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Restoring Joy

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  1. I'm trying to get healthy because I want to see my kids graduate.

  2. !

  3. These numbers act like indicators, right?

  4. They're indicators of actual health.

  5. So no matter how you feel, you could feel like you're doing fine, but the numbers tell you the truth.

  6. The numbers tell you how you're really doing.

  7. And so as I've been going through all these scans and looking at my health by the numbers,

  8. it got me thinking, what about spiritual health?

  9. What indicators are there for spiritual health that, regardless of how you think you might be doing,

  10. will tell you this is how you're actually doing?

  11. And Psalm 51, which is the text we're going to focus on this morning,

  12. would actually suggest that one of the strongest, clearest, most reliable indicators of spiritual health and growth and flourishing

  13. is the presence of joy.

  14. It's the presence of joy.

  15. So let me ask you this.

  16. How joyful are you feeling these days?

  17. How much joy do you experience in your daily life?

  18. For those of us who may not be feeling joyful right now,

  19. why don't we feel more joy?

  20. For Christians, if we believe everything that we're hearing and confessing and praying and singing about this morning,

  21. why don't we feel more joy?

  22. If you're here and you're not a Christian,

  23. is there any difference between the experiences of joy that you feel like you've had in your life

  24. and that that a Christian might feel?

  25. Do I really need to be a follower of Jesus in order to experience joy?

  26. I don't think so.

  27. How can we, for those of us who feel like we've lost our sense of joy,

  28. how can we recover it?

  29. Psalm 51 speaks into these questions,

  30. and it's going to show us the source of joy,

  31. kind of where it comes from,

  32. the loss of joy,

  33. why we can have it and then lose it,

  34. where does it go,

  35. and then finally the recovery of joy,

  36. how to get it back.

  37. So let's pray.

  38. Lord, we thank you for your word,

  39. and we thank you for this season of Lent,

  40. and we thank you for this song.

  41. Lord, thousands of years when David wrote it,

  42. he never could have imagined that we would be sitting here this morning

  43. contemplating words that flowed out of one of the most personal and painful experiences of his life.

  44. And yet, Lord, through the power of your Holy Spirit

  45. and through your eternal wisdom,

  46. you have appointed these words for us this morning.

  47. So I pray that you would open our hearts to receive

  48. what you have to say

  49. through these words to us.

  50. In Jesus' name, amen.

  51. So first of all, the source of joy,

  52. I want to clarify a little bit what we mean

  53. when we talk about the word joy in this context.

  54. I don't just mean happiness.

  55. I don't just mean optimistic.

  56. You know, some people just are naturally wired.

  57. Some of you, I love seeing you on Sunday

  58. because it doesn't matter if it's raining and cold and nasty outside.

  59. When I see you, I know you're going to be smiling

  60. and you're going to say,

  61. How you doing?

  62. Good morning.

  63. Hopefully, if you're that kind of person, you're on the welcome team

  64. because those are the kind of people that we want on the welcome team.

  65. And you're a naturally optimistic person.

  66. But that's not what I mean by joy.

  67. In the Bible, joy is more like a deep, settled assurance

  68. that all is well, no matter what the circumstances might be.

  69. It could be sunny.

  70. It could be raining.

  71. It's a deep, settled assurance that all is well,

  72. no matter what the circumstances might be.

  73. So no matter what we read in the news,

  74. when we're doom scrolling,

  75. no matter what current crisis du jour is unfolding in our world,

  76. no matter what we might be facing in our own lives,

  77. true joy is marked by the fact that it remains solid and unshakable

  78. because it's not affected by outward circumstances.

  79. That's really the difference between happiness and joy.

  80. Happiness depends on what we feel like at the moment.

  81. Joy depends on what is unshakably true,

  82. regardless of how we feel.

  83. Let me say that again.

  84. Happiness depends on what we feel like in the moment.

  85. Joy depends on what is unshakably true,

  86. regardless of how we feel in the moment.

  87. It's a very different thing.

  88. So think of your emotions.

  89. Our emotions, the world of feeling is like shifting sand.

  90. And the shifting sands of emotions are always blowing this way and that.

  91. So one day we might be feeling happy and optimistic

  92. and hopeful about our lives,

  93. but maybe a couple of days later,

  94. the direction of wind has changed

  95. and the sand's blowing in a different direction

  96. and we're feeling sad and hopeless.

  97. We're feeling despair.

  98. We're feeling pessimistic and morose.

  99. But below those shifting sands of emotions,

  100. joy is like that bedrock.

  101. It sits under the surface.

  102. It's the bedrock of joy

  103. that is deep and rooted and secure.

  104. Think of an ocean where there's a storm raging

  105. and there's waves and there's wind,

  106. but if you go down deep,

  107. go down a mile below the surface,

  108. you'd never know there was a storm up there.

  109. It's calm.

  110. It's quiet.

  111. It's peaceful.

  112. It's still.

  113. That's joy.

  114. And here's the thing about true joy.

  115. Here's the, at times, frustrating thing about this kind of joy

  116. is you can't get this kind of joy by aiming at it.

  117. You can't wake up and say,

  118. I want to have this kind of joy and aim at it.

  119. You'll never reach it.

  120. You'll always fall short of it.

  121. You know, some churches try to stir joy up

  122. and, you know, you create an emotional high for people

  123. and the music is raging

  124. and everybody's kind of whipped into a frenzy

  125. and jumping in the air,

  126. and that is super fun and awesome.

  127. Right?

  128. I love going to experiences like that,

  129. but you can't replace joy with something like that

  130. because you can't manufacture joy.

