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Wanderlust: Leaving the Comfort Zone

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  1. Well, good morna Venture Church. How are we doing today? Fantastic?

  2. But listen, I just want to take a moment. You guys are special.

  3. This is my first Sunday service ever. That that's right, thank you,

  4. thank you. I'll glody to God. I just got a question.

  5. We got some gold fear and people in the house today. Oh see you

  6. listen. I love that. Well, you guys came to the right spot.

  7. If we haven't met yet, my name is Johnny Why. I have

  8. the honor and privilege of being the youth pastor here and we're in the middle

  9. of a series right now called wonder Lust. And the first time like they's

  10. like, hey, wonder Lust, I kind of just assumed that I had

  11. to own it, like it was like wonder like, oh, the wonder

  12. of God. Amazing, And they're like, no, that's an a in

  13. it. I was like, what does it mean? What are you talking

  14. about? Pastri Seon did a great job just presenting a general definition owner.

  15. Remind us, let's put that wonder lust definition up here. Strong longing for

  16. or impulse toward wonder wander. This word wander stuck out to me a lot

  17. um and I was like, we can long for, But like, what

  18. are we longing for? What does it actually mean? So can we put

  19. up that definition of wander a movement away from the proper normal or unusual course

  20. or place. And this is something that's so important, especially where we're going

  21. today, because today I want to talk to you guys, and the title

  22. of my message is how to leave the comfort zone. This is something that

  23. I think is viable for every single one of us. But before I get

  24. to ahead of myself, I want to say, first off, what's up

  25. to our online family. I want to say what's up to my parents who

  26. are watching from Texas? And I want to Yeah, that's right, shout

  27. out Texas. Let's go. Yeah, we've got some moner ate Texans in

  28. the house. You guys are all Texans today, Okay, But I want

  29. to honor our lead pastors as well, Pastor Brennan, the pastor Diabeals for

  30. giving me this opportunity. How many you guys are grateful for our lead pastors?

  31. Come on listen wherever you guys are watching from I think Vegas and oh

  32. in Spokane. Thank you guys, appreciate y'all, and we love you guys.

  33. We'll see you guys, soon cool. All right, are you guys

  34. ready for the word, Well, I'm ready to give it to you.

  35. This message God tell me it's E E for everybody. So Proverbs three,

  36. verses five through six says this trust in the Lord with all your heart,

  37. and do not rely on your own understanding and all your ways. Know Him

  38. and He will make your pass straight. I just want to open up with

  39. a question. What happens when the path that God makes straight in your life

  40. takes you straight to discomfort? What is that avenue? I'm blessed to be

  41. here today because it almost didn't happen. I want to take you guys to

  42. my graduating year, the good old year of twenty twenty, the peak of

  43. COVID. Take you guys to my college dorm. I'm sitting on the couch

  44. eating Hamburger helper because I don't know how to cook just yet. Bishop td

  45. Jakes is on my TV screen. That was like our surprise guest, and

  46. I was gonna do like a like an impression, but I just feel like

  47. that offend everybody, So I'm just gonna save myself that conversation. But he's

  48. like, congrats graduates, I almost did it. And anyways, congrats graduates,

  49. Like you guys did it and I had that just click. Oh I'm

  50. done. I just finished school. Okay, give you guys a little bit

  51. of context. I received my call, I got saved and baptized in the

  52. Holy Spirit when I was fourteen years old. I always knew I wanted to

  53. be a pastor. I always knew I wanted to be a minister. And

  54. for the longest time, this is like six or seven years coming, like

  55. I finally, like was at the finish line. I had studied, I'd

  56. take I was in seminary and I'm like, I'm itching and ready to go,

  57. and I'm interviewing for a couple of jobs. I have a couple of

  58. offers on the table and it's everything I've ever wanted, and it just doesn't

  59. feel right. And I'm praying, Oh my God, Like what's happening.

  60. Is it because it's in Mississippi? Is it because it's somewhere else? It's

  61. like, what am I supposed to do? And I begin to brest to

  62. do all the questions do I need to go back to my hometown. I

  63. didn't want to go back to my hometown. I was living in Dallas and

  64. I had to go back to Dusty loving Texas, and I was like,

  65. I'm not sure if I'm ready for that. It's a really small town.

  66. But God's like, if I'd asked you to go back home, would you

  67. do it? Like what am I supposed to say no to you? Like?

