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Hosea

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  1. Dads, take note. There is a princess tea

  2. party. Daddies, take your

  3. daughter. I'm gonna see if my 26 year old daughter wants to

  4. go. And this

  5. is the first Correct me, Pastor Will. This is the first time we've done a

  6. sing along since we did Beauty and the Beast. And there's nothing like being

  7. in this room with 500 people and being in the cast. I

  8. got to be the father of Belle. And you hear all these

  9. kids singing, you forget you're doing a play. You're like,

  10. oh, new kids. So daddies, bring your daughters.

  11. Oh, my goodness, what a joy. We have been

  12. talking about the greatest story

  13. ever told. Now, we've told stories, but really,

  14. it's like Pastor Barbie said Thursday night, the greatest

  15. story is about Jesus Christ. And

  16. so all of the stories that we have told, they all

  17. weave together in this amazing way from

  18. Genesis to Revelation, to tell the story

  19. about God and what he's done through his son Jesus to

  20. redeem us. So every story may be unique in its

  21. own way. And you, you have a story,

  22. people think, well, they finished writing the Bible 2,000 years ago,

  23. and so the Bible's stopped writing. No

  24. Acts 29 keeps going. Because we

  25. have stories, we have miracles in our lives. There are things going on

  26. in your life that God is writing your story day after

  27. day. And it's your privilege and your honor to be able

  28. to share your story. So I would challenge you, man, if

  29. you're bashful and you're introverted like some of our

  30. congregants and pastors are, be bold and share

  31. your story. When he puts you in that position, you don't have to just go

  32. around blabbing all the time, but be sensitive to the Holy Spirit,

  33. that when you're in a moment, a kairos

  34. moment, a God moment, to tell your story.

  35. Young man, how old are you? 18. 18. Do you know Jesus Christ, your

  36. Lord and savior? Yeah. What's your name? John. John,

  37. there will be moments in your life,

  38. young man. Are you still in school? You graduated?

  39. Are you a senior?

  40. Your last rodeo, big boy? There are

  41. people. Where do you go to school? Smyrna. Smyrna High School.

  42. Bulldog.

  43. You're graduating class, probably about four or five hundred kids in it.

  44. There are kids in your graduating class that need to know the Jesus you

  45. know. And I believe God will put

  46. kairos moments for you at a lunch table or in a

  47. chemistry class or whatever your courses are, or in the

  48. courtyard, in the quad, or at a pep rally. I believe, John, that

  49. if you will listen to the Holy Spirit that dwells within you. And Jesus said

  50. that he dwells within you, that if you'll listen to him

  51. and share your story, your story has the power to

  52. impact and change a life. Do you know that if your story

  53. only brings one other person to the salvation of Jesus Christ,

  54. it's well worth everything you've gone through? Some people think we got to

  55. win hundreds and thousands. No. What if your life only touches one?

  56. That's one more in the kingdom. Share your story, young man. Be bold.

  57. Don't be bashful. When the opportunity comes and you feel the Holy

  58. Spirit move on you, you do that.

  59. I got notes. We'll get there.

  60. We've talked about Noah, we've talked about Joseph, we've talked about

  61. Elijah and Elisha, which are some of my favorites. Back in October,

  62. Pastor Kevin sent out an email to the staff. He said, hey, send me three

  63. or four of your favorite Bible stories. Here's where we're going next year and

  64. I'll put out the sermon schedule. And here's where disobedience will get you in

  65. trouble.

  66. I knew everybody would want David. David's one of my favorites.

  67. Joseph's one of my favorites. And if you love Joseph, you need to be here

  68. on Thursdays. We still got five

  69. more. We got notes. You can catch up. You can go on YouTube and all

  70. this stuff. And here, Pastor Barbie by the needle. It's been powerful. This is

  71. my second or third time I've heard her teach it and it's

  72. powerful. But I just figured, well, people

  73. will write in and I'll just take whatever Pastor Kevin give me.

