Sermon
2. Beholding Christ - John 1:6-11
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Turn it in the Scripture to John chapter one.
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And this morning, what we're going to look at a few verses,
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but we're going to read the context.
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And the context is going to be John 1 verses 6 through 15.
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And so I'm going to ask you, is you turn in your Bibles,
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or your tablet, would you all stand with me in honor of the Scriptures,
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in honor of the God who has revealed in the Scriptures.
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And in honor of the martyrs who gave their lives so that this book
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could be placed in our hands.
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There was a man sent from God whose name was John.
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He came as a witness to testify about the light,
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so that all might believe through him.
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He was not the light, but he came to testify about the light.
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The true light that gives light to everyone was coming into the world.
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He was not in the world, and he was in the world,
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and the world was created through him.
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And yet the world did not recognize him.
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He came to his own and his own people did not receive him.
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But to all who did receive him, he gave them the right to be children of God,
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to those who believe in his name, who were born,
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not of natural descent, nor the will of the flesh, nor of the will of man,
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but of God.
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The word became flesh and dwelt among us.
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We observed his glory.
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The glory is the one and only son from the father,
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full of grace and truth.
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John testified concerning him and exclaimed,
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this was the one of whom I said, the one coming after me,
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ranks ahead of me because he existed before me.
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These are the Holy Scriptures,
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make God bless our study of them this morning.
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Heavenly Father, we ask that you would open up the eyes of our heart
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that we would look into the beauty of the wisdom of the written word
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and perceive and discern the living word.
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And we ask that that living word would abide within us,
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and among us.
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As like Mary, we set at your feet to be taught of the Lord.
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In Jesus' name, we pray, amen.
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You may be seated.
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So this morning, what we're going to do is that we,
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we of course, are studying the book of John,
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and we've entitled the study, Beholding Christ.
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And as I said last week, it's a little cowardly title,
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because I wanted to title it,
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beholding the Christ within you.
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But I was afraid it could be misunderstood.
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But it is my heart if we behold Christ,
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my hope is not that we have a revelation of more information
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about Jesus, but you begin to see the life that is living within you.
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And that all those things you think might be impossible
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or inaccessible to you are not only possible
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and accessible, but they're already within you,
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because Christ is in you as the hope of glory.
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And if we can just move to recognizing
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to actually have faith to rest in the presence
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of the living Christ in the who has made his home and our soul,
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then we can begin to experience true spiritual transformation rather
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than just religious conformity.
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And that's what we're after.
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So this morning, what I want us to do is I want us to take a look
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at this context, but very specifically,
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let's just take a moment this morning and chat about
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what it means in reference to John the Baptist.
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Because there are a few verses here,
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and this is a little bit of a clunky translation.
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As I told you last week, it's believed by many scholars
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that opening, that preface that we read last week,
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that begins in the Eons of Time,
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that John likely put that in after he had written his gospel.
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And so you can, and that contributes to the clunkiness,
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because he talks about the preaminent, uncreated Christ,
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and then he starts talking about his mission to earth.
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And then he says a few words about John,
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that he flips back over to talking about the coming of the light,
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and then he has another bit about John.
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And even modern translators, if you'll notice in your Scriptures,
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they probably put verse 15 in parentheses.
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Now those parentheses are not in the original documents,
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but they put them there to realize,
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yeah, there seems John seems to be doing some back and forth here,
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and parenthetically adding some information about John,
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mixed in with this introduction of Jesus as the Word,
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as the creator, as the light, and as the life.
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And so we're gonna look at just those couple of verses
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that are speaking about directly about John, the Baptist.
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And those are going to be verses six, seven and eight,
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and then there's a break, and then it drops down to verse 15.
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So we'll just remind ourselves of those words.
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There was a man sent from God whose name was John.
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He came as a witness to testify about the light,
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so that all my belief through him, he was not the light,
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but he came to testify about the light.
