Sermon
The Irreducible Minimum of Faith
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Ye gads. I'm usually sitting over here. I didn't realize there's so many of you out there.
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Well, if you don't know, I'm Nathan's dad. And we'll get that out of the way real quick.
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And the best of Nathan is who his mom is, and the worst of who Nathan is, is me.
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And I got up 6.30 this morning, but I didn't look at any emails until about 8.15.
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And lo and behold, Nathan's sick.
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Well, that's not new news for our family. We kind of grew up that way.
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And I remember when I was young, like most of you, you know, I could whip anything.
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I could do anything. I could climb any tree.
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One of my favorites of old is Mr. Muir. Remember Mr. Muir?
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A Sierra Club come out of him.
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And one of his famous antics, he wanted to experience a storm.
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So in the Sierra Nevadas and California, he climbed to the top of the tallest tree he could find.
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And lightning's flashing and thundering.
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And the wind is blowing.
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And he's on the top of this tree.
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And the tree is swaying just to experience a storm.
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Well, that's me growing up.
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And that's who I was.
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Strong, you know, ready to take on anything and anyone.
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Strong, you know, I'm going to take on anything and anyone.
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I'm going to be poached out of Okefenokee Swamp and had a brand new pickup truck.
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Man, I was living.
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I was living.
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But then it began to just kind of crumble around me.
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And for the first time in my life, I really began to notice that I was more fragile than I would have admitted.
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And in fact, as time wore on, not too many years out of college,
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I began to realize that the outside of me and the inside of me were not the same thing.
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I was going through the motions of having a good time and having it together,
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but miserable on the inside.
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And I hated, I couldn't stand to use the word.
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I certainly wasn't going to do it publicly, but I realized I was fragile.
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And as time wore on, I began to see how fragile I was
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and how many things in my life and around me was not in my control like they had been just a few years previously.
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Now, I grew up down on the Mexican border.
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That's a hard thing to grasp hold of, you know, to be a man's man and to be fragile.
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But I wanted desperately for the inside of me and the outside of me to be the same person.
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I didn't want to go through the motions of having a good time,
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pretending, being a pretender all my life.
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I wanted things to be together.
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I wanted to be a whole person.
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And I come to the realization that if it was ever going to happen in my life,
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my job wasn't going to get it done.
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My upbringing wasn't going to get it done.
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And my relationships, because that stunk, it wasn't going to get done.
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And so I was reaching for anything.
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And finally, I come to realize and believe that Jesus Christ was the only way
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to get the inside of me and the outside of me and to begin to handle my frailty.
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But I thought, you know, my strength would be restored.
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No, I just got more and more frail.
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And then one day, Julie and I had been married a little over a year,
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and we had this little thing called Jamie Lee come into our life.
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He gads.
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What an awesome thing.
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Soft, fragile.
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And it was in her frailty that I found more frailty on my own part.
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I discovered more things about myself that I really didn't want to admit to,
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but she had me.
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Now, I've got to tell you,
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even though soft and pliable and innocent as she was,
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she could really stink.
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Holy moly, I didn't know that anything that gentle could stink so bad.
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And yet I'm reminded every day that I'm just a stinky old guy.
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So are you.
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God has unique ways of bringing us back to reality
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and helping us to see again and again and again how frail we are.
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Well, some years ago, a young friend of mine used the term irreducible minimums.
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I've come to realize through all of my studying
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that God has created the universe in circles.
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And as you think you're going out through your life,
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you are only going to understand that it's going to bring you back
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sometime or another to the beginning.
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And that beginning has to do with those irreducible minimums.
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And as fragile as I am,
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I realize I've got to have a good, strong foundation
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under my life in order to live the kind of life
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that would honor God.
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For I didn't get saved in a church.
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I didn't get saved because of a church.
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I was saved in my home out of a home Bible study,
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reading the Word of God and believing what it said.
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So as far as I was concerned, Jesus is it.
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He is the chief cornerstone, our Word tells us,
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and shows us that the church is built on a strong foundation.
