Sermon
Betrayal
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Thanks so much, Alistair. My name's Archie. I'm the pastor in training here.
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And it's my job this morning to open God's word for us and to let him speak.
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And before we do that together, why don't I pray just to prepare our hearts to hear from him.
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Heavenly Father, as we hear from you in your word this morning, as we look to your son,
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I pray that by your Holy Spirit, the words of my mouth and the meditations of all of our hearts would be acceptable to you this morning.
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Amen.
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I want to begin this morning with a story.
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And this story is a completely made up story, but hopefully it gets us feeling some of the weight of this passage.
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It's a story about Ahmed. Ahmed grew up in inner city Birmingham.
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He was a happy kid, happy at school. He had lots of friends.
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But when he was six years old, his best friend, Jonathan, was moving away.
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He was moving to Carlisle.
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Ahmed and Jonathan stayed in touch. Their parents got on quite well.
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They even went on holiday together over the next couple of years, that kind of thing.
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But school definitely wasn't as good now for Ahmed now that Jonathan had left.
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They were still best friends, but life was just that little bit sadder.
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A couple of years later, and the good news, one day Ahmed got home from school.
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His parents sat him down.
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His mum had got a new job.
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It wasn't far from Carlisle, and they were going to be moving.
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And so at the end of the summer, they were going to be moving up there.
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Ahmed was going to get to go to school with his best friend, Jonathan, again.
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They were on holiday together that summer, just a couple of weeks before the move.
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And the boys were so excited.
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You can imagine them planning their first day back at school together again.
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And then the day came.
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Ahmed arrived at this new school in Carlisle, and it was strange.
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See, his school in Birmingham was just really multicultural.
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Lots of kids that looked like him, who had families like his.
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But here, it was just so obvious, as soon as he arrived in the playground,
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all of the other kids at this school were white.
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And when he got to registration, he realized that he wasn't going to be in Jonathan's class.
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And everyone there was looking at him and whispering, some of them openly pointing and laughing.
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No one said hello.
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No one welcomed him.
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No one sat next to him.
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He could not wait for the first break time to get out into the playground to find Jonathan.
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The bell goes.
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It's break time straight out into the playground.
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And there's Jonathan.
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He's with a group of friends.
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And Ahmed notices that some of them in this circle were those in his class.
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Some were even those who had been pointing and laughing at him.
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So he nervously approaches his best friend.
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And Jonathan just totally ignores him.
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The other kids ask if Jonathan knows this new kid.
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He says he's never seen him before.
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And he turns his back.
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It's a horrible betrayal, that, isn't it?
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I wonder if you've ever been betrayed.
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Maybe betrayed like that.
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Just think for a moment how that feels.
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Betrayal is horrible, isn't it?
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Very often when we're teaching children the gospel, we use this sort of metaphor, that Jesus wants to be your friend.
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You've done things that would upset him, but he's willing to forgive you.
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He wants to be your friend.
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And that can be quite helpful, I think.
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But if I can put it like this.
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If you are a Christian here this morning, and Jesus is your friend, well, have you ever been a Jonathan-like friend?
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I know I have.
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Privately, Jesus and I are best friends.
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But when it comes down to it, faced with temptation, in my weakness, even the merest temptation,
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so often I can pretend it was as though I never knew him.
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This passage that we're in today, we're told that both Judas and Peter are going to betray Jesus in their way.
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Judas is going to hand Jesus over to the authorities.
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Peter is going to deny that he ever knew him.
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And if you're at all familiar with that story, it's very easy to sort of take the emotion out of it, but it's horrible.
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This is a brutal story.
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And my prayer for us this morning is that we would feel that.
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And that we would respond rightly to it.
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Key question for us then is this.
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What might it mean to betray or deny Jesus today?
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And when we do, what next?
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Maybe you've explicitly done that.
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A co-worker or a friend at uni or at school is asked,
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are you a Christian?
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And your response, what, me?
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A Christian?
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Maybe it's more subtle than that.
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Well, yeah, I am a Christian, but I'm not one of those Christians.
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We might not have done it with our words like that, but there are ways.
