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As of First Importance - The Gospel

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  1. Heavenly Father, we thank you for your word.

  2. We thank you, Father, that your word became flesh and dwelt among us.

  3. Thank you, Father, that you are gracious and merciful with us today.

  4. So, Father, as we open your word, we ask that you would be with us,

  5. that you would minister to us, that you would open our hearts to believe your word.

  6. And, Father, we ask that you would dwell with us and teach us what you want us to believe

  7. and what you want us to know.

  8. So, Father, would you bless this time, and we commend this time to you in Jesus' name.

  9. Amen.

  10. So, about a month ago, I bought a car.

  11. And it's not my first car.

  12. It's my second car.

  13. And it's not my first used car.

  14. It was my second used car.

  15. And when I bought the car, you know, it was a good deal.

  16. It was a really good car.

  17. I'm really, really happy for the car.

  18. And I actually sincerely believe that it's a blessing from God.

  19. But I bought it from a stranger.

  20. And when you buy things from a stranger, you kind of have to have faith in this fellow stranger

  21. that they are telling you the truth.

  22. And, you know, the price is good.

  23. The mileage is good.

  24. I want it to be true.

  25. And I don't really have anything to which I can base this desire on.

  26. Because, really, I don't know the person.

  27. And I don't know if they're lying to me.

  28. So, I paid a good price.

  29. And I had to go through the safety and all those different things.

  30. And it ended up costing me a little bit more.

  31. Actually, quite a bit more than I expected at first.

  32. And for many people, they actually see the Christian faith just in the same light.

  33. Where there isn't actually any proof for Christianity.

  34. You kind of have to just believe what the others say.

  35. And you kind of have to kind of go blindly towards Christianity and say,

  36. Well, you know what?

  37. I'll believe it.

  38. And they find out later, well, this is not true.

  39. This is not based on reality.

  40. And so, today we're going to look at something very interesting.

  41. It's a letter from the Apostle Paul who talks to the Corinthian church.

  42. And essentially, what Paul is doing, he's going to open up the fine print of Christianity.

  43. He's going to look at what Christianity is all about.

  44. What is the main essential claim of Christianity?

  45. And he's going to open it up right wide open so that we can look at it.

  46. And see for ourselves if this is true.

  47. If this is worth believing.

  48. So, if you have your Bibles, I would ask you to open to 1 Corinthians chapter 15.

    1 Corinthians 15 chapter mention

  49. And we're going to read verses 1 to 11.

  50. Now, I would remind you, brothers and sisters, of the gospel I preached to you,

  51. which you received, in which you stand, and by which you are being saved,

  52. if you hold fast to the word I preached to you, unless you believed in vain.

  53. For I delivered to you as of first importance what I also received,

  54. that Christ died for our sins in accordance with the Scriptures,

  55. that he was buried, that he was raised on the third day in accordance with the Scriptures,

  56. and that he appeared to Cephas, then to the twelve.

  57. Then he appeared to more than five hundred brothers at one time,

  58. most of whom are still alive, though some have fallen asleep.

  59. Then he appeared to James, then to all the apostles.

  60. Last of all, as to one untimely born, he appeared also to me.

  61. For I am the least of the apostles, unworthy to be called an apostle,

  62. because I persecuted the church of God.

  63. But by the grace of God I am what I am, and his grace toward me was not in vain.

  64. On the contrary, I worked harder than any of them,

  65. though it was not I, but the grace of God that is with me.

  66. Whether then it was I or they, so he preached, and so he believed.

  67. This is the word of the Lord.

  68. So here Paul is, I'll just give a bit of a context.

  69. Paul is writing to a Corinthian church.

  70. And this happens about twenty years after the resurrection of Jesus.

  71. And so Paul is writing to them, and if you read the first, say, eleven chapters of Corinthians,

  72. this letter that he wrote to them, he's essentially giving them a rebuke.

  73. He's correcting them for the things that went wrong within the church.

  74. And now he's giving them a bit of hope.

  75. He's turning the tone of the letter into, this is what you should do.

  76. You should go back to the basics of the Christian faith and what you actually first believed.

  77. So Corinth, in a sense, was a very popular city,

  78. in the sense that they have a very interesting culture, a culture that is very worldly.

