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Psalm 90

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  1. Good morning. If you got a Bible, go ahead and

  2. turn that open to Psalm 90. We're in the middle of a we're

  3. in the middle of a little bit of a random sermon series until

  4. community groups launch again next month.

  5. We're calling it Psalms for every square inch.

  6. It's been a little bit scattered.

  7. You know, pastors are primarily just picking, hey, this Psalm

  8. has moved me. We're going to exposite this

  9. Psalm and I am doing Psalm 90, which I've always wanted to

  10. preach on and I decided to preach on this, I think last

  11. Sunday night. And it, it, it dawned on me like

  12. Friday night way too late. It dawned on me, Oh no, kids are

  13. going to be with us during that sermon.

  14. And the reason why it came to me as an Oh no is because as you

  15. read through the 1st 1112 verses of Psalm 90, you'll notice that

  16. it's a very def forward Psalm. And so my, it's not my intention

  17. to, it's not my intention to rush any difficult conversations

  18. that your kids want to have with you.

  19. And at the same point time, what, what the Bible does is it

  20. forces us to confront big issues that the world is ignoring.

  21. So I'm not going to try to like, I'm not going to try to, what

  22. I'm going to do is rather than preaching, I'm going to elevate

  23. my vocabulary like an inch. Does that make sense?

  24. OK, so I'm not afraid of words like death, even with kids in

  25. the room. But rather than preaching A

  26. sermon that's centered around death, I'm going to preach a

  27. sermon that's centered around frailty.

  28. Understood. Mortality.

  29. Brevity and and stuff like that. And as we slosh our way through

  30. those first 11 or 12 verses, I think you'll find that it will

  31. be worth it in order to get to verse 12 or 13 in in Psalm 90.

  32. I'm going to pray. Then we'll move through this.

  33. Heavenly Father, the Psalms, Lord Psalms explore difficult

  34. subjects like mortality. But my, my prayer for us this

  35. morning is that we would know that we do not have to explore

  36. tough subjects alone. We don't.

  37. And so my prayer for us is that the light of the Holy Spirit in

  38. this moment, that he would illuminate this room, that he

  39. would illuminate our hearts, He would illuminate our minds so

  40. clearly that we could see and sense the presence of Jesus with

  41. us here. It is Jesus who is our guide

  42. through difficult subjects. It is Jesus who is with us.

  43. He will take us by the hand and he will guide us through things.

  44. And at the end of the day, the only thing I have found in my

  45. heart in my life, the only thing that has ever helped me make

  46. sense of human frailty and mortality and brevity and death,

  47. the only thing that is ever satisfied my itch to know why

  48. that's even a thing is the death of Jesus Christ.

  49. And so may the death of Jesus and the death of Jesus alone be

  50. what brings comfort to us. This morning, in the name of

  51. Jesus, all God's people prayed. Amen.

  52. Psalm 90, I read the, I read in, in my opinion, the perfect novel

  53. during my sabbatical, my three weeks off.

  54. It was a phenomenal novel. It was written 50 years ago and

  55. apparently it didn't get a lot of attention when it was written

  56. in like 10 years ago. Out of nowhere, this novel

  57. started to get a ton of attention in literary circles as

  58. a quote UN quote perfect American novel.

  59. And so I picked it up in this novel.

  60. It absolutely ruined me. It devastated, needed me.

  61. I was, I was reading the the final chapter of the book.

  62. It was a work of fiction. I was reading the final chapter

  63. of it in Starbucks and I'm sitting, I'm not, I'm not

  64. kidding. I'm sitting there in the middle

  65. of a public coffee shop trying to read the ending of this book

  66. and I have tears coming down my face.

  67. I'm like, Oh my goodness, how many pages are left?

  68. And so I looked down and there's like 6 pages left still.

  69. I'm like, oh, I'm not, I'm too much of a mess.

  70. I'm not going to be able to make it through this publicly.

  71. So I, I put my cap on like I hid my face and I walked to my car

  72. and locked myself in my car in the parking lot in order to read

  73. those last 6 pages privately so I could just weep.

