Sermon
Stop Waiting to Be Someone Important
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Well, good evening and welcome to Crowd Church. My name is Matt Edmundson and it
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is great to be with you this Sunday evening. I am joined by— how would I
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describe you, Dan? It's like, uh, Liverpool's answer to Batman. Uh, beside me is
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Dan Orange, which is being filmed as we speak. Well, I know they're waiting on
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you to get back.
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I know, yeah. It's being filmed on the Runcorn Bridge just down the road. Oh,
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there you go. Yeah, snow and everything, Batman. Snow? Yeah.
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In the middle of summer?
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Yeah, they've got fake snow on the Runcorn Bridge.
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Wow.
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I'm going to go down and have a look. Anyway, and on my right, we've got
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Liverpool's answer to Superman, Mike Harris. How are we doing?
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I'm doing really well.
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Yeah.
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Yeah, really. Looking forward to it.
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Did you forget your cape?
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Yes. Yeah, I would say I'm more like Robin.
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Robin.
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The leotard and goggles.
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So let us know in the comments what superhero you think you are. That would be
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really good. Alicia's in the comments. Hey, good to see you. Hello. Oh, yeah.
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Um, good to see you in there, but do say hi in the comments if you haven't done
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really exciting stuff actually with Crowd coming up, so some big changes, um,
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which we're going to talk about probably— well, I don't know when we're gonna
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know because I'm just thinking actually in August, which this is the last, uh,
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one in July, the last livestream in August. So we don't livestream in August,
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the Sunday's, uh, Sunday's service. We do something called the non-live
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livestream. And so that's where we, we still like do a, a thing on YouTube with
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the talk there's just none of this sort of interaction that we have, this sort
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of live interaction, mainly because the whole Crowd team here, we just take
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August as a bit of a sabbatical and just refresh ourselves because there's a lot
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going on. Um, and so yeah, I'm not quite sure I'm going to talk about what's
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going on with Crowd Church. Maybe we'll do it later after the talk. We'll wait
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and see, uh, how it's happening. So let me put my specs on. Let's have a look at
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what's going on in the comments. Uh, Matt Crew, as the proofreader for the
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website, I saw no mistakes. That's really Hey, nice work. I don't think you've
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looked properly yet, Matt. There'll be some. Uh, Sam says the website looks
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great. Thank you, Sam. Uh, always good to see you, my friend. Um, let me just
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delete— Ros is on. Hi, Ros.
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How you doing?
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Uh, hopefully you're having a beautiful day. Sam says hi. Ellis, new website is
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much better, by the way.
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Good, good feedback.
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Yeah, yeah. It's all very good feedback about the website, which is great. Uh,
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Katharine is on 1886. Normally when people put their usernames— so Katharine
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1886, right? Normally when people put their users, like the year of birth, isn't
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it? So welcome. That's quite impressive. Uh, so good to have you on board. Uh,
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let me just clear out some of these things. There we go. Um, so yeah, great to
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see you, great to have you on board. Uh, Mike, what we talking— well, what are
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you talking about tonight?
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Um, so today we are talking about service. Um, we're talking about how Jesus
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created a new way of living, a new way of, um, leading. Um, I'm gonna look at—
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yeah, we're gonna look at that and how Jesus demonstrated that.
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Fantastic, fantastic. Well, Uh, unless I've missed something, Dan.
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No, I think that's—
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should we jump into it?
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Jump into it.
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It's okay. So we're going to jump into the talk. The legendary Mike Harris, also
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known as Superman, uh, is going to talk about service and this thing that Jesus
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set up. We're going to get into conversation street. Uh, grab your notebooks,
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grab your pens, write in the comments. We'd love to hear your thoughts, your
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ideas. Um, and of course, if you need Superman during the talk, just again write
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that in the comments. Mike will surely answer. Over to you, Mike.
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Great. Well, it is super to be here. And just as a little bit of a recap for
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those of you who maybe didn't see last week's Crowd Church, Ade was speaking and
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he was speaking about answering the question, who is our neighbor? And we had a
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little look at that and we had a look at why that was important to the to the
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guy who asked that question, um, and we looked at, you know, who our neighbor
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is. And today we are looking at how we treat our neighbor, um, and so that,
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that's what I'm going to be looking at. And the passage, um, which I'm going to
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read out is in the Gospel of John, so John's eyewitness account, um, and it's in
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chapter 13. So I'm just going to start by reading a little bit of that. It only
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takes a few minutes. So this is John chapter 13, and it says this: It was just
John 13 chapter mention
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before the Passover festival, and Jesus knew the hour had come for him to leave
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this world and go to the Father. Having loved his own who were in the world, he
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loved them to the end. The evening meal was in progress, and the devil had
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already prompted Judas, the son of Simon Iscariot, to betray Jesus. Jesus knew
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that the Father had put all things under his power, and that he had come from
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God and was returning to God. So he got up from the meal, took off his outer
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clothing, and wrapped a towel around his waist. After that, he poured water into
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a basin and began to wash his disciples' feet, drying them with the towel that
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was wrapped around him. I'm then going to jump to verse 12. When he had finished
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washing their feet, he put on his clothes and returned to his place. "Do you
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understand what I have done for you?" he asked them. "You call me 'Teacher' and
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'Lord,' and rightly so, for that is what I am. Now that I, your Lord and
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Teacher, have washed your feet, you also should wash one another's feet. I have
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set you an example, that you should do as I have done for you. Very truly I tell
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you, no servant is greater than his master, nor is a messenger greater than the
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one who sent him." Now that you know these things, you will be blessed if you do
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them. Okay, so that is the passage, uh, quite a famous passage, uh, of Jesus
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washing the disciples' feet. And so first of all, I just want to point out a few
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things about this passage. So the first thing is, um, a little bit of context.
