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Self-deception

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  1. Father, we confess before you that a lot of us are sort of in a rush a lot of times.

  2. And Father, that when we come to your word, we're in a bit of a rush.

  3. And so if things just don't make sense really quickly and easily to us,

  4. we just sort of think the problem is somehow not us.

  5. So Father, we thank you that you know us.

  6. We thank you that you love us, that we don't catch you by surprise.

  7. So we ask, Father, that you would gently pour the Holy Spirit upon each one of us this morning

  8. to calm our mind and our hearts and our wills, our memories, our imaginations,

  9. that your Holy Spirit would calm us so that we might sit with your word and dwell with your word.

  10. And Father, we ask that you would write your word in the command center of our lives.

  11. And all this we ask in the name of Jesus, your Son and our Savior. Amen.

  12. Please be seated.

  13. So this week on Friday, I had the great honor and privilege.

  14. I really do consider it a great honor and privilege when I get invited to go on Parliament Hill

  15. to speak to the Parliament Hill Christian Fellowship.

  16. Some of you know that there are Christian MPs on Parliament Hill and Christian senators.

  17. They meet privately on some other day of the week just amongst themselves

  18. so they can sort of share across party lines and pray for each other.

  19. It might be a good idea for some of us to pray for them when they do that.

  20. But on Friday, some of the staff workers and some of the people who work in civil service

  21. right near Parliament Hill, they come together for a time to get to know each other,

  22. encourage each other, and somebody usually opens the Bible and talks to them

  23. about what the Bible teaches.

  24. And that was my great privilege this past Friday.

  25. And I gave them sort of like a little bit of a preview of what I was going to be trying

  26. to say to you folks this morning.

  27. And so one of the ways I began, here I am on Parliament Hill, and I said,

  28. it must be really nice to work on Parliament Hill where you don't have to deal with anybody

  29. with big egos.

  30. And I got a bit of a chuckle out of that.

  31. And then I said, you know, if I was in your seat, I would immediately respond,

  32. George, it must be so nice to work in the church where you never have to deal with big egos.

  33. Because, of course, there's a lot of big egos in the church.

  34. But why are there big egos in the church?

  35. You know?

  36. And why is it that we're a lot better at seeing other people's big egos

  37. than we are at seeing our own big egos, right?

  38. I mean, that's the fact of the matter is, that we're a lot better at noticing big egos

  39. in other people than we are with ourselves.

  40. And so the text that we're going to look at today in Galatians chapter 5,

    Galatians 5 chapter mention

  41. it has a lot of great wisdom and insight about the whole problem of big egos

  42. and our ability to recognize them or not.

  43. And it might be a bit of a surprise to you for me to say that,

  44. because for many people when they read the text, which I read earlier today,

  45. the main thing that strikes them isn't that it's talking about big egos,

  46. but how it seems to contradict itself time and time again.

  47. So if you look at the text with me, it's Galatians chapter 5, verse 26.

    Galatians 5:26

  48. It's the last verse of chapter 5.

  49. Galatians chapter 5, verse 26.

    Galatians 5:26

  50. And here's what it says.

  51. Let us not become conceited.

  52. By the way, it's just six verses that we're looking at today,

  53. but they're very packed and powerful verses.

  54. And here's how it begins.

  55. Let us not become conceited, provoking one another, envying one another.

  56. Brothers and sisters, if anyone is caught in any transgression,

  57. you who are spiritual should restore him or her in a spirit of gentleness.

  58. Keep watch on yourself, lest you too be tempted.

  59. By the way, this text isn't giving us permission to go around and be like a group of moral police,

  60. examining each other, hoping to catch people in something.

  61. That's not what the verse is talking about at all.

  62. And notice this command about the self-awareness that we're tempted ourselves,

  63. and we're to do it gently.

  64. Verse 2, and this is where some of the contradictions,

  65. or at least apparent contradictions, start to make themselves clear.

  66. Bear one another's burdens, and so fulfill the law of Christ.

  67. For if anyone thinks he is something when he is nothing, he deceives himself.

  68. But let each one test his own work, and then his reason to boast will be in himself alone,

  69. and not in his neighbor.

  70. And just sort of pause before the last verse.

  71. Doesn't it sound a little bit as if it's saying,

  72. that we can boast, that we're allowed to boast, but isn't boasting a sin?

  73. Like, how does boasting go along with the spirit of gentleness and not being tempted?

  74. And then it says, for each of us, each will have to bear his own load.

  75. That's verse 5.

  76. So how is it that we have to bear each other's burdens,

  77. and we each bear our own load?

  78. And it just seems on one level to be a little bit confusing in the text.

  79. And it starts off with this command.

  80. It's easy to command people not to be conceited.

  81. Of course, as you know, one of the problems is that we can end up being proud at how humble we are.

  82. Boy, God, I thank you so much that I'm not conceited like those other people.

  83. I mean, you know, that's part of the dilemma.

  84. The very moment when you start to think that you have some victory,

  85. the devil can completely and utterly undercut you by making you proud at your victory.

  86. And which is, by the way, one of the reasons why the ancient spiritual writers

  87. considered pride to be the deadliest of sins.

  88. Because no matter how much victory you got on some of the other sins,

  89. pride could always rear its head and bite you in the butt or infect you.

  90. That it's, in fact, very, very hard to stamp out.

  91. Many, many years ago in a previous church, I had a fellow in the congregation,

  92. and I went to his 100th birthday party.

  93. And I used to bring him communion about once a month.

  94. And his name was Eve Byers.

  95. And, you know, we had a bit of a conversation.

  96. And just some of us, you young guys, you just have to trust me with this one,

  97. just like I have to trust Eve Byers.

  98. But when you're 100 years old, you don't have the temptation for lust as much as you did when you were 20.

  99. Some of those desires die a little bit by the time you're 100.

  100. But it's still easy to be proud of the fact that you've outlived so many people.

  101. Like, no matter how old you are, pride can still rear its head.

  102. So what's going on here on the text?

  103. And why is it that there's so many big egos?

  104. Why is it that we're blind about it?

  105. And why is it that so many of us don't think that we have the problem with big egos?

  106. We have battered and timid egos.

  107. In fact, many people outside the Christian circles, if they were to talk about Christians,

  108. they would see us as either being very, very timid, far too timid,

  109. or they would think of us as being far too full of ourselves.

