Sermon
Forgiven by God
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Transcript
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Father, Son, and Holy Spirit, three persons, one God, we come into your presence.
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We have been in your presence all morning, but we come into your presence very consciously
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to be with your children and your people, to be with seekers and skeptics, to be in your presence, Father.
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We come to receive from you this morning, to receive grace from you.
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Father, we acknowledge that we are always in deep need of receiving grace from you.
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And so, Father, we ask that the Holy Spirit would do a wonderful work deep in our lives,
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that we might be in your presence, that we might receive from you this morning,
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and that we might respond to you as we receive in a worthy manner.
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And, Father, that might be repentance, that might be praise, that might be new hope,
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it might be healing, it might be strength, it might just be, well, Father, you know that there's many different ways
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that we have needs, that your grace is sufficient, and we ask that you would help us to receive it with gratitude,
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and respond in a worthy manner.
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And we ask this in the name of Jesus, your Son and our Savior. Amen.
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Please be seated.
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It can sometimes be a surprise to people who come to the 10 o'clock service that they see,
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oh, there's an 8 o'clock service, and they decide to come to the 8 o'clock service,
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and discover that the 8 o'clock service is radically, radically different.
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There's no screen, no words on it.
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You get these little booklets.
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And, in fact, we use the 1662 Book of Common Prayer in a booklet form,
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but it's the 1662 Book of Common Prayer.
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It has thee, thou, dost, wast, hast, all that old-fashioned language.
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I wear robes as well, and the service has no music, and the sermon is about half the length.
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That's the goal.
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A little bit less than half the length of the 10 o'clock service.
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In fact, sometimes at the 8 o'clock service, I say, I'm going to talk about this.
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I don't have time now.
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I'm going to talk about this at 8 if you're curious to see how I handle it.
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You know, watch the 10 o'clock, the sermon from the 10 o'clock service.
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I mention that because what sometimes happens, and in fact happened to me today,
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is I always teach people that I'm, when I'm trying to teach them how to preach the Bible
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or teach the Bible, that you should begin with something interesting to get people's attention.
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And I had a really, really good grabby thing for this sermon.
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And I did it at the 8 o'clock service, and I realized after the service that it was the
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complete wrong opening for the sermon.
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So you're not getting it.
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Instead, you get me telling you that I had a good one, but this wasn't it.
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But hopefully I've got your attention.
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If you want to turn in your Bibles, we're going to look at one of the most famous stories of Jesus.
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There are four ancient biographies of Jesus.
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Now they're known as Gospels.
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And three of the four ancient biographies have different versions of this same story.
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So the early Christians, the early disciples of Jesus, thought that this was a very important story.
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They all wanted to make sure that it got told.
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And so turn with me in your Bibles to Mark 2, verses 1 to 17.
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It's the first story that's the one which is in three of the Gospels.
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We're going to look at two stories.
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And here's how it goes.
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By the way, one of the most common things that we hear in our culture today
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is that you need to learn how to forgive yourself.
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It's a very, very common thing.
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And you would just get a very sympathetic nod.
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And it really is very interesting.
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It wouldn't matter if you were at a Bridgehead, a Starbucks, or a Tim Hortons.
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It wouldn't matter if you went to the best cigar lounge in the region,
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the best Scotch lounge in the region,
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where the bar, which is the cheapest, nastiest, grungiest, most down-and-out, sketchy bar,
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if you said, I'm trying to learn how to forgive myself, people would just nod.
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It sort of turns.
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It doesn't matter whether you vote NDP, conservative, or liberal.
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It doesn't matter if you, like, make America great hats,
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or you want to vote for Joe Biden or Kamala Harris or AOC.
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It's one of those things that just most people nod their heads at.
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And this story talks about this very directly, by the way,
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the wisdom or the possibility of this.
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So anyway, here's how the story goes.
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Verse 1.
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And when Jesus returned to Capernaum,
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after some days, it was reported that he was at home.
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I just sort of want to pause there for a second.
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And some of you might remember last week's scripture text,
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which came just before this,
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is that it ends with Jesus healing a leper.
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And after Jesus heals the leper, he says to the leper,
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go to the priest, have him certify you as clean,
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do the appropriate sacrifices, and don't tell anybody I did this.
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And it's not clear in the text whether he actually goes to the priest,
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but what it is clear is he does the opposite of what Jesus tells him,
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and he goes and tells everybody.
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And this just builds Jesus' fame so that it's hard for him to go anywhere.
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But some people, and at some point in time in one of the sermons,
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I'm going to talk a little bit about why it is that Jesus would tell people
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not to tell him.
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Like Mark records him saying this quite frequently.
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But one of the things we can see here that helps us to understand that is this.
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I don't know how many of you lived in small communities,
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but Jesus must have come in at night when it was dark,
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and he's actually been in this small community in a person's house
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for a couple of days before people figure out he's there.
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It tells you something about the character of Jesus
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that he didn't say,
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I'm here!
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Come in with trumpets,
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you know, drums,
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banging, let everybody know he's here,
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draw a big crowd.
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Like that's not,
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he comes in,
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he's actually just spending some time in the house,
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and it takes a couple of days before people realize that Jesus is there.
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And once they realize he's there,
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then the crowds start to come.
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They want to hear him,
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and I guess they also want to see him do a miracle.
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And let's just be honest,
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we'd love to see a miracle.
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We're no different from them.
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It would be on the news,
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somebody performing miracles like this.
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So a crowd gathers.
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But it sure is sort of a sense,
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the humility and the self-effaciness of Jesus,
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that he doesn't intentionally go out to try to draw crowds
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and attract attention to himself.
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Verse 2,
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And many were gathered together
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so that there was no more room,
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not even at the door.
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And Jesus was preaching the word to them.
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And they came,
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this is going to describe who they are,
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it's four guys.
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Four guys come,
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bringing to Jesus a man who's paralyzed.
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Verse 4,
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And when they could not get near to Jesus
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because of the crowd,
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that's sort of very interesting,
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they say,
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listen, I got the good spot,
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I'm not giving up my spot to let you get in there.
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It sucks that your friend's paralyzed.
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I mean, that's really the attitude of the crowd.
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It just sucks for them,
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I'm not giving up my spot.
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So verse 4,
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They could not get near to Jesus because of the crowd,
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so they,
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in the houses in those days,
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the roof was always flat,
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and in a sense it was like a deck.
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And so whether it was a ladder
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or stairs on the outside,
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there was usually a way,
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always a way,
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to get up onto the roof.
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So they removed the roof above Jesus,
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and when they had made an opening,
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they let down the bed
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on which the paralyzed man lay.
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Now, just before we see anything further,
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you know,
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one of the interesting things about this story,
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if you think about it for a second,
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if let's say we were,
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we were in Jesus' time,
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or it was just happening right now,
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and Mark said,
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listen here,
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I've written about this story,
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what do you think?
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And all of us would do this.
