Keys To Thriving In This Season (Forgiveness)

You're listening to the Cross Kingdom Sermon of the Week, we hope you enjoy

this message from Justin Carpenter. You know, I know y'all thought I was

like thirty, but you know I actually I gotta be honest with you.

I actually was looking in the men'saw yesterday at hib at some of the hair

dye, and and I was like, where's Troy? Where Troy go?

He was back there a minute ago. Would he sneak out of here?

Stinker? Now? I wasn't gonna out him. I'm listen, I'm a

pastor. I would never do anything like that. So I was laying in

my pool yesterday getting a little sun. This is not blood pressure. And

I was laying there and I asked the Lord, said, what do you

want me to teach on? Lord? I said, I really, I

was really burdened for a word for the body because of everything that's going on

and and even all the shakings that were seeing among leadership in Texas, specifically

Dallas. How we've seen you know, TD Jake's under allegations a few months

ago, which that's not over, I promise you. Then we we within

what a two week period of time, Tony Evans, who I listened to

him for years and loved his teachings, don't know exactly what's going on there.

And then obviously the big the big Shaker was just in the last little

bit with Robert Morris. And you know, a burden that I'm carrying,

which I do believe is from the Lord in this hour for the body,

is this as the Lord is purifying his church. You have to understand something.

Anytime personal sin, unrepented personal sin becomes public, it's not because God

took delight in exposing someone. It was because they were grieving the spirit for

a very long period of time, given plenty of opportunity to repent privately,

and ignored it. And I just want to say this up front, there

are sins for leaders fivefold ministry, you know, elders, I believe without

a doubt there are sins that permanently disqualify you, not from not losing your

salvation, not being healed or restored, but permanently disqualify you from being a

shepherd or a fivefold And I really don't care everybody agrees with that. When

it comes to issues of like what was just exposed, it's heartbreaking, extremely

heartbreaking. When you find out that a young woman was actually twelve years old

and a minister's twenty one years old, that is a crime. That is

not something that elders get to keep quiet in the name of love. And

he never should have been put back as an overseer after that. I'm sorry.

There's a cost, just like you're going to begin to see ministers die

premature deaths in the future. See. I think it's Bobby Connor that said

we're way too familiar with a god we heard. We know we are in

a very sticky transition in the body of Christ right now. On one hand,

the world is going to always mock and make fun of when leaders fall.

The other hand, people that have been hurt in the church, that

are struggling with their faith right now, that adds fuel to the fire,

That adds accusations of the enemy to try to get them to be permanently stuck

in a ditch and fall away. See, it says many there's going to

be a falling away, and it doesn't necessarily give a whole lot of detail

to the falling away. But I'm telling you right now that one of the

most important things is that you don't allow the lawlessness of others to kill your

love for Jesus and people, period, and that and and that is one

of the biggest dangers we're in right now because these, like I said months

ago and years ago, it's like, I don't know about y'all, but

some of the exposures like Holy Cow shocking, like legitimately shocking. You know.

Scripture says if you take heed, you know, or it says if

you stand take heed. In other words, don't puff up. The response

of us in the body of Christ right now should not be arrogance, should

not be like ha, they got what they deserved. No, it should

be for healing, restoration. Now it's not always into what position they had.

But Jesus didn't come to destroy life, but to save it. And

I'm not gonna read the whole chapter like I did first service, but any

Ezekiel nine, you actually see six men, and they come to the sanctuary.

And these men as you read, you actually find out these men are

a and you see with you see a man with an inkhorn, and it

says, now this is verse three Ezekiel nine. Now the glory of the

God of Israel had gone up from the cherub on which it rested to the

threshold of the house, and he called to the man clothed in linen,

who had the writing case at his waist, this is an angel, This

is not just a human being. And the Lord said to him, passed

through the city through Jerusalem, and put a mark on the foreheads of the

men who sigh and groan over the abominations that are committed in it. So

here's a picture. We've had abominations in the Church. We've had We've had

leaders that for some reason got into a place of arrogance where they thought they

could hide their sin or or cover it up, or leave very important details

out and just carry on as life as usual. Can I tell you,

if you have wilful habitual sin in your life, repent pent And if you're

in a place of influence as a leader, you're accountable. And if you're

passing judgment on these leaders that have fallen, take it easy, because you're

going to give an account for your life before the Lord Jesus as well.

