Will God Take Care of You?

The scripture reading today comes from the Gospel of Mark, chapter 6.

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Please follow along in your bulletin.

No one can serve two masters, for either he will hate the one and love the other,

or he will be devoted to one and despise the other.

You cannot serve God and wealth.

For this reason I say to you, do not be worried about your life

as to what you will eat or what you will drink,

nor for your body as to what you will put on.

Is not life more than food and the body more than clothing?

Look at the birds of the air.

They do not sow nor reap nor gather into the barns,

and yet your heavenly Father feeds them.

Are you not worth much more than they?

And who of you, by being worried, can add a single hour to his life?

And why are you worried about clothing?

Observe how the lilies of the field grow.

They do not toil nor do they spin.

Yet I say to you that not even Solomon in all his glory

clothed himself like one of these.

But if God so clothes the grass of the field,

which is alive today and tomorrow is thrown into the furnace,

will he not much more clothe you?

You of little faith.

Do not worry then, saying,

What will we eat?

Or what will we drink?

Or what will we wear for clothing?

For the Gentiles eagerly seek all these things.

For your heavenly Father knows that you need all these things.

But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness,

and all these things will be added to you.

So do not worry about tomorrow,

for tomorrow will care for itself.

Each day has enough trouble of its own.

This is God's word.

Amen.

Every Sunday we pray about what we're going to teach.

And several of us spend many hours

thinking about the messages that are said and sung.

Thinking is there a theme and a foundation?

Because what we do here is we build a foundation.

We build a foundation on God's word

and point people to Christ so they fall in love with him.

We sing about is God's love never failing.

The question we should ask ourselves is do we believe that?

Is that true?

As we sit here and we listen to the words

and we parrot them back,

is that a prayer of our heart?

Or is it not?

We talk about he's our treasure

and that he's our hope.

And all that we want is him.

Is that really true?

We spent 30 minutes singing and worshiping him.

But how easily we forget him.

How easily we forget that his love lasts forever.

For many of us, we're going to leave here.

And within about five minutes, we'll walk out.

We'll find that we have a parking ticket on our car

or something like that.

And quickly, the songs and the message

will lose its meaning

and we'll be sucked back in.

Our hope is that you come today

and you meet the Lord

and you see how beautiful he is

and you fall in love with him.

We're on our last sermon

of the Gospel and Work series.

We've been discussing

how we as Christians should work.

What does it look like

to work in a way that honors the Lord?

What does it look like

to work in a way

wherever the Lord has put us?

In the first three,

we talked about

some very foundational things.

We're actually going to get together

two Sundays from now

after church.

We're going to do a brown bag lunch

and gather people

who are in the workplace

and talk about

what does it look like

all these five lessons

we've talked about.

Now, okay, so what does it mean

for me to put flesh on those?

So you're not going to want

to miss that

if you're struggling with

how you walk

and honor the Lord

in your workplace.

That'll be two Sundays from now.

We've laid out

three foundational things

and in these next two sermons

we're talking about dangers.

Dangers that will happen to us

if we don't understand

our work

and why God has placed us

in this garden

that seems to be out of control.

Last week we talked about

coveting

and desire

and we learned several things.

We learned that we all

have a Big Mac toy

that we're looking for

and we're hoping

that if we get that Big Mac toy

and that Happy Meal

that it will bring us

everything we've ever wanted

and it will last forever.

We learned that Americans

in the rest of the world

think very different about law

and that a barista

is someone who serves coffee

and a barrister

is a lawyer

in American terms.

We learned a lot about

what do we allow

our heart to focus on.

And so today

I want to talk

and end this time

these five sermons

with one of the greatest dangers

I think I see in my life

is where I've camped

most of my life

and my days

and it's what I see us

in our lives in Hong Kong

and I want to talk a little bit

about the idea of control.

I want to talk about

how we are probably

the most controlling persons

in all the world.

I mean I meet people

in other churches

in different places

and I talk to them

about Hong Kong

and business people

and how our world works

and I just say

I think this is probably

the most controlling place

in the world

that I've ever seen.

People have it under control.

But I realize

that underneath it

if we're honest

that we all struggle with it.

I was re-watching this movie.

It's one of my favorite movies.

Someone told me

I should throw a clip up here

but I thought

that maybe I would offend

certain people

in the church congregation

but the movie is Invictus.

