Sermon
Easter Friday
Publisher transcript
Transcript
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Well, we're about to hear the story, the first-hand account of what happened.
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So will you please let me say just a few words to get us thinking before we hear the story.
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This COVID crisis we're in, I think it's forced us all to re-evaluate what's essential in our lives.
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You're probably sick of that word essential, but I think it's making us all ask that question.
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What is absolutely necessary for my life?
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When this was all starting, I went to Audi one night, and I didn't care too much that I couldn't get the vegetables I was after, but there was no coffee.
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So I ordered some online.
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I don't know why I looked up then.
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I suppose God does provide all things, but I ordered some online.
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And as I excitedly opened the delivery, I was wondering if coffee was just a bit too essential for my own happiness.
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When this card fell out of the package.
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Could have been an answer.
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I'm not sure.
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But the coffee was delicious.
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And that's the main point.
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We're all asking this question.
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What is essential at a public level?
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What are essential services that remain open?
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What are essential reasons that we're allowed to leave the house like exercise and acts of compassion?
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But I reckon we're asking this question at a deeper level than this.
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I think we're asking the question.
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What is essential for our home life?
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What's essential for our relationships being sustained and growing through this time?
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If we can't be in each other's presence, can't shake hands and hug, how do we express our connection?
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Being forced to isolate.
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I wonder if you're like me and you're just growing in your appreciation for how connection is just so close to the heart of what gives us life.
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So we're all asking this question.
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What's essential for life?
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The story we're about to hear gives a surprising answer to our question.
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What's absolutely essential for my life is that another man died.
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Jesus died to give us connection with God and connection with one another.
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So what we're going to do now is we're going to hear this story.
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Simon will read what happened and I will point out a few things in the story as we go.
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And as I said, we're going to cross each time.
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We're going to hear the story in four parts.
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And after each part, we'll hear from four people and how this story has changed and is changing their lives.
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So I hope you're looking forward to this.
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I invite you to listen and to reflect.
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We pick up the story with Jesus having claimed that he is God's only son, the good shepherd who will lay down his life for his sheep.
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He's been betrayed by his closest friends, arrested by his own Jewish people, those who should have recognized him.
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And he's now been handed over to the Roman governor, Pilate.
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So over to you, Simon, to read part one of the story.
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Okay.
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Okay.
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John chapter 19.
John 19 chapter mention
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Pilate took Jesus and flogged him.
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And the soldiers twisted together a crown of thorns and put it on his head and arrayed him in a purple robe.
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They came up to him saying, hail, king of the Jews and struck him with their hands.
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Pilate went out again and said to them, see, I am bringing him out to you that you may know that I find no guilt in him.
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So Jesus came out wearing the crown of thorns and the purple robe.
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Pilate said to them, behold the man.
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When the chief priests and the officers saw him, they cried out, crucify him, crucify him.
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Pilate said to them, take him yourselves and crucify him.
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For I find no guilt in him.
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The Jews answered him, we have a law.
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And according to that law, he ought to die because he has made himself the son of God.
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When Pilate heard this statement, he was even more afraid.
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He entered his headquarters again and said to Jesus, where are you from?
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But Jesus gave him no answer.
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So Pilate said to him, you will not speak to me.
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Do you not know that I have authority to release you and authority to crucify you?
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Jesus answered him.
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You would have no authority over me at all unless it had been given you from above.
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Therefore, he who delivered me over to you has the greatest sin.
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From then on, Pilate sought to release him.
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But the Jews cried out, if you release this man, you are not Caesar's friend.
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Everyone who makes himself a king opposes Caesar.
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So when Pilate heard these words, he brought Jesus out and sat down on the judgment seat at a place called the stone pavement and in Aramaic, Gabbatha.
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Now, it was the day of preparation of the Passover.
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It was about the sixth hour.
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He said to the Jews, behold your king.
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And they cried out, away with him, away with him, crucify him.
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Pilate said to them, shall I crucify your king?
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The chief priests answered, we have no king but Caesar.
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So he delivered him over to them to be crucified.
