Sermon
The Kingdom of God | Parable of the Leaven
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Today our teaching scripture is from Matthew chapter 13, verse
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33. He told them another parable.
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The Kingdom of heaven is like yeast that a woman took and
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mixed in with three measures of flour until all of it was
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leavened. This is the word of the Lord.
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So an interesting outcome of the pandemic was a massive rise in
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the practice of making bread. Trapped at home, people dusted
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off their wedding present KitchenAid mixers and began
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mixing and kneading and baking until the stores were literally
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running out of flour. I think that one outcome of that
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was just a deeper appreciation for the rhythms and connection
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with how our food is made and the value of Labor.
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It seems that we're rediscovering the way in which,
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if you take just a little bit of effort into your food, you can
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have a way to interact in a way beyond physical movement being
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so constrained. And we were not exempt from this
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phenomena. While I had been making homebred
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bread for a while, I worked at a hospital, so my work just kept
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proceeding as mostly normal. But Tori, who is the extrovert
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in our relationship, was stuck at home and decided to take up
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bread baking. But soon the stores began to run
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out not only a flour, but also yeast.
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So Tori began the process of cultivating and caring for a
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sourdough starter. If I had to guess, she was not
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the only one in this room who did that.
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If you are one of the many people who picked up a sourdough
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habit in the midst of the lockdown, I think you're a
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little ways ahead in the sermon. Because that's what our parable
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is about. It's about the rising of bread.
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But the leaven that the parable talks about or the yeast that it
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talks about isn't those little tiny packets of things you can
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buy at the store. It's a sourdough starter, a
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living, breathing Organism that every week people take and mix
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flour into until it is all leavened.
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So we'll come back to those sourdough starters that are
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maybe still growing in your fridge.
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But if you haven't been with us for a few weeks, since Easter,
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we've been in the sermon series on the Kingdom of God, and we've
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been looking at one of the parables of Jesus each week.
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So the parables are one of the key ways that Jesus seems to
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have taught people in his public ministry.
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So we have a lot of them recorded in the Bible.
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There are some examples in the Bible of sermons by Jesus, most
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famously earlier in Matthew, the Sermon on the Mount.
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But a very large portion of his teaching comes through these
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parables. So right after our passage for
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this morning, Matthew writes that Jesus told the crowds all
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these things in parables without a parable.
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He told them nothing. So parables are just simply
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short stories that have some like key observation or metaphor
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to kick them off. What I often imagine Jesus doing
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is sitting and noticing something happening around him
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and saying the Kingdom of God is like this thing here.
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This would have been a typical way in which a rabbi in Jesus's
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time would have instructed his followers.
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But why does Jesus speak in parables like this?
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I think there are a number of answers to that question.
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The first one I would note is just this is, in part, a
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pedagogical tool. Stories are more memorable than
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lectures. They capture our imagination.
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When we hear a story, we begin to picture ourselves in it.
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We begin to imagine like what happened next.
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What's the motivation for all of these characters?
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We can ask questions and wonder together, what could this mean?
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What could it mean for us? This is what all good
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storytellers do. They draw, capture you, and they
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draw you in. If you want to evidence of that,
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just listen to podcasts. They're full of this all the
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time. New Testament scholar Amy Jill
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Levine says that parables and the tellers of parables, we're
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there to prompt the reader or the hearer to see the world in a
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different way, to challenge and at times to indict.
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And Jesus is a good teacher. He knows how to do all of this,
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how to let the parables challenge what is hearers knew
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to be true. I want to draw attention to
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another aspect of parables too, and that's in that they don't
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mean only one thing. In a parable, there can be
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different layers of meaning that you peel back, and sometimes if
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you look at it a little differently, you might see
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something else that might hit you differently depending on
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whatever is going on in your life when you come to the
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parable. And it's easy to get anxious
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about that. I know sometimes when people say
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that a parable might mean multiple things, because so
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often what we really want are these clearly logically laid out
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systems where one thing leads to the next and leads to the next,
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and we can just put everything into its box and we can control
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it. We want to know what everything
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means and how it relates to everything else.
