Tearless Tear Cups - Bro Jeremy Howell 9-24-2025

Well, if you have your Bibles, will you turn with

me to the Book of Song. May I direct your

attention to the fifty sixth chapter and verse number eight.

We thank the Lord for the blessing of a little

baby boy, Nathan Josiah Howell seven pounds nineteen inches long.

His aunt Hannah, Yes, the birth weight and birth link

of that little baby boy, just exactly as it was.

She said, I finally got one right, and she did.

He's a handsome young man. Brother Nathaniel's sister Rachel have

beautiful children. She has definitely very good looking baby, and

they missed being here tonight. Brother Nathaniel sent me a

text message not long before I walked out of the

office to walk into the sainctuary. He said, tell everybody

thank you and thank you Pastor for everything you all

have done. We appreciate it so much. You know we

miss them. You can tell they're not here, that we

miss them terribly. You can fill the ashes of their presents.

We miss all that aren't here tonight. Sister Cheryl's sister Simmons,

May God give you a swift recovery clues. Lord, do

that for our dear sisters. Brother Samuel Salm six and six.

Brother Jesse, Palm thirty, verse number five. Brother Samuel, Salm,

Chapter number six and verse number six. Brother Jesse, Salm,

Chapter number thirty and verse number five. Mimi and I

have been babysity three beautiful girls, Rebella, Renee, and Ruth.

And I'll tell you this, watching them has reminded us

that we're no longer spreen chickens and spring roosters. I'm

telling you what, buddy, they are good kids. They're perfect,

literally perfect. They're the best kids in the world. Where

I'm telling your sister woot and I have felt my

age and I am preaching tonight exhausted. You can tell

I don't even want to have much of a voice.

Which is extraordinary, unusual, out of the ordinary, beyond ordinary.

I'm telling its odd how we've got so weak just

chasing the grand babies around. We had it on the

beach yesterday, and no kid in this beach was private

way beyond a distance from here to brothers Steerage Place

and beyond fire forest. We had just a private beach,

probably one hundred and fifty feet deep. It looked like

it went a half a mile one way, and a

half a mile the other. They might have been a

quarter mile one way, quarter mile the other. And we

took them little children, and the thing, it was a

plumping down on that beach. And it wasn't long before

that baby girl run over there with a handful of

sin and threw it at We just bombed me. And

that little girl is something else. She's quite the character,

and she started something. So I bombed and Rebecca and

Renee and they bombed me again. And then after a while,

because I'm so tired. I know, sister House tired, but

because I'm so tired, I laid down on this what

are you call them things? A beach tut you know,

I was thinking, said Remington or or something. Laid down

on the thing. I thought I was gonna stretch out

rest a little bit. And one of my loving granddaughters,

I still don't know which one it was, they bombed

in my face. I'm telling you, filled my face in

their full of sin. I love them. They're definitely like

their daddy. They're mischievous and they are they like to

have a good time. And I'll tell you they the

worked us over, not by being mad, but by having fun.

I never knew having fun with so much more presented. Amen,

all right, brother Samuel saw chapter number six at verse

number six. My brother, I am weary with my groaning

all the night long. Make by get to swim. I

water my couch with my tears. I watered my couch

with my tears. Those are the words of the psalmist David.

I want to preach a message the Holy Ghost titled

tearless tear Cups. Tearless tear Cups, Brother Jesse, Psalm chapter

number thirty and verse number five. For his anger endureth

but a moment in his favor is life. We've been

may endured for a night, but joy coming in the morning,

they man, thank God for that. Let's stand for the

reading of our golden text. Psalm, chapter number fifty six

and verse number eight. Thou'll tell us my wanderings. Put

down my tears into thy bottle? Are they not in

thy book? If you'll look up here, you'll see some

bottles of water. These bottles are full to capacity, feel

to the full, feel to the very top of the

realm feeling. I wonder if your spiritual tearcup in heaven

is tear free, tearless, tearless tearcups Sister Whoot and I've

been praying and I've been burdening. I know there's a

lot of tears shed at the Bethel Hollness Church on

a weekly basis, But I've been here and there over

the years, and I've seen in becoming a trend that

tears are no longer shed. What happened to the tears?

Where are the tears? And I want Brother Jesse to

walk up here and take a bottle, and I want

Brother Tyler to take a bottle, and I want them

to begin to pour the contents in this poor until

it gets filled to capacity. And whenever you get those

half fool or those empty bottles, put them back in place.

I feel like there's the people in this building tonight

that you don't understand. Your problem is. You need to

learn how to groan in the spirit and to pour out.

I'm sure heart to God reading our text again. PS,

I'm fifty six and verse number eight, they'll tell us

why wonderings put theu my tears into thy bottle? Are

they not in thy book? Let's pray, Heavenly Father, we

love it, we praise you, we thank you for the

opportunity to be in your house tonight. I thank you

for the sober atmosphere. I thank you, Lord for what

we have felt from the very beginning of this service. Tonight.