It's about the South African

rugby team

and Nelson Mandela

and this country

struggling to be born

and in the middle

of this movie

I don't know

if it is true

but I know

that poem was

and by the way

I'm not going to talk

about South Africa

and the Kiwis

playing rugby this week

because I might

cause some trouble there

but what I understand

from my South African friends

is it takes 15 Kiwis

to beat 14 South Africans.

I'll just leave it at that.

But in this movie

the story is around

Nelson Mandela

and he's talking

and he's hoping

that rugby

will bring health

and newness

to their country

that they're trying

to pray for

and create

and in this movie

Mandela hands

he hands the captain

this poem

that he's memorized

in prison.

I've been told

that it's a poem

that means a lot

to him in his life.

It's a poem

by a Victorian poet

named W.E. Henley.

I don't know

if you've ever read Henley.

This poem

is a powerful poem.

It's called Invictus.

Let me read

a couple lines

for you about this.

It says something

like this.

Beyond this place

of wrath and tears

looms but the horror

of the shade.

He's talking about death.

In the menace

of the years

finds and shall find me

unafraid.

It matters not

how straight the gate

it's talking about judgment.

How charged

with punishments

the scroll.

I am the master

of my fate.

I am the captain

of my soul.

And when you watch

that movie

and you read those lines

you're like

yes!

you just want

to get out there

and beat up somebody

or play rugby

or something like that.

But the whole poem

is about control

and it's about being

unconquerable.

And I wonder

if that's what

we really believe

in our world today.

I mean if we're

sitting here

and we're thinking

about that

do we really feel

like we are

in control of life?

Do we really feel

like we have

life in this bottle

and that we understand it?

Because as I talk

to people

it doesn't seem

like that

if we're really honest.

I mean at work

are you the master

of your destiny?

Are you the captain

of your soul

at work?

I mean most people

I talk to

and 80% of those

who were just interviewed

by the Hong Kong

happiness welfare

interview

said that most people

80% feel

a sense of powerlessness

hopelessness

hopelessness

worry

anxiety

at home

at home

are you

are you the master

of your fate at home?

I mean some of us guys

like to think that we are

but are we

the ones who control

our destiny?

I mean most of the people

I talk about

in their homes

they have a deep sense

of worry

and they feel powerless

whether it's about

the rent

and whether they're

going to be able

to stay there

or what it's going

to look like

or can they get

to a place

where their kids

can go to school

or maybe it's

about their kiddos

who are out of control

and no matter how much

they've given

and given

and given

their kids just

don't appreciate

those things

or maybe it's

about their spouse

because as I talk

to spouses

every one of us

feels like we give

more than the other person

and so instead of feeling

like the master

of our fate

we feel out of control

I mean personally

do you feel

in control of your life

right now?

I mean yourself?

your health?