  68. Yeah, God putting on my heart? If I asked you to go

  69. to go back to school again, would you do it? I mean I

  70. really did not want to go back to school, like at all. And

  71. I really feel this piece. And it's kind of crazy because I'm know where

  72. Brendan Greenwalt's out, but he posted a TikTok and I was in charge of

  73. research and development with a company down there and venture popped up, and like,

  74. legitimately, if if Brendan doesn't post that TikTok, I don't end up

  75. here. It's crazy. I have this radical like God confirmation on the phone.

  76. Was one of the pastors here, and it just feels like this,

  77. this is the next step, this is where I'm supposed to be. This

  78. is it. And so I'm going to all my ministry friends, all my

  79. mentors, and I'm excited to share the news. Yo, I know what

  80. I'm doing next, Like, oh, where are we going. Where'd you

  81. get drafted? Where? Where are you signing the contract? Where are you

  82. pastoring at the spring? Johnny White's sticking his talents too, And I was

  83. like, I'm going to Seattle and I was expecting that, Oh, let's

  84. go. All I got was why They're like, don't you know you can

  85. have an easy year. There's a church on every single corner. We can

  86. get you a job about the biggest churches in the area. Don't you know

  87. that they're not Christian out there, They don't love God out there. There's

  88. barely any churches out there. You want to do a church plant, you

  89. want to pastor out there, That's not gonna be easy. And I just

  90. hmm. I was like, thank your Holy Spirit exactly. They don't know

  91. Jesus. I'm not called to feed people who already know Him. And it

  92. just submitted to me this idea and this concept and how I want to open

  93. up. And if you're taking notes, I encourage you to take notes.

  94. Our calling and our purpose does not reside in our comfort, but it resides

  95. in our obedience. Watch how you your mindset and your actions and everything about

  96. your life begins to switch and convert when you don't no longer chase the comfort,

  97. but you chase the comforter. You chase the source of everything. Where

  98. I'm not going to be dictated by what my surroundings looks like. I'm not

  99. gonna be dictated by what feels quote unquote good. Is God in it?

  100. Is He moving for us? Can I tell you that our peace, our

  101. soulless, anything that we could find comfort in, if it's not in God,

  102. it's temporary. The Youth Ministry, right now we have this little thing

  103. on Sundays ten am, Youth Essentials, Wednesday seven pm plug or we're going

  104. through the Bible, and right now we're going through the Book of Ecclesiastes,

  105. and there's this big overwatching thought. Here's where I've been teaching your kids.

  106. For those who've been curious, nothing in your life matters. It's really encouraging

  107. pep talk. But what Solomon is actually trying to communicate in this thought is

  108. anything that you could take comfort in, money, job, platform, influence,

  109. anything like that will always disappoint you, will always be insufficient and will

  110. never carre you to the finish line. The only thing that is significant,

  111. the only thing that will hold purpose and drive you and help you finish the

  112. race. Well is our reverence in God? Amen? And I love that

  113. that's the life we live. And I love that that's how it's set up

  114. because there's no one I would rather have in my corner in my court than

  115. God. I'm believing that as we go through this conversation, God's been going

  116. to begin to highlight different areas in your life that we're comfortable that we might

  117. be settling, that there might be more on the table for And what I

  118. ask is, as God begins to bring that out, there's gonna be attention

  119. for you to shove it back down. But can I ask you, would

  120. you trust God to do some surgery today? Would you trust God to put

  121. you in a better position to launch you into the next level of your faith?

  122. Can we do that together? Church? Oh? Hey man, I

  123. love the ten Am. Y'all are dope. This is great, this is

  124. exciting. All right, let's get into it. Proverb twenty one two says

  125. all a person's ways seem right to him, but the Lord weighs hearts.

  126. Human nature would have us justify our our place and life, our actions,

  127. our mentality where we're like, we know I'm working on it, I'm getting

  128. better, It's okay. And sometimes we can tell ourselves a lie of I'm

  129. good where I'm at, And I don't want you guys to pull from this

  130. message that, oh, Johnny White say, We're not supposed to be comfortable.

