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The Sinai Experience

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  1. So we continue our great story series. We are taking the storybook stories, the

  2. famous children's stories of the Bible that have made it into the children's

  3. storybooks and having an adult's look at them, looking at their theology. And when

  4. you do that, there is always more to see than what's the common conception of

  5. these stories at a popular level. And there's plenty in this passage. We could

  6. do a few sermons. We could do a sermon on the poor leadership in the

  7. congregation from Aaron, the nature of true worship, or what it means to say

  8. that the Lord changes his mind in this passage. And that's a big topic and we

  9. just can't do it today. This is a classic passage in the Old Testament

  10. about idolatry. Now yesterday was the 80th anniversary of the world's

  11. introduction to one of the great literary characters of our time, Gandalf.

  12. Yesterday was the 80th anniversary of the publication of the Hobbit and in

  13. commemoration of that to quote Gandalf, which is always worth it. He says there

  14. is nothing like looking if you are looking to find something. You certainly

  15. usually find something if you go and look for it, but it's not always

  16. quite the something you are actually looking for. And that's true of the

  17. storybook stories of the Bible. When you go looking for exactly what they say and

  18. you look a first time, a second time, a third time, a fourth time, the theology in

  19. these passages actually builds something a little bit more than you might

  20. have thought. And that's true of the Golden Calf narrative. And so let's just

  21. get right into it. It's about idolatry. We're going to look at the nuance of

  22. idolatry and then the nature of idolatry. So first the nuance of idolatry.

  23. Moses is on the mountain when we open this passage. He has been on the mountain

  24. since chapter 19. He was on the mountain for 40 days and 40 nights. Now it's likely

  25. and probable that he had come down from the mountain at least once during that

  26. time to give Israel the Ten Commandments because there's evidence that they already

  27. had heard the Ten Commandments at this point. But he was on the mountain and he

  28. had been up there for a while and the mountain is shrouded in the glory cloud

  29. of the God who had redeemed them, Yahweh, and they cannot see up it. And meanwhile,

  30. as we open the passage in verse 1, the people are impatient. They were tired of

  31. waiting for him. And so in verse 1 they say to Aaron, this so-called Moses,

  32. whoever that guy is, he is up the mountain. We haven't seen him in a while.

  33. He's probably dead. Now that's the writer here, Moses. It's tragic comedy

  34. because this Moses, this so-called Moses, this is the guy who had redeemed

  35. them and the human being, the mediator, who had brought them out of the land of

  36. Egypt, who had administered the Ten Plagues, who had crossed the Red Sea with

  37. them, who had prayed to God and brought manna down from the skies. And now just

  38. 40 days has passed, six weeks about, and they say, you remember that guy? What's

  39. his name? Moses. He's probably dead. And so they say to Aaron, let's, will you make

  40. for us gods? It's as they rose up against Aaron. That's the language of physical

  41. violence. It was, what's happening here is actually a mob. You can picture, this is

  42. a mob mentality. Now in verse 1 when they say, make us gods, the word for God,

  43. God's there, is a Hebrew word Elohim. And in Hebrew it's plural, but it can also be

  44. translated in the singular. It can go either way. And the evidence throughout

  45. the passage, and this, this story is repeated in Psalm 106 and 1 Corinthians 7.

  46. And every time, the indication is that they only made one Elohim, one God, a

  47. singular golden calf. And it says that in just a couple verses later. And so you

  48. think of it, they're saying, make us, make us a God. Make us a God. And even the

  49. word God is a bit confusing in English. It's a little bit different from the

  50. original language, our term for, that we use kind of generically for God. The

  51. sense of what they're saying here is not just make us a God, but make us an image

  52. of God. Not just don't, they're not asking for them to create a whole new God,

  53. but make us an image of God. And the reason why they ask that, they say it in

  54. verse 1, who a God, an image of God, who can go before us. And that's a packed

  55. little phrase. A God who can go before us. What they're asking for, specifically

  56. is an image that they can put at the front of their camp to lead their army

  57. as they march away from the mountain. So what they're doing is saying, we don't

