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The Build Back Part 1 | Church, Just Do It with Karl Hartman
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Welcome to Hub City Vineyard.
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Thank you and enjoy the message.
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Well now you guys have set a precedent.
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I know how loud you can get so I expect that if I say anything this morning that touches
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your heart you're going to give me that same level of enthusiasm.
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Good morning church.
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I want to start off by saying what an absolute privilege it is to be able to share God's
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word with you this morning.
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For those of you who don't know who I am, my name is Carl Hartman and I am one of the
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worship leaders and music directors here at HCV.
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If you're joining us here for the first, second or third time, welcome to Hub City Vineyard.
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If you're joining us online, thank you for welcoming us into your home or space.
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We're so honored that you chose to tune in this morning.
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As you can see, Chris is out of town for the weekend and he's invited me to help kick off
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our series for the month of October.
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Our series title is The Build Back and we're going to be looking at the book of Nehemiah.
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Now before I get too deep into the message this morning, I wanted to take a quick second
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and honor our leaders, Chris and Jess.
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You all know how lucky we are to have two incredible, passionate leaders like Chris
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and Jess who are completely sold out for God's mission for this community of faith.
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It is such an honor to serve alongside of them and I wonder, would you join me in giving
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them a huge round of applause?
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Now as I mentioned, our series for the month of October is based on the book of Nehemiah
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and over the next four weeks, we're going to be diving in and looking at some of the
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principles and values that enabled Nehemiah to step out in faith, to overcome challenges
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and to lead his community to do incredible, good works.
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This morning, I want to give you a brief overview of the book of Nehemiah and then I want to
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look at some of the lessons that we can learn from his example.
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The book of Nehemiah is found in the Old Testament and to understand the context, we need to
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look at how it fits into the overarching biblical narrative.
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All throughout the Old Testament, God was continually inviting his chosen people, Israel,
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into a covenant relationship with himself.
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In this relationship, Israel was responsible for following God's laws and commands and
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in return, God would pour out his blessing on his chosen people.
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Over and over again, Israel would agree to enter into this relationship only to turn
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around and be disobedient to God.
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Ultimately, God allowed Israel's enemies to come in to destroy the city of Jerusalem and
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to carry the people off into exile.
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After a period of time, the nation of Babylon, where they were in exile, was conquered by
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the kings of Persia and this opened up the door for Israel to go back to Jerusalem and
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to rebuild the city.
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That's the back story or the backdrop against which the book of Nehemiah was written.
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The book of Nehemiah was written about 450 years before the birth of Christ and it's
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written largely from the first person, from Nehemiah's point of view.
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In the book of Nehemiah, Nehemiah discusses the vision that God laid on his heart to go
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back to Jerusalem and to rebuild the city walls.
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He also discusses the challenges that he faced as well as the spiritual awakening that occurred
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as a result of the restoration of Jerusalem.
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By occupation, Nehemiah was the cupbearer to the Babylonian king Artaxerxes and he was
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an otherwise ordinary individual who simply chose to say yes to God.
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One of the primary themes of the book of Nehemiah that we're going to be looking at this morning
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is that God uses ordinary people to do extraordinary work.
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So here at HCV, we regularly encourage our people to step out in faith and serve.
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And I believe that for some of us here this morning, that may be a bit of a challenge.
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Perhaps you've tried to serve in church in the past and you've had a bad experience.
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Or maybe you feel like there's something in your past that disqualifies you from stepping
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out in faith and serving God.
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Perhaps you're sitting here right now thinking to yourself skeptically, how can God use
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me?
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My goal is that by the end of this message, you'd be able to ask that question more earnestly,
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embracing a better perspective and truly ask, how can God use me?
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Before we jump into the message for this morning, I want to give you a quick illustration.
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By a show of hands, how many people here this morning are familiar with the popular home
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renovation television show, Fixer Upper?
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Okay, that's about 50%.
