Sermon
Living with Integrity?
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Father, we confess before you that we often deceive ourselves.
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We confess before you that we can deceive ourselves so often
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it can become such a habit that we no longer are aware of our self-deception.
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We confess before you that often we have many motives,
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even for a single action, that we're blind to
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and that some of those motives aren't very good.
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And Father, we confess before you that given how we are inside,
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that sometimes we think you're like this,
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that we sort of make you in our own image.
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Father, we need your help.
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We need you to speak into the center of who we are, speak to our heart.
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We need, Father, your Holy Spirit to open the eyes of our heart,
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open the eyes of our heart to who we are in light of your word,
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in light of your love and grace and mercy.
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So, Father, we ask that you would do this wonderful work of your Holy Spirit
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and your word in our lives this morning and for the rest of our lives.
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And we ask this in the name of Jesus, your Son and our Savior.
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Amen.
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Please be seated.
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Amen.
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So, for...
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I do other things outside of what I do on Sunday morning.
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I don't just sort of work Sunday morning.
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And sometimes I've been involved in different leadership teams
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and organizing events.
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And for quite a few years, I was part of this team,
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leadership team that was doing a wide range of events all across the country.
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And one of the problems I had with being on that leadership team
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was a particular group of people.
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I mean, you know, I think it was Bill Hybels who said
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that whenever two or more people are together, there is friction.
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And that's always true.
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When there are two more together, there is friction.
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But in this particular case, there was a group of people on the leadership team
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that had several agendas,
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other than just really trying to do a good job,
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to work together to produce really effective events
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that would further the kingdom,
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that would bless people,
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that would bring God glory.
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They had a whole pile,
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or at least several other very powerful agendas.
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And most of the agendas
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were all around themselves looking good
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and themselves getting more and more power.
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And one of the hard parts,
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it's not only hard to deal with people
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who have that as their motive,
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especially when they won't acknowledge it,
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but the other thing which was really hard
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is that it was such a deep part of who they were
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that they had these motives of,
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you know, we're going to be on top,
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we're going to be the ones who are most important,
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we're going to be the ones who look good.
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It was so deeply ingrained in them, those motives,
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that they had a hard time believing
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that everybody else on the team didn't have the same motives.
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So they were always quite combative
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because it just never,
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it was, those motives of seeking power
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were so powerful in them,
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they just couldn't imagine that some other people,
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they didn't have that motive.
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That, no, actually, I don't care,
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I don't have to be up on front.
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No, I don't care, my logo doesn't have to be on that.
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Like, I just want to have something.
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It was really hard for them to understand that.
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A few, quite a few years ago now,
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I had a person who I thought was a friend,
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I thought was like a person
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who had the same type of desires as I did
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to be able to preach and understand the Bible
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and they offered to come alongside me
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to give me some advice
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so that I could preach better.
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And every time I met with them,
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I was depressed afterwards.
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I was really depressed.
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And then after I had been doing this
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for four or five or six weeks
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because I'm a slow learner,
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it started to dawn on me
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that they actually were trying to hurt me.
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Like, it wasn't just that
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they were speaking truth into my life
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and I was having a hard time facing the truth.
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They were actually trying to hurt me
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and they were actually trying
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to undermine my confidence in the Bible
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and they were actually trying to turn me
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in a very, very, very different direction.
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They had a motive in terms of their action
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which was in fact very hurtful to me
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and I ended up having to have
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a bit of a confrontation with them.
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I mean, we could multiply these examples.
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Many of you probably at school or at work.
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How many of you, if you're at school or university
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and you're doing a group project
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and how many of you have had to deal
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with a person doing a group project
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where they basically have two motives
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or three motives?
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One, do no work.
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Two, take all the credit for the work.
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Three, get a good mark from your work.
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And it's really hard to deal with somebody like that, right?
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Many of us have been in workplace situations
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where you can tell that the person involved
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that you have to work with,
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all they want is to take credit
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and all they want is promotion.
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That's all they want.
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And they'll do whatever they have to
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to get that promotion,
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to get credit for good work
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and to make sure that the bad work falls
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and is seen somewhere else.
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We're always having to deal with people
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who have, in many cases, bad motives
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and often unconscious motives.
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There's many of us,
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one of the things that happens as you grow older,
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if God is kind to you and you have some growth,
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is you realize maybe how there's things,
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maybe from your past,
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how you're raised as a child
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or something that happened
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in the early days of your marriage
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that affect all of your motives
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and everything that you do
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and you've been blind and unconscious to it.
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So does the Bible have anything to say about this?
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Does the Bible have anything to say
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that's helpful and insightful
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about the role of motives in our lives?
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Well, we're going to look at a passage in the Bible
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that actually has an awful lot to say about motives.
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In fact, very, very important and wise things.
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So it would be a great help to me
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if you would turn in your Bibles
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to 2 Corinthians chapter 1.
2 Corinthians 1 chapter mention
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2 Corinthians chapter 1.
2 Corinthians 1 chapter mention
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And I know it sounded,
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when Amanda was reading the text,
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you were probably thinking,
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good grief, you know,
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he went there, didn't go here.
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What does this have to do with my life?
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But, you know,
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it's like a lot of things in the Bible
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that maybe at first glance
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it doesn't jump out at us,
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but as you look at it more closely,
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you'll see that, in fact,
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the Bible has very profound
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and powerful things
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to say about motives.
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What motives should be
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and how they should be grounded.
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What are the right type of motives
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that we should have?
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So we're going to look at that.
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We're going to begin
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three verses before
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where Amanda read.
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We're going to begin
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at 2 Corinthians chapter 1, verse 12.
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And, you know,
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one of the things to remember
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when you're looking at this,
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you know, the text,
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is that it's a letter.
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Paul began at verse 1.
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He ended at whatever
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the last verse is in chapter 13.
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And when scholars study this,
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they say that verse 12,
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in particular,
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is sort of a bit of an introduction
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to what he's going to be talking about
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right through till the end
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of chapter 7.
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Sort of gives you a bit
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of a big picture overview
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of some of the themes
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that he's going to be talking about.
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And so listen to verse 12.
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For our boast is this,
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the testimony of our conscience
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that we behaved in the world
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with simplicity.
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And some of your versions of the Bible
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have a different word there.
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We'll talk about that in a moment.
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I'll say it again.
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For our boast is this,
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the testimony of our conscience
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that we behaved in the world
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with simplicity
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and godly sincerity,
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not by earthly wisdom
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or fleshly wisdom,
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but by the grace of God
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and supremely so toward you.
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Very short, powerful, packed verse.
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And Paul is going to be unfolding this,
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especially in the next few verses
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that come after.
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Some of that part that Amanda read
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that we found confusing.
