Disruptive Glory 3 - Not My Own

Disruptive glory. If you want to know what disruptive glory is, go to the teaching from

the 21st of November where we talked about disruptive glory and what it means to have

permission from God and what disruptive glory looks like because it's an ancient practice

of God to disrupt things with His glory. When He disrupts things with His glory, He devastates

the landscape in terms of destroying all that is evil. He devastates the landscape so that

His goodness, His power, His laughter, His love can burst through it. He's been doing

it right from the Garden of Eden. We said that there is a revival that God is causing

through this church across the earth. We've talked about how ridiculous it is to think

that a revival could start amongst these people here and that we would have seed that we would

take and plant across the earth. It's only a matter of months or years before nations

will be saturated with seed that will spread and that we are at present the igniters of

a revival across the earth. That is such a presumptuous claim and yet that is true. We

went over why it is true. I'm not going to cover that ground. I'm just laying that down

because some of us haven't heard that before. We said that God is writing this revival that

He's igniting through us, that He's writing or striding this revival as a purifier, and

that out of this revival will rise a generation of teens, of 20s, of 30s who will be God-seers

and ancient door-openers. That they'll be God-seers because God is striding this revival

as a purifier. Whatever God appears in a revival as is what the revival will produce

fruit in. If He's going to be a purifier in this revival, then He'll raise a generation

that will be pure in heart. We said that amongst the teens, the 20s, and 30s, this is what's

going to happen. You want to give me some? No? Don't eat it. But there's a three-second

rule. Thanks. Your dad does not believe in the three-second rule. You can eat it. Oh,

no. Do you mind removing your family from being such a distraction? Okay. Yeah. So,

God's going to raise up teens, 20s, and 30s who will be God-seers because it's only the

pure that see God and know where He's going and ancient door-openers. That's a generation

that's coming up. We said that it would arrest historical desolation and it would cause generational

restoration. These are terms already explained, so I don't want to go into that. It will arrest

historical desolation. Heritages that have been desolate in nations for years will be

arrested, and it will also cause generational restoration. As in, there'll be multiple generations

that arise for the next 40, 50, 60, 70 years that will restore things. That's what we've

already spoken about, so I just wanted to go over those two lines and then go on to

what we need to talk about. Guys, disruptive glory is what brings about a distinction between

the one true God and all others. Disruptive glory, we have to call it disruptive glory.

Jacob, why not just call it glory? Because it doesn't explain what God is going to do.

There's a sense of disruption about what He's going to do. He's going to disrupt things

with His absolute splendor, magnificence, weight, strength, laughter, power, goodness.

That is how He's going to do it. So, disruptive glory draws a distinction between the one

true God and others. So, what does it mean? It means that the one true God is the one

God. Between the one true God and others. He's always done it this way. Be it on Carmel

when he had to tell Israel, who do you want to serve? Be it in Carmel, be it in Egypt

when they had to choose between all the gods of Egypt and the god of Israel. Be it in Sinai

when Israel had God form a nation. Be it on the Mount of Transfiguration. One of the things

we need to realize is that disruptive glory is the greatest tool of evangelism. It is

the greatest tool of evangelism. And it is also the most dangerous weapon against the

enemy. Against the enemy.

So, take scriptures and you'll see it. What happened in Cana when he turned water into

wine? They beheld his glory and it changed them. What happened on the Mount of Transfiguration

when he took on what he really looked like? Peter talks about it years later in 2 Peter

1. What happens when he rolls the stone away and Lazarus is called out? People began to

believe him. What happens when Dagon falls in the temple of Dagon when the ark moves

in? The glory of God moved in and Eid al-Fell. The Bible is littered with stories of God's

glory either drawing people to them, to himself or God's glory destroying the enemy. And when

this disruptive glory begins to display itself through me, then two things will happen. One,

it becomes the greatest tool of evangelism. Two, it becomes the most dangerous weapon

that I can use to destroy the enemy. Guys, there are places I go to absolutely aware

that the dread of God is upon the powers as I walk into a place. Hear me again, eh? And

this is not a Jacob post. It is just a knowing. There are some places, I mean, you sometimes,

I've seen really good vets like dog doctors who can go into a room full of really nasty

dogs. There's this guy called Hansel that I know in Bahrain. He has this ability to go

into a place where there are really nasty dogs and when he goes the dogs are settled

down. It's almost like Crocodile Dundee. Many of you don't know who that is. That's

okay. But it's almost like that guy. There are places that I've gone to where I have

seen powers know the dread of Yahweh because I've stepped into a place. And it has nothing

to do with me. It has everything to do with the weight of God that sometimes displays

itself to me. What if it displays itself on a regular basis? I've said this to you before,

at least I've said to some of you before. I remember going to Indonesia and there were

witch doctors who would come up on stage and when they would come up on stage to try and

do harm, before they could climb up, they would fall and it had nothing to do with me.