  74. Not a good idea. Yes, ma'.

  75. Am. Wrong thing I received. I hear you, Connie.

  76. Laugh at me. Now. I

  77. received an email on March 28th at 8:59 from Pastor Kevin

  78. that went something like this. I would like you to share the story of

  79. Hosea on September 7. Are you available to

  80. do that? Fifteen minutes later, at

  81. 9.14pm, I was dumb enough to reply, yes, I'd be happy to.

  82. Seven minutes later, he replies, awesome. With a thumbs up.

  83. And I began to think, awesome.

  84. Why didn't I send the answer back in October? God. I

  85. could have talked about to the pit, to the prison, to the palace. I could

  86. have talked about the transfer of the mantle. I could have talked about Mark.

  87. I could have talked about a lot of things. What's the age demographic? Let me

  88. look at my room. I'll be polite. Cause there's some younger ears.

  89. I get to talk about a lady that has a very.

  90. She was known as a P and a P she was promiscuous

  91. and not a very good lady. And I thought, oh,

  92. great, that's. Mm. Hallelujah.

  93. You know what? I

  94. won't tell you names, but I struggle with

  95. this. First of all, I didn't do anything in the month of

  96. March. And then somewhere around April, I started reading Book of Hosea.

  97. And then May, I started writing notes. June, I got a little

  98. serious. August, I got real serious

  99. and I thought about some of the things I was going to share. And I

  100. said, I don't need to share that. I don't need to talk about those things

  101. in my life. And I just really felt

  102. impressed by the Holy Spirit. Yes, you do. And

  103. I shared them in first gathering. I'm going to share them again today.

  104. I really struggle with it because

  105. it talks about how I

  106. prostituted my walk with God. And I

  107. want to tell you, after the service over, I had a person that came down

  108. and said, I went through that when I was that age.

  109. I had another person come up and said, God

  110. sent you an email in March. I found out about a month

  111. ago. And I'm going through that situation in my

  112. life right now. God has a way of using the things in

  113. our life if we will allow him. We have to be open,

  114. John, and transparent and be willing to share. Amen.

  115. So stand with us and let's read a couple of scriptures.

  116. Help me, Mary. There we go. One more,

  117. one more. There we go. All right, let's read. But I have

  118. this against you that you have abandoned the love you had

  119. at first. Remember therefore, from where you have

  120. fallen. Repent and do the works you did at first.

  121. And from Hosea, I will betroth you

  122. to be. Pardon me. Let's start over. Cause I got hung up on

  123. Betrothed. I like it. Betrothed. Don't read Betroth

  124. Satraps. That's the inside joke with me and Joseph.

  125. I will betroth you to me forever. I will betroth you

  126. in righteousness and justice, in love and compassion.

  127. I will betroth you in faithfulness, and you will

  128. acknowledge the Lord. There should be a W.

  129. Forgive my spelling. Mary works wonders, but she can't read my

  130. mind. Father, I thank you that you are in laughter. Laughter is

  131. a medicine. It heals us. Lord, I thank you that we have

  132. stories to tell and things that we can share. The Lord ultimately

  133. is about your word and your truth. So Lord, let your

  134. truth be heard and let your word go forth. Let it penetrate,

  135. break, heal, and restore places in people's hearts.

  136. Today, in Jesus name And you may

  137. be seated in the presence of the Lord. We used to say that in the

  138. 80s. Be seated in the presence of the Lord.

  139. Justin's got a group. The dad. Where did

  140. Justin go? Dad bod. Cosplay

  141. boy, I tell you. And it's something else. Some of you in

  142. this room are part of that. Cause I see your pictures. Yeah, I see you

  143. over there. We got Spiderman and Batman and

  144. Strange Men and I mean Dr. Strange, whatever.

  145. But they'll show up to the movies when Marvel, I guess

  146. they're Marvel people. They might do it for dc, but they show up for the

  147. movies and they dress in these characters and man, everybody just

  148. loves seeing them and doing that. I'm a movie junkie. I love going to

  149. movies. I love watching movies. My favorites are the 70s and 80s. I love

  150. spaghetti westerns mostly. I like a good war movie here and there.