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And what constitutes the items of that foundation
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are these irreducible minimums.
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1 Corinthians 13, verse 13 says,
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Now faith, hope, and love.
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These three.
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But the greatest of these is love.
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There's an irreducible minimum in it.
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Faith and hope are irreducible minimums.
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Well, I want to focus today on faith,
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if you don't mind.
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Y'all want to vote for it?
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Because if we choose something else,
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somebody else is going to have to preach it.
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Faith is how we get into this life,
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and faith is how we're to go on with this life.
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Faith is how we get into this life.
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Some folks just get in by faith and say,
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Well, that part's done.
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What's next?
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And so we, like I was pursuing what's next,
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we go from preacher to preacher,
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church to church, you know,
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version of the Bible to version of the Bible.
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We jump all over the place.
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Jesus said to the Pharisees,
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he actually was kind of honoring them.
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He said,
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You diligently search the scriptures,
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but you fail to come to me.
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See, when it all boils down,
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one of those irreducible minimums
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is,
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you with me?
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When it all boils down,
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one of those irreducible minimums,
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is faith.
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Faith is how we get in.
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But do you know what faith is?
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If we all had a moment,
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and we'd go look to find out
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a definition of faith,
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some of us,
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like Sid,
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in his day and age,
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he'd go to a dictionary.
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His dictionary would be
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some hard copy out there,
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a Webster's,
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a New Collegiate,
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somewhere out there,
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he'd go find a dictionary.
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In most of your cases,
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you'd just whip out your iPhone,
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and I was asking Nathan the other day,
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I said,
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Where is there a good dictionary
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that I can get in my iPhone?
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And he said,
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He said,
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Give me your iPhone.
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And he spoke into my iPhone
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a memory thing for me to,
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into my,
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instead of texting it to me,
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he just spoke it in there.
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Dictionary.com.
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I haven't done a thing with it since.
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In fact,
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I'm not sure what I'm supposed
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to do with it next.
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I could point,
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tap something.
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I don't know.
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Today,
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Nathan's,
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again,
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reminds me of how fragile
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life can be.
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I remember when Julie called me
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and told me
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at the office,
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we'd had a vacation,
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we'd gone to Disneyland
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for the first time.
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You know,
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that's not in Florida.
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Disneyland is in California.
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That's,
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this is pre-Disney World
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for some of you.
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There was a time
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before Disney World.
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And we went over there
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and had a great time.
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But he was feeling
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kind of sick.
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We thought he had a,
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maybe a urinary
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and tract infection.
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And no,
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he had diabetes.
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And Julie calls and says,
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You gotta get to the,
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we gotta take him
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to the hospital
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right now.
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I said,
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Whoa,
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whoa,
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whoa,
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whoa,
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whoa,
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whoa,
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whoa,
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whoa.
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Let's don't be in such a hurry.
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I had no clue
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what diabetes meant.
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Nor why we needed
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to get to the hospital
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right now.
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So I went home,
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picked them up,
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took them over to the doctor
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and then had made him
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explain it to me personally.
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And then we went immediately
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to the hospital.
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Gosh,
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I tell you,
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his arm wasn't,
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didn't seem like to me
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any bigger than that finger.
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Sticking needles in there,
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which is what he had to have,
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was hard for me.
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I kept envisioning
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hitting the bone.
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And after a few days
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in the hospital,
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we got,
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you know,
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brought him home.
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And I remember
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that first Saturday,
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you know,
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thinking,
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well,
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let's sleep in.
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Now with diabetes,
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we had to get up,
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we had to eat on time
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and have the shot on time
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and have the finger pokies
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on time.
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And on and on
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and on it went.
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And later on,
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Jamie becomes a diabetic.
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And this is not my family,
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is it?
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Yeah,
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it was.
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I want to say to you,
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young'uns,
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because calamity,
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stress,
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struggle,
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storms come to your life,
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doesn't mean
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that you're doing
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something wrong.