I mean it seems like

most of us are

desperately seeking ways

to assure ourselves

that we're in control

but everything says

that we're not

I mean we're told

by the scripture

and by doctors

and by psychiatrists

and by everything

that all of us

are out of control

with insecurity

and fears

and worries

and these insecurity

and these fears

and these worries

create these massive

desires for control

in all aspects

of our life

I mean the more

controlling a person

is

the Bible says

the more controlling

you are

psychiatrists say

the more controlling

you are

the more worry

there is underneath you

and the more desperate

your life really is

and that this control

is just a mask

it's a facade

that we wear

to make people think

that our lives

are great

but in reality

scripture says

that it's not

and that we feel

this deep sense

of powerlessness

at work

do you feel

in control

I mean it seems

like most of the people

I talk to

try to control

their image

they try to control

the information

that comes through them

to other people

and who gives

that information

they try to control

alliances

they can try to

control their stuff

they can try to

control their staff

they can try to

control their bosses

they can try to

control their career path

they try to control

clients and media

and governments

in time

at home

our lives

feel out of control

and so we try

to compensate

for that

we try to

control our spouses

we try to

control our

our kids

I mean I

I think Hong Kong

is one of the

most controlling

places for children

I've ever heard of

in the whole world

when I hear about

kids being tutored

for 100 hours

a week

and that's

that abnormal

and I think about

the parents

whose lives

are out of control

and I wonder

if they're trying

to grab control

in their kids lives

because they can't

control their own lives

and so they try

to control their kids

and shape their kids

and make sure their kids

and we say

it's for their health

and their wealth

and their future

but is it really

or are we just

trying to control them

we're told by doctors

at the Mayo Clinic

that 85% of the people

who are in the hospital

today

are there

because they have

anxieties

and worries

and they're out

of control

and these anxiety

issues are massive

and in fact

in the states

this is the number

one health care issue

the next is obesity

but people say

that people are obese

because they feel

out of control

so they're kind of

control by their food

I don't know

if that makes sense

and then as we try

to get our lives

into control

we read a book

like Malcolm Gladwell's

Outliers

and he tells us

in this book

can you imagine

what he tells us

he tells us

that 90%

of what puts

our life

in motion

is beyond

our control

I mean he wrote

in there like

our time of birth

our place of birth

the country of birth

the hospital

the doctor

the parents

the siblings

our health

our intellect

our childhood experiences

our body makeup

our talents

our dispositions

whether that car

crosses that lane

just at the right time

and it smacks us

Gladwell says

that 90% of our life

is out of control

and yet we so desperately

seek to

assure ourselves

that we are in control

that we are the masters

of our fate

that we control

our soul

but if we're honest

it seems like

all of us here

even myself

we are a bunch of people

who are out of control

and we worry

and we're anxious

we're in Matthew 6

it's probably

the most famous

of all of Jesus' teachings

it's a sermon

on the mount

he's being followed

by about 10,000 people

in the northern part

of the Galilee

it's on this hillside

and they've ate

and he's talking to them

and in this passage

he starts to talk to them

about things

that they're going to experience

in their life

and he warns them

over and over

about worry

and fear

and anxiety

and control

and he basically says

that control

is an illusion

and we saw that

last week in the sermon

as we talked about Genesis

we realized that

control is an illusion

so when you came in here today

I put a seat

a little sheet

in everybody's chair

it's a worry sheet

what I want you to do

is as you're here

and you're listening to God

and you're listening

to the sermon

if a worry pops into your head

write that worry down

don't let it dwell on you

don't let it pull you down

just write it down

now the first worry

you're going to worry about

is yes you are going

to get lunch today

we're going to get out

of here in time

so you can write that out

I'm worried when this is going

and where this is going

write it out

so whenever a worry

pops into your head

I want you to write it out

because we're going to do

something special

with that at the end

so what I want to talk today

is I want to talk about control

and specifically

I want to talk about worry

and I want to talk about

what worry is

where does worry come from

and what do we do

when worry enters into our life

I'm going to be very personable

I'm going to be very personal

I'm going to share some experiences

I appreciate it

if you don't share around

with everybody

but this is a family

we talked about

this is what we do

in families

how I handle worry

so the first thing is worry

what it is

is it's basically seen

in our lives

and it's understand

is something that happens

physiologically

spiritually

emotionally

when we experience something

that's out of our control

I mean

this is something

that's worrying us

it could be real

it could be imagined

it could be tangible

it could be potential

in fact

what I've been told

is that most of the things

we worry about

never ever happen

if you do this statistical chart