  79. There was an expression that said, they live as in Corinth.

  80. And to us that doesn't mean anything.

  81. But to them, back in the day, someone from Athens would say,

  82. ah, they're living as in Corinth.

  83. People would say, oh, okay, okay, I know what you mean.

  84. And to us, it's essentially the same as saying, what happens in Vegas stays in Vegas.

  85. And we don't really know what that means, but we have an idea that it's something very sinful,

  86. and maybe we shouldn't ask because it might be a little embarrassing for them.

  87. So here, Paul is talking to these people who kind of let the spirit of Corinth come into the church,

  88. whereas the church was supposed to influence Corinth.

  89. And so he's giving them a direction.

  90. Here we see in verse 1,

  91. So there's this implication that we need to respond to this gospel,

  92. that there is something that we believe in,

  93. and that we don't just believe in here in our minds,

  94. but we actually hold on to it.

  95. We cling to it.

  96. We live by it.

  97. And we hope in it.

  98. And Paul is making this case that it is the gospel that he preached to them,

  99. and also this word that he preached to them.

  100. And he's talking about these things.

  101. He's bringing them together, saying that these are one thing.

  102. So the gospel, as we read on the projector, it's the good news.

  103. It's another word for good news.

  104. And the word here, in the Greek, is, in a sense, it's really a substance.

  105. That's what Paul means here.

  106. So it's kind of giving a tone to the word, word here.

  107. So there's a substance in which we believe, and this substance is good news.

  108. It's talking about an event.

  109. So this event, this good news, is something in which we should believe.

  110. Now Paul is implying here when he says,

  111. unless you believed in vain, he's talking about two different ways that we can approach the gospel.

  112. There is right belief in the gospel.

  113. There's a right way to respond to the gospel.

  114. And there is a wrong way to respond to the gospel, or a wrong approach to the gospel.

  115. And we see here, when he talks about it in verse 3,

  116. for I deliver to you as of first importance what I also received.

  117. He's not saying anything new, anything that comes from Paul.

  118. He's only passing along the baton to them.

  119. Something that he received, and he's passing along to them.

  120. So, what is wrong belief?

  121. Well, there are many ways that we can approach that,

  122. many ways that we can see what is wrong belief.

  123. Some people will believe, or they will believe that they're Christians because they're afraid of hell,

  124. and that they will become Christians so that they can escape hell.

  125. Other people, it's kind of like the opposite tone of that is the more positive light.

  126. They want to go to heaven.

  127. They just, they want to be in heaven when they die, so they become Christians.

  128. But they don't really know much more than that.

  129. And other people, it's because they grew up in a Christian family.

  130. They grew up going to church, and so therefore, they are Christians.

  131. But Paul is saying something a little bit different here.

  132. And he, Paul, wants us to go right back to the basics.

  133. Now, I'm reminded of this one time when I had a phone bill come in through the mail.

  134. And I won't tell you how much it is because my parents are here.

  135. But I had to call them and say, look, there's something wrong here.

  136. What do you mean my bill is X amount of dollars?

  137. And they had to, you know, explain, you know, sir, this is what you signed up for.

  138. Didn't you look at the fine print?

  139. And, of course, the fine print, I don't read the fine print.

  140. It's about 10 pages long.

  141. The letters are this big.

  142. Like, I don't have time for that.

  143. But it's really important that we shouldn't be surprised when we see that our faith is not working out for us.

  144. So I have a friend who recently told me that they're no longer Christians.

  145. And this person, this friend, told me why they're not a Christian.

  146. And they gave me this explanation why.

  147. And some of the reasons were, well, you know, the Old Testament is very violent.

  148. And God wants us to do those things.

  149. He wants us to stone people and children and all those things.

  150. And then he went on to tell me how the church is a business.

  151. And they're all about making money and taking your money from them.

  152. And I was just like, oh, what are they saying?

  153. So at the end of this big soliloquy, I asked them, so do you believe you're a sinner?

  154. And the person was thrown off.

  155. Well, no, of course not.

  156. And that's when I realized, oh, this person, this friend does not believe that they're sinful.

  157. And that's why all these different peripheral things, these different peripheral issues in the Bible, they don't make sense to them.

