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Scandalous Mercy Part 1 | Messy Mercy (Easter) with Chris Schlotterbeck
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Hey guys, this is Tracy. If at any time you'd
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your life, text change me to 970 -00. Enjoy the
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message. Now, I'm out of breath. Are you guys
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ready to hear an Easter message? You guys ready
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to do this? So, without further ado, I give you
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our lead pastor. Rudy. Rudy, what did you do?
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Easter is ruined. I needed those flowers, dude.
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I needed that pot. You know, friends, here's
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the reality. At some point in life, we're all
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going to break. And when this happens, humanity's
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initial reaction is one of frustration, anger,
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and judgment. But God, God doesn't run away from
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broken pieces. He comes near. And not only does
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he come near, our God humbly and gently kneels
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down and begins to pick up each piece. Not one
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forgotten. Not one ignored. And the beauty of
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this is summed up in one word, and it's called
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mercy. Mercy is God giving us what we don't deserve
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in our brokenness. And he doesn't stop there.
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He doesn't glue us back together so that we're
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the same person that we were before. Because
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of Easter, he takes it a step further. And he
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creates something brand new. A masterpiece. Good
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morning and welcome to HTV. Happy Easter. And
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if you're joining us from home, thank you for
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welcoming us into your space. There is a word
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at the very heart of the gospel, a word we often
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use but very rarely grasp. And that word is mercy.
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We sing about it. We pray for it. We hope for
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it. Yet when it meets us face to face, it can
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almost feel too good to be true. Mercy is not
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getting what we deserve. It is love when we have
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failed. It is compassion when we wandered. It
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is God looking at us, making eye contact in our
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worst moments, in our deepest regrets with eyes
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full of grace. And nowhere is that mercy more
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visible than in the story of Easter. Because
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see, at the very moment humanity had done its
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worst, because of Easter, God responded with
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his best. At the cross, we see the judgment that
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we all deserve. But at the empty tomb, we see
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mercy that we could never earn. Today, we stand
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in that tension between who we have been and
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who God is calling us to become. And the good
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news is this. Mercy has the final word. See,
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because of Easter, there's no person God can't
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reach. There's no life he can't change. There's
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no situation he can't handle. There's no miracle
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he can't do. And that church is good news. And
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that's why we gather to celebrate every single
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Easter. Let's open in prayer. Holy Spirit come.
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God, we are grateful that we can gather together.
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I just pray, God, that you would open every ear,
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mind, heart to receive your truth this morning,
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God. I silence distractions in Jesus' name. And
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I just pray, God, that we would all leave here
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differently than when we came. In Jesus' name,
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amen. That prayer leads us to our first thought
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this morning. See, life can be messy. Life can
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be messy, Luke chapter 24 verse 1. But very early
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on Sunday morning, the women went to the tomb
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taking the spices they had prepared. And see,
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quite often what happens when we know a story
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from the Bible is we quickly read past verses
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that are important to the narrative. Just like
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the one I read to you. Early in the morning.
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Ladies were walking to the empty tomb. In our
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mind, it's Easter. Praise God, Jesus has risen.
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And typically when it comes to Easter Sunday,
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we dress up a little nicer. We put on a big smile.
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We take family photos. We gather for a meal.
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We celebrate. So when we read about the first
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Easter, we immediately think it was a celebration.
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In fact, it had to be the best celebration that
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ever was. Right? So when reading that first verse,
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we quite often picture these ladies, not in pain,
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not suffering, not fearful, but in Sunday's best,
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going to celebrate the risen Savior because we
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know the end of the story. However, today, I
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want us all to put ourselves in their shoes for
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just a moment. See, they don't know the ending.
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They don't know it's Easter. They're just living
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in the mess. Because see, that first Easter morning,
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it wasn't a celebration. It was a disaster. For
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starters, these women were walking to a tomb
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for someone that they loved to put burial spices
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on a dead body. They didn't know Jesus had risen.
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They were heartbroken. They had loved Jesus.
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But at the same time, in their grief, they were
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also a little mad, a little confused, a little
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scared. Because remember what Jesus told them.
