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Rewired by Love | Joyful Belonging
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Good morning. It's great to be with you all
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today. It's cold outside, but it's it's
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warm in here. I'm glad for I'm glad for heat
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and I'm glad for community. This morning we are continuing
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our series Rewired by Love. We're in week 4 of this series
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in which we're getting super nerdy about how we change.
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We're considering what transformation looks like in the
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way of Jesus based on scripture and spiritual formation, but
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then also bringing concepts from neuroscience and attachment
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theory. If this is like your first time
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here, it's not quite this crazy. Every week we're I'm, I'm kind
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of setting a new bar for nerdiness today.
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If that's your thing, you're welcome.
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If not, I'm sorry, but I'm super excited about this.
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I'm excited to dig in and at its core, really what we're going to
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be doing today is looking at the question of how community
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functions in the process of transformation.
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Over the last three weeks, we've kind of looked at the problem,
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which we'll be talking about more.
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And in these next three weeks, as we kind of pivot in this, the
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series beginning today, we're looking at what the solution is,
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how we can, in the way of Jesus, experience a transformation.
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This morning I'd like to start with a bit of a strange story.
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In the 1960s, there was a psychologist by the name of
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Michael Gazinaga who was invited into a very strange research
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project. He was presented with a group of
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people who had had a bizarre surgery.
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They had suffered from severe epilepsy and in attempts to
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curtail the seizures that they were having, a surgery had been
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performed on their brain in which the two hemispheres of
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their brain were literally cut in half.
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The corpus callosum, which is attaches the the left and right
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hemispheres of the brain was severed in these patients to
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help with the the epilepsy problem, which had largely
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worked. But now this presented
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researchers with a very unique opportunity.
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There was an opportunity to look at at certain brain functions
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and certain brain systems in independence from one another in
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a way that had never previously been possible.
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So Gazinga designed these experiments and and brought
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these patients together to to explore how the brain really
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functions and and, and how does it function when the part that
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is specialized for language planning and conscious thought
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is separated from this part, that which governs much of our
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relationships and our emotional life and our intuitions and
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reflexes. In one experiment he used a
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trick of the visual system to present information to just one
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hemisphere of the brain at a time.
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And so they would flash images on a screen again in a, in a pre
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designed way that would only allow one hemisphere to interact
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with it in a given moment. So for instance, there was an
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image of a hat that was flashed onto the screen.
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And if, if, if the patients in the experiment were able to see
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this image of a hat with essentially their their their
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left hemisphere, the side that governs conscious thought and
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language, they would readily be able to say in response to the
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question, what did you see? A hat?
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OK, they saw it. They were the same as image.
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The question, what did you see? The response would be nothing.
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I didn't see anything. But if you gave them a set of
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flash cards and said, could you point out what it is that you
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saw? They were able to do it.
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The visual processing center recognized that, even though
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there was not language for it. And why is this interesting?
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All right, this is where it gets really fun.
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If you're tracking with me, I get that this is kind of
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confusing. All right, so there was then a
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process, the next stage in the experiment where there was
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actually a a command or a prompt given to the people such as
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walk. And when the the the right
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hemisphere, which again is governing some of this action
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and response and reflex, but doesn't have the ability to use
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language, was given this prompt, The patients would get up from
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their chair and start to walk. OK, they would start to move in
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response to the prompt. Well, this is really
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interesting. They would be then asked, why
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are you walking? Why did you get up just now?
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Now the left hemisphere, which controls conscious thought and
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language, didn't have any access to the prompt.
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Their left hemisphere hadn't seen it.
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Their left hemisphere did not know why they were moving.
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But in the moment, they would immediately generate a very
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plausible and coherent explanation.
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Oh, I'm going to get a Coke. It was manufactured after after
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the fact. All right, so This is why I am
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explaining this. Our brains have both the default
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reactions, but then very often they also have the meaning
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making Jonathan Height in his book the Happiness Hypothesis
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describes these two brain systems in images of an elephant
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and a rider. The elephant is the part of our
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our is an image for the, the non non linguistic, reflexive,
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automatic, emotional, relational parts of our brain that that
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operates on default. OK.
