On the Other Side of Pain | Alex Bonilla

I'm excited.

Today I'm going to be talking about uh a

message titled on the other side of

pain. I I do feel that God wants to

rewire the way we see pain and we see

hurt. I do feel that there's a lot of

misconceptions that sometimes keep the

people of God and people bounded uh to

bitterness, to hurt, to trauma. But I

just feel this there's an anointing this

morning and I do feel that there's going

to be some breakthrough. The stuff that

you carry that you came in with this

morning, you're going to look back and

it's not going to be there. Amen.

>> You know, God gave me this dream. It was

a kind of a weird dream and a vision.

And in that dream and a vision, I saw

myself with the people of Israel and

they were right uh right about to cross

the Red Sea. And and I have read that

scripture many times. But this time I

felt the terror. I felt the pain. I felt

uh the pressure of that moment for

Israel. They have a whole army chasing

them. You got no weapons. You got no

training. This is the army that have

oppressed you for 400 years

generationally.

And they are getting closer and closer

and closer. And I'm looking around and I

see my wife, I see my daughter. And the

thought came in, we may die today. And I

felt that pressure of that moment. And

then I looked to the front. I saw the

Red Sea opening. I saw us walking. And

then I looked back and the enemy was

there no more.

The scripture says the enemies you see

today, you will see no more. I do

believe there's stuff that have been

chasing you. Not just you, just

generationally. Stuff that have plagued

even your family, even generations after

you. sickness, bitterness, pain, hurt,

trauma, bondage, cycles that have come

to your life that this is the season.

This is a season of crazy revival and

power. I do believe many of you will

look back and you will not find it. You

will look back at depression. You will

look back at hurt. You will look back at

trauma. You will look uh back at

suicidal thoughts. You will look back at

whatever was uh harassing you and

harassing generations before you. And

you're not going to find it. You're

going to look back at poverty and it's

not going to be there. You're going to

look back at those cycles and they're

going to be gone. I remember a time like

that. Uh I think I shared this before. I

went to a conference and I was so upset

and and God, you know, you're probably

more spiritual than me. Uh but but

sometimes I get upset with God and and

he's quick to answer back. Um we got our

moments and and we're at this conference

all my all my friends are getting rocked

are getting you know like when you go to

a place everybody's receiving but you

you know you're sitting there and I was

I say God I don't feel a thing and uh

and I remember this powerful man of God

was laying hands on people everybody

being slain and I was like number 20 in

the line and I say I have never been

slain in the spirit so I say well maybe

what what I I will go to try to go back

and maybe on the way God sees my fade

and catch me. Um, that was not the case.

Not this time. Uh, so I'm sitting there

looking up. I said, "Man, what do I do

now?" You know, I was just thinking I

have to stand up and look anointed or

something because

So I'm like, "Ah,

you know,

and on the the trip back home, I was

upset with God. I was fighting with

God." Did that ever happen to you? Have

you ever been in seasons that you're

upset with God? There's you're you're

you're upset because there's this place

between promise and where you are.

There's this gap that if you're not

careful can be a breeding ground for

offense for pain. Many even friends of

God go through that place. You know,

Abraham is having a conversation with

his father. Now, now Abraham is a friend

of God. Abraham knows God. You know, the

Bible says that angels will come and

have lunch with him. Read that. That's

phenomenal. And that's the level of

relationship this guy have with God. And

now God is telling him, "I'm going to

bless you so much." And and and the

feedback that he get from Abraham was

was he was upset. He was mad. Said, "Why

are you going to give me all that stuff?

I don't even have a child to give it to.

That stuff will be inherited by my

servants." Because it was an area of

pain in his heart. Because a lot of

times in your walk, you will encounter

pain. Make no mistake, life have a way

to to bring things to you. But I dare to

say that pain is not there for your

destruction. The scripture says in the

other side of pain, there's your highest

levels of breakthrough, your highest

level of healings and encounters with

God. So we have to and not not not not

just see it for what it is but we need

to understand the dynamics of pain and

how we deal with it how we see pain

because at the other side God have for

you your greatest level of breakthrough

encounters and healing that you have

ever seen in your life. Amen.