30% of what

the average person worries about

happened in the past

and so they're worried

about what happened

in the past

and how it's going to be received

and what's going to happen

from that

50% is what's going to happen

in the future

and 8% has something

other correspondence

with just yourself

and your life

and your health

but what we're told

is that 88%

of these things

we worry about

never happen

they consume our lives

and they never happen

the Bible says

that at the core

of worry

is the desire

for control

if we're honest

we realize

that we're not in control

whether it's our work

our house

our health

our life

and we try to maintain

that thing

that we cannot control

by worrying about it

and so worry

in a way

assumes

the possibility

of controlling

the uncontrollable

you want me to repeat that

because I've been trying

to think through that

in my life

for years

worry

assumes the possibility

of controlling

the uncontrollable

I mean

now I know

as we worry

and we think about it

we can't handle these things

and so we become obsessed

and we think about it

and in the passage here

what Jesus is going to tell us

as we look at it

as we continue to look at it

as we look through this week

is that basically

that worry

and control

is an illusion

there's nothing

that we can do about it

there's no way

we can control it

it's just out there

where does worry

come from

look at verse 27

would you read that

with me

verse 27

in who of you

in who of you

by being worried

can add a single hour

to his life

can you read that

one more time

in

in the Greek

and Hebrew

the word there

is actually cubit

it's a measurement

of length

18 inches

but when the guys

came to translate it

they didn't really know

how to translate it

they basically said

it means

either adding time

to our life

or making ourselves

grow taller

or adding capacity

to our life

but what Jesus says

there is that

who of us

can do that

we saw it

last week

in Genesis

remember the story

of Genesis

we're building

that foundation

we'll keep going

back and forth

and back and forth

they're in the garden

right

God builds this garden

it's good

every time God

builds a garden

it's great

he says this is good

this is good

this is good

when is the first time

the man or the woman

says something is good

when is the first time

the woman says

something is good

the apple

I mean she's surrounded

by all these great things

that God creates

and the first thing

she sees as good

when she's being tempted

is she sees this beautiful

apple or fruit

or whatever it looks like

I don't know what it is

but we've just said

traditionally

there's an apple

and it's the first time

that the woman says

this looks good

for me

how does she describe

that apple

you remember

what'd she say

the apple is beautiful

it looks tasty

and it's desirable

for what

come on guys

it's just like a

like a family

someone asks a question

and then we respond

it's desirable for what

it's desirable for wisdom

it's desirable

to make somebody wise

let me ask you a question

God creates everything

he puts a man

and a woman

in a garden

he gives them

control

of everything

why does she want

more control

what's she trying

to control

you and I

in the garden

we're given command

of everything

we're told to control

everything

to prosper

to multiply

to make everything good

to make it beautiful

she sees the apple

it's good for wisdom

it's good for control

she wants it

what does she

have control over

God

she doesn't have control

over God

I mean she has control

over everything else

in scripture

but she doesn't have

control

over God

and so when she sees that

she says

this is something

that's going to make me wise

and in control

and so she grabs that

and in trying to control

God

everything

falls apart

and she's deceived

and I would submit

that that's the way

most of us live our lives

today

that most of us

live our lives

trying to control

God

trying to put on

a facade

trying to act

a certain way

trying to act

in control

I have an incredible

privilege

as a pastor

people call me

into their lives

when their lives

are out of control

I walk into

some of the most

powerful

beautiful

offices

and houses

in all the world

I sit in front

of people

who are powerful

like you

beautiful

like you

in control

like you

and I sit

in front of them

at their time

that they're most

out of control

when they get

that phone call

from the HR department

and you're asked

to go down

to that special room

on that special floor

where no one wants to go

and hey by the way

you don't need to worry

about your stuff

when you get that call

from the doctor

and the doctor

says hey

oh by the way

something happened

with this test

and we need you

to come back

we need you

to take some more

tests

when you have

that heart attack

and you think

your life's in control

and you're healthy

and everything's going well

and all of a sudden

you have that heart attack

and I go in beside

these powerful people

who are in control

and I get to see them

for the first time

realize the reality

of their world

and the reality is

they are not in control

they try to act

in control

they try to wear a mask

like they're in control

but they are not in control

when you're getting

pushed through that

cat scanner

and you're worried

about that cancer

coming back

no matter how powerful

you are

no matter how in control

you are

at that moment

you are show yourself

that you're not

in control

and you start to worry

and you know

we hate worry

you know why we hate worry

because worry shows us

that we're not God

