The Father’s Delight: Invitation to Internal Growth | Danielle Stinespring

Hello I'm so glad to be with you

Oh I feel like I might cry already

What is happening

Okay bathroom students know me well that usually grab a box of tissues and set it up for me before I get started

They've seen me cry every Monday for I don't know six months

It happens often often

Man I have so much to say to you guys today and I wanna start first of all by just um recognizing a few people who are in the room and who aren't in the room

Uh so first of all I just wanna acknowledge that we have Phyllis with us today

Wow wow yeah for those of you who don't know um Phyllis Marie she's just one of ours she's our family and we have a thank you thank you for him to thank you

Um and she is a walking breathing miracle

She is a testimony of the goodness of god

And we thought we would lose her

And he said no and he moved in mighty mighty ways that she is actually just releasing the goodness of god for the breakthrough in your story

Whether you knew that or not there's a miracle in the room today

We also have Terrance in the back

Yeah just more evidence of his goodness and his miracle working power that still exists and still moves in the earth

So if you are just holding on for your own miracle just know that there are miracles in the room all around you

And they are the testimony and the testimony of Jesus is the spirit of prophecy

So you can take their very existence as a prophetic word for your future as a declaration of what he wants to do in your story today

Amen amen

Also in the room is my mom

You'll recognize her because we have just about the same face not exactly but close

And she's here for me today

So thanks being your mom and then not in the room notably is Dan Webber

Dan Webber is our senior associate leader and I just wanted to reference that he's not here with us today because he's preaching somewhere else

He is preaching at Oak City

Is that right

In is this what it's called in Birmingham

So we are cross pollinating the kingdom today our our our US team our order of service team

We have a rally a little chant that we do

Sometimes we hit it and sometimes we don't but we say to the king are for the king for the king and his kingdom

So we start most of our services that way for the king and his kingdom

And I got a text from Dan

I texted him for the king and he responded back and his kingdom but he also told me that he taught them our rally in their order of service huddle today

So we're all out there today for the king and his kingdom is why we're doing everything that we're doing for the king and for his kingdom

Amen

Okay spring is sprung

Happy spring for those of you who celebrate

Uh my husband is not one who celebrates this spring spring uh springing

He's got he's got the allergies you know um but uh I celebrate spring

I'm happy that it's spring today

So it's also our first day as our first Sunday in the building our first sorry it is our first spring Sunday which I think makes it our fifth anniversary of being in the building

Is this right

Fourth math is hard fourth

Okay it's our fourth our fourth year of being in the Bill

Is that right fourth

Okay yes okay okay fourth year of being in the building on the first Sunday of spring is when we moved in

So this is another testimony

You're sitting inside of a testimony you are surrounded by testimonies and you're sitting inside of one

So yeah god all right I'm gonna tell you guys a quick story and then I'm gonna pray

Uh my kids um Everett and Juliet Everett is 10 years old and Julia is 7

Uh the way kids work is they used to be much younger

They've been all different ages up to this point

So one time when they were much younger I wanna say maybe 5 ish years ago we had just moved here I think so

I'm I'm thinking in my memory that I had like a 5 ish year old and a 2 ish year old at the time and um they were eating applesauce pouches

All the moms in the room amen they had the applesauce pouch

And I was they were watching TV on the couch with their little applesauce pouches

And um and I think I had I don't exactly remember how this story goes

I think I had asked them to clean up or something clean up after yourself when you're done

We're working on responsibility and all of these things

And I watch and I don't remember which one it is

I think it was my son

If I had to guess um his version of cleaning up was um just to take that little applesauce pouch and just slide it right under the front

We have one of those couches that's like really low to the ground in the front you know like really low

And I watched it happen and I went oh this isn't good

This is this is something that a five year old has done before

The only reason we know that this is an option is because we've done that before

So I am just in my curious wonder I walk over to the couch and I flip that thing up

It's a whole ecosystem

We have organisms of all kinds

We have go gurt anybody those yogurt tubes how's yogurt go under the couch for a long time

Old crusty applesauce pouches pirates booty all just oh we have a history of doing this

We have always tied

I'm like well you guys clean up your mess so well

None of it's making it to the trash can

It's all just going right under the couch

I'll skip the part about how I parented through this

It it does feel like it was actually one of my shining moments as a parent but it's not the point of the story

Okay it in how shall I say it involved empowering them to take care of their mess that was really really gross

And um they both oven mitts on to touch all those other tiny little hands in their oven mitts tryna anyways the point is I think I think today Jesus wants to lift the couch