>> So Abraham is sitting there and God have

to pull him out because there's a part

of his process the promise have produced

some pain. So as as we are understanding

pain we need to understand there are

different types of pain you know and

this morning I'm going to I'm going to

try to cover three types of pain and

it's the the pain that wounds you the

hurting pain uh is a brain that brings

damage uh the pain of birthing something

the burden pain of of grow pains and the

pain of healing. uh if we can understand

these three basics uh types of pain and

how we handle it, you can make pain one

of the most productive places in your

life. Amen.

>> And the first type of pain I want to

talk about is the the pain of the the

wounding pain, hurting pain. And and and

I encounter this a lot especially in in

pastoral counseling in my other line of

work dealing with uh children and risky

behaviors in the school system. Uh I

always see see pain everywhere I go and

I see two groups of people. I see the

people that knows how to deal with that

pain in effective ways and that that

pain becomes not only a blessing to them

and not only an opportunity for

encounter but an opportunity for growth

and formation that set them up for their

destiny. And I see the other group that

tries to hide from the pain, roam from

the pain, medicate the pain, entertain

the pain. But pain is funny because you

have a way to come out. And he always

have a way to come out when you least

expected it. Have you encountered that?

Have you ever been triggered?

I hear that word a lot. This generation

love that word trigger, right? They

trigger me.

Well, if they're triggering you, it's

not their problem. is yours, right?

You're the one getting triggered because

usually every time that something

triggers you, and when I say trigger is

something that makes you react out of

proportion to what is taking place,

right? And and and spouses, you probably

know that place, you know, if you're

married, you probably know what what

being triggered is to a different level.

Now, if you got teenage uh children, you

probably know that even in a in in a

deeper way, right? Because there's

things and anytimes I see this type of

pain

pain will come out when you least expect

it. When when I train as a we're doing a

training as a emergency medical response

training and they used to tell us every

time you go to a person that is hurt the

first thing you ask them what hurts and

they will tell you maybe my arm, my leg,

whatever. But then they tell you you

have to go deeper because that person

have been through such trauma that they

may be other areas that are hurt that

they don't even know about it. And what

you do, you're going to pat them down

and you're going to look at your hands

as you're patting down. While you're

doing that, you want to apply some

pressure in some areas to see if you

trigger some pain because that will let

you know there's something wrong that

they don't even knew it was wrong. And

then you're looking for fluids and and

many times as you're touching people,

they say, "Oh, no, just my arm hurts."

But then you touch other say, "Oh, that

hurts too."

Now, it's the same concept in the in the

spiritual and with your emotions. Any

area that your trigger is God touching

that area. He's asking you what you're

feeling right now. And if you pay

attention to those triggers, it will let

you know that there's some pain that you

perhaps haven't dealt with. That behind

that trigger, there's an area that you

haven't dealt with. I was talking to to

a beautiful man of God and and such a

such a phenomenal guy and he tells me,

"I I went to a time of pressure.

Something triggered me and I heard words

out of my mouth that were not scriptures

and I'm concerned." And this is a

phenomenal guy that love the Lord and

and and have the word in his hand. I was

talking to another person. Same deal.

It's like I've been memorizing scripture

all this time, but I was triggered and

this anger scripture did not come.

because that anger came out and I told

them you know that's the funny thing

about fire will destroy a lot of things

but it will purify gold and because your

gold that fire comes in and those

impurities rise up is the purifying

power of God and it's God putting

pressure on those areas and letting you

know a there may be something that you

haven't dealt with there may be some

pain that you're running from the issue

with that I see usually 80% of the cases

I see with addictions and um um bad

cycles of uh irrational or unhealthy

behavior, it comes from undel pain from

areas of pain they did not work through.

And every time that trigger comes is

perfect for us to understand. And I tell

people, don't ask yourself why the

trigger, but why the pain. If you

understand why you're feeling that pain,

that will give you a picture of

something that God wants to deal with.

And part of that vision that God was

showing me about the enemies you see

today you will see no more have to do

with that. It's like God is showing you.

So many of you probably in this season

you have experienced some triggers. And

I just hear the Lord saying don't don't

don't don't don't ask why the trigger.