And the old adage of he without sin throw the first stone, and he's

marking. So what our response should be in the body of Christ is when

God's purifying and drawing us close. We need to be in a place of

humility, and we need to be in a place where we actually are mourning

over the sin that's been exposed, the sin that's been tolerated. It's sin.

It's not just mistakes, y'all. But too many times we were like,

oh, yeah, they made some mistakes. No, it's sin,

unless you forget Jesus was beaten beyond recognition as a human being because of our

sin and the moment that we're tempted to take our sin lightly. Because remember,

there's original sin, imputed sin, and personal sin. That's the way

sin affects original adam imputed from the law, personal or wilful. All of

this is written for us to live a life of godliness, of righteousness,

of holiness. It's not written for the world. It's written for us,

and it's specifically addressing sinful issues that were in the church. So this man

with the inkhorn, he literally's going any and all of everyone who actually didn't

celebrate the abominations, didn't tolerate them, but actually they were sighing and groaning.

They were grieved over it. We had to be grieved over the crap

that's been allowed in our country. We had to be absolutely grieved over the

injustice that happens within our government. We should be grieved over the fact that

we're losing leaders because they didn't stay accountable, they didn't stay humble, they

got people around them. Unfortunately that we're willing to compromise things. But it

does not negate your commission. It does not negate that Jesus is still Jesus,

and at the end of the day, he's the author and finisher of

our faith. He is the one we're supposed to keep our eyes on.

If you get your eyes off the Lord and you put them on man,

you're going to want to quit because I got news for you. The moment

you shift your gaze from him to around you, that's Greek for you're gonna

be done. Because every single person in here is in process. And if

we do life together long enough, guess what we're gonna bump into each other's

processes. Hello, marriage, friendships. But then we we get offended,

we'll get arrogant. Well, I would never do that. They're not doing

it right. I call those the cheap sheet seats, taking shots from when

you've got no skin in the game. So as I was Again, this

was my long intro as I was talking to the Lord, and I've not

talked about this for quite a while, but and I want to say this

up front that this key or these keys to thriving in the season, it's

not just about thriving in the season. It's literally about thriving in your relationship

with Jesus, thriving in the Kingdom. Don't get caught in the season throwing

mud. If you have a temptation to become a thumb war person on social

media, don't, It's not worth it. I want to talk to you

about a foundational key, and that's forgiveness. And this is what I specifically

heard the Lord say to my heart yesterday that forgiveness is an absolute key in

this next season. Now understand, forgiveness is always key, because without it,

you're done. Right. I tell people, only forgive to the degree

you want to be forgiven. Who wants to be fully forgiven? Then you

don't have a choice. I just I don't know. I'm trying to be

creative the second service. I didn't do that first service. But the reality

is there's a lot of stinking teaching when it comes to the issue of forgiveness.

And I'm afraid there's a lot of times where people have honestly tried to

put their best foot forward in this issue of forgiveness and have gotten stuck because

they haven't been given proper teaching on forgiveness. I asked this first service,

who has been told it doesn't matter what you feel, just you know,

by make the wilful choice, by your will, just forgive right. Question,

if you had the ability to totally forgive someone in your soul completely and

forgive everyone, what do you need Jesus for? How is it that we

think it's about living in the spirit, walking in the spirit, But then

when it comes to this issue of forgiveness, all of a sudden we have

soul power. I will will my forgiveness. No, you want to punch

him in the face. How about this? You thought you forgave someone right,

You're like, Lord, I forgive them totally. Oh, I bless

them in Jesus' name. Three weeks later, you see them, all of

a sudden, you don't feel so good about being around them. All of

a sudden you're like, ooh, because you can lie to yourself, but

your body won't lie to you. In other words. You can intellectually lie

to yourself, but what you really believe in your heart's gonna uncover you.