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John testified concerning him, and exclaimed,
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this was the one of whom I said,
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the one coming after me ranks ahead of me,
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because he existed before me.
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And in that last statement, we have this tie in,
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back to verse 1.
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In the beginning was the Word, the Word was with God,
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and the Word was God, and everything was created through the Word,
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and nothing that was created was created without him.
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And so John is looping back that reminder
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on this time in reference to John, the Baptist,
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and on the lips of John, the Baptist saying,
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he ranks higher than me.
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Now, he existed, notice that what he existed before me.
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If you look at the narrative of Scripture,
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and you look at the numbers and the dates
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and you're getting geography,
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then you can figure out a number,
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I said geography on purpose, and because I'm talking about math,
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tchchchchch, anyway.
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If you look at that, you will quickly discern
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that John the Baptist was born before the birth of Christ.
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And so this becomes an important statement here
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at the beginning of the first chapter of John,
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because it's this recognition that John had the revelation,
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that the Christ the Messiah in whose name he spoke
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was in fact with God in the beginning
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and was God from the very beginning.
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And that's his reference to existence here.
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So what does this say about John the Baptist?
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There are a few statements, number one,
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and if you look through, I have these in your notes
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and the references to the verses.
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He was a man sent from God.
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He was a man sent from God who came as a witness
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to testify about the light.
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The man was not the light, the man came to testify
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about the light, and then we're told why in verse seven.
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I don't know how much of a Bible word nerd you are.
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I didn't mean to say word nerd as a rhyme.
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I meant to say nerd and came up word,
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but anyway, word nerd maybe I'll coin it.
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It is always interesting that little phrase so that,
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so that unlocks so much when we're doing the work
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of interpreting and interpreting.
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Oh, but thank you all for coming this morning.
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I am gonna go home and take a nap
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and I will see you all next week.
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When we're doing the work of interpreting the scripture,
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when we see that phrase so that that's a fun
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one to highlight or to circle.
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And in order to train your mind to go back
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and really dive into the context.
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And so what we're told in verse seven
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is the reason why John was a man sent from God.
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He was a man sent for God to witness and testify
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about the light.
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We're highlighting that he was not the light,
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but he came to testify about the light.
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The reason why is so that all
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might believe through him.
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And now we get this insight for how God works in the world
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when God is on the move.
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He sends people.
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That is how God manifests his work in the world.
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Even we might argue when God committed
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to his most important work, the redemption of all.
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Even then he begins with sending people.
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God reveals himself through human witnesses.
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And when we experience his grace,
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we're called to embody and share that grace with others.
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So that they too might believe in the light.
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And that is my main point this morning.
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God reveals himself through human witnesses.
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He could do it through angelic witnesses.
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He could do it primarily through supernatural acts.
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And I'm not saying that God never utilizes those means
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because if you read the scripture enough,
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you'll see he does sometimes utilize angels
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and supernatural events.
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But if you look at the scripture from cover to cover,
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God's primary means of revealing himself in the world.
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Has been will be is today through human witnesses.
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In other words, if we tease this out,
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what do I mean by that?
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I mean that God chooses people to make his presence known
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to other people through the his human witnesses.
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And these are witnesses who have personally experienced
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his grace when these witnesses encounter God's grace
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and when they're alive, they demonstrate
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and represent that grace through their words and actions.
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Essentially becoming visible, living examples
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of God's grace for others to see an experience.
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Jesus makes God tangible and his followers make Jesus tangible.
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I think there's an image that might remind us of that.
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Perfect, oh, that was almost near perfect timing.
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God, and all he is fully dwelt in Christ,
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that's the great plan of redemption.
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And how does this plan continue to work out?
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Well Paul reminds us, the mystery hidden for the ages
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is that not only for Jews, but also for Gentiles,
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Christ is in you as the hope of glory.
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And so Christ makes his residence in us,
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and this allows the world to see a multi-faceted temperament
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of Christ because Christ will be uniquely expressed
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to the world through you.
