Christ Versus Conscience - Bro Jeremy Howell 5-10-2023

How many have you turned with me to the Book of Lamentations? Did anybody

turn with me to the Book of Lamentations? There's no need to stand to

night so teaching. But let's look down there at the twenty second and the

twenty third verse of the third chapter. The Bible says, it is of

the Lord's mercy that we are not consumed because his compassions fell not they are

new every morning coldon great is thy faithfulness. Now, when I read that

scripture, immediately people that were burdened, whose hearts were heavy, people that

came into this building to night sorrowful. Suddenly your spirit was uplifted. I

heard, dear sister ham and say, well, praise God, that is

so good. That's so good that that verse brought comport and elation into your

life. All the benefits of the written word of God when we take the

time to read it, all the benefits of it. It's so beneficial to

us. I want to teach a lesson to us tonight, something that I

do not normally do. I want to take the time to teach it.

Let it be a counsels session. If you what there's some of you that

have never been privileged or blessed to sit in my office and to hear Pastor

speak to you as he has seated in his chair and speak to you from

behind the desk. I want to talk to you tonight from behind the pastor's

desk on Christ versus conscience, Christ versus conscience. Now, our text has

found in an Old Testament book of the Wholy Bible, and this book of

the Bible isn't read as much as some of the other books of the Divine

Library the Wholy Bible. In fact, I challenge you right now want to

cite one verse that you have memorized in this book of the Bible. I

also challenge you to cite the title of one message that you have heard preach

from this book of the Bible. For those of you that have set up

under my ministry, at some time you heard me preach a message. And

I don't know how long ago that was, but the title was, oh

how. And here you find in this book of Lamentations you find five poems.

Five poems. Have you noticed how short this book of the Bible is?

Yet not everybody reads their Bible, so some are probably assuming that it's

a very lengthy book. In the Bible, it is not. The Book

of Psalm is quite lengthy. You find many chapters in the Book of Psalm.

And in that Book of Psalm you find some chapters that are poems or

songs about praising the Lord. In the Book of Psalms you find some palms.

There's poems that are about somebody being very sorrowful. Brother Jesse, there's

some songs or psalms or poems, and talk to us the reader, about

the life of the victim, about the life of the victor. Brother Tyler.

I noticed that this book of the Bible, though it turns us away,

the title itself is very repulsive. It's not something that we want to

read. It goes against the grain of who we are. I mean,

immediately, if you're in the camp meeting preaching and you say, turned with

me to the Book of Lamentations, what's everybody gonna think. We're not shouting

tonight, because this book is a book that tells us about the funeral of

a city, a funeral of a big city, a capital city where God's

people reside. Inside of that city are the anointed people of the Lord,

people that were the garments that have been assigned to them. By the Lord.

There's priest, parishioners, and people in this capital city that say we

are God's children. While they're in that city they say we're shut in by

God's grace. Were chosen where the elect of God were the favorites of God,

and there's no way nothing can harm us, brother Nathaniel. They accuse

those that are outside of the city limits, if you would, as being

outsiders, rejects. While they declare their acceptance of God, they declare the

rejection of others by God. So when you read this book of the Bible,

you say, wait a minute, why would I want to read something

that's five poems of sorrowful things, five poems that talk about the death of

a beautiful city and the beautiful people of God. You see, the Bible

teaches us that when we sin, we must be chastised. We must be

chastised when we sin. You, parents, you could try your best to

convince your children to change their ways, and without the rod of correction,

if you feed them sugar cookies, you could try day in and day out

to try to turn that child. And you know what, You'll come to

me and you'll say, sugar cookies just ain't doing it. But discipline has

And I'm not telling anybody that they ought to beat their child mercilessly. But

you have to train up them children in the way they should go, so

that when they grow old, they will not depart from the faith. You

see this right here. The commandments of God have been given to these people.

But now, brother rodcap here's a man whom some believe to be Jeremiah,

although not everyone agrees that the authorship should be assigned to Jeremiah. But

most people believe that the prophet Jerealm is the one that wrote this through tears

stained eyes. But also he's looking at if you would see the windows over

here on the sides of the church, what do they call that stained glass?

He's looking through broken stained glass of what used to be of the House

of God, what used to be of the people of God, a temple

that used to stand so strong, where people came in dawn on rogue with

Psalm book in hand, and they saying, and the power of God came

by the shkin of Glory was powerful. And he realizes, now I'm recording

the results of God. As a disciplinarian, I look back and say,

what's happened? Why the rebel? Why is this that was so wonderful a

worship lead? Why has it become a waste lead? What has happened?

We were a revival church, reformers were here, the spirit of God moved.

What happened? What happened? What calls this? And so, Brother

Nathaniel, as we read this, we can't just find a spot like we

can't in the book of Psalm and sigh and take a deep breath and say,

I feel better. Now here's five more Psalms and says, praise you

the Lord. But there was a little verse in here that I read that

we're used in as our text tonight that offers a little bit of hope and

help. We find that Jeremiah, he turns tragedy into triumph of faith because

Jerema knows. Jeremiah knows from personal experience that God has never failed him in

the past and God will never fail him in the future. Jeremiah knows from

personal experience that God has never felt Israel in the past and that God will

not fail them in the future. And so Jeremiah, even despite what's going

on, he finds hope and comfort. Now that's easier said than done.

Sister Hammond said tonight. She said that God has prepared her for things,

including the death of a spouse. That's easy for a child to sit in

here tonight, picked their nose and wipe it under the church view and act

like sis to him and didn't say that, but to somebody that's facing the

same thing in the very near future, the Holy Goose will quicken them and

speak to them and say, wait a minute. This sister just said that

the goodness of God prepared her for a tragedy. I know that these people

had been prepared for this tragedy. You know, everybody that batchlides, they've

been prepared. They've been warned prior to the chasing hand of God coming,

prior to that chastisement, Brother Jesse, prior to Jerusalem being slapped to their

knees. Who slapped them to their knees? God did? How did God

do it? Who's the instrument nebucannesser? Who did he employ? Who did

God pay very well to come in and discipline his people? Not the priest,

not the prophet. The priests and the prophet were nothing more than mail

men, and they preach the preacher or the teacher or the church at large

is never intending to hurt you, to never harm you, or never intends

to destroy you. I was thinking a Sister Wooten was testifying to night.

She said, these compromisers, and that's her words, she said, these

compromisers. One of the first things they want to do when you challenge their

compromise is saying, I've been hurt. And Sister Wood said, who that

has ever attended God's house has not been hurt. I would say that she

was right when she said that Jesus has definitely been more hurt than anybody.

Any of his followers could never say that they were hurt like he was hurt.

In fact, that's one of the things that encourages us is we realize,

Brother Jeremiah, he's familiar with the way we heard. You know why

he's familiar with the way we heard, because he has compassion on us,

and he's been where we're at. He knows our frame, he knows that

we're dust, he knows what's in man, and he knows how weak we

are, he knows how frail we are, and so he has compassion on

us. But at such at that, Jesus, I'll tell you who has

been hurt more than anybody. It's the minister who was employed by God against

his will, going about his own business, trying to be successful in this

life and provide for his family, earning an honest living, and to be

approached by an angel of heaven, a messenger from Heaven that was sent bout

him Almighty God, to say you have received an assignment. Whether you choose

to obey or not is up to you. But if you choose to disobey,

it will be damnation and eternal lake of fire. If you choose to

choose to accept, you will be eternally rewarded in heaven. And so minister

immediately recognizes this call to help others. We encourage preachers a lot of times

preachers at the calling of Jeremiah. We love to talk about how Jeremiah was

called and how he was successful as a preacher. What beautiful, beautiful words

Jeremiah the prophet spoken to those people. But now you put yourself in Jeremiah's

position, and all you see is destruction. It's no longer chaos. The

tornado of chaos has ceased, and now it's the aftermath of chaos. You're

not in the middle of the storm. It's after the storm. The hordes

of Babylon Neverchadnezzar and his mighty generals and their military has come into the land

of Israel and destroyed them and carried many away captive. Jeremiah, he preached.