It's recorded on, I mean, television crews were recording it. So there's documented evidence

for this. It's not something I imagined. There were thousands of people watching it as they

would come up, faces painted with white and they would hardly make their ways up the step

and they would fall. So Jacob, are we to expect dramatic stuff like this? When has this God

not been dramatic? We've got to stop believing this lie that this God is routine. There's

very little that is routine about this God. When my life is routine, I shouldn't make

my God routine. We're doing what Michelangelo did. Make God look like a little older than

Adam. I mean in the chapel. God's glory is the greatest tool of evangelism. It is also

the most dangerous weapon you can use because God's glory is his spirit. Shekinah. Any questions

on that? I hate it when God's glory stays within the Bible. Hate it. Then we are just

like any other people with the holy book, man. I hate it when God's glory stays within

the Bible. The reason sometimes that we don't experience this is because we try to accommodate

his glory. We try to accommodate his glory. As a church, as people, hey, at the end of

the day, even when we say church, remember a church is made up of individuals and so

you have to, because you're part of this church, refuse to accommodate God's glory. As in we

can't create, how do we accommodate God's glory? We give him some time to do what he

wants. We create some time on a Sunday. During the service we create some time. That's not

the way he works. He does not look for services. He looks for a people. The service is just

an event that happens to the people because he turns up, he's so not interested in a service.

All he's looking for is a people and he's looking for a people 24x7 and the problem

is he knows my heart and my mind and what I'm actually thinking and feeling. With masks

on, it's even harder to decipher what you're thinking, but he can. And so here's something

he wants us to know. I will not be accommodated by you. I wish I could write it in caps so

it sounds like God. I will not be accommodated. Take it as a Ramah word to us and to each

of us individually, to me as a pastor, to us corporately. I will not be accommodated

by you. I will not be accommodated by you. Isaiah 29 verse 13 talks about it. No, not

Isaiah 29:13

yet. Isaiah 29, 13. He's, you know, he's not going to be accommodated by you. He's

going to be accommodated by you. He's the most important person in the universe. Everything

exists because of him. You don't know what it feels like when he gets accommodated, when

we play nice with him. How do you feel when you're accommodated? When you're being patronized?

When you think they are putting up with you because it's an obligation. They got two hours.

They got to put up with you. After that, they're glad you're gone. Every time dawn comes, I

feel like that. Isaiah 29, 13. The Lord says, these people come near to me with their mouth

and honor me with their lips, but their hearts are far away from me. Their worship is off

me. The worship of me is made up only of rules taught by men. It may not be talking about

us, but I want you to know how every day God gets accommodated and it ain't good enough.

He's saying to us, I will not be accommodated by you. That is a very direct word to us as

Acts 29. I will not be accommodated by you, but you can be foolish, but you can be foolish

and surrender to me and surrender to my glory because my glory needs vessels to be poured

into and poured out of. I will not be accommodated by you. I will not be accommodated by you.

Huzzah is going over this word again and again because I felt this was a direct speak to

us. Listen, guys, I will not be accommodated by you. I'm unwilling to be accommodated by

you. If you try to accommodate me, I will not turn up. Do not think that God turns up

every time in every church. That's a falsehood. That just because we sing a few songs and

are gathered together in agreement that God turns up, God turns up where he knows that

he's not being accommodated. We've created a theology of, oh, God is here. God is very

often not there. Jacob, how can you say that? Check the Old Testament, man. Why do you bring

me these sacrifices? Why do you bring me these things during full moon and feast? I'm not

interested in it. If he used to say that in the Old Testament when he was outside and

he could tolerate some misunderstanding, how much more in the New Testament when he lives

inside me and inside us? He is not always present. As in he is present because he's

omnipresent but it's not like he's actually saying, ah, finally found a place. And to

us he's making it even stricter. Guys, I poured far too much into you, taught you far too

much. I will not be accommodated by you. You try to accommodate me, I will not be there.

And then Jane will have to do her best to drum up enthusiasm. Sax will have to play

like crazy. I will not be accommodated by you. But you can be foolish and you can surrender

to my glory. There is just no way to surrender to disruptive glory except to be foolish.

I hope we sing undignified at the end. Except to be foolish. Foolishness is the only way

into the core of God's heart. Foolishness is the only way you enter into the core of

God's heart. Only way. And here's another thing I want you to know. You cannot dive

into God's glory sitting alone at home. The bridegroom reveals himself to the bride. The

bride, you are not the bride. You are part of the bride. You sit at home. I'm taking

you're coming on too strong. Absolutely. You sit at home and think you can sit at home

and not be part of the body and enjoy what God is going to do and be part of what God

is going to do. Ain't going to happen regardless of how gifted you are, how skilled you are.