  110. Well, let's just look at this one verse to sort of try to tease this text out a little bit.

  111. Look at chapter 6, verse 4.

  112. It says,

  113. So here's the first insight about the text.

  114. This is a very odd text.

  115. We're going to talk about it a bit.

  116. But here's the first thing.

  117. If you could put up the first point, Andrew, that would be very helpful.

  118. It is very hard for me to judge myself or assess myself.

  119. Maybe assess would be a better word right here.

  120. It's very hard for me to assess myself without assessing or judging myself by comparing myself to other people.

  121. You ever notice that?

  122. It's almost completely impossible for us just to assess ourselves as us.

  123. Like, you know, if I'm assessing myself as a pastor,

  124. it's very hard for me not to compare myself to other pastors and how they preach

  125. and other churches and how they seem to be doing on metrics which the world thinks are very, very important.

  126. It's very, very, very hard for me to do that.

  127. Like, even if I try to do it, very quickly I'll start to notice that there's this comparison with others that sneaks itself in,

  128. sneaks into my attempt to understand myself.

  129. In fact, I would suggest that this is a human problem,

  130. that human beings have a hard time doing this now,

  131. just being able to assess themselves as if there's just almost as if they're the only person who exists and God,

  132. and what other people are doing and how they're handling things are sort of irrelevant to assessing ourselves.

  133. It's a human problem.

  134. And it's a bit of a shock to a lot of Christians to discover that they're still human.

  135. And we are.

  136. That even if we've been saved by grace alone, through faith alone and Christ alone,

  137. it's human beings who are saved, and we still have to grow and deal with the human condition.

  138. And so some of you might say,

  139. Well, George, that's really, really, really helpful for you to tell me that we have this human problem

  140. that we're going to have all of our lives.

  141. I was hoping for something a little bit more hopeful than that.

  142. And then some of you as well might be saying,

  143. Well, George, here's the problem with this.

  144. If I was to really try to just assess myself and judge myself as if only I exist and God,

  145. aren't you encouraging Christians to ignore social cues?

  146. Like there have, I was just giving somebody in another church a week or two ago some advice.

  147. They had a person in the congregation, and, you know, I don't know what the issue was.

  148. Maybe it was there on the autism spectrum a little bit or whatever.

  149. It was a bit of a mental illness or just whatever it is.

  150. I don't know.

  151. I wasn't a psychologist.

  152. But what the problem was is that the person was causing trouble in the church

  153. because the person didn't pick up social cues.

  154. Like they were hugging women, and the women didn't want to be hugged.

  155. And they would come and talk to people, and they'd stand way too close.

  156. And one of the advice I gave is that for people who suffered that,

  157. you have to be far more direct.

  158. You almost have to be what...

  159. If I was to talk to the person I was giving advice to, a pastor,

  160. if I was to talk to you in this way, you would be unbelievably offended.

  161. But for people who can't pick up social cues,

  162. you have to realize there's something wrong with them,

  163. and so you need to be far more direct and blunt with them

  164. and in their face about it than you would be with a person who can't pick up social cues.

  165. But the question is, if in fact the way forward is just to judge myself

  166. without comparing myself to other people, George,

  167. you're not encouraging churches and Christians to...

  168. They're not dealing with their big ego.

  169. They're not dealing with being too timid.

  170. All you've done is made them like this person who can't pick up social cues.

  171. Well, no, the Bible is far wiser than that.

  172. Listen to verse 4 again.

  173. Actually, no, before we read verse 4, could you put up the next point?

  174. Here's the issue.

  175. God never judges me by comparing me to other people.

  176. Look all the way through the Bible.

  177. Now, there will be times when God will say to Israel, for instance,

  178. listen, you're even worse than the nations.

  179. There is a time in 1 Corinthians when Paul says,

  180. you guys are doing things that even the pagans wouldn't do.

  181. But the heart of the judgment isn't that they don't match up to pagans.

  182. The heart of the judgment is,

  183. guys, it's wrong to have a young man sleep with his mom.

  184. That's part of the issue in 1 Corinthians.

  185. It isn't the issue of whether or not there's some type of curve going on.

  186. But that God, in fact, all the way through the Bible,

  187. God never judges me by comparing me to other people.

  188. And yet, I can't judge myself without comparing myself to other people.

  189. And, you know, the Bible does something, you know, just like,

  190. I mean, this is really actually a very, very important thing to meditate upon.

  191. You know, the average Canadian, and most of us are average Canadians,

  192. but not maybe in this particular way.

  193. What does the average Canadian say?

  194. You know, you sort of, you know, parse out or take out the well-instructed atheists

  195. who really are very consistent atheists who say that when they die,

  196. they become worm food, and that's it.

  197. And maybe you take out the very well-instructed Muslims

  198. who would believe that a small percentage of the human race

  199. will go to where all the virgins are, and everybody else goes to hell.

  200. And you take out the small number of very well-instructed Hindus and Buddhists

  201. who would understand that after the cycle of life and rebirth and life and rebirth,

  202. eventually you merge with the one and you sort of disappear

  203. because you've merged with the one.

  204. And then you take out the very, very small number of maybe well-instructed Christians.

  205. But the average Canadian, once you've taken all those things away,

  206. and it might be, I don't know, 80% of Canada, what do they say when you die?

  207. You go to a better place.

  208. Now, why do they say that?

  209. Because they say, I mean, they have no reason for saying that,

  210. but they say that because at the end of the day,

  211. they think God grades on some type of curve.

  212. And they might say those mean, nasty Muslims,

  213. they think only the top 2% are going to get into heaven.

  214. And those crazy Christians,

  215. they maybe only think the top 10% is going to get into heaven.

  216. And we have no word at all to describe Jehovah Witnesses

  217. that only think a fraction of a fraction of a fraction of a fraction of 1%

  218. will make it into heaven.

  219. We're far more tolerant.

  220. We think like 60% of people will be going to heaven,

  221. or 80% of Canadians will go to heaven,

  222. or everybody in Canada except those who voted for Donald Trump will go to heaven.

  223. And we just sort of think that.

  224. We just sort of think that God looks,

  225. and he compares us and say,

  226. yeah, you folks are all good folks,

  227. you're all good lads,

  228. all good women,

  229. and yeah, yeah, you're all going to go.

  230. Because how do we think?

  231. We think that God judges us in comparison to other people.

  232. And the Bible says that God never judges me

  233. by comparing me to other people.

  234. Like, never.

  235. And so, when we start to realize this,

  236. if you look now, look at this,

  237. look at chapter 6 again.

  238. Look at verse 5.

  239. It says,

  240. for each will have to bear his own load.