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So Jesus is not far off going to the cross to die. He knows that that is where
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he's heading, um, and he decides that this is a really, um, that one of the
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things that he wants to leave with the disciples is this example about how to
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serve. And so Jesus decides that he's gonna take on the position of the lowest
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possible servant and wash his disciples' feet. You see, back in those times, if
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a Jewish, um, person had Jewish slaves, he wouldn't— the master wouldn't even
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ask the Jewish slaves to wash people's feet. It was too degrading for them. He
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would actually ask— only ask Gentile slaves to do this job. This was even within
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slaves, there was like this hierarchy, and the Gentile slave was the one who was
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asked to clean feet because it was the lowest, the most degrading job. And Jesus
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decides to place himself in that role. And so he takes off his outer clothes, he
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wraps a towel around him, and he takes on the role of this low Gentile slave. He
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performs this act, and then at the end of the act, he tells his disciples to do
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the same, and if they do it, then they will be blessed. You see, this act of
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Jesus serving his disciples pointed back to his life, to everything that he had
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done, and that it was all an act of service. That this act of washing his
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disciples' feet is like what he's been doing since the start. He's been serving
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those that are ill, those that are sick, those that are around him. He's been
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serving them and teaching them and feeding them, and he's been laying himself
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down in order to raise up these other people. And so it's pointing back. It's
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actually, just for those geeks amongst you, it actually points even further back
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to Joseph. Uh, you know, I've got to, uh, thank a friend of mine, Alison, who
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pointed this out to me, that back when Joseph— and for those who don't know,
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Joseph and the technical, the dream coat and all that, that sort of story— his
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brothers eventually come to him in Egypt And through his steward, he provides water
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for his brothers, his 11 brothers, of which, you know, he's the 12th, for them
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to wash their feet. So you've got Joseph providing water for his brothers to
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have their feet washed before he announces who he is, before he reveals who he
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is. And then in Jesus, you've got Jesus washing the 12 disciples' feet before he
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goes to the cross to reveal who he is. So they're similar but different because
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Jesus is the one who takes on the role of the slave. You see, with Joseph, it was his
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slave who took the water out to wash his brother's feet, but Jesus took on that
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role himself in order to wash his disciples' feet. You see, Jesus calls us to
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serve and to, to live a life of service. This act pointed backwards to Jesus's
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life before this point. It was a present act of service, and it also pointed to
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the fact that he was just about to not just lay down his hopes and dreams, but
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to lay down his life on the cross. That even— he even lay his life down before
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death. He submitted to death, even death on a cross. And so Jesus calls us to
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serve and to serve our neighbor. And so the question, you know, for me, and, and
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it's the same question that was asked last time, is how can I do this? Of
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course, I could just go out and start serving, but how can I do this? And for
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this, we have to look at verse 3 of this. And it says this in verse 3, it said,
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Jesus knew that the Father had put all things under his power and that he had
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come from God and was returning to God. You see, Jesus knew who he was and where
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he'd come from. And in order for us to serve in the way that Jesus calls us to,
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we need to know those two things. We need to know who we are, and we need to
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know where we've come from. You see, because it's only then that we can serve
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like Jesus did, from a point of, of power. And it's only then that it is, that
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it is powerful and that it is useful. We need to know who we are. Well, first of
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all, in order to know who you are, you need to look at Jesus. You need to read
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the Bible, and the Bible will tell you a number of things. And you can go and
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look at these. I would encourage you to Google 'Who am I in Christ?' and you'll
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get big lists of verses and promises that tell you who you are. So you are loved
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unconditionally. Romans 8:38-39 tells us that there is nothing that can, um,
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separate you from Jesus's love. You are forgiven. There is no condemnation. You
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are a new creation. You are a— you are the workmanship of God, created in order
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to do good works. You are the temple of the Holy Spirit. God himself lives in
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you. And so when you first of all recognize who you are, you don't now have to
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compete for attention. You don't have to compete for affirmation. You have that
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already because you know who you are, and that then enables you to be able to
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serve like Jesus did. But also, you need to know where you came from last week.
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Ade, um, talked brilliantly about, um, the Good Samaritan. And in Conversation
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Street, me and Dan, we were talking about the fact that in that story, it's,
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it's easy to think, oh, how do I serve other people? But it's also important to
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remember that we were the robber who was left for dead on the side of the road.
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And in the Good Samaritan story, you've got, um, the Samaritan who eventually
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comes and saves this robber, um, puts him on his donkey, takes him to the inn
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and makes sure everything is there for him and pays for all of his care and
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stuff like that. You know, we were the robber who was on the side of the road.
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But Jesus, through his death and resurrection, have come and saved us and
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restored us and made us a new creation. And when we start to read the Bible and
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we look at Jesus's life and we look at where we have come from, that enables us
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further to be able to empathize with those that are around us and serve them
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better. So we need to know who we are and we need to know where we've come from.
