Bring Your Whole Self to God: Embracing Our Humanity and Processing Pain | Justin Stockman

well hello family

so good to be with you guys

yeah

it's an honor to be here

well I wrote a book

it only took me 15 years

no it

you know

it's really

it's been it's been my honor and privilege now for uh

20 something years to to walk through people

walk with people through their story through their pain

and so this is really you know

15 20 years of just serving people in the redemption

of walking through the valley of the shadow of death

and having the light of Jesus's face

just shine upon them you know

something really really beautiful is

you are actually wired for attachment

you're wired for attachment with god

yourself and others

and I love it I pray this over my kids almost every

um night

is I say to them may the Lord bless you and keep you

and cause his face to shine upon you

and one of the the greatest ways to walk through pain

is to know you have somebody's face

shining upon every part of you

and so this is a very very practical guide

um the

the first you know

hundred pages or so our

our stories and and just practical uh

tools to help you walk through pain

Jen and I created a framework called soil

which is what we use in our um

aisle internal leadership experience

to help leaders you know

grow in their relationship with themselves

others and god

and so in this is

is some of those frameworks

and then the end is really

actually

the practical place where you get to get your grief

and um

grief is simply the pain that is trapped and stored

within your body

and within your mind and within your heart

you get to get the grief up and out

through this thing we called mourning

and as you do that process

it's amazing what begins to come in

I mean so many people tell me all the time

they're like hey Justin

but I don't have any pain

and I simply look at them and say liar

no I don't say that

that would be rude that would that wouldn't be kind

I say I probably

I know because most of us live life numb

we live life detached from our hearts

and we're doing a lot of good things

we're saying a lot of good things

but in here and when our head hits the pillow

we feel lonely we feel lost

and we feel confused

and then we quote scriptures to ourselves like

the joy of the Lord is my strength shouldn't I be okay

and what I found out is there's really

you know three components of this experience

called integration or wholeness

which is bringing all of ourselves into the father

into the son and the Holy Spirit

and what that looks like is

is the three components are um forgiveness repentance

how many of you guys

have ever heard a sermon on forgiveness or repentance

so I knew a lot about those

but the third one was morning

and it was getting this grief up and out

and once I found out how to do that

now I've got to walk with hundreds of leaders

through this process of getting their grief up and out

so that all that joy of the Lord that we talk about

all that beauty of the Lord that we talk about

actually gets inside of us

because if your life is so full of pain

and you've never Learned how to process your story

what happens is there's no room for anything ever

there's no room for anything else to enter your soul

and morning allows you to drain out the processes

of your experiences

so that the things that we can believe

can begin to enter this very crucial part of us

as humans and I just want to let you know

god loves your humanity

he loves your humanness

and he wants to walk with you in this

so where did Andy go

I'm gonna fulfill that dream buddy

I wanna just

might as well do it right here right

this is the fulfillment there it is

dreams fulfilled today look at that night dreams

yeah

now now he gets to process pain

what a gift huh

oh literally

you guys the front of the book

you open up the first cover is

you get to give this away to somebody

you could actually write in it

like here

you get to process pain too

and what I love about um uh

just this process of of

of prospering pain it's so funny to watch

just watch people um

when we talk about this but it's a

it's a it's a fun

it's a fun book super fun

you get so much joy I'm teasing

it's not it's really deep

it's actually

yeah but the again

the end result really is joy

the joy of the Lord is your strength

and it gets to undergird you

and so we actually

we had an aisle accelerator lot yesterday here

if you were at that Whoo Whoo

we love you guys and so I had a few of my wife's books

The War on Your Voice

such a good book and I was gonna sell those too

but the challenge is we ran out yesterday

so we have no more of these

but you can get this one on Amazon

yeah um

is there a woman here here

that just got married recently

that does not have this book

that does not have this book

do you have it

come on come yes

I love you

so the war in your voice you can get that on Amazon

it's a great

so uh

we have you know

just Blake and I have something exciting coming up

look on the screen

so we have the veil within podcast coming out

we've already filmed three episodes

we're getting ready to release that

our friendship for the last 13 years

our life is like a podcast together

we're just doing what we've always done

we sit down and we start talking about something

about the Lord and we just go off

and so this is what's happening right now

we have three episodes um

it's not out yet it should be out in the next two weeks

and so I'm just excited about that and wanted to

to give you guys that

so you can just look forward to that