And then you go into a tailspin because you're like, I forgave them,

I forgave them. We'll get to where you get stuck and unstick you,

hopefully if you're stuck this morning. What's your name? Yes, you,

Darlene. During worship, when I was playing drums, I looked over at

you, and the compassion of the Lord is drawing you right now in this

season, and he is softening you your heart to horrible wounding that you've gone

through, that you've tried to run from, that you've tried to mask,

that you've even tried to cover up. But he loves you. Weigh too

much to let you walk around with that pain. And I saw bruising in

the spirit on you that the Lord's going to heal that specifically, is going

to give you new eyes to see life. There's a lot of things that

you've been carrying around that you are blaming yourself for right now, and it's

false responsibility. The little girl didn't deserve it. And the Lord loves you

with an unconditional love, and he's not what your fears have worried about.

He's good, he's trustworthy, and he is safe. Bless you. Oh,

come on now, No, I don't never mind that, y'all.

I had the craziest thing this week, and I'm staying on this forgiveness thing.

But the Lord led me to do something as an act of generosity this

week that I'd never done in my life. And Anthony was with me.

Where'd he go? Anthony was with me and he was waiting on me where

we were at, And anyways, I told him what the Lord laid on

my heart. And I get to the truck and that little thing happened like

five times. I thought I wasn't going to make it in the truck and

was just, I mean, just lit up. And I heard the Lord

say to my heart that generosity is your weapon. See, y'all, our

weapons of warfare are not cardinal, but they're mighty in God for the pulling

down of strongholds. And it says that we have weapons of righteousness in our

right and in our left. What you need to do in any given moment,

and says Lord, what is my weapon? Because just because this weapon

was your weapon last week doesn't mean it's the same weapon this week? Are

you with me so, Matthew six twelve, fourteen, and fifteen, And

forgive us our debts, as we also have forgiven our debtors. For if

you forgive others their trespasses, your heavenly father will also forgive you. But

if you do not forgive others their trespasses, neither will your heavenly or will

your father forgive yours or your trespasses. You know, that's one of those

scriptures that we all would love to paraphrase and change up and soften up just

a little bit, but we can't. What if your desire to draw the

forgiveness process out has way more to do with you wanting judgment in your heart

than it does actually releasing someone. Are you with me? If you've been

told to take your time with forgiving, I don't mean processing, don't misunderstand

me. I don't mean processing the pain, the trauma, getting your heart

healed, but the issue of forgiveness, the debt, the trespass. If

you've been taught to just take your sweet time and just let it you know

as you get to it, that's fine, that's hogwash. That's secure humanism

with a religious mask. On it. What if Jesus just took his time

to forgive you, if he just kind of took his time carrying the cross

and be like, oh, I think I'm gonna slow down. I don't

know. Well, hold on, I don't you know. And this is

exactly where Peter found Peter's always looking for an angle, right, He's also

always looking for an ear. Then Peter came up and said to him,

Lord, how often will my brother sin against me and I forgive him?

He's looking for the legal right out of this thing. And he's probably thinking

of one of the other disciples. How much you want to bet they live

together all the time. Peter was probably annoyed with Thomas because he was doubting