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We also need to know, like Jesus did, where we are heading. And you know, Jesus
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has prepared— is preparing a place for you. We are going to rule and reign in
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paradise with the one who is love, the one who has defeated death. And we are
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called and we are going to reign with Jesus. In that place. And that is
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something that we can look forward to, have hope in, fix— try and fix in our
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gaze. So let's remember who we are, where we've come from, and where we're
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heading. And that'll help us to serve. You know, I sometimes, um, look at people
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who are famous, people who are, you know, very, very wealthy. And I've taken a
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bad example, but Elon Musk. And I've had conversations with people, and I've
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joined in these conversations where I'm like, if only, you know, given all of
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the power, given all of the money that he has, he could do this and he could
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solve this problem. And if he just did this with his power, with his influence,
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then he could solve this problem. And he could do this, and he could do that,
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and he could solve all these problems. You know, when you look at other people,
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you know, like the President of America with all of this power, and if only they
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could do this and this, then they would be able to solve all these problems. I
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want to tell you today that heaven roars you on. Heaven looks down at you with
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all of the power and all of the authority and all of the possibilities that you
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have within you. And is roaring you on to serve and to influence those that are
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around you, to be it, to be Jesus' hands and feet with those that are around
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you, like your neighbor, like I talked about last week. And with the power of
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God in you, you are being cheered on. Um, and maybe today is time for you to to
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accept that challenge, to accept who you are, to accept where you've come from,
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to accept that you have been placed where you are. You have been given the power
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of God and that you are called to serve where you are right now and have an
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enormous impact where you are. I can't remember who it is who says, um, who is
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it? Dallas Willard was saying— I was reading today and he says that God's world
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is an arena, and you have a huge role, an indispensable role to play in it. I, I
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just want to throw out that challenge because this is a challenging piece of
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scripture, that you have been called and placed where you are. It is time to get
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up and kneel down. I just want to finish with, um, a little story that I heard a
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friend of mine say this week. It's just, just quite an inspiring story about how
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one man, um, saved someone in front of him. So this guy, I think he was a
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Catholic priest, and he really, really enjoyed running, um, but didn't have
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loads of money, but saved and saved and saved and was able to eventually buy a
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really good pair of running trainers. And he went out running in them, and they
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were brilliant. They were everything that he'd hoped they were going to be. And,
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you know, they were expensive, and he recognized that, you know, they were going
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to last a long time, and so he thought they were a worthwhile investment. A few
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days after he'd bought them and been out in them and realized how good they
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were, a guy turned up at his door, um, and didn't speak the same language, and,
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um, didn't have any shoes on, um, and clearly looked homeless, um, and looked in
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need of some, some real care. And so this guy was pointing to his feet and he
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needed something to wear on his feet. And so this guy went and got all the shoes
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in his house and put them before him, and he was trying them on, and the only
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ones that would fit were this pair of running shoes that, um, that, that this
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guy had just bought. And so, uh, the, the guy eventually decided, well, if
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they're the ones that fit, then you can take them. And, and he took them and he
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went off. That night, this guy had a dream. And in this dream— and as he was
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recounting this story, he could barely get the dream out because he was bawling
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his eyes out. And as he was explaining this dream, before him in this dream
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stood this man who he knew to be Jesus, wearing the trainers that he'd given to
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this guy. And this— the guy who, who gave up these trainers, you know, when he
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woke up in the morning, you know, he— one of the thoughts that he had was I
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could have missed that chance. I could have just gone and got any pair of shoes,
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a pair of shoes that, you know, that we didn't use, and brought them, and, and
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this guy would have been made up with them. And I might have missed this
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opportunity to give to my Lord, to my Savior, to my King, the best of what I
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had. You know, the people who you are surrounded by today they need you to serve
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them. They need you to show them Jesus. And what better way? You know, Jesus
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calls us to serve, to lay down our life for each other and for our friends. And
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when we do that, we don't always know or even get to see the power, um, that
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those acts have. Um, but they are powerful. You know, just, just to return to
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what Dallas Willard said, he says that God's world is an arena and you have an
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indispensable role to play. It is time for us to get up and for us to lay down.
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Back to you in the studio. Where I reside also. I
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thought I was on TV-am.
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Yeah, love that.
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He's like 1.5 meters away, because I'm not even that, like maybe a meter. I
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could probably smack you up with that.
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You probably could.
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So back to the studio. TV, you're going to have to explain TV-am.
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Yeah, that's a cultural reference from the past.
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That is a, there's only a certain subset of people. Maybe Katharine who was born
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in 1886.
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Maybe she can remember that. Yeah.
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Although Alicia put in the comments Um, uh, I, I saw this actually. We'll get on
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to the talk in a second, but I did see this because her, uh, YouTube is 1316 or
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something like that. Oh wow, 1316. And she goes it was just a random number
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assigned by YouTube, it's not the year she was born. She was at great pains to
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point that out. So, um, yes, anyway, regardless of whatever age you are, you're
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welcome at Crowd Church. Uh, we like multi-generational church. Um, to be fair,
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it's normally me that's the end of the old jokes.
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So yeah, you're the '80s.
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I mean, yeah, we went on to, um, uh, we've just— I've just literally got back
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from Wildfires, which is like a, a festival, Christian festival down in the
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south of England. If you're in the UK next August, highly recommend it. I'm
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going to be there. We're going to talk more about it on Crowd. Come join us.
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Anyway, the, um, Uh, where was I going with that? What did you just say? I
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totally lost my train of thought.
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The '80s.
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Oh, the '80s.
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Yeah.
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So we're down at Wildfires and, um, Anna, who you will know if you're a regular
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to Crowd, she's one of the, the key hosts, one of the leaders of Crowd. Her and
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Andy, um, went to one of these sort of game exchange cafes, which I'd never
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heard of. It's where you go— have you heard of this?
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No. You go into Wildfires.
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No, it wasn't our Wildfires, it was on the sort of way to Wildfires. It's where
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you go, you take a game and you leave that game but you take another game. So
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it's like a game swap, which is kind of cool. Anyway, Anna bought, uh, '80s
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Trivia.' We thought you'd like this, Matt, but we never actually did play on
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Wildfires. Um, so maybe we'll do that on live on the air one day. Anyway, I
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digress. Um, love that, Mike. So it's, it's interesting, is it? This whole— I
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think with these kind of stories, right, you— they become so familiar that you
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you— it's like you don't think about it, becomes autonomous. I mean, it's like,
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yeah, we know Jesus washed his disciples' feet, I probably should do something
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and serve at some point, and you're off to the next one.
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Yeah.
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Um, what was the biggest challenge when you prepared the talk?
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The biggest challenge was thinking about— I was talking last week about these
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two groups of people. And you hear us talk about you need to serve, and you've
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got one group of people who will just go out and do it. They're just people who
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say, right, if Jesus says I'm to serve, then I'm gonna go and serve.