  158. It's not actually because these things define God in a way that they want to interpret God.

  159. But it's actually because they don't want to be known.

  160. They don't want to believe that they're sinful.

  161. They don't want to believe that they have sin that holds them accountable to God.

  162. So here we have the substance of the gospel.

  163. We have Paul saying that there's the gospel, the good news, which is the substance of Christian faith.

  164. And he's talking about as well the substance in here at verse 2.

  165. So when he says, if you hold fast to the substance, I preach to you.

  166. And he's about to lay it out here.

  167. So verse 3.

  168. So if you notice here, it talks about in accordance with the scriptures.

  169. And honestly, if the scriptures spoke about one thing and then Jesus did another thing,

  170. then we should abandon the whole thing completely.

  171. Because it doesn't make sense.

  172. There's no cohesiveness.

  173. There's no coherence in the whole story, the big picture of the Bible.

  174. But here's the thing.

  175. Jesus makes sense according to the scriptures.

  176. He was talked about in the scriptures.

  177. If we look at the big picture of the Bible, we see that in Genesis, God creates the heavens and the earth.

  178. And he makes it and it was good.

  179. And then he puts mankind on this earth so that they can have this relationship.

  180. But then we see shortly after that the first man and first woman, Adam and Eve, rebelled against God.

  181. And so they became enemies of God.

  182. And God made a promise that he would fix it.

  183. He would fix his project.

  184. He would take care of his project because Adam and Eve and their descendants would not be able to.

  185. So God is going to take care of it.

  186. And when God gathers the people of Israel, he gives them this practice that they should sacrifice animals

  187. so that when they put their hands on the animal, their sin would go into that animal.

  188. And then the animal would be slain and their sins would be remembered no more in God's eyes.

  189. And now in this time, the flow of the Bible is that God would open up his people to all the Gentiles

  190. so that they can come in so his people would be both Jew and Gentile in Jesus.

  191. And in sending Jesus, when people put their faith in Jesus, put their trust in Jesus as the Lamb of God,

  192. they will receive salvation.

  193. Their sins will be remembered no more before God.

  194. So this absolutely makes sense in the whole scope of Scripture.

  195. And when it says in accordance with the Scriptures, we can believe that.

  196. Verse 4, that he was buried and that he was raised on the third day in accordance with Scriptures.

  197. Now there isn't much saying explicitly about being buried, being three days.

  198. There is something about being buried that Joseph of Arimathea would buy a tomb for him

  199. and that he would be buried there.

  200. And that he would be raised from the dead.

  201. And that's something that's fairly common in the Old Testament,

  202. that we believe that they had this expectation that the dead would be raised on the last day.

  203. And so Jesus here is raised from the dead.

  204. Now, in the last month, there's been a few people, or a couple of people that I know that are dear to me,

  205. who passed away, and I've been to their funerals.

  206. And it's always a strange thing.

  207. What is death?

  208. What is this thing, death, that awaits us at the end of our life?

  209. We try to find solutions to death.

  210. We want to spiritualize it and say,

  211. well, you know, we're going back to the ground and where we belong,

  212. we're going to be one with nature again.

  213. Or, you know, we want to say that everyone's going to the same place.

  214. It's all going to be good.

  215. We're actually going to a better place.

  216. And really, it's hard to tell what's happening at death.

  217. What is death anyway?

  218. So we all want this solution to death because we're afraid of death.

  219. And we want death to be taken care of.

  220. And if death is going to be taken care of, it needs to happen,

  221. this cure, this antidote to death needs to happen in the realm of reality.

  222. Because if we just think of something about death,

  223. that is, you know, what happens after life,

  224. if we just think about it, we create this new concept,

  225. it doesn't really solve anything.

  226. So we need to have something that comes into life,

  227. something that comes into death,

  228. something that is victorious through death.

  229. And this is exactly what Jesus is doing.

  230. Jesus lived a perfect life,

  231. as we see in the picture here.