  151. I'm not a rom com guy. I'll watch them because

  152. I'm married. And if you're married, you

  153. better watch them too. We got Hallmark and Hallmark, whatever the

  154. other one is. And Lord, you can have a

  155. Christmas. Nevermind. They're already playing

  156. Good Gracious in Pumpkin Spice movies. But anyway,

  157. same story, different people. Mostly same people. Anyway,

  158. but I love movies. I love the. I grew up in

  159. my favorite thing. I was 14, 15 years old. Drive with a per

  160. minute. I got a hardship license because my parents divorced when I was

  161. young. So I had a hardship permit at 14 and I could drive.

  162. Imagine that. Hey, who said

  163. One of you? Yeah, but anyway, we go to the

  164. Bijou Twin on Wade Hampton Boulevard.

  165. And I loved it because back in the day, that's when the guy goes. It

  166. was 1964, you know, it was that movie guy, whatever.

  167. He's long gone now. But I love those things. So

  168. here we are, it's 722 B.C. we're going to look at

  169. today's passage like it was a movie because it helps it come alive to me.

  170. So if you're with me, just to set the scene.

  171. Hosea lived in the northern kingdom of Israel.

  172. There you go. And this was about

  173. 200 years after it had broken off and splintered

  174. from the southern kingdom. Judah. If you go back

  175. to 1 Kings 12, you can read all about it. It's about 33, 34

  176. verses. Not gonna take the time now, but go back and do your homework and

  177. read that. But Jeroboam and Rehoboam, they were

  178. the opposing kings. And basically what happened? The king from

  179. the Northern kingdom, his counselor said,

  180. hey, why don't you Take it easy. Your dad overtaxed and

  181. he made it hard on everybody when he was king. Lighten up a little bit,

  182. Give them a little grace and the people will respond and they'll follow you

  183. and everything will be great. So he thought about it for three days. Why is

  184. everything three days or on a Tuesday in the Bible? But anyway, he thought

  185. about it for three days and I guess it was a Tuesday. And he

  186. came back and he did just the opposite.

  187. He raised the taxes. He made it even harder on the people. And so they

  188. rebelled. They had this revolt and it just. And so the

  189. kingdoms tore apart and Judah was its own. And then you had the

  190. northern kingdom. So Hosea

  191. was a prophet to Israel, the northern kingdom

  192. that was in rebellion. Because not only did they rebel, not only

  193. did they not appreciate what was going on,

  194. they wandered from God. See, there was a reason that the

  195. Lord had Israel in the Hebrew nation before they

  196. actually became Israel, to keep separate. It

  197. wasn't because God is racist. It wasn't because it wasn't

  198. inclusive. It's because he wanted them for

  199. himself. You will be my people. And I want you to

  200. be. I want to be your only God. And God was a jealous God,

  201. not jealousy in the terms of sin, but he wanted everything.

  202. He wanted their hearts, he wanted everything that they were, and he

  203. wanted to be everything to them. But they

  204. would intermarry and they would follow. It always led to following

  205. false gods and then idol worship. And so this is

  206. what's going on. And God speaks through

  207. Hosea. Now, we've talked about some prophets, Ezekiel, and

  208. we've talked about Jeremiah and Hosea.

  209. Listen, it's an honor

  210. to be considered an apostle, a prophet, a pastor,

  211. a teacher, an evangelist. Those are part of the giftings that Paul

  212. writes about and talks about. You better be very careful.

  213. You better be very careful about what you tell

  214. God you want to be or want to do for the kingdom.

  215. Because it's one thing to have a card that says, hi, I'm

  216. prophet Alan Smith. They do that a lot.

  217. But boy, when you are a prophet of the Lord,

  218. it can be very challenging. It can be difficult. It can be hard.

  219. Talk to Ezekiel, he had to lay on his side for a year.

  220. Talk to Jeremiah, he was in captivity.

  221. Talk to Daniel, talk to some of these guys that had to do hard

  222. things. It wasn't

  223. glamour from a stage, it was being in a lion's den. It

  224. was being put in bad situations. So here comes the Lord to Hosea,

  225. and he tells him this in Hosea 1

  226. 1. Here we go just.

