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Transformation
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If you've got a Bible, please turn with me to Genesis chapter 43.
Genesis 43 chapter mention
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That would be great.
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We're in the, I think it's the sixth installment in our Joseph series.
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It's been great to take somebody we've known about since youth.
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We've heard, we've seen on the stage.
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We learn at Sunday school and to dig in and find out a bit more and see some new lessons.
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There's Joseph and the gospel of many colors.
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And this evening, we're in Genesis 43 and 44.
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Just a small 62 verses for us to get through.
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Anna Levinson writes in a New York newspaper these words.
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By the time I was six and my brother was five, we were used to waiting.
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Waiting for our father to show up.
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On one particular afternoon, we sat in a pool of sunlight that poured through our living room bay window.
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We were baking in our jackets ready to go while we waited.
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Would he be late?
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Would he come at all?
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What state would he be in?
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What would he smell like?
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My parents had separated a year before.
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And when my father came to pick us up for occasional visits, his gait was often wobbly and his words were usually slurred.
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My mother worked full time in an insurance company.
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Our nanny, therefore, would be left to handle these messy transfers.
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Sometimes she wouldn't let us go when she saw his condition.
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Whilst waiting and worrying, on this occasion I made a decision.
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We're so stupid, I said.
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He's never going to come.
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Most days I would have been right.
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But late, slurring but apologetic, he appeared.
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We piled into the taxi and drove to Tenderloin, a rough neighborhood across town from where we lived.
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On arrival, he gave us a quick tour of the cluttered apartment.
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There was a withered pot plant and an overflowing ashtray on a long, dirty coffee table.
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A woman with long, stringy blonde hair entered the room and introduced herself as my father's girlfriend.
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Immediately, her bulging eyes and grubby fingers scared me.
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I was used to meeting weird people when visiting my father, but she was by far the most manic.
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After a brief introduction, she and my father abruptly headed to the bedroom, leaving me and my brother on the couch all alone.
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A few quiet moments passed before we heard yelling and objects smashing and then silence.
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Consumed with fear but driven by curiosity, I crept to the door and knocked softly.
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When no answer came, I peered through the crack under the door to see my father and girlfriend passed out on the bed with needles all over the floor.
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I ran to the door.
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I ran to the door.
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I ran to the phone to call my mother and begged her between sobs to come and pick us up.
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Although at that age of six, I couldn't then verbalize exactly what was happening, but I knew one thing.
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I never wanted to see my father again.
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After that moment, my father disappeared from my life for 18 years.
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Alana then writes about the ensuing years struggling with OCD, anxiety, depression, hypochondria and withdrawnness.
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The article then moves to when she is in her mid-twenties.
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Her father reappears, clean of drugs and eager to make up for lost time.
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Yet Alana couldn't engage with him.
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She was absolutely unable to trust him or respond to any of his attempts to build bridges.
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She writes, my shattered trust couldn't be glued back together.
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The article ends after a long and painful process with the barrier slowly coming down after her dad passed literally hundreds and hundreds of trust tests.
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Alana writes, it was too risky to let him straight back into my life.
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We started with monthly phone calls that he had to make when we had agreed.
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Then letters that he had to write and they must be delivered to me every Monday.
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After this, we'd meet for coffee miles from his house.
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Then we'd move to lunches.
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I would always tell him when and where and if he was late or missed, it was over.
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Trust is slowly built and quickly destroyed.
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I couldn't let him back into my life if he was going to ruin everything all over again.
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Testing him, she writes, was the only way I could ever move to trusting him.
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Horrible story, isn't it, about a six-year-old?
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Crushed and severely affected by her father's drug abuse.
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And to find out if he was clean, to find out whether he was worth investing in, she tests him in a number of ways.
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And Genesis 42, where we've come from, functions a bit like Alana's story.
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Joseph hasn't seen his brothers for 22 years.
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The last time they met, it didn't go very well.
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He turned up to see how their shepherding was going on and they stripped him and they beat him and they threw him in a well
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before selling him to the Ishmaelites who carried him to Egypt.
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That's his last memory of his brothers.
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Before they turn up in chapter 42.
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And as we saw with Paul Fred last week, Joseph sets about testing them.