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In fact,
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it may mean
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that you're doing
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something very,
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very right.
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For the Father
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brings these things,
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allows these things
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to come into our lives
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in order to teach us,
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to bring us
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into the fullness
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of who He is.
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Nathan had to get
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through all that
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in order to be able
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to stand up here
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and speak to you.
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There was a time
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in Nathan's life
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when he was very bitter
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towards God.
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Went through a lot
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of high school,
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college,
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bitter,
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because God
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had done this thing
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to him.
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And it was getting
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to know Clay
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that made the difference
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in his life.
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God used Clay
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to help him
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overcome the bitterness
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that he was
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seething with.
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That's what bitterness
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does.
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It causes you to,
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I can't spell
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seethe.
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If there's any one
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rule I'd have
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for us as a congregation
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is don't ever use
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a word you can't spell.
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And everybody's up
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to being challenged.
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I've even been challenged
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as I've been preaching.
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Spell it preacher!
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And I couldn't.
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My vocabulary
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went like this
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and then
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now that I'm a bus driver
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of elementary kids
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it's gone way,
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way,
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way down.
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What is faith?
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And the only place
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for you and I
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to go is to
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the word of God.
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Hebrews 11.1
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is
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the definition
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for faith
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for you and I.
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That is
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the definition.
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Somebody
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read it out loud
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or if you've
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got it memorized
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spout it out for us.
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Hebrews 11.1
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page 1259.
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Somebody,
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anybody.
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Now faith
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is
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the reality
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of what's
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hoped for.
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When is
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is.
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Y'all ever
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think about
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when is
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is?
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I'm an English
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teacher's nightmare
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so.
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But I know
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this much
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is
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every time you
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see it in the
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English in the
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New Testament
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is is like
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this.
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It's not
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like
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once in a
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while.
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Faith
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now
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right now
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where we're
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at
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where you're
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sitting
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where I'm
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standing
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faith
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right now
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this moment
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is
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and it
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never
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will
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change.
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Praise
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God.
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Get excited
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about that.
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Our
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God doesn't
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change.
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Our
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God made
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up his
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mind in the
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beginning
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and nothing
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has
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changed.
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That's
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worth
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praising him
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for.
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That's not
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that's
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not
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oh
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me.
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That's
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an
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amen.
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Now
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I'll be
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the first
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to admit
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to you
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I've
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been one
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of those
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that if
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I was
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if we
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were asked
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you know
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how many
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of you
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would like
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to change
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have God
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change his
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mind about
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some stuff
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I'd be
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I'd be
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there.
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How many
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of you
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would be
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there?
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A room
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full of
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liars.
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If you
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haven't been
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there yet
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you will
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be.
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I promise
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you.
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Now
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fate is
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the
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assurance
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the reality
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of the
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things you
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hope for.
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It takes
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those things
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that we
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have hopes
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about in
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our future
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and brings
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them into
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reality
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where we're
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at today.
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I see
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things in
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my future
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by my
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faith.
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I had
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a dream
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of being
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the same
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on the
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inside as
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I am on
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the outside
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and faith
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brought it
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into reality
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but before
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I saw it
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in reality
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I saw it
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in reality
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in my
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head
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and my
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heart.
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Faith is
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an incredible
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thing.
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It's what
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brings you
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into this
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life
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but it's
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what you
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need to
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go on
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in this
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life.
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What else
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is it?
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It is the
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conviction.
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What's your
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Bible say?
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proof of
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the things
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look at
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it.
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If you're
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looking at
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me you're
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not looking
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at your
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Bible look
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at it.
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Not
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seen.
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Circle
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that word
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not.
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That's a
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huge word.
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Sooner or
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later you're
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going to
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realize as
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you're growing
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in the
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Lord Jesus
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that the
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little words
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mean sometimes
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more than
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the big
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words do.
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Like when
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is is.
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I mean
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that's
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that's a
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big word.
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Not
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means a
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whole lot
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and you can
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skip over
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that thing
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and not
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get it.
