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God is Good | All the Time (Derik Fuller)

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  1. Morning everyone. I hope that got you excited.

  2. If you want to turn to your Bibles for Psalm 27, I'm going

  3. to read it through for our scripture reading this morning.

  4. The Lord is my light and my salvation.

  5. Whom should I fear? The Lord is the stronghold of my

  6. life. Whom should I dread?

  7. When evil doers came against me to devour my flesh, my foes and

  8. my enemies stumbled and fell. Though an army deploys against

  9. me, my heart will not be afraid. Though a war breaks out against

  10. me, I will still be confident. I have asked one thing from the

  11. Lord. It is what I desire, to dwell in

  12. the House of the Lord all the days of my life, gazing on the

  13. beauty of the Lord and seeking Him in His temple.

  14. For He will conceal me in His shelter.

  15. In the day of adversity. He will hide me under the cover

  16. of His tent. He will set me high on a rock.

  17. Then my head will be high above my enemies.

  18. Around me I will offer sacrifices in His tent.

  19. With shouts of joy I will sing and make music to the Lord.

  20. Lord, hear my voice when I call. Be gracious to me and answer me.

  21. My heart says this about you. Seek his face.

  22. Lord, I will seek your face. Do not hide your face from me.

  23. Do not turn your servant away in anger.

  24. You have been my helper. Do not leave me or abandoned me.

  25. God of my salvation, even if my father and mother abandoned me,

  26. the Lord cares for me because of my adversaries.

  27. Show me your way, Lord, and lead me on a level path.

  28. Do not give me over to the will of my foes, for false witnesses

  29. rise up against me, breathing violence.

  30. I am certain that I will see the Lord's goodness in the land of

  31. the living. Wait for the Lord.

  32. Be strong and let your heart be courageous.

  33. Wait for the Lord. Thank you, Laura.

  34. For those of you who don't know Laura, Laura is our camp

  35. director for the summer. You can be praying for her and

  36. for the team as we get ready for camps that are going to launch

  37. just in a couple weeks. Here we have seven weeks of

  38. camp, tons of kids. If you want to volunteer, I know

  39. Laura would love to talk to you. We can always use more hands as

  40. we have the opportunity to bless families and kids in our

  41. neighborhood. In case you can't figure it out

  42. from the title, we're going to talk about the goodness of God

  43. this morning and next week and next week.

  44. Pastor Kirk is going to lead us as we talk through giving thanks

  45. to God and we're going to celebrate.

  46. As we celebrate on Celebration Sunday, we have so much to give

  47. thanks for. One of the first prayers that I

  48. learned was the just filled with theological depth and richness.

  49. God is good, God is great, and we thank Him for our food.

  50. Amen. That was probably the most heard

  51. prayer that I heard as a kid growing up.

  52. And, and it's good to thank God and his goodness.

  53. But as we come this week, I want to address what I think is the

  54. elephant in the room when we come to a topic like the

  55. goodness of God. And that is, how good is God

  56. really? Like, is he, is he really good?

  57. I mean, it's one thing for us to say, right?

  58. Some of you, you grew up in church settings where it was a

  59. common refrain to say God is good and the people would

  60. respond with all the time. Then we would say all the time

  61. God is good. But is that true?

  62. Is he really good all the time, even in times like these, Even

  63. in times where missiles are flying between countries and

  64. places like Iran and and Israel, in places like Ukraine and

  65. Russia? Even when in this moment right

  66. now, 3 million people are on the brink of starvation in Sudan and

  67. South Sudan with almost 35 million in desperate famine

  68. mode? Is he good even in the spaces

  69. and times that we live in on this globe where there seems to

  70. be so much that isn't good? Is he good even in my life?

  71. Even when my marriage is falling apart, even when my kid has

  72. given in to the demons of addiction, even when my finances

  73. are a disaster, even when I'm struggling to figure out how to

  74. put food on the plate and a roof over my head?

  75. Is he good in that? See, we end up in this space

  76. where we say, if God is good, why doesn't he do something

  77. about and you can fill in your blank this morning because I can

  78. guarantee you in this room, we all have a blank to be filled in

  79. there. There's all a spot where some of

  80. us are struggling with believing the goodness of God because of a

  81. circumstance that's going on around us or a circumstance that

  82. is going on in our lives and in our heart right now.