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It's the part of our brain that shows up in the spaces when
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somebody spills coffee on us and we're like, whoa, what do I do?
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How do I react when somebody comes at us and says, Hey, I,
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I've been wanting to talk to you about something.
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Can we have a conversation about, and we get the sense that
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I'm about to get impending feedback, right?
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It's, it's the, it's the part of our brain that engages
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automatically when somebody doesn't text us back and we're
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sitting there wondering what's going on, right.
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Our defaults, our impulses, our, our actions happen on automatic.
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This is controlled by this elephant, so to speak.
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But on the elephant, there's also a writer and a writer is
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this image for the conscious part of our brain, the part that
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does have language and explains things.
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And this analogy is helpful because height explains that
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although the writer has some level of control, we can direct
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our willpower attention. We can direct our focus in
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different ways. The very often in our lives, in
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our bodies, the elephant, if you will, we will be off eating that
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bag of Doritos late at night. We'll be running on automatic in
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the way that we responded to our partner, in the way that we
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showed up under stress and and our bodies are already out
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moving along the journey. And then our writer, so to
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speak, starts to give an explanation for it.
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Often times the problem is, is that in in the West in
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particular, and in the church, very often we have an, an
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approach to transformation that that brings a, a, a that that
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operates from an underlying philosophy that we just need
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more information and more willpower to change.
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Like if we just, if we just read our Bibles more, if we just
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studied more, if we just attended more consistently, if
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we just had more information or if we just tried harder, if we
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just muscled up and worked at it more than surely we could get
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there. The problem is, as we looked at
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in week 1 of this series, God wants our change, not just at
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the level of the mind, although that's very important, but also
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at the heart, the soul strength. He wants all of us to be changed
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by love, shaped by love, as we talked about here at the Garden.
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So the question I want to look at today is so how are we
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changed? How do, how does transformation
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happen? What does the Scripture have to
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tell us about transformation in this embodied, wholehearted way
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that gets not just at the rider but also at the elephant, not
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just at our reflexes, not just at our beliefs, but also at our
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reflexes? So in Week 1 of this series, we
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talked about the difference between knowing that and knowing
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how. We explained that.
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You could know like facts such as where you live.
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You could know facts such as Jesus rose from the dead.
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And that's a good thing. But it's that different system
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from knowing how to drive a car or knowing how to respond when
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somebody shows up with feedback. In in Week 2, we talked about
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our our attachment for filters, our instincts to how our
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experiences shape the way that we show up in response to
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things. That's the elephant, so to
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speak. Last week we talked about how
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our riders very often attempt to use shame and fear to get us to
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go where we want to go right. How often in our internal
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conversations and also in the church, the very often we
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leverage these tools of shame and fear, trying to prod,
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cajole, coerce ourselves in the direction of change.
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We named the limits of that. Sometimes we'll get a a short
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term burst of pressure, but often wind up hiding in
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performance or self protection. And we may even train our, our
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bodies, our our elephant, if you will, to associate God or
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spirituality with, with anxiety, with fear, with stress.
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So this morning I want to look at this question of how do we
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change in the way of Jesus, not just in our minds, but all the
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way through. And this is where our passage
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today, I think, is so significant.
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This text of Scripture in numbers Here in Numbers chapter
Numbers 6 chapter mention
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6, we find language which will be familiar to many of us in our
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church community. We tend to recite this week
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after week as part of our benediction.
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And, and it says here we find in Numbers chapter 6 that that God
Numbers 6 chapter mention
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tells Moses to tell the priests to give the people this
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blessing. You'll have the priestly
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blessing as a, a header over this little section of Scripture
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and many of your Bibles here. And, and the blessing goes like
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this. It says, may the Lord bless you
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and keep you. May He make His face shine upon
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you and be gracious to you. May He turn His face towards you
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and give you peace. All right.
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And then we see at the end these final words.
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So they will put my name on the Israelites and I will bless them
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in verse 27. Now there are two things that
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both relate to community and both relate to transformation
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that I think are embedded in this text today.