  131. Anytime I feel good in live should I'm probably in sin or something like

  132. That's That's not what I'm saying. Okay, Like, don't don't let that

  133. be the key takeaway right now. In the comfort zone, we don't need

  134. to be anxious, but we do need to be vigilant. We need to

  135. be paying attention to where our comfort Zoe resides in. We don't need to

  136. be paranoid, but we do need to be mindful of where our comfort Zoe

  137. resides in. Because what happens when your comfort zone that you find yourself in

  138. is birth out of unhealthiness. You're comfortable because you keep feeding your ego.

  139. You're comfortable because you keep feeling, you keep feeding your selfishness. You're comfortable

  140. because you like to disassociate everybody around you, and we leave it to that,

  141. it just feels rights. I'm just comfortable. This way we build comfort

  142. around our family is like, yes, my family is financially taken care of,

  143. but they don't ever see you. And our misguided approach of chasing our

  144. comfort begins to affect different areas of our life. And I feel like today

  145. God is calling us to look up, open our eyes and seek for more.

  146. Second Corinthians five twenty through twenty one says this, Therefore, we are

  147. ambassadors for Christ. Since God is making his appeal through us, we plead

  148. on Christ's behalf be reconciled to God. He made the one who did not

  149. know sin to be sin for us so that in him we might become the

  150. righteousness of God. And it's called an ambassador representative of heaven. At Paul

  151. is talking about really, to seek like our faith is to be like him,

  152. to be Christ like, to chase that attitude and the aspect of Christ's

  153. personality and his character is that seeking of righteousness. Now, seeking of righteousness

  154. isn't something that's a threshold like, oh, I'm righteous done, I've crossed

  155. it, I'm good, I've done enough to the mindset is broken if we

  156. see it that way. The call to righteousness is to look at our life

  157. and to look for more, recently in our in the youth, ministry.

  158. We were talking about the spectrum of faith and can you think about how disappointing

  159. it actually be if we just check off the boxes and that's it. Like

  160. you make it to fifteen years old and you have the radical encounter and you

  161. get baptized in the Holy Spirit, you give your life to Jesus and you

  162. get baptized, and you're like, Okay, that was it. We'll see

  163. you in your thirty five like that, and that's that's the cap. Wouldn't

  164. that just like bum you out? Because it means it would mean our God

  165. has a bottom. What I'm grateful for is that in every season of life,

  166. and no matter how old we get, there's more. Our God has

  167. no bottom. The God who lives outside of time and space has so much

  168. more that he wants to give us, grow on us, molding us and

  169. shaping us. And we were never called to settle in our faith. That's

  170. where we get dangerous. That's where we were like, I've done enough in

  171. my faith. I'm a good Christian man, I'm a good Christian woman.

  172. And we built that off our accolades of the past. I used to lead

  173. a small group six years ago and I don't talk to them no more.

  174. They go to a different church. We find the excuses for our comfort,

  175. We find our excuses for where we reside, and I can't help a feeling

  176. his thing. I'm not talking at you, guys. I'm talking with you,

  177. guys, like this is something. When I was writing this, it

  178. was ministering to my own soul. Every message that I've preached has come out

  179. of a lesson that I've had to learn, most of the time the hard

  180. way. But I'm glad that we can have this space to where I'm not

  181. talking at you, but we get to minister to each other together, and

  182. we're gonna keep pressing you. Sometimes we can accept the quality of our life

  183. right now, and we tell ourselves a lie and justify good enough. Our

  184. marriage is good enough, our family dynamic, it's good enough. It's not

  185. inherently great, it's not bad, but I'll take it as it is,

  186. and we are. We've told ourselves a lie that our stat of life is

  187. cemented. This is as good it is ever gonna get. So I shouldn't

  188. try, I shouldn't stretch out. I shouldn't step upon a limb. I

  189. don't want to break up the peace. So we remain and we abide in

  190. our comfort zone. We abide in this comfortable level, and what we don't

  191. really realize is that our comfort zone has quickly become a comfort cell. We

  192. are entrapped and entrenched in a reality that we've crafted, and because we're so

  193. paralyzed of what might be, we don't know the end result. It keeps

  194. us from standing out, daring, moving for higher and better and greater things.