  74. It was, it was really close to a perfect novel.

  75. I don't know if anybody's ever heard of it.

  76. The book was called Stoner, not that kind of Stoner.

  77. Relax, we're in church. Relax.

  78. It's written fit. Have you heard of this, Tara?

  79. It's, it's like Hemingway and Steinbeck had a baby kind of

  80. stylistically. It's it's fantastic.

  81. It's on my desk in my office. You should go take a peek at it

  82. right now. But essentially what makes it

  83. exceptional is the fact that it is a book about an ordinary

  84. American life, and it gets depth and meaning to an ordinary

  85. American life. And what happens to It's called

  86. Stoner because his name is William William Stoner and

  87. Stoner goes through the difficulties of an ordinary

  88. life. His his marriage turns out to be

  89. cold and cruel and it devours him.

  90. He falls in love with his teaching job, but then one of

  91. his bitter coworkers tries to destroy his career and stunts it

  92. permanently. He falls in love with his

  93. daughter, but she is, in a way, taken from him.

  94. And so the entire book is just filled with this sense of loss

  95. and broken dreams and this sense of loss and broken dreams.

  96. For Stoner, it hits him hardest in this moment early on when his

  97. dad dies. His dad was a farmer.

  98. And I just want you to, for a moment, I just want you to

  99. consider this quote from the book Stoner.

  100. Has he? Stoner has just attended his

  101. father's funeral. And then he goes out into the

  102. farm that his father farmed. And this is what the book says,

  103. quote. They buried his father in a

  104. small plot on the outskirts of Boonville, and William returned

  105. to the farm with his mother. That night he could not sleep.

  106. He dressed and walked into the field that his father had

  107. worked, year after year to the end that he now had found.

  108. Stoner knelt in the field, and he took a dry clod of dirt, a

  109. dry clod of earth in his hand, and he broke him, and he watched

  110. the grains darken, the moonlight crumble and flow through his

  111. fingers. He thought of the cost, exacted

  112. year after year by the soil, and it remained as it had been, a

  113. little more barren, perhaps a little more frugal of increase,

  114. but nothing in the farm had ultimately changed their lives.

  115. He's thinking about his mother and father.

  116. Their lives have been expended and cheerless labor, their

  117. wheels broken, their intelligences numbed, and now

  118. they were in the earth to which they had given their entire

  119. lives. And slowly, year by year, the

  120. earth would take them. Slowly the damp in the rot would

  121. infest the pine boxes which held their bodies, and slowly it

  122. would touch their flesh. And finally, it would consume

  123. the last vestiges of their substances, and they would

  124. become, they would become a meaningless part of that

  125. stubborn earth to which they had long ago given themselves.

  126. Yeesh. Right.

  127. So Stoner is holding a clot of dirt in his hands, and he's

  128. letting it slip through his fingers.

  129. And the point here is that Stoner is experiencing

  130. existential dread as he considers the end of his father,

  131. and he comes face to face with the fact of his father's

  132. mortality. He makes a common but crucial

  133. error. Cynicism, right?

  134. It's all meaning. My father had given his life to

  135. this farm, and at the end of his life, it's just going to consume

  136. him. It's all must be meaningless.

  137. And the first half of Psalm 90 reads like the author of the

  138. Psalm has a handful of soil in his hands.

  139. And as it crumbles through his fingers, he's wondering what is

  140. the point of all this meaninglessness?

  141. Are we having fun yet? If you're able, let's stand for

  142. the reading of God's Word. There are some preliminary, I

  143. guess optimistic verses. Lord, you have been our dwelling

  144. place in all generations. Before the mountains were

  145. brought forth, or ever you had formed the earth and the world

  146. from everlasting to everlasting, you are God.

  147. And then it hits, but you return man to dust, and say, return how

  148. children of man for 1000 years in your sight, or but as

  149. yesterday when it is passed, or as a watch in night you sweep

  150. them away. As with the flood, they're like

  151. a dream. Like the grass that is renewed

  152. in the morning. In the morning it flourishes and

  153. is renewed, but in the evening it fades and Withers.

  154. For we are brought to an end by your anger, by your wrath We are

  155. dismayed. You have set our iniquities

  156. before you, our secret sins in the light of your presence.