Ask why the pain? Because deeper than I

want to work with something deeper

inside of you. I want to deal with some

trauma, some pain, some things that are

unresolved because behind that is your

great your greatest place of

breakthrough. And there's a lot of

behaviors we engage if we're not careful

to try to cover the pain. You know, pain

made you ask act very irrational at

times. I remember we went to uh Costa

Rica to do a conference and uh this

young lady, she was a friend of one of

the young ladies on the trip with us and

she say I'm here because uh we asked

her, "What are you doing here in Costa

Rica?" And she said, "Well, I'm just

here to see a witch doctor. Um, we're

going to meet in the jungles and we're

going to take some hallucenic drugs to

have a spiritual encounter. Say, glory

to God.

I see. Wow.

Now, this is a highly educated. She's

college educated, good family, uh, sharp

young lady on her probably 20s. And I

was asking God, what takes somebody so

smart, so intelligent to make some

questionable decisions like that? That's

a a a decision in desperation. And God

told me pain will make you doing

irrational things. Pain will take you to

places where you don't want to go and

will keep you there for longer than what

you want to stay. And and but this

morning, I feel God is going to just not

only highlight some areas of pain in

your life, but he actually is gonna I

love how Sam says what he expose, what

he reveals, he heals. So I do believe

there's going to be a level of exposure

that God is going to bring some areas uh

of your life that there may be some

triggers that there may be some pain and

God is revealing that because in this

season he wants to heal his church in

this season. He's breaking all these

cycle. He's breaking all these things

that are taking us uh to irrational

places that are taking you to to cycles

to to to different things that are

causing you to be stuck in your destiny.

Because what I noticed when you stay in

those cycles,

we become like the people of Israel and

we're going around that mountain over

and over. So close to the promise but

never possessing. Have you ever seen

people like that? So close, all the

anointing, all the potential, all the

capacity walking around their promise

but never possessing because there were

some areas that God wanted to deal with.

Now the pain, the hurting pain is very

effective when we know how to manage it

and when we understand that we need to

go deep. Anytime that you feel pain,

it's not for you to run from it, but

it's for you to face it. The Bible says

through Jesus Christ, we got power to

face anything. And I do believe God

wants to meet you that right there in

the area of pain. John 10:10 says, "The

John 10:10

thief comes only to steal and kill and

destroy. I have come that that you may

have life and have it to the full.

Matthew 11:28 says, "Come to me all you

Matthew 11:28

who are weary and burdened. I will give

you rest."

Psalms 147:3 say, "He heals the

Psalms 147:3

brokenhearted and binds up their

wounds." Isaiah 53:5 says, "But he was

Isaiah 53:5

pierced for our transgressions. He was

crushed for our iniquities. The

punishment that brought us peace was on

him. And by his wounds, we are healed. I

don't care. Well, I do care, but it

doesn't matter

what you're going through.

The scripture says there's healing and

there's breakthrough for whatever area.

You don't have to be defined by pain.

Pain and hurt and wounds don't have to

define you. You don't have to run from

it through Jesus Christ. You don't have

to find a drug, a medication. You don't

have to find anything to hide from that

pain. Because this is the issue. I I

remember we're working uh we got a

referral for a 12-year-old that was

acting out of school, having terrible

issues, was uh diagnosed with

depression, ADHD, put on medication at

such early age and they say there's

nothing we can do. Let's send it to

North Palm. Glory to God.

We get that all the time, you know, when

everything fails. Well, well, send it to

North Palm. Amen. Not because of normal

but because of Jesus.

>> Do you understand there's power in

Jesus?

>> No. Do you truly understand that? Let's

let's let let you know we we can see

scripture and we can get caught up in

these theological uh debates about God

healed. He don't heal. Was that for the

early church? I love I I asked Pastor

Patricia that one time. I said, "Well,

once they're healed, they will have to

make a decision whether they believe on

healing or not."

So she said she she said, "I'm not going

to engage in those debates. Once you see

the power of God, you're going to have

to figure out is it God heals or not."