Jeremiah had a burden, he said. He wept as he preached,

he cried. He had the message, he brought it to him. What

was he saying, you must repent. That's the saint take John the Baptist

was saying, prior to the rival of Jesus, you must repent. And

so sister Wooton. It had to have crushed and hurt Jeremiah to have people

saying, I'm hurt. I'm a hurt. Look what the Babylonians have done

to our beautiful temple. Look what the Babylonians have done to our beautiful land.

Look what the Babylonians have done to my family. It is separated father

from son and mother from daughter. Look at what the Babylonians have done it.

Jeremiah said, no, you've done it under yourself. I told you

that God was going to use them as the chase sinning broad trying to get

you to turn back from your folly, get trying to get you to turn

back from your sin. If you'll look right here in the Bible, you'll

notice around the first chapter it's said in verse number eight, Jerusalem hath grievously

sin. Therefore she is removed. And now all that honored her despise her,

because now they have seen her nakedness. Yeay, she sithe and turneth

backwards because she is a shame. It doesn't say here that she's sorry for

her sin. She's a shame that she got caught in her sin. She's

a shame that she can no longer play church and be religious and do wrong

and get by. But you cannot do wrong and get by, no matter

how hard you try, and all how hard some of us sometimes try to

do wrong and get by. But this preacher had been hurt, your pastor,

I guarantee a sister ruting if you were to say, well, without

a doubt, brothers, sister, howel has been hurt by all of you

more than you've been hurt by them, no doubt. The prophet Jerebiah had

been hurt by these people. You will remember when he tried to warn them

of sin. They put him in the pit. I wonder why people are

nowhere near as tolerant with the preacher as he is with them as parishioners.

Why is it that the preacher can misspeak one time or sometime, let it

the Holy go shoot an arrow their way and it hit the bull's eye.

Why is it that people can pull it out of the bull's eye and hurl

about thirteen towns and back at the preaching. Why is that so the preacher

is usually the target of the arrows of rebellious people that reject the word of

God. And that's of our reluctancies to preach, is we know that when

the Holy Ghost throws an arrow out into a multitude of people, or any

group of people, we know that potentially that arrow was going to ricochet and

come back at that preacher. And so this is why we have a hard

time answering and accepting the call. Sometimes we don't even bother answering that call.

Sometimes we put our fingers in our ears. I know I did for

about twelve years. I ran from the call of a minister because I knew

of the consequences of ministry. I knew how bad it would hurt to preach.

You guts out literally and just see people do what they were to do.

I knew how bad it would hurt to see people get warned. And

it didn't matter how you delivered it. If you talk the warning, or

if you preach the warning, if you try to pull some out with a

fire of the Holy Ghost, or you just got done on your knees and

preach the love and Jesus was so much compassion and trying to pull No matter

how you preached it, no matter the delivery of whatever missionary, evangelist,

apostle, missip or preaching or prophet that come by, it's going to be

rejected by some people that simply just want to reject it. And so the

truth is the majority of God's people right here rejected the truth. And that's

what we see within christian and Christianity today, Brother Nathan dool As. The

people just don't want to accept God's word as the truth, and they don't

realize that their rejection of this written word is going to bring extreme consequences.

They don't want to imagine that they're going to have to pay the price for

rejecting the word of God or for not keeping the word of God. This

is why the man said, thy word have I hid in my heart that

I might not sit against you. What he's saying is, if I can't

get a hard copy of what is written, I need to have that hard

copy somehow mirrored in my heart so that I can pull the word. We're

responsible for this that is written. Whether we want to go by a copy

of this King James version of Bible and apply it to our lives and put

it in our heart or not, we're still responsible for what is written.

And Jesus demonstrated this whenever Lucifer appeared to him in the wilderness. Jesus was

led of the spirit, not led of Lucifer, not the consequences and the

fall of temptation. Jesus was led by the holy that goes to go into

the wilderness to be tempted of the devil. For a forty day period,

Jesus combated the devil not with feelings or emotions. Jesus combated the devil with

what is written. And that's what we have to do. And I'm going

somewhere right here, so you'll bear with me here, So cheer minds in

the middle of a bad situation, its sister one to stare. You did

such a great job testifying tonight, and I want this sermon to go down

into archives and on record, because one day I will stand in this pulpit

and just tell you how important it was that that you obeyed the Lord and

got your shout. I cannot tell you right now. I am not at

liberty to tell you right now just how important it was that you did whatever

it was that you did that got you into that outer realm and got you

lost into the presence, that lost in the presence of God, and that

got you to that place where you could give a message in tone to where

your prastor could be walking down the island of the church and get the interpretation.

One day, Sisister, I will explain to you just how miraculous that

was. Because there's somebody in this building that said God spoke something into their

heart. That's tragic, sisisteric God spoke something into somebody's heart, that's tragic.

While you were getting blessed and that you had shouted and got into the

print, God spoke some things into Jeremiah's heart. That was tragic. Concerning

God's people, It was tragic. Concerning the capital city, it was tragic

it's not suff that somebody was looking for. They weren't expecting that. They

didn't expect that morning to wake up and hear the preachers say, Hey,

never Kannazzar is coming into Hords of Babylon and they're gonna raise our city.

Seemingly everything is gonna fall apart. We're gonna get into despair. The people

of God are gonna fall into despair. Of the same people to clap their

hands and said, the Lord will never leave us nor forsake us. That's

right, But we can leave the Lord and forsake him. That is true.

The Lord does not desire to ever leave you. He will never leave

you. But as Sister Hammond said, it coincides with what Sister Sprots message

and Tones spoke, and the interpretation was, yes, my child, I

have spoken to thee. That person was wondering what meaneth this and the speaking

to them concerning their life. How could this be in the middle of revival,

talking about bellies that are full of living water, oil, holy ghost

power, holy ghost fire. How could somebody be praying man or woman and

be in the spirit and suddenly hear a whisper from heaven that says there's a

tragedy coming to your life. Oh thank God for preparation, Sister Hammon,

And so I will never forget. As real as tonight's message became to me

just about an hour before church and God changed my direction, I will never

forget walking dow them through the aisle theres the Holy Ghost spoke to me the

interpretation of that message and that person message me into church, said Pastor,

if you only knew, I was just kneeling there saying, was that you

God? Was it the voice of my Master? Is that my imagination?

Is that a demon in hell? Is that me? Is that my conscience?

I'm talking here tonight, Christ versus conscience? Is this a featment of

my imagination? Is this just something I've worked up? And immediately, Sisters

terit gets into spirit and she goes against her nature, and she gets loud,

and you hear the Holy Ghost and begin to erupt of all can or

robs that her voice exposed as Heaven's oracle, and it begins to just saturate

the place, and a holy hush comes settling down like spiritual love, and

everybody's hearts firing, and we're ready for the voice of God. Everybody's saying,

speak God, and immediately God says, yes, that was me.