  241. And just so you know,

  242. in case I run out of time later on in the sermon,

  243. the original,

  244. I mean, in most of your English versions,

  245. it'll have a different word for burden

  246. in verse 2 and load in verse 5.

  247. And that's because there's very, very radically different words

  248. in the original language.

  249. And the word for load

  250. would be the same word as the pack

  251. that a soldier puts on

  252. to go off to leave the base

  253. to go for battle.

  254. He would carry, or she would carry,

  255. their pack.

  256. It is, in a sense,

  257. it would be that

  258. if you go on a hiking trip

  259. and you have the things you need

  260. to survive the hiking trip

  261. on your back

  262. or in your car

  263. if you're going moose hunting

  264. or something like that,

  265. you carry the things with you.

  266. And in a sense,

  267. it's the things of your life.

  268. The word for burden,

  269. which we'll look at

  270. a little bit more in a moment,

  271. the word for burden

  272. is something which is

  273. very, very, very heavy,

  274. which in effect

  275. you can't really carry by yourself

  276. and you have to carry

  277. for a very, very long distance.

  278. And so they're very, very different ideas.

  279. So if you look at verse 5 again,

  280. mindful of the fact

  281. that God never judges me

  282. by comparing me to other people,

  283. the text says

  284. each will have to bear his own load.

  285. I'm held responsible

  286. for how I do with you folks.

  287. I'm held responsible

  288. for how I deal with the money

  289. that I've been entrusted with from God

  290. with my own family.

  291. It isn't that I'm judged

  292. in terms of like Bill Hybels

  293. with his big church

  294. or somebody with a...

  295. Like I have my load

  296. and I need to deal with my load.

  297. God will judge me

  298. in terms of how I deal

  299. with the things

  300. which have been placed

  301. in my care.

  302. And, you know,

  303. look back at verse 4.

  304. But let each one test his own work.

  305. Then his reason to boast

  306. will be in himself alone

  307. and not in his neighbor.

  308. You see that whole idea there

  309. about testing your own work

  310. and not your neighbor

  311. in terms of...

  312. That we're so used to

  313. judging ourselves

  314. in terms of our neighbor.

  315. And we'll talk a little bit

  316. in a moment

  317. about boasting about himself alone.

  318. But just a very simple idea there, right?

  319. Remember,

  320. the idea is very clear

  321. in the Bible

  322. that humility

  323. is not telling lies

  324. about yourself.

  325. If Einstein said,

  326. I suck at math,

  327. that wouldn't be humble.

  328. If Usain Bolt said,

  329. I can't even keep up

  330. with a 95-year-old

  331. and a walker,

  332. he's lying.

  333. And humility

  334. isn't telling lies

  335. about yourself.

  336. It's other things about it,

  337. but it's definitely

  338. never telling lies

  339. about yourself.

  340. And look up at verse 3.

  341. For if anyone thinks

  342. he is something

  343. when he is nothing,

  344. he deceives himself.

  345. And that's all

  346. going to be seen

  347. in a moment about...

  348. We're going to understand

  349. how the Bible means it,

  350. but we tend to think

  351. of ourselves

  352. as being nothing

  353. and compared to others.

  354. We're something

  355. and compared to others.

  356. That if I meet

  357. a whole pile of pastors

  358. and they have churches

  359. with only 25 people in them,

  360. it's...

  361. I mean,

  362. this is self-disclosure.

  363. You pray for me.

  364. It's easy for me

  365. to think I'm something.

  366. And if I go to something

  367. and everybody there

  368. has churches

  369. that have like a thousand

  370. on a Sunday,

  371. I feel like nothing.

  372. But God never judges me

  373. by comparing me

  374. to other people.

  375. Like, never.

  376. Like, never.

  377. So,

  378. some of you say,

  379. okay, George,

  380. well,

  381. I'm not sure

  382. where to go with this.

  383. Well,

  384. let's go back

  385. to how the text begins

  386. in chapter 5,

  387. verse 26.

  388. It's just a few small words,

  389. chapter 5,

  390. verse 26,

  391. but it's very,

  392. very,

  393. very powerful,

  394. very,

  395. very deep,

  396. very wise,

  397. and very insightful

  398. about the human condition.

  399. And it says,

  400. let us not become conceited,

  401. provoking one another,

  402. envying one another.

  403. And just so you know,

  404. when it says here,

  405. let us not become conceited,

  406. provoking one another,

  407. and envying one another,

  408. I guess if I had thought about it,

  409. it's not as if

  410. there's three things

  411. that we have to deal with,

  412. conceited,

  413. being conceited,

  414. provoking others,

  415. and envying others,

  416. it's a very clear direction

  417. that there's this problem

  418. with being conceited,

  419. and that leads

  420. and shows itself

  421. in two different ways,

  422. provoking other people

  423. and envying other people.

  424. Like,

  425. it flows from conceit,

  426. these other two problems.

  427. And so,

  428. just to sort of

  429. unpack it a little bit,

  430. if you could put up

  431. the next point,

  432. underneath this text,

  433. is something

  434. which isn't very flattering

  435. about the human being,

  436. the human person,

  437. but it's very true.

  438. I am like you.

  439. Yeah,

  440. you come here

  441. so I can insult you.

  442. If the Bible,

  443. it's not me,

  444. it's the Bible.

  445. I am like you.

  446. I have glory hunger.

  447. I've adapted this idea

  448. from something

  449. Tim Keller

  450. talks about very movingly,

  451. and he calls it

  452. honor hunger.

  453. And that is

  454. that human beings

  455. have this hunger,

  456. this desire

  457. to be honored,

  458. to be recognized,

  459. to not just be recognized

  460. as,

  461. oh yeah,

  462. there's old Joe Blow,

  463. or oh yeah,

  464. there's Sue,

  465. but to recognize

  466. as,

  467. whoa,

  468. there's Joe,

  469. or whoa,

  470. there's Sue.

  471. They're fantastic.

  472. They're awesome.

  473. They're brilliant.

  474. They're beautiful.

  475. They're whatever.

  476. And every human being

  477. has this honor hunger

  478. or glory hunger.

  479. And it's not even necessarily

  480. something we struggle about

  481. because it's almost hard

  482. for us as human beings

  483. who can't assess ourselves

  484. without comparing ourselves

  485. to others.

  486. It's almost completely impossible

  487. for us human beings

  488. to assess ourselves

  489. and somehow leave behind

  490. this hunger we have

  491. for recognition

  492. and for honor.