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Testing them to see whether he's better off without them.
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Testing them to see whether they've changed.
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Testing them to see whether he could ever trust them again after being so treated by them.
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And in chapter 42, he sets four tests.
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The first one is this.
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Is Benjamin still alive?
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In verse 12.
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He asked them.
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And they say he is, but there's no evidence.
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So they fail the test.
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Then he asked for a volunteer to go and get them and no one volunteers.
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So they fail that test.
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And then he says for a volunteer to stay while the other nine go to get their brother.
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And no one volunteers to stay.
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So he has Simeon bound before their eyes.
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Will someone come back for Simeon?
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Well, no.
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Because he's still in Egypt.
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By the time we open chapter 43.
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Then he sets the money trap that they're on their way.
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And they open their sacks.
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And all the money they paid to Joseph was still there.
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Would they go back?
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Or would they carry on on their journey?
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Well, they carry on on their journey.
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There's no about turn.
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And we should go and sort this out.
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And then they tell him that we need to take Benjamin.
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Have they earned Jacob's trust?
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Well, no.
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Verse 36.
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He seems to blame them for absolutely everything.
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You have deprived me of my children.
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Joseph is no more.
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And Simeon is no more.
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And now you want to take Benjamin.
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Everything is against me.
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They don't trust him.
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And I guess implicit in the same episode is,
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does Benjamin trust them?
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Well, we don't exactly see him jumping up and down saying,
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I'll go.
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So they fail that test as well.
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In fact, you have to say,
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in chapter 42,
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Joseph brothers are an epic fail.
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And you kind of think Joseph is better off without them.
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They're still just a ragtag bag of swindlers and murderers
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and liars and deceivers
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who are all out for themselves.
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They don't seem to have changed at all.
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Yet what we're going to see in our two chapters
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is how God is going to providentially work.
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How God is going to set tests
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and how things are going to be transformed
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so that there'll be restoration, reconciliation
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and a glorious reunion in chapter 45.
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So why don't I pray?
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Father God, thank you that you always have your glory
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at the forefront of your agenda.
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Father, following closely after that
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is the blessing of your people
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and the ultimate transformation of them
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to look more and more like your son.
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So as we open this, your word, this evening,
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speak to us, we pray.
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Glorify our Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ.
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Transform us
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and orientate our lives once again around your gospel.
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Father, do this all
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by your grace
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through the power of your spirit.
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We pray this in Jesus' name.
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Amen.
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So here's the first test
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we're going to see
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in this little passage.
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God tests his people
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to free them from idolatry.
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God tests his people
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to free them from idolatry.
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As we enter chapter 43,
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the famine is still severe.
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It's gone on a long time
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and they've run out of food.
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They've gone to the cupboard
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and it's been like old Mother Hubbard.
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There was nothing there.
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Simeon is still in Egypt.
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He's been there since chapter 42, verse 24.
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And Egypt remains their only hope.
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The only place in all the world
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that has grain surplus enough
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that they can give out is Egypt.
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And so Jacob says,
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verse 2,
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go back and buy us a little more food.
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Go back and buy us a little more food.
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Seems like a really obvious suggestion.
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Egypt has food.
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You need to go and get it
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because we've run out.
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And yet there's a problem.
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There's a real problem
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that Judah points out
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in verses 3 to 5.
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That if Egypt is their only hope,
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then Benjamin is the key
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to unlocking that hope.
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Benjamin,
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Jacob's prize son,
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the one that he spent
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at the end of chapter 42
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saying,
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no one's getting hold of Benjamin.
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He's staying with me.
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And so Judah's reminder
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to his father of the fact
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that Benjamin is necessary
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to get food from Egypt,
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stabs Jacob in the heart.
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Jacob is very protective of Benjamin.
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I don't think it's a stretch to say
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that in Jacob's life,
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Benjamin has become an idol.
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Benjamin has become the center of his life.
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Chapter 42, verse 28.
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Which is the wrong verse.
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38.
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My son will not go down there with you.
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His brother is dead
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and he is the only one left.
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If harm comes to him
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on the journey you are taking,
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you will bring my gray head
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down to the grave in sorrow.