  58. want to be here anymore. We're impatient. Moses is up there on the mountain. He's

  59. probably dead. We need, we need a God that can sit before at the head of our

  60. army as we march away from the mountain and go get what God promised us, the

  61. promised land. And so what they want is something that they can follow, basically

  62. follow into battle, an image of God. And so what that means is that what's

  63. happening in this passage is they're not interested exactly in replacing God,

  64. which is probably the more common conception here. What they want to do is

  65. they want to replace the mediator, Moses. It's Moses that they're trying to

  66. replace. And what they want to do is they want to create a new mediator, an image

  67. of God, a mediator, a place, a thing that they can come and meet with God

  68. through. Moses used to be that for them. Moses used to be the one who would walk

  69. at the front, who would lead the army, but now they're looking for a new

  70. mediator. So they're not exactly replacing God. They're not saying, make for me a

  71. brand new God, some different spirit. What they're saying is, we want to, we want

  72. to have something by which we can get to God, the God who has redeemed us. And so

  73. this is idolatry, no doubt about it, sure, but what kind? And it's a little bit

  74. different than probably the common storybook conception of exactly what's

  75. going on here. They are not literally coming to worship the golden calf, but to

  76. worship Yahweh, the God who had redeemed them through the golden calf, through an

  77. image. And literally, actually, it's not a cow, it's a bull calf. And the text is

  78. pretty specific about that. It's literally a bull calf, and that's for a

  79. specific reason we'll come to in a minute. And so verse four, when Aaron makes

  80. this thing, it's actually better to say, Israel, this is the image of God, this

  81. golden bull calf, this is the image of God. And look, all the elements of

  82. tabernacle, temple, worship, are present in the passage. Aaron builds an altar in

  83. front of the calf, an altar to offer sacrifices to the Lord, it says to Yahweh,

  84. but through the mediation of the calf, the calf is like their high priest. And

  85. then he says, and we'll hold a feast day to the Lord, a feast day, not to the

  86. calf, but to the Lord, it says in the text. So what they think they're doing is

  87. they've basically built a temple, and at the center of this temple is the

  88. calf. This is like the Ark of the Covenant. This is the place where God

  89. will come and meet with them. This is the thing by which they can get God to do

  90. what they want God to do. And so in verse eight, when it says that God came down

  91. and he saw what they were doing, and God says they are worshiping the golden calf,

  92. the literal word there is they are making use of the golden calf. They're

  93. using it to worship me, and that's what angers, that is what is angering God.

  94. That's what's driving God to wrath in this passage. Now this is important, just

  95. historical point, for understanding idolatry when you read your Old Testament.

  96. Most of the time in the Old Testament, when you encounter explicit idolatry,

  97. you know, the kind of idolatry we think of when we think of idolatry, making a

  98. wooden image, casting something out of metal. The ancient peoples did not

  99. literally think that the wood, the stone, the cat, the dog, whatever they had made

  100. was actually a God. And even in Egypt, that's not what they thought. The reason

  101. that they cast these images is because they were looking for mediators to get

  102. to the gods. They believed that the gods were spirits, and so they used these

  103. images, these things to get to the gods, and that's exactly what's happening here.

  104. They're not trying to replace the Lord who had redeemed them. They're trying to

  105. worship the God, worship God through a false mediator, a mediator that God did

  106. not choose. God had chosen Moses to be their mediator. They want a different

  107. mediator. Moses may be dead on the mountain. They want a new mediator, a new

  108. image to lead them out in battle, to lead them into the promised land. So the

  109. first sin in this passage, it's not worshiping God the way God had commanded.