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I think there are lots of ways for me that we betray Jesus,
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that we deny that we belong to him,
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that we do that in the way that we live.
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Right?
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If we're honest, Judas, in this passage, his betrayal is going to send Jesus to the cross.
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But my sin, it hammers in the nails.
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To betray Jesus, it means that you've chosen to follow him,
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that you are a Christian, and yet you continue to deny it
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in what you say and in what you do.
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But the message here this morning is not, and so take a good look at yourself.
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Clean up your act.
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Commit a bit more earnestly, and don't you dare deny or betray again.
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That is not the message here at all.
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Instead, as we answer this question,
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when we betray or deny Jesus,
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when you experience the crushing weight of guilt,
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where do you go with it?
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Where are you going to run?
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That's what we're going to do this morning.
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That's where we're heading.
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But where have we been in this series in John's Gospel?
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We've returned, I guess, almost every week to chapter 20 near the end of the book.
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John gives us his purpose.
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He says this,
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Jesus performed many other signs in the presence of his disciples,
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which are not recorded in this book.
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But these are written that you may believe that Jesus is the Messiah,
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the Son of God,
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and that by believing, you may have life in his name.
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In other words,
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John wants his readers to see all the incredible stuff that Jesus did,
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and to understand that all of it was supposed to point to something much bigger.
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And so when John records Jesus turning water into wine,
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when Jesus heals the lame and drives out a demon,
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when he feeds a crowd of people,
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when he walks on water,
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it's all supposed to point to something about who Jesus is,
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and the big thing that he came to do.
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And throughout this book,
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as if to make that really clear,
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John repeats this phrase,
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his hour had not yet come.
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Nine times that phrase is repeated through the book,
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his hour has not yet come,
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until at last,
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in John chapter 12,
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verse 23,
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we saw this a few weeks ago,
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the hour has come.
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For the Son of Man,
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that is just a title for Jesus,
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for the Son of Man to be glorified.
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The hour has come.
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It's just around the corner.
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And we saw last week with JT,
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as chapter 13 starts back in verse 1,
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Jesus knew that the hour had come
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for him to leave this world
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and go to the Father.
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So you see,
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we're in this new section in John's Gospel.
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You might even divide John's Gospel into two halves,
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chapter 12, verse 23,
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kind of from the hour has not yet come
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to where we are now.
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The hour has come.
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And we're in this room
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in the passage that Alistair has read for us.
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We're in this room that we first saw that last week with JT.
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It's the same room in verse 2.
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Jesus and the 12,
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they're enjoying the evening meal together
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and it's Passover.
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JT helped us see last week
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how the foot-washing episode
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in the first half of the chapter
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is both a wonderful example
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of loving service
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and also a symbol
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of the cleansing for sin
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that will be available at the cross.
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That Jesus wants his disciples,
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that he wants those who follow him
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to likewise serve one another
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and to point one another
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to his work on the cross.
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That's where we've been so far.
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And here's where we're going this morning.
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That passage that Alistair has just read for us.
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I think it's got quite a clear structure.
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Verses 18 to 30,
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Judas is going to betray Jesus.
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Verses 31 to 35,
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Jesus is going to the cross.
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And verses 36 to 38,
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Peter is going to deny Jesus.
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So first, Judas is going to betray Jesus.
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See in verse 18,
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Jesus has just been explaining
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the foot-washing thing.
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And he says in verse 18,
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he says,
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this isn't all of you.
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I know those I have chosen,
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but this is to fulfill
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the passage of scripture.
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He who shared my bread
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has turned against me.
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And if you're not in the Pew Bible,
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you might have something like
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he lifted his heel against me.
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And that's just kind of a cultural way
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of saying he stuck
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the middle finger up at me.
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He betrayed me.
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And Jesus is quoting from Psalm 41,
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where King David's own son betrays him.
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In other words,
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and we'll talk about this
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a bit more in a second,
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it's a family betrayal.
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One who sat at the table with me,
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shared food with me,
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he will be the one to betray me.
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And notice in verse 21
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that that troubles Jesus.
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He knows it's coming.
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Of course he does.
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He's the sovereign God of the universe.