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You cannot
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be a good
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Missourian.
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You know
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what it says
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on the
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Missouri
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license plate?
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Show me
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state.
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A lot
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of us
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say we're
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acting and
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we're living
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out of faith
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but we don't
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really believe
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anything until
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we see it.
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Until it's
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tangible.
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I guess that
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thing isn't
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on is it?
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Could have
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moved it.
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Until it's
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tangible.
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Until you
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can touch it.
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See I say
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well yes I
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have faith but
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here's my
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faith.
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No no.
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The thing's
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not seen.
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I had
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faith that
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God was
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going to
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give me
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give me
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a godly
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family.
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A godly
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wife.
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And godly
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children.
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Did that
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say okay
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well now
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that's done
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I don't
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have to do
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anything about
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that?
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No
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absolutely
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not.
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Every day
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of Jamie's
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life.
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Every day
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of Nathan's
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life.
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Even before
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they were
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born.
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Every day
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of Jan
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Lynn's
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life.
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Even before
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she was
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born I
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prayed for
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them.
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Every single
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day that
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they would
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grow up to
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be men and
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women of
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God and
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marry men
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and women
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of God.
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But I
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saw it in
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the beginning
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what it
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could be
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like.
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And God
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has brought
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it to
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pass.
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I don't
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feel the
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need like
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a lot of
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preachers do
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preaching
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every Sunday.
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I enjoy
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sitting over
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there and
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listening to
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my son
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open the
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word of
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God.
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Joy fills
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my heart
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when I
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hear things
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tumbling out
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of him
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that I
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was in
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my 40s
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and 50s
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before I
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ever got
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it and
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could preach
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it.
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it is
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true
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that your
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children can
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truly stand
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on your
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shoulders
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and get
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to places
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in the
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relationship
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with the
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Lord Jesus
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Christ and
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with the
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body of
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Christ
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that you
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couldn't
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have got
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to until
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you got
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much,
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much older.
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Praise
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God.
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Faith
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does
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remarkable
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things.
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It leads
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us into
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remarkable
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prayer times
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with the
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Father.
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Faith does
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things for
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us that
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we would
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have never
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believed.
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There was
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a time
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in this
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auditorium
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when it
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looked like
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there would
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never be
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a time
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at all
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where every
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chair would
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be filled
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to overflowing.
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thing.
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I remember
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when we
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were a
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little
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circle
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right here
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and in
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those days
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I did
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all the
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talking
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but
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believing
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that one
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day it
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would be
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like this
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and beyond
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and that
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it would
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be about
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family.
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So much
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so that
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in the
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beginning
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we didn't
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even add
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the name
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church.
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Because in
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my opinion
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I've been
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a church
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planner and
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an apostolic
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ministry for
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a long
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time and
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in my
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mind the
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word church
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has almost
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become a
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dirty word
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in our
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culture.
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Almost
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completely
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meaningless.
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people without
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faith think
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terrible things
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when they
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hear the
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word church.
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What is
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church?
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It should
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be family.
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And who
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does it
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belong to?
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Jerry?
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Nathan?
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Elders?
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It belongs
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to Christ
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Jesus.
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It's
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His
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church.
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church.
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This isn't
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mine.
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I don't
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believe in
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ministries.
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There's only
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one ministry
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and it
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belongs to
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the Father.
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And we
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get to be
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part of
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it.
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Praise
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God.
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Can you
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get excited
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about that?
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He's got
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an invitation
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for you to
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come join
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Him in
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your future.
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We don't
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know where
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that's going
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to be.
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When I
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gave my
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heart to
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Jesus I
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said anything
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you want
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God.
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And I
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told friends
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over and
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over again
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if I
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thought that
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meant being
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a Baptist
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preacher
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maybe we
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would have
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negotiated this
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a little bit.
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Because that
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was the
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farthest
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thing from
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my mind.
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I thought
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I was going
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to become
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a rancher.
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Surely
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God wants
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me to be
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happy and
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He would
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agree with
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me about
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that.