um you'll be able to find it in all the places

that we find everything

and this is something um

I just want to give you guys a gift from Jen and I

today this is our um

this is our aisle assessment

this actually helps you understand where you're at

in your internal leadership experience process

how you're doing with

leading yourself in the way of Jesus

I wanna um

encourage you take a picture of it

cause I don't want you to take the test right now

and then you can scan the QR code from that picture

um so

this is just an assessment

that will help you realize

where you're at in your internal leadership journey

and there's something very interesting to me

the greatest commandment is

love the Lord thy god with all thy heart soul

mind and strength and the second is

love your neighbor as

it's been very very interesting

but I hear very very

very few people in the church

that are just madly in love with Jesus

talking about

what does it look like to have healthy self love

and the challenges um I

I look at uh

love in a triad Father God at the top

Father Son Holy Spirit at the top

um others

and then ourselves and the challenges

there's like an Assumption

that you already know how to love yourself

and almost every human I meet

when I begin to hear their story

and when they begin to talk to them about themselves

one of the greatest uh

enemies of themselves isn't the enemy

it's actually their own self talk

it's the way they relate to themselves

it's the way they they talk

so most people don't really know how to love yourself

and yes

we put god first I love um

the Beatitudes I've been reading it almost every day

for the last four years and it says

blessed are the poor in spirit

for theirs is the kingdom of heaven

simply that means to be utterly dependent on god

completely totally dependent on god

so Jesus is all in all the challenge is

is we're in him

so in that inness or witness

as Ephesians talks about over and over again

we want to know and learn how to actually have a a

a love for ourselves and we say it this way

you want to love yourself

the way that Jesus loves you

you want to be kind to yourself

the way Jesus is kind to you and patient with you

and I love it my wife says it all the time

Jesus is the slowest person she's ever met

he's so patient

can you be that patient with yourself

in your own process

so this test will just help you just kind of

assess where you're at and in that um

you can actually connect with us in other ways

so we'd love you to look at that

and so we're gonna talk about really

something fun this morning

I like to talk about fun subjects like pain

and that's what we're gonna talk about

cause it's what I wrote a book about

so um

I am really passionate about um

leading a soul revolution come on

an apostolic revolution

that really brings heaven to earth

through the process of people

in a healthy way knowing themselves

not in an unhealthy way

we obviously have the perversion that's very loud

you can go anywhere and buy a self help book right now

you can hear a lot about self

the challenge is a lot of it's not sanctified self

it's not in Christ self

and we wanna do everything from the lens

of being in Christ

and so

yeah on this really

this apostolic reformation of just the soul where

where Christians have a healthy spirit

where they know how to take care of their spirit man

but then they also know how to take care of their soul

which our soul is made up of our mind

will and emotions

and so we're gonna explore some of that today

but within this framework

within what we're talking about

I'd really love to

to just think about this right here in

in intimacy intimacy is really into me

you see and we're really

really looking for

intimacy is forged in the fire of vulnerability

it's forged in that fire

and it's one of the reasons Jen and I created aisle

is because we've Learned that people

how they heal best

is when they're seen and known in a real

safe way through safety

and because of a lot of our stories

it's why I talk so much about pain

um we a lot of times didn't have that safety

I'm coming from our external world

our culture our family of origin

there was a lot of unsafe experiences that LED us to

to just a a life that was detached on the inside

and so I do want to invite you guys

as you take this assessment

if you look at that I

I really feel like there's there's

there's a mission that we're on for not just Jen and I

and again we're in Bethel Redding right now

I

I'm so excited about seeing that culture impacted just

with Soul Health at a whole new level

and I'm the biggest fan of signs

wonders and miracles uh

my my

my wife my wife

my daughter's boyfriend

um came over yes

both of my my oldest daughters

they're in school ministry

and when you go to school ministry in Redding

if you're not if you're single

you find somebody it's just kind of like the gift

it's kind of like the package deal

school ministry so both of them find somebody and um

my my

my oldest daughter Kylie

her uh

her boyfriend Owen came over

and

it was one of the first or second times he came over

and he was telling us about his life

and it was super fun and he looks at me and he goes

hey Justin

you know I had this friend in high school that told me

if I ever get healed he'd meet Jesus

I said oh

tell me more

and we started to share miracle testimonies and stories

and when he was 9 years old

he broke his arm and he broke it

he had to have surgery and in the surgery

they had to do something with the bone

fuse it back

and so when he put his arms like this on a table

one of his arms was about