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But in fact,
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all the way through,
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it's going to be a continuing theme
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that he's going to keep trying
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to explain and unpack.
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And so obviously,
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I can only give you
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a bit of an introduction.
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But the first thing is,
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if you could put up the first point,
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that would be great.
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In Jesus,
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God's grace will lead me
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towards good,
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honest,
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humble,
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simple,
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transparent motives
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for each thing that I do.
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That's the thing
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that Paul is trying
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to communicate here,
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that the Bible,
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the Word of God
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is trying to communicate.
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That in fact,
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we don't have to listen
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to the Dalai Lama
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to learn about
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how good motives,
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although maybe we can learn from him.
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We don't have to listen
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to Jacques Derrida.
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We don't have to listen
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to Rousseau.
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We don't have to listen
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to the columnist
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and the citizen.
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That in fact,
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the Bible itself
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has profound teaching
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about what it means
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to become more like Jesus.
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Like what it is
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that God's plan
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and intention is
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for your life and mine.
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And so what the Bible
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is saying,
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I'll just read,
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I'll look at,
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I'll say the point again
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out loud,
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but I'll just read the text again.
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For our boast is this,
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the testimony of our conscience
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that we behaved
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in the world
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with simplicity.
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And that can also mean
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like a type of
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a singular,
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pure motive.
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In other words,
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that what he's saying is
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he doesn't have
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53 motives,
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18 of which
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he's unconscious of.
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and 15 that he wants
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to hide
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and the rest he's sort of
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willing to make public.
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That he's not having
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a whole pile of motives.
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That there's a type
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of purity
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and singularity
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and simplicity
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to his motives.
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A type of coherence
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to them.
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In other words,
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motives that fit.
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Like one of the things
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that's going to be developed here
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that to bring glory
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to God
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and to do good
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for people,
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in fact,
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at a deepest level,
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never contradict each other.
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Like to bring glory
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to God
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and to do good
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for people
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don't contradict.
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It can sound
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for us as human beings
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as if it's two motives
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but properly understood
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they're,
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in a sense,
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it's a type of singularity.
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It's a motive,
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it's a group of motives
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that they fit together.
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They're not rubbing
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each other
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the wrong way.
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You know,
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it's not like
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when,
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you know,
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maybe,
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you know,
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somebody comes,
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you know,
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I don't know,
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you know,
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you come home late,
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your teenager comes home late
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and like way,
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way late
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and they have several motives
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when they talk to you.
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Their fundamental motive
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is they want you to go away.
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They want to try
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to make you quiet
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before you dig too deeply
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into what exactly went on
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and why you're so late
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and they want to make
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themselves look good
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and they want to make you
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look bad
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and there's a whole pile
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of different motives
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that are going on there
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and they don't want
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to tell the truth.
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Get the picture,
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okay?
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That's not what this
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is talking about.
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So,
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for our boast is this,
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the testimony of our conscience,
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we behaved in the world
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with simplicity
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and it has this cluster
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of ideas
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of purity,
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of coherence,
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consistency
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and godly sincerity,
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a sincerity
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that comes from God.
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Not by earthly wisdom
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but by the grace of God
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and supremely so towards you.
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So,
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you see this?
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It's what the text is saying
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is that as God's grace
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has a deeper and deeper role
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and hold in our lives,
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as God's grace
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forms my mind
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and forms my heart
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and forms my will
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and forms how I see the world
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and how I hear the world
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and how I understand the world
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as God's grace,
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which only,
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of course,
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means that you're getting
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closer to Jesus
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and thinking about
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what he did for us
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on the cross
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and who he is
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and his love for us,
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is that as Jesus
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comes closer to us
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and we get closer to Jesus,
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one of the byproducts
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of that
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will be
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that our motives
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become
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good motives,
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that they're honest,
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that there's a humility
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to our motives
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because there should be
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a greater concern
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for the other
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and a greater concern
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for God
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and that they're simple,
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you know,
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more like a dog's motives,
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you know,
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dogs just want to be fed,
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padded,
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you know,
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they're not like cats
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trying to plot
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how to take over
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your home
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and the rest
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of the universe.
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Like,
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you know,
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did I just say that?
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Yeah,
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become more like a dog,
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less like a cat.
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Sorry,
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there's no comment here
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about you cat lovers.
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You have your own reasons
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to love cats.
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Anyway,
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simple,
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transparent motives
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for each thing that I do.
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That's what the Bible
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is saying here.
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It's a very,
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very simple thing,
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a very,
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very powerful thing.
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And it helps to explain,
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once you understand this
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as a bit of a key,
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it helps you to understand
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some of the confusing things
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that are going on
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in the letter,
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right from the beginning
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of the letter
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and on and on and on,
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is that Paul is trying
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to demonstrate
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to his hearers
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what his motives actually are.
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He's saying,
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one moment,
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you've misunderstood me.
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I'm acting in a way
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which is for your good.
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I'm acting in a way
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which brings glory to God.
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I'm acting in a very
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consistent way
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and I'm keeping my word.
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If you understand it,
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like I'm letting you know
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what I'm doing,
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I'm only doing things
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to love you
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and I'm only doing things
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that magnify the grace of God
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and try to make the grace of God
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more operative amongst you.
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So,
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like jump ahead
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to chapter 2,
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verses 1 to 11.
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And if you sort of
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understand verse 12,
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you can start to tease out
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a little bit
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about what's going on
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in some of these confusing texts
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in the Bible.
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See,
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that's the thing about the Bible.
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There's often,
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you don't have to sort of think,
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oh,
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I need to read this quote
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from somebody else
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to try to understand the Bible.
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God himself
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usually provides
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the way to understand it
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within the text itself.
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But look at verses 1 to 11.
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For I made up my mind
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not to make another painful visit
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to you.
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Because he'd had a previous visit
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that had been very painful.
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It had been painful
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because he loved them.
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He had to confront them.
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He'd had to confront them
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about some things
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that they were doing
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that were just deeply wrong.
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Like,
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a man was sleeping
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with his mother
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and he had to confront them
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about that.
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People were using
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the law courts
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to rip each other off
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and he had to confront them
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about that.
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Not because he wasn't honest,
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not because he wasn't humble,
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not because he wasn't good
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or loved them,
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but because those things
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are just wrong.
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Okay?
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I'll go back.
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For I made up my mind
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not to make another painful visit
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to you.
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For if I cause you pain,
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who is there to make me glad
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but the one whom I have pained?
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In other words,
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he wants to be with them.
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And I wrote,
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as I did,
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so that when I came
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I might not suffer pain
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from those
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who should have made me rejoice.
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For I felt sure
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of all of you
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that my joy
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would be the joy of you all.
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For I wrote to you
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out of much affliction
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and anguish of heart
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and with many tears
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not to cause you pain
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but to let you know
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the abundant love
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that I have for you.