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For those of you who are unfamiliar with the show, the show follows a couple, Chip and
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Joanna Gaines, as they work with individuals who are purchasing homes with the intention
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of transforming and restoring them.
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These individuals sit down with Chip and Joanna Gaines.
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They discuss their vision and then they pass their house over for the Gaineses to work
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on.
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At the end of each episode, there's this incredible segment where the home buyers get to come
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back in and see the work that Chip and Joanna Gaines have done to their home.
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Now I want you to imagine that you wake up tomorrow morning and you receive a phone call.
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Your home has been chosen to be featured on the show, Fixer Upper.
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In fact, Chip and Joanna Gaines are on their way to your house right now.
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You quickly scramble and set up temporary living arrangements and then you sit down
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with Chip and Joanna Gaines and you discuss your vision.
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You hand over your keys and tens of thousands of dollars and then you wait.
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After several weeks, you receive a phone call that your home is nearing completion and a
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date has been set for the big reveal.
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And as the big day approaches, you're filled with anticipation.
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You walk up to the front door of your house where Chip and Joanna Gaines are waiting to
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welcome you inside and as you walk through your front door, you're overcome with emotion.
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There's a new open floor plan, updated lighting and furniture, miles and miles of shiplap
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adorn the walls.
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Joanna Gaines is waiting to take you from one space to the next to show you all of the
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time and effort that she's put into restoring and transforming your home.
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As you move from one room to the next, you're overcome with joy and gratitude.
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You have this vision of raising your children in this home and growing old here.
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This has truly become your forever home.
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As the day winds down and Chip and Joanna Gaines prepare to leave, Chip leans over and
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hands you the keys and he says to you, I just need to let you know that the county came
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by last night and your home failed the inspection.
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It's been condemned.
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You can own it, but you can't live in it.
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I want you to think about the emotions that you'd be feeling in that moment, the anger,
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the frustration, the disbelief.
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You put everything that you had into restoring your home and you are all in on the vision.
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You're in a state of complete disappointment because you know that your home has been restored
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for a reason, which brings me to the title of my message for this morning, restored for
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a reason.
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See, I believe that each one of us here this morning can bear witness to the good works
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that God has done in our lives.
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Many of us have been pulled from darkness and addiction and brought into the light,
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into a new relationship with Jesus.
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We've been given meaning and purpose.
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Much like the houses in the show, Fixer Upper, God has been working within us, tearing down
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walls, transforming us from the inside out.
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We have truly been restored for a reason.
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As we dive into our study of the book of Nehemiah, I want to encourage you this morning to begin
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to think about the good works that God has prepared for you to do.
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It's not a question of whether or not you've been called to serve.
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The only question is how will you respond?
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So Holy Spirit, come.
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I pray, Lord, that you would open our hearts, open our eyes, open our minds, God, to the
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words that you want us to receive, Lord.
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I pray right now that you would silence every distraction and that you would create in us
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a willingness to hear your voice calling us into action.
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Bless us now in this time.
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In your name we pray.
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Amen.
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We'll look at your neighbor and tell them it's a good day for a good work.
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My first offer this morning is this.
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God's faithfulness is not derailed by our failure.
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In Nehemiah chapter nine, the religious leaders gathered the people together and they began
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to lead them in a time of prayer.
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And in this prayer, they lay out this summary of exactly how Israel had ended up in exile
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in the first place.
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And I want to pick it up in verse 28.
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But as soon as they, Israel, were at rest, they again did what was evil in your sight.
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Then you abandoned them to the hand of their enemies so that they ruled over them.
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And when they cried out to you again, you heard from heaven and in your compassion,
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you delivered them time after time.
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And in this verse, we can see this continual cycle of Israel failing, crying out for rescue.
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And this happens over and over again.
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Continuing on in verse 30.
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For many years, you were patient with them.
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By your spirit, you warned them through your prophets, yet they paid no attention.
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So you gave them into the hands of the neighboring peoples.