that much shorter than the other one

it was a good inch shorter

and he kept on going I've been prayed by so many people

and and we're

we're sitting there sharing testimonies

all the families around I had a big tri tip spread

I love cooking tri tip

and I'm there cooking and so I just got done cutting it

and he he shows it all

he shows it up and he's like

holding like this and I just go

oh wow

okay and

and I look at him and I say

in the name of Jesus grow

and before me and all the girls in general

there it just goes

and it completely lined up

it was a wild experience

I've seen miracles like that before

but this was I've never in that way with the hands

and so the bone either extended or

however that happens however

god did it supernaturally

but it was super fun

so I love miracles I love signs and wonders

I love the now of god but in that

I think at times we've missed the longevity process

it takes for attachment to be formed

because attachment is not a quick process

it's a slow process

again how

how many of you have ever had a Newborn

it wasn't just the one time you picked them up

that they felt oh

now we're we're bonded

how much work did that take ladies

that feeding process that beautiful process

and so

yeah so we're gonna go after that

and this is this is really what we're gonna talk about

so walking through pain

pain pleasure

and presence

and so this is one of my favorite uh

scriptures

that I've been studying now for the last three years

and this is at the end of Matthew

this is right after

one of the most exciting charges from Jesus

which is about loving your enemy

one of the only ways you know

you're actually walking out this attached life

to the Godhead is by loving your enemy

and I wanna let you know

if you don't think you have enemies you're lying

a bunch of Christians don't think they have enemies

we have lots of enemies

there's so much in the world that is an enemy

to what god wants to do in the world

but what we get to do is

we get to counteract the experience

of what an enemy is with love

and this is the beauty of Jesus

and so in this scripture

it's it's like

it's a massive scripture be perfect

therefore as my heavenly father is perfect

and that word within my personality was very tormenting

because that word meant to me

perform

as your heavenly father is perfect

and the Greek word is telios

and telios is a beautiful world word

because a better translation of this word would be

whole therefore

as my father is whole and what holiness is

is wholeness is our ability to bring all of who we are

into the light of the glory and presence of god

all of you and so many of us long to bring

some parts of us

but other parts we don't like to bring

a great test for that before you turn

the TV on

oh thank you so much

Lord

that I get ready to watch a show tonight or a movie

and I thank you that you're gonna be here with me

and where I'm gonna abide with you

as I turn on this TV show

just inviting you in to what I'm watching with you

just bring you into it and just find out what happens

I'm gonna bring you in you know

I don't like to pray for food

just in the the old religious way it felt like

but in the new way of father

thank you for this beautiful meal that's set before me

that's gonna bring nutrition to my body and

and it really helps with overeating

because you when you invite him into things

it's amazing what you will do and won't do anymore

and wholeness is when we're able to bring everything

into the light of who he is

and so one of the things that

that takes us on this journey with Jesus

and you know

Jesus was honest about his pain

and so Jesus walked out wholeness

he didn't walk out with parts of him

that he brought into church

in the temple and different places

and other parts of him that was just for him alone

he brought him whole his whole self everywhere he went

and you know

it really makes me think about the garden of Gethsemane

with Jesus and it's such a

a wild experience of Jesus

processing pain with the father

and so he said to the father he

he goes in this chapter and he says

father take this cup from me

I don't I don't wanna do this

I don't wanna be here and to me

it's reflective of the psalmist David saying god

where are you

god I'm about to do something that's really hard

speaking to his father say

I'm about to do something I don't want to do

this is gonna be really really painful

very very difficult

and then right after he's just

he's expressing his pain to the father

he goes to his friends and these are his

this is this is his vulnerability buddies

these are his friends

that he gets to be seen and known by

his friends that he has intimacy with

James and John and

and he says to them what are you doing

why are you sleeping what did he ask him to do

he said stay up and pray

he does this process three times back and forth

of being honest with his pain

and I I love it

Jesus never sinned yet he still said

take this cup from me

and within our movement I'm very

very proud of us for the way we guard our tongue

it's important to guard your mouth

guard what you say

but one of the things that I've noticed

as people guard what they say

is they lose something very

very important to authenticity which is honesty

they don't actually know how they're doing anymore

in the present moment

they don't know how to be present with themselves

because they're trying to sound a certain way

that they think is protecting them

right and I believe

you know in James

it talks all about guard the tongue

it's the rudder of the our

our life and it's a really important thing to guard