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And admittedly this is not a prescription for training your
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fast track system or training the elephant, but I think God
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created us. He created our bodies, He
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created our minds. And we also see much of this
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wisdom latent in Scripture. And so here we see in Numbers
Numbers 6 chapter mention
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chapter 6, the first thing that that God begins with our
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identity. God begins with our identity.
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He says, they will put my name on the Israelites and I will, I
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will bless them. This is such a profound truth in
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Scripture. It's a truth that we come back
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to over and over and over again. It's the truth we talked about
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last week. God doesn't begin in his
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relationship with us with a list of demands and duties.
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He, he doesn't give us a bunch of instructions to follow in
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order to be good enough, in order to be worthy enough, in
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order to be accepted. God starts with blessing.
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He starts with identity. He starts with this commitment
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to the people. And we see this not only here in
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Numbers, but throughout the Scripture.
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In Exodus, we read the words, I will take you to be my people
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and I will be your God. There's this adoption that
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happens first into the family of God.
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As the New Testament talks about it.
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We first become family and then learn what it means to live as a
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family. It's not about performing your
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way into the family or or being good enough that at the end of
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the day you find out like, oh, I passed the test.
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God starts with adoption. He starts with belonging.
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He starts with blessing. He says these people are mine,
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and this is so important to us. As it turns out, God's pattern
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of beginning with identity is important.
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Neuroscientifically, brain science confirms that a huge
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part of how this, this elephant, if you will, is formed comes
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from our most significant attachments.
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Now let me talk a little bit more about this.
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So the, this, this, this, this elephant in your brain, if you
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will, this, this implicit system that we've been talking about
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it, it operates much, much faster than our slower verbal
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system. In fact, it, it operates more in
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terms of pictures and images than it does in terms of words.
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And one of the primary jobs of this system is to actually craft
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our identity stories and to help make sense of who we are in
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relationship to the world. So in the book, the other half
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of church, Jim Walder and Michael Hendricks talk about how
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this system in the brain 6 times a second is capturing a picture
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and presenting it to our brain 6 times every second.
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And, and, and it's asking who am I?
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What is the situation? How would my people show up in
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this situation? Like what do we do here?
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How do we respond to this? And so when it says my people,
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who is it? Who is it talking about?
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Who's who's Wilder and Hendrix mean by this?
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Well, they're talking about the people with whom we have the
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closest attachment bonds, the people that we are most
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connected to. Where do our reflexes come from?
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Where do our gut instincts of how to respond to conflict in
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that moment come from? They come for the people we're
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closest to. They come from those embedded
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relationships. We look to them for a reference
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point of of how do I respond? Right now I'm under stress.
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How do I respond? We're having a conflict.
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How do I respond? Like in this moment, do I resort
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to to shame? Do I hunker down and freeze up?
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Or do I operate in faith in this moment when somebody is bringing
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emotional intensity at me? Like can I stay regulated?
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Can I take care of myself or do I need to lash out and fight
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back? These aren't things that we kind
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of in the moment when somebody's coming at you or cut you out in
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traffic, you're not having an internal conversation with
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yourself. You're saying, Gee, I wonder how
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I should respond in this moment, right.
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The elephant is already down the road.
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We've already responded before we had time to make sense of it.
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The writers not on board yet. The elephant is already out
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front. Often times the writer has
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relatively little control. But how does that that elephant
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decide what to do? By these pictures, by our group
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identity, by our group attachment.
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And and so if we act like our people in these moments when
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we're under pressure, when our character comes out, I think the
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question is, who are we most deeply attached to?
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If these relationships form us so significantly, What models
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are we learning? Who are we being discipled by?
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And this is a, a point where I think we have to talk about a
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problem that we face in our culture of what I would just
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describe as thin church. In a thin church culture, we
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don't have deep relationships, right?
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We might not know the people who are next to us on a Sunday.
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We show up for 90 minutes a week and we hear great sermon,
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there's some great worship music.
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We have a cool experience, and then we return to our lives.
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Thin churches is disembodied. It's it's the product of a
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consumer culture in which we relate to religious goods and
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services in the same way that we relate to so many other things
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in our lives. Everything about our world
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trains us in a posture that says like, if it fits you, great, and
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if not, move on. Shop somewhere else, move
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somewhere else, consume somewhere else.
