sure. You didn't spell something

wrong. Right.

Right. Look look look.

And so I'm a look, I'm typing and then I'll look on the

screen. I'm like, okay you spelled that

in the dark, nothing, you gotta understand.

You gotta you gotta understand what, what, what what, what

dawned on me in that moment is that you type so much by looking

You, you know it's like have you ever driven somewhere and

realize you got off the exit? You wouldn't even paying

attention you was X, but right now I want you understand your

inner man has memory. This is how trauma can play a

gue for years. This is how you can pass on.

Trauma through your DNA, your blood carries information,

that's why you can pass things on from your cheek.

Like if you have a kid and then you actually start exercising

and you begin to Change your diet, you can shift your DNA and

the next kid. You wonder why they don't look

nothing like or they don't act nothing like the last set of

kids. Nothing.

Like Like where did you come from?

What diet was we on when that happened.

And, but what I realize it was like my inner man is at work.

There's this thing inside how God created us that when you do

the Reps, there's memory. So that's why Steph Curry.

That's why that's why. That's why these players when

they 60 years old they're going to pick up a ball and be able to

years of shooting the ball. And this is why, momentum is

important. You wonder why an athlete comes

out and does the same basic warm-ups, like, like, like seven

Curry, been doing this, all his life.

Why is he still doing it as an MVP and a four-time champion?

You think coming to church should be an option?

No, it doesn't matter. You think Steph Curry just feel

like dribble it but there's when his body is so tired, he's

trained himself for when his his body performs for him.

It's like that Tesla and its ability to drive for you.

And God said, I need you to live in such Way that When Storms

Come the joy, you practice without a storm begins to kick

in in the storm when times get rough.

You'll come. You'll Joy is not compromise.

Your power is not compromise. Your patience is not

compromised. You'll love is not compromised

because you put in the wraps so he's trying to teach him a

lesson here. Do Don't quit striking, keep

showing up, keep singing, keep dancing.

It's not about the shiny objects.

It's not about feeling like worshiping, it's not about

feeling, like put your hands up, but if Stephen Curry can shoot

in a way where even in his sleeps, his hands, his arms

would do the same motion. You can't tell me when I'm in a

storm and I'm depressed, or I'm down and out that my hands won't

automatically when a memory of his Miss come in my mind, my

hands won't lift up my knees won't start moving.

I got a praise in me. That's on autopilot, man, its

own teeth ball man. Why?

Y'all do three times a day because I'm training, I'm

training, you know, how many, you know, how much, how much?

How much work top athletes It's put into their craft worship is

our craft worship a, some recreational sport.

It's our craft is exactly what every human being was me.

That's the one thing every human being was made to do is worship.

And that's why we, let our intellect giving away.

So we try to find a religion. We can worship in that fits our

mindset, Our Lives, Philosophies are ways of thinking, our

comfort zones. And so, we got all these

man-made religions, because religion simply means seeking

God, but if I found the Lord, I'm not, I'm not a Christian,

I'm a Son of God. Christian isn't is a religion

like Muslim and New Age and and you can go on down the line.

But if I have found God, I take myself out of the pool of

religion and I've entered into Covenant relationship.

Our savior is the only one out of all saviors and gods that

defeated the grave. So I'm going to follow the one

that defeated death. I'm gonna follow the one whose

blood was spilled for my sin. No God, no, Idle.

No religion has taken care of the sin of man and no religion.

Argues that Jesus wasn't Jesus. What we argue is, he ain't the

only way, he ain't the only truth And only life.

That's fine. But, you know, God did not take

care of your sin, great philosophers, great discipline,

great. Great great, great people.

But I did not become saved because I found a good savior.

I found the only savior that handled my sin issue.

I found the only savior that defeated the grave, so that

there is life after death. There's no imagination.

There's no floating there. No, there is real. life after

death momentum momentum It's like you have to love yourself

enough to stop being inconsistent.

Inconsistency, is a plague. inconsistency is a plague and

you have to love yourself enough to stop being inconsistent

especially where you're called to be you come to church man in

a matter of you feel like lifting your hands I don't feel

like shooting 500 shots a day or 5,000 shots today.