  232. And then he died the death that he shouldn't have died,

  233. but he died the death that we should have died.

  234. And then he rose from the dead.

  235. And that's why the Christian faith is the only one

  236. that provides the true antidote to death,

  237. that the death is not the end,

  238. but that the resurrection, that Jesus,

  239. who is life and who is the resurrection,

  240. gives us this new hope.

  241. So now we need to respond to that.

  242. And Paul tells us in verses 1 to 2

  243. that we need to receive it,

  244. we need to stand on it,

  245. we need to hold fast to it,

  246. and by that we will be saved.

  247. And for a lot of people,

  248. they think, again, that story at the beginning

  249. that when you buy a car,

  250. you know, you have to close your eyes

  251. and just, you know, hope that it's going to work out,

  252. but you don't really know.

  253. But I think a good illustration that talks about faith

  254. is that we, in a sense,

  255. are falling down from an airplane,

  256. we're falling in the sky,

  257. and we need something to save us.

  258. We need something that will protect us

  259. and break us from the fall.

  260. And this is the parachute.

  261. This is the only thing that we can have.

  262. So in a sense, we need to open up the parachute.

  263. Jesus is the one who can save us.

  264. We hold on to the parachute,

  265. but it's not the fact that we're holding on

  266. to the parachute that's saving us,

  267. but it's actually the parachute itself.

  268. And we trust in the parachute

  269. that it will slow our fall

  270. so that we don't die,

  271. but that we will land safely.

  272. And this is kind of like an image of faith

  273. and how we should look at the response.

  274. So here's another evidence.

  275. We have the scriptures that testify about Jesus,

  276. but there's also something else.

  277. Let's read in verse 5.

  278. So we have a lot of appearances here.

  279. And this is a very big deal

  280. because if Jesus was raised,

  281. but it's only a symbol,

  282. it's only an allegory

  283. that his memory will be with us forever.

  284. If that was true,

  285. then there shouldn't be any eyewitnesses,

  286. but there are.

  287. And there are many of them.

  288. And in fact,

  289. there are more than what this text is talking about.

  290. If you read the Gospels,

  291. you see that there's Mary

  292. and there's a few different apostles

  293. that he walks into the city

  294. and then there's the fishermen.

  295. So there's a lot more

  296. than what this text is saying.

  297. And this text, in a sense,

  298. is saying,

  299. well, the Corinthians,

  300. they would know these people.

  301. They can go to these people

  302. and ask them,

  303. did Jesus actually rise from the dead?

  304. Did Jesus die for our sins?

  305. Was he actually who he said he was?

  306. So some of you know that I'm a baker.

  307. You know that I like to bake

  308. and I've done a few weddings

  309. and different events.

  310. And if you guys wanted to have a cake

  311. for your next birthday or wedding,

  312. you would come and ask me,

  313. who can I ask for a recommendation?

  314. I want to know if you're able to do the job.

  315. So I would point out some friends

  316. from maybe Messiah,

  317. some friends that I would assume

  318. that are in your circle of friends

  319. so that you can go and ask them

  320. and you know who they are.

  321. You know that they're taste buds.

  322. You can trust them

  323. and from that point on,

  324. you can say,

  325. okay, well, you know what?

  326. I'll go through with this.

  327. This is essentially what Paul is doing.

  328. He's naming these people.

  329. There's James here

  330. who is the archbishop

  331. or the archbishop,

  332. the bishop, I guess, of Jerusalem.

  333. He's the overseer

  334. of the church of Jerusalem.

  335. You have Peter

  336. who is here called Cephas

  337. in verse five

  338. who is the itinerant preacher.

  339. He would travel.

  340. So these people would know

  341. these witnesses.

  342. These witnesses,

  343. they would be able to ask them

  344. the question,

  345. did Jesus really rise from the dead?

  346. Was he actually in bodily form

  347. or was he just a spirit

  348. or is he just a figment

  349. of our imagination?

  350. So here in the Christian faith,

  351. evidence is important.

  352. Paul sees evidence

  353. as very, very important

  354. and very essential

  355. to the Christian faith,

  356. the whole message.

  357. Now,

  358. what about these witnesses?