I think there's things that we think that we've tidied or we're really happy for everybody to see the couch and what the couch is doing

But I actually think there's an opportunity for us to lift lift the lid a little bit and let him tilt it back all the way and see what's been growing under there

What's been growing and what do you wanna deal with that maybe I wasn't even ready to deal with

So I'm gonna pray Holy Spirit we love you we love you it's all for you yeah it's all for you King Jesus and Holy Spirit would you just do what only you can do yeah which you just illuminate what needs illuminating today and invite us into deeper connection with you

Would you illuminate the things that you wanna put your finger on and invite us into something that we could never imagine

Help us to know ourselves the way that you know us and help us to be more like you Jesus

All we wanna be is more like you in Jesus name

Amen amen amen

All right you guys I've been reading the Old Testament for a year years a long time and I'm not out

I'm Ezekiel

Okay so we're going strong in the Old Testament

I felt like it was important for me actually I wanted to read the Bible chronologically so I've been reading other bits here and there as the Lord highlights

But I also was intentionally reading the the whole Bible chronologically

And I attempted to do it in a year and I'm not there because I'm it's been over a year and we're in Ezekiel so it's it's taking me some time um but it's been so good

And also I feel the need for Jesus

Haha

Like I need to get to the I need to get to Jesus I need to breathe the air that Jesus brings to this story

I'm feeling it

And I also am like allowing myself to feel that tension of actually what the law was requiring before Jesus to feel the pain of oh my gosh

They they knew a Messiah was coming but they had no idea what it would look like

They were living under this old covenant and I've just been in this word in the Old Testament for a long time and uh it's been very helpful and fruitful because I'm looking for him as the archetype in every story

I'm finding him everywhere

This is what it does but what I'm seeing throughout scripture even in my in my Old Testament reading is a god in absolute violent pursuit of his people that from the very beginning he was so pursuant on fire for you and for the wholeness of you

And he is the same yesterday today and forever

The covenant we are under has changed but his nature his character his attitudes his behaviors his values have not changed

So I'm looking at the Old Testament God and what was he in violent pursuit of what was he in need of Jesus to come and fulfill so that we could be restored to total oneness with him what was in need of us to be able to house the Holy Spirit

I'm not looking to see what was eradicated by Jesus but what was fulfilled through him because it's an invitation for me to partake in the whole person of Jesus

Another impossible possibility of the law was fulfilled by Jesus but it was not abolished

His values are the same

So when I look at the law I can now see what does he care about what does he care about and these are the guidelines that protect the covenant

This is what the law was in the Old Covenant

We know that the law was upheld by the prophets and the priests and by sacrifice and we failed so bad it is it is painful how much failure there was it is so painful

And the covenant now good news now the covenant is upheld by Jesus

It's no longer upheld by the law and then Jesus the ultimate sacrifice he actually says the better way is not for this law to be external to you but for me to put my Holy Spirit the spirit of truth inside of you to guard and protect the same things that I cared about

We're just doing it through the blood of Jesus and now it's modeled through an internal relationship rather than an external law that we could never uphold on our own

Does this make sense

So now we have it no longer external to us but rather the spirit of truth on our insides to guide us into holiness

Because he is in fact the Holy Spirit is what he calls himself the Holy Spirit

Yeah so you guys aware that we talk about growth a lot here

Yeah if you haven't been with us for long then you might not know

If you have been here for a minute you know we talk about growing all the time

We are always talking about growth

In fact we are in a four month series

We never really do series but we decided to just be 100 about around our four pillars

These are the four pillars that that we build upon

They define the atmosphere of our house and drive everything we do

We did one month of the supernatural one month of family and now we're in our third month of grow

Yeah so we talk about growing a lot and have you I I feel the tension when we talk about growth to um to see it as humanistic or overly self aware or that the goal is some kind of weird version of self actualization or self betterment self help all of these things

But actually and what I what I really wanna do today

Guys if you leave with nothing else is just to remind us and inspire us that the reason why we partner with any of this growth stuff is because it is an invitation from King Jesus to be invited deeper into the things that he cares about the things that we see all throughout scripture and all in his character from the foundations of the earth to right now

What he cares about and that they are growing is actually an invitation to house and become like him and not for any other reason

So it's because the primary work of Jesus was to bring you into full oneness with the father to unleash the Holy Spirit to live inside of you to pay for all of your sin death and sickness to fulfill the value system of god