I don't feel like running them heels that I don't feel like

doing all those mothers. Those those reps.

I don't feel like, doing all those Sprint's.

I don't feel like it. But boy, when you win that ring,

it was all worth it, huh? Seeing everybody want the top,

everybody won the gold. Everybody want the bling,

everybody want the attention. Everybody want the highlights,

but are you willing to put in the work?

Here you go in every area because you can't just put it

into your work and lose your family, like, Tom Brady.

You also got to invest in your family, in your spouse and your

children, like it has to be all around.

And so, we got to make sure that we love ourselves enough to be

consistent where we're supposed to be.

And then, and then start purging ourselves from time, thieves and

energy thieves. Just because you're cool doesn't

qualify you for my time, just because we have stuff in common

does not qualify you for my energy.

Commonality does not equate to relationship.

And I think it's too many people in here because you're bored

because you don't have a sense of identity.

You just are hanging with whoever's available just because

you were available when I'm lonely.

Don't mean you get to enter my space and you gotta watch it

when you're lonely because when you're lonely, You're

vulnerable, lonely is not a thing like it's a thing.

But It's not a thing. Like lonely is a choice.

It's an emotion because you can be doing something you love by

yourself. How you not lonely.

You just need a touch. You need some affirmation, you

need something. And that's why Instagram is

social media. Is so cool for the lonely and

the board is because when we enter that world it seems like

there's we getting especially when people like stuff even when

people you see people and you go check and see who is like oh

they looked at my page but I look at that part.

I want to see you looking at my stuff.

You don't like it but you pass through there at all.

Then people this is not the season, I'm telling you, you

cannot afford to come out of covid and go into isolation

isolation with just about enough coal about by Cody was just

about enough isolation. You don't need no more.

I'm telling you you need to get around the body of Believers in

faith and joy, and celebration, and hope.

I'm trying to tell you, you think, you think covid-19, It's

over now we didn't made it out. No, no, no.

I'm trying to tell you right now, in the name of Jesus, we

have not seen the worst of it. I don't care if it's covid on

care what new disease, it is. I don't care what I'm trying to

tell you. There's rumors of War, there's

planes falling. There's fights for power.

The Antichrist spirit is running rapid in the world.

So if your child of God you better you better stop thinking

the Bible as a fairy tale and understand that when the Bible

say, when you see these things, it's only the beginning.

And we see these things. And if you think you bout to

just fly through this world and not be challenged.

And your mental real estate is not many things, fogging up,

that's stupid. And your mental real estate is

not being found for. I mean, fought for in your

passion is not being fought for it.

And you don't think you need to acquit.

That's why Jesus went to the disciples and said, why'd y'all

wake me up? I really don't think Jesus was

like, sleep. I think he was resting.

It's a difference, he Restin it's even greater.

He was resting and not sleep. Sometimes you sleep, you don't

know what's going on. When you rest in, you're aware

of what's going on. But what's going on?

Does not impact your rest. He's like why y'all interrupting

me. I know he's I said we going to

the other side. He said, man, didn't you just

see the Miracles? Then you see me just feed

people. Oh, you're a little faith.

What's going on? He's like, the reason I told us

to go across, Not only was it an assignment.

But it was also a test or shall I say a proving get it out yours

God don't test people, he proves them.

So difference. He doesn't test the Bible tells

you that he doesn't test. He proves he proves like when

people are proving a car Right. He's proven he's deposited

something and you now it's a day to exercise is like preseason

and his real season. Now let's see all that training

you didn't did. Let's see if it really work,

it's not testing and it's proven to see what's in you.

So we don't go across this storm so we can prove so we can

verify, I don't need to verify, I don't need, God is Not trying.

Don't need to be verified. God needs you to know where you

at because without proving you think you've Dead a place, you

didn't arrive. So everybody has to be proved.

So why won't you put in the work for proving day, right?

Everyone will experience. Rough times, everyone will

experience something traumatic. Everyone except will experience

losing a loved one. Everyone don't wait till it

happens to start, trying to pull out of your spiritual Bank.

Why are you here three times? Why are you serving all?