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They'd say,
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you know,
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come on,
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Mark,
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give it some extra colorful details,
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like,
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like,
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surely the people were sort of swearing,
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you know,
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at the commotion going upstairs,
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they were saying,
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you know,
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you guys,
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you know,
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keep it quiet,
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we're trying to listen to Jesus,
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you know,
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people are,
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they're wrecking the roof,
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and probably there would have been people
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wanting to go out,
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and all this,
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all this detail
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that we would love to know about,
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what was going on in the room
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when they're making a big hole in the roof,
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and none of it's there.
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That's what I mean by,
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you see,
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it's very interesting,
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and it shows our distraction,
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like,
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the inherent type of distraction
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that we have
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when it comes to things of God,
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that we would be far more interested
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in lots of ways
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with all this other stuff,
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you know,
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the,
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you know,
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the mess,
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who's going to clean it up,
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all of that type of stuff,
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than what,
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but Mark sort of ignores that,
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he doesn't play to our habit
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to get distracted,
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because he's driving towards
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making a particular type of point
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about Jesus,
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and by the way,
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it must have been Jesus
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who stopped people
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from going upstairs
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and up onto the roof
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to stop those guys
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from wrecking the roof.
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It must have been Jesus,
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but we don't say that.
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Maybe it wasn't.
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Verse five.
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So the guy,
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they lay down,
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they make a hole,
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they drop the guy down,
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and the guy's now
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standing in front of Jesus.
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Probably a lot of people
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are in a very,
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very,
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very bad mood,
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because they're covered with straw,
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covered with dirt.
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The homeowners are probably
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really furious,
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but when Jesus saw their faith,
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he said to the paralytic,
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son,
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your sins are forgiven.
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Now,
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we want to pause here
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for a second.
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Here's one of the problems
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we have.
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If you're a person,
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maybe from a,
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you know,
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a Muslim background
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or a Buddhist background,
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and you're hearing this story
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for the first time,
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or if you're just,
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you haven't had any real
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Christian background,
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you're hearing this story
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for the first time,
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I want to tell you
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about a problem
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that Christians have
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when they're very familiar
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with the story.
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One of the things
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I try to tell people
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when I'm trying to give them
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encouragement about how to
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preach and teach the Bible
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when it comes to a narrative
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like this,
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is never assume
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that a response is obvious.
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Like,
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don't assume,
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well,
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of course that's what
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Jesus would say.
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No,
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no,
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no,
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no,
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no,
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no,
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no,
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no,
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no,
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just a thought experiment.
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What would Stalin say?
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Kill those guys.
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Like,
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what would,
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what,
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no,
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no,
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I'm going to say
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a few things today
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for our Muslim friends
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who might be watching.
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I'm going to say
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a few things today
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about Christianity
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and Islam
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and just sort of
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give me some mercy
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about this.
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I don't mean any disrespect,
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but I want to throw out
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some,
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there's some puzzles
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and riddles
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in this text
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in terms of the contrast
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between Christianity
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and other faiths.
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But if you think about it
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for a second,
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what would Muhammad say?
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Muhammad would probably say,
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well,
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it's Allah's will.
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It is the will of Allah.
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That's what he would say.
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He wouldn't say,
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son,
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your sins
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are the will of Allah.
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What would Buddha say?
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Buddha was obviously,
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from the records of him,
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he was obviously a man
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who did have great compassion
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and that part of his way
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is the way of compassion.
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But he also emerges
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out of a Hindu worldview
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that he might very well
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have just said,
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well,
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may I,
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you know,
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I can help you
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with some water
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and he might say
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to his disciples
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it's important
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to show compassion.
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But at the end of the day,
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it's as a result
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of the sins
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in this life
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and the sins
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in previous lives
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that have now
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brought this state,
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karma has brought
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this state
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upon this particular person.
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And really,
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what you can do
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is use this
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as a time
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to illustrate
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to the man
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and to others
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the importance
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of following
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the way
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so that you
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will no longer
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be caught up
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in the cycle
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of death and rebirth
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and having all these
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karmic penalties
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come to you
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to begin to try
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to break that cycle
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by having enlightenment
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and, you know,
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achieving nirvana.
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That's probably
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what something along the line
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that Buddha would say.
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What would a politician say?
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What would a therapist say?
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You see,
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part of the thing
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which we don't quite get
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when we see this story
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is the,
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Jesus is going to
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relate to this man
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in a profoundly
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compassionate way.
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And whether our culture
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wants to acknowledge it
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or not,
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it's as if
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in around the years,
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depending on how you count it,
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27 to 30
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or 30 to 33,
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that's the time
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that Jesus'
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teaching ministry
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went on
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and culminating
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with his death
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upon the cross
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and his resurrection
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which launches
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this Christian movement
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Jesus is like a bomb
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that blows up
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modern thought.
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And much of now,
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2,000 years downstream,
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we just assume,
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we just assume
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that the proper response
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is to show
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some type of compassion
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towards him.
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But that's not
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an obvious response.
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Once again,
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what would Stalin say?
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It's not an obvious response.
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In a sense,
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our whole response
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to this
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is formed by stories
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like this,
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the compassion of Jesus.
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But he says this
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very,
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very odd thing.
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Son,
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your sins
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are forgiven.
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men.
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We,
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last Sunday
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at the 8 o'clock service,
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we had a street person
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come to be part
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of our service.
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And,
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in fact,
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Shane happened
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to be there
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and I said to Shane
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when I came in,
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could you just
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keep an eye on him
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because I wasn't sure.
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You see,
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as soon as I came in,
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he told me
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that he was
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the second coming
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of Jesus.
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That's the first thing
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he told to me.
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He's the second coming
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of Jesus.
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And,
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and so I just said
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and he was wandering around.
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He signed his name
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three times in the book.
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Actually,
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one of the times
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he signed his name
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was Zeus
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as well,
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actually.
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But,
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you know what I mean?
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Like,
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he was very,
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very,
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very,
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like,
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clearly mentally ill
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and having a psychotic episode.
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And,
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and so I just asked Shane
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if he could keep an eye
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on him
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in case he was
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very disruptive.
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Now,
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as it turned out,
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he wasn't disruptive.
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He sat there.
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He did a few little odd things,
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but he sat there.
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I mean,
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he told me a second time
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when I gave him communion
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that he was the second coming
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of Jesus
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and some other things.
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And,
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and I just listened to him
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for a few seconds
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and I said,
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I'm really sorry
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you have to sit down.
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And he did.
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So it was all fine.
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But the fact of the matter is
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is that that fellow
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was clearly mentally ill.
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He either thought he was Zeus
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or he thought he was
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the son of God.
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So,
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that's the offensive
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and shocking thing
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about this text
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which we have to get into it.
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You see,
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once again,
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partly what happens
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is when we read the text
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we say,
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well,
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that's just religious language,
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just religious language,
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just religious language.