I thank you for this soberness and the sincerity that

we have felt in the hearts of this people. I

prayed God that you would annoint this I service out

of God at my mouth, and help you to say

the thing that you and have me to say, nothing

more or less than I know what the ears of

this not people, that they might hear what the Spirit

of God says or to the church to I through

this freak word. We pray that these sayings would saturate

the heart and the spirit and the mind your words, Lord,

not of my words, but your words. And maybe we

depart this place joyfully and not sorrowfully in Jesus's name,

and the church says, Amen, Praise the Lord. Our text

is found in an Old Testament book of the Holy Bible,

the Book of Psalm. Every person that attends the best

the hole in his church faithfully knows very well that

another name for this precious book of the Bible is

the Hebrew People's Song Book. I also feel like it

is the Christian Psalm book, and I feel like it's

the person of prayers. So book, There's been a lot

of times when I did not have the words to say,

when I needed to speak to my Lord concerning great

trouble in.

My life and travail of soul and spirit, I have

pulled out my copy of the King James Version Bible

and laid it upon an altar in my house and.

Knelt over it. And whenever I was lacking the right

words to speak in order to speak to God through brokenness,

I reached him to these psalms and plucked out the

words of the sweets Somist of Israel David, and I

began to read them as I prayed, and Sister Howell,

his words became my words of prayer. I can't say

that I've done that ninety nine point nine percent of

the time I have not parented the summonst. But there

have been times that I have used as Please as

patterns from my prayer. As much as I have used

him praise as a pattern for my praise, I have

used his plea for patterns for my prayer. And Brother Jesse,

as I looked into this song that is set open

before us this evening over the last few weeks, my

heart has been greatly stirred and my spirit has been

sorely troubled as I thought about the perplexing situation at

hand amongst the holiness of Pentecostal people today. And I

am not against the holiness of Pentecostal people nor their movements,

but I am concerned that their prayer life is no

longer what it used to be. And when I hear

them testify, I can tell that there is something missing.

And I'm not talking about a Hollywood actor pouring the

tears out of those tear ducks that God put in

the corner of their eyes in order to stir the

emotions of those that are viewing them on screen. I'm

not talking about that person that shows up during every

special meeting with a revival meeting or camp meeting, and

they find themselves at the same place, at the same altar,

and they pour out crocodile tears, tears and everybody knows

has no meaning and evidently tears and do not end

up in their tear cup. I'm preaching a sermon the

Holy Ghost title tear Free tear cups or tearless tear Cups.

I feel like every person that is a child of

God apparently has some sort of reservoir in the court

room of God, and there are bottles according to the

Word of God. Here the psalm is felt like there

are bottles in the presence of God where every single

tear is shed and kept up, stored up, Brother Jesse,

right there in the presence of God. But I feel

like there's people.

In this building tonight that may have.

One tears dropping their bottle, and perhaps their son that

have ten or fifteen or twenty. But I know that

there are some people in this fielding just from being

that pastor. I've been an eyewitness, and each and every service,

through tenderness and brokenness the spirit, they pour their heart

out to God. I'm telling you something inside of them

melts as God molds and shapes them, and God matures

and develops them through his grace and through his word

and through tender heartedness. They walk out of this building

haven't had a victory in their life. I think about

this cold hearted generation. They are definitely cruel. The Bible

said concerning jealousy, that is as cruel as the grave.

I look at people nowadays that do not care at

all to wave back at somebody that waved in them.

I look at people.

That seemingly are expressionists.

And they have no genuine love and all in their heart.

Even around a special season like Christmas, they seem to

be so cold hearted.

But I look at a few in this building here tonight,

and I'm knocked their Jesus.

I'm not their judge and I'm not their Jerry.

And for that critic con skeptic tonight, I know what

the Bible said, we can judge everybody by their fruits.

And I want to ask you a question concerning those

your churching around and those your shouting with, have you

judged their fruits? And are you rearing up on your

high land of standing for truth and righteousness? Thought finding

hypocrites were on every hand and there is cold blooded

as a reptile, and they do not have tender hearts.

They have stony hearts. Sister how When I think of

tender heartedness, I think of Sister Irish Wooton, I think

of you, Sister Howell. I think of Brother Samuel Howell

and Brother Thomas Sterrett and other people. But what is

the opposite of tender heartiness. The opposite is hardness of

the heart. King Saul knew all too well what it

was to have a hard heart. And when God himself

desired to choose a king among all of the candidates

within the nation of Isruel, God reached it to the

pamlet of Kish and he brought out a heart hard

hearted man name a Saul. And after Saul experienced a

spirit of God, saw received a tender heart. That hard

heart was sulted by the spirit of God.

But over the course of time, because of the.

Desire for power, and the desire for greed, and the

desire for prominence and prestige. With fir key, Saul heartened

his heart, and his heart got just as hard as

it was before the imorting of God deced upon him.

I look on every hand and I see cold hearted people.

It's not only the democrats and the leftists that are

so cold hearted. Sometimes I see it among the Republicans,

and I even see it among those in the middle

of the road. A sister, howell, you can tell it

the center of their being, at the very command center

of those individuals. You'll find intelligence, You'll find desire, You'll

find integrity. With sung, you'll find emotion, you'll find the

issues of life you'll find the speech that comes out

of that core, out of the very abundance of the heart.