  83. We say, if God is good, why? And I just want to say I don't,

  84. I don't know why you're facing what you're facing this morning.

  85. I don't know why God has allowed this chapter to be part of your

  86. story. I don't know why you are walking

  87. through this moment. But there's two things I know

  88. and I am certain of. First, saying God is good does

  89. not mean saying that what you are walking through and going

  90. through is good. Those are two different things.

  91. So I don't want anyone here this morning who is struggling and

  92. suffering and walking through deep waters to hear me say what

  93. you are going through is good. I do want you to hear this.

  94. God is good all the time. That's the other thing I know

  95. even in the times where your heart is doubting, even in the

  96. midst of the struggle that you are going through, even as your

  97. heart cries out, why? Even in the moments where maybe

  98. even right now you're tempted to just shake your fist at God and

  99. say if you don't fix this, I'm done.

  100. I'm out of I'm out of here. In fact, I know listening here,

  101. watching later, there are people in this space or who will hear

  102. this message where you've got 1 foot out the door already

  103. because you are struggling to believe in the goodness of God.

  104. But I can say that God is good all the time because God's

  105. goodness is not rooted in your or my circumstances.

  106. God's goodness is rooted in his character.

  107. That's what we mean when we say God is good.

  108. This is the reminder that the Psalm, Psalm 27 that Laura just

  109. read for us. It's a reminder of God's

  110. goodness, not because of what David was going through.

  111. In fact, Dave went through some terrible stuff.

  112. We don't actually know where this is falling in David's life

  113. because it could have fallen in so many places.

  114. David was mistreated. He had horrible things happen

  115. his life. He was the cause of some

  116. terrible things that happened in his life.

  117. He lost children. You think your family is a mess?

  118. David's family was a train wreck.

  119. David had 1/2 son who raped his half daughter.

  120. He had another son who caused a armed uprising, split the the

  121. Kingdom and tried to take him out.

  122. He is his family was a mess. David knew what it was like to

  123. live in not good circumstances and yet here he calls out about

  124. the goodness of God. We see it in the words, right?

  125. He's talking about the fact an army deploys against me.

  126. Some of you feel like that's your life right now.

  127. There's an army deployed against you're just up against it.

  128. War breaks out against me. Some of you are in the thick of

  129. conflict right now. He cries out, don't leave me or

  130. abandoned me. Why does he cry out don't leave

  131. me or abandoned me? Because he feels like he's been

  132. left in abandoned. He feels lonely.

  133. He feels in this all alone and isolated.

  134. But despite his circumstances, David can cry out these things.

  135. He's my light and my salvation. He he's my stronghold and

  136. shelter. While the war is raging, well,

  137. the armies are coming. He's my stronghold and my

  138. shelter. Well, well, I'm I'm feeling

  139. isolated, alone. What does what does David say?

  140. I know the one who cares about me more than my own father or

  141. mother, who will never abandoned me.

  142. Knowing that the goodness is not about our circumstances, but

  143. it's about the character of God himself.

  144. It moves the if. Here's what I mean by that.

  145. See, our natural tendency is to ask this question.

  146. If God is good, then why? That's a natural question to

  147. ask, but David's knowledge of God's character moves the if for

  148. him. It moves it to here God is good

  149. even if and moving that if makes all the difference.

  150. And so my prayer for you this morning, whether you're here in

  151. person watching online, you listen to this later, is that as

  152. you have your eyes open to the goodness of God, as David had

  153. his eyes open to God's goodness, that your if would move, even if

  154. your circumstances don't change. The God would move in your heart

  155. and give you the confidence and certainty of his goodness the

  156. way he did. David, even when you're in the

  157. midst of the storm, that you would know that despite the

  158. clouds of the sun still shining, just struggling to see it.

  159. And and here's why I want you to know this because some really

  160. powerful things happen in our life when we have the certainty

  161. of God's goodness. First is this when you know that

  162. God is good all the time can make your fear take flight.

  163. That's that's the the cry here of David in the 1st 4 verses.

  164. Listen to these words again. He says the Lord is my light and

  165. my salvation. Whom should I fear?