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No,
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no,
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no,
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no,
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no.
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Just think about it
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in real life.
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This is a story.
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Remember the very,
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one of the early sermons
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on this,
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I said that one of the things
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which is very unique
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about Mark's gospel
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compared to the secular literature
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or the pagan literature
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of the day.
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I shouldn't say secular.
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There would have been no idea
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of secular in those days.
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But in the pagan literature
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of those days
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is that he uses fact-type language
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all the way through.
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He emphasizes the fact-ness
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of what he's talking about.
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And just as,
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I didn't ask,
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but I know that all of the other people
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at the 8 o'clock service,
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they all would have instantly recognized
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that this man was mentally ill.
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And he talked to several of them.
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They all knew he was mentally ill
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and all of us were reacting appropriately
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to him as a mentally ill man.
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Trying to act with compassion to him.
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Gentleness.
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We didn't tell him to leave.
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We didn't do anything like that.
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We tried to act with him.
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You all know he's mentally ill.
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Only mentally ill men
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say something like,
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son, your sins are forgiven.
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Right?
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That's a mentally ill thing to say.
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So now you're having to go,
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whoa, okay.
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Even most,
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you know,
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maybe Richard Dawkins
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or some very,
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very,
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very hardcore atheist
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would be prepared to say,
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yes,
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George,
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Jesus was mentally ill.
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I'm so glad
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a Christian finally,
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I'm not saying he's mentally ill.
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I'm just saying,
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you think about it,
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that's a mentally ill type of thing to say.
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That's how we would all respond to it.
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Now,
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in his time,
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they,
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his hearers
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don't respond to it
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as mental illness,
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although they might have
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if you heard all of the things
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they wanted to say.
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In fact,
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if you read the Gospels,
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you'll find out that
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there are in effect,
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and I can't remember
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if it comes up in Mark,
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there is a time
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when basically
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all of Jesus' family
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is concerned
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that he's mentally ill
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or that he's consumed
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with demons
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or something.
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They know,
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they come to think
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he's not right.
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You see,
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one of the other reasons
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to believe
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that Jesus actually did
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die on the cross
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and rise from the dead
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is that the historical evidence
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shows that his family
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thought he was mentally ill
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or something was wrong,
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that at his death,
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only his mom was there,
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none of his brothers or sisters,
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and yet we know
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that after the resurrection
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of Jesus,
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that at least
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his brothers and sisters
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also came to believe
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that he was now
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God,
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the Son of God.
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It's actually part
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of the historical record
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to believe
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that something like this
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actually happened.
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But look how the story
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continues in verse 6.
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Now some of the scribes
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were sitting there
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questioning in their hearts,
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why does this man
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speak like that?
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Notice what they say,
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why does this man
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speak like that?
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He is blaspheming.
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Who can forgive sins
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but God alone?
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I mean,
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that's,
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by the way,
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what we could say
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to the mentally ill fellow
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who was here with us
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two Sundays a week ago.
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You know,
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only God can forgive sins,
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dude.
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Like,
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you can't.
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You're a man.
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Um,
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verse 8,
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and immediately
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Jesus,
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perceiving in his spirit
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that they thus questioned
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within themselves,
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said to them,
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why do you question
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these things
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in your hearts?
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Which is easier
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to say to the paralytic,
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your sons are forgiven?
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Or to say,
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rise,
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take up your bed
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and walk?
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Now just sort of
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pause here.
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On one hand,
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it's equally easy
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to say both.
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And I'm sure
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if I'd given
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that fellow,
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sorry that Ross
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is sitting there,
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it's not Ross,
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it's the,
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there was another person,
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in fact,
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you were at church
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last Sunday,
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in fact,
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actually,
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you saw that fellow,
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I think.
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He might have even
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talked to you.
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But he was sitting
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right there in that seat,
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the very front seat,
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as close as he could
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to be to me
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when I had the,
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when I was doing
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the communion,
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right?
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I mean,
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I'm sure if I'd let
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him speak,
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he would say,
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son,
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your sins are forgiven
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and stuff like that,
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right?
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So,
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you know,
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on one level,
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it's easy to say
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stuff like that.
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It's a sign of mental illness.
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And even if it's not
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a sign of mental illness,
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even if it's some type
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of a poser,
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some type of person
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who's figured out
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that he's got some
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very,
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very gullible people
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and he can make
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very,
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very extravagant claims,
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and,
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but he knows
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that he can't really do it.
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He's just talking.
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That talk is cheap,
-
but healing a man
-
who's paralyzed,
-
well,
-
that's an indicator
-
of something.
-
So,
-
verse 10,
-
but that you may know
-
that the Son of Man
-
has authority on earth
-
to forgive sins,
-
Jesus says to the paralyzed man,
-
verse 11,
-
I say to you,
-
rise,
-
pick up your bed
-
and go home.
-
And the man rose
-
and immediately picked up
-
his bed and went out
-
before them all
-
so that they were all amazed
-
and glorified God,
-
saying,
-
we never saw anything
-
like this.
-
We never saw
-
anything like this.
-
So,
-
you see,
-
here's the thing
-
which is going on
-
in the text.
-
Just like the mentally ill man
-
from last Sunday
-
didn't say to me,
-
I'm going to tell you
-
about the Son of God.
-
He didn't tell me,
-
I'm going to tell you
-
about Zeus.
-
Jesus just says,
-
your sins are forgiven.
-
He's not like me
-
during the absolution
-
where I pronounce
-
what God has done.
-
Jesus doesn't pronounce
-
what God has done.
-
Jesus just says it.
-
And it's the same thing
-
with the healing.
-
Jesus doesn't pray
-
for healing.
-
He just says,
-
he just says,
-
just like God would.
-
In a sense,
-
what we would do
-
when we pray
-
is we would pray to God
-
and say,
-
God,
-
could you heal this man?
-
And when we pray,
-
what we're hoping
-
is that God,
-
in a sense,
-
up in heaven,
-
hears our prayer
-
and says,
-
okay,
-
man,
-
stand up and walk.
-
And what you see
-
here with Jesus
-
is what you hope
-
God would do
-
when you pray to God.
-
Jesus is doing
-
something that only
-
God can do.
-
And so,
-
what you see here
-
is it's an indicator
-
of the fact
-
that Jesus,
-
when he says
-
your sins are forgiven,
-
that that is,
-
he can actually do that.
-
Now,
-
there's a couple
-
of things here
-
about this.
-
Like,
-
I think if you said
-
to most Canadians,
-
you know,
-
you can come to Jesus
-
and your sins
-
are forgiven.
-
And I think
-
most Canadians
-
would say,
-
I need Jesus
-
to forgive my sins
-
like a fish
-
needs a bicycle.
-
Like,
-
okay,
-
that's what you're selling,
-
this is how much
-
interest I have in it.
-
In fact,
-
actually,
-
probably if you got
-
into it,
-
you'd say,
-
you know what,
-
what I'm really
-
trying to learn
-
is how to forgive myself.