His values for life for health for oneness in community for covenant are all throughout his word and that's what he's been after from the beginning

Yeah so we know he came to restore that which was lost

Yeah what was lost

Everything everything about your your humanity came under the yoke and burden of sin

And and the law existed to uphold that but you couldn't keep it

So we talk about growth principles and ideas but why

Well there's lots of reasons but today I'm gonna talk primarily about our intimacy with him because I believe it is the primary purpose of all of this growth talk is actually intimacy with Jesus

So you know you guys are actually living inside of the prophetic declaration and yearning that David had in the Old Testament

When he said this one thing I desire of the Lord this one thing I seek that I would dwell in his house forever

You are the new covenant embodiment of that wish of that desire that you actually have something different than what King David had

You actually dwell within the house of god forever

Why

Because it the death burial resurrection and Ascension of Jesus made space for the Holy Spirit to come and live on your insides

And now the house of god is not external to you but rather internal to you

So now you live eternally inside of the longings of King David of the longings of every heart before you

You are the house of god and now the journey of your whole life is actually hosting him really well making more and more space for him to inhabit

We know we sing worship songs like we're clearing out the clutter

You're the only thing that matters

I'm constantly looking to my life and saying what needs to go so that I can have more space to house him better to house him more fully to hold more capacity of him

Where has my wine skin gotten old and inflexible

And what is he ready to grow on my insides

And what needs to what do I need to put to death so that he can be fully alive inside of me

What on my insides actually needs to get cleaned out so that he can take full residence inside of me

Yes this is why we grow making more and more space for him to inhabit

How much of my story did he pay for

How much of your story was paid for by the blood

How much

The question I'm asking myself is how much of my internal world has come under the rule and reign of a new and better kingdom

And how much of my internal world is still living in that old covenant reality

Because we actually can be living in the New Covenant but still thinking like the Old Covenant

So these are some of the things that I wanna highlight for us today

So some of the catchphrases you'll hear us talk about you'll hear some phrases just repeated we're being okay with our humanity accepting our humanity lots of accepting yes accepting our brokenness do the work

You guys have heard this yeah but the reason is because intimacy is what he paid for

Intimacy and covenant relationships intimacy with the god with the Godhead oneness your internal transformation is what he's after under the couch

Yes we're gonna find all the yogurt packs

This is what he's after

And in order to be transformed we get to grow in intimacy with ourselves not just intimacy with others though we are gonna talk about that but also intimacy with ourselves to be so known by him that we actually can lived live fully exposed that we actually can live a nothing hidden lifestyle with him now

He knows everything already but there's something about the intimacy of saying know everything

I'm bringing this to you

I want you to see it all know me let me see inside of me

He actually came to illuminate the entire human experience

John 1 verse one in the beginning was the word and the word was with god and the word was god he was in the beginning with god

All things were made through him and without him was not anything made

That was made in him was life and the life was the light of men

The light shines in the darkness and the darkness has not overcome it

He came to illuminate the entire human experience to shed light under all of your couches to illuminate every single part of you and to bring it fully fully to light to know every part

But the caution and the word of caution here is we cannot do this work

This is what I wanna bring

We can do none of this work without being anchored to his affection

We actually can do none of it without the awareness of his unfathomable immeasurable love for us

That what he says about you becomes the truest thing about you

The goal is not just blatant awareness and knowledge of your deficits but rather it is to come out from under the lie of the tree of the knowledge of good and evil where you would live able to judge yourself and others based on how they perform or behave based on how you perform or behave

But rather to completely attach yourself inside the tree of life which is him which does not give you a free pass to no longer see your humanity but actually empowers you to be able to hold it

Because he is on your insides and he can hold it

And he holds it that his entire plan for the restoration of humanity was to become human to actually put on flesh to put on your whole existence to know you as intimately as he could and to live fully connected to the Godhead to restore you

He knows

So there's this invitation to know us but if we do any of this work outside of the anchor of his love for us and his affection for us we could make our humanity our god we actually could fall into the pitfall of the work becoming the primary focus of the work becoming the thing that we worship or idolize that the this healthy version of myself me at the best of me is the attainable goal and it just isn't

It's off

Me as transformed into the image of Jesus on the earth is my goal and the invitation to growth is real and it's there and it matters

But it's unto me becoming like him

It is unto me being submitted to the full work of Jesus in my whole life and story

I think sometimes we become fearful that will become too focused on our brokenness that will no longer see ourselves as whole