Cheremie knew that he had been led of God to preach and talk about these

things that were forthcoming. But now here it is as a party. What

we're gonna do, what we're gonna do? Oh how, that's what lamentations

means. The first word in this book is how, oh, how,

how are we going to cope now that this has come to pass? How

are we going to deal with this? How are we gonna get past this?

And for the sake of time, I want them, I want to

move on. But I do want to point out that even John the Beloved,

when he was in the spirit, he heard Jesus speak to him and

the John chapter number three and verse number nineteen, and he said, as

many as I love Revelations chapter number three and verse number nineteen. John the

Beloved said, as many as I love, I rebuke and chasten, be

zealous therefore and repent. So God loved them people before they compromised and they

got hurt. A preacher can never preach anything more direct that he preaches the

word of God that convicts. The preacher can never preach anything more correct than

when he preaches the word of God that convicts. And if you'll really listen

to what people say, most of the time they have not fallen out with

the mail or the mail man. They have fallen out with a spirit of

Christ that is pleading with them through conviction not to compromise, not to turn

from righteousness unto unrighteousness. Because I could testify from personal experience as a holiness

preacher that's trying to preserve holiness for the next generation. Ten thousand devils come

to me every year telling me to be all right, to compromise in the

smallest ways. And so the easiest thing for somebody to do who wants to

compromise and to go in another direction is persecute the preacher and say I don't

like the delivery, I don't like the style. That's just a no greater

arguments. That's an excuse. That's so easy, that's elementary. They're still

in poopy diapers. Whendn't they do that? That has no validity. That's

just so illegitimate. That's such an legitimate reason to despise them. So wait

a minute, somebody hurt me, So I'm gonna get bitter ratter than get

better. Somebody preached the truth and I didn't like the way the mail was

delivered, So I'm going to despise the truth. I'm not buying it.

You can't be deceived by that. You have to realize that that's somebody that's

operating in condemnation. And I'm just now in my message that I'm teaching you,

not I'm canceling you from behind the pastor's death. So they're operating and

condemnation. They're not operating in conviction. In this church, a lot of

times I hear people stand up and they erroneously say, I thank God for

condemnation. What they mean to say is I thank God for holy goes conviction,

like brother Starrett here said tonight, because God will slap you down to

your knees with a word that God says, there is therefore now no condemn

nation to them which are in Christ Jesus. I feel like here tonight that

I am a victor from the spirit of condemnation. There's a lot of you

that did not know me as a child, continually, incessantly, without ceasing

day night. My parents can testify to this. I would pray at least

three times an hour, for at least a couple of minutes. Every twenty

minutes, I would say, God, I don't want to do anything to

disappoints or displeases you. God, I don't want to do anything at all

that would bring down your iron fist upon me. God, I don't want

to do anything at all that would cast me away from your presence. There

was people that supposed that was the purity of my soul. One of my

business partners, he recently messaged me, said I wanted to tell you something

that somebody said about two years ago. They said they've never met a more

pure soul. Because you were praying all the time. At Christian's school,

I got best Christian character several times because the school teacher said they walked by

and heard me praying. That's because i used to pray through condemnation. But

now I've learned to pray through conviction, Holy ghost conviction. What is the

difference. Well, I'll tell you this concerning Christ and the conscience. The

conscience is an inner feeling or a voice viewed as acting as a guide to

doing right. There is no doubt. Up until I got saved, I

had what's called an overactive or an innocent conscience, because when I was about

three years old, I think they say I would go to the bathroom and

send my MoMA out the door, and I say, you're not gonna see

me like this. I want to be modest. They said, Man,

this guy was so pure minded even when he was three years old. An

inner or an act of conscience, right, but overactive Jonathan. I remember

just a couple of years ago, standing outside of my house receiving a phone

call for Brother Jonathan, and he said, Pastor, how I need prayer.

I'm not attending your church right now, but I need prayer. I

said, Okay, does your pastor know about this? Is the okay with

it? Well, my grandpa's my pastor. I believe it'd be okay with

it. Well, I'm just constantly thinking that I've sinned and I failed God.

I live a miserable life. Do you remember this, Brother Jonathan?

And I went out there where I was earlier today. You saw me walking

up and down that road today and I did the same thing you saw me

doing today, Brother Jonathan, and I talked to you for about an hour

and I said, for God said, when our heart condemns us God is

greater than our heart. And they said, even as easy going as brother

Danny was at times, because he would get weary with Jonathan at all hours

of the day and coming in there and knock it on the door. Hey

dad, hey mob, hey dad, hey ma. I don't know if

I'm ready to meet God or not. I don't know if my heart's right

with God. Because he'd get condemned about something that he had been doing ever

so little, that problem that most people in this building would not have even

felt bad about. I mean, I would feel bad about welcome by somebody's

desk and taking their pencil off their desk and borrowing it without asking them,

although I fully intended to return it. There's some people in this building their

inner conscience wouldn't be overactive. It wouldn't even act out at all. They

put the pen in their pocket, forget all about having borrowed it, take

it home, and it be at the house for the rest of them the

school year. And so there's people in this building tonight that they have that

overactive conscience, and that overactive conscience will tell us continually, Brother Rick Jacob,

you've said against God, You've trespassed, You're filthy, you're despicable,

you're vile, you're unworthy, you're never good enough. Right, So we

thank God for that inner voice, that inner feeling that speaks to us and

that guides us in dueling. Right. But what do you do, brother

Jonathan, when you're at that place where it's an interconscious Yes, it's an

inner feeling, an inner voice, but it's overactive. There's people just building

that have no idea what we're talking about becoming realther Jonathan, is it real

or what is it measurable to have that? I mean, most people perceive

it as a blessing, but somebody that possesses that is borderline a tormented person.

We're tormented in a good way, but we are molested by our own

overactive conscious. Brother Jonathan E vold us the safe From the time you were

a child until you moved down here. How many times you're inner conscious,

that conscious inner voice, that inner spirit that Jonathan Edwards nature that's inside of

you when that body's going who you are as a person. If I was

to ask you, how many times did you beat yourself? But how many

times did you question whether or not you were worthy of God's mercy? And

grace. But whether or not there was a god, it was just waiting

to grab you by the neck, by the nap of the neck and throw

you in the hell. You'd have to say, old pastor, it was

twenty fifty times, like some of us building would say, you'd say tens

of thousands of times, because you dealt with it hours on end of day.

Is that correct. There's some of us looking at us right now,

brother Jonathan, and they're like, I do not even know what you're talking

about. I'll tell you when that spirit's got a hold of you, and

it's not a demon spirit. But whenever you have an overactive conscience, you

can't go to bedhart until about three in the morning because you're beating yourself up

because you pulled over in front of somebody. Maybe you made them feel bad,

so you feel bad about it. There's no way for you to apologize

to them. Man, I would have never done that. I feel terrible.

How could I get in touch with that person and apologize to them.

There's people in this building they just care free, careless. But brother,

well, we have a conscious like that like you and I have. Oh,

brother, how easy it is to just be so so tormented, and

Brother Jonathan, thank you, you could sit down. But but what that

was the condemnation, That was the devil, and I think Brother Danny and

they said one time, you finally said, listen, you gotta believe the

Bible for what it says. Is that, right, brother Danny. After

all of that hours, hours, years years years years, Hey Bob,

hey Dad, there lives normal. They're not dealing with an overactive conscious.

They're not constantly hearing themselves talk to themselves. I'm not talking about strange voices

or dembonic voices. I'm talking about pure hearts, people that don't want to

be offensive to God. But the devil gets in there, he hijacks it.

