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Avoid Overly Agile Adjusting Proverbs 1:10; 15-16

New Heights Fellowship Baptist church of East Toledo

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  1. Thank you. Instead, we will be coming together

  2. for a family fellowship. Everyone is welcome.

  3. If you're here and you've been a son of my voice,

  4. you're welcome to come and join with us, and

  5. we'll be enjoying a kind of taco bar. If you

  6. haven't been hit up yet to bring something for

  7. the taco bar, or if you have some particular

  8. thing that you'd like to bring for that, then

  9. you go ahead and do that, and you can check with

  10. Sherry or Risha or me or just about anybody to

  11. make sure somebody else knows that you're bringing

  12. something, that you ain't already bringing something,

  13. okay? And if you didn't want to bring anything,

  14. that's okay, too. Just come and eat with us,

  15. and we'll have a good time. And we're also going

  16. to be playing games afterwards. We'll have card

  17. games and board games and some activities for

  18. the kids and that kind of thing. And that's Friday,

  19. so not Grand Prix Workshop this Friday. Amen.

  20. Okay, if you're a follower of Christ, think about

  21. when you were saved. That's kind of how this

  22. song goes. Think about that. Thank God as you

  23. sing this. As Amalia and Alicia were singing

  24. that song, my mind flashed back to us worshiping

  25. in Northwood High School in a classroom. And

  26. we could not get Amalia to get closer than about

  27. a foot to the microphone. And no microphone could

  28. we get hot enough that we could actually hear

  29. her singing, even though my omnidirectional microphone

  30. was barely picking her up. And she's like, I'm

  31. close enough. I'm close enough to the microphone.

  32. And praise the Lord, many days later. That has

  33. finally changed. Praise God for that. It's been

  34. years now, but it just really struck me in that

  35. moment. So we have a couple of pieces of business

  36. that we need to take care of right away before

  37. we get into the sermon because we're going to

  38. hit a topic today that was harsh for me. So the

  39. last time I took over about five hours to write

  40. my sermon for a Sunday was probably well over

  41. a year ago. And this sermon took me close to

  42. 12 hours to write. And for a good part of that,

  43. I was in what I would call kind of like anguish,

  44. realizing that we are maybe claiming to be something

  45. that we are not. And we need to ask ourselves

  46. if that is the case. And then we need to make

  47. whatever adjustments are necessary. And that

  48. had to start with me. But the 12 hours that I

  49. spent... None of that was really me doing that.

  50. I still had to do that on top of the 12 hours.

  51. But I spent 12 hours studying. I spent four or

  52. five hours getting to the heart of the matter

  53. because I started with a misconception. I thought

  54. I had the title and kind of the point of the

  55. sermon. There's a mystery going on before you

  56. as these sermons are being preached now as we're

  57. leading up to Easter, which I'll explain in a

  58. moment. At least I'll give you another clue toward

  59. the mystery. So about four or five hours overcoming

  60. that misconception and getting to the text that

  61. we're going to use. And I thought, well, usually

  62. when I have the text, it's only about an hour

  63. or two after that, I'm good to go. And then it

  64. took another almost eight hours for me to get

  65. to what I'm going to bring you today. And the

  66. truth is, I think I could have spent about another

  67. five or six hours here and really honed it down

  68. to something a lot more smaller, maybe not so

  69. hard to chew, not so difficult to understand.

  70. So I'm going to try my best to deliver it to

  71. you. clearly. So the second thing then is this

  72. is part, as I said, of a mystery. I started playing

  73. a little game with you without telling you I

  74. was doing it. And so the clue for today's sermon

  75. is the phrase three of seven. Three of seven.

  76. Last week's clue was two of seven and I forgot

  77. to give it to you. So the clue for today's sermon

  78. is three of seven. So your goal over the next

  79. roughly month or so leading between now and Easter

  80. is to try to figure out what the heck am I talking

  81. about that I'm not talking about? Okay, that

  82. is the goal. What is it that I'm talking about

  83. that I'm not talking about? And your clue is

  84. three of seven. I will fair warn you, if you

  85. miss a sermon between now and then, completely

  86. miss it anyway, you could catch it online, you

  87. could listen to it on the podcast, but if you

  88. completely miss it, you will have a bit of a

  89. challenge getting to the bottom of the mystery.

  90. Okay, so today's clue is three of seven. Then

  91. we're just going to do a couple of quick things.

  92. One, we talked about a little bit during our

  93. inspirational moment. The first one is wisdom.

  94. I want to talk about wisdom very just kind of

  95. briefly, make sure we're all on the same page.

  96. Wisdom is knowing God's knowledge or God's route

  97. or God's path or God's understanding of a situation.

  98. and in theory gives you the ability to apply

  99. that or to tell someone else so that they can

  100. apply it. So for example, I learned when I was

  101. about three years old how to tie my shoes, and

  102. I thought I was like Superman because nobody

  103. else who was three years old could tie their

  104. shoes. And then I raised Alicia and Amalia, and

  105. Amalia started preschool, and she was three years

  106. old, just over three, and she was the only one

  107. in her school who could tie shoes. She spent

  108. almost her entire recess tying shoes. Rather

  109. than the teacher doing it, she would send everybody

  110. to Amalia. And I thought, you know, being three

  111. and knowing how to tie shoes maybe isn't such

  112. a good thing. Because she would have a 25 -minute

  113. recess and spend almost 20 minutes tying shoes.

  114. Because there were 25 kids in her class, and

  115. as soon as one would be tied, another one would

  116. be untied. So she was tying shoes constantly.

  117. And the rest of the time, she spent on the swing.

  118. So that was her whole recess, tying shoes and

  119. swinging. That being said, knowing how to tie

  120. shoes. and then being able to actually tie shoes

  121. seems like it's basically the same thing. And

  122. wisdom is like that. Knowing what you need to

  123. know and being in God's kingdom, God's ways,

  124. God's wisdom, God's knowledge, whatever you want

  125. to call it, and being able to kind of apply it,

  126. that's wisdom, generically speaking. Understanding

  127. is another thing. Understanding is kind of just

  128. what it implies. Standing under the knowledge.

  129. So you could have the wisdom and be able to apply

  130. it, but then not actually understand it. Because

  131. you're not standing under what you know. For

  132. example, using the illustration I just gave you,

  133. being able to tie shoes at three, I was thinking

  134. I was like Superman. And for a short time, I

  135. think Amalia was too, thinking she was Superwoman

  136. when she was three because everybody would come

  137. to her in need and she was fixing their problems

  138. constantly. So she's feeling like that too. But

  139. just a real quick second after that, you start

  140. thinking, well, you can see if I'm going to spend

  141. 20 minutes a day tying shoes, I feel like I should

  142. be paid for that, right? Or at least get a bigger

  143. treat when we go to treat time, something like

  144. that. And so there is an understanding of how

  145. to tie shoes and what's going to result from

  146. tying shoes, and then there is standing under

  147. that knowledge, right? So she wasn't teaching

  148. anybody how to tie shoes because while she knew

  149. how to tie shoes, she couldn't get it across

  150. to anybody how to tie shoes because she didn't

  151. really understand how she was doing it. She couldn't

  152. stand under the knowledge of how to tie shoes.

  153. I couldn't stand under the knowledge of how to

  154. tie shoes, but I could tie shoes. See the difference?

  155. So if you can display God's wisdom in your choices,

  156. you might be wise. But if you can understand

  157. why you're doing what you're doing and apply

  158. that to what comes next, you might have understanding.

  159. There are two different things. Here we go. The

  160. text is relatively short, but we've got quite

  161. a bit of Bible between here and from when we're

  162. done. So grab your Bibles, if you would, and

  163. go with me to Proverbs 1. Amen. Thank you very

  164. much for joining in. I fully understand I'm a

  165. little bit weird, a little bit odd. And I appreciate

  166. that you joined me in my oddness because you're

  167. stuck with me. At least until you're not. So

  168. we're right in Proverbs chapter 1. And we're

    Proverbs 1 chapter mention

  169. going to read verse 10. Yes, there we go. I found

  170. it on the page even. So it says this. It says,

  171. My son, if sinners entice you, do not consent.

  172. Or consent thou not, if you're reading the King

  173. James Version. So I want you to see something

  174. before we go any further, okay? So the first

  175. thing is, there are people in the world who do

  176. the wrong thing. Raise your hand if you've ever

  177. done the wrong thing. This is a participatory

  178. moment, so every hand should be up, okay? If

  179. not, you really need to address the fact that

  180. you have a lot of pride and arrogance, okay?

  181. Or you're just not really participating, which

  182. would be okay too. So what's a sinner? A sinner

  183. is a person who has done the wrong thing. And

  184. the fact is, and elsewhere we could read, that

  185. sinners have a tendency to kind of drag people

  186. along with them. That's the reality of it. We

  187. talk about peer pressure, and we mostly mean

  188. that in a negative context. People who are kind

  189. of like you about your age, about your skin color,

  190. about your social standing, whatever, have a

  191. way of pressuring you into doing what it is that

  192. you want to do. And then they'll say, wait for

  193. it, they'll say, well, it was your choice. You're

  194. an adult. You could choose to follow my example.

  195. You could choose to follow what I'm teaching

  196. you to do or not. It was your choice. Who does

  197. that sound like? Sounds like the devil. What

  198. the devil does is he leads you, entices you to

  199. do things that you should not do, and then when

  200. you do them, he lets you take the blame. He's

  201. already going to spend eternity in hell, separated

  202. from God forever. He's got nothing more to lose,

  203. so he may as well drag people down with him if

  204. he can. We are not meant to be like that, but

  205. the reality is that sinners often are like that.