  359. Like,

  360. I don't know,

  361. there's a lot of them.

  362. It's 2,000 years ago.

  363. These people were,

  364. you know,

  365. less intelligent.

  366. You might be thinking,

  367. you know,

  368. they didn't have

  369. all the knowledge

  370. that we have today.

  371. I can't really trust

  372. these witnesses.

  373. Let me ask you,

  374. where were you

  375. or what were you doing?

  376. Was it September the 11th, 2001?

  377. Where were you

  378. and what were you doing

  379. September 11th, 2005?

  380. And where were you

  381. September 11th, 2013?

  382. Now,

  383. it's interesting

  384. that we remember

  385. very vividly

  386. where we were in 2001.

  387. What about 2005?

  388. What about 2013?

  389. 2013.

  390. It's interesting

  391. that this event

  392. that really marked

  393. that one year

  394. we remember

  395. much clearer

  396. than what happened

  397. the years

  398. that came after.

  399. And in a sense,

  400. this is what

  401. the gospel witnesses

  402. are all about.

  403. That there was

  404. this big event,

  405. this very,

  406. I don't want to say

  407. traumatic,

  408. but it's this event

  409. that is out of the ordinary,

  410. something that's extraordinary,

  411. where a man

  412. who rises from the dead,

  413. the one who claimed

  414. to be the Messiah

  415. rises from the dead,

  416. he appears

  417. to all these people

  418. and they would be able

  419. to give the testimony

  420. of him

  421. in a way that is accurate.

  422. So this should be able

  423. to give us

  424. a little bit more trust

  425. in that.

  426. And we see in verse 11,

  427. and I'll just read it,

  428. whether then it was

  429. I or they,

  430. so we preach,

  431. and so you believe.

  432. So they share

  433. the exact same message,

  434. and it's a very simple message.

  435. It's not going

  436. in too much depth,

  437. but it's talking

  438. about one thing,

  439. that Jesus actually lived,

  440. he died,

  441. and he rose from the dead,

  442. that all of them

  443. would share

  444. that same message.

  445. So here's

  446. the third evidence.

  447. Let us read

  448. verse 8 to 10.

  449. Last of all,

  450. as to one untimely born,

  451. he appeared also to me,

  452. for I am the least

  453. of the apostles,

  454. unworthy to be called

  455. an apostle

  456. because I persecuted

  457. the church of God.

  458. But by the grace of God,

  459. I am what I am,

  460. and his grace toward me

  461. was not in vain.

  462. On the contrary,

  463. I worked harder

  464. than any of them,

  465. though it was not I,

  466. but the grace of God

  467. that is with me.

  468. A very strange thing

  469. happened here.

  470. The apostle Paul,

  471. who we see

  472. as super Paul

  473. or super apostle,

  474. is the,

  475. probably the largest

  476. contributor

  477. to the New Testament,

  478. but it's talking about

  479. how Paul persecuted

  480. the church.

  481. Now,

  482. if we knew Paul

  483. in his days,

  484. we would think,

  485. you know,

  486. he's kind of like

  487. that kid in the playground

  488. who just tells on you

  489. all the time

  490. to the teacher

  491. and always pleases

  492. the teacher,

  493. and you're just fed up

  494. with that person

  495. because he's always

  496. going by the rules,

  497. he's always trying to,

  498. you know,

  499. make his way

  500. all the way to the top,

  501. and he's kind of

  502. ripping us off

  503. in a sense.

  504. Paul was a very,

  505. very religious man.

  506. He was very devout

  507. to his faith,

  508. and he wasn't necessarily

  509. pleasing to be around.

  510. And it says here

  511. that Paul persecuted

  512. the church of God,

  513. and it's interesting

  514. that a lot of these people,

  515. Peter and James,

  516. would remember Paul

  517. being this persecutor

  518. of the church.

  519. But he says here,

  520. but by the grace of God,

  521. I am what I am,

  522. and his grace toward me

  523. was not in vain.

  524. Something happened.

  525. Paul encountered

  526. the resurrected Jesus

  527. in his life.