And the reason I need to say this now is because it's going to get worse. I mean there's more.

I'm not talking about sitting at home if you have a reason to sit at home. I'm talking

about sitting at home because you can afford it. Affording it is accommodating God. Don't

do it guys. Any questions you want to push back?

Yeah. Yeah. We have this false notion. Yeah, the question is I don't understand how God

can be always present and yet not be present. So we've created this idea that God is present

here and therefore we can access him. And that part is actually true because he's omnipresent

whenever people gather or whenever people don't gather he's present. He's present with

you at home. He's present here together. But if you want God to in his presence now begin

to open his heart, open his mind, open his splendor, his glory and reign and say hey,

want to share? That requires more than just his presence. It would be like Kori Ten Boom

coming to your house. And you're very excited and you say oh, Kori Ten Boom is here, Kori

Ten Boom is here but she doesn't say anything about her life. It would be like Bill Gates

coming to your house. It would be like Warren Buffett coming to your house. And all you

do with Warren Buffett is go and eat at a buffet. Doesn't help much. I mean he'll think

you're making fun of him. When Warren Buffett comes home don't take him out to a buffet.

Dig his mind. And the only way you dig his mind is when you actually honor him, respect

him, run after him. God is present but his presence does not mean that he lets himself

know. Perfect example. Jesus was present on earth. What happened man? He was present on

earth and people missed out. Why? Nicodemus tried to accommodate him in the chosen. It's

very odd. Now you have to say Nicodemus tried to accommodate him in the chosen as opposed

to the Bible. I love those people. I love those people. I love those people. I love

the fact that he's saying to us I refuse to be accommodated by you. You guys try to

accommodate me. I will not show up. Brilliant. Amen oh God. Don't show up. Yeah. I like

this God man. He's so challenging. He just refuses to be easy. So you can be foolish

and surrender to my glory. It's the only way we can handle him. God can only be handled

when you're foolish. God can only be handled if you're foolish. I mean you can be foolish

and surrender to my glory. I mean you can be foolish and surrender to my glory. I mean

you can be foolish. Because my glory needs vessels. My glory needs vessels to be poured

into and poured out of. So hey Jacob you want to engage with my glory? Be foolish. Once

you're foolish present yourself. Present yourself so that I can actually begin to display my

glory through you. I live in you yes. But now I want to display myself through you.

The only way I can display myself through you is if you're foolish. Once you're foolish

I'll begin to display myself and pour myself out through you. That's how this works. So

what does it take to become that kind of a vessel? What does it take to become that kind

of a vessel? The first thing we need to realize if you want to become that kind of a vessel

is that you are not your own. If you want a title for this teaching it is destructive

glory not your own. Hey you got to answer this question again and again and again throughout

this week and in the coming weeks. Whose are you? Whose are you? I don't know if that's

correct English but we'll go with that. Whose are you? Please don't say God because that's

a very easy answer. First we have to deal with the answer. Whose are you? The response

is not mine my own. Whose are you? You are not yours. You are not yours. You are not

yours. Whose are you? You are not yours. You do not belong to yourself. You've been bought

at a price. You've been bought at a price from the destroyer. You've been bought at

a price at a blood price from the destroyer. You do not belong to yourself. You are not

your own. You are not your own. It is so hard to get used to that in a world that says mine

mine mine mine mine. It is very hard to get used to. It's so easy to go from whose are

you? I am God's. That's easy but there's a place I need to park before I go and say I

am God's and that place is I am not my own. Whose are you? I am not my own. I am not my

own. I've been repeating this to myself. Jacob you are not your own. You do not own yourself.

You do not belong to yourself. You do not have a right to self determination. You do

not have a right to yourself. These are horrible things to say because the world screams exactly

the opposite. That you have the right to self determination. The moment you got born

again, the moment you got saved, you lost your right of self determination. It belongs

to someone else who paid a price for it. You are not your own. After you answer that question

and get used to the fact that you are not your own, you ask it again. Whose are you?

Now you can say Christ but do not transition from whose are you to straight to God because

it doesn't work. You have to disown before you can be owned. Unfortunately it doesn't

end there. Whose are you? You are not your own. You are Christ and you are ours. That

suddenly brought a strunt silent. People were nodding until I said Christ. Suddenly

when I changed it to you are not your own, you are Christ and you are ours. You belong

to us. What do I mean by us? The body of Christ. You belong to us. You see how self determination

suddenly evaporates when you belong to visible people. You are not your own. You belong to

your own. You are Christ and you are ours. I am not my own. I am Christ and the moment