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Wouldn't
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He?
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He showed
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me the
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opportunity and
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then He
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went nope
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I'm going
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to send
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you to
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seminary
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instead.
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And He
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expected me
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to be happy
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about that.
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When I
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got out of
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college I
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determined I
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was never
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going back to
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school again
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for any
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reason.
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I dare you
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to tell that
-
to God.
-
He'll prove
-
you wrong
-
every time.
-
how do
-
you get
-
faith?
-
Well I've
-
heard people
-
pray for
-
faith.
-
I've heard
-
that people
-
do that.
-
I remember
-
one time
-
years ago
-
there was
-
this TV
-
evangelist
-
and he
-
said if
-
you'd send
-
me 1995
-
he said I've
-
got this
-
handkerchief
-
that I've
-
touched
-
and you
-
just touched
-
that handkerchief
-
I'll send
-
it to you.
-
Your faith
-
will increase.
-
He made a
-
great case
-
for it but
-
it was more
-
about the
-
1995 than
-
it was about
-
faith.
-
Romans 10
-
17
-
says faith
-
comes by
-
hearing and
-
hearing by
-
the word
-
of God.
-
You're not
-
going to
-
increase your
-
faith by
-
praying for
-
it.
-
asking God
-
for it.
-
God's given
-
you one way
-
and one way
-
only for
-
your faith
-
to be bigger
-
tomorrow than
-
it is today
-
and that's
-
by getting
-
your nose
-
into the
-
word of
-
God and
-
taking your
-
eyes and
-
setting them
-
on him
-
the word
-
of God
-
and letting
-
him connect
-
those two
-
together in
-
the relationship
-
that you have
-
with him
-
and then
-
allow his
-
leadership
-
to prevail
-
for he's
-
not the
-
Lord who
-
said on
-
the mount
-
y'all do
-
your best
-
I'll see
-
you later
-
our God is
-
still at work
-
on this
-
planet
-
and he's
-
not left
-
us on
-
our own
-
but instead
-
what he's
-
doing is
-
inviting us
-
into his
-
activities
-
and that's
-
what excites
-
me when I
-
hear about
-
some of you
-
going to
-
literally the
-
ends of the
-
earth
-
but it's
-
even most
-
important if
-
I hear about
-
what God's
-
doing and
-
ministering
-
through you
-
right here
-
in the
-
Lamiga
-
they're both
-
exciting to
-
me
-
you're my
-
joy
-
when I see
-