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I am the Son of God. I am going to build a kingdom
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that will never end. I am the Chosen One. I am
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the Messiah. So we find these women totally confused.
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and feeling a little betrayed. Maybe Jesus didn't
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lie to us. It could be that he thought he was
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the Messiah, but he can't be because we saw them
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die. We saw them buried. A dead person can't
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build a kingdom that will never end. So you see,
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we have all these emotions. We have this tension
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that the first Easter would bring. And remember,
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these women, they were all alone. The disciples,
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they had scattered. They were now in hiding.
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What is so important about this line of thinking
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is if you walked into this place to celebrate
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Easter and your life feels a little messy, you're
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not alone. If you gathered here with us this
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morning or you're watching online and you're
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trying to put on a smile, you're trying to celebrate,
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you're trying to engage in worship, but mentally
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you're just checked out, you're not alone. If
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you're currently walking through challenges in
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this life, you're experiencing some turmoil,
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let me say it again, you're not alone. Truth
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is, we are all broken people living in a broken
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world. And I can almost guarantee there's not
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one person in this place that isn't struggling
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with something in their life. And maybe it's
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not personal. It could be that a loved one is
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struggling or sick. It could be in today's economic
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climate, you're struggling with the pressure
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to just pay the bills. Maybe for you it's a relationship
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that's broken or a marriage that you're fighting
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for. Maybe you're dealing with a diagnosis. Maybe
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you lost a loved one and are walking through
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a season of grief. Maybe for you it's mental.
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It's anxiety or depression or fear or, dare I
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say, suicidal thoughts that no one knows the
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pain you're feeling inside. Let me tell you again,
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you are not alone. And John... Chapter 16, verse
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33, Jesus told us, I have told you all this so
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that you may have peace in me. Here on this earth,
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you have many trials and sorrows. In other words,
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life is messy. But take heart, church, because
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I have overcome the world. See, because of Easter,
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everything has changed. Jesus overcame death
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and the power of this world. And I want to encourage
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you this morning. It's okay to not be okay. Because
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see, there's good news today. And there's good
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news for your life. Let's continue reading Luke
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24, two through six. They found that the stone
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had been rolled away from the entrance. And notice,
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no high fives, no celebrating, no hallelujahs.
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In fact, in all four gospel accounts, we find
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these women completely confused, believing the
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body had been stolen. Continuing on. So they
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went in, but they, They still didn't find the
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body of the Lord Jesus. As they stood there puzzled,
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two men suddenly appeared to them, closed in
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dazzling robes. And again, we fast forward to
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the end of the story. Oh, the angels are here.
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Now they'll understand. Two men in white clothes,
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dazzling white clothes. Like if I was them, I'd
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be feeling the same way. A little freaked out.
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Like, what is going on? And you may be sitting
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there thinking, oh, there's no way, Chris. They
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wouldn't feel that way. Okay. If two shiny dudes
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appeared in your kitchen this afternoon after
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Easter service, how are you going to feel? How
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are you going to feel? Let's continue. The women
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were terrified, just like you would feel. and
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bowed with their faces to the ground. Then the
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men asked, why are you looking among the dead
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for someone who is alive? He isn't here. He is
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risen from the dead. Remember what he told you
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back in Galilee. See, we know that that is good
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news. They didn't. And while this conversation
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is happening with the angels, look at Mary's
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posture, John chapter 20, verse 11. Mary was
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standing outside of the tomb crying, weeping.
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Then she stopped and looked in. See, Mary was
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broken in pieces because her life was messy.
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Which leads us to discover three important Easter
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truths today that I believe you can take from
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today and live with for the rest of your life.