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But he has taken on human flesh
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and he knows what it is
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to feel the pain of that betrayal.
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Just as you and I might feel it.
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Just as you can imagine
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Ahmed in that story
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would have felt it.
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But the disciples don't know
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who he's talking about.
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I see in verse 22,
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they stared at each other.
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You can picture it wide-eyed,
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looking around.
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Which one of us is it going to be?
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And then in verse 23,
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have a look at verse 23.
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One of them,
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the disciple whom Jesus loved
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was reclining next to him.
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Simon Peter in verse 24
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tells this disciple
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to ask Jesus who it is.
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And then verse 25,
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that's exactly what he does.
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Just a brief aside here.
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The disciple whom Jesus loved
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is John,
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the author of this gospel.
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He's referring to himself.
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It might not be obvious here,
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but we get it explicitly
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right at the end of the book
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in chapter 21,
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verses 22 to 24.
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If you want to do that,
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check that out in your own time.
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But it is a very strange way
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for someone to refer
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to themselves, isn't it?
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What is John getting at?
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Is he somehow
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especially loved by Jesus?
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Jesus?
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I think that's how I had always read this.
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Almost like a kind of
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humble brag from John.
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You think you're loved?
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Check me out.
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But I don't think
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that's what it is at all.
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Instead, what I think
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he is actually saying is this.
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This is the most important thing
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about me.
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It might be true of you as well,
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but I am loved by Jesus.
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That's who I am.
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It's why I'm writing.
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It's my motivation.
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It's my identity.
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In fact, it's all you need
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to know about me.
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Jesus loves me.
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And so knowing that Jesus loves him,
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verse 25, he asks,
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Lord, who is it?
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Who is it that will betray you?
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And Jesus responds, verse 26,
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it is the one to whom
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I will give this piece of bread
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when I have dipped it in the dish.
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Apparently, that was a sort of sign
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of honoring someone,
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a bit like we might raise a toast
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to someone at a dinner today.
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And Jesus, still in verse 26,
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he dips the bread,
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he gives it to Judas.
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It's a special kind of honoring.
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Yes, he's saying,
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you will betray me,
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but he honors him as he does that.
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And remember I said that Judas' betrayal
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was a family betrayal
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and the Passover feast
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that they're sharing together,
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that was a family meal.
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And here, Jesus is sharing it
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with his closest followers
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as if to say,
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this is my family.
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And Judas is included in that.
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Jesus washes Judas' feet
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earlier in this chapter.
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And Jesus, as he quotes from Psalm 41,
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he says, just like David,
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in fact, in fulfillment of David,
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I'm going to be betrayed
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by my own family.
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And more than that,
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as he hands him the bread,
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as he honors him in that way,
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he says, Judas,
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you are part of my beloved family.
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He extends grace and honor
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and the offer of life to him,
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even in that final moment.
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And it is final for immediately,
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verse 27,
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as Judas takes the bread,
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he decides finally to betray Jesus
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and Satan entered into him.
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I don't think that's to say
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that he's now possessed by Satan
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or something like that
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and no longer responsible
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for his actions.
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It's not as though Judas was innocent
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up until this point.
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In chapter 12,
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John tells us that Judas used to
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help himself to the money
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and the money bag.
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And in verse 2 of our chapter,
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we saw that the devil
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was already at work on Judas
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to betray Jesus.
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But this is a final rejection,
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a rejection of Jesus's offer of love.
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It sort of seals the deal,
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signs the fated betrayal
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as Judas finally allows evil
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and darkness to overcome him.
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In other words,
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I think this is the point
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of no return.
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His heart is now so hard
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that there is no going back.
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The disciples,
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as is typical of them
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in John's gospel,
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continue to fail to understand.
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See in verse 29,
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they think Jesus is sending Judas
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out for supplies
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or maybe to give to the poor.
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He was the money bag guy after all.
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But Judas,
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he takes the bread
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and he heads out into the night.
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As Satan enters Judas,
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so Judas enters into the darkness.
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Earlier in the week,
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Cater told me about this painting
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that's on the screen.
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It's an amazing painting.
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It's currently hanging
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in the National Gallery
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down there on Princes Street.