everything. Thomas, come on, let's go. I don't know if I

can make it. Thomas, let's multiply the food. I don't know if

it's gonna happen. Thomas, as many seven times Jesus said to him,

I do not say to you seven times, but seventy seven times. And

by the way, one of the Gospel says, in a day, Hello,

do the math people? Four hundred and ninety times? Who has ticked

you off? Four hundred and ninety times in one day. Don't look at

your spouse four hundred ninety times and guess what even if that was realistic,

a literal legalistic four hundred and ninety times, tomorrow I get to jack with

you four hundred ninety more times. That's not the point. The point is

total forgiveness. Total. But Peter's as human as we are. He's looking

for a way out of this thing. He's like, four hundred and ninety

one, I'm punching you. Come on, well more, come on,

Oh, keep it coming. Keep he's print winding up. Oh, come

on. Every one of y'all have been in that place where somebody really ticked

you off, where you wanted to give him some five fold ministry. I've

been there. Hello, Internet world, your pastor's been so angry he's wanted

to do five fold ministry. In this life, you will have trouble understatement

of the year, Maybe Jesus, could you capitalize that and put that and

read too, But take heart of overcome. See, when I get into

a place where I want to hold on to unforgiveness and make somebody pay,

it's only because of all the lies I believe. But if I actually allow

the Lord to expose the lie based thinking that I think about unforgiveness, then

forgiveness becomes effortless. It actually stays of a thing of the spirit rather than

the soul. Therefore, the kingdom of Heaven may be compared to a king

who wished to settle accounts with his servants. When he began to settle,

one was brought to him. He owed him ten thousand talents, and since

he could not pay, his master ordered him to be sold with his wife

and children and all that he had, and payment to be made. So

the servant fell on his knees, imploring him, have patience with me,

and I will pay you everything. And out of pity for him, the

master of that servant released him and forgave him the debt. But when that

same servant went out, he found one of his fellow servants who owed him

a hundred denari and seizing him, he began to choke him, saying,

pay what you owe, and that's exactly what we do after we've stepped into

Jesus, been totally forgive, and then want our brother to pay. Pay

what you owe. So his fellow servant fell down and pleaded with him,

have patience with me, and I will pay you. He refused and went

and put him in prison until he should pay the debt. When his fellow

servants saw what had taken place, they were greatly distressed, and they went

and reported to their master all that had taken place. Then his master summoned

him and said to him, you, wicked servant, I forgave you all

that debt because you pleaded with me, and should not you have had mercy

on your fellow servant as I had mercy on you, And in anger,

his master delivered him to the jailers until he should pay all his debt.

Let me tell you something, it's not easy to become demonized, but there

are certain ways that make it really easy. You go ahead and be justified

giveness and bitterness, and I can guarantee you you will have demonic influence come

into your life, and if you keep holding on to it, eventually it

will become familiar in working to your soul, and you won't know what's your

voice and what's it and you will stay stuck in that place until you forgive,

which is releasing the debt. Now, who wants to stay ticked for

a long time? Here's what we have to remember, you're born into a

battlefield and the enemy doesn't care what you think. The enemy is a legalist

and he will take every possible right that he can. Y'all excited? This

is awesome? Come on, hang in there. It gets better. We

got to take an account of the debt. The issue when I talked about

y'all, when you thought you forgave someone and then all of a sudden you're

around them and you're like, oh Lord, can I just smack them?

Once you realize there's easy, No, you realize that there's unforgiveness there.

Why because you may have been taught to blanket your forgiveness rather than take an

account of the debt. You may have been taught just to do a nice,

fluffy prayer of forgiveness over everything they did. And you genuinely probably forgave

them of some of those things. But if you had ten trespasses with them

that your heart was holding, and you forgave eight of them, guess what

you got two trespasses you never released. And that's why every time you get

around that person, your heart condemns you, or you feel condemned like h

because you didn't totally forgive. Don't blanket your forgiveness when you need to deal

with forgiveness for someone, and get alone with the Lord and say, Lord,

help me process. Come into this Lord. I want to know everything

I'm holding against them, and when I'm doing prayer ministry with people, and

I know there's a stronghold, which, by the way, the very found

I don't give a flip what inter healing process you're doing, what name you've

put on it. It's either biblical or unbiblical. It's that simple. If

it's biblical, then repentance and forgiveness are at the very foundation of it,

period foundational. You cannot have inner healing without repentance and forgiveness at the core.

It's like applying the blood on both sides of the doorpost repentance forgiveness.

It's a beautiful picture with the passover. No where was I I just sidetracked

right before that? Hun, You're always paying attention to what I say?