  131. You can't.

  132. It's not an experience that you can engineer.

  133. Joy is the byproduct of something else.

  134. It's downstream of something else,

  135. and if we don't have that something else,

  136. we'll never have this kind of joy.

  137. David, the king over Israel,

  138. who wrote many of the Psalms,

  139. including this one,

  140. he had experienced this joy firsthand,

  141. and he knew that there's only one place it can be found,

  142. and so there's a number of places in the Psalms

  143. which are like his prayer book

  144. where he writes about this joy.

  145. Psalm 16 is very clear.

  146. Verse 11, he writes of the Lord,

  147. In your presence there is fullness of joy.

  148. At your right hand are pleasures forevermore.

  149. David's saying the times when I feel most full of joy

  150. the times when I have that assurance,

  151. when I have that bedrock,

  152. those are the times, Lord, when I'm in your presence.

  153. These are the only times when I feel that,

  154. the fullness of joy.

  155. So true joy can only be found in God's presence,

  156. and by in God's presence,

  157. I don't just mean being physically with God

  158. because that's not how it works.

  159. Being in God's presence means that our hearts

  160. are fully aligned with his heart.

  161. It means that we are spiritually connected to God,

  162. that his will is our will,

  163. that his heart is our heart,

  164. that we're moving in step with his Holy Spirit,

  165. that we're living out his desire for us as his creatures.

  166. And so that's where true joy can be found.

  167. So biblically speaking,

  168. joy might be defined this way.

  169. It is the deep, settled assurance

  170. that God is in control of every aspect of my life,

  171. and that therefore all is ultimately well

  172. even when all is not immediately well.

  173. The deep, settled assurance that God is in control

  174. of every aspect of my life,

  175. and that therefore the ultimate assurance

  176. that all is ultimately well

  177. even if it's not immediately well.

  178. That's what we find in God's presence.

  179. So when we lose that sense of joy,

  180. it means that something is not right

  181. in our relationship with God.

  182. Because if that's downstream

  183. from being in God's presence

  184. in the way we described,

  185. if we're not feeling it, experiencing it,

  186. then it means that something is wrong

  187. in that relationship.

  188. And that's what Psalm 51 is really about.

  189. David's relationship with God

  190. has been fractured.

  191. It's been damaged.

  192. And all of the joy

  193. has drained out of his life.

  194. And that's why he prays

  195. in verse 11 of this Psalm,

  196. cast me not away from your presence.

  197. That's David's worst fear,

  198. to be cut off from God,

  199. to be cast out the way Adam and Eve

  200. were cast out of the garden.

  201. Because he knows that life and joy and peace

  202. are only to be found in God's presence.

  203. And once you taste that, as David had,

  204. you never want to do without it.

  205. You can't imagine living a day without it.

  206. So David is seeking to repair

  207. that relationship.

  208. And in the heart of the Psalm,

  209. he prays,

  210. and this is really the heartbeat

  211. of Psalm 51,

  212. restore to me the joy of your salvation.

  213. I want to know what it's like

  214. to live in your presence again.

  215. So that's the source of joy.

  216. It's living life in God's presence.

  217. So why do we lose that?

  218. How do we experience the loss of joy?

  219. And what does that say?

  220. And how do we understand that?

  221. Well, in David's case,

  222. it's pretty clear when we look back

  223. and we read the text in 2 Samuel,

  224. David, frankly, had done some terrible things.

  225. David had abused his power.

  226. David had slept with his best friend's wife.

  227. When she got pregnant,

  228. came and told him that she got pregnant,

  229. David initiated a big mass cover-up operation,

  230. including arranging to have his best friend killed

  231. by sending him to the front lines

  232. of a suicide mission.

  233. And then David tries to go on

  234. pretending that everything's okay,

  235. which is what most of us do.

  236. Tries to go on pretending like everything's fine,

  237. nothing to see here.

  238. Of course, we know all the servants

  239. knew everything that was going on.

  240. David's the only one

  241. that actually thought it was a secret.

  242. Of course, God knows

  243. everything that's going on.

  244. So David tries to pretend that everything's okay,

  245. but his heart is not okay.

  246. And his heart is very far from God.

  247. And it's not a sustainable place to be.

  248. And so in 2 Samuel 12,

  249. his friend Nathan the prophet confronts him.

  250. And only after Nathan confronts him

  251. does David finally have the courage

  252. to stop pretending that everything is okay.

  253. I wonder if you've ever had that experience

  254. where you just sort of reach a point

  255. where you say,

  256. I can't pretend that things are okay any longer.

  257. I can't keep wearing the mask.

  258. So David takes the mask off.

  259. Everything comes pouring out.

  260. And to our great benefit,

  261. it comes out in the form of Psalm 51.

  262. And there are some extraordinary insights here

  263. into the things that drive us away from God

  264. that would apply to all of us.

  265. First, we see as we look at this Psalm,

  266. what we see is that our relationship with God

  267. can be damaged,

  268. both by things that we have done

  269. and things that we have left undone.

  270. That's what we confess sometimes in our liturgy.

  271. We confess things that we've done

  272. and things that we've left undone.

  273. So David uses several different words

  274. to describe this problem

  275. that has gotten in the way

  276. of his relationship with God.

  277. One of the words that he uses is the word peshah,

  278. which we translate as transgressions.

  279. Transgressions are,

  280. this means active rebellion.

  281. This is insurrection against God.

  282. So part of what David has done

  283. to damage his relationship with God

  284. is he's rebelled against God.

  285. In other words,

  286. he's knowingly disobeyed

  287. and gone against God's will.

  288. You know, over the years,

  289. I've had conversations with people

  290. who've come to me

  291. and they've wanted to talk.