-
Like,
-
if Jesus could give me
-
some advice
-
about how to forgive myself,
-
well,
-
that would be
-
an interesting story.
-
Because that's what
-
I'm really trying to learn.
-
I'm trying to learn
-
how to forgive myself.
-
And,
-
in fact,
-
I think for most Canadians
-
they'd say,
-
you know,
-
don't you think
-
it's a lot more important
-
to learn how to forgive yourself
-
than,
-
I don't know,
-
be forgiven by God,
-
by Jesus?
-
Well,
-
here's a couple of things
-
just to consider about it.
-
Before I was the
-
rector of Church of the Messiah,
-
I was in a rural church,
-
non-rush hour traffic,
-
be about a two-hour drive
-
to where I lived,
-
two hours and a bit drive.
-
It was on the,
-
I lived on the way
-
to Algonquin Park.
-
So you'd go down
-
the Trans-Canada Highway,
-
Cobden,
-
you'd turn left,
-
and you'd,
-
you know,
-
another 20 minutes
-
or so on the road
-
on the way
-
to Algonquin Park.
-
You come to Eganville
-
and I just lived
-
one block over
-
from the one set
-
of lights in town.
-
And I looked after Eganville,
-
I looked after Killaloo,
-
and I looked after
-
two other little spots
-
that nobody's ever heard of.
-
They used to be
-
sort of communities,
-
but now they're just
-
a sign on the road,
-
Tremor and Clontarf.
-
And,
-
but in that big geographic area
-
that I looked at,
-
and if I was to go
-
from Arnold Theobig's house
-
at one end
-
to Delmer's house
-
at another end
-
and I kept to the speed limit,
-
it would have taken me
-
about 70,
-
75 minutes to drive
-
from one into the other.
-
So I covered a lot of land
-
but not many people.
-
A lot of deer,
-
a lot of cattle,
-
not many people.
-
But within that area
-
there was a First Nations reserve,
-
and that First Nations reserve
-
had been originally evangelized
-
by Roman Catholics.
-
There was an actual
-
Roman Catholic church
-
on the reserve,
-
and so I didn't have much
-
to do with people
-
who lived there,
-
but I did have something
-
to do with several of them.
-
And one of the people
-
that I had to deal with
-
was part of our church.
-
He got in some trouble
-
with the law,
-
which is neither here
-
nor there.
-
I actually thought
-
he was innocent,
-
but that's neither here
-
nor there.
-
And so he asked me
-
if I would support him.
-
He had to go to
-
appear before the judge
-
for the first go-around.
-
And so he asked me
-
if I would sit with him
-
in the crowd
-
waiting for his name
-
to be come up,
-
and I'd buy him a coffee,
-
and then afterwards
-
we'd talk,
-
and I'd pray and all that.
-
And I said, sure.
-
It was a very interesting
-
experience to sit there.
-
So first of all,
-
I said to him,
-
you know, the thing
-
that you did,
-
I almost said his name,
-
we'll just call him Bob.
-
He said, the thing you did,
-
Bob, you could go
-
to the tribal,
-
there was a tribal justice
-
system set up
-
to deal with this.
-
Why didn't you go to that?
-
Now, by the way,
-
I'm not, just time out,
-
I'm not making
-
any political comment.
-
I never followed him.
-
I have no idea
-
whether he was telling
-
me the truth.
-
But what he said was this.
-
He said, no, no, no.
-
He said, guys like me
-
on the reserve,
-
we never go to
-
the tribal justice system.
-
I said, you never go there?
-
He said, no, no, no.
-
He said it's controlled
-
by a couple of powerful families.
-
And the way it works
-
is they give themselves
-
a pass,
-
but for people like me,
-
they're going to be
-
very hard on me.
-
And I get a better deal
-
with the white judge.
-
And I said, really?
-
So I never followed up
-
on that.
-
I have no idea
-
if it's true.
-
But that's what he said.
-
He said, yeah, yeah,
-
it's powerful families
-
that control that.
-
My family is a very
-
low-status family.
-
They don't like my family.
-
I would get hard.
-
I'd be treated very hard.
-
I'm going to get a better deal
-
with the judge.
-
I said, well, that's interesting.
-
And then as I sat there,
-
the second thing
-
that was really interesting
-
is that as each of the lawyers
-
stood up to help
-
the different client,
-
he gave me a prairie
-
about the effectiveness
-
of the lawyers.
-
He'd say, that lawyer
-
never returns his phone calls.
-
That lawyer has a serious
-
alcohol problem.
-
That lawyer is lazy.
-
That lawyer is lazy.
-
Is this that lawyer?
-
Is this?
-
He knew who all the lawyers were.
-
At least that's he claimed to.
-
I have no idea
-
whether he was accurate
-
about any of it.
-
But he'd said, don't worry.
-
I, you know, me and my family,
-
we know about all the lawyers
-
in the region.
-
We have the best lawyer.
-
I have the best lawyer
-
that you can get.
-
Now, I'm saying all of this
-
because, you see,
-
what would you say
-
if he not only knew
-
about the lawyers,
-
but if it was a situation
-
where there were quite a few
-
different judges
-
and he was able to sit there
-
and tell you,
-
well, that judge
-
shows favoritism to the cronies.
-
That judge is racist
-
and that judge takes bribes
-
and that judge
-
has a serious alcohol problem.
-
And, you know,
-
that judge isn't very competent,
-
doesn't like me.
-
And if you heard that,
-
you wouldn't want to go
-
before that judge, would you?
-
You'd be very careful.
-
You sure wouldn't.
-
You'd want to try to figure out
-
the good judge,
-
not the judge that has
-
all those other major
-
character flaws.
-
Right?
-
That's what we'd all want to do.
-
But,
-
here's the problem.
-
You say you want to learn
-
to forgive yourself.
-
Do you show favoritism?
-
Do you show any prejudice?
-
Are you easily bought off?
-
Do you get distracted?
-
Do you only care about justice?
-
Yes.
-
If you didn't answer yes
-
to all of those things,
-
then why do you think
-
you can forgive yourself?
-
Like, if you wouldn't trust
-
another judge to do that,
-
why would you trust yourself
-
to forgive yourself?
-
Like, don't you think
-
it's always tainted?
-
And just think for a second.
-
Like, one of the things
-
that I had to do,
-
I would still do it
-
if somebody comes to me
-
and they want to be remarried
-
after divorce.
-
Let's say a 30-year-old man
-
comes and he wants to be
-
remarried after divorce.
-
And I'd talk to him
-
about a little bit of things.
-
But let's say I discovered
-
that that 30-year-old man
-
had a wife
-
and he had four kids.
-
And the wife
-
was a stay-at-home mom
-
and this man wants to marry
-
another, like a 23-year-old woman.
-
And I'd have to ask this man
-
this question.