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I think we can all relate to Israel in this passage of scripture.
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Each one of us has areas of our life where we struggle to remain faithful to God.
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Whether it's an attitude, a mindset, or a habit, we take one step forward and feel like
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we're taking two steps back.
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But as we study this passage of scripture, something that we need to understand is that
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Israel had failed.
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But God's faithfulness remained intact.
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Look at the very next verse, Nehemiah 9.31.
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But in your great mercy, you did not put an end to them or abandon them, for you are a
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gracious and merciful God.
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God's faithfulness is not derailed by our failures.
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Right here at the very beginning of the message, I felt called to address anyone here this
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morning who's struggling with feeling like a failure.
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Maybe you've made some bad decisions in your life and you feel like your life has been
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defined by failure.
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Or maybe you've made some poor choices and you feel like you're failing God.
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And I want to speak this truth to you this morning, and I need you to hear this.
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You may have failed, but God's faithfulness hasn't.
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You may have failed, but God's promises didn't and they won't.
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There's no failure that you can experience in your life that can separate you from God's
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faithfulness.
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And I felt like I needed to read this verse over you this morning.
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So I want to invite you all just to close your eyes and receive the word of God.
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Romans 838, for I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons,
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neither the present nor the future nor any powers, neither height nor depth nor anything
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else in all creation will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ
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Jesus our Lord.
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There's no failure in your past.
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There's nothing you're struggling with in the present.
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There's no failure that you can experience in the future that can derail God's faithfulness
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in your life.
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God's faithfulness is not derailed by our failures, which brings me to my second thought
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for this morning, number two.
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Our failures don't determine our future.
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The fact that Israel was led into exile in Babylon is significant.
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All throughout the biblical narrative, Babylon stands as a symbol of humanity's pride and
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rebellion.
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The fact that God would have chosen the very nation that came to symbolize rebellion to
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correct his chosen people who were behaving rebellious would have been very humbling for
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the nation of Israel.
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And as I was studying Israel's exile, I came across this powerful truth.
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While it's true that Israel was in exile as a result of their decisions, we need to understand
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that exile is not the end.
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Look at the very next verse, Nehemiah 9.31, but in your great mercy, you did not put an
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end to them or abandon them, for you are a gracious and merciful God.
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Our failures don't determine our future.
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At the very beginning of the book of Nehemiah, we're introduced to the main character, Nehemiah,
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and the mission that God laid on his heart to go back to Jerusalem and to rebuild the
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city walls.
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As I mentioned, Nehemiah was the cupbearer to the Babylonian king, Artaxerxes, and at
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just the right time, he presented his request to the king.
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Because of God's grace and his favor, the king granted Nehemiah's request.
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And then he provided for Nehemiah resources, letters of passage, and the military escort
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to go back to Jerusalem to rebuild the walls.
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Not only did God use Babylon as a source of correction, he used them as a source of blessing.
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How many people here this morning know that God can bring blessings from Babylon?
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That boss that you can't stand, God can use them to bless you.
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Those plans that you had that fell apart, God can work through the failure to bring
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a blessing into your life.
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It may not be like what you expect though.
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It may be the blessing of a new perspective.
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You thought when the relationship failed that your life was over.
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But I need you to know this morning that when they walked out on you, they were just making
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room for a better blessing.
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Come on, God can bring blessings from Babylon.
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You see, church, what we need to understand this morning is that exile is not the end.
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God doesn't intend for us to live in the exile of our mistakes.
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What he intends is that we experience restoration through Christ, which brings me to my third
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thought for this morning, number three, we are restored for a reason.
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The nation of Israel was designed to operate as an earthly embassy for the kingdom of heaven.
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And what I mean by that is that God's design and his desire for Israel is that they would
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be a witness to the surrounding nations of what it would look like if a chosen people
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came together and were obedient to God.
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Nehemiah understood this and he references it as he's praying to God in chapter one.