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And then he goes on
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to another issue
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like that some of the people
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that he had to deal with
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there had in fact
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been repentance
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and amendment of life.
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And he's revealing here
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that his goal
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had always been
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restoration of relationships.
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His goal had always been
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that grace is extended.
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Not judge,
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not that,
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you know,
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you messed up once
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and it's one strike
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and you're out of my life
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for the rest of your life.
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That that's not the way,
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no, no,
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there's going to be grace.
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There's got to be grace.
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The goal with grace
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is to restore relationships,
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to restore people,
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to get people back
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on the right path,
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to build relationships.
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So in verse 5,
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now if anyone has caused pain,
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he has caused it not to me
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but in some measure,
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not to put it too severely,
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but to all of you.
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For such a one,
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this punishment
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by the majority is enough.
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So you should rather turn
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to forgive and comfort him
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or he may be overwhelmed
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by excessive sorrow.
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So I beg you
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to reaffirm your love for him.
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For this is why I wrote,
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that I might test you,
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not in terms of like test,
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like a laboratory.
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It's testing,
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it's as if you're trying
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to walk across
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a pot,
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you know,
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some water that's frozen,
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you're testing the ice.
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So it's not like
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a malicious superior
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type of testing.
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It's just making sure
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that it's nice and solid.
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You're going to go across it
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first
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so that the people behind you
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can go across it
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and they won't get
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their feet wet.
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So that's the type
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of testing that's meant.
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For this is why I wrote,
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that I might test you
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and know whether you
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are obedient in everything.
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Anyone whom you forgive,
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I also forgive.
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Indeed,
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what I have forgiven,
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if I have forgiven anything,
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has been for your sake
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in the presence of Christ
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so that we would not
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be outwitted by Satan
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for we are not ignorant
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of his designs.
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Why?
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Because the devil,
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he's the accuser,
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he's the slanderer,
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he's the destroyer,
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he's the ruiner
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of relationships
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and that's what he does.
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He blasphemes.
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He makes us doubt God.
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He blasphemes
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and makes us want
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to take the place of God.
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And Paul is saying,
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I understand that the devil
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never misses church
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and never misses a time
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you get together
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for your Bible study
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or your prayer meetings.
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I'm aware of that.
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And that's why we need
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to be rooted here
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in grace
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and in the gospel.
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That's what's going on.
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And so we see
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it's a deep teaching
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in the Bible.
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It's a very,
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very important teaching
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in the Bible.
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Now, actually,
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it's not just that Christians,
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of course,
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have problems
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with mixed motives.
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and one of the things
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is that the text
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is going to,
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as we go on
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in weeks and weeks,
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is going to try
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to confront us
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of motives
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that we didn't realize
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that we have.
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But the text
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has also hinted
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at something
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that touches
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on a great Canadian fear.
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It's a great Canadian
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and American fear
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that affects Christians.
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You know,
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a few years ago,
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the Da Vinci Code
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was really popular
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and it's like 30 million books
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or something like that.
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I read the book
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after it sold 20 million copies.
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I took it out of the library.
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It was really
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a poorly written book.
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I'm not just saying
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that to diss it,
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but it wasn't really
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a very well-written book,
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but it sold so many copies.
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And part of the reason
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I think it sold
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so many copies
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is it touched
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on a deep fear
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that people have
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about the Christian faith,
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that the Christian faith
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is based on lies
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and a desire for power,
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that it's not honest,
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that it's inauthentic,
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and they've hurt people
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and the Christian faith,
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I mean,
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there are all those priests
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and the pedophiles
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and it's all those guys,
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you know,
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who head up,
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you know,
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they're all against gays
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while they're having sex
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with male bodybuilders
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and, you know,
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like that.
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I'm not making stories up.
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Those are things
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that have happened
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over the last few years,
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right?
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Ted Haggard.
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And so many people
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in our culture,
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they have this sense
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that you can't trust
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the Bible,
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you can't trust
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the Christian faith,
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that there's been lying
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that's going on,
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there's been hiding
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that's going on
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and you can't trust it
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and I think people
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like the Da Vinci Code
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partially because
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it expressed a lot of that
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and so here there's
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a bit of a full disclosure.
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What we call
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2 Corinthians
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could really be called
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4 Corinthians
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because
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Paul wrote
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at least four letters
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to the church
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to the church in Corinth
-
and only two of them
-
are in the Bible.
-
So is this
-
evidence
-
of
-
something really bad?
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Well first let me
-
just show it to you.
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If you turn in your Bibles
-
to 1 Corinthians
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chapter 5
-
verse 9
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1 Corinthians 5
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verse 9
-
it says this
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I wrote to you
-
in my letter
-
whoa
-
I wrote to you
-
in my letter
-
not to associate
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with sexually immoral people
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and we won't go on
-
about what it is
-
I just want to bring
-
that out to you.
-
So in 1 Corinthians
-
he mentions
-
that he wrote
-
an earlier letter
-
and if you just now
-
turn back to the text
-
that we're looking at
-
2 Corinthians chapter 2
2 Corinthians 2 chapter mention
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I sort of combined
-
several letters
-
in my explanation
-
of the text
-
but if you look again
-
at verses 1 to 3
-
chapter 2
-
verses 1 to 3
-
for I made up my mind
-
not to make another
-
painful visit to you
-
for if I cause you pain
-
who is there
-
to make me glad
-
but the one
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whom I have pained
-
and I wrote
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as I did
-
so that when I came
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I might not suffer pain
-
from those
-
who should have
-
made me rejoice.
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Now here's the point
-
you know all that stuff
-
which is a bit confusing
-
I went to Troas
-
I went to Macedonia
-
like really careful
-
Bible scholars
-
when they look at
-
all of that stuff
-
they can piece together
-
things
-
and the letter here
-
you just have to
-
trust me on this one
-
that the letter here
-
that it's referring to
-
can't just be
-
1 Corinthians
-
so in a sense
-
you could say
-
there's Corinthians A
-
then 1 Corinthians
-
Corinthians A
-
that's Canadian
-
eh?
-
I'm sorry
-
Corinthians A
-
1 Corinthians
-
Corinthians B
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and then 2 Corinthians
-
so what's going on here?
-
Are Christians
-
like what's the Christian
-
claim here?
-
Should we be worried?
-
When I was preaching
-
a class
-
teaching a class
-
on Monday
-
I began
-
one of the things
-
I began with
-
was this
-
if they found
-
one of those other letters
-
should it be in the Bible?