-
That's why I've asked
-
this question to guys.
-
How do you think
-
you're going to be able
-
to fulfill your financial
-
responsibilities
-
to your four kids
-
and your first wife
-
and marry this young woman
-
who you're obviously
-
going to want to have kids with?
-
Do I like asking that question?
-
I am very Canadian.
-
Those of you who know me,
-
I hate conflict.
-
I am sleepless
-
for nights before it.
-
But I've had to look
-
guys in the eye
-
and say,
-
how are you going to
-
fulfill those obligations?
-
This is separate
-
from whether there was
-
a valid reason
-
biblically for his marriage
-
to break up
-
and being remarried.
-
The fact of the matter is
-
is if you sire those kids,
-
you've got a responsibility
-
to those kids.
-
You've got a responsibility
-
for your kids.
-
So here's the point
-
of the story.
-
The wife
-
with the four kids,
-
she hears
-
that her husband,
-
who now wants to marry
-
another young woman,
-
and maybe he's been
-
the one responsible
-
for the breakup
-
of the marriage
-
he's had in the fair.
-
What would she say
-
if she heard him say,
-
I've learned
-
to forgive myself?
-
That wife would say,
-
she'd go explosive,
-
she'd go ballistic,
-
what do you mean
-
you forgave yourself?
-
Like, she'd say,
-
what a jerk.
-
She'd probably say
-
something stronger.
-
Well, why is it
-
that we as Canadians
-
want to learn
-
how to forgive ourselves,
-
but we can't sort of
-
get our minds around
-
these types of
-
particular problems?
-
You see,
-
one of the things
-
which is always
-
talked about
-
at the end
-
of every presidential cycle,
-
it was talked about
-
with Trump,
-
it was talked about
-
with Obama,
-
it was talked about
-
before that,
-
it will be talked about
-
with Biden,
-
is that every U.S. president,
-
the last week or so
-
before they step away
-
from office,
-
they give a whole pile
-
of presidential pardons.
-
Get out of jail
-
for free cards,
-
you're completely
-
and utterly pardoned.
-
And those of you
-
who follow such things,
-
sometimes they're good.
-
There's been a miscarriage
-
of justice
-
somewhere along the line
-
and just because
-
of the angularity
-
of the law,
-
it can't actually
-
be rectified,
-
but there's been,
-
you know,
-
evidence and all
-
and so sometimes
-
you go,
-
that's a real,
-
that's a good use of it,
-
that there's been
-
an injustice corrected.
-
You know,
-
and sometimes it's just,
-
you know,
-
for whatever reason
-
there's been some
-
press reports
-
about this person
-
or that,
-
but always he lets off
-
his cronies,
-
right?
-
Always.
-
I'm not making
-
a political comment.
-
Trump did it,
-
Biden did it,
-
the president
-
after Biden
-
will do it.
-
It's a human thing.
-
They let off
-
their cronies
-
and there's always
-
a whole stuff
-
in the paper
-
about the fact
-
that he just
-
let off his cronies
-
and if you happen
-
to be pro-Trump,
-
you think,
-
yeah,
-
yeah,
-
you know,
-
they shouldn't
-
have been punished,
-
blah, blah, blah,
-
way to go Trump.
-
But you know,
-
and they're going
-
to do the same thing
-
with Biden.
-
You know,
-
the people who
-
were mad at Trump,
-
they're going to say,
-
way to go Biden,
-
you know?
-
And all the people
-
who voted for Trump
-
said,
-
how come you guys
-
didn't like it
-
when Trump did it,
-
but now he,
-
like,
-
that's just human nature.
-
That's just cronyism.
-
And in a sense,
-
when you want to learn
-
to forgive yourself,
-
it's cronyism
-
to yourself.
-
Now here,
-
you have to be
-
very careful.
-
You see,
-
one of the things
-
which is going on
-
in Jesus' words here
-
is there's a profound
-
mystery.
-
There's a riddle
-
which he's posing.
-
And the riddle
-
is this.
-
Why is it that
-
when Jesus says this
-
to the young man,
-
he's not just guilty
-
of cronyism?
-
Like,
-
why is Jesus
-
not like Trump?
-
Why is Jesus
-
not like Biden
-
and Obama?
-
Why is it not
-
just cronyism?
-
See,
-
the fact of the matter
-
is,
-
is that true forgiveness
-
has to honor justice.
-
And that's why
-
for true forgiveness
-
there always has to be
-
a cost that's paid.
-
Very,
-
very obvious
-
when it comes to
-
things like money.
-
Somebody,
-
I lend somebody
-
$10,000
-
expecting to get it back
-
and then something happens
-
they can't get it back.
-
If I forgive the debt,
-
let's say they only
-
were able to pay me
-
back $1,000,
-
I forgive the debt,
-
I'm writing off
-
the $9,000.
-
Well,
-
who pays that $9,000?
-
The $9,000
-
is still gone.
-
Like,
-
I can't call up Trudeau
-
and say,
-
Trudeau,
-
I've just forgiven
-
somebody $9,000,
-
could you send me
-
a check to cover it?
-
Like,
-
if I forgive somebody
-
the $9,000,
-
I pay that cost.
-
If you forgive me
-
a debt,
-
a financial debt,
-
you absorb
-
that cost.
-
And that gives us
-
a window
-
in all forgiveness.
-
That if somebody
-
has wronged you
-
in another type of way
-
and you,
-
you might have
-
a profound desire
-
to publicize
-
to everybody
-
how bad they are.
-
Or you might want
-
to have them,
-
you might want to do
-
some other type of thing
-
so that they really
-
suffer in some type of way,
-
that there's some
-
satisfaction that you
-
can get
-
to see that there's
-
some suffering
-
or some other types
-
of, you know,
-
or other legal
-
or other consequences
-
that happen to them
-
so that there's some type,
-
you have at least
-
the beginning of some
-
type of a sense
-
of balance.
-
And if you forgive them,
-
then you have to pay
-
the cost of that
-
within yourself.
-
You have to pay
-
the cost of the fact
-
that they will not
-
have that type
-
of punishment
-
that you think
-
they deserve,
-
that you just have to,
-
in a sense,
-
you have to,
-
in a sense,
-
swallow that
-
in some type of way.
-
There's always
-
a cost to forgiveness.
-
By the way,
-
for our Muslim friends,
-
this is one of the
-
profound weaknesses
-
in Islam.
-
Just give me some grace.
-
It's a profound weakness
-
in Islam.
-
Because in Islam,
-
Allah just,
-
he never pays a cost
-
to forgive.
-
It's hard not to see
-
that what goes on
-
with Allah
-
is any different
-
than cronyism.
-
Where he lets some
-
go free and others
-
have to suffer
-
his punishment.
-
You see,
-
the mystery
-
which here,
-
which happens,
-
is that Jesus
-
is setting up a riddle.