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And while that might be be good if you're writing like a
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systematic theology textbook, it's not really a great way to
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make sense of these parables that Jesus has for us.
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Because all of these parables are enigmatic and weird, and
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they resist being nailed down to mean only one thing.
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And that's OK. Because of what Jesus is doing
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in these parables isn't trying to get us to believe rightly
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that if we get the right propositions and everything is
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OK. What Jesus is trying to do is
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invite us into a relationship with him, to enter into this
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bigger story that he's trying to get us to grasp through these
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little short stories that he tells.
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The point of parables is not to be understood, but to be lived
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out in our lives. So Amy Jo Levine, again, the New
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Testament scholar, says that when we come to parables, we
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might be better off thinking less about what they mean and
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more about what they can do. They remind, provoke, refine,
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confront, and disturb. So when we read the parables
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rightly, we don't always come up with this stable meaning for all
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time, where we're sure exactly what it means and no matter
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where you read it. But instead, as we read these
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parables and listen to them, we let them transform our lives.
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We let them confront the ways that we believe the world to be,
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and ultimately, we let them bring us into encounter with the
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Kingdom of God, which is what Jesus is talking about so often
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through his ministry. And I think the Kingdom of God,
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just a simple way to think about it, is when the world is
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organized and structured and going as Jesus would have it to
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go. And when we think about the
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Kingdom of God, Jesus is always there at the center of it.
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And so all of that that I'm saying about parables, I think
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it's going to affect how we come to this parable this morning.
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So rather than trying to say exactly what this parable means
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for us, I want to invite you to come along with me looking at
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the reality of the Kingdom of God through different ways of
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reading this parable. We can be open to multiple
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meanings. We can gesture at something that
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might be there. It's a little strange, it's
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mysterious. And maybe together we can just
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trust that the Holy Spirit will lead us in the midst of all of
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that wondering together. And so if we're trying to be led
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by the Spirit, would you just pray with me this morning?
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Spirit, I do pray that you would guide our attention in this
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parable that Jesus told, that you would let the pieces of it
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that each of us need to hear confront our hearts that we
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might be challenged and changed and ultimately come to encounter
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Jesus in the midst of it. Amen.
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So I'll read the parable just one more time, which, as Tory
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mentioned, won't take long. It's only one verse.
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So we told them another parable. The Kingdom of heaven is like
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yeast that a woman took and mixed in with three measures of
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flour until all of it was leavened.
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You might hear that and think, why are you talking about all
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this mystery and enigma, and what's so strange about it?
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It seems like a pretty straightforward story.
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There's one character, there's a woman who's going about the
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normal life in her household. And at one level that's true.
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And that's the first thing that I do want to note about this
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parable, how ordinary it is. So Parker spent the last two
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weeks talking about the Pearl of Great price and a treasure
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hidden in a field. They're both great sermons.
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You should go listen to them in the podcast feed.
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But those are dramatic, new, exciting things that we talked
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about running into something in our life that radically shifts
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its direction and changes our lives in a complete way.
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And even when pearls or treasures are something that did
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happen in the world, they'd be so out of the ordinary kneading
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bread dough. That's not really the quite the
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adventure movie vibe, unless maybe you like those like art
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house films where someone needs dough for a really long time and
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it's really artistic. But I think part of what Jesus
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is getting at here is talk about the Kingdom of God, is that the
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Kingdom of God penetrates all of the areas of our life, not just
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those big dramatic moments that we can look back on and say,
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This is why my life completely changed.
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That's part of why I love that this parable is in the same
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chapter as the ones that Parker talked about, the Pearl and the
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treasure. Yes, the Kingdom of heaven is
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like a treasure and a Pearl that we sell our whole lives for, but
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it's also like the most ordinary things in our lives, Our Daily
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Bread that we need to consume to sustain us.
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It's like the ordinary work that probably at times feels like
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drudgery of a woman laboring in a kitchen to provide for her
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family. Jesus, by holding these parables
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together, interrupts us before we get too far down this path of
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only looking at the things that are really dramatic and
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important, he said. Instead, he interrupts us and
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maybe he says, look at this ordinary part of your life.