  528. He encountered Jesus,

  529. and this encounter

  530. was so powerful

  531. that it would make

  532. his trajectory in life

  533. completely different,

  534. that he would make

  535. a whole 180 degrees

  536. in his life

  537. to follow this Jesus

  538. whom he was persecuting.

  539. So this is a very,

  540. very important witness

  541. that the witness of Jesus

  542. who appears to us

  543. changes and transforms

  544. our lives.

  545. So here in the ESV,

  546. in the English Standard Version

  547. that I'm reading,

  548. it's not very,

  549. very clear,

  550. but I did look at

  551. the Greek translation.

  552. It's talking about here

  553. in verse 8.

  554. Last of all,

  555. as to one untimely born,

  556. he appeared also to me.

  557. It says here,

  558. as to one untimely born.

  559. And the tone of this

  560. slogan that he gives himself

  561. is a little bit awkward.

  562. It's a little bit different.

  563. It talks about

  564. as if to an aborted fetus.

  565. And that's,

  566. that's strange.

  567. So,

  568. Paul uses this

  569. because his conversion

  570. was so unnatural.

  571. He was going one way

  572. and his trajectory

  573. was going one way

  574. and then all of a sudden

  575. he is taking out

  576. of this trajectory

  577. and he's put into

  578. somewhere else.

  579. And,

  580. you know,

  581. praise God

  582. that that happened,

  583. but that's a weird title

  584. to give yourself

  585. and it's a very uncomfortable

  586. title to give yourself.

  587. And Paul puts it here

  588. in his testimony.

  589. And he also puts

  590. that he persecuted

  591. the church of God.

  592. And I can just imagine

  593. Paul going from one place

  594. to another

  595. and his testimony

  596. that he was the persecutor

  597. of God.

  598. Yes,

  599. that's a great story.

  600. That's a great story.

  601. But this testimony

  602. that he is the one

  603. who would

  604. attack these Christians

  605. is probably a very,

  606. very haunting one

  607. to him.

  608. You know,

  609. there's a lot of things

  610. that I regret

  611. having done in my life

  612. and I'm a Christian now.

  613. I can say,

  614. wow,

  615. by God's grace,

  616. you know,

  617. I'm a new man

  618. and,

  619. you know,

  620. God is great.

  621. But the memory

  622. of this,

  623. of the things

  624. that I've lived,

  625. the things that I've done,

  626. still haunts me.

  627. And I think about it

  628. almost every day.

  629. It's like

  630. this little,

  631. I don't know,

  632. this little character

  633. that comes beside me

  634. and says,

  635. hey,

  636. do you remember me?

  637. And he tries to explain

  638. to me who I was.

  639. And it's interesting here

  640. that in the scripture,

  641. Paul does not neglect

  642. his testimony.

  643. He does not

  644. put it away.

  645. He does not try

  646. to put it in a box

  647. and forget about it.

  648. But it's right there.

  649. And we're reading about it

  650. 2,000 years later.

  651. You know,

  652. there's a lot of

  653. spiritual practices

  654. that try to

  655. meditate our way

  656. out of who we are

  657. because the burden

  658. of our,

  659. of the reality

  660. is so hard

  661. and intolerable

  662. as we even pray

  663. that the burden

  664. of them is intolerable.

  665. The burden of our sins

  666. is intolerable.

  667. And there's more

  668. religious people

  669. who like to

  670. do the right thing

  671. and do the right rules

  672. and practice them

  673. so that the remembrance

  674. of,

  675. of who we were

  676. and the sins

  677. that we've committed

  678. would be no more.

  679. And we have to acknowledge

  680. that these things

  681. leave a really

  682. deep scar

  683. in our lives,

  684. that they are wounds

  685. in our lives.

  686. and the gospel

  687. brings us

  688. to a different place

  689. where there is,

  690. where we don't forget

  691. who we were

  692. and we don't

  693. try to please God

  694. so that we,

  695. so that he would forget

  696. who we were

  697. but both of them

  698. collide together.

  699. The new us

  700. and the old us.

  701. And that meets

  702. perfectly in the cross.