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You are the only one that can steward
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that particular revelation of Christ,
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because it's in you.
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And so this is how God's work continues to move
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throughout history.
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God expresses his work of redemption through human witnesses
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to his grace and love.
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God reveals himself to the world by saving you and sending you,
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by saving you and sending you.
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Now we're going to find a little bit and broaden that
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understanding of what sent means for those of you
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who may have come from backgrounds
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where sending language has a lot of negative emotional baggage
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to attach to it because that just meant,
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insessantly, working for the church and making
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to be filled shameful if you didn't continue
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with working for the church and all your free time.
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That's not what I'm going to be talking about.
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But one of the things we're learning is we cannot allow
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bad emotional experiences from our past
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to take away language from the scripture.
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We might have to work on doing some deep work
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to redefine it or broaden the definition
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that we shouldn't jettison these ideas.
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So the way that God reveals himself to the world
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is by saving you and sending you.
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You are the means through which God is revealing himself
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to the world.
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You are the means through which God is revealing himself
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to the people in your relational circle of influence.
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You are the means through which God is revealing
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himself to the people to whom he is sending you
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and make no mistake.
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This is not realms regulated to vocational ministers
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and missionaries.
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If you are breathing and if you love Jesus,
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the spirit in you is longing to move you outward.
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If you are breathing and you love Jesus,
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there are people to whom you are being sent.
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The only question is, are you willing to cultivate
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the self awareness so that you can be aware
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to whom you're being sent
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and actually participate in faithful stewardship
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of that mission?
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We may be sent but we might not be doing a great job
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with stewarding that mission.
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Because we have allowed our vision
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to become my optically preoccupied with ourselves
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and our problems and therefore we made it
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then little to sleep to the larger purpose of our lives.
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So we have moments like this where we gather together.
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We say, wake up!
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We jab on another little bit out of our apathy and lethargy.
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To remember, there's a lot more going on
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with what God is doing with your life
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than just the current crisis that you are facing.
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So let's go back to John the Baptist
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because what does John the Baptist teach us
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about being a witness to Christ?
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Well, there are many things I'm sure we can talk about
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this morning we're gonna highlight only one
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because the scripture highlights it
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and because I do think it is one of the most profound
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aspects of John the Baptist's life
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and furthermore I think that the movement of contemporary
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evangelicalism would do well to stop, pause,
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and listen to what John the Baptist has to teach us
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about this particular virtue.
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The essential quality that empowered John the Baptist
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effectiveness was his humility.
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His humility is the reason why
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God entrusted him with such a heavy mantle
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of anointing and authority.
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He could be trusted with it because of the reality
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of humility that was consistently characteristic
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of his life.
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There is no limit to why God might do through you
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when you are finally delivered
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of the concern about whether or not you get credit.
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Once that is removed from our heart,
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the potential for impact is limitless.
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Before that, it is true, it is the grace and mercy of God
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that he limits effectiveness that would
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enter and destroy us because of our pride.
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God is well aware of what pride can do
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in the hearts of his servants.
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Anybody remember our Satan origin story?
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This is a very real principle and God protects us.
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He shields us from that.
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So we are given grace for ministry as we grow
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in our humility and dependence upon him.
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Let's look at the way we see this outline in John's life.
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We see it very clearly if we flip over to John chapter 3.
John 3 chapter mention
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Look at verse 15, what we have said before,
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John, testifying concerning him,
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this was the one of whom I said, the one coming after me,
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rinks ahead of me because he existed before me.
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Now one of the things that we can see in that verse is
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one of the things that empowered John's vision of
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evaluation of himself and his posture of humility
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is he had a powerful revelation of the pre-existence
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pre-eminence of Christ.
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When Jesus looms large in our hearts,
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it's very easy for the ego to shrink.
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When Jesus is minimized in our hearts,
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the ego is very eager to take this place.
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And so it's rooted in this powerful vision
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that it's not just Jesus, my friend and my body.