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And the first is this. Because of Easter, Jesus
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still shows up. See, Mary is outside of the tomb,
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crying and confused. She stops, looks in, sees
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that it's empty, then turning to leave with all
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of these emotions in her mind, all this negativity,
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all this doubt, her broken heart. We read this
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in John chapter 20. She turned to leave and saw
John 20 chapter mention
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someone standing there. It was Jesus. But she
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didn't recognize him. Dear woman, why are you
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crying? Jesus asked her. Who are you looking
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for? She thought he was the gardener. Sir, she
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said, if you have taken him away, tell me where
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you have put him and I will go and get him. See,
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in her brokenness, Jesus showed up. In her doubt,
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Jesus showed up. In her confusion, Jesus showed
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up. And it wasn't just to Mary. Let's continue
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in verse 19. That Sunday evening, notice we're
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now in the evening. That was the morning. The
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disciples were meeting behind locked doors because
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they were afraid. They were terrified of the
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Jewish leaders. Suddenly, Jesus was standing
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there among them. Peace be with you, he said.
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See, the disciples hadn't read the story yet.
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They didn't know Jesus had risen. They were full
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of fear and doubt. Jesus. Still showed up. Look
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at Luke 24. That same day, two of Jesus' followers
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were walking to the village of Emmaus, seven
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miles from Jerusalem. In other words, they had
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given up. They thought it was over. Jesus had
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died. He was buried. As they walked along, they
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were talking about everything that had happened.
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They stopped short, sadness written across their
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faces. Guess who showed up in their sadness?
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Jesus. And he would walk all the way to Emmaus.
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There's this guy named Peter. He leaves the group
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full of guilt, shame. He had denied Jesus, ever
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existed three times. So he goes fishing. He takes
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a few friends with him, and we read this in John
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21. At dawn, Jesus was standing on the beach,
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but the disciples couldn't see who he was. He
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called out, fellows, have you caught any fish?
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No, they replied. And Jesus keeps showing up.
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And see, I think this is one of the most beautiful
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parts of the resurrection that we need to remember.
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Dead guys don't show up anywhere. But when Jesus
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stepped out of the tomb and proved that he was
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the King of kings and the Lord of lords, he can
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show up in people's lives for the rest of eternity.
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And friends, dare I say that is still happening
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today. See, we are experiencing this abundance,
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these interactions every single week here at
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HCV. And you don't have to have it all together
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before Jesus shows up. I mean, we just read about
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all these people. They were hurting. They were
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depressed. They were broken. They were grieving.
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They were anxious. They were regretful, shameful,
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scared. And Jesus showed up. See, God is not
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waiting for us to fix ourselves. He's not waiting
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for us to get more spiritual before he shows
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up. You just heard Rudy say, on Good Friday,
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we baptized nearly 90 people who declared they
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were publicly following Jesus. And an amazing
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move of God. And it was interesting, one of the
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gentlemen that had gotten baptized, he wanted
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to share his story with me. And I was right over
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there in the baptismal, still in the water, cold,
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shaking. And he comes up to me, Chris, you got
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to hear my story. I said, okay, tell me. I promise
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I'm listening. And he began to say, you know,
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my sister goes to HCV. She comes here. And she
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invited me to church last Christmas. She said,
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why don't you come to Christmas Eve with me?
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And my response to her was, no, I don't need
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church. I don't need your church. I'm good right
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where I'm at. And just that week, that week after
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she invited me, I was hunting and I was in my
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tree stand 30 feet above the ground in a tree.
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And I don't remember much from that day, but
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I do remember falling out of that tree stand.
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I fell 30 feet and bounced off the ground. And
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when I came to, I heard my name being spoken
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audibly in my ears. And as I woke up and looked
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around, not being able to move, I recognized
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that voice as God's voice inviting me back home
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and getting my attention that I needed to get
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back into church. And he said to me, he said,
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Chris, I walked away from that accident unscathed.
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But I haven't missed a Sunday since. And not
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only have I not missed a Sunday since, I'm now
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getting baptized because all I want to do is
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go all in for Jesus. And you say to me, well,
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Chris, why is that important? Well, it's important
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because Ecclesiastes 3, verse 11 says, God made
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everything beautiful for its own time. He planted
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eternity in the human heart. In other words,
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it doesn't matter where you are, what you're
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going through, you have eternity in your heart.