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Look at the dough that you probably had to make already
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this week. So maybe in the last couple of
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weeks you thought, oh, only these big important things
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matters. But this parable of the 11 draws
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our attention deeply to those parts of our lives we are prone
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to discount. Let me say this morning that
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Jesus cares about all of that in your life beyond just this first
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level of ordinariness. I think there's actually more
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strangeness in this parable than we notice at first because we're
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at a disadvantage because we're reading it in English.
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So when I was talking about Amy Jill Levine, she, the New
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Testament scholar, she translates the parable like
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this. Similar to the Kingdom of heaven
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is leaven that a woman taking hid in three measures of flour
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until was leavened all. Now, do you notice the
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difference for the first difference is it sounds kind of
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weird and stilted, but that's what New Testament scholars do.
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But what I would notice is the word hid.
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Usually in all of our English translations it says mixed, but
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New Testament scholars say it really just says hidden there or
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she hid it in the things, which is a weird way to talk about it.
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Sourdough starter is not something that is easily hidden.
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For one thing, it's so sticky it will cover anything that it
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touches. So it's kind of hard to imagine
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being at put somewhere unnoticed.
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So why does Jesus choose this word hidden?
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I think at least part of the hiddenness is what I was talking
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about a few minutes ago. These small hidden parts of our
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lives are the areas we actually find the surprising work of God.
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So that's one invitation that I want to give you this morning.
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Take time to slow down and notice what God has hidden
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inside of you. Don't feel like you have to be
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on the lookout for this giant big thing.
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Sometimes the work that God is doing and you feels pretty
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hidden or small, and sometimes that's what the Kingdom of God
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is like. So if you're just not even sure
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how to begin to go about settling in and looking for
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those hidden parts of your lives, one thing I would
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encourage you is the prayer practice of examine.
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If you were here last year, we had a series on prayer and Jared
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gave a sermon on Examine. I'd go listen to it.
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He's going to do much more than I can do.
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And one minute, but a basic level and examine.
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You sit down in prayer often at the end of the day, but if
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you're really tired at night, it's OK to sit down in the
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morning and live, reflect on the day before.
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And you sit and you imagine yourself in God's presence,
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God's loving gaze shining upon you.
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And then you review your day with God.
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You look back over the day giving thanks for the places
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where you feel like you want to give thanks, noticing where you
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felt close to God or where you felt distant, where you felt
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yourself drawing close to God, or where you felt yourself
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turning just a little bit away. And as you look back over your
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day, notice those points the Spirit highlights for you and
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then offer it all back to God. Scare as you lean into rest if
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you're doing it at the end of the day.
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So it's really simple, but that can sometimes make us a more
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attentive to the places where God has hidden something in our
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lives. For me at least, what I have
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often noticed when undertaking a practice of examine is gratitude
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for really small things in my life.
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For ways the Kingdom of God is breaking in, in ways that I
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wouldn't have paid attention to if I didn't slow down.
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Maybe it's in the warmth of the sun when I'm sitting on my porch
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and actually feeling at rest. Maybe it's the Co worker slowing
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down enough to ask a real and curious question in a
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conversation. Maybe it's responding with just
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a little bit more grace to that person at work who really annoys
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me. Those small pieces don't sound
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like much, but for me to be made attentive to the Kingdom of God,
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it's particularly helpful to see these small pieces because I at
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least contend towards cynicism. When I look out at the world and
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see all the ways in which things are so often falling apart, it's
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really easy for me to see the negative.
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I don't always slow down to see what is it that God is stirring
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up in me in these hidden ways. So there's a saying, often
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attributed to the Catholic Worker movement activist Dorothy
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Day, that says everyone wants a revolution, but no one wants to
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do the dishes. It seems likely that probably
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wasn't spoken by Day. It's more apocryphal, but it
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gives us something important about the Kingdom of God.
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We can big dream these big dreams of transformation for the
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world, but if our relationship with Jesus doesn't affect the
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way we do things as simple as washing the dishes, then we
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might be missing out on some of this hidden ordinariness of the
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Kingdom. But beyond just this small
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hidden thing, I think that the use of this word hide introduces
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something more to the parable. The woman's actions become a
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little bit subversive or secretive.