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Jacob loves Benjamin that much
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that he says,
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if he dies, I'll die.
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If he dies, I'll die.
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43, verse 6.
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Why did you bring this trouble on me
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by telling the man
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you had another brother?
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Just want to keep him for myself.
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Without him, I'll die.
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Judah's going to say in verse 44
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that my father's life
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is bound up with this boy.
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Jacob's affections
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are completely tied up with Benjamin
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and he will not let him go.
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Tim Keller writes,
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when anything in life
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is an absolute requirement
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for your happiness, life,
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and self-worth,
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it is essentially an idol.
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Something you are actually worshipping.
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When threatened,
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your anger is absolute.
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To diagnose what the idols
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in our lives are,
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we must ask,
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what am I defending?
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What is so important
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that I cannot live without?
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Seems to be where
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Jacob finds himself.
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Growing up,
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we had a dachshund called Jaffa
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and Jaffa was the most placid dog
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you will ever find.
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You'd let him out in the morning
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like you should do all dogs
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and if it was raining,
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Jaffa would go,
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well,
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don't really fancy it today.
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One time,
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every month,
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our dog would turn
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into a ferocious animal
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after a lamb Sunday lunch.
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He'd throw the bone,
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Jaffa would sit on the lawn
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like gnawing at it like crazy
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and literally,
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if you got in within five meters
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of this dog,
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it would go for you
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in the most savage way.
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Jaffa became
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the most stupid looking guard dog
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anyone could ever imagine.
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That seems to be
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how Jacob is functioning.
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If you come close to Benjamin,
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there's going to be problems.
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And so God is really testing Jacob
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to free him
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of his idolizing of his son.
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Something profound
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happens in this text.
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Jacob starts by saying,
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no way.
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It's not going to happen.
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And then in verse 8 to 10,
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after Judah reasons with him
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and says,
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it's not just our lives
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that are at stake.
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It is your life
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and the lives of your children.
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You've got to let Benjamin go.
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I'm even going to offer myself
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a surety for him.
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Jacob agrees
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with Judah's proposal.
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It is a remarkable transformation
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between chapter 42
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and chapter 43.
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But Jacob says,
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yes,
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you can take him.
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In fact,
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there is a remarkable transformation
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going on in chapter 42.
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Jacob is repeatedly referred to
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by his name,
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Jacob.
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When we get to chapter 43,
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the name that Jacob
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is referred by
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is Israel.
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Jacob's name means
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the twister,
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the self-reliant,
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the one who's always
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in it for himself.
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Chapter 42
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and chapter 43,
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the covenant name of God,
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the one who is struggling
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with what God's will is,
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struggling to trust him.
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And in chapter,
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in verse 14,
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he makes three profound
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professions of faith.
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the beginning of the verse,
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and may God almighty
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grant you mercy.
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How is
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Jacob dealing with his idols?
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Well,
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he's subscribing
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all power to God.
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Almighty God,
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the one who's in charge.
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Suddenly,
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when we see that God
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is almighty,
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our idols are minimized
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in size
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and they become futile
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and worthless.
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Where he's blaming God
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in chapter 42,
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why has God
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let this happen to me?
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Everything's against me.
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Here he's saying,
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almighty God,
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I place myself,
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I place everything
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into your hands.
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He places his children
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into God's hands
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so that your brother
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will let
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your other brother
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Simeon and Benjamin
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come back to you.
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And then he places himself
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in the hands
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of the sovereign God.
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As for me,
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if I am bereaved,
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I am bereaved.
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Suddenly,
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he's relinquished
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his idol.
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Suddenly,
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he's trusted himself
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to the sovereign God.
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And he said,
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my life is now bound up
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with God's will
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and what he wants.
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Sounds remarkably,
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doesn't it?
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That last phrase,
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if I am bereaved,
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I am bereaved.
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Like Esther,
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when she goes before King Xerxes,
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when she says,
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I will go and see the king
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even though it is
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against the law
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and if I perish,
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I perish.
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Trusting a sovereign God
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with life and everything.
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If you want to catch
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a monkey in the jungle,
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all you need to do
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is put a banana
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in a cage.