And and it's a real question but it's his love that makes any of this possible

It's his love that makes any of this work legal

I actually do not have a right to go into looking at my deficits and and staring at my humanity and taking a look at all of my failures without the Holy Spirit

I that's that's it that's illegal uh zone for me

I don't get to live there

In fact I told our bathroom students this year the Lord told me at the beginning of this year I only get to live inside of his delight anything outside of his delight is illegal territory for me

I don't get to live there

And when I find that I'm living outside of his delight it is a rush back into the heart of the father

I can't function there

I don't it's it's illegal for me so it's illegal hear me it's illegal for you to do any of this work without the Holy Spirit embodying empowering and inviting all of it

You cannot go down this path without his love being the guiding force without the Holy Spirit

We have multiple varied reactions to our humanity and I'm gonna share a few of them with you and they have all been mine

Okay if you hear yourself in any of them that's the Holy Spirit because I'm talking about me

Okay so our reactions to our humanity could look like spiritual bypass

What is spiritual bypass

What is this fancy phrase that we're talking about

It's when I have to look at something that's broken about me and I just say oh it's under the blood oh my failure he he doesn't see that anymore

This is true but we can actually cover up those things and never actually deal with them or look at them because oh Jesus took care of it

It's under the blood that's actually true but your inability to look at it is perpetuating the you that the whole world around you is experiencing

It is true that it's under the blood and your inability to look at it is impacting the world around you experience of you and you're actually being invited in you come on you get under the blood too and both of you you your deficit and you yourself get under the blood and take a look with King Jesus at what he wants to do and what he wants to work out

Yeah it's under the blood you get under the blood too

Let's deal with it

No 2 Ouchy Ouchy in advance ouchy for me we build a world around us that insulates us from ever having to see it

I don't think you heard me cause if you did you'd be saying ouch

I'll give you an example

I am a first born only daughter first born girl on all sides first granddaughter on this side first granddaughter on this side first grandchild on this side first grandchild on this side everybody's eyes are on me amen

Everybody's watching her look at her go and she's got the eyes of the world and man she can do anything

Okay it's fun

Okay but it can grow some not so great things on your insides right

You actually can grow this whole ecosystem value system belief system of everybody's fine because I'm amazing

And if I'm not amazing or if somebody's not fine it's probably because I'm not amazing

And listen mom's in the room she did an amazing job

They did amazing

This is what actually the enemy slips in lies even in my healthy wonderful beautiful upbringing of

Don't you see it's up to you to keep everyone happy

They're all happy because of you which means if they're unhappy also you

So the way that I insulate that and never have to look at that thing is by actually creating a world where no one has to experience my failure

Shut up Laura

Can I say

Shut up from the stage

I did

It's on the podcast now if I'm good enough at all the things nobody will ever have to experience these deficits of mine

If I it must say something about my value

So I'll create a little world where nobody ever has to see it

This is what insulation looks like

Okay

Oh I have so much more to say

That clock is bullying me

Um haha you know we all also know and again talking about myself I have been this person

I've worked really hard over the course of a lot of years to not be this person

In fact I am proactively not this person

I'll tell you why but we all know the people okay who feedback breaks them they cannot take it

It is so painful because it's highlighting some of their own deficits

It's okay we love them anyway but what do you learn

You learn I just won't bring them feedback

I just won't be fully honest and transparent

I was this person

Now I literally like grabbing my friends by the shoulders

I'm like look for things to give me feedback about

I need to desensitize myself to this so that I can be healthy about it

Tell me something you see today find something

If you don't have it go away and come back

I wanna be so desensitized to this because my value is not tied up in it

Okay you and then and then another option of course on the table when we talk about growth without an invitation from the Holy Spirit is self deprecation and self hatred

And we actually get so swarmed with how broken we are

Listen I'm the most aware of my brokenness but if the Holy Spirit is not highlighting it I don't get to swirl around it

I actually don't have a past to go there

So without him it can turn into self hatred really quick or pride

And those are kind of your options or some version of what I've already talked about

Yeah we're gonna go fast

You guys buckle in haha your deficits guys listen let's just remember all of your deficits started in very real places because you weren't given perfect love in the earth even in the healthiest of homes with the kindest of upbringings

What was given to you likely float out of someone else's deficits

And so the trauma or the brokenness the ways you learn to survive all of it learn patterns of behavior family value systems communication styles all of it is ready to be touched by King Jesus

His affection does not disregard these things nor does it shine them up or forget about them

But it actually an issue it issues an order of Grace that allows you to view hold and accept your whole story while also growing into his likeness