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You can go and check it out.
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It's by a French artist, Poussin.
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And just see the way
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that he uses light
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to tell the story,
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just like John does
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in his gospel.
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That's Judas there on the left
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as you look at it.
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He's in the dark.
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His back is turned to Jesus
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and the disciples
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and he's heading out
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into the night.
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Judas is going to betray Jesus.
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Next, Jesus is going to the cross.
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And we'll see here
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that the cross is glorious,
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that the cross is necessary
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and that the cross is love.
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Have a look at verse 31.
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When he was gone.
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In other words,
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now that Judas has left the room,
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Jesus can really get going
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on his teaching and prayer
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that will come
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in the following chapters.
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And Jesus says,
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now the Son of Man
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is glorified
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and God is glorified in him.
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If God is glorified in him,
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God will glorify the Son
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in himself
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and will glorify him at once.
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Now, those verses
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are obviously quite difficult
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to understand
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and see the logic of,
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especially I think
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because on the Pew Bibles
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they're over the page
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from one another,
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aren't they?
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So it's hard to follow.
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But let's just try
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and see the logic of this.
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First, the Son of Man
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is glorified.
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That is Jesus the man,
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the human,
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shown to be glorious.
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And then God is glorified in him.
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That I think is the divine nature
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of Jesus.
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God the Son
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will be glorified
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in Jesus the human.
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It's true in that direction.
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The second half of the verse
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just says this is true
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in the other direction too.
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That is to say,
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Jesus' humanity
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and his divinity
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will both be glorified
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and what is to come.
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But what does it mean
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to be glorified?
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I think it might be helpful,
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first of all,
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to say that you and I
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cannot add to God's glory.
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Maybe you've heard that
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like a sports person
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after they've won a match
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or something might say,
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all glory to God.
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Or songs that we sing
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where we say
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we glorify his name.
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When we do that,
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it's vital for us
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to understand
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that we're not adding to God
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something that wasn't
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already there.
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Instead,
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when we say
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that we glorify God,
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we're revealing
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or showing
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something that already is,
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showing God to be
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who he already is,
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who God really is.
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In Isaiah chapter 6,
Isaiah 6 chapter mention
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Isaiah sees the Lord
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in his throne room
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and the seraphim
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calling to one another.
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And here's what they say,
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holy,
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holy,
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holy.
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Three times they say,
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holy.
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That is who God is
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in himself.
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As he sits on his throne
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in his splendor
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and his majesty.
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In other words,
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God's holiness
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is kind of like
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his infinite worth.
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God is holy.
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And the seraphim say,
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holy,
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holy,
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holy is the Lord almighty.
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The whole earth
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is full of his.
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And you'd expect them
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to say holiness,
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I guess,
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wouldn't you?
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And maybe that phrase
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is familiar to you
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and so you know
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that that's not what they say.
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What they say is
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the whole earth
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is full of his glory.
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In other words,
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God's glory,
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for God to be glorified,
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it is for his holiness,
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his infinite worth,
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to be made public,
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to be visible
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in all the earth.
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And so in Exodus chapter 33,
Exodus 33 chapter mention
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where Moses asks God
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to show him his glory,
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he is asking God
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to make his holiness,
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to make that known.
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And here is how God responds.
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I will cause all my goodness
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to pass in front of you
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and I will proclaim my name,
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the Lord,
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in your presence.
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I will have mercy
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on whom I will have mercy
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and I will have compassion
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on whom I will have compassion.
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What does God's glory look like
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as he reveals it to Moses?
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It is his goodness.
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It is the name,
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Lord Yahweh,
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the name that says,
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I am faithful to my promises.
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It is his mercy
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and it is his compassion.
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And so here in our passage
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this morning,
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Jesus is saying
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that the glory of God
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will be seen
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in what he is about to do.
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For God to be glorified
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is for God to be seen
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for who he is.
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And nowhere in all of scripture
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and nowhere in all of history
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is that more true than here.
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At the cross.
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Notice in verses 31 and 32
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of our passage
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that this glorifying,
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it happens now
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at the start of the verse
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and it is at once
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at the end of the verse.