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It ought to be tailored precisely to you.
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We live in a universe of incredible customization.
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You can have dark screen or you can have locked light screen on
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your phone. You could choose the font size,
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right? You can even make the widgets
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exactly how you want. But when you show up in
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community, as it turns out, one of the things that's very
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difficult for us is you can't do that.
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Other people show up and they're a mess.
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So how do we, how do we navigate this?
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How do we handle this? Well, it turns out the only way
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to grow new, to grow new neural networks in our brain, new
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patterns of attachment, new patterns of relationship, is if
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we are in thick relationship with one another.
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That means if you're not vulnerably and consistently
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showing up with other people, you can't have the kind of
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experiences with other people that that rewire you in ways of
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Kingdom living. And this is a problem.
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Our culture is so fast-paced. We're moving 100 miles an hour.
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There's information everywhere, and it's so cool to get the
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dopamine hit of an incredible communicator.
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Like there's a new clip on social media.
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It's fantastic. There's a YouTube short.
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But as my friend Dan White Junior says, discipleship is
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more than a solo endeavour surrounded by your favorite
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books, podcasts and YouTube clips.
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It's a local journey with others in availability and
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vulnerability. Friends, we have a a problem.
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We can only transform the writer if we exchange and leave our our
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leave our engagement with others at the level of ideas only as we
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begin to share life with one another in a way where we're
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actually seeing how that person shows up when they have a
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conflict with their parents. When we see how that person
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manages their finances, we see how that person navigates things
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when their boss is stressing them out, making unreasonable
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demands. Can we begin to be transformed
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in the way of Jesus, where our lives begin rewired in the way
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of the Kingdom? Friends, we have to find ways in
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our community to develop attachments with one another, or
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at least with some people who are following Jesus at a level
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where they can become primary, where we can actually be rewired
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in love and learn what it means not just from our family of
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origin to show up, but actually from one another.
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This takes availability. It takes a vulnerability to not
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only be present, but also to allow ourselves to be seen.
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This is what we see throughout Scripture.
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It's assumed in the New Testament that this kind of
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thick community would exist. 59 times over the course of the New
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Testament, exhortations are given to the body of Christ of
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how they should show up with one another, love one another,
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forgive one another, be patient with one another, bear one
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another's burdens. They go on and submit to one
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another, spur each other on. Here's the thing.
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You cannot learn forgiveness without having someone who you
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need to forgive. You cannot learn humility
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without having someone close to you who irritates you.
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You cannot learn patience without actually staying in
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community with somebody who moves slower than you like.
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God wants us to be transformed, not just at an ideas level, at a
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wholehearted level. But it takes thick community.
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In order for that to happen. We must be thickly attached to
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one another. This is what it means to
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cultivate a rich group identity. It means developing the kind of
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shared relationships, the shared vocabulary, the shared practices
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that begin to change us. We do lots of things to try to
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be intentional about that here at the Garden, because in a lot
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of ways we're a diverse community and we want to be a
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diverse community. But you can't just be a diverse
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community if you're just a diverse community in in the
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sense that it's a bunch of different people who are all
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hanging out in the same way as Ritual.
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Lotus likes to say you're just the same as a subway car, like
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you might be travelling somewhere, but it's incidental,
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right? Diversity, unless it's locked
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together, glued together by something stronger than the
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difference, doesn't work. The good news for us is that we
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have an invitation towards that. We have the gospel of Jesus
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Christ, we have the family of Jesus Christ.
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We have a shared destination together that we can move to,
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that can hold us together across our differences if we'll allow
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it to. Every week when you come into
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the auditorium here, you pass a banner on the way in that has a
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list of value statements on it. I invite you to take a a look at
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that. Just notice it on your way out.
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Now remember when our team was wrestling with these and
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thinking about like, what are what are the values that are
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defining for our family? What are the values that we want
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to be defining for our community?
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One thing that we did that was really intentional is we started
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each of these values with a we statement.