Because I'm making deposits, if you want a name, people always

withdrawing when it's a day where the people you take from

Kane help you, you ain't got nothing.

So I'm a dancer three services. I was back there.

I took a nap come out here that anointing on me.

Like I'm like I'm depositing I want to I can see your faith and

every time I come up here, guess what?

I'm doing striking. The holy man.

Got angry with him. Why, why why didn't you hit the

ground five or six times? It was then you would have beat

a ram until he was finished. As it is, you'll defeat him

three times. Only this, why David?

He didn't just not Goliath down, he cut his head off.

It's and you need a finish him Spirit.

Think, I don't know what you're going through.

But man, there needs to be a finish him.

Spirit, like, there's got to be you. wanting it over like it

don't matter if I pray for you, if you don't leave here and host

bondage then what we playing for because you holding onto the

bondage, more than the demon is, He like y'all, are you so

stupid? You are don't even got no power.

If you told me that got let go, I have to let go by the

authority of the name of Jesus but you keep giving me

permission. It's like having a leak in your

ceiling and then being in ends of my hey, we can fix it and you

like knives, not that big Elite, we'll just wait.

What? What have you gotten weary of

striking? What have you gotten weary of

believing for praying for? All right?

There's two things I want to pray for.

That's cold, this codependency that's chemically and personally

relationally and I want to pray for dark thoughts that were kept

coming up to me earlier. It's dark thoughts, there's some

of you in here you come to church but boy you got some dark

thinking and you smile you smile you be smiling, you be smiling,

you be smiling. But in this mind when you get a

loan There's some dark dots. I don't know if his death, I

don't know if it's drugs, I don't know if his entertaining

losing, you know, giving up. I don't, I don't know, but it's

just dark thoughts. He just like, for whatever

reason there's just like this autopilot of dark thoughts and

you getting lonely or bored or anxious or frustrated is not

healthy for you. Like you do not it, paralyzes

you You right now. Some people are understand cry

out for change but not near necessarily wanted because you

become homies with your bondage. So it's kind of like a pillow

for you and there's more fear of how would I live without this

attitude? That protects me Co at it.

You didn't actually helped you accomplish a few things it in

kept some Joker's off of you. It kept some people afraid of

you it in kept some people not talking to you but what you

don't want to do is build up a wall around your life.

And allow anxiety to camp out, dark thoughts.

Dark dogs. Why don't know why God wants

the? I do because we're heading into

a season that gives this city in this country permission to have

dark thoughts. We've given you a name.

So it's like, oh, I can get some medication because I have sad,

and the Devil is a Lie. You can go through this fall and

this winter with so much joy. But that's a choice.

It's a choice. I don't know about you, but I

don't like being up at night time with dark thoughts.

It's just something about dark thoughts at night time.

He's got to get up walk around the house.

Sometime you might hyperventilate start having a

panic attack anybody ever have a panic attack?

Yeah. I have died.

I thought Pastor don't be having none, I don't know, I didn't

know pastors Panic, you would Panic if you dealt with all

kinds of crazy people to if you panic and just being single, no

kids. No kids, no nothing.

I meant to get into this message that we preached earlier, but I

think that was it. I just want to help a few people

out. I just want to pray for you.

It is not God's plan that you cope with anxiety or depression,

or fear torment, Suicidal Thoughts.

That's not God's plan. He didn't die for you to cope.

Understand there's coping mechanisms are under understand

like, and working out helps us and there's, there's certain

things that we can do, but but man, I need peace when I'm just

at home. I don't want to have to always,

I don't want to live a life of having to consistently Escape.

So I got to do things that helped me escape myself and when

you got to run from yourself, that's not good.

You don't like yourself. Right and we got we got to get

control over our thought life. This is real estate.

And once this goes is all bad, we got to be willing and strong

enough to compartmentalize our relationships.

Not everyone deserves two hours a week, we have to learn how to

Steward and budget our time, Stuart and budget, our energy,

We get one shot at this. One shot and I think there's

people in here that you've just kind of written it off.

That is it? It'll go away.