  206. They have a tendency to entice people to get

  207. involved with what they do. But notice it does

  208. not say, Do not do those things. Do not follow.

  209. Do not mirror their actions. It says, do not

  210. consent. Because all it really takes for a sinner

  211. to drag you into their current situation, which

  212. is maybe on the way to hell, or it could be a

  213. Christian who's sinning and they're leading you

  214. to sin along with them, and so they're suffering

  215. a lack of joy in their salvation, a lack of feeling

  216. like God is in their life, and they're doing

  217. the things that... their flesh wants to do rather

  218. than what God wants. And either way, all you

  219. have to do is consent. Perhaps you've been talking

  220. with someone and someone will start talking about

  221. someone else. And you're like, well, I'm not

  222. going to join in this conversation. I'm not going

  223. to say anything. I'm just going to stand back

  224. and not say anything while they're gossiping

  225. or slandering that other person. I'm not going

  226. to take part. But you're still standing there.

  227. You don't mention the word gossip or slander.

  228. You don't say, hey, we should change the topic

  229. of conversation. You don't say, hey, I'm not

  230. going to listen to this. You just stand there

  231. while it's going on. You know what they call

  232. that in the criminal world? They call that being

  233. an accomplice. And what the writer of Proverbs,

  234. probably Solomon, is telling us is that we should

  235. not consent. Don't stand by and accept that that

  236. action is appropriate behavior when they're attempting

  237. to entice you into it. Even if you should say,

  238. I'm not going to go then and do what it is, you

  239. should still say, why? What is the difference?

  240. The difference is you're wise enough to know

  241. that the thing that they're trying to entice

  242. you is not appropriate. I'm not going to do that.

  243. But you don't have understanding because you

  244. don't have a way of delivering the knowledge

  245. that it's not appropriate and why it's not appropriate.

  246. See the difference? We pursue both wisdom and

  247. understanding not to get ahead of ourselves.

  248. It's not good enough to just say, I'm not going

  249. to consent. For example, it's not good enough

  250. to just say, I am not personally going to watch

  251. rated R movies or violent movies or movies that

  252. depict sex acts on my TV screen in my living

  253. room at home, or I'm not personally going to

  254. watch pornography. That is not good enough. You

  255. have to understand why that behavior is inappropriate.

  256. You have to stand under the fact that it's inappropriate

  257. and be able to explain to somebody else why you're

  258. not participatory in it and be able to say, I'm

  259. not going to send them my money in some other

  260. way. If Playboy magazine opens up a beneficial

  261. foundation that is doing something with its profits,

  262. let's say teaching children to read or whatever

  263. like that, that foundation is a separate entity,

  264. but all the money is coming from Playboy. I'm

  265. not going to go buy a subscription to Playboy

  266. magazine so the foundation can benefit. I'm not

  267. going to have anything to do with it. Because

  268. I understand not only am I not interested in

  269. participating in the thing that you're enticing

  270. me to do, I do not consent. Politically speaking,

  271. I do not consent to abortion. I don't consent.

  272. Therefore, when I go to the polls, unless the

  273. Lord specifically tells me otherwise, and I always

  274. vote what God tells me to do, I cannot vote for

  275. a candidate who supports abortion. I can't do

  276. it because I don't consent. Am I political? Am

  277. I trying to win you to political? No, I'm using

  278. it as an illustration. It's all I'm doing. You

  279. can think about the things that go on in your

  280. household, the things that you do, your family

  281. does, your church does, whatever, and you're

  282. going to find something that you can say, I'm

  283. consenting to it. I'm consenting to it. By saying

  284. nothing, I'm consenting to it. And if you're

  285. consenting to it, you have to realize this clearly

  286. says, if sinners entice you, do not consent.

  287. Then skip to 15 and 16. And it says, my son,

  288. do not walk on the way with them. So we're continuing

  289. to talk about... And he gets into a much more

  290. wicked person than just a good person, like a

  291. follower of Christ who's doing a little bit of

  292. sin. He starts to talk about wickedness. And

  293. he says, do not walk on the way with them. In

  294. other words, don't go the path that they're traveling.

  295. He says, keep your feet from their path. There

  296. are many paths in life. One that we're called

  297. to, that's the highway of holiness. Again, not

  298. to get ahead of myself. there are many paths

  299. that you will wind up on. And I submit to you

  300. that if you are seen while on a path of wickedness,

  301. if you're seen in a bar buying rounds of drinks,

  302. then later, if you try to teach against drinking,

  303. it's not going to hold water. It's not going

  304. to work. If you're seen on a Sunday morning at

  305. noon on the golf course, and then later try to

  306. invite somebody to come to church on a Sunday

  307. at 1130, When they know that if you were going

  308. to do that, you wouldn't have been on the golf

  309. course at noon on a Sunday, then it's not going

  310. to hold water. They're going to be like, well,

  311. why do I even need to go? I'm not golfing this

  312. Sunday. I get that. I have a good reason not

  313. to go, but I can find some other good reason

  314. not to be there. And so what he's saying is you

  315. don't belong on the pathways that they're walking.

  316. Keep your feet from their path. Verse 16 then

  317. says, for their feet run to evil. And they are

  318. quick to shed blood. So basically, talking about

  319. the wicked person, or a person who does not know

  320. God, or a person who does not recognize God in

  321. his authority, how easy it is for them to do

  322. wrong. And we don't want to be like that. I'm

  323. going to go on then and read now Proverbs 2,

    Proverbs 2:1–20

  324. verses 1 through 20. Before I do that, I need

  325. you to ascend to a certain opinion with me. If

  326. we're going to get to where we're trying to get

  327. to today, we have to agree on one point. And

  328. that is that life consists of many turns. And

  329. by a turn, I mean a choice. Where you go one

  330. direction or another. Or maybe one of seven directions.

  331. Or maybe one of a hundred. You graduate high

  332. school, do you go to college? Do you get a job?

  333. Do you work at your job? Do you go and do a trade?

  334. Become a plumber or electrician? Do you get married?

  335. Do you not get married? Do you have kids? Do

  336. you not have kids? On what particular day do

  337. you attempt to have kids? What particular day

  338. do you cook at home? When do you eat out? Can

  339. we agree, I'm looking at eyes now, can we agree

  340. that life consists of many turns? Do we agree

  341. with that? I'm looking for somebody who does

  342. not agree. I'm going to call you out if you do

  343. not agree. Are we okay? Do we agree that life

  344. consists of many turns? All right. So I think

  345. we've got 100 % agreement, at least all of those

  346. who are looking at me. Now that being said, I

  347. want you to listen to Proverbs 20. I'm not going

  348. to break, I'm sorry, 2, 1 through 20. I'm not

  349. going to break down every verse. It says, My

  350. son, if you will receive my words and treasure

  351. my commandments within you, make your ear attentive

  352. to wisdom, incline your heart to understanding.

  353. For if you cry for discernment, lift your voice

  354. for understanding. If you seek her as silver

  355. and search for her as for hidden treasures. So

  356. in other words, if you'll spend your life searching

  357. out wisdom and understanding, then you will discern

  358. the fear of the Lord and discover the knowledge

  359. of God. For the Lord gives wisdom. From his mouth

  360. come knowledge and understanding. He stores up

  361. sound wisdom for the upright. He is a shield

  362. to those who walk in integrity. We'll stop after

  363. that verse and explain the word integrity for

  364. a second. The word integrity has the same root

  365. as the word integer. An integer is a whole number.

  366. A person has integrity when their wholeness,

  367. all that they are, is the same through and through.

  368. It surrounds one key point. And in the world

  369. right now, people are trying to build their integrity

  370. on all kinds of things. And it's respectable,

  371. right? If you always show up to work on time,

  372. give a hard day's work, draw your paycheck, maybe

  373. do a little extra at the end of the day, they

  374. will think you have integrity and they will pay

  375. you well. Okay? Maybe you're all about the money.

  376. You just want the money. You're looking for the

  377. promotion. You're wanting them to think good

  378. things of you, whatever. So you're building the

  379. integrity of your life on one of those things

  380. and they will pay you well. That's a reality.

  381. But that is not integrity that lasts for an eternity.

  382. That is integrity that lasts for a season. If

  383. you get a boss who's a dirtbag, who maybe sexually

  384. harasses you or talks bad about you behind your

  385. back constantly or maybe shaves your hours slightly,

  386. pretty soon you'll not be showing up on work.

  387. to work on time. You'll not be doing the extra

  388. work. You'll not be going the extra mile. And

  389. you'll justify that by saying he's a dirtbag

  390. or she's a dirtbag. Okay. Because the money is

  391. not enough. It's not enough to make you put up

  392. with what you're going through now. So an integer

  393. is a whole number. A person who has integrity

  394. is their whole being. All that they are centered

  395. around something that guides and directs them.

  396. It will last. All that we are now related to

  397. something that will last. I submit to you that

  398. our something is Jesus Christ. And he will last

  399. for an eternity. I'll read that verse again so

  400. we understand the context. He stores up sound

  401. wisdom for the upright. He is a shield to those

  402. who walk in integrity. Guarding the paths of

  403. justice. and he preserves the way of his godly

  404. ones. Then you will discern righteousness and

  405. justice and equity. Discern means you'll figure

  406. it out. You'll be able to tell one from the other.

  407. Righteous and justice and equity and every good

  408. course. By the way, equity just means what's

  409. right in that circumstance. For wisdom will enter

  410. your heart and knowledge will be pleasant to

  411. your soul. Discretion will guard you. Understanding

  412. will watch over you to deliver you from the...