The heart is the center of army. And but one

thing that I do not see in a lot of

people nowadays is kenness, or go with me, or tender heartedness.

Jesus Christ one time was preaching.

While he was preaching, he looked to the congregation, and

he saw there a man that had a withered hand.

And according to Saint.

Mark, there in the third chapter and the fifth verse.

While Jesus was preaching, he noticed this individual that had

hidden this condition from the others for whatever reason.

He was ashamed of his condition. And Jesus looked upon him,

and with tender heartiness, Jesus.

Said, I want ahead this man this day.

And he looked around, And the Bible said that whenever

he observed the countenances of the other people that were

present during that service, he noticed that they were unstirred.

He noticed that they were not moved emotionally.

He noticed that they were not compassionate. I feel like

before the service even.

Started it he watched us so scowlder while others mocked

about this man's condition, and Jesus cursed them somewhat, and

Mark said it was because of the hardness of their heart.

And when he solved the hardness of their heart through

brokenness and tenderness, he told the man to stretch out

your hand, and the Lord restoring the wi withered hand

to normalcy. So how are you going to grow in

grace and in the knowledge of the Lord and Savior

Jesus Christ, And how are you gonna be a possessor

the gift of salvation and sactification and a possessor of

the indwelling of the Holy Ghost and to continue to

go to service and walk through daily life for being

so hard hearted, That's what the problem was so concerning

the Pharisees and the Saducees of that day. They're rich

and increase with goods. They have their political platform, their

political places, but they were not at all touched by

the compassion of Jesus Christ for others. In fact, when

Chahn the Baptist was dealing with broken Lissa, when he

was dealing with that tender heartedness while in prison, while

that force that was there was wanting to preach that

iron bars were not permitting the voice of the aircle

to preach. When his disciples with the Jesus. Jesus said,

just go tell John this. I'm steered, timer hearted. I

parapraise here, and he said, I'm stilled preaching that to

the least and the lost and the lonely. I'm mindful

of the outcast. I'm concerned about others. I'm about my

father's business, losing a sick need the position for y'all

getting it here tonight. I'm telling you, if you are

a worry warter and your crying because of a deadly storm,

that is not what I'm talking about. A little child

being pralled to yield to the.

Spirit of fear, that is not what I'm talking about.

If you're wanting to read a newspaper and a scower

through those apps on your cellular the house, certainly.

You have been vic to miles by news stations and

reporters feeding the messes, including you through those eye gates

and those year gates. They're feeding you things that make

you fearful and make you afraid.

And as Christians, we are to supposed to worry. According

to God's word, there.

Is no room in the heart of any believer happy.

For anxiety or worry. The Bible said to be anxious

for nothing. But if we would pray, we could just

have a piece.

Of mind that pass it all understanding that readily gonna

choose to be frightful. Let we rather choose to be fearful.

Left concerning the things and the people in this world,

they can say the word hurricane, and the fearful pidians

that don't know any better. They are not faithful, they

are not.

Trustworthy, they're not trusting the Lord, and so they're not trustworthy.

Roll resort to me after your pop, so they're not painful.

And all the news reporter has to say is, here

comes a storm and you run out of gasoline a pump,

so you run out of water, have to store, you

run out of feod, you run out of the basic

necessities of life because of fear. But the Bible said

that God has not giving us the spear and of fear,

and of power and of love and a sail mind.

Sometimes you'll see somebody hit me all to praying and

shedding a tear because a fear. I want to say again,

they're sitting a tear because of fear.

And I want to tell you those sets of tears

are not put to him. Thus tear pumps. If you're

enough praying right, if you're not being sincere, if you're

not being broken, if you're not being to your hearted,

then you have to be just like King's Hall when

that stony heart is put to the test, and have

become harder. Abouda said. Even there he took upon the

rover of Samuel and gave it a rip, and he

gave it a terror. He sought something, said, He seemingly

pursued some things. Let you know what Samuel said. He said,

this thing, the kingdom has been ripped from you right

because of simple accent of old disobedience. Rebellion has stubborn myself.

He sometimes lead up. We regret because a rebellious accent

and chilly choices. Said that. I want you to know

you crying They just super PRIs tears and being sorry

because we got caught up and being worried of a.

Mount or consiquinches.

That is not the son of tears, and it's going

in your tear talk. I'm trying to preach that somebody tonight.

I tell you learn how to do like Dave and

deal when David till when made to come in and

trespas said that this this God. He said, I need

u retumnated. I need not too many clins, I need

a avin a spirit. I need the new spirit. And

you know who are On contrast, hockyved that to just

tears something that put don't been a bottle. These are

the words. And to David about these tears being bottled

up any well, I got caught. I got my hands

wadded and said, I'm gonna cry just a little bit.

Tears are a language that God understands. But God also

knows when those tears are mocking him. The Bible said,

being not perceived, God is not mocked. What's every man?

So that shall he also reap? You see, Crocodile tears

are not bottled up in a tear.

Cutness in the presence of God.