  493. And here's so many places

  494. where the Bible

  495. is just unbelievably wise.

  496. Because,

  497. you know,

  498. it talks about how

  499. in Genesis 1 and 2

  500. how human beings

  501. are made in God's image

  502. and likeness

  503. and how God makes

  504. the entire created order

  505. for us as human beings

  506. to dwell here

  507. as our home.

  508. And he's given us,

  509. you know,

  510. a role in terms of

  511. like almost representing

  512. and being the ones

  513. who can give voice

  514. to the unceasing praise

  515. of the mountains

  516. and the seas

  517. and the birds

  518. and the animals

  519. and the stars.

  520. And his desire was

  521. that he could walk

  522. in the garden with us

  523. in the cool of the day.

  524. And we choose

  525. to rebel against God

  526. and rather than

  527. being able to walk

  528. with God in the garden,

  529. we decide we want

  530. to be like God.

  531. We want to be God

  532. because we don't trust

  533. God's word.

  534. We don't trust

  535. that he's going to be

  536. good enough.

  537. We're going to be

  538. God ourselves.

  539. And when that happens,

  540. there's this bending

  541. and this fundamental break

  542. in our relationship

  543. with God

  544. and our relationship

  545. with ourselves

  546. and our relationship

  547. with each other

  548. and our relationship

  549. with the created order.

  550. And it creates within us

  551. because we're creatures

  552. made in the image of God.

  553. We are created

  554. with this hunger

  555. to be connected

  556. to the one

  557. in whose image we are.

  558. a hunger

  559. to walk with God

  560. in the garden

  561. where God

  562. in a sense

  563. every day

  564. as we walk

  565. with God

  566. in the garden

  567. puts his arm around

  568. and he says,

  569. how's it going?

  570. I love walking

  571. in the garden

  572. with you.

  573. And because he's God,

  574. he can do it

  575. for a billion people,

  576. seven billion people,

  577. 20 billion people,

  578. 50 billion people

  579. to each one.

  580. We were in a sense

  581. made for God

  582. to put his arm

  583. around you

  584. and say,

  585. gosh,

  586. it's good to walk

  587. in the garden

  588. with you.

  589. I love spending

  590. time with you.

  591. It's like we have

  592. a type of a wound

  593. within us.

  594. That hunger

  595. for honor,

  596. for recognition,

  597. for being in glory

  598. which can only really be

  599. not by being

  600. like a God ourselves

  601. but by being

  602. with the true creator God

  603. and sustainer God

  604. and that's just gone.

  605. And that's why

  606. if you could put up

  607. the next point,

  608. the word translated

  609. as conceit,

  610. it's a very,

  611. very,

  612. very good word

  613. but this is actually

  614. one of those cases

  615. where the old

  616. King James version

  617. of the Bible

  618. actually has a better word.

  619. If you go back

  620. and you look up

  621. the King James version

  622. of the Bible,

  623. it doesn't use

  624. the word conceit,

  625. it uses the word

  626. vainglory.

  627. That's really

  628. old-fashioned.

  629. But this word,

  630. although I think

  631. there's a video game

  632. involving lots of

  633. mayhem and murder

  634. called it,

  635. but that's separate.

  636. So other than people

  637. who watch,

  638. you know,

  639. play those games,

  640. it's an old-fashioned word.

  641. But I am like you.

  642. I desire

  643. vain glory,

  644. glory for myself

  645. in regard to matters

  646. that are in reality

  647. unrighteous.

  648. So,

  649. if I would ever

  650. get to do this sermon

  651. again,

  652. I'm going to use

  653. that line a little bit

  654. different because

  655. there's sort of

  656. three ideas

  657. behind this idea

  658. of vainglory

  659. and only one of them

  660. is around

  661. unimportant matters.

  662. Quite a few years ago

  663. when I was in my

  664. previous church,

  665. which was a rural

  666. country church,

  667. I was doing a wedding

  668. rehearsal one night

  669. and I was having

  670. a lot of trouble

  671. with my Chrysler minivan,

  672. my Dodge Chrysler minivan.

  673. And so,

  674. the women hadn't arrived

  675. but the guys were there.

  676. And this is country.

  677. Every one of these guys,

  678. I mean,

  679. they could have built

  680. their own sawmill,

  681. built their own truck,

  682. built their own airplane,

  683. wired the house.

  684. I mean,

  685. these are like the

  686. archetype,

  687. burly,

  688. country,

  689. handy guys.

  690. So,

  691. I think we have

  692. a few moments.

  693. I'm going to ask

  694. one of them to come over,

  695. the groom,

  696. the future groom,

  697. to come over

  698. and have a look

  699. at my van

  700. which is giving me

  701. some problems

  702. and he saunters over

  703. in his jeans

  704. and his cowboy boots

  705. and he looks at it

  706. and for the next

  707. five minutes,

  708. and his buddies

  709. and the dad

  710. and all,

  711. they come behind him

  712. and for the next

  713. five minutes,

  714. he ragged on me

  715. for being so stupid

  716. as to buy a Chrysler.

  717. And basically,

  718. if you're stupid enough

  719. to buy a Chrysler,

  720. there's nothing you can do

  721. for something

  722. which is a Chrysler.

  723. And for five minutes,

  724. he and his buddies

  725. ragged me on this issue

  726. and it only ended

  727. when it turned out

  728. there were about six of them

  729. and four of them

  730. were Chevy guys

  731. and two of them

  732. were Ford guys.

  733. So then they ragged

  734. on each other

  735. for being so stupid

  736. to drive a Chevy

  737. or a Ford.

  738. And,

  739. you know,

  740. it was as if

  741. it was a point

  742. of importance

  743. to them

  744. that they're not stupid

  745. like other people.

  746. And this was

  747. in the early 90s.

  748. They would have gotten

  749. very foul-mouthed

  750. if it came to

  751. Japanese vehicles,

  752. let me tell you.

  753. Had to be American,

  754. North American.

  755. And so,

  756. but here's the thing,

  757. okay?

  758. So this word

  759. which we translate

  760. in our Bible here

  761. is conceit

  762. which could also be

  763. translated as vainglory.

  764. One of the aspects

  765. of vainglory

  766. is that we think

  767. we're important

  768. because of things

  769. which are completely

  770. and utterly unimportant.

  771. There was a thing

  772. in the National Post

  773. just a week or two ago

  774. and to my amazement

  775. it said that

  776. a lot of women

  777. in their 20s

  778. spend $300 a month

  779. on makeup.