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Maybe I'm just a suspicious person, but when I imagine
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someone hiding something, I'm like, are they should be maybe
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hiding that? Why is it hiding there?
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You don't usually hide things that are life giving and good,
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like the Kingdom of God. What is it she's trying to
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conceal? Is this yeast supposed to be in
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this flower? And the question becomes even
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more real when you think about the way that yeast shows up in
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the rest of the biblical narrative with an
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oversimplification to say that yeast or leaven is always good
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or always bad. At times in the Bible, it's
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mostly neutral. But the things you think about
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are the Israelites in the Old Testament at Passover would
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remove all of the leaven from their houses.
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Just a side note, that means it's not all bad because they
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had it in their house to begin with.
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But for some reason, sometimes there's this leaven you have to
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move out of your house. And just a few chapters later in
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Matthew, there's this other saying of Jesus that the Gospels
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records that says beware the leaven of the Pharisees and
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Sadducees. So it seems that hidden leaven
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isn't always a good thing. There can be something hidden in
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our lives that's actually turned away from the Kingdom of God
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that we're invited towards. We do have to be attentive to
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what is it that is bubbling up in our lives.
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Is it the good of God's Kingdom? Does it lead more towards the
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way God would desire for the world and our lives to look?
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Or is it the leaven or the yeast of self-reliance of refusing to
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see the work that God is doing in US?
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Do we, like the Pharisees, not see the good work that God is
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doing by being caught up in our own ideas of what the Kingdom of
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God should look like? And distinguishing between this
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good leaven and this bad leaven sounds really easy at 1st.
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And sure, sometimes it's really simple.
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You can look at something and say like this is the good thing,
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this is the bad thing. I should only I should do the
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good thing. So a lot harder than that in
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real life. But a lot of times I think
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discernment comes in when we're choosing between two good
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things. Are we looking for the thing in
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our life to the start of it's going to double and triple in
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size. We're looking at this good other
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good thing that is not actually the thing God has hidden in our
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hearts. This anemic one that doesn't
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even have any oven spring. Once it goes in the fire, you
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have to look for the thing that Jesus has actually hidden inside
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of you. Because Jesus is telling us the
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story. Let's just set aside this good
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and bad leaven and assume that it is good for a minute.
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Something has been hidden deep inside of you.
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Something small, but something that is going to grow and be
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transformed until the whole 3 measures the flower are
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leavened. And now I know there may be some
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of you here. That just doesn't feel true.
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Maybe this morning you feel aimless, like you've lost the
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thread of your life. Maybe you feel like you had this
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really clear grasp of your purpose at one point, and that's
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kind of faded away and you're not exactly sure what this next
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step is. Or maybe you just started to
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doubt that there's really any point at all and we should just
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eat, drink, and be merry before our impending deaths.
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That feels true for you this morning.
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If you resonate with some of those questions, I'd invite you
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back to this parable to see the action of the woman who I think
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from 1 lens, shows us what Jesus is like.
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Jesus is like the woman who has hidden something inside of you,
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himself, his Kingdom. And even if you aren't aware of
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it, even if it feels like a secret to you, it is there and
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it's hidden and we can look for it, or at least look for its
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results. I really do believe that inside
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each of you, Jesus has placed a piece of himself that is drawing
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you closer to Him. If that doesn't feel true for
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you, though, I'd really encourage you to come and get
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prayer after the sermon. We're going to have people on
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the side to pray for you. And if you want to say I'd have
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no idea what this hidden thing is that Jesus has done for me,
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we'd love to pray that God would just reveal that to you this
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morning. So let's go back to the parable
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again to take a look at a different part of the story.
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Similar to the Kingdom of heaven is leaven that a woman taking
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hidden 3 measures of flour until was leavened all until was
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leavened all. That's what I next want to focus
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on. In this passage.
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The leaven of heaven became mixed in with the flour until
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the whole dough is filled with this yeast.
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You know, I said we'd come back to those sourdough starters that
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you have in your fridge that you may have been neglecting for a
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few months. So sourdough starter needs to be
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fed regularly. When you feed a starter, you
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take a piece of the starter, you add more flour and water to it,
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and over time, just sitting on the counter, it starts bubbling
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up until it's all starter. You can no longer pull back out
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the flour that you added to it by putting the starter in.