  110. He be worshiped. But then there's a plunge, a descent. If the first sin is

  111. worshiping in a way that is a violation against God's commands, the second major

  112. sin in this passage is actually violating God's nature. It's doing something

  113. in worship that's totally against the very nature of God, and you see it in

  114. verse 6. It says in verse 6, the people sat down to eat and to drink, and they

  115. rose up to play. And that's the King James Version says it that way, and the

  116. ESV says it that way. The NIV says the people sat down to eat and drink, and

  117. they rose up and indulged in revelry. The word to play in this passage, it is a

  118. sexual verb, and it literally means to caress. And so what it's saying is that

  119. they held a feast day to the Lord, and during it a sexual worship rite broke

  120. out. Actually what is being mentioned here is it's an orgiastic worship

  121. rite, something that would have been practiced in Egypt probably. And Moses

  122. acknowledges it, we didn't read this, but in verse 19 Moses came down and he saw

  123. the people, it says dancing, which is a euphemism. There was more going on than

  124. dancing. The worship has descended, it's plummeted. And so the surface sin of

  125. idolatry here is pretty easy to recognize. It's a theological issue and an

  126. ethical issue. First, they're worshiping God in the wrong way. We said last week

  127. God defines reality at the burning bush. God defines who God is, and God also in

  128. this passage has defined just before this how it is that he's supposed to be

  129. approached, how it is that he's supposed to be worshiped. And if you have a God,

  130. a conception of a God, who you can define according to the way you want him to be,

  131. according to your own feelings, or if you have a God who you can approach any

  132. way you want to, to get to get God to do whatever you want, which is a God to what

  133. they think about God here, then you don't have a God who is greater than your

  134. heart, as 1 John chapter 3 puts it. You don't have a God that's greater than

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  135. you. You don't have a God who's big and greater than your heart. And so you don't

  136. have a God at all. You have something that you can manipulate, a false God that

  137. you can work, and that's what they think about the God who has redeemed them. They

  138. don't understand his nature. And so here they've broken the second

  139. commandment that they had just heard from Moses. You shall not make a graven

  140. image. You should not make a metal or gold image or anything that and use it

  141. in worship. They broke the second man. Then they broke the seventh commandment.

  142. Which says, don't commit adultery. In other words, don't have a sexual

  143. relationship outside of marriage, and especially don't do it at church. And

  144. that's exactly what was happening here. They started practicing adultery in the

  145. middle of worship of the God who had just told them these commandments. Don't

  146. practice adultery. And they immediately are doing it in the worship ceremony. And

  147. so things have plummeted. And in the New Testament, God tells us how we are

  148. supposed to approach God in worship. And Jesus says it in Matthew 4 and John 4

  149. in spirit and in truth. Which means in truth, in the name of Jesus Christ. Paul

  150. puts it this way in 1 Timothy 2, a passage that people often call Paul's

  151. worship rules. Where he says there's only one mediator between God and man, the

  152. Lord Jesus Christ. And it's only in his name that you can get to God. It's only

  153. through Jesus that you can worship well, that you can worship rightly. And so the

  154. issue in this passage is choosing a false mediator. A mediator that God

  155. did not choose. That's the synod idolatry in this passage. Next month is

  156. the 500th anniversary of the Reformation. And I want to say just briefly, that's a

  157. preview to next month, just that the issue in here of choosing false mediators

  158. in worship is was fundamental to the reformers project of reforming worship.

  159. Of only coming to God through Jesus Christ and by nothing else. Not through a

  160. priest. Not through getting grace by the Eucharist, by the Communion. Not through

  161. a pope or any other thing under heaven except for Jesus Christ. And that was

  162. central to what we're celebrating in October and the 500th anniversary of

  163. the Reformation. And there are still good reasons to be a person of Protestant, if

  164. you will, committed to that project of seeing the Reformation of worship

  165. throughout the world in the church and lamenting the brokenness and

  166. disunity of the church until that Reformation happens. Now that's my

  167. Reformation shout out for this month and there will be a few more probably next

  168. month as we celebrate the Reformation in October. But the sin on the surface of

  169. this passage, it's not coming to God in the way that God has commanded. That's

  170. the idol issue in the passage. But secondly, that's the

  171. nuance of the idolatry in this passage but the nature of idolatry in this

  172. passage. It's easy to identify on the surface of the text the issues, the

  173. worship problems here in this passage, but the deep sin, the deeper

  174. sin, the deeper issue, the sin below all sin, the impatience that the

  175. Israelites have at the beginning of this passage is a symptom of a grave issue

  176. that's according to the Bible at the center of every single human heart. And