I am Christ, I am yours. Do you see why disruptive glory finds it very hard to make an inroad

into life and make an outroad out of, make a road out of lives? Because if we don't cross

this threshold, it's very hard to go any further. You are talking about the glory that Christ

created the universe. It can only be accommodated when it has no self interest. We are not there

but my God we can start getting there. You are not your own. Whose are you? You are not

your own. Whose are you? You are Christ's. Whose are you? You are Christ's and you are

ours. My God when people begin to exert ownership over me, now it gets troublesome. It was okay

as long as it was Christ. Manoj is ours. Manoj is ours. He belongs to Christ and he belongs

to us. We can't demand that of him but he can offer that to us. The moment we demand

that of him, we are now stepping into this cultish, legalistic, religious place. But

he can offer. Whose are you? You are not your own. You are Christ's and you are ours. We

won't demand it of you but we will wait to see if you will offer it and then finally

you are the spirit's dwelling place. Where do we find this in 1 Corinthians 6? In the

Bible, it says that the spirit dwells in the house of God. The house of God is the house

of God. That is the spirit's dwelling place. Where do we find this in 1 Corinthians 6?

19. What's the context in 1 Corinthians 6? 19. Hey, if you belong to me, the Holy Spirit

is saying, then why are you taking your body and using it the way you want to? Why are

you joining into things that are sexually immoral? That's the context. But the message

is clear and it's this slave temple motif where on one hand he's saying, hey, you need

to recognize yourself as a slave. Hey, you need to recognize yourself as a temple. You

do not belong to yourself, Nick. You do not belong to yourself. That's the first realization

Nick needs to have. Second realization, I belong to Christ. Third realization, I belong

to a people. I must struggle with this because you are

not. Everything in me screams at this because right from when we are... I mean, this is

exactly what Satan wanted Adam not to be and he succeeded. You belong to us, Sedef, or

decide that you don't belong to us. You belong to us, Miguel, or decide you don't belong

to us. It cannot be enforced. It cannot be demanded of you. That's the... I mean, I'm

not... That part is critically because the moment we begin to demand it, we now become

controlling and we take away a person's free will. It's this fine line that we have to

walk where we speak this truth, train in this truth, but can't force it. Any questions?

Manoj, since you belong to us, can you get me a glass of water?

Manoj, this is where you talked about us belonging to you.

Sorry, say that again.

The best example of us belonging to others is when Christ said he belongs to us as a

servant, that he has come to serve us. He said, follow my example. You call me a rabbi,

you call me teacher and rightly so. But you need to know that I have come to serve you.

Now that I have come to... Luke 22, 27-30, now that I have come to serve you, you need

to understand that I expect the same of you. He belonged to a realm that was entirely different.

And then he chooses this other way of living. We've got many reasons to do this. One is

simply because Christ does it. Two, because this is the way we can now begin to let his

shekinah burst through. Thanks, man.

So let's examine this idea of being a slave. I don't want to use the word servant because

it makes it rosier. Let's use the word slave. Here's the ultimate objective of being a slave.

Ultimately, the objective of servanthood in the kingdom is to become someone who can

display his glory. The ultimate objective of servanthood is to provide a body for his

glory. The ultimate objective of servanthood is to provide a body for his glory. The ultimate

objective of servanthood is to provide a body for his glory. When you hear this, Luke on

Who says it? Mary. That's why you hear it first. The ultimate objective of servanthood

is can I provide you, O God, a body for your glory? Do with it as you will. Do with it

as you will. That's what Mary does in Luke 1.38. Hebrews 10.5, Jesus sets the example.

Sacrifices and offerings you haven't asked for. But here I come with my body. Send me,

O God, let me become the sacrifice. Such a hard thing to ask, such a cool thing to give.

Luke 22, 27-30. Luke 22, 27-30. Reading from the message. Luke 22, 27-30. Who would you

rather be? The one who eats the dinner or the one who serves the dinner? You'd rather

eat and be served, right? But I've taken my place among you as one who serves. Kings like

to throw their weight around. People in authority like to give themselves fancy titles. It's

not going to be that way with you. Let the senior among you become like the junior. Let

the leader act the part of the servant. You stuck with me through thick and thin and now

I confer on you the royal authority my father conferred on me so you can eat and drink at

my table in the kingdom and be strengthened as you take up responsibilities among the

congregations of God's people. So what does a slave or a servant look like? A servant

is permanently subject to his master. So there's a permanency to this. This is not some kind

of twice a week thingy. Second, he's totally dependent on his master. He's totally dependent

on his master. Evaluate your life and my life based on this. Third, he works without expectation

of pay. Works without expectation of pay. Four, he stewards everything on behalf of his master.

As in he gives account on behalf of his master. And five, he strives to be a servant of his

master. To serve the guests of his master. And six, he does not have a choice in these

matters. So what does a slave or a servant look like? A slave or a servant. A slave or

a servant. He does not have a choice. This is what a slave looks like guys. He's permanently

subject to his master. Like there are no days off. What we do at work is something we do

on the side. He's permanently subject to his master. Two, he's totally dependent on his

master. If his master is a cruel master, you're sunk. He's totally dependent on his master.