  413. way of evil from the man who speaks perverse

  414. things, from those who lead the paths of uprightness

  415. to walk in the ways of darkness. Now here we

  416. got the guy, so now we're talking about people

  417. who, remember Proverbs 1, they let themselves

  418. be enticed or they consent, and now we're saying

  419. that the seekers of wisdom and understanding

  420. will be protected from people like that. You

  421. understand? So in other words, if you follow

  422. the Lord in the way that this person is calling

  423. you to do so, you will be protected from people

  424. who allow themselves to be enticed or who consent

  425. to those actions. So we need protection from

  426. them? When maybe right now we actually are them?

  427. That's interesting. 12 says, to deliver you from

  428. the way of evil, from the man who speaks perverse

  429. things. from those who leave the paths of uprightness

  430. to walk in the ways of darkness, who delight

  431. in doing evil and rejoice in the perversity of

  432. evil, whose paths are crooked and who are devious

  433. in their ways, to deliver you from the strange

  434. woman, from the adulteress who flatters with

  435. her words, that leaves the companion of her youth

  436. and forgets the covenant of her God, for her

  437. house sinks down to death and her tracks lead

  438. to the dead. None who go to her return again.

  439. nor do they reach the paths of life. So you will

  440. walk in the way of good men and keep to the paths

  441. of the righteous. The sermon title for today

  442. is Absolutely, separate syllable. I hope that

  443. made it up there, did it? It did. The dash is

  444. between the E and the L. There you see it now.

  445. Absolutely avoid overly agile adjusting. Wow.

  446. Absolutely avoid overly agile adjusting. Where's

  447. our tongue twister people? To avoid overly agile

  448. adjusting is to realize there are many turns

  449. in life, right? And you can very easily too quickly

  450. adjust. The fact is humans are capable of adjusting.

  451. We figured out what the problem is. When I was

  452. playing junior high football, I could turn on

  453. a dime. And because I could turn on a dime and

  454. the people trying to tackle me couldn't, I was

  455. all over the place. To run 50 yards, I would

  456. probably run 120 yards. But I'd make 50 yards.

  457. Right? Hold on one second. It is very possible

  458. then to make a too quick turn, to be enticed

  459. off the course of action, to be on the way that

  460. is not appropriate for God. Two reasons most

  461. people adjust to something not in God's plan.

  462. Are you with me? Two reasons why most people

  463. adjust to something. So you can be following

  464. the Lord with all your strength, following the

  465. Lord with all the wisdom that you currently have,

  466. following the Lord with all your learning in

  467. the Bible. currently have. And one of these two

  468. reasons will lead you to do something that is

  469. not God's will. The first one is simple. Agreement.

  470. We agree with the plan. We agree with the turn.

  471. It makes sense to us. This looks like the right

  472. thing to do. It appears this offers better outcomes.

  473. This happens to everybody who ever has to make

  474. a decision between working and going to church.

  475. Every time. I'm going to go to work, I'm going

  476. to get a payday. I'm going to go to church, what

  477. do I get? Right? And you go, well, providentially

  478. hindered, God gave me a job that requires me

  479. to work instead of being in worship today. So,

  480. that's what I'm going to do. It appears to offer

  481. better outcomes. Or, it avoids danger. This happens

  482. to everybody who refuses to talk about Jesus

  483. because they're afraid they'll be persecuted.

  484. I'm going to get away with this one. This is

  485. too much for me. I'm not going to risk whatever.

  486. It conserves resources for other pursuits. Well,

  487. you know, God wants me to serve in this way.

  488. God wants me to study the Word and to preach.

  489. So I don't have time for this other thing over

  490. here that in the back of my mind and in my heart

  491. I know God wants me to do because I've got to

  492. conserve my resources to do the thing that God

  493. wants me to do. When you're conserving your resources

  494. to do one thing that God wants you to do, At

  495. the same time, then, dismissing another thing

  496. that God wants you to do, that's not God. That's

  497. you. Because if you check your accounts, you'll

  498. find that you are completely capable of doing

  499. everything that God wants you to do and wait

  500. for it, everything else that God wants you to

  501. do. You have all the resources necessary to do

  502. that. When you don't have enough resources to

  503. do the thing that God's calling you to do, whatever

  504. it is, if it's 7th on the list or 50th on the

  505. list, if God is calling you to do it, if you

  506. don't have the resources, it's you that's causing

  507. the lack of resources, not God. Quick returns.

  508. I'm going to get something out of this. Right?

  509. Right now, if I do this, this will be the result.

  510. And I want it. I want that result. It'll come

  511. back fast. Following God, I might be patient

  512. and eventually achieve that which God is ending

  513. me towards. It's going to be great. Heaven's

  514. going to be awesome. But this is going to be

  515. like heaven on earth. This is going to be great

  516. right now. Right? It's a misinterpretation of

  517. God's will. I think this thing is God's will

  518. for me to go and do that. It's easy enough to

  519. look at something and go, this looks good. God

  520. wants to bless me. God wants to take care of

  521. me. God wants to provide for me. So this looks

  522. like it does that, so I can do that, right? And

  523. it's easy enough to misinterpret God's will if

  524. you don't have understanding. A messianic complex.

  525. You know what a messianic complex is? A messianic

  526. complex is that moment in time in which you think

  527. that it's your job to die like Jesus did. It's

  528. your job to give up everything you want and everything

  529. you are, sacrifice your life or your time or

  530. your resources, just like Jesus did. Guess what?

  531. Not your job. It's not your job. If there ever

  532. comes a moment in time in which you have to take

  533. a bullet from the Lord, you'll know that moment

  534. when it comes. And if you're orchestrating that

  535. now, you're blowing it. If you're suffering on

  536. purpose, that's not God, that's you. You understand?

  537. But it's super easy to make that turn when we

  538. start thinking that we are like Jesus. Hold on

  539. one second. I want to say something very clearly

  540. that we all should already know. You are not

  541. like Jesus. I am not like Jesus. Do we want to

  542. be? Are we growing to be? Are we getting to be,

  543. hopefully, if you're following the Lord, pursuing

  544. wisdom and understanding, a little bit more every

  545. day like Jesus? Yes. But are you close? I mean,

  546. is it like you're about to cross the finish line?

  547. Tomorrow you're going to be just like Jesus?

  548. No, not going to happen. That's not going to

  549. happen. You're not going to be just like Jesus

  550. in this lifetime. You're going to get a little

  551. closer, a little closer, or maybe sometimes a

  552. lot closer, but you're never going to really

  553. be close to being like Jesus. We perceive that

  554. we have unique insight. I know something that

  555. nobody else knows. I can get away with something.

  556. I can do something behind everybody else's back.

  557. Or I know exactly how to do this thing and nobody

  558. else knows it like me. And they always say, if

  559. you want something done right, do it yourself.

  560. Right? So I have this perfect perception. Nobody

  561. else quite has the understanding that I have.

  562. All of that is just pride and arrogance. As I

  563. stand before you today, I'm preaching the sermon

  564. that the Lord gave me. And you want to know what?

  565. If I was giving myself a sermon writing grade,

  566. I'd give it a C. As far as how well the sermon

  567. is written, I'd give it a C. After 12 hours,

  568. at least two of those spent in tears and several

  569. of them spent in sweat, I'd give it a C. But

  570. I also know that by the time we're done here

  571. today, you will have exactly what you need from

  572. the Lord because you don't get that from me.

  573. You don't get it from me. You don't get it from

  574. my process. You don't even get it from my Bible

  575. reading. You don't get it from anything that

  576. I do. You get that from the Lord. And if it wasn't

  577. like that, I couldn't be a pastor. I don't have

  578. any unique insight. I worked 12 hours to be able

  579. to say what I'm saying before you now. That's

  580. not unique insight. If you had worked 12 hours,

  581. you probably would have something to say too.

  582. Maybe several somethings. I could probably write

  583. six sermons in 12 hours. Perceiving that you

  584. have unique insight will lead you to take in

  585. a turn that is not in the Lord's will if you're

  586. not careful. The persistence of temptation, it

  587. just keeps coming. Just keeps coming. Yep, I

  588. just keep getting distracted. It keeps coming

  589. after me. I keep thinking. I've got it in my

  590. flesh, in myself, in my mind. I think, well,

  591. this could work. No, I'm not going to do it.

  592. I put it off 20 times, 30 times, 40 times, and

  593. finally I'm going to just do it. Poor self -esteem.

  594. I know that we know that we're not like Jesus,

  595. but you also have to realize you're not like

  596. the world. You're so far above anybody that doesn't

  597. know Jesus, right? John Vaps is a pretty cool

  598. guy, right? John the Baptist is amazing. Thousands

  599. of people walked up and downhill over broken

  600. terrain every day to hear him be baptized. Hundreds

  601. or thousands of people in the River Jordan. Pretty

  602. cool guy, right? Do you know that Jesus said

  603. about him that greater is every one of us individually

  604. than he was? In fact, he even said that if we

  605. would believe and trust God, call on his name

  606. and believe that we have what we have, we'll

  607. do greater things than Jesus did. you're pretty

  608. incredible. And if you've got poor self -esteem,

  609. if you're trying to look better, act better,

  610. think better, feel better, so you can put yourself

  611. up there, you can be okay because you have poor

  612. self -esteem, then something's wrong. Your eyes

  613. should be on Jesus, not on you. You don't have

  614. to spend all this time judging yourself as like

  615. you're worthless or something like that. That's

  616. a big waste. But that poor self -esteem then

  617. will lead you because you'll find somebody, a

  618. sinner, who will entice you, who will say, you

  619. can feel better, look better, be better, be richer.