your bright
-
and smiling
-
faces when I
-
see the
-
fellowship that
-
you're having
-
with one
-
another before
-
we start and
-
after we
-
finish
-
God takes
-
delight
-
in your
-
relationships
-
with one
-
another
-
faith comes
-
by hearing
-
and hearing
-
by the
-
word of
-
God
-
you get
-
faith
-
but here's
-
the problem
-
Christianity
-
today
-
has fallen
-
back on a
-
position that
-
says the
-
faith I have
-
today is
-
enough for
-
tomorrow
-
and the
-
day after
-
that and
-
the day
-
after that
-
and the
-
day after
-
that
-
well that
-
might be
-
true if
-
if your
-
life is
-
just going
-
to be
-
absolutely
-
the same
-
day in
-
and day
-
out and
-
it's never
-
going to
-
change
-
that could
-
be the
-
truth
-
but I
-
guarantee
-
you right
-
here now
-
the old
-
guy is
-
telling you
-
it's going
-
to change
-
we live
-
in a world
-
of change
-
but even
-
if we
-
didn't live
-
in a world
-
of change
-
things would
-
change
-
new things
-
would come
-
storms will
-
happen
-
earthquakes
-
will happen
-
floods
-
will happen
-
droughts
-
will happen
-
all kinds
-
of things
-
good and
-
bad will
-
come and
-
cross the
-
path of
-
your life
-
and you
-
cannot
-
lean back
-
on yesterday's
-
fate
-
to stand
-
up
-
and walk
-
through
-
tomorrow's
-
challenges
-
you can't
-
do it
-
the only
-
way
-
which is
-
the position
-
of much
-
of Christianity
-
today the
-
only way
-
that people
-
attempt to
-
escape it
-
is by
-
doing
-
nothing
-
there's
-
nothing that
-
breaks the
-
heart of
-
God more
-
in my
-
opinion
-
than a
-
believer
-
who will
-
not
-
stand up
-
and walk
-
by faith
-
but merely
-
spends their
-
life sitting
-
in a pew
-
listening to
-
sermons
-
and going
-
out and
-
saying well
-
I got that
-
part of my
-
life done
-
for the week
-
now what's
-
next
-
there can't
-
be a more
-
miserable
-
person we
-
think the
-
person without
-
Jesus in
-
their life is
-
the most
-
miserable person
-
on the face
-
of the planet
-
but I don't
-
think it is
-
I think it's
-
the person
-
that has
-
Jesus in
-
their life
-
has Christ
-
as their
-
savior
-
has a
-
Lord to
-
give them
-
leadership
-
and everything
-
and just
-
ignores it
-
now that's
-
got to be
-
misery
-
in my
-
humble
-
opinion
-
for you've
-
by now
-
decided I'm
-
not God
-
and so I
-
have no
-
God almighty
-
statements to
-
make to you
-
except to
-
offer to
-
you
-
40 some
-
odd years
-
of walking
-
with the
-
Lord Jesus
-
so we
-
get faith
-
but how
-
do you put
-
your faith
-
into motion
-
here's a
-
good example
-
I like
-
this one
-
Mark
Mark 5 chapter mention
-
chapter 5
-
see I
-
got you
-
back to
-
Mark
-
so if
-
Nathan
-
asks and
-
I'm not
-
here for
-
any reason
-
you can
-
say yeah
-
we were
-
in Mark
-
Jesus is
-
healing
-
Jesus is
-
talking in
-
parables
-
he's
-
gone across
-
the sea of
-
Galilee
-
once again
-
to get
-
away from
-
this huge
-
crowd
-
following him
-
yet to
-
just discover
-
another huge
-
crowd on
-
the other
-
side of
-
the bank
-
and a
-
leader of
-
the synagogue
-
comes up to
-
him
-
Jairus
-
and says
-
my daughter
-
is sick
-
will you
-
come
-
and in
-
Mark
-
5
-
there
-
he starts
-
going
-
and there's
-
all these
-
people around
-
him
-
all these
-
people following
-
along with
-
him
-
look what it
-
says there
-
in verse
-
25
-
Mark
-
5
-
25
-
page
-
1032
-
and he
-
went off
-
with him
-
a great
-
multitude
-
following
-
him
-
pressing
-
in on
-
him