  292. I want to have a theological conversation

  293. with you and ask you about this

  294. with that aspect of the faith

  295. because frankly,

  296. I'm having a lot of doubts.

  297. I'm not sure if I believe

  298. any of this anymore

  299. and I'm thinking about leaving the faith

  300. or they're massively questioning their faith.

  301. And sometimes those conversations

  302. end up being theological,

  303. but a lot of times I'll start out

  304. by just asking,

  305. what's going on in your life?

  306. And it's surprising how often

  307. that conversation ends up

  308. taking a very different turn

  309. because sometimes,

  310. a surprisingly high amount of times,

  311. you find out that other shifts in life

  312. have coincided with that shift in faith.

  313. You know, they moved in with their boyfriend

  314. or they moved in with their girlfriend

  315. or it turns out they're nursing

  316. a deep resentment against somebody

  317. and they're refusing to forgive that person, right?

  318. So you begin to realize,

  319. oh, the problem isn't theological.

  320. You can't be actively living

  321. against God's will

  322. and still feel connected to him

  323. at the same time, right?

  324. So there's a way that some of that doubt

  325. is your brain trying to make sense of the fact

  326. that now all of a sudden

  327. because you're rebelling against God,

  328. there's no connection

  329. or even sense of God's presence

  330. in your life any longer, right?

  331. But then later,

  332. he uses the word hatat,

  333. which we translate sin.

  334. And this is a very different nuance.

  335. It means missing the mark.

  336. So imagine archery and you aim

  337. and you miss the bullseye,

  338. you miss the target.

  339. Or it means falling short

  340. or failing to live

  341. according to God's standard,

  342. way we might say it is living

  343. as though God doesn't exist.

  344. So maybe this is somebody

  345. who's not in active rebellion against God.

  346. Maybe this is somebody

  347. who doesn't even acknowledge

  348. that there is a God.

  349. Or maybe they believe there's a God

  350. but they think that God

  351. is for religious people

  352. or church-going people

  353. but God doesn't really have anything

  354. to do with me.

  355. Or maybe they think that God

  356. created everything

  357. and just kind of wants us to be happy

  358. but doesn't really get involved

  359. in the everyday affairs of our life.

  360. He just kind of lets us do our thing, right?

  361. These are popular ideas

  362. that people in our country have about God.

  363. So, you know,

  364. maybe in the way we,

  365. maybe we think,

  366. you know, when I go to church

  367. and I pray, that's God stuff.

  368. But the way I spend my money

  369. and manage my budget,

  370. that's kind of my business.

  371. or what I do with my body,

  372. that's my business.

  373. But it can be in how we deal

  374. with things like anxiety in our life.

  375. Right?

  376. Anxiety, it turns out,

  377. is actually deeply rooted

  378. in our desire to have control.

  379. So, ultimately,

  380. anxiety is the result of us

  381. trying to control things

  382. we can't control.

  383. We try to control future outcomes.

  384. We try to control

  385. other people's choices.

  386. Man, you have teenagers

  387. and you just give anything

  388. to just be able to just control

  389. what they do, right?

  390. Don't do this, do this, right?

  391. You know, anxiety is sometimes

  392. just trying to control

  393. what other people think about us.

  394. Trying to manage

  395. what other people think about us.

  396. The point is,

  397. these are things

  398. that we can't control.

  399. Only God can control these things.

  400. So, in reality,

  401. when we try to control things

  402. that only God can control,

  403. we're living in a functionally

  404. atheistic way.

  405. We're living as though

  406. there is no God.

  407. We're living as though

  408. maybe we are God, right?

  409. So that would be a way

  410. that we live in God's world

  411. as though He doesn't exist.

  412. So, that damages

  413. our relationship with God.

  414. When we live in a way

  415. where we're failing

  416. we're willing to let God be God

  417. and we're trying to be Him instead.

  418. So, the first thing

  419. that we see here

  420. is that our relationship

  421. with God can be broken

  422. both by things

  423. that we're actively doing

  424. in rebellion against God

  425. but also simply by living

  426. as though God doesn't exist.

  427. Or not doing things

  428. that God has called us to do.

  429. The second thing we learn

  430. is that the problem

  431. that we're talking about here

  432. runs a lot,

  433. a lot deeper

  434. than our actions.

  435. In verse 5, David says,

  436. Behold, I was brought forth

  437. in iniquity

  438. and in sin

  439. did my mother conceive me.

  440. Now, that word iniquity

  441. is a third word

  442. and that refers to

  443. a kind of inner bentness

  444. or crookedness.

  445. And it's something

  446. that we inherit from birth.

  447. There's a kind of inner,

  448. you know,

  449. St. Augustine articulated it

  450. as with the Latin phrase

  451. in curvata sensei.

  452. There's a curving inward

  453. on oneself

  454. that we are born with.

  455. A kind of spiritual condition

  456. that means

  457. what comes most naturally

  458. to us, right?

  459. So, we live in a society

  460. where for the last hundred years

  461. there's been a lot of emphasis

  462. on letting people do

  463. what comes most naturally

  464. to them

  465. and not getting in the way

  466. of what comes naturally

  467. to people

  468. and letting people live

  469. out of their natural inclinations.

  470. And what this is saying

  471. is that what comes

  472. most naturally to me

  473. is to turn away from God

  474. and to curve in on myself.

  475. And I was born that way

  476. and there's nothing

  477. that I can do

  478. to change that

  479. in my own strength.

  480. So, what this means

  481. is that because this is rooted

  482. in my nature

  483. as a human being,

  484. because I was born this way,

  485. this is not something

  486. that we can fix

  487. on our own.

  488. You can't read a book

  489. to fix this

  490. and think your way out of it.