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Eventually everything turns into the leaven, and I think that's
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part of what Jesus is getting at in this parable.
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Whatever it is that God has hidden inside your heart will
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not stop growing until it consumes everything.
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So in Luke, we read from Jesus that for nothing is hidden that
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will not be disclosed, nor is anything secret that will not
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become known and come to light. And this, I think, is one of the
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joys of this parable. So at times I think when people
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hear this passage here about nothing is hidden that will not
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be disclosed, we hear it with like a lot of fear and this
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negative voice of Oh no, what is going to come up that I don't
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want to be revealed to others. Maybe that's true.
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I do actually think that in the fullness of the Kingdom, when
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everything is revealed, it will feel a lot more like liberation
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than shame because I don't think that's what Jesus is inviting us
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towards. But I think that in the light of
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this parable, this verse is actually a hopeful one too.
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So I want you to know this morning that God has, like the
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woman in the story, hidden some leaven in your life.
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The Kingdom of God is working within you, and at times it
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feels so small that you might not even notice it, but it's
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there. And on top of that, the other
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good news that I want you to hear this morning is that God's
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not going to leave that piece of you hidden.
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Rather, the thing that God has placed in you will come out and
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grow and bear fruit eventually in the Longview, which I think
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is the only view that God actually looks at our lives
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with. God will take and consume
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everything in your life until it reflects the Kingdom of God.
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The work that God is doing in you is God's work and God will
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bring it to fruition and this journey will take the rest of
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your life, the growth of the Kingdom of God in your life.
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This taking over of everything isn't about destroying the good
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things in your life. This is not a cancer that is
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growing the multiplication of cells without purpose.
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Rather, the growth of the Kingdom of God in your life is
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organic and slow and cooperative.
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When yeast grows, it's not destroying what was already
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there. It's growing alongside it,
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shifting and changing over time in a way that's often almost
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imperceptible to us. So for anyone who has ever made
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bread, sitting and watching and waiting for it to rise is an
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almost impossible task. But suddenly you look back and
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you realize, oh, it is doubled inside my kit in size.
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My kitchen is warmer than I thought it was.
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So this is the kind of growth that God is building in your
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life. At times it's unseen, but when
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you look back over your life over the long haul, you're able
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to notice it. For me personally, when I think
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about looking back over things in my life, one way this has
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come up really clearly is in the way in which I pray.
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So this sounds very strange, and I think I've told this story in
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a sermon before, but I spent most of my early Christian life
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having really no idea how to pray.
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It was not the spiritual discipline that felt like easily
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accessible to me at all. But over time, through
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relationship with others, by trying on prayer and fits and
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starts, through conversation with a spiritual director, I
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found myself at some point praying.
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And I can't really point to a particular time when it started
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or it happened. This is the big time when
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everything changed and suddenly it worked out.
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But when I look back at my life, at some point, the yeast bubbled
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up in such a way that a deeper connection with God in prayer
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came to fruition. And I'm so thankful that God is
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the one who's doing that work, not me.
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And I would just invite you to think back over your life.
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Is there things in your life where you've been wanting
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something to change? And you might not have even
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noticed it, but sometimes you just look and like, oh, that's
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happened. And I didn't even know that it
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was coming. Sometimes the sort of slow
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organic growth is really hard for us to grasp because we're so
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used to images of power that consume and dominate rather than
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cooperate. We're so used to limitless
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growth in a short time, as demanded by basically everything
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in our society. That's not what the Kingdom of
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God is like. Rather, the Kingdom of God is
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particular to you. It's unique and slow and
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organic, and it's not overpowering you.
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Rather, like the air bubbling up through dough, the Kingdom of
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God is bubbling up in your life, forming into something new, but
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not something unrecognizable. The Kingdom of God is patient
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and it takes time, just as the rising of bread takes time, and
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the work that God is doing in you will sometimes be slow.
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I think sometimes there are these big dramatic moments.
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That's why we had these sermons from Parker the last two weeks.