Third, he works without an expectation of pay. Doesn't matter what you do, you don't

peddle your goods. You don't ask for a price for what you're doing. You do it willingly.

This is not volunteerism. It's slavery. Yeah. We've got a whole three things in tension.

Son, servant, friend. All three exist together because Jesus was the same. Jesus was a son.

Jesus was a servant. Jesus was a friend. And so it never contradicts each other. So

on one hand, the same Jesus who said, I no longer call you slave, but I call you friend,

is the same Jesus who's saying, I want you to be servants as I was a servant. And it's

the same Jesus who's saying, I'm giving you the right to be called children of God. So

son, servant, friend have to exist in tension and they can exist together at the same time.

So I can be a son to the father. I can be a servant to you and I can be a friend to

Emily at the same time.

Is slave a servant?

Servant is a nicer term. Slave really drives home the point. So we can go with servant

because we relate better to servant. And the idea of slavery is just so horrible that we

don't want to think like that. But a bond servant was basically a slave because this

last line, a slave does not have a choice in these matters. We have choice. I mean,

he gives us a free will. He strives to serve the guests of the master. Even if I don't

like you, if God wants me to serve you, I don't have a choice. And then his steward

sings on behalf of his master.

So, live like this and glory is unstoppable through a people like this. Unstoppable. We

cannot become this in a day. But we can become something better in two days.

How do you fit the works without expectation of pain with the idea that God will provide

all our needs?

So I look at my benevolent father and I know all my needs are provided. As a son I lack

nothing. As a servant I own nothing. As a son I lack nothing. I know my father takes

great care of me. As a servant I own nothing because I have a benevolent master. He'll

take good care of me. I don't have to worry about that. As a son I lack nothing. It's

odd. If a son has a super good father, he will never look for rewards. Why do we reward

because it's almost like if you do this I will give you this. You can have dads that

are so brilliant that the child just knows that he'll always get more than he deserves.

Anyways, so every day is a reward of sorts. It'll take away our thing as I did this for

you, I did this for you, I did this for you but look what you have done for me. What have

you done for me lately, oh God? That goes away because you see him as a father who is

always good but you see him as a master who is benevolent too. So as a son you lack nothing.

As a servant you own nothing. And when you reach that happy place, you're the happiest

man in the world.

I must see myself as your servant, I must not see you as my servant, I must see myself

as your servant, I must not see you as my servant, I must see myself as your servant

but I must not see you as my servant. That's your call. I'm responsible for my attitude

from my attitude towards you.

I cannot demand your attitude towards me.

So what prevents us from living like this?

Just go with that and then we'll stop.

Three things prevent me.

I've been going all this and hating the fact

that so much work is still left to be done

by the Spirit of God in my life.

Three things that prevent me from living like this

is one, independence,

two, self-preservation,

three, orphanhood.

Independence, self-preservation, orphanhood.

These are the three things that prevent me

from living like this.

And we need to see these three things

as the greatest enemies,

greatest enemy of God and His move on Earth.

If you don't know what God is,

if you don't see it as an enemy, you won't hate it.

Hatred is a fine quality when it comes to stuff like this.

If you don't hate it, you will not,

you will not get rid of it.

You should hate it.

Three things that are an enemy of God

and an enemy of every move of God

that must be banished from our lives, from this church,

is independence, self-preservation, and orphanhood.

And I struggle with all three,

particularly with self-preservation

and in some areas with orphanhood,

still, and a little less with independence.

Yes, what would be the difference

between self-preservation and orphanhood?

Now that you've asked,

we'll have to take another 20 minutes at it.

It's her fault, I was gonna cut things out.

Guys, so let's answer her question.

These things lead to the idolatry of self?

The idolatry of self, let me just explain.

These words are so Christian, they don't mean anything.

The idolatry of self is when I say,

hey Jesus, can you step aside, I'm at the center,

you stand there.

Is it gross enough?

I want us to know what we're doing.

When I'm independent, or when I'm self-preserving,

here's what I'm saying.

Jesus, I'd like you to step off the throne

and stand on the side, because I'm at the center.

This is why I must hate it.

It leads to idolatry of self, it leads to secrecy.

If I'm independent, if I'm self-preserving,

if I have an orphaned spirit,

then know this for certain that my life will be secretive.

It leads to spiritual dystrophy.

It leads to spiritual dystrophy.

As in, my spiritual muscles begin to degenerate.

It leads to an absence of correction.

And it leads to people being went once, not sent once.

What do you mean by that?

What I mean by that is, if I'm independent,

then I choose to, I decide where I go.