-
For instance
-
well here's the thing
-
if you could put that up
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on the screen
-
it would be very helpful
-
Paul's writings
-
are not in the Bible
-
because they are Paul's
-
you just have to understand
-
what Christians
-
are claiming
-
it's a very transparent
-
honest
-
simple
-
understanding
-
okay
-
but sometimes
-
people don't understand
-
what Christians claim
-
Christians aren't claiming
-
that there's something
-
inherently special
-
about Paul
-
we aren't claiming
-
that
-
Christians aren't claiming
-
that like our poets
-
our philosophers
-
our mystics
-
our hymn writers
-
our philosophers
-
they're better than
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Muslim and Buddhist ones
-
you know
-
because we have ones
-
who are more inspired
-
and are
-
being able to think
-
about God
-
better
-
and are able to reach
-
higher into God
-
and to understand
-
God better than all those
-
that is not a Christian claim
-
no well instructed
-
Christian who's read
-
the Bible
-
who's listened to Jesus
-
should ever believe that
-
Christians don't believe
-
that somehow
-
our poets
-
and our philosophers
-
and theologians
-
are somehow better
-
at reaching up to God
-
no
-
we believe
-
that we cannot
-
possibly know
-
anything true
-
about the infinite God
-
and unless
-
the infinite God
-
speaks to us
-
we could not know
-
anything true
-
about him
-
so what Christians
-
claim
-
is that at the end of the day
-
when you read the New Testament
-
what you're really listening to
-
is the teaching of Jesus
-
because you're listening to
-
Jesus
-
who spent
-
many many years
-
three years
-
and then some other time
-
after the resurrection
-
three years
-
teaching the apostles
-
and then
-
the New Testament
-
basically goes back
-
to the apostolic witness
-
the test
-
that it ultimately
-
comes from Jesus
-
but it's making
-
a deeper type
-
of claim
-
with this
-
because it's claiming
-
that Jesus just isn't
-
the best of the prophets
-
the best of the mystics
-
the best of the philosophers
-
the best of the theologians
-
the best at trying
-
to figure things out
-
Christians believe
-
that Jesus himself
-
came from heaven
-
outside of earth
-
and time and space
-
and the entire created order
-
and that God does a miracle
-
in the womb of Mary
-
and by an act of creation
-
God the son of God
-
the second person of the Trinity
-
one of the
-
that God who's responsible
-
for creating
-
and sustaining
-
the entire universe
-
that God
-
the son of God
-
in the form of that
-
a fertilized egg
-
created in the womb of Mary
-
that God
-
enters his creation
-
he comes from outside
-
into this created order
-
so Paul's writings
-
are not in the Bible
-
because they are Paul's
-
some of Paul's writings
-
are in the Bible
-
only because
-
they are some of the words
-
that God wanted
-
in his word written
-
see at the end of the day
-
Christians believe
-
that God used
-
all sorts of different
-
human means
-
in the sense
-
there's always a dual
-
authorship of the Bible
-
and that God used
-
human means
-
but at the end of the day
-
Paul who
-
who knows
-
maybe Paul wrote
-
a hundred letters
-
maybe he wrote
-
three hundred letters
-
maybe he wrote
-
four hundred letters
-
if Paul was somehow
-
the greatest philosopher
-
and poet
-
and theologian
-
and we were making a claim
-
that he's better at reaching
-
God than somebody else
-
then every one of his writings
-
should be in the Bible
-
but we're not making that claim
-
we're making a claim
-
that in a sense
-
Paul is no different
-
than Balaam's ass
-
who braid
-
and braid
-
and braid
-
but God was able
-
to make that ass speak
-
and that out of all
-
of the writings of Paul
-
some of them
-
are the actual writings
-
that God wanted to have
-
in this book
-
which is how he speaks
-
to us
-
as human beings
-
so there's nothing evil
-
or anything going on there
-
that it was just all part
-
of God's providence
-
of working through the church
-
and working through
-
early Christians
-
to make sure
-
that the words
-
that he wanted
-
spoken
-
and recorded
-
for our good
-
would be there
-
so
-
2 Corinthians
-
is in the Bible
-
not because Paul wrote it
-
at the most fundamental level
-
but because we believe
-
that it was the words
-
that God himself
-
wanted to speak to us
-
now
-
some of you might say
-
well George
-
that's sort of
-
you know
-
that is a little bit
-
interesting
-
but
-
so here's the thing
-
you're making this claim
-
George
-
that
-
if you get closer
-
to Jesus
-
you're going
-
to end up
-
having pure motives
-
George
-
how pure
-
are your motives
-
like George
-
just be honest
-
with us
-
for a second
-
when you get up
-
front and preach
-
like do you want
-
people to like you
-
do you preach
-
George
-
so maybe
-
in the hope
-
that there'd be
-
a bigger congregation
-
like do you want
-
a bigger congregation
-
because it helps
-
your ego
-
George
-
when you preach
-
do you want
-
to make it look
-
like you're smart
-
George
-
when you preach
-
do you want
-
to make it look
-
like you're nice
-
George
-
when you preach
-
and lead the service
-
are you actually
-
doing it for our good
-
and for God's glory
-
or some of these
-
other things
-
working
-
how's it going
-
with you George
-
in other words
-
George
-
are you just
-
trying to pull
-
a religious
-
fast one
-
on us
-
without people
-
noticing
-
because George
-
I'm going to
-
really be honest
-
with you
-
yeah
-
you know
-
I know
-
I need to have
-
better motives
-
and yeah
-
you know
-
I know
-
that people
-
with bad motives
-
have messed
-
my life up
-
and I know
-
that I've actually
-
maybe messed
-
some other people
-
up because
-
I've had
-
mixed motives
-
George
-
but you know
-
what if you're
-
just giving me
-
a whole pile
-
of religious advice
-
and that's all
-
it is
-
and I don't
-
know George
-
you know
-
my profs
-
give me advice
-
my mom
-
gives me advice
-
my friends
-
give me advice
-
I'm getting
-
beaten up
-
with advice
-
George
-
I don't need
-
to leave here
-
with more advice
-
I mean
-
George
-
if you have
-
to have
-
all these
-
pure motives
-
and all that
-
to get close
-
to Jesus
-
then I don't
-
understand
-
how anybody
-
could ever
-
become a Christian
-
I don't even
-
know why
-
you'd want
-
to become
-
a Christian
-
I mean
-
trying to
-
articulate
-
things like
-
that are not
-
bad things
-
but good
-
things
-
and it
-
really gets
-
at something
-
which is
-
really really
-
can be
-
easily missed
-
you know
-
because the
-
fact of the
-
matter is
-
I didn't
-
have pure
-
motives
-
when I
-
called out
-
to Jesus
-
to be my
-
savior
-
and my
-
lord
-
and if
-
you're here
-
thinking that
-
you have to
-
have pure
-
motives
-
before you
-
can call
-
out to
-
Jesus
-
to be
-
your
-
savior
-
and lord
-
I'm going
-
to tell
-
you right
-
now
-
stop
-
waiting
-
for
-
pure
-
motives
-
because
-
actually
-
that's
-
just
-
the
-
devil
-
trying
-
to
-
confuse
-
you
-
and
-
twist
-
you
-
you see
-
what the
-
text is
-
talking
-
about
-
is
-
something
-
that
-
comes
-
after
-
grace
-
that
-
constantly
-
needs
-
grace
-
but is
-
still
-
dependent
-
upon
-
grace
-
that the
-
text
-
is all
-
talking
-
about
-
grace
-
not
-
more
-
rules
-
and not
-
more
-
advice
-
that in
-
fact all
-
of this
-
advice
-
and everything
-
is all
-
trying to help us
-
to understand
-
something that
-
God does
-
for us
-
not something
-
that we need
-
to do for
-
God
-
look at
-
the text
-
again
-
go back
-
to 2
-
Corinthians
-
chapter 1
-
verse 15
-
because I
-
was sure
-
of this
-
I wanted
-
to come
-
to you
-
first
-
so that
-
you might
-
have a
-
second
-
experience
-
of grace
-
it's a
-
funny
-
expression
-
I'm not
-
going to
-
talk
-
about it
-
it's
-
caused
-
lots
-
of
-
mischief
-
in the
-
church
-
throughout
-
the
-
years
-
but it's
-
sort
-
of
-
neat
-
verse
-
16
-
I wanted
-
to visit
-
you
-
on your
-
way
-
to
-
Macedonia
-
and to
-
come
-
back
-
to you
-
from
-
Macedonia
-
and have
-
you send
-
me
-
on my
-
way
-
to
-
Judea
-
I know
-
that's
-
all this
-
back
-
and forward
-
stuff
-
here's
-
the thing
-
was I
-
vacillating
-
when I
-
wanted
-
to do
-
this
-
do I
-
make
-
my
-
plans
-
according
-
to
-
the
-
flesh
-
ready
-
to
-
say
-
yes
-
yes
-
and
-
no
-
no
-
you know
-
at the
-
same
-
time
-
in other
-
words
-
is he
-
actually
-
you know
-
is he
-
a guy
-
that's
-
yeah
-
yeah
-
I want
-
to do
-
this
-
but
-
really
-
I'm
-
trying
-
to do
-
this
-
I'm
-
trying
-
to do
-
that
-
actually
-
before I
-
read these
-
next three
-
verses
-
could you
-
put them
-
up on
-
the screen
-
please
-
could you
-
all say
-
this with
-
me
-
because
-
this is
-
the heart
-
of the
-
passage
-
this is
-
the heart
-
of the
-
passage
-
these are
-
good
-
verses
-
to
-
memorize
-
and we're
-
going to
-
say them
-
out loud
-
several
-
times
-
together
-
I was
-
going to
-
try to
-
give you
-
points
-
but I
-
have no
-
points
-
better
-
than this
-
why can
-
I
-
how can
-
I
-
adorn
-
God's
-
word
-
better
-
than
-
God's
-
own
-
word
-
has to
-
be
-
read
-
slowly
-
to try
-
to get
-
it in
-
the
-
different
-
steps
-
but this
-
is an
-
explanation
-
of God's
-
grace
-
and who
-
you are
-
and how
-
you become
-
a Christian
-
and how
-
you grow
-
as a
-
Christian
-
that's
-
dynamite
-
you should
-
memorize
-
this
-
and I've
-
only changed
-
two words
-
in it
-
in the
-
original
-
language
-
it keeps
-
saying him
-
and you
-
can lose
-
who the
-
him
-
have
-
taken out
-
and it
-
is God
-