  166. The Lord is the stronghold of my life.

  167. Whom should I dread when evil doers came against me to devour

  168. my flesh, my foes and my enemies stumbled and fell.

  169. Though an army deploys against me, my heart will not be afraid.

  170. Though a war breaks out against me, I will still be confident.

  171. If your person who is overcome with worry and anxiety this

  172. morning, I just want to let you know you've got a big blinking

  173. red alarm going off in your heart that is warning you that

  174. you're struggling to know and see and believe in the goodness

  175. of God. And I don't, I don't say that at

  176. all as a judgment. We all go through that.

  177. I'm, I'm saying this to you so you have some understanding of

  178. where worry and fear and anxiety come from.

  179. They come from a struggle to believe that God is as good as

  180. God actually is, to be confident in that.

  181. Sometimes the biggest enemy that we face isn't the enemy that's

  182. out there, it's the enemy that's in here.

  183. It's the fear that wants to overtake us when we struggle to

  184. believe in God's goodness, right?

  185. And and fear is not usually something that is a big struggle

  186. for me to a fault. My wife will tell you there have

  187. been a number of times where I should have a lot greater level

  188. of fear so that I don't injure myself, hurt myself, do stupid

  189. things to myself. It's not usually my issue, but

  190. let me share a time when fear started to grab a hold of my

  191. heart. Some of you may not know that we

  192. were down in Florida when they began to shut the world down for

  193. COVID and everybody was trying to figure this stuff out and,

  194. and we were just about to enter into a leadership transition

  195. here at the church. And so Pastor Kirk and I had

  196. been talking and meeting the board of a meeting and the board

  197. was just ready to tell the staff the plan to have Pastor Kirk and

  198. I start into this new role and new position.

  199. Everything starts to shut down. On top of that, Amanda is

  200. immunocompromised and we didn't know what's going on with this

  201. virus. And it seemed pretty clear that

  202. any time that a virus comes out, she's at greater risk than

  203. anybody else. We got all this stuff going on

  204. and I'm starting to look and then I start to get bombarded

  205. with emails and phone calls of people who are fearful on all

  206. sides. And I just got to say everyone

  207. was scared. They just showed it in different

  208. ways. Some people got panicked, some

  209. people got angry, but all of it came out of fear.

  210. And as that's happened and IBM bombarded with this stuff, I

  211. thought, Lord, what is going to happen?

  212. What are we going to do? How do we move through this?

  213. What do you do? What do you do when everything

  214. seems to be swirling and it just seems to be going out of

  215. control? You do what David does first.

  216. You remind yourself of how God is good.

  217. You tell yourself He's my light and my salvation.

  218. But whenever you struggle to believe in the goodness of God,

  219. you know what you do. Look at the cross.

  220. You wonder how good God is. He's so good he bled and died

  221. for you. You know where God is in your

  222. suffering, running into it to rescue you and save you on the

  223. cross. He's the stronghold of your

  224. life. It's amazing how you don't have

  225. to control everything when you have a firm confidence that you

  226. know the one who's in control of everything.

  227. Mind yourself. No, no, he's the sovereign Lord.

  228. He's God. He speaks the universe into

  229. existence, held in place by His power.

  230. Every atom in the universe sticks together because of God.

  231. If you're in Christ, even in your current circumstances, you

  232. can know that nothing is out of control because God's in

  233. control. Well, this God is my light,

  234. right? There was two things as a kid

  235. that would set me at ease when I was a kid, scared of the dark.

  236. And that was one other time where I was often scared.

  237. When I was a kid, I was scared of the dark all the time.

  238. So if I woke up and I had a nightmare, I need one or two

  239. things. First, turn that light on. 2nd,

  240. if the light was going to be off, then I wanted my dad there.

  241. I wanted my dad there because there's something about having a

  242. dad who you know and trust and who's just bigger than

  243. everything else, right? When you're a kid, man, there's

  244. nobody bigger and badder than your dad.

  245. And that's actually true for us as Christians.

  246. On Father's Day, we got the greatest father of all, and

  247. there's nobody bigger or badder than him.