He puts you in the passenger seat, and the devil realizes that you've

got that sensitive or overactive conscious and he puts it into overdrive. So what

was good has now become a problem. And because you allowed the deafer to

operate in condemnation and you put the Holy Ghost out and you didn't respond to

conviction, now you're in overdrive and all you can think about is your faults

and your failures. You never see the hope of the opportunity for repair.

All you see is your condition of despair. And we see that Jeremiah is

trying his best in this writing by the Road Cup. He's taught, trying

to turn tragedy in the Triumph. I'll tell you this, when you have

a very sensitive conscious and it's overactive, you can be on the job trying

to work and it can be wearing you out. You can be playing the

game in high school and it can be wearing you out. I'm telling you

here tonight, I'm talking to somebody. You have to get victory over condemnation.

So our conscience brings us to condemnation, but Christ brings us to conviction.

Talking about Christ versus conscience. Okay, So conviction and condemnation, both

of these to make people miserable. When Jeremiah was preaching, they were first

convicted, but when they refused to repent, Sister Wooten, when they refused

to repent and change their ways. That's what God said, that my people

which are called by my name, which are these people which is us,

will humble themselves and pray and turn from their wicked ways. Then will I

hear from heaven and heal their land. So conviction Christ offers us conviction.

He sends us preachers and they preach a message, and we're supposed to respond

and we're supposed to change or y'all get in this. But when we do

not respond and we do not make the changes that conviction was a didn't even

do to us, then rather than getting better, we get bitter because carding

them name. Here's what's happening, whatever the preacher says. And I've been

hurt by this. I had a young woman playing on my platform, playing

Amanda, and no names were being called. Most of you would not even

know except for Sister Rutner said she confronted the compromisers today. I'm preaching my

guts out, trying to help people be spirit and led, and I just

in my preaching, I said, I feel like somebody's bright and vivid.

I didn't call any names at the church. That young girl come to me,

and I ain't told us publicly in years. I don't even know that

I ever even told her act she told me, But I will tell it

now because most of you don't even know who it is. But she came

to me and said, how did you know? I said, I don't

know. She said, well, I've been going down there the mamas and

I've been sipping on some wine. And she looked at me and with her

own mouth, she said, I guess I better set myself down for the

third time. I said, well you said it. I didn't, but

thank you for me and easy on me. And it was just great.

I mean, the correction was there. They knew I was a disciplinarian.

It was like the kid said, Dad, I know I done wrong.

Just fessed up to it before judgment came. But she did not want to

turn this when we got to confess and forsake. And so because she wasn't

willing to forsake it, she knew I'm going to continue in this. Shall

we continue and sin that grace may avowed God forbid? How shall them that

are dead any longer to sin continue therein So finally, brother Jonathan and I

at some point we stopped wrestling with those things, whatever they were, even

if they were little things, because of this, small foxes as fall the

while a lot of you deal from time to time with the spirit of end

be or the spirit of jealousy, or the spirit of luster. I mean,

you just deal with these spirits and you got to turn from it.

You got to risk. The Bible said, if you'll resist the devil,

he will plea from you. I believe that God that saved my soul and

saved brother Jonathan Saul, and it's told us how to have victory over the

spirit of condemnation can do for others the same thing that he did for us.

But the devil wants to dupe you and deceive you and get you to

the place where you're in disparit you where you peel like there is no way

this can come to an end. It can't come to an end. You

just followed God's plant. A sister's Derek said tonight, if God bid you

to shout with a loud shout, you have to shout right there, because

that couldn't be the key to victory. That could be that what makes you

a victor rather than a victim. Personally, I feel like when I answered

the call to preach, I finally got victory over the spirit of condemnation.

Now again, when I got married, I was pure Morley. I didn't

tell lies, I didn't steal. I was an easy going guy. I

wasn't a brawler. I could have met the credentials of a bishop. I

mean I could have been accepted and had been offered opportunities in churches as to

how he was sactified the Holy Ghost field just because of my character, just

because of who I was. But inside I was tormented because of condemnation.

What was it that God was telling me to do that He wasn't telling anybody

else to do. He was telling me to get involved in ministry, help

others preach the gospel. That's what Apostle Paul said, Who would to me

if I preach not the gospel? And so you take man, this is

frivolous, like sisters there it did for years. Somebody told me today they

listened to curse cheerleaders. They said, Jereman and brother Caleb said us to

He said, Pastor, They said, Jeremy said, four years ago.

However long ago, Brother Caleb said, four years ago? He said,

four years ago. You were saying things then that you've been imposing and forcing

and preaching to us over the last couple of weeks. God is still speaking

to us just like you did four years ago. He said. I wonder

why is he still speak to us in that manner? Because God is trying

his best through his prophet to his servant to tell you the key to your

victory has let out blood, clonel and cry. Somebody said, God's not

in all that holler, and God's not in all that shot. Why did

blind Barnabas had to get loud? Why is Jesus coming back with a shout?

Why? Why does the Bible say God has gone up with a shower

the lad with a sound of a trumpet. Why? And so here's what

happens when we refuse to obey God. And that's what these people done,

Brother Nathaniel. That's why we have a book that is nothing more than a

description of a funeral of a city. Because people didn't feel like what God

said. He meant, I mean, if God gets specific to you and

he tells you to take a lap around the church, and he went,

I mean, why would you have told the children of Israel walk around the

walls of Jericho. That could have just stood there, held their posture and

just prayed a little bit quietly and reverently, and said, God, but

you please take down them walls of Jericho. What about them disciples that follow

Jesus? What about all the manifestations of the spirit and how God used them?

And manifested himself. God desires for us to obey him. And I've

noticed that since brother Jonathan got here, there's been some changes that he has

made to his life that has helped alleviate that spirit of condemnation. I'm not

saying that it's been gone on always. I must say that it hasn't come

back, because when you're blessed with such a wonderful conscience as that, and

you have a sensitive conscience a man, that's one of them things you do

not lose unless you syric come on proofs to him. Are y'all following me

or paying attention? Okay, paying attention, so that conscious is an interfering

or a voice viewed as acting as a guy. You know, Hitler at

one time had a conscience. They said whenever he was a kid, that

if a dog was going without it was astray, he would go to Malma's

cupboard and getting that dog something to eat, take it out there and feeding

that dog. Did y'all know they said that Hitler one time watched the boy

stumble and fall and hit his head on the chair. And Hitler got down

there and held the boy and banged his own head on the chair and beat

up the chair for the boy. Do y'all know? They said that Hitler

would look at people that didn't have anything to eat in the city streets and

go out of his way to go down there and buy something from the bakery

or the coffee shop and take him handled to the homeless people. But brother

roquap he has recorded in history as one of the most evil dictators this world

has ever known. There was obvious was something in him that was trying to

make him very good. In fact, he was a blessing to society.

He was a people's person. He was somebody that just went out of his

way to make somebody else's life better. He sensitive to people. You see

the elderly person over there in the wheelchair trying to push themselves into the marketplace.

Oh they can't do that. Let me go over there and help them.

That's what when you have that intercost, you have that overactive conscious,

you think about do you see things nobody else sees? Brother johnthan that's like

when brother Johnathan sees things not going quite right at my house, he'll go

the extra mile to fix it. But it's even concerning chickens. And he's

aware. He has this inner feeling. I just need to do right in

a situation. And that's why Sister Tracy, I knew he was in trouble

when he was littering against his conscious. And he said, when he stopped

being a litter bug, he got the Holy ghost. What he was doing.