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It wasn't just like at the garden.
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There is a value for hospitality.
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It was we practice hospitality, we attune to the Holy Spirit, we
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imitate Jesus, right? Because these are ways of
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living. These are our practices that we
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share that we want to walk out together as a community that
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become defining so that in those moments of stress that we know
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what to do. We know that we're going to look
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to Jesus. We know that we're going to
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attune to Holy Spirit. We know we're going to stay
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thickly rooted in community because this is what it will
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take for us to be transformed, not just at an intellectual
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level, but at a wholehearted level.
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Friends, I have to ask this morning without any pressure or
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shame, but I'd invite you to consider like, who are the
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people that you are attached to this morning and how and how are
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you attached to them? How are those relationships
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forming or shaping who you are today?
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Jim Rowan famously said you are the average of the five people
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that you spend the most time with.
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If that were to be true, what is being formed in you?
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Because it it will be like if the people who are closest to
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you are operating under the assumption that that good
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parenting means a great education that sets up your kid
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to be a high earner, you'll notice whatever you say on paper
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that your values start to look that way.
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If you notice that the people who are closest to you really
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think that the most important thing in life is to be able to
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have awesome vacations, even if it means maxing out your credit
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card to do it, you'll notice that you start to behave.
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You start to operate. You start to assume that same
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thing. If you, if you notice that in
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your life that the ways in which you you show up are, are defined
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by vocational attainment or educational attainment, look
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around. I bet there are some factors in
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your community that are shaping those things as well.
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And look, I'm not trying to guilt trip anybody here.
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There's not any mandated way to do this.
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I'm not even saying that it has to be at the garden
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specifically. But if you want to grow in your
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transformation, if you want to grow in your relationship with
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Jesus, it's important that your relationships also are connected
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to people who are on that journey, who are pursuing him,
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who are loving him, who are growing in their ability to show
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up like he did. I want to go back to Numbers
Numbers 6 chapter mention
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chapter 6 because before we close, there's another thing
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that you have to see here. It's actually arguably at the
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heart of this. In Numbers chapter 6, not only
Numbers 6 chapter mention
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do we see that that God declares belonging before there's an
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invitation to behaving. Not only is there this this
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group identity which is to be rehearsed and declared over the
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people of God, but also he wants to remind them of something very
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important. We read here that God says
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declare this over them. May the Lord bless you and keep
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you. May he make his face shine upon
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you and be gracious to you. You know, I think again, God
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knew what he was doing when he designed us.
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God knew what he was doing when he wrote Scripture.
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Neuroscience suggests to us that the face is one of the first
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things that we pay attention to as kids.
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In fact, that elephant that we've been talking about, the
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elephant is all about paying attention to faces.
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It looks at a tunes. You notice this whenever,
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anytime you, some of some of us in here either are round babies
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or have had babies and man, you just have this pole and the
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babies do too, to just gaze into each other's eyes with warmth
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and delight. Maybe you've experienced this in
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a romantic relationship. When you're first falling in
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love, everybody just wants to gaze deeply into each other's
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eyes. You're practicing attunement.
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You're practicing connection. This is what helps to form and
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forge these strong, thick relationships that shape us.
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It's what signals to the elephant part of our brain that,
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hey, it's, it's OK. You're welcomed here, you're
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loved here. I'm paying attention to you.
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Your needs are going to be met. I'm going to take care of you.
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And when God decides to give his people a blessing, something
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that he wants to have repeated to them over and over and over,
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he says, even though theologically we know that we
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don't like see the face of God, God says, hey, I want to give
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the people that image, my face shining over you.
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Alan Shore talks about joy as being the experience of being,
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quote, the sparkle in someone's eye.
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How does it make you feel when you walk into a room or
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experience a connection? And there's just that delight,
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that joy. You can tell that this person
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just treasures you, that they're so happy to see you, that they,
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they adore you, they love you. They want to be connected to
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you. They want to be close to you.
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They're paying attention to you, God says, This is how I want my
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people to feel. This is what I want them to
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know. This is how I relate to them.
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My face shines upon them and is gracious to them.
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My face turns toward them as a source of peace.