You don't decide where I go.

Christ doesn't decide where I go.

The body doesn't decide where I go.

I decide where I go.

So, I'm no longer one that is sent,

I'm one that is went.

In certain contexts, it's okay.

But in a context like this, it's not okay.

Because we built far too long to now be went once.

There's room here for everybody to grow.

I'm not saying that because I'm a pastor of the church.

I'm saying that because it's the truth.

Try it, test it, see.

Challenge it.

Prove it wrong.

What do you mean by that?

Independence robs me.

Independence robs me.

Okay, first, independence separates me from servanthoodource.

Independence separates me from servanthood.

Separates me from servanthood.

Independence separates me from servanthood.

It is impossible. Hear me.

You know, when I was writing this,

I could think of any number of people all across the world who would fit into whatever I wanted.

And as I was doing that, I remember God saying,

can you please look at yourself before you look at others?

And one of the things that independence does is independence absolutely separates you from servitude.

It is not possible to be a servant if you are independent.

Not possible.

The one thing that you have to abandon if you're a servant is independence.

This is not easy guys.

It's very difficult.

You guys should have come a couple of weeks ago, man.

It was a nicer message.

Just check with me before you bring them again.

It was much funnier, really nice atmosphere.

Too bad.

Your dad chose the wrong day.

It separates me from servitude.

And then it robs Christ.

These are the things that are so sad about this.

It robs Christ.

Bye, Lorianne.

Bye, Marcus.

It robs Christ and the body of opportunities.

It robs Christ and the body of opportunities.

It robs Christ and the body of opportunities to display God's glory and purpose.

And three, it robs you of the Matthew 25-21 reward.

What is the Matthew 25-21 reward?

Well done, good and faithful servants.

You've been faithful over five cities.

Let me give you ten.

These are the things that you miss out on because of independence.

You've been faithful over five cities.

Let me give you ten.

These are the things that you miss out on because of independence.

It separates me from servitude.

I cannot be a servant if I'm independent.

Second, it robs Christ because he uses servants.

You know, it's so odd.

Jesus had to first go from son to servant before he could be used the way God wanted him to.

It robs Christ of opportunities.

It robs the body of opportunities to display God's purpose and God's glory through you if you're independent.

And third, it robs you of the Matthew 25-21 reward.

And thirdly, it robs you of Matthew 25-21 rewards.

And what are Matthew 25-21 rewards?

That you will hear him say, well done, good and faithful servant.

It isn't said to anybody and everybody.

It is said to ones who have been good and faithful.

It robs you of those rewards.

It robs you of rewards over cities that God wants to appoint you.

If that is independence, what is orphanhood to answer what's-the-name's question?

Karen's question.

Can someone see the pen?

Don't worry, I can do this without a pen.

If you stole the pen to make me stop, it ain't gonna happen.

Okay, so let's go on.

An orphan right underneath?

Oh, yeah.

You're welcome back anytime.

You can bring Josh along.

Guys, here's what an orphan looks like.

Has not fully realized

and abandoned himself to the nature of...

abandoned himself

or herself to the nature of

the father.

An orphan is someone...

And this happens to me so many times where suddenly I begin to behave like an orphan.

I don't fully realize or fully abandon myself to the nature of the father.

I don't fully realize or fully abandon myself to the nature of the father.

I'm suspicious.

An orphan is also someone who having opportunity

who having opportunity

does not engage fully

does not engage fully

relationally in the family of God

relationally in the family of God.

You are here and yet you will not even

You are here and yet you will not

despite the opportunities you get

relationally engage with the family of God.

Just not able to.

You're suspicious of people.

You're suspicious of what their...

their intents are.

You're never confident that you are accepted.

You're never confident that you are accepted.

It's an orphan spirit.

Or you keep yourself at a healthy distance.

Turn up on Sundays.

And if this cap fits your head

wear it.

Turn up on Sundays.

Disappear after Sundays.

Not connected with the body.

Find a church where you're connected then and connect there.

But don't live the life of an orphan.

An orphan is someone who does not connect with the father

because he cannot abandon himself to the father.

because he cannot abandon himself to the father.

Fully realize him.

And there are so many times I think to myself after all these years

why is it Jacob that he still behaves like an orphan?

Why is it Jacob that he still behaves like an orphan?

And then the second part is

relationally not engaging.

For different reasons.

For different reasons.

Guys

I really want you to know

This is not a blame teaching.

It is exposing

It is exposing where we are at teaching.

It is exposing where we are at teaching.

How can a guy who knows the father so well

How can a guy who knows the father so well

and you know I know the father well

have such an orphan mentality still?

have such an orphan mentality still?

Why is it that I sometimes behave like an orphan still?

Why is it that I sometimes behave like an orphan still?

Ah this next point, Chad and I were talking about it.