  195. If I could say it like this, what's a good life compared to

  196. a great life? What's a great life compared to God? A God life?

  197. I knew I was growing in my faith because when I was immature,

  198. when I was newer to the Christian thing, I was like, God,

  199. I need you to make it like obvious, like like dumb obvious, like

  200. red light, green light, Like I need to know where are you at

  201. in this? And it used to be a lot, a lot of bad

  202. and it would be like one good voice and I'm like, oh, that

  203. has to be God right there. I'm with him. And I knew I

  204. was making advancements in my faith when life started getting good. I had good

  205. community, I had healthy options, I had all the doors inherently were good

  206. and God was saying, I promoted you. Now what's God? Can you

  207. tell where I'm at? Listen, the most dangerous place that we can be

  208. in church is when we confuse good and God together. Life is good and

  209. God's screaming at you. But is it me? Are you looking for me?

  210. Can you tell? I'm not even here? And this is where we

  211. need to be vigilant, mindful seeking, praying God? Are you in this?

  212. Are you with me? Are you for me? In the doors that

  213. He's open? And sometimes we're our own worst enemy, and the enemy likes

  214. to take any opportunity we can to contort and hold us back and make us

  215. backslide. And I want to tell you guys, how the enemy can use

  216. your comfort zone against you. Let's put up that verse, John ten ten

  217. Bro, this is so cool having ledu are just like pop pop it up

  218. and everybody can see it. That's great. A thief comes only to steal,

  219. killing. What we'll get back to that in a little bit. The

  220. thief comes to steal, kill and destroy. How does the enemy use his

  221. comfort zone against you? I'm gonna break it down, just as they lied

  222. up right there in your comfort zone. Here's what the enemy will do he'll

  223. steal our dreams. He'll kill us in our compromise, and he'll destroy our

  224. potential allow me to elaborate. He'll steal our dreams. There I'm looking around

  225. the room and I love it. When I got hirt of as a youth

  226. pastor, I didn't speak for the first three months because I took the time

  227. to get to know the people who are I'll be speaking to. And it's

  228. so crazy being here for three years, looking around and seeing all the different

  229. pockets of families that I've known that I've I've talked with it, and I've

  230. seen I feel like a lot of us we've had dreams in our life.

  231. Maybe it was with our career, maybe with our family. Maybe it was

  232. a new venture, a new idea, something that would really elevate not only

  233. your family, but your the society, your area, your region. The

  234. presence was felt, and we got on our own heads. Life got busy.

  235. We made up these excuses and anytime, maybe we're unpacking the old box,

  236. maybe we're looking at an old no entry, and our faith gets stirred

  237. up again, and then we tell ourselves alive, it's too late. That

  238. has to stay buried. The enemy likes to put in our ears. Yeah,

  239. you missed your window. It's over. Let the dream die. Some

  240. of you guys have ambition for what your families could look like, the leaders

  241. in the household, the elevation of the caliber of where your family resides.

  242. We begin to tell ourselves, Nah, this would just stay good enough because

  243. it keeps the peace. And we're not allowed to wander. We're not allowed

  244. to elevate, we're not allowed to push in the comfort. So our comfort

  245. zone can kill our compromise, kill us in our compromise. Can I tell

  246. you what good is cozy when you find it in your loss of conviction?

  247. What good is comfortable whenever it is found? And the things that you're willing

  248. to give away, the things that were once non negotiable, the ones,

  249. the things that you stood tintos down on that would never waver. Well,

  250. now, if it keeps the peace, I don't want to shake things up.

  251. I don't want to cause any trouble. Watch what happens when we keep

  252. our conviction and you look up and you're like, I shouldn't even be in

  253. these environments. I shouldn't even be engaged in these kind of conversations. But

  254. because we keep the peace because we want to feel safe. We don't want

  255. to make waves. We allow our compromise, our convictions though work that God

  256. has done in us personally, to be on the wayside, to be secondary

  257. to what society says is good, to what society says is normal. And

  258. I always go back to the principle, it may be good, but is

  259. it God? Not? Everything bears fruit, the fruit that we would want.