Because now your entire significance is in him and what he did in the cross

And then it paved a way for you to get to do this work this work you became one with him in the miracle moment of your salvation but transforming into his image is your lifelong journey

So we do talk a lot about growth but it's not for self actualization or deprecation

It's not even for self at all

It's for the man Jesus to get the fullness of what he paid for in my story

It's for him to get to touch every single thing that his blood paid for but we don't know how to do this because it's scary

I don't I don't actually like talking about growth

I don't know if you guys have been watching the the podcast the Touch Point podcast that we do in between service every week

Last time I was like I don't wanna talk about this anymore

Can we be done

Because if we're talking about growth it means he's gonna Wanna do more of it and I don't want to but it is the invitation but the reason why it's hard you guys is because we believe our identity is connected to it that feedback growth owning your deficits feel so high stakes because we find our value in our doing and in other's perception of us

We can't hold our own brokenness and so we're afraid if we have to face our deficits it will crush us

But listen when you diminish your brokenness you diminish your need for the whole Jesus

When you are shining up your failures you are diminishing your access to the kingdom

It was your need to the first savior that got you here in the first place

It is your weakness in which he is made strong

So to create a world in which my deficits my weaknesses my humanity is not real is to live inside a false narrative of the gospel one that is based on my performance still and not the whole Jesus

Your poverty is the very entrance point to the kingdom so I wanna give us an invitation here

Haha hang on tight

The degree to which you can hold your own humanity has become not will become it has has become the silent limiter of intimacy in all of your relationships

I'm gonna say it again

The degree to which you can hold your own humanity becomes the silent limiter of how intimate your relationships can be

The New Covenant ushered in a whole new way of doing relationships

And this is what he cared so deeply about in the Old Testament that he built entire structures around protecting this

Yes so when we talk about health and wholeness in our relationships it's because we want Jesus to get the full reward of what he died for which was you brought into a new covenant reality where the law has been fulfilled and you can now officially dwell in unity peace and righteousness with all men

You could not do that before but it's all throughout scripture that this was his passion

How can we be one if our way of relating to people is still under the Old Covenant

Now we're all in the new Covenant like I said but we still have ways of behaving like the Old Covenant

Old Covenant relationship says I hold you to a standard of judgment that is impossible for you to uphold and then I judge you for it and I am justified in my boundaries

So we build whole cut off culture not boundaries culture but cut off culture because I've held you to an actual impossible standard

And now I'm justified when I put boundaries up to keep you out which we're not even talk about boundaries because we don't have time

So just there it is

Or you hold yourself to a standard that it's impossible for you to uphold and then you judge yourself for it and keep people at arms length

Remember the degree to which you can hold your own humanity will become the silent limiter on how intimate your relationships can be

How much I can hold my own humanity becomes an invitation for intimacy in every one of my relationships even in my relationship with Jesus

Cause I can live completely bare completely open with none of my identity attached to anything that I put my hands to

Because all of my value is inside of him

And I can take a hard look at the places where I failed

And not be rattled or shaken or actually talk really openly about them because they don't define me

We also have made a lot to do about our souls over the last 10 years

The church has been talked talking about soul health a lot and it really matters

I think we've probably done this because for generations we were really trying to just crush the soul

There was no soul or spirit only

Um but uh he cares so much about your soul and he cares about your emotional health so deeply

Yeah thank you Jesus

Your emotional health processing ability to grieve lament was is all an invitation for the work of Christ and his resurrection to touch those very human parts of you

So I'm gonna give you a real time example

I'm gonna be really vulnerable up here on a microphone today

And I'm gonna give you my own example so that you so that potentially the Holy Spirit can illuminate it for you

What this maybe looks like in your story

So last week last week last week I got super triggered in some of my insecurities

How did I know I was triggered

All because I've done some growth work

Oh because I've let self awareness with the work of the Holy Spirit be a huge part of my story

So I'm like in this freak out moment that didn't have anything to do with let me okay I got triggered

Okay it happened right in the middle of a certain conference where 460 of you were sitting in this room

Okay we a lot of we a lot of us were here

Okay you were experiencing this with me and not knowing that you were experiencing this week with me last week okay I was on stage all weekend and I'm triggered in my insecurities around something that has nothing to do with the conference