but David modeled that in a very

very unique way yeah

if you had some of this this Ling

this lens on of you're not supposed to say that

almost half of what David wrote in the Psalms

was all him sounding like he was complaining

and you know what god said about David

you're a man after my heart

because he had a heart

he actually knew what to do with his heart

he didn't just stay in the metanoia

in the mind in the brain

and I love uh

first um

first Christians 12 it talks about

you know don't be conformed to this world

be transformed by the renewing of your mind

and I think that we've also forgot

that the renewing of our mind

is also about the capturing of

the renewing of our heart

our our emotions

and what's going on in the inside of us

and so to be in that

you know

telling the truth sets you free

you know it says that the truth will set you free

make sure that you're honest in telling the truth

cause if you forget to be honest

this is what happens in the psychological world

they call it fractures or splits

is our head and our heart begin to split into two

and you don't trust yourself no more

and I don't mean the yucky part of trust yourself

I mean that in in Christ trust yourself

and you then don't have a relationship with you

because you don't know what to do with emotion

you don't know what to do with the heart um life

and so which brings me to the joyous passage of happy

blessed are those who mourn

happy are you who are sad

this is how you could translate

this is literally in the Greek

you could translate this verse as

happy are those who are sad

why are they happy and when they're sad

it's cause they have an expectation of comfort

there it is yeah

that's right they have the expectation of

who is with them in the middle of sadness

this is why David got to be so honest

though I'm in Sheol or hell

the uttermost parts of the earth the depth of pain

I will fear no evil because you're with me

you're with me he cares about you when you're up here

and when you're down here

and if you never go to here or here

you stay here

you know what this is a numb

shallow sad existence

because you don't experience the expanse of

what it means to be human

in the context of witness that he's with you

and so many of us are afraid to go down to heal

we're afraid to go down into our pain

because we're afraid we're gonna get lost in it

guess who already found you

guess who already called you his own

guess whose face is shining upon you all day long

always

he's so happy to be with you where you are

so morning

we experience comfort

which opens an increased door for healing

which leads to this process of joy

when you skip morning and try to go straight to joy

your joy is shallow

it's discontented joy

which Matthew 5 um

6 says blessed are the meek

for they will inherit the earth

a better way to say that is

blessed are those who are content with who they are

no more no less

that's the moment they find themselves

proud owners of everything that cannot be bought

that's what the message says

contentment that I can be good

that this is me

I have really good things happen

and I've had really traumatic things happen

wow

and when I can bring all of me to all of him

even though all of me is already in all of him

but when I can wake up to the reality

my soul starts to wake up

my soul starts to be reformed

my soul starts to experience

the glory and the beauty of god

in a whole new way and this is the way you love others

is because you actually are so full inside

with love from god and love for yourself

that love just spills out everywhere you go

just spills all over you

and so pleasure and pain

are are

are some of the the experiences we have that

that we're gonna look at

and so as many of us really

we've Learned to avoid pain

and when pain overwhelms us

these are the things that will happens within our soul

we begin to get numb we begin to perform

we begin to get distracted

we begin to dissociate or disconnect

we begin to walk out control

if you have struggled with control

I promise you there's some pain under that

that needs the light and beauty of Jesus

that's good

anxiety

irritability

exhaustion

blank I feel blank

in his presence is fullness

joy as right hand are pleasures forevermore

and in that place of him

wanting to experience pleasures with us

when our soul is detached from self we feel blank

and ultimately

oh it's supposed to say disconnected

I missed the diss

she's a big but

she's a big big big word to miss there

but I'm I accept myself right where I'm at

and this is what you get within me

and we feel so disconnected

and you want this alive

vibrant connection with yourself

not that seeks its own way or seeks itself

but it's just content with

who you are and guess what

you have weaknesses and strengths

and when you only focus on your strengths

you become blind to who you are

you're not walking out wholeness

which leads to really gross things like narcissism

and so when we're holding pain

we gotta go to pleasure

because anytime you think of pain

what we long for is pleasure

and the challenges is so many of us have cheapened

comfort comfort has become an external reality

it's become something that we look to fill us up

in a temporal very temporary way

and it's so sad because most of these

all of these things are gifts from god right

they're actually so healthy

when they're in the right place

for those that people that mourn

do these things well

people who don't get the grief up and out of them

end up trading this

the comfort of him for the comfort of things