  620. You can get rid of your health problems. All

  621. these things are available to you if you'll just

  622. take this turn that I'm offering you. And that

  623. turn leads you onto a way that sinners walk.

  624. We have short memory of blessings. If you are

  625. saved, you remember a minimum of one moment in

  626. time in which the God of heaven did something

  627. absolutely incredible. And if you've never seen

  628. any other miracles, I think you probably have.

  629. If you didn't know it, I'm sorry. If you've never

  630. seen any other miracles, then you had at least

  631. a minimum of one miracle. You had a showing up

  632. of the Holy Spirit where you were transformed

  633. and you said, from now on, this is me and Jesus.

  634. A thing that previous to that you never would

  635. have done. With this Holy Spirit in you and that

  636. feeling, there's no way that we should have a

  637. short memory of that. In sports, you make a play,

  638. you blow up, you foolishly trip on the basketball

  639. court, or you run the wrong way and score a touchdown

  640. for the other team. Something really dumb, right?

  641. You're supposed to have a short memory. You forget

  642. that. Get back out there because if you can score

  643. one the wrong way for the other team, you can

  644. score one or two or three for your team going

  645. the right way. And you're supposed to have a

  646. short memory. But in the kingdom, we don't have

  647. a short memory. We look at that moment. There

  648. are two moments in time at which you must never

  649. forget. You should guard everything and guide

  650. everything in your life by these two moments.

  651. And one of them was when you got saved and the

  652. other one is when you walk into heaven. And one

  653. of them you can see and personally experienced.

  654. And the other... You can only believe it in faith

  655. because it's not yet realized. But it's real.

  656. And people forget the memory of the blessings

  657. of the amazing thing of God when you prayed and

  658. someone was healed, when you prayed and your

  659. soul was saved, etc. Don't forget that because

  660. the moment you start to walk onto that other

  661. path, you should realize, hey, I'm walking away

  662. from that. And the last one is very convicting.

  663. A feeling of peace about the turn. How many times

  664. have you ever had somebody, I've been praying

  665. about it, I've been talking to the Lord about

  666. this thing that I'm going to do, and I have a

  667. feeling of peace. I submit to you that by the

  668. time you have to pray about something so that

  669. you can have a feeling of peace, you already

  670. have considerable reservations. You have questions

  671. as to whether that's the right course or not.

  672. And there is a process in the Bible, one of those

  673. parts is prayer, but it's not the only prayer.

  674. But you say, well, I prayed and God is authorizing

  675. this in me because I have unique insight. Wait,

  676. that was on the list, wasn't it? Well, I prayed

  677. and I know this is what God wants me to do because

  678. I can see it's going to turn out. I can see how

  679. God is going to use this for his glory. Something

  680. amazing is going to happen. Wait, that's quick

  681. returns. I can see how by doing this, God's setting

  682. me up to be successful in this other area of

  683. ministry over here. That's conserving resources

  684. for other pursuits. And the list goes on. So

  685. we need to be careful as we're looking at these

  686. turns that we don't come into agreement with

  687. that person who's trying to entice us and go

  688. the wrong way, which we could very easily do

  689. because you can see that all of those things,

  690. none of those things are nuts. They're not insanity.

  691. They're not inherently evil, right? Quick returns,

  692. that's good. You go to McDonald's, you give them

  693. the money, they give you the food, you're driving

  694. on, you're eating your Big Mac. Yay! That's not

  695. a bad thing, except McDonald's might be actually

  696. bad for you. Probably, but that's another thing

  697. altogether. There's nothing really wrong with

  698. quick returns inherently, but it's when it's

  699. quick returns in your own strength, quick returns

  700. outside his wisdom or understanding, when it's

  701. quick returns that leads you to be enticed or

  702. to consent. That was the first one. So the first

  703. one is the problem is you may actually agree

  704. for one of those or other reasons, you may actually

  705. agree that this turn is an appropriate turn to

  706. take off the course that God has laid out for

  707. you onto a course that sinners would tread. The

  708. second one is what I call antagonistic alignments.

  709. And this is a real problem because you have carrying

  710. around with you, right now you are carrying around

  711. with you the largest battery that you personally

  712. will probably ever lift. And it's full of desire.

  713. And it is your body. Your flesh has desires.

  714. It has wants. It has needs. Just don't eat for

  715. a few days and actually feel what real hunger

  716. feels like. And we're all like, oh, it's four

  717. o 'clock and I haven't eaten anything today.

  718. I'm terribly hungry. No, you're not, right? What's

  719. happening is the fat cells in your body and your

  720. parasites and whatever are crying out to eat.

  721. But the truth is people don't get hungry when

  722. they don't eat for six or eight hours. That's

  723. just not the math of it. People get hungry when

  724. they don't eat for a couple of days. But we don't

  725. know that in America. So we think the first thing

  726. is hunger. Understand? So what I'm saying to

  727. you is this. We have in us the capability of

  728. antagonistic alignments where we start to think

  729. that this other way is a way, even though it's

  730. contrary to what God says. So first of all, this

  731. is the list. I'll go quickly. First one is carpe

  732. diem. Seize the day. Do it right now. Isn't that

  733. exciting? If I seize the day and do it right

  734. now, I feel powerful. If I can buy it, if I have

  735. the money in my bank and I can buy it and nobody

  736. can tell me no, that's power. If it's midnight

  737. and I can choose to stay up and watch one more

  738. episode, that's power because I can choose. If

  739. somebody says something or does something and

  740. I choose whether or not to rebuke them, that's

  741. power. And so we think by seizing the day, by

  742. making something happen, we're doing something

  743. good. But in actuality, we're doing something

  744. antagonistic to God. There is a rush. A quickness,

  745. a sneaky rush, a sinful rush, a desire to do

  746. something even though it's a bad thing. And we

  747. get a rush out of our heart beats fast. Our lungs

  748. process more oxygen because we're doing something.

  749. We know we could get caught. We know we're not

  750. doing something right and so on. We think there's

  751. no downside. Well, I can do whatever I want to

  752. do because there's no downside at all. There's

  753. nothing bad that could come out of this. You

  754. understand? There's nothing bad that could come

  755. out of this. And so we go for it. This thing

  756. is faster. This thing provides me with community.

  757. I need somebody to love on me. I need encouragement.

  758. I need relationship. This thing provides me with

  759. community. You get surrounded by a gang of thieves.

  760. Most gangs, by the way, run off a family mentality.

  761. You get jumped in and after that you're a brother

  762. or a sister. And if somebody says something kind

  763. of snotty to you, they get beat. Any little thing

  764. that they would do to upset you. They get beat.

  765. The family protects its own. And so they're using

  766. community to draw people into a wicked path.

  767. And we start thinking community. We need simplicity.

  768. We don't want to think. It's too complex. It's

  769. too hard for me to figure out what the right

  770. thing to do here is. I don't want to process

  771. it. I just want to go. It's like, why is life

  772. always so stressful that I always have to do

  773. the right thing? Or revenge. Somebody hurt us

  774. and we're going to teach them a lesson. Or anger,

  775. undirected. I have this emotive energy to do

  776. something about it, so now I'm yelling, screaming,

  777. breaking things, whatever. All of those are off

  778. the course that God has laid out for us. Misplaced

  779. loyalty. So we think, I am for this person, my

  780. brother, my sister, my friend, my boyfriend,

  781. my girlfriend. When they do something wrong,

  782. I'm not going to tell anyone what they did. You

  783. follow? So I know they did something wrong, but

  784. I'm not going to out them, no matter what, because

  785. I am loyal to them. That's misplaced loyalty.

  786. It's ungodly action. And we make it out to be

  787. like that's a good thing. Because you get called

  788. a tattletale if somebody tells when somebody

  789. else did something wrong. Do you know how many

  790. rapes have gone unprocessed because no one would

  791. talk? Do you know how many murders have never

  792. been caught? How many drug dealers continue to

  793. push drugs on kids under the age of 12 because

  794. nobody in their neighborhood will say anything?

  795. That's all misplaced loyalty at best. Corrupt

  796. love. Boyfriends and girlfriends say they're

  797. going to do whatever. And we know that real love

  798. does not act unseemly. That was in 1 Corinthians

  799. 13. We studied it heartily. So we get this idea.

  800. Well, I love so -and -so and they want to do

  801. it. In my early Christian days, we had a Bible

  802. study. And there was a woman there. And the question

  803. came up in the Bible study. What would you do

  804. if your husband of 20 years told you to help

  805. him rob a bank? And she said, well, I'd do it.

  806. Because the Bible says submit to your husband.

  807. And a huge debate broke out. Like, are we really

  808. debating this? About whether or not if your husband

  809. told you to rob a bank, you would do it? The

  810. moment your husband tells you to rob a bank,

  811. he has ceased to be your husband. You understand?

  812. Because a husband does not drag a woman into

  813. evil. A boyfriend or a girlfriend does not drag

  814. their significant other into evil. That's unseemly.

  815. That's corrupt love at best. That's the best

  816. it is. The truth is, it's actually hate. A lack

  817. of understanding. I just don't know and I don't

  818. want to or I do know like I got the wisdom I

  819. know that lying is wrong but I think I might

  820. get away with this time or I might get good results

  821. this time or it might be different now and so

  822. on and so on. It's a lack of understanding being

  823. able to submit to what you know. Giving in to

  824. human nature. People say well everybody does

  825. it so if everybody does it it can't be wrong

  826. for me. Or Keeping up with the Joneses. Somebody

  827. else did it and they got a good result. So I'm

  828. going to do what they did to get the same result.