  780. I wish,

  781. I couldn't believe it.

  782. Imagine the better Chevy

  783. you could get

  784. with an extra $300 a month.

  785. But I couldn't believe it

  786. so I asked

  787. one of my kids

  788. and they said,

  789. yeah, yeah,

  790. that's very,

  791. there's a lot of

  792. young women

  793. who spend $300

  794. a month on makeup

  795. and then they said,

  796. you should be so glad

  797. you have me as your daughter

  798. and you're married to Louise

  799. and I'm very grateful

  800. for them as my daughters

  801. and Louise

  802. because they definitely

  803. don't spend $300

  804. a month

  805. on makeup.

  806. But people can be

  807. very proud about that

  808. but makeup?

  809. Your ability

  810. to put on makeup?

  811. You know,

  812. you read style magazines

  813. and people are proud

  814. about their ability

  815. to pick out the right color

  816. or proud about their ability

  817. to pick out the right whiskey

  818. or proud about their ability

  819. to pick up the right coffee

  820. or whatever it is

  821. or the anti type of stuff.

  822. You know,

  823. we don't waste our money

  824. on all that stuff.

  825. We go to Costco

  826. or wherever,

  827. whatever the hipster reaction is.

  828. But so part of vainglory

  829. and judging yourself

  830. to other people

  831. is a pride over things

  832. which don't matter at all.

  833. If you don't know this,

  834. you've heard me say it before,

  835. God never judges you

  836. by how much money you make.

  837. He doesn't judge you

  838. and say you're bad

  839. if you're poor

  840. and good if you're rich

  841. or bad if you're rich

  842. and good if you're poor

  843. and he doesn't judge you

  844. in terms of whether

  845. you have 10 extra pounds

  846. or 20 extra pounds

  847. or whether you're too skinny.

  848. He doesn't judge you

  849. on how many muscles you have

  850. or whether you're good looking

  851. or whether you're ugly.

  852. He doesn't judge you

  853. on whether you're smart

  854. or whether you're dumb

  855. or your IQ's high,

  856. your IQ's low,

  857. your EQ's high,

  858. your EQ's low.

  859. None of those things

  860. which matter so much to us

  861. does God ever judge us on.

  862. And we really think

  863. we're something

  864. on a lot of those issues

  865. and that's vain glory.

  866. And the other aspect

  867. of vain glory

  868. is that it's a desire

  869. for,

  870. it's a desire

  871. to be seen by others

  872. as being important.

  873. In effect,

  874. it's a desire by others

  875. to be seen by others

  876. as if you're somehow

  877. a little bit of a God

  878. and there it's a matter of,

  879. that's a vain pursuit,

  880. right?

  881. It would be like,

  882. like a vain pursuit

  883. would be,

  884. I don't know,

  885. like a football analogy

  886. to Cleveland Browns

  887. trying to win the Super Bowl

  888. this year or next.

  889. That's a vain pursuit.

  890. There's no hope

  891. in it whatsoever.

  892. If they win it next year,

  893. that would be really,

  894. I'm not a prophet,

  895. okay?

  896. If they win it next year,

  897. that would be shocking.

  898. But a vain pursuit.

  899. And then the third aspect

  900. of it is it just means

  901. vain in the sense

  902. of self-centered

  903. and conceit.

  904. A vain person.

  905. And it's all captured

  906. in the original language

  907. and it's all wonderfully

  908. captured in this word

  909. vain glory,

  910. which I understand

  911. why they don't translate it

  912. because it's an old word

  913. and has to be explained.

  914. And so what the Bible

  915. is saying is,

  916. I am like you.

  917. I desire vain glory.

  918. Glory for myself

  919. in regard to matters

  920. that are in reality

  921. unimportant.

  922. Or I desire vain glory

  923. because I'm vain.

  924. I just think there's

  925. something unbelievably

  926. special about me.

  927. Or I desire vain glory

  928. because I want to have

  929. everybody honor me.

  930. I have an honor hunger.

  931. I have a glory hunger.

  932. And I walk around

  933. with this glory hunger

  934. and honor hunger

  935. all the time.

  936. But some of you

  937. might say,

  938. George,

  939. I so wish

  940. my husband

  941. could hear this

  942. because you've just

  943. described him perfectly.

  944. Or I just so wish

  945. my dad could hear this

  946. because you've just

  947. described him to a T.

  948. But George,

  949. I've been beat up

  950. by people like that

  951. all my life.

  952. And that's not my problem.

  953. Let's listen to the text again.

  954. Remember I said,

  955. let us not become conceited

  956. or let us not

  957. become vainglorious.

  958. Remember I said

  959. that in the language

  960. it then says

  961. there's two different things

  962. that flow from it.

  963. provoking one another

  964. or envying one another.

  965. If you could put up

  966. the next point.

  967. So here's what the Bible

  968. has said.

  969. When I believe

  970. I am doing a great job

  971. in attaining vain glory.

  972. I know Scotch

  973. so much better

  974. than everybody here

  975. in the room

  976. except one person.

  977. Like just,

  978. you know,

  979. come on.

  980. Give me the kudos, right?

  981. When I believe

  982. I am doing a great job

  983. in attaining vain glory,

  984. I provoke people.

  985. And the word provoke

  986. here in the original language

  987. it means challenge people,

  988. irritate people.

  989. bother people.

  990. But when I believe

  991. I am doing a poor job

  992. in attaining vain glory,

  993. I envy other people.

  994. In other words,

  995. many of us

  996. who struggle

  997. with inferiority complexes,

  998. our problem is

  999. we have a vain glory project

  1000. and we just suck at it.

  1001. Or we think we suck at it

  1002. so we're depressed.

  1003. And other of us

  1004. have the exact same

  1005. vain glory project

  1006. but because we think

  1007. that it really matters

  1008. whether you buy your coffee

  1009. at Starbucks

  1010. or Tim Hortons,

  1011. we think we're better

  1012. than other people.

  1013. Like how stupid is that?

  1014. That's why the text says

  1015. we deceive ourselves.

  1016. Like we deceive ourselves

  1017. all the time.

  1018. And you see,

  1019. this is a very, very

  1020. unbelievably insightful

  1021. Bible passage.

  1022. And it's also,

  1023. by the way,

  1024. it's also a little bit,

  1025. see it's also very,

  1026. very helpful

  1027. because people are complex.