  157. For all our days pass away under your wrath.

  158. We bring our years to an end like a sigh.

  159. The years of our life are 70 or even by reason of strength 80.

  160. Yet their span is but toil and trouble.

  161. They are soon gone and we just fly away.

  162. Who considers the power of your anger and your wrath according

  163. to the fear of you? And then there's a pivot.

  164. So in light of all of that, so teach us to number our days,

  165. that we may get a heart of wisdom return.

  166. O Lord, how long have pity on us, Your servants, satisfy us in

  167. the morning with Your steadfast love that we may be, that we may

  168. rejoice and be glad all of our days.

  169. Make us glad for as many days as You have afflicted us, and for

  170. as many years as we have seen evil.

  171. Then our lives can be filled with purpose and meaning.

  172. Let Your work be shown to Your servants and Your glorious power

  173. to their children. Let the favor of the Lord our

  174. God be upon us and establish the work of our hands upon us.

  175. Yes, establish the work of our hands.

  176. It starts down here, then it ends up here.

  177. What's going on? You can have a seat and as you

  178. do, look at those first 2 verses right there.

  179. Those kind of the the way that stands a functions.

  180. This is kind of a a preliminary comment on on the Psalm.

  181. What the psalmist says in verse one and two is Lord, you've been

  182. our dwelling place in all generations before the mountains

  183. were brought forth or ever you would even form the earth and

  184. the world from everlasting to everlasting.

  185. You are God. What the psalmist is doing right

  186. out of the gates, what he wants to establish is the fact that

  187. God is eternal. He has no beginning, he has no

  188. end. He has a alpha and he's the

  189. Omega, which begs a question, a literary question, which is

  190. well, why? Why would this psalmist want to

  191. point out or highly like the eternality of God of all things

  192. the eternality of God at the beginning of this Psalm answer

  193. because it's going to create a stark contrast with about what

  194. she talks about next. God is eternal.

  195. He has no beginning or end. Human beings.

  196. On the other hand, man life is brief, life is frail, life is

  197. fickle versus 3 and 4. You return man to dust and say

  198. return, O children of man for 1000 years in your sight are as

  199. but yesterday when it's passed or as a watch in the night

  200. finitude brevity of the human life, the length of a human life

  201. from God's perspective is it is like nothing is what the

  202. psalmist is saying in verses 3 and four 1000 years from our

  203. vantage point. It's just to God.

  204. It's just like a a brief moment that has already become a

  205. distant memory to God. It's like, it's like nothing.

  206. And then then you have versus 5 and 6.

  207. You sweep them humans, you sweep them away.

  208. As with a flood, they're like a dream, like a grass that's

  209. renewed in the morning. In the morning it flourishes and

  210. is renewed, but in the evening it fades and wither.

  211. Some poetry is what the Solomon is employing to make the same

  212. point, which is the brevity of human life, The brevity of the

  213. human life compared to the eternal God of the cosmos.

  214. What's it like? It's like the poetic device of

  215. grass. It sprouts up one day and grows.

  216. The next day it Withers and is gone.

  217. Finitude and the brevity of the human life verses 7 and 8.

  218. Psalmist goes on to say, For we are brought to an end by your

  219. anger, by your wrath. We are dismayed you have set our

  220. iniquities before you, our secret sins in the light of your

  221. presence. This is a theological take on

  222. finitude and the brevity of the human life in verses 7 and 8.

  223. What the author of the psalmist pointing out here is that

  224. finitude is penal, right? It's a it's a pen, it's a

  225. penalty, right God, God doesn't like death.

  226. He hates death. It's an intruder upon his

  227. creation. But it is the penalty of sin

  228. that is entered into the cosmos. And so whenever the psalmist

  229. sees finitude and more mortality, the psalmist is

  230. reminded of the anger and wrath of God towards sin and it's

  231. penalty which is death, finitude and the brevity of human life.

  232. I'm not, I'm not proud of this story.

  233. I, I'm going to tell it really quickly as as a means of

  234. repentance. I regret it now, but about about

  235. 10 years ago, I, I was young and dumb and I was at a pastor's

  236. conference in Chicago with some of the leaders from the church

  237. that planted us. And we are sitting at a round

  238. table with another pastor from Chicago.

  239. And he's going through a difficult season of ministry.

  240. And of course I would never, we would never laugh in his face.

  241. And we, we listened in the moment, but he's going through a

  242. tough season in, in ministry. And all of us were leaning in

  243. and he just kind of leaned back after it all.