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Friends, when we feel the joy of God's shining face, when we get,
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when we experience not just know in the rider, but when the
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elephant really feels, experiences, encounters the deep
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transforming delight of God, there's something in us that
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just unlocks. We move out of protect mode
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where we're working in our fear based strategies to try and keep
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ourselves safe and we move into connect mode where we open, we
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can learn. God shines his face towards us.
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He looks at us with delight and joy and invites us to to receive
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his countenance to soak in it. Maybe you've wondered at some
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point why we don't just have a long sermons every week.
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We do kind of have long sermons every week.
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Why, why we don't why, why we don't just make the sermon the
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whole thing or Bible teaching the whole thing.
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The Bible teaching is super important.
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Some of what we do up here in the worship moment is allowing
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ourselves to not just hear, not just consciously process these
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things, but to allow our our souls to kind of soak in it, to
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receive it, to imagine it, to connect with it.
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Because these truths aren't meant to just change our minds,
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they're meant to change our entire being.
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That's what it means to be shaped by the love of Jesus.
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When we're in shame based striving, our rider is just
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bullying us, trying to push us, coerce us, make us do better,
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work harder, be better in order to be accepted.
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But when we're in this connection with God that He
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offers to us if we'll receive it, His face shining upon us
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with delight and joy, His eyes sparkling at the goodness of who
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he has made, transformation becomes a natural outflowing of
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who we are. It starts with receiving the
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goodness of God. And this is what we see over and
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over and over again in Scripture.
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Jesus says, you are my people, He declares.
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When creation happens to the first humans, he says, he looked
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at them and it was very, very good, right?
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He declares over his Son at his baptism.
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He says, This is my beloved son, in whom I am well pleased.
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Before Jesus performs or produces or preaches.
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In fact, we see this in the epistolary structure of the New
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Testament. Almost every epistle starts with
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this deep theological treatise on who we are, our identity 1st,
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and then after chapters and chapters of who we are, it gets
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to and then this is how you should live, because both are
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important. How we should live is important,
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but we also need to receive this identity as one who is beloved.
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I think, friends, that it's so important that God doesn't just
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give us these ideas in Scripture.
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He doesn't just model them to us himself.
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But then he places us into an adopted family created by by
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baptism in the blood of Jesus, where we get to walk this stuff
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out, where we get to remind ourselves who we are, where we
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get to practice these new ways of relating and showing up
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because of what Jesus has done. There's a new family that's been
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created. We don't need to hustle our way
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into it, but once we're in it, we learn the ways of living in
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that family. And as we show up with each
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other in the same ways that God shows up with us, not with
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condemnation, not with judgement, not with anxiety, not
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with pressure, but with joy, with delight, with care, with
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attunement, something in US begins to unlock and we can live
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more fully and more deeply into the reality of who God has made
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us to be. Friends, what does this look
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like for us as a church community, as a family is trying
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to walk this out together? Probably a lot of things.
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We're going to talk about some more of those things over the
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next couple of weeks in more detail and point to some
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specifics in Scripture where we see these patterns playing out.
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But I think first of all, it means actually beginning to
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relate to each other. Not as nuisances or obstacles,
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not as people we have to find time to schedule with.
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Like what if we really related to one another as beloved
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children of God? Like what if instead of just
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rushing past each other to get somewhere, what if we allowed
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ourselves to just actually lock eyes with the other person for a
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minute and to appreciate them, to rejoice in them, to extend
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some of that that goodness that we have received from God to one
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another. Say, hey, you're, you're wanted
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here, you're loved, you're cared for.
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It sounds so cheesy, but it's so real.
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Friends, God wants us to experience this.
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And, and we don't experience this in some kind of solo
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journey. We have to learn how to show up
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with each other that way, and we have to learn to allow more and
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more of ourselves to be seen so that we can be healed at the
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deepest part of who we are. I remember one thing that's been
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so significant to me as I was thinking about how this has
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happened in my own life. This week was early in my dating
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relationship with Ali. I came into the relationship
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with some pretty meaningful scars.