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Yeah.
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And then you've got the other group of people who just don't think they're
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worthy.
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Yeah.
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And so they just feel condemned.
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Yeah.
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So you've got one group of people who just go and do it, their heart isn't
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really in it, but they just go and do it. And then you've got the other group of
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people you just feel condemned. And so the challenge was to try and think about,
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so how do we, how do we help, how do we help both groups?
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Yeah, I loved it, Mike. I really loved the, the heaven, heaven roars you on.
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Yeah.
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And that, and like you were saying, it, it's easy to say, oh, Elon Musk could do
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that, these people could say that, Bill Gates can, you know, make another
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vaccine, pay for that. Um, always putting the emphasis on someone else because
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they've got, got money. But we have, we have heaven's resources, don't we?
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We've got—
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no matter what our task is, God's got something for us to do. Like that, that
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priest giving his, his running shoes, you know, that if you can affect a life
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like that, that's what God wants us to to do.
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Yeah, yeah, that's such a good point, isn't it? And I think, um, it's one of
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those things where you— well, this is put here in the comments actually, uh,
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what in our society is the washing of people's feet that we could do for others?
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And that's a really interesting question, I think. Now I want to tie this in
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actually with something that Alicia said. So, um, she put in the comments. Let
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me see if I can find it here. Uh, it's incredible how Christ demonstrates such
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humility, and that humility isn't at all humiliation but a powerful
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demonstration of his love and majesty. And it reminds me of Ephesians 2:10: For
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we are God's handiwork, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God
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prepared in advance for us to do. Now, if you've not seen these comments, by the
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way, we, we live stream both horizontally and vertically on YouTube. There's two
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live streams going on, uh, and so we have to sort of remember to look at the
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comment streams. Um, but this is an interesting point, I think, because Ellis is
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asking what are the washing of the feet things. And I love, uh, and I was in the
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comments chatting with Alicia about this because I think it's great that it sort
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of defines these good works that God's got before that God's sort of preordained
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that we walk in. These good works are acts of service, right? That's what the
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word ministry— yeah— is. And he's prepared these ahead of time for us to do.
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Yeah.
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And so, um, yeah, I guess, what are these good works in the modern-day era? And
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I guess coupled with that is, how do you see them as good works rather than a
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chore Because in my head, do you— I mean, when you're— I don't know, maybe Zoe
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is better answering this question, but when we talked about chores with our
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kids, the word chore is never a word you'd go, that's— how can I, how can I do
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more chores, Dad? I'm so excited about doing chores. It's just the word chore
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itself. You did, you washed our feet metaphorically. Um, it's true, we were away
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and Zoe had made dinner for when we got back. Because she's a legend. But it's,
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it's interesting, isn't it, because we view these things as chores. There's a
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negative connotation with them. So, um, chores is a very—
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yeah, it doesn't inspire, does it? Because it is just like, got it.
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Yeah, I've got to put the trash out. Yeah, it's a chore.
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That's for sure. Rather than—
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yeah, well, I just need to serve my wife.
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Yeah, yeah, right. It's just something I, yeah, I need to do.
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Yeah, yeah, yeah.
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Fascinating.
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I love, um, so Mike, you, you put that God's got an indispensable role, or was
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that what Dallas Willard said? Uh, yeah, I really like that, that phrase,
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because it is, isn't it? We— I can think sometimes, oh, someone else could do
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that, or I could do this, but is that as good as that? Or it's not as great as
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what Paul did or Peter did. You know, he's got an indispensable role for us as
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individuals. We can't— I think we talked last week it's not something to
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compare. Yeah, you know, it's not— not my task I've got to do is comparable with
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someone else's. That doesn't work. It's just what God's got for us, let's do for
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him. And, and that's the important thing. It doesn't— it doesn't matter about
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its size or its, you know, standing or whatever that might be.
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Yeah, yeah, I, I totally agree. And I think, I think you But you're still on a
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really good point there, is in that you're doing it for God. And I think
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sometimes, you know, I can see something, I see a way of serving somebody, but I
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might not particularly like that person. But I know that there's commands for me
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to serve, but I do know that I love God. And so I think sometimes that's where
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we can get our motivation from. We could say, okay, at this moment I don't have
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those gushing feelings towards this person, but I do love God, and therefore I
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love for God, I'm gonna, I'm gonna do this. And I think the more you do that,
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you know, I, I know I've experienced this in my own life on occasions where,
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where I've decided to do that for somebody, is that the emotions, the emotions
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follow. Yeah, but then they're not always the driver. Yes. Um, yeah, and yeah,
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there's an interesting part at the end of that which can be a bit confused at
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the end of that passage where Jesus basically says, look, a slave is not greater
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than his master. And, and Jesus is saying, you aren't greater than I am, and
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look at what I'm doing, I'm washing the disciples' feet. And so we can identify
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with, with Jesus and say, yes, you are right, I'm not greater than you. I've
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seen you washing other people's feet, and therefore I'm gonna do the same. I'm
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gonna, you know, I'm, I'm gonna step up and I'm gonna do it. Um, yeah, I think
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it's also good, that verse that you said. It, it talks about the good works that
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God has prepared for us to do. Now, that good is good according to him. Yeah,
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not necessarily according to us. Yeah, Romans 8:28 says God works all things for
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the good of those who love him. And so we think everything in my life, God's
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working to make me better, to make me bigger, to make me stronger. It's like,
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yeah, no, the good is according to him.
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Yeah.
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Yeah, and you know, we, we do have heaven to look forward to and paradise to
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look forward to, but, but that good is, is, is according to him. Yeah, not, you
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know, and sometimes that is gonna elevate us. Yeah, lift us up. Yeah. And
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sometimes it's going to mean that we—
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well, more often than it's, it's not.
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It's not.