What did I just say right before that? Were you not in my head?

Thinking? So? So I will take yes, thank you. So

I will get a notepad and I will tell whoever it is. Hey,

here's a notepad, here's a pen. I want you to write down every

single person that you know you have something against in your life. And I

want you to take your time, and I want you to take an account

of the debt, and then I want you to forgive every one of those

items. And I want you to ask the Lord if he wants to say

anything on each of those debts that you're releasing. My buddy Dan Gerroy,

early on when I was forgiving, he would always have pencils. Anybody knew

Dangerroy, Yeah, he would always have pencils. I may have broke about

ten cases of those things after about two years, but I got through it.

And just as a closure, when I forgave, i'd break that pencil

and lots of pencils, lots of pencils. But you take an account and

you fully forgive from your heart. But one of the there's many reasons why

we don't forgive. We believe the lie that our unforgiveness were justified. They

don't deserve to be forgiven, well neither do you? Oh? True,

they deserve to be punished. Well, so did you Jesus handled that if

I forgive, they're only going to do it again. How many times have

you done something again after you ask for forgiveness. How many times did I

do something? Not? Many? Right? How about this? My unforgiveness

protects me from further pain. If I hold my debt like a shield,

I protect my heart from rejection rather than recognizing. If I wasn't looking to

you for identity, you couldn't reject me. What is it? I ask

people, what's your unforgiveness doing for you? Well? Nothing? Well that's

a lie. If it was doing nothing, you'd forgive right. Think about

your thinking right now, every one of you in this room. If there's

someone you need to forgive, I want you to think about why you've not

forgiven yet. I didn't say it was easy. I'm sure being beaten beyond

recognition wasn't easy either. See he is the trump card, no pun intended.

He is the ultimate trump card. Because any excuse we try to come

up with, and we look at Calvary, you can tell Jesus your blood

you spilt for him, isn't it isn't good enough? So I tell everyone

bleve's that baby lord. I tell everyone forgive to the degree you want to

be forgiven. Colossians three thirteen says bearing with one another and if one has

a complaint against another. Forgiving each other. As the Lord has forgiven you,

so you also must forgive. Colossians three thirteen Tewod Corinthians two ten says

this anyone whom you forgive, I also forgive. This is Paul. Indeed,

what I've forgiven, if I have forgiven anything, has been for your

in the presence of Christ now here. I love this. This is this

is a scripture that we need to remember in this moment. Luke six forty

two, how can you say to your brother brother, let me take out

the spec that's in your eye when you yourself do not see the log that's

in your own eye? You hypocrite. Do you know what hypocrite means,

you Hollywood actor? Hypocrite means to act literally, So think about the actors

in Hollywood. Think about a really bad one too, you know, lousy

like B film or something that's that's like you hypocrite. First, take the

log out of your own eye, and then you will see clearly to take

out the spec that's in your brother's eye. See, it doesn't say we're

not to hold each other accountable. It doesn't say we're not to judge righteously,

which we are, and it says, confess your sends one to another,

pray for one another, that you might be what healed. But it's

an issue when I'm ignoring the beam in my eye and I'm more concerned about

the speck in your eye. Mercy proceeds forgiveness. I might say this.

One of the greatest clues if you've actually forgiven someone is the compassion of the

Lord fills your heart for that person. It's hard to have compassion for someone

and want to strangle them at the same time. Why do I feel like

some of you all have been there. It's like I can hear somebody go,

well, I've done that. The next day, Moses said to the

people, you've sinned a great sin, and now I will go up to

the Lord. Perhaps I can make atonement for your sin. So Moses returned

to the Lord and said, Alas, this people has sinned a great sin.

They've made for themselves gods of gold. But now if you forgive their

sin, but if not, please blot me out of your book that you've

written. Moses is amazing. On one moment, He's like, Lord,

kill me now, I can't handle all these people. Take me out.