Really it sucks.

An orphan of

An orphan is one

Who is stuck

Who is stuck

At adoption.

At adoption.

At adoption.

And isn't convinced

And isn't convinced

Of sonship.

Of sonship.

We all have been adopted

We all have been adopted into the family of God.

Unfortunately

Many of us are stuck at adoption.

I know I'm adopted but am I really family?

Chris Valleson talks about how he had

Chris Valleson talks about how he had

an adopted child in his family

and every time they would sit for a meal

the child would begin to grab everything on the table

because the child was never sure that he would be given

his fair share.

There is a thing about being adopted by God

and then moving from adoption to full sonship.

and then moving from adoption to full sonship.

So often we are stuck

in yeah I know I'm

part of the family of God but I'm adopted.

There is this movement that

needs to happen from adoption to

full sonship.

The father has no problem seeing me as a son.

He sees me exactly the way he sees

his son.

Which is mind boggling. I cannot imagine it.

I have an idea of how the father sees Jesus.

I do not have the ability

to comprehend that he treats me

exactly the same. Exactly the same.

Not a bit of a difference.

The exact way he treats Jesus

is the exact way he treats Jacob.

I find it very hard

to wrap my glowing grey cells

around that.

He has no problem

seeing me as a son. But I'm not

convinced of it yet.

Hate it guys. Hate it.

What time is it?

One ten or one?

One ten.

One oh seven. I got three minutes.

I'll just read what self preservation

looks like so we have all three and then you can go home.

And then we'll have

a little bit of a chat.

And then you can go home.

Work hard on this guys.

It's changing our minds.

It's a difficult thing.

Self preservation is when I

prioritize my own well being.

Self preservation is when I prioritize

my own well being.

My safety.

My comfort.

My provision.

My plans. My life.

Over the leading of the spirit.

And over the commands of scripture.

So, we are not going to be like this.

We will never let

our comfort, our provision,

our plans

affect our selection.

Self preservation

is when I prioritize

my own well being.

My comfort.

My safety.

My provision.

My own life.

Over the leading

of the spirit.

plans, our well-being, our safety, our lives, will never be prioritized over the leading

of the spirit or the command of scripture. That it won't be a tussle, it won't be a struggle,

it'll be a default mode. It can be done.

Self-preservation seeks to predict the most favorable outcome. Self-preservation seeks

to predict the most favorable outcome. The one that keeps me safest, most comfortable,

where I just do what will not bring me hardship or pain. Doesn't that describe churchianity?

Self-preservation is our way of predicting the most favorable outcome for ourselves.

The one that keeps me safest, the one that keeps me most comfortable, the one that allows

me to do things that will cause me least hardship and least pain.

Self-preservation allows me to justify that Jesus would never ask me to lose my job, Jesus

would never ask me to risk my life, Jesus would never ask me to miss a meal, Jesus would

never ask me to go across the oceans. That's the job of missionaries. That's self-preservation.

It's deadly to our faith, it affects our witness, it is absolutely fleshly. It's deadly to our

faith, it affects our witness, it's absolutely fleshly. I'll stop with that. Any questions?

Okay, the last bit. It's most deadly to our faith. Self-preservation and faith cannot

go hand in hand because all faith requires risk. Self-preservation screams against risk.

It's absolutely fleshly because it makes self the center and preserving self at the very

core of things. It leads to zero fruitfulness because Jesus said it's impossible for you

to preserve your life and be fruitful. The secret to fruitfulness is sacrifice. Self-preservation

is a diametric opposite of sacrifice. And thirdly, it just kills your witness because

there's nothing that Jesus has in common with me when I am in self-preservation mode. Nothing.

Everything about God is non-self-preservation. So it's just absolutely detrimental to my

witness. Guys, these are conditions of the mind. What happens to us Christians when we

hear messages like this is, what's going to be asked of me next? What's God going to ask

me? What's the church going to ask me? Nothing. Once we change here, we're going to be able

to ask God. Miguel and Danny don't sit at the table with their three kids and say, as

we eat, what are our kids going to take from our plate? Oh my God, that's my favorite sausage.

Is he going to take it from my plate? They don't think like that. Oh my God, I earned

money this week. Is he going to ask me for shoes? What if he asks me for shoes? Parents

don't panic like that. They only panic after you. They become teenagers. But when the kids,

there's no such panic that, oh my, it's the same. Why? Because a parent has a mentality

of I will die for this child. And when we begin to think like this, you're never afraid

of what God will ask. You begin to wonder why he hasn't asked for three days. Sade,

I have a straight word for you, but I cannot avoid it. You were sent here to rise up to

who you are supposed to be. Engage or disengage. Do not stay in between. You cannot afford

lukewarmness. This is your time. This is your time. You're like a rocket ship with boosters

fitted full of fuel. You can scale heights that very few here can. Engage or disengage.