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Yeah, it's, it's more about, uh, other people, isn't it? So I love this idea. I
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mean, you made reference to it, Mike. I love this idea that in the Bible Jesus
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tells you how to be great. In the sense that greatness, or being great, was
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often seen in the church as a sort of a dirty word. I mean, what do you mean?
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Because you shouldn't want to be great. Have no aspirations, have no drive. I
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mean, have no desire to do great things. Jesus says, no, if you want to be
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great, that's awesome, man. Yeah, here's how you do it. You'd be serving.
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Paul says run the race to win, doesn't he? Run the race to dawdle, or, you know.
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Yeah, yeah. Do it, do it, don't fart about, but do it. And it's like, but he
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says, if you want to be great, you've got to be servant to all. He throws the
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whole thing upside down. And so leadership, then ministry becomes about who you
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serve rather than who serves you.
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Yeah.
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And so the good works that God's got beforehand that we should walk in will
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often be a blessing to someone else, or will be to serve someone else. And
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usually as you guys talked about last week, that will be at a cost to us.
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Yeah, yeah, yeah.
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And so not all the time. And you do get that, um, there is a benefit, I think,
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to serve. And even psychologists now say this, don't they, that you get this
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sort of, um, uh, kind of really good sort of feeling and vibe when you help
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somebody or when you give something. Do you know what I mean? And it's, um, and
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so it's not totally altruistic But at the same time, good works, like you say,
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are what God says, and usually that's for the benefit of somebody else. You are
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blessed to be a blessing, right? It's that whole drive. And I, I find that super
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duper challenging.
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I mean, it's super challenging, especially within the context within which we
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live, which is all about stepping on each other, elevating yourself. How quickly
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can you get up that ladder?
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Yeah.
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How many likes? How many subscribers? All of that kind of thing.
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Yeah.
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Um, you know, and, and, and so we're called to swim against that, and that's
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really hard, really hard to do.
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And well, it is because we live in a, in a— and just thinking that through,
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right, our whole culture is, I want it faster and I want it easier, right? I
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don't want any effort involved in what's going on. The whole thing about AI,
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everyone's you either hate it or love it because there's going to be a robot
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that's going to bring you a cup of tea whenever you want it, right? And we're
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all like, oh, and it's, it's this idea that actually those kind of tasks are
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menial, they're beneath us. And here we see Jesus doing the most menial and
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lowest of tasks, which is washing the disciples' feet. And it's— he didn't— he
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wasn't like, dude, come here, feet are dirty, sort them out. Here are my feet,
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do me a pedicure while you're at it. It wasn't, it wasn't like that, was it? It
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was like, here, give me your feet, dude, I know they stink, I'm gonna sort it.
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This is not like— I wouldn't want to do that job. I genuinely wouldn't want to
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do that. No, I've got a thing about touching people. I just, I don't know, I
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don't know how he did it. Yeah, but it's just, I mean, it's, it's, yeah, it is
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this kind of idea that greatness is found in the menial tasks, doing them for
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other people. I don't see that many leadership books You don't, you don't.
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And, uh, you know, the thing is that, that those opportunities to serve like
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that are all around us. Yeah. And, you know, like Dallas Willard was saying,
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we've got this indispensable role to play, and Jesus has prepared these good
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works for us to do. And it's such a challenge for me because, you know, that
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there will be times— I'm sure today where there have been opportunities for me
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to lay aside my hopes for the day to serve somebody else. Yeah, it has to be.
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Yeah, it has to be. And I've not seen them. Yeah, I've been too busy. Yeah, I've
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been too elevated in my own thinking that I've missed them. Um, but, but, but
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they're there. Yeah, they're there for— they're there for all of us. And not
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only that, But God has given us everything we need, all the resources of heaven,
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everything we need to be able to go and fulfill that role and meet that need.
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Yeah.
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Um, and it's a challenge. Yeah, it's a challenge.
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It is. So what would you say then, going back to Ellis's question, are some of
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the modern-day examples of washing people's feet? Because I mean, if you just
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went in the street and said, can I wash your feet? I'm not sure that would go
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down particularly well, but I, I, what would be, do you think, some modern
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examples of this?
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Two, two examples that I'm thinking of that have just come to mind, very, very
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different. Um, first one is for, is to, I'm looking for the best way to describe
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this, not befriend but bless people who are seen as toxic. So, you know, for
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some people who've maybe messed up in terrible ways, being the person who's
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prepared to risk your reputation to go and, um, administer something of Jesus'
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love to them.
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Yeah.
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Um, to not completely disown them, that would potentially be something that
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could, that could put some dirt on you, if you like. Yes. Um, another way, I, I
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think just praising other people. I think the more, the more I'm online, the
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less I see of people praising— yes, other people.
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Yeah.
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And I think, I think it's a lost art. And you know, when you praise somebody
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else, you, you really are trying to lift them up, potentially at your own
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expense. Um, so yeah, so I think wholeheartedly praising other people and
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looking for things that are praiseworthy in other people and praising them for
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it. Yeah. Um, is one another way to do it.
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It's a really good point, just being generous.
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Yeah.
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I like that, Mike. And I think nowadays with the whole cancel culture, it's very
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easy to not even, not even, you know, if you're online, not even like something
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because you're concerned that, that, that links you to that. Yeah, to that, that
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statement. What, you know, I like what they said there, but what about what they
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said, you know, 10 years ago? But it's the same as, same as me, isn't it? We've,
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yeah, we are infallible people. Infallible? Fallible.
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I don't know how infallible I am. You go for it. I mean, you are Batman.
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We, we make mistakes. That's easy.
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Yeah, yeah.
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Um, and it's, yeah, just, just praising what, what someone's said or done, or
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just, yeah, loving them in that way.
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Yeah, yeah.