I'll just deal with it. But I'm talking about going

after them thoughts. When you like by yourself them

thought you wouldn't dare tell nobody cause you like they gonna

think I'm crazy. Then thought you don't even tell

your spouse, your children and your family because it's too

crazy. They won't even understand how

about those dark. He he, he specifically said,

dark thoughts. He didn't say suicidal thoughts

and he just said, dark thoughts. And it might be somebody in

here. You didn't have thoughts across

your mind and killing somebody. Rather it was pain and Deuce,

rather, they abandon you in a matter.

But man, once you, it's just a, it doesn't matter if it's

something that's every week, but it could be like, every blue and

blue moon, or it could be whenever you get to a certain

level of anger that thought come across, let me tell you, don't

want no thought in your mind of killing somebody, because if

it's a thought, it's a scene, if it is a seeded has fruit, every

seed has potential. And if you have a thought in

your mind, you have a Seed in your mind that has potential to

consume you at the wrong time, with the wrong person with the

wrong set of circumstances and then it's too late.

We have people in prison for the rest of their lives because of

one decision, we have people on East Hastings, hooked on drug

because of one hit. So what I'm saying is like, you

don't want to take for granted, the freedom you do have now to

overcome, what may seem like a smart?

The Bible says the small Fox spoils the vine.

Here's what that small Fox does. It choose at the vine so you

like, as long as I got a Vine, I'm cool, but not, it's chewed

on, right? Anybody ever Have a straw.

And you still got something to drink, but you didn't chewed on

the straw. How efficient is that chewed up

straw? That's a chewed-up buying.

You might have a Vine but that small Fox those little thoughts

in your mind that little attitude.

You like that. Scares me.

That's the as made as I got the you don't see any of you don't

like it, then you can hike it. Right, that's just me, right?

That's crazy. You that I want you to see how

simple that is, but see how you own that demon.

You, I don't don't worry about a demon, don't I got you.

That's just, you might as well say.

That's just us. Can I get a?

Can I get a fist? Pound it down your please,

because that ain't how God made you.

But you over there protecting them little demons because you

afraid to be vulnerable, that's just a start saying that

suggests us, you're gonna see how crazy you sound right.

Who is US? Who Do Ya, you and that little

Spirit behind you. That's why the Bible said, try

the spirit. I get it.

I love you enough to know that that's a spirit.

That ain't really you. You got a good heart.

You amazing person, you're smart, you're intelligent,

you're beautiful. You actually have a tender

tender, heart, big heart, but that fear that insecurity that's

deeply. Deeply wound in your soul, you

to protect it because it's like, who am I being vulnerable?

The best version of you. You understand vulnerability

comes before healing. You're trying to wait till

you're healed, which means you think you're going to be strong?

But to get too strong, you gotta get too vulnerable.

I'm just trying to help a few people tonight.

I don't care worship, team don't care who you is.

He's for sure. If you on the words of Team, you

dealing with them, dark thoughts.

Think about killing somebody, if I'm going to keep helping lead

the team, you ain't going to kill me.

So you better deal with that demon tonight.

Please cuz I'm gonna get on your nerves over the future.

So you get rid of that murder demon right now, whatever it is,

whatever is that is tormenting, you whatever it is that is

plaguing your mind. Here's what I want you to see

is, I'm not telling you thoughts.

I won't ever come, but strength and power and greater thoughts.

My Triumph thing thoughts right here, there's a time, you know,

one just practical thing that helps with with with might like

like I'm not a cool vomiter like you think I'm having an

exorcism. When you hear me throw up, I'm

like all in. I got veins but like, I busted

out by anybody. Remember, my I had that blood.

My now, I was throwing up. Like you know when you you

busting vessels trying to throw uh, see but but I went from one

extreme to another because I'm like, I don't like throwing up

so I'll try to keep it in. But in order to keep it in, I

gotta breathe the certain way and then it eventually turns

into hyperventilation. And so, then it turns into a

panic attack before me and wife, he was really strong.

I remember one time I was sick. I like, I was whatever.

To me, I was sick. I had to throw up and I was

trying not to. I was like babe, I can't.

I got you trying to lead a kid with me and I can't like, I'm

not feeling good. I'm going to work like, okay.