Bottle tears are discarded the moment that they are shit.

I feel like talking to somebody here tonight. You can

splash water in your face. You can put your index

finger in the corner of your eye and you.

Can boble it around and massage those teared ups. I'm

telling you some of you should have been C list celebrities.

You ain't good enough to be a B list or

an a list celebrity.

But I'm telling you, bother Jesse, I've been amazed, and

how easy if people can turn the tears on, and

people can turn the tears off. There's been time, Sister Howl.

I told Sister Howl, I said, I wish I could

cry as the easeless some people do. I wish I

could turn it on. I wish I could turn it off.

And there's a lot of times I would like to cry.

I feel like sometimes, even as a man of God,

a good cry. We do a lot of us, a

lot of good.

Our chary agreement with that, I'm telling you, But I

can't stand it when you see somebody whining and supposingly crying.

It's supposedly broken, it's supposedly not a conscience spirit and

something that God.

Should not despise if they weren't broken, if they were

in contrition. Help you believe of God with a path there,

wake of yours from an alltravention.

And put them getting them to your cops.

But God doesn't even touch upon, I said, God do

doesn't even touch them. But when you cry up here,

God didn't give you a fear. There's a hearty Peter,

and let us the fear of God. That's the very

memory out of stage of wisdom. He is not a

health fear of God. According to the word of God,

well to fear of the Lord and the New So

would be the embryotic stage of wisdom in our lives,

the very beginning of wisdom coming to live and flourishing

in our hearts. We are to fear those who can

take our lives.

But it's healthy for a child.

Of God to have a fear concerning that supernatural superior

being which can destroy soul and body in a devil's

health and the lake of pire. In verse number three,

David said during the times when he was afraid, he

would put his trust in the Lord.

If you're looking at this, son, what time I am afraid?

I will trust in thee.

It says in a third verse. According to the latter

part of that verse, he wasn't to concerned about anything

that could be done to him by mortal flesh. Are

y'all with me? I will put my trust in me.

This is the man who said, yea, do I walk

to the valley on a shadow of death? I will

fear no evil because thou art with.

Me, thou wrong in thyself they don't comfort me.

What he's saying here is there's no mortal pleasure, whether

creature or human being, that can disturb me or trouble me.

What he's saying is, there's.

No battle for your death that I wasn't there to

step on. That, there's no child that I would hesitate.

The faith he's fearlesson. He's faint, Father, are y'all listening

to me? His trust is in the Lord, crave being

of God. They cry, I say, great, but me, but God?

They cry? When does a that all of us in

this place? David was no different than anyone else. It

had to be troublesome for him to see his enemy

surrounding him. It had to be troublesome for him to

see his own people turning their back on him. At times.

It had to be troublesome for his own son Abslom to.

Turn his back on him and turn trader and treacherous

person on him. Into march all of his wives and

concubines to the top of the palace, to take each

one individually into the tent and.

To know them biblically. If you won't know what I'm saying,

this man was not at all scared. When a giant

balked him, he charged him. This man was not scared

of all the flesh, and a line charged him and

got the face with him with his own two hands,

and he slewed him. Or no, father, what I'm saying.

He was not of a skittishah or a silly disposition.

This was a man's man. He's a warrior, but there

were times in his life he knew if I'm gonna change,

it's gonna be prough tender heartedness, and it's gonna be

through brokenness. And that is the divisive thing I want

to bring here tonight. I want to put an ax

to the root of the tree, and I want to split.

The tree that center and tell you, on one side

you got a stony heart.

On another side you got a tender heart. On one

side you got life sack throwing.

On the other side, it's just try has lost year's

bird's death.

I'm telling you half on a movement or more has

got beyond the plans where the tears speaking for late

w say.

God that cares, stay here.

I'm telling you what tears on her lanquents. God understands,

but don't quest. It is care all good tears here

being said, they're tired understands. Standing straw in the face

of adversity is nothing for David. But brother wrote Cat.

But I read this verse. If you'll look at that

first part of our text and said, they'll tell us

my wonderings. They'll tell us my wonderings. Put them my

tears into thy bottle? Are they not in thy book?

Tearless tearcups? I said a little while ago, I wish

that I could cry sometimes when people threaten my life.

I wish sometimes when I'm dying and I've had a

few close calls, just a hall nose. I wish I cried.

I wish I say, oh no, I'm not ready to die.

Oh I mean, I'm telling you I feel things. But

Brother Jeremiah, the tears just won't flow. But whenever I

see God move like he did for Brother Nathaniel and

Sister Rachel, I want you to know something erupted inside

of me and the tears begin to flow. I'm telling

you David wasn't move only because of a strong emotion,

and one of those emotions be in fear. David was

food when he understood sometimes it is from tears a

man cleanses his fine. Sometimes it is from tears. A

woman clears the soul. Sometimes he is from tears, a

child cleanses inside from bitterness. I'm telling you I feel

like David for a reason why he swim on his

bed with his tears. I rather read the context the

night hear me, he was saying, my bed, these trench

to good tears. It wasn't because of the Philistines had

put up upon the little foe. It wasn't because a

child it was fucking his brothers. It wasn't because of

a child, was saying, I'll feed your pleasure to the beast,

and up to your left co pout of the air.