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Even I was thinking a more, much more menial thing. The first person to make the
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cup of tea, you know, in our culture, it's not like sitting there, oh, I made
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one last time, you know, and you're in the office. Yeah, it's your turn. He
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hasn't got one. Yeah, he hasn't done the round. Yeah. Being the first person,
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just little, yeah, little things.
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I, I know it's another, um, you know, sort of spiritual thing, but I think
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forgiving people as well, it's just really hard and it costs you a lot. And you
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don't, you don't see anything about forgiveness really on social media other
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than to say you need to forgive people because it benefits you. Um, And you
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know, that's another thing that can put this on you in one sense, and it's gonna
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cost you. Yeah, it's gonna cost you to do that.
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Yeah, I think it's— whenever you think about serving or ministering to somebody,
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the way I would answer this question— I mean, we can sit here and come up with a
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thousand different ways. Yeah, right, of how to do it. I think what happens is
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God puts opportunities in front of you. Yeah, right. And it's more, God, help me
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see the opportunity that I have in front of me. And usually that is found, um,
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in a people group that you probably have a bit of a heart for, right? So, um,
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some people have a heart, say, for the homeless. So the guys at Green Pastures
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Charity, a registered charity in the UK run by Andrew and his dad Pastor Pete,
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amazing charity, got a real heart for the homeless.
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Right?
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And they serve the homeless in a great way. Um, you've got people who have a
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heart for, say, sex workers. You've got people who've got a heart for those that
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work in the NHS or in medicine, right? So yeah, there's, there's something God
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will have put inside you, I would say, Ellis, where you have a heart for a
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certain people group. And so the big question then becomes, if that's where I'm
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feeling that specific aspect of of God's outpouring through me, how do I best
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serve in that community, in that people group? Um, and I think the easiest way
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to find that out is just to go and ask somebody, because that— to talk to
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anybody for 5 minutes, I'll tell you what the 4 biggest problems are in whatever
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it is they're working in. And you go, right, well, how can I make a difference
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there? And I think it's such a powerful way of reframing rather than just going,
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oh, well, that's nasty, isn't it? They're just gonna have to sort that out or,
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or do whatever. So today we were, um, uh, we had, you know, visiting one of the
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NHS hospitals. It's easy to complain about the hospital, um, and, you know, but
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at the same time, I'm like, how can I serve these people? How can I, how can I
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bless them? How can I encourage them? Um, and so you know, when you're talking
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to the nurse or whatever, I always like to use a phrase, legend. You are a
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legend. I mean, and just coming back to heaping praise on people.
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Yeah.
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Um, rather than you are a pain in the neck and you need to sort your life out,
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which may be true. Um, but we'll start with the legend first. But I think,
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where's your heart? What's that, that people group God has got on your heart?
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But also, what are the opportunities in front of you right now? Just think back
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through your day, and if you're in the, you know, world where today is just
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literally starting for you, think back through your yesterday and just think
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through 3 or 4 events. I reckon there'll be half a dozen opportunities in there
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for you to serve, right? So me being in the hospital, there would have been
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opportunities there to serve. Even here tonight, coming in, we have
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opportunities. You got here early and you set all of this up so we didn't have
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to do it, which was great. Yeah. Um, thank you, Dan, appreciate that. But it's,
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it's like there was none of that, or you weren't here on time, you know what I
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mean? It's like, I've done all of this. Which, no, this isn't—
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this is—
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it's not— it's not the vibe, it's not the culture. We just like, how can we
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serve? How can we bless each other? Um, even on the campsite, everybody was
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taking everybody's tents down. How, how they all got packed up, no idea. Um, but
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it was just, it was just lovely to see everybody sort of digging in and and
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helping. There's always opportunities to serve, and they don't have to— see, the
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thing about washing the disciples' feet, I look at that and go, that's weird.
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But it was an everyday thing. It happened all the time. It needed doing on a
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regular basis, and Jesus just went away and did it. It was not a big monumental
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thing that needed a million-pound fundraising. Do I mean, it was just like, I'll
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go do that.
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Yeah, I'll go do that.
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It doesn't, it doesn't have to be a big thing. Me and my wife were traveling on
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Monday, and we listened to this unbelievable podcast.
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Like, was it What's the Story?
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It wasn't that one, actually, but it was—
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that is a number—
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it is a very good podcast. Yeah, but on this occasion it wasn't that one. Um, it
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was a guy called Simon Guillebaud who's been on What's the Story.
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In fact, Simon was at Wildfire. Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah.
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He was talking with a lady called Mary, and I put the link on because just
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Unbelievable.
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She—
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very, very brief. She just, oh, lived a horrendous—
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Sorry, did you say you've put the link on? No, I will do. I'll do that next.
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Horrendous upbringing. So many things happened to her. Anyway, you need to
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listen to the story, but she was saying that this is my last walk. I'm going
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out. I'm with my dog. She's homeless. She looked a mess. She was going to
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basically end her life before she probably did some damage to this guy that had
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really abused her. And a guy just walked past her and said, how was your day?
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No, have a good day. And that's it. Never saw that guy again. Radically changed
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her, changed her life. Like, just that, that word, because she looked a mess.
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Yeah.
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And it was the right time for her. And I think it really spoke to me that it
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doesn't have to be big gestures. Yeah, just sometimes it's people that we
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wouldn't, we wouldn't talk to, or just— we are— we're aware of God's prompting
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just to not be in our own thoughts all the time. And, uh, yeah, really spoke to
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me.
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Wow.
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Yeah, beautiful testimony. She's just impacted so many lives and stuff since.