He did, say that kill me. There's yeah, I'm these stiff necked

people. And then the next moment he's like, Lord, have mercy on

them. If you don't have mercy on them, blot me out of your

book of life, which is literally just a beautiful picture of intercession and a

prophet filling in the gap interceding. Please, he says, please blot me

out of your book that you've written. But the Lord said to Moses,

whoever sin against me, I will bought out of my book James two thirteen.

For judgment is without mercy to one who has shown no mercy, Mercy

triumphs over judgment. I gotta land this thing. I got eleven minutes.

Hey, it's eleven. Where are you prophetic people? Eleven? Oh it's

ten, ten, eleven eleven. Forgiving yourself one thing. One of the

one of the biggest giants for people that have gone through abuse, whether physical

abuse, sexual abuse, what have you, is false responsibility because they have

been in secular terms, psychology terms, they have been gas lit to such

a degree that they think everything is their responsibility, and through deception, they

take on the respect of their life onto them to such a degree that they

think everything is their fault. Now I want to help y'all. If gaslighting

narcissist. Anybody heard the term narcissist, let me help you with that.

If if someone is a full blown narcissist, they have a Jezebel spirit.

It's that simple. That's what that spirit looks like to the world. So

the issue of forgiving yourself is so many times we will misplace the sins of

others, and there's so many times we ourselves are the last ones to forgive

ourselves. And I shared this briefly first service, but I remember I remember

feeling totally responsible for the molestation I went through as a child, believing that

it was my fault, that somehow I should have been able to protect myself.

And it makes no logical sense if you're year four or five years old

and there's an adult who's doing the molestation, how could you ever blame yourself?

But through all of the demonic stuff, in the manipulation and just gaslighting

and all of that, you end up with a whole bunch of stinking thinking.

And I remember it was probably two thousand and two we were in marriage

counseling. Lisa needed to tune up, so I agreed to go and just

joking, Sean's like, really, dude, you did that again. And

no, we were marriage counseling, and because I told Lisa, and I

think I've shared this so I won't belabor it. But I told Lisa's like,

look, Hun, I didn't call you hunt at the time. Girlfriend.

I said, look, my parents divorced. They split up when my

mom was pregnant with me. I was molested as a kid, But don't

worry, none of that affected me. That that is in what you call

a guardian lie in denial, which we all have our PhD. In denying

suppress. We call it spirituality. And I'll never forget the counselor the moment

Lisa said the word molestation. Daryl Pitts, he's passed away now, but

he was the head counselor for Jerry Folwell's church, and he like, all

of a sudden, it's like Lisa disappeared in the room and he's only focused

on me, Like what is going on here? I'm not the problem,

And all of a sudden, next thing you know, I'm in I'm in

counseling by myself, without my wife, and he's asked me all these uncomfortable

questions. I didn't even like to say the word molestation. I was like,

yeah, my uncle messed with me. That's how disassociated I was from

the pain false responsibility. I can't ever take responsibility or the pain in my

heart if I think it's all my fault. If I don't transfer the responsibility

of what happened to me back on the one that did it, I can't

ever forgive them. And now I'm stuck in a cycle of unforgiveness that I

can't get out because I took the bait of Satan. Are you with me?

It doesn't have to be my story. It doesn't have to be what

I went through. It could be whatever something that happened to you, whether

it was in business, the marketplace, relationship, marriage, whatever it is

fill in the blank. False responsibility keeps people ensnared in many many ways.

And I remember Daryl said, well, well, how big were you when

this started happening. I don't know. I mean, I'm really tall now,

so it's hard to judge. And so I was like, I don't

know, maybe you know, maybe a foot shorter, you know, And

he goes, well, don't you think it's time that you take the responsibility

off that little boy and put it onto the one that it belongs. And

this was around two thousand and two, and this was just regular counseling.