  491. You can't go to a therapist

  492. and get this treated

  493. with CBT

  494. or DBT, right,

  495. or any of the other interventions.

  496. We can't fix this therapeutically.

  497. We can't fix it

  498. with the right life plan.

  499. You can't fix it

  500. through diet and cold plunges.

  501. You can't engineer

  502. your way out of this.

  503. So, that's the second thing

  504. we learn.

  505. This problem goes a lot deeper

  506. than our behavior.

  507. And then the third thing

  508. that we learn

  509. is that this disconnection

  510. that many of us feel

  511. from God

  512. is because part of our heart

  513. is actually closed off

  514. from God.

  515. Verse 6 talks about

  516. our need for God's truth

  517. in the inward being

  518. and the secret heart.

  519. And that word

  520. for secret heart

  521. is satum.

  522. And it shows up

  523. a number of times

  524. in the Old Testament.

  525. And that describes

  526. situations

  527. where people

  528. plug up a well

  529. or plug up a spring

  530. or plug up a water source

  531. to prevent other people

  532. from having access to it.

  533. And David very poetically

  534. uses that word here

  535. to describe a part

  536. of our heart

  537. that we wall off

  538. from other people

  539. and from God.

  540. It's part of your heart

  541. that you say

  542. no access

  543. beyond this point.

  544. No trespassing.

  545. Right?

  546. So, we might say

  547. to other people,

  548. you can know this part of me,

  549. you can know this thing

  550. about me,

  551. I will let you in

  552. on these aspects

  553. of my life,

  554. but I won't ever

  555. let you know

  556. about this.

  557. Right?

  558. I read this study

  559. that said that

  560. on average

  561. people carry around

  562. 13 secrets,

  563. five of which

  564. they've never told

  565. another living soul.

  566. And then apparently

  567. somebody did

  568. some related research

  569. on insurance

  570. and that they correlated,

  571. and I don't know

  572. how much there is to this,

  573. they correlated

  574. the amount of secrets,

  575. the number of secrets

  576. that people said

  577. that they were holding

  578. and weren't sharing

  579. with the people around them

  580. and their perception

  581. of their endurance

  582. over time.

  583. In other words,

  584. people seemed to feel

  585. physically burdened

  586. and have less endurance

  587. in a way

  588. that was proportionately

  589. related to the amount

  590. of secrets

  591. they were carrying.

  592. Now, I don't know

  593. if that's true,

  594. but I do know

  595. that there's been

  596. a massive rise

  597. in online anonymous confessions.

  598. Maybe you've read

  599. about this too

  600. because people are hungry

  601. and desperate

  602. to unburden themselves.

  603. But there's a part

  604. of our heart

  605. that we sort of wall off,

  606. and so, you know,

  607. we've experienced this.

  608. This is what David

  609. was doing, right?

  610. He's pretending

  611. everything's okay,

  612. and it's easy to think

  613. that the best way

  614. to deal with our sin

  615. is simply to hide it

  616. and to wall it off

  617. and to hide our true self,

  618. and we're incentivized

  619. because it's scary

  620. to be vulnerable.

  621. We're afraid

  622. that if people

  623. really know who we are

  624. or really know

  625. what we've done

  626. or really know

  627. what we think

  628. or the things

  629. that we struggle with

  630. that they're going

  631. to immediately reject us.

  632. And so,

  633. we will wall off

  634. parts of ourself.

  635. We'll hide our true self.

  636. The problem is,

  637. it's impossible

  638. to have a real

  639. three-dimensional relationship

  640. with other human beings

  641. if nobody really

  642. fully knows us.

  643. And it's no different

  644. with God.

  645. The only difference

  646. is that you can't

  647. hide from God,

  648. and yet if we're

  649. actively walling off

  650. parts of ourself

  651. from God,

  652. we can never really

  653. have a life-giving

  654. relationship with God

  655. because we're trying

  656. to convince God

  657. that we're somebody

  658. that we're not.

  659. And God knows.

  660. He knows that that's

  661. a lie, right?

  662. So God desires wisdom

  663. in the secret heart.

  664. God desires access

  665. to all of us.

  666. So all of these

  667. are aspects

  668. of the issue

  669. that comes between

  670. us and God,

  671. the reason why

  672. we can live

  673. so much of our lives

  674. with a kind of

  675. fractured relationship

  676. with God.

  677. So the question

  678. then arises,

  679. how can we

  680. reconnect with God

  681. and recover the joy

  682. that comes with that,

  683. which is the whole

  684. point of this psalm.

  685. And the key

  686. to repairing

  687. our relationship

  688. with God,

  689. the key to

  690. restoring joy

  691. that comes with

  692. that repairing

  693. of the breach

  694. is what the Bible

  695. calls repentance.

  696. Now,

  697. when you say

  698. repentance,

  699. the challenge is

  700. that for some people

  701. who've grown up

  702. in the church,

  703. this feels like

  704. Christianity 101.

  705. I've heard this

  706. a thousand times.

  707. For other people,

  708. it sounds like

  709. this kind of

  710. archaic word

  711. that only kind of

  712. traditionalist Christians

  713. even talk about anymore.

  714. You go to a lot of churches

  715. and you don't even

  716. hear this word.

  717. The problem is

  718. that regardless

  719. of what category

  720. or camp you're in,

  721. a lot of us tend

  722. to misunderstand

  723. repentance.

  724. Psalm 51

  725. is one of the

  726. clearest places

  727. to see what actual

  728. repentance,

  729. what actual

  730. relationship-restoring

  731. joy-restoring

  732. repentance looks like.