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Yeah. Yeah, amazing. I, I think, um, one thing throughout the day that would
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change, um, my motivation is to remember that when, like that guy who just says
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have a great day, something like that, but I think about going throughout my day
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and all the opportunities that I've got to serve is to remember that when I see
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an opportunity to serve, that it's God who's asking me to go and do that. I
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think sometimes the, the task can seem menial. If, if, say, you're, you know,
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you're working in an office or something like that, and there's something that
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needs doing that isn't your job, and you go and do it. And maybe it seems menial
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because you think doing this is, is helping my boss or something like that. But
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when we remember that that task— go and say hello to that person— is something
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that God— a good work that God has planned in advance for you to do, you're
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being asked by the Creator of the universe to go and do that. Yeah. And we mess
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it up all the time, and we don't do it, and we create a thousand reasons why we
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shouldn't. But remembering, as you go through your day looking for
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opportunities, that is that it is the Creator of the universe that is asking you
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to go and do that. And I think that changes things. That changes things when
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it's like, it does.
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Yeah, yeah.
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Can you, can you put that chair away? Can you do this? Can you do that? Can you
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pay for this for that person? Um, I'm more motivated to do that when I remember
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that it's he who has gone before me and prepared these works for me to do.
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Yeah, yeah. So, so that comes back to what you said earlier, remember? Who you
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are, where you've come from, where you're going.
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Yeah.
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Um, and, and I know, and you drew it out actually right at the start of that
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verse, um, or this— right at the start of those verses. Uh, what was it it said?
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Let me just pull up the scripture here, uh, so I don't mess it up. But it was,
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um, Jesus knew that the Father had put all things under his power. That's a
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remarkable statement, isn't it? It's like, all things are under my power. And
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it's like, even in the midst of that, he still serves. Remember who you are,
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where you've come from, where you're going. And I think that sense of identity
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frees you from this need to try and prove yourself, right? Or by having
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everybody serve me, right? Look how good I am, I've got all this going on around
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me. Um, this sort of— it frees you from that need because you go, well, I'm
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God's, I'm already enough. He's given me everything I need that pertains to life
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and godliness. I'm content with that. Bring it on. I can now serve. I don't need
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to prove anything to anybody, right? And I think there's something quite
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remarkable about that. Um, that verse is not there by accident. When John
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wrote this gospel, um, or Mark, or, you know, whoever wrote the gospel, um, it's
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like, yes, Jesus knew this and he did it anyway. I love that. That's the, you
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know, that's the whole, um, Philippians thing. And let this mind be in you that
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was in Christ Jesus. He did not consider it robbery to be called equal with God.
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And it's like, who humbled himself even to the point of death and became a
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servant. I mean, is that— that's the whole deal. It's like, humble yourself,
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become a servant, and change the world. It's a, it's a remarkable formula. We
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should put that on a t-shirt. New t-shirt slogan. Um, just look at the comments.
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Um, I think as Jesus, you know, used lots of parables a lot of the time to be
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able to communicate things, but just as what you were saying then, Matt, you
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know, he was asked who will be the greatest in the Kingdom of Heaven, and he
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answered that quite plainly. He says, be the humble. And, you know, the— for me,
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you, you know, what, what greater act of humility than than Jesus washing the
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disciples' feet. But you've got to remember, like, all of the things that Jesus
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made him— made himself not subject to, but placed himself under. So you've got
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all the tax system, you've got the fact that he's in a human body, you've got
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the fact that he grew up with all the temptations, you've got the fact that
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there was rules, bad rules, bad occupation that he had to— and he had all the
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power.
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Yeah.
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Yeah, to solve it in a second. Yeah, distorted culture. He was faced with, you
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know, all these disciples that were just absolutely useless, and, you know, and
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then he submitted to even death itself.
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Yeah.
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And you just think, yeah, that, that's humility. And, and the way we get
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humility is by, is, is, is by knowing who we are. Where we've come from.
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Yeah.
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Um, and where we're going, and when, when we know that we can, we can serve.
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And the next day, you know, he's going to be crucified. You know, that's the— I
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think, I can't do much today because it's work tomorrow, you know.
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Yeah, yeah, yeah. I'm getting crucified.
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Yeah, but I'm still going to wash your feet. Yeah, yeah. I need to get this
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done. Yeah, yeah.
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It's a really interesting point then. I've not thought about it. Um, so, uh,
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Alicia has put in the comments, one of my recent projects is figuring out how to
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make one of my sister's brownies. It's a small thing, but our kitchen makes me
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claustrophobic, so it feels big to me, and it means a lot to her because she
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knows how uncomfortable I get in tight spaces. Sometimes it really is the little
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things. Um, don't ask me why I made my— okay, yeah, yeah. Um, well, one Anybody
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out there that wants to make, uh, the brownies for Crowd Church, for the hosts
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and the speakers of Sunday livestream? Oh yes, all is greatly received. But, uh,
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I love that. It's, it's the little things. And actually, again, Alicia's
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highlighted this point that it sometimes costs you. You've got to put yourself
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in uncomfortable positions, right? It can feel weird in the sense of it's
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unusual, it's a little bit different to go out and serve. Um, so it can— it
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would, it would feel weird if I started washing feet, for example. I mean, but
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it's like it— so it can cost you, it can, it can feel like that. So I think
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that's awesome. Keep making the brownies, and I'm sure your sister will love it.
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Um, uh, helping those who are heavily judged by society seems like a timeless
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example of washing people's feet. Yes, I would totally agree. Yeah. Um, Ellis's
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question makes me think of groups who are still heavily stigmatized, like those
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with visibly displayed addictions and visible psychiatric— psychiatric—
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yeah.
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Um, symptoms. I think that's a big one, isn't it? Mental health. There's a big
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opportunity to serve, uh, yeah, in a whole arena there. Uh, what's happening in
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August? Oh, good. Jeez, we should probably talk about, um, August. I'll come
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back to that. Um, thinking of 1 Corinthians— this is Alicia again— uh, 12:22: on
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the contrary, those parts of the body that seem to be weaker are indispensable,
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and the parts that we think are less honorable, we treat them with special
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honor. That's, that's a really cool thing in church. Um, that we should be doing
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a lot more. Um, yeah, very good. Hopefully I've got through all of the comments.