  227. He's one of the main characters. Think about,

  228. he's in his bedroom and the spirit of the Lord speaks to him in the

  229. night, in a dream maybe. Who knows? It said,

  230. when the Lord first spoke to Hosea, he said this to him.

  231. Go and marry a promiscuous wife.

  232. That's what Hosea probably said. He was probably

  233. Lord. And he hears it again.

  234. Go and marry a promiscuous wife and

  235. have children of promiscuity for

  236. the whole land has been promiscuous by abandoning

  237. me, the Lord.

  238. So Hosea goes and he marries

  239. Gomer. Shazam. Some of y' all old

  240. enough know he married Gomer, the daughter of

  241. Dibliim. And she conceived and she bore him three

  242. children. And boy, they had some names, and their names were because

  243. of some pretty serious situations that they represented

  244. that was going to come. That's not the kind of.

  245. How many. How many are married? Give me an amen.

  246. Some of y' all need to get happily married. How many are happily married? Say

  247. amen. There you go. How many would like to be married?

  248. Mary sue, question.

  249. If you would like to be married, would you just want to hear the

  250. Lord wake you up one night and go, hey, Joe, Hey,

  251. Sally. Go marry a promiscuous person.

  252. That's not on the top 10 list of qualities I would like in a wife.

  253. Right. But that's what the Lord told him to do. And so he goes and

  254. he takes Gomer to be his wife.

  255. Now, some people think this is a dark story

  256. and it's getting off to a bad start. I would tell you that

  257. the genre of this movie is not a rom com, obviously,

  258. but I would call it a love story. And I'd call it

  259. a love story not because of Hosea and Gomer,

  260. although that becomes one. But the love story

  261. is God to his people. God

  262. is so faithful and God is so

  263. passionate about his people,

  264. the people of Israel at that time. But you right

  265. now, that he not only will go,

  266. he already has gone to the furthest of measures

  267. to win you back. Cause see, when you read this story of

  268. Almost Said Homer and Homer and Goziah,

  269. too many. The H and G is too close. When you read this story,

  270. it's not the prettiest of stories. They get married,

  271. they have these three children of promiscuity. And after

  272. a season, she leaves him.

  273. And not just leaves him. It's one thing to leave. She

  274. leaves him and goes to another man,

  275. a married man, and becomes an adulteress

  276. on top of everything else. She was

  277. now, the way I read Scripture, he could have just

  278. said, I'm done with you and give her a writ of divorce

  279. and been done with her. But that is not what God told him to do.

  280. Because God was trying to show Hosea, I think,

  281. the depth and the pain that he was going through

  282. with the loss of his people, through what Hosea was going

  283. through with Gomer. I think he allowed Hosea

  284. to walk through that pain of having a

  285. promiscuous wife, having children, through promiscuity, having a

  286. wife that left him and went into

  287. adultery, so that he would truly understand the

  288. heartbreak that God the Father felt over his people.

  289. Sometimes we think we know how God feels. Oh, you know,

  290. oh, the Lord, it grieves the Lord,

  291. you know, it's heavy on the Lord's heart. Yeah, it is.

  292. Do you really understand how heavy sometimes? Because we like

  293. to say things, but we don't like to bear things.