  248. Dad. I just want to say this to the

  249. dad's side note. That's be the type of dad that

  250. builds faith and confidence in your kids and their heavenly

  251. Father. Be that type of dad.

  252. You won't be it perfectly, none of us are, but be the type of

  253. dad who can be counted on, who keeps his word, who protects his

  254. family and his kids. So you got to remind yourself of

  255. how God is good, but you also have to remind yourself of how

  256. God has been good. David actually goes back to

  257. another time in his life where he was up against it.

  258. He said I had this time where my enemies, they were going to

  259. devour my flesh, but God showed up.

  260. In your own life, you need to be able to think back to the times

  261. where it's been dark before, but God shows up.

  262. He answers prayers. Remind yourself that the same

  263. God who was good to me in the past is good today and will be

  264. good in my future. I can think about this again

  265. from my life. One of the things that I did

  266. when I was in that space of fear, I was like, listen, we've

  267. done the job transfer. I mean, one at one point Amanda

  268. and I lived in like 4 cities in five years.

  269. He got us through. We've done the job transition

  270. thing. I, I know how to do this.

  271. He's always been so good and gracious to us, and the entire

  272. time that Amanda and I have been together, she's never been

  273. hospitalized despite all the stuff as we should never had to

  274. stay in the hospital. Brace God.

  275. And I just, no, God's got this. He cares for her more than I do.

  276. You need to remind yourself of God's goodness in your past, and

  277. you need to remind yourself of God's goodness in the lives of

  278. others because sometimes our stories feel like they're not

  279. enough. And that's why a story like this

  280. in the Bible, you can look at a guy like David.

  281. You can see how God showed up in David's life and protected him

  282. and got him through and say that God is my God.

  283. He'll get me through. That's why it's so good to be in

  284. community because we need people who will speak into our lives

  285. and share with us and tell us about how we're not in this on

  286. our own. They're praying for us.

  287. God has shown up in their life. He's going to show up in our

  288. life. He's the same God.

  289. Next thing I want you to see, not only does it make fear take

  290. flight, but knowing that God is good will change the way we

  291. pray. I don't know about you, but my

  292. first prayer when I'm up against it, when things are going rough,

  293. is usually this. Lord, Get Me Out of this.

  294. Lord, fix this, God. God cure this disease.

  295. God, fix my finances. God, heal this relationship.

  296. Get Me Out. And I want to say those are all

  297. valid prayers. Call out to God, Bring him your

  298. struggles. Cast all your cares upon him

  299. because He cares for you. But listen to how David prays.

  300. I've asked one thing from the Lord.

  301. It's what I desire. Not to get out, but to get in,

  302. to dwell in the House of the Lord all the days of my life,

  303. gazing on the beauty of the Lord, seeking him in his temple.

  304. See, David realizes that the most important prayer is not

  305. God, Get Me Out, It's God, let me in.

  306. By the way, it's also a prayer that God answers yes to every

  307. time, right? This is, this is our story.

  308. This is the gospel story. Jesus came to us in our

  309. distress, in our trouble, knowing that we could not make

  310. it to God on our own. God comes to us so that we can

  311. come into his presence through Jesus Christ, so that we can be

  312. made right and made clean. We could never our work our way

  313. to God. So God came down and did all the

  314. work in the person of Jesus to save us.

  315. Again, I say to you, we so often ask where God is in our pain.

  316. The answer is He came down into it.

  317. He's right here with us. He's doing the only thing that

  318. can rescue us from it. When we accept what Jesus did

  319. and choose to follow Him, the promise is His presence now

  320. forever. His presence comes in the person

  321. of the Holy Spirit. If you have called out and

  322. accepted Christ as your Lord and Savior, the Holy Spirit has come

  323. down and is dwelling with you, and you are now the temple of

  324. the Lord, and we collectively together function as His temple.

  325. He takes up residence. His presence is there and so

  326. foretaste of what it's going to be like forever when we get to

  327. enjoy God's presence, the new heaven and new earth for all

  328. eternity, just like it was back as God originally created it to

  329. be with Adam and Eve in the garden.

  330. And then this, He will conceal me in His shelter in the day of

  331. adversity. Why do I want God?

  332. Because when I'm with God, here's what I know.

  333. He'll conceal me in His shelter in the day of adversity.

  334. He'll hide me under the cover of His tent.

  335. He'll set me high on a rock, then my head will be high above

  336. my enemies around. When you are in it, you just

  337. feel like you're drowning, right?