  244. And he said, he said it's just death, pastoral ministry, it's

  245. just death. And all of us were like, and for

  246. the next year or two, sometimes we would sit around whenever we

  247. would talk about pastoral ministry and how we enjoyed it,

  248. we, we would always bring that up as a means of mockery about

  249. being like, Oh yeah. Well, you know, at the end of

  250. the day, it's just, it's just death.

  251. But that's the exact tone of Psalm 90.

  252. Like those are the 1st 12 verses.

  253. Look at verse 9 through 11 For all our days.

  254. They pass away under your wrath. We bring our years to an end

  255. like a sigh. The years of our life are 70 or

  256. maybe 80, yet their span is it's toil and trouble.

  257. And then there's gone and we fly away.

  258. Who considers the power of your anger and your wrath according

  259. to the fear of you? Again, finitude and the brevity

  260. of of life. This time, the psalmist takes a

  261. mathematical approach to the problem.

  262. And he says, look, you got maybe 70, maybe 80 on average.

  263. And it's like, yeesh, this guy is the life of the party, isn't

  264. he? Be be honest.

  265. You're not. You're not inviting him to your

  266. community group. All right?

  267. This is the guy who wears all black, listens to too much My

  268. Chemical Romance and wears too much eyeliner.

  269. It goes to the party, sits in the corner, talks about

  270. existential. It's just death.

  271. This guy is such a buzzkill, right?

  272. Here's where it gets really interesting.

  273. Who wrote Psalm 90? You don't have to guess.

  274. Look at the inscription at the very beginning of the Psalm.

  275. It tells you Jay, Who wrote Psalm 90.

  276. Sorry, you're not in trouble. I just thought you'd have the

  277. answer. Moses, do you know how many

  278. psalms Moses has written? One.

  279. This is the only Psalm he wrote a prayer of Moses, the man of

  280. God. Watch this.

  281. Watch this. This is going to make everything

  282. click. It's going to make these first

  283. 11 verses click. OK, Moses, if you don't know,

  284. he's the man of God in the Old Testament who led the people of

  285. God out of slavery in Egypt and ultimately to the Promised Land.

  286. But while they were in the wilderness, which was supposed

  287. to be a short stint, the people of God sinned big time.

  288. And they were condemned by God to wander in the wilderness for

  289. 40 years, 40 years, 40 years to wander in the wilderness before

  290. entering the Promised Land. Why 40?

  291. Well, Numbers actually, the Book of Numbers actually tells us 40

  292. the numbers exact because God wanted to allow for the current

  293. disobedient generation of Israelites who sinned to pass

  294. away before entering into the Promised Land.

  295. So here, here we go. Watch this.

  296. So while Moses was leading the people of God through the

  297. wilderness for 40 years, do you know what he saw?

  298. A lot of finitude. How much?

  299. Good question. Let me prove it to you.

  300. According to Numbers, another book in the Bible, there was a

  301. census that was taken at the beginning of the wilderness

  302. journey and it recorded exactly 603,550 men of fighting age.

  303. So only men who are aged 20 and up 603,550.

  304. Most scholars estimate that the total Israelite population.

  305. If you throw in women, children, elderly or sorry, women,

  306. children and Levi White said there, it was probably around 2

  307. million, give or take half a million.

  308. Some say 1.5, some say 22.5. We'll meet in the middle and say

  309. about 2 million people. Here's where it gets really

  310. interesting, though. The logic of wandering for 40

  311. years in the wilderness is that all men 20 years and upwards

  312. need to pass away before entering into the promised land.

  313. That number would have been the 603,000 number, not the

  314. 2,000,000 number. If you spread that number, we'll

  315. even crank it down. The number of 600,000 out over

  316. the course of 40 years. Do you know how many deaths

  317. yearly happened in the wilderness?

  318. 15,000, probably more, but about 15,000 to put that in

  319. perspective. That means about 1250 deaths

  320. were happening in the wilderness per month.

  321. To put that into perspective, while Moses was leading the

  322. people of God wandering through the wilderness, he was seeing

  323. about 40 deaths per day, 40 per day.