But he was crying for some reason, I said. He

admitted that that he was crying for some reason. Nobody

that so was around. And I present to you tonight

that the reason why saw he lost all, and why

David found himself again. That's this because of brokenness, This

because of the platrition this's been causing appear in the

heart of earth. Amen, I said of years ago. I

will not pretold this standards unless I do it over

tear stained notes. I mean, and I love somebody so

much to preach the truth in love, to tell them

what the Bible said, chapter and verse and give it

to him, because faithful are the wounds of a friend,

but the kisses of the enemy are deceitful. So what

was moving him to act in such a way when

the blinds were closed, when the dray trees were drawn,

when the lights were dim, when the candle was snuffed out?

What was it, brother Philip? It wasn't the fighting the

enemy of Israel battlefields. As to how it wasn't just

going out slaying Josa was just another day at the office.

But when his closest friends and the king that he

gave us very live or would have given us very

live to defend, turn on him, he began to swim,

are y'all listening to you? After Asshlum, that treacherous son

turned on David, And after Joe Wabb David's relative great

friend there killed Absol, and the Bible said that David cried.

Oh, absolute, old, absolute, my son wouldn't have got out

have died for you.

Absolutely, And that's what I'm telling moms and dads and

boys and girls today we are no longer walking into

them prayer closets. I said say we I guess they

that way, you don't feel like you're alone. We are

no longer walking in their prayer closets and free until

our spirit is broken, until our heart is broken. For

the prodical sons and daughters, it's not that I don't

want them. Hey, y'all, listen to me and ask nothing

that I just don't want them to die on the highway.

It's not that I don't want to, oh, brother Roquet,

something horrible to happen to him. I don't want any

of that to take place at all. But at the

end of the day, you've gotta love their soul enough

to not see him die and go into it devil's hell.

And you've got a lot of them mouth that you

like to see them delivered from their addition up and delivering.

From the path where I'm distrusting.

I'm asking you where all the sincere tears? Where are they?

Where's your bottle out tonight?

Is it poor of capacity?

Look? Every day is a tree or four Morland been

staring up in my bottle?

When David said this in the first part of our texture,

they where's.

It that thou tell us my wondering? You know, what

that means. You watch me peace the poor, You watch

me tossing, turn you watch me racks and roll over.

He watched me grown and treven on. This man must

get serious with God that's behind these the way. And

I'm telling you that when you get serious with God

in your tiny home, in your camper, like a camper

in the fact, So that's gonna r what when you

get to when you're swimming up, getting real tears in

your bad that these twigs don't with tears of love.

But there you will know what did They weeping and

durble the night. But joy is all his way, weeping

and daring for the night.

But Joy come up in the morning the right kind

of weeping, the right kind of weeping. He that goes

forth weeping and bearing precious seed shall doubtless come again

with rejoicing, bringing the sheets with him. This tells me

that they weren't sid And I told Sister Hall recently,

I said, it's like members of the Holiness of Pentecostal

movements need to realize the old fashioned prayer life still works.

It's like some of them have forgot that it takes

more than a good music program. It takes more than

Colgate smiles by half Batslet youth group, that's a coin

of minded. They're not walking in the spirit. And old man,

the lust of the flesh, you can see it. They're

so in tune with the models of or one are

those dainty jewels and she Inn and Tamu all this stuff.

And I'm just telling you. You can tell somebody needs

to go back into the prayer, cause it y'all know

what a prayer, cause it is by a Christian definition.

And they need to close the door and they need

to get on men and knee, y'all.

Remember hearing Mom and Grandpa, right, y'all, Remember hearing Daddy

and all of them grown in the spirit, y'all, remember the.

Spirit of God taking over and hear it.

Some boy in privacy cried out to God, and God moved,

and when they walked out of the room, they had

a feeling everything is gonna be all right. I'm telling you.

When Dave had got off a supper and went mattress

whatever the material that mattress was, and he had a

feeling everything is gonna be all right. I wonder if

he tossed and turned. I wonder if he rocked and road.

I wonder if he paced and rest on the floor

the night before he slewed thelift.

You know why, because he knew how his brothers were.

He knew how ungrateful and how untakful they were.

Holy bread Boy and the cheese Man. He is making

a special deliverance. Ho come on now order to see

his old brothers turn against him. I wonder halifelt when

he walked around the sycamore tree. I wonder Halifelter when

Saul said, who showed stripling his I said, I can

do this. Spent the more and it's come out. He

took five minutes power that. I'm okay, you do your crime,

and you're weeping in he come up and take Chartschuck,

you put in to see something here too. I'm telling you, hugging,

it's taking a call on you, Hucky. That's what I's

cooking my heart. Let's send that heart, Hoty. It's taking

a toll on you.

That's the inspiration of tonight's message.