Right? And I have seen it, you know,

I've seen how God heals people. I

remember I went to uh we went to

minister to a conference in South Africa

and and this young lady, beautiful young

lady, very smart, very well put

together. Uh they they brought it to the

altar and we're praying for her and I

just felt the overwhelming presence of

God. His love came upon her and started

ministering in her healing to her. um

and and prayed for her for like 30

minutes that night. And and there was a

breaking that took place. There was

something that that broke over her. And

then I I still have a a little handote

that she wrote me and and I keep it

always by my bed. When depression tried

to comes in, when the enemy tries to to

minimize me, I look at my little note.

This young lady say, "I've been

struggling with depression for years."

And and and the grandma told me, grandma

called me and say, "Hey, you don't know

that, but that young lady, she was about

to put in a mental health hospital

because she was having terrible suicidal

thoughts. We don't know what to do with

her." But you know what happened? An

encounter with Jesus, with the presence

of the supernatural love of Jesus came

in that night and the enemies she saw

that day, she see no more. Now she's

working in the worship thing. Now she's

going through conference. Now God is

using in a powerful way. I remember in

another conference uh we travel it was

another nation and a group of us this

young man came in uh Joby was his name

and uh and Joey came in and he he looks

bad though uh he looked rough and and

and he said I want I want prayer but he

it was almost like he wanted prayer for

like his family it's like I was

diagnosed with stage four cancer I'm on

the on the late stages of it and and I

want prayer for strength for my family

as I walk through this and a group of us

we came and we pray and as I'm touching

I'm praying and touching his feet I say

the spirit of the Lord says there is

life coming out at the cellular level I

see life coming out from the from the

inside of your bones out flowing

everywhere

and and and we left that night I haven't

seen Joy you know we left that nation

and and I get it three weeks after I get

this call from this weird number and and

this face he got like it's funny his

profile picture is like his face

amplified

saying Lord Jesus. And

so I took the call and this guy is

trying to catch his breath. He said,

"You know what? I I went to get tested.

I I went to the hospital and I was

feeling so bad they cannot even finish

the testing." Uh and and and the guy

that was next to me told me, "Remember

the words the prophet said.

Remember the life coming out." And he

started declaring that word over and

over and over again. And he got well

enough that they can finish the test.

But when they finish the test, they say,

"Hey, uh, something is wrong. I have to

refer you to another hospital." The test

did not came out right. I say, "Okay,

let's go to the other hospital." He goes

to the other hospital. They do the

testing and they say, "The reason they

send you here is because we know you

have stage four cancer. It's actually

cancer in your blood." And and and we

the first people could not find it. So

they send you to us so we can find it.

But we can find it because the enemies

that you see today, you see no more. Did

you? No. No. No. Do you understand that?

Do you understand that? When God says

it's over, it's over. Who do you think

can stand before God and tell him, "No,

you will bow down to cancer." Cancer

will bow down to Jesus and will confess

that Jesus Christ is Lord. Do you

understand the power of that? I have

seen it. You can tell me all about your

theology, but I have seen it. I have

tasted that God is good.

>> I have seen when God is determined to

bring healing and to bring breakthrough.

I remember these beautiful leaders here

at North Palm one night. They sent me a

text. They were heartbroken. A beautiful

child, amazing child. Went through some

wounding through some hurts emotionally.

Now he's upset with God. He's upset with

the church and send a text to his

parents

how disappointed, how hurt it is, how he

don't believe in God.

And I told him, "Don't worry. If you're

a prodigal and you got praying parents,

you stand no chance.

You stand no chance." I'm not saying

maybe. The word don't say maybe. The

Lord says those who the son set free are

free indeed.

And I said, "Don't worry. God showed me

the presence of God is going to appear

to him directly."

I think it was two weeks after that. He

was freaking out.

See, a light came into my room. It was

Jesus mama.

And this life has been transformed.

>> Now he's like God gave him a career, a

family. He's getting all kind of stuff.

I can tell you testimony after

testimony. Guy is doing phenomenal

because the enemies you see today,

you're not going to see no more. Because

God says, "I watch over my word so it

can be fulfilled. I don't even need your

faithfulness. I faithful all on my own."

Because even when you're unfaithful, I

remain faithful because my promises are

yes and amen. I'm the finisher. But I I

start and finish your faith. I'm the

author, the finisher.

>> Because he said, "I will not be mocked.

>> I will not."

>> Do you understand? Even demons believe

and tremble. Woo.