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And the monkey reaches in,
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grabs the banana,
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but can't get its hand out.
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It can't be free
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because it won't let go
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and the hand
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plus the banana
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won't fit through
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the bars in the cage.
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That seems to be
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where Jacob has been.
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He's holding on
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to this idol
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and he can't be free.
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But God so tests him
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that he lets go
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in order that he would be free
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to enjoy all that God
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has for him.
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Even more than he thought
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he had.
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It's not about preserving
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Benjamin,
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but God has something
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much greater
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in store.
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And so I guess
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we see that God
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tests us
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so that we let go
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of our idols
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so we'd be free
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to worship him.
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So we'd be free
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to submit
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to his ways
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to fulfill his purposes
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and enjoy him forever.
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And I guess tonight
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we're all conscious
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that we're riddled
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with idols.
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Spurgeon will write
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that the human heart
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is the idol factory.
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Riddled with
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idolizing children
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and work
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and power
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and money
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and reputation
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and stuff
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and image
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and countless
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other things.
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Jacob
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didn't think
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he could let
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Benjamin go
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but God
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tested him
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to release him
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from his idolatry.
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Centuries later
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Jesus will stand
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and say
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whoever wants to be
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my disciples
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must
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deny themselves,
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take up their cross
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and follow me.
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Oh that God
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would test us
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in such a way
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that we would
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stop worshipping
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futile
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created things
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that we might
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be free
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to worship
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him alone.
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God tests
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his people
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to free them
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from idols.
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We see that
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in the life
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of Jacob.
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So what idols
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are we cleaved
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to?
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What in our life
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is so essential
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that we think
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we cannot do
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without it?
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And if it's
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threatened
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our anger
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is disproportionate.
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Many great saints
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have testified
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to the truth
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it is only
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when Jesus
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is all that they have
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they realise
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that Jesus
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is all that they need
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and that God
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would loosen