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I mean, I believe in cultivating a tender familiar
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friendship with Jesus, but it's always in the context of
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remembering this is not just my pal.
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This is the sovereign creator of all that was created.
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And somehow this balance between all and intimacy
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was embodied in John.
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And that's exactly the kind of lifestyle we want to cultivate
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is we want this balance of both all and intimacy
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when it comes to our thoughts about God and our relation to him.
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John chapter three, which we'll get to,
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according to my sermon schedule, we'll be here in about nine months.
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So John chapter three, verses 25 through 30,
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then a dispute arose between John's disciples and a Jew
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about purification.
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Sorry for the K, that's my footnote in there.
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Verse 26, so they came to John and told him,
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Rabbi, the one you testified about,
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who was with you across the Jordan,
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is baptizing and everyone's going to him.
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John responded, no one can receive anything,
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unless it has been given to him from heaven.
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You yourselves can testify that I said,
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I'm not the Messiah, but I've been sent ahead of him.
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He who has the bride is the groom.
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But the groom's friend who stands by and listens for him,
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rejoices greatly at the groom's voice.
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So this joy of mine is complete.
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It's not hindered by these things that you say,
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it is fulfilled by these things that you say,
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and then that famous line in verse 30,
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he must increase, but I must dig into it.
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He must dig out the most decreased.
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Look at even the language there, the he and the I.
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He being God must increase.
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My ego must decrease.
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The I must decrease,
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and then Paul's going to take it further to say
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that the I doesn't even exist anymore.
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The life that I now live by faith in the Son of God
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and gave Himself for me.
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The goal is not to live and I plus Christ's life.
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The goal is not to even to live a Christ plus I life.
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The goal is to live the not I but Christ's life.
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That is where we find our deepest contentment and our highest joy,
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because this is the life that we're fashioned for.
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This is how our operating system works most optimally.
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And I'm sorry for all of you not tech people that I just alienated with that comment.
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I know you're out there.
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The essential quality that empowered John the Baptist effectiveness was his humility.
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The essential quality that will empower your witness is humility.
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So how can we get practical as we get ready to close?
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I like to say that for the people who are nodding off and they look up immediately.
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What?
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Papa's pizza.
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Is that what he said?
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No, I said we're coming to a close.
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You're ego inserted the other thing.
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There are probably multiple approaches to this,
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but what was burdened on my heart was one aspect of how we cultivate humility.
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And I believe that humility is a fruit of living a just as life.
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And I'll explain what that means in just a moment.
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In other words, humility can only be experienced passively.
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If you try to work your program for humility,
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your flesh will take pride in the humility you attained.
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And then you realize all this was all a smoke screen.
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Humility is elusive.
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You can't go for it directly.
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If you do, it is almost like when you were a child and you played with the magnates,
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not the magnets, the magnets.
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You know, you push those magnets, those disc magnets,
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and they repel each other and bounce away.
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That is keep that pitching in your mind because that's what happens when you try to take hold
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of humility.
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Oh, she won't allow you to do that.
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She has to come to you as the fruit of your life
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because of other things you're going after.
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Well, what are those other things living a just as life?
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The more you live a faithful just as life,
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the more humility will rise up from your soul and test to itself across your forehead.
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And you don't have to work to make it happen.
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Let's take a look at Colossians chapter 3.
Colossians 3 chapter mention
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Versus 12 through 13.
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I think maybe your notes say 2 through 13, that's a mistake.
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Verse 12 says, therefore, as God's chosen ones,
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holy and dearly loved, put on compassion, kindness, humility,
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gentleness, impatience, bearing with one another,
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and forgiving one another if anyone has a grievance against another,
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just as the Lord has forgiven you.
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So you ought to forgive.
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He says the same sentiment in Ephesians 432,
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and be kind and compassionate to one another,
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forgiving one another, just as God also forgave you in Christ.