and we hate it

because we want to be

in control

but when worry comes

into our life

it shows us

that we're not

in control

every sermon

we've had the privilege

of inviting people

to come up front

and just to share

a little bit

about their story

and so today

I've asked Kristen

to come in

and share

where is Kristen

okay

and so she is

very worried

about not being

in control

so we talked

last night

on the phone

and I said

so are you worried

and she started laughing

ha ha ha ha

that's what the sermon's

about right

I said yes it is

and so I think

that she was

mostly worried

about me

not remembering

my questions

that I'd written out

to say

we're going to ask

these questions

you refuse to rehearse

yeah I refuse to rehearse

I just feel like

we're raw

and organic

you can't rehearse

for a family

and so

so I did tell you

Kristen

that I

I forgot the questions

okay so

so I thought

just being here

with you

maybe you could

share with us

because you know

the questions

hopefully

maybe just share

a little bit

about yourself

with the

Watermark family

your family

so I'm Kristen

and my husband

Colin and I

we've been in

Watermark for

about a year and a half

and we've been going

to your fellowship group

I grew up in Indonesia

Indonesian born Chinese

and I grew up

in a happy family

and we always had

more than enough

but my mom grew up

grew up poor

and she worked

really hard

to get out of

poverty

and to support

herself

and by the time

she and my dad

had my sister

and I basically

we were well

provided for

but they

especially my mom

always talked about

how you know

difficult being poor

is and

she always wants

us to know

that we should

avoid being poor

and we should

do whatever we can

to sort out

our lives

so that we

won't fall

into poverty

because it's a

terrible thing

to be in

so because of that

it makes me thankful

for whatever I have

but it also gives me

this fear of poverty

and I've never been poor

but I'm very afraid

of it

and it also makes me

risk averse

in the choices

that I make

and it also makes me

a planner

which is just a nice

way of saying

being a controller

so

I'm glad you said that

because so many of us

here are planners

and if I say

you're just

trying to hide

your worry

people will get

mad at me

right

and we

yeah

so my

yeah

so I tend to

I mean

the good thing is

it makes me a good planner

which is

kind of like

my gift

but it's also

my weakness

and

so basically

I tend to worry

if I am

unable to plan

for something

or if I've planned

for something

and it doesn't

work out

and then that's

when I panic

and so

that's

yeah

so then

that's when

I'm forced

to go to God

and trust in Him

basically

yeah

so we're talking

about this idea

of control

in the workplace

and how that is

manifested

in maybe

in your life

or a boss

or other people

and then just the

the converse side

of that one

because the reality

is control

is an illusion

so we don't really

have control

so we're always

just fearful

worried

and out of control

how do you see

that played out

in your workplace

is that the question

yes it was

you did remember

the questions

so basically

control in the workplace

for me

I would feel

in control

in my workplace

if I know

what's going on

in the area

of my responsibility

and I know

what my team

is doing

what they're handling

what they're dealing

with

I know that

they're happy

and I know

people like me

and yeah

just know

what's going on

and have control

of what's going on

so if my boss

asks me something

like I have an answer

for it

if situations come up

but it's something

that I know

how to handle

I still feel like

I'm in control

and basically

being in control

when I have

these situations

all tick

I would feel

quite comfortable

quite confident

and I would feel

quite good

about myself

I would feel

like I'm good

at my job

and

basically

I would somewhat

feel important

like I'm

indispensable

to the company

or something

and

yeah

so that's

when I feel

in control

and

when I don't

have things

in control

is when

I don't know

the full extent

of what's going on

within the area

of my responsibility

which is what's

happening now

because I just

got a new role

in my company

and

yeah

I feel

quite insecure

because

I don't know

everything

I don't know

what my teams

are doing

and

situations come up

and I don't know

how to

handle it

so it makes me

feel out of control

very insecure

you know

what do people

think of me

in this position

and

it

makes me

uncomfortable

and quite stressed

and

it

forces me

to

go to

God

and

trust

him

because

it's

amazing

because

I've never

seen you

and we've

gone to Israel

together

and all that

I've never

seen

you stressed

right

so you

oh

you don't

know me

well

or

or maybe

you

wear

your mask

of control

very well

because it

seems like

when I look

at you

or Colin

I've seen

Colin a little

more stressed

because he's

kind of red

but you

you just

you just

a mask

of coolness

yeah you're

an iceberg

yeah

in a good

way

I guess

sorry about

that Colin

so what

would you

say in

this whole

process of

being out

of control

in control

and realizing

that you

need to

continually

be going

before the

Lord

and help

asking him

to show

you what

that looks

like

what are

things you've

been learning

right

and that

process for

you as a

couple

and as

individual

and things

like that

so as

much as

I don't

enjoy being

out of

control

not being

in my

comfort zone

but I

realize that's

really the

time when

I'm closest

to God

because I

it's the

only time