-
and a
-
woman
-
who had
-
had a
-
hemorrhage
-
for 12
-
years
-
and endured
-
much at the
-
hands of many
-
physicians
-
and had spent
-
all that she
-
had and was
-
not helped at
-
all but rather
-
had grown worse
-
after hearing
-
about Jesus
-
came up in the
-
crowd behind
-
him and
-
touched his
-
cloak for
-
she thought
-
if I just
-
touch his
-
garments
-
I shall get
-
well
-
and immediately
-
the flow of
-
her blood
-
was dried up
-
and she felt
-
in her body
-
that she
-
was healed
-
of her
-
affliction
-
and immediately
-
Jesus perceiving
-
in himself
-
that the power
-
proceeding from
-
him had gone
-
forth
-
turned around
-
in the crowd
-
and said
-
who touched
-
my garments
-
I can just
-
imagine
-
the disciples
-
at this
-
time
-
they're still
-
babies
-
I can
-
just imagine
-
them saying
-
what are you
-
talking about
-
are you
-
nuts
-
everybody's
-
touching you
-
everybody's
-
pushing in
-
on you
-
we're in a
-
crowd
-
don't you
-
see the
-
crowd
-
we're
-
we're
-
trying to
-
get to
-
Jairus'
-
house
-
but look
-
at everybody
-
they're in
-
our way
-
they're touching
-
you and
-
they're touching
-
you and
-
what do you
-
mean who
-
touched me
-
if you don't
-
remember another
-
thing I say
-
you remember
-
what I'm
-
saying right
-
now
-
Jesus
-
always
-
always
-
always
-
knows the
-
difference
-
between a
-
touch of
-
sincerity
-
and a
-
touch of
-
insincerity
-
the crowd
-
was wanting
-
wanting
-
wanting
-
wanting
-
wanting
-
wanting
-
gimme gimme
-
gimme gimme
-
gimme
-
gimme
-
I'm hungry
-
feed me
-
feed me
-
feed me
-
but this
-
woman
-
when she
-
touched him
-
it was
-
saying to
-
him
-
something
-
much
-
different
-
this
-
woman
-
had
-
fate
-
and by
-
this time
-
in her
-
life
-
that's
-
about
-
all
-
she
-
had
-
a lot
-
of the
-
women
-
who've
-
come
-
to us
-
and set
-
free
-
were just
-
like
-
this
-
woman
-
I
-
remember
-
Linda
-
coming
-
Linda
-
was so
-
weak
-
she could
-
no longer
-
push
-
the
-
cart
-
with her
-
stuff in
-
it
-
the
-
typical
-
bag lady
-
thing
-
that we
-
think
-
about
-
she was
-
curled up
-
in a ball
-
in a
-
dark alley
-
in Atlanta
-
and a
-
couple of
-
our guys
-
found her
-
in that
-
alley
-
and she
-
couldn't
-
walk
-
her
-
dress
-
was so
-
thin
-
that you
-
just hardly
-
touch it
-
and it
-
wanted to
-
fall off
-
of her
-
she had
-
been
-
abused
-
she
-
probably
-
weighed
-
no more
-
than
-
I don't
-
know
-
she weighed
-
85 pounds
-
time they
-
got her
-
to Gainesville
-
and called
-
me I'd
-
come to
-
get her
-
to take
-
her
-
to our
-
women's
-
house
-
and set
-
free
-
and all
-
she could
-
do
-
they carried
-
her out
-
she got
-
in the
-
front seat
-
of my
-
pickup truck
-
and curled
-
up in a
-
ball
-
and never
-
moved
-
she stunk
-
so bad
-
that I
-
had to run
-
for days
-
with the
-
windows down
-
in my
-
truck
-
just to
-
get the
-
smell of
-
her off
-
those seats
-
and when
-
she got to
-
the women's
-
house
-
they carefully
-
picked her
-
up
-
and these
-
women who
-
picked her
-
up were
-
women who
-
just a couple
-
months earlier
-
had been in
-
the same
-
position
-
and they
-
carried her
-
in
-
and they
-
told me her
-
clothes just
-
fell off of
-
her and they
-
hand bathed
-
her very
-
very carefully
-
fearing she
-
would die
-
on them
-
I guess
-
we would have
-
been smarter
-
if we had
-
taken her
-
to a
-
hospital
-
but I've
-
never been
-
known for
-
intelligence
-
unlike my