This is your time. Lukewarmness you cannot afford because this opportunity, this window

will only open three or four years down the road. Take a look. Why couldn't you say it

to him privately? Wouldn't it have been much better to say it to him privately? No, I want

us to hear because you will see what will happen to this guy. You didn't come here because

of Tune and Anil. You didn't come here because of what's his name either. Remy. You didn't

come here because of them. You didn't come here because Ottawa winters are colder. So

that would be a good reason. You didn't come here because of Tune and Anil. You didn't

come here because of them. Show them, man. Show them. Or else disengage and find a place

where you can engage. Yeah. Amazing how God will keep you on a short leash throughout

your life. I feel bad for you and feel good for you. Okay. I said let's not be in the

same place. Let's end. Whose are you? Yeah. Don't say God, eh? Because we've got another

place to go to. Whose are you? Not mine. I am not mine. You are not your own. Whose are

you? You are Christ's. I am Christ's. Whose are you, Jacob? I am Christ's and I am yours.

Yours. I am yours, Sadi. Use me. Take what you want. Whose are you? You are the Holy

Spirit's. His temple. His favorite resting place. His holy place. His holy place. His

trophy to show God off. Whose are you? You are a servant. Absolutely dependent on your

master. You love serving your master. You don't do it for rewards. You are permanently

subjected to your master. You fight to serve your master's guests even when they are not

deserving. What is your body for? This is a body that is meant for the glory of God.

Let it be done to me according to your will, Mary said around this time many, many years

ago. Let it be done to me according to your will. Here is my body for your glory.

What do I have to undo so that God can be whatever he wants to be? I will continuously

chip away at my independence because independence and servanthood are incompatible. There are

no independent servants. There are no Ubers in the kingdom. There is no Uber service in

the kingdom. The difference between taxi service and Uber is Uber can decide whether he wants

to pick you up or not. Taxis can't. There is a rule that at the airport if a taxi wants

to drop you from the airport to the Tim Hortons around the bend they have to take you. Uber

can choose not to. Independence and servanthood do not go together. I am going to chip away

at independence. I am going to really try very hard to be independent. I am going to

try very hard to not be someone who engages in self-preservation. And finally I am going

to try very hard not to be someone who walks in orphanhood. I am going to recognize and

abandon myself to the father but that aside I am not going to be suspicious of you and

not engage with you. Always holding myself back. Always not sure of whether you are

interested in me or not interested in me. Hey, it is impossible to be relational without

getting hurt. Impossible. I guarantee you I will hurt you and you will hurt me. I guarantee

you you will not hurt me deliberately. Imagine the confidence I am saying this with. As I

look around this place there is not a person who will hurt me deliberately. And so therefore

if you hurt me, big deal. Give me two days and I will forgive you. Two days max, usually.

So, abandon orphanhood. Orphanhood can hide itself behind activity like the elder brother

did. A lot of activity, a lot of this and a lot of that. But inside, in here, this is

where everything is happening man. Change here. We become like this. God's glory flows uninterrupted.

Uninterrupted. Father, we always run out of time. There is so much more to say about you.

We got to go. So, do what you always do Holy Spirit. Take these words and begin to please

use them to change us. Please use them to change our hearts, change our minds. You are

about to do something across the globe, across the earth. It is just, every time I think

of that I think to myself, really? Through us you are going to ignite this across the

earth? And that is why you are putting such a demand on us as saying, hey, become this.

I have chosen you for the reasons I have already given you. But now become this so

that I can flow uninterrupted. So we don't have to have stops and starts. So that I can

begin what I want to and that it can spread. That is why you are placing this demand on

me. Demand on us. Bring it on. Oh God, please. Do whatever you need to chisel away, shape

us. Every one of us. No one left behind. So, all these things I have said have gone and

kind of pierced people in this room. That's okay. That's exactly what you wanted to do.

You hurt us with your words, oh God. But you hurt us to remove things and to put things

in order. In my mother's womb, from my mother's womb, you have chosen me and love has caused

me to be born again. I have been born again into your family. Your blood flows through

my veins. One more time. From my mother's womb, you have chosen me. Love has called

my name. I have been born again into your family. You have chosen me. Love has called

your name. Your blood flows through my veins. I'm no longer a slave to fear. But I am a

slave to God. Yikes. Doesn't sound good, eh? Let's just try that. I'm no longer a slave

to fear. But I am a slave to God. I am a slave to God. I am a slave to God. I am a slave

to God. I'm no longer a slave to fear. But I am a slave to God. That doesn't sound nice.

But it is the truth. Yeah? If you need prayer, feel free to come up. Otherwise, hang around

and leave around too. Come back, guys. Happy times are waiting for you two weeks from now.

Thank you.