  733. And the path

  734. of repentance

  735. involves a few things

  736. that basically

  737. determine whether

  738. or not it's

  739. actual true

  740. repentance or not.

  741. The first thing

  742. that we see

  743. in this psalm

  744. is this,

  745. is that repentance

  746. involves appealing

  747. to God's mercy

  748. alone.

  749. Appealing to God's

  750. mercy alone.

  751. So I don't know

  752. when the last time

  753. you said you were

  754. sorry to somebody

  755. or to God was,

  756. but we tend to say

  757. things like,

  758. I'm so sorry,

  759. I'll try to do

  760. better next time.

  761. Or,

  762. I didn't mean

  763. to do that.

  764. Or,

  765. it was a huge

  766. misunderstanding.

  767. Or,

  768. I made a mistake

  769. but that's not

  770. who I really am.

  771. And in all

  772. of those cases

  773. what we're really

  774. essentially doing

  775. is that we're

  776. actually appealing

  777. to our own character.

  778. We're saying,

  779. forgive me

  780. because of who I am,

  781. forgive me

  782. because of who

  783. I really am,

  784. and you just

  785. misunderstood it

  786. or forgive me

  787. because of what

  788. I promised to do

  789. differently.

  790. It's all based

  791. on me

  792. and my character.

  793. But David

  794. doesn't do that.

  795. David appeals

  796. solidly and squarely

  797. to God's character.

  798. He says,

  799. have mercy on me,

  800. O God,

  801. according to

  802. your steadfast love,

  803. according to

  804. your abundant

  805. mercy.

  806. We'll come back

  807. to this,

  808. but God

  809. doesn't owe

  810. you anything.

  811. He doesn't

  812. owe me

  813. anything.

  814. Have mercy

  815. on me,

  816. O God,

  817. according to

  818. the fact

  819. that it is

  820. your character

  821. and nature

  822. to have mercy.

  823. Number two,

  824. so appealing

  825. to God's mercy,

  826. honestly admitting

  827. our sin.

  828. Friends,

  829. I think this

  830. may be,

  831. in everything

  832. we talk about

  833. this morning,

  834. the hardest

  835. thing for us

  836. to do.

  837. If you've

  838. ever,

  839. and I assume

  840. most of you

  841. have,

  842. really had to

  843. admit that

  844. you were wrong,

  845. it is never

  846. not excruciatingly

  847. painful.

  848. If you're

  849. really doing

  850. it,

  851. if you're

  852. really naming

  853. it,

  854. there's always

  855. something in

  856. you that

  857. goes,

  858. when you do

  859. it,

  860. it hurts.

  861. But this

  862. is saying

  863. that true

  864. repentance

  865. means unblocking

  866. the parts

  867. of our hearts

  868. that we have

  869. walled off

  870. and letting

  871. everything flow

  872. out.

  873. Pulling out

  874. that stopper

  875. and just letting

  876. it all come

  877. out.

  878. But that

  879. is really

  880. hard to

  881. do.

  882. You know,

  883. a few years

  884. back,

  885. a couple

  886. of social

  887. psychologists

  888. wrote a

  889. book,

  890. and it

  891. was a

  892. book

  893. primarily

  894. on marriage,

  895. and it

  896. was called

  897. Mistakes

  898. Were Made

  899. But Not

  900. By Me.

  901. So I like

  902. the title,

  903. Mistakes

  904. Were Made

  905. But Not

  906. By Me.

  907. And based

  908. on their

  909. research,

  910. they say

  911. the majority

  912. of married

  913. couples who

  914. drift apart

  915. over time

  916. do so

  917. slowly.

  918. So they

  919. drift apart

  920. slowly over

  921. time in

  922. what they

  923. describe as a

  924. snowballing

  925. pattern of

  926. blame and

  927. self-justification.

  928. So each

  929. partner focuses

  930. on what the

  931. other one is

  932. doing wrong

  933. while justifying

  934. his or her

  935. own preferences,

  936. attitudes,

  937. and ways of

  938. doing things.

  939. So the big

  940. conclusion of the

  941. book is this.

  942. You know,

  943. this is a

  944. CliffsNotes

  945. version.

  946. I'll spoil the

  947. ending for you.

  948. The thing that

  949. chokes the love

  950. out of these

  951. relationships

  952. is not

  953. conflicts,

  954. it's not

  955. misunderstandings,

  956. it's not

  957. personality

  958. differences,

  959. it's not the

  960. fact that you

  961. have different

  962. hobbies and

  963. interests,

  964. or that one

  965. of you goes

  966. to bed early

  967. and one

  968. of you goes

  969. to bed late,

  970. or that one

  971. of you likes

  972. a clean house

  973. and one

  974. of you doesn't

  975. mind a mess,

  976. or that one

  977. of you likes

  978. to plan ahead

  979. and the other

  980. one likes

  981. to live

  982. spontaneously.

  983. It's none

  984. of those

  985. things.

  986. The thing

  987. that chokes

  988. the love

  989. out is

  990. self-justification.

  991. Self-justification.

  992. Question is,

  993. if we're tempted

  994. to do that

  995. in our marriages

  996. with the people

  997. that we supposedly

  998. love the most

  999. of anybody

  1000. in the world,

  1001. how much more

  1002. are we tempted

  1003. to do this

  1004. in our relationship

  1005. with God?

  1006. Or another way

  1007. of putting it,

  1008. what makes us

  1009. think we would

  1010. do any better

  1011. with God?

  1012. You know,

  1013. I don't know

  1014. if you're like me,

  1015. but sometimes

  1016. it feels like

  1017. we're all born

  1018. with this little

  1019. team of defense

  1020. attorneys in our brain.