-
children
-
today Linda
-
probably weighs
-
200 pounds
-
got the
-
prettiest
-
smile of
-
any woman
-
I've ever
-
seen
-
who's come
-
through set
-
free or
-
otherwise
-
how her
-
teeth got so
-
pearly
-
they were
-
pearly
-
and she
-
married a
-
fine Christian
-
man
-
and she's
-
in a
-
vivacious
-
Bible
-
believing
-
Jesus
-
loving
-
church
-
in
-
Gainesville
-
where a
-
group of
-
women just
-
got around
-
her
-
and loved
-
her and
-
loved her
-
and loved
-
her
-
become the
-
woman that
-
God always
-
wanted her
-
to be
-
starts with
-
a dream
-
this lady
-
here had a
-
dream
-
she spent all
-
of her money
-
trying to see
-
that dream
-
come true
-
she was doing
-
everything
-
and had
-
given up on
-
physicians
-
and everything
-
else
-
nobody
-
nobody
-
was in
-
her life
-
any
-
longer
-
she's
-
standing
-
there on
-
the side
-
of the
-
road
-
in a
-
weakened
-
state
-
and yet
-
one more
-
ray of
-
hope
-
comes to
-
her
-
if I
-
just
-
touch
-
the
-
hem
-
of his
-
garment
-
that'll make
-
me well
-
she not only
-
dreamed it
-
but she
-
said it
-
she said
-
it
-
she confessed
-
with her
-
mouth
-
what she
-
was beginning
-
to believe
-
in her
-
heart
-
and odds
-
against odds
-
with this
-
crowd all
-
wanting Jesus
-
attention
-
she worked
-
her way
-
into that
-
crowd
-
I mean
-
she could
-
have been
-
the person
-
who got
-
knocked down
-
in that
-
crowd
-
and trampled
-
under their
-
feet
-
to only
-
die there
-
she was
-
risking her
-
very life
-
to do
-
what she
-
said she
-
would do
-
to do
-
and carry
-
out what
-
she was
-
dreaming
-
would happen
-
I just
-
touch the
-
hem of
-
his
-
garment
-
most
-
preachers
-
at this
-
point would
-
tell you
-
tons and
-
tons about
-
the hem
-
of his
-
garment
-
and it
-
makes
-
absolutely
-
no
-
difference
-
what his
-
hem
-
was
-
or where
-
it was
-
but she
-
got to
-
it
-
and
-
immediately
-
Jesus
-
knew
-
here
-
is
-
someone
-
something
-
different
-
and he
-
turns around
-
and he
-
says
-
who
-
touched
-
my
-
garment
-
here goes
-
the
-
disciples
-
again
-
what do
-
you mean
-
everybody's
-
touching
-
you
-
and he
-
could have
-
said
-
no
-
no
-
no
-
no
-
this is
-
a different
-
touch
-
this is
-
a real
-
touch
-
this is
-
a touch
-
birthed
-
out of
-
out of
-
hopelessness
-
with one
-
just ray
-
of hope
-
left in
-
their lives
-
this is
-
a touch
-
of
-
faith
-
and he
-
required
-
her
-
to tell
-
it
-
she
-
had
-
a
-
dream
-
she
-
confessed
-
it
-
she
-
said
-
it
-
she
-
did
-
it
-
and he
-
required
-
her
-
to
-
tell
-
it
-
see
-
I
-
don't
-
think
-
your
-
faith
-
and
-
mine
-
are
-
whole
-
until
-
we
-
tell
-
it
-
because
-
a lot
-
of
-
times
-
what
-
we
-
want
-
to
-
do
-
is
-
we
-
want
-
to
-
take
-
this
-
act
-
of
-
God
-
and
-
keep
-
it
-
quiet
-
because
-
what
-
it
-
will
-
do
-
remember
-
the
-
circle
-
it
-
will
-
reveal
-
how
-
frail
-
we
-
have
-
been
-
how
-
in
-
need
-
we
-
really
-
are
-
of
-
someone
-
bigger
-
than
-
we
-
are
-
a
-
godly
-
daddy
-
who
-
will
-
take
-
us
-
in
-
his
-
arms
-
and
-
pick
-
us
-
up
-
get
-
us
-
through
-
the
-
crowd
-
let
-
us
-
touch
-
that
-
garment
-
and
-
allow
-
us
-
to
-
be
-
whole
-
in
-
our
-
lives
-
that's
-
my
-
hope
-
and
-
prayer
-
for
-
you
-
is
-
that
-
you'll
-
see
-
faith
-
as
-
a
-
dynamic
-
activity
-
in
-
your
-
life
-
something
-
to
-
attain
-
to
-
daily
-
something
-
to
-
work
-
for
-
forever
-
I
-
pray
-
for
-
you
-
now
-
a