  703. When we look at Jesus,

  704. we see him here,

  705. he's on the cross

  706. and he has holes

  707. in his hands

  708. and he has holes

  709. in his feet

  710. and the story

  711. would say

  712. that he would have

  713. a lot of whipping marks

  714. on his body

  715. and this would speak

  716. of the sins

  717. that we committed.

  718. Theologically speaking,

  719. it would be because

  720. of our sins.

  721. It would not be

  722. because of his sins

  723. because he didn't have any.

  724. Now, if Jesus didn't

  725. rise from the dead,

  726. these scars

  727. would tell the story

  728. of a blasphemer.

  729. They would tell the story

  730. of a man who claimed

  731. to be the Messiah

  732. but, you know,

  733. he's nothing else.

  734. But,

  735. Jesus rose from the dead

  736. and we see him here.

  737. He still has the marks

  738. in his hands

  739. and these tell

  740. a different story.

  741. These tell the story

  742. of a victory

  743. over sin

  744. and over death.

  745. You know,

  746. we read that

  747. when Paul says,

  748. but by God's grace,

  749. I am what I am.

  750. And some days,

  751. I can't even lift up

  752. my fist to say that

  753. and can say,

  754. well, you know,

  755. I am what I am.

  756. But,

  757. the memory of

  758. the things that I've done

  759. is so true

  760. and so vivid

  761. and I don't even know

  762. how to deal with it.

  763. And I think it's important

  764. that we notice

  765. that Paul

  766. keeps it in his testimony

  767. because

  768. instead of thinking

  769. as Paul,

  770. as the super apostle,

  771. as super Paul,

  772. he had real struggles

  773. just like you and me.

  774. And Paul here

  775. acknowledges

  776. that he has

  777. these deep wounds

  778. and he has these deep cuts

  779. of the things

  780. that he's done.

  781. But they have a new name.

  782. They have a new

  783. meaning to them.

  784. And just like Jesus

  785. holds on his hands

  786. and on his feet,

  787. these speak

  788. of a new story.

  789. Not that of brokenness,

  790. but that of victory.

  791. So God's grace

  792. leads us to a place

  793. where we can acknowledge,

  794. yes,

  795. we have this pain,

  796. we have this brokenness,

  797. but now they have

  798. a new name

  799. and we don't have

  800. to hide it.

  801. We can share it

  802. with one another.

  803. We can share

  804. that we have

  805. a lot of things

  806. that hold us back

  807. and things

  808. that have hurt us

  809. along the way.

  810. But that's not

  811. the end of the story.

  812. That Jesus rose

  813. from the dead

  814. and when we put

  815. our faith and trust

  816. in Jesus,

  817. complete trust,

  818. complete dependence

  819. upon Jesus,

  820. who is the only one

  821. who can pay for our sins,

  822. the only one

  823. who gives the right

  824. and complete antidote

  825. to death,

  826. our hope will not

  827. be in vain,

  828. that our hope

  829. will be in Jesus

  830. who has risen

  831. from the dead

  832. and that we will

  833. be with him.

  834. Earlier we read

  835. on the screen

  836. the lamb who was

  837. on the throne

  838. as if he was slain.

  839. as if he was slain.

  840. It's probably not

  841. a pretty sight,

  842. but they tell

  843. the story of victory.

  844. Please stand.

  845. Heavenly Father,

  846. thank you that

  847. thank you that you do not

  848. by your grace

  849. completely erase

  850. the memory

  851. of who we were,

  852. but Father,

  853. that you bring redemption,

  854. that you give

  855. a new name

  856. and a new reason

  857. and a new purpose

  858. for who we are.

  859. Father,

  860. would you help us

  861. to come to you

  862. with all that we are

  863. and Father,

  864. would you be gracious

  865. to touch every part

  866. of who we are

  867. and give it a new name.

  868. Would you help us

  869. to walk in victory?

  870. Father,

  871. would you bless us

  872. and bless this time?

  873. We look to you, God.

  874. You're the only one

  875. who is worthy

  876. of all praise.

  877. You're the only one

  878. who can do any of this,

  879. who can bring healing,

  880. who can bring redemption

  881. and victory.

  882. Lord,

  883. we look to you

  884. in Jesus' name.

  885. Amen.