He was overrating that conscious. Every time he's gotter that litter out on

the highway. He was becoming more rebellious, Brother Jesse, until he got

past feeling concerning that situation. And that's what happens when we go against the

counture. Hey the preacher had my message tonight. Hey the preacher, come

right now on my road. The power of God was moving. Everybody in

church was shouting with a loud shout. Everybody was clapping their hands. Everybody

was obeying God. God had ordered the steps of the righteous man tonight,

and we obeyed God and we had a blessing. But instead of going home

as a victor tonight, I'm going home as a victim to my own conscious,

rather than going home as a victor to conviction. Viction. So we're

letting our conscious win over Christ. So condemnation leads to destruction. But Brother

Tyler, conviction brings with it a godly grief, and it leads us to

repentance, which leads us to true joy. Did y'all get that condemnation leads

us to destruction. Condemnation leads us to destruction. No, I don't want

to live holy. I want to gwine Bill and I don't want the preacher.

And if I do get called, I'm gonna make sure he knows he

caught me. The preacher starts preaching on the spirit of lust. The same

person come to me and said, how did you know? I said,

what in the word are you talking about? Said? This weekend, I

slipped down there to an X rated movie and watched it. How did you

know? I said, I didn't know. I said, I assume because

of the way you have a platform standard if you don't want to be playing

on your platform, I said, that's exactly right. But now all of

a sudden, I've been hurt. People that don't want to do the word

of God. That's the easiest thing in the world for them to do while

their world is falling apart, while they're living in shambles because of their compromise.

It's easy for everybody to point through the rubble at the prophet and say

he hurt me. I mean, how many people said, if you read

the Word of God jeralized words, hurt me. I don't approve of that.

In fact, you ought to be in prison for his words. You'll

see that happen in this great United States of America. At some point they're

gonna take a point the finger at the preacher that preaches against them moorality,

preaches against homosexuality. You what, it'll be the preacher's fault because of people

turning over to the spirits of Hordems and homosexuality as that preacher's fault, that

the preacher wasn't poking the bear. And we wouldn't have nothing in the world

about hey worry about Oh yes, you would. You need the profit preaching.

And the truth is, as long as we go against the grain of

the Word of God, we're gonna get splinters in our life. Condemnation leads

to destruction. So when they say I've been hurt, they hurt themselves.

And it's true. Conviction will lead you to do better, while condemnation will

lead you to be bitter. Say that with me. Conviction will lead you

to do better. Condemnation will lead you to be bitter Condemnation screams in our

face to y'all, here system him and say one inch in your face,

one inch in your face. Damnation will scream in our faces, how bad

and how ugly we are. Well, the only thing we did was pass

up a stray dog. That's me. They said, I'd bring every stray

animal home that I could, Brother Tyler. One time I brought one home

that was blind, and it ran around for three days in a circle.

Finally somebody took that little puppy and put it out of his misery. They

said, do you remember bring anything home? I should have got that dog.

I should have brought that home. I should have done this. I

found in this I should have done better. It is good to push yourself

to perfection. It is good to strive unto holiness. It is good to

push yourself so hard. But when the devil realizes you're pushing yourself. I

need somebody that's very athletic like I was. Come, brother, Philip,

know that I love you, brother, and please land good. But when

you're pushing hard anyway, pushing hard, there's some muscle arts. That is

the strategy is if you can't push against that force, then you go with

that force. So all of a sudden, I'm pushing, and I realize,

this guy has a wonderful conscience. It's overactive, it's an inner conscious.

So the best thing for me to do is overwork it. Now,

all of a sudden, I just had to push with the pressure that he

was pushing against. Meca, y'all see that, I'm telling you. I'm

teaching you here tonight. So that there's some people they repent over everything.

I mean, they repent for giving somebody a bad look. I thought,

I wish some of our holiness preachers that don't even lift the finger to get

in the altar and pray with somebody would at least have enough condemnation or enough

conscience that would bring them into condemnation to realize. They preach to us for

an hour and then did not even try to pray with somebody for two minutes.

But they don't have a conscience. They don't have an inner guide that

would tell them you ought to get on down there and finish what you started.

Are y'all following pastor out here tonight? So Christ is an inner voice

inside of all of us, and he is pushing us to do right but

Christ will never push you down flat on your face. He will cause you

to drop to your knees and repent, and he will allow things to be

the disciplinarians in our lives. But we should realize how compassionate Christ is and

for the sacond time will move all. But what do what happened out off

Hitler? What happened to him? They said he experienced a break up and

he never would forgive that person for what happened. And I don't know if

that's true or not executive what all took place in his life, But with

each that he was such a blessing and society, he went in the opposite

direction, in an extreme. And so brother Nathaniel got past the condemnation.

He never listened to the conviction, and then he started destroying his own life.

So condemnation screams in our face, how bag and bad and hell ugly

we are. So at some point here's what ad Alf Hitter believed. Yeah,

you know what, I'm very bad and not very ugly. And if

I'm a monster, I might as well see myself as a monster. And

if I perceived myself as I gonna get into perceived myself as bad and ugly.

Then I might as well just live it out because that's who I am.

That's what happens when you feel like you overlooked that person on the street

corner that day, and you go home and you eat a nice feel and

your conscience tells you you pulled into condemnation and realize you could have did better.

You had another ten minutes where you could have wouldn't picked up a six

piece chicken nugget and operate it. You see, you can see that Hitler

was operating in a powerful interconsciousnre There's something motivating him, brother Caleb, that

wasn't motivating nobody else. But the devil got a hold of that and begin

to beat him up and torment until he's not good enough. He will never

be good enough. You missed to hear you're bad. You missed to hear

you bad, whether you're ugly, in fact, you're worthless. Look at

that you're not helping people the way you should. That he gets hurt,

and rather than getting bitter to a conviction, he gets better. This man

could have been a David of his day in the land in Germany. This

man could have directed that passion and that love properly for a little bit longer.

If he'd just met Jesus and allowed Jesus to direct that in the way

that it should have gone, he would have been a wonderful pastor to some

parishioners. But instead he becomes a monster of society. One thing we must

never do as admit to ourselves or the devil, that we're a monster.

What we had to do we had to go through a book like this,

that is a book that describes the funeral of a city. And we've got

to say, wait a minute. Despite we've even been disciplined by the disciplinary

in Jesus, I realized that Jesus is still very compassionate towards me. So

hur Condemnation is screaming in my face, how bad and how ugly I am.

Conviction, which first in my era, how much he loves us?

I mean, in the midst of this rubble, Jeremiah realizes how much God

loves these people? Why how does he come to this awareness? Because he

sees the mercies of God? What y'all look at our text again? So

condemnation draws us further away, while conviction pulls us closer. I heard of

a man that had got bitter because of a father that had beat him.

He showed his son great love. In fact, he was seamless, and

his love for his child, it was such a pure love, so he

thought, and he was always just going above and beyond to do good things

for that child. And if he's gotten going pretty bad for him on the

job, and that he's got it going pretty bad between him and his spouse,

he started taking it out on the children. Pretty soon. He believed

he himself was a monster, but just somebody, man, My conscience is

telling me you're sorry. My conscience is speaking to me and telling me you're

worthless. And he got to the place, brother Tyler, where that kid

he loved so much, he would have gave his life for that kid.

That he knew. I will never hurt that kid the way my daddy hurt

me. Y'all listen now. One day come outside and his little boy had

a ballpeen hammer and was knocking on his corvette. That man had just got

that before of that, and that man reacted and took that ballpeen hammer and

beat every finger off of his son. You can't allow that conscience to work

you over until the place you accept the idea I am who I am,

because as soon as you accept that, or admit to somebody that you don't

admit to nothing right. I will never admit if I'm sitting in the asspile

of the city of Jerusalem, I will confess my sins and forsake them and

admit that I trespassed against God. But I will never admit that my life

is not salleageable. I will never admit that I'm unworthy because I cannot.