which produces our greatest epidemic of addiction

that we've had in the history of the world

that's happening right now

it's because of

people don't know how to face their pain

they've never been shown how though

they've never been taught how

they've never had somebody walk with them in their pain

oh

so now they walk around stigmatized with all this stuff

like I'm a sex addict

or I'm a drunk I'm

I'm these kind of things

we actually purpose it as their identity

which is never their identity

it's they went for it because they needed to feel good

and god designed them to feel good

I I I

I work with men all the time

and women that have sexual addiction

and most of the time

it's not because they have a giant spirit of lust

demon that's floating over them

there is there are

there is those times and then we just

we get Blake and we go wow

say begone in Jesus name the challenges is when we say

begone in Jesus name

and the demon literally flees

and then they walk around empty for the next two years

because they've never found out what could fill it up

then that enemy goes against a bunch of other enemies

and then they're more tormented

with Deliverance Ministry

without the process of actually loving yourself

and learning how to walk through that process

creates a bunch of more broken people

that's why discipleship formation is such a big process

sanctification

the process of growing from glory to glory

being holy set apart

and so it's such a big deal that we walk with people

we walk with ourselves with the Godhead

through these processes and for most of us

we're not in deep addiction over here

but these things rather than being blessings from god

they're numbing experiences that just mute our soul

where we have shallow experience on the inside of us

and we feel sad but we don't know why

and most of the time

it's because we've never faced the pain inside of us

we've never got that grief up and out

and so our our soul is so full

and so I love that these are blessings

and as believers we need to see them as blessings

when spirit soul

and body fall out of alignment

this is what happens we fracture internally

we disconnect there it is

you see that I got the dis in there guys

to connect we disconnect from ourselves

we lose peace

so this is one of the ways to restore

this is actually

a healthy relationship with these puppies

how many of you have a healthy relationship with fear

in here I sure do

I'm serious

I'm like

so confused about our streams relationship with fear

get that last one out there

so if you notice about these eight core emotions

there's only one that's like that's the good one

all those other ones are bad

those are all those are all demons

look at all those demons

those aren't emotions

Blake get him

and what happens is when we don't realize

the difference between the three pathways

to actually become tormented

is emotions are simply a physiological response

to something happening in the moment

an attitude is a state of being

when you invite an attitude of sadness

or an attitude of fear that opens up the demon of fear

it opens up the

the scriptures called the spirit of fear

Lord isn't giving you a spirit of fear

but a power of a sound mind

that's nothing to do with the emotion of fear

has to do with the spirit that's wrapped behind it

and the challenges is a lot of times

we're trying to cast something out of us

that is actually an emotional signal

that's trying to tell us something that's very

very helpful

and so when we're not emotionally intelligent

and we're only spiritually intelligent

it's the other things that creates a spiritual bypass

where we bypass the very thing that Jesus came to save

he didn't just come to set you free

and make you the shell of a person to like

fly around fly around in glory

without a body

the end of the world is not about heaven

it's about a new earth

with an embodied believers that are actually attached

so connected and so whole inside themselves

that just creates the beautiful community of god

where the face of god is shining over them all the time

all day long

this is what it's all about

we're not gonna be like

floating in body I mean out um

just spirits around

but so many of us want that

and the reason you want that

is because

you never Learned how to have self attachment

you've never been shown how to have actually

a healthy experience with sadness or fear anger

and we could talk about all these for hours

but we can't

so all of all emotion emotion is not good

or bad it just is

and

when you begin to develop a relationship with yourself

you'll have these and be able to discern

discernment is not so much about others

there is the spirit of sermon

it's a big deal it's a good thing

but it's mostly about learning how to discern yourself

is this an enemy is this the enemy

we know what to do with the enemy

wow

we said go

we just haven't Learned what to do with ourselves

so

look at that little guy look at him

do you know who that is dun dun dun

that's Superman I mean Justin

and you know

Justin wanted to be Superman I love that cape

ah

so fun

and so about two years later

I was riding horses

and we'd go to my grandparents in Modesto

and we'd ride horses and it was super fun

so much joy being with them

enjoying the horses enjoying their cows

I love being out there in their backyard

they had nine acres and about nine or 10 cows

I think two horses and so we'd go riding with them

um when I was little

and when I turned six I started to ride

um

we we

we got an opportunity to go to a neighbor's house

and this neighbor had a special horse