  294. We like to put the words out there. But

  295. Pastor Barbee was talking Thursday night about praying for a situation.

  296. And she was saying how, yeah, we just pray sometimes and Lord bless them

  297. or whatever. But then she got into a thing, she said, but we ever get

  298. to this posture where it's like, dear Lord Jesus, whatever it

  299. is that they have need of, I pray that you would bless them. Whatever is

  300. coming, intercession and carrying the weight

  301. of what somebody else is walking through, that's the heart

  302. of God because that's the heart he had toward us. So I

  303. believe Hosea walked through those things so that he could truly understand

  304. the heart of God. Like I said, Hosea

  305. was the son of Bera, and

  306. he was also. You know, I look at the Bible sometimes and I get

  307. linear. I like things to just be straight and even. And no,

  308. don't give me hiccups and curves and stuff. Just make it all be nice and

  309. even and clean. But you know, sometimes scripture's like a bowl

  310. of spaghetti. Hosea was also a prophet

  311. at the same time as Isaiah was in the same time that Amos

  312. was. So they were all ministering to the Northern and Southern kingdoms

  313. at the exact same times. And they had different words for

  314. those in authority over them, but it was the same God giving the words to

  315. those because he was reacting in different situations through the northern

  316. and the Southern kingdom. But God was trying to

  317. create reconciliation. God was trying to bring

  318. redemption about, but the people were too dumb

  319. D U M B to hear it and

  320. receive it. Because guess what, we're hard headed. I'm sorry y' all

  321. aren't. Cause I'm Hard headed. And I

  322. don't listen all the time like I should to hear the Lord

  323. speak. None of y' all are, but I know I am. I mean, it's

  324. plain as day. You remember the. You remember the story. I don't know if somebody's

  325. doing it. I should have put that one on the email too. Where the hand

  326. writes on the wrong mini. Me neither.

  327. It's right there. And he still couldn't get it. That's me in my

  328. life. Been that way for most of my life.

  329. I was born in a small town in South

  330. Carolina. I've been born and raised in church my whole life,

  331. except for about 24 months, 23 months.

  332. A Christian family, but a dysfunctional family.

  333. We were at church all the time. Sunday morning, Sunday night. That was the thing

  334. we used to do back in the 60s, 70s and 80s. You'd have church on

  335. Sunday night, 6 o', clock, and then after church was over, you hung around the

  336. altar and had afterglow where you prayed and invited the Lord to talk to you.

  337. And then after that you went to the Dairy Queen, get ice cream. They know

  338. that. Cause they're much older. I'm just trying. It's not in your history books. I'm

  339. trying to get y' all kind of. And then

  340. Wednesday night. She knows. And then you had two revivals. You had a

  341. spring and a fall. And you better be there Thursday, Wednesday through Sunday.

  342. So that's how I grew up in church. And

  343. everything seemed fine in our little family.

  344. Grandfather was a pastor. He died the year before I was born. My grandmother took

  345. the church for the next five years. Some things happen and

  346. she was asked to step down. So we moved to first assembly of

  347. God and went there till I went to school in 86 in

  348. Florida. But like I said, my parents divorced.

  349. Separated when I was 12, divorced when I was 15. I was on my own

  350. at 16. But in that time frame, like I said, everything seemed

  351. fine at church between Fred and Lewis or between Fred and Sharon.

  352. But in the car ride home and behind the doors, it wasn't.

  353. Things weren't fine. And I had a

  354. father that didn't discipline. He

  355. punished. And there's a difference, dads. I had to learn that with

  356. my son because

  357. until he was seven, I punished him too. I swore that I

  358. wouldn't be my father. But you know, there's a scripture that talks about

  359. curses that go to so many generations and blessings. If

  360. you don't break that curse, you will carry it out.

  361. And I swore I'd never do that to my Children. But I did that to

  362. my son till he's seven. Till a brother says, if you keep doing it, you'll

  363. drive him away from God and you'll drive him to hate you. And I had

  364. to learn the difference between punishment and discipline.

  365. Discipline is handling whatever the situation is. Do you know that? Boys

  366. will be boys and do dumb boy things.

  367. And some of them don't deserve a beating. They just

  368. need to be, hey, knucklehead, straighten up. But

  369. there are things that do need some corrective measures.

  370. And sometimes it is a spoon or a belt or a switch,

  371. but it's not 10 or 12 of them. It's just one of them. Get their

  372. attention right. And then what I love, I've

  373. seen some parents. Boy, I wish y' all had been parents when I was little.

  374. Not just so I wouldn't have had that in my life, but to teach me

  375. something. I've seen parents that will do a

  376. corporal punishment and then they'll get right down there on the bed with

  377. them and pray with them. Now, Kirk, let's ask

  378. the Lord to help us to not tell lies anymore. Because God

  379. said that we're people of truth and

  380. correction.