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And if you have eternity in your heart, then
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God can speak to you, whisper to you, audibly
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invite you home. And listen, when we are experiencing
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troubles in this world, when it feels like you're
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drowning, we need to start to expect that Jesus
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is going to show up because he does. And I want
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to challenge you today. Let's make this Easter
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a little different and take it a step further.
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And my challenge to you is not to expect Jesus
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to show up, but ask for him to show up. That
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we would all start to ask. For Jesus to show
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up in our lives. Because when Jesus shows up
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in our lives, look what happens. Jeremiah 29
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verses 12 through 14. In those days when you
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pray. In other words, today when you pray. And
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you say, Chris, that's not what it says. Yeah,
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but Jeremiah was a prophet. And that prophet
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was speaking to our times. In those days when
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you pray, I will listen. And if you look for
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me wholeheartedly, you will find me. I will be
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found by you, says the Lord. I will end your
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captivity and restore your fortune. In other
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words, if we seek him, we'll find him. If we
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knock, he will open that door. And if we ask,
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he will listen. See, Jesus has risen from the
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dead so he can show up in our life. And let's
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start to expect those encounters to happen every
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single day, which leads us to our second truth.
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Not only does Jesus still show up, because of
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Easter, we need to remember. Now you say, Chris,
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is that really a truth? Well, notice the very
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first thing the angel says to these women who
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were sad, brokenhearted, downcast, Luke 24. He
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isn't here. He is risen from the dead. Remember,
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church, What he told you back in Galilee, that
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the Son of Man must be betrayed into the hands
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of sinful men and be crucified, and that he would
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rise again on the third day. Then they remembered
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that he said this. And see, I find it interesting,
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and I've actually skipped over that verse before,
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not even recognizing the word remember. It's
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interesting that God told people, a group of
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people, that were struggling, brokenhearted,
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downcast, to remember what Jesus did. Why? Well,
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because of Easter, we have something to remember.
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See, Jesus told them he would be crucified. Jesus
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told them that he would rise again. And one of
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the best things we can do when we're really struggling
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is to take all of our negativity and fears and
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doubts and unanswered questions, all those difficult
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situations that seem impossible, and we need
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to begin to run them through the God filter.
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And you say, well, what is the God filter? How
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do you make coffee? You grind up your grounds
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and you pour it into the filter. And then you
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have a beautiful, delicious cup of joe that comes
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out. Well, we all have the God filter. And that
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God filter is remembering what Jesus did for
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us. Remembering that he went to the cross. Remembering
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that Jesus is now alive. Remembering that he
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still shows up. Remembering that he can do the
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impossible. See, when you're struggling, I want
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to challenge you to remember two important truths.
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And the first is this. Remember Jesus loves us.
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1 John 4 .10, this is real love. Not that we
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love God, but that he loved us and sent his son
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as a sacrifice to take away our sins. And I say
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this often, and I mean it, church. This isn't
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about you. It's not about how well we love him.
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It's not about how much we pray. It's not about
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how much we serve. It's not about how well we
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play the guitar or how much Bible we read. It's
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about Jesus loving us. And you say, really, Chris,
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is that scriptural? Sure is. Won't you ask the
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thief on the right? Last time I checked, he never
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went to church. Didn't read the Bible, didn't
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pray. But he is now in eternity. And see, Jesus
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doesn't love a future version of you. He loves
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you right here, right now, just as you are. And
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I believe someone needs to hear this this morning.
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God loves you. And you're here for a purpose.
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And the second thing we need to remember is that
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Jesus died for us, Romans 5, 8. But God showed
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his great love for us by sending Christ to die
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for us while we were still sinners. The women
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were hurting. And God reminds them to remember
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what Jesus did for them. See, Jesus knew in the
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garden as he was sweating profusely blood droplets
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from his forehead. He knew the pain and suffering
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that he was going to go through for us. He knew
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he would be beaten beyond recognition. He knew
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he would hang on a cross where he would be spit
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on and mocked. And see, we forget sometimes when
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we see pictures of the crosses that they're wrong.