  177. Augustine called it having disordered loves, having disordered loves. The idea

  178. of disordered loves is easy enough to get if you should you love your career,

  179. should you love your job. Yes, of course you should. You should love your job, you

  180. should seek a job that you love. And should you love your family? Yes, of course,

  181. you should love your family. But if you love your career and your job more than

  182. your family in a different way, in a way that you should have loved your family,

  183. if you flip flop them, if you disordered the loves, then you will end up putting so

  184. much burden on your family that it will crush them and you will destroy your

  185. family life. And eventually your family will get, your children perhaps will have

  186. so much difficulty that it ends up actually hurting the career that you

  187. made an idol out of. And so if you have disordered loves, if you put one

  188. thing in the wrong spot, you can actually make it all crumble. And that was a

  189. Guston's notion of disordered loves. And that's what he said is that the heart of

  190. all idolatry, the deep sin, the sin beneath the surface sin, the sin beneath

  191. every single circumstance of sin is an issue of idolatry as disordered loves.

  192. And in this passage, this is the issue of disordered loves. In verse one they

  193. say, who will go before us? And that packed phrase, who will go before us,

  194. translates to this, who will lead us into the promised land to get the goods

  195. that God had promised us? We don't want to stay here at the mountain. We don't

  196. want to sit here and wait for the rules for the commandments of the Lord. We

  197. need something else that's going to go before us that's going to take us into

  198. the promised land that's going to give us the temporal blessings that God had

  199. promised. And so the sin beneath the sin, the deep desire here in Israel is

  200. security. What they really want, what provokes them to make this golden calf

  201. is that they want security. They want stability. They want to eat. They want to

  202. drink. They want to get to the promised land and get that milk and honey that

  203. they were promised. That's what they want. And that's what they're trying to get

  204. through disordered worship here. And so in verse one it says that they gather

  205. themselves. They rise up against. It's a mob mentality here. And the issue is that

  206. they feel vulnerable. And that makes sense. They were slaves in Egypt for 400

  207. years. And when you're a slave in a foreign country for 400 years, the

  208. biggest issue in your life is the practicals. How are you going to eat? How

  209. are you going to drink? How are you going to protect your family against the

  210. slavers? How are you going to provide? And that's the big issue. And it's

  211. carried over into this passage. It's the thing that they're still worried about.

  212. And so what they're doing is they're trying to make a golden calf that will

  213. get them out of there into the promised land that will basically manipulate

  214. Yahweh, the God who redeemed them, to help them get to what they want to get to

  215. as fast as possible. And so objectively they are God's people. They've been

  216. redeemed. They've been taken through the Red Sea. Objectively they are God's

  217. people. But subjectively they don't desire God. They don't want God. Objectively

  218. they are the redeemed people of God. But subjectively they don't know who they

  219. are. They don't want the God who redeemed them. And that is why probably they

  220. pick a bull calf to be their representation. Because the bull calf in

  221. ancient Egypt was a symbol of power over your enemy. It was a

  222. mediator who would bring you fertility, economic goods, wealth, prosperity. And so

  223. that's what they want. That's what they're trying to get out of Yahweh as fast as

  224. they possibly can. One pastor puts it this way, the temptation here is that

  225. they want redemption without any dedication. They want redemption without

  226. dedication. Their first love here is not the God who redeemed them. It's not so

  227. they're not willing to be patient to look for him, to wait for his command, to

  228. listen to his instruction. They want to get what they can get as fast as they can.