  381. Here we go.

  382. About 9 years old, I had a 14

  383. year old neighbor that molested me. We'll just say it that way.

  384. And that took about a year and a half of my life. And that

  385. situation in my life started me on a Road at 10,

  386. 11 and 12 and 13 years old. Age of pornography

  387. and promiscuity that a 10, 11 year

  388. old, 12 year old boy don't need to be doing.

  389. And when I thought I got it taken care of and I thought I prayed

  390. through and I'd go to the altars at youth group and I'd go down on

  391. Sunday nights for prayer and do all those things and pray and think I was

  392. clean. But I never confessed it to

  393. somebody. I never told somebody

  394. about it in my life that they could help me to. To

  395. uproot those seeds in my life that

  396. were starting to produce harvest in my life that I didn't want

  397. and a harvest that would come to affect my marriage

  398. some 20 years later. Folks, when we

  399. walk in a garden of sin and we plant

  400. seeds and we prostitute our faith,

  401. we walk in promiscuity. We don't walk in relationship with

  402. God. I love a word that Pastor Barbee says, para

  403. Theos, to walk with

  404. God, with God, arm in arm that

  405. embrace paratheos. We

  406. don't get those seeds uprooted before they take root. They

  407. start growing things that we don't want in our lives that will could

  408. potentially ruin generations down the road.

  409. That situation. Showed up nine years later

  410. in my marriage. Showed up several years later. Nine years into my

  411. marriage. We were

  412. youth pastors at a church in Antioch. We helped lead

  413. worship at that church in Antioch. Pastor Justin said the

  414. other Sunday, A couple of Sundays ago, you don't just wake up and have an

  415. affair. He's right. You don't.

  416. In my incidents, it took about eight to nine months of

  417. flirting with disaster and not fleeing from

  418. temptation. Started out holding hands in the prayer circle

  419. before church, and then it started out hanging out

  420. at their house because he was a drummer on the road. So Renee and I

  421. became. It was her best friend. Yeah, I know. Throw rocks at me

  422. now. I know you wouldn't have liked me 36 years ago.

  423. I don't like me now sometimes. But I'm not that guy anymore.

  424. Because God can redeem just like he redeemed

  425. Gomer. But now we tell

  426. people at 36 years of marriage, we've had 33

  427. happy years and three living hell. And they were

  428. because I had to build trust. I had to earn that back.

  429. You might be in here, and you might know what I'm talking about. That's why

  430. I'm telling you. See, everybody that stands on this platform

  431. or behind a pulpit, we are not perfect people.

  432. In fact, sometimes we feel like we're the most

  433. unqualified to stand in this place

  434. because we. Oh, God.

  435. Because of the things of our past. But there's a different

  436. but God that comes into play because that but

  437. God is the one that intervened and saved our marriage. Because

  438. before we said I do, we sat in Ashawnee's parking lot and said,

  439. I don't care what happens. Whoever's wrong, we do

  440. not get a divorce. We will work through this, and God will be in the

  441. middle of our marriage. And if it wasn't for that woman over there holding onto

  442. those words, I wouldn't be here. But God.

  443. So whatever your situation is,

  444. I brought one. No, I didn't. Anybody got a phone? I know Pastor Barbie

  445. told you not to have one. Now we'll see. Pastor Barbie.

  446. You guys right here. Y' all can just. You guys right here.

  447. I know y' all think this is important in your life.

  448. TikTok, Snapchat, every other flip,

  449. flap, whatever. They're on here,

  450. get off of them.

  451. It'll lead you straight to hell if you let it. This

  452. in itself is not a bad thing. It's a form of communication. It stores

  453. information. And it can be A safety net to your parents and people that you

  454. need when you need them. But when you got idle time, the

  455. Bible said idle hands. Don't be sitting here

  456. scrolling and I'm not looking at your stuff, baby. Don't be scrolling and looking through

  457. this stuff. Cause I know what pops up on mine.