  338. You just struggling to stay above water.

  339. That's where some of you are, that you're just struggling.

  340. And there's this picture of God just lifting David up and his

  341. head is up high and he's he's floating.

  342. So you aren't in this alone, and you will overcome, because if

  343. you are in Christ, Christ is in you first, John 54 says.

  344. Everyone who has been born of God, everybody who knows Jesus,

  345. has trusted him as Lord and Savior, has been redeemed,

  346. overcomes the world. If you're with Jesus and the

  347. Holy Spirit is in you, the question isn't whether you're

  348. going to get through this. The question is when are you

  349. going to get through it? Because you will get through it.

  350. You have overcome the world through Christ Jesus.

  351. And what does this truth do for David?

  352. It drives him to worship. Knowing that God is good all the

  353. time will drive us to worship. He says I'll, I'll offer

  354. sacrifices in his tent with shouts of joy.

  355. I will sing and make music to the Lord.

  356. What drives our worship as followers of Jesus is not that.

  357. Maybe if we sing to the Lord, he'll help us.

  358. Maybe if we sacrifice to the Lord, he'll hear us.

  359. Maybe if we worship to Him, He'll answer us No, No, no, no,

  360. no, no, no. We don't praise God so that He

  361. will be good to us. We praise God because we know He

  362. is good and because He is good, He will do good.

  363. That changes our worship because all of a sudden we sing to

  364. remind ourselves to be stirred up in our hearts about His

  365. goodness. I want to encourage some of you

  366. who who come in late all the time and kind of miss the

  367. singing. Sometimes your heart needs a

  368. song more than it needs a sermon.

  369. Because sometimes what we need is in our heart, not just in our

  370. heads. We'll we'll sacrifice because in

  371. his loving kindness, in his goodness, we know that he has

  372. sacrificed for us through Christ Jesus.

  373. We'll worship Him with our whole lives.

  374. No, not so that He would do something for us, but because we

  375. know He's worthy of our worship. Now here's the thing.

  376. No matter how deeply we know this in our head, in our hearts,

  377. doubt creeps in for all of us. Doubt creeps in about the

  378. goodness of God. You hear it here in David's

  379. voice. Lord, Lord, hear my voice when I

  380. call. Be gracious to me.

  381. Answer me. My heart says this about you.

  382. Seek his face. Lord I I will seek your face.

  383. Don't hide your face from me. Don't turn your servant away in

  384. anger. You've been my helper.

  385. Don't leave me or abandoned me. God of my salvation, even if my

  386. father and mother abandoned me, the Lord cares for me because of

  387. my adversaries show me your way, Lord, lead me on a level path

  388. don't give me over to the will of my foes for false witnesses

  389. rise up against me breathing violence.

  390. Knowing that God is a good God will comfort us in our doubts

  391. when those doubts come. One of the reasons that creating

  392. space in our lives to spend time with God on a daily basis to

  393. create regular rhythms of spending time together with God

  394. in community is so important is because we need to be reminded

  395. our hearts and our heads right His, his heart says to him, His

  396. heart says to him, seek his face and then he has to tell himself

  397. I will seek his face. It is heart and will, and

  398. sometimes it's the will to just show up at your discipleship

  399. group, to show up at church, to sit down and open the Word of

  400. God regularly on a Sunday or on a on a weekday morning and come

  401. to Him in prayer. It's the will to do that that

  402. creates the space for God's goodness to begin to work its

  403. way out into your heart. Do you know that some of you are

  404. here today because God is good? Because even though you didn't

  405. want to come today, God drew you in because He knew you needed

  406. this this morning, even when you doubted it.

  407. You needed to know you are loved.

  408. You needed to know you are not abandoned.

  409. You needed to hear from the Holy Father.

  410. He's faithful. You needed to know those things

  411. and God in His goodness knew you needed them.

  412. So He brought you here, and I'm not saying that that'll get you

  413. through all the way to the other end, but it'll help you take

  414. another step forward. If there's any part of you that

  415. doubts God's love and God's care, I want you to hear that

  416. God loves you. He cares for you.

  417. Some of you, you struggle with believing the goodness of God

  418. because like David says, even if my father and mother abandoned

  419. me, so you have deep, deep father and mother wounds in your

  420. life. And so every time something goes

  421. wrong, every time things get iffy, every time it gets

  422. chaotic, you had moms and dads who just frankly weren't good.