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So he delivered him over to them to be crucified.
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It was a very dangerous thing to claim to be a king and so stir people up to go against the authority of Rome.
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That's a quick and sure way to be crucified.
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That's the kind of thing that Pilate, the governor representing Caesar, was to squash without mercy or hesitation.
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But that's why it's really surprising that three times Pilate says in different ways, I find no guilt in him.
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To try and satisfy the murderous cries of the Jewish authorities, he has Jesus beaten so that he can then release him.
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Jesus is mocked, dressed in royal purple, which is the best colour by the way, and given a crown of thorns dug into his head,
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each soldier bowing before him, hail King of the Jews, and striking him.
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But it's not enough.
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Only death would satisfy Jesus' own Jewish people.
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And only a public death, discrediting once and for all, all his claims to be God's son.
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To be killed and hung on a tree was a sure sign of God's rejection of a person.
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The Jews won't be satisfied with anything less.
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Pilate didn't care so much that Jesus was innocent.
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But he did care that the Jewish authorities were manipulating him to do their will.
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And they knew they had the upper hand.
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What would Caesar do if he heard Pilate didn't crucify someone claiming to be the king?
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Pilate didn't crucify someone claiming to be the king?
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So easily.
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But Jesus was silent.
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Pilate hands Jesus over to be crucified.
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But not without putting the Jews in their place first.
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Okay, then, have what you want.
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This is the only king you Jews will ever have.
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So now watch him be crushed by the power of Rome.
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Behold your king.
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Pilate and the soldiers who beat him had no idea how true their words were.
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Pilate and the soldiers who beat him had no idea how true their words were.
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Friends, behold your king.
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Innocent yet punished.
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Accused yet silent.
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Having all authority yet submitting to death.
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chosen by God yet rejected by the world
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the question we're left with until the next part of the story is why
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why would he endure this but before we hear the next part we're going to first
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cross to Catherine and she's going to share how Jesus
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has really impacted her life so thank you Catherine
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okay
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when I was listening to this story
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to this reading one of the things that really struck me
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was how unjustly Jesus was accused and that he didn't do anything
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and I know for me that this was particularly
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striking because I really really really hate being unjustly accused and I not only don't want to
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I always want to be right but I always want to be seen to be right as well and if I am unjustly accused
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particularly by those closest to me particularly in marriage and at home the wheels fall off I react to really
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intensely massively defensive massively aggressive and lash out in a really destructive way
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and when I think about Jesus at this time
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he of all people not only has the right of being able to say I am right guys but also he has the power to be able to blitz these guys and smash them to smithereens
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and he doesn't he is silent when accused and he is calm when he responds he responds in a moderated calm way saying you only get this authority because God's given you this authority
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and it keeps reminding me that I have far less right to be seen as seen as right and in fact it doesn't matter
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it doesn't matter if those who are with me can see that I'm good or bad God knows
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that the heart stuff and it gives me a chance to step back and go all right how am I going to respond am I going to respond in a way that is
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unpleasing to God hitting out at everybody around me or am I going to respond
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slowly kindly compassionately with patience looking at myself and seeing where the fault is
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so um I've been 40 years a Christian I can see how much I've changed in that 40 years
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um particularly under great trials and stress um I can see where I've uh not been what I've wanted to be
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but where over time things are changing and I hope that things will continue to change in fact I know that things will continue to change
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um God is working at me and he is really making a difference
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thanks Catherine we're going to pick up now um midway verse through verse 16 and continue our reading
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so they took Jesus and he went out bearing his own cross to the place called the place of the skull
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which in Aramaic is called Golgotha there they crucified him and with him two others one on either side
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and Jesus between them
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Pilate also wrote an inscription and put it on the cross
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it read
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Jesus of Nazareth
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the king of the Jews
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many of the Jews read this inscription
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for the place where Jesus was crucified was near the city
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and it was written in Aramaic
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in Latin
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and in Greek
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so the chief priests of the Jews said to Pilate
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do not write the king of the Jews
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but rather
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this man said I am king of the Jews
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Pilate answered
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what I have written
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I have written
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when the soldiers had crucified Jesus
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they took his garments and divided them into four parts
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one part for each soldier
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also his tunic
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but the tunic was seamless
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woven in one piece from top to bottom
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so they said to one another
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let us not tear it
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but cast lots for it
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to see whose it shall be
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this was to fulfill the scripture
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which says
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they divided my garments among them
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and for my clothing they cast lots
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so the soldiers did these things
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but standing by the cross of Jesus
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were his mother
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and his mother's sister
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Mary the wife of Clopas
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and Mary Magdalene
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when Jesus saw his mother
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and the disciple whom he loved
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standing nearby
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he said to his mother
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woman
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behold
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your son
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then he said to the disciple
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behold
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your mother
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and from that hour
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the disciple took her to his own home
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after this
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Jesus knowing that all was now finished
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said
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to fulfill the scripture
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I thirst
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a jar full of sour wine stood there
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so they put a sponge full of the sour wine
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on a hyssop branch
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and held it to his mouth
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when Jesus had received the sour wine
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he said
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it is finished
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and he bowed his head
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and gave up his spirit
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Roman practice was to