  1028. You know,

  1029. like,

  1030. so what can happen is,

  1031. so, you know,

  1032. I think there can just be somebody,

  1033. some people are just

  1034. so beat up by life

  1035. that they're basically

  1036. almost always

  1037. doing,

  1038. thinking they're doing

  1039. a poor job

  1040. of attaining vain glory.

  1041. And there's other people

  1042. who basically all the time

  1043. think they're doing

  1044. a spectacular job

  1045. and so they're dealing

  1046. with provoking people

  1047. all the time.

  1048. But most of us,

  1049. we're a mixture

  1050. of these things.

  1051. So it might very well be

  1052. that at work,

  1053. the husband thinks

  1054. he's really spectacular.

  1055. No, sorry,

  1056. got this wrong.

  1057. It might be that at work,

  1058. he looks at himself

  1059. and he thinks,

  1060. I'm not getting the promotions

  1061. I should be getting

  1062. and I don't,

  1063. I can't drive,

  1064. you know,

  1065. I'm stuck driving

  1066. a Ford Ranger

  1067. and I'd really like

  1068. to have enough money

  1069. to buy an F-150

  1070. or an F-250.

  1071. And so they're comparing

  1072. themselves to other people

  1073. and they feel insecure,

  1074. inferior,

  1075. and envious at work,

  1076. but they go home

  1077. and they think

  1078. their wife's a loser

  1079. and they feel superior.

  1080. And so they go through

  1081. their day

  1082. and they're a week

  1083. like a yo-yo.

  1084. They leave the house

  1085. and they feel inferior,

  1086. they come home

  1087. and they feel superior.

  1088. And you can multiply this

  1089. with friendships,

  1090. with sports,

  1091. with all sorts of things,

  1092. is that we can go

  1093. from one to the other.

  1094. But the fundamental problem

  1095. is that we have

  1096. a God project

  1097. and a glory hunger

  1098. and an honor hunger

  1099. that's completely

  1100. and utterly unexamined

  1101. and isn't being killed.

  1102. and isn't being replaced

  1103. by something else.

  1104. So, you know,

  1105. I don't say all this

  1106. to depress you.

  1107. I mean, think of all of us.

  1108. If you could put up

  1109. the next point,

  1110. great.

  1111. In the midst of our pursuit

  1112. of vain glory,

  1113. God, the Son of God,

  1114. emptied himself

  1115. and died for us

  1116. to save us.

  1117. In the midst of my pursuit

  1118. of vain glory,

  1119. God, the Son of God,

  1120. emptied himself

  1121. and died for me

  1122. to save me.

  1123. I mean,

  1124. you think about the gospel

  1125. for a second.

  1126. This is what's so

  1127. completely counter

  1128. to how we think

  1129. in terms of comparing

  1130. ourselves to others

  1131. and having an honor hunger

  1132. is that the Bible

  1133. describes it

  1134. from,

  1135. in Philippians 2,

  1136. it's very powerfully put

  1137. that

  1138. from all creation,

  1139. God,

  1140. the Son of God,

  1141. the second person

  1142. of the Trinity,

  1143. he lives in glory

  1144. and majesty

  1145. and splendor

  1146. and divine prerogatives

  1147. and he has this

  1148. unceasing love

  1149. and affection

  1150. with God,

  1151. the Father

  1152. and the Holy Spirit

  1153. is like the love

  1154. between the Father

  1155. and the Son

  1156. and is his own person

  1157. and there's just,

  1158. and God,

  1159. and God,

  1160. the Son of God,

  1161. out of love

  1162. for human beings

  1163. like you and me

  1164. who've rebelled

  1165. against God,

  1166. turned our back

  1167. on God,

  1168. shaken our fist

  1169. at God,

  1170. broken ourselves,

  1171. are walking around

  1172. with vain glory

  1173. projects,

  1174. glory hungers,

  1175. honor hungers,

  1176. comparing ourselves

  1177. to each other

  1178. and dumping on each other

  1179. and dumping on ourselves

  1180. and that's what we're doing

  1181. and God,

  1182. the Son of God,

  1183. looks down at us

  1184. and sees that we cannot

  1185. fix ourselves

  1186. and so out of love

  1187. for us,

  1188. he doesn't yell

  1189. at us

  1190. but he sets aside

  1191. his glory

  1192. and he sets aside

  1193. his honor

  1194. and he sets aside

  1195. his divine prerogatives

  1196. and he sets aside

  1197. everything that even

  1198. makes himself

  1199. look like God

  1200. and he sets all

  1201. of this aside

  1202. but he remains

  1203. in his fundamental

  1204. nature God

  1205. and he enters

  1206. the womb of Mary

  1207. taking into himself

  1208. our human nature

  1209. and God,

  1210. the Son of God,

  1211. the creator of all things,

  1212. the sustainer of all things,

  1213. the shaper of all things,

  1214. of unbelievable glory

  1215. and majesty

  1216. that when we

  1217. enter the new heaven

  1218. and the new earth

  1219. as redeemed individuals,

  1220. we will spend

  1221. all of eternity

  1222. and not exhaust

  1223. the beauty

  1224. and the glory

  1225. and the majesty

  1226. of God

  1227. and that same God,

  1228. the Son of God,

  1229. enters the womb of Mary

  1230. emptied of all

  1231. but that which continues

  1232. to make him God

  1233. but he empties himself

  1234. of all appearances

  1235. and his emptying

  1236. continues by living

  1237. a human life

  1238. in a remote corner

  1239. of the Roman Empire

  1240. under a conquered people

  1241. and he empties himself

  1242. even further

  1243. by dying on the cross

  1244. and on the cross

  1245. he bears your burdens

  1246. and mine,

  1247. he bears your load

  1248. and mine,

  1249. he bears your curse

  1250. and mine,

  1251. he bears our shame,

  1252. he bears our sin,

  1253. he bears our death,

  1254. he bears our rebellion

  1255. with nothing left over

  1256. that continues to be poured

  1257. into him

  1258. as he empties himself

  1259. and tastes all there is

  1260. to taste of death

  1261. and even for our sake

  1262. tastes abandonment

  1263. from the Father

  1264. and he does it all

  1265. to save you and me.

  1266. Could you put up

  1267. the next point?

  1268. Only God can save me

  1269. and only because

  1270. he loves me

  1271. and only by what

  1272. he did by his son's

  1273. death upon the cross

  1274. and only,

  1275. and it only

  1276. becomes mine

  1277. by faith

  1278. in his promise

  1279. to save.