  423. They weren't good moms that I'm so thankful.

  424. We got so many good dads here. And I pray that God will

  425. continue to raise up good dads here at Forward Church to be

  426. great ambassadors for the Heavenly Father.

  427. But some of you need to know that despite the fact that you

  428. had a mom or dad that abandoned you, that wasn't good to you,

  429. God's good. He cares, He loves you.

  430. And even though you're in this right now, he's not done with

  431. you yet. He's not going to give up on you

  432. and He's not going to run away from you.

  433. Even though my father and mother abandoned me, the Lord cares for

  434. me. Do you know the best thing that

  435. you can do when you're doubting God's goodness?

  436. Two things. First, be honest.

  437. That's sometimes a revelation of in churches, which is just the

  438. dumbest thing. I can't say this enough.

  439. This is the space and place that you can be real.

  440. This is the number one space where we should be able to be

  441. authentic about what's going on in our lives.

  442. Be honest with God. That's what David is.

  443. He's honest, man, lonely. I don't know if you care.

  444. I'm down here, I'm struggling. What are you doing?

  445. God? Be honest.

  446. But then the second thing, lean in rather than run away.

  447. So that's what that's what David does.

  448. He leans in, he doesn't run away.

  449. He comes in closer. And some of you are so close to

  450. giving up on God today. God's not giving up on you.

  451. Just keep crying out to him. Keep searching for him.

  452. Keep showing up. Don't run away.

  453. Let this be your cry like David's was.

  454. My heart says this about you. Seek his face and then, Lord, I

  455. will seek your face. Would this be the day where some

  456. of you would plant a flag who are close to letting your feet

  457. go out the door in a relationship with God and say,

  458. no, I'm going to plant a flag. I will seek his face because

  459. he's good. And then listen how this ends.

  460. I'm certain that I will see the Lord's goodness in the land of

  461. the living. We'll see where his doubts went.

  462. I'm certain I will see the Lord's goodness in the land of

  463. living. Wait for the Lord.

  464. He's got to preach to himself again.

  465. We got to preach to ourselves. You can't just have Pastor Kirk

  466. or Pastor be preaching. You got to preach to yourself.

  467. Wait for the Lord. Be strong.

  468. Let your heart be courageous. Wait for the Lord.

  469. I want to share with you, as we come to a close here, the story

  470. of someone in our congregation who's been walking through what

  471. it's like to find the goodness of God in the midst of

  472. circumstances that aren't all settled.

  473. And so this is Laura's story. You don't know you were on a

  474. mountaintop until you're staring up at it from the valley.

  475. I remember Christmas 2023. It was a normal Christmas.

  476. I remember being at home Christmas morning.

  477. My kids were spending some time playing with their toys and my

  478. husband and I were enjoying the first Christmas where we could

  479. have time to open our presents in peace.

  480. I remember my dad texting me saying are you going to be the

  481. last ones to arrive when you live the closest to us?

  482. During a present exchange that year, I remember my

  483. sister-in-law gave my mom a devotional titled The Lives We

  484. Actually Have. It was 100 Blessings for

  485. Imperfect Days. Little did I know how important

  486. that devotional would be because 2024 was coming.

  487. My dad's unexplained leg pain started to worsen in the new

  488. year until I went over one Saturday in February and

  489. recognized we were not dealing with just like pain.

  490. He was facing the reality of cancer.

  491. My dad went into the hospital around the first week of March

  492. and would die at the beginning of May.

  493. To explain my experience, imagine that there's a treadmill

  494. that was going at top speed. When he was diagnosed, my whole

  495. family jumped on that treadmill and started running.

  496. At first we were keeping up, then we started to gradually

  497. fall behind. With each stride I could see

  498. that we were moments away from slipping off the back of that

  499. treadmill and then the treadmill just stopped and my family,

  500. minus my dad, were projected forward, falling into a big pile

  501. on the ground. As a primary care practitioner,

  502. I remember thinking, what is the point of doing what I do?

  503. My dad was my number one patient and I could not keep up with it

  504. all to save him. After my dad's death, my family

  505. started to pick themselves individually up out of that

  506. mess. We all suffered in different

  507. ways and there was a lot of hurt and discord.