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whip criminals before they are crucified
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with whips that have bits of bone and metal
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tearing at the flesh
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a crucified victim was stripped naked
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publicly put to shame
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with their crime displayed
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for all the world to see
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the victim is nailed
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through their hands
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or wrists
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and they are left there
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in the hot sun
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for hours
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sometimes days
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until eventually
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the victim is too tired
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to hold up their body weight
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to allow air into their lungs
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and they suffocate
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but the agony of Jesus
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isn't the focus
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in the story
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instead our attention
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is drawn
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to the soldiers
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gambling
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for Jesus' clothing
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unknowingly
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these executioners
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are acting
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to God's script
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written in Psalm 22
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a thousand years earlier
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they divide my garments
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among them
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and for my clothing
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they cast lots
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Jesus knew
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that his mission
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was almost complete
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so he cries out
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in thirst
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as God's word
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said it would happen
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and drinking sour wine
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clothes
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and drinking sour wine
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they just seem like
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random things
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to focus on
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don't they
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but there was nothing
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random going on
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and Jesus knew it
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and that's the point
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Jesus was fully aware
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that every step
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leading to his
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impending death
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was the design
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of his heavenly father
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and he obeyed
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every step
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of the way
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his last words
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are not words
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of a victim
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but words of triumph
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it is finished
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my mission
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is complete
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and he bows
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his head
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freely
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giving up
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his spirit
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no one
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took his life
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from him
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not Pilate
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not the Jews
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they're arguing
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over the crime
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written above him
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the king
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of the Jews
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which is written
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in three languages
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for all the Roman world
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to read
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and understand
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as Pilate
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and the Jews
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fight for authority
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over the situation
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unknowingly
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God is using them
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to declare
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to the whole world
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that Jesus
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is
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God's
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king
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this is
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the father's plan
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for our king
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to die
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and our king
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was obedient
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to his father
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until his last breath
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it
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is
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finished
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we're going
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to hear now
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from Gareth
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who will share
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how he's come
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to rest
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in God's
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unexpected plan
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so thanks Gareth
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good morning all
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going back to my late teens
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I believe the real life
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was random
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that is
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I stopped believing
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that there was a God
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and I believed
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that
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the world
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came into being
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randomly
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by Big Bang
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or some other such thing
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when I really thought
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on that
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it terrified me
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because I recognised
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how short life is
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and that through
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that lens
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how utterly meaningless
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that terror
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stayed with me
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for quite some time
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until I could stand it
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no more
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and ask my father
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rather a lot of questions
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about his belief
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in God
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my memory of that
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conversation is very vague
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I remember thinking
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that dad's belief
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wasn't so silly
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after all
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I think he prayed
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at the end
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and I remember
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that I felt
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as if a massive burden
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had been removed
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from my shoulders
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much like that of
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Pilgrim
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in Pilgrim's Progress
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these days
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I look through
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a different lens
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I look at life
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through God's word
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the Bible
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and life makes
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a lot more sense
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and it has meaning
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the psalmist
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in Psalm 31
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says
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I trust in you
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oh Lord
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I say