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I'd had some big wounds, some traumas, I would say, and there
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were some trust issues, some shame issues that were pretty
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deeply embedded in the relationship and in my operating
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model for the world. And I'm not going to tell you
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what they are because I don't know if you all are as safe as
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Ali is. But I do remember in, I remember
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specific moments in conversation where I named some things that I
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felt a lot of grief around, some things that I had done that I
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wish I had to take back on. Some moments in my story where
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things had gone sideways and I'd been partly at fault.
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And I remember she held that in a way that was probably more
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representative of Jesus than anybody I'd countered up until
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that point. Instead of judgement or
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condemnation or disgust or alarm or incredulity, condescension,
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I'd experienced all of those things.
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She just had deep, genuine care. She had curiosity.
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She showed up with an open heart.
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And that experience for me was, was deeply transformational.
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Because there were some things that I, I already knew in my
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head that like the writer was already aware of the good
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theology. But my body carried the wounds.
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I held the score of some of these these things that I had
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been through. And when Ali honestly just
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modeled Jesus to me, it allowed for me to begin to just breathe
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a little deeper, to feel a little freer, to step a little
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further out of hiding, to be a little bit more honest.
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It created more profoundly more intimacy in my life, not just
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with her, but with my dad in in, in relationships of friendship
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with Caleb, with others. She showed up with me like
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Jesus, with compassion, with care, with delight, and there
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was something in me that was healed through that experience.
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Friends, how often do we do this with and for each other?
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Like being a community is all about reading Scripture
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together. It's all about praying together.
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Those are good, important things.
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We talk about those things all the time.
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We need to keep doing those things, press into those things.
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But it also means being a community that can like confess
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together. They can care for each other
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when we're in freeze or shut down.
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They can show up for one another in ways that demonstrates the
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belovedness that is real because of Jesus.
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As we wind down this morning, I want to invite you just into a
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brief practice. It's going to be by way of
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response today. I just want to invite us to to
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take a chance to risk getting in touch with the way in which God
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delights in US. And I say risk because like for
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some of us, actually allowing ourselves to feel delighted and
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feels intensely vulnerable, doesn't it?
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You know what I mean? We like almost feel this, this
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irresistible urge to like crack a joke or to look away.
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If you don't believe me, try to like maintain really intentional
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eye contact for 30 seconds after this.
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It's weird. It will mess you up.
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OK, like we, it's hard to tolerate being seen because it
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it generates all that vulnerability for us like, but
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but if I'm really, if I'm really seen, if I'm really known, if
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they really get what's true about me, will they reject me?
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Will they push me away? So I want to invite you this
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morning as we move into a time of response to actually sit with
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a verse of Scripture. And this is just about making
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space to notice God's love. You're free to to listen, to
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imagine, to rest. Whatever comes to mind is
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enough. This is a verse that that speaks
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of God's joy and delight. So if you don't need to generate
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some profound theological insight here, but I want to
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notice, I want you to notice how it actually feels to be in your
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body as you sit with this truth in a personal way.
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So as we begin, I want to invite you to just go ahead and take a
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deep breath in and a long breath out.
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One more time. A deep breath in and a long
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breath out. If you're comfortable, you can
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close your eyes or lower your gaze to the floor.
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There's no right way to do this exercise.
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Just come into the present moment.
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I know I'm feeling a little bit of anxiety in my body just from
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being up here in front of a bunch of people and thinking
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about things. So just notice what's true for
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you right now. Pay attention to your feet on
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the floor, your body and the chair.
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Any sensations that you're feeling, you don't need to
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change anything. Just notice.
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How am I in this moment? My tense calm somewhere in
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between. And as you listen this morning
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for the first time, I want to invite you to allow the words of
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this verse to just wash over you.
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You might begin to imagine what's being described in your
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mind, almost as if it's playing on a movie screen.
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I'll pause after each reading for a moment of silent
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reflection. I'm going to read Zephaniah
Zephaniah 3 chapter mention
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chapter 3 and verse 17, which says the Lord your God is in
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your midst, a mighty one who will save.
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He will rejoice over you with gladness.
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He will quiet you by His love. He will exult over you with loud
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singing.