So, my little episode happened. I don't know if I called or the

kid called know that was a long time ago, stop playing with me.

With his, she was on the road and the ambulance was talking to

her and she was like put them on the phone.

I'm like, hello. She like Terrence, stop it.

No mercy, no love. But I get it like, I get it

because I don't want to the hospital a couple times because

I couldn't handle it. Huh, killed a full so I'm not

going to tell the full story. It's going to take too long.

So but one thing that helped me is just like, you know, they try

to put the little paper bag and just like, breathe.

I'm like, man, we called you here to give me the tank.

Give me the oxygen tank. I'll be cool.

But they gotta go through all kinds of procedures before they

let you, I'm like, bro, I don't want no back.

I know what's going to fix this. Give me the tank.

They weren't trying to hear it, but I remember me.

Andrew and just some super practical.

Just teaching me the importance, this is important.

The importance of breathing properly in this is part of our

problem if you don't think the change is important.

Then the ability doesn't matter well because I found it

important. That's why we're there is no

Revelation, knowledge of a thing people perish.

So you don't need more information or another book or a

seminar. You need revelation of what

you've been given and because I found out the importance of

breathing properly, then it's easier for me to surrender to

the process of breathing, although it's irritating.

I just want to stop and breathe when I want to.

All these little tack tactics but they work.

So then when I got sick, My wife is like, wow, you did good

because I didn't I didn't like I was going in but I didn't go to

the hospital. So I'm winning.

I'm winning. I'm doing better.

Right? I just I just want you to see

that you actually do need another way to do.

It doesn't mean I'm not gonna get nauseous again.

It'll mean, I'm not gonna get sick again, but I actually have

allowed a tool to come in my life, that can help me overcome.

The problem that I was having. It doesn't mean thoughts aren't

going to enter your mind? Doesn't mean you're not going to

get angry, but you have to get to a point where you allow in

the tools. So when anger shows up, raid,

shows up those thoughts come up that attitude come up, you

actually handle them differently.

And so, what prayer is for tonight, it's not to get rid of

the devil, you to get rid of the devil.

You gotta go to heaven. He's here now saying he's here,

he's in this world. He's the God of this world.

You not going ever as long as you alive.

Run from craziness. You're in it, not of it.

That's why you got to renew your mind as we got a transform and

that's why you have to trade your Sorrows for Joy.

Wow. That's a choice.

You trade it instead of complaining.

I'm going to Joy. Joy is not a feeling.

It's an action, it's a choice. I could choose to be mad.

And then in my mind build a case.

Y'all. So cute.

You know, saying, but what I feel realize especially What I

realize is that not everyone wants to do the work.

It's easier to just stay and think that life and time is

going to change you. Oh it's going to change you.

It's going to change and start. Charlie encourage young people

the LIE, the world feeds us, is there.

It's a certain age. Then you become serious.

Then you become in love with the Lord.

Then you become you deal with your issues.

No no, no, no. I lost a good friend of mine at

16 years old. 12-gauge, shotgun straight to the back promise in

the world. You think he woke up that day,

planning to get killed. Nope.

And what he chose to put back, put off the day before if he

could have dealt with it a week before and made a different

Choice, he wouldn't have ran into that bullet.

So what I'm saying is mindsets lead to decisions and And lead

to consequences. So I believe that God wants you

to put down some mindsets rather.

You've whether you have said it or rather there's been a thought

pattern, you with hair, you've inherited.

And you've allowed that to be put on autopilot dark thoughts.

Codependency rather it's on chemicals or people?

If that's you, I want you to just come up here up front.

You don't give me something to eat, if we got a worship team

left, I mean, it's no pressure, no pressure, no pressure, no

pressure, no pressure, this won't be long.

This won't be long, it won't be long.

It won't be long. It won't be long.

It won't be long. And then in this one is what I

want to do. You bring it down, bring it

down. I also want us interceding for

the people who actually won't take the opportunity in the

moment and just will pass on it and like, I can't deal with

this. I'm good.

I'm not going up front. We gonna pray for you, too.

Because God sees you, but why would you ask us to come up

front because it takes a step of Faith, right?