  1021. You know,

  1022. you're born

  1023. of these little

  1024. defense attorneys

  1025. and they're yours

  1026. and they work

  1027. for you.

  1028. They work pro bono

  1029. just for you.

  1030. And so when somebody

  1031. comes along

  1032. and they say,

  1033. when you said

  1034. or did that,

  1035. you hurt my feelings

  1036. or you did this,

  1037. the defense attorneys

  1038. are like,

  1039. we're here to go.

  1040. You know,

  1041. and they all

  1042. stop to attention

  1043. and they start

  1044. taking notes,

  1045. right?

  1046. And they use

  1047. on some of

  1048. who are defense attorneys,

  1049. right?

  1050. And you know

  1051. all the tactics,

  1052. right?

  1053. We're going to

  1054. discredit the witness.

  1055. We're going to,

  1056. did you really say this?

  1057. And you really,

  1058. and I,

  1059. you know,

  1060. and then they start

  1061. to just poke

  1062. a thousand holes

  1063. in that person's claim

  1064. that you've done

  1065. something wrong

  1066. against them,

  1067. right?

  1068. And their sole job

  1069. in your life

  1070. is to get you

  1071. off the hook.

  1072. Those defense attorneys,

  1073. they exist for one

  1074. purpose alone.

  1075. It's to convince you

  1076. and everybody around you

  1077. that you're actually

  1078. innocent,

  1079. maybe even the victim,

  1080. and that that other person

  1081. is the one

  1082. who's in the wrong,

  1083. right?

  1084. And you know,

  1085. I would say

  1086. to a certain extent,

  1087. I think we live

  1088. in a culture

  1089. that has kind of

  1090. inflamed and empowered

  1091. our defense attorneys.

  1092. We live in a culture

  1093. of victimization

  1094. where there's a,

  1095. there's a readiness

  1096. to jump into

  1097. the role of victim.

  1098. People sort of want

  1099. to claim that they've

  1100. been victimized.

  1101. You see that all the time.

  1102. You see it in the church

  1103. as well as anywhere else.

  1104. People who are,

  1105. you know,

  1106. somebody raises concerns

  1107. and they respond

  1108. by saying,

  1109. you're victimizing me.

  1110. And then the entire

  1111. conflict becomes

  1112. who's the bigger victim?

  1113. Who's been more wronged,

  1114. right?

  1115. All the while,

  1116. what's not happening?

  1117. Nobody's taking responsibility.

  1118. Nobody's owning their stuff.

  1119. So what we see here,

  1120. what we see in David's words,

  1121. is that true repentance

  1122. requires that we fire

  1123. our defense attorneys.

  1124. Right?

  1125. We fire them.

  1126. We stop trying

  1127. to justify ourselves.

  1128. And we start to do

  1129. the hard work

  1130. of owning our sin.

  1131. And it's not easy.

  1132. And I can imagine

  1133. for David

  1134. it would have been hard

  1135. to write these words.

  1136. For I know my transgressions

  1137. and my sin

  1138. is ever before me.

  1139. He's like,

  1140. it's all right here.

  1141. I'm not going to hide anymore.

  1142. No defense attorneys.

  1143. Here's my sin.

  1144. Against you

  1145. and you only

  1146. have I sinned

  1147. and done what is evil

  1148. in your sight

  1149. so that you may be justified

  1150. in your words

  1151. and blameless

  1152. in your judgment.

  1153. Here's how to own your sin.

  1154. What's he doing?

  1155. Number one,

  1156. he's saying,

  1157. I admit my sin.

  1158. I'm not going to try to hide it.

  1159. I was wrong.

  1160. And then he says,

  1161. and all of my sin

  1162. is ultimately committed

  1163. against God.

  1164. And you say,

  1165. well,

  1166. he kind of mistreated Bathsheba

  1167. and her late husband.

  1168. And you're like,

  1169. absolutely.

  1170. Yes,

  1171. he sinned against Bathsheba

  1172. and her dead husband.

  1173. He sinned against

  1174. the whole nation of Israel.

  1175. But guess what?

  1176. Before he ever committed

  1177. adultery with Bathsheba,

  1178. he committed adultery

  1179. against God.

  1180. All sin we commit

  1181. horizontally

  1182. flows out of sin

  1183. and rebellion

  1184. that we've committed

  1185. first and foremost

  1186. against God.

  1187. But then David goes on

  1188. to say a final thing

  1189. that we would often overlook.

  1190. He says that God

  1191. is fully justified

  1192. in condemning him.

  1193. And this is very important.

  1194. We come back to what

  1195. we said a little while ago.

  1196. We have to realize

  1197. God doesn't owe us anything.

  1198. And God would be fully justified

  1199. in condemning us.

  1200. God's judgments

  1201. are just.

  1202. And we have to recognize

  1203. if we get what we deserve

  1204. from God,

  1205. there would be no hope

  1206. for any of us.

  1207. And David names all of that.

  1208. I've sinned.

  1209. All of my sin

  1210. was ultimately

  1211. against,

  1212. in first and foremost,

  1213. against you, God,

  1214. and you would be justified

  1215. and right

  1216. in condemning me.

  1217. And then finally,

  1218. repentance involves

  1219. asking not only

  1220. for forgiveness,

  1221. but for a new heart.

  1222. Create in me,

  1223. he says,

  1224. a clean heart,

  1225. O God,

  1226. a pure heart,

  1227. and renew

  1228. a right spirit

  1229. within me.

  1230. So repentance

  1231. is more than just

  1232. behavior modification.

  1233. It's a cry

  1234. from new creation.

  1235. It's a cry

  1236. for recreation.

  1237. God who said,

  1238. let there be light.