  829. Facebook memes are all about that. Reels, right?

  830. Here's 75 different guys want to teach you how

  831. to start your own website, start your own business,

  832. buy this supplement and be healthy and so on.

  833. Because they all say it's all taking care of

  834. everything. The bottom line is there are two

  835. essential groups and you might find more. that

  836. the Lord really led me to look at. And the first

  837. one is that we will actually leave the road that

  838. God has laid out for us because, number one,

  839. we agree. We need a solution for that. We cannot

  840. agree with what wicked people are enticing us

  841. to do. We cannot consent to wickedness in our

  842. presence. We cannot do it. If you're a follower

  843. of Jesus Christ, you cannot do it. And therefore,

  844. we need a solution. And secondly, we may actually

  845. have antagonistic alignments. We may live in

  846. our flesh, in our mind, in our own... ways that

  847. we're doing things or others are enticing us

  848. to do things. We may do them even though they

  849. are contrary to God. If these things would lead

  850. us to do things that are contrary to God, then

  851. we know we need a solution. We need a solution.

  852. Proverbs 4 says this, listen my sons to the instructions

  853. of a father and pay attention so that you may

  854. gain understanding. Hear that? Listen to the

  855. instruction of the father and then pay attention

  856. so that you may gain understanding. For I give

  857. you good teaching. Do not abandon my instruction.

  858. When I was a son to my father, tender and the

  859. only son in the sight of my mother, he taught

  860. me and said to me, let your heart take hold of

  861. my words. Keep my commandments and live. Acquire

  862. wisdom. Acquire understanding. Do not forget

  863. nor turn away from the words of my mouth. Do

  864. not abandon her and she will guard you. Love

  865. her and she will watch over you. The beginning

  866. of wisdom is acquire wisdom. And with all your

  867. possessions, acquire understanding. Prize her

  868. and she will exalt you. She will honor you if

  869. you embrace her. She will place on your head

  870. a garland of grace. She will present you with

  871. a crown of beauty. Listen, my son, and accept

  872. my sayings and the years of your life will be

  873. many. I have instructed you in the way of wisdom

  874. and I have led you in upright paths. When you

  875. walk, your steps will not be hampered and if

  876. you run, you will not stumble. Take hold of instruction.

  877. Do not let go. Guard her for she is your life.

  878. Do not enter the path of the wicked and do not

  879. proceed in the way of evil people. Avoid it.

  880. Do not pass by it. Turn away from it and pass

  881. on. For they cannot sleep unless they do evil

  882. and they are robbed of sleep unless they make

  883. someone stumble. For they eat the bread of wickedness

  884. and drink the wine of violence. But the path

  885. of righteous is like the light of the dawn. This

  886. is the path that we want to be on. It's like

  887. the light of the dawn that shines brighter and

  888. brighter until the full day. The way of the wicked

  889. is like darkness. They do not know over what

  890. they stumble. My son, pay attention to my words.

  891. Incline your ear to my sayings. They are not

  892. to escape from your sight. Keep them in the midst

  893. of your heart. For they are life to those who

  894. find them and healing to all their body. Watch

  895. over your heart with all diligence. For from

  896. it flow the springs of life. Rid yourself of

  897. a deceitful mouth and keep devious speech far

  898. from you. Let your eyes look. directly ahead,

  899. and let your gaze be fixed straight in front

  900. of you. Watch the path of your feet, and all

  901. your ways will be established. Do not turn to

  902. the right or to the left. Turn your foot from

  903. evil. That last verse, do not turn to the right

  904. or to the left. Turn your foot from evil, is

  905. the key verse to what we are talking about today.

  906. Everyone turns. Life is full of turns. But the

  907. Bible says, Do not turn to the right or to the

  908. left. Turn your foot from evil. Psalm 97 .10

  909. says this. It says, You that love the Lord hate

  910. evil. The highway of holiness has two boundaries,

  911. essentially, speaking in three dimensions. They

  912. are this. God as our shield and wisdom. and the

  913. pursuit of understanding as our course. You ever

  914. wondered in the family of God, if God is our

  915. father, who is our mother? You ever think about

  916. that? If God is our father, who is our mother?

  917. And you might say, maybe the Holy Spirit. No,

  918. the Holy Spirit is our father. God the Father,

  919. God the Son. God the Holy Spirit, that's our

  920. father. He is our father. So, who is our mother?

  921. And the writer of Proverbs is telling you that

  922. your mother is the pursuit of wisdom and understanding.

  923. Now, this is cool because my mother and my father

  924. taught me some pretty valuable lessons when I

  925. was growing up. My dad was quiet, reserved. He

  926. was an honest man, a hard worker. He was a professing

  927. Christian from the time he was about 12 years

  928. old, but backslidden from the time he was 17

  929. to the time that he was 58, 59, something like

  930. that. And so it wasn't anything about God. But

  931. there was some integrity in him. But he was always

  932. distant from me. He didn't make time for me.

  933. He didn't play with me and stuff. Like I would

  934. ask him if he didn't have anything else going

  935. on and we might throw the ball in the side yard.

  936. But that's about the only thing we ever did together.

  937. We went places and traveled and stuff like that.

  938. If I asked him to help on a project, if I could

  939. be of help, he would let me help. That kind of

  940. thing. My mother was always for me. She wasn't

  941. even a Christian. She didn't know the Lord. She

  942. didn't get saved until she was 56 years old.

  943. And she would entice me to do things that I shouldn't

  944. do. She taught me to lie as I was growing up

  945. and it took a couple, two and a half years after

  946. I got saved for me to break free from the bondage

  947. of that. But she was sweet on me. She provided

  948. for me. She was there. She protected me against

  949. when a bigger kid and I were fighting, she would

  950. protect me against them. And then if I would

  951. get in trouble because some kid would pick a

  952. fight with me and then I'd beat him up, which

  953. was an unfortunate common circumstance from the

  954. time I was about like fourth grade to the time

  955. I was about eighth grade. And then their mom

  956. would come complaining to me after he started

  957. the fight, and I would win the fight, and then

  958. she'd come complaining, and my mom would say,

  959. get a lawyer. She was with me all the time. And

  960. the pursuit of wisdom and understanding is like

  961. that for us. In fact, the Bible says that the

  962. Holy Spirit is the one, He is the one, who makes

  963. us able to understand the Word of God. And out

  964. of that, we should gain wisdom and understanding

  965. as He teaches us all things that Jesus taught

  966. us. So we are followers of the Lord Jesus Christ.

  967. Jesus said, who do you say that I am? You better

  968. be able to say he's the son of God, God in the

  969. flesh who lived and died for your sins and now

  970. leads you every single day. Jesus said, would

  971. you go away from me then after these tough teachings

  972. and so many people left me? And he said, no,

  973. how could I? How could we go away from you? You

  974. have the words of life. So you come to Jesus.

  975. and to the word of God and to Jesus' church who

  976. is the body of Christ. David wrote, Thy word

  977. have I hid in my heart that I might not sin against

  978. thee. So we take in the word of God so that we

  979. cannot be enticed, so we cannot veer off like

  980. what we're talking about. Jesus himself was tempted

  981. and every time presents back with the word of

  982. God and stands up against those temptations.

  983. Paul gives a great argument. in front of Herod,

  984. why Jesus is who he said he was, and Herod said,

  985. what would you want today? That even I would

  986. become a Christian? We should be able to stand

  987. up for what we know is right, and at every turn,

  988. stay on the highway of holiness and do what it

  989. is that God would have us to do. Here's the question.

  990. What do you know? What do you know? That's knowledge.

  991. And if it's knowledge of God, then it's wisdom.

  992. And then out of that, the question that follows

  993. is, how does what you know affect your steadfastness?

  994. Your ability to stay on the right course and

  995. do the right thing. Are you letting what you

  996. have learned about God affect your day -to -day

  997. choices? Do you understand it? Can you not only

  998. do the right thing, but know why you are doing

  999. the right thing and explain doing the right thing

  1000. to someone else? And you say, well, sometimes

  1001. I can and sometimes I can't. And that's exactly

  1002. where you're supposed to be, but pressing forward

  1003. always to gain more wisdom and understanding.

  1004. That's the pathway. That's the solution. And

  1005. if we are doing that, then we will arrive ultimately

  1006. at the destination that God has laid out for

  1007. us. Romans 12 says that by the renewing of our

  1008. mind, we will eventually be able to test and

  1009. approve what is the good and perfect will of

  1010. God. Do you want to know what God wants you to

  1011. do? then you should be pursuing wisdom and understanding

  1012. constantly. Is this starting to become convicting?

  1013. Because it was for me. And I've been to Bible

  1014. college and seminary. Ephesians 6 says, and after

  1015. everything, in the day of evil and after everything,

  1016. to still be standing. So you've still got to

  1017. be staying the course. The Word of God speaks

  1018. again and again about being calm in the face

  1019. of distraction, in the face of struggles and

  1020. a lack of peace and anxiety. Psalm 27 .1 says,

  1021. The Lord is my light and my salvation, so why

  1022. should I be afraid? The Lord is my fortress protecting

  1023. me from danger, so why should I tremble? Are

  1024. you afraid? If you're afraid, I submit to you,

  1025. it's because you're so used to this turn, turn,

  1026. turn thing, and you've been on and off the path

  1027. of uprightness. You've been doing things without

  1028. really knowing why you're doing them. And that

  1029. makes you wonder if something you're going to

  1030. do is going to disqualify you somehow or is going

  1031. to take you out of the picture so you can't really

  1032. be the person, the man or the woman that God

  1033. wants you to be. That would be the only reason

  1034. to be afraid. But if the Lord is your light and

  1035. your salvation, then why would you ever be afraid?