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When we are for others, just as God is for us,
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we will embody and share His grace so that they too might believe in the light.
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Sometime ago, those of you who have been here a while,
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we'll know there was a struggle and questions,
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and I was the target of multiple accusations.
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They weren't moral accusations for those of you who are now,
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he was like, oh, what's he going to share now?
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What's the juicy thing?
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That's for another day if the,
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but they were specifically about the nature of the doctrine that I was articulating from the pulpit.
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And I learned a lot from those voices.
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They were hard, it was hard, hard, hard.
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The most probably difficult season of my entire existence on earth.
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But I learned a lot from those voices,
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and I learned a lot about my own motives and communications.
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But if there's any leftover or if I'm in danger of repeating that mistake,
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I want to clarify.
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Some reason, there's this assumption on the part of nervous evangelicals,
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that if you celebrate the grace of God,
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it's a mask to give everyone an excuse to continue sitting
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with our consequences.
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Now, that is very problematic on many levels,
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because it reveals that we believe that our words of shame were supposed to be the consequences for sin,
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and sin is its consequence in and of itself,
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but that's another sermon for another day.
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Sorry if I'm danger of ranting.
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But there is this assumption, and I get it.
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It's the same thing that people were afraid of with another guy.
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It is inserted my sound.
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No, I assure you, in those stories, I'm standing with the Pharisees.
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Did you bear witness to that?
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Maybe you and I are the two witnesses of revelation.
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Although things don't end out too well for those two guys.
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So, I advocate my position.
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But so, I really do get it.
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It's the thing that we fear.
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We are so fearful that the infinite beauty and holiness of Christ
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can somehow be tainted by the puny human sin of his creation.
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But it's a deep fear that we all have.
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And I want to make it crystal clear.
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And you know what?
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I never did the service for those who struggled with what I was saying,
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and I regret that.
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My motive,
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important people to the offensive over the top, gratuitous grace of God,
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I believe in English Paul calls it extravagant.
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The Greek word is the word from which we get the word hyper.
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So, there is even a pejorative hyper grace attached to it.
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The reason for that is because I have observed in my own heart and life.
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I have observed when I read the testimony of Jesus,
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particularly the characters of the Pharisee.
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And I have observed in my so-journ in contemporary evangelism,
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evangelism, that we give to others only the measure of grace that we feel has been given to us.
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So, if we disqualify ourselves, our limit God's grace in our lives because of what we have done,
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we have no choice but to limit the grace we're willing to give others.
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Because here's the deal, you'll always live a just as life.
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The only question is, are you're just as interpretations based on the scripture or based on your emotions?
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Because if they're based on your emotions and feelings,
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you will shrink that grace that God has extended.
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And you will constantly be giving limited grace to others.
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It's why there's something akin to jealousy when we find out a believer is under the Lord's favor,
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and they've got looser standards than we have.
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That doesn't seem fair.
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I saw a wine bottle in their house the other night.
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Sorry, I'm been a little bit too real, I guess a little bit this morning.
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But you know that feeling, I felt it that envy of other Christians that didn't put themselves under the same yolk of legalism.
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Why should they be happier than me when I'm doing more right things than them?
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Why is that?
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Because I was in a Christian.
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I was an idolatier worshipping at the altar of my own religious works.
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That's not Jesus.
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And I thought I was free, but I was in fact impondent.
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Some of you have great testimonies of the intense lives of sin from which you've been delivered.
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Mine is super boring because he delivered me from a profound bondage to religious performance,
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so that I could see the Savior.
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And so the reason why it's so critical that you understand God's loving kindness towards you is so that you are then to empower to live a just as life toward others.
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You will begin to give the loving kindness that you're convinced that you've received.
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This is why it's so critical in the lives of believers, especially those who grew up in toxic legalistic backgrounds to have a revelation of grace that sets them free.
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Because the limitations they experience is the limitation to their witness.
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And so as we enter into that, we can live a just as life.