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our grip
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so we could
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cling to his son
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alone.
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So they get
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to Egypt
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and here's
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what I think
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we learn from this
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God tests
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his people
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to free us
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from fear
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and reveal
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his grace.
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They finally
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arrive
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the eleven
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of their
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well the ten
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of them
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when Simeon
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is already there
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they make it
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down to Egypt
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and I think
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the whole thing
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revolves around
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verse 16
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when Joseph
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saw Benjamin
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with them
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he said
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to the steward
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of the house
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take these men
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to my house
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slaughter an animal
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and prepare a meal
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they are to eat
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with me at noon
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I think
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I'm sure
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that Joseph
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says to the steward
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of the house
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in Egyptian
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that he knows
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what's going on
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but the brothers
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don't have a clue
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and that's why
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they're so afraid
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that is why
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they're terrified
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because they're being
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ushered
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into Joseph's
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private quarters
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and don't know
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what is going
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to happen
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to them
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but it's stupid
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because Joseph
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is the second
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most powerful
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man in all
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of Egypt
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and therefore
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the world
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Joseph doesn't
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need to attack
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his brothers
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in secret
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he can do it
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out in the open
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because he is
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untouchable
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the brothers
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are frightened
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the steward
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comes in
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and verses
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19 to 22
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is them
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pleading
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frantically
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their innocence
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you can imagine
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the scene
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they're all
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talking over
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one another
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oh we just
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found the silver
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we tried to
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pay you
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somehow it
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got back
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into our
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sacks
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please don't
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kill us
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all making
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a real
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kerfuffle
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then verse 23
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the pagan servant
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testifies to
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God's grace
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he says
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we did get
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your silver
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your God
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the father
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your God
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the God