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He says, remember the instruction you gave your servant Moses, saying, if you are unfaithful,
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I will scatter you among the nations.
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But if you return to me and obey my commands, then even if your exiled people are at the
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farthest horizon, I will gather them from there and bring them to the place I have chosen
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as a dwelling for my name.
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Nehemiah understood that Israel was in the process of being restored for a reason.
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And that reason was so that they could bear witness to God's goodness and his grace.
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Friends, we have been restored through Jesus for the same reason, so that we can bear witness
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to God's goodness and his grace.
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And we do that when we step out in faith and do the good works.
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Paul puts it this way in his letter to the church in Ephesus, Ephesians chapter two.
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For it is by grace you have been saved through faith.
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And this is not from yourselves.
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It is the gift of God, not by works, so that no one can boast.
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For we are God's handiwork, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared
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in advance for us to do.
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Paul says we're restored for a reason.
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And that reason is so that we can do the good works that God has called us to do.
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Notice we're not saved by our works.
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We're saved by grace.
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The works that we do are a response to the grace that we've already received.
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Look at your neighbor and tell them, I got it.
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I got it.
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I got the grace.
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I got the grace.
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But I also got the gift.
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And I think sometimes we get confused about this.
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Every year around Christmas time, my wife and I gather all of the presents that we've
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purchased for our kids.
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And we have this little party where we wrap all the presents.
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Inevitably every year she'll hand me an interesting toy or game that's meant for our son Jake.
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And I'll look at it and I'll say, oh, what's this?
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And her response every year is always the same.
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It's not for you to play with.
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See, in that moment, my role is to be a conduit receiving the gift that my wife has given
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me and preparing it to give to my son.
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Every person in here has been given talents and gifts.
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But I need you to know they're not for you to play with.
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They're for you to use to bring God glory, to build his kingdom.
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Now listen, as I was studying this verse, I want to show you one last thing.
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I was studying this verse this week.
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God showed this to me and it was a complete game changer for me as an individual.
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Maybe you can relate.
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One of the greatest struggles in my life is this overwhelming feeling of being unqualified
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and insufficient for what God has called me to do.
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But God showed me in this verse something that silenced the voice of the enemy.
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Okay?
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So let's look at this verse.
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We are God's handiwork created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance
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for us to do.
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If God can be trusted to prepare the work, then he can be trusted to prepare the worker.
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If God's called you into it, then he's put everything that you need inside of yourself
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to be able to carry it out.
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And it doesn't require any additional qualifications, which brings me to my fourth thought, number
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four.
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Jesus uses ordinary people to do extraordinary works.
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We see this principle all throughout the Bible in God's selection of Noah, Abraham, Jacob,
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Joseph, David.
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We see it in the New Testament in Jesus' selection of his disciples.
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He chose ordinary people like you and I instead of the most prominent religious figures.
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He chose ordinary people to carry out his mission.
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We see it in the selection of Peter, Paul, and Mary.
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John, Paul, George, and Ringo.
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I'm kidding.
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I'm kidding.
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We might be the hippie church, but even I know that the Beatles aren't in the Bible.
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However, they are an example of ordinary people who did extraordinary work, just not for the
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kingdom of heaven.
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But Nehemiah is an example of this as well.
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See, unlike his biblical contemporary, Ezra the priest or Malachi the prophet, Nehemiah
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was simply an ordinary guy who chose to say yes to God.
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And when he said yes to God, God used him to do incredible work.
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In Nehemiah chapter two, Nehemiah departs from Babylon and he comes to Jerusalem and
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he begins to survey the damage that's been done to the walls.
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And he brings the people together and he says this in Nehemiah 2, 17.
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Then I said to them, you see the trouble we are in.
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Jerusalem lies in ruins and its gates have been burned with fire.
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Come, let us rebuild the walls of Jerusalem and we will no longer be in disgrace.
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I also told them about the gracious hand of my God on me and what the king had said to
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me.