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This is the hour
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at which he will be glorified.
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It's the cross.
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Nowhere does Jesus look
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more humiliated and defeated.
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Nowhere does he look
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less like God himself.
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And yet nowhere is his glory
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more evident than this.
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At his lowest point,
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he is raised up.
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At his most defeated,
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he is defeating death.
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On the cross as he dies,
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pouring out mercy
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and compassion
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and making a way
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for you and for me
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to know the Father.
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When he looks most human,
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he is most gloriously God.
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Good and faithful
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to his promises
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and merciful and compassionate.
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Do you see how glorious
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the cross is?
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And the cross is also necessary.
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See how tenderly
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Jesus speaks to his disciples
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in verse 33.
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He says,
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my children
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or little children.
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And he tells them
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that he won't be with them
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for much longer
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and that they can't come with him.
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We saw back in chapter 8
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of John's Gospel,
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Jesus,
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as John refers to here,
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said the same thing
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to the Jews,
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that they can't follow him
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where he's going.
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Why does he say it?
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Well,
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in chapter 8,
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he says specifically
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it's because they will die
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in their sin.
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In other words,
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Jesus is going to be
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with the Father,
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eternal resurrection life
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and it is impossible
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to follow him there
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if you remain
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wrapped up in sin.
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That was true
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of the Jews.
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It's true
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of the disciples
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as he speaks to them here
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and it is true
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of us today.
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This is the great problem
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to which the cross
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is the answer.
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Here's why
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the cross is necessary.
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We are human beings
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wrapped up in sin.
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We all are.
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It's the default position.
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And because of that,
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we cannot go
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where Jesus says
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that he is going.
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We need the cross.
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It's necessary
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because notice
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down in verse 36,
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he says,
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you cannot follow now
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to Simon Peter.
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You cannot follow now,
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but you will follow later.
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In other words,
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if you want to follow me,
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you need me to go first.
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You can't come to the Father
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and enjoy eternal resurrection life
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unless I first go to the cross
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and deal with your sin.
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This is the gospel's answer
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to that great problem
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for the Jews,
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for Peter,
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for the disciples,
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for us.
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None of us can enter
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into eternal life.
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None of us can follow Jesus
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to the Father
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unless he has dealt
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with our sin on the cross,
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unless he has been shown
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to be glorious in that way
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as he takes all of our sin
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and our shame
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and our betrayal
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and denial of him
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and he bears the weight
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of the guilt of that
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on his shoulders.
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And unless we look to him
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in that moment,
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unless we recognize his glory
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and humble ourselves
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and trust him,
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only then will we follow him
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through death
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to resurrection glory.
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The cross is glorious.
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The cross is necessary.
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And finally,
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the cross is love.
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See, Jesus gives them
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this command
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in verses 34 and 35.
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A new command I give you,
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love one another
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as I have loved you.
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So you must love one another.
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By this,
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everyone will know
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that you are my disciples
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if you love one another.
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This command isn't really new at all.
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Loving your neighbor
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was central
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to the Old Testament law.
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God had always commanded
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that they love one another.
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But of course,
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there is a sense
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in which it is new.
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Jesus isn't lying.
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And as Jesus literally
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puts meat onto the bones
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of that command,
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he takes it
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and he lives it
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and he makes it flesh.
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It's a new command
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insofar as Jesus
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has given it a context
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as I have loved you.
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And that is ultimately
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expressed at the cross.
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The incredible,
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self-sacrificial,
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life-giving love.
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As Jesus lays down
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his life in love
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to give life
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to those who follow him.
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The cross is love.
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And as he explains this,
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Jesus is really preparing
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his disciples
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for his departure.
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He says,
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this is how you are to live,
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to echo the self-giving love
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of the cross amongst you.
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And this is how those
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in your community
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will know
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that you follow Jesus
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as you love one another
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like this.
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And we talked about this
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a bit last week with JT.
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Maybe you talked about it
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in your growth groups
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this week too.
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We did.
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Because this remains true
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for us.
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As we love one another
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in various ways,
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so we point one another
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to the love of Jesus
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on the cross.
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The glorious cross.
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The necessary cross.