who
-
establishes
-
us
-
with you
-
in Christ
-
and has
-
anointed
-
us
-
and who
-
has also
-
put his
-
seal on
-
us
-
and given
-
us his
-
spirit
-
in our
-
hearts
-
as a
-
guarantee
-
it's a
-
very very
-
powerful
-
text
-
so what's
-
the text
-
saying
-
remember I
-
was saying
-
at the
-
beginning
-
that as
-
you get
-
closer to
-
Jesus
-
there's
-
going to
-
be simple
-
transparent
-
what Paul
-
is saying
-
is that
-
God is
-
simple
-
and transparent
-
in fact
-
the problem
-
for human
-
beings
-
is that
-
God is
-
too simple
-
for us
-
to understand
-
we are
-
we are
-
my mind
-
is not
-
just a
-
singular
-
mind
-
my mind
-
is 15
-
hummingbirds
-
all
-
overdosing
-
on Red
-
Bull
-
and if
-
my mind
-
is 15
-
hummingbirds
-
overdosing
-
on Red
-
Bull
-
how can I
-
understand
-
the simplicity
-
and faithfulness
-
and consistency
-
of God
-
and the
-
whole point
-
about the
-
Christian
-
revelation
-
is that
-
it's a
-
public
-
open
-
revelation
-
God
-
doesn't
-
call
-
the
-
illuminati
-
the
-
special
-
anointed
-
ones
-
who know
-
the
-
decoder
-
key
-
to
-
interpret
-
the
-
Bible
-
God's
-
word
-
is
-
open
-
it's
-
transparent
-
it's
-
public
-
it's
-
a
-
public
-
revelation
-
anyone
-
who has
-
ears
-
to hear
-
anyone
-
who has
-
eyes
-
to read
-
can hear
-
and
-
understand
-
it's
-
to be
-
read
-
and
-
proclaimed
-
openly
-
in the
-
church
-
it's
-
to be
-
studied
-
from
-
cover
-
to
-
cover
-
in our
-
Bible
-
studies
-
and so
-
what the
-
Bible
-
here is
-
telling
-
us
-
is that
-
God
-
has
-
made
-
promises
-
notice
-
this is
-
how
-
Christianity
-
is so
-
different
-
than
-
Buddhism
-
Buddhism
-
is very
-
popular
-
on
-
university
-
campuses
-
and in
-
secular
-
culture
-
and part
-
of it
-
is because
-
of our
-
profound
-
cultural
-
despair
-
and cynicism
-
that anybody
-
will ever
-
keep their
-
promise
-
nobody
-
believes
-
their
-
employers
-
will keep
-
their
-
promises
-
so many
-
of us
-
are either
-
have had
-
divorces
-
and products
-
of divorces
-
and breakups
-
and separations
-
from family
-
members
-
and we
-
don't think
-
things hold
-
together
-
we don't think
-
people keep
-
their promises
-
and there's a
-
profound cynicism
-
and so this
-
message that
-
Buddhism
-
that what we
-
have to do
-
is to kill
-
all desire
-
is very
-
powerful
-
and speaks
-
very differently
-
but you know
-
underneath this
-
fear that no one
-
keeps their
-
promises
-
is a desire
-
that people
-
will keep
-
their promises
-
there's a
-
sense when you
-
go out on a
-
really really
-
really beautiful
-
day
-
some of the
-
beautiful days
-
we've had
-
this last
-
few days
-
I've kept
-
going out
-
outside
-
and thinking
-
gosh God
-
you are so
-
good
-
this is such
-
a beautiful
-
day
-
you are so
-
kind to us
-
and somewhere
-
in all of
-
our souls
-
there is a
-
sense or
-
longing
-
no matter
-
if we're
-
an atheist
-
or an agnostic
-
or a Buddhist
-
or a Hindu
-
or a Muslim
-
some sense
-
that such
-
a beautiful
-
day
-
such a
-
glorious
-
day
-
a day
-
when maybe
-
our bodies
-
are feeling
-
really good
-
and we've
-
been properly
-
caffeinated
-
and properly
-
fed
-
and there's
-
some sense
-
that the
-
world is a
-
world of
-
promise
-
that promises
-
are real
-
that they're
-
not just us
-
projecting them
-
on the
-
created order
-
but it's
-
some hint
-
that we are
-
getting in
-
our minds
-
and our hearts
-
and our souls
-
that there is
-
a creator
-
there is one
-
we can know
-
that there is
-
some type of
-
promise
-
of even
-
greater
-
and even
-
more
-
there are
-
some hints
-
in our
-
longings
-
and yearnings
-
that there
-
is something
-
greater
-
that our
-
longings
-
and yearnings
-
fit with
-
and the
-
Bible is
-
saying that
-
whatever promises
-
that we have
-
this sense
-
it's saying
-
the Bible is
-
not saying
-
kill all
-
desires for
-
promises
-
it's saying
-
follow this
-
desire for
-
promises
-
one of the
-
things that
-
can help
-
you in
-
evangelism
-
and one of
-
the things
-
that's so
-
scary about
-
evangelism
-
is the word
-
evangelism
-
get rid of
-
the word
-
evangelism
-
just think
-
bearing witness
-
to Jesus
-
and one of
-
the things
-
which is
-
very interesting
-
is every
-
person has
-
some sense
-
that there's
-
some promises
-
some great
-
hope
-
some great
-
longing
-
and they
-
might not be
-
able to
-
articulate it
-
and they
-
won't put it
-
in Christian
-
terms
-
but at the
-
end of the
-
day
-
all longings
-
all yearnings
-
are connected
-
all true
-
longings
-
and yearnings
-
all true
-
hopes
-
all true
-
hopes
-
find their
-
yes in
-
Jesus
-
everyone
-
say this
-
with me
-
again
-
for all
-
the promises
-
of God
-
find their
-
yes in
-
Jesus
-
that is
-
why it
-
is through
-
Jesus
-
that we
-
utter our
-
amen to
-
God
-
for his
-
glory
-
and it
-
is God
-
who
-
establishes
-
us
-
with you
-
in Christ
-
and has
-
anointed
-
us
-
and who
-
has also
-
put his
-
seal on
-
us
-
and given
-
us his
-
spirit
-
in our
-
hearts
-
as a
-
guarantee
-
so the
-
Bible
-
is saying
-
that God
-
he's
-
transparent
-
about what
-
he's
-
promising
-
read Isaiah
-
52 and
-
53
-
you know
-
he was
-
bruised
-
for our
-
iniquities
-
he was
-
crushed
-
for us
-
the punishment
-
that brought
-
us peace
-
was laid
-
on him
-
that's
-
he kept
-
his word
-
and Jesus
-
died upon
-
the cross
-
it's
-
open
-
and the
-
promises
-
that are
-
that God
-
makes
-
they're
-
they're
-
open
-
and he
-
fulfills
-
every
-
single
-
one of
-
them
-
to
-
Jesus
-
and
-
what
-
is
-
the
-
gospel
-
the
-
gospel
-
is
-
the
-
promise
-
that
-
that
-
you know
-
the
-
gospel
-
is
-
that
-
God
-
has
-
made
-
this
-
promise
-
he
-
said
-
the
-
promise
-
is
-
I
-
know
-
that
-
you
-
cannot
-
save
-
yourself
-
I
-
know
-
that
-
you
-
want
-
to
-
hide
-
from
-
me
-
I
-
know
-
that
-
your
-
motives
-
are
-
impure
-
I
-
know
-
that
-
your
-
motives
-
are
-
chaotic
-
I
-
know
-
that
-
your
-
mind
-
is
-
really
-
not
-
a
-
singular
-
mind
-
but
-
15
-
hummingbirds
-
on
-
Red Bull
-
I
-
know
-
exactly
-
who
-
you
-
are
-
I
-
know
-
the
-
dreams
-
you
-
have
-
at
-
night
-
that
-
when
-
you
-
wake
-
up
-
you
-
don't
-
remember
-
them
-
I
-
know
-
all
-
of
-
the
-
different
-
masks
-
you
-
have
-
I
-
know
-
how
-
you
-
go
-
from
-
one
-
mask
-
to
-
another
-
I
-
know
-
how
-
you
-
keep
-
people
-
distant
-
I
-
know
-
about
-
those
-
things
-
in
-
your
-
past
-
that
-
you're
-
deeply
-
ashamed
-
of
-
I
-
know
-
those
-
longings
-
and
-
yearnings
-
you
-
have
-
that
-
sometimes
-
so
-
overwhelm
-
you
-
that
-
you
-
don't
-
even
-
want
-
to
-
share
-
them
-
because
-
you're
-
going
-
to
-
burst
-
I
-
know
-
how
-
sometimes
-
when
-
you
-
listen
-
to
-
a
-
piece
-
of
-
music
-
or
-
see
-
something
-
in
-
nature
-
or
-
see
-
something
-
really
-
beautiful
-
in
-
human
-
love
-
that
-
your
-
heart
-
feels
-
like
-
it
-
wants
-
to
-
explode
-
I
-
know
-
every
-
single
-
thing
-
there
-
is
-
to
-
know
-
about
-
you
-
and
-
I
-
know
-
that
-
you
-
cannot
-
make
-
yourself
-
right
-
with
-
me
-
and
-
so
-
I
-
will
-
cross
-
that
-
infinite
-
distance
-
to
-
make
-
you
-
right
-
with
-
myself
-
I
-
will
-
send
-
a
-
savior
-
who
-
will
-
save
-
I
-
will
-
be
-
the
-
one
-
who
-
gives
-
you
-
the
-
Holy
-
Spirit
-
I
-
will
-
be
-
the
-
one
-
who
-
will
-
establish
-
you
-
I
-
will
-
do
-
everything
-
that
-
it
-
takes
-
I
-
am
-
not
-
waiting
-
for
-
your
-
hands
-
to be
-
so
-
strong
-
and
-
so
-
pure
-
that
-
they
-
can
-
hold
-
on
-
to
-
me
-
I
-
know
-
your
-
hands
-
are
-
weak
-
and
-
I
-
know
-
that
-
you
-
don't
-
want
-
to
-
give
-
them
-
to
-
me
-
and
-
I
-
know
-
and
-
I
-
am
-
completely
-
and
-
utterly
-
shameless
-
because
-
I
-
am
-
completely
-
and
-
utterly
-
committed
-
to
-
loving
-
you
-
that
-
if
-
you
-
even
-
with
-
mixed
-
motives
-
put
-
your
-
hands
-
up
-
and
-
say
-
Jesus
-
be
-
my
-
savior
-
and
-
maybe
-
you're
-
saying
-
Jesus
-
be
-
my
-
savior
-
as
-
a
-
way
-
to
-
diss
-
your
-
parents
-
maybe
-
you're
-
saying
-
Jesus
-
be
-
my
-
savior
-
partially
-
so
-
you
-
can
-
be
-
accepted
-
by
-
other
-
people
-
maybe
-
you're
-
saying
-
Jesus
-
be
-
my
-
savior
-
so
-
you
-
can
-
have
-
some
-
type
-
of
-
particular
-
emotional
-
experience
-
maybe
-
you're
-
saying
-
Jesus
-
be
-
my
-
savior
-
because
-
you
-
have
-
this
-
sense
-
that
-
God
-
really
-
exists
-
and
-
you
-
need
-
him
-
to
-
save
-
you
-
and
-
I
-
know
-
that
-
your
-
motives
-
are
-
mixed
-
and
-
I'm
-
not
-
waiting
-
for
-
your
-
motives
-
to
-
be
-
pure
-
your
-
motives
-
will
-
never
-
be
-
pure
-
but
-
I
-
can
-
tell
-
you
-
that
-
when
-
you
-
put
-
your
-
hands
-
up
-
I
-
will
-
be
-
faithful
-
to
-
my
-
promises
-
and
-
all
-
of
-
my
-
promises
-
find
-
their
-
yes
-
in
-
Jesus
-
and
-
Jesus
-
will
-
take
-
your
-
hand
-
and
-
his
-
purity
-
will
-
become
-
yours
-
and
-
your
-
impurity
-
has
-
fallen
-
on
-
him
-
and
-
already
-
been
-
dealt
-
with
-
on
-
the
-
cross
-
and
-
your
-
hand
-
cannot
-
establish
-
a
-
relationship
-
with
-
me
-
but
-
I
-
can
-
establish
-
a
-
relationship
-
with
-
you
-
and
-
I
-
will
-
never
-
let
-
go
-
of
-
your
-
hand
-
and
-
you
-
ask
-
for
-
small
-
partial
-
things
-
not
-
knowing
-
all
-
of
-
the
-
promises
-
that
-
I
-
have
-
made
-
for
-
you
-
but
-
I
-
have
-
promised
-
in
-
my
-
word
-
that
-
there
-
will
-
be
-
a
-
time
-
when
-
the
-
Holy
-
Spirit
-
will
-
come
-
and
-
live
-
within
-
you
-
I
-
have
-
promised
-
that
-
the
-
Holy
-
Spirit
-
will
-
come
-
and
-
Lord
-
but
-
I
-
will
-
tell
-
you
-
that
-
when