>> Do you understand even darkness is his

domain?

>> Do you understand that God can encounter

you in your valley?

>> He says, "I'm the lily of your valley

even in your I love this story. The

scripture says that this this king went

to fight this enemy

and they fought them in the mountains

and and the the enemy say they they

fought us in the mountains and they

overcame.

Perhaps their god is the god of the

mountains. Let's fight them in the

valley and then we will see victory. And

I God is so gangster sometimes, you

know. It's like I love it. You know that

he's he's the way he speak.

He sent the prophet and the prophet said

you you let that guy know that I'm the

god of the mountain and I'm the god of

the valley too and in your valley I will

give you victory. So I just speak to

you. You may be on some valley even

friends of gone gone through valley. You

know why? Because there's a different

type of pain. There's a birding pain.

Now that's a fun one. You know the Bible

say I I have never give birth. I haven't

that's nothing I can speak out of my own

personal testimony but I hear it can be

quite challenging. Now I love when

people say you know we're pregnant. Have

you heard that? Like couples say well we

want to let you know we are pregnant.

Say oh you're pregnant too. you know,

like I love that. And that makes sense

because I I remember when when Jennifer

when we got pregnant, uh that was a hard

pregnancy for us.

You know, I know recovery was hard. It

took me 18 years to get rid of the baby

fat.

It's like just now I'm recovering from

that pregnancy. Um but I was reading

they say C-sections are harder to

recover from. So probably that was the

issue. But

but you know and don't laugh man don't

laugh at my struggle

and um

in the in the pushing pain the Bible

says he's looking through every

generation who to make covenant with

he's looking for people that he can

entrust with a dream. You know I never

understood that thing when they said

well children are from God and he let us

borrow it. I said, 'Well, I saw Jennifer

carrying that thing for nine months, you

know, like what that means. But then God

spoke to me and he said, "Yes, but

before she was placed in the womb of her

mother, I knew her. I love her. I

predestined she was mine and I trusted

you to steward it for a season." Do you

know there are dreams in the heart of

God that is entrusting you? Do you know

that every human being on this earth you

were not be you were not placed here by

accident. You are actually God's

masterpiece. You are the only part of

creation that he said I will make it in

my own likeness and image. You will look

like me.

>> Right?

>> So what you're looking at here is a

reflection of God.

>> Amen.

>> That's what I tell my wife.

Say be careful. Don't treat holy thing

as common.

What you're seeing is holy. There's

women throughout the air praying for

half the man of what you got right here

crying out, bowling before the Lord. And

you got it right in front of you. Don't

miss the time of your visitation.

Say, "Shut up and go to sleep."

Yeah. I was talking about pain. And I

say I I was practicing my message with

her about pain in the car and and I will

go to the pain that form us and and she

say yeah you are my pain that is forming

me.

I said, "That's what I hear, baby. I'm

just a vessel. That's what I do."

But there's a there's a pain of

burdening things. And if you're not

careful, you can mistake this pain as

something negative. And it's the natural

process of you conquering what God place

in your heart to do because there's

something the Bible says God is not

against the old wine. The Bible says

when he turn a water into wine, he make

it taste like old wine. He's against the

old wine scheme because the old wine

skin have lost the ability to stretch

and part of birding something. It

requires stretching right now. Uh we're

birding a lot of things. I'm so excited.

We got uh North Palm Orange, North Palm

Myrtle Beach, North Palm Mons Corner.

We're seeing all that and these churches

are looking beautiful. You have to go

online. They're looking we're remodeling

all those things. But many of us are

being stretched in the process, right?

Finances get stretched. your faith gets

stretched to another level. Just you

have to believe at a higher level. Your

faith is tested, you know, and then the

burden, the pain of burdening something

is a stretching. It's a sifting. It's a

pruning that takes place for you to be

able to handle what God is going to

deposit in your life. There's a testing

that takes place. And there's a pain

that many of you are experiencing that

is not a pain to harm you. It's a pain

to grow you. It's a pain to develop you.