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Matt Crew says drop some brownies off for all website proofreaders as well.
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Yeah, I think you've got something going on with the brownies, Alicia. I just—
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yeah, that's it, everyone's just now thinking of brownies, um, which is just a
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beautiful thing. So, um, thanks, Mike.
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That's all right.
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Thanks, Dan. Um, before we go, let's talk about what is— let me just remind you
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what's going to happen in August. Uh, so we do have the non-live livestream, so
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we will still be putting stuff out every week. Um, I'm just looking slightly
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wide-eyed because— just put Mike's camera on the screen. His background's
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changed.
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He's on holiday already.
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Like, that's what's happening.
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Mike's already there.
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He's joining us live from the beach, which I absolutely love. Is that, is that
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just totally gone now? So is that what's happened? Okay, you're gonna fix that.
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Um, so yes, I love that. That's brilliant. Uh, so yeah, we're gonna do the
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non-live live streams in August, so do keep joining in. Just still write your
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comments. People will be joining in and watching. Uh, the small groups,
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depending on which small group you're in, may or may not be happening, but the
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small group leaders will be, uh, informing you about that. Like I said, every
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bit of information you need is on the website. Coming up in September, we are
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making some big changes. Well, I'd say big— let me not overemphasize. We're
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going to make some changes to Crowd Church. Uh, we're going to introduce church
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membership, uh, which we're going to talk about. We're going to be doing small
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groups slightly differently, um, bigger and better ergo more awesome. Um, so
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really excited about some of the changes coming to small groups. Um, so if
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you're not a member of a church, if you're not, uh, and you would like Crowd to
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be your church, we'd love to talk to you about membership. Um, the small groups—
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if you're not in small groups, come join us on Wednesday night. We'd love to see
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you in the various small groups. If you'd like to talk to me or Dan or Mike or
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anyone of the Crowd Church leadership just about Crowd, what's going on, all
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that sort of stuff. Um, before obviously becoming like a member, uh, we'd love
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to talk to you. Um, but yeah, what else is happening in Crowd in September? Um,
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more in-person meetups. Yes, that's another big thing that's happening. We're
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going to be doing a lot more in-person meetups around the UK, and we're going to
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be doing them in the north and in the south. Wildfires next year, which
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literally I've just come off the back of, we're going to be doing a big crowd
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gathering there at Wildfires. If you'd like to come join us, we'd love to see
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you there. Um, more details will be coming up on the website soon, but you'll
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probably have to book that quite quickly because Wildfires does sell out quite,
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quite quickly. Uh, Alicia says there's so many exciting developments.
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Yes.
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Uh, Ellis, what's membership? Uh, stay connected, Ellis. We will talk to you a
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bit more about that. Um, it's basically where you make brownies every week.
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Yeah.
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Don't worry, membership does sound a bit sometimes like subscription and stuff
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like that. That's not it. Yeah, wait until September.
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Yeah, yeah, it's a good thing, we promise. It's, uh, it's a good thing. It's
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right, you don't have to give your inside leg measurement, all that sort of
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stuff to join. Um, all it is is just saying, listen, um, I want to be part of— I
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want to be part of Crowd Church. We know from a pastoral standpoint where— who
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we're responsible for, um, which is really great, and who we're shepherding. Um,
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and so it's just— that's all it is. It's, it's not a big deal. But I would say
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it's not a big deal. Actually, I'm really excited by it. Um, I think it's going
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to be great. So that's— but like I say, a lot more information coming soon on
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the website. We will talk more about it in September, which is when we're going
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to launch all of these things. But for now, we are going to go to live lounge. I
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nearly called it livestream. It's not livestream, live lounge. Um, uh, Zoe's put
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it in the, the, the comments, the go.crowd.church/meet, if you'd like to come
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and meet us in there. Um, but yeah, any final comments from you, Mike?
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Um, I suppose just look out for ways to serve, uh, this week. And, um, just
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remember that it's Jesus, it's he who is asking you to serve. And, you know,
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maybe one way is just to praise people. Um, look for ways to, to praise people
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this week. Yeah.
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Dan, I think what, um, Mike said in his talk, just who you are in Christ, just
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perhaps just Google that. Who am I? If I— if you've given your life to God,
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yeah, search who are you in Christ and see what he's, what he's done for you.
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And if you haven't given your life to Jesus, get to know him. Yeah, you know,
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send an email if you've got any questions. Get to know this Jesus. Best decision
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you'll ever make.
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Very good, very true. Um, and, uh, you can also go to the Crowd Church website.
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There's a whole bunch of stuff about identity on there. Just click the identity
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link, um, and it'll be in there, um, all the scriptures, everything. A lot of
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talks about identity. So yes, um, well, have a phenomenal summer, um, uh,
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whatever you're doing in August. I hope you have a great time. Um, really,
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really excited for the summer plans. What have you got going on over summer? Are
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you doing anything exciting? You're going away?
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I'm going away, yes, at the end of— yeah, I was just saying, one of my customers
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has said we can stay in his, his place in Spain in the heat.
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Oh, okay.
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Which is pretty awesome. Yeah, he's not there, he's, he's getting out there and
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we're a family going. So very much looking forward to that. Yes, nice.
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Love that. What are you doing, Mike?
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Um, gardening, uh, for most of it.
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But I am— busiest time of the year for you and your gardening.
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So it is pretty busy. It is pretty busy. Um, looking to try and sell some plants
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and then we're off to Devon for the week.
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Nice, nice. Brilliant. Well, whatever your summer plans are, we wish you a very,
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very happy summer. Like I say, do stay connected with us over August. It just
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won't have the live conversation stuff. That will start again back in September.
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Hopefully we'll see you in Live Lounge, but that's it from me. That's it from
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Dan. That's it from Mike. God bless you. You are an absolute legend.
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See you soon. Bye for now.