  324. That means that if Moses never sleeps, which of course he does,

  325. and if Moses never takes breaks, which of course is not true, But

  326. if Moses did never sleep and then never took a break, then on

  327. an average day of pastoral ministry for Moses, he's

  328. performing about two funerals per hour.

  329. That's all he's doing. You know what he's doing?

  330. He's digging holes and performing funerals.

  331. That's that's his job. And when you get that, all of a

  332. sudden, Psalm 90 makes a lot of sense.

  333. You sweep them away like a flood.

  334. Yeah. People are just dropping.

  335. Yeah. Life is just death.

  336. Yeah. Moses spent 40 years wandering

  337. around in a cemetery. That's what the wilderness was

  338. for him. It was a cemetery.

  339. Does Psalm 90 make sense now? So no wonder Moses wasn't the

  340. life of the party, right? No wonder he was a killjoy.

  341. Or is he being killjoy? Not to sound like Shrek, but I'm

  342. convinced the shape of life is like an orange.

  343. Onion's great too. Shape of life is like an orange.

  344. The surface feels, tastes, appear, smells bitter, and it

  345. turns your face sour. But if you peel your way through

  346. the bitterness, and the key is you have to go through the

  347. bitterness at the very of the center of it, underneath the

  348. bitter wrapper of it, is the glorious divine sweetness of the

  349. orange. This is the way that God has

  350. designed life. It doesn't matter if we prefer

  351. it to be a different way. It doesn't matter if we like it.

  352. It doesn't matter if we approve of it or wish it were different.

  353. A true experience of joy in life is not like choosing between a

  354. happy experience or sad experience.

  355. That's not what the Bible's talking about when it puts forth

  356. joy for you. It's like, oh, I don't want to

  357. have a sad experience. I want to be happy.

  358. That's not what it's like biblically.

  359. It's not the way it works. It's more like an orange in its

  360. peel. Like an orange in its peel,

  361. right? You see this with Paul in First

  362. Corinthians. Paul's describing his entire

  363. ministry and he says sorrowful comma yet always rejoicing.

  364. Which one is it? Are you happy or sad, bro?

  365. Sorrowful, yet always rejoicing, like an orange in its peel.

  366. Real biblical joy is always wrapped in the sadness and

  367. sorrow and suffering of life. Joy has a bitter peel of sorrow

  368. around it, and you must go through it, not avoid it, not

  369. pretend it doesn't exist if you want to bite into the citrusy

  370. flavor of joy. As Christians, we don't get to

  371. plug our ears and convince ourselves that life should be

  372. easy and still arrive at joy. That's why the cross is the

  373. symbol of the Christian life. That's why the cross is the

  374. center of the Christian faith, because the shape of the cross

  375. is the shape of life. What happened with the cross?

  376. Jesus went through death, through sorrow, through

  377. suffering for the joy that was set before him, not one or the

  378. other. And so as Christians, when we

  379. call our way through the bitter orange peel, right, And we do

  380. hard things like considering the fact that we're mortal,

  381. considering the fact that we're sinful, considering the our

  382. experience of convictions of sin, whatever the hard thing is

  383. in life, when we claw our way through the bitter orange peel,

  384. we are fighting for joy. Look at that fight for joy.

  385. We don't mean pretend like everything's fine.

  386. We mean dig, dig deep. But I tell my, I tell my

  387. wrestlers, they don't like it. They don't think it's funny.

  388. I like it. I tell them.

  389. I tell them, look, you are, you are never closer to happiness

  390. than when you are exhausted. They hate it.

  391. They hate it. I what I do with my middle

  392. school wrestlers is when they're, when they're warming

  393. up, I, I yell, Hey, what's fun? And they have to yell hard work,

  394. but they hard work. So I yell what's fun hard work.

  395. And then I yell what's hard work?

  396. And they yell fun. I don't know why they keep

  397. asking me to coach. I don't even know why they keep

  398. on inviting me back. They like it.

  399. They just pretend not to. What's hard work fun?

  400. What's fun hard work. But your brain is wired in such

  401. a way that like, it literally was designed by God to not have

  402. the capacity to release feel good chemicals unless you face

  403. difficult challenges. Your brain hoards all of your

  404. joy chemicals in its brain unless you're willing to go

  405. through a challenge and then it releases all those feel good

  406. chemicals. That's the way life is.