-
When he says,
-
son,
-
your sins are forgiven,
-
he's also pointing us
-
to the fact
-
that justice
-
is going to be met
-
in that young man
-
for whatever
-
that young man
-
is responsible for.
-
That this is one
-
of the things
-
preparing us
-
for the cross.
-
That when we see
-
Jesus dying upon
-
the cross,
-
what we see
-
is that Jesus
-
takes the place
-
of that young man
-
in a sense
-
what that Jesus
-
is saying.
-
And it's only
-
if he's God
-
that he can stand
-
for every single
-
human being.
-
It's only if he's
-
both God and man
-
that he can stand
-
for every single
-
human being.
-
And so for whatever
-
things that that young
-
man has done
-
which is wrong,
-
whatever demands
-
of justice
-
that that should be,
-
if you took the
-
accumulation of all
-
of those types
-
of things,
-
and you would say
-
if you knew
-
all of those
-
things that that
-
young man had done
-
and became an old
-
man and everything
-
that you would think
-
there has to be
-
some consequence.
-
There has to be
-
some consequence.
-
There has to
-
justice demand
-
some consequence.
-
That when Jesus
-
dies on the cross
-
that's what John
-
means when he says
-
behold the Lamb of God
-
who takes away
-
the sin of the world.
-
That Jesus in a sense
-
is saying
-
I will take your place
-
young man
-
and all of the
-
demands of justice
-
I will take your place
-
they can come on me.
-
No I don't.
-
I know you don't
-
deserve it.
-
No I know
-
I don't have to do it.
-
It's not a matter
-
of you deserving it.
-
It's not a matter
-
of you have a right
-
for this.
-
It's not a matter
-
that I have to.
-
It's not a matter
-
that I'm weak.
-
I am strong.
-
I am the one
-
who can heal
-
paralyzed people.
-
I am the one
-
who can heal
-
the leper.
-
I am the one
-
who can still
-
the storm.
-
I am the one
-
who can walk
-
on water.
-
I am the one
-
who can feed
-
five thousand
-
men.
-
I am strong.
-
I am doing this
-
of my own free will.
-
I see your profound
-
need and broken.
-
I see your profound
-
need and brokenness
-
and I know you can
-
never fulfill the
-
demands of true
-
justice if your life
-
was seen with
-
perfect moral clarity
-
and God sees your
-
life with perfect
-
moral clarity
-
and you can never
-
deal with that
-
without being
-
unmade.
-
need.
-
So I will take
-
your place.
-
And that when you
-
see Jesus dying
-
on the cross
-
what you are seeing
-
is the cost
-
of forgiveness
-
being borne
-
by God himself
-
for undeserving
-
people like you
-
and me.
-
And it's
-
powerfully
-
illustrated by
-
the symbol
-
that as Jesus
-
dies
-
the veil
-
which separates
-
the holy
-
of holies
-
from the world
-
is torn
-
from top
-
to bottom
-
to show
-
that the cost
-
of true
-
forgiveness
-
has been
-
paid.
-
Now the next
-
story is very
-
important to bring
-
this home to us
-
in a powerful way
-
because you see
-
we all say that
-
and believe that
-
and like that
-
for a moment
-
but there's
-
something about
-
the way
-
our brains
-
are wired
-
just that
-
our brains
-
are wired
-
that we
-
almost instantly
-
sabotage
-
the radicalness
-
of what this
-
is that Jesus
-
is doing for us
-
with his life
-
and death
-
and resurrection
-
and we see it
-
if we look
-
at the next
-
story.
-
And what we
-
see in the
-
next story
-
is why
-
what human
-
beings need
-
what you
-
and I need
-
is not to
-
learn how
-
to forgive
-
ourselves
-
I do not
-
have to
-
learn to
-
forgive
-
myself
-
I have
-
to learn
-
I have
-
to ask
-
God
-
to make
-
what Jesus
-
has done
-
for me
-
on the
-
cross
-
to be
-
more real
-
for me
-
because I
-
slip into
-
a different
-
way of
-
thinking
-
too quickly.
-
Look at
-
what happens
-
in verse 13
-
and Jesus
-
went out again
-
beside the sea
-
and all the
-
crowd was
-
coming to him
-
and he was
-
teaching them
-
and as he
-
passed by
-
he saw
-
Levi
-
the son
-
of Alphaeus
-
sitting at
-
the tax
-
booth
-
and Jesus
-
said to him
-
follow me
-
and Levi
-
rises and
-
follows him
-
now just
-
those of you
-
who aren't
-
familiar with
-
stories like
-
this in the
-
context
-
if you watch
-
a second
-
world war movie
-
set let's say
-
in occupied
-
Holland
-
and you
-
see Dutch
-
people
-
if you're
-
watching a
-
second world
-
war movie
-
now set
-
in Holland
-
during the
-
occupation
-
by the
-
Nazis
-
usually what
-
is going
-
to be
-
involved
-
is some
-
heroic
-
and there
-
were very
-
many heroic
-
Dutch
-
people who
-
resisted the
-
Nazis
-
tried to
-
protect the
-
Jews
-
did what
-
they could
-
to undermine
-
the Nazi
-
regime
-
but there
-
were also
-
Dutch men
-
and women
-
who supported
-
the regime
-
who helped
-
the regime
-
right it was
-
Corrie Ten Boom
-
and her family
-
and her mom
-
her sister
-
and her dad
-
died in a
-
concentration camp
-
for hiding
-
Jews but they
-
they were found
-
out because
-
neighbors reported
-
them so
-
when you
-
watch a
-
second world
-
war movie
-
and you
-
see a
-
Dutch man
-
or a
-
Dutch woman
-
working for
-
the Nazis
-
that's what
-
a tax
-
collector
-
is okay
-
they're
-
they're not
-
they're not
-
only they're
-
not only going
-
to be
-
constantly guilty
-
of graft
-
and injustice
-
and a whole
-
pile of other
-
things but
-
they work
-
directly for
-
the imperial
-
forces oppressing
-
the Jews
-
over the Jews
-
so that's what
-
a tax collector
-
so Jesus
-
sees a guy
-
like that
-
a guy
-
like a
-
Dutch person
-
helping the
-
Nazis
-
and he says
-
follow me
-
and the guy
-