God spoke to me and what almost was an audible voice,

tell them it's taking a toll on them. You better

get back, sister, to where you get away from everybody else,

and you close the door, knowing not if you'll be

hurt or not. And it ain't talking about making a

spectacle in the middle of the church service to be

heard or seen. And I'm not talking about making the

neighbors think all the Pentecostal holding his people are mad

by getting out there and find forest and rock a

coyote in the moon. I'm talking about really saying, you

know what, I need to go to the church pastor,

and that's all right, and I'm gonna shut myself up

in that church, y'all. Thank man. That's sub Sister Hannah

sings with annoying notion. That's wonderful, isn't it. But I

want to just tell you this. Nothing to toot my

own horn, but I just want to share this with you.

It was a Wednesday, and God told me to leave

thirty one to eighty plus on Great Road and to

come in the church and pray. And I came and

laid down at the fore right in front of the

pool Fieah, and I prayed. And while I was praying

in obedience to God, just no being God. It's gonna

take an old passion prayer life and an old passioned

prayer style. You ain't gonna be to sit there in

that lazy boy we youself on in one hand and

say a seven or ten minute prayer and not off.

I came here and I prayed. I didn't even.

Understand it why I was there but English, and I

admit to you don't do know a lot of these songs,

the songs of a little bent.

Not all of them are songs of praise. You don't

hear anybody putting attention on the songs of amit. A

lot of the songs are David. There are not the

songs of praise. They're the songs of languishing and the

songs of lament. Nobody wants to sing a sad song.

Don't come on now, the equish son of them get

his prayer, calls and pray. God. I know you're not

them home for me. Look it somehow, if I son

them home and do you a right, I know God

will make away from me. That's how a lot of

these songs ended up. God's gonna make a way. God's

gonna see me through. I've got so much of water breach.

It's just how And I drove an hour and I

have to be here tonight. I started out, very weakned body.

She told me. She said, Jeremy, don't push yourself too hard.

You're weak. She said, you ain't got nothing to prove

to anybody anyway. I said, I never felt that anyway.

It's the annoying that preaches me. It's the power of God.

Is feared of God. Because when I got started, I

planned on just coasting through it, as she requested it.

But when annoying gets on you, you can pray right,

you can cry right. I'm not talking about a woman

crying the man later her husband. I'm not talking about

a woman sending these kids are too many. I can't

handle it. You got to come home from work. Every

one of us dads she has more than four kids,

has been there when mama's had a breaking point. What

you do is when daddy gets home, you walk in there,

in that room, and you close the door, and you

learn how to do like charity, how will learn to do?

When I finally told her, I said, you know what

post what they call that hosts for them. Depression can

be real if you wanted to be.

Or you can go in there like David and say

I thank.

You God for these little blessings. I'm not gonna murmur,

and I'm not gonna complain. I don't want you to

take him from me. But I'm gonna go in there,

and I'm gonna ask you to put strength in me,

and I'm gonna ask you to help me see them

for the blessings that they are. And there were times

that I'll sit in the living room with Sister Howell

with six children, and Sister Howell eased into a back

room and she began to pray, and then Emperor Howell

child knew Mama had some tears that had left the

altar of her prayer, and it went up in a

bottle in heaven. And Sister Charney, every time you're crying

in church, I can tell it's real. And Sister Wood,

every time you're crying in church, I can tell it's

weo real. And every time Moither Nathaniel Howells crying in Chuncha,

I know it's real.

I watched him when his first baby boy died. He

didn't bible up, he didn't get on the floor, he

didn't say let's have a pity party.

In fact, somebody said how to the young man and

a young woman like that act so stomically at a

time like this. I said, they got a company. Do

you have a company like that? Do you have a

comforty like that? Look, you can't have more or up,

that's what they even do. I ain't ten put call up,

I ain't the child of golf got to I ain't

more repeople. I need somebody to help me. I'll tell

you when brother Nathaniel cried, he asked me after they

said it's a boy, it's a boy. We have been

up there for about two hours. Nobody knew its gender,

not Grandma, not grandpa, No siblings, the two spouses whose

child is being born. Nobody knows the gender. Only one

anographer knows the gender. The doctors and the nurses don't

know the gender actor it's born. According to Sister Rachel,

about twenty nurses flooding the room and want to see

what did we have because everybody knew they'd been anticipating

and expecting a baby boy, hoping for a baby boy.

Not that a girl wouldn't have been just as precious

and just as big of a blessing, but a baby

boy a handful on purpose. And then a doctor from

down below came up that had seen Sister Rachel go

through the loss of baby boy Jepsie, and that's saw

the other three girls be born and she came up.

So we got our boy, y'all with me? Right now?

There's that cold hearted Oh, come on, that cold hearted

thing inside of you right now warming up? Or are

you beginning to feel the love of God and the

goodness and the grace of God. Are you feeling compassion

and joy bubbling up inside of you? Are there warm

tears starting to flow? Yet? Are you kind of like

that person and don't wave back when you wave at him,

you kind of expression us right now and motion us.

That's where we're at in this cold hearted world. And

I'm telling you, but Brother Nathaniel, he come out there

and he broke the news to us, and then I said,

break the news to the church, and he broke the

news to the church, and the church rejoiced that after

I guess six years they've had this baby boy. And

we were sitting there just bashing in the goodness and

the grace of God, and Brother Nathaniel's holding little blue

hot wheels that he had let the baby boy grip

and Brother Nathaniel for about six years has been collected.