  260. Conviction is the thing that you have to climb for. Nobody wants to

  261. low hanging fruit. Nobody wants to think that's that's easy and accessible, because

  262. what you might notice is what was easy and accessible is disease with bugs infested.

  263. Stepping out of our comfort zone allows us to reach for what's more,

  264. for what you didn't even think was possible, what you thought was what was

  265. unimaginable, what you thought was cemented. God was willing to say, if

  266. you would just give me a shot, if you would just step out,

  267. like I would have been calling you for years, calling you for days,

  268. calling you in your prayer time, if you would just step out, you'd

  269. be so surprised how I'm going to use you in our comfort zone? And

  270. he destroys our potential This is one of the crazy things. I can't remember

  271. if Pastor Brennan told me this or another mentor, but potential is one of

  272. the greatest hypothetical things that you can talk about. I've had the honor and

  273. privilege of speaking to a lot of youth students across different states, in different

  274. places, and one thing, my belief in gen Z, my belief in

  275. jen Alpha is strong. I believe they can change the world. You look

  276. on the front line of every protest, any movement, anything that's shaking up.

  277. Gen Z has something to say. Gen Z is something that they want

  278. to They want to be active. And I always speak life. You can

  279. change the world, you can change your school, you can change the community.

  280. I see the raw talent in you. But the potential would just remain

  281. that hypothetical if you don't do anything with it. As this pastor his name

  282. is Manny Urrango. He does his teaching that like God puts his promises not

  283. in our palm, but in our reach. And it's the concept that God

  284. would will lay these things out in front of you. But you need to

  285. move. You gotta get up and do something. I was talking with somebody.

  286. I think I think it was Cadence, and I was like Cadence,

  287. I could say that you're gonna be the best person in the world. You're

  288. gonna give your class saved. But like, if you don't, like,

  289. if I see you five years from now, you're the exact same person.

  290. Something went wrong. We gotta grow, we gotta move, we gotta step

  291. out. Some of us have been telling the lives I'm good enough, I'm

  292. good right now in my faith, and God said, you should have been

  293. five levels up. You should have been above and beyond where you're at right

  294. now. The intimacy, the intimacy should have improved. You should be able

  295. to hear my whispers in the storm. But we tell ourselves in the comfort

  296. zone, I need to be fighting the same battles. I need to go

  297. back and forth, not advance, kind of pastor Sean alluded to last week.

  298. We begin to drift, we stay in neutral. And here's what can

  299. happen in our faith. If we reside in the comfort zone. We can

  300. pick up an entitled mindset in our faith. That word entitled defined believing oneself

  301. to be inherently deserving of privileges or special treatment. Can I be real without

  302. for a second well, I got the mac. I gonna do it anyways,

  303. So I don't really know how to what you got to say. Let

  304. me tell you what humanity is deserving of. Let me tell you what we're

  305. entitled to. Ever since Genesis three, we are entitled to send death,

  306. condemnation. That's what we inherently deserve. But how many of you guys are

  307. grateful that we have a God who wouldn't let that be the case, who

  308. extended his promise time and time again that you would be covered in the midst

  309. of your mistake, in the midst of your unforgiveness, in the midst of

  310. your dirt, Jesus album would make you clean. And that's why it's important

  311. for us to realize that in our faith, we are promised, not entitled,

  312. and we have to act on the promise because the realization of the promise

  313. is calling for us to step up and step out to what we think is

  314. good, to what we think is normal, to what we think is enough.

  315. I just keep hearing that word enough. Here's what can happen in entitled

  316. mindset. In our faith, we become sardonic or cynical. In our faith,

  317. Pastor tells you get up and meet your neighbor, and you're like,

  318. I already have seven people in my small group. I don't need to meet

  319. anybody else. You show up to church and they're like, I'm in,

  320. I'm out. I show up past the first song, so nobody can really

  321. say hi to me and I as pastorsai about your head, they're like,

  322. okay, bye. Beating the traffic. Pastor says, take it right outside

  323. the parking lot. I want to take a left. Sorry. Sorry,

  324. that just starts to him, starts to him. I don't know. I

  325. don't know what happened. I don't. I don't know where I came from.