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See, in Roman crucifixion, the Romans, when they
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killed someone, they would put the crosses at
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eye level so that person could be spit on, mocked.
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made fun of, and Jesus did that for us. Jesus
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knew he would die for you and me. And the next
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time you're struggling through life and you feel
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like you're drowning, take a minute and remember
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what Jesus did for you. See, he loves us so much
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that he died for us so that we can walk free
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from anxiety and regret into a life of abundance
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so that we can be masterpieces. There's no situation
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in life that Jesus can't handle. He has been
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through it all. And why is this so important?
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Well, John 3, 16 reminds us. For this is how
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God loved the world. He gave his one and only
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son so that everyone who believes in him will
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not perish but have eternal life. God says, let
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me be clear. There's a reason Jesus suffered,
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died, and rose from the dead. It was so you and
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I can avoid eternal separation from God. And
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we can spend eternity with Jesus in God's kingdom.
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And God reminds us whoever believes it experiences
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eternal life and lives in abundance right now.
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Not tomorrow, right now. Which leads to our final
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Easter truth. Jesus still shows up. We need to
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remember. And church, there was purpose in our
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pain. Now we're going to zero in on this lady
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named Mary Magdalene. She was one of the women
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who were first to go to the tomb. And she was
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experiencing the pain of Jesus' death. But she
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also experienced a lot of pain in her personal
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life. We read in Luke chapter 8. Soon afterward,
Luke 8 chapter mention
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Jesus began a tour of nearby towns and villages,
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preaching and announcing the good news about
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the kingdom of God. He took his 12 disciples
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with him, along with some women who had been
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cured of evil spirits and diseases. Among them
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were Mary Magdalene, from whom he had cast out
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seven demons. Now, I don't know about you, but
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if I knew a person that had one demon cast out
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of them, I think we can all agree that person
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had some issues. Can we all agree on that? But
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if God has to cast out... Seven demons? That
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person was a mess. But at the same time, I can't
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even picture the pain that Mary experienced throughout
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her life. I can't imagine the dysfunction she
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lived in. I can't imagine how many people wanted
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to totally avoid her when she came near, wanting
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nothing to do with her. See, she had a painful
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past. And she experienced freedom from her pain
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when she met Jesus. So when Jesus died and was
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buried, Mary once again found her place in a
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place of brokenness. She goes to the tomb. It's
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empty. She thinks someone stole the body. She's
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totally confused, hurting. But notice what Jesus
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says to her. John 20. Mary, Jesus said, she turned
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to him and cried out, Rabbani, which is Hebrew
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for teacher. She recognized his voice. Notice
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she didn't recognize him and his resurrected
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body. She heard his voice. Don't cling to me,
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Jesus said, for I haven't yet ascended to the
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Father. But go find my brothers and tell them
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I am ascended to the Father and your Father and
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my God and your God. Mary Magdalene found the
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disciples and told them, I have seen the Lord.
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Then she gave them his message. See, Mary was
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experiencing grief and pain. What did Jesus do?
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He took her pain and turned it into purpose.
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Notice what Jesus said. Go and tell the disciples
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everything you have seen and heard. Mary was
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the very first person to ever share a testimony
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about the resurrected Jesus. And see, that started
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a movement. The disciples believed. Peter got
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up and preached 3 ,000 would be saved. Then it
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went to 5 ,000. Then it went to 10 ,000. Then
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100 ,000. Today, there is over 3 .2 billion people
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in the world who believe that Jesus is the Son
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of God and was risen from the dead. And see,
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this whole movement did not begin in a living
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room at a Super Bowl party. This whole movement
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began with Mary's testimony. Mary had a purpose
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on her life that more than she could ever think
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or imagine. She had so much purpose on her life.
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We're still talking about her more than 2 ,000
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years later. See, Mary experienced the God of
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more. And God is inviting us to experience more
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today. How do I know that? Ephesians chapter
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three, verse 20. Now, all glory to God, who is
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able through his mighty power at work within
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you, within me, to accomplish infinitely more
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than we might ask or think. See, God had a purpose
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for Mary that she never thought she could do
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for herself. And I have no idea what you're going
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through today. I have no idea what you brought
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into this room. But can I remind you? There is
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no person that God can't reach. You're not too
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far gone. You're not at a point in life where
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you're so broken that God won't come and pick
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up the pieces. You're not at a point where God
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doesn't see your hand coming up out of the water.