Okay but it's happening Whoo all at the same time perfect

Okay so there's multiple invitations that play for me here

Stay swirling in the insecurity

Just let that thing keep moving

Just keep it moving hop on that ride and ride it all the way down

You're laughing cause you've done it

You guys know what this is like you know what I'm gonna do

I was gonna pick my feet up and let this thing ride

Okay okay that was definitely an invitation

Here's another invitation

Oh this feels a little icky and scary to talk about

Thank you

We I could allow a feeling of external success to bolster and cover up my insecurity

Yes I'm on stage all weekend

I come off the stage and stranger says you're doing such a great job this weekend

I could let that thing insulate me from doing the actual necessary work to figure out why am I triggered

I could find my external value right there in that thing yeah and build a whole beautiful shined up picture all the Lord and his kindness sent this person to me so that I wouldn't have to feel this way anymore and have it oh it's a testimony now amen

It's I am amazing it's a testimony now yeah okay could have done that could have just declared some identity statements and overcome good tools very good tools not mom not mocking tools but I could have just declared it away

Okay I could let the praise and the validation of others just continue to mask my insecurity

Do you know what I did instead

I rushed the altar

I come off of this stage literally bypass every single person and cast the crowns as quickly as I can

I am count any crown that I could put on myself that another person could put on me that someone else's opinion could could tell me a story about myself

It's gotta come off right now

I gotta cast it at the feet of Jesus and get at the altar as quickly as I can

It's the only option

Woo so I bring all of the insecurity

I want to be immediately seen by Jesus not by anyone else in that yucky place of swirly whirly you know stuff I wanna get at the feet of Jesus immediately

The the the question is not how much does my humanity keep showing up

The question is how quickly does my humanity drive me to the table where I can feast on his goodness

It's not can I punish myself for having this insecure thought

Again it's can this insecurity drive me to his heart

Can it drive me to the altar where he will meet me where the blood still stands

So I'm there just letting his words his thoughts his opinions fill me quicker than anyone else's like hard boundary

Don't talk to me

I'm on the floor

So I bring it to the altar and guess what I didn't do

I didn't clean it up I didn't fix it I didn't shove it under the blood

I invited him to take me on a journey to change my thoughts

I let him put his finger on Babe this insecurity is still there because of this belief system

It's actually really you could stay in victim if you stay in this insecurity and think that that's why you're here

If you would actually let me put my finger on the belief system that brought this up in the first place that's gonna be way more painful

Can we do that instead

So I invite him it requires coming to full repentance

But listen I don't get there except for having gone here except for owning my entire story allowing my full humanity to be touched by the person of Jesus

Allowing all of my story to be known by him

So that when that insecurity hits I'm like oh I know this

We gotta cast every crown and get on we gotta get facetime right now right now I gotta bring all of this not shined up not pretty right now

I need the whole Christ to empower me to change the way I believe

And in this reality in this version of growth your greatest weaknesses become the invitations to your greatest encounters

Your greatest deficits become the gateway for you knowing him more deeply

How much of my internal world has been submitted to this new and better kingdom

Jesus we love you we love you we want you

You're all we want Jesus

We want you to inhabit every part of our story and we don't wanna grow without you

It's not worth it

It's nothing without you without the Holy Spirit

So would you just move on our hearts right now every heart in the room

There's an invitation for greater intimacy with him to be fully known by the king of Kings

I actually feel like there's those of you who have actually been right on the threshold of growth that you actually felt this invitation in your heart's been burning all morning

You felt it you've been standing right there and you know the cost of stepping off

But as I see that like how precipices I can see it

I feel it being completely radiated by his smile by his kindness drawing you to do the work

Maybe for the first time not motivated by the better you that you'll be on the other side but motivated by his love his values his pursuit of you to put his hand on every part

If that's you actually if you feel like yeah I've actually been feeling he's calling me into that to step off the edge and to do the work

And today is the day I wanna say yeah I wanna I wanna go there with you Jesus

I want I want this intimacy that's been made available

Would you move

Actually would you move in the room and come to the front

Thank you Jesus thank you Jesus thank you Jesus thank you Jesus thank you Jesus thank you Jesus haha yeah what's waiting to meet you

Here is his delight his delight is waiting when you make that step

What's there to catch you is the delight of the father all of his joy all of his pleasure Holy Spirit

This is what we mean when we say you can have it all

This is what we mean have it all all of me have all of me yeah I just feel literally like his wrap around presents in the room just saying yeah for the first time

You're actually not doing this alone

You're not growing in your own strength but in mine

You're not growing into the version of me that you think you're meant to be but you have an issue an order of Grace to be transformed into his likeness

Thank you Holy Spirit thank you Holy Spirit