  326. That might have that might have been just me. That might have been

  327. just me. I don't, I don't know. God says, give a

  328. word to somebody, and we give the lie I've done enough. He's calling

  329. us to deeper, and we try to justify it in our heart. I'm

  330. doing enough. I'm okay. A realization of the promise is to keep moving

  331. forward, to keep digging deeper. Because I want to ask you the question,

  332. how much are you willing to step out of your comfort zone? For

  333. God has promised you for what God has for you? How far out of

  334. your comfort zone. Are you willing to contend for your family, to contend

  335. for your marriage, to contend for your sons and daughters? Here's the thing,

  336. how far are you want to step out of your comfort zone for your

  337. brothers and sisters that you don't know in this room? Can I talk about

  338. this is chosen family right here, and that I hadn't turn of lights of

  339. because I wanted you guys to see me as I see you. There are

  340. some phenomenal people in this room right now. I'm sure there's a lot more

  341. fun all people that I haven't met yet that I would love to meet,

  342. and I would encourage you step out. Don't do life with just a close

  343. few, but see what a true community can be. We're not tapping on

  344. a little bit. This message was near and dear in my heart. As

  345. I alluded to earlier, I could never write something that I haven't walked through,

  346. and oftentimes it's been through the hard way. I don't have enough time

  347. to do full justice to the story. And so if you have any questions

  348. or you want to get the full in depth thing, we can get lunch

  349. or dinner. If you want to buy me coffee, you know, whatever,

  350. whatever you guys wanna do h But a lot of the youth students,

  351. you guys have heard my testimony, a lot of the young adults, you

  352. guys have heard my testimony. And for the sake of time, you guys

  353. aren't getting from the jump. But I'm gonna get into the end of it.

  354. This is a part of the story that you guys haven't heard yet because

  355. for the longest time, it didn't have a resolution. There wasn't at the

  356. end on it. My junior and senior year, I told you I got

  357. saved when I was fourteen, had these radical encounters with God every year my

  358. junior and senior year, I still struggled with addiction. I was a drug

  359. dealer. I overdosed twice my junior and my senior year, and my life

  360. was a mess. My senior year, I call it D Day because it's

  361. when legitimately my family imploded. Can we be real today? Can I came

  362. here for a church, so I came here to be honest. I Can

  363. I just bear my mess real quick? Yeah? I'm not gonna I have

  364. it all together. So my senior year, I wake up in the hospital

  365. in the middle of the night to my parents in the er with me.

  366. Doctor's telling me I'm facing a bunch of impossible odds, one that I might

  367. not be able to walk or talk again. I might have to get reconstructive

  368. surgery on my face. And my parents, this is their first time knowing

  369. what I'm struggling with. This is their first time that their eyes are open

  370. to the mess that's been my life these past couple of years. Talk about

  371. a route awakening from that day. My parents were also using as well as

  372. a separate incident. But we had the conversation of listen, this almost took

  373. you from us. We're not gonna let it happen again. We'll be your

  374. accountability, We'll be sober together, we will hold you strong. And we

  375. worked hard to reconcile. We worked hard to restore what we had before.

  376. And I'm gonna be honest. Life was good. We me and my parents

  377. had the best relationship that we've had. My mom, we're great. My

  378. father, who's my stepdad? I just I began to see him like a

  379. real father. Everything just kind of clicked in. I go to seminary,

  380. I'm going for a year and a half and I don't get to come home

  381. for a year and a half because I'm working to pay off school and it's

  382. my first time coming home in a year and a half. Like I said

  383. again, I drive five hours back to my hometown. It's a first day

  384. i'm back. I get home early before they get off from work, and

  385. I'm kind of going around seeing my childhood home. Like you guys are like

  386. reminisce a little bit, you know, like I broke that fence, I

  387. broke this window. I broke a lot of things. And as I'm going

  388. through the garage, I find I find drugs. I'm like, oh,

  389. and it's not like been there for a while. It's like it's new.

  390. It's fresh. I could tell. And I mean like it's a gut check

  391. thang. Did they ever actually stop using? Were they ever actually clean?