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God is in the business of changing lives in this
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community of faith. And not only does he change
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lives, he turns our pain into our This week I
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was reflecting on one of our leaders within our
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community of faith and just kind of began to
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weep. It was right around this time. It was late
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spring. Easter had passed. We all decided as
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a staff to go out for lunch. We went to a local
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bar, restaurant, sat on the outside patio deck,
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if you will. Just so we could spend time together
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and reflect on all that God was doing and have
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fun. And we ran into a bartender there. And this
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bartender was broken. He was tired. He was worn
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out. He had seen the pain and heartache of the
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church and judgment and hypocrisy. He was a youth
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leader as a youth. But walked away from God.
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And this church staff was having fun and having
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lunch. And, oh, the pastor ordered a Long Island
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iced tea. If you don't know what that is, you
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can look it up. Don't judge me. Don't judge me.
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And as we were sitting there interacting and
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having fun and talking about Jesus and God with
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this young man, he became interested and listened
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and we invited him to summer jams and he came
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to summer jams and heard one of his favorite
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songs, non -Christian. And that Sunday recommitted
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his life to Jesus. And now, fast forward, that
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young man is now a leader in our community of
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faith. He's leading young people and youth and
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giving back to them and speaking into their life.
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He's the coach of a softball team, not in the
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church league, in the tavern league, because
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he wants to see people meet Jesus. See, God shows
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up not just in a church building. God shows up
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in bars. God changes lives. And desires to continue
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to do so. So I want to challenge you today. To
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remember. That because of Easter. Jesus loves
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us. Jesus died for us. Gave us his spirit. We
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are can be forgiven. And are forgiven. And there's
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nothing in this world he can't handle. And no
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matter what life throws at you. Because of Easter.
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No matter how great the pain, God turns our pain
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into purpose. Leading us to impact and change
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the lives of others so that our masterpiece that
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he created us to be shines for all men to see.
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Will you stand with me? I want to close today
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with two simple questions. And the first is this.
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And the first is a challenging one because I'm
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going to ask you to be honest. If you're here
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today and you've walked into this place and you're
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struggling, maybe you feel like you're drowning.
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You're overwhelmed. Can I encourage you and say
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that Jesus still shows up? And how do I know
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that? Well, last night at our first ever Saturday
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evening gathering, I had a young lady come up
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and share with me. She came right up front and
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said, Chris, do you remember me? I said, no,
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I don't remember you. I'm sorry. She goes, about
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eight months ago, you reached out to me. I was
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on a camping trip with my family and was struggling
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with suicidal thoughts. I was contemplating ending
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my life and you called and you encouraged me
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and prayed for me and broke off a spirit of death
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over the phone. That was one of the most difficult
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weekends I had ever spent. But God began to move.
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And she looked at me and she goes, can you believe
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that I'm now at a point eight months later that
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my husband and I have just... booked a trip to
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Africa this summer because we're going to serve
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in an orphanage. And she goes, I needed to share
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that with you so you could share it with other
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people so that they can be encouraged that even
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in the contemplating of suicide, God still shows
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up. So if you're here this morning and you're
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struggling, I want you to be honest. I want you
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to put your hand up. I want you to put it up
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real high so I can see them. It could be anything,
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church. Put it up. Now here's what I want you
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to do. I want you to look up to heaven. I want
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you to keep your hand up. Don't put it down because
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if you put it down, then you're saying you're
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lying. I want you to look up to heaven. I want
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you to say these words. Jesus, I need you to
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show up. Change my circumstances. Meet me where
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I'm at. Holy Spirit, empower me today. In Jesus'
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name, amen. Now you walk that out and you believe
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Jesus is walking with you. For life or mine Either
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one Turn water into wine Please fix my heart
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And the things inside Yo