This wasn't like, you know, interhealing and deliverance. And I was extremely

Baptist, so I thought that was all a bunch of weird stuff and I

broke. The other thing is when I chose to actually call what happened to

me what it was, rather than to deny my heart to create space from

the pain. Listen, I don't care what you've gone through. You have

to take responsibility for your heart. What you've gone through, you've got to

take response ability for it. Because it's so easy to fall into a victim

spirit when you've been horribly abused. But I promise you this, if you

hold on to a victim spirit as your identity, you'll never get free because

a victim spirit never takes responsibility, and you got to take responsibility. I'm

not saying for their sin. You take their sin and put it on them

and forgive them. Y'all with me, Listen. Forgiveness is foundational, and

we have shown over the recent years, at least in the American Church,

that we're not really good at this thing called forgiveness, which is I think

it grieves the Lord tremendously. I'm not saying don't have healthy boundaries. You

know, if you lost a family member de al Kaido, You're probably not

going to bring them to the dinner table. I'm not saying become a doormat.

You can forgive. It doesn't forgiveness, doesn't restore, doesn't create reconciliation.

That's a separate step. And you got to have health boundaries. But

make sure the motives are correct, all right, man, I go,

yeah, yeah, okay. So but with this issue of forgiving yourself,

self hatred is typically a root many times of autoimmune issues, and it manifests

with your with your physical body rejecting itself. And so if you're struggling with

autoimmune issues this morning, I'm not guaranteeing it self hatred. But what I'm

saying is ask the Lord to show you if there is any self bitterness comes

in when unforgiveness towards yourself is not dealt with. Self rejection is the end

result of not dealing with unforgiveness towards yourself. Let me tell you something.

Self hatred is ugly. I mean ugly. One of the most physically brutal

manifestations I've seen in nineteen years of doing deliverance was an end of visual that

had a huge self hatred spirit on them. They literally began to punch themselves

in the face and all over their body. And this was some years ago.

And I remember, you know, I had to put my coffee down

because I usually have coffee when I'm doing ministry, and and I literally just

went over and I baar hugged this person and I said, I bind you

in the name of Jesus, and I started rebuking the self hatred and we

went to the ground. It was actually, I like warfare, Like I'm

a man, so I'm like, when when it gets on like that,

my I'm like, whoa, I get pumped. But this person got completely

free. But I just want to say that it's self hatred is what is

needed before a spirit of suicide can have its way. Hatred towards others opens

you up to a spirit of murder. Jesus said, if you have hatred

in your heart, you've already committed murder. So self hatred does the opposite.

Y'all with me, So let me finish with this Ephesians four thirty two.

Be kind to one another, tenderhearted, forgiving one another, as God

in Christ forgave you. An unforgiving heart is a judging heart. If you

find yourself always judging the snot out of everybody, you may want to look

and see if there's unforgiveness. Therefore, you have no excuse, o man,

every one of you who judges, for in passing judgment on another,

you condemn yourself because you, the judge, practiced the very same things Romans

two to one. And now let me end with this forgiving God. Before

you say heresy, let me expound. God doesn't need our forgiveness, but

many times we're holding debt against him because of the lies we believe. This

goes back to false responsibility. How do you know when you're holding God responsible

for somebody else's sin, it goes like this, why did he let this

happen? Been there? Anybody been there? Why did he let this happen?

As if he was the author of sin and he just violateds Listen,

if you're a Calvinist an oarminiist, it doesn't matter. There are things that

happen when it comes to sin that God had nothing to do with. He

wasn't the author of it. The enemy came to steal, kill, and

destroy, but God came to give life and give it more abundantly. Those

are your two categories. When you steal, steel, kill, destroy,

that's the hand of the evil one. He comes in brings deception, gets

you to blame God for his actions, almost like false worship, because when

we start blaming God for the enemy's hand, it's like worship to him.

I'm gonna finish with this two things James one, thirteen to seventeen. Let

no one say when he's tempted, I'm being tempted by God. For God

cannot be tempted with evil, and he himself tempts no one. But each

person is tempted when he's lured and enticed by his own desire. Then desire,

when it has conceived, gives birth to sin, and sin when it's

fully grown, brings forth death. Do not be deceived, my beloved brothers,

Every good and perfect gift is from above, coming down from the Father

of Lights, with whom there is no variation or shadow due to change.