The Bible says you must be like an olive

crush. that you must be like a grape

that that they crush that grape so that

the true essence of who you are comes

out that in that sifting God removes

anything that he cannot use and that is

painful when God start removing things

he remove relationships

sometimes he dry up certain brooks

sometimes he touch finances sometimes he

touch things that you place your trust

in because he said no at the level that

I'm taking you unless you're grounded on

the rock you're not going to survive

because the level of the storms that you

face if you build upon the sand your

hand your house will collapse but if you

build upon the rock he say upon this

rock I will build my church and the

gates of hell would not prevail against

it so in that burden pain what he's

doing he's giving you the strength to

push through he's giving you the faith

to do it because the Bible says that

that's all you need

friends of God often find themselves

being asked something that they cannot

produce

The Lord looks at the Virgin Mary and

say, "I have chosen you." The angel

comes and say, "You will give birth to a

child. It's going to be the Messiah.

Glory to God." Now, note to self, I

don't have a husband and a virgin. I

cannot produce this within myself.

But I'm but but I come in agreement with

faith. Same thing with Abraham. You will

be a father of a nation. The man cannot

even have a child. One.

He said, "Peter, come walk over water."

Now, it was not an issue of the heart.

Peter wanted to walk over the water.

Peter knew how to walk that we know. So

it was not a matter of skills but the

ecosystem was not conducive to it. The

the connection the molecular connections

with H2O that were not strong enough to

withhold the weight of a man. But

something happens when your faith comes

in that process of burdening. Your faith

is stretched to such levels that it

comes in agreement with the supernatural

dunamis power of God that comes attached

with his word and enable you to do

things that you could not do on your

own. He gives you skills that you don't

have. He gives you strength that you

don't have. Even the ecosystem that

could not sustain you before, now we can

because the Lord commenced it to. When

you say yes to God and when that faith

comes to those levels, you can conquer

things that you could not conquer

before. And you know that because you

look back at stuff that shook you two

years ago and you laugh at them

>> because it was a stretching. You endured

that pain. Now the third pain that I

want to talk to is that the pain the

healing pain. And this is very important

because a lot of people mistake this

pain with wounding pain.

You know there's a pain that comes in

when God is healing something in your

life.

I I I remember going through uh we we

just did a a mission trip to Costa Rica

and working with children with

disabilities and many of these kids have

deformities because there were things

they lack growing up very muscles,

certain joints, certain bones, certain

things they lack and because they lack

that now they have to make up for it,

right? They have to come up with a way

to cope with what they lack. And and in

coping it created some deformities

and now the doctors have to come in do

certain stretches, do certain exercises

with them that are painful but are there

to heal them. Sometimes he they even

have to put some braces to keep certain

parts of the body in a certain position

so healing can take place.

And a lot of times the parents will come

back and say, "I don't want to put it on

because it hurts him. I don't like to

see my child cry." But the doctor say,

"If we don't do this now, he will be

marked for life. If we don't do this

now, it can make the difference between

this child walking or not walking the

rest of their life. This is not a pain

to hurt you. This is a pain to heal

you." And there's a lot of people in the

church right now especially that run

from this pain that God says, "Baby, I

don't want to hurt you. I love you. You

are the apple of my eyes. But there's

some things you lack growing up. There's

maybe you you you lack parents or or

love or affirmation or or there's trauma

that came in. There were things that

were stolen from you that caused for you

to make up. And in making that up, in

coping with that, you develop some

deformities in the spirit, some

emotional deformities. And now I have to

come and put a brace on it. And I have

to show you it will hurt. And a lot of

times I see this in church when when as

a pastor I try to come in and put those

braces in people. I tell you, we love

you and we will walk with you through

hell. We will get you through this.

We're not offended by your struggle.

We're not offended by what you're

walking through. We will walk as a

pastor. I will walk with you. I will go

through hell with you. And we will get

rid of this perversion. We will get rid

of this addiction. We will whatever it

is. I'm here for you. That's my covenant

to you. But I need to put this brace on

you.

I need to we need to bring some healing.

There's some things that God is going to

touch, that he's going to amputate, that

he's going to remove, that he's going to

touch in the process of healing.

And you know what many people do?

They don't like that pain. And it made

me wonder if a lot of what people are

confusing

with church hurt is actually healing

pain of a leader that came in and tried

to heal an area of their life. And

because they feel legitimate pain, I'm

not negating that there's legitimate

pain in the process, but that process

was not there to hurt them, but to heal

them. And in the process of doing that,

they're running to the next place

because they're running from that pain.