-
you
-
reach
-
that
-
hand
-
out
-
with
-
mixed
-
motives
-
I
-
take
-
that
-
hand
-
in
-
yours
-
not
-
only
-
are
-
you
-
made
-
right
-
with
-
me
-
not
-
only
-
are
-
you
-
established
-
for
-
all
-
eternity
-
and
-
I
-
will
-
never
-
let
-
you
-
go
-
but
-
I
-
will
-
put
-
my
-
Holy
-
Spirit
-
upon
-
you
-
I
-
will
-
put
-
my
-
Holy
-
Spirit
-
within
-
you
-
and
-
that
-
coming
-
of
-
the
-
Holy
-
Spirit
-
within
-
you
-
is
-
the
-
first
-
what
-
you
-
will
-
have
-
forever
-
and
-
that
-
Holy
-
Spirit
-
will
-
seal
-
you
-
will
-
mark
-
me
-
you
-
that
-
you
-
are
-
mine
-
forever
-
no matter
-
what
-
you
-
do
-
in
-
the
-
future
-
you
-
are
-
mine
-
forever
-
and
-
the
-
Holy
-
Spirit
-
will
-
start
-
to
-
push
-
you
-
and
-
nudge
-
you
-
to
-
Jesus
-
and
-
all
-
that
-
other
-
stuff
-
the
-
purity
-
of
-
motives
-
as
-
we're
-
gripped
-
by
-
the
-
gospel
-
as
-
we're
-
gripped
-
by
-
the
-
gospel
-
as
-
we're
-
grounded
-
in
-
the
-
gospel
-
as
-
we're
-
shaped
-
by
-
the
-
gospel
-
well
-
then
-
it
-
starts
-
to
-
become
-
more
-
sensitive
-
motives
-
should
-
be
-
good
-
and
-
honest
-
and
-
pure
-
that
-
Holy
-
Spirit
-
that
-
the
-
Lord
-
has
-
given
-
us
-
starts
-
to
-
not
-
just
-
convict
-
us
-
that
-
you
-
know
-
what
-
I
-
shouldn't
-
be
-
treating
-
that
-
person
-
with
-
these
-
mixed
-
motives
-
that's
-
wrong
-
it
-
flows
-
from
-
grace
-
it
-
flows
-
from
-
being
-
gripped
-
by
-
the
-
gospel
-
I'd
-
like
-
to
-
put
-
up
-
the
-
first
-
of
-
my
-
final
-
three
-
points
-
actually
-
sorry
-
before
-
we
-
do
-
that
-
let's
-
read
-
this
-
text
-
again
-
sorry
-
testing
-
how fast
-
you can
-
move
-
let's
-
all
-
say
-
this
-
again
-
for
-
all
-
the
-
promises
-
of
-
God
-
find
-
their
-
yes
-
in
-
Jesus
-
that
-
is
-
why
-
through
-
Jesus
-
we
-
utter
-
our
-
amen
-
to
-
God
-
for
-
his
-
glory
-
and
-
it
-
is
-
God
-
who
-
establishes
-
us
-
with
-
you
-
in
-
Christ
-
and
-
has
-
his
-
seal
-
on
-
us
-
and
-
given
-
us
-
his
-
spirit
-
in
-
our
-
hearts
-
as
-
a
-
guarantee
-
put
-
up
-
the
-
final
-
this
-
is
-
a
-
conversion
-
prayer
-
if
-
you
-
don't
-
know
-
if
-
you
-
know
-
it's
-
not
-
only
-
a
-
conversion
-
prayer
-
but
-
it's
-
a
-
daily
-
walk
-
prayer
-
it's
-
how
-
you
-
enter
-
the
-
Christian
-
faith
-
it's
-
how
-
you
-
live
-
the
-
Christian
-
faith
-
and
-
I
-
just
-
encourage
-
you
-
to
-
these
-
will
-
be
-
online
-
if
-
you
-
want
-
to
-
you
-
God
-
says
-
in
-
his
-
word
-
he
-
hears
-
it
-
he'll
-
make
-
you
-
Jesus
-
and
-
what
-
better
-
thing
-
than
-
we
-
do
-
every
-
day
-
is
-
to
-
ask
-
the
-
Lord
-
to
-
grip
-
us
-
by
-
the
-
gospel
-
so
-
it
-
will
-
change
-
us
-
and
-
shape
-
us
-
and
-
push
-
us
-
and
-
pull
-
us
-
and
-
draw
-
us
-
and
-
you
-
know
-
when
-
you
-
have
-
this
-
security
-
to
-
know
-
that
-
it's
-
God
-
who
-
establishes
-
me
-
it's
-
not
-
me
-
who
-
establishes
-
myself
-
with
-
God
-
as
-
the
-
gospel
-
grips
-
us
-
we
-
begin
-
to
-
have
-
the
-
ability
-
to
-
look
-
into
-
ourselves
-
and
-
face
-
really
-
uncomfortable
-
truths
-
about
-
ourselves
-
next
-
prayer
-
please
-
actually
-
why don't
-
you read
-
this out
-
loud
-
with me
-
father
-
in
-
heaven
-
please
-
pour
-
out
-
your
-
Holy
-
spirit
-
upon
-
the
-
gospel
-
of
-
self
-
deception
-
and
-
grow
-
in
-
humble
-
penitent
-
self
-
knowledge
-
of
-
my
-
motives
-
you
-
see
-
as
-
we're
-
gripped
-
by
-
the
-
gospel
-
you
-
see
-
when
-
we
-
think
-
that
-
we
-
have
-
to
-
establish
-
a
-
relationship
-
with
-
God
-
it
-
is
-
terrible
-
to
-
maybe
-
confess
-
you
-
know
-
why
-
I
-
sing
-
so
-
loud
-
and
-
so
-
well
-
in
-
church
-
I'm
-
singing
-
so
-
loud
-
and
-
well
-
in
-
church
-
to
-
impress
-
the
-
people
-
around
-
me
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or
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I'm
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singing
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you
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know
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or
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I'm
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singing
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really
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loud
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because
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you
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know
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I
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sing
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loud
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for
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the
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praise
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choruses
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but
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I
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don't
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sing
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the
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hymns
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because
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I
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don't
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like
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hymns
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or
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I
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sing
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loud
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for
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the
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hymns
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I
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don't
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sing
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loud
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for
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the
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praise
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choruses
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because
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I
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hate
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praise
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choruses
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you
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know
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when
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we're
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trying
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to
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establish
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ourselves
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with
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God
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it's
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really
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hard
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to
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acknowledge
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those
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things
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about
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ourselves
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but
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when
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realize
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how
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many
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ways
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we
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deceive
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ourselves
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and
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we
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have
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to
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die
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to
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it
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we
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have
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to
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die
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to
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it
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and
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then
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grow
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in
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this
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other
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thing