  1239. God who created

  1240. the heavens and the earth.

  1241. I need you

  1242. to recreate me.

  1243. God has the power

  1244. to transform us

  1245. from the inside out

  1246. through the power

  1247. of the Holy Spirit.

  1248. And this is where

  1249. we see the good news

  1250. of the gospel.

  1251. That when we come

  1252. to God in the way

  1253. that we have just laid out,

  1254. when we come to God

  1255. appealing to God's mercy,

  1256. honestly admitting

  1257. our sin,

  1258. and asking for a new heart,

  1259. guess what?

  1260. God's answer

  1261. is always yes.

  1262. It is always yes.

  1263. Because God

  1264. has already accomplished

  1265. everything necessary

  1266. to set us free

  1267. from sin.

  1268. David was praying

  1269. this before the cross.

  1270. He was praying

  1271. with a kind of uncertainty.

  1272. I don't know.

  1273. Maybe God will forgive him.

  1274. Maybe he won't.

  1275. But we're praying

  1276. yes, friends,

  1277. on the other side

  1278. of the cross.

  1279. So we're not looking

  1280. ahead into the unknown.

  1281. We're looking back

  1282. on what is known

  1283. and certain.

  1284. Because of the cross,

  1285. unlike David,

  1286. we know that when we

  1287. pray this way,

  1288. God's answer is always yes.

  1289. We just have to come

  1290. and ask him.

  1291. The people who aren't

  1292. reconciled to God,

  1293. the people who are

  1294. disconnected from God,

  1295. the people who don't

  1296. know the Lord,

  1297. the people who've never

  1298. experienced this life

  1299. in joy,

  1300. the reason that is the case

  1301. is because they have

  1302. never come to God

  1303. and asked.

  1304. There is no one

  1305. who has ever come to God

  1306. where God has said no.

  1307. So when we know

  1308. that we've been forgiven

  1309. and restored to God,

  1310. that's when the joy

  1311. begins to return.

  1312. And that is that kind

  1313. of unique,

  1314. powerful joy

  1315. that comes from being

  1316. fully known

  1317. and fully loved

  1318. because we've unstopped

  1319. the secret places.

  1320. And that makes us

  1321. fully secure.

  1322. And that's,

  1323. I think,

  1324. friends,

  1325. what many of us

  1326. are really after,

  1327. what we really need,

  1328. is I need to know

  1329. that somewhere out there,

  1330. the one whose opinion

  1331. matters most,

  1332. more than anyone else

  1333. in my life,

  1334. fully knows me,

  1335. fully loves me,

  1336. and in him

  1337. I am absolutely secure.

  1338. I mean,

  1339. just when I say those words,

  1340. don't you feel,

  1341. do you feel something

  1342. in you just kind of go,

  1343. fully known,

  1344. fully loved,

  1345. absolutely secure.

  1346. Right?

  1347. So let's step back

  1348. and look at all this together,

  1349. just kind of pull it together.

  1350. God desires for you

  1351. and for me

  1352. to live lives

  1353. marked by joy.

  1354. Christianity is not

  1355. about a grim compliance

  1356. or grudging obedience.

  1357. Some people treat Christianity

  1358. as though we're children

  1359. learning to like broccoli.

  1360. God's invited us

  1361. into a life

  1362. of joy and peace.

  1363. Don't you understand?

  1364. God wants to teach us

  1365. to dance.

  1366. God wants to invite us

  1367. to fly.

  1368. Right?

  1369. God wants to lift us

  1370. right out of the mire,

  1371. set us on solid ground.

  1372. That's the life

  1373. that we're invited into.

  1374. So if we lack joy

  1375. in our lives,

  1376. if we don't have

  1377. that bedrock assurance

  1378. that all is well

  1379. and that God

  1380. is in control,

  1381. that means that something

  1382. has come in the way

  1383. of our relationship

  1384. with God.

  1385. It means that something

  1386. has gotten in the way

  1387. and as we said,

  1388. it could be things

  1389. that we're actively doing

  1390. in rebellion.

  1391. Maybe you already know

  1392. exactly what that is.

  1393. It could simply be

  1394. the fact that we're living

  1395. by our own standards

  1396. instead of His

  1397. or it could be

  1398. that we're living

  1399. like He doesn't exist

  1400. in certain areas

  1401. of our lives.

  1402. But in every case,

  1403. the answer is always

  1404. the same.

  1405. There's only one path

  1406. back in

  1407. and that is the path

  1408. of repentance.

  1409. And friends,

  1410. this is the first Sunday

  1411. as we've said

  1412. of the season of Lent

  1413. which is entirely

  1414. focused on repentance.

  1415. And hopefully by now

  1416. it is abundantly clear

  1417. that that doesn't mean

  1418. Lent is a time

  1419. to be morose

  1420. and self-critical.

  1421. Lent is about

  1422. restoring joy.

  1423. I think Lent

  1424. is often misunderstood.

  1425. Lent is about

  1426. the restoration

  1427. and the recovery

  1428. of joy

  1429. that is found

  1430. in God's presence.

  1431. The last thing

  1432. I'll say is this.

  1433. Depending on how

  1434. you're wired,

  1435. this might look

  1436. different

  1437. depending on

  1438. how you operate.

  1439. So just a couple

  1440. of final

  1441. case applications

  1442. here

  1443. because I want

  1444. to press this home

  1445. a little bit

  1446. for you.

  1447. Some of us

  1448. really struggle

  1449. with all due respect

  1450. to admit

  1451. that we need grace.

  1452. We tend to be

  1453. very defensive.

  1454. We tend to have

  1455. a very hard time

  1456. seeing or admitting

  1457. our own sin.