I literally

seek God

you know

daily

for his

wisdom

for his

strength

because I

don't know

what to

do

when I'm

in control

I really

just go

to my

normal mode

which is

like do

what I

know

I can

do

and

it's

so when

I'm

in control

it's actually

it makes me

feel good

but actually

it's really

tiring

because

I'm the

one running

everything

myself

when I'm

not in

control

it's very

uncomfortable

but in

the end

when God

comes through

I find it

really refreshing

because

oh somebody

else is

taking care

of it

instead of

myself

so it's

really refreshing

but it's

very uncomfortable

in the beginning

so that's

what I'm

learning

and I

realized

that

yeah

I

I

probably

should

do it

more often

because

I tend

at the

moment

I tend

to do

this

only

when I'm

in

crisis

you know

when I

my plans

don't work

out

but I

should

probably

do it

more often

like on

little

things

yeah

that was

it right

let me

ask you

another hard

question

can I pray

for you

sure

okay

father

we just

thank you

for

Kristen

and for

Colin

and just

for bringing

them here

and just

for all

the amazing

things you've

done in their

life and experiences

we pray for them

as a family

that you would

just continue to

watch over them

and bless them

as they grow

pray for her work

that you would

give her wisdom

and favor

and the freedom

not to always

wear a mask

so that people

would see

your son

coming through

her

and we pray

that for all

of us

and so I

just thank you

for her heart

and her desire

and just

amazing story

of your goodness

and faithfulness

in our life

and we just pray

these things

in your son

Jesus name

amen

thank you so much

she's a good

Texas girl

if you didn't

know that

so she went

to school

at Rice

so

giving you

a hard time

hey

one final thing

and I want

to end here

we know

what worry

is

we know

how worry

comes into

our life

and it

dominates

us

and it

tries to

show us

control

is better

and we need

to wear a mask

and not let

people see

what's happening

ultimately

what we're

actually struggling

with is

the issue

of who is

God in our

life

are we

going to be

God

or is

God

going to

be God

but the

question for

me is

always

what do

I do

when worry

comes into

my life

here

did I lose

the mic

I'm scared

cheering up

here

because

I don't

have my

act

to get

and we're

going on

a journey

we're

learning

these

things

but let

me just

share

some things

that this

passage

says

continually

as you

go to

today

ponder

consider

ponder

consider

ponder

consider

when worry

comes in

he asks us

to ponder

and consider

two things

and he asks

us to seek

or set

our heart

on one

thing

to seek

means

to set

our course

to set

our wheels

down

and to

follow

that thing

and not

to stop

following

that thing

I'm just

going to

show you

this is

how this

plays out

in my

life

so I'm

going to

talk through

some things

that go in

my world

as I look

at this

passage

God you know

I'm so

worried

about

these heart

tests

coming up

because I

had my

heart attack

ten years

ago

and I

wonder

and I

worry

if I'm

still

taking care

of my

heart

the way

I do

I know

I'm

exercising

I know

I'm

probably

not drinking

that one

glass of

wine

like I

should

I'm not

drinking

or eating

a dark

chocolate

but I'm

trying to

exercise

and do

these

things

and all

of a

sudden

I get

this slip

from the

doctor

saying

it's time

for your

annual

checkup

and treadmill

run

and Lord

I am

so

worried

about that

because on

that treadmill

I feel

out of

control

and no

matter how

much I

present

controlness

in front

of you

when you

have those

monitors

and you're

watching your

heart

you wonder

am I really

in control

and God

speaks to me

in those

times

and he

says things

like verse

26

Tobin

look at

the birds

of the air

don't you

know

that I have

control over

them

don't you

know

that I

provide for

them

don't you

know that

I've given

them all

that they

need

and I'm

totally in

control of

their lives

and yours

if I

care for

these

little

birds

how much

more am I

going to

care

for you

made in

my image

Tobin you

can trust me

because everything

happening

everything from

your heart

attack on

everything I've

been in

control over

I've been

in that

I've been a

part of that

I've allowed

all those

things happening

I've given

you my son

I've given

him on the

cross

I've given

you everything

that you

need

you can

trust me

to be

sovereign

in your

life

I think

about that

over and

over again

I think

about that

heart attack

ten years

ago

I realized

for sure

that if I

had died

this church

wouldn't be

here

or I

wouldn't be

here in

this church

but for some

reason God

allowed me to

have that

heart attack

and as I

look back

on it now

these ten

years

so many

things have

transformed

because of

those events

and it's

pretty safe

for me to

say that

Christina and

I wouldn't

have planted

a church

if God

hadn't allowed

me to have

a heart attack

and show me

that there's

more to life

than being

comfortable

and in

control

but God

you might

ask me to

do something

I don't

want to do

you might

ask me to

give up

medicine

you might

ask me to

go to

Asia

and if I

go to

Asia

I'm going

to seem

irrelevant

because all

the big

Christian

things are

happening

in the

states

and I'm

going to

lose track

of all

those

things

you might

ask me

to do

things

that I

don't

want to

do

and God

says

you're

right

I will

because I

love you

because I

want your

best

and just