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of your father
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has given us
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has given you
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treasure in your
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sacks
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then he brought
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Simeon
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out
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they thought
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they were going
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to get knocked
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off
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and the servant
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says no your God
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is gracious
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he's rewarded
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you don't be
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afraid
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your God is
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sovereign and
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actually here's
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your brother
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unbound
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fear always
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makes us
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suspicious
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and cynical
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and doubting
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our fears
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always make us
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think that the
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absolute worst
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case scenario
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is going
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to happen
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and our fears
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get in the way
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of trusting
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a sovereign
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God
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that actually
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the way that
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we cope with
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fear is
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doctrine
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that when we
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see that God
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is gracious
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and he's
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good
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when we
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see that he's
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sovereign
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we realise
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we have
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no need
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to be
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afraid
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because our
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God is
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unstoppable
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and we can
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trust him
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in every
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area of
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our lives
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so when you
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have a freak
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out
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get your
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Bible out
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verse 26
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and 28
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Joseph is
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reminded of
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God's sovereignty
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here are the
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brothers
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bowing down
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again before
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him just like
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the dream
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of the wheat
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and the
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stars
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and then he
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sees
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Benjamin
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and suddenly
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his fears
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are subsided
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they were
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telling the
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truth
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Benjamin
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is alive
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and his
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full brother
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the only
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other son
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born of
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Rachel
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Jacob's
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favourite
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wife
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is born
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in
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and it's
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too much
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for Joseph
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deeply
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moved
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he has to
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go out of
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the room
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to have
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a good
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cry
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I wonder
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what in
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your life
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makes you