  1280. Just like a little kid,

  1281. if you go out

  1282. after the service

  1283. and with the parents'

  1284. permission

  1285. and you say,

  1286. if you just put

  1287. your hand out,

  1288. I'll give you

  1289. ten bucks.

  1290. And that little kid

  1291. has to not just

  1292. have faith

  1293. that you're a rich guy

  1294. or a rich gal,

  1295. but that you do it

  1296. and they put their hand out

  1297. and you put it in,

  1298. the ten bucks in.

  1299. And

  1300. that's the same thing

  1301. with salvation.

  1302. God accomplishes

  1303. accomplishes something

  1304. in the person of his son

  1305. and the work of his son

  1306. and he tells us

  1307. that he's accomplished

  1308. it for us

  1309. and faith is putting

  1310. our hand out to God

  1311. and he puts that

  1312. in our hands.

  1313. So how does this story

  1314. help

  1315. as we're gripped

  1316. by the gospel,

  1317. as the Bible

  1318. comes into our lives,

  1319. as we think about

  1320. the gospel

  1321. and in thinking

  1322. about the gospel,

  1323. that we now start

  1324. to desire

  1325. that we want to have

  1326. God's word written

  1327. in our heart

  1328. because the gospel

  1329. now,

  1330. what does this text say?

  1331. This text says something

  1332. to those of us

  1333. who feel superior

  1334. over others.

  1335. This text tells us

  1336. those of us

  1337. who struggle with feeling,

  1338. who don't even struggle

  1339. with feeling superior

  1340. over others,

  1341. but this text tells you

  1342. and me

  1343. who think we're superior

  1344. to others

  1345. and just think it's natural

  1346. that our

  1347. our situation

  1348. apart from grace

  1349. was unimaginably worse

  1350. than we could ever imagine.

  1351. the worst nightmare

  1352. that Hollywood

  1353. or writers

  1354. or poets

  1355. could imagine

  1356. does not even begin

  1357. to come close

  1358. to our desperate need

  1359. and the horror

  1360. of our situation.

  1361. Therefore,

  1362. all superiority

  1363. should be broken.

  1364. And this very same

  1365. gospel story

  1366. tells those of us

  1367. who struggle

  1368. with feeling

  1369. that we are

  1370. losing the battle,

  1371. that all we can do

  1372. is envy.

  1373. We just feel inferior.

  1374. We've come to a point

  1375. in our lives

  1376. where we just feel inferior.

  1377. And this same gospel story

  1378. tells us

  1379. that you

  1380. are loved

  1381. by God.

  1382. That no amount

  1383. of pride

  1384. can even start to...

  1385. No amount

  1386. of narcissism.

  1387. No.

  1388. You are loved

  1389. by God

  1390. in a way

  1391. which you will

  1392. spend all of eternity

  1393. with God

  1394. experiencing

  1395. His love

  1396. for you

  1397. and all of eternity

  1398. with God

  1399. experiencing

  1400. His love

  1401. for you

  1402. and it will not

  1403. come to an end

  1404. because it is

  1405. so inexhaustible.

  1406. And as we're

  1407. gripped by the gospel

  1408. with what Jesus

  1409. did for us

  1410. on the cross

  1411. and as from

  1412. that perspective

  1413. God's word

  1414. starts to get

  1415. written on our heart

  1416. it begins

  1417. to shape us

  1418. and give us

  1419. the place

  1420. to stand

  1421. to deal with

  1422. all sorts of things

  1423. that we could not

  1424. deal with before.