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the
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humble
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penitent
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self
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knowledge
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of
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my
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motives
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the
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final
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prayer
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I'm
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going to
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ask
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you all
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to
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stand
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I
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mean
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the
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last
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prayer
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was that
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negative
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work
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in a
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sense
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it's
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the
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prayer
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for
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no
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right
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father
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I
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don't
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want
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to
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have
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mixed
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motives
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I
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don't
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want
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to
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have
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bad
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motives
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I
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don't
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want
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to
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have
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unconscious
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motives
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that
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drive
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me
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I
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don't
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want
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to
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have
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self
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deceptive
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motives
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I
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want
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to
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say
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no
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to
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all
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of
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those
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things
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right
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there's
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a
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sense
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that
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there's
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a
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good
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way
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to
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say
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no
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and
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there's
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a
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way
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to
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say
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yes
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I
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don't
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want
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to
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look
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to
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self
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deception
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and
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I
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can
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humbly
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look
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at
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them
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and
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I
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can
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be
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willing
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to
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repent
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of
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the
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motives
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I
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see
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in
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my
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life
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as
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bad
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but
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I
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don't
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want
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to
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say
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no
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to
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bad
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things
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I
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want
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to
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have
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good
-
motives
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I
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want
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to
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put
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the
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brakes
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to
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those
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things
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in
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my
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life
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that
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are
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self
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deceiving
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and
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I
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want
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to
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step
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on
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the