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The cross where God's love
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is ultimately expressed
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for us.
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But Peter,
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he still can't get over
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what Jesus has said
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in verse 33.
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He can't get over the fact
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that Jesus is going to leave.
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And so this is where we move
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from Jesus is going
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to the cross
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to Peter is going
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to deny Jesus.
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This is our final point
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and it won't take very long,
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I promise.
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See in verse 36
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Peter's question.
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Where are you going?
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Where is Jesus going?
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Why can't we go with him?
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Again, Jesus' response.
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We've seen it already.
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You can't follow now
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but you will follow later.
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Peter doesn't understand
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and he says in verse 37
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I will follow you.
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I would even lay down
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my life for you.
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See how zealous
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and forthright Peter is
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but he's misunderstanding.
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He thinks Jesus is going
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on some earthly journey
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that might result
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in his death.
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He doesn't realise
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that he needs Jesus
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to die for him
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and instead
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he wants to die
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for Jesus.
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Peter wants to do
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the saving
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and Jesus says
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verse 38
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you can make
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all your promises now
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but you will deny me.
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You will disown me
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three times
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before the rooster crows.
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Peter will deny Jesus
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as we read on
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over the next few weeks
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we'll see he does
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just that.
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I began this morning
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with that story
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of betrayal
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of Ahmed
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and Jonathan
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the betrayal
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and denial
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of a best friend.
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It's brutal
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and it's brutal
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here in John's Gospel too
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as we've seen
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the big movements
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of the plot
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in this passage
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as Judas
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is going to betray
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Jesus
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as Jesus
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will be glorified
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at the cross
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and as Peter
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will deny
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Jesus too.
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Two of his
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closest friends
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it's brutal
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but as we
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put all of that
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together
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notice the importance
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for us this morning
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because it is also
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brutal when we
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betray
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and deny Jesus
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and in some ways
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we could describe
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all of our sin
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like this
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as we deny
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the one who
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created us
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and I think
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especially brutal
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if you're a Christian
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here this morning
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adopted sons
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and daughters
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of our creator
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in him
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followers of Jesus
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and yet there are
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ways aren't there
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that we continue
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to betray
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and deny him
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still
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and so what
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do we do?
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We've reached
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the end of the story
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here
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the climax
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the last hour
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we have these
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two men
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Judas
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who followed
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Jesus
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but never
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trusted him
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who never
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confessed him
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as the son
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of God
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the Messiah
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the Christ
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who never
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repented
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we have Peter
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often
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misunderstanding
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always zealous
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always the activist
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he wants to lay
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down his life
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for Jesus
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and not have
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Jesus lay down
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his life
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for him
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but despite
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that Peter
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who trusted
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Jesus
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who confessed
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him to be
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the son of God
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the Christ
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the Messiah
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and who we'll see
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in a few weeks
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time
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does repent
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the question
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for us
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this morning
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then is not
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simply
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will I betray
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or deny
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Jesus
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the question
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is when
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I betray
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and deny
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Jesus
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will I be
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Judas
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or will I
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be Peter
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where will
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I run
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because if
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like Judas
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you continue
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out into
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the dark
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this is what
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happens
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as your
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heart
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becomes
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increasingly
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hard
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it will
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become
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easier
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and easier
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to continue
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in your
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sin
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you will
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continue
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to convince
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yourself
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that there's
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no harm
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done
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and it
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will be
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harder
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and harder
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to return
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to him
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and it's
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very easy
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for us
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to be like
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Peter
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too
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to want
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to save
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ourselves
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when we
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betray
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or deny
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Jesus
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we want
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something
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to do
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don't we
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to a
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prayer
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to say
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or an
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action
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to perform
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something
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concrete
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to pin
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our renewed
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faith
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to
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and it's
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subtle
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but wrapped