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afraid
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and I
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wonder
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is the way
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you can
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conquer
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that fear
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knowing
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more
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about
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God
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trusting
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the God
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that is
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revealed
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in this
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book
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don't we
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read in
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1 Corinthians
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15
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that even
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God is
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sovereign
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and gracious
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and that
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grace is
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bigger than
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death
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he writes
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death
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has been
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swallowed
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up in
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victory
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where
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oh death
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is your
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victory
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where
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oh death
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is your
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sting
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sting
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of death
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is sin
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and the
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power
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of sin
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is the
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law
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but thanks
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be to
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God
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he gives
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us
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victory
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through
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our
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Lord
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Jesus
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Christ
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surely
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if God's
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grace
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is bigger
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even
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than
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death
-
then fear
-
becomes
-
futile
-
if you
-
were here
-
on Thursday
-
you'd have
-
heard
-
Alexander
-
read
-
Psalm
-
23
-
and what
-
a beautiful
-
reminder
-
even though
-
I walk
-
through the
-
shadow
-
of death
-
you're
-
with me
-
it gets
-
even better
-
than that
-
you lay
-
a banquet
-
before all
-
my enemies
-
in the midst
-
of my enemies
-
well the brothers
-
go down to
-
Egypt
-
they think
-
they're going
-
to be treated
-
as enemies
-
God is
-
gracious
-
to them
-
and to top
-
it all off
-
Joseph lays
-
on a banquet
-
before them
-
I wonder
-
will we
-
trust a
-
sovereign
-
gracious
-
God
-
in every
-
area of
-
our life
-
so we
-
will not
-
be fearful
-
and we
-
remember
-
what he's
-
like
-
will we
-
trust him
-
in our
-
everyday
-
lives
-
will we
-
trust him
-
with
-
tomorrow
-
will we
-
trust him
-
in every
-
area
-
will we
-
trust him
-
as a
-
church
-
will we
-
trust him
-
in our
-
evangelism
-
is grace
-
going to be
-
sufficient
-
to quell
-
our fears
-
and so
-
God tests
-
these brothers
-
that they
-
might be
-
transformed
-
that fear
-
might be
-
replaced
-
by trust
-
and they
-
see that
-
God is
-
sovereign
-
over it
-
all and
-
is treating
-
them far
-
better
-
than they
-
deserve
-
okay
-
third point
-
here we
-
go
-
God
-
tests his
-
people to
-
free them
-
from
-
individualism
-
and bind
-
them
-
together
-
do you
-
see it's
-
a sting
-
operation
-
that it's
-
not just
-
the silver
-
that's
-
replaced
-
again
-
but there's
-
this cup
-
that has
-
special
-
significance
-
in
-
Joseph's
-
life
-
and Joseph
-
knows that
-
Benjamin is
-
still alive
-
but he
-
doesn't know
-
that his
-
brothers love
-
Benjamin
-
they're worried
-
that they
-
kind of treat
-
him like
-
they used
-
to treat
-
Joseph
-
and when
-
they're away
-
when Benjamin's
-
finally been
-
prized away
-
from their
-
father
-
will they
-
take this
-
opportunity
-
to kill
-
him again
-
he's already
-
partially tested
-
them in
-
chapter 43
-
verse 34
-
when Benjamin
-
gets five
-
times the
-
helping
-
will there
-
be jealousy
-
and rivalry
-
then
-
well it
-
doesn't seem
-
to be
-
everyone's
-
feasting
-
and drinking
-
together
-
and there
-
doesn't seem
-
to be a
-
hint
-
but then
-
dogs don't
-
turn on each
-
other when
-
there's enough
-
food to go
-
around
-
crisis will
-
reveal what's
-
really going
-
on
-
are they in
-
it together
-
are they a
-
family unit
-
united
-
or will
-
they go
-
it alone
-
well the
-
brothers wake
-
up in the
-
morning they've
-
had a cracking
-
night in the
-
prime minister's
-
house I'm
-
sure they've
-
got sore
-
heads and
-
they've still
-
got full
-
bellies
-
they've
-
partied like
-
Egyptians
-
they ride
-
along chatting
-
together
-
and then you
-
know like when
-
you see the
-
blue flashing
-
lights
-
in your
-
mirror
-
they see
-
the dust
-
of a
-
chariot
-
coming up
-
behind
-
not some
-
random
-
stop and
-
search this
-
is a sting
-
operation
-
the servant
-
repeats
-
Joseph's words
-
to them
-
why have you
-
repaid good
-
with evil
-
isn't this
-
the cup my
-
master drinks
-
from and
-
also uses
-
for divination
-
this is a
-
wicked thing
-
you've done
-
and again
-
they plead
-
their innocence
-
in verses
-
seven to
-
nine
-
if any
-
of your
-
servants
-
they say
-
is found
-
to have
-
it
-
he will
-
die
-
and the
-
rest of
-
it will
-
become my
-
lord's
-
slaves
-
that sounds
-
pretty
-
together
-
but verse
-
10 he
-
offers them
-
a get
-
out clause
-
very well
-
then he
-
said
-
let it
-
be as
-
you say
-
whoever is
-
found to
-
have it
-
will become