And God is saying there are braces that

I place in your life. There's people

sometimes God will put people situations

that serve as a brace. I remember there

are jobs that God have given me that

this is a brace right and say this

sucks. I don't like it. I want to quit.

But the Lord says no I'm forming

something in you. I'm healing something

in you. There were relationships to me

that there were a brace that God says no

you need that relationship. He hurts you

right now but it's for your good. is

good medicine. It's like sometimes in

order to get better, you have to hurt a

little bit.

And as we come to a closing, there may

be some areas as as we were speaking

that God was showing you, I do believe

in the other side of pain, you're coming

to your season of breakthrough. You're

coming through your season of healing.

And I hear the spirit of the Lord

saying, "Don't run. Don't run. Don't run

from it. I'm here with you. I will stand

with you on your pain. Let's look at

that pain together and I will show you.

I will give you new perspective. Maybe

what you perceive a damaging pain, it

was the Lord healing some areas of your

life and he say, "Hey, just let me

finish the process. Let me finish. I'm

not offended. I'm not upset with you.

But I need to heal this in you because

at the level I want to take you, you

can't you can't carry this. You can't

carry this wound anymore. It will be an

open door. It's for your own good."

There may be pain in your life that

today you say you know what nothing

wrong actually he has been favored that

is producing that pain in your life

because it's a burden pain is God

entrusting you with something he wants

to birth through you and he's saying hey

I know it hurts I know it has been hard

on you but can you endure pushing my

vision pushing my dream pushing what I

want to do here on the earth and some of

you may be dealing with actual hurting

pain and the Lord says don't run from

You and I, let's go to that dark place.

Allow me in in that place of pain. Allow

me to bring healing. Allow me to bring

forgiveness. Allow me to bring

restoration.

And out of that place of hurt, I'm going

to take you to a place of power. Because

whatever you conquer in the spirit, now

you have authority over it. And the Lord

have this majestic thing that he does.

He gave you the weapons. He gives you

the weapons of your enemy so you can

fight against him.

Maybe the Lord today wants to give you

the sword of Goliath.

And as you pursue that healing, that

restoration, that power, God is going to

entrust you with authority over the very

area that the enemy tried to use to kill

you. Amen. Now, there may be some people

here that

you may not know the Lord. You may not

have that opportunity to have that

encounter. I remember when I when I

first came to Christ, I had a lot of

pain. I got a lot of hurt. was very

upset and I came in a way of challenging

God. Say, "God, I want to see you. I did

not have the right attitude. I don't

even know what they preached that day,

but I gave my life to the Lord." Some

people claim I was under the influence.

Uh that's debatable.

It was some heavy drinking the night

before, but

and and and the reason I say that is

because it doesn't matter. It doesn't

matter where you are right now. God will

meet you there. And I do believe in my

case it's not I feel sincerely my

calling is I will raise this fool so

that people can say that he can use

anything right said well he did it with

Alex so he can do it with me. That's my

calling. I'm here for you.

And I came in that place

and he started with that prayer.

I say, "Jesus, I surrender my pain. I'm

tired to run from it. Like Noah, like

Jonah, I've been running from your pain.

And now I'm in the belly of the fish in

a place of debt. Can you come in? I

don't know you. I don't know theology. I

don't know all these things. I heard

about you. Can you come in my heart? I

don't even know how to fix this mess."

And that morning the spirit of the Lord

came and he started that process and he

started breaking things. And I remember

people told me like no this is the way

it is. Even doctors and specialists say

no your brain don't produce this kind of

stuff. You're broken. The best things

that we can do is to medicate you. Try

to make you manage the best you can but

you will never be normal. In rehab they

told me you will always be an addict.

You have to make peace with that fact.

But something inside of me cuz I got

that praying mama and she was wild and

she have irrational faith

and I have people in my life that came

in and said, "You're going to be a man

of God." And I laughed. I said, "Man,

you're on heavier drugs than I."

And I shared this to say, "I don't know

where you are right now." And I will

never minimize your pain, but I will not

let your pain and my sympathy for it get

on the way of your healing.

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