Is this how it is? Like if you embarrass me

publicly, don't try to apologize privately.

Right? If you can get all publicly then

why can't you publicly humble yourself?

All right, let's just get a chance.

Key chance a chance. A chance.

Give me a chance. Dark thoughts.

Now really quickly up a passenger.

You come up really quickly. I want to help some people

identified dark thoughts. It's like how we identify drug

addict. We think all drug addicts is

either crack or heroin know you smoke weed.

You look you're a drug addict if or if you all you don't sound

like if you let you know saying we like try to make weed this

minor drug no drugs. Is is what drugs when I used to

smoke weed? Man.

I used to smoke a lot of it and I remember my mom and law used

to tell me I needed help. And I'm like, man, I'm just

smoking weed. You need help. sorry drugs is

drugs and if you're dependent on them for peace or calm I'm

telling you it is not something you want to rely on Hague Nang

my daddy was locked up in prison for selling drugs and now we got

weed cause we on the corner everywhere we got my Miles of

places that are playing. We display.

We got Mom, how, how, you got thousands of people locked up in

prison over weed, and now you got it on every corner, and you

got it on the side of Highways, just four miles growing, and

then you got signs where you can call and get we deliver you can

over smoke you overeat. Over smoke.

You can get we delivered. Come on man.

Do not let the because the world has legalized it all of a

sudden. It's cool.

You go get shrooms to stop man. I'm trying to tell you.

I'm trying to tell you, the Lord is trying to help you.

It's been bringing up to me over and over and over again and

there's a group of people who is waiting to have a conversation

with someone who heard them before they take, hold of their

wholeness. You may never get to have that

conversation. Pastor Terrance and myself can

stand up here as a representative.

Maybe of that person who hurt you, your wholeness is not

wrapped up in another person. That's not how God created us.

We are completely whole alone. And by ourselves with God, We

don't need someone to apologize for hurting us.

We don't need to have a final conversation.

We don't need to tell them how bad they hurt us.

It is totally okay, that you release, whatever that was

today, move forward, never Revisited know that you are

healed whole healthy able to move forward that you release

that mental real estate. You don't ever have to talk to

them. They never have to apologize to

you. You don't have to have that

moment. You can have that moment with

God as a woman, if it was a woman who hurt you, I apologize

for hurting you. I apologize for hurting you

physically. I apologize for letting you

down. I apologize for abusing you.

I apologize for anything that I did that put You In Harm's Way.

I apologize as a woman as a representative of a woman in

this, And we just cover you in that.

Yeah, for me as a dad, as a man, as a father, I apologize.

I repent for not being there for you, for abusing you for

abandoning you, I need you to know that your freedom is in

you. Letting them go.

So, you have to hear these words, right?

Because there's people that you are holding a grudge against And

they also have pain. Like, what does it take for you

to abandon someone? That's your child or abused,

someone. That's your child.

Is gotta be some Brokenness. And so, I just pray right now.

If you can't find it in you to forgive, I pray that you can

allow compassion for them to come into your heart and

compassion will push out bitterness.

If you can find compassion for parents that misrepresented,

you, they Hurt You by putting you in a position where you have

to answer questions to church folks and your peers at school.

But I am telling you for whatever reason, I really

believe strongly that God is pleading with his children right

now because we're he's trying to take us, we cannot take

bitterness. We cannot take victim, we cannot

take grudges, we cannot take unforgiveness.

God is trying to take us higher and we need to Offload the

baggage. It's not about a feeling it's

about making a choice tonight tomorrow this week on and on

even those kind of choices take momentum.

It's hard the first day and it's hard the first week but man

there's a momentum of discipline.

So make a decision to have momentum in your discipline

live. Your hands are right where you

are and if you're up here and you've been prayed for, if you

want to go back to your seat and slowly find we're almost done

but we really care about connecting with you to walk in

the fullness and me and my wife would not have been able to

celebrate 18 years. And some time our kids are like

is why you guys kissing well date.

The older ones, don't know more. But the little one does and it's

just like man, you better be grateful for having two parents

in the house that love each other.