  1036. Proverbs 3 says this, Did you catch that? Length

  1037. of days? Years of life? And peace? Do not let

  1038. kindness and truth leave you. Bind them around

  1039. your neck. Write them on the tablet of your heart

  1040. so you will find favor and good repute in the

  1041. sight of God and man. Favor and good repute in

  1042. the sight of God and man? Holy moly. And what

  1043. are we supposed to do to get this? Pursue wisdom

  1044. and understanding. That's what we have to do.

  1045. From wherever you are, pushing ever forward,

  1046. staying on the highway, the best you know, not

  1047. enticed or consenting to those who would lead

  1048. you off. Rather, just pushing forward. What's

  1049. your progress? What speed do you have to travel?

  1050. Do you have to get the light speed on this? No.

  1051. What if it's a crawl? What if it's a creeping?

  1052. What if it's inch by inch like an inchworm? Like

  1053. a snail? Would that be good enough? Yes. Yes,

  1054. it would, because it's about the posture and

  1055. the direction, not about the speed. In fact,

  1056. when you start to think you've got a lot of speed,

  1057. you may be in danger of falling into the idea

  1058. of thinking you're the only one who has a certain

  1059. enlightenment, which could lead you off the path.

  1060. It is just about pursuing wisdom and understanding.

  1061. Five says, trust in the Lord with all your heart.

  1062. Do not lean on your own understanding. See, we

  1063. could have the wisdom, start to do the things

  1064. that God has called us to do, and not have the

  1065. understanding. leaning on our own understanding

  1066. of those things, he says, don't do that. He says,

  1067. instead, in all your ways, acknowledge him and

  1068. he will make your paths straight. Do not be wise

  1069. in your own eyes. In other words, not wisdom

  1070. by your own standards, but by God's. Fear the

  1071. Lord and turn away from evil. And it will be

  1072. healing to your body and refreshment to your

  1073. bones. Holy cow! Do you realize the list of stuff

  1074. that's here promised? That's here observed by

  1075. Solomon? It was a lot. It was everything that

  1076. anyone could ever want, including now healing

  1077. to your body and refreshment to your bones. Honor

  1078. the Lord from your wealth and from the first

  1079. of all your produce. That's tithing and offering.

  1080. Honor him with all your money. That's tithing

  1081. and offering. And he says, and so your barns

  1082. will be filled with plenty and your vats will

  1083. overflow with new wine. My son, do not reject

  1084. the discipline of the Lord or loathe his reproof.

  1085. In other words, when God corrects you, don't

  1086. get upset about that. Don't despise it. Don't

  1087. push back. For whom the Lord loves, He reproves,

  1088. even as a father corrects the son in whom he

  1089. delights. Did you catch that? I don't stand up

  1090. here and preach a hard word out of the Bible

  1091. because I'm mad at you or because I hate you.

  1092. I'm trying to deliver unto you that which God

  1093. has delivered to me so we can do something about

  1094. it together. God loves you. Ty, your dad has

  1095. never punished you because he hates you. You

  1096. understand? Haley, you've never been grounded

  1097. or got your phone taken away once because your

  1098. parents don't love you. Alex, Pastor Dan never

  1099. called you out in the hallway because he didn't

  1100. love you or hated you. You understand? If someone

  1101. will rebuke you, it means they care enough to

  1102. do so. And that's what he's saying. God cares

  1103. enough to do that for us. Isaiah 41 says it this

  1104. way. He says, You whom I have taken from the

  1105. ends of the earth. That'd be us. Yay! There we

  1106. are in scripture. And called from its remotest

  1107. parts and said to you, You are my servant. I

  1108. have chosen you and not rejected you. Do not

  1109. fear for I am with you. Do not anxiously look

  1110. about you for I am your God. I will strengthen

  1111. you. Surely I will help you. Surely I will uphold

  1112. you with my righteous right hand. Behold, all

  1113. those who are angered at you will be shamed and

  1114. dishonored. Those who contend with you will be

  1115. as nothing and will perish. Do you understand

  1116. the promises that God is saying? If you will

  1117. live your life this way in the fear of the Lord

  1118. and pursuit of wisdom and understanding, God

  1119. is saying that he will shame those who have dishonored

  1120. you. He will contend with them. They will be

  1121. as nothing and will perish. He says, you will

  1122. seek those who quarrel with you, but will not

  1123. find them. Those who war with you will be as

  1124. nothing and non -existent. For I am the Lord

  1125. your God who upholds your right hand, who says

  1126. to you, do not fear, I will help you. Do not

  1127. fear, you worm Jacob, that's Israel. He says,

  1128. you men of Israel, which these promises can carry

  1129. right over to the church as we have been grafted

  1130. into Israel. And he says, I will help you, declares

  1131. the Lord. And your Redeemer is the Holy One of

  1132. Israel. Do you not understand that the God of

  1133. heaven who created everything, died on the cross

  1134. for you, now owns you, leads you daily? And you

  1135. would give in to agreeing with sinners over what

  1136. the right thing to do is? Or you would give in

  1137. to your antagonistic approach of getting your

  1138. own way that goes contrary to the one who made

  1139. the universe and died for you? That doesn't make

  1140. any sense. That's just dumb. You may as well

  1141. head butt a semi at 90 mile an hour in opposite

  1142. directions. You're running against God. Why would

  1143. you ever give in to the enticement of sinners?

  1144. Why would you ever consent to what's going on

  1145. around you that is sin? Why would you not always

  1146. pursue wisdom and understanding if these are

  1147. the observations of how it works when people

  1148. do that? Then Jesus said, Come to me, all of

  1149. you who are weary and carry heavy burdens, and

  1150. I will give you rest. I am leaving you with a

  1151. gift, peace of mind and heart, and the peace

  1152. I give you is a gift the world cannot give. So

  1153. don't be troubled or afraid. Don't worry about

  1154. anything. Instead, pray about everything. Tell

  1155. God what you need and thank Him for all He has

  1156. done. Then you will experience God's peace which

  1157. exceeds anything we can understand. His peace

  1158. will guard your hearts and minds as you live

  1159. in Christ Jesus. That last was Paul in Philippians

  1160. 4. Paul writes to Timothy, For God has not given

  1161. us a spirit of fear and timidity, but of power,

  1162. love, and self -discipline. Stay the course.

  1163. And what is the course? Pursue wisdom and understanding.

  1164. Psalm 119, which is all about the Bible. It's

  1165. all about... The importance of staying on God's

  1166. path, walking in His law and seeking Him with

  1167. the whole heart. And here's a few verses from

  1168. there. Blessed are the undefiled in the way who

  1169. walk in the law of the Lord. Thou hast commanded

  1170. us to keep thy precepts diligently. That means

  1171. we were going to work hard to do what God has

  1172. told us to do. Oh, that my ways were directed

  1173. to keep thy statutes. I will praise thee with

  1174. uprightness of heart when I shall have learned

  1175. thy righteous judgments. I will keep thy statutes

  1176. and forsake Oh, forsake me not utterly. It's

  1177. a prayer to God. I will keep what God told me

  1178. to do. Please, Lord, don't give me up. Colossians

  1179. 2, as therefore you receive Christ Jesus the

  1180. Lord, so walk in Him, rooted and built up in

  1181. Him, and established in the faith as you have

  1182. been taught, abounding in thanksgiving. Let your

  1183. eyes look straight ahead and fix your gaze directly

  1184. before you. Ponder the path of your feet and

  1185. be sure that all your ways are good. Do not turn

  1186. to the right or to the left. Keep your foot from

  1187. evil. We read that. I press on toward the goal

  1188. to win the prize for which God has called me

  1189. heavenward. Let us fix our eyes on Jesus, the

  1190. author and perfecter of our faith, who for the

  1191. joy set before him endured the cross, despising

  1192. the shame, sat down at the right hand of the

  1193. throne of God. In your patience, possess your

  1194. souls. To him who overcomes, I will let him sit

  1195. on my throne with me as my father has let me

  1196. sit on his throne with him. Well done, good and

  1197. faithful servant, Matthew 25. I know in whom

  1198. I have trusted, I believe is able to keep unto

  1199. that day that which I have entrusted to him,

  1200. 2 Timothy. Because we know the terror of the

  1201. Lord, we persuade men, 2 Corinthians 5. So I

  1202. ask you this. Will you walk in the way of good

  1203. men and keep to the path of the righteous? That's

  1204. Proverbs 4 .20, which we read. Two efforts will

  1205. make this so. Two things that you must do, that

  1206. I must do, that we must do as a community, as

  1207. the church, as the world. And they sound simple.

  1208. But I know in practice they are not always simple.

  1209. But they are doable in the Lord. And the first

  1210. one is trust in the Lord. Trust in the Lord.

  1211. He'll get his part right. Trust in the Lord.

  1212. He'll get his part right. You don't have to do

  1213. it for him. Trust him. He'll get his part right.