  407. That's why when, when wrestlers are going, when they're, when

  408. they're doing sprints, I'll yell how, how lucky are you guys to

  409. be able to be doing sprints right now?

  410. Your your poor friends at home, They're stuck on the couch.

  411. My goodness, those poor souls are stuck on the couch.

  412. They got to, they got to be watching their favorite TV show,

  413. scrolling on their phones. You're just getting more and

  414. more sorrowful, but not you. You're once Sprint away from

  415. happiness. And it's it's true.

  416. It's true, right? Bring that up because this is

  417. the shape of Psalm 90. I bring that up because I think

  418. that the spiritual realm mimics the physical realm.

  419. You don't experience biblical joy by avoiding hardship or

  420. ignoring the sorrows or ignoring the pains in your life.

  421. You must face them. Memento Mori.

  422. Be mindful of your frailty. Admit you're going to die and

  423. then go through them. That's why when Moses confronts

  424. his own mortality long enough for those first 11 verses, when

  425. he does the hard thing that human nature is averse to, I

  426. don't want to think about it. When he rejects the comfort of

  427. ignorance, I don't want to think about that stuff.

  428. It ultimately leads him to joy. Moses is not a killjoy.

  429. Moses is a custodian of joy. Psalm 90 is not morbid.

  430. Moses's response, verse 12, we see it.

  431. His response is not, not to tell people, well, you know, life,

  432. life is just death. So, you know, just walk around

  433. fixated on death and drag your toes.

  434. No, look at verse 12. This is his response.

  435. He says, OK, so teach us to number our days that we may get

  436. a heart of everybody. Say wisdom, great, I want to be

  437. wise. Do you want to be wise?

  438. What? So what would that look like?

  439. What would it look like to live a wise life in view of our

  440. finitude? We'll look at verse 13.

  441. Moses pleased with the Lord, return, O Lord, how long have

  442. pity on us. And then he goes on to say,

  443. satisfy us in the morning with your steadfast love.

  444. Why? That or in order, or for the

  445. sake of Satisfy us in the morning with your steadfast

  446. love, that we may rejoice and be glad all our days.

  447. In case you missed it, here's a different way of phrasing it.

  448. Make us glad for as many days as you have afflicted us and for as

  449. many years as we have seen evil and then he goes on to say then

  450. our lives can we can do meaningful work that matters.

  451. He was on as I let the favor right you God's God's love for

  452. us of the Lord our God be upon us and then establish the work

  453. of our hands. Yes, establish the work of our

  454. hands. Wow.

  455. So the wise heart follow me here that knows that she's mortal and

  456. her days are numbered. How does she live?

  457. The Psalm tells us she lives in dependence upon God, asking God

  458. to help her quote, rejoice and be glad all of her days.

  459. Wow. So the effect that Moses wants

  460. Psalm 90 to have on us isn't for us to walk around with our tails

  461. between our legs like Eeyore all the time.

  462. He, he wants us to walk through the sorrow and sadness and

  463. suffering of our life so that we live with an urgency for

  464. pursuing maximum joy in God. What's the word for that?

  465. That's wise. It's wisdom.

  466. There's actually a ton of practical used to this.

  467. Aquinas kind of a big deal in the 13th century Aquinas, 13th

  468. century theologian. He had such an interesting take

  469. on this that I actually I had to read what he wrote twice.

  470. Aquinas said quote, rather than face the weight of mortality,

  471. the soul turns to distractions, agitation and laziness.

  472. This is helpful because this happened in the 13th century.

  473. I tend to think like, oh, this is like a 21st century problem.

  474. We want to put makeup on everything and not avoid hard

  475. things because we have technology.

  476. No, it's a human problem, right? They're going through this in

  477. the 13th century. Aquina says rather than face the

  478. weight of mortality, the soul will turn to anything

  479. distractions, agitation and laziness.

  480. And he goes on to say this is a kind of spiritual disgust.

  481. OK, Right. That makes everything watch this

  482. heavy and meaningless. Interesting.

  483. I was like, is he saying what I think he's saying?

  484. Right. It would seem that pretending

  485. like you're not mortal would actually make life feel lighter,

  486. right? But what Aquinas is saying is it

  487. actually makes everything feel heavy and meaningless.