-
my slave
-
the rest of
-
you will be
-
free from
-
blame
-
they've got an
-
opportunity
-
they can go
-
it alone
-
they can cut
-
and run
-
and so
-
they're lined
-
up in
-
age order
-
go to
-
reuben
-
first
-
clean
-
keep going
-
keep going
-
and i bet
-
with every
-
clear sack
-
that doesn't
-
have the
-
cup
-
benjamin
-
gets more
-
and more
-
sure that
-
he's going
-
to be
-
fine
-
they get
-
to benjamin
-
sack
-
and he's
-
got the
-
cup
-
and everyone
-
tears their
-
clothes
-
the absolute
-
worst case
-
scenario
-
has happened
-
that perhaps
-
benjamin
-
won't get
-
back to
-
jacob
-
after all
-
but isn't
-
it incredible
-
that they
-
stick together
-
as a family
-
at this
-
they tore
-
their clothes
-
then they
-
all loaded
-
their donkeys
-
and returned
-
to the city
-
there seems
-
to have been
-
a radical
-
transformation
-
they left
-
simeon
-
in the city
-
no problem
-
benjamin's
-
caught their
-
roar
-
going back
-
you see how
-
god is
-
testing them
-
and through
-
these tests
-
he's freeing
-
them of it's
-
all about me
-
and they
-
become this
-
family unit
-
bound
-
together
-
this testing
-
strengthens the
-
ropes of
-
fellowship
-
between
-
the brothers
-
and don't
-
we know
-
that in our
-
own lives
-
that when
-
tough times
-
come doesn't
-
it bind us
-
together
-
some of my
-
proudest moments
-
of being
-
pastor of
-
Brunsfield
-
evangelical
-
church
-
has been
-
when all
-
our backs
-
are against
-
the wall
-
because we
-
see just how
-
tightly knitted
-
we are
-
together as a
-
family
-
that no testing
-
is very good
-
when you go
-
through it
-
and yet
-
doesn't it
-
strengthen those
-
ropes
-
doesn't it
-
bind us
-
together as a
-
family
-
all together
-
doesn't it
-
make us
-
into a true
-
spiritual family
-
and not just
-
people who
-
rub
-
shoulders
-
Christ
-
1 Corinthians
-
12
-
but God
-
so composed
-
the body
-
that there
-
may be no
-
division
-
but that all
-
the members
-
have the same
-
care for one
-
another
-
if one member
-
suffers
-
all suffer
-
together
-
if one member
-
is honoured
-
all rejoice
-
together
-
crisis comes
-
and it binds
-
people together
-
and yet don't
-
we know
-
sometimes when
-
crisis hits
-
we're secretly
-
quite pleased
-
when others
-
are brought low
-
I'm quite
-
disappointed
-
when someone
-
is lifted up
-
it cannot
-
be so
-
God
-
tests us
-
to knit us
-
together
-
God is for
-
us
-
he tests us
-
to free us
-
from individualism
-
and to bind us
-
together as
-
his family
-
lastly
-
God tests
-
his people
-
to free them
-
from lostness
-
and reveal
-
his true
-
leader
-
I think
-
we've seen
-
throughout
-
the Joseph
-
story so
-
far that
-
the brothers
-
are a bit
-
of a rabble
-
they seem a bit
-
rudderless
-
they don't really
-
have anyone
-
who's telling
-
them what to
-
do
-
when Joseph
-
says would
-
somebody
-
volunteer to
-
go
-
no one
-
volunteers
-
when somebody
-
says will
-
someone stay
-
behind
-
no one
-
stays behind
-
they're a bit
-
leaderless
-
they don't
-
really have
-
a captain
-
telling them
-
what to
-
do
-
but in
-
chapter 43
-
a leader
-
emerges
-
they're like
-
sheep without
-
a shepherd
-
and in
-
chapter 43
-
Judah
-
comes forward
-
he's the
-
fourth born
-
son
-
and yet we
-
see him
-
emerge as
-
the one
-
that
-
Jacob
-
listens to
-
Joseph
-
listens to
-
we saw
-
in chapter
-
42
-
Reuben
-
says give
-
Benjamin
-
to me
-
and if
-
he's dead
-
you can
-
kill my
-
two sons
-
Judah
-
says in
-
chapter 43
-
if Benjamin
-
doesn't come
-
back to you
-
then it's my
-
life that
-
will be
-
ashamed
-
before you
-
all the
-
days of
-
my life
-
Judah's been
-
growing in
-
repentance
-
and transformation
-
ever since
-
that really
-
grisly episode
-
in chapter
-
38
-
where he
-
gets Tamar
-
pregnant
-
and he
-
makes this
-
confession
-
she is
-
more
-
righteous
-
than I
-
a confession
-
of sin
-
and since
-
that
-
confession
-
since that
-
repentance
-
Judah's life
-
has been
-
changing
-
over the
-
last two
-
decades
-
and here
-
we see him
-
emerge as
-
the leader
-
he takes
-
the blame
-
he says
-
our guilt
-
has been
-
revealed
-
and then
-
he steps
-
forward
-
towards
-
Joseph
-
verse 18
-
then Judah
-
went up
-
to him
-
and said
-
if you
-
approach
-
Joseph
-
who's the
-
prime minister
-
uninvited
-
that's your
-
life
-
on the
-
line
-
and yet
-
he stands
-
before him
-
he takes
-
the blame
-
he recaps
-
the entire
-
history
-
verse 33
-
is the
-
most
-
significant
-
verse so
-
far
-
now
-
then
-
please
-
let your
-
servant
-
remain
-
here
-
as my
-
lord's
-
slave
-
in place
-
of the
-
boy
-
and let
-
the
-
boy
-
return
-
with his
-
brothers
-
this is
-
the first
-
case
-
in any
-
part of
-
scripture
-
in the
-
whole
-
unfolding
-
of
-
Genesis
-
so far
-
where
-
somebody
-
offers
-
their
-
life
-
for
-
somebody
-
else
-
you see
-
Judah
-
emerge as
-
a leader
-
and then
-
we see
-
that he
-
offers
-
himself
-
as a
-
substitute
-
you have
-
to say
-
that Judah
-
is behaving
-
more and more
-
like the
-
lion of
-
Judah
-
who would
-
come
-
a long
-
way down
-
the line
-
brothers
-
were
-
rudeless
-
he appears
-
as the
-
shepherd
-
for the
-
sheep
-
of his
-
brothers
-
and we
-
see him
-
offer his
-
life
-
for
-
Benjamin
-
Judah
-
becomes
-
the
-
substitute
-
shepherd
-
shepherd
-
John
-
10
-
verse
-
14
-
I am
-
the
-
good
-
shepherd
-
I
-
know
-
my
-
sheep
-
and my
-
sheep
-
know
-
me
-
just as
-
the
-
father
-
knows
-
me
-
and I
-
know
-
the
-
father
-
and I
-
lay
-
down
-
my
-
life
-
for the
-
sheep
-
seems
-
that there's
-
a shadow
-
and a
-
type of
-
a greater
-
one to
-
come
-
emerging
-
in the
-
life of
-
Judah
-
it's been
-
a bit
-
of a
-
whistle
-
stop
-
tour
-
I
-
hope
-
that
-
God
-
takes
-
what
-
is
-
for
-
us
-
and
-
keep
-
it
-
and
-
sear
-
it
-
on
-
our
-
hearts
-
God
-
tests
-
his
-
people
-
to
-
free
-
them
-
from
-
idols
-
see that
-
in the
-
interplay
-
between
-
Jacob
-
and
-
Benjamin
-
God
-
tests
-
his
-
people
-
to
-
free
-
them
-
from
-
fear
-
and
-
reveal
-
his
-
grace
-
God
-
tests
-
his
-
people
-
to
-
free
-
them
-
from
-
individualism
-
and
-
bind
-
them
-
together
-
God
-
tests
-
his
-
people
-
to
-
free
-
them
-
from
-
lostness
-
and
-
reveal
-
his
-
true
-
leader
-
let
-
me
-
pray
-
father
-
god
-
we've
-
romped
-
through
-
your
-
word
-
of
-
breakneck
-
speed
-
father
-
we've
-
left
-
a lot
-
out
-
but
-
lord
-
i pray
-
these
-
four
-
lessons
-
might
-
encourage
-
us
-
that
-
as
-
we
-
face
-
the
-
test
-
that
-
you
-
put
-
in
-
our
-
way
-
father
-
they
-
might
-
relinquish
-
the
-
grip
-
the
-
idols
-
have
-
on
-
us
-
father
-
that
-
we
-
might
-
trust
-
you
-
when
-
we're
-
afraid
-
of
-
what's
-
coming
-
against
-
us
-
knowing
-
that
-
you're
-
sovereign
-
and
-
you're
-
good
-
all
-
the
-
time
-
father
-
that
-
we
-
wouldn't
-
go
-
in
-
alone
-
but
-
it
-
would
-
strengthen
-
us
-
as
-
a
-
family
-
as
-
problems
-
come
-
as
-
storms
-
erupt
-
that
-
it
-
might
-
strengthen
-
the
-
ropes
-
of
-
fellowship
-
between
-
us
-
and
-
lord
-
that
-
it
-
might
-
make
-
all
-
the
-
more
-
us
-
trust
-
your
-
son
-
the
-
good
-
shepherd
-
father
-
thank
-
you
-
that
-
we
-
see
-
it
-
in
-
a
-
type
-
as
-
judah
-
emerges
-
as
-
a
-
leader
-
amongst
-
his
-
brothers
-
lord
-
thank
-
you
-
that
-
jesus
-
is
-
our
-
leader
-
who
-
offers
-
himself
-
for
-
us
-
who
-
takes
-
our
-
place
-
that
-
we
-
might
-
go
-
free
-
that
-
we
-
might
-
know
-
forgiveness
-
that
-
we
-
might
-
not
-
be
-
slaves
-
anymore
-
father
-
father
-
thank
-
you
-
that
-
the
-
one
-
who
-
knew
-
no
-
sin
-
became
-
sin
-
for
-
us
-
so
-
that
-
in
-
him
-
we
-
might
-
become
-
the
-
righteousness
-
of
-
God
-
father
-
bless
-
these
-
things
-
to us
-
we
-
pray
-
in
-
jesus
-
name
-
amen