Don't think everybody has that luxury and don't you dare take

advantage of that. But I'm really feeling the heart

of those, if you can get down to the core of it as mad, as you

are at your parent, and you can put a nice statement.

I wish that I had my dad. I wish that I was loved by my

mom. I wish that they could just

understand me. I wish they never hit me.

I wish they never raped me. That hurt me like, like, Express

the feeling but do not. Allow bitterness to take room

because truth of the matter is you're hurt.

You're afraid and that's truth in spirit Spirit and Truth.

Where are you really at? And get that out.

I am hurt but I'm not quitting. I am hurt but I will not Park

here. I am hurt but I will not be a

victim. I'm getting up today while I'm

hurting I'm going to Rejoice while I'm hurt.

I am going to walk in Hope and Faith while I am hurt, it

doesn't matter. The pain will catch up with my

joy. I mean the joy will catch up.

It will push out my pain. But what I'm saying is make a

choice today. Make a choice today to be the

victor. Can you pull up?

It's the slide with John 21. I just want to give you guys

something. We go.

We'll go. You guys can keep keep keep.

We're mindful. Can we get them?

Yeah. Can we get them their chairs

back, please. You keep the altar open.

That's fine. You can take it down.

Just keep that ready? Thank God for delivered worship

team. Amen.

Amen. All right, really quickly.

Can I just read something to you guys really quickly about

momentum? Say momentum, say again, see

momentum requires again. All right.

Close here, John 21 later, Jesus appeared once again say again to

a group of his disciples by Lake Galilee.

Just so you have context. Jesus has died and he has Rose.

This is him in his risen State. It Happened One day, while Peter

Thomas twin. Nathanael from Cana in Galilee.

Jacob, John and two other disciples were all together mind

you. They lost their friend.

Jesus, the brother Jesus. They had to be grieving Peter

told them, man. I'm about to go fishing.

Now, Peter and never went back fishing like this for a little

while because he had been making, he's been making

Fisher's, he has become a fisher of men.

I just use my imagination. I think Peter just need some

time, and he bout to go out on the water and get some time to

himself and they all replied will go with you.

I highlighted that because I just need a couple people that's

down to go with me. It's down to go through some

tough times with me. So they went out and fished

through the night through the what night?

But caught what. Nothing now there are Master

fisherman. So the night time is the best

time when it's dark is good. Time to go fishing, they were

out on the water. All what night and caught what?

Nothing anybody ever been wrestling for a while.

With something and came out with nothing.

You've been praying, you've been bombarding, Heaven, you've been

fasting, you've been doing all kind of stuff, but it seems like

that thing will not break and say it was standing.

Then at dawn, Jesus was standing there on the shore, but the

disciples didn't realize that it was what him.

I kind of got this picture of song came to my head.

I always feel like somebody's watching me and Anna.

Any, uh, oh. Right?

Because will give you get the picture.

I need you to, I need the Bible to come alive to you, and it

seems like Jesus has left them. It seems like they're all along.

It seems like I can't hear God's voice.

They're out there doing their thing, but Jesus is sitting

there watching them. He cares.

He He's never left you. He's watching how you're

responding. He's watching to watch when he

can intercede and help you when you fall.

And this is why you need to keep moving.

It's why you need to keep moving and not worried about.

If God got your back God Gonna Catch.

You any time you step out in faith?

He called out to them. Hey guys, I don't know if he

talk like that, but Hey guys, did you catch any fish?

I mean, mind you. This is second time.

This has happened before when he pushed Peters boat out and he

used it to preach. Don't forget, Jesus showed up

before death. Again, did you catch anything?

Why is he asking something? He knows, here's what you have

to understand, Elder, John are they got understand?

Because I think you might understand, he has blessing you

on his mind, but he needs you to know that you actually need it,

and here's what happens sometimes.

Hey, did you catch anything? Yeah.

I'm good pride has you and it's some of you in here, probably

got you saying I'm good. I don't need no help.

I got it all under control and Jesus, like, cool.

Keep going there and I see it all the time.

Is his people that think they like I'm good and God always

tonight was this moment. Hey did you catch any fish?

Have you dealt with that anger? Have you dealt with that

attitude? Have you have you?