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gas
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pedal
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to
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go
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for
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those
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things
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that
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will
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make
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my
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motives
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honest
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and
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simple
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and
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transparent
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and
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good
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for
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people
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and
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good
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for
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God's
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glory
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and
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so
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you
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see
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how
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this
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fundamental
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prayer
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being
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gripped
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by
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the
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gospel
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it's
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to
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be
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the
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wellspring
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the
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motive
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by
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which
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we
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live
-
our
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lives
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I
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invite
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you
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to
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pray
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this
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prayer
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with
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me
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Father
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in
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heaven
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please
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pour
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out
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your
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Holy
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Spirit
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upon
-
me
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and
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make
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me
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a
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disciple
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of
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Jesus
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gripped
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by
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the
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gospel
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and
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as
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I
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am
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gripped
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by
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the
-
gospel
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please
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shape
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my
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motives
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and
-
actions
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as
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I
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live
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for
-
your
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glory
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Father
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pour
-
out
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your
-
Holy
-
Spirit
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upon
-
us
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make
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us
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disciples
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of
-
Jesus
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gripped
-
by
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the
-
gospel
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who
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are
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living
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for
-
your
-
glory
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Father
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we
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ask
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that
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you
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would
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do
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this
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wonderful
-
work
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in
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our
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lives
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as
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we're
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gripped
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by
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who
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Jesus
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is
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what
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he
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did
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for
-
us
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on
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the
-
cross
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and
-
how
-
you
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establish
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us
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and
-
seal
-
us
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when
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we
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put
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our
-
hands
-
in
-
him
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Father
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thank
-
you
-
that
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you
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do
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not
-
wait
-
until
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we're
-
perfect
-
you
-
do
-
not
-
weigh
-
our
-
merits
-
but
-
you
-
give
-
us
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Jesus
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all
-
this
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we
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ask
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in
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Jesus
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name
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Amen