As a student of the Word of God, I realize that his mercies are

new every morning, and that his compassion towards me is infallible. It will

never fail. Every person that's committed suicide needed to hear tonight's lesson. Every

person that's about to commit suicide needs to hear tonight's lesson. You can beat

yourself proper rather than going to the word of God. You'll beat yourself up.

Yeah, it's true, Brother Nathaniel. I can understand how people can

understand just how holy God is, and I can see how people would expect

God to react the way he did here because he's the creator, He's the

one that gave us this earth. He ought to be honored and He ought

to be respected. We ought to respect his words. We ought to keep

his commandments. When God speaks, if he says shout, you want to

be the first one to shall. If God says take a victory lap,

you ought to be the first one to take a victory lap. If God

says, take somebody a living pound cake, you ought to be the first

one to take somebody a living pound cake. You know there's people in here,

Brother Jonathan, that don't have that sensitive, overactive conscient God could tell

them to take somebody a living pound cake. They won't do it for a

year and never feel about it, losing ounce to sleep, not one minute

to sleep over it. But Brother Howell, the difference of Brother how and

you is this, and I speak of the fool. If God told me

to take somebody in living parent cake, I would have a real hard time

sleeping at night, and about it the crack of dawn. I would be

at Walmart. If I didn't have the time to make it, I would

be buying one and showing up at somebody's house and hanging it on the door

knob. Because of the conscience and the voice of Christ beckoning to me for

obedience. That's what Jesus was doing. He was convicting these people through the

preacher time and again. And here's what God told me yesterday, I was

walking through my house. He said, I don't care how many times the

gates of fire force swing open. He said, when I asked somebody to

obey me, obedience is better than sacrifice and the heart and than the fat

of rams. And we said, well, God, I am obeying you

in every manner, are we really or is there a residue, a residual

in there? This shouldn't be still of ourselves, you know that temptation for

Brother Howard to night. You know, I'd rather preach and teach. I'd

rather just go all running ninety miles an hour just in case the world out

there needs to hear something. But no, we got to slow down to

night. Talk to somebody that's being handed by their conscious. Yeah, that

conscious is a good guard dog, it sure is. It's a good watch

dog. But some of y'all's barks all night. I knew what it was

for buying to bark all night. Sister Howe has been raising the puppies for

me. She does a wonderful job of that. She loves that she don't

care taking a road about chickens, but she loves puppies. But Brother rodecap

whenever she sets them up. She says them just outside our bedroom wind at

night and Mama and the puppies are yapping and all long long, Brother Jonathan,

there's people to sleep through a tornado and a whirlwind and all that.

But Brother Jonathan and I, we just can't sleep through it. And was

somebody disrespect fixing to preach a little bit here, but with somebody disrespects the

pastor or somebody acts out of line out in Churchill. There's some of it's

just like water off a duck's back, but there's some of you. You're

seeing bullets and you get man that gets stuck in your crawl and you get

so angry. That's the kind of people if we're not careful because we say

they ain't nobody should talking about pastor like that. I don't care how holy

they think they are. What we have to remember is word but flesh and

blood. And then He knows our praying. And I know that there's people

that are overriding the conscious and the boss of Christ. There are people going

past the fiction and going through condemnation to destruction. People are not getting better,

they're getting bitter. I understand all of that, but as Sister Platque

used to say, I'm only responsible for myself. And if you allow that

guard dog inside of you, that inner conscious, to bark all night long,

you will lose peace of mind. I'm telling you right now. I've

been saying, God, I need rest. And that's what happens young men

and young women, moms and dads. If you let that inner conscious just

yap and yap, and yeah, you will come out of the bed a

wild eyed monster and say, you know what, I'm not worthy of living

this way. I'm not worthy of serving God. Why bother am I hoping

you all to night? Yeah? And I know there's those people, Brother

Johnson, right now that could burn the world down to sleep like a baby.

You'll might not believe that there's people in this building right now. I

wonder sometimes of Tyler's even got a conscious. And I don't mean that in

a bad way, but Sister Woodness, things like things just don't bother him.

Yeah. I don't know if he gets that from his granddad or who

he gets that from, But Sister Wooton she's got one of those sensitive,

overactive consciousness. I know that because a lot of times she comes to me

and says, brother, how I've been thinking about this and I just want

you to know that. I want to make sure I'm good with you on

this end. And I think, man, she's been thinking about some things.

Some things have been bothering her. She's been laying into bed at night

wondered did I speak wrong to my brother? Did I speak wrong to my

sister? And she tries to make it right. There's some people I believe

they could get on Jordy's back with spurs and then just claw him to death

and didn't rake him with them spurs, Brother Jordan until Jesus come back,

and never feel bad about it. But there's some people. If they just

walked by Brother Jordian, didn't shake his hand, shake my hand, Brother

Jordan. And if they just didn't shake his hand, they bill some bad.

They couldn't wait till the next church service to get over there and shake

Brother Jordy's hand. You watch it, You tell God's been convicting them.

They're own spirits, been convicted them. First thing they do walk over here

and shake brother Jordie's hand. There's some people that will never feel the need

to shake Brother Tiler's head. Condemnation is what's made them bitter, and it's

what makes them say I've been hurt. I mean, Jesus got beaten beyond

recognition, as sister would said tonight, And she didn't know this was in

my notes. His old mother couldn't hardly identify him except for his wonderful spirit.

His interals were hanging out of his back. Then they expected him to

hang on across after carrying it. Now, whenever I was dealing with that

overactive conscious rather than listening to the voice of Christ, Brother Jonathan, I

remember I had this feeling that Jesus was this big bully standing on the back

side of a corner somewhere, just out of sight, and that at any

given moment, because of my misdoing, He's gonna beat me to a bloody

pulp with that stick. Finally I realized that he wasn't wanting to beat me

with that stick. He himself would climb up on a stick. He loved

me enough that he would allow a Roman soldier to pierce him through with a

stick that had a sharp, pointy obtick on the end of it until water

poled out of his side, so he didn't come into this world. John

three sixteen, one of our cover texts for God. For God so loved

the world that he gave his own and begot son. The whosoever believes in

him should not perish, but have everlasting life. And that is the most

well known verse of scripture in the world. It always has been, always

will be. What is that followed by? Not? What fore runs it?

What follows it? John three seventeen. For God sent not his son

into the world to condemn the world, but that the world through him might

be saved. Oh I feel good. We have to not allow the devil

to convince us we are not God's children. There is no way that the

one that climbed up on the stick would beat you with a stick. That's

why I climbed up on the stick. For about two weeks now, it's

been repetitive in my soul. All have sin and paulish short of the glory

of God. All have had ill temper, all have had short vieuses,

all have made mistakes. There's nobody in this building perfect, but we're trying.

That's why I said strive to be perfect. That's why I said be

perfect, even as your father in Heaven is perfect. If any of you

start being as perfect as God, I'm resigning as church and your pastor,

man or woman, board child of you figure that one out, you're gonna

be pastor. But all has said, that's cheremy howell, that's Danny Edwards

have fallen short of this tremendous glory of God that we don't want to miss.

That that doesn't mean start missing out on the glory of God. That

just means, because of the the priority of the human nature, of the

academic nature, there's gonna be times you're just gonna slip. And I tell

you how you beat that. Brother Johnny Platt, he taught us how he

beat lie and a sister who should be the only one broken by the pack.