  508. A family that the hospital was in awe of her being so United

  509. was falling apart. By the end of 2024, my marriage

  510. got its turn. My husband and I were at odds

  511. with each other. I remember thinking, what did I

  512. do to deserve all this coming at me from all directions?

  513. My child, who I had had a traumatic birth with, started to

  514. have lymph node swelling, which was the source of my dad's

  515. cancer. I started to worry and become

  516. anxious. I was experiencing trauma

  517. stacked onto trauma. Then to add to even more

  518. challenges in my life, at the beginning of 2025, my husband

  519. lost his job. But in the words of my disciple

  520. ship group, family but God. But God used my dad's situation

  521. to shine a light into that hospital to minister to the

  522. healthcare providers who were caring for him.

  523. But God spoke to my dad early one Monday morning to tell him

  524. to prepare to go to glory, and to allow him the ability to tell

  525. us it was time for him to go see Jesus.

  526. But God surrounded my dad and family with Christians from that

  527. moment on to usher him into glory.

  528. But God dissolved my fears about being a primary care

  529. practitioner through a miraculous dream where doubt and

  530. indifference were put in their place.

  531. And His truth and His light shone through that darkness.

  532. But God walked with me through those terrible days of family

  533. discord by providing me with the fruits of the Spirit.

  534. But God provided me with a Christian magazine article about

  535. how dancing saved my marriage, prompting my husband and I to

  536. dance ourselves back into the marriage God had planned for us.

  537. But God walked with us through multiple medical appointments.

  538. But God will provide an opportunity for my husband's

  539. employment. But God sent me this passage on

  540. my daily devotions one year after my dad's death.

  541. Isaiah 4318 to 19. Do not remember the past events.

  542. Pay no attention to things of old.

  543. Look, I am about to do something new.

  544. Even now it is coming. Do you not see it?

  545. Indeed, I will make a way in the wilderness, rivers in the

  546. desert. See, you can easily look at my

  547. story and question why God didn't show up in a big way or

  548. why does God not lift me out of this wilderness experience.

  549. My dad still died, my family is still figuring things out

  550. without him, my child's lymph nodes are still big, and my

  551. husband is still job searching. But through it all I have come

  552. to know that the question is not when will He Get Me Out of this

  553. fire, but rather it is am I going to trust the One who's in

  554. the fire with me? When I start to focus on how He

  555. is showing up His daily mercies, I start to realize that all is

  556. well if I just have Him by my side.

  557. As the song Highland says. No less God within the shadows,

  558. no less faithful when the night leads me astray.

  559. You're the heaven where my heart is in the Highlands, and the

  560. heartache all the same. Blessed is the one who trusts

  561. the Lord. Jeremiah 17, seven to 8.

  562. By the way, two days after, yeah, you and Claire, two days

  563. after Laura filmed that her husband Matt got a job.

  564. See how God moves your if when you see His goodness, remind

  565. yourself today of who He is. Call out to Him to let you in,

  566. even if He's not going to take you out of all the things that

  567. you're going through. Don't fold, don't run away.

  568. Plant your flag. Seek His face, and I am certain

  569. that you and I will see the Lord's goodness in the land of

  570. the living. Wait for the Lord.

  571. Be strong, let your heart be courageous.

  572. Forward Church, wait for the Lord.

  573. Let's pray, Father, you are good, you are great, and we do

  574. thank you for your food. We thank you for everything.

  575. It's so easy for us, God. It's scared, simple people who

  576. struggle to see the whole picture, who don't know the wise

  577. to get frightened and to want to run off and run away.

  578. God, would you convince us in our hearts today that.

  579. The best place that we can be is in your presence, God.

  580. Would you steady hearts that are shaking today?

  581. Would you put your arms around those whose hearts are crying

  582. out on this Father's Day? For those who have maybe lost a

  583. father, would you let them know that they have not been

  584. abandoned? You're there with them.

  585. God help us to know your goodness even when what we're

  586. going through isn't good. We ask this in Jesus name, Amen.