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They replied, let us start rebuilding.
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So they began this good work.
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Now I want to pay close attention to these verses.
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In the middle of encouraging his community to step out in faith and join him in doing
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the work of rebuilding the walls, Nehemiah provides them with a testimony of what God
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has already done to bless the mission.
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This testimony was only possible because Nehemiah had first said yes to God.
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And so many times in our life we fall into this thinking where we just want to see God
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move.
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We just want to see God do the supernatural so that we have a testimony to share.
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And while we're waiting on God to move, God is waiting on us to say yes to him.
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And if we will simply say yes to God, I promise you will have a testimony to share.
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In Nehemiah chapter 3, we're introduced to the names of the individuals and the families
Nehemiah 3 chapter mention
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who helped to rebuild the wall.
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In this list, we're given several examples of these individuals' occupations.
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They include priests, merchants, goldsmiths, perfume makers, and the women worked right
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alongside the men.
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No one was disqualified in joining in to do the good work that God had called Nehemiah
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to lead.
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What's conspicuously absent from this list?
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Stonemasons, carpenters, architects, the type of people that you would expect to see building
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a wall.
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See, God used the ordinary people of the community to do the good work.
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God uses ordinary people to do extraordinary work.
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Now, I want us all to do a quick exercise this morning.
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I want us to reflect on this question.
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Growing up, who was the single most influential person in your life?
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Let's just reflect on that for a second.
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For some of us here this morning, that person may be a parent or a grandparent.
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For some of us, it may be a teacher or a coach or a youth leader.
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I don't know who the most influential person in your life has been, but I'd be willing
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to bet that that person has never been the president of the United States.
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I'd also be willing to bet that that individual does not have a Nobel Prize or a PhD.
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In fact, I'd be willing to wager that the single most influential person in your life
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was simply an ordinary person who chose to speak into your life.
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What I'm trying to help us to see is that this principle is inherent in our own life
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experiences.
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And beyond that, I believe that each one of us here this morning has the potential to
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be the most influential person in somebody else's life, and it doesn't require a PhD.
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It does, however, require a PHS, a willingness to partner with the Holy Spirit.
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So how do we do this?
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How do we step out in faith and do the work that God has called us to do?
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I think it's simple.
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I think we need to follow the steps that Nehemiah took as he was rebuilding the wall.
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So our first action step for this morning is this.
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Pick your perspective.
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When we're given the opportunity to step out in faith and serve, we can either choose
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to see the pain or the payoff.
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And how we view these opportunities that we've been given directly determines how we respond
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to them.
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As Nehemiah began the work of rebuilding the walls of his community, the opposition came
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and they began to mock and criticize the work that Nehemiah was doing.
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We read this in Nehemiah chapter two.
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But when Sam Ballad the Horonite, Tobiah the Ammonite official, and Geshum the Arab heard
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about it, they mocked and ridiculed us.
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What is this you are doing, they asked?
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Are you rebelling against the king?
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These men came and began to mock and ridicule Nehemiah's work, but Nehemiah remained confident
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in the payoff.
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Look at his response, Nehemiah 2.20.
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I answered them by saying, the God of heaven will give us success.
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We his servants will start rebuilding.
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But as for you, you have no share in Jerusalem.
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What we need to understand about these men is that they were the leaders of the surrounding
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towns and they were threatened by the work that Nehemiah was doing.
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They didn't want Jerusalem to regain its status as a regional powerhouse.
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And so they began to mock and ridicule Nehemiah.
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And as they're doing this, they appeal to the highest authority that they know.
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They say, are you rebelling against the king?
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And I love Nehemiah's response because Nehemiah responds by appealing to a higher authority.
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He says, the God of heaven will give us success.
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And what I want us to take away from these verses is this, that when we have an opportunity
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to serve and all we can see is the pain, we need to be willing to appeal to a higher authority
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so that we can see the payoff.