  458. And you don't need to see it. You don't.

  459. Because it'd break my heart

  460. for things that happened to some of y' all because of people and predators.

  461. Get off of it. Find

  462. this thing. Why don't you scroll through these

  463. pages? Why don't you read through these pages and see where

  464. there's life?

  465. Because that'll stop you from being a person of

  466. promiscuity with your Lord. Come here,

  467. Kirk. He's not God. But playing

  468. the role of God, if

  469. this is the Lord, just walk somewhere.

  470. I'm kind of going that way.

  471. But if I don't get

  472. here

  473. and stay right here with God,

  474. guess where I'm going to go? I'm going to flee

  475. toward temptation. And he can't cover me over here

  476. because I'm not under the shadow of His.

  477. You got to be lockstep with the Lord. Thank you, Kurt.

  478. Somebody tell me what time it is. I'm off my notes.

  479. 1214 worship team.

  480. Make your way.

  481. Look around the room.

  482. We brought in

  483. 500 new chairs of the week.

  484. Oh, Lord. Every time I think about it, that

  485. 40 foot sea trailer. Oh, Lord. Ted Gertz. God bless your

  486. heart and your back. There's

  487. about 450.

  488. There's five in the room now. There are 500 seats in

  489. this auditorium.

  490. We've started balancing out our services. First Service is

  491. about 115, 120. This one's about 250 or so.

  492. There are empty chairs in this room.

  493. Some of them are written on those blackboards out that hallway.

  494. Some of them you work beside. Some of them you go to school with.

  495. Some of them you just meet in the marketplace.

  496. I dream of a day where every. I want it to be so full in

  497. here. I want you to come in. If you're not in here by 10 after

  498. you're standing up.

  499. Not so we have a million and three quarters

  500. budget. Not so that we can invite 5,000

  501. people on Fall Fest. Not so we can run six

  502. shows of amazing shows sold out every time. But because

  503. those are souls that need to come into the kingdom of God.

  504. Pastor Kevin's challenged us to have tears for the

  505. lost. And we ought to. You know why?

  506. Because I was lost.

  507. I know what it is to run From God, for 22 months when I

  508. was growing up, I was the perfect little church boy. When I ran for those

  509. 22 months, if you could smoke it, drink it, or do it, I did it.

  510. And I remember a Tuesday morning in March, I worked at the

  511. night shift in Nissan. Got my shower, and I went

  512. to wipe the mirror so I could shave. And the condensation

  513. had blurred the mirror, and all I could see was a blurry

  514. reflection of myself. And I just heard the

  515. Lord tell me, that's not who you are. That's not who

  516. I made you to be. And

  517. in that little bathroom on 104 Lake Farm Road, right over there

  518. by Nissan, wept before the Lord in that

  519. marriage. And I said, if you will take me back,

  520. I'll not run. I said that.

  521. Then in 1998, I had an affair.

  522. You didn't say all you want to say,

  523. but until it gets here,

  524. until this changes, until. See, we talk a lot about in this

  525. house, we don't want your money. We want your.

  526. We don't want your servanthood. We want your. We don't

  527. want your fill in the blank. We don't want it. What

  528. we want is we want your heart.

  529. Because that's what God wants. Scripture says the heart is deceitful

  530. above all things. I thought I was making a

  531. commitment to God, but my heart was not ready. My heart

  532. did not put its yes on the table. It

  533. took a broken marriage and three

  534. years of restoration for me to

  535. see what I did to my wife and what I could have put

  536. on my children. Because I'm the one that did those things.

  537. And I'm the one that could have caused a curse from generation

  538. to generation. And I don't want that for my son and daughter

  539. in love. I don't want that for future grandchildren.

  540. I want my life to be one that is of a heart for

  541. God, that I'm walking parathios so

  542. that I run in step with God, so that I can bring a blessing from

  543. generation to generation. I told John,

  544. what if it's one

  545. I'm not? She'll watch it.

  546. When my daughter came to tell me that she felt the Lord

  547. leading her from here, she came in my office and she

  548. said, daddy, I need to talk to you. And I said, as a pastor

  549. or as a father? She said, both.