  1214. If you don't trust him, if you can't trust him,

  1215. if you have not trusted him, then you're not

  1216. saved. Jesus Christ came to die on the cross

  1217. for your sins, to pay for your sins. And whosoever

  1218. believes in him shall not perish, but have everlasting

  1219. life means you must trust him. Trust God. And

  1220. if you're getting out of bed some days, and some

  1221. days you trust him and some days you don't, something's

  1222. wrong. And I submit to you, we now know what's

  1223. wrong. If some days you get out of bed trusting

  1224. God and some days you don't, or some hours you

  1225. trust him and some days you don't, we now know

  1226. what's wrong. What's wrong is we're missing the

  1227. pursuit of our life. The one thing. The other

  1228. thing of the two. The two efforts that are absolutely

  1229. necessary. that other one is missing in your

  1230. life. If sometimes you trust him and sometimes

  1231. you don't, the other one is missing. And what

  1232. is it? Well, now you know, don't you? The purpose

  1233. of your life is to seek wisdom and understanding.

  1234. The highway of holiness has one gas pedal, one

  1235. shifter stick, one chariot that will carry you

  1236. forward. And it is seeking his wisdom and understanding.

  1237. And we come to the conclusion. Church organization

  1238. is a God -giving coping mechanism. The truth

  1239. is, based on this, what did we just say? The

  1240. two things you must do, you must trust in the

  1241. Lord. You must trust in the Lord. He'll get his

  1242. part right. And you must spend your life in the

  1243. pursuit of wisdom and understanding. Those are

  1244. the two things. Everything I read, every bit

  1245. of it says you'll get everything you could ever

  1246. really want. If you spend your life in the pursuit

  1247. of wisdom and understanding and trust the Lord.

  1248. But that would mean that we all have to go to

  1249. Bible college. We all have to go to seminary.

  1250. We all have to go on to the mission field. We

  1251. all have to spend hours every week, 10, 15, 20,

  1252. whatever it takes you, writing lessons and sermons.

  1253. And then, on top of that, we all have to be present

  1254. at the presentation of every one of those lessons

  1255. and sermons. There are 168 hours in a week, and

  1256. you sleep for 56 of it. If you sleep 8 hours

  1257. a night, some of us can't get 8 hours a night.

  1258. But if you sleep 8 hours a night, 8 times 7 is

  1259. 56. That leaves 113 hours. And by all rights,

  1260. then, the two things you must certainly do, every

  1261. hour, every minute of every hour, every second

  1262. of every minute, Of the 113 hours are trust the

  1263. Lord and pursue wisdom and knowledge, wisdom

  1264. and understanding. Right? That's what we just

  1265. read. It's all scriptural. I'm not making it

  1266. up. You heard all those verses I read. Trust

  1267. the Lord and pursue wisdom and understanding.

  1268. Okay, but then where does working a 40 -hour

  1269. work week come in? Where does washing the clothes

  1270. come in? Where does eating? buying or cooking

  1271. your food come in? Where does taking care of

  1272. your loved ones come in? So what God has done

  1273. is God has ordained a structure, an organism,

  1274. if you will, and given certain people inside

  1275. that organism certain jobs. Since we can't all

  1276. spend 5 to 20 hours a week studying scripture

  1277. and writing lessons, we can't all go to Bible

  1278. college and seminary, and that was never going

  1279. to be an efficient way to operate the kingdom

  1280. of God. God gave pastors and teachers and preachers.

  1281. And servants in the church to do that very thing.

  1282. If you are called to that route. Then you will

  1283. probably have to do those things. So that you

  1284. can facilitate others. Pursuit of wisdom and

  1285. understanding. Subtle steps away from the Lord.

  1286. Business conducted. Tiredness. Reasonableness.

  1287. Doesn't matter why you get there, subtle steps

  1288. away from the Lord are still just that, steps

  1289. away from the Lord. The pastor's best or the

  1290. teacher's best will never be quite good enough.

  1291. It may be a little bit long or it might not incorporate

  1292. humor enough or enough popular references or

  1293. too many popular references. It might not use

  1294. the exact verses that you would have chose to

  1295. use. But none of that was included in the two

  1296. -part action plan that we have that yields all

  1297. those promises. Simply trust in the Lord. He'll

  1298. get his part right and live in pursuit of wisdom

  1299. and understanding. That's your job. So if you

  1300. walk away from the sermon and a week later or

  1301. a month later, you can't trace back anything

  1302. that you're doing differently. any strength that

  1303. you might have to anything that you heard preached

  1304. here, then there's a substantial possibility

  1305. that God's not in my preaching and you should

  1306. probably go somewhere else. I would. If I were

  1307. you and I was sitting here Sunday after Sunday

  1308. and I wasn't hearing from the Lord when the pastor

  1309. speaks, when I wasn't feeling the Spirit move

  1310. in me when the worship plays, I'd go somewhere

  1311. else. May as well just go to the first church

  1312. of Satan. I hear they have really good services.

  1313. Or a universal church over there. You don't have

  1314. to do anything. You go to heaven no matter what.

  1315. He's getting the same thing out of it. The truth

  1316. is, we are here as a church to reach new heights

  1317. in Jesus, which is to say, we are trusting the

  1318. Lord and pursuing wisdom and understanding. It

  1319. is not good enough for you to just know what

  1320. I said or what the Bible said or what the verses

  1321. say. It's not even good enough for you to just

  1322. know what they mean. That's wisdom. But it's

  1323. the pursuit of wisdom and understanding. You

  1324. have to know... how you know, what you know,

  1325. how you can use what you know, when it might

  1326. come in handy, how you can teach it to others,

  1327. that's understanding. You have to stand under

  1328. what you've learned. There is more work to be

  1329. done than just showing up on Sunday morning.

  1330. There's more work to be done than just showing

  1331. up on Tuesday night. Or just showing up on Sunday

  1332. morning and Tuesday night. But here we live in

  1333. a day where we are allowing business and tiredness

  1334. and... All of these other things, reasonableness,

  1335. logical steps that we might need to take in our

  1336. lives to get to where we think we're going, to

  1337. interfere with our ability to study the word

  1338. of God, to spend time in worship together, to

  1339. live in community as a church. And I know this

  1340. might sound self -serving, but I don't mean it

  1341. to. And to hear the preaching of the pastor.

  1342. I've already given you authorization to go somewhere

  1343. else if you think that's better for you. But

  1344. to not be here on a Sunday. And especially when,

  1345. like, if you're not here because you're sick,

  1346. you could just watch it online or listen to the

  1347. podcast and not get what comes out of every single

  1348. sermon. That's on you. It's not on me and it's

  1349. not on God. If you're on your phone and you're

  1350. only getting 80 % of what I'm saying, then you're

  1351. 20 % a sinner. You're consenting to 20 % loss

  1352. of information. Willingly. Just the same as if

  1353. you had your earbuds in and they were turned

  1354. down. It's the same thing. Whatever comes of

  1355. us being together in community and working like

  1356. this to pursue wisdom and understanding at the

  1357. end of a hard -fought battle after the pastor

  1358. spent hours or after the pastor spent time in

  1359. the Word trying to figure out a battle that now

  1360. you don't have to fight. If you are willing to

  1361. prioritize gaining wisdom and understanding,

  1362. you won't get wrapped up in the human element.

  1363. You won't have to worry about, oh, so -and -so

  1364. did, so -and -so said, I don't like the drama,

  1365. I don't like what's going on, I don't like what

  1366. they seem to stand for, or I don't like what

  1367. he did last week. You won't have to get wrapped

  1368. up in any of that because your purpose of being

  1369. in the church will be pursuing wisdom and understanding

  1370. and you won't have time for it. You came here

  1371. to hear the sermon, you're taking notes, you're

  1372. studying, you're praying, you're thinking about

  1373. what is it God wants to do with my life. You

  1374. know, I preached a sermon just over a month ago

  1375. now about dreams. And after I preached that sermon,

  1376. beginning the next day, I have written a dream

  1377. journal, the first thing after my Bible study,

  1378. every single morning, every single day, without

  1379. fail. Now, a couple times all I have is just

  1380. like a little jot note because I don't remember

  1381. much, but I have a dream journal. Now, so I did

  1382. it. Is there anybody else who started a dream

  1383. journal? Is there anybody else who went home

  1384. after that sermon and prayed, God, if there's

  1385. something you want me to see tonight while I'm

  1386. sleeping, I'm open to that. Speak to me. Go ahead.

  1387. Is there something you want me to remember in

  1388. the morning? Because what I told you is that

  1389. you cannot afford to waste the seven hours you

  1390. were sleeping not listening to the Lord. You

  1391. can't do it. It says in Joel 2 that God will

  1392. speak through dreams. It says that in the Word

  1393. of God. You're not dreaming? Like, I'm dreaming,

  1394. but I don't remember anything? Have you prayed

  1395. and asked God to show you what out of your dreams

  1396. you might need to take? Now, I'm not saying every

  1397. single sermon is for every single person in the

  1398. same way. But you have to come here and to Tuesday

  1399. night Bible study, and I could just put a period

  1400. there, right? You have to come here and to Tuesday

  1401. night Bible study and to the men's study if you're

  1402. a man and to the women's study if you're a woman

  1403. and to the adult study if you're an adult to

  1404. learn everything that you possibly can learn.

  1405. You're like, but I'm too busy. So check yourself

  1406. and figure out, because the reality is as simple,

  1407. this is the math of it. If you don't come here

  1408. and do it where it's highly efficient, if you

  1409. don't come here and do it where somebody's already

  1410. spent hours digesting it for you and pour it

  1411. out to you, pour their heart and soul out to

  1412. you, if you don't do that, then you're going

  1413. to have to do the work yourself. I spent 12 hours.