  229. Now in 1 Corinthians 7 Paul says, Paul quotes from Exodus 32 and he says,

  230. this event was recorded as an example for us. Meaning all Christians, anybody

  231. who's in the church in the New Testament era, this is an example for us. And he

  232. says, so that you would take care lest you fall into the same idolatry, into the

  233. deep sin. Some theologians have called it deep idolatry and you can define it

  234. like this. It's loving something more than God. But it's not necessarily loving

  235. bad things. It's loving good things so much that you make them bad. It's an

  236. issue of disordered love. It's loving something before God so much that you

  237. actually turn a good thing into a bad thing. It's taking the goods of comfort,

  238. of power, of security, of entertainment, of romance, of a spouse, the hope of a

  239. spouse, a girlfriend or a boyfriend, your children, your body, fitness, beauty, a

  240. successful career, sports, and making those things into something that if you

  241. lost them, if they failed you, if they got out of your grip, that it would that

  242. it would crush you, that it would take away your meaning in life. And Israel

  243. loves security more than they love the God who redeemed them. They weren't

  244. interested in getting to know him. Their first love was milk and honey. But the

  245. Bible says that every single human being was created for God and that it's

  246. only in dwelling with the God who created you that you can actually have

  247. the hope, the meaning in life, the identity that won't crush you, that won't

  248. disappoint you, that can't be taken away. The most devastating thing actually with

  249. deep idolatry is that as human beings we chase and we chase after these things,

  250. but the most devastating thing is if you actually get it, if you actually get

  251. the idol that you want, and then you find out you wake up the next morning and

  252. everything's still the same, life is still mediocre. The worst thing that can

  253. possibly happen is you actually get the idol that you're chasing after. Tim

  254. Keller in his book about this, Counterfeit Gods, he cites a woman, a

  255. journalist named Cynthia Hymal. This is a woman who lived in Manhattan. She knew,

  256. she knew celebrities before they were cool. She knew celebrities when they were

  257. waitresses and baristas and you know the normal people stuff. And this is what

  258. she writes about them in one article, I pity celebrities. No, I really do. They

  259. were once perfectly pleasant human beings, but now their wrath is awful. They

  260. were, they pushed and the morning after each of them became famous, they wanted

  261. to take an overdose. Because that giant thing that they were striving for, that

  262. thing that was going to make everything okay in life, that was going to make their

  263. lives bearable, that was going to provide for them personal fulfillment and

  264. happiness, it had happened and they were still them the next morning. I think, and

  265. she says, and this is not true, but this is precisely her point, I think when God

  266. wants to play a really rotten practical joke on you, he grants you your deepest

  267. wish. In other words, if you actually get what you want in life, if you get what

  268. you want, if you make it an idol, it almost always disappoints you. David

  269. Foster Wallace, he's a very, he was a very famous American novelist that many of

  270. you have heard of. He gave an address at Kenyon College in 2005, a commencement

  271. speech that became very famous pretty quickly. This is, he's not a

  272. Christian, he's not religious at all, and this is what he says and he nails it.

  273. In the day-to-day trenches of adult life, there is actually no such thing as

  274. atheism. There is no such thing as not worshiping. Everybody worships, the only

  275. choice we get is what to worship, and the compelling reason for maybe choosing

  276. some sort of God, a spiritual type thing to worship like Jesus Christ as

  277. Christians do, is that pretty much anything else you worship will eat you

  278. alive. If you worship money and things, if they are where you tap real meaning in

  279. your life, then you will never have enough. You will, you will never feel like

  280. you have enough. It's the truth. Worship your body and beauty and sexual allure

  281. and you will always feel ugly. And when time and age starts showing, you will die

  282. a million deaths before they finally grieve you. Worship power and you will

  283. end up feeling weak and afraid and you will need ever more power over others

  284. to numb you to your own fears. Worship your intellect being seen as smart by

  285. others and you will end up feeling stupid, a fraud, always on the verge of

  286. being found out. But the worst thing about it all, about all these forms of

  287. worship, is that they're unconscious. They are default settings for every

  288. human being and they're the kind of worship you just gradually slip into

  289. day after day. Now David Foster Wallace, he committed suicide not long after

  290. this and a lot of people speculate that he committed suicide perhaps over one

  291. of these idols that failed him on this list in life and threw him into the pits

  292. of depression. But this is amazing insight and this is all of us. The golden

  293. calf is pretty obscure. It's pretty ancient sounding. But Calvin nailed it in