  392. And this whole just come to this spirit just comes over me. He's like,

  393. I need you to pay attention right now because I'm gonna use you.

  394. And I'm mad. I'm if I could be transparent. Here's what I felt.

  395. The thing that almost took me out a year and a half ago,

  396. they hopped right back in. And how I perceived it was they chose drugs

  397. over me. That's how I felt inherently in my life. We have a

  398. conversation to get back home. I've been praying the whole time. God,

  399. I don't know what to say. I don't know how I'm gonna handle this

  400. conversation. I don't know what to do right now. And they come home

  401. and look at them and I'm like, listen, I found this. I

  402. know what's happening. I just need you guys to know where I'm at in

  403. my face right now, that I'm so serious, so committed, so vigilant

  404. and protective right now, where I'm at because I just got back into this,

  405. like I'm gonna go. I'm gonna leave. I know it sucks because

  406. I'm gonna be here for a week and a half, but I'm leaving the

  407. same day that I just drove. But I need you guys to come to

  408. the decision because you can't have both. You can't have drugs, you can't

  409. have me, or you can't have both, you know what I mean.

  410. And I leave, and over the next year, we're calling from visiting,

  411. we're just trying to reconcile this, and they come to the conclusion, Hey,

  412. you're right, we choose you, and I think everything's good again.

  413. We went from good to great. I was like, man, we are

  414. even healthier. We are on fire. This is amazing. Fast forward to

  415. this year, we have a little youth conference called yuth Khan. It starts

  416. getting a little stressful, like leading up to it, like my first big

  417. event, my first time in the leadership shoe is the Mantel leadership, which

  418. is a little bit heavy. So I started going to counseling and my therapists.

  419. We start talking about ministry and like the weight of that and everything.

  420. But then we start talking about family and this incident comes up and she asked

  421. me. She's like, oh, so, when was the last time you

  422. followed up with them to see if they were still clean? And I was

  423. like, I haven't just why. Over the span of three or four sessions,

  424. every time we got to that part, she would always circle back to

  425. it, I'd freeze up. She had to stopped me one day. She's

  426. like, Johnny, every time we bring this up, your whole body tenses

  427. up. You get really quiet. I can see how much stress and anxiety

  428. just causing you. And here's what I think. I think you're scared to

  429. know the answer because you have such a resolve that that the answer is,

  430. yes, we're not clean. You have to make a decision of leaving a

  431. great family and keeping your word. And I'm freaking out. Call me on

  432. my crowd because that's exactly what I was feeling, and she's like, when

  433. are you gonna have the question? When are you gonna ask the question?

  434. I don't have an answer. I was speaking at a Spanish conference in Dallas

  435. two weeks ago and I had to fly back home for a family emergency,

  436. so I wasn't planning on originally seeing my family, but I like, I

  437. was like, oh yeah, absolutely, Like I'll be there. And it's

  438. the first time I get there and we're sitting in the room and we're reminiscing

  439. and we're talking about if they're remodeling the house, and I just feel the

  440. Holy Spirit come over me. He says General Whisper. If you don't do

  441. it now, you never will. And I'm wrestling my head. God,

  442. what I have right now is good, What this is right now is great.

  443. We fought to get back to this spot of where we're at right now.

  444. I don't want to. I don't want to. I just want to

  445. keep the peace. I just want to stay right here and I hear that

  446. general whisper it could be good, but it won't be me. So I

  447. looked him in eyes. I'm starting to get teary eyed. I don't cry

  448. like that, but I was crying right then. I was like, guys,

  449. and I tell him everything that I had just gone through, what's been

  450. happening in these sessions. And I was like, so I just need to

  451. know for the better or the worst. I just can't leave here without asking

  452. the question. And I looked him in the eyes and I say, are

  453. you guys clean? Are you sober? They look at me and I'm just

  454. along. Pause and they say, listen, we'll pee in the cup right

  455. now. We are we are clean. That was one of the worst days

  456. of our life. But it was a conversation that we needed to have.

  457. And this is the other part of the conversation that we needed to have because

  458. on the other side of it, there was this there was this fear that

  459. they might lose me. And they said, Johnny, you're worth fighting for.