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up in that
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instinct
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is that we
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want to
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earn our
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way back
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instead
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when we
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betray
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or deny
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Jesus
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would you
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remember
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what you
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have already
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received
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look at
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the glorious
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cross
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notice how
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this passage
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is structured
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with the
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betrayal
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and the
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denial
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either side
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but with
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the glory
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of the
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necessary
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and loving
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cross
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in the
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middle
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it's as
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if John
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is saying
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the answer
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to the
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betrayal
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the answer
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to the
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denial
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the answer
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to all
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of our
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sin
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it's here
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it's
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Jesus
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glorified
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on the
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cross
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shown
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to be
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the loving
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faithful
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merciful
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and compassionate
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God
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that he
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is
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making a
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way for
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all of
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our sin
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to be
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forgiven
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and making
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a way
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for us
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to know
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him
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it is
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the centre
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of this
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little bit
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of John's
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gospel
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but it
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is the
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centre
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of history
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and it
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is the
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centre
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of your
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story
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if you're
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a Christian
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here this
-
morning
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let me
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close
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with this
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this poem
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Glenn Scrivener
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wrote this
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poem
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I gave
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my life
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to Jesus
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it's
-
brilliant
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it's
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well worth
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looking it
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up
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that's
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just
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the
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first
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verse
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but notice
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how it
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begins
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I gave
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my life
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to Jesus
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about a
-
thousand
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times
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and he
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tells the
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story of
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how he
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committed
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his life
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to Jesus
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at a
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camp
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as a
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teenager
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and then
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he walked
-
away
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and a few
-
months later
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another
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camp
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another
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conversion
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and the
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cycle
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kind of
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repeats itself
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throughout the
-
poem
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a cycle
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that ultimately
-
was all about
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Glenn
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about Glenn's
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coming to
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Jesus
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about Glenn's
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sin
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about Glenn's
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prayer
-
and Glenn's
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response
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until one day
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he started
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reading the
-
Bible for
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himself
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and he
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saw there
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that he
-
wasn't the
-
centre
-
of the
-
story
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at all
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he'd
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always
-
been
-
taught
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that the
-
important
-
thing
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was his
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response
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about what
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he might
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do
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but as
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he read
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God's
-
word
-
he saw
-
that the
-
gospel
-
wasn't
-
about Glenn
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but about
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Jesus
-
and this
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is how he
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finishes his
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poem as he
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says to
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those who
-
taught him
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you say
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give your
-
heart
-
this says
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Christ
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is the
-
donor
-
you say
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yield your
-
life
-
this says
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he was
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always
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the owner
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you say
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get on
-
fire
-
he says
-
this says
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you are
-
the light
-
you say
-
keep running
-
to God
-
this says
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walk
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in Christ
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you say
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dare to
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be a
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missional
-
intentional
-
incarnational
-
contextualized
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no compromise
-
countercultural
-
radical
-
red letter
-
fully devoted
-
disciple
-
this says
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follow
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you say
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get hungry
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for God
-
this says
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take
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eat
-
swallow
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you say
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press into
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God
-
this says
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you're
-
hidden
-
in Christ
-
you say
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be a
-
world
-
changer
-
this says
-
live a
-
quiet
-
life
-
you say
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surrender
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all
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this says
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you're not
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your own
-
you say
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step up
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to the
-
plate
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this says
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you're
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raised
-
to a
-
throne
-
you say
-
burn out
-
this says
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shine
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you say
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you've got to
-
work on your
-
relationship
-
with Jesus
-
this says
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I am
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my beloved
-
and he
-
is
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mine
-
let me
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pray
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heavenly
-
father
-
I pray
-
that as we
-
have opened
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your word
-
to us
-
this morning
-
we might
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have seen
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the glory
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of your
-
son
-
there
-
and I
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pray for
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each of
-
us
-
that you
-
would help
-
us to
-
receive him
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with open
-
hands
-
that we
-
might humbly
-
accept what
-
he has done
-
for us
-
and I
-
pray that as we
-
go from
-
here your
-
holy spirit
-
would continue
-
to work in
-
our hearts
-
revealing to
-
us the
-
ways in which
-
we betray
-
and deny
-
your love
-
for us
-
and pointing
-
us to
-
what you
-
have already
-
won for us
-
on the
-
cross
-
Lord I
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pray that we
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would each
-
of us
-
know
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your new
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mercies to
-
us
-
day by day
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in Jesus
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name
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Amen
-
name
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In
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name
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In