That he's not gonna beat you with a stick when he Dino. See,

she's right now letting that conscience take her through the voice of Christ.

Oh, I feel it, brother Rocap. I know people right now,

if they had a responded to conviction, they would be among the righteous holy

people of God still to this day. But because they didn't positively respond,

but rather adverse and responded to conviction. They are now living in condemnation,

and you can walk by them and one of the first things they say is,

don't judge. Don't judge, don't judge. That's people that's condemned already.

We're already condemned. So for God sitting out a son into the world

to condemn the world. For years, for years, brother Nathaniel, I

lived thinking he was the God that would beat me with a stick. But

now my sons, it doesn't matter where they're at it. Who run to

the auction, or if we're at the auction you watch long enough and close

enough, or if we're fishing. At some point, I'll put my hands

up and I'll say, thank you Lord. It will happen. If you're

ever with me for more than an hour, Brother calib you probably seen it

on a mission field, driving down a mountain. At some point I will

say thank you Lord that I'm no longer living in condemnation. I'm gonna say

that that condemnation started out well, but I could tell just before the Lord

saved me that that condemnation, if it wasn't put in check, it was

going to lead to bitterness again. I'm gonna say it one more time.

When you have a sensitive an overactive conscience, you say, how could anybody

look at my dear pastor in act that way? And there's people I'll say

it one more time. They'll show their fingure up their nose and scratch their

brain and then wipe the mess on the peg and they won't even think nothing

about I would say, thank you God that I have something we living me.

It's called a pure conscience that I want things to be in order.

I want my ducks to be in a room. I want people to obay

Jesus. I want people to be model parishioners. I want people to love

Christ. I want people. But when those people fail you, and when

you fail yourself, what you have to do. You have to look at

the cross. You have to look at the man that's on a stick and

realize, Brother Jesse, no matter what, right here, Jeremiah said,

he's gonna help him. I know you're on your face, and I know

you're down and out, you're in despair. You feel like you're despicable,

filthy and disgusting. And he's going to help him. I know, because

he's God, He's Creator, and I'm so imperfect. I know I deserve

destruction. I know that I deserve to be punished for every time I do

wrong. But I do know this brother Nathaniel, that he is full of

tender compassion. And I know a coordinary text right here tonight, Lamentations three.

Jeremiah said, it is of the Lord's mercies that we are not consumed

because his compassions fail or not his compassion, said, Father, forgive them,

for they know not what they do. Now. The man had aim

out of his hand and drove the knell through his risk. I say somewhat

knew what he was doing. But I want to tell you when people disappoint

you and fail you, sometimes they don't have that wonderful conscious that you have,

and they don't even see it the way you see it. So God

never changes, right, God never changes. And this is what I want

you. Ought to remember every person in this world. They say there's eight

billion people now, and every person here to night sixty five, Harem,

he's here. If he loved you enough that while you were in your sins,

he died from you. The Bible described us as the filthy and the

awe scaring of the earth. So if when we were despicable and in our

sin, when we were a drug addict, when we were an athlete pursuing

our own dreams. But we were just a disinterested church kid named Dillon,

disinterested Dillon, distracted dialon if when we were at our worst, when you

were a lion cook at sour Cow and the hordes of Babylon was coming for

you, and there was a prophet literally named Jeremy Jeremiah good Day, there

was preaching and saying, Jesse will hold ye. Such a woman turned aside.

I'm so glad that you responded to conviction. Otherwise you would be that

rebellious pastor's son tonight to despise his holiness and righteousness and truth. And it's

saying, I'm bitter. I've been hurt because the Howard boys and Tyler Wooton

and Brother Caleb, brother Dialing, Brother Christian and all you others. Y'all

heard the same message. You've been preached to in the same manner. So

what's the difference. Somebody listened to the conscience and not Christ. Now Christ

is saying I saw you at your worst. I saw you when that young

woman from Texas was trying her best to destroy your life. I saw you

at your worst, when your daddy was up at night outside your bedroom doors

and you didn't know, you were oblivious to what was going on. It

was the mercies of God and the compassions of the Lord when you were at

your worst. Now I feel the Holy Ghost in here tonight when you use

a backslid and preach your son going to the gym and given the world hill.

The devil's trying to make you better. Thou hast and loved to my

soul, the Bible writers said, when we were at our worst, just

before the parents made the move and them devil's was trying to lure you down

the path at least instruction, when you was at you worse. He loves

you, sister Lauren, When brother Chris and I was back there trying to

pull for you and you couldn't make up from down, and I knew the

devil was trying to tear your life apart, and I went home because of

that sensitive, overactive conscience that I have, and I cried and stayed away,

go and I said, if I could just get at their feet just

better and turn it. When we were at our worst, Brother Samuel,

when a little girl come down from Kentucky seemingly on a mission to destroy your

life. The only thing Daddy could do was prayed. But the mercies of

the Lord he loves you, then. Don't you think he loves you now?

Sister Alicia, you said tonight that you're living your best life. That

devil can come to you tomorrow and say you're worthless. What you need to

tell that's sorry, succoring the devil Satan is he loved me when I was

down low, And if he loves me when I was unlovable, then he

must certainly love me now. Sister Cheryl, if he loved you when you

came in that night the storefront, having ran from God all in you and

the first lady could stand up and say, I feel like singing tonight,

will the Circle be unbroken? What she didn't know, as her husband had

a sermon that night titled will the Circle be Unbroken? I showed her at

the church my notes. We wept and cried together. He loves us,

to Cheryl, when her brother Duayanne was shocking up. Now, I feel

like the devil fought us tonight as the only start of this message, because

he knows if you get a hold of it, and you will if you

won't to. If you get a hold of what I'm teaching tonight, you

will be unstoppable. His mercies are new every morning, every time the sun

comes up. It's just as rich, and it's just as brand new.

If he hung on that cross for you at your worst, don't you think

he's supporting you now, Sister Alicia, at your best? It's obvious he's

a disciplinarian, yes, And it is obvious there as consequences for our sin.

And it's obvious that I cannot continue and sin that grace Man found for

if I continue living and said, I'm gonna face consequences and he'll destroy my

city. I understand why he would do that. He fashioned the world by

his spoken word and then had to redeem it with his own very life's blood.

I appreciate that, and I commend that, and I understand it and

I respect that. But what I will never understand, that's how he can

have compassion on me when I was at my worst, knowing what my son

brought to him. And so I have to accept that whether I feel undeserving,

you're not the only one that's felt undeserving. The songwriter wrote the lyrics

so unworthy of such mercy, for when he was on the cross, I

was on his mind. So his compassion compassion fails not every second of the

day, every minute of your life. He cares as deeply for you as

he did when he prayed for you and gets seventies Garden? Did y'all catch

that he made attention every second of your life? He loves you as much

as he did when he prayed and get seventies Garden? Until his sweat became

as great drops of blood? Do you know? He prayed specifically? And

John the Beloved recorded at John seventeen and nine. He prays specific typically for

the followers that would come after him, He said, Father, right now,

and he's he agonized, as blood drops come out of his body.

He said, I pray for them. I pray not for the world,

but for them which thou hast given me. I'm praying for them because they

are thine. The truth is he cares immeasurably and equally for all people.