follows him
-
you go
-
on one level
-
you go
-
wow
-
like wow
-
but now
-
you're going to
-
be concerned
-
with the very
-
next story
-
look what
-
happens next
-
verse 15
-
and as Jesus
-
as he reclined
-
a table
-
it's actually
-
very interesting
-
the Greek
-
it's not sure
-
whether it's
-
Jesus' house
-
or Levi's house
-
you can't actually
-
tell in the Greek
-
whether it's
-
Jesus' house
-
that he's renting
-
or staying in
-
or whether it's
-
Levi's house
-
but so I'll just
-
say and as he
-
reclined a table
-
in his house
-
many tax collectors
-
and sinners
-
were reclining
-
with Jesus
-
and his disciples
-
for they were
-
many who
-
followed him
-
look at that
-
for there were
-
many of these
-
sinners
-
and tax collectors
-
who followed
-
Jesus
-
and the scribes
-
of the Pharisees
-
who aren't
-
following Jesus
-
the scribes
-
are like the
-
experts in the law
-
when they saw
-
that he was
-
eating with
-
sinners and tax collectors
-
they said to his
-
disciples
-
why does he
-
eat with tax collectors
-
and sinners
-
now here's the thing
-
about us
-
one of the reasons
-
that we would side
-
we would say
-
whoa that's terrible
-
what they're doing
-
well the reason
-
one of the reasons
-
we say that's terrible
-
that he's doing that
-
is because
-
we've been formed
-
by Jesus
-
and also partially
-
because we like
-
the idea of
-
going against
-
the moral majority
-
but here's the thing
-
and I'm making
-
no political comments
-
you can pick your thing
-
Jesus is having
-
a party
-
with everybody
-
wearing
-
make America
-
great hats
-
with big pictures
-
of Trump
-
behind them
-
or
-
all the trans
-
activists
-
are together
-
and Jesus
-
is in there
-
having a party
-
with them
-
now
-
pick your politics
-
for those of you
-
of one group
-
you'd say
-
how could Jesus
-
be with a whole
-
pile of
-
make America
-
great people
-
like what's he
-
doing
-
with sinners
-
and for the rest
-
of us
-
we're going
-
what's he doing
-
with all the
-
trans activists
-
having a party
-
with them
-
Jesus says this
-
in verse 17
-
and when Jesus
-
heard it
-
he said to them
-
those who are well
-
have no need
-
of a doctor
-
but those who are
-
sick
-
I came not to
-
call the righteous
-
but sinners
-
now
-
here's the
-
thing about this
-
see the
-
normal way
-
the normal way
-
that we're
-
wired
-
at a very
-
very deep
-
level
-
is to
-
understand
-
spiritual
-
and religious
-
life like this
-
we'd say
-
okay it's
-
really good
-
you guys
-
with make
-
America
-
great hats
-
I'm just
-
going to keep
-
staying with
-
one thing
-
I'm not
-
making any
-
political comment
-
okay
-
I just
-
make it
-
simple
-
so we'd
-
say
-
okay
-
oh
-
that's
-
really
-
good
-
that you
-
guys
-
all wearing
-
your make
-
America
-
great hats
-
you've all
-
decided to
-
follow Jesus
-
okay
-
now here's
-
the first
-
thing
-
you've all
-
got to
-
take your
-
hats off
-
you've got
-
to get rid
-
of the
-
Trump posters
-
you've got
-
to burn
-
them
-
you've got
-
to promise
-
you'll never
-
use them
-
again
-
okay
-
and if
-
you do
-
that
-
and now
-
you've got
-
to do
-
a few
-
other types
-
of things
-
you've got
-
to do
-
this
-
and you
-
can do
-
that
-
well if
-
you do
-
that
-
okay
-
now you're
-
sort of
-
welcome
-
into polite
-
society
-
and now
-
we could
-
see how
-
if you
-
actually said
-
a few
-
prayers
-
because now
-
you're
-
working
-
you're going
-
to be
-
you're going
-
to be
-
kinder
-
to this
-
group
-
you're going
-
to be
-
kinder
-
to that
-
group
-
you're going
-
to make
-
a donation
-
to the
-
Black Lives
-
Matter
-
movement
-
you're going
-
to support
-
AOC
-
in politics
-
and you start
-
to do that
-
type of thing
-
well you can
-
be accepted
-
in church
-
and you can
-
say a few
-
prayers
-
and if you
-
do that
-
and you do
-
that
-
you do
-
that
-
well eventually
-
you can be
-
connected
-
to God
-
that's the
-
basic way
-
we're wired
-
but that then
-
goes against
-
this profound
-
mystery that's
-
just happened
-
before this
-
that the only way
-
somebody's sins
-
can be forgiven
-
is if God
-
pays the price
-
for your sins
-
that God
-
absorbs that
-
cost into himself
-
and the fact
-
of the matter
-
is that the
-
religious development
-
that's presented
-
in the gospel
-
is a complete
-
opposite
-
it's not
-
that first
-
you get rid
-
of the
-
Make America
-
Great hats
-
and give
-
some money
-
to AOC
-
and then
-
you can sort
-
of say a few
-
prayers
-
and then
-
you're made
-
right with God
-
it's a complete
-
opposite
-
you begin
-
by being
-
made right
-
with God
-
while you're
-
wearing your
-
Make America
-
Great hats
-
and hating
-
AOC
-
when you're
-
completely
-
and utterly
-
unworthy
-
God forgives
-
you in the
-
person of
-
Jesus
-
it begins
-
with forgiveness
-
and union
-
with God
-
and works
-
backwards
-
from our
-
naturalistic
-
religious
-
point of view
-
that as
-
the gospel
-
grips you
-
you say
-
gosh
-
Jesus
-
is the
-
one
-
who's
-
reconciled
-
me
-
to
-
God
-
I
-
need
-
to
-
pray
-
I
-
need
-
to
-
figure
-
out
-
how to
-
pray
-
and I
-
need
-
to
-
figure
-
out
-
how
-
to
-
read
-
the
-
word
-
and
-
I'm
-
not
-
really
-
worthy
-
to be
-
with
-
other
-
Christians
-
I'm
-
going to
-
hang
-
around
-
with
-
Christians
-
and
-
now
-
as
-
you've
-
got
-
to
-
look
-
at
-
you
-
know
-
maybe
-
the
-
way
-
I'm
-
handling
-
politics
-
isn't
-
right
-
you know
-
maybe
-
walking
-
around
-
wearing
-
a
-
MAGA
-
hat
-
to
-
church
-
is