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So as we close, there are two ideas that I would like to share with you as a way of responding to simple but huge ones, know yourself and know your mission.
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This is what's powerful about John the Baptist.
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He knew who he was.
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I'm inferior. He existed before me.
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And he knew his mission.
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I'm called to go before him and testify about the Messiah.
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Know yourself and know your mission.
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Know yourself.
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What I mean by this is something very simple.
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So simple, I would get irritated for what I'm about to say.
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Know, I mean, be honest with yourself.
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You don't have to confess it to me or anyone else unless the Holy Spirit leads you to, then I would encourage your obedience to the Spirit.
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But outside of that, know who you are when you live Antichrist.
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And don't pretend like you never live Antichrist.
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Because that will ruin the experiment for you.
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Know who you are when you live Antichrist.
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And by the same token, take time to know who you are when you live in Christ.
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Now, once you do that, do less of the former and more of the latter.
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All right, amen. Let's go home.
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It's not easy, but it is that simple.
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It is recognizing I have choices that either lead me throughout the day or maybe Abon flow throughout the day to live more Antichrist or I make choices that cause me to reveal and live more in Christ.
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And there are consequences to those decisions.
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Know who you are when I went through my most profound valley of disbelief.
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And even if you've ever entertained giving up your belief in God, you know that kind of when you're at the decision, but it's actually pretty exciting.
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Because I'm like the whole new world opens up.
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There's not somebody over my shoulder watching my every move.
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And all of these legalistic things we've projected upon God were like, rightfully, I'm going to be free of this.
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And it's like I went to the edge. There were two things that helped me back.
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Number one, when I got to that point, my natural reaction was to pray.
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God, I don't believe in you anymore.
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And then the contradiction of that act began to seep into the back of my mind and question the newfound faith and atheism.
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But the second one was simply the Holy Spirit given me a chance to reflect.
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This might not seem like a strong faith.
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It might not seem like a strong foundation for other more-learning people than I and I and accept that.
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I know who I am for others when I'm pursuing Jesus.
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And I know who I am for others when I'm pursuing me.
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I am heartbreak and broken and ashamed of what this lifestyle choice causes for me and the people around me.
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And I rejoice in the life that is given to me and the people around me when I pursue Christ.
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And that moment it was enough to say, maybe I don't have to know whether or not you exist.
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I know what it's like for me to live like you do and when it's like for me to live like you don't.
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And I want the fruit of pursuing Jesus.
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And so you'll be happy to know I'm going to head and let him in.
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God I believe in you again.
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I'm not happy with you and I want to talk for a while but I'll get there.
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You have to know these things.
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My friends, you're brokenness, you're suffering, you're struggle are powerful ways for others to experience God's mercy.
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If you have the courage to be honest and vulnerable.
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Because if all you have is answers, they just think great for you but if you don't struggle like me, those answers mean nothing.
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It is when we have permission to not be angels pursuing Christ but to be humans pursuing Christ.
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And all that means and your humanity is only seeing in the testimony of your weakness and struggle.
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It is not seeing in your easy answers.
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People need to know how those answers were meaningful to you when it was dark.
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My friends, there are days.
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I keep telling people I didn't go to seminary.
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But to Bible school, but not seminary.
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And in my idolatry of academic excellence, that's embarrassing for me to admit some of the times.
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For my ego to admit.
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But I realize this week, there is a seminary I have attended.
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There are days I wake up full of faith.
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As though I'm woken up by the presence of God himself.
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I'm sure my wife experienced that a lot more waking up next to me than maybe I do.
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But I don't know, I'll never talk to her about it.
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And I'm full of faith.
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I want to engage in ministry.
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I want to spend my life for Jesus.
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And if the thought of death crosses my mind, it's old death where it is your sting.
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Because I'm living from a revelation that I have been given as a birthright, not as a reward.
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An intimate, deep connection with God that will never be severed.
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Even when this body wears down and can no longer operate as the locomotive means of my spirit.