  1458. And so,

  1459. again,

  1460. with all due respect,

  1461. for you,

  1462. if that's you,

  1463. Lent is a time

  1464. to stop pretending

  1465. that everything

  1466. is okay.

  1467. Because like David,

  1468. chances are

  1469. everybody around you

  1470. knows it's not.

  1471. It's the emperor

  1472. has no clothes.

  1473. You're only fooling

  1474. yourself.

  1475. It's time to start

  1476. being honest

  1477. about who you

  1478. really are.

  1479. And before you

  1480. can experience grace,

  1481. you may need God

  1482. to show you

  1483. that you need grace.

  1484. You may need to pray

  1485. for God's truth

  1486. and wisdom

  1487. to illuminate

  1488. your own inward

  1489. being to help

  1490. you see your need

  1491. for him.

  1492. And just to push

  1493. this a little further,

  1494. when David prays,

  1495. let the bones

  1496. that you have broken

  1497. rejoice.

  1498. Okay,

  1499. that's a sobering

  1500. reminder.

  1501. What's he saying?

  1502. Sometimes God

  1503. uses

  1504. uses

  1505. or even

  1506. introduces

  1507. hard and painful

  1508. experiences

  1509. to humble us

  1510. enough

  1511. so that we will

  1512. see our need

  1513. for him.

  1514. It's like the

  1515. smelling salts

  1516. meant to wake

  1517. us up.

  1518. So some of us,

  1519. that's what Lent

  1520. may need to be

  1521. for you.

  1522. I suspect

  1523. there are many

  1524. of us who have

  1525. the opposite

  1526. challenge,

  1527. that we are

  1528. all too aware

  1529. of our sin.

  1530. We're never

  1531. not aware of it.

  1532. Most of the time

  1533. we feel like

  1534. failures.

  1535. I'm failing

  1536. at being a

  1537. faithful Christian.

  1538. I'm failing

  1539. at my friendships.

  1540. I'm failing

  1541. at parenting.

  1542. You know,

  1543. kids,

  1544. maybe you don't

  1545. know that most

  1546. of the time

  1547. your parents

  1548. feel like they're

  1549. doing a horrible

  1550. job.

  1551. And we're plagued

  1552. by all the things

  1553. that we know

  1554. that we should be

  1555. doing,

  1556. but we're not

  1557. doing.

  1558. So in order

  1559. for us to

  1560. experience joy,

  1561. we not only

  1562. need to repent,

  1563. but we need to

  1564. repent and then

  1565. believe the gospel.

  1566. We need to

  1567. actually believe

  1568. what's on the

  1569. other side of

  1570. repentance.

  1571. We need to

  1572. understand,

  1573. as it says in

  1574. this psalm,

  1575. that God does

  1576. not see us

  1577. the way we

  1578. see ourselves.

  1579. That God

  1580. has cleansed

  1581. you.

  1582. God delights

  1583. in you.

  1584. Right?

  1585. And when we

  1586. go on acting

  1587. as though we

  1588. are miserable

  1589. sinners,

  1590. when God

  1591. has declared

  1592. us clean,

  1593. when God

  1594. has,

  1595. as David

  1596. prays,

  1597. blotted out

  1598. our transgressions,

  1599. it's a denial

  1600. of the gospel.

  1601. There's nothing

  1602. that you can

  1603. do,

  1604. friends,

  1605. that would

  1606. make God

  1607. love you

  1608. any more

  1609. than he

  1610. loves you

  1611. right now.

  1612. And there

  1613. is nothing

  1614. that you

  1615. could ever

  1616. do that

  1617. would make

  1618. God love

  1619. you any

  1620. less than

  1621. he does

  1622. right now.

  1623. If the

  1624. gospel is

  1625. true,

  1626. and you

  1627. have come

  1628. to him

  1629. in repentance,

  1630. then you

  1631. are clean.

  1632. Period.

  1633. So Lent

  1634. is about

  1635. no longer

  1636. denying that

  1637. fact and

  1638. living out of

  1639. the freedom

  1640. that it

  1641. imparts.

  1642. So no matter

  1643. where you are

  1644. this morning,

  1645. the invitation

  1646. is the

  1647. same.

  1648. Repent and

  1649. believe the

  1650. gospel,

  1651. because repentance

  1652. is the key to

  1653. enjoy the

  1654. love.

  1655. of

  1656. sin.

  1657. Lord, we

  1658. thank you

  1659. for your

  1660. word.

  1661. Oh, that

  1662. it would

  1663. become

  1664. fresh in

  1665. us.

  1666. Please,

  1667. Lord,

  1668. dwell in

  1669. us,

  1670. move in

  1671. us,

  1672. that we

  1673. fall on

  1674. knees and

  1675. cry out,

  1676. mercy on

  1677. the way

  1678. God,

  1679. what

  1680. you

  1681. said to

  1682. us.

  1683. And if

  1684. Lord,

  1685. lift us

  1686. up,

  1687. teach us

  1688. to dance

  1689. in the

  1690. joy and

  1691. freedom.

  1692. Teach us

  1693. to dance

  1694. in the

  1695. developed

  1696. joy.

  1697. Teach us

  1698. to dance

  1699. knowing

  1700. that we

  1701. are

  1702. filling

  1703. them

  1704. in

  1705. full.

  1706. Teach us

  1707. to dance

  1708. in the

  1709. absolute

  1710. spirit

  1711. of living

  1712. life

  1713. before

  1714. we

  1715. are

  1716. alive

  1717. of

  1718. this.

  1719. We

  1720. pray

  1721. this

  1722. which

  1723. on

  1724. the

  1725. way.

  1726. Amen.