  550. I said, well, talk to me as your daddy first.

  551. And when she told me, tears welled up in my eyes. And I just told

  552. her, I don't like this. This sucks.

  553. That's what I say. If you don't like me, then don't like me.

  554. But I always had visions of being in a

  555. church when I'm old, with my children and my

  556. grandchildren and seeing them in the house and

  557. worshiping and serving. That was my dream. That's what I wanted.

  558. But I had to realize she's not my daughter.

  559. She's his daughter. God has no grandchildren. I

  560. stewarded her life for however many years. And I have

  561. to have the same posture with her as my own theology.

  562. I have to be willing to let her go. Because what if

  563. Chelsea goes to that church and she may be there

  564. a year, five years, I don't know.

  565. But what if one person, one

  566. one person hears her story and gives her life to Jesus? Is it

  567. worth it, Alan? Absolutely.

  568. Absolutely. We gotta be willing to share

  569. our story. And we can't prostitute

  570. our walk with God. We are either in it

  571. or we're not. We can't do this. I'm 60.

  572. I can't do it either. We can't walk

  573. one foot in and one foot out. It doesn't work.

  574. It'll create strain. It'll create cramps and pain

  575. in your life that you don't want. You either have to be with God or

  576. you're not with Him. There is no pink in the

  577. kingdom. We are crimson like sin. Or we're white as scar,

  578. white as snow. You gotta be with him.

  579. This song they're singing, that verse

  580. when it gets prone to wander.

  581. That's me. However many years

  582. it's been. Since 1999. Had it up.

  583. Thank you. Have I walked a perfect

  584. Christian life? No, but I'm doing my best. I am

  585. doing my best to be right here. Sometimes I

  586. fall a little, but I try to grab that coattail so I can get right

  587. back up there with him. Because I don't want him to leave me.

  588. Because I know what three years of heartache was. I know what the heartache

  589. of molestation is in my life. I know what sin will do in your

  590. life. And I don't want it. I want the blessing of

  591. God. And the blessing comes when you're walking with him. Because

  592. he's a redeemer. Let me read you these four things,

  593. Mary. You can put it at the end.

  594. Jesus,

  595. thank God. We'll get there. And we don't need these anymore.

  596. No matter how many times Gomer left him and all that she did, Hosea

  597. pursued her relentlessly.

  598. At one point, he gathered all that he had, everything he owned

  599. to buy her back. Just like Hosea. God has given everything

  600. to get us back. He gave his all in his Son Jesus, for

  601. you and for me, redemption is

  602. always, always possible.

  603. The second thing is this. God's love is unconditional. It don't matter

  604. what you have done or been in your past. His

  605. love is unconditional even

  606. when we are unfaithful. Israel

  607. was unfaithful, yet God still pursued her. And he

  608. went through Hosea and made him marry a

  609. prostitute to show him his

  610. pain so that he would give the message to the people.

  611. God's love is unconditional. This love is not based on the actions of the

  612. recipient, but on the unwavering, steadfast love of the

  613. one giving it. With those who are going to pray, come forward.

  614. The third thing I want you to know is acknowledging our faults,

  615. our sin. I don't make mistakes. I don't make.

  616. I don't have issues. I have sin in my life and I've got to get

  617. it right. And acknowledging my sin will lead to

  618. transformation.

  619. And finally, faithfulness is more than just

  620. actions. It's about the heart.

  621. So I guess that's our altar call today.

  622. Where's your heart?

  623. Am I all in? Am I prone to wander?

  624. Do I need to be fettered? Here's how I

  625. fetter. I hide thy word in my

  626. heart that I may not sin against thee.

  627. They're going to lead us in this chorus, this hymn.

  628. Maybe you know what it's like to go through

  629. some of the things I've shared. Maybe you've gone through darker things.

  630. I'm going to tell you there's no distance from God further than

  631. right now for your life. It's this moment

  632. that you have, this kairos moment for you. As they play. Would you

  633. come forward and allow these to pray with you and minister to you?