And you like man I just went to the altar last week but last

week between last week and today guess what?

Came up? That little funky funk.

And what you fail to do. Some of you tonight is Strike

again. You looking at the frequency and

God's. Looking at the consistency

you're looking at, I was at the altar last week.

I was there two weeks ago. I'm not going up there.

No more, it's working. This got to work at some point

and God is like, no, I'm training you to keep striking.

I'm training Dylan, he's the rewarder of those who

diligently. Like it take diligence is like

you disowned the devil's head just Some of you deal with your

bondage like you, okay? You, you don't, you don't call

that ambulance on your bondage. You don't bandage up your

strongholds. he said, throw your net over the starboard of the

starboard side and you'll catch some And for some of you that

came up here tonight, that's what you did.

You cast it your net and so they did as he said they did as he

said they did, as he said they didn't talk themselves out of

it. They did because they had all

the reason to say Jesus. We actually do this sir.

You a really a carpenter. So we know ain't no fish down

there, but what he also doing is pulling on their remembrance

because he did it before. And so, they did as he said, and

they caught so many fish, they couldn't even pull in the net.

Remember that? That total Annihilation right

here, just ended poverty, just ended broke, just ended, not

enough. They just went in one decision

of obedience. They were From just enough to

more than enough. Yo, I got this going to get.

You got Then the disciple whom Jesus loved said to Peter, it is

the Lord. When Peter heard him say that he

quickly wrapped his outer garment around him, and because

he was athletic, he Dove right into the lake, to go to Jesus.

This brother swam the Jesus. I want you to see this though

ain't no Pride. I need Jesus.

I don't Who see me? I'm taking my woman with the

issue of blood blind Bartimaeus. I'm taking this off and I'm

swimming. Y'all want to stand a bowl to

cool? Gonna stay in the boat of cool

but I'm about to go meet my savior.

Who's been good to me? The other disciples.

Dan brought the boat to shore, dragging their catch a fish

dragging. They weren't far from Land, only

about 100 meters. When they got to shore they

notice a charcoal fire with some roasted fish and bread, CC God's

trying to get you out of Labor. So you can enter s wait wait a

minute, wait a minute. He just took them from out of

Labor. And striving and he was

preparing communion. All right, I'ma help.

You see this one more time, he entered their labor and invited

them to rest. I want you to see something.

He didn't get on the water with him.

He said, I'm not gonna get in your mess with you.

I'm gonna call you out of it. And Jesus said, bring some of

the fish. You just caught So, Peter waded

into the water and help pull the net to shore.

It was full of many large fish. Exactly 153 large fishies.

But even with so many fish, the net was not torn.

Okay. Come let's have some breakfast.

Jesus said to them, and I wanted a disciples needed to ask who it

was, because every one of them knew it was the Lord and he's

trying to do something significant in your life that

causes you. Not to doubt who he is, then

Jesus came close to them and serve them the bread and the

fish. This was the third time Jesus.

Appeared to his disciples after Resurrection.

The Lord is trying to get you out of striving interests.

I don't know how else to put it. What he has blessing on his mind

for you know this sounds strange.

But the Lord's not going to ask you to practice again and he

don't. So I live his grace and mercy he

saying I'm giving those that refuse to strike the First Time.

One More Shot. And this time the window is not

wide open and I do not want you coming up because you like well

maybe you know, maybe I just come up just in case he talked.

No, no. You gotta know you passed on the

last one. You gotta know.

It's for you. It's not like, okay, well, if we

don't come up and passing on, keep going on, keep None of this

is all love for you. You just pray for a Troy be

taken. Pray for these ladies before you

do that before you do that, we can move onto another song.

There's something I want you to really get when you before we

pray for you. I want you to leave the question

when at the altar. And I want you to walk away with

it's finished. The Lord says, leave the win up

to me wwhen, leave the win up to me but you don't need to see it

to begin to walk in it. If you're waiting for healing,

if you're waiting for a family member, if you're waiting for

something, the Lord says except it is finished, accept it.

But be encouraged because it's here, it's here.

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You know, the motto. We had a time for we ain't out

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this man.