The hot wheels because he started his collection of hot

wheels before Chipta was born. Are y'all listening to But

he never stopped collecting hot wills, And sister would no

wonder how many times the devil said, there's no use

I took jepto, which is a lie anyway. But the

devil said, if you're not gonna have a little man,

you're not gonna have a little in Atenda. But when

he was alone in the isles of Walmart, I don't

have to have him tell me what happened between the

lines when Rachel's pro pushing the three girls somewhere else,

and how a warm tear would roll down his face

and said, God, am I buying this hot will in vain?

Let you know what I think?

He collected probably two to four hundred to hear it.

Tell how many six hundred Sister would because of I'm

sure when nobody was around. Hey, I'm telling you what.

That was faith, and that was hopeful.

And so you get that little howk will in his hand,

and he said.

Daddy, I got another boy. And you know what, the

same thing happened to me. That's happening you. I've had

people threatened my life I've had people, hey, come on,

two knives on me.

I've seen a lot of horrible things and could not cry.

But I'm telling you when it's real, and even Rebecca's

crying right now, when.

It's real, you feeling in your soul, and brother Nathaniel

sit dead.

I want to ask you something, he said, Do you

remember that night?

And this is not Peter Roses on me.

Its talking about.

You crying at the right time, and you pushing on

the bird heading at the right time, and you knocking

at the right time. He said, do you remember that

night the spirit of God spoke to you and he said, you.

Told brother Jesse to pray for me. I said, how

could I forget it that?

He said, he is sir, that he started crying and

his whip started trembling.

I cried a little bit, and I felt the spirit

of God on to me, and that was holdy of

motion that must displayed. But I want you to know

we knew that night. Tell you that God was gonna

do it. I said that we knew that night nothing

that God was gonna do it. If you'll come to God,

that's not out of surpas desire, I said, not with

selfsud said, but for his glory, that's hand idea a

Samuel for this glory. Looky, what's a race? Hout pu

a man of tide? What's a racehot? Put? Baby boy?

I made him say, I tell everybody, honey, he's the

gift of tide. That's just how about it? Tell you

of the lad hand a hondy, the old prayers he

put to heaven, that being the lead. But her tears

were paddled up. Hold amen. Sister Rachel, he or herd

told this, said, one morning I got up and I

was praying, Sister Rachel said, And she said, no, it

was brother Dathaniel telling us. He said. Rachel said, I

got up one Sunday morning and I was praying, and

I said, God, speak to Papa. Speak to Papa and

tell me what IMPPP. He said, Papa he came to church.

He said, I'll never forget it. I already knew it.

I already knew it what we were going to say. Eventually,

I've told sister how about it? That morning? Apparently that

praying woman put tears in a bottle somewhere up there

speaking to my preacher about me and my baby Jesse.

I woke up that morning just as sure as I

woke up with the title leaving Lodabar tearless teacups. It's

just a little honeybee. I woke up that morning and

the spirit God was saying Rachel, Rebecca renee Ruth, Rachel,

Rebecca renee Ruth. And when I understood that, they all

began with a letter R. Then he said Nathaniel. NA said,

and for some of you that paying attention, you'll remember

the service to brother Nathana said. He remembers me saying,

I figured it out what my Thaniel and Rachel were doing,

and I said their names for the girls began with

an arm, and then I sprung on my heels and

I said Nathaniel, and then I left off Nathan. He says.

Sister Rachel went home, grabbed his hand and said, Honey,

I messed up. I prayed today and asked God to

speak to the preacher about our baby boy, and she

said the preacher knows his name. Hannah came into the temple,

maybe in the early stages, being competitive with Banana, and

Elkanah would say, Hannah, I'm better to you. The ten

Sons day and the day that don't go by that

your mama, don't look at me. All the cried and

said thank you for taking such good care of me.

Hannah had no complaints about Elkanah. But that day when

they went to church, Hannah went to a place of prayer.

Then when the preacher had no tears to shed, a

no sermon to preach, she walked past Eli and she

started praying in an old school way. The last two weeks,

I've been singing a song over and over and over

in my heart, Lord, do an old fashioned thing, Lord,

do a new thing in an old fashioned way. And

you know what, she prayed, Brother Steric, and people made

an assumption she's a drunkard. Look at this carn minded woman.

Look at her doing this for pity and for show.

And we're real tears that God was catching in his bottle.

Brother Jesse opened up all end up a little bit

of the contents. I don't know if it was an

eight cup that she cracked. Thy prayers have been heard,

so many people pray that they might consume it upon

their own dust. Brother Nathaniel wasn't asking God to give

him a boy so that he could have a boy

like everybody else. I feel like you would saying, give

me a man of God. There's some in this building

you would not hesitate at all at all to cry

because of pending doom or destruction being on horizon. If

some of you you would keep from coming to church

because of a little water on the roads to David said,

now tell us my wondering, so old God, David said,

I know, Lord, you've seen me and then sleepless nights

when I had to get down and pray. And I

won't tell you until you learn to get out of

bed and pray to continue to have sleepless nights. And

so I'm six or six, David said, I'm weary with

my groaning all the night. Make on my head to swim.