  1425. It nudges us

  1426. to put a death

  1427. to our superiority

  1428. it nudges us

  1429. to put a death

  1430. to our inferiority

  1431. it nudges us

  1432. into the places

  1433. that the rest

  1434. of this text

  1435. tells us to go to

  1436. that when we see

  1437. a brother

  1438. or a sister

  1439. caught in

  1440. some trespass

  1441. that rather than us

  1442. on one level

  1443. secretly gloating

  1444. and saying

  1445. well I'm more

  1446. superior than them

  1447. the desire

  1448. is to restore

  1449. them

  1450. conscious

  1451. that we

  1452. ourselves

  1453. are beset

  1454. by sins

  1455. and when we

  1456. see somebody

  1457. bearing a burden

  1458. and rather

  1459. than feeling

  1460. that

  1461. we're superior

  1462. because that's

  1463. such a big burden

  1464. that there starts

  1465. to be a nudging

  1466. or a shaping

  1467. that maybe

  1468. I should get up

  1469. close and personal

  1470. that person

  1471. and help them

  1472. carry that burden

  1473. because

  1474. in the gospel

  1475. Jesus carried

  1476. my burden

  1477. didn't he

  1478. and maybe

  1479. for those of us

  1480. who are too proud

  1481. to confess

  1482. that we have

  1483. burdens

  1484. the gospel

  1485. will start

  1486. to shape us

  1487. in a type

  1488. of humility

  1489. to say

  1490. it's not wrong

  1491. to say

  1492. to another person

  1493. brother or sister

  1494. I have a burden

  1495. I'm having

  1496. a hard time

  1497. carrying

  1498. could you pray

  1499. for me

  1500. or maybe

  1501. even help me

  1502. and that

  1503. in such a

  1504. context

  1505. that maybe

  1506. we

  1507. I can test

  1508. myself

  1509. and if I test

  1510. myself

  1511. it's not by

  1512. thinking about

  1513. myself

  1514. do I preach

  1515. as well as

  1516. Matt Chandler

  1517. or Tim Keller

  1518. but how am I

  1519. doing compared

  1520. to a year ago

  1521. and it's maybe

  1522. not

  1523. you know

  1524. have I put on

  1525. five pounds

  1526. that I don't want

  1527. or lost five pounds

  1528. that I wanted

  1529. to lose

  1530. but

  1531. gosh Lord

  1532. how am I doing

  1533. with the fruit

  1534. of the spirit

  1535. do I love

  1536. more and better

  1537. than I did

  1538. a year ago

  1539. am I more

  1540. patient

  1541. than I was

  1542. a year ago

  1543. am I more

  1544. gentle

  1545. than I was

  1546. a year ago

  1547. you see

  1548. as

  1549. as the gospel

  1550. grips us

  1551. and the Holy

  1552. Spirit

  1553. then starts

  1554. to use

  1555. that gripping

  1556. to write

  1557. God's word

  1558. in our hearts

  1559. God

  1560. God works

  1561. to start

  1562. to free us

  1563. because wouldn't

  1564. it be so freeing

  1565. to be a human

  1566. being who doesn't

  1567. miss social cues

  1568. but no longer

  1569. thinks that we

  1570. have to compare

  1571. ourselves to others

  1572. but can carry

  1573. our own load

  1574. in light of the

  1575. God who loves us

  1576. and sent his son

  1577. to die for us

  1578. just to

  1579. I have other points

  1580. just I'm just

  1581. going to put them

  1582. up and then

  1583. we're going to

  1584. pray

  1585. next one

  1586. Andrew

  1587. every Christian

  1588. has burdens

  1589. don't believe

  1590. health and wealth

  1591. gospel people

  1592. who tell you

  1593. that you can

  1594. come to a state

  1595. of being filled

  1596. by the Holy

  1597. Spirit

  1598. you no longer

  1599. have burdens

  1600. Bible says

  1601. they're wrong

  1602. every one of us

  1603. here has burdens

  1604. we will always

  1605. have burdens

  1606. they'll change

  1607. but we'll have

  1608. them

  1609. next one

  1610. the Lord

  1611. the Lord did

  1612. not redeem

  1613. me to

  1614. bowl

  1615. alone

  1616. but to be

  1617. part of a

  1618. one another

  1619. local church

  1620. home

  1621. a one another

  1622. church home

  1623. where we learn

  1624. to bear each

  1625. other's burdens

  1626. you know

  1627. pray into this

  1628. for us as

  1629. Messiah

  1630. next one

  1631. no one

  1632. deceives me

  1633. better than

  1634. me myself

  1635. and I

  1636. I mean this

  1637. text is inviting

  1638. us to call out

  1639. to the Lord

  1640. to show us

  1641. each of us

  1642. and as a

  1643. congregation

  1644. how we're

  1645. deceiving

  1646. ourselves

  1647. not how my

  1648. wife is deceiving

  1649. me or my

  1650. boss is deceiving

  1651. me or my

  1652. friend is deceiving

  1653. me or the

  1654. prof is deceiving

  1655. me

  1656. I mean you can

  1657. keep praying about

  1658. that if you want

  1659. but most of us

  1660. spend ten times

  1661. hundred times

  1662. a thousand times

  1663. praying about

  1664. that and rather

  1665. asking the

  1666. question

  1667. father how do

  1668. I deceive

  1669. myself

  1670. please stand

  1671. just as

  1672. as we go

  1673. into this

  1674. I don't know

  1675. where you are

  1676. in all of

  1677. these things

  1678. but I just

  1679. want to assure

  1680. you of one

  1681. thing

  1682. the gospel

  1683. is for you

  1684. if you're here

  1685. and you think

  1686. George if you

  1687. knew some of

  1688. the terrible

  1689. things I've

  1690. ever done

  1691. you wouldn't

  1692. think the

  1693. gospel is for

  1694. me and all

  1695. I can tell

  1696. you is you're

  1697. right I don't

  1698. know the

  1699. terrible things

  1700. you've done

  1701. but God

  1702. knows them

  1703. and God

  1704. knew them

  1705. when he sent

  1706. his son to

  1707. die on the

  1708. cross for

  1709. you and if

  1710. some of you

  1711. are saying

  1712. George if

  1713. you knew how

  1714. much of a

  1715. failure I

  1716. am in so

  1717. many areas

  1718. of my life

  1719. you wouldn't

  1720. think the

  1721. gospel was

  1722. for me and

  1723. you're right I

  1724. don't know how

  1725. much of a

  1726. failure you are

  1727. in all those

  1728. areas but God

  1729. knows him and

  1730. still he sent

  1731. his son to

  1732. die on the

  1733. cross for you

  1734. there is no

  1735. one here so

  1736. broken or so

  1737. successful so

  1738. rich or so

  1739. poor so

  1740. sinful or so

  1741. self-righteous

  1742. that Jesus did

  1743. not die for

  1744. you on the

  1745. cross and

  1746. there is no

  1747. time better than

  1748. right now to

  1749. call out to him

  1750. for mercy to

  1751. thank him for

  1752. what he's done

  1753. for you on the

  1754. cross and to

  1755. believe his

  1756. promise that if

  1757. you put out

  1758. your hand what

  1759. he has accomplished

  1760. for you in the

  1761. person of Jesus

  1762. that that will come

  1763. into your hand and

  1764. into your life and

  1765. into your mind and

  1766. into your heart and

  1767. into your soul and

  1768. into your body and

  1769. that God will never

  1770. let you go there is

  1771. no better time than

  1772. right now to do

  1773. that business with

  1774. God let's bow

  1775. our heads in

  1776. prayer

  1777. father you know

  1778. that most of us

  1779. aren't even

  1780. struggling with

  1781. self-deception and

  1782. we ask father that

  1783. your holy spirit would

  1784. start to use your

  1785. word and the gospel

  1786. to reveal that to

  1787. us but father we

  1788. thank you so much

  1789. that you are a

  1790. gentle God and a

  1791. loving God and you

  1792. won't do it in a way

  1793. that unmakes us but

  1794. father bring that

  1795. home to us so that

  1796. we might cling to

  1797. Jesus and cling to

  1798. your word and cling

  1799. to your promises and

  1800. father you know those

  1801. of us who haven't

  1802. even begun to deal

  1803. with our vain glory

  1804. project our glory

  1805. hunger and and

  1806. suffer under

  1807. inferiority or

  1808. superiority and

  1809. father you know the

  1810. marriages which are in

  1811. danger over issues

  1812. like this and you

  1813. know father the jobs

  1814. that are in danger

  1815. over things like this

  1816. and the friendships

  1817. that are in danger

  1818. over over things like

  1819. this father even

  1820. know the ones who

  1821. are cutting themselves

  1822. over issues like this

  1823. or thinking of

  1824. suicide over issues

  1825. like that father you

  1826. know each one of our

  1827. hearts and we ask

  1828. father that you're

  1829. that the holy spirit

  1830. would be poured out

  1831. upon us and that you

  1832. would make us

  1833. disciples of Jesus

  1834. who are gripped by

  1835. the gospel

  1836. gripped by the gospel

  1837. and learning to live

  1838. free for your glory

  1839. and all this we ask

  1840. in the name of Jesus

  1841. your son and our

  1842. savior amen

  1843. you

  1844. you

  1845. you

  1846. you

  1847. you

  1848. you

  1849. you

  1850. you

  1851. you

  1852. you

  1853. you