  294. the most famous quote, perhaps the most cliche Calvin quote, that the human

  295. heart is an idol factory, always looking to worship something more than God. But

  296. even more than Calvin, more important than Calvin. John in the book of First

  297. John, one of the great books that pronounces the gospel that God loves us

  298. at the very end, the last verse of the book of First John, he says, little

  299. children, little children, keep yourselves from idolatry. He's talking to the

  300. church, little children, it's such an honest statement, little children, keep

  301. yourselves from idolatry. He knew the truth about us. And so they're just as we

  302. come to start to close, there's two key questions to ask yourself about your

  303. idols. And the first is this, what is the most fundamental object in your life

  304. that gives you basic meaning, that gives you self-worth, that gives you a reason

  305. to get out of bed? But because David Foster Wallace was right, that most of our

  306. idols are unconscious to us, it's just our default setting. Actually, we all

  307. know this, other people can see it better than we can. And you know that you can

  308. see the idol in your friend and your spouse better than they can. You can see

  309. it, but oftentimes we can't see it. And so here's a more revealing question. What

  310. is it in your life that if you lost it, you would feel like you had lost all

  311. meaning, that you had lost a reason to live, that you had lost hope, that you

  312. had lost purpose. In other words, what are your nightmares about? What do you

  313. fear the most? And look, this is what creaturely idols do. They say to you,

  314. chase after me, chase after me, perform for me, dance for me, dance before me like

  315. the golden calf, and I will give you happiness, I will give you security, I

  316. will give you hope. And then when you get them, they break your heart, they always

  317. slip out of your hand, and they have to because no created thing can bear the

  318. weight of the meaning of a human being's entire life. No created thing can bear

  319. the weight of true meaning, true hope, true happiness, because God created

  320. every single human being to only find true hope and happiness in him. And you

  321. can't put that on a creature. You can't put that on your spouse, you can't put

  322. that on your children, you can't put that on your career, you can't put that into

  323. sports, you can't put that into any success in this life. None of the things

  324. can bear it. They will leave you, they will slip out of your hand, and it will

  325. crush you. It will force a million deaths, as David Foster Wallace says, as they

  326. fade away. And so, in Psalm 106, which quotes from this passage, in Romans 1,

  327. which quotes from this passage, in 1 Corinthians 7, which quotes from this

  328. passage, and in Exodus 32, every single instance, they all say the same exact

  329. thing, that idolatry deserves judgment. That idolatry deserves the judgment of

  330. God. We read about it in the passage. It's front and center that God came down in

  331. wrath and judgment against the people. And as modern people, it's difficult for us

  332. to swallow that, but it's actually quite reasonable, if you think about it. If God

  333. is truly the creator of the world, if God is truly absolute, if God is the creator

  334. of all that is good, of all that is right, and if idolatry is truly a sin, a

  335. disordered love against his person, then it makes sense that the God who is just,

  336. the God who demands justice, requires justice in the face of idolatry. We

  337. wouldn't expect anything less of any reasonable society, but keeping the

  338. laws of justice. It's foundational to any life, and we can't expect anything

  339. less from God. God is just, and idolatry is cosmic crime. It demands justice. It

  340. demands justice throughout the whole Torah, throughout the first five books of

  341. the Bible, and every single person knows that in their

  342. conscious, because of guilt consciousness, that they need to be

  343. perfect, that they should be perfect before the absolute God who created the

  344. universe, and that they aren't, that they're idolaters. And the only hope in

  345. this passage is not going after a false mediator, but clinging to the true one,

  346. the mediator that God had actually chosen. Now if you look down at Exodus 32,

  347. 32, this is the last thing we'll say, and we'll close. After the people had sinned,

  348. Moses recognizes that this is a great sin, and so he comes to God in verse, in

  349. chapter 32 verse 32, and says, Lord, if you will forgive them, forgive them. But if

  350. you were just, if you cannot just forgive them, blot me out of the book of life.

  351. Instead of them. That's true mediation. That's true love. That's substitution.

  352. Moses comes to God and says, they deserve death. Take me. Blot me out of

  353. the book of your people. Instead of them, I'll take what they deserve. Put it on me.