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you are my God
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my times
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are in your hand
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I believe
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that I too
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can trust in God
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and that my times
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are in his hand
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15 years ago
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I was really unhappy
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with the job
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I was in
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I was starting
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early in the morning
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and finishing late
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not even able
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to attend
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an evening Bible study
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at the new church
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we were now attending
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so I prayed
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Lord please help me
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with this
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not too long
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after that
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I was called
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into the boss's office
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and made redundant
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we're letting you go
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he said
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like I was
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some sort of fish
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I said very little
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but felt quite
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indignant about it
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how dare they
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I thought
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then I remembered
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my prayer
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and could see
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that God was in it
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and gave thanks
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even though
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it was
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unnerving
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to say the least
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within two weeks
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I received a phone call
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from someone
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saying that they had heard
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that I may be looking
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for work
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and would I consider
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working for them
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I said I would consider it
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and have been working
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for them ever since
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God had a more
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appropriate job
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for me
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with regular hours
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I know that I can
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really trust in God
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and my time
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really is in his hand
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because of Jesus Christ
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and what he did
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on the cross
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my life has meaning
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and hope
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thanks Gareth
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we'll continue our reading
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from verse 31
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since it was the day
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of preparation
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and so that the bodies
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would not remain
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on the cross
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on the Sabbath
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for that Sabbath
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was a high day
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the Jews asked
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Pilate that their legs
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might be broken
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and that they might
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be taken away
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so the soldiers
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came
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and broke the legs
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of the first
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and of the other
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who had been crucified
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with him
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but when they came
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to Jesus
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and saw that he
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was already dead
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they did not
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break his legs
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but one of the soldiers
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pierced his side
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with a spear
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and at once
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there came out
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blood and water
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he who saw it
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has borne witness
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his testimony
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is true
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and he knows
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that he is telling
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the truth
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that you also
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may believe
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for these things
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took place
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that the scripture
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might be fulfilled
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not one of his bones
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will be broken
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and again
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another scripture
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says
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they will look
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on him
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whom they have
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pierced
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well
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Roman practice
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was to leave
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the corpse
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hanging on the cross
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for days
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for the vultures
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to eat
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but for the Jews
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this would be
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considered as
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God's curse
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on the whole land
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and people
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to leave
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the body
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hanging
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and especially
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for this to happen
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on a Sabbath day
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at the start
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of the Passover
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festival
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a festival
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that celebrated
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cleansing
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from sin
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and freedom
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to live
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with God
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to leave
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the body
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hanging
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would just
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contaminate
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in Jewish thinking
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so they asked
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Pilate to break
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the legs
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of Jesus
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to speed up
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his death
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and take him
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away
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they come
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and break
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the two
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criminals
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legs
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either side
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but Jesus
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was already
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dead
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and to be sure
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a soldier
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pierces his side
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with his spear
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and John
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saw
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that it brought