Immeasurably and equally for all people, no matter how much we feel or falter,

He loves us. He cares for us. He knows exactly what you're

dealing with tonight. He knows exactly how angry I would get because somebody disrespect

to my preacher. He knows exactly how I would lay awake at night so

upset because somebody would speak against my pastor. You can't let that inner voice

preach to you so hard that it destroys you. If I allowed that,

because of how sensitive my conscience is, I would never be able to preach

again, because it's very difficult to live. I'm not talking about doing something

dumb like suicide, but it's very difficult when you have a sensitive conscience to

realize you observed and noticed that that person refused correction, didn't accept it,

and they're not being blind, they see it clearly, but they're making a

bad choice and going the other way. The hardest thing, Brother Caleb,

is to turn loose and let them go without losing sleep. Now, I

hope tonight this this helps. But you could let a good thing become a

bad thing. And I believe one of our modern day examples of this as

Hitler, and I want to close with this. When I was high school

age, my best friend, one of my best friends, his name was

Jeremy Jeremy was a kid that I took under my wing. Jeremy had been

raised in a broken home and because his dad left his mother when he was

a teen and his other siblings I think there was five of them together,

he hated his father and he told me many times, he said, I

will never be like so and so, and he would stay at my house

and he was always talking about how it bothered him, how his father was.

It bothered him. It bothers me so bad to see the church people

do that. It bothers me so bad to see them not care. That

bothers me so good, bothers me. And he was always you could just

tell him was just eating him alive. And I would talk to him and

I said, Jeremy, I know it don't seem right that a man like

that, it makes that kind of money, would leave your mom in a

shanny shack and leave five kids to fend for themselves. And he would screaming

and saying, I hate him. I will be the best big brother in

this world has ever known. And sure enough, by the time he was

fifteen, he was under a weldinghood and he was welding and providing a living

for his mother, and he would bring his paycheck and hand her his week's

righteous I respected him and saluted him. He became even a greater friend of

buying. But then sensitive Jeremy, he made some mistakes, and rather than

forgiving himself and forgetting about things that others continue to make things hard for him

and his family, he got harder and harder. To make a long story

short, he became exactly the monster his daddy was. And about two years

later, after having been arrested many times, I said, dear, I

mean, what about all the nights you sat in my house and said you

would never treat your mom and siblings the way your daddy did. I said,

do you realize that by your leading and your direction, your mother is

now working and got a good job and driving a mass you to Marwell.

You picked her up on the despair. You encouraged her for years until she

got back on her feet. I said, do you realize your sisters have

married respectable men, and at this time he's on meth, He's on every

drug he can get. He's stealing from fabricators, stealing from local businesses.

For he called me every year and said, I just need to touch pace

with my friend. I've just been thinking about you every time I remind him,

And I'd say, Jeremy, Jeremy, wait hey, you said you

would never be like that, He said, Jeremy, I never intended on

be. I guess I just got so mad. So there, brother,

just now they're all living normal lives and now he's struggling. But he was

the one that I saw one time take the shirt off his back and get

it to somebody. Let's stand tonight, brother Tyler. When we were all

going outside to play, it's as to how it tells us to be the

truth as well, he would be carrying a baby on his hip sixteen seventeen

calls. His daddy left his mama that had little ones like this, And

while we were all out there playing and having a good time, he was

a little daddy. And there's some of you right now. You won't get

affected like me or Johnshon will at this, but don't tear me out here

now. And i'd watch that skinny linky boy. When we all got painted

at the fab shop. We'd go to seven stars. That's bill for somebody,

now, ain't it. We go to seventh Star and put our checks

on the counter, i'd take mine to spend it. He'd take care of

it, dial and go to his mama with a smile and say, Mommy,

here's my check. I'll be at work next Monday morning at seven.

And he did that for years. And in church and get around the altar,

he's having to be daddy. And now they're all live normal lives.

Some of them are religious, and he's on skid road, laid up sometimes

teeter totter and which lean life and death and you're pastor his old friend will

get a burden and say God wears jermynd All because he didn't get past condemnation

and respond to conviction. There was something there that God wanted him to sue.

Or the next time we feel like it's a trivial thing, sister stit

can tell your shout with a great shout, there's nothing trivial about it.

The truth is God is in control, and God is orchestrating our lives and

hip her. You didn't have to leave the world's most equal dictator. Now

there's about six people I have felt while I'm preaching, and I said,

at the only start of this message, I didn't want everybody to take it

for themselves. But I have felt at least six people be touched as I'm

teaching tonight. If you were one of those people and you really want to

pray and you want to say God tonight, I want to respond. I

see it's Christ versus conscience. And I see the condemnation will driving me farther

away from those I love, those that love me Jeremy, and I see

the condemnation's creams of my face, how bad and how ugly I am.

If you're one of those six, when you come to the author and pray,

one of the six, I see there's an inner feeling and a voice

inside of me has guided me to do right. And I don't want to

overlight it. This whole service is whispering his love for you. His mercies

are towards you, His compassions are towards you. Condemnation is screaming your failure.

Now I feel like saying this again as the pastor. There's a bunch

of people that go in and out of our force. And I shuddered yesterday

when I heard him say it doesn't matter how many times against her. An

old conan closed, I need simple obedience, and I said, Lord,

there's been a many time, me and many others have been in and out

of their day and night. And he said, it's all in vain when

you did reckon disobeyed me. But here's the thing, brother broke up tonight.

We see his compassions fell. Not Is there more besides one young man

who were coming to the altar and say, I recognize maybe it's even somebody

that's holy ghost field, or somebody's same sanctified. You say, you know,

wife, I realize tonight that I better never find myself in that snare

anybody else, anybody else. It's true, God's gonna have actions that sometimes

shocks us. It's true that sometimes God's holy actions or reactions to our unholy

actions. The conscience, my conscience has eaten me alive, my conscience.

So now we got about six up here? Is there anymore? I'm won't

say it one more time. It's just to stare at. One day you'll

see your pastor stand in this full bit and I'll tell you just how deadly

actured you were after you obey God in the shall. Had you not obey

God that night, got your experience you have tonight, somebody could have been

unprepared but it's just to him and tonight somebody is prepared. Is there anybody

else? This is a very different service because God's helping you get victory tonight.

We've slowed down on purpose. We'll pick right back up Sunday morning.

Anybody else, let's all find a place to pray. This kind of demonstrates

what I'm talking about. Not everybody's sensitive to what God's trying to do through

conviction. This is why Sister Woot says there's not many true conversions anymore.

This is why Brother Stit says there's not many true conversions anymore. Because God,

this is a sorrow will work is through pentance. For God so loved

the world that he gave his only begot. I'm gonna take it personal that

he died on Calgary and on that old ragged across he was placed for me.

I'm gonna take it personal. The truth is his compassion never ceases.

It's impossible for him to care less for you to guide than he did while

he hung on the cross. Compassion is more than taking it easy other boy

who has nothing to eat. Compassion, Let's taken it easy on yourself.

H take it easy on himself, take it easy on himself. Ask him

to forgive you from all sin and declanse you from all unrighteousness. He loves

you so much, He cares so much for you. He loves you so

much. But Preacher, you don't know how bad it sets me. All

give it to Jesus. Always give it to Jesus, Oh, Jesus,

the Holy ghost. In this place, the Bible said, at some point

they would see their conscious as with a hot iron. They would get to

the place where things just to bother them anymore. That's what happened. Dedict

you, God, don't let me see my conscious. Let me have a

pure conscious. Let me ask your Lord to help me with this matter.

Help me, Jesus, help me. Jesus help me. Jesus help me.

Jesus. Cheese, cheese, cheese. I'm not asking you to confess

the man anything. I'm just asking you to be convicted by Christ and be blessed.