I'll never forget this. Some years ago, maybe five six years ago,

Becky Bowen. You all know Becky, right, some of y'all know Becky

a little bit, just a smidge. Becky shows up one morning that she

often does and says, I know what your problem is. I'm like,

huh, yeah, I know what your problem is. I go, what

do you mean. She goes, You're mad at God? I said,

no, I'm not. Uh, yes you are. I'm like, Becky,

no, seriously, I like, I don't feel anything. I promise

I'm not mad at him. Yes you are. If you all know Becky,

you know why she didn't batt off the gas. And I'm like,

no, I am not mad at God. But now I'm getting irritated with

you because you keep telling me I'm angry with God. And and she goes,

no, the Lord told me you're still mad at God. There's still

a part of you blaming him for what happened to you when you were little.

I go, no, I don't think so. So we're sitting in

the office actually I think it's Anthony's Anthony's office. Now we're sitting in there.

Who's a prayer ministry room at the time. So I'm like, Ward,

if I'm if there's any part of me that's still angry with you.

I don't think it is, but I'm like, I don't want to keep

it, and and we keep talking, keep processing, and all of a

sudden, a rumble from the basement I think it came from my pinky toe

and began to work its way up, and all of a sudden I could

feel this buried anger I had, and all of a sudden my heart had

permission to have a voice in that place, and it came up, and

I took my fist. I shocked myself and I I was sitting on the

couch, and I even shocked Becky a little bit because I made a fist.

Don't worry, I didn't hit her. And I swunk forward and I

go with him. Why on the she ole which fill in the blank did

he let it happen? And I instantly realized I was still angry, and

I broke right in that moment and started crying. And I was like,

Lord, forgive me for still holding you responsible for his actions. And it

was done. You can lie to yourself, you can intellectually lie to yourself,

but your body won't lie. Why will your body not lie? Because

what you really believe in your heart is what you're going to manifest as a

man, thinketh so is he Proverbs. It's what you believe guard your heart

for. Out of it flow the issues of life. We light our cells

better than anybody else on planet Earth. Just because you say, oh,

I don't feel anything, well, guess what. I had my guardian lie

for years and years and years until it failed. I went through all those

things, but it didn't affect me liar pants on fire. It absolutely affected

me. Could have absolutely destroyed my life. Had the Lord not had mercy

on me to be able to deal with all my stuff when I did,

then I would I would have probably ended up being a statistic if I'd gone

back, gone back into ministry before I got healed up. So what does

our posture need to be in the season. We need to be praying for

the body of Christ. We need to have humility, We need to mourn

over the things that are being exposed. Y'all. I don't think I said

to this service, but there are things. Did I say there are things

that should disqualify you from ministry? Yeah, it's true, But I want

to encourage you in this hour. Don't get jaded with Jesus. Don't get

jaded with his kingdom because he's coming back for his bride. Stop looking at

each other as enemies. Start looking at each other as family. And even

if you think the person next to you is like crazy Eddie from Christmas Vacation,

cousin Eddie, I mean, you still gotta love cousin Eddie, even

if he's out there with the RV fill in the street with the All right,

let's stand if they can get the prayer team to come forward, Wayne,

if you want to get some keys for me, sir? Did that

help anybody? Did that help with the issue of forgiveness? Good? All

right? So, Father, I thank you that he who began a good

work will complete it. Lord. I pray that we would walk humbly with

you, that we would love mercy, that we would do justice, Lord,

and we just lift up all the man Lord, all the stuff that's

been exposed over the last few months. Lord, we just lift up the

body of Christ in Dallas to you, Lord, Kansas, California, Lord,

and all over the earth for that matter. And I pray Father,

that we would keep our eyes on the prize, Lord, You're the prize,

that we would gauge success, that we would gauge success Lord. By

what you gauge success Lord, that souls would be so thank you for listening.

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