  488. So refusing to acknowledge your mortality, according to Aquinas,

  489. makes everything heavier. How so?

  490. Let's let's test this really quickly.

  491. I know I'm pushing time right now.

  492. Imagine for just a moment, an issue in your life right now.

  493. I don't care what it is. It's between you and the Lord.

  494. Maybe it's a tough decision. You have to make it work.

  495. Maybe it's a conversation you know you need to have in your

  496. marriage. Maybe it's a behavioral issue

  497. with the kid. I don't like Whatever it is.

  498. Imagine one of those issues, and I want you to hold that issue in

  499. your heart right now. How does the issue feel in your

  500. heart? Heavy.

  501. It's heavy. That's why we're all going to

  502. say, man, it's heavy. OK, Keep that issue in your

  503. heart right now. But I want you to tell yourself

  504. one truth that you normally don't remember.

  505. Here's the truth. Someday you're going to croak

  506. and stand before Jesus. How does that, how does that

  507. make the issue feel? It doesn't vanish.

  508. That's foolishness to pretend like it's not an issue.

  509. But it gets lighter, doesn't it? You have that issue, and it's

  510. worth thinking about and it's worth trying to do the right

  511. thing. But you when you remember your

  512. mortality, the issue gets appropriately lighter.

  513. That's what Aquinas is saying, right?

  514. If you don't do that, everything feels so heavy and meaningless.

  515. But the human heart that contemplates her mortality

  516. understands that the appropriate decision in every situation is

  517. to urgently seek joy in Jesus. And this, what this does is it

  518. empowers her to obey Jesus, to listen to Jesus, to honor Jesus,

  519. and to enjoy Jesus with an urgency in every moment.

  520. Most people don't have this realization until it's too late.

  521. Stoner, the book that I was talking about, he has this a

  522. similar realization. He's not a Christian, and so he

  523. doesn't have a religion, his epiphany while he's on his

  524. deathbed, but he does have a really common epiphany on his

  525. deathbed. I just want you to look at it,

  526. all right? It's a lot different than his

  527. clump of dirt moment. He's sitting on his deathbed

  528. with his wife. And this is just a moving

  529. paragraph. It says, quote.

  530. A new tranquility had come between them.

  531. It was like a quietness that was like the beginning of love, and

  532. almost without thinking, Stoner knew why it had come.

  533. They had forgiven themselves for the harm that they had done each

  534. other, and almost with regret, he looked at her now, in the

  535. soft light of late afternoon, her face seemed young, and

  536. online he sees her differently. If I had been stronger, he

  537. thought. If I had known more.

  538. If I could have understood. And finally, mercilessly, he

  539. thought, if only I had loved her more.

  540. As if it were a long distance and had to go.

  541. His hand moved across the sheet that covered him and touched her

  542. hand. So when he's holding the clump

  543. of dirt, he makes a common error in considering his mortality.

  544. It's just meaningless. But now, on the edge of his own

  545. passing, he's hit by the correct meaning of mortality, which is I

  546. wish I would have loved more. Moses in Psalm 90 is saying

  547. Wisdom is having that deathbed realization right now in the

  548. Pew. You're sitting in, in the moment

  549. you're occupying and not waiting until it's too late.

  550. It's coming to the conclusion right now.

  551. Oh my goodness, my days are numbered.

  552. I need to urgently fight for Jesus.

  553. I need to urgently fight for joy and satisfaction in Jesus.

  554. I need to love Jesus. The one who created me.

  555. The one who, even when I was enemies with him, took on flesh

  556. for me. The one who died for me.

  557. The one whose death on the cross purchased forgiveness of sins

  558. for me. The one who gave his

  559. righteousness to me. The one who sent his Spirit to

  560. me. The one who even now at the

  561. right hand of the Father, continues to intercede for me,

  562. and the one who, who after the days of my numbered life are

  563. over in this mortal body, will resurrect me to eternal life

  564. with Him. And, and then and then are you

  565. guys with me? And when you see that, then you

  566. can see Psalm 90 with gospel eyes.