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We have to choose to pick our perspective.
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Number two, pick a wall.
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So by this point, you may be thinking to yourself, Carl, how do I know where God wants me to
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serve?
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Great question.
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Let's go back to the text, Nehemiah chapter three, verse 28 and 29.
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Of the horse gate, the priests made repairs each in front of his own house.
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Next to them, Zadok son of Emar made repairs opposite his house.
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Nehemiah led the people to repair the sections of wall that were right outside their homes.
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I believe that this was partly logistical in nature.
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It would have just made sense for the individuals to work on the walls that were right outside
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their home.
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They'd be close to their amenities.
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They'd have an incredible commute.
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But I also think it's a psychological in nature.
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I believe that Nehemiah knew that by having the people work on the walls right outside
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their homes, he was enhancing their level of buy-in and ownership in the project.
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Nehemiah knew that if these individuals were going to have to see that section of wall
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every time they went in and out of their house, they were going to make sure that it was rebuilt
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correctly.
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So this is what I want to ask you this morning.
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What has God placed in front of you?
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What gifts, passions has God placed in your heart?
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How has God positioned you in the community to make a difference?
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In short, what has God placed right outside your front door?
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I believe these are areas, these are clues to where God wants us to step out of faith
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and serve.
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So number one, pick your perspective.
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Number two, pick a wall.
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Number three, pick up a stone.
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Now we're winding down here, but I want to play a quick game with you.
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I want to test your collective knowledge of modern day advertising jingles.
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So here's what I want to do.
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I'm going to start a jingle and I want you, I'm going to point you all and I want you
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all to finish it.
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The first jingle that I've chosen is from a company you may have heard of called McDonald's.
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Now I know that nobody in here ever goes to McDonald's because of all the salt and the
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cholesterol, but I'm certain that you've been exposed to this advertising jingle.
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So again, I'm going to start it and I'm going to point to you and I want you to finish it.
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So here we go.
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Nice.
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Excellent.
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I'm loving it.
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All right.
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So for the second advertising jingle, I've chosen a candy bar that comes in a red wrapper.
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Big hint.
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So here we go.
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Break me off a piece of that.
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Let's go.
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Two for two.
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All right.
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So we started with McDonald's, then we went to a candy bar.
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So for my third one, I'm going to give you the slogan for Meredith's Health and we're
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all going to go get a triple bypass.
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I'm kidding.
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I'm kidding.
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I simply want to direct your attention to my footwear made by a company called Nike.
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As many of you know, Nike has a popular three word slogan.
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Don't say it yet.
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Don't say it.
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Popular three word slogan.
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The first word starts with the letter J. And so what I want to do is I'm going to count
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to three and on the count of three, I want you all to shout out as loud as you can the
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slogan for Nike.
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All right.
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So here we go.
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One, two, three.
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Let's go.
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Listen, when we're given an opportunity to step out in faith and serve and we know that
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God has called us to step into our calling, we need to take the time to pray.
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We need to take the time to prepare.
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But ultimately we need to be willing to do the work and to pick up a stone.
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Look at Nehemiah chapter two.
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Nehemiah says this to his community.
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He says, come, let us rebuild the wall of Jerusalem and we will no longer be in disgrace.
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They replied, let us start rebuilding.
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So they formed a committee and they talked about it.
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Oh, I'm sorry.
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They replied, let us start rebuilding. So they started a Facebook group and they voted
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on it.
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That was the Gen Z version.
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I'm sorry.
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Let me get the right translation.
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They replied, let us start rebuilding.
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So they began this good work.
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The walls of Jerusalem were restored one stone at a time.
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Our community is restored one act of obedience at a time.
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My challenge to you this morning, what's your wall?
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What is God calling you to do?
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In what ways is God calling you to step out in faith and serve?
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Now we're gonna get ready and close out this morning.
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Before we do, I started this message with a story.
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Now I wanna end it with a story.