I wader my couch with my tears. Brother Roquep, you

know what it means when he is lamenting and he's languishing.

It means he is losing strength. Sister Howell, It literally

means he is growing weak physically. And you know what,

You'll grow weaker progressively until you really lay it all

on me all the time. Enemies will continue to pile

up and it will continue to take a toll on you.

That's what the Holy God showed me is taking a

toll on you. Don't wait till the next preacher preaches

and famed crocodile tears. We're starting revival Sunday, and I'm

afraid some of it. If you're already ready to put

on a horse and pony show. But when you cry,

everybody knows whether it's real or not. A real breakthrough

came for brother Nathan, you, sister Rachel. That night they

refuse to have a pity party, but had a praying party.

Bitterness and hardness of heart is drying up, some teared

ups and some spirits in the holiness movement, Brother Tyler,

that you run back there and get that garbage can

My brother, it's taking a toll on you. It's killing you.

I've said before, it's almost impossible for me to cry.

When I buried Brother Platt, I cried for a few

minutes in solitude. When I buried Brother Hammond, I cried

for a few minutes in a private place. When I

buried my grandfather, I cried for a few minutes alone.

When I buried Gyp with his daddy Nathaniel, we cried

as a family. After we asked everybody that would use

it as an opportunity for pity and empathy and sympathy

and entertainment. We asked everybody believe, and we stood around

a sixteen inch long casket, and the howl boys started

digging a hole, and his daddy said, let me help

dig the hole. And we cried together, and we held

each other and we cried, and we cried when we

knelt down and put the casket in the earth, and

then we really cried when we covered it up, and

then we really cried for the next week when the

flesh was saying, he's alive in there, go dig him up.

When I went home by myself, he needs you to

lay well, Papa, he's coming back to live. Gonna dig

him up, sister, how he wasn't alive. I'm telling you,

your mind will play tricks on you. But we got

to get beyond our mind playing tricks on us. And

we gotta get in an altar, and we need to

do like King David. It did creating me a clean heart,

old God, pouring me out like water. And after I've

been poured out the bottle in heaven, hold them tears,

and God will look and say, hey, look right there

next to the tears of Bessie tim Boon, are the

tears of irons weep? Hey, look right here next to

the tears of Elijah. Are these tears are the weeping

Prophet Jeremiah. Every tear the weeping Prophet shed, Brother Jesse

was kept in a bottle of book of remembrance. And

I won't say it again, Mama, tell you learn how

to say fears not the answer. I'm telling you, Moms

and Dad's we have fatherical children being aware he would

work on some of it. We're going in there and

closing that door and said, I'm gonna pray till I

know everything's gonna be all right. And there's been times,

Brother Groth Captain, I've been praying for people in this

church when you were in a great time of need,

of a desperate time in your life, and Brother Stare,

the spirit of fear would try to come on me

and try to tell me they're gonna die. Pick up

the phone and call and tell them go to the hospital.

And I had to push through that spirit of fear

until I really re readly feel like I'm communicating with God.

And I want to tell every person at the Bethel

Homas Church like the brother said. Recently, he said he

don't know what he could preach. It would bring condemnation,

and we thank God for that. I thank God for that.

But I'm a pastor here and a moment said seventy five,

there's about five to seven of you that scares me

to death. When it comes time to praise as to howl,

I literally find them staring into cracks and the crevices

of the peon because as the pastor, I walk around

their hands on people and pray cold and says to

how some of them I don't even bother touching because

I can tell that's so engrossed in whatever else. Start

with God creating me a clean heart, take out the

desires of the flesh that I can be feeled with

your goodness and grace and spirit. Let's stand to be dismissed.

I'm going to give you an opportunity to pray if

you want to. We always have an altar call. But

tonight I'm not looking for bearing ulcers. God, it's not

looking for tearless tearcoats. Brother Jesse, if you would take

four of these bottles and put on each altar, four

on each altar with every head bow and all eyes closed,

if they're not already full of tears? Is there anybody

right now that would come with the altar as say, God,

I need things. My heart is so hard. Y'all know

the difference in judas of Peter Wright. Peter broke when

he fell the Lord, the Bible said, he went out,

he wept bitterly. He wept bitterly. The heart is the

center of the ben This is the command center for intelligence, desire,

and take the emotion, and he be sure why the

cant that's between SolV and David, the contrasts between Juwus

and Either, the contrast between Cana and Abel, the contrasts

between Antichrist and Christ. The contrast took. The contrast between

you and your neighbor is worth the others. There's one

o the ladies side of the four. Now on the bench.

I think every saved child or God but Heaven doesn't

have saved. Lord, help me they grow in the spirit,

and help me to weep in the spirit. Help me

the old. Help me to be broken hearted, Help me

to be tender hearted. Lord, that unique that broken that

contrast part the spirit God with about the spies. Oh,