like a horse that was supposed to be

like an award winning horse and supposed to be a very

very fun moment and so me and my brother

and my mom we were super excited to go ride the horse

and as we were riding

um I got to ride the horse

and my brother got to ride the horse

and that was just all peaceful

and then my mom got on the horse

and my mom

my mom uh

the the cowboy who was helping her

leading her on the the horse

started going yeah

you wanna go fast Mickey

you wanna go fast Michelle

Mom's name is Mickey Michelle

and so he begins to like

had this little like

whip thing out there I don't even know what it is

I'm not I was not

I have not been a horse person

you can find this out in a second and

and they begin to whip the horse

and the horse starts to just like

just take off and he had it still on a lead rope

and my mom begins to scream

and is falling off the horse screaming

and that little Superman boy just lost his ever

loving mind

I just remember start screaming at the top of my lungs

get her off the horse get her off the horse

and I'm bawling I'm

I'm just crying my eyes out

I feel so scared

I can actually feel the sensation of fear inside me

which was not the spirit of fear

it was the emotion of fear

I can feel that fear all through my stomach right now

and I was so afraid

and I remember thinking my mom was gonna die

and again I'm six years old

so all I know is what I'm seeing

and I'm thinking she's gonna die

and I she gets off

she's okay she was scared too

I was so angry at the man

I'm like I'm gonna be like Jesus

I'm gonna go make a whip

i'mma come back here first

i'mma turn over the horse rather than a table

and then i'mma turn over you

Mister Cowboy

and I was

I was angry I was sad

I was scared I didn't know what to do

and I remember

it locked something in me from a core memory

it locked in my soul

that ah

I never wanna feel powerless again

I never wanna feel like I felt in that moment

it locked in that soul it locked in my soul

that I carry responsibility for others safety choices

marriages faith outcome

I carry responsibility for everybody else's life

and again I was six

and it obviously wasn't only from that experience

but it locked a responsibility in that little boy

in that little Superman

that walked around to

to everybody he met carrying the weight of your health

your salvation is in my hands

and this was all implicit

this was not frontal lobe

this was not in the front of my mind or memory

this is all an explicit experience

there was way down in my subconscious

which LED me to when I was

uh

to 2,000 and one 2000

twenty one sorry

it LED me into this experience for 2,019 20 21

into this really deep depression

and I could not figure out why or how

um the depression was going on

what was going on and through a whole bunch of work

which we don't have time to get into right now

I I begin to discover

within some of these core memories

lied this boy

that felt responsible for everybody around them

and I had another theological kind of mishap

happened to me

it was an experience I had with god when I was

I think eight or nine

and I saw myself standing on the hand of god

and I heard a voice say um

and it was looking over the pit of hell

and I heard a voice say

these are the people you didn't tell about me

so I had all this responsibility

for how everybody was doing

and in that season uh

the years prior to 2,019

a couple of my friends got divorced

and some things started to happen

that I felt responsible for

and if if you would have said any of that to me

I would have looked at you and laughed and said

that doesn't I don't care

I I mean

I care about them

but I don't take responsibility for that

but it was locked and trapped up in some pain

that I never processed

that I didn't get up and out

and so

some of the things that I just

really wanna leave you with guys

some of the ways I just wanna encourage you

is as you begin to come before the father of Grace

and say

is there anything in my story

that you want to bring comfort to

that I'm unaware of

and in the in the back of the book

you'll also see a a QR code

that literally

has a video of how to choose a core memory

it has a video about

what to do when you feel stuck'cause so many of us

when it comes to pain and numbness

we're just like I just don't know how to get out

and I'm real thankful that this is a resource

to come under you guys

to undergird you in your process with pain in your guys

stories and so if you could just stand up with me

blessed are those who mourn

for you will be comforted

I wanna put your hand on your heart

and just close your eyes

Emmanuel is who wants to show up to you

god with you a lot of us we know Jehovah Jireh

the god who provides we know Jehovah Rapha

the god who heals but we don't know God Emmanuel

who wants to be with us in every place of our story

not just in the highs but in the lowest of lows

he wants to be there in the midst of your story

and as your hand is on your heart

I just thank you father

that you are here we are not alone

in the areas of our story

that we feel scared to even look at

you are there

and you wanna take us into a process of mourning

that leads to a deep seated comfort

the being held by the one who gave his life

that we might have life into healing

into this eternal joy

and so I ask that that process

that slowed down process

would be even more apparent in this culture

that we would have such safe people

that we could actually be those who weep

with those who weep and rejoice with those who rejoice

in Jesus name amen amen