  1414. If you walk away from this sermon and you get

  1415. nothing, you're committed to spending 12 hours.

  1416. Unless you're better than me, you can do it in

  1417. six. Go for it. Do it in six. You understand

  1418. what I'm saying? You will see things off the

  1419. highway for what they are. Enticements to turn

  1420. from trusting in the Lord and pursuing wisdom

  1421. and understanding. That's all they are. No matter

  1422. how good a thing is, if it interferes with your

  1423. trust in the Lord and your pursuit of wisdom

  1424. and understanding, then it is just an enticement.

  1425. Not only must you resist it, but you cannot consent

  1426. to it. We must live, work, bathe ourselves, clean

  1427. our houses, take care of our loved ones. And

  1428. God, God has given us provisions in all of those

  1429. areas so that not every one of us has to spend

  1430. long hours in a classroom and get a degree specifically

  1431. in Bible digesting. Or to get one concept and

  1432. thereby ignore our God -given responsibilities.

  1433. If you're not doing those things, then it is

  1434. not of His will you took a turn. If you are not

  1435. either A, present at every opportunity to learn

  1436. and grow in wisdom and understanding, or B, replacing

  1437. that with something else that achieves the same

  1438. goal that God has set for you, then that's not

  1439. God's fault. It's yours. A couple of illustrations

  1440. and then we'll be through. First one's a gas

  1441. tank. Most of us have driven a car. Most cars

  1442. have a gas tank. Some of the young people have

  1443. not, but you've ridden in a car. Haley, you've

  1444. ridden in a car, haven't you? Yep. You ever see

  1445. the gas gauge? Yep. They all got them. Did you

  1446. know that gas gauges are absolutely unnecessary?

  1447. You don't need a gas gauge at all. I've had two

  1448. cars that had a broken gas gauge that would not

  1449. tell you how much gas they had. And you know

  1450. what? While I was driving both of those cars,

  1451. I never once ran out of gas. I had two cars with

  1452. gas gauges that did not work. And while I was

  1453. driving them, I never ran out of gas. Now ask

  1454. me how many times I've ran out of gas in cars

  1455. that have gas gauges. So do you need a gas gauge?

  1456. About eight. I used to be the guy. Sherry would

  1457. pick on me all the time because I'd be calling

  1458. her. I ran out of gas. I'm on Woodville Road.

  1459. Again? Gas gauges are worthless. They have no

  1460. need whatsoever. You know why people use a gas

  1461. gauge? They use it because it's convenient. You

  1462. put it on the car because otherwise you have

  1463. to remember when you bought gas last. Oh, gosh.

  1464. You have to waste a whole 14 tiny molecules in

  1465. your brain remembering when you brought gas last.

  1466. With a cell phone, store all the contacts. Now

  1467. I can't remember anybody's phone number. We're

  1468. slowly letting our brains just die off. We don't

  1469. need it. Don't need your brain. Yes, you do.

  1470. Yes, you do. Eat eggs. It's good for your cholesterol

  1471. level. You need a brain. And you should be able

  1472. to remember the last time you brought gas. And

  1473. if it's been a couple weeks, stop and get some

  1474. for crying out loud. Do you know that if you

  1475. would just... Here you go. I'm shaming myself

  1476. a little bit here. So I know when my car is low

  1477. on gas, the little light comes on, and then I

  1478. keep right on driving it. Because it's not out

  1479. of gas yet, that's what the light says. It says

  1480. it's not out of gas yet. It says mostly out of

  1481. gas, but not yet. And since they put those lights

  1482. on there, admittedly, I have only run out of

  1483. gas once. And you're laughing at me, because

  1484. you shouldn't run out of gas. If the light comes

  1485. on, you're stopping at gas, right? But you know

  1486. how many times I have gotten gas in the rain?

  1487. Now why that? 60 miles left. It does not rain

  1488. the whole time, unless you're on the road, like

  1489. on the expressway, driving somewhere. It does

  1490. not rain the whole time, the whole 60 miles.

  1491. So anytime in the 60 miles left, when they get

  1492. whatever it is, when the gas light comes on,

  1493. you could get the rain. While the sun is shining,

  1494. at a gas station that has a roof over it. Most

  1495. of them do, but not all of them. When it's not

  1496. so stinking cold outside. But I've gotten gas.

  1497. At the coldest possible times, like it's warm

  1498. in the afternoon, but I've got to get gas at

  1499. 5 a .m. because I drove it until there's next

  1500. to nothing in the tank and I can't call Sherry

  1501. again, so I've got to buy the gas. See what we're

  1502. doing? If you would just do this, if you would

  1503. just say, I'm going to stop and get gas on my

  1504. way to church or on my way home from church every

  1505. Tuesday, your gas tank would be filled three

  1506. to four days of the week and the last couple

  1507. of days of the week. It starts to get lower,

  1508. but it'd never probably go under half a tank

  1509. unless you drove a ton of miles. And how much

  1510. work is it to remember I just get gas every Wednesday

  1511. or every Thursday or every Sunday or whatever?

  1512. None. But because we have a gas gauge, we put

  1513. it off, and then we pump the gas in the rain.

  1514. Right? If you went to go get gas on the way home

  1515. from church on Tuesday night, and it was pouring

  1516. down rain, icy cold, You'd know I can drive for

  1517. another week if I have to because I got gas last

  1518. Tuesday. Or I'll just put it off until tomorrow

  1519. morning when it's not raining. But that's not

  1520. what we're doing. This is an opportunity, the

  1521. preaching is an opportunity to get a filling

  1522. of his word and a spirit -led teaching. I don't

  1523. mean to say that everything I ever say is spirit

  1524. -led because that's not true. But everything

  1525. you hear can be. Everything you hear in this

  1526. room can be. Every song can be. Every prayer

  1527. can be. If your posture is pursuing wisdom and

  1528. understanding, you'll be able to tell when there's

  1529. enticement not to listen to, and when there's

  1530. enticement not to consent to, and you'll be able

  1531. to stand for the Lord in the day of evil. Wisdom

  1532. is more than knowing. It is application. It's

  1533. not just knowledge, it's knowing what to do,

  1534. what God would have you do, and so on. It's the

  1535. ability to do it. But understanding is a different

  1536. thing altogether. It's knowing why you know it,

  1537. what the results are likely to be, what the outcome

  1538. is going to be, how to teach others that same

  1539. thing. And we must pursue wisdom and understanding

  1540. in every way we possibly can. We must stand under

  1541. what we know, and wisdom and together, Wisdom

  1542. and understanding together form the pursuit that

  1543. godly men and women must elevate above all other

  1544. pursuits. If you do not elevate the pursuit of

  1545. wisdom and understanding above all other pursuits,

  1546. then you will be dismissing all of those observable

  1547. promises that we read. Some of them straight

  1548. out of the mouth of Jesus. If we do elevate them

  1549. above all other pursuits, it will result in a

  1550. course of godly daily living as we gain more

  1551. wisdom and understanding. I am asking you to

  1552. ask yourself, are you committed to the pursuit

  1553. of wisdom and understanding? Or are you just

  1554. using this road of goodness, this road of uprightness

  1555. for God's protection as long as he'll give it,

  1556. and then when it seems to be falling through,

  1557. doesn't seem to be working out, whatever, you'll

  1558. just cope the best you can. All those promises

  1559. we read surround trusting the Lord he'll get

  1560. his part right and living a life in pursuit of

  1561. wisdom and understanding. When we had that inspirational

  1562. moment, I was encouraged by the Holy Spirit,

  1563. but I really wasn't encouraged by the activity

  1564. because we had several kinds of people in the

  1565. room. And one of those kinds of people were people

  1566. that could have answered and did not. They didn't

  1567. speak up. They couldn't bring themselves to restate

  1568. in their own words the same thing that we were

  1569. reading. That's discouraging to a pastor. Secondly,

  1570. there was another kind of person in the room

  1571. who was like, well, I kind of know what it means,

  1572. but I can't explain it. I've heard those verses.

  1573. Some of you probably had those verses memorized.

  1574. You're like, I get that. I know that. I do that.

  1575. But still couldn't just simply restate it in

  1576. their own words or would not. One or the other.

  1577. That's discouraging. This is a church about reaching

  1578. new heights in Jesus. Let's decide that everything

  1579. we do going forward is going to be about pursuing

  1580. wisdom and understanding while we trust the Lord

  1581. for it. That's the kind of church we want to

  1582. be. And as we go to this invitation, if that's

  1583. not the kind of person that you have been, I'm

  1584. asking you to repent. You're going to gain a

  1585. lot of knowledge in your lifetime, a lot of knowledge.

  1586. And none of that knowledge is going to see you

  1587. through to heaven. None of that knowledge is

  1588. going to give you all those other promises and

  1589. blessings. But wisdom, that's godly knowledge,

  1590. applied to your circumstances and understanding,

  1591. that's the ability to stand under what you now

  1592. know. Those things will give you. All that other

  1593. stuff that we read, all those promises of Jesus

  1594. and of Solomon, of Paul. And by the way, I narrowed

  1595. that list substantially. See why I'm so convicted?

  1596. If all the Bible from beginning to end is about

  1597. trusting the Lord and redemption through Jesus

  1598. Christ, Jesus said, live your life in pursuit

  1599. of wisdom and understanding. I'll ask the praise

  1600. team to come forward at this time. If you're

  1601. here today, while I've been preaching, you realize

  1602. I'm not actually saved. I really haven't trusted

  1603. the Lord for my salvation. I've submitted my

  1604. life in His hands. I can't count the moment in

  1605. time in which I was born again.