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a sudden
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flow of blood
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and water
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we're not going
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to go into the
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details
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but medically
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it's kind of
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obvious
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he was definitely
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dead
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but there's a
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deeper significance
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here that John
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wants us to see
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in Jewish
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sacrifices
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both blood
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and water
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are both used
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to cleanse
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people from
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all their
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moral sin
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against God
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making them
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acceptable
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to live with
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him
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clean
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reconnected
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to him
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just as the
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Passover lamb
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had to have
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no blemish
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and have no
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broken bones
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to be an
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acceptable
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sacrifice
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to God
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so we see
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Jesus
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the true
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lamb
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of God
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who takes
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away
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the sin
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of the
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world
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whose sin
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is taken
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away
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John tells
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us clearly
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he who saw
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all this
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happen
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with his
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own eyes
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has borne
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witness
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we have been
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listening to
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his testimony
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this morning
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and he's
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telling us
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this
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so that we
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also might
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believe
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as you
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picture
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the blood
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coming out
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of Jesus
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side
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do you
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believe
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that he
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did this
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willingly
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do you
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believe
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he did
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this for
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you
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then all
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you're wrong
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before God
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has been
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washed
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clean
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you can
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know
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without a
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doubt
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that God
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loves you
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John 3
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16 says
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for God
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so loved
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the world
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that he
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gave his
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one and
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only son
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that whoever
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believes
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in him
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shall not
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perish
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but have
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eternal
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life
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well we're
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going to
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hear now
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from
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Marie
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and
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Marie
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is going
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to share
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how she
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has come
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to believe
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more deeply
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of God's
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love for
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her
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so thanks
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Marie
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hi
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I'm
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Marie
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and this
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is my
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family
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sorry in
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advance
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if they're
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a little
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bit noisy
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we've just
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totally rubbed
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them with
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chocolate
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so hopefully
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they'll be
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quiet for a
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moment
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yeah so I'm
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just going to
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share a
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little bit
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of my
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story
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so Pete
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and I
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we got
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we were
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high school
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sweethearts
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and we got
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married young
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and then a
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few years
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later we
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wanted to
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start our
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family
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and
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unfortunately
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then we
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were introduced
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to infertility
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and it was
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a really
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hard time
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for us
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we
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saw our
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friends and
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families
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having
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babies
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great joy
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and it
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just wasn't
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happening for
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us
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and the
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doctor said
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it was
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likely not
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to ever
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happen for
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us as