-
just
-
not
-
very
-
charitable
-
maybe
-
I
-
should
-
take
-
that
-
off
-
begins
-
with
-
grace
-
and
-
moves
-
the
-
other
-
way
-
it's
-
not
-
a
-
matter
-
of
-
making
-
yourself
-
worthy
-
until
-
you
-
find
-
a
-
union
-
with
-
God
-
that
-
never
-
is
-
going
-
to
-
work
-
never
-
going
-
to
-
work
-
only
-
makes
-
you
-
anxious
-
only
-
makes
-
you
-
self
-
righteous
-
only
-
makes
-
you
-
proud
-
only
-
makes
-
you
-
arrogant
-
only
-
makes
-
you
-
unhappy
-
only
-
makes
-
you
-
self
-
satisfied
-
until
-
your
-
life
-
crumbles
-
completely
-
useless
-
you
-
and I
-
need
-
grace
-
we
-
need
-
this
-
profound
-
act
-
of
-
Jesus
-
dying
-
on
-
the
-
cross
-
for
-
us
-
and
-
as
-
that
-
grips
-
us
-
we
-
say
-
you
-
know
-
what
-
my
-
view
-
of
-
people
-
of
-
different
-
colors
-
that's
-
wrong
-
my
-
view
-
of
-
women
-
that's
-
wrong
-
my
-
holding
-
on
-
to
-
money
-
that's
-
wrong
-
my
-
ungenerous
-
heart
-
that's
-
wrong
-
my
-
thinking
-
the
-
worst
-
of
-
C's
-
group
-
that's
-
wrong
-
works
-
from
-
the
-
gospel
-
out
-
to
-
our
-
behavior
-
not
-
being
-
worthy
-
until
-
Jesus
-
finally
-
dies
-
for
-
you
-
please
-
stand
-
you
-
know
-
that
-
Christian
-
life
-
for
-
those
-
that
-
I
-
point
-
here
-
there's
-
a
-
camera
-
here
-
by
-
the
-
way
-
that's
-
why
-
I
-
sometimes
-
look
-
I'm
-
not
-
picking
-
on
-
the
-
Maureen
-
family
-
or
-
Claire
-
on
-
the
-
computer
-
there's
-
the
-
camera
-
there
-
I
-
want
-
to
-
acknowledge
-
the
-
congregation
-
that's
-
there
-
but also
-
to
-
you
-
you know
-
that
-
the
-
Christian
-
life
-
just
-
begins
-
when you
-
sort of
-
have an
-
internal
-
desire
-
that you
-
need to
-
actually be
-
with
-
Jesus
-
and accept
-
what he
-
offers
-
you might
-
not be
-
able to
-
put that
-
into
-
words
-
that's
-
fine
-
you don't
-
have to
-
put
-
yourself
-
into
-
words
-
all you
-
have
-
to
-
do
-
is
-
just
-
say
-
if
-
you've
-
never
-
become
-
a
-
Christian
-
say
-
Jesus
-
what
-
you
-
did
-
for
-
that
-
paralyzed
-
man
-
could
-
you
-
do
-
that
-
for
-
me
-
and
-
what
-
you
-
illustrated
-
with
-
those
-
bad
-
people
-
could
-
that
-
be
-
the
-
story
-
of
-
my
-
life
-
that's
-
all
-
you
-
have
-
to
-
say
-
you
-
don't
-
have
-
to
-
know
-
all
-
the
-
theology
-
just
-
have
-
to
-
say
-
that
-
that's
-
that's
-
where
-
I
-
need
-
to
-
belong
-
and
-
for
-
those
-
of
-
us
-
who
-
are
-
Christians
-
one
-
of
-
the
-
you
-
so
-
much
-
that
-
Jesus
-
loves
-
us
-
that
-
Jesus
-
loved
-
us
-
that
-
he
-
died
-
on
-
the
-
cross
-
thank
-
you
-
so
-
much
-
that
-
you
-
see
-
every
-
human
-
being
-
with
-
perfect
-
moral
-
clarity
-
because
-
you
-
are
-
the
-
author
-
of
-
morality
-
the
-
center
-
of
-
the
-
moral
-
universe
-
you
-
see
-
each
-
human
-
being
-
with
-
complete
-
utter
-
piercing
-
clarity
-
you
-
know
-
those
-
excuses
-
so
-
that
-
we
-
did
-
something
-
that
-
wasn't
-
really
-
wrong
-
that
-
there
-
were
-
good
-
excuses
-
you
-
you
-
know
-
those
-
things
-
that
-
had
-
no
-
excuse
-
that
-
we
-
just
-
did
-
something
-
wrong
-
we
-
give
-
you
-
thanks
-
and
-
praise
-
that
-
despite
-
your
-
moral
-
not
-
despite
-
that
-
father
-
when
-
you
-
were
-
full
-
with
-
moral
-
clarity
-
you
-
loved
-
us
-
and
-
Jesus
-
came
-
to die
-
upon
-
the
-
cross
-
for
-
us
-
to
-
take
-
that
-
punishment
-
that
-
making
-
rightness
-
that
-
had
-
to be
-
done
-
that
-
we
-
couldn't
-
do
-
for
-
ourselves
-
that
-
he
-
did
-
it
-
for
-
us
-
in
-
his
-
life
-
in
-
his
-
death
-
upon
-
the
-
cross
-
we
-
thank
-
you
-
father
-
for
-
the
-
many
-
evidences
-
for
-
his
-
resurrection
-
and
-
not
-
only
-
in
-
history
-
but
-
also
-
in
-
our
-
lives
-
and
-
we
-
thank
-
you
-
for
-
what
-
he
-
did
-
for
-
us
-
on
-
the
-
cross
-
father
-
we
-
thank
-
you
-
that
-
he
-
is
-
our
-
savior
-
we
-
ask
-
father
-
that
-
what
-
he
-
did
-
for
-
us
-
on
-
the
-
cross
-
that
-
that
-
might
-
be
-
the
-
ground
-
upon
-
which
-
we
-
stand
-
it
-
might
-
be
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that
-
which
-
covers
-
us
-
it
-
might
-
be
-
the
-
lens
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by
-
which
-
we
-
see
-
the
-
world
-
around
-
us
-
the
-
lens
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by
-
which
-
we
-
see
-
ourselves
-
the
-
lens
-
by
-
which
-
we
-
see
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money
-
and
-
relationships
-
in our
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culture
-
and
-
politics
-
and
-
jobs
-
and
-
careers
-
and
-
sex
-
and
-
everything
-
else
-
that
-
it
-
might
-
be
-
father
-
the
-
way
-
that
-
we
-
understand
-
the
-
world
-
and
-
the
-
way
-
that
-
we
-
live
-
that
-
that
-
might
-
be
-
that
-
which
-
forms
-
us
-
father
-
that
-
it
-
might
-
be
-
Jesus
-
and his
-
death
-
upon
-
the
-
cross
-
we
-
ask
-
that
-
your
-
Holy
-
Spirit
-
would
-
do
-
that
-
work
-
in
-
our
-
lives
-
more
-
and
-
more
-
we
-
thank
-
you
-
that
-
we
-
can
-
gather
-
to
-
recommit
-
to
-
reconnect
-
to
-
renew
-
father
-
the
-
covenant
-
knowing
-
not
-
that
-
we
-
have
-
to
-
give
-
our
-
lives
-
to
-
Jesus
-
again
-
that
-
when
-
he
-
took
-
us
-
he
-
took
-
us
-
but
-
that
-
we
-
can
-
recommit
-
that
-
we
-
can
-
reconnect
-
we
-
can
-
renew
-
that
-
covenant
-
and
-
say
-
Lord
-
help
-
me
-
to
-
live
-
for
-
you
-
this
-
week
-
we
-
ask
-
all
-
these
-
things
-
in
-
the
-
name
-
of
-
Jesus
-
your
-
son
-
and
-
our
-
savior
-
amen