  354. That's called substitution. Keller also, and this is truly the thing we're

  355. going to close on, I promise. I've said that twice now. Keller, in this book,

  356. Counterfeit Gods, he tells the story of a woman who he ministered to in Manhattan,

  357. and he writes that she was cursed by the great curse of extreme beauty. She was

  358. unbelievably beautiful. He says in a way that was just, was just different. And

  359. because of that, her whole life, she had been surrounded by men, as you would

  360. expect. And men had always chased after her, and it became something in her life

  361. that became a deep idol for her, is getting male affection, and always having

  362. a man no matter who it might be at her side. And a lot of men of power in New

  363. York chased after her because of her beauty. And for that reason, she put down

  364. her barriers. She wasn't selective in who she was willing to date and to be with,

  365. and that resulted in violence. And she was abused on multiple occasions. It

  366. created a life of extreme issues, drug abuse, psychological problems, and

  367. finally prison for her. And it all broke down in the end, and she became a

  368. Christian. And after that, she went to a therapist. She was seeing a therapist, and

  369. she told Tim about this therapy as her pastor. And so she went to the therapist,

  370. and the therapist said to her, you, your whole life, have based your self-image,

  371. your self-worth, on male affection, on needing a man by your side to give you

  372. meaning. And she said, yeah, that's right. Totally, I have. And he said, and because

  373. of that, you've not been able to find any sense of dignity. You've not been able

  374. to find a sense of worth of meaning. You're hopeless because all these men in

  375. your life have failed you. They have not been good saviors, if you will. And she

  376. said, of course, yeah, that's exactly what happened to me. And he said, so here's

  377. what I want you to do. You need to cast that idol away, and you need to go get

  378. yourself a career. You need to go get a successful career, become a career

  379. woman. And only then, when you're standing on your own two feet, not dependent

  380. on anybody else, will you finally find meaning in life, will you finally find

  381. your purpose and your self-esteem. You need a career. That's the only thing that's

  382. going to save you. And this is what she said. Look, I appreciate all that you've

  383. done for me as a therapist, but what you're telling me is you want me to trade

  384. one typical idol, the idol of male affection, for another typical idol, the

  385. idol of career success. And she said, what if instead, instead of getting

  386. self-esteem from a man's love, instead of getting self-esteem, myself worth my

  387. meaning in life from a career, what if I don't want an addiction, any addiction,

  388. to drive my meaning and purpose in life? What if I want an identity that's not

  389. based on my performance? And then she read, he says, Colossians chapter 3, in

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  390. Christ your life has been hidden with God, and she came to realize something

  391. that every time that men came into her life, they said, you for me, you

  392. sacrificed your life for me so that you can give me power. And she had never

  393. read before about a man, a true mediator, an object worthy of worship, a savior

  394. that came in and said, not you for me, but I'll come in and say me for you. I'll

  395. sacrifice myself for you so that you can have meaning, so that you can have an

  396. identity, a true identity. And in Exodus 32, the true mediator, the mediator that

  397. God had chosen comes and says, blot me out, you take me instead of them. That's

  398. love. He was only a shadow. He was only a shadow. I know a better mediator, the Lord

  399. Jesus Christ, who said you for me. Who said me for you. Me for you. Get that

  400. right. That's important. There is only one mediator under heaven, only one

  401. mediator in all the universe that can give you meaning, and it's only in faith,

  402. repentance, rest, and dedication to God in Christ that you can find a God, a

  403. mediator that will not crush you and disappoint you and leave you. Okay, it's

  404. only in Jesus Christ that you can stand underneath the dark mountain, the uncertain

  405. mountain, the mountain where you do not know what's gonna happen to you in life

  406. and find some certainty. Let's pray. Father, we thank you, O God, for Jesus Christ,

  407. the mediator, and we thank you for the example set before us in Exodus 32. Keep

  408. us from idols, O Lord, and turn our hearts to the only hope that can keep us

  409. before the dark mountain in patience. We pray for this in Christ's name. Amen.