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I still have trust that this can go in the ground and I will continue my journey with Jesus.
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In whatever glorious reality that has next.
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And sometimes certainly within the same month, maybe within the same week.
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I wake up with a gripling panic of little time.
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On those days, I believe in my heart death is chasing after me.
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And I have to do all that I can to outrun it.
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And when I get into that place anxiety and worry and fear begin to creep in.
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And once fear gives way, that doesn't take long for me to begin entertaining hate and judgment as well.
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Now I'd like to say, but I come to church and I pray with the staff and read our scripture devotion
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and it all goes away.
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But sometimes when I do that, don't tell the staff.
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I'm faking it.
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I am 100% faking it because the reality of my inner life is not that's not what I feel.
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And then, and I don't turn away, I go home to other responsibility and people that I'm called to give my life to and love.
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And I disassociate from them emotionally.
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I abandon the people in my home because I've got to disconnect.
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And when I do, I emotionally enter in to a self-made cocoon of self-protection.
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And in that moment, I feel utterly isolated from everyone and from God.
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And in that dark cocoon, I pray the prayer of the Psalmist,
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my God, my God, why have you forsaken me and despair is there and depression is there.
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And fear is there.
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And I sit with those unwelcome demons in my cocoon for a bit.
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And before long, I realize someone else is here,
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the Holy Spirit slipped into.
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And he's not fighting these enemies, he's using them.
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They're on his side.
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And over and over again, in that moment, I return to what is me as an anchor from my soul that Jesus prayer.
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And I've rented and raved and was angry.
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And then I am silent.
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Get that on my knees and say, Jesus Christ,
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Son of God, have mercy on me.
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Jesus Christ, Son of God, have mercy on me.
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And then peace floods the cocoon.
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I open my eyes and I see an opening with light.
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And I want to and I step out.
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And all of a sudden, I'm Superman for Jesus again.
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And I realize this week,
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I'm a man who's not in the world.
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And I can track this or directly the places where I have seen the most of the people who are in the world.
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And I realize this week,
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that cocoon has been my seminary.
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Have you been there, too?
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I have at lunch.
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There is much more alums here than we care to admit.
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But the lessons in the cocoon,
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or directly the places where I have seen the most effective ministry in my life.
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It's not what I gathered from books.
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It's not what I gathered from sermons.
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It's not what I gathered from Bible school.
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It is nearly 100% what I've earned in the cocoon.
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Because this is what makes me not a super person, super,
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I'm not the pastor you deserve.
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I want to be.
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And I do my best on the bad days to fake it.
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But I need Jesus every second of every single day.
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And if I am blind to that need,
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I see being effective in ministry.
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And we have run out of time.
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So I'll let you study the rest of the lessons.
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Right now, I think we need to do something different.
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And what you all have to stand up and the worship thing to come forward.
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What you to close your eyes is we get ready to come to the Lord's table.
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For those of you who are new, we will start from the back row.
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And you just kind of see the flow of traffic as people come through.
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We'll take the elements in return to our seat.
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And you can take communion privately.
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But for now, close your eyes as we come to the Lord's table.
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I want you to ask yourself in the inner chamber of your heart.
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What are the lessons from your cooking?
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Where can you take a moment and pause and see the Holy Spirit's faithfulness in the midst of your darkness?
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Or maybe you're there now.
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And all you see is the presence of the demons, your enemies, your shortfalls.
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Can you take a moment and breathe and look around for the presence of God this morning?
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You feel the presence of the Holy Spirit?
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Maybe bringing peace in.
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And maybe ripping open that cocoon just a little bit to where you see some light shining through.
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Don't waste your suffering.
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Let it become your memorial of God's faithfulness, not a testimony to your failure.
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And rejoice in this and rest in the forgiveness of Christ.
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And in the mercy of God, let it feel your heart so completely that it begins to spill over to the people in your life.
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Then you will know the joy of what it means to be used by God.