  567. You could see it with gospel eyes.

  568. And this is where the gospel blows up.

  569. Psalm 90. You ready?

  570. Here it is. Are your days numbered?

  571. Yes. In the mortal, failing sinful

  572. body you have yes. Are your days numbered?

  573. Yes. But do you know whose days are

  574. also numbered? Deaths.

  575. Days are numbered. Death has a leash on it.

  576. Death has an expiration date. That's why we sang O the

  577. fullness of salvation. Sin and death defeated both of

  578. them. The Western Church is really

  579. good at focusing on the defeat of sin, which is great, right?

  580. And you're going to be in heaven with your soul with them, and

  581. that's great. That's just not what to him, we

  582. call full salvation. Full salvation requires the

  583. resurrection. You ever wondered why?

  584. Why do we even need to be resurrected if our souls are in

  585. heaven with God? Because our bodies are still in

  586. the ground waiting for us. And if God leaves them there,

  587. that means death wins. That's only half a gospel.

  588. Jesus wants to defeat sin and death.

  589. Death is God's enemy. He hates it.

  590. He's not partners with it, he's not a fan of it.

  591. He's willing to employ it when necessary, but he hates death.

  592. It is his enemy. That's why the Bible says that

  593. when Jesus returns, even death itself will be destroyed because

  594. of the death of Jesus. You can actually read verses one

  595. through 11 and apply it to death.

  596. Verse 7, death will be brought to an end by your anger, by your

  597. wrath. Death will be dismayed.

  598. Verse nine, death will pass away under your wrath.

  599. Death will bring its years to an end like a sigh.

  600. Jesus doesn't just want to save your soul.

  601. He does. He also wants to crush death and

  602. resurrect your body. Amen.

  603. And that's why when Jesus died, he did not merely die.

  604. When Jesus died, he took a shovel into the grave with him.

  605. And where there was only a wall, Jesus dug an exit so that all

  606. who believe in Jesus will be resurrected into everlasting

  607. glory and March out of the grave on resurrection day and triumph

  608. over death. Deaths days are numbered.

  609. The the grip, the grip, the grip that death's greedy little hands

  610. right now have on the bodies of your loved ones.

  611. It's slipping. It's slipping.

  612. And when Jesus comes back? When he returns, he's going to

  613. break each and every one of Death's fingers to finally and

  614. fully destroy it so that for those in Christ Jesus, there

  615. will be a resurrection into eternal glory.

  616. So until that day, until we see Death defeated, until we see

  617. death destroyed, until we see death crushed, what would be a

  618. wise way to spend our very numbered days?

  619. What would it look like to live a wise life?

  620. Answer. Seek maximum joy in Jesus

  621. urgently, every moment, every day.

  622. Fight for joy in Jesus. Heavenly Father, thank you for

  623. the destruction of of death and the good news of the gospel.

  624. Sometimes, yeah, I don't know if anybody needs to hear this.

  625. Sometimes we think that Christianity means that we have

  626. to pretend like like death doesn't bother.

  627. I I remember Lord, there was a friend of mine who one time told

  628. me when he was at the funeral of a loved 1.

  629. He was told by his parents, said he wasn't allowed to cry because

  630. his friend was safe with Jesus in heaven, and that should make

  631. him happy. And of course, that part is

  632. true. It's just not the full truth.

  633. It is very possible, and I think even healthy to #1 yes, be happy

  634. that the souls of our loved ones are with Jesus in heaven.

  635. And yeah, we can also be very angry and very sorrowful that

  636. death currently has a grip on their mortal bodies, and that

  637. can make us angry and sorrowful. And the reason why it's OK is

  638. because that's the way you feel about death.

  639. The Book of Revelation, you call death the final enemy of God.

  640. You don't like it, you despise it.

  641. You weep at it in the person of Jesus Christ and the Gospels.

  642. And yeah, but we weep and mourn not as those who have no hope.

  643. We do so with the full knowledge that one day Jesus Christ will

  644. return and destroy and defeat death and crush death underneath

  645. his feet and throw him into into the lake of fire.

  646. And we believe that. And so, Lord, until that day, I

  647. pray that you would teach us to number our days so that we might

  648. be wise people. So it's in the precious name of

  649. Jesus that all God's people prayed.

  650. Amen. Let's stand and let's worship

  651. this Jesus together.