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But a lot of times it will take time for your life to be
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transformed into the image of Jesus, but it won't ever stop.
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The thing that God has placed in you will continue to build and
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to grow until all of your life is leavened.
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I also think it's worth noting here that this organic growth of
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the Kingdom isn't because of something that you do.
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Rather, especially in the ancient world, the bacteria that
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leavens bred is kind of like a free gift.
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It's just floating around in the air.
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It's probably gross to some of you in this room.
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There's bacteria and yeast floating around in the air.
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That's even how you make sourdough starter today.
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You can buy these old like 400 year old sourdough starters, but
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all you really have to do is put some flour and water on the
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counter, mix it together and give us some more flour over a
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couple weeks and then you will have your own sourdough starter.
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The yeast that's already floating through the air begins
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to take hold and like a free gift, it will keep growing until
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everything is leavened in the same way.
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The thing that God has planted in you is not because you worked
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really hard. It's a free gift that will
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transform your whole life. Eventually your whole life will
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be leavened. It seems like most of our work
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there is. Then opening the jar and letting
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the little bacteria in. Just as we close this morning,
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there's one more detail of the parable that I want to draw our
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attention towards, and I also don't think we notice when we're
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reading it in translation. So the passage says that the
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woman hid the leaven in three measures of flour until it was
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all leavened. So a strange fact here is that 3
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measures of flour is actually a really large amount of flour.
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It's like 40 to 60 lbs. And so this extravagant amount
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of flour, I think, points outward towards the way in which
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the Kingdom of God is not only about what is going on in your
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life. It's actually bigger in this
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giant end of the work that is happening inside of us as God is
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moving outwards. The parable ends with everything
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being leavened. It's not this one little tiny,
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small loaf of bread. It's this massive amount of
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flour that would not even fit in a normal oven.
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So that's also what the Kingdom of God is like.
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The thing that Jesus has placed in you will work its way out to
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transform your life. But as it works its way out in
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your life, the thing that Jesus has placed in the world through
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the church will also work its way out to transform the whole
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world. What God begins in each one of
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us, in you, and in you, and in you and in you, will come to
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reform and reshape the entire world.
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All 40 to 60 lbs of flour, not through control, not through
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power or domination, but like yeast and bread working its way
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through until everything looks more like the way God would have
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the world to be. And so as we close, I'd like to
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have the band to start coming back up the worship team.
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And I think what I want to draw your attention to here, just at
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the very end as we reflect on all of these parables of the
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Kingdom of God, is God's patience.
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So I think a lot of times we can get really worried about the
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pace at which the world is changing or at which our own
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life is changing. But the Kingdom of God is often
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slow and unnoticed until suddenly there is this massive
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rise. God moves in God's own timing
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and with patient deliberation. It takes a long time to have doe
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yeast worked through 60 lbs of flour, but it doesn't stop.
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And God's movement in you and through you isn't stopping
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either. Just as we conclude, I want to
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put up this verse from Paul's letter to Philippians.
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It says, I am confident of this, that the one who began a good
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work among you will bring it to completion by the day of Jesus
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Christ, and we find ourselves watching for the signs of this
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good work. I think there were a lot of
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invitations to prayer in, in the sermon today, even as I, I don't
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know that think about the the work of kneading the dough and
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the different ways of looking at the truths inside of the story.
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But the one thing that stood out when Thomas was at the part he
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talked about like the Kingdom being inside of us, even when it
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feels hidden, was the word belonging and the idea of of us
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belonging in God's Kingdom, of us belonging and God's family.
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And so I just wanted to say that word specifically.
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And if, if that's a word that I don't know, feels hard or feels
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Invitational, maybe especially today, I'd love to pray for you.
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Yeah. I.
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Think also just a couple more things that I think there's an
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invitation towards prayer for those who don't feel God's
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patience, really frustrated by that.
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Or I also think I would encourage you to get prayer if
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you feel like when you look back over your life, it feels like
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not at all life giving. Maybe there's trauma or
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something that has gotten mixed in that makes it hard to have
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this big story of your life. I encourage you to get prayer
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for that too, as we stand together.