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well
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so we
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had
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over eight
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years of
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medical
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things
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and crying
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and praying
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and yeah
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it was a
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hard time
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and also
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a hard time
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testing me
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in my faith
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as a
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Christian
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as well
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I had to
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keep
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rereading
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passages
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like we've
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been reading
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this morning
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and reminding
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myself
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that I
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actually was
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loved
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and I had
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to believe
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that I was
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loved so much
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that Jesus
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would die
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for me
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and for my
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sins
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so that
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actually helped
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even though
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things weren't
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going to my
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plans
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and as
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you can
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see
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we
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eventually
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were blessed
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with kids
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and now
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our daily
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struggle is
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learning to be
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a mum
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with three
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young kids
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while the
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pandemic's
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going on
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and I'm
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trying to be
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a kidney
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teacher as
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well
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and
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unfortunately
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I often
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get it wrong
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as a mum
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I lose
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my patience
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I get
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quick
-
tempered
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sometimes
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but
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thank goodness
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I don't
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have to be
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weighed down
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by that
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I can keep
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on going
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because I've
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been cleansed
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through Jesus
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of all my
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sin and all
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my failures
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so not only
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have I been
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cleansed
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but God
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also promises
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to be there
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with me
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and to help
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me which
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is a great
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comfort as
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a mum
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especially
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during all
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these uncertain
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times going
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on in the
-
world
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so yeah
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I think
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that's just
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what I wanted
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to share
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with you
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guys
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that I've
-
learned
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through my
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experiences
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some things
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can be
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hard
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and some
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things don't
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go to
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plans
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to your own
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plans
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but you
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can find
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love and
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great comfort
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in Jesus
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and you can
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be cleansed
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from all
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your sins
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and failures
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through him
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so yeah
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I'll get that
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out of
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story
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thank you
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for listening
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and kids
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do you guys
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want to say
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goodbye
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say bye
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bye
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thanks Marie
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and Pete
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we're just
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going to read
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the last part
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of the passage
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now from
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verse 38
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after these
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things
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Joseph of
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Arimathea
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who was a
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disciple of
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Jesus
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but secretly
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for fear of
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the Jews
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asked Pilate
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that he might
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take away
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the body of
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Jesus
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and Pilate
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gave him
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permission
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so he came
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and took away
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his body
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Nicodemus also
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who earlier
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had come to
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Jesus by
-
night
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came
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bringing a
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mixture of
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myrrh and
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aloes
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about 75
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pounds in
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weight
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so they took
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the body
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of Jesus
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and bound
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it in linen
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cloths with
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the spices
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as is the