  460. And I looked at him and I was like, you, you both

  461. are worth fighting. If everybody knows when my family's in town, don't buzz

  462. me, don't call me, don't text me because I'm spending all day with

  463. them, especially when I go home, these people on my rock, these

  464. people in my backbone. And it was good enough, but it wasn't God.

  465. And I want to ask you guys a question. Is there an area

  466. of your life right now that's good enough, it's okay, but you know

  467. God's calling you the better. God's calling you the greater in your marriage and

  468. your family, your relationship with your sons, daughters, brothers, sisters,

  469. other things that we've left alone because it was uncomfortable. And I'm believing that

  470. God's calling us into a time to step out to look for more. I

  471. want to avite you guys all across the room to stand up with me.

  472. At first, I'm gonna have you guys all about your heads, to close

  473. your eyes, because maybe you're in this room and you've been hearing me talk

  474. about the comforter, the one who gives that peace, that one that we

  475. reside in. Like I said earlier, are calling Our purpose doesn't reside in

  476. what feels good, It doesn't reside in our comfort, but it resides in

  477. our obedience. Maybe you're in this room and you've been feeling helpless, you've

  478. felt no peace. You've been restless and you didn't have an answer for it.

  479. If you're in this room, no one's looking around right now and you're

  480. saying, I'm ready to commit my life. I'm ready to tap into the

  481. promise that God has been calling for me. I'm ready to give my life

  482. to God. If you're in this room and you want to give your life

  483. to Jesus, would you just raise your hand right now, no countdown,

  484. no nothing. If that's you in this place, would you just raise your

  485. hand. I see you, I see you, I see you, I

  486. see you, and those one more, I see you. You guys can

  487. put your hands down. Can everybody pay for me really quick? Dear Lord,

  488. thank you, Thank you for accepting me in my mess, in my

  489. worry, in my concern. Lord, you cover me. I am grateful

  490. for you, and I acknowledge you as the Lord of my life for now

  491. and forever and then a man, there's one more thing I want to do.

  492. If there's one area in your life that you feel like the Lord is

  493. just pulling you, this needs to change. You need to step out.

  494. If there is an area that you would say, I need to get out

  495. of my comfort zone, would you just stick your hand up right now,

  496. not asking about your heads. If there's an area in your life right now,

  497. like I need to step out. I'm too comfortable in this. Come

  498. on, keep those hands up, keep those hands up, because I love

  499. about this. As we get to get a real practical really really quick,

  500. I want everybody look around, keep your hands up, look around. I

  501. want to show you the power of a chosen family. I want to show

  502. you the power of what the church can be. And I'm going to ask

  503. you to step out of your comfort zone right now. Not to come to

  504. the front now, that's too easy. Anyone who had their hand up,

  505. keep those hands up. I know they tired. Come on, now we're

  506. gonna get to work out in If you're p ninety x for the church,

  507. come on, you're drawn three sixteen. Work out. Here we go.

  508. If you see anybody around you with their hand up, I want you to

  509. turn around. I want you to get out of your seat. I want

  510. you to move around, and I want you to say, how can I

  511. pray for you? Where? What part of your comforts doing do you need

  512. to step out of? And here's that. I know it's vulnerable, good,

  513. I know it's not comfortable purpose of what I'm speaking today. But here's

  514. what I'm envisioning. I'm seeing fathers praying for fathers. I'm seeing mothers praying

  515. for mothers. I'm seeing people praying over cemeteries and turning them in the gardens,

  516. speaking new life and new hope. And tell you, if you won't

  517. step out of your chair now in a church full of people who are believers,

  518. how much harder is it gonna be when you're in your workplace? How

  519. much hard is it gonna be to minister to your family? So right now,

  520. I want invite you guys to step out of your seat, go to

  521. the people who have their hand raised. And here's the thing, No,

  522. don't do that little thing. Where are like, Oh, I'd never raised

  523. my hand. That wasn't me. I see you, You see me?

  524. Okay, I mean the Lord convict you, all right. So right now

  525. we're gonna take a moment. I want you to move out your seat,

  526. move around, lean How can I pray for you? How can I pray

  527. for you? Pastors? Move around? Uh yeah,