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I wanna tell you my story, how God has worked through this community of faith to bring restoration
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into my life.
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And I'm gonna try to hold it together.
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I grew up in a Christian home with two incredible parents who regularly modeled for me what
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it looked like to walk in obedience to God.
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From an early age, they had me involved in church.
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And some of my earliest memories of serving were running the overhead slide projector
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while my dad helped to lead worship.
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It was like the OG music director position.
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As a young teen, I grew in my faith.
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And later in my teens, I would meet the woman who would go on to become my wife.
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We got married young, really young, like right out of high school.
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And in the first five years of our marriage, I began to serve in our church's worship ministry.
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Simultaneous to that, I took a career in the financial services industry.
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In both my career and in my serving in church, I began to grow in my position and in prestige.
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In this same period of our life, we had our first child, our daughter, Kira.
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Looking at my life from the outside, by every external measure, I was a success.
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But inside, it was a different story.
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And everything was about to come crashing down.
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It was Super Bowl Sunday 2012.
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And I remember for weeks leading up to this moment, I had been struggling to connect with
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God and to connect with my family.
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And I felt this incredible sense of turmoil inside myself.
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Looking back in reflection, I could see that I had been running.
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But that day, God brought me to my knees.
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I went to my wife and I began to pour out my heart.
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I'd been struggling with an addiction to pornography.
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Not only that, but there had been boundaries in our relationship that I had crossed.
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I'd gotten too close to some friends at work and I'd allowed them to influence my decisions.
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There were lies, secrets.
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Standing in the wreckage of my decisions.
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I knew that I needed to make a drastic change in my life.
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So ultimately, I quit my job and went back to my previous employer.
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We sold our house, left our church and our friends and moved to West Virginia.
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Part of that move was because I had a desire to give my family a chance at a new start.
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And I wanted to experience healing inside.
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But there was another reason.
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Much like the house in my earlier illustration, I had failed God's inspection.
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And I just felt layers and layers and layers of condemnation.
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And in that moment, I felt that the best thing that I could do for myself was to put myself
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in exile.
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July of 2020, I'm sorry, July of 2012, we started attending HCV.
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And for the first several weeks, all I could do during worship was weep.
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See, God had placed on my heart this incredible dream to write worship music for the church.
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But I had failed in a big way.
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And so I buried that dream and I put away my guitar until one Sunday, this incredible,
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talented worship pastor got up to preach.
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He was preaching a message about endurance, using as an example Joshua and the walls of
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Jericho.
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And at the end of his message, he just encouraged us, go one more lap.
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I know it hurts.
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Go one more lap.
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I know you're tired, but just go one more lap.
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I know it feels like you can't, but just go one more lap.
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Because while you're walking around the walls that are keeping you out of the promise that
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God has for you, God is working to strengthen you so that when those walls come down, you
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can receive the promise that he has over your life.
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And in that moment, I knew that God was calling me back into serving.
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And so a few months later, I joined the worship team at Hub City Vineyard.
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And shortly after that, Rhett and I began writing worship music for this community of
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faith.
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And what I want you to know, church, is this.
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Worship is my wall.
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And the stones that I pick up and contribute to that wall on a regular basis, those stones
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are the songs that God has borne out of the testimonies of everyone in this community
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of faith.
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Highest King runs wild, no looking back, God of miracles, Adonai.
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So how do I know?
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How do I know that God's faithfulness is not derailed by our failure?
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How do I know that our failures don't determine our future?
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Ask me how I know that exile is not the end, that God can bring blessings from Babylon.
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How do I know that we've been restored?
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How do I know that we've been restored for a reason?
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That God can use ordinary people to do extraordinary work?
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Because I'm living proof.
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I'm living proof.
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We sang it this morning.
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You pulled me from the fire.
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Now I'm walking on waves.
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That's a testimony of my life.
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There's no impossible, I believe that you are working now.
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So pour it out.
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Oh pour it out.