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burial custom
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of the Jews
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now in the
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place where he
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was crucified
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there was a
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garden
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and in the
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garden a
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new tomb
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in which no
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one had yet
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been laid
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so because of
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the Jewish
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day of
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preparation
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since the
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tomb was
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close at
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hand
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they laid
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Jesus there
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we're now
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final scene
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our attention
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is drawn to
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two very
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surprising
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people
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they're two
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men of high
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position
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among the
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Jewish leaders
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Joseph is
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described as a
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believer a
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follower but
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secretly because
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he feared the
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Jewish authorities
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and you can
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see why and
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Nicodemus who
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was too afraid
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to come to
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Jesus in the
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daylight so he
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saw him secretly
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at night these
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men had a lot
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to lose their
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high position
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maybe even
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their lives
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if you were
-
there seeing
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the corpse of
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Jesus hanging
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on the cross
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how risky
-
would it be to
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admit before
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Pilate and the
-
authorities that
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you believe that
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this man is
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worthy of
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honour
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I think
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we're being
-
shown what
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believing in
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Jesus looks
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like
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it's believing
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that Jesus
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is worth
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risking everything
-
else for
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it's not
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hiding but
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openly confessing
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it's not living
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in fear and
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darkness but
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walking in the
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light of his
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love
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they've
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richly
-
prepared his
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body for
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burial so
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that the
-
stench of
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death wouldn't
-
be so bad
-
and laid
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him in a
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tomb in
-
which no
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one had
-
yet been
-
laid
-
but even
-
as they
-
honour him
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they show
-
that they
-
don't quite
-
grasp who
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Jesus is
-
and what he
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came to do
-
they were
-
treating Jesus
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as if his
-
story ended
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in the tomb
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if the story
-
ended here
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we would have
-
no reason
-
to celebrate
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at Easter
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because death
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would yet
-
again
-
have the
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final
-
save
-
I don't
-
think
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Joseph
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and
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Nicodemus
-
would have
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bothered
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with spices
-
and wrapping
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Jesus'
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body
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if they
-
knew what
-
was coming
-
on Sunday
-
morning
-
the story
-
doesn't end
-
here
-
and that is
-
such good
-
news
-
for all
-
who believe
-
in him
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our story
-
doesn't end
-
in death
-
either
-
the cross
-
is blood
-
poured out
-
to reconnect
-
us to
-
God
-
and what
-
followed on
-
Sunday
-
morning
-
is absolutely
-
essential
-
for our
-
life
-
friends
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behold
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your king
-
innocent
-
and having
-
all authority
-
yet submitting
-
to injustice
-
and rejection
-
and death
-
obedient
-
trusting
-
his father's
-
plan
-
pouring out
-
his blood
-
for you
-
to wash
-
you clean
-
for everyone
-
who believes
-
dying
-
he destroyed
-
the power
-
of death
-
to give us
-
new and
-
forever
-
life
-
what a
-
king
-
the lamb
-
of God
-
who takes
-
away the
-
sin of the
-
world
-
good reason
-
to celebrate
-
well we're
-
going to
-
finish by
-
hearing from
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Alyssa
-
as she
-
shares how
-
Jesus has
-
washed her
-
and given
-
her new
-
life
-
so over
-
to you
-
Alyssa
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sorry
-
I just
-
wanted to
-
share some
-
of my
-
story and
-
how Jesus
-
has and
-
is still
-
impacting
-
my life
-
so I
-
grew up
-
in a
-
loving
-
household
-
we were
-
taught
-
about
-
Jesus
-
and his
-
love
-
and the
-
forgiveness
-
that he
-
offers
-
from a
-
really young
-
age
-
however I
-
don't think
-
I ever
-
really realised
-
the weight
-
of what that
-
meant
-
for myself
-
personally
-
until I
-
was in my
-
late teens
-
so from a
-
young age
-
I fell
-
into some
-
forms of
-
addiction
-
and it
-
became a
-
source of
-
comfort for
-
me
-
I always
-
knew in
-
my heart
-
that there
-
was a
-
God and
-
I believed
-
in him
-
but I
-
really
-
struggled to
-
feel his
-
love and
-
his grace
-
for myself
-
and it's
-
only really
-
been in the
-
last few
-
years that
-
I've come
-
to accept
-
that love
-
and forgiveness
-
it was in
-
those younger
-
years however
-
that I
-
had formed
-
some really
-
unhealthy
-
habits
-
and ways
-
of handling
-
pain and
-
emotions
-
I don't
-
feel I ever
-
learnt to
-
handle pain
-
well
-
and I
-
experienced
-
a lot of
-
it and
-
instead of
-
turning to
-
God to
-
find my
-
worth and
-
identity
-
I allowed
-
the addiction
-
and what
-
it brought
-
with it
-
to define
-
me
-
things like
-
shame
-
feeling not
-
worthy enough
-
and being
-
a failure
-
I carried
-
this identity
-
with me
-
and it only
-
led me
-
further
-
into the
-
path of
-
addiction
-
with every
-
trial
-
and pain
-
that I
-
faced
-
as the
-
years have
-
gone on
-
I feel
-
like
-
I am
-
letting go
-
of the
-
shame
-
the feelings
-
of not
-
being worthy
-
or of
-
being a
-
failure
-
and finding
-
my identity
-
more and
-
more in
-
Jesus
-
but I
-
will be
-
honest in
-
saying it's
-
been a
-
really long
-
hard and
-
slow journey
-
but the
-
only way
-
that's been
-
made possible
-
is coming
-
to understand
-
how wide
-
and how
-
deep
-
and how
-
great the
-
love of
-
Jesus is
-
for me
-
and what
-
his forgiveness
-
and grace
-
really means
-
it's a
-
daily struggle
-
and fight
-
not to
-
hold on
-
to the
-
past
-
and allow
-
what has
-
happened
-
to me
-
or what
-
I have
-
done
-
to define
-
me
-
and I
-
still fall
-
into the
-
trap of
-
thinking that
-
other things
-
can carry
-
me through
-
but every
-
day I'm
-
learning that
-
if it
-
wasn't for
-
Jesus
-
and his
-
death
-
and resurrection
-
I would
-
not have
-
been made
-
new
-
I would
-
not have
-
been changed
-
from the
-
inside out
-
nor have
-
the strength
-
to keep
-
going
-
you see
-
the greatest
-
comfort
-
the greatest
-
peace
-
and the
-
greatest
-
hope I
-
have
-
is knowing
-
Jesus Christ
-
and that he
-
knew everything
-
about me
-
and even
-
knowing everything
-
about me
-
he endured
-
the cross
-
and he died
-
so that we
-
could know
-
him
-
his love
-
and his
-
forgiveness
-
Jesus Christ
-
God himself
-
who knew
-
my sin
-
my weakness
-
my failing
-
the king
-
of the world
-
humbled himself
-
went through
-
all that
-
pain
-
suffering
-
rejection
-
and humiliation
-
thinking of
-
you and me
-
carrying the
-
sin of the
-
world
-
he died
-
on the
-
cross
-
and then
-
rose again
-
so we
-
could be
-
made new
-
be holy
-
perfect
-
and blameless
-
and also
-
to give us
-
the strength
-
to persevere
-
and fight
-
temptation
-
my king
-
suffered
-
in my
-
place
-
what a
-
God
-
what a
-
hope we
-
have
-
what a
-
king
-
thanks for
-
listening to
-
my story
-
yeah thank
-
you so much
-
Alyssa
-
and Marie
-
and Gareth
-
and Catherine
-
thank you for
-
opening yourselves
-
up to us
-
to see inside
-
your lives
-
and your hearts
-
thank you so much
-
for sharing your
-
stories with us
-
it's been really
-
encouraging
-
um
-
you
-
so much
-
thank you
-
to see así
